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♪ I still got ♪ ♪ I, I still got joy ♪
♪ Still ♪
♪ I still got ♪
♪ I, I still got joy ♪
♪ Through the valley I walk, still feel no evil ♪
♪ God with me, who against me, seeing dead people ♪
♪ Am I David, slaying problems, drown drug addiction ♪
♪ Lust to love, can't imagine thoughts of losing either ♪
♪ Thanking people, saying the jeepers creepers ♪
♪ Got me fiending, need redeeming ♪
♪ Can't even look in the mirror ♪
♪ My fate is on the balance, read a Bible, get deeper ♪
♪ Shots fired, I'm inspired by dodging the grim reaper ♪
♪ A leader, I've been chosen ♪
♪ My purpose to live for God ♪ ♪ Let Him use you ♪
♪ Living through you, repentance, take up your cross and ♪
♪ Pray ♪
♪ Take up your cross and ♪
(door buzzing)
(clapping)
(sucking lips)
- Aye, she clapping for you, you ain't gonna say nothing?
(speaking in foreign language)
- Don't gotta say nothing to me,
I'm here to show good behavior.
She can be stuck up all she want to.
(speaking in foreign language)
- What did she say?
- She said, "She don't know me, I crazy."
(chuckling)
- Well hey, at least you look the part, right?
- Y'all better stop messing with her,
she gonna send all y'all to hell.
- Hey, the jokes on her, we already here.
- That's right. - If she can do that
- she definitely needs to go see
my baby daddy, he needs to go straight to hell.
- Who shine?
- [Mya] Okay.
- Ha, yeah.
- Hey, ladies. - But I was trying
to tell her - My name is Shantel Cross,
and I...
- [Mya] Better than that.
- 'cause I need her hair done like that.
- Excuse me, ladies, please, excuse me, ladies, please.
- You gonna have to do better than that.
- Yeah, we had a good time. - Can I have your attention?
Please!
Thank you.
My name is Shan--
- Shantel, I can read, where they get you from?
- Well, I'm originally from Pulaski.
- My cousin Poochie from there, you know him?
- No, I don't.
- Does she look like she know any of your cousins?
Poochie, Luchi, or Gucci?
- [Tonya] Shut up.
- You got kids?
- Yes, I have two boys.
- Ah, I got two boys too.
- She ain't seen 'em in two years.
- Tonya! Really?
- What, Lisa?
The girl got a mattress full of bed bugs,
she's got tracks all over her arms,
and she's serving a 10 year sentence, ah.
- So you're just gonna put her business out like that.
- I'm just keeping it real.
So, what?
I guess you're gonna tell her God loves her too?
- Yes, He does.
- Pssh.
- Well, he sure loves you.
You all educated and sanctified looking.
- And a sinner saved by grace.
You just see the cover of this book,
you don't know the story.
- Your story can't be all that bad.
- The only difference between all of you and me
is that I didn't get caught.
- Shut up!
- You?
Nah, I don't believe that.
- Don't let these clothes fool you.
- No way.
- You ain't even about that life.
- No, not anymore, I'm about His life.
Jesus' way of life, He's teaching me to walk every day.
He is the way, the truth, and the life.
- So what exactly was you doing?
- Okay, for starters, I've been clean
for 19 years from crack cocaine.
- Crack,
crack, - What, crack?
- crack? - Uh-uh.
- No. - Yeah, me.
- Miss Stuck Up used to be a crackhead.
- Nah, (speaking in foreign language), I don't see it.
- I used to be one of those people who said
I would never do this and that, and eventually
I found myself doing things that I said I would never do.
I lived in a small town, I loved attention,
and did things to get it.
And I'm afraid it's what started me to having parties
in which attracted trouble
of all sorts. - Hello?
- Yes, I'm Ms. Dixon, I would like to report my neighbor.
(upbeat hip-hop music)
Yes, she's having loud music, and having gangsters
all over her house.
I think she's selling drugs and doing the coke.
Oh, okay, you'll send some officers out?
Thank you so much, God bless you.
- [Woman] Oh, hey! - [Man] It's good up in here!
- [Woman] I know it, hey, where the party at?
(upbeat hip-hop music)
(all cheering)
- [Shantel] We're not doing that,
you do not care to be my daddy.
- [Thomas] I thought I was your daddy.
- [Shantel] You are, you're my big daddy.
- [Chris] I like that.
Don't keep me waiting, now.
(phone ringing)
- All right, hello, hello?
Hold on a second, I can't hear you.
Hey, turn the music down, I'm on the phone.
- What?
- Renee, turn the music down, I'm on the phone.
- Well, get off the phone.
- Renee, turn the music down or the party is over.
- You happy, Your Majesty.
- Love you.
Wait, what?
- What took you so long?
- Sorry, Renee was playing the music really loud
and I couldn't hear you.
- Old crazy Renee, huh?
So how my girl been doing?
- Oh, so now I'm your girl, huh?
- You always gonna be my girl.
Listen, I've been up in there thinking some things through
and one thing that's for sure is you.
Look, Shantel, I need you, baby.
- Well I couldn't tell, you know, with how we left off.
- Listen, look, I'm a changed man.
- Well, it's a little too late for that now, Terrance.
I've moved on.
- Moved on, with who?
- That's none of your business.
(scoffing)
- Look, please don't tell me it's Can't Get Right Thomas.
(laughing)
Listen, I got breaking news for you, baby,
that ain't even real.
We real!
Now say it.
- Say what?
- We real!
- That's stupid.
- Uh-huh, I'm waiting.
- Whatever, we're real.
- Yeah, that's my girl.
- You need anything?
- Yeah.
But nothing you can give me over the phone.
- Eh, Terrance!
Well, you know when you get out I'm all yours.
- Yeah, you better be.
- [Shantel] I miss you.
- Yeah, I know, I gotta go.
- Okay, I love you, T.
- Yeah, you better.
- [Shantel] What?
- What?
(laughing)
Look, I'm just playing with you.
I love you too, I gotta go.
(people chatting)
- Let's crank this party back up in here!
(all cheering)
(upbeat hip-hop music)
- Jesus, oh, ho, ho, ho, ho, ho, ho, ho,
I thought you were supposed to be showing me something?
- Sorry, but that show has been canceled.
- What?
- I could still show you the door if you want?
- Oh, it's like that?
Was that T on the phone?
So we been kicking it all this time, but as soon as he call
you gonna quit us like that?
- Us?
Sweetie, sorry to break it to you,
but there never was an us.
- Look, you ain't gonna just lead me on
and just play me like that. - You better let go of my arm!
- [Renee] You better let go of my sister's arm!
- Or what?
(gun clicking)
- Or me.
Hey, you know you need to get up off my sister, cuz.
- Big man with the gun, huh?
- Nah, more like big brother looking out for little sister.
Now you need to roll.
- Shantel, don't you call me again.
- Bye.
- [Thomas] You better watch your back.
- How 'bout I put a couple in yours
if you ain't out the door in three?
- Get out my way.
- Look, you gotta stop
leading these fools on like that, sis.
- Look, it's fine, he all right.
- Nah, for real, for real,
they don't be playing around like that, stop doing--
- Look, Ray, it's fine, I didn't ask you to save me
in the first place!
- All right, let's get this party back going.
- Yay! - Yeah!
- It's definitely! - Come on, come on.
(all screaming)
(gun blaring)
(children crying)
(tires squealing)
(people screaming)
- [Shantel] It's okay, it's okay, it's okay.
- Freeze!
- Man, how'd y'all get here so fast?
(people screaming)
- What's gonna happen to Ray?
- I don't know.
- It was self-defense.
He was protecting us, right?
- Of course he was, but they're not gonna see it like that.
- This is all so crazy!
I mean, Curt told me right, he--
- Mm-mm, don't do that.
- Hey, should we pray?
- Pray?
- Yeah, yeah, we should pray.
Ne, you pray.
- Shantel, you know I don't know how--
- Well try, I need you to try, come on.
- Hey, God.
How you doing?
(clearing throat)
Can you please watch over my brother?
