1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:34,900 --> 00:00:37,910 (On this long life journey 4 00:00:37,910 --> 00:00:41,740 (I've come to love myself.) 5 00:00:54,470 --> 00:01:00,310 {\an8}（Ingrid Fuzjko Georgii-Hemming is a pianist.） 6 00:01:04,810 --> 00:01:08,770 {\an8}That's my full name. 7 00:01:08,770 --> 00:01:11,020 {\an8}The Georgiis are from Russia. 8 00:01:12,360 --> 00:01:14,230 {\an8}I don't know. （She was born in Berlin before WWII） 9 00:01:14,240 --> 00:01:17,530 {\an8}Perhaps my father called me after Mount Fuji...? （then spent her childhood in Japan.） 10 00:01:17,860 --> 00:01:22,160 {\an8}And... I don't actually know who named me. 11 00:01:23,700 --> 00:01:27,080 {\an8}（She has never disclosed her age.） 12 00:01:38,840 --> 00:01:40,590 （Diary） 13 00:01:40,600 --> 00:01:44,850 （At 14 she wrote this diary entry on her summer vacation.） 14 00:01:44,850 --> 00:01:51,190 Tuesday August 13, 1946, sunny. 15 00:01:52,570 --> 00:01:55,530 My mother is very strict. 16 00:01:55,530 --> 00:01:57,610 If she sees me reading a newspaper 17 00:01:57,950 --> 00:01:59,950 she'd say, "Go and study." 18 00:01:59,950 --> 00:02:02,780 Don't waste your time. 19 00:02:03,120 --> 00:02:06,370 You're different from others. 20 00:02:06,370 --> 00:02:10,290 Because you'll become a musician. 21 00:02:10,960 --> 00:02:14,130 I was reading the paper and from downstairs 22 00:02:14,130 --> 00:02:15,380 Mother asked, 23 00:02:15,380 --> 00:02:17,970 What are you doing? 24 00:02:18,470 --> 00:02:22,760 I answered, "I'm just putting on talcum powder." 25 00:02:23,220 --> 00:02:29,230 After misleading her, I'd sit at the piano dejectedly. 26 00:02:43,660 --> 00:02:48,660 Fuzjko: A Pianist of Silence & Solitude 27 00:03:04,800 --> 00:03:14,190 {\an8}（Decades later, the girl who dreamed of Paris has a place there.） 28 00:04:12,160 --> 00:04:23,680 {\an8}（The building was built in 1889. She spends half the year here.） 29 00:05:33,240 --> 00:05:37,670 {\an8}（Three cats live with her.） 30 00:05:42,630 --> 00:05:43,800 Chong chong! 31 00:05:46,010 --> 00:05:46,970 Chong chong! 32 00:05:49,470 --> 00:05:55,560 {\an8}（Chong chong is her favorite.） 33 00:06:09,160 --> 00:06:11,370 I really adore silver. 34 00:06:11,910 --> 00:06:13,490 This is Islamic. 35 00:06:14,950 --> 00:06:18,580 The cats sharpen their nails on this 36 00:06:18,580 --> 00:06:20,580 so I had the panels redone. 37 00:06:21,330 --> 00:06:24,000 I adore things like this... 38 00:06:24,380 --> 00:06:27,510 This is probably 300 years old. 39 00:06:28,670 --> 00:06:30,760 It's Afghan or Islamic. 40 00:06:31,090 --> 00:06:32,680 I haven't opened it for years. 41 00:06:32,680 --> 00:06:35,010 Maybe a body's in there! 42 00:06:35,680 --> 00:06:39,020 I love this. I drew a childhood memory of us 43 00:06:39,350 --> 00:06:43,060 pretending to catch fish with a fork and spoon. 44 00:06:43,060 --> 00:06:46,820 When it rained my brother and I often did this. 45 00:06:48,860 --> 00:06:52,280 It took me 10 years of trial and error. 46 00:06:52,280 --> 00:06:55,780 I love decorating 47 00:06:55,790 --> 00:06:58,540 but it's not done in a day or two. 48 00:06:58,830 --> 00:07:03,580 Every time I come back, I move things around. 49 00:07:05,750 --> 00:07:08,510 Look at this. 50 00:07:08,510 --> 00:07:11,510 This amazes people who know these things. 51 00:07:11,510 --> 00:07:16,140 These leaded windows are handmade. 52 00:07:16,140 --> 00:07:18,220 That one, too. 53 00:07:18,850 --> 00:07:20,890 This is very valuable. 54 00:07:21,560 --> 00:07:25,230 It's remained intact after all these years. 55 00:07:25,650 --> 00:07:30,530 Exactly how it was in the 1880s. 56 00:07:32,530 --> 00:07:35,240 I've always wanted books like this. 57 00:07:36,530 --> 00:07:43,540 I've accumulated them after many visits to used bookstores. 58 00:07:45,210 --> 00:07:46,290 That's Chopin. 59 00:07:55,930 --> 00:08:00,020 I'd love to read all these books if I could. 60 00:08:01,020 --> 00:08:03,520 If I had that kind of time... 61 00:08:10,650 --> 00:08:14,450 I love to sit and think like this. 62 00:08:16,490 --> 00:08:21,830 I received many Christmas cards so I should answer them. 63 00:08:40,850 --> 00:08:42,980 It's pretty cold today. 64 00:08:49,820 --> 00:08:52,860 I've always admired French art. 65 00:08:53,070 --> 00:08:58,280 It's such a strange and wonderful world. 66 00:08:58,660 --> 00:09:00,870 As far back as I can remember 67 00:09:00,870 --> 00:09:05,710 I've wanted to study in France. 68 00:09:06,870 --> 00:09:09,170 See, it's like the one I have. 69 00:09:10,090 --> 00:09:11,840 In a different color. 70 00:09:41,660 --> 00:09:42,830 I love that. 71 00:09:45,330 --> 00:09:48,710 Strolling Parisian streets with a dog, 72 00:09:48,710 --> 00:09:52,500 you notice the artistic details. 73 00:09:52,500 --> 00:09:54,920 Paris wasn't damaged in the war. 74 00:09:54,920 --> 00:09:58,930 The Parisians surrendered to Hitler 75 00:09:58,930 --> 00:10:02,010 which was a smart move. 76 00:10:29,750 --> 00:10:38,420 {\an8}（She plays piano alone in the evening.） 77 00:10:55,860 --> 00:11:03,660 {\an8}（ "Clair de Lune" by Claude Debussy 1862 - 1918） 78 00:12:33,080 --> 00:12:36,580 Sunday, July 21. （The sweet potato thief） 79 00:12:36,920 --> 00:12:39,590 I have too many things to do. 80 00:12:40,050 --> 00:12:42,260 Cleaning, piano practice, 81 00:12:42,260 --> 00:12:45,220 homework and mend undergarments. 82 00:12:45,510 --> 00:12:48,010 I must peel potatoes 83 00:12:48,010 --> 00:12:50,060 and sew clothes. 84 00:12:50,560 --> 00:12:52,560 I can't keep track. 85 00:13:03,860 --> 00:13:07,110 The end of the war was announced here 86 00:13:07,110 --> 00:13:09,620 by Charles de Gaulle. 87 00:13:11,740 --> 00:13:13,080 It's closed! 88 00:13:13,080 --> 00:13:15,660 The French are lazy. 89 00:13:26,970 --> 00:13:28,010 Thank you. 90 00:13:29,800 --> 00:13:31,100 Thank you very much. 91 00:13:31,510 --> 00:13:32,720 Have a nice day! 92 00:13:34,520 --> 00:13:36,390 These are delicious. 93 00:14:32,320 --> 00:14:36,580 （She'll have a visitor today.） 94 00:14:49,430 --> 00:14:50,590 Hello. 95 00:14:53,010 --> 00:14:54,140 You well? 96 00:14:54,140 --> 00:14:57,520 I was going through your postcards. 97 00:14:58,520 --> 00:15:01,900 I hope I'm not disturbing you, am I? 98 00:15:03,270 --> 00:15:04,820 Good day! 99 00:15:06,650 --> 00:15:10,740 {\an8}（She is a painter who is based in Paris.） 100 00:15:13,450 --> 00:15:14,490 {\an8}It's lovely. 101 00:15:14,870 --> 00:15:16,540 Just like a painting. 102 00:15:17,410 --> 00:15:18,490 I came alone. 103 00:15:18,500 --> 00:15:20,210 -You're staying?　-Yes. 104 00:15:21,830 --> 00:15:25,000 I've applied for a 3-month visa. 105 00:15:25,000 --> 00:15:29,010 Once the documents are processed, 106 00:15:29,010 --> 00:15:30,880 I'll go back to America in spring. 107 00:15:31,510 --> 00:15:33,680 Then I'll work there. 108 00:15:34,680 --> 00:15:35,970 These are Toraya sweets. 109 00:15:36,510 --> 00:15:37,850 Have Some. 110 00:15:38,890 --> 00:15:42,020 I'm overweight so... Let's see. 111 00:15:42,640 --> 00:15:45,520 How's your schedule for January and February? 112 00:15:46,190 --> 00:15:48,020 Your schedule. 113 00:15:48,030 --> 00:15:51,190 I'll... have to practice. 114 00:15:51,200 --> 00:15:52,200 In Paris? 115 00:15:52,200 --> 00:15:53,280 Yes. 116 00:15:54,410 --> 00:15:56,700 {\an8}But you practice every day. （Fuzjko performs around the world, ） 117 00:15:56,700 --> 00:15:59,700 {\an8}I'll play in Moscow and Khabarovsk... （including Japan.） 118 00:16:01,750 --> 00:16:03,040 {\an8}And somewhere else... 119 00:16:04,290 --> 00:16:06,250 In Russia. 120 00:16:06,250 --> 00:16:08,040 {\an8}（She has 60 or so concerts every year.） 121 00:16:08,050 --> 00:16:10,960 {\an8}So you'll practice here in Paris. 122 00:16:10,960 --> 00:16:14,260 {\an8}-Then I'll have a concert in Paris on March 3. -Ok. 123 00:16:28,730 --> 00:16:31,150 He's a such a phony. 124 00:16:33,700 --> 00:16:39,450 {\an8}（Fuzjko's 2-month vacation is over.） 125 00:16:41,040 --> 00:16:47,040 {\an8}（The first concert after her break is the Haydn Quartet from Vienna.） 126 00:17:42,680 --> 00:17:45,180 Very good, 127 00:17:45,180 --> 00:17:47,520 OK. Bravo. 128 00:17:48,690 --> 00:17:51,190 -You'll rehearse tomorrow?　-Yes. 129 00:18:07,540 --> 00:18:10,130 Is that a memorial plaque? 