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Ew, gross.
Fucking Barbie!
Hey Barbie! Where's Ken
Hey, are you some kind of whore with all that makeup caked on your face?
Alright, boys!
What?
What do we say, Joonas?
I didn't do anything, she was all in on it.
Well, it sure didn't look like that.
Come on, look!
Either way, you could apologize to Silja.
- Why?
Or do you want an extra hour after school?
- Fine, sorry.
It's okay.
Alright, now why don't you go chase after a ball or something!
Hi!
- Hi.
Did you know cats sleep 65 percent of their lives?
- I didn't know that. - Their whole lives.
Come over to my place today? - I don't have time.
Why? - I need to go to the library.
The library? I should go there too.
After that, I'm going shopping with my grandma. I'm busy!
- That's fine with me!
- Bye!
Silja!
That curve is beautiful
and has such a refreshingly different design in your work.
Oh.
We're going for a drink after the class.
Would you like to come? - Not really.
Okay,
but if you change your mind, we're going to Teerenpeli.
There's a free places at my car.
Atleast three.
No need to take a taxi!
Bye bye. - Bye.
Don't come any closer, I've got the emergency line to 112!
I just,
have my car parked here.
Put that away.
Don't come any closer, I was this close to spraying you.
Mom!
Are you sleeping here?
No, I just took a tiny nap.
It's five o'clock.
Is it that late already?
Yeah.
I've been out and about today,
I even went to the church house for morning coffee.
Did you hear?
- Mm.
Sorry I'm late!
Oh, we got our math test results back
Well?
- Guess?
Eight.
- Nope.
Seven?
- No.
Then what? I don't know.
A ten-minus.
Good for you!
You didn't inherit those math skills from me.
Yeah, everything seemed hard for you,
except recess.
I focused on quality, not knowledge.
The thing is, I thought it had gone super badly.
But when I got it back, almost everything was correct.
Just one misplaced comma, but that's minor.
Well done, good job.
Actually, I have a gift for you for doing so well.
Really?
It's just something small.
Thanks.
What is it?
Look, since you've been staying out a bit later recently,
situations might arise,
where boys get too close.
Put your finger through the loop,
aim straight for the eyes, and spray a long burst
right at the guy's face.
Then you run like hell.
Got it? - I got it.
Silja might have hoped something else for good grades,
than a self-defence course.
Well, we'll agree that if you reach all the goals
you've set for yourself, I'll buy you that new iPhone?
Really?
That'll cost you.
Where were you today?
What do you mean??
- I couldn't reach you.
My phone probably ran out of battery.
Who was that?
Hertta.
Oh, neighbor Hertta? - Yes.
How nice that you're still friends.
Well, yeah, but we're kind of in different circles now.
Together.
Mom,
I love you.
Good night.
Dragging, dragging keep the tempo!
I can't do it. - Yes, you can! That was great.
brilliant! Okay, we'll stop here for today.
Would you like to play at our autumn recital?
Me?
Well, no if it goes like that.
It's going to go great!
Okay? I'll sign you up.
Okay. - Good, good!
I need to go.
There's a furry friend here waiting for you.
Oh!
Hi.
What's its name?? - It's likka.
What a bad name.
This is a good song.
Want something? - What do you have?
At least there's ice cream.
Sure, I'll have some!
Mom wouldn't let me get a dog, though.
- Why not?
What do you think?
She hates dogs.
Do you have any other pets?
We used to have guinea pigs, but they died.
I was away at camp for a week, and Mom forgot to feed them.
- No way.
This is a pretty nice house.
Well, it's alright.
- Alright? It's really nice.
Fudge or caramel?
Caramel.
How's school going?
Really well.
I'm still trying to raise my GPA a bit.
Mom said that if I succeed,
she'll get me a new phone.
Wow, that's great. - Yeah.
It's just a bit annoying that I don't have
a BFF at school.
BFF?
BFF, best friends forever.
Ah, I see.
Yeah.
My classmates aren't that nice.
We're so different, we like different things.