He did save us, so, that means he did something good, right?
Please make sure the police don't beat him up.
Amen.
- You have to say Jesus.
- What?
- Say Jesus, Renee.
- Amen, Jesus.
(knocking on door)
- [Mrs. Peterson] Mrs. Taylor?
- [Shantel] Yeah.
- [Mrs. Peterson] I'm Mrs. Peterson.
- [Shantel] Why do I care?
- [Mrs. Peterson] May I come in?
(suspenseful music)
- What, where is he going?
What, where is he go--
- Excuse me, Ms. Taylor.
- Mrs. Taylor, I am here because your children
was in an unsafe environment
that had a devastating development occur.
- Unsafe, devastating?
- Yes, very unsafe, Mrs. Taylor.
The police reported the usage of drug paraphernalia
and gunshots, that type of environment
is extremely unsafe for your children.
- Yo, who the hell is this woman?
- [Renee] Calm down.
- Mrs. Taylor, that's what I'm trying to tell you!
You've been relinquished custody of your children.
- Relinquished?
- [Child] Mama, mama!
- Oh my God,
let go of him right now! - Get away from me!
Get him off! - Let go
of him right now! - Ms. Taylor, Ms. Taylor!
- [Child] Get him off!
(all clamoring)
- Look, ma'am.
- Ms. Taylor, let go. - Let go of him!
Let go of him! - Ms. Taylor.
Ms. Taylor. - We'll get him back.
- Ms. Taylor. - Come on, baby.
- [Officer] Ms. Taylor,
Ms. Taylor. - No, let go of him!
Get off of me,
you can't do this! - Settle down.
- No, this woman crazy, think she about to take my kids.
Get off of me,
y'all can't do this to me. - Ms. Taylor!
- I'm sorry, Mrs. Taylor,
but their father has been notified.
- I don't care who you called, go out there
and bring my kids back!
- How you gonna take her kids away,
what kinda monsters are you?
Right in front of her face, really?
(groaning)
- I'm sorry, Mrs. Taylor, but they have been put
in the custody of their new legal guardian.
- Legal, my guardian, my--
- [Officer] Mrs. Taylor.
- I'm their legal guardian, I care about them.
They're mine, they're mine, don't go, no!
No, no, I'm right here!
No, let go of me. - Stop.
It's okay. - Let go of me.
- [Renee] You're okay,
we're gonna work this out.
- [Kira] Stop, we're gonna
figure this out. - No, not my kids!
I can't believe they took them from me, me,
their mom, and they didn't even tell me.
And Ray, Ray's in jail.
(phone ringing)
- [Chris] Who dis?
- Who dis?
The mother of your kids, that's who.
- Oh, this the woman who almost got my kids shot?
- [Shantel] I didn't, I...
Look, are they all right?
- Yeah, they fine now.
- Let me speak to them. - Can I speak to mama?
- No, they don't wanna talk to you.
- [Child] Can I speak to mom?
- Man, y'all shut up and go to your rooms!
- Baby, it's all right, mommy's here.
- Look, I've been appointed custody,
so I'm gonna do what you couldn't, take care of my kids.
- Look, I am more than capable of taking care of my kids.
You can't do--
(phone clicking)
Hello? Hello?
Chris, Chris, Chris, pick up the phone.
Chris, you can't do me--
- [Renee] Shay!
- Chris, pick up the ph--
- Shay, hang up the phone!
- But my kids are--
- Hang up the phone.
Now.
Shay, come in here and sit with us.
- [Shantel] He has my kid.
- Sit down.
Just sit down.
- Look, girl, you need to hit some of this.
- What is it?
- It's just a laced blunt.
- What is it laced with?
- It's laced with the good good, powder, girl.
- Powder? Like cocaine?
- Look, you need to forget.
All right?
This will help you do that.
- How can I forget?
- You will.
- [Kira] Mm-hmm.
- Just take a couple puffs,
come on. - Come on, come on.
(soft music)
- Is that it?
- First of all, you need to do it again,
and this time do it for real, inhale harder.
Come on, it's the good good, girl, come on.
(coughing)
(all laughing)
Ooh, I think she likes it.
- Mm-hmm, uh-huh.
- You know what?
How 'bout we leave her with a bag over here?
She need to get through all this,
this gonna help her.
- [Renee] She like that feeling.
- This feeling, I need this feeling.
(crying)
(soft music)
(coughing)
(dramatic music)
(phone ringing)
Hello?
- Hey girl, how you holding up?
- I'm surviving.
- I hear that.
Please tell me you ain't smoked up all that stuff already?
- I couldn't help it.
- Wow, all of it, huh?
- That baby daddy of yours, did he have a problem
with you staying out late last night?
- No, but he was getting onto me about hanging around you.
I'm like, you just want me to dis my sister?
- What he say?
- Girl, he was like, "She'll be all right."
"She's trouble for you right now."
- Hater, he just mad
because he can't have as much fun as you
working that third shift job.
- I know, right?
He has such a bad attitude sometimes.
So, when you plan on throwing another party?
- I don't know, the place barely survived the last one.
Plus, I plan to go see my boo today.
I really need to see him.
- Who? Terrance?
Girl, stop!
- No, I'm serious.
I know he's doing a little time,
but I'm a ride or die chick, so you already know.
- Y'all crazy.
Why are you taking him back?
What did he do to you?
- We connected or something, I can't really explain it.
But, he told me he loved me yesterday on the phone.
- That's why that dude flipped out on you,
when you got off the phone, mm-hmm.
- [Curt] Renee, I thought you made something to eat.
- Look in the refrigerator.
- [Curt] I don't see it.
- On the bottom shelf in the back, stupid.
- [Curt] Is this supposed to be greens?
(sighing)
- Girl, let me get off this phone
before this man eat something that is gonna kill him.
(chuckling)
- You should let him.
- Ooh.
- [Shantel] All right, talk to you laters.
- All right.
- [Shantel] See you.
- Okay, bye.
(sighing)
(phone ringing)
- I accept.
- What's up, gorgeous?
- I'm good.
- That's good to hear.
I'm glad you came to visit me the other day.
- You were looking real good.
- Look, aye, slow down, don't get me excited, now.
I miss you too.
But Shantel, I got something I need to ask you.
- What is it, T?
- You love me?
- [Shantel] What?
- Do you love me?
- [Shantel] You know I do, Terrance, why you ask that?
- Well prove it.
Marry me.
- What?
How?
- We can get married in here.
- [Shantel] Are you serious?
- Yeah, this weekend.
- This weekend?
Isn't that a little...
- [Terrance] Look, do you love me?
- Yes, but...
- Ain't no buts to it, Shantel.
Listen, I told you, I'm a changed man, baby.
And I'm serious.
Listen, we real and we work.
- I guess.
Yes.
Yes, Terrance, I'll marry you.
- Aye, aye, we getting married, y'all.
- Oh, man. - Oh, come on.
- Get off the phone,
man, come on. - We getting married.
But listen, I gotta go, love you.
You can have that back now.
♪ We're gonna dance until you feel the groove ♪
- Renee, we gotta do something tonight, I mean, I'm engaged.
- So, I guess I'm okay with you marrying my brother.
But just remember, in case something goes down
I am still right across the street, remember that.
- Girl, get off my sister,
we are here to celebrate her engagement.
Okay, come on,
let's cheers to that. - I guess. (all laughing)
♪ On tonight ♪
♪ We're gonna go 'til the morning light ♪
♪ We're gonna show out 'til the morning light ♪
- So Slick, what you get me?
- I gotta get you something?
- [Kira] Yeah.
(scoffing)
- All right, take that.
- [Shantel] What's this?
- That's some weed and some powder.
- Aye, hold up, bruh, why you even give my sister that, man?
- Aye, from what I heard she smoking already.
- Sissy, you really messing with that now?
- Chill, Ray, okay, I'm good.
Renee let's go out there.
- You ain't said nothing but a word.
- Yo, where you going?
- Play your dominoes, Ray, okay?
Play your dominoes. - We ain't done.
- Aye, don't y'all blow all that in one night.
- So, what you get for me?