130 00:18:11,540 --> 00:18:13,380 From World War One. 131 00:18:23,510 --> 00:18:25,890 There's a Budapest church 132 00:18:25,890 --> 00:18:28,690 where Franz Liszt had his regular pew. 133 00:18:30,520 --> 00:18:33,690 He always sat there and prayed. 134 00:18:42,820 --> 00:18:49,830 {\an8}（L'Oratoire du Louvre, Paris with the Haydn Quartet） 135 00:19:08,640 --> 00:19:16,230 {\an8}（ "Paganini Etude No. 6, Theme and Variations" by Franz Liszt 1811 - 1886） 136 00:19:48,560 --> 00:19:57,400 {\an8}（Piano Concerto No. 1 by Frédéric Chopin 1810 - 1849） 137 00:20:29,680 --> 00:20:32,640 I practiced until late last night. 138 00:20:32,640 --> 00:20:36,020 Your performance was brilliant. 139 00:20:36,060 --> 00:20:38,860 The resonance was very nice. 140 00:20:38,860 --> 00:20:40,190 I agree. 141 00:20:43,320 --> 00:20:45,160 That went well. 142 00:20:51,750 --> 00:20:55,500 I always worry how much longer I can play. 143 00:20:55,710 --> 00:20:58,880 My wrist has been acting up. 144 00:20:59,380 --> 00:21:00,880 It really hurts. 145 00:21:00,880 --> 00:21:04,130 Thank God, Tonton gave me this patch. 146 00:21:04,130 --> 00:21:07,220 I had some old ones that had expired 147 00:21:07,220 --> 00:21:09,850 but they still work. 148 00:21:17,730 --> 00:21:21,070 I'd love to go for a drive. 149 00:21:21,730 --> 00:21:25,360 {\an8}And do the grocery shopping in it. （She can't let go of her classic Citroën.） 150 00:21:25,360 --> 00:21:27,110 {\an8}But I never do. （She can't let go of her classic Citroën.） 151 00:21:29,870 --> 00:21:35,120 Why don't they make cars like this now? 152 00:21:46,380 --> 00:21:48,180 Welcome to Tokyo Tower 153 00:22:01,360 --> 00:22:04,360 {\an8}（Tokyo, Japan） 154 00:22:07,780 --> 00:22:09,490 How pretty! 155 00:22:13,700 --> 00:22:18,460 Japan isn't what it was, so I don't like it. 156 00:22:18,460 --> 00:22:20,170 Everything disappears and is replaced. 157 00:22:20,170 --> 00:22:26,170 Japanese people are into novelty. 158 00:22:28,130 --> 00:22:32,300 Houses are demolished so new ones can be built. 159 00:22:41,690 --> 00:22:45,190 （Shimokitazawa, Tokyo） 160 00:22:47,030 --> 00:22:51,820 {\an8}It's hardly changed here in the last 20 years. 161 00:22:52,870 --> 00:22:55,040 {\an8}That's how I want it. 162 00:22:55,540 --> 00:23:00,750 {\an8}The best thing about Japan are these small, cozy places. （Shimokitazawa with its post-war feel has many theatres.） 163 00:23:00,750 --> 00:23:04,710 {\an8}That's what foreigners like about this area. 164 00:23:05,380 --> 00:23:09,920 They wanted to make it like New York! 165 00:23:09,930 --> 00:23:11,180 How horrendous. 166 00:23:19,060 --> 00:23:23,860 {\an8}（Her mother left her Tokyo residence to Fuzjko.） 167 00:23:27,980 --> 00:23:31,610 {\an8}（It used to be a studio for actors to rehearse.） 168 00:23:43,880 --> 00:23:52,800 {\an8}（As a girl she loved her mother's rendition of Chopin's Nocturne.） 169 00:23:59,850 --> 00:24:04,690 {\an8}（Her mother often reminisced about her student days in Germany.） 170 00:24:04,900 --> 00:24:07,570 {\an8}We lived in a hut in Shibuya 171 00:24:07,570 --> 00:24:11,030 {\an8}because our house burned down in the war. 172 00:24:11,190 --> 00:24:14,030 We slept side by side. 173 00:24:14,030 --> 00:24:17,280 I'd ask my mother to tell her stories 174 00:24:17,780 --> 00:24:21,290 and hear about her fascinating life. 175 00:24:21,960 --> 00:24:25,170 {\an8}She went to Bristol Hotel （Shimokitazawa with its post-war feel has many theatres.） 176 00:24:25,170 --> 00:24:26,790 {\an8}but there were no rooms （Shimokitazawa with its post-war feel has many theatres.） 177 00:24:26,790 --> 00:24:29,550 but there was a bathroom! 178 00:24:29,550 --> 00:24:33,420 She laughed and said that she took baths all day. 179 00:24:33,430 --> 00:24:35,760 The hotel still exists so I went there alone. 180 00:24:35,760 --> 00:24:41,470 I travelled from Paris to Salzburg 181 00:24:41,470 --> 00:24:43,140 and stayed at the hotel. 182 00:24:53,320 --> 00:24:58,990 （When Fuzjko was 5, her mother's strict piano lessons began.） 183 00:25:03,960 --> 00:25:07,670 {\an8}My mother grew up in Osaka 184 00:25:07,670 --> 00:25:09,460 {\an8}and like anyone from Osaka 185 00:25:09,500 --> 00:25:12,800 {\an8}she casually called me "Fool." 186 00:25:12,800 --> 00:25:17,680 I believed I was a fool past the age of 40. 187 00:25:17,680 --> 00:25:21,640 I thought I lacked something others had. 188 00:25:21,970 --> 00:25:27,350 I just thought I was a foolish woman playing badly. 189 00:25:28,100 --> 00:25:30,860 I thought I wouldn't succeed 190 00:25:30,860 --> 00:25:32,190 so I should give up 191 00:25:32,190 --> 00:25:35,990 and get a piano teacher certificate. 192 00:25:35,990 --> 00:25:37,360 I'd always thought so. 193 00:25:37,360 --> 00:25:40,120 Always... 194 00:25:47,250 --> 00:25:52,050 I remember playing at an elementary school concert. 195 00:25:52,880 --> 00:25:57,510 How I miss those fun days back then. 196 00:25:58,260 --> 00:25:59,590 When we had to evacuate 197 00:25:59,590 --> 00:26:02,640 I practiced alone for 12 months 198 00:26:02,640 --> 00:26:05,020 so my playing suffered. 199 00:26:05,640 --> 00:26:08,020 Put next year's recital 200 00:26:08,020 --> 00:26:10,360 before schoolwork. （Mom made this swimsuit） 201 00:26:11,980 --> 00:26:14,690 That's what Kreutzer tells me 202 00:26:14,690 --> 00:26:16,530 but I have to study. 203 00:26:17,360 --> 00:26:21,820 Well, I'll do what I can do! 204 00:26:21,830 --> 00:26:23,450 So I say to myself 205 00:26:23,450 --> 00:26:26,330 but it's fantasy, not reality. 206 00:26:31,750 --> 00:26:37,670 {\an8}（Kreutzer, a renowned pianist, fled Nazi Germany and lived in Japan） 207 00:26:37,800 --> 00:26:42,010 I believe I was the only child he ever taught. 208 00:26:43,050 --> 00:26:45,260 When I played Bach and Chopin for him 209 00:26:45,270 --> 00:26:47,560 he jumped in excitement saying 210 00:26:47,560 --> 00:26:51,400 Oh, this child has incredible talent! 211 00:26:51,400 --> 00:26:55,320 I'll teach her for free! 212 00:26:55,530 --> 00:27:00,530 He spent so much time teaching me how to play. 213 00:27:00,530 --> 00:27:03,700 {\an8}He told me to play like I was singing, （Leonid Kreutzer had taught Fuzjko's mother） 214 00:27:03,700 --> 00:27:04,950 {\an8}not to read it. （Leonid Kreutzer had taught Fuzjko's mother） 215 00:27:04,950 --> 00:27:09,460 {\an8}I was lucky to start out doing it that way. （before he taught Fuzjko.） 216 00:27:09,870 --> 00:27:14,130 With any other teacher, it would've been mechanical. 217 00:27:14,130 --> 00:27:16,920 It would've been detrimental. 218 00:27:17,460 --> 00:27:19,630 I have an image of how I want to express the music. 219 00:27:19,630 --> 00:27:21,430 And I don't play like a machine 220 00:27:21,430 --> 00:27:24,800 but like I'm singing. 221 00:27:24,800 --> 00:27:29,560 I'd sustain a note 222 00:27:29,560 --> 00:27:32,310 even if the sheet music doesn't tell me to. 223 00:27:32,810 --> 00:27:37,320 It has to be animated and dynamic. 224 00:27:56,500 --> 00:27:57,340 All right 225 00:27:57,840 --> 00:28:00,840 {\an8}（Prairie Center For the Arts, Schaumburg, Chicago） 226 00:28:02,180 --> 00:28:06,510 {\an8}（Turkish March by Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart 1756 - 1791） 227 00:28:13,270 --> 00:28:16,560 {\an8}（Chicago, USA） 228 00:28:44,800 --> 00:28:46,590 I'll go and sleep at the hotel. 229 00:28:46,930 --> 00:28:50,010 There's nothing here besides my work. 230 00:28:52,020 --> 00:28:56,520 {\an8}I need to rest for tomorrow's performance. （Fuzjko toured 5 cities across the Americas in 1 month.） 231 00:28:56,520 --> 00:29:00,360 {\an8}I've never lived here so it's unfamiliar. 232 00:29:04,320 --> 00:29:08,070 (Fuzjko Hemming: Unica Funcion) 233 00:29:10,660 --> 00:29:13,540 {\an8}（Teatro Oriente, Santiago） 234 00:29:15,040 --> 00:29:17,040 Thank you very much. 235 00:29:27,300 --> 00:29:31,310 {\an8}（Santiago, Chile） 236 00:29:51,280 --> 00:29:54,700 {\an8}（New York City, USA） 237 00:30:06,090 --> 00:30:09,300 I don't play much the day before. 238 00:30:09,840 --> 00:30:13,430 Just a little. I walk around instead. 239 00:30:13,850 --> 00:30:17,350 Then everything will be fine. 240 00:30:17,350 --> 00:30:19,480 I cut down my smoking too. 241 00:30:21,860 --> 00:30:25,900 It's hard to get myself in the right condition. 