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[background noise]

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I just wish it wasn't so loud.

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It seems to work.

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Check, check.

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Clip-on mic works,
recording device and the room
mic too.

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Good.

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I finally re-organized my
workshop
into a makeshift lab.

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Just a couple of shots of the
room

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so you can have a better
understanding
of the spatial situation.

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The room is located
in my place of residence in
Apopka,

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Central Florida
at the house that I rent.

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I've set up several tripods

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and fixed a self-made camera
mount
over my desk.

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This should make
recording the experiments

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that I have been conducting
over the next several days
easier.

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I intend to better understand

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and cure my hearing impairment.

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That horrible sound
that's pestering me.

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It obliterated my personal life,

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it stopped me from finishing my
PhD,

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it forced me to do a bullshit IT
job
just to make ends meet.

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I even had to give away Clippy,
my cat.

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I miss that old rascal.

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Enough.

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Let this be a record of my
experiments

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as I search for a cure.

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After all this time,

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I've concluded that no one else
is going to help me.

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I have to find answers myself.

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The miserable have no medicine
but hope.

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The first occurrence
of the sound three years ago

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on September 16th, 2016

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was accompanied by a visual
component.

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I briefly saw something
out of the ordinary,

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an effect that never returned.

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However, during a recent visit
to the FamiLAB hackerspace

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over in Longwood,
I borrowed a $20 clip-on macro
lens

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for smartphones from Doug
Cranach.

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I realized that optical
magnification

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is the perfect way to detect
and,
hopefully,

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document visual occurrences,

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but Cranach's clip-on
is just not good enough,

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so I got a Canon MP-E
65-millimeter lens
off Craigslist

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and bought
a Laowa 24 millimeter probe lens

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over at Best Buy in Altamonte
Springs.

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We'll mount them
onto my Blackmagic camera.

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It's a very powerful combo
for my specific needs.

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Once this reference video
is edited

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and additional voiceover
commentary
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I'll release it on YouTube in
high-def

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along with other details of my
research.

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This is crucial.

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What is the real difference

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between near fumbling in the
dark
and true progress?

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Evidence.

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Every alchemist discovers for
himself

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that drinking mercury is bad,
that it causes paralysis,

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even the sensation of bugs
crawling under your skin,

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but scientists have to discover
the effects only once

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because they share their
findings,

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thus making them testable,

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falsifiable.

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Starting documentation
with a simple hypothesis,

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different objects alter the
sound I hear,
but how and why?

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This cotton shirt is of the same
material

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as the shirt I'm wearing right
now,

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which is also the shirt I wore
when the effect first occurred.

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[sighs]

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I can detect no changes in the
sound.

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For the next stage,
a different material.

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This one is a polyester blend.

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Yes, yes,
the sound has changed.

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It's subtle with the pitch
lowered.

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The sound also changed
when I set the cloth down.

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Let me see.

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Yes, when I touch the cloth,
there is a shift.

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Am I disrupting the source in
some way?

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When the sound first occurred,
it used to be a dull hum,

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so quiet I could pretend it
wasn't there.

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I very rarely hear it like that
anymore.

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I've come to think of it
as my personal base level,

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the sound of silence.

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To be clear,
I know there is no such thing as
silence.

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There can never be an empty
space
or an empty time.

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There's always something
around that interferes.

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As John Cage says,
try as we may to make a silence,

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we cannot.

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Even if you completely seal
yourself
off from noise.

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For example,

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in an anechoic chamber
that completely absorbs
reflections,

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you always hear two sounds.

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One high and one low.

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The high one
is your nervous system in
operation.

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The low,
your blood in circulation.

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I don't really care
about hypothetical extremes,

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not at all.

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My problem is far from
philosophical.

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Continuing.

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My sound of silence,

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which seems to include the
textiles
I'm wearing,

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dominates again when I'm going
to the other side of the room.

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Does that mean the sound
emanates
from the object itself

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or is my presence a factor?

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If only I could record
the sound in isolation.

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No one else has been able to
hear it.

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I've suffered from tinnitus
for three years now

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and I have yet to find a person
who believes me.

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My doctors are,

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to present the results
of my root cause analysis,

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idiots.

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My first otologist was quick to
confirm

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that I have tinnitus,

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but he rejected
the quality of my tinnitus.

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All the other doctors after him
did as well.

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I know the mechanisms
of subjective tinnitus are
obscure,

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but the professional ineptitude

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I had to endure is breathtaking.

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Basically,

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tinnitus is the hearing of a
sound

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that has no external source.

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Trauma to the inner ear can
cause it,

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which was not the case for me.

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My assumption
is that increased neural
activity

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in my brainstem caused mine,

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resulting in overexcited nerve
cells.

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Half of my private library
is medical journals and books.

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Michael J. Epstein's
and Christian Rainer Heller's
2017 paper,

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Retrocochlear Damage,
Auditory Brainstem Responses,

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and Oral Processing Disorders,
was very encouraging.

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Not to forget
J. C. Roach's brilliant analysis

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of binaural isochronic
audio and synchronicity.

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I learned all that one
can about my condition.

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It's better than whining
in a self-help group

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at the goddamn community center.

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Tinnitus has no cure,

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and most people get used to it
over time.

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A 1987 study of the MRC
Institute
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in Nottingham found that 10% of
adults
have had tinnitus

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for longer than five minutes,
but only 0.5% of adults

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have tinnitus that affects their
ability
to lead a normal life.

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I'm part of this group.

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And my tinnitus is unusual.

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It's complex.

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I've seen countless doctors
since it began

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here in the Orlando area

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and up in Burlington,
Vermont at UVM.

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I spent my entire inheritance,
all the money from grandpa,

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on medical bills.

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No help, nada, zilch.

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I got lucky,
despite my misfortune,

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I didn't have to go into debt
paying for nothing.

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It's not directly related to my
case,

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but the AJM published a study

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that 42.4% of all cancer
patients in the US

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deplete their life savings
by the second year of treatment.

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Our medical system is broken,
and not only financially.

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Just recently,

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a guy in New York found out

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that he had been misdiagnosed
for 15 years.

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What the doctors had identified
as a beer belly

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was actually a 30-pound tumor
growing in his stomach.

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I won't allow these quacks
to victimize me.

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They gave up and sent me
to behavioral therapy.

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Bullshit.

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Many people die at 25

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and aren't even buried until
they're 75.

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I want a chance at a normal
life.

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My mother called.

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Awkward experience as always.

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She had more moronic health
advice
for me.

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"Quit smoking and gluten.

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Use essential oils and ginkgo.

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Ginkgo this, ginkgo that.

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Worse, her new boyfriend
does Chinese acupuncture

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and wants to meet me.

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He's a relapsing alcoholic.

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Why the fuck
do they let him work with
needles?

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It feels necessary to make a
statement

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just to frame my quest and to
separate me

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from the gazillion wackos out
there.

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I believe,

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the methods of natural science
and science alone

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describe the world as it is,
independent of perspective.

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Superstition, religion,

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and irrationalism should be
countered,

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criticized, uncovered.

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For those who believe in God,

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most big questions are already
answered.

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For those of us who don't,
the answers are more
challenging.

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We have to discover the true
mystery,

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not flee into mythopoeic
speculation.

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Just look what religion brought
us.

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Suffering,

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suffering,

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suffering,

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suffering, and more suffering.

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As Ryan Finnigan puts it:

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Humans are long beyond the stage
of needing fairy tales

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to explain the world.

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Anybody who wants to tell me

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they know the secret of the
universe
is a liar or a fool,

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and certainly not worth
listening to.