- Oh, you gonna find out later on.
- Mm, okay, I'll drink to that.
- Aye, Slick, man, you really can't be giving that
to my sister, though, man.
- Let me ask you something?
How you get outta jail anyway?
- You know they can't hold me down.
It was self-defense.
- So what are you on probation?
- Yeah, for possession of a weapon.
- They take your gun?
- I got another one.
- I hope you ain't get it from that buster raggedy.
You know he got them defective gun fresh off the boat.
- What you talking about?
Oh no, man, you think I'm a end up like Thomas?
- [Slick] I hope not.
- That old gank gear riding looking boy.
(all laughing)
- I need to get up.
(groaning)
I need to get cleaned up.
(groaning)
I'm getting married tomorrow.
(groaning)
"Dear Mrs. Taylor, due to the change in custody."
What the hell?
(phone ringing)
- Hello.
- You couldn't wait, huh?
- Wait for what?
- Oh really?
You know exactly what I'm talking about.
- Oh, you mean child support.
I mean, what can I say?
Good luck.
- Hello, hello?
Chris, you bastard!
(phone ringing)
Chris, next time you--
- Aye, man, whoa, it's Slick.
- Oh, hey, Slick, I thought you were Chris.
- Yeah, yeah, I got that but I was calling you because--
- What is it, Slick?
- I may have let something over there,
did you come across it?
- What, Slick?
- You know.
- Slick, spit it out.
- I may have left some product over there,
you come across it?
- No.
- That musta been one heck of a conversation
you was having with Chris.
- Speed it up, Slick.
- Look, ma, you come across something of mine
let me know, all right?
- Okay, bye.
First he takes my kids, then he takes my income.
Ooh, I really need a fix right now.
(knocking on door)
Doesn't anyone know how to knock?
- I did, ain't nobody answered.
- Well that means don't come in.
- Whatever, sis, what you doing?
- Ray, what you want?
- Look, I just come to check on you,
ain't nobody heard from you in a few days,
and, don't you got a wedding tomorrow?
- I'll take care of that tomorrow.
Help me lift this chair up.
Shoot, where is it?
- Where is what?
- Kitchen.
- Look, I don't know what's going on with you sis, but...
Oh my God, this kitchen's a mess!
- I'll clean it later.
- For real, you doing that now, sis?
Look, this little habit of yours is starting
to get a little--
- Is what?
This little habit is what?
Holding me together right now.
- Look, I'm just worried about you, sis.
- How 'bout you stop worrying, Ray?
I'm 'bout sick of you, okay.
My kids are gone, my income is gone,
my fiance is in prison and I'm alone.
I feel so alone, Ray.
- Look, you're not alone, I got your back, sis,
and I always will.
You know that, right?
(soft music)
- Yeah, I know.
I'm sorry, Ray, I love you.
- Look, I should be apologizing to you,
I feel like this is all my fault, you know?
If I woulda just--
- I'm getting married tomorrow, Ray.
- Yeah, you are.
(soft music)
- Repeat after me, I, Terrance Taylor.
- I, Terrance Taylor.
- [Pastor] Take thee, Shantel Reynolds.
- Take, thee, Shantel Reynolds.
- [Pastor] To be my wedded wife.
- To be my wedded wife.
- [Pastor] To have and to hold.
- To have and to hold.
- [Pastor] From this day forward.
- From this day forward.
- [Pastor] For better or for worse.
- For better or for worse.
- For richer or for poor.
- [Pastor] In sickness and in health.
- In sickness and in health.
- [Pastor] To love and to cherish.
- To love and to cherish.
- [Pastor] 'Til death do us part.
- 'Til death do us part.
- Repeat after me.
I, Shantel Reynolds.
- I, Shantel Reynolds.
- Take thee, Terrance Taylor.
- To be my wedded husband.
- To love and to hold.
- [Pastor] From this day forward.
- [Shantel] From this day forward.
- [Pastor] For better or for worse.
- [Shantel] For better or for worse.
- For richer or for poor.
- In sickness and in health.
- To love and to cherish.
- [Pastor] 'Til death do us part.
- 'Til death do us part.
- For as much as Terrance Taylor and Shantel Reynolds
have consented together in holy wedlock
and have witnessed the same before God,
in this company, and thereto have given and pledged
their faith to each other, I now pronounce you
husband and wife, you may kiss your bride.
(clapping)
(soft music)
- So, how does it feel to be a new bride?
- It feels so good, you know, like a void has been filled.
- Yes.
What's wrong with you, Renee?
Why you looking like that?
- Look, it's been fun,
but I can't hang around you two anymore.
- Can't or don't want to?
- It's not like that Shay, it's not.
Curt keeps saying how you two are a bad influence on me.
- We're a bad influence on you?
Really?
- Well, I only wanna do those things when I'm with y'all.
When I'm with him it's not like that.
- You're joking, right?
Girl, this is just your way of hating.
- Hating?
- Yes, Shay is married now, and guess what?
You're not.
- This has nothing to do with it.
- [Kira] Oh really?
- I could care less about her little locked up marriage.
- Ah!
- Thing is, I'm moving outta state, and I'm glad now.
I don't need to be around a bunch of hood rats anyway.
- Girl, I will smack the taste out--
- Chill, Kira, it's okay.
'Cause see, it's my wedding day.
And I'm not gonna be pulled down to your level.
You know why?
'Cause see, I's married now!
(both laughing)
Married!
(both laughing)
She trying to talk about me. - Yes, girl.
I know, is she talking about us? I was tripping.
I don't know why I was tripping. (soft music)
- Yeah, you are.
Bye Shay.
I'm really gonna miss you.
- I didn't know you could get married in prisons,
when we get outta here I'm calling Hector.
- Yeah, disturb him, while he's with his side chick.
- Don't talk about Hector like that, he's a good man.
- I'm just saying, I don't trust him.
- And I'm just saying, he may not be your favorite,
but he's mine, and we're going to be married.
- Good luck with that
(speaking in foreign language)
- What, he's definitely not Papi Pablo, huh?
- You know, marriage ain't all it's cracked up to be.
(scoffing)
- I don't know, I like the idea
of two people finding each other.
Guess I'm just a hopeless romantic that way.
- Did it help with the loneliness
even though he was locked up?
- It was a temporary happiness knowing I had a husband.
He also sent money to hold me off.
- How?
- He was running the block at the time
so he still had people making drops.
- This just gets better and better.
- Seems like you got a little judgment
in your tone, Mya.
- Yeah, I picked up on that too.
- No judgment, I'm just saying.
- It's fine, I'm used to it,
Jesus had to pull me through it.
- Jesus did that for you?
- You mean this change you see now?
Yes.
- How?
I tried God, He didn't work for me.
And it really pisses me off when people say
Jesus did this and that.
- And don't forget, "Won't He do it?"
- Yeah, I know, right.
Know, He won't.
- Whoa, looks like finally Ms. Muffinen coming into
her true colors.
- Shut up, Tonya.
(laughing)
- Woo, hoo-hoo, she bites.
- You better watch yourself, she on a rampage.
- All right, ladies, look, Mya, I'm only telling you
how He helped me and opened my eyes to deception.
- Deception?
- Yes, deception, it's also a drug
that we can become addicted to.
For example, you'll believe a lie over the truth
even when you know the truth.
- Yeah, like Hector is a good man.
- Shut up, Lisa, you leave him outta this!
- I'm just saying, I think you're deceiving yourself
and you know it, he's no good.
- Well, I was deceived by people
that call themself Christians.
- Have you ever been deceived by men?
- Yeah, of course.
What young girl hasn't?
- And do you still like men?
- If not, you know you can come see me.
(sucking lips)
- [Mya] Yeah.
- And you still give them chance after chance.
- Yeah, but I'm more aware now
on who's running game and what's real.
- And that's the same thing with God,
transfer that awareness, and you'll know what's real.
Sad to say there are those out there
who try and take advantage.
But, there are also those out there who are true.
Unfortunately for me, I was deceiving myself at that age.
Drugs were a God to me and it was only getting worse.