I'd like to talk about real things
that actually matter,
but they don't want to, or probably can't.
And then...
And they never do anything with their parents,
and if they do, theyjust badmouth them to others.
I don't see the point in that.
How's your relationship with your mom? Is it good?
Well,
yeah,
I can tell Mom everything, but... you know...
Mom.
Hi,
I'm at Viivi's.
Yeah.
Yes.
Bye.
I have to go.
Don't drive all the way in. I can get out here.
Thanks for the ride.
See you again.
See you.
Silja hi!
Silja, hi. - Hi.
What are you doing today? - Homework.
Hey, come over to our place! We have this new game.
I probably won't have time.
What.
You're already good at school. It won't take long!
Dad found our old animal drawings,
they're so funny.
Once you're in ninth grade,
you'll understand how much homework there really is.
I can try, but I'm not promising anything.
Bye.
How's Viivi doing?
She's fine.
So, what's up? - What do you mean?
I can tell something's up.
No,
or... well,
well, the music teacher asked if I would play at the recital.
That's nice!
Yeah, I guess.
It's really nice! They could've asked anyone,
but they asked you.
Yeah,
but I don't really want to.
Why not?
What if it goes badly?
It won't. I'll be there. In front row.
Okay, it just makes me nervous.
Hi,
the bus was late.
We sat at the church house bus stop for at least an hour.
Then the bus finally came, and guess what?
The driver had hit someone!
- What?
Did you check out that apartment?
No. - Why not?
I don't want to go to a nursing home.
It's not a nursing home. It's an assisted living unit.
I don't want to be alone.
You wouldn't be alone there.
There are other people, too.
Let's talk about it later.
Now I hope that each of you turns offyour phone
because "silence is the most beautiful music".
As the song says.
For those who don't know me, I'm Rune Holmström, and
I have the honor and privilege to welcome all friends, parents,
and lovers of classical music
to the autumn recital here at the Lahti Conservatory.
The Moonlight Sonata will be performed by
my exceptionally talented student,
Silja Viitanen. Welcome Silja!
Sorry I didn't come today, I fell asleep.
But Grandma said you were amazing.
Why don't I have a dad?
You already know why.
It's not possible. - Why not?
Well, because he's dead.
I don't believe you.
Your dad was selected in some anonymous test-tube lottery
there's no big story behind it.
A test tube doesn't come to my spring recital or go sledding with me.
No, it doesn't.
Or hug me or comfort me when I'm upset.
But I do. - That's not the same.
Why are you tormenting me with this again?
How would a dad solve anything?
I can't turn into some man, and I don't want to!
You've got me and Grandma, that should be enough.
You're imagining a dad as some kind of magical creature who
wakes up on time and comes to your concerts, but they aren't like that!
Hey! - Sorry.
What are you doing here?
How's it going?
Is that what you came to ask?
Yeah,
or... well,
no, but
how are you?
I'm okay.
Hold on, I'll come up.
Are you some kind of Tarzan?
Yeah, well... I just wanted to say
I'm sorry about those guys at school.
It's fine. - Good.
Besides, I have pepper spray now, so feel free to try something.
I should probably go.
Okay, yeah, I'll head off, too.
Yes.
Silja... - Yeah?
I just wanted to say that
I think you're really cool.
Hey, who was that guy? - What guy?
At the concert.
Nobody.
You're exactly the type
some wannabe-cool girl who just clings to guys.
- No, I'm not.
- Yes, you are.
Prove it. - How?
Like, for example, by fixing up our old hut.
Maybe stuff like hut games isn't really for someone my age.
So you are just a wannabe. I knew it.
Whatever, if that's what it takes, let's fix up the hut.
Yes!
Tape, tape, tape, quickly...
Oh!
Really, we got it.
Maybe put it on the upper one...
You probably don't want to be my friend anymore.
You think I'm too young. - No, that's not it.
You're not that old yet, either. It's only been, like,
a year and 128 days
since we were playing with My Little Ponies.
It's been way longer than that.
No, it hasn't.
I just want us to stay friends.