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It's necessary to eliminate

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the psychological and spiritual
dimensions of experience.

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Only this leads to salvation,
and in my case,

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I sincerely hope it results

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in concrete and secular
salvation.

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The return of silence.

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Silence is nonexistent for me.

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Even when I sleep,
the sound disturbs me.

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It slowly drowns my thoughts,
my--

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for lack of a better term -soul.

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I used to be so open.

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I was always an introvert,
yes,

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but I was doing so many cool
projects
with friends.

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After coming out,

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I was active
in the gay community on campus.

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That was around the time
the horrible mass shooting

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at the Pulse Gay Club happened.

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50 people died.

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A third were shot in the head,

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turning their brains into
atomized mist.

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Folks I knew.

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Friends.

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The founder of the club, John,
died in 1991 from AIDS.

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The club was named
for his pulse to live on.

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Changed my opinion on guns
completely.

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Yet, not even this tragedy
stopped me from being hopeful,

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from engaging, from fighting,

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from celebrating our lives,

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my life.

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Now I'm a recluse,
and my libido is nil.

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Sound spreads through
my being monstrously

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like the growth
of a festering malignancy.

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In this room, it's erratic,

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a quiet hum with intermittent
discordant buzzing.

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In other environments, it's
different.

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Usually, people either
experience
monotone tinnitus

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or narrowband noise tinnitus.

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My doctors already measured
loudness,

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mixing-point, masking threshold.

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In most cases,

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the tinnitus loudness
is equivalent to a sound

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that is 5 to 15 decibels above
threshold,

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and the tinnitus pitch
or frequency range

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is between 5 kilohertz

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[5 kilohertz sound]

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and 10 kilohertz.

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[10 kilohertz sound]

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Not in my case.

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00:15:23,531 --> 00:15:25,228
My tinnitus changes.

254
00:15:26,795 --> 00:15:28,144
Adapts.

255
00:15:29,493 --> 00:15:30,930
The doctors don't believe me
though.

256
00:15:31,669 --> 00:15:36,283
The last one told me that we
suffer more

257
00:15:36,326 --> 00:15:39,112
in imagination than in reality.

258
00:15:39,547 --> 00:15:41,592
That's what I pay for.

259
00:15:44,073 --> 00:15:45,074
[sighs]

260
00:15:46,293 --> 00:15:47,990
Sometimes a GIF says
more than a 1,000 words.

261
00:15:51,167 --> 00:15:52,995
The equipment I need for my
experiments,

262
00:15:53,039 --> 00:15:55,606
my laptop, my camera gear, et
cetera,

263
00:15:56,129 --> 00:15:57,608
it doesn't change the sound.

264
00:15:59,306 --> 00:16:01,134
It was my first hypothesis
that machinery might be a
factor,

265
00:16:01,177 --> 00:16:03,223
considering the assumed origins
of my condition

266
00:16:03,266 --> 00:16:06,356
at the university,
but that proved fruitless.

267
00:16:06,835 --> 00:16:08,532
Inorganic matter does not affect
it.

268
00:16:09,490 --> 00:16:11,971
Processed organic matter, like
paper,

269
00:16:13,320 --> 00:16:14,234
a table,

270
00:16:15,061 --> 00:16:16,192
pencils,

271
00:16:17,063 --> 00:16:18,368
shaving cream,

272
00:16:19,021 --> 00:16:20,022
cigarettes,

273
00:16:20,588 --> 00:16:21,763
aspirin,

274
00:16:22,198 --> 00:16:23,460
and naproxen

275
00:16:24,461 --> 00:16:25,854
seem to be neutral too.

276
00:16:25,897 --> 00:16:28,422
Although, fabrics and certain
foods

277
00:16:28,726 --> 00:16:31,468
like candy corn are an
exception.

278
00:16:33,166 --> 00:16:34,950
Candy corn sounds clattery

279
00:16:36,386 --> 00:16:41,739
and yogurt sounds strangely
fractalized.

280
00:16:42,827 --> 00:16:45,221
Maybe there is a connection
to Andy Zmolek's research.

281
00:16:46,614 --> 00:16:47,832
[doorbell rings]

282
00:16:48,529 --> 00:16:49,182
Oh.

283
00:16:59,453 --> 00:17:02,108
Bharat, one of my sysadmin
colleagues
at the company,

284
00:17:02,151 --> 00:17:04,110
came to visit,
brought me some beer.

285
00:17:04,849 --> 00:17:06,416
[scoffs] What a hipster.

286
00:17:07,374 --> 00:17:09,245
Piña Colada Gose.

287
00:17:11,073 --> 00:17:12,205
It's a disturbance

288
00:17:12,248 --> 00:17:15,295
and I will certainly not consume
neurotoxins,

289
00:17:15,338 --> 00:17:17,210
but still nice of him.

290
00:17:18,341 --> 00:17:20,039
Most of my coworkers are
probably happy

291
00:17:20,082 --> 00:17:21,301
I took a few days off.

292
00:17:22,258 --> 00:17:25,087
All of them think
I'm a hypochondriac weirdo.

293
00:17:28,656 --> 00:17:30,179
Whenever I'm around people,

294
00:17:30,788 --> 00:17:33,226
the sound intensifies

295
00:17:33,269 --> 00:17:35,402
until I feel
as though my head might explode.

296
00:17:39,667 --> 00:17:42,017
I used to play fun games with my
friends.

297
00:17:43,671 --> 00:17:44,672
[chuckles]

298
00:17:44,976 --> 00:17:46,500
This one always made me laugh.

299
00:17:46,543 --> 00:17:47,849
It's so sick.

300
00:17:49,851 --> 00:17:52,332
I used to have an annual pass
for Disney World.

301
00:17:54,812 --> 00:17:56,640
Oh god, I love it so much.

302
00:17:56,901 --> 00:18:00,079
Music, smiling faces.

303
00:18:02,298 --> 00:18:03,647
It feels like another life.

304
00:18:05,823 --> 00:18:09,175
The more people,
the worse the sound becomes.

305
00:18:10,480 --> 00:18:12,917
At work,
my emergency reaction is to flee

306
00:18:12,961 --> 00:18:15,442
to the basement server rooms,
where nobody is,

307
00:18:16,007 --> 00:18:20,142
pretending to trace cables
to ESXi boxes or other baloney,

308
00:18:21,491 --> 00:18:23,102
but that's not going to work
forever.

309
00:18:24,973 --> 00:18:27,584
Listening to music became
impossible.

310
00:18:28,629 --> 00:18:33,982
It's hard to describe,
but music feels distant,

311
00:18:36,637 --> 00:18:37,986
hollow,

312
00:18:40,771 --> 00:18:41,946
burnt.

313
00:18:45,036 --> 00:18:47,387
If I can prove my condition,
or better yet,

314
00:18:48,170 --> 00:18:51,956
understand its nature,
then people must believe me.

315
00:18:52,870 --> 00:18:57,397
Each human body is made of
100 trillion cellular robots.

316
00:18:57,440 --> 00:18:58,789
That's all there is.

317
00:18:59,399 --> 00:19:01,923
There is a positivistic level
to my problem.

318
00:19:02,706 --> 00:19:06,623
My goal is to prove
this is not my imagination.

319
00:19:11,672 --> 00:19:15,893
I've introduced more objects,
some sound-neutral, some not,

320
00:19:16,633 --> 00:19:18,418
measuring and grouping them.

321
00:19:18,461 --> 00:19:20,071
I want to see if I can detect a
pattern.