- So, I told him, don't have my baby around that girl.
She is too disrespectful and I don't like her.
He always claiming he's not with her,
but he's over there every day.
You know what I'm talking about, girl?
Shantel, Shantel, what's wrong?
- Can't you see it?
- [Kira] See what?
- My skin.
- Your skin, is there something on it?
- No, it's not there, it's gone!
- [Kira] What is gone?
- Turn the car around, turn the car around now!
- Shantel, you are tripping, you are tripping.
- I can't make it come back, it's not a dream.
Take me home, take me home now, I'm dying!
- You're dying?
Shay, what are you talking?
You're scaring me, what's wrong with you?
Please tell me, what are you talking about?
- [Shantel] Call my brother.
- [Kira] What?
- Call my brother, I'm dying!
(gasping)
(whimpering)
(dramatic music)
(panting)
(coughing)
- Hey, hey you, is this yours?
- You can keep it.
- Do you know Slick?
- Excuse me?
- You know him?
- Edie!
You opted out of the program, you are well aware
that you need to leave the premises.
- I was just asking her for some gum.
You think you know everything, Ms. Tina, but you don't.
Wasn't I just asking you for some gum?
- Leave!
(sighing)
I'm sorry you had to witness that Shantel.
Everybody isn't ready to change.
Well, I need to go to the back
to get the rest of your paperwork together
and make sure your space is ready for you.
I'll be back to get you shortly.
- Ms. Tina, is it?
- [Tina] Yes.
- I don't think I'm a drug addict.
I mean, sure, I do smoke, but, I'm nothing like that.
- I see, why don't you read those pamphlets
and decide for yourself?
The treatment is completely optional.
- Okay.
"Why are you a drug addict?"
I don't know, you tell me.
"If you answer yes to any of these questions
"you are an addict."
Okay.
"Do you do drugs alone?"
Not all the time.
"Have you ever lied or stolen for drugs?"
Of course, how else am I gonna get it.
"Are doing drugs effecting your life's happiness?"
I don't know, I can't feel anything when I'm on them.
"Is doing drugs making you careless
"about your family's welfare?"
I mean, I know I haven't been a good mother,
but does that mean I'm a drug addict?
- Hey!
- Girl, you better go on, they gonna catch you.
- Do you know Slick?
(whimsical music)
(roommate snoring)
(hip-hop music)
- Got a package for you.
- Thanks for coming through for me.
- No doubt.
But doesn't that defeat the purpose?
- Look, you don't understand, okay?
The food's bad, these females crazy.
My roommate snores, and I'm trying to fight the urge
not to smother her in her sleep.
By the way, I met a fan of yours in here.
- I'm pretty sure you'll meet a lotta my fans in here.
- You know Amy?
- What?
- Amy, that's her name, she was asking about you.
- Schizo Amy?
Yeah, I know her.
- I'm sure you do.
- Shantel!
What are you doing?
- Gotta go.
- Aye!
Make sure get me some business in here, man.
(knocking)
- Yes, come in.
- Hi, Ms. Tina, I hope I'm not bothering you.
- No, we have an open door policy.
- That's good to know.
I need to tell you something.
- What's going on, are you quitting?
- I got high last night.
- What, last night?
Where, and was anyone with you?
- No.
(scoffing)
- It was that guy you snuck off to see, wasn't it?
- Look, I'm really sorry, it was just a slip up.
But I really do wanna finish the program.
- Well you won't be finishing it here.
I can't allow it.
You could've put someone's life on the line.
- I know, I feel bad.
- You should.
We work hard here.
Some of us used to be addicts too.
We put our names and our own lives on the line every day
to help those who want to be helped.
I'm sorry.
- Please, please, I'm sorry, please give me another chance,
I will do anything.
I can't leave here the same way I came in.
If I do I'm going to die.
- All right, all right.
I'm gonna give you one more chance.
But I'm going to place you on heavy restrictions.
- Heavy what?
- There's no food allowed in the dorm rooms,
no visitors after 6:00 p.m.
And there will be no tolerance for any fighting in there,
do you understand?
- Yes, ma'am.
- Oh, did you make your family aware
that you're going to be here?
- Yes, ma'am.
- Okay, one more thing.
If you do not follow these rules,
we will dismiss you immediately!
Okay?
- Yes, ma'am.
- This is your study guide.
- The Bible?
- Is that a little too unfamiliar for you?
- I coulda read a Bible before I got here.
- Well, did you?
- So I'm not gonna be given any NA books
to help me with stepworks.
- Your journey is a little different from everyone else's.
Your steps come straight from the Bible.
And when we strengthen you, first, we do it spiritually,
mentally, physically.
And if you need any help, or don't understand something,
I am here for you, I'll help you.
- The scripture says in Hosea chapter four verse six that,
"My people are being destroyed for a lack of knowledge."
That word knowledge is a very powerful word.
It comes from the word yada, Y-A-D-A.
Which has to do with kinsmenship,
friendship, relationship.
And so, what he's saying in this scripture,
what he's telling us is that, in order for us
to have a good life and not be destroyed,
we have to gain wisdom and knowledge.
Knowledge with Him, relationship, knowing who He is
and the benefits He has for each and every one of us.
It's time to stop being selfish.
It's time to think about other people
who are depending on us to make the right decisions.
As a matter of fact, tomorrow night I'm gonna be speaking
at an event and I wanna make a personal invitation
to each one of you,
I want you to come and be my special guests.
It's gonna be an awesome event.
Young lady, God has a calling on your life.
- What, me?
- [Pastor] Yes, you.
- Who's calling me?
- [Pastor] God's calling you.
(scoffing)
- No, I don't think so.
I'm definitely not someone Jesus would wanna talk to.
- Well, the thing is, that's what He wants to do,
He wants to talk to you.
But the key is you being ready to receive Him.
- Him?
- [Pastor] Yes, Jesus.
- Nah, I don't even know Jesus like that.
I mean, not yet.
- Well, the thing is, He knows you.
And eventually, you're gonna wanna know Him.
So everybody, I look forward to seeing y'all tomorrow night.
It's gonna be a awesome time together, God bless you.
- Young lady, take this seriously,
God has a major calling in your life.
- Thanks, Pastor.
♪ La da da da da ♪
♪ Da da da mm mm ♪
♪ I'm pressing towards the mark ♪
♪ I'm pushing toward the prize ♪
♪ I can't give up now ♪
♪ 'Cause I've come to realize ♪
♪ That these problems that I'm facing ♪
♪ Are just steps to win the race ♪
♪ I know that God will get me through ♪
♪ These obstacles in life ♪
♪ I'm striving dead ahead ♪
♪ I keep my goals in front of me ♪
♪ The plan, just stay ahead ♪
♪ And I admit it gets hard sometimes ♪
♪ And I want to just give up ♪
♪ God will get me through ♪
♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yes ♪
Right now I want you to do this.
If you need God in your life and you need God
to make some changes in your life,
meet me up here right quick, I just wanna pray with you.
Just move quickly, don't wait, don't hesitate,
don't think about it, just move quickly.
I'd love to come into agreement with you.
Some of you facing some mountains.
♪ May God forgive me ♪
- Do you want prayer?
- Yes.
- What do you want a prayer for?
- I just want prayer.
- What do you want God to do for you?
- I just wanna walk and talk with Jesus.
- Repeat after me.
Heavenly Father.
- [Shantel] Heavenly Father.
- [Woman] I need You in my life.
- [Shantel] I need You in my life.
- [Woman] Forgive me for all of my sins.
- [Shantel] Forgive me of all of my sins.
- [Woman] Take over me.
- [Shantel] Take over me.
- [Woman] Consume me.
- [Shantel] Consume me.
- [Woman] Give me a relationship with You.
- [Shantel] Give me a relationship with You.
- [Woman] In Jesus' name.
- [Shantel] In Jesus' name.
- [Woman] In Jesus' name.
- In Jesus's name.
- [Woman] In Jesus' name!
- [Shantel] In Jesus' name!
- Amen!
- Amen, amen, amen!
Hallelujah. - Young lady,
the spirit of the Lord is on you right now.