Me too, but...
- But you don't really want to.
Well, I gotta go.
Bye. - Bye.
Hey Silja,
at least you're not a jellyfish.
What?
They don't have hearts.
Do you know that feeling when
you wait forever for something,
and when it finally happens,
it's not as great as you thought it would be?
I'm kind of afraid that's how it'll be with Mom.
Like, I've waited so long for her to be normal
for her to not need therapy anymore,
for us to live like other people.
But then, what if, when it happens, I have a mom and dad,
and nothing changes? And it still feels the same
not good.
Would you ever want to meet my mom?
I don't think that's possible.
Silja!
I have to go. Bye.
Hi. - Hi. Who was that guy?
Nobody.
Why were you with him? - I wasn't. He just showed up.
Some pedofil or? Hey, I'm going to say a word to him!
- No, no, it's nothing.
Let it go. - Get on the bike.
Hi Silja!
Do you know her? - No.
What took you so long?
We were singing so beautifully we lost track of time.
Hey, are you coming to say hi to the grandmas?
- No, we're leaving now.
What's the rush?
I'm going to have an allergic reaction.
About grandmas? - Yes.
So, you rushed to bring me here?
Just go in and take a look.
I don't want to leave my home.
You won't be able to live at home much longer.
I've lived at home for fifty years,
and that's where I want to die. - You're going, now.
Oh, for heaven's sake.
Do you see? - What?
If I were a dog, I'd wag my tail to the left.
Don't you get it?
When dogs are sad, they wag their tails to the left.
Why did you do that?
Answer me!
I'm here, not there!
Yeah, sorry.
I thought we'd always be friends, like swans.
Aren't we?
Friends don't act like that.
I just like different things now.
Oh, like boys? I like boys too.
No, not just that. - Then what?
I don't know.
- Is it because I'm two years younger than you?
Do you think I'm stupid and don't get anything?
That's not what I meant. - Yes you did.
You think you're so much better
because you're a few hundred days older than me.
Female mosquitoes are the ones that bite.
WOULD YOU AGREE TO MEET MY MOM?
YEAH, SURE.
Alright, let's go!
This is a really bad idea.
What,
What!
Don't you start backing out now! We've come this far, so let's go!
If we don't go now, we'll never go.
Are we coming?
Fine, let's go. - Thank you!
We're here! - I'm in the kitchen.
So, this is Lauri!
Lauri is my dad.
Don't come in here!
What did you do?
Has he touched you?
Has he?! - No, he hasn't!
We're leaving, now!
It's okay!
Silja.
Are you here?
Where did you go?
Silja.
I just want to talk.
Are you in there?
Don't come here!
Damn it!
I told you not to come here!
Don't go, don't go, Silja.
I shouldn't have come here. - Get out!
Not anymore! - Stop it!
I'm calling the police!
How is it possible that that man is here?
- Stop it already.
Silja, how is it possible? Silja. - What?
You can't meet him! - What?
You can't meet him. That man is a monster.
Come closer. You can't meet him!
Well, that's not your decision.
Dad! Dad, come back!
How is it possible that that man is here?
Well...
Don't tell me you told who her father is?
Yes or no?
Well, yes.
What the hell, why?
Why would you tell her?
What the hell, damn it.
Fuck.
Why would you tell her?
And when?
I haven't counted.
Maybe a year and a half ago.
A year and a half ago?
Yes, Silja...
Silja seemed to miss having a father in her life so much.
I gave her a little hint about where she might find him.
A little hint? A little hint, is that what you're calling it?
What else does he know?
Nothing, or I don't know.
What do you mean you don't know?! - Don't shout. Don't shout!
My heart can't take it. - Of course.
This is so awful!
Mom.
Oh dear, I did not want to cause harm.
I'm sorry. - Fuck.
Oh, poor thing.
I suppose you're old enough
to know who your father is.
Do you know what a rapist is?
A rapist is someone
who stalks you in the dark
and attacks you.
They take your very core and make you dirty.
And that dirt doesn't wash away, doesn't wear off.