322
00:19:21,160 --> 00:19:23,814
Size and weight doesn't seem
to be a key factor,

323
00:19:24,206 --> 00:19:26,991
but the sound changes depending
on where I am

324
00:19:27,035 --> 00:19:28,515
and what I'm doing.

325
00:19:28,645 --> 00:19:32,127
That, I'm convinced,
is the key to solving this
mystery.

326
00:19:33,215 --> 00:19:35,783
My assumption is that everything
in the room with me

327
00:19:35,826 --> 00:19:37,176
contributes to the sound.

328
00:19:38,786 --> 00:19:41,702
The sound of silence gives me
a baseline from which to work.

329
00:19:42,355 --> 00:19:44,748
Every time I bring a new object
into the room,

330
00:19:44,792 --> 00:19:46,446
the sound changes.

331
00:19:46,489 --> 00:19:50,667
Whenever I remove one,
the sound it introduced
vanishes.

332
00:19:51,277 --> 00:19:54,628
By introducing and removing
objects
in a controlled fashion,

333
00:19:55,063 --> 00:19:57,674
I found the proof
to support my speculation.

334
00:19:59,285 --> 00:20:01,548
I've ordered the objects
into several categories

335
00:20:01,591 --> 00:20:03,376
based on the patterns I've
detected.

336
00:20:04,028 --> 00:20:07,423
Inorganic non-aqueous solvents,
like ammonium chloride,

337
00:20:07,467 --> 00:20:09,208
do not alter the sound.

338
00:20:15,997 --> 00:20:17,216
Endothermic.

339
00:20:18,826 --> 00:20:21,524
Organic liquids cause
a particular change in the
sound,

340
00:20:21,568 --> 00:20:24,179
all similar in pitch,
but not identical.

341
00:20:25,963 --> 00:20:30,098
Decided to drink only hot water,
decaf black tea,

342
00:20:30,620 --> 00:20:33,493
and oat milk as they appear
to be sound-neutral.

343
00:20:36,235 --> 00:20:39,281
- As for C5H4N4
- O3,

344
00:20:40,021 --> 00:20:43,242
I urinated into a glass
and I could hear a difference.

345
00:20:45,244 --> 00:20:48,247
Boiling organic liquids,
for example, my pee,

346
00:20:49,335 --> 00:20:50,945
creates no changes.

347
00:20:52,076 --> 00:20:53,774
I'm no chemist.

348
00:20:53,817 --> 00:20:56,298
I studied physics,
so it's hard for me to find
distinctions.

349
00:20:56,603 --> 00:20:57,995
I need to read up on it.

350
00:20:59,083 --> 00:21:00,476
First,
I need to get rid of all this.

351
00:21:03,174 --> 00:21:06,177
Tradition is just peer pressure
from dead people.

352
00:21:07,570 --> 00:21:09,398
Looking at things from a new
perspective,

353
00:21:09,746 --> 00:21:11,661
seeing them in an unconventional
way

354
00:21:12,009 --> 00:21:13,707
was always one of my virtues.

355
00:21:14,403 --> 00:21:16,275
Like the simple observation,

356
00:21:16,318 --> 00:21:19,365
the bottled water companies
don't produce water,

357
00:21:20,017 --> 00:21:22,019
they produce plastic bottles.

358
00:21:23,151 --> 00:21:25,588
My goal must be to use
unconventional

359
00:21:25,632 --> 00:21:27,503
yet solid approaches in my
search.

360
00:21:28,199 --> 00:21:30,985
[phone ringing]

361
00:21:32,378 --> 00:21:33,770
That was Brianna.

362
00:21:34,031 --> 00:21:35,076
She's in HR.

363
00:21:36,469 --> 00:21:38,819
Seems I stayed away a day
longer than requested,

364
00:21:39,559 --> 00:21:42,039
but she called afterward.

365
00:21:43,345 --> 00:21:45,347
Says a lot about my importance
to the company.

366
00:21:46,217 --> 00:21:48,481
I'll request a few more days,
my boss doesn't care.

367
00:21:49,438 --> 00:21:50,352
Too friendly.

368
00:21:51,527 --> 00:21:53,834
Leadership skills of a squirrel.

369
00:21:56,750 --> 00:21:58,186
I'm feeling dizzy all day.

370
00:21:59,143 --> 00:22:01,058
Dealing with these sound
patterns
drains me.

371
00:22:04,410 --> 00:22:06,760
I took a long hot shower this
morning.

372
00:22:07,587 --> 00:22:10,459
Remembered an old Irish legend
that my grandpa told me

373
00:22:10,503 --> 00:22:12,505
one Christmas morning when I was
nine.

374
00:22:14,028 --> 00:22:15,377
The Ulster King,

375
00:22:15,421 --> 00:22:18,598
Conchobar was hit
with a slingshot in battle.

376
00:22:19,250 --> 00:22:22,123
the projectile was a ball
made of the brain

377
00:22:22,166 --> 00:22:25,822
of Leinster king Mesgegra,
hardened with lime.

378
00:22:27,868 --> 00:22:30,871
The brain ball got stuck
so deep in Conchobar's brain

379
00:22:31,219 --> 00:22:33,352
that his physicians
were unable to remove it.

380
00:22:34,527 --> 00:22:36,006
They patched up the wound,

381
00:22:36,050 --> 00:22:38,313
stitched a golden hair net to
his scalp,

382
00:22:39,096 --> 00:22:42,578
and told the king he would
survive
so long as he did not over-exert
himself.

383
00:22:43,405 --> 00:22:46,016
Seven reasonably peaceful years
later,

384
00:22:46,321 --> 00:22:48,671
Conchobar was told of the death
of Christ

385
00:22:49,150 --> 00:22:52,327
and becomes so angry
that the brain ball bursts

386
00:22:52,371 --> 00:22:54,590
from his skull and he dies.

387
00:22:55,722 --> 00:22:59,203
The moral of the story was,
as I proudly proclaimed,

388
00:22:59,595 --> 00:23:02,990
that you could live happy
even with some other guy's brain

389
00:23:03,033 --> 00:23:06,428
stuck in your head
as long as you ignore Jesus.

390
00:23:07,908 --> 00:23:10,476
Grandpa gave me
a good old Irish Catholic slap

391
00:23:10,519 --> 00:23:13,000
in the face and ordered me
to go to my room

392
00:23:13,043 --> 00:23:14,697
and sort all my Lego bricks by
color.

393
00:23:17,744 --> 00:23:20,660
The patterns are becoming
familiar
as I study them.

394
00:23:21,704 --> 00:23:24,141
I'm not sure visual changes
actually occur,

395
00:23:24,403 --> 00:23:26,448
but it helps me anticipate the
sound.

396
00:23:27,710 --> 00:23:30,147
Like mosquitoes buzzing in a
room.

397
00:23:31,148 --> 00:23:33,499
Once you hear it,
it forces you to pay attention.

398
00:23:34,456 --> 00:23:35,631
You can't unhear it.

399
00:23:37,285 --> 00:23:39,896
I started processing some of my
data
with automated scripts.

400
00:23:40,723 --> 00:23:42,072
No matter what I'm doing,

401
00:23:42,116 --> 00:23:45,467
I start questioning it
searching for a pattern,

402
00:23:46,512 --> 00:23:47,556
waiting,

403
00:23:48,818 --> 00:23:49,863
listening.

404
00:23:50,516 --> 00:23:52,431
[mosquito buzzing]

405
00:23:53,562 --> 00:23:58,480
My thought was always that
darkness
is to space what silence is to
sound.