The spirit of the Lord is up on you right now.
This is the transformation you've been praying for.
This is what your family's been praying for.
This is the moment you've cried about.
Cried out to God and you asked God to bring this season
into your life, and this is your season right now.
Chains are being broken off of you right now.
Generational curses are being broken off of you right now.
This is your season, this is your moment for a turnaround.
God has arrested this moment for you to have victory.
For you to have freedom, for you to walk into your destiny,
your God given destiny!
Give Him praise right now, everybody, lift up your hands
and bless His name.
- Thank you, Jesus.
- [Pastor] Celebrate for my sister right now.
- [Shantel] Thank you!
- Receive, receive blessings.
Receive right now in Jesus' name.
Devil I dare you to touch my sister again.
I rebuke you in the name of Jesus.
Loose my sister and set her free.
Loose her from her past.
God, I pray that You would propel her into her future.
Into her God given destiny.
There won't be no hex, no curse,
no nothing that will keep you
from walking into what God has called you to walk into.
Rejoice with my sister one more time.
- Thank you, Jesus, thank you Jesus for everything.
- I don't know how this work, but Freda can't wait
to get outta here.
- Me too.
- We need to go get our nails done.
- Yes!
- You ain't lying. - That's what we need to do.
- That'd be awesome.
- What in the hell? - What in the hell?
- What? - In the world.
- You know what?
She always doing something.
- I don't know, I ain't even.
- Jessica.
- What?
- I got the Holy Ghost.
- The Holy Ghost? Great.
- No, I went to Bible study last night,
it was so awesome and so amazing.
Oh my God!
(screaming)
Tammy, I got the Holy Ghost!
(screaming)
I got the Holy Ghost!
(screaming)
Pat, I got the Holy Ghost!
(squealing)
- Hey, Shantel, we have pizza, are you coming to join us?
- Oh, no thanks.
- Anything wrong, I haven't seen you eat for days, girl?
- I'm eating, it's just a different type of food.
- Oh, okay, well, I'm not going to argue
with a woman on a mission.
- [Girl] Y'all crazy.
I'm gonna do - Excuse me,
excuse me. - what I wanna do!
- Girl, put this shirt back on!
Don't you take this off young lady, and stop it, stop it!
- I think you're doing a great job
in Spiritual Developmental Courses.
So, we would like to know how you feel
about teaching others the Word of God?
(laughing)
- Me?
Oh, God, no, no.
Lord, not me.
- Why not you?
- Why not me?
How can I teach people how to live
when I'm still in rehab?
- I cannot deny that there's a calling on your life.
And I cannot deny what the Spirit has led me to tell you,
and that's teaching.
- I done grew up around arguing, fighting, cussing, killing.
I've seen mothers sell their furniture
and their kid's toys just to get high and by, okay?
I don't know nothing about no preaching.
- What you just said right there will preach.
Look, just sleep on it awhile.
(soft music)
Also there's a Bible verse, Ephesians 1:17-19,
I want you to meditate on it.
- What's it about?
- Study it, and then you come back and tell me.
In the meantime, think about my offer.
- All right.
- Don't be afraid of the calling on your life.
You have a strong testimony.
Just think of how many people, women, you will help.
Just remember, you can't hang around
with the same bad influences.
- Funny, someone told me the exact same thing.
(all laughing)
- You should be proud, you came from a long, difficult,
and a very hard place.
So now you can make something good out of yourself!
- Yes, girl!
Thank you Ms. Margaret.
(all screaming)
I'll still see you.
Kira!
- Hey.
- What you?
Girl, here, take my bag, come on now.
Ah ha!
(hip-hop music)
- Look, just because you decided to get clean
it doesn't mean I'm gonna get clean.
I'm just saying, I'm not gonna stop smoking, I'm not.
What is so funny?
- Nothing, nothing's funny.
Thanks for picking me up, I really appreciate it.
Thanks for being a really good friend.
- You're welcome.
♪ Hold me ♪
♪ I'm crying, Lord ♪
♪ And I need You, Lord ♪
♪ Help me, Lord ♪
♪ I can't make it without You, Lord ♪
♪ Help me ♪
♪ Help me, help me, help me ♪
♪ I really need You, Lord ♪
♪ Come on, Lord and help me ♪
Hallelujah, I need You, Lord.
- She has accepted hour call to preach.
And I want her to come and share from the Word of the Lord,
would y'all please make some noise and celebrate my sis,
Shantel as she comes to minister today.
(audience cheering and applauding)
- Amen, amen.
Hallelujah, is there anyone else who's grateful
that even in my mess God sees a calling on my life?
That God will still use you?
(audience cheering and applauding)
My name is Shantel Taylor, I am very unqualified on paper,
but I am so grateful that God qualifies the called.
And I answered the call.
I feel the power of the Holy Spirit, I thought it was fear.
But when it says the Spirit of the Lord is here,
there is liberty.
So right now I'ma give every demon in this room
five seconds to get out.
Because if I'm getting free that means
everyone connected to me is getting free too,
so you got five, four,
three, two, one, I'ma lift up a shout of praise
because if I can get free from crack cocaine
what can you get free from?
You can get free from free.
You can get free from lust, you can get free
from drug addiction, homosex, whatever it is,
if I can get free you can get free as well.
Holy Spirit.
I'ma hit you real quick with a wham bam, thank you ma'am.
And get out, I'm speaking from Mark 5, versus 5-8.
It says, "Day and night he wandered among the burial caves
"and in the hills howling and cutting himself
"with sharp stones."
"When Jesus was still some distance away the man saw him,
"ran to meet him, and bowed low before him."
The title of my sermon is
"Prepare to Come Out of Dark Places."
Would you bow your heads with me briefly?
Father God, I magnify Your holy name.
Father I lift You up, I also decrease
so that You may increase, Lord.
Please make my tongue a ready sword
to cut against the enemy and every demonic voice
that is trying to keep your people in bondage.
I ask that the Holy Spirit infect this place, Lord,
release the fire of God.
In Jesus name I pray, amen.
- [Congregation] Amen.
- Have you made preparations
to come out of your dark places?
You know, your caves where you handle your depression,
your isolation, your sadness.
What do your hands touch in your cave?
Who do drag in your dark places?
For me, how I dealt with my break-ups was finding
another man to save.
Oh, but God, he needs me, I can change him.
How many of you are looking for projects?
How many of you are in ungodly relationships
simply because that person was available.
What are you doing in your cave?
How do you handle your sadness?
I'm here to tell you that the Bible talks about dark places.
In Psalms 23:4 it says, "Ye, though I would through
"the valley of the shadow of death."
Let's stop right there, valley.
If there's a valley that means
there's a peak before me and behind me.
And if there's a shadow, in order for a shadow to exist
that means there has to be light in the mid of darkness.
For those of you who are in some darkness I need you to know
there's a present help, there is a present light
right next to you, but you gotta keep walking.
Do not get content in your dark places.
I need you to understand, don't pitch a tent in hell.
Some of you are content with your family conflict,
you are content that you and your daughter
don't speak anymore, pack up your tent
and get ready to walk.
The only way you gonna get out of dark places
is if keep moving to the light.
And I need to let you know, if I could keep walking
even though I stumbled I gave myself permission
to try again.
Give yourself permission to try again.
"How do you get outta dark places, Shantel?"
I'm glad you asked.
James 5:16 says, "Confess your sins to one another
"and pray for each other so that you may be healed,"
"for the prayers of a good man
"are both righteous and effective."
So what does that mean?
Some of you keep coming here,
and you are suffering in silence.
Nobody knows what you're going through.
You are lying convincingly when someone says, "How are you?"
And you say, "Okay."
And that silence is the enemy
putting a muzzle on your mouth of shame,
and shame is why you go in your cave.
Shame is why I was doing crack in my cave.
What are you doing in your cave?
Come to the light, you gotta talk to somebody about it.
And under the sound of my voice
whatever God is revealing to you,
He wants to release it from you.
Whatever He is revealing to you He wants to
release it from you in the name of Jesus.
Some of you are looking at me, "Who is she?"