242 00:30:28,860 --> 00:30:35,290 On the day before I play, alcohol,　coffee and tea are out. 243 00:30:37,500 --> 00:30:43,500 {\an8}（When she doesn't have a concert, Fuzjko practices 4 hours a day.） 244 00:30:44,130 --> 00:30:49,930 {\an8}（She'd had that routine since the days when her prospects were uncertain.） 245 00:30:52,010 --> 00:30:56,350 {\an8}Painters can stop in the middle of painting 246 00:30:56,350 --> 00:30:58,020 {\an8}and go to bed. 247 00:30:58,020 --> 00:31:01,560 {\an8}And make corrections the following day. 248 00:31:01,560 --> 00:31:04,360 But musicians can't. 249 00:31:04,360 --> 00:31:06,690 Taking a day off to drink alcohol 250 00:31:06,690 --> 00:31:12,870 would ruin her the following day. It'd be disastrous. 251 00:31:18,370 --> 00:31:19,870 It's 15 minutes to. 252 00:31:20,750 --> 00:31:22,710 I'm tired so I'll call it a day. 253 00:31:25,800 --> 00:31:29,010 I don't put my heart and soul into practice 254 00:31:29,010 --> 00:31:31,800 but I did today because you're here. 255 00:31:31,800 --> 00:31:33,680 This is without. 256 00:31:37,220 --> 00:31:38,520 This is with it. 257 00:31:47,690 --> 00:31:49,190 Like this. 258 00:31:50,530 --> 00:31:52,660 I remember how it goes. 259 00:31:55,120 --> 00:31:56,740 It's hot. 260 00:31:57,740 --> 00:31:59,750 Is it cold outside? 261 00:32:01,080 --> 00:32:02,080 Is it cold? 262 00:32:03,500 --> 00:32:04,540 Poor things. 263 00:32:13,550 --> 00:32:15,930 I have the same kind of dog. 264 00:32:17,010 --> 00:32:18,350 Mine's black. 265 00:32:18,640 --> 00:32:20,520 I've the same dog 266 00:32:20,520 --> 00:32:23,140 Really? How fun 267 00:32:27,020 --> 00:32:27,730 Thank you. 268 00:32:28,230 --> 00:32:30,110 I always give something. 269 00:32:30,110 --> 00:32:32,400 The Bible says "Don't turn away from him." 270 00:32:32,570 --> 00:32:37,200 He might be an angel testing your soul. 271 00:32:40,540 --> 00:32:43,040 All this neon during the day? 272 00:32:45,380 --> 00:32:47,880 Are they turned off late at night? 273 00:32:49,250 --> 00:32:51,050 This is America. 274 00:33:03,430 --> 00:33:05,480 This is a bad piano. 275 00:33:16,660 --> 00:33:19,200 It's bad and old. 276 00:33:23,910 --> 00:33:24,910 Typical. 277 00:33:30,920 --> 00:33:34,090 {\an8}（Baruch Performing Arts Center, Engelman Recital Hall, New York City） 278 00:34:02,540 --> 00:34:07,370 My hands are twice as thick as regular people's. 279 00:34:08,370 --> 00:34:13,710 So I can say that I was born to play piano. 280 00:34:14,010 --> 00:34:20,010 Japanese women have such delicate pretty hands. 281 00:34:20,510 --> 00:34:23,010 Naturally I'm envious. 282 00:34:31,610 --> 00:34:35,900 {\an8}（Buenos Aires, Argentina） 283 00:34:59,010 --> 00:35:00,340 It's a full house all right. 284 00:35:00,340 --> 00:35:05,260 But this is a baby grand piano. 285 00:35:05,850 --> 00:35:09,230 I came all the way to Argentina... 286 00:35:09,230 --> 00:35:13,060 For a packed house that's sold out! 287 00:35:13,060 --> 00:35:15,690 And I'm made to play this awful piano. 288 00:35:15,690 --> 00:35:19,780 It's embarrassing. 289 00:35:19,780 --> 00:35:20,780 The piano won't go unnoticed. 290 00:35:20,780 --> 00:35:22,990 The fools will... 291 00:35:22,990 --> 00:35:25,740 It's bad for my reputation. 292 00:35:25,740 --> 00:35:27,370 Violinists and guitarists 293 00:35:27,370 --> 00:35:30,290 can carry their instruments. 294 00:35:30,290 --> 00:35:32,710 But pianists... It's impossible. 295 00:35:36,000 --> 00:35:40,470 {\an8}（The Beethoven Foundation, Buenos Aires） 296 00:35:55,820 --> 00:35:59,990 （Piano Sonata No. 11 in A major, K. 331 by Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart 1756 - 1791） 297 00:37:41,000 --> 00:37:45,550 It didn't go well this time. I mean, Argentina. 298 00:37:45,720 --> 00:37:49,050 Because of the shockingly bad piano. 299 00:37:49,050 --> 00:37:51,760 Up to the last minute, 300 00:37:51,760 --> 00:37:54,680 I was trying to get them to rent a piano. 301 00:37:54,680 --> 00:37:57,690 I almost cancelled the performance. 302 00:37:58,730 --> 00:38:02,020 Those women can't tell the difference. 303 00:38:04,190 --> 00:38:09,450 They thought it sounded fine but it was subtly off. 304 00:38:10,120 --> 00:38:13,030 Playing that piece of junk 305 00:38:13,040 --> 00:38:14,870 was a lot of trouble... 306 00:38:15,450 --> 00:38:16,450 My hands got dirty 307 00:38:16,460 --> 00:38:19,290 after playing the piano in Santiago. 308 00:38:19,290 --> 00:38:22,210 Because it had been neglected. 309 00:38:23,130 --> 00:38:26,300 If a car was neglected it'd get rusty. 310 00:38:26,300 --> 00:38:29,470 It might still work but... 311 00:38:29,470 --> 00:38:30,720 It's the same thing. 312 00:38:50,700 --> 00:38:55,830 I'm in love with the conductor. 313 00:38:57,080 --> 00:38:59,210 I don't know what he thinks of me. 314 00:38:59,210 --> 00:39:02,170 I feel embarrassed because I'm old. 315 00:39:04,590 --> 00:39:07,010 So I wrote to him. 316 00:39:07,010 --> 00:39:09,970 I wish I were young like you. 317 00:39:11,800 --> 00:39:14,600 I don't know if he'll pick up on it. 318 00:39:15,430 --> 00:39:17,680 You should meet him. 319 00:39:18,560 --> 00:39:22,060 But falling in love is wonderful. 320 00:39:23,190 --> 00:39:26,530 If it keeps you happy for a couple of years. 321 00:39:37,040 --> 00:39:39,710 I could listen to her all night. 322 00:39:40,710 --> 00:39:43,040 I'm more awake as the night progresses 323 00:39:43,380 --> 00:39:44,710 but mornings are hard. 324 00:39:46,880 --> 00:39:48,880 Even if I have fun here, 325 00:39:48,880 --> 00:39:52,470 it'll be hard getting on a plane tomorrow. 326 00:40:09,780 --> 00:40:14,780 {\an8}（Los Angeles, USA） 327 00:40:24,170 --> 00:40:25,750 Gorgeous waves. 328 00:40:29,460 --> 00:40:32,550 I liked Argentina and Chile. 329 00:40:33,840 --> 00:40:37,720 I don't like New York very much. 330 00:40:37,720 --> 00:40:40,220 Broadway is good but that's all. 331 00:40:42,180 --> 00:40:44,850 It's so much more fun here. 332 00:40:45,810 --> 00:40:48,020 I love those palm trees. 333 00:40:51,320 --> 00:40:56,160 {\an8}（Fuzjko's Santa Monica residence） 334 00:41:04,290 --> 00:41:07,750 People can forget my name 335 00:41:08,540 --> 00:41:10,460 but I'd be happy if my house was preserved. 336 00:41:10,800 --> 00:41:13,550 I have a thing about houses. 337 00:41:13,550 --> 00:41:18,510 I love to visit houses that have stories. 338 00:41:19,220 --> 00:41:22,520 {\an8}Like Fumiko Hayashi, the author's house. 339 00:41:26,600 --> 00:41:29,650 （With its squirrels and birds this is Fuzjko's favorite house.） 340 00:41:32,280 --> 00:41:37,200 (Aug 2011 Fuzjko / April 2015) 341 00:41:49,880 --> 00:41:52,130 It makes me sad to think about 342 00:41:52,130 --> 00:41:54,720 how much longer I'll live. 343 00:41:58,680 --> 00:42:01,510 I can't just move here because 344 00:42:01,510 --> 00:42:05,220 I have the dog and cats in Paris. 345 00:42:05,230 --> 00:42:07,810 They can't be easily moved over. 346 00:42:10,520 --> 00:42:15,070 I love the period of my mother's youth. 347 00:42:15,070 --> 00:42:18,450 Like the movies from that time. 348 00:42:18,700 --> 00:42:21,030 I have a longing for that era. 349 00:42:21,280 --> 00:42:22,620 {\an8}Rachmaninoff was also active （was her mother's favorite.） 350 00:42:22,620 --> 00:42:27,040 {\an8}in the 1920s. （Sergei Rachmaninoff） 351 00:42:27,040 --> 00:42:29,290 It was a special time. 352 00:42:32,130 --> 00:42:33,880 You know what I mean? 353 00:42:55,110 --> 00:42:56,360 Like that. 354 00:42:57,320 --> 00:43:01,200 He composed something that sounds Japanese. 355 00:43:11,710 --> 00:43:14,880 It's called "Lilacs." 356 00:43:14,880 --> 00:43:17,550 It sounds like he was in love. 357 00:43:28,850 --> 00:43:31,690 {\an8}（The house of Rachmaninoff 1873 - 1943） 358 00:43:32,190 --> 00:43:34,940 {\an8}His compositions 359 00:43:35,230 --> 00:43:38,030 {\an8}make me daydream when I play them. 360 00:43:38,030 --> 00:43:41,200 Now that I've seen it, I have no regrets. 361 00:43:41,200 --> 00:43:42,910 I can relax now. 362 00:43:45,450 --> 00:43:52,040 （Photo by Fuzjko Hemming） 363 00:43:56,630 --> 00:43:57,960 It was already hot in the morning 364 00:43:57,960 --> 00:44:01,180 so I played piano in my swimsuit. 365 00:44:03,180 --> 00:44:07,350 In the early evening I put on make-up, 366 00:44:07,350 --> 00:44:10,980 Mother's precious necklace she got in Germany 367 00:44:10,980 --> 00:44:14,270 and other jewelry I shouldn't touch. 