406
00:24:00,961 --> 00:24:02,179
Maybe I'm mistaken.

407
00:24:05,356 --> 00:24:07,533
My therapists were always
worried
about me,

408
00:24:08,359 --> 00:24:10,797
they implied I might hurt
myself.

409
00:24:11,624 --> 00:24:12,581
Of course not.

410
00:24:13,887 --> 00:24:16,106
That's just an extravagant act
of self-pity.

411
00:24:16,803 --> 00:24:17,586
Not me.

412
00:24:17,847 --> 00:24:19,283
I can conquer this,

413
00:24:21,808 --> 00:24:23,418
but how can I convince them?

414
00:24:26,029 --> 00:24:27,640
Pondering about observer effect.

415
00:24:29,163 --> 00:24:31,470
The mere observation of a
phenomenon

416
00:24:31,905 --> 00:24:34,385
inevitably changes the
phenomenon.

417
00:24:35,561 --> 00:24:38,346
This is highly challenging
because,
obviously,

418
00:24:38,564 --> 00:24:42,002
I am the only observer
and I am changing it

419
00:24:42,350 --> 00:24:44,352
by the mere fact of existing.

420
00:24:47,050 --> 00:24:50,706
How do I stop myself from
unconsciously
changing my behavior

421
00:24:50,750 --> 00:24:52,229
to support my assumptions?

422
00:24:53,274 --> 00:24:57,800
My research will not end up
as epistemological roadkill.

423
00:24:58,192 --> 00:24:59,062
Maybe I could

424
00:24:59,106 --> 00:25:00,629
[doorbell rings]
What?

425
00:25:04,111 --> 00:25:05,721
Blessing in disguise.

426
00:25:06,592 --> 00:25:08,724
Got a visit from my new
neighbor, Dana.

427
00:25:14,034 --> 00:25:15,557
This is the place I rent,

428
00:25:21,607 --> 00:25:24,479
and she lives here
on the other side of the street.

429
00:25:24,523 --> 00:25:25,524
I see her now and then.

430
00:25:26,481 --> 00:25:28,048
She wanted to borrow coffee.

431
00:25:28,701 --> 00:25:30,398
Endured small talk,

432
00:25:30,746 --> 00:25:34,968
then asked her to wrap random
objects
from around my place

433
00:25:35,011 --> 00:25:38,101
in opaque shopping bags
while I was waiting outside.

434
00:25:39,538 --> 00:25:40,930
Sounds socially awkward,

435
00:25:42,845 --> 00:25:44,499
but she complied.

436
00:25:46,457 --> 00:25:53,377
Now I have 10 random objects
in opaque shopping bags.

437
00:25:53,421 --> 00:25:54,553
[chuckles]

438
00:25:56,163 --> 00:25:58,426
This creates an opportunity
to execute a blind experiment.

439
00:26:01,734 --> 00:26:03,605
Trying to sense auditory
patterns

440
00:26:03,649 --> 00:26:05,825
without knowing what object
I'm dealing with.

441
00:26:10,699 --> 00:26:11,613
Okay,

442
00:26:15,095 --> 00:26:16,444
Okay, interesting.

443
00:26:20,056 --> 00:26:22,798
The rustling sound
of the bags is distressing,

444
00:26:22,842 --> 00:26:23,930
but yes,

445
00:26:24,670 --> 00:26:26,497
I hear the sound of the objects.

446
00:26:26,541 --> 00:26:28,064
I can perceive them.

447
00:26:29,109 --> 00:26:31,851
It'll give my research
additional validity in peer
review.

448
00:26:36,595 --> 00:26:38,509
The last few days
have been disheartening.

449
00:26:39,336 --> 00:26:40,337
In pain.

450
00:26:41,034 --> 00:26:42,470
Naproxen intake.

451
00:26:44,341 --> 00:26:47,388
I wrote out my research
and submitted it to Hagendorfer,

452
00:26:47,431 --> 00:26:48,563
my current otologist,

453
00:26:49,999 --> 00:26:51,653
and two researchers at Cornell
who study resonance

454
00:26:52,001 --> 00:26:53,437
and vibration patterns.

455
00:26:54,438 --> 00:26:55,614
With this set of data,

456
00:26:57,267 --> 00:26:59,618
they will beg me to do
a proper clinical study with
them.

457
00:27:00,096 --> 00:27:01,794
[chuckles]

458
00:27:01,837 --> 00:27:05,885
I can picture their faces,
writing their grant
applications.

459
00:27:05,928 --> 00:27:07,364
[chuckles]

460
00:27:10,454 --> 00:27:13,719
People are irritating yet
fascinating.

461
00:27:15,068 --> 00:27:19,768
When I'm with another person,
the sound is mysterious.

462
00:27:20,639 --> 00:27:22,684
It doesn't fit the patterns
I've seen so far.

463
00:27:24,555 --> 00:27:26,296
What causes the changes?

464
00:27:27,820 --> 00:27:31,911
Does the human body have a
sound,
or does it vary by person?

465
00:27:32,999 --> 00:27:36,176
Does hair produce
a change different from eyes?

466
00:27:36,742 --> 00:27:40,484
Hell, do all 79 organs,
if we include the mesentery,

467
00:27:40,789 --> 00:27:42,138
have a unique sound?

468
00:27:43,574 --> 00:27:45,272
I began this project because

469
00:27:45,315 --> 00:27:47,927
I wanted to secure peace of
mind,

470
00:27:47,970 --> 00:27:54,063
but now I see this could be
important
to humanity as a whole.

471
00:27:54,760 --> 00:27:58,328
It is my moral duty to succeed,

472
00:27:59,286 --> 00:28:00,287
for me,

473
00:28:00,809 --> 00:28:01,680
for you,

474
00:28:02,506 --> 00:28:03,769
for us.

475
00:28:05,771 --> 00:28:06,772
Mother called again.

476
00:28:07,468 --> 00:28:09,688
More motivational slogans.

477
00:28:10,819 --> 00:28:13,735
More ginkgo.

478
00:28:19,262 --> 00:28:23,702
Mind doesn't understand,
it worships or fears.

479
00:28:25,704 --> 00:28:27,880
The Ancient Greeks believed
their gods

480
00:28:27,923 --> 00:28:32,885
lived on top of a climbable
hill,
and no one ever checked.

481
00:28:35,017 --> 00:28:36,105
Got an answer.

482
00:28:37,411 --> 00:28:39,543
Hagendorfer referred me
to another therapist.

483
00:28:40,022 --> 00:28:42,155
Some psychiatrist over in
Casselberry.

484
00:28:42,633 --> 00:28:43,722
Called him.

485
00:28:44,244 --> 00:28:47,334
Blabbered something about
misophonia,

486
00:28:50,076 --> 00:28:51,904
and he wants me to take benzos.

487
00:28:52,818 --> 00:28:53,819
Really?

488
00:28:54,297 --> 00:28:55,429
Tranquilizers?

489
00:28:55,472 --> 00:28:56,822
Absolutely not.

490
00:28:57,518 --> 00:28:59,650
Benzodiazepine use
for subjective tinnitus

491
00:28:59,694 --> 00:29:01,478
does not have a robust evidence
base.

492
00:29:01,870 --> 00:29:04,351
Jufas and Wood,
Journal of Laryngology &
Otology,

493
00:29:04,394 --> 00:29:05,744
July 2015.

494
00:29:06,005 --> 00:29:07,746
The Cornell researchers just
sent me

495
00:29:07,789 --> 00:29:09,399
some dumb standard reply.