It stays with you forever.
It comes to you in dreams,
on the street, in crowds, at work, and at home.
A rapist is a selfish bastard
whose only rightful fate is to burn at the stake.
Because that so-called father of yours is
a cold-blooded rapist.
And you're not innocent, either!
You and your sisters in faith, what did you do? You brainwashed me!
You shall not kill, the fifth commandment.
Fuck!
What if it kills you from the inside?
"The Lord works in mysterious ways."
But that path just led me to therapy.
Would you really have wanted to have an abortion?
How could I have stopped you?
You scared me with all sorts of hellfire,
saying every child is sacred, even if their father is the devil himself.
I just didn't dare. I just didn't understand.
Silja!
Fuck.
Oh, fuck sake.
Good morning.
Good morning! - You don't need to yell.
Sit down.
Can we talk?
About what? - About this!
Oh, about how you've lied to me my whole life?
You've completely misunderstood this.
Then why have I felt so jealous of my friends
when they do all these nice things with their nice dads?
Oh, right, you don't care, because you didn't even want me.
No. Of course I wanted you!
Oh, so now you want me?
Well, um...
You're the most sweetest girl in the world; I wouldn't want anyone else as my daughter.
That's easy for you to say now.
Grandma was the only one who wanted me.
If it had been up to you, I wouldn't even be here.
Maybe you've got enough to think about now.
Hi. - Hi.
How are you? - I'm okay.
Good.
Would you have preferred if I didn't exist?
Don't say that.
You're my child.
But the way you were brought into this world...
that's what I wish could be different.
Why didn't you tell me? - I don't know.
I didn't want to push you away.
I guess I'm supposed to be mad at you.
But I can't. - You have every right to be.
But you haven't done anything wrong to me.
And I still don't really know what happened between you and Mom.
Hi!
Hey!
Fuck.
Hey, Jarppi, toss me a cigarette!
Young love is always great, you know?
Silja!
Look who's here, your mom just showed up, damn!
Silja!
Uh-oh!
Silja! Can we talk?
What?
I'm sorry.
I didn't mean it.
Oh, really?
Don't be like that.
Let's go home. - Be like what?
First, I finally find my dad, one I've been waiting for my whole life!
And I find out you would've rather killed me before I was even born!
That's not how it went. - That's how it seems to me.
Don't be like this.
Could you try living a normal life?
You've spent fourteen years dwelling on something pointless
that you can't do anything about anymore! Not a damn thing!
You have no idea what you're talking about!
I'm going to Dad's. At least he loves me.
Hey, Silja, wait!
Leave it!
Oh, damn.
Dinner's ready.
Okay.
Aren't you going to answer? - No.
Who is it? - It's Mom.
Well? What now?
She wants to talk to you.
Hi.
Okay.
Well?
Your mom asked me to bring you back home.
Well, I'm not going!
It would be the smart thing to do.
Oh, poor thing.
I'm Mirja, Silja's grandma.
Lauri, Silja's dad.
Of course, of course.
Would you like to come inside?
- Don't you dare invite him in here!
Another time.
I'll be off.
Be kind to your mom.
Bye.
Do you want me to tell you something about Dad?
Don't call him Dad.
Well, my dad is 33 years old.
He has a dog,
likes going outdoors,
and cooking.
Then... He likes schlager music.
He's smart, too.
He came up with a way to use aluminum as vacuum packaging material.
He even sold the patent
for a couple million,
can you imagine?
He changed his name
because he
had to serve time in prison for what he did to you when you were younger.
So technically, he's not the same person anymore.
I can't do this.
Hey! Should we go somewhere? - Don't touch me!
Oh, come on, Silja.
I have plans. - Silja, seriously!
Did your girljust dump you? - You need to keep your girl in line.
I'm serious, dude, how can you let her act like that?
Come on, man, wake up. - I'm disappointed in you.
Show her who's boss, you're the man!
Silja! Silja wait!
What's your mom like?
Mom?
She's nice, honestly.
She loves marshmallows and white wine.