368 00:44:18,150 --> 00:44:21,320 Can you put that on my lap? 369 00:44:21,320 --> 00:44:22,570 Is it cold? 370 00:44:23,160 --> 00:44:24,910 {\an8}How about straight? （At her favorite hair salon） 371 00:44:24,910 --> 00:44:27,620 {\an8}I look better with kinky hair. （At her favorite hair salon） 372 00:44:27,950 --> 00:44:29,700 See, like this. 373 00:44:29,700 --> 00:44:32,160 You like that, I know. 374 00:44:34,630 --> 00:44:38,840 I always feel like a 16-year-old girl. 375 00:44:39,960 --> 00:44:42,260 The way I love dolls... 376 00:44:42,510 --> 00:44:46,350 I'd be quite happy to have stayed 16. 377 00:44:46,890 --> 00:44:52,520 Sometimes I shudder at the thought of my actual age. 378 00:44:58,020 --> 00:45:01,360 I like it paler actually. 379 00:45:01,360 --> 00:45:04,030 Like the moon up there. 380 00:45:18,630 --> 00:45:22,590 {\an8}（Fuzjko returns to Paris after months of touring overseas.） 381 00:45:28,850 --> 00:45:33,770 {\an8}（The moment she returns, she takes off to Berlin.） 382 00:45:36,650 --> 00:45:41,980 {\an8}（It's an 8-hour train trip to Berlin. First she'll visit a friend who's taking care of her dog.） 383 00:45:57,000 --> 00:46:10,760 {\an8}（She was born in Berlin. For years she had no citizenship rights because of the war chaos.） 384 00:46:15,140 --> 00:46:19,480 {\an8}（This only became apparent when she applied to study abroad.） 385 00:46:20,060 --> 00:46:22,570 I really wanted to go to Europe. 386 00:46:22,570 --> 00:46:26,070 All of my friends were going. 387 00:46:26,070 --> 00:46:29,870 But I was stuck 388 00:46:30,240 --> 00:46:31,950 because I didn't have citizenship. 389 00:46:31,950 --> 00:46:38,370 Luckily a German ambassador took interest in my case. 390 00:46:38,370 --> 00:46:42,210 {\an8}Thanks to him I got a scholarship to study in Berlin. 391 00:46:42,210 --> 00:46:45,050 {\an8}I was so grateful for that. （He gave her a refugee passport.） 392 00:46:48,220 --> 00:46:52,930 （Her mother told Fuzjko many stories about Berlin.） 393 00:46:58,440 --> 00:47:01,440 {\an8}It was hard for me 394 00:47:01,440 --> 00:47:03,820 because I didn't fit in. 395 00:47:05,900 --> 00:47:10,490 I wasn't understood in Germany. It made me sad. 396 00:47:16,790 --> 00:47:25,630 {\an8}（Her career began in her late 20s in the 1960s which is late for musicians.） 397 00:47:29,590 --> 00:47:32,760 {\an8}（A suburb near Berlin） 398 00:47:34,680 --> 00:47:37,600 {\an8}Absolutely nothing's changed. 399 00:47:38,430 --> 00:47:41,060 It's just how it was 50 years ago. 400 00:47:50,400 --> 00:47:54,660 {\an8}（Fuzjko's policy is to work alone so she doesn't have an agent.） 401 00:47:55,200 --> 00:47:59,790 {\an8}（Due to her bad hearing, she communicates by fax or mail.） 402 00:48:11,470 --> 00:48:12,720 How have you been? 403 00:48:12,800 --> 00:48:15,430 （She's visiting her friend's daughter's family.） 404 00:48:24,520 --> 00:48:27,020 Is it just a short trip? 405 00:48:29,440 --> 00:48:30,440 Yes? 406 00:48:31,450 --> 00:48:34,860 I'll play at a festival in Poland in July. 407 00:48:34,870 --> 00:48:35,870 Nice! 408 00:48:35,870 --> 00:48:38,700 It'll be in Szczecin. 409 00:48:38,700 --> 00:48:41,080 That's not so far from here. 410 00:48:41,080 --> 00:48:44,370 In summer. That'll be nice. 411 00:48:46,670 --> 00:48:49,340 My dog will arrive tomorrow. 412 00:48:49,340 --> 00:48:51,420 Here? 413 00:48:52,420 --> 00:48:55,390 Yes, she's in Greifswald. 414 00:48:57,760 --> 00:49:01,980 {\an8}（Fuzjko bought this basement apartment. It's her Berlin residence.） 415 00:49:04,690 --> 00:49:08,520 I bought the piano. It was in bad condition. 416 00:49:09,480 --> 00:49:11,280 It was on sale. 417 00:49:12,740 --> 00:49:16,530 {\an8}You asked me about this photo the other day. （She has family photos in all her residences.） 418 00:49:16,530 --> 00:49:18,280 {\an8}It's my father 419 00:49:18,280 --> 00:49:22,790 at elementary school in Stockholm. 420 00:49:22,790 --> 00:49:25,370 {\an8}See, there's a circle above him. （She has family photos in all her residences.） 421 00:49:25,370 --> 00:49:28,000 {\an8}And a cross here. （She has family photos in all her residences.） 422 00:49:28,670 --> 00:49:31,130 Perhaps he didn't like that boy! 423 00:49:32,090 --> 00:49:35,090 That's my father and my aunt. 424 00:49:35,680 --> 00:49:36,720 This is my grandmother. 425 00:49:36,720 --> 00:49:41,100 She had German roots... （Fuzjko's grandmother） 426 00:49:41,100 --> 00:49:44,520 I want to see him in heaven. I look up to him. （Grandfather Aunt Father） 427 00:49:45,060 --> 00:49:46,560 {\an8}He's my grandfather. 428 00:49:47,100 --> 00:49:51,150 {\an8}He was a director of a veterinary clinic. 429 00:49:52,530 --> 00:49:56,280 {\an8}Mother attended a music academy in Ueno. （Fuzjko's mother and her schoolmates.） 430 00:49:56,860 --> 00:49:58,820 {\an8}See all the Germans? 431 00:49:58,820 --> 00:50:00,320 They're the teachers. 432 00:50:00,330 --> 00:50:05,660 They influenced her decision to go to Germany. 433 00:50:07,120 --> 00:50:08,920 Which one is she? 434 00:50:09,290 --> 00:50:11,540 I don't know. 435 00:50:11,550 --> 00:50:13,840 Look how pretty they are. 436 00:50:13,840 --> 00:50:16,680 Japanese women were so beautiful. 437 00:50:18,140 --> 00:50:23,770 {\an8}They look like they came from privileged homes. （She hasn't identified her mother yet.） 438 00:50:24,600 --> 00:50:27,940 I heard that Rentaro Taki taught there. 439 00:50:35,690 --> 00:50:37,950 {\an8}(Fuzjko Hemming) 440 00:50:38,200 --> 00:50:43,120 {\an8}（She only stays here a few times a year but it's one of her favorite houses.） 441 00:50:53,130 --> 00:50:57,090 {\an8}（A vegetarian, Fuzjko orders soup when dining out.） 442 00:51:03,600 --> 00:51:05,180 Fortune cookies. 443 00:51:10,350 --> 00:51:12,980 Solve your own problems. 444 00:51:16,690 --> 00:51:18,900 Did you film the dog? 445 00:51:21,570 --> 00:51:25,450 {\an8}（She can't leave dogs alone.） 446 00:51:30,370 --> 00:51:33,790 Thank you so much 447 00:51:36,710 --> 00:51:38,420 I'll come back. 448 00:51:45,560 --> 00:51:46,600 Anjyn! 449 00:51:48,390 --> 00:51:49,600 Come on now! 450 00:51:49,600 --> 00:51:52,350 Anjyn! Anjyn! Anjyn! Come here! 451 00:51:52,350 --> 00:51:55,360 Hey! Look how cute she is. 452 00:51:55,360 --> 00:51:56,320 Anjyn! 453 00:51:57,690 --> 00:51:59,320 Anjyn! 454 00:51:59,780 --> 00:52:01,070 Happy doggie. 455 00:52:06,870 --> 00:52:08,790 {\an8}It's been so long! 456 00:52:14,580 --> 00:52:16,210 Did you wait long? 457 00:52:16,210 --> 00:52:17,130 Not at all. 458 00:52:18,300 --> 00:52:23,470 {\an8}（A German violinist takes care of Anjyn.） 459 00:52:26,850 --> 00:52:29,680 {\an8}Good day! 460 00:52:43,860 --> 00:52:46,160 Two of those please. 461 00:52:48,450 --> 00:52:56,040 {\an8}（The music academy she attended is now called Berlin University of the Arts.） 462 00:52:57,790 --> 00:53:02,800 {\an8}（She had many experiences during her years in Berlin.） 463 00:53:09,640 --> 00:53:10,810 Welcome home. 464 00:53:10,810 --> 00:53:12,850 Let's go in. 465 00:53:13,690 --> 00:53:15,810 Thank you for the flowers. 466 00:53:16,270 --> 00:53:21,400 {\an8}（She once boarded here and is welcomed by the landlord and her son.） 467 00:53:21,400 --> 00:53:24,200 {\an8}I have to put them in a vase. 468 00:53:24,700 --> 00:53:26,360 -They're beautiful!　-Aren't they? 469 00:53:26,660 --> 00:53:31,700 We need something large. 470 00:53:32,540 --> 00:53:35,290 We'll use this soup tureen. 471 00:53:36,920 --> 00:53:40,750 I'll make you some tea 472 00:53:41,170 --> 00:53:44,380 Do we only have cookies? 473 00:53:48,220 --> 00:53:52,720 {\an8}（Fuzjko found this boarding house in a newspaper ad.） 474 00:53:53,680 --> 00:53:54,810 Very old. 475 00:53:55,850 --> 00:53:58,480 We moved in here in 1957 476 00:54:00,860 --> 00:54:03,480 I played piano all day. 477 00:54:03,490 --> 00:54:07,860 She cooked my meals and urged me to eat more. 478 00:54:21,880 --> 00:54:23,300 About 8 year's old. 479 00:54:24,510 --> 00:54:26,550 We lived here as a family 480 00:54:26,550 --> 00:54:29,590 and Fuzjko needed a place to stay. 481 00:54:29,590 --> 00:54:33,850 So she moved in here and had a room aboved this one. 482 00:54:34,520 --> 00:54:37,310 And practiced a lot. 483 00:54:37,730 --> 00:54:39,650 When was that? 484 00:54:39,650 --> 00:54:43,400 It was taken in 1961. Is that young Fuzjko? 