"Why is she talking?"
I'm somebody who's been clean from crack cocaine
from seven months right now.
I'm somebody, I grew up in a household and a community
of women selling their furniture for drugs,
selling their kids toys for drugs,
watching drug dealers take the money
knowing that they're killing other people,
but you know what?
When we are in dark places we lack empathy.
'Cause when we are in a cave we are a victim and a villain.
Who are you hurting
because you choose to stay in your dark places?
My God, I'm here to let you know
that you cannot be selfish with your testimony.
Someone's life is dependent on it,
people are not relating to you
simply because you've overcome,
I need to know that you struggled with something
and you got through, that's what's gonna keep me encouraged
and some of you, you gotta open your mouth.
Stop suffering in silence, the prayers of a good man
are righteous and effective.
And as it says in Ezekiel 33:6, "If I see the sword
"and I do not blow the trumpet your blood
"will be on my hands."
I don't want your blood on my hands,
I shared my word, I shared my word.
You go share your word too, thank you, Jesus.
(audience cheering and applauding)
(upbeat music)
Thank you!
- Don't tell me you're crying.
- Chill, leave her alone.
Here, mommy.
- Ew!
- All this time I never thought about how I was living,
or if I was really even living.
- Yeah, it hit me like that too.
Change was destined to happen, God had a plan for my life
and I finally started to listen.
Something my father wanted.
- What about your parents?
Did they ever come to see you?
- My mom was locked up.
She was the quiet type, always kept to herself,
but, one day, the wrong man rubbed her the wrong way,
and (clucking tongue) she shot him.
- Whoa!
See, them quiet people can be deadly.
So, what was your dad?
Let me guess, I bet he was a big time gangster.
- Actually, he was a deacon.
- Girl!
What, for real?
- He always tried to get me to go to church
but I just wanted to get high, so we had an agreement,
he would leave me alone
as long as he could take the kids to church.
He kept his distance and just prayed for me.
- And how would you know that?
- My kids would tell me.
They would also tell me
that they were praying for me as well.
I'm sure it was their prayers
that kept me saved many of nights.
- My kids pray for me.
Matter of fact, they call me every day
just to tell me they love me.
- Okay.
I mean, how long has your man been locked up?
Shouldn't he be out by now?
- Crazy thing, he been out.
- Huh? - What?
- He got out for a little while and didn't even tell me.
- How can someone who say they love you do that to you?
- Well, the last time we had a visit we had an argument.
He didn't like me telling him how to change
and he said he didn't want anything to do with me or God.
So I got mad and I said, well, if you don't want God,
then you don't want me.
I thought eventually he would change his mind.
- That's too bad, you thought wrong.
- [Terrance] Look, I just need somebody
that's gonna hold me down
like I hold them down, you know?
- [Woman] Okay.
- You know, if you with it, let's get it.
I'm for real, let's get it.
Hold up.
Ah, hell naw.
Everything gonna be cool, don't worry about nothing,
just stay right here, all right.
- I should cut your genitals off and FedEx them to your mom.
- My what?
- What are you doing, what are you doing, Terrance?
- Look, man, cool out.
- So it's bad enough you got outta jail and didn't tell me,
and now you up here with some hoochie.
- She ain't
no hoochie. - Hoochie,
you know he married, right?
- He didn't tell me - She ain't no hoochie.
- he was married!
- Who you talking?
Say something else, say something else smart to me
so I can rip your tongue - Aye, Shantel!
out from your mouth.
- You a preacher, remember?
You need to cool out.
- Why you got me out here looking stupid?
- I ain't got you out here looking stupid.
- What, you want a divorce?
- Nah.
- Then why you acting like it, Terrance.
- Good for nothing, nigga, don't call me!
(Terrance stammering)
- Aye!
(Shantel stammering)
- You don't even know her name, do you.
- Man, shut up.
- Aye! - Shame.
- Yo.
Shantel!
Aye!
Yo.
Aye, y'all quit walking away from me.
Shantel!
Aye!
- So, he was talking about trying something new
like skydiving, right?
But he's afraid of heights.
Talking about, "I may not make it back alive."
I told him, you're not leaving me broke.
You better go sign some life insurance papers,
and then, you can go and sky die.
(all laughing)
- Die, that's a little severe, don't you think?
- No.
- Girl, you crazy.
- I'm so serious, though.
(phone ringing)
- Oh, excuse me, I gotta go get this.
♪ I'm trying to really change ♪
- Hello.
- Hey baby, it's me.
- Terrance!
Terrance!
- [Terrance] What's going on?
- Terrance, is everything okay,
it sounds a little noisy out there.
- [Woman] You are no good!
- Yeah, everything cool, what you up to, how you doing?
- I'm blessed and highly favored.
(Terrance scoffing)
- Blessed and highly favored, huh?
Preacher lady.
- What's up with you?
- Nothing much, 'bout ready to come home.
You miss me?
Hello?
- I'm here.
- Well, I got some things I need to straighten out, but,
I'll be there in a couple days.
- Okay.
- I'll let you know when I'm on my way.
- [Shantel] All right.
- All right.
♪ But I'm trying to really change ♪
♪ No, no, no, no ♪
♪ No ♪
- Hey girl, I just wanna thank you again
for having us over for Bible study.
Even though we got a bit off, it was still good.
- It was my pleasure.
- Are you all right?
- That was my husband, he said he wants to come home.
- Oh, praise the Lord.
- Yeah, praise the Lord.
Look, Shantel, use wisdom, proceed with caution.
Pray on that thing, will you?
- Oh I'm praying, I'm praying hard.
- Let the Lord guide and lead you.
- Yeah, you're right.
Thank you, ladies.
(knocking on door)
- Honey, I'm home.
- What up?
(soft music)
- Going through my stuff, Inspector Gadget?
- Still playing games, huh?
- That's my nephew's.
- Mm-hmm, sure it is.
And is this your little nephew's too?
- Yeah, it is.
- Terrance, I'ma kick your butt, you know good and well
that's not your little nephew's bra.
- So you don't believe me?
- No, and I should call Tasha and tell her
that you lying on her son.
- Please don't call Tasha, you know she's gonna act crazy.
- Yeah, you know Tasha would kick your butt.
- Hey, look, you ain't never gotta worry about that again.
All right?
Look, I promise.
(Shantel groaning)
I'm hungry.
What you cooking?
(Shantel and friend laughing)
- What, you was talking about the praying seat?
- Girl, I'm saying, she can't be up there
with a mouthful of cavities
with red lipstick on her teeth,
get your girl. - Stop.
You crazy.
- Girl, come on in.
I was just telling her about it yesterday too.
- Is this enough?
- Yeah, that's enough. - Shantel, I need to go
- Take the Jell-O out the oven.
- Wait, it's--
- I'll catch up with you later,
it's okay. - Better be good too.
- Yeah, you better move on. - [Shantel] Get out.
- [Woman] Excuse me.
Shoot, won't be back.
(dramatic music)
- Look man, don't be running my clients out like that.
- And you know you can't be doing that mess in my house!
- Well this mess putting money in your pocket, right?
This mess been paying the bills up in here
since I been locked up.
Where you think that money came from?
- Little boy, I don't need your drug money,
and I don't need you, you can go.
- Oh, I can go now, huh?
Oh, I could leave, huh?
What happened to the, "Oh, T, how am I gonna get by?"
- I grew up.
- Too bad your bank account didn't.
- I don't need your drug money and I don't need you,
you can bounce!
- Look, I pay the bills up in here, I ain't going nowhere.
You can go if you wanna.
Matter of fact
you can leave right now. - Get your hands off me,
get your hands off me, stop!
- Man, what's wrong with you?
You know anything I do now is self-defense?
- I don't think it works like that.
- The way it ain't gonna work is
you running my clients outta here
and telling me how to do my business.
- This is my house, mine!
Go do your business somewhere else.
That's self-defense.
No more, no more Terrance,
I'm not doing this with you no more.
- Tell me how to run my business, mess with my money?
(Shantel groaning)
Hmm, what?
- Jesus!