496
00:29:09,922 --> 00:29:11,662
Not even sure they finished
reading it.

497
00:29:12,359 --> 00:29:14,970
They're being offered
the chance of a lifetime.

498
00:29:15,405 --> 00:29:18,713
A truly significant discovery!
We could publish!

499
00:29:18,887 --> 00:29:20,715
[glasses breaking]

500
00:29:21,194 --> 00:29:22,848
Do they think I lost my mind?

501
00:29:23,109 --> 00:29:24,414
[chuckles]

502
00:29:24,806 --> 00:29:28,157
The problem is that I can't lose
my mind.

503
00:29:28,897 --> 00:29:30,551
It's inescapable.

504
00:29:31,291 --> 00:29:34,947
It is a testament to my will
that I don't give in,

505
00:29:34,990 --> 00:29:38,820
that I don't medicate in some
meth motel,
my teeth in ruins,

506
00:29:38,864 --> 00:29:43,651
my skin like moldy bark,
my hollow eyes like a mollusk.

507
00:29:45,522 --> 00:29:46,872
I'm alone.

508
00:29:47,524 --> 00:29:52,616
My debilitation cost me
my first serious relationship

509
00:29:52,965 --> 00:29:56,185
because my partner couldn't
handle
my emotional distress.

510
00:29:56,925 --> 00:29:58,709
He blamed it on my psyche too.

511
00:29:59,275 --> 00:30:01,582
He chose not to believe me.

512
00:30:02,626 --> 00:30:06,108
That fuckin coward broke my
heart.

513
00:30:10,199 --> 00:30:13,812
I know that no amount of belief
makes something a fact.

514
00:30:14,377 --> 00:30:20,775
If I'm going to convince the
world,
I need undeniable proof.

515
00:30:23,909 --> 00:30:26,172
I've decided
to switch to a different
experiment.

516
00:30:28,217 --> 00:30:30,350
It is time to replicate the
conditions

517
00:30:30,393 --> 00:30:32,700
of September 16th, 2016.

518
00:30:34,484 --> 00:30:37,313
I've changed the setup to mirror
the lab desk at UCF physics

519
00:30:37,357 --> 00:30:40,534
I was working on
that fateful day three years
ago.

520
00:30:41,448 --> 00:30:43,711
I even called Al-Wathiq,
my old professor,

521
00:30:43,754 --> 00:30:45,191
to ask him to recreate the
setting.

522
00:30:45,756 --> 00:30:48,934
He was reluctant,
but some friendly fellows at
FamiLAB

523
00:30:48,977 --> 00:30:50,892
in Longwood helped me borrow
equipment.

524
00:30:53,852 --> 00:30:56,550
All that remains
is to repeat the experiment.

525
00:31:00,902 --> 00:31:02,512
I'm a nerd through and through.

526
00:31:03,731 --> 00:31:06,777
Not necessarily in the way
that I enjoy discussions,

527
00:31:06,821 --> 00:31:09,650
whether it's canon that Klingons
have two dicks or not,

528
00:31:09,693 --> 00:31:14,046
it's about a mindset,
a positive obsessiveness.

529
00:31:15,134 --> 00:31:17,005
I always took meticulous notes
in college

530
00:31:17,049 --> 00:31:18,354
and saved everything.

531
00:31:19,181 --> 00:31:20,966
Some are here up on the
cupboard,

532
00:31:21,009 --> 00:31:23,229
but most of it is in my mother's
attic.

533
00:31:25,013 --> 00:31:27,363
This past weekend,
I took a car trip there,

534
00:31:29,626 --> 00:31:32,368
and noise grating on me the
entire time,

535
00:31:32,412 --> 00:31:34,457
becoming less tolerable by the
minute.

536
00:31:36,590 --> 00:31:39,593
Mother forced gingko on me,

537
00:31:40,072 --> 00:31:42,422
but her acupuncturist boyfriend
wasn't there.

538
00:31:43,031 --> 00:31:43,945
Small mercies.

539
00:31:44,859 --> 00:31:46,165
It turns out, by the way,

540
00:31:46,600 --> 00:31:48,950
his main job is dishwashing
at an Olive Garden.

541
00:31:50,473 --> 00:31:52,519
I guess he'll poke me
with unlimited breadsticks.

542
00:31:52,998 --> 00:31:54,129
[chuckles]

543
00:31:55,435 --> 00:31:58,525
Anyways,
I retrieved my notes from the
attic,

544
00:31:59,004 --> 00:32:02,659
so I know exactly
which frequencies I tried.

545
00:32:06,011 --> 00:32:08,361
Here's the Voltcraft frequency
generator,

546
00:32:09,710 --> 00:32:12,887
and the test setup using
an old speaker and salt
crystals.

547
00:32:15,542 --> 00:32:19,067
Now, performing the steps
exactly
as I did three years ago,

548
00:32:20,286 --> 00:32:22,375
starting with 155 hertz.

549
00:32:23,593 --> 00:32:29,643
[155 hertz sound]

550
00:32:33,125 --> 00:32:34,648
Nothing has changed.

551
00:32:36,911 --> 00:32:40,132
Back then,
when I hit the fifth frequency
cycle,

552
00:32:40,610 --> 00:32:43,962
I observed a visual distortion
of my surroundings,

553
00:32:44,527 --> 00:32:47,487
like the world was dipped
in a bad Instagram filter.

554
00:32:48,749 --> 00:32:53,623
High contrast, red echoes,
dark particles, jittery halos.

555
00:32:54,233 --> 00:32:56,017
I noticed it on the fabric of my
shirt,

556
00:32:56,496 --> 00:32:59,107
but it lasted
for only two or three seconds.

557
00:33:00,543 --> 00:33:05,026
Then a hum started up in my ears
like someone plugged me

558
00:33:05,070 --> 00:33:06,549
into a faulty audio channel,

559
00:33:06,897 --> 00:33:10,727
and this hum persisted
even when I turn the equipment
off.

560
00:33:12,599 --> 00:33:15,558
Today, however, nothing
happened.

561
00:33:17,256 --> 00:33:18,605
It's frustrating.

562
00:33:19,127 --> 00:33:20,999
[buzzing sound]

563
00:33:22,043 --> 00:33:23,827
Did I set something in motion?

564
00:33:25,394 --> 00:33:27,918
Did the incident alter my
physiognomy?

565
00:33:30,138 --> 00:33:31,444
If that's the case then,

566
00:33:33,054 --> 00:33:34,664
I need someone else
who might respond in the same
way.

567
00:33:36,797 --> 00:33:39,843
Although I hate to inflict
this misery upon another person.

568
00:33:41,323 --> 00:33:43,064
[sighs]
It's the only way we can find
answers.

569
00:33:44,152 --> 00:33:45,719
I need to give it to someone.

570
00:33:48,026 --> 00:33:50,376
[humming sound]

571
00:33:52,204 --> 00:33:54,119
Dana will be joining me today.

572
00:33:54,945 --> 00:33:56,730
I met her when putting trash
outside.

573
00:33:58,340 --> 00:34:02,692
She keeps talking to me
and seems to be interested.

574
00:34:04,129 --> 00:34:06,218
I don't reciprocate, of course,

575
00:34:06,827 --> 00:34:11,919
but I took advantage
to make her sit through the
experiment.

576
00:34:12,224 --> 00:34:14,226
[humming sound]

577
00:34:14,269 --> 00:34:15,314
You hear that?

578
00:34:16,228 --> 00:34:18,708
- Besides the metal plate
vibrating, no.