485 00:54:46,530 --> 00:54:48,950 So my mother is keeping her guestbook. 486 00:54:48,950 --> 00:54:52,160 So we can, if we don't remember we can look it up. 487 00:54:57,370 --> 00:55:04,250 {\an8}(Guestbook pages in the following years...) 488 00:55:04,250 --> 00:55:05,550 {\an8}(Thanks!) 489 00:55:07,340 --> 00:55:11,970 {\an8}（Fuzjko's relationship with the landlord's family spans 5 decades.） 490 00:55:22,150 --> 00:55:27,860 {\an8}（A Sigh by Franz Liszt 1811 - 1886） 491 00:55:39,750 --> 00:55:45,130 {\an8}（While in Berlin, Fuzjko fell in love with a music student. He was the first man to ask her on a date.） 492 00:55:49,760 --> 00:55:57,060 {\an8}（He played "A Sigh" for his graduation exam and she helped him prepare. As a result he graduated with remarkable grades.） 493 00:56:02,480 --> 00:56:09,070 {\an8}（But he joined an orchestra shortly after that and left Berlin. That was also the end of Fuzjko's romance.） 494 00:58:26,250 --> 00:58:30,080 {\an8}（Fuzjko visits a place she hasn't visited for 10 years.） 495 00:58:36,590 --> 00:58:38,340 This is our stop. 496 00:58:43,770 --> 00:58:47,100 {\an8}（The house where she was born.） 497 00:58:51,440 --> 00:58:53,110 So antique. 498 00:58:53,780 --> 00:58:55,860 This is beautiful. 499 00:59:02,450 --> 00:59:07,210 {\an8}（The apartment house where her parents lived in the late 1920s is still here.） 500 00:59:08,620 --> 00:59:10,580 {\an8}This is exciting. 501 00:59:11,330 --> 00:59:16,460 See, that's the same elevator over there. 502 00:59:18,340 --> 00:59:20,720 (Weight Limit: 300kg or 4 People) 503 00:59:23,350 --> 00:59:25,850 My mother used to live here. 504 00:59:53,540 --> 00:59:58,550 Not many apartments would still be here after 70 years. 505 00:59:58,550 --> 01:00:02,380 I visited here 30 years ago... 506 01:00:02,390 --> 01:00:03,550 {\an8}Well, I often come but 507 01:00:03,550 --> 01:00:07,020 {\an8}I met an old lady in the hallway. （The apartment where her parents lived.） 508 01:00:07,520 --> 01:00:10,180 {\an8}I told her I was born here 509 01:00:10,180 --> 01:00:14,230 and asked if she was here back then. 510 01:00:15,020 --> 01:00:21,240 She said there were many Russian soldiers in Berlin after the war. 511 01:00:21,530 --> 01:00:23,820 And that they were kind. 512 01:00:23,820 --> 01:00:31,460 They were kind to the children in the neighborhood. 513 01:00:31,460 --> 01:00:32,960 She told me how nice they were. 514 01:00:37,210 --> 01:00:38,880 Mother touched this... 515 01:00:51,600 --> 01:00:53,310 I was born here. 516 01:00:56,060 --> 01:00:59,320 My mother lived here for 5 years. 517 01:01:04,110 --> 01:01:07,950 {\an8}（There's a photo her mother took from this window.） 518 01:01:21,550 --> 01:01:27,510 Wednesday, July 31, 1946. 519 01:01:28,010 --> 01:01:30,850 After piano practice, 520 01:01:30,850 --> 01:01:33,430 I took my brother to the barber. 521 01:01:33,890 --> 01:01:37,310 He was shy to get a buzz cut 522 01:01:37,310 --> 01:01:40,320 so I had to accompany him. 523 01:01:40,980 --> 01:01:44,490 I could see his funny expression in the mirror. 524 01:01:44,990 --> 01:01:48,740 He kept looking down out of nervousness. 525 01:01:49,030 --> 01:01:51,280 When the barber walked away 526 01:01:51,290 --> 01:01:53,960 he glanced at his reflection. 527 01:01:54,210 --> 01:01:57,540 He ended up looking very cute. 528 01:02:05,380 --> 01:02:06,380 （Ulf） 529 01:02:06,380 --> 01:02:09,850 My name is Ulf Otsuki. 530 01:02:09,850 --> 01:02:12,640 {\an8}Otsuki means big moon. Ulf not wolf. （His portrayals of foreigners in children's TV shows） 531 01:02:12,640 --> 01:02:15,390 {\an8}It's an old Swedish name, Dad gave me. （made him popular.） 532 01:02:15,560 --> 01:02:20,190 {\an8}He wanted me to be able to endure loneliness, like a wolf. 533 01:02:20,190 --> 01:02:23,980 {\an8}My father was Gosta Georgii-Hemming. 534 01:02:23,990 --> 01:02:26,700 {\an8}My mother was Toako Otsuki. 535 01:02:26,700 --> 01:02:27,860 Toako means "A girl who casts a net." 536 01:02:27,860 --> 01:02:31,240 Her dad loved to fish. 537 01:02:41,880 --> 01:02:44,130 Her fingers are fairer. 538 01:02:44,130 --> 01:02:46,840 Because I massage them every day. 539 01:02:46,840 --> 01:02:50,340 Mine have become crooked in my old age. 540 01:02:51,720 --> 01:02:53,350 Back when I was in elementary school 541 01:02:53,350 --> 01:02:58,140 she was bullied on the way to school. 542 01:02:58,140 --> 01:03:00,350 Kids ambushed us 543 01:03:00,350 --> 01:03:03,360 and threw rocks at us yelling "Aliens!" 544 01:03:03,360 --> 01:03:04,190 I was scared. 545 01:03:04,190 --> 01:03:05,280 They pulled her hair. 546 01:03:05,690 --> 01:03:08,950 Being a boy, I'd fight them off 547 01:03:08,950 --> 01:03:10,360 if I was with her. 548 01:03:10,360 --> 01:03:12,870 She was bullied all the time. 549 01:03:13,120 --> 01:03:18,580 And she had fierce fights with Mother. 550 01:03:18,580 --> 01:03:20,250 The fights attracted the neighbors' attention. 551 01:03:20,540 --> 01:03:23,750 She was defiant because she wanted to play 552 01:03:23,750 --> 01:03:26,420 but Mother told her to practice. 553 01:03:27,010 --> 01:03:29,800 But my sister persisted. 554 01:03:30,010 --> 01:03:35,510 Mother called us "Fools" all day long. 555 01:03:35,510 --> 01:03:38,020 That could be exaggerated... 556 01:03:38,020 --> 01:03:39,560 Never a kind word. 557 01:03:39,560 --> 01:03:41,690 The house in Mure 558 01:03:41,690 --> 01:03:46,480 had an upright piano and a phonograph. 559 01:03:46,820 --> 01:03:51,860 The music came from a speaker covered in cloth. 560 01:03:51,860 --> 01:03:54,620 I was wondering who was singing 561 01:03:54,620 --> 01:03:56,740 so I tore the cloth to look. 562 01:03:57,370 --> 01:04:00,210 Our cousins tricked us and said 563 01:04:00,210 --> 01:04:03,580 someone was inside singing. 564 01:04:03,580 --> 01:04:05,710 I was curious 565 01:04:05,710 --> 01:04:09,970 so I took a look inside when no one was watching. 566 01:04:10,340 --> 01:04:14,510 I never knew my father. 567 01:04:14,510 --> 01:04:16,720 I can't recollect his voice. 568 01:04:16,720 --> 01:04:19,930 He wrote to us 569 01:04:19,930 --> 01:04:21,310 but I didn't understand English. 570 01:04:21,310 --> 01:04:22,850 I don't know him. 571 01:04:22,850 --> 01:04:26,860 All I can remember about his voice is 572 01:04:27,020 --> 01:04:30,400 {\an8}his "Hello, hello" on the telephone. （The only photo of Ulf and Gosta.） 573 01:04:30,400 --> 01:04:32,110 {\an8}Mother told me that （The only photo of Ulf and Gosta.） 574 01:04:32,110 --> 01:04:34,660 {\an8}I used to say "telephom, telephom." 575 01:04:35,030 --> 01:04:36,620 {\an8}His "Hello" 576 01:04:36,620 --> 01:04:41,210 {\an8}is all I can remember of my father's voice. Nothing else. 577 01:05:07,150 --> 01:05:12,490 {\an8}（Fuzjko's life is a long journey to find the missing pieces.） 578 01:05:13,280 --> 01:05:18,030 {\an8}（Her father, Gosta Georgii-Hemming The Swedish designer was 7 years younger than Toako.） 579 01:05:22,000 --> 01:05:27,380 {\an8}（Toako met Gosta in Berlin where she was studying music.） 580 01:05:33,220 --> 01:05:38,300 {\an8}（A portrait of Toako illustrated by Gosta） 581 01:05:41,060 --> 01:05:47,020 My father was always working upstairs. He was a quiet man. 582 01:05:47,020 --> 01:05:50,190 {\an8}He loved dance music. 583 01:05:50,190 --> 01:05:53,650 {\an8}He played records and danced with me. （The family moved to Tokyo when Fuzjko was born.） 584 01:05:54,490 --> 01:05:59,570 {\an8}I was young but I danced with him. （Japan, early 1930s） 585 01:05:59,580 --> 01:06:04,120 {\an8}I vaguely remember my parents' scuffles. （Gosta's art was in newspapers and ads for foreigners.） 586 01:06:04,120 --> 01:06:06,580 I remember nothing else. 587 01:06:09,880 --> 01:06:13,630 {\an8}（I'll bring you over, when I've found a good job.） 588 01:06:14,420 --> 01:06:18,260 {\an8}（Gosta left Japan with a promise.） 589 01:06:19,850 --> 01:06:25,060 {\an8}（But that was the last time Fuzjko saw her father.） 590 01:06:41,950 --> 01:06:47,460 Under the red dusk sky red dragonflies fly 591 01:06:47,460 --> 01:06:52,920 I remember seeing them on my sister's back 592 01:06:52,920 --> 01:06:56,550 When I hear the song's chorus, it makes me cry. 593 01:06:57,470 --> 01:07:00,220 The lyrics are so cute. 594 01:07:00,510 --> 01:07:04,220 A verse ends with "perched on the tip of a rod." 595 01:07:04,220 --> 01:07:07,390 Someone kind must have written it. 596 01:07:07,390 --> 01:07:09,440 It reminds me of 597 01:07:09,440 --> 01:07:14,020 being on mother's back looking at cherry blossom. 