(Shantel coughing)
(Terrance groaning)
(glass clanking)
- Hey baby, I made breakfast, sit down,
I'll make you a plate.
- [Shantel] I'm not hungry.
(Terrance sighing)
- Look, Shantel, yesterday got a little outta hand.
Look, I'm sorry.
But I made breakfast, so, let me make it up to you.
- [Shantel] I said, I'm not hungry.
- Look, I said I'm sorry, all right?
I made breakfast, let me make it up to you!
- I hate you,
I hate you. - You ungrateful.
- Nothing I do is--
(knocking on door)
- Man, who the hell you got coming over here?
- Get off me!
- [Carol] Hey, Shantel.
- [Shantel] Hey, Carol, what brings you by?
- Pastor Green called me to come check on you,
is everything okay?
- Everything good, what's going on?
- Shantel and I need to talk alone.
- Nah, this is my house.
Anything you gotta say you can say right here right now.
- Terrance.
It's all right.
- I gotta handle some business,
but she better be gone by the time I get back.
- I'm so sorry you had to experience that.
- It's okay.
Shantel, if you ever need anything, anyone just to talk to,
I'm always here.
- Thanks, Carol, I really appreciate that.
- Of course.
- Where your little buddy go?
- Drunk, in front of me?
- Oh, you talking about me, huh?
You talking about me, huh?
I'm not your little church friend, Sister Somebody.
- I'm not doing this with you right now.
- Aye, aye, hold up, think you is high and mighty?
Don't forget who pay the bills up in here.
- This is my house!
- This my house!
- This is my house, I didn't have to let you come back
in the first place!
- Who you talking to?
You better talk to me with some respect.
(laughing)
You think you're better than me, don't you?
- What you gonna do?
- You think you better than me.
- What you gone do?
Nothing.
Ouch!
Stupid.
(dramatic music)
Get outta my house. - [Terrance] No, you get out.
- Get outta my house.
- No, you get out
my house. - Get outta my, ow!
Get off me, are you crazy?
Get off of me.
- Let's go.
- Get off me, and don't come back!
Come on, Ray, pick up the phone, I need you.
Come on, pick up the phone.
- Hello?
- Ray, come quick, he's gone crazy!
- Yeah, yeah, I know, I'm already pulling up, all right.
- Look Shantel, look, I ain't trying to do this with you.
But you keep pushing me to the edge.
Look, I'm trying-- - It's a spirit
controlling you, making you--
- Look, I'm not trying to hear nothing about no spirit.
- You're not
in your right mind. - Man, what spirit?
- Shay, what's going on in here?
- Man!
Oh, all right.
(dramatic music)
- We've been arguing all day, he's been drinking,
I have never seen him like this before.
- You gonna come up in my house like that?
He come up in here, you call him
to come get me or something, huh?
The house I pay the bills at?
- Terrance, what are you doing?
- Let's leave, let's go, let's go.
- Nah, sis, we ain't going nowhere, you gotta roll, cuz.
(sighing)
- I'm so sorry, I didn't know he had a gun.
Look, I'ma call the police right now
to make sure he doesn't come back here.
- Evening, Ms. Taylor, my name's Officer Harper,
I'm responding to a call about an individual,
is he still around here?
- No, no, he's not.
- Well, we're here to help,
but if there's anything you're holding back,
there's not much we can do for you.
- Yeah, I understand, I really don't know where he went.
- You let us know if he comes back
'cause we want this to stop before it gets worse.
- And he won't be able to get in
because he left his keys inside.
- Well, we'll leave an undercover patrol car
in the neighborhood just in case.
But you take care of yourself, Ms. Taylor.
- All right, thank you,
Officer Harper. - Not a problem.
(dramatic music)
- Not now, okay.
- Not now?
Girl, listen to me, Terrance is at my house right now
and he is going off.
Robert's egging him on, what in the world is going on?
- Look, your brother is a maniac.
- Girl, what are you talking about?
- Kira, he put hands on me and he pulled a gun out on Ray.
- I'm sorry, I didn't know.
I didn't know, girl, I'm sorry.
I didn't know.
Let's go. - Get on in here.
- Oh my God, a mess in here, ugh, goodness.
- [Ray] Yeah, it's back through here.
Hey, get under here.
- [Kira] Got it.
- [Ray] You good?
- [Kira] Yeah, thank you.
- [Ray] Boy, it's quiet in here.
- [Kira] I know it.
- Aye, aye, can we get some real music in here, please?
- Ah, ah, ah, ah
okay. - Right.
- I don't want all that cursing up in my house now.
- Cursing?
- What?
Girl, you are tripping,
we need to hear something up in here.
- [Ray] Something.
- For real.
- Well, I'll go get my gospel albums.
- Hold on, gospel, come on now.
Ain't nobody trying to hear
them old Negro spirituals you be playing all the time.
(all laughing)
Look, man, I got some Maxwell in the car.
You still like Maxwell, don't you?
- Oh, yes.
Shay, you used to love Maxwell, come on, you are tripping.
Come on.
- Like I said, I'll go get my gospel albums, okay.
Holy Ghost filled, church household.
- Please go to the car and get them cds for me.
I'll take care - Good idea.
- of the wipe down.
- Yes, thank you.
- All right, I'll take care of this floor for you too.
(dramatic music)
(knocking on door)
- Shantel!
Shantel!
Man, open the door!
Shantel!
I need to get my stuff.
Shantel!
- [Shantel] Go away, Terrance.
- [Terrance] I need to get my stuff!
- Calm down!
(knocking on door)
- [Shantel] I gotta have him get his stuff,
at least he'll be out the house.
- [Terrance] Taking all day to open the door for?
- What you banging on the door like that for?
Ray, wait, don't!
(dramatic music)
- Robert, Robert, no, Robert, look, leave 'em.
- Ray no, no!
(screaming)
- Terrance!
No!
(Ray groaning)
- [Ray] God.
- Get down!
Get down!
(guns blaring)
(soft music)
(Kira crying)
(Ray coughing)
(Kira crying)
(groaning)
I don't wanna die, oh my God.
(somber music)
- Mrs. Taylor?
Mrs. Taylor.
Mrs. Taylor!
I need you to start from the beginning, please.
- What?
- How did it all start?
Ms. Taylor?
Ms. Taylor, the incident,
I need for you to tell me, how did it start?
- [Shantel] Yes, yes, ma'am.
- What happened?
- Me and my husband, we eat eggs.
- [Woman] Was there an argument?
- I should get outta there,
I should get Pastor.
- Pastor?
Mrs. Taylor, are you all right?
- And my brother.
And my brother, where is my brother?
Is he okay?
- Your brother is in the ICU, but right now
I need to know what happened.
- Is he going to be okay?
- [Woman] I am certain that the hospital
is doing the very best that they can,
but right now Ms. Taylor, I need to know how did this start?
- No!
No.
Jesus, Jesus, please keep him alive.
Please keep Ray alive, in the name of Jesus.
- Mrs. Taylor,
take your moment, I'll be back in just a few minutes.
Ray.
(praying softly)
(somber music)
(Kira crying)
(groaning)
- I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die!
- Tell me how to run my business, mess with my money?
Hmm, what?
- Jesus!
Lord,
I need help.
I need change.
Please send something, anything, I can't take this anymore.
I can't take this anymore, please.
(soft music)
"Dear Mrs. Taylor,
"we have heard of your exceptional preaching
"and would like to know if you would fill in
"for our pastor in Murfreesboro, Tennessee."
"We would pay for all of your moving expenses
"and your transition."
"Please contact Julie within the next."
(knocking on door)
(wincing)
(coughing)
Divorce papers!
Wait.
God can still save our marriage, he can still change you.
- I'll be back for my stuff later.
- Hi, can I speak to Julie, please?
- What happened to Kira?
- She didn't make it.
The bullet passed through a major artery and she bled out.
I loved her so much.
She was always there, she was my sister, my best friend.
- So, what happened to your brother?
- He was lucky, but, not so lucky.
He survived the gunshot but he got a one life sentence
for attempted murder.
- At least your husband pulled through.