She also likes "Temptation Island",
though I have no idea why.
She tries to take really good care of me,
but she hasn't worked during my whole life or anything.
If Grandma weren't around, our life would probably be awful.
Did you want me to be born?
I didn't even know about you until years after you were born.
Your grandma wrote to me and told me what had happened.
I don't know why.
Maybe she didn't want you to grow up without a father
like her daughter had to. I don't know.
I think she just wanted the best for you.
Yeah, but should Mom have had an abortion?
That's a tough question. - How so?
There are so many perspectives to it,
and none of them have easy answers.
I think it's simple one.
Either I live, or I don't.
Well, when you put it like that, yes.
And to that question, my answer is easy.
I'd choose for you to live.
That's what I'd choose too.
I should probably go home.
I need to sort all this out with Mom.
Good!
I'll drive you. - No, I can walk.
Oh. - Clears my head a bit.
It could do me some good.
Hey!
What. - Where are you coming from?
What's it to you? - You embarrassed me.
What? - You embarrassed me at school!
Do you get it? Everyone's saying I need to put you in your place.
What? - Put you in your damn place!
Were you at that guy's house?
What did you do there? Did he touch you?
Fuck! Are you in love with him?
Damn it!
You bitch!
We've now heard both sides,
and this does seem quite serious.
So, how can your daughter just spray pepper spray
into our son's eyes? - This is a police matter!
Where did Silja even get such a weapon?
- From me, of course!
Every woman needs to be able to defend herself
against monsters like that.
That was uncalled for.
Your little darling is a future sex offender.
That was an insult! - Silja, we're leaving.
What kind of example are you setting for your child,
to just run away when things get tough?
And what kind of example are you setting about life,
that little weasels like that always win if money is on their side?
Silja!
It's not so unusual in this world
for maids to have their masters' children.
And those children weren't always born out of mutual understanding.
Oh, for God's sake.
Your father thought his father was the man who raised him,
but in truth, he was the result of another man.
As an adult, he found out from his mother what had happened.
The master of a big estate had wanted, and that's how your father was conceived.
Back then, it was kept quiet to avoid bigger problems.
What I mean is that children come into this world through miracles,
which aren't always romantic.
Well, I think I'll go check out the facility.
It's not a facility. - Well,
whatever.
That's good.
Hey, why don't you come and say hello to everyone?
Some other time.
Oh, hi.
Thanks for bringing Silja back from that teenage monster.
No problem.
Would you like to come inside?
We should talk.
Don't try anything. Mom's waiting in the car.
Nice place you've got here.
Just a bachelor pad.
Would you like something to drink?
Don't try to act like some nice guy.
You ruined my life.
Probably.
And I'll never forgive you for it.
You don't have to. - Good.
Can I say something?
Silja is really important to me.
As if she isn't to us?
Of course, she is.
I can't have children.
Oh, so someone else raped me?
- No, I mean
I can't have children anymore.
Prison isn't exactly kind to people like me.
Mom? - Yes?
Were you at Dad's? - Yes.
What did you say to him?
That I haven't been able to get over what he did to me.
Oh, really? That's news to me.
So now you're probably going to make up with him?
What do you want me to make up with him about?
That he was never even born?
That we never even met,
or that we fall in love and he moves here?
The last one.
Oh, sweetheart, things don't work like that.
I have the right to a mom and a dad.
Oh, honey. I never had the chance to choose your father.
Then I'll move in with Dad.
He's a sex offender.
He has no chance whatsoever of getting custody.
You really need to fix this, or I'll fall apart.
Don't start now.
Stop! - No!
Silja, Silja!
Silja.
I know you want me to hate Dad,
but I can't, I can't.
I can't help that I love him.
Look!
Oh, can I taste?
That's red currant.
Yep! There were so many out there.
What was the big one? Is that cranberry?
Look, a cranberry!
There were tons of them out there.
They're really good!
Domestic berries are so healthy,
it's a fact.
These are definitely red currants.
Should we get some cookies too?
Yes, thank you.
Hi.