598 01:07:14,280 --> 01:07:18,150 That's the earliest memory I have. 599 01:07:20,320 --> 01:07:26,000 （Toako supported them by teaching piano with some help from her parents.） 600 01:07:39,180 --> 01:07:41,680 I cleaned the house first thing. 601 01:07:41,680 --> 01:07:44,800 Then I went to get the flour rations 602 01:07:44,810 --> 01:07:48,100 with my brother at around noon. 603 01:07:48,850 --> 01:07:51,440 I got Auntie's rations too. 604 01:07:51,440 --> 01:07:52,980 Carrying those heavy sacks 605 01:07:52,980 --> 01:07:55,650 took all my energy. 606 01:07:56,360 --> 01:07:58,900 Lunch was late 607 01:07:58,900 --> 01:08:01,450 and I was told to practice. 608 01:08:01,450 --> 01:08:02,870 It was too much. 609 01:08:03,370 --> 01:08:07,540 We ate lunch at 5 in the afternoon. 610 01:08:08,500 --> 01:08:10,790 Everything was rationed. 611 01:08:10,790 --> 01:08:13,580 We couldn't buy anything from shops. 612 01:08:13,580 --> 01:08:17,210 Some people were mean when we went to get rations. 613 01:08:17,210 --> 01:08:21,340 Like the carpenter's wife in our neighborhood. 614 01:08:21,340 --> 01:08:24,720 She withheld ration information 615 01:08:25,510 --> 01:08:27,520 because we were foreigners. 616 01:08:28,020 --> 01:08:31,520 That really made my aunt worry about us. 617 01:08:31,520 --> 01:08:38,610 She urged my mother to send us right away to Okayama. 618 01:08:39,070 --> 01:08:41,740 So we were sent there. 619 01:08:43,200 --> 01:08:45,240 {\an8}（The children evacuated to Okayama, ） 620 01:08:45,240 --> 01:08:49,870 {\an8}I tried very hard to hide that I was biracial. （her grandfather's hometown.） 621 01:08:50,290 --> 01:08:53,120 A girl came up to me and said 622 01:08:53,120 --> 01:08:57,880 Is it so strange. Your eyes are like a foreigner's. 623 01:08:57,880 --> 01:09:00,090 It was dreadful! 624 01:09:01,010 --> 01:09:03,430 There was one unpleasant occasion... 625 01:09:03,680 --> 01:09:05,340 I was a fashion conscious child 626 01:09:05,340 --> 01:09:08,510 so I wore a ribbon. 627 01:09:08,510 --> 01:09:11,980 Just a little one, like this. 628 01:09:11,980 --> 01:09:14,940 But a teacher ripped it off and yelled, 629 01:09:14,940 --> 01:09:17,480 Never wear that again! 630 01:09:17,480 --> 01:09:19,480 I still remember that. 631 01:09:20,190 --> 01:09:23,950 I remember how horrified I was. 632 01:09:30,870 --> 01:09:35,420 {\an8}（Toako's affluent parents went bankrupt after WWII.） 633 01:09:40,500 --> 01:09:46,340 {\an8}（Toako made a living by teaching piano to US military families.） 634 01:09:57,650 --> 01:10:01,940 {\an8}（Summertime by George Gershwin 1898 - 1937） 635 01:10:22,960 --> 01:10:29,140 {\an8}（When Fuzjko was 16 she had otitis media. It was treated incorrectly and she became deaf in her right ear.） 636 01:10:33,310 --> 01:10:37,980 {\an8}（Despite this she had a recital when she was 17） 637 01:10:39,650 --> 01:10:45,150 {\an8}（and graduated from Tokyo University of the Arts at 22. Her dream to study abroad continued to elude her.） 638 01:10:56,120 --> 01:11:00,630 {\an8}（Feeling frustrated, Fuzjko played at restaurants and couldn't travel.） 639 01:11:10,180 --> 01:11:14,680 {\an8}（Just before she turned 30 she finally went to Berlin to study music） 640 01:11:15,140 --> 01:11:20,850 {\an8}（at what would later be called Berlin University of the Arts. She absorbed Germany's unique pre-unification culture.） 641 01:11:34,120 --> 01:11:37,540 Mother was away teaching all day. 642 01:11:37,580 --> 01:11:41,920 She had many American acquaintances all of whom were so nice. 643 01:11:41,920 --> 01:11:43,960 When they heard she had kids at home 644 01:11:43,960 --> 01:11:47,590 they gave her chocolate cake. 645 01:11:47,590 --> 01:11:51,590 Every Wednesday night, Mother came back late with cake. 646 01:11:51,590 --> 01:11:54,930 I remember hearing her footsteps. 647 01:11:54,930 --> 01:11:59,180 The sound of her dragging her feet. 648 01:11:59,180 --> 01:12:01,190 I'd be relieved when she came home 649 01:12:01,190 --> 01:12:04,980 and then she'd have cake. 650 01:12:07,650 --> 01:12:10,110 I woke with a fever 651 01:12:10,110 --> 01:12:13,990 so I needed Ulf to run an errand for me at school. 652 01:12:14,410 --> 01:12:17,870 At the girls' entrance, 653 01:12:17,870 --> 01:12:21,330 2 boys from a different school called out to Ulf. 654 01:12:21,750 --> 01:12:23,250 Hello, hello! 655 01:12:23,250 --> 01:12:25,750 Give me chewing gum! 656 01:12:25,750 --> 01:12:27,250 as if he was American. 657 01:12:27,250 --> 01:12:29,800 Then they followed Ulf. 658 01:12:30,130 --> 01:12:33,840 Mother was very upset to hear about this. 659 01:12:35,050 --> 01:12:40,350 I asked Mother to help me sew my blouse. 660 01:12:40,350 --> 01:12:45,060 We found her snoozing in the evening 661 01:12:45,060 --> 01:12:46,860 so my brother and I 662 01:12:46,860 --> 01:12:52,530 drew a mustache and a circle on her nose for fun. 663 01:12:53,740 --> 01:12:55,780 I knew my chance was slim 664 01:12:55,780 --> 01:12:58,200 but I asked the college janitor 665 01:12:58,200 --> 01:12:59,660 to take a note to Karajan 666 01:12:59,660 --> 01:13:02,710 in the next building. 667 01:13:02,870 --> 01:13:08,540 Would you consider listening to me play? 668 01:13:08,550 --> 01:13:10,630 10 minutes later, 669 01:13:12,090 --> 01:13:13,090 Karajan whistled out to me. 670 01:13:13,090 --> 01:13:16,140 I was so excited, I got goosebumps! 671 01:13:16,140 --> 01:13:18,050 We shook hands 672 01:13:18,060 --> 01:13:19,510 and he asked me what I'd play. 673 01:13:19,520 --> 01:13:24,350 I told him I couldn't play that day, so I didn't. 674 01:13:25,480 --> 01:13:31,530 {\an8}（Maestri Herbert von Karajan and Leonard Bernstein were among those who took Fuzjko） 675 01:13:45,080 --> 01:13:50,090 {\an8}（Unfortunately she lost hearing in both ears from a bout of fever right before a concert.） 676 01:13:59,010 --> 01:14:03,980 {\an8}（Fuzjko recovered 40% of her hearing in her left ear after treatment. After that she taught music in various parts of Europe.） 677 01:14:24,960 --> 01:14:31,840 {\an8}（Aug, 1995 3 months before leaving Germany 2 years after her mother died, Fuzjko sneaked back into Japan.） 678 01:14:44,220 --> 01:14:46,930 Money is what matters in the end. 679 01:14:46,940 --> 01:14:49,310 I'd been poor for so long. 680 01:14:49,310 --> 01:14:52,900 I'd given up all hope. 681 01:14:54,360 --> 01:14:56,990 I returned to Japan feeling hopeless. 682 01:14:59,410 --> 01:15:00,870 I regained confidence 683 01:15:00,870 --> 01:15:04,910 but I thought my only recital would be in heaven. 684 01:15:04,910 --> 01:15:07,250 That's how I felt coming back. 685 01:15:09,330 --> 01:15:12,750 Then I was suddenly discovered... 686 01:15:12,750 --> 01:15:18,180 I'd never have dreamed something like that would happen. 687 01:15:26,100 --> 01:15:32,060 Sunday, September 8, 1946, sunny. 688 01:15:32,480 --> 01:15:34,980 From morning I practiced hard. 689 01:15:35,360 --> 01:15:42,200 If only I could play like this every time I played! 690 01:15:42,780 --> 01:15:45,370 But technique number 8 stumped me 691 01:15:45,370 --> 01:15:47,040 and I lost my temper. 692 01:15:47,450 --> 01:15:52,040 I banged at the piano keys 693 01:15:52,040 --> 01:15:54,040 but that wouldn't help. 694 01:15:54,670 --> 01:15:56,340 In my dream a few nights ago 695 01:15:56,380 --> 01:16:01,260 many musicians laughed at me. 696 01:16:02,430 --> 01:16:04,680 I was at my lowest. 697 01:16:05,510 --> 01:16:08,180 {\an8}Every day I thought, 698 01:16:08,180 --> 01:16:10,190 {\an8}I'm just going to rot in Japan. 699 01:16:16,530 --> 01:16:20,360 {\an8}（She was poorer than ever after returning to Japan.） 700 01:16:21,280 --> 01:16:24,450 {\an8}（But she didn't give up and had annual recitals.） 701 01:16:26,330 --> 01:16:30,910 {\an8}（She caught the attention of a TV program who featured her.） 702 01:16:32,170 --> 01:16:37,170 {\an8}（It was a late night show but it had a strong impact on people.） 