- Yeah, it was amazing, God still had plans for him.
- Oh, so, I mean, getting shot up wasn't good enough?
- That was Satan's plan, God had plans for his soul.
- So God had plans for his soul, not his body?
I don't get it.
- We have free will to do whatever we want.
Therefore, God will not force us to follow His will.
- I still don't get it.
- You have kids, right?
- [Lisa] Yeah.
- And you raise them to the best of your ability, right?
- Most definitely, nobody loves my babies more than me.
- And when they become of age
you hope they make the best decisions
and don't get into trouble, but even if they do,
you'll still be there for them, right?
- Yeah, of course.
They're my children no matter what.
I'll always love them.
- Get it now?
Lisa, did you come closer?
- She did too.
Plus, the chair was hurting my butt.
- Okay.
- Speaking of kids, how are yours doing during all of this?
- They came along, it was difficult.
I sat my boys down and I apologized to them
without any excuses for not being the mother they deserved.
Then I heard them tell me how my drug addiction
and distancing made them feel, which put a hole in my soul.
- I can only imagine.
- Afterwards, they forgave me and I promised them
I would be the best mother I could possibly be.
We agreed that this was a part of our past
and it was not gonna be brought up anymore
unless it was gonna be used as a testimony.
And to this day my boys
have not thrown this back in my face.
- That is wonderful, I hope my kids forgive me like that.
- It's difficult, but we have to let our children open up
and hear them out no matter how much it hurts,
for them to be healed too.
- I don't understand, why are you sad
about leaving an abusive husband?
- Because that was her husband,
that bond took years to make.
- Yeah, leaving always seems like the best option
but it feels like the worse while it's happening.
- So please tell me you got over him.
- In time, yes, but I had to move and start new.
So I packed my stuff up and answered the calling.
- The church letter calling?
- God knew what he was doing when he did it.
Terrance gave me a way out,
and the letter gave me direction.
- Seems he did you a favor.
- Yeah, but, he also suffered in our relationship.
- How's that?
- He lost family members, and his mother, brother,
and cousins were emotionally destroyed.
- But please, tell me you got outta there?
- I did, in 2003 I was evangelizing
in Murfreesboro, Tennessee, I went back to school,
I got a degree, I got a good job, and I started mentoring.
But late one night I got a phone call from guess who?
(speaking in foreign language)
- Wow.
- Oh man.
(phone ringing)
(soft music)
- Hello.
- I'm in the hospital.
- Terrance.
- Shantel, they say it's pneumonia.
- Pneumonia,
that's serious.
Well, I'll keep you in my prayers.
- Can you,
Shantel, can you come visit me?
I'm at the Vanderbilt Hospital in Nashville.
Hello?
You still there?
- Terrance, I...
- Hey, just think about it, if you can.
- Okay.
(knocking on door)
- Mr. Taylor, I'm here to check on you.
Let's check out your IV.
See if it's running okay.
I'll listen to your lungs and your heart.
- Well, I gotta go.
- I can't do this, I can't do this.
I can't, I just...
- Are you okay?
- Yes, I'm fine.
- Who are you here to see?
- Terrance Taylor.
- That's his room right there.
- Thank you.
(soft music)
Lord, please give me the strength to do Your will,
in Jesus name, amen.
- [Terrance] Come in.
- Who is she?
- You came.
- Hey, yeah, I guess so.
- Hello, who is she?
- Look, Jackie, this is Shantel, Shantel, this Jackie.
- Shantel? - Hey, Jackie.
- You are not even supposed to be here.
- Look, nah, it's cool, I want her here.
- You want her here?
- Yeah.
- You want her here?
The dreaded Shantel,
the one that I had to hear so much about.
- Jackie.
- How she broke your heart.
Oh, oh, and let's not forget how she, she, she got you shot.
This, this is what you want?
- I'm just here to pray for him.
- I don't give a, you know what?
I almost.
You, you!
- Jackie.
- If you want her here, you definitely don't want me here.
- Jackie.
- No, no, you got me in here looking like a darn fool.
Sister coming in here so you just forget about everything.
Yeah, you know what?
She coming to pray, she better pray.
You better pray I don't come back
and mess all y'all up in here, that's what you better do.
(soft music)
- I pray, Jesus, I ask that you.
(praying softly)
- Look, I'm sorry about that.
But, I'm glad you came.
- It wasn't easy, I turned around several times,
and I thought about not coming at all.
- Well, I'm glad you did.
- Well, thank the Lord.
He even gave me--
- Shantel.
I'm dying.
Every day life goes on, you know?
And,
mine grows shorter.
- Well, do you wanna keep living
the same way you've been living?
- No.
Not like this.
- Well, do you wanna be changed in Christ's image?
- Shantel, I don't know, I don't even know what that means.
- You'll start to have peace of mind, body, and soul.
Heavy burdens will feel lifted off of you.
And the warm love of God will overtake you.
- That's the peace in your eyes.
And this whole time I thought it was that pastor
that made you feel like this.
- No.
It was Jesus.
- That's what I need, I need Jesus.
(crying)
I don't know what to do, I need Him.
I need that, Shantel.
(crying)
You okay?
- Yeah, I'm fine.
Do you accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and savior?
- I don't even know Him.
- Well, I'm willing to spend some time with you
and teach you about Him, if you let me.
- You don't think it's too late.
- No, God has been waiting for you.
- Yes,
please teach me.
- Okay.
(crying)
(soft music)
- Does forgiveness really do that for you?
- Do what?
- Give you peace and joy like that?
- Yes, that and much more.
- Reverend Thomas,
I forgive you.
I forgive you!
(crying)
- I forgive you, (speaking in foreign language)
I know I haven't been a good daughter.
You abused me and you left me.
(crying)
But I forgive you, I forgive you.
- I just want my babies to forgive me for leaving them.
Do you think they'll forgive me?
- Yes!
You're their mother, your heart will always beat for them
and their heart for yours.
They may be mad, but that's only because they're hurt.
- Shantel, I mean, I'm sorry,
Mrs. Cross,
I wanna be saved.
I've always wanted a relationship with God,
but it was just so many people around me
and I couldn't trust anyone, but I trust you.
- I need about 15 minutes.
- Thank you, Lord, hallelujah, Lord, thank you.
Oh, I believe you, Lord,
I receive it right now God, in the name of Jesus.
I receive it, I believe right now.
- Thank you God.
(all clapping)
- You're going to heaven.
(speaking in foreign language)
- Right on.
- Mrs. Cross, excuse me.
You know, after all you been through
I just can't believe that you still got joy.
- Still have joy, stupid, why is English so hard for you?
- Lisa, really?
- I'm sorry.
Hug.
- That's okay, you can give me a better apology later.
- Get off me. - Tonya.
- [Tonya] I'm sorry, I was just playing, I got joy now.
- [Lisa] You crazy, you know that?
- Well, there's more to the story.
- What?
- Next time I come I'll explain.
- That's fine.
I mean, I do wanna hear more but, I'm okay.
I mean, you're just gonna see me,
I mean, come see us some more
and talk to us, right?
- Right.
♪ And nothing's gonna stop me now ♪
♪ Hey ♪
♪ No, nothing's gonna stop me now ♪
♪ Hey ♪
♪ No, no, nothing can stop me now ♪
♪ Hey ♪
♪ And nothing's gonna stop me now ♪
♪ I made up in my mind this time around ♪
♪ This time around ♪
♪ That I'm focused on my future ♪
♪ And I am free from ♪
♪ Heavenly Father, You know ♪
♪ We're waiting on You ♪
♪ We're praying to You ♪
♪ Believing ♪
♪ Even grieving ♪
♪ Said you'd be the one for me ♪
♪ You said you'd be all I need ♪
♪ Said you'd be the one to love me ♪
♪ I'm sitting here looking at the wall ♪
♪ With tears streaming down my face ♪
♪ Mm, yeah ♪
♪ Wracking my brain trying to figure out ♪
♪ I still got joy ♪
♪ I still got joy down in my soul ♪
♪ No matter what I go through I know God is in control ♪