This place used to be really important to Grandma and Grandpa.
But then that stupid residential area was built,
we stopped coming here much.
Now it's just an Airbnb cabin for strangers.
Maybe it could still become important to us.
Silja.
Can we have a moment alone?
Silja probably told you how important this place is to me.
Yeah, she did.
What do your parents do?
They're government employees.
We haven't had much contact since my conviction.
I disgraced them completely.
My mom came to visit me in prison a couple of times.
My dad didn't come at all.
I completely understand your parents.
Are you... - I was thinking...
Go ahead, you say it.
I had just turned 19.
I was supposed to go to the army after the summer
and then to the technical university.
I don't know if you remember me. I mean,
we had met before.
I was working evening shifts at a bar.
You used to come there often with your friends.
You were always on the dance floor,
and you looked amazing.
I even sold you a beer a couple of times.
How is this relevant to anything?
That night.
The day before, my girlfriend and I had broken up.
I didn't have work, but I went to the club.
I drank a lot.
And then you were there.
We danced.
We had so much fun.
You laughed at myjokes.
When we went outside,
I whispered something to you,
like how beautiful you were,
and we hugged.
You just laughed.
Then you touched me in a way
that I just couldn't resist.
Just because someone
goes outside with you for a cigarette doesn't mean it's an open invitation.
That you can just pounce on them.
You shoved your tongue in my mouth and
grabbed my hand so hard it hurt.
I told you to stop,
but you didn't.
You pushed me deeper into the trash bins and...
I screamed for help.
No!
Let me go !
I screamed and screamed until
no sound came out of me anymore.
Then it stopped just as quickly as it started.
You knew exactly what you were doing.
I didn't want some random drunk bartender
in a dumpster alley. I didn't want that.
I didn't want you.
I know I can't make up for what I did to you in any way.
But I want to make it up to Silja.
The only thing I want
is to be a father to her.
To give her even a little of
what she's missed.
If you didn't exist,
I'd be somewhere in Europe.
I had
a new job starting
in Brussels.
But I stayed here. To wait for a child, I didn't want.
With a man I didn't even know.
And
I slowly started shrinking myself, smaller and smaller.
I wanted to be invisible.
I haven't let anyone touch me since.
You're the last person who's touched me.
I lost the ability to love.
What are you two doing? - Just talking.
Good. It's nice that you can talk now.
It's almost like we're a normal family.
By the way, can we eat? I'm starving.
- Yes, let's cook.
What should we make? - I Don't know, what do we have?
Drive safely.
Minna.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry...
I'm sorry for ruining your life.
I should probably just kill myself,
but that wouldn't be right for Silja.
Yeah, you should have done that back then.
Look how lovely it is.
Should we wake her?
We have to wake her.
You did so well.
No, I didn't.
Yes, you did.
And this was so important for Silja.
It really was.
You're a good mom.
No, I'm not.
I think I'll go to bed. - Don't go.
Let's sit for a moment longer.
Well, if you want to.
I'll go wake Mom. - Okay.
Mom!
Mom?
Mom, there are eggs.
I made boiled eggs.
Sorry, Mom. I didn't want you to really move out.
Mom.
Sorry, I didn't want you to...
How will I manage without you, Mom?
Mom, I can't manage without you.
Mom?
I don't have to take you, you know. - No, it's fine. I'm almost ready.
You know, I wouldn't want any other child.
I know.
Now I do.
I just want to... - Mom,
everything's fine.
You don't have to feel guilty because of me.
You're my mom, and I'm your child.
Let's go.
Hi!
Everyone else is already here, waiting at the table.
See you Monday!
We'll take good care of Silja.
Minna!
Hi. - Hi.
Hey, we're going out. Do you want to join us?
I don't know. I have a few things to do here.
Well, we're heading to Teerenpeli.
You can join us later if you want!
I'm not promising anything. - But hey, it'd be so great if you came.
Oh no, I left my phone at the restaurant. I'll go grab it.
Hey, I can come with you!
I'll get the car ready. - Okay.