579
00:34:19,492 --> 00:34:20,797
You're not hearing any humming?

580
00:34:20,841 --> 00:34:22,190
It's all around us.

581
00:34:23,583 --> 00:34:25,672
- No.
I don't hear it.

582
00:34:25,715 --> 00:34:26,673
- No,
but there's no way.

583
00:34:26,716 --> 00:34:28,153
You have to be hearing it.

584
00:34:28,936 --> 00:34:31,243
[humming sound]

585
00:34:31,634 --> 00:34:32,853
- Nothing?
- No.

586
00:34:36,378 --> 00:34:37,771
Failure on all levels.

587
00:34:41,644 --> 00:34:45,387
I realized I might have been
a factor of disruption.

588
00:34:46,258 --> 00:34:49,130
Dana needs to be in the lab
alone.

589
00:34:50,175 --> 00:34:54,701
I'll have to play out my charm
to convince her to return.

590
00:34:56,268 --> 00:34:59,053
[humming sound] Good.

591
00:34:59,445 --> 00:35:03,623
Dana thinks that she failed,
so she is highly motivated.

592
00:35:05,233 --> 00:35:06,713
This time,

593
00:35:06,756 --> 00:35:08,889
I walked her through the
experiment steps
multiple times

594
00:35:08,932 --> 00:35:10,325
so she can conduct it alone.

595
00:35:10,369 --> 00:35:12,153
I'm recording everything though.

596
00:35:12,893 --> 00:35:18,594
[humming sound]

597
00:35:20,292 --> 00:35:22,511
- Dana,
how did you do this time?

598
00:35:22,555 --> 00:35:23,643
Well,

599
00:35:25,035 --> 00:35:26,167
Did you hear it?

600
00:35:26,602 --> 00:35:27,516
No.

601
00:35:27,560 --> 00:35:29,039
Did you follow all the steps

602
00:35:29,083 --> 00:35:30,432
I laid out the way I told you to
do it?

603
00:35:30,693 --> 00:35:31,825
Dude, there was nothing.

604
00:35:31,868 --> 00:35:33,522
How about visual effects?

605
00:35:33,566 --> 00:35:35,916
Like red particles, halos,
anything

606
00:35:35,959 --> 00:35:38,092
You ...noticing ...on your shirt
anything at all?

607
00:35:38,136 --> 00:35:39,137
No.

608
00:35:39,441 --> 00:35:41,269
What are you trying to--

609
00:35:42,314 --> 00:35:43,271
Leave now.

610
00:35:43,315 --> 00:35:43,837
Okay.

611
00:35:43,880 --> 00:35:44,794
You're done.

612
00:35:44,838 --> 00:35:46,622
There's no need to scream.

613
00:35:46,666 --> 00:35:47,623
[growls]

614
00:35:50,626 --> 00:35:52,498
I was certain it would work.

615
00:35:55,153 --> 00:35:58,852
Well, if life gives you
lemonade,

616
00:35:58,895 --> 00:36:01,376
inspect it closely, it might be
piss.

617
00:36:04,292 --> 00:36:06,076
I'm so tired.

618
00:36:07,252 --> 00:36:09,254
Took a deliberate overdose

619
00:36:09,297 --> 00:36:12,518
of [sighs] 100 milligrams of
melatonin.

620
00:36:15,303 --> 00:36:18,915
Dreamt a dinosaur squished me
and used me as lube.

621
00:36:20,265 --> 00:36:21,527
[sighs]

622
00:36:21,570 --> 00:36:23,790
My brain chemistry
has a sick kind of humor.

623
00:36:27,533 --> 00:36:29,317
After I thought everything over,

624
00:36:29,622 --> 00:36:31,754
I realize the experiment's
flawed.

625
00:36:32,015 --> 00:36:33,103
It's a dead end.

626
00:36:33,974 --> 00:36:35,236
There is no way for me

627
00:36:35,280 --> 00:36:38,021
to really reproduce all the
variables.

628
00:36:39,849 --> 00:36:43,810
Was it pure chance that my
problems
started during the experiment?

629
00:36:44,985 --> 00:36:47,553
An uncountable number of
students
have had to perform

630
00:36:47,596 --> 00:36:48,989
that same experiment over the
years.

631
00:36:49,032 --> 00:36:50,295
It's standard.

632
00:36:52,210 --> 00:36:55,691
I didn't put my head
in a particle accelerator,
dammit.

633
00:36:58,085 --> 00:36:59,260
What am I missing?

634
00:37:02,655 --> 00:37:04,222
Done with delivery pizza.

635
00:37:04,439 --> 00:37:06,789
Need to minimize human
interaction.

636
00:37:07,790 --> 00:37:10,228
Switching
to Soylent meal-replacement
powder.

637
00:37:10,750 --> 00:37:12,578
One delivery per month.

638
00:37:14,667 --> 00:37:15,885
[scoffs]

639
00:37:16,321 --> 00:37:18,061
My dad was an odd bird.

640
00:37:19,149 --> 00:37:22,718
Once,
I asked him to tell me a scary
story,

641
00:37:23,850 --> 00:37:27,288
and he looked at me and said,
with his deep voice,

642
00:37:29,377 --> 00:37:34,295
"Son, today I took a dump,
and as I looked down at my poop,

643
00:37:34,339 --> 00:37:35,731
I asked myself:

644
00:37:36,254 --> 00:37:37,603
Is that corn?

645
00:37:38,430 --> 00:37:42,434
Spooky thing is,
I haven't eaten corn in years."

646
00:37:44,305 --> 00:37:45,611
Curtain falls.

647
00:37:45,654 --> 00:37:47,047
Applause.

648
00:37:47,090 --> 00:37:48,527
My dad.

649
00:37:51,530 --> 00:37:55,098
Turned out he had Schistosoma,
parasitic flatworms.

650
00:37:57,753 --> 00:37:59,189
Two months later, he was dead,

651
00:38:00,582 --> 00:38:02,236
but not from the parasites,

652
00:38:03,585 --> 00:38:04,804
just cancer.

653
00:38:08,111 --> 00:38:10,549
Part of the problem
is I struggle to describe

654
00:38:10,592 --> 00:38:11,854
what I'm hearing.

655
00:38:11,898 --> 00:38:13,508
Words can only do so much,

656
00:38:14,335 --> 00:38:17,773
so I used software
to replicate the sounds.

657
00:38:19,688 --> 00:38:20,689
Listen.

658
00:38:25,215 --> 00:38:27,783
Yes, this is fairly close to the
one

659
00:38:27,827 --> 00:38:30,220
I call the sound of silence.

660
00:38:32,266 --> 00:38:34,486
Now, I want you to hear what it
sounds

661
00:38:34,529 --> 00:38:36,575
when I walk around in my house

662
00:38:37,358 --> 00:38:42,145
[low buzzing sound]

663
00:38:42,407 --> 00:38:44,060
and onto the street.

664
00:38:46,411 --> 00:38:54,244
[unsettling sound]

665
00:38:54,288 --> 00:38:55,463
This is my world.

666
00:38:56,203 --> 00:38:57,987
I am sharing this recording
online.

667
00:39:01,991 --> 00:39:05,430
Setting up cheese and bread
for future studies.

668
00:39:06,213 --> 00:39:09,390
Sprinkling water over them
and sealing them in Tupperware.

669
00:39:10,435 --> 00:39:11,958
I need them ripe.

670
00:39:16,832 --> 00:39:19,182
My audio upload's gotten
a lot of comments.