703 01:16:41,550 --> 01:16:48,970 {\an8}（Her album sold over 2 million copies, rare in the classical music genre. Her performances sold out wherever she went.） 704 01:16:55,560 --> 01:17:02,990 {\an8}（Her dream to play at Carnegie Hall also came true. She was almost 70 at that time.） 705 01:17:29,220 --> 01:17:31,020 I would have been stuck 706 01:17:31,020 --> 01:17:34,810 if that hadn't happened then. 707 01:17:35,850 --> 01:17:40,150 Probably I'd have made a living from teaching. 708 01:17:43,200 --> 01:17:44,990 It's incomprehensible. 709 01:17:44,990 --> 01:17:50,490 It must have been God's work. 710 01:18:07,930 --> 01:18:11,680 {\an8}（Recently Fuzjko spends New Year's Eve in Paris. It's her ritual to eat New Year's Eve noodles with her 2 friends.） 711 01:18:12,850 --> 01:18:17,060 {\an8}You want your tofu cold, Fuzjko? 712 01:18:17,060 --> 01:18:19,820 {\an8}Yes, and with spinach. 713 01:18:21,530 --> 01:18:23,570 Cheers. 714 01:18:23,570 --> 01:18:25,280 Wishing for a good year. 715 01:18:33,160 --> 01:18:34,200 Come here. 716 01:18:43,420 --> 01:18:47,220 （Eijiro is a Japanese baritone singer.） 717 01:18:51,470 --> 01:18:53,140 {\an8}Where did you get the vest? 718 01:18:53,140 --> 01:18:55,180 {\an8}In Japan. 719 01:18:56,350 --> 01:18:59,350 But the shop's not there anymore. 720 01:19:01,690 --> 01:19:03,820 Here comes dessert. 721 01:19:04,030 --> 01:19:09,820 {\an8}Fuzjko, this is red bean cake Damian baked. （Damian is a French concert producer.） 722 01:19:10,490 --> 01:19:12,240 Brace yourself. 723 01:19:15,870 --> 01:19:17,750 Give it a try. 724 01:19:27,420 --> 01:19:28,130 It's good. 725 01:19:28,130 --> 01:19:29,010 You like it? 726 01:19:29,010 --> 01:19:31,720 It's good when it's not too sweet. 727 01:19:35,520 --> 01:19:40,980 {\an8}（Eijiro and Damian take care of Fuzjko's cats when she's away.） 728 01:19:41,730 --> 01:19:44,520 So, Eijiro and Damian. 729 01:19:44,520 --> 01:19:46,190 The first time I met them 730 01:19:46,190 --> 01:19:51,530 Eijiro didn't hide that Damian was his partner. 731 01:19:51,530 --> 01:19:53,530 They're honest. I love that. 732 01:19:54,030 --> 01:19:57,500 Their characters are very trustworthy. 733 01:19:58,410 --> 01:20:02,580 {\an8}They help me with everything. （Fuzjko was a witness at their wedding.） 734 01:20:02,750 --> 01:20:04,500 They're so helpful. 735 01:20:04,500 --> 01:20:08,300 Knowing they'll help me in Paris 736 01:20:08,340 --> 01:20:10,720 makes me grateful. 737 01:20:11,840 --> 01:20:15,760 {\an8}（Notre-Dame de Paris.） 738 01:20:20,730 --> 01:20:23,650 {\an8}（People are out celebrating the New Year. As for Fuzjko…） 739 01:21:27,210 --> 01:21:34,180 I'll play Beethoven's "Moonlight Sonata" in New York. 740 01:21:34,970 --> 01:21:39,600 I hope it'll go well. I haven't played it since I was a child. 741 01:21:39,600 --> 01:21:43,060 Many people request it. So I wnat to play... 742 01:21:43,060 --> 01:21:44,690 It's not a difficult tune to play... 743 01:21:49,360 --> 01:21:50,980 Chong chong is here. 744 01:21:50,980 --> 01:21:53,490 He hasn't been eating. 745 01:21:53,700 --> 01:21:56,530 He hasn't eaten for 10 days. 746 01:21:56,870 --> 01:22:00,330 It's worrying. 747 01:22:00,330 --> 01:22:03,080 I know he'll die eventually... 748 01:22:03,080 --> 01:22:06,210 {\an8}I don't want him to suffer. （Chong chong, her Paris cat, was diagnosed with cancer.） 749 01:22:06,210 --> 01:22:08,880 {\an8}There must be something he'll eat. （Chong chong, her Paris cat, was diagnosed with cancer.） 750 01:22:09,670 --> 01:22:12,710 Maybe I'll try some milk. 751 01:22:39,280 --> 01:22:46,620 They say that animals hide from people when they die. 752 01:22:49,830 --> 01:22:53,210 {\an8}（himokitazawa, Tokyo） 753 01:22:58,590 --> 01:23:04,060 {\an8}（Her place is near a boxing gym where boxers train hard. Fuzjko practices just as hard with her accompanist.） 754 01:23:41,430 --> 01:23:45,680 （Tokyo Metropolitan Theatre） 755 01:23:47,430 --> 01:23:51,560 {\an8}（The Budapest Philharmonic Orchestra） 756 01:23:53,360 --> 01:23:59,150 {\an8}（Mário Košík, Conductor He's Fuzjko's frequent collaborator in recent years.） 757 01:24:05,370 --> 01:24:07,160 No, you're too early. 758 01:24:07,160 --> 01:24:08,500 Am I? 759 01:24:09,660 --> 01:24:11,580 Can you stay sitting? 760 01:24:11,580 --> 01:24:12,710 Yes, ma'am. 761 01:24:13,000 --> 01:24:14,710 Watch me. 762 01:24:25,310 --> 01:24:31,230 {\an8}（The tour schedule is tight and they're out of synch today.） 763 01:24:39,530 --> 01:24:41,860 You played slow 764 01:24:41,860 --> 01:24:44,200 -while they wanted to move forward. -OK 765 01:25:03,380 --> 01:25:08,430 {\an8}（Fuzjko's hearing is easily affected by her physical condition.） 766 01:25:20,690 --> 01:25:22,360 I couldn't hear the orchestra 767 01:25:22,360 --> 01:25:27,620 because they played quietly. 768 01:25:27,620 --> 01:25:31,790 I couldn't hear, so I didn't know my cue. 769 01:25:32,210 --> 01:25:36,380 The conductor said I was too early. 770 01:25:36,380 --> 01:25:39,250 I told him I couldn't hear. 771 01:25:41,840 --> 01:25:43,010 Oh well. 772 01:25:44,760 --> 01:25:46,430 I'll be OK. 773 01:25:50,560 --> 01:25:53,390 Obviously I am very tired. 774 01:25:54,600 --> 01:25:58,810 In 2 days I'll have to go somewhere up north to play! 775 01:25:58,820 --> 01:26:03,320 I'll get off the train and go directly on stage. 776 01:27:02,500 --> 01:27:04,960 I can't hear very well. 777 01:27:04,960 --> 01:27:06,840 Since the acupuncture? 778 01:27:06,840 --> 01:27:09,640 Is that what was wrong? 779 01:27:14,970 --> 01:27:16,680 Rest well. 780 01:27:16,680 --> 01:27:18,600 It went well. 781 01:27:18,600 --> 01:27:19,810 Rest well. 782 01:27:19,810 --> 01:27:22,360 I couldn't hear well. 783 01:27:22,360 --> 01:27:23,520 I know. 784 01:27:24,280 --> 01:27:26,360 It'll be better in Akita. 785 01:27:29,740 --> 01:27:32,530 Imagine if I live to 100 786 01:27:32,530 --> 01:27:35,040 and people spot me 787 01:27:35,040 --> 01:27:36,620 and whisper "She's 100!" 788 01:27:36,620 --> 01:27:39,330 It'd be dreadful! 789 01:27:39,330 --> 01:27:43,750 I want to go where I can be alone in the end. 790 01:27:46,340 --> 01:27:48,840 With the dogs and the cats. 791 01:27:48,840 --> 01:27:51,220 Where no one knows me. 792 01:28:04,150 --> 01:28:09,150 {\an8}（Fuzjko's Kyoto residence） 793 01:28:10,700 --> 01:28:14,030 This house reminds me of my childhood. 794 01:28:14,030 --> 01:28:17,450 Our house was just like this. 795 01:28:17,450 --> 01:28:19,750 My mother was born in a similar area. 796 01:28:19,750 --> 01:28:22,250 It brings back memories. 797 01:28:22,500 --> 01:28:27,260 {\an8}（Fuzjko's residence is a traditional Kyoto apartment.） 798 01:28:30,010 --> 01:28:33,260 {\an8}（It was going to be demolished, so she bought it.） 799 01:28:34,390 --> 01:28:38,390 {\an8}I like it with little furniture in Japanese style. 800 01:28:38,390 --> 01:28:43,270 {\an8}With just one cabinet. That's how I like it. 801 01:28:45,020 --> 01:28:48,030 {\an8}（The carpenter who renovated it specializes in traditional techniques.） 802 01:29:31,030 --> 01:29:32,900 Straight ahead. 803 01:29:33,360 --> 01:29:37,330 {\an8}（Kyoto Concert Hall） 804 01:29:37,530 --> 01:29:41,120 {\an8}（Ulf is the show's producer so he entertains the audience.） 805 01:29:41,120 --> 01:29:43,120 {\an8}Is that Ulf? 806 01:29:45,580 --> 01:29:47,040 What's he up to? 807 01:29:49,500 --> 01:29:51,510 Don't waste your life, OK? 808 01:29:57,850 --> 01:29:59,180 What grade are you in? 809 01:29:59,180 --> 01:29:59,850 6 810 01:29:59,850 --> 01:30:01,810 What do you play? 811 01:30:01,810 --> 01:30:03,180 Piano. 812 01:30:03,180 --> 01:30:04,020 Oh, really? 813 01:30:04,020 --> 01:30:07,350 Let me tell you a secret. 814 01:30:07,360 --> 01:30:08,860 Piano is a man's instrument. 815 01:30:08,860 --> 01:30:11,650 Like Chopin and Liszt. 816 01:30:11,650 --> 01:30:13,490 There're no women. 817 01:30:13,490 --> 01:30:15,530 Don't tell Fuzjko she'll slap me. 818 01:30:15,610 --> 01:30:20,830 （ "Moonlight Sonata" by Ludwig van Beethoven 1770 - 1827） 819 01:31:16,090 --> 01:31:17,670 Isn't Ulf staying? 820 01:31:17,680 --> 01:31:20,090 He took the bullet train home. 821 01:31:25,020 --> 01:31:28,850 （Ponto-cho, Kyoto） 822 01:31:35,940 --> 01:31:38,070 My cat died the other day. 823 01:31:38,070 --> 01:31:40,780 The one I loved in Paris. 824 01:31:41,320 --> 01:31:43,030 {\an8}I'm devastated. 825 01:31:43,660 --> 01:31:45,950 {\an8}I'm talking about Chong chong. 