671
00:39:19,226 --> 00:39:20,096
Read them all.

672
00:39:20,880 --> 00:39:22,272
Weak shit.

673
00:39:27,234 --> 00:39:28,757
Mother sent a message.

674
00:39:29,715 --> 00:39:33,327
She glued crystals
to her car's steering wheel

675
00:39:33,893 --> 00:39:35,329
for positive energy.

676
00:39:37,070 --> 00:39:38,941
Nothing says positive energy

677
00:39:38,985 --> 00:39:41,509
like adding shrapnel to your
airbag.

678
00:39:42,597 --> 00:39:44,294
I can't deal with her shit
anymore.

679
00:39:45,252 --> 00:39:46,645
Blocking her.

680
00:39:52,825 --> 00:39:54,696
I needed to buy a new
toothbrush,

681
00:39:54,740 --> 00:39:56,481
decided to drive to Winn-Dixie.

682
00:39:58,787 --> 00:40:00,006
Disturbing experience.

683
00:40:00,702 --> 00:40:01,921
It's crowded.

684
00:40:03,357 --> 00:40:04,532
I aborted halfway.

685
00:40:06,229 --> 00:40:08,014
Dental hygiene is a secondary
concern
in my life right now.

686
00:40:08,057 --> 00:40:10,669
If necessary,
I'll shop via Amazon.

687
00:40:11,974 --> 00:40:13,062
[scoffs]

688
00:40:13,106 --> 00:40:14,890
Did you know that the founder of
Amazon

689
00:40:14,934 --> 00:40:17,676
originally wanted
to call his company Cadabra,

690
00:40:17,719 --> 00:40:19,417
as in abracadabra?

691
00:40:20,853 --> 00:40:24,378
He scrapped the idea
after someone misheard it as
Cadaver.

692
00:40:27,294 --> 00:40:29,992
How does life itself influence
the sound?

693
00:40:31,211 --> 00:40:34,432
Let's start as basic as it gets,
cyanobacteria.

694
00:40:34,997 --> 00:40:36,390
Blue-green algae.

695
00:40:37,652 --> 00:40:39,175
Fascinating.

696
00:40:40,394 --> 00:40:43,179
It's got arthrospira,
the main organism in Spirulina.

697
00:40:44,093 --> 00:40:46,444
Asked Dana to buy me
a bottle at Whole Foods.

698
00:40:47,053 --> 00:40:47,967
[scoffs]

699
00:40:48,489 --> 00:40:50,665
My mother would be so proud.

700
00:40:52,667 --> 00:40:56,236
Being in a crowd makes the sound
almost unbearable.

701
00:40:58,107 --> 00:41:01,589
Idea, how much no algae do I
need

702
00:41:01,633 --> 00:41:04,070
before I can mimic that and find
out

703
00:41:04,113 --> 00:41:05,767
if it's just amplification or,

704
00:41:05,811 --> 00:41:07,508
[phone ringing]

705
00:41:08,553 --> 00:41:10,685
My boss is calling.

706
00:41:15,734 --> 00:41:18,171
He was friendly
but more tense than usual,

707
00:41:19,651 --> 00:41:21,217
[sighs] but I can't go back now.

708
00:41:21,261 --> 00:41:22,392
Impossible.

709
00:41:24,743 --> 00:41:25,613
Where was I?

710
00:41:26,440 --> 00:41:27,789
Oh yes, the algae.

711
00:41:28,616 --> 00:41:30,009
[sighs]

712
00:41:30,923 --> 00:41:33,099
There is a hum that reminds me

713
00:41:33,142 --> 00:41:34,622
of when I'm around other people.

714
00:41:36,537 --> 00:41:38,191
Is it the sound of life?

715
00:41:39,497 --> 00:41:41,542
No,
but algae are such basic
organisms.

716
00:41:41,890 --> 00:41:44,937
I'm surrounded by myriads
of one-celled organisms.

717
00:41:45,372 --> 00:41:46,939
[buzzing sound]

718
00:41:46,982 --> 00:41:49,202
The first self-replicating
molecule

719
00:41:49,245 --> 00:41:52,771
that emerged from chemical soup
four billion years ago

720
00:41:53,380 --> 00:41:56,035
set us on a course of copying
that led to us.

721
00:41:57,384 --> 00:41:59,952
We are that which copies.

722
00:42:00,692 --> 00:42:02,911
Without it, we would be gone.

723
00:42:03,782 --> 00:42:05,348
Copying is the thing

724
00:42:05,392 --> 00:42:08,221
that distinguishes dumb matter
from life.

725
00:42:09,570 --> 00:42:12,573
Evolution is often portrayed
as a ladder of progress,

726
00:42:12,834 --> 00:42:17,099
leading toward bigger, faster,
and smarter organisms,

727
00:42:17,143 --> 00:42:20,189
the assumption being that
evolution
drives organisms

728
00:42:20,233 --> 00:42:24,542
to gain complexity and
ultimately
become more like humans.

729
00:42:26,152 --> 00:42:27,370
I'm not sure about that.

730
00:42:28,981 --> 00:42:32,071
I think evolution
is driven toward
diversification.

731
00:42:33,202 --> 00:42:36,466
Life is constrained
to a simple starting point,
bacteria.

732
00:42:36,989 --> 00:42:39,600
Any diversity resulting
from this simple start

733
00:42:40,079 --> 00:42:43,430
has a skewed distribution
and moves in the direction

734
00:42:43,473 --> 00:42:44,562
of higher complexity.

735
00:42:45,258 --> 00:42:47,956
99% of living beings on this
planet

736
00:42:48,000 --> 00:42:49,784
are single-celled organisms.

737
00:42:50,480 --> 00:42:53,396
Multicellular life
is a statistical anomaly.

738
00:42:53,701 --> 00:42:56,486
[humming sound]

739
00:42:56,530 --> 00:42:58,880
It's a small world after all.

740
00:43:01,970 --> 00:43:05,495
Do I hear all of them?

741
00:43:09,499 --> 00:43:11,023
All the single cells around me?

742
00:43:12,372 --> 00:43:15,027
What about small but complex
organisms?

743
00:43:17,159 --> 00:43:21,468
I read that dozens of mites
live on every hair on my face,

744
00:43:21,903 --> 00:43:24,993
quietly gorging themselves
on my natural oils.

745
00:43:26,691 --> 00:43:30,564
Not even mentioning all the
critters
that live inside me.

746
00:43:32,740 --> 00:43:34,263
My dad used to say,

747
00:43:35,003 --> 00:43:38,224
life isn't a battle between good
and bad,

748
00:43:38,790 --> 00:43:41,575
but between bad and worse.

749
00:43:44,491 --> 00:43:46,145
I started growing algae in my
bathtub.

750
00:43:47,102 --> 00:43:49,670
Aiming at 165 pounds.

751
00:43:51,759 --> 00:43:53,195
Not the best smell,

752
00:43:53,239 --> 00:43:56,111
but it's the closest I've found
to mirror the changes

753
00:43:56,155 --> 00:43:57,896
when I'm with one person.

754
00:44:00,942 --> 00:44:02,378
Heavily constipated.

755
00:44:02,770 --> 00:44:04,554
Possible side-effect of Soylent.

756
00:44:06,121 --> 00:44:08,254
Bristol stool chart type 1.

757
00:44:12,301 --> 00:44:16,654
I've introduced plant life,
lush specimen from outside.

758
00:44:17,785 --> 00:44:19,744
The upside of pretty much
living in a swamp.