826 01:31:49,040 --> 01:31:50,370 He always healed me. 827 01:31:50,370 --> 01:31:53,840 I'm here thanks to the cat. 828 01:31:54,840 --> 01:32:00,010 Everyone says that happiness is marriage and kids. 829 01:32:00,010 --> 01:32:04,180 Especially when the children are little and cute. 830 01:32:04,180 --> 01:32:05,850 I see their point. 831 01:32:05,850 --> 01:32:10,230 But I missed that chance... 832 01:32:10,230 --> 01:32:12,650 I asked a church once 833 01:32:13,270 --> 01:32:15,650 if I could adopt a child. 834 01:32:15,650 --> 01:32:18,110 They said unmarried women can't. 835 01:32:18,110 --> 01:32:19,990 That's the law. 836 01:32:20,360 --> 01:32:22,450 So I got myself a cat. 837 01:32:22,450 --> 01:32:24,780 Cats don't really change. 838 01:32:24,780 --> 01:32:29,660 A human child at 13 or 14 becomes rebellious. 839 01:32:29,660 --> 01:32:33,960 They're out of control and unlikable. 840 01:32:33,960 --> 01:32:36,630 And eventually they leave you. 841 01:32:37,670 --> 01:32:41,680 But cats stay the same until the end. 842 01:32:42,340 --> 01:32:45,890 They're cute until they die 843 01:32:45,890 --> 01:32:47,680 and always by your side. 844 01:34:59,520 --> 01:35:02,020 Mother didn't want me to be on stage, 845 01:35:02,020 --> 01:35:05,070 in the limelight. 846 01:35:05,070 --> 01:35:08,280 But to be a piano teacher 847 01:35:08,280 --> 01:35:11,450 so I could travel the world. 848 01:35:11,450 --> 01:35:15,500 Everyone misunderstands my mother's intentions. 849 01:35:16,750 --> 01:35:21,630 {\an8}（Toako gave young Fuzjko lessons on this Blüthner piano.） 850 01:35:25,460 --> 01:35:29,220 {\an8}（She purchased it while she lived in Berlin.） 851 01:35:31,930 --> 01:35:38,600 {\an8}（It was made 110 years ago so it's worn both inside and out. Fuzjko had it overhauled and refitted to restore its original sound.） 852 01:36:15,350 --> 01:36:16,220 Gorgeous. 853 01:36:16,220 --> 01:36:18,430 See the angel? 854 01:36:18,430 --> 01:36:19,560 And a cat. 855 01:36:32,240 --> 01:36:33,370 It's good. 856 01:36:34,070 --> 01:36:35,950 Excellent. 857 01:36:43,210 --> 01:36:47,590 Listen to someone else's "La Campanella" 858 01:36:47,590 --> 01:36:49,300 then listen to mine. 859 01:36:49,670 --> 01:36:51,550 I'm better. 860 01:36:53,930 --> 01:36:55,930 I'm that confident. 861 01:36:56,680 --> 01:37:01,810 I say that because that tune exposes who you are. 862 01:37:01,810 --> 01:37:04,400 It can't be faked. 863 01:37:04,400 --> 01:37:07,480 You have to play it as if your life depends on it. 864 01:37:08,190 --> 01:37:12,070 It reveals everything even if you don't want it to. 865 01:37:12,070 --> 01:37:16,410 What you do each day. Both your outer and inner self. 866 01:37:20,660 --> 01:37:22,830 Those who can see, will see. 867 01:37:22,830 --> 01:37:25,790 The others won't. 868 01:37:40,430 --> 01:37:41,680 I messed up. 869 01:38:19,640 --> 01:38:22,930 I think it's kind of like people who can type. 870 01:38:22,930 --> 01:38:27,440 Those who can type while they look away. 871 01:38:27,440 --> 01:38:29,520 I can't type but 872 01:38:29,900 --> 01:38:31,900 it's the same. 873 01:38:33,320 --> 01:38:36,990 You don't have to put your heart and soul into typing 874 01:38:37,870 --> 01:38:43,750 but I do, to make it sound beautiful. 875 01:38:45,870 --> 01:38:51,170 Let's say you have a well crafted, 876 01:38:53,880 --> 01:38:56,010 valuable bowl. 877 01:38:56,010 --> 01:38:59,720 It's handed down over the generations for hundreds of years. 878 01:38:59,720 --> 01:39:01,890 Even if it was chipped and cracked 879 01:39:01,890 --> 01:39:04,890 it's still incredible. 880 01:39:05,390 --> 01:39:09,730 But if it was cheap mass-produced porcelain 881 01:39:10,230 --> 01:39:14,730 and it was cracked you wouldn't mind 882 01:39:14,740 --> 01:39:16,570 throwing it out. 883 01:39:16,570 --> 01:39:18,240 It's the same. 884 01:39:18,740 --> 01:39:21,280 Even if I made a few mistakes it won't ruin it. 885 01:39:22,530 --> 01:39:24,660 It's okay. 886 01:39:25,580 --> 01:39:28,920 Sometimes I confess to the audience 887 01:39:28,920 --> 01:39:30,710 but even Rubinstein said 888 01:39:30,710 --> 01:39:32,460 he made a bucket of mistakes. 889 01:39:35,380 --> 01:39:39,760 ("Protecting small lives" Fuzjko Hemming Charity Concert) 890 01:39:42,930 --> 01:39:47,180 {\an8}（Fuzjko organizes events for animal welfare.） 891 01:39:58,150 --> 01:40:02,660 {\an8}（Tokyo Opera City: Takemitsu Memorial Concert Hall） 892 01:40:19,170 --> 01:40:24,510 （ "La Campanella" by Franz Liszt 1811 - 1886） 893 01:40:39,110 --> 01:40:44,830 I try to play so the sound doesn't distort. 894 01:40:46,160 --> 01:40:50,120 I don't like it loud and shrieking. 895 01:40:50,580 --> 01:40:53,540 Each sound has different tonality, 896 01:40:53,540 --> 01:40:56,630 like paint for a painter. 897 01:41:02,970 --> 01:41:08,350 I'm often told that the way I play is old-fashioned. 898 01:41:09,770 --> 01:41:11,560 But look at old architecture. 899 01:41:11,560 --> 01:41:13,140 They have wonderful statues 900 01:41:13,150 --> 01:41:17,570 of angels and naked women. 901 01:41:17,570 --> 01:41:22,360 Now everything looks like makeup packaging. 902 01:41:22,820 --> 01:41:25,030 It's boring. 903 01:41:32,870 --> 01:41:35,880 I have developed confidence. 904 01:41:36,540 --> 01:41:41,170 I couldn't play if I compared myself to others unfavorably. 905 01:41:42,880 --> 01:41:45,390 It sounds vain but 906 01:41:45,840 --> 01:41:47,390 I play in the belief that 907 01:41:47,390 --> 01:41:51,180 the music is supreme. 908 01:46:46,980 --> 01:46:52,730 {\an8}（18 concerts in 12 cities in 2 months. Fuzjko is in her 80s and going strong.） 909 01:47:06,410 --> 01:47:07,870 Well... 910 01:47:09,210 --> 01:47:12,170 how many more concerts can I do 911 01:47:12,170 --> 01:47:15,050 in the short time I have left? 912 01:47:15,420 --> 01:47:18,260 It worries me to think about that. 913 01:47:18,260 --> 01:47:23,220 The applause makes me want to do it again but... 914 01:47:24,560 --> 01:47:30,770 I feel like I'm walking in the darkness. 915 01:47:31,060 --> 01:47:33,730 I have to play while I can. 916 01:47:40,280 --> 01:47:43,290 I always think of her... 917 01:47:47,790 --> 01:47:52,040 When I saw a cloud from my hotel room 918 01:47:52,040 --> 01:47:54,840 I wondered how Mother is 919 01:47:54,840 --> 01:47:56,510 and prayed for her. 920 01:48:04,010 --> 01:48:07,060 I believe that everyone is alive 921 01:48:07,060 --> 01:48:10,440 and I will see them again. 922 01:48:15,900 --> 01:48:17,570 Come here, Mary! 923 01:48:20,240 --> 01:48:25,410 {\an8}（She plans to tour in Africa. Fuzjko's journey to meet pianos continues.） 924 01:49:00,900 --> 01:49:05,870 When you die and go to heaven 925 01:49:06,030 --> 01:49:08,740 every day would be a happy one. 926 01:49:08,750 --> 01:49:12,790 But I think there should be sadness. 927 01:49:12,790 --> 01:49:15,170 I like feeling sentimental. 928 01:49:29,930 --> 01:49:38,980 (Ingrid Fuzjko Hemming) 929 01:52:21,400 --> 01:52:25,280 （The NYK Maritime Museum Yokohama） 930 01:52:30,030 --> 01:52:32,570 {\an8}My father was not like me. 931 01:52:32,570 --> 01:52:36,330 He liked to draw straight lines. 932 01:52:39,210 --> 01:52:41,210 I took after my mother. 933 01:52:41,880 --> 01:52:43,420 {\an8}The colors! 934 01:52:56,850 --> 01:53:01,640 {\an8}（9A world cruise ad illustrated by Fuzjko's father.） 935 01:53:01,810 --> 01:53:04,560 {\an8}He was in his 20s when he did this. 936 01:53:04,560 --> 01:53:08,280 He was not only talented but ambitious. 937 01:53:09,900 --> 01:53:11,530 My mother told me that 938 01:53:11,530 --> 01:53:15,120 a German friend introduced him to her （Gosta Georgii-Hemming's art was forgotten.） 939 01:53:15,120 --> 01:53:17,450 as "a young genius." （Gosta Georgii-Hemming's art was forgotten.） 940 01:53:22,960 --> 01:53:26,960 {\an8}I guess he drew this when he lived in Hatagaya. 941 01:53:29,300 --> 01:53:31,090 {\an8}It hasn't faded... 942 01:53:31,170 --> 01:53:34,890 {\an8}（As the world discovered Fuzjko Hemming her father was rediscovered as an ad designer.） 943 01:53:35,010 --> 01:53:36,720 He was always... 944 01:53:37,390 --> 01:53:38,680 Never mind. 945 01:53:39,930 --> 01:53:42,020 He'll be happy in heaven. 946 01:53:49,480 --> 01:53:53,530 I guess he wasn't too bad a person 947 01:53:53,530 --> 01:53:55,700 if he could draw this. 948 01:54:00,950 --> 01:54:02,410 Let's go home.