759
00:44:21,833 --> 00:44:23,443
At a population level,

760
00:44:23,486 --> 00:44:25,532
species seek to maximize their
numbers

761
00:44:25,575 --> 00:44:30,102
by exploiting and bending
to their will the
vulnerabilities

762
00:44:30,145 --> 00:44:31,973
of other organisms in the niche.

763
00:44:33,018 --> 00:44:35,673
Professor Al-Wathiq told us
in his biophysics class

764
00:44:36,064 --> 00:44:39,807
that we could say that plants
are actually farming us

765
00:44:40,808 --> 00:44:42,897
by giving us oxygen daily

766
00:44:42,941 --> 00:44:45,247
until we all eventually
decompose

767
00:44:46,640 --> 00:44:48,424
so that they can consume us.

768
00:44:49,817 --> 00:44:52,907
Plants have the hum I've come
to associate with living things,

769
00:44:54,387 --> 00:44:56,432
but it's not the same as the
algae.

770
00:44:59,044 --> 00:45:00,436
Trying to focus and listen.

771
00:45:03,483 --> 00:45:06,791
I'll be able to tell if any
plants
are in a room

772
00:45:07,269 --> 00:45:10,098
merely by how the sound changes.

773
00:45:11,665 --> 00:45:13,058
When I began these experiments,

774
00:45:13,362 --> 00:45:14,668
multiple objects in a room

775
00:45:14,712 --> 00:45:16,888
caused an indistinguishable
blending.

776
00:45:17,715 --> 00:45:19,891
Now, I can hear the differences

777
00:45:19,934 --> 00:45:22,371
and pick out the sounds of each
item.

778
00:45:25,374 --> 00:45:27,420
Every sound alarms.

779
00:45:29,552 --> 00:45:32,468
I'm exhausted but very
optimistic.

780
00:45:33,948 --> 00:45:36,211
Here,
a bamboo plant I got at IKEA.

781
00:45:36,472 --> 00:45:38,692
it's been sitting in my living
room
for some time.

782
00:45:41,869 --> 00:45:45,786
A dead plant has distinct
differences
from a living plant.

783
00:45:48,136 --> 00:45:49,834
It's another unsettling sound.

784
00:45:50,748 --> 00:45:52,837
The sound lacks the element

785
00:45:52,880 --> 00:45:54,839
that has in common with algae
and people.

786
00:45:55,840 --> 00:45:57,842
That is indeed the sound of
life.

787
00:45:58,799 --> 00:46:00,322
When does it change?

788
00:46:02,281 --> 00:46:03,891
It's time for the next step.

789
00:46:08,156 --> 00:46:10,332
Yes, yes, there's a change.

790
00:46:12,204 --> 00:46:14,859
Plants don't necessarily die
when we chop them up,

791
00:46:14,902 --> 00:46:17,296
but there is a change.

792
00:46:18,384 --> 00:46:21,561
I read that the smell of
fresh-cut grass
I like so much

793
00:46:21,604 --> 00:46:23,781
is a chemical distress signal.

794
00:46:24,390 --> 00:46:26,958
It's the smell of terror and
death.

795
00:46:28,046 --> 00:46:30,657
It must be comparable
to what I'm hearing now.

796
00:46:32,920 --> 00:46:34,530
The onset of death.

797
00:46:38,578 --> 00:46:40,188
Constipation persists.

798
00:46:50,242 --> 00:46:51,809
Try to drain the bathtub.

799
00:46:52,810 --> 00:46:54,202
The algae clogged it.

800
00:46:57,118 --> 00:46:58,772
That hair from the drain?

801
00:47:01,557 --> 00:47:03,821
Guess it's sponge baths in the
kitchen
for now.

802
00:47:08,521 --> 00:47:09,739
Switching to fungi.

803
00:47:10,915 --> 00:47:13,221
Getting back to the cheese and
bread
I set up

804
00:47:13,265 --> 00:47:15,658
for maximum fungal grow.

805
00:47:17,922 --> 00:47:19,488
Fungi always intrigued me.

806
00:47:20,402 --> 00:47:23,014
The largest known living
organism
is a mushroom.

807
00:47:24,276 --> 00:47:29,150
It's 2400-years-old
and covers over 2000 acres.

808
00:47:30,108 --> 00:47:35,200
mold on the International Space
Station
survives 200 times

809
00:47:35,243 --> 00:47:36,897
the radiation that would kill a
human.

810
00:47:40,118 --> 00:47:42,511
Fungi are separate
from plants and animals.

811
00:47:43,077 --> 00:47:45,863
I can hear the difference
clearly.

812
00:47:47,212 --> 00:47:49,475
The fungus has a sound of its
own.

813
00:47:52,478 --> 00:47:55,220
How long will it take
before I can detect differences

814
00:47:55,263 --> 00:47:57,483
between individuals species?

815
00:47:58,963 --> 00:48:02,531
Meanwhile, my online ventures
remain less fruitful

816
00:48:02,575 --> 00:48:03,619
than I hoped.

817
00:48:05,273 --> 00:48:09,016
Some trolls have even started
to bombard me with bad memes.

818
00:48:09,625 --> 00:48:12,672
Condescending Willy Wonka my
hairy ass.

819
00:48:13,194 --> 00:48:14,717
Urgh.

820
00:48:17,068 --> 00:48:18,286
They can keep laughing at me.

821
00:48:18,939 --> 00:48:22,725
It reflects their bigotry,
their ignorance.

822
00:48:27,208 --> 00:48:29,297
People like to tell the funny
story

823
00:48:29,558 --> 00:48:33,345
that NASA invested millions
into creating a ballpoint pen

824
00:48:33,388 --> 00:48:35,173
that could write in zero
gravity.

825
00:48:35,564 --> 00:48:38,089
The Soviets, the story goes,

826
00:48:41,701 --> 00:48:43,268
just used a pencil.

827
00:48:44,312 --> 00:48:46,619
Boom. Shh. Rimshot.

828
00:48:50,710 --> 00:48:54,453
The fact is NASA never invested
money
in a pen.

829
00:49:01,808 --> 00:49:04,593
After a fire broke out in the
Apollo 1

830
00:49:05,159 --> 00:49:07,727
incinerating the three
astronauts,

831
00:49:08,423 --> 00:49:11,296
burning plastic sticking to
their skin,

832
00:49:11,339 --> 00:49:12,950
eating away their flesh,

833
00:49:13,733 --> 00:49:17,345
turning them into toxic ash
and blackened bones,

834
00:49:18,564 --> 00:49:20,653
neither Americans nor Russians

835
00:49:20,696 --> 00:49:23,656
wanted flammable material
aboard a spacecraft

836
00:49:24,483 --> 00:49:27,225
and certainly nothing
that contained graphite.

837
00:49:29,967 --> 00:49:32,012
The last laugh is on the
knowing.

838
00:49:33,492 --> 00:49:34,972
No exception.

839
00:49:39,063 --> 00:49:42,544
Introducing lichen has opened up
a new avenue of thought.

840
00:49:43,328 --> 00:49:45,504
I've been fascinated
by lichen all my life.

841
00:49:46,505 --> 00:49:49,290
Lichen is the perfect answer
to harsh environments.

842
00:49:49,682 --> 00:49:51,466
Pure efficiency.

843
00:49:51,858 --> 00:49:55,688
It's a symbiosis of two
organisms,
algae, and fungus.

844
00:49:57,907 --> 00:50:01,259
I expected the lichen
to have a mix of sounds,

845
00:50:01,868 --> 00:50:03,826
but the lichen has a unique
sound.

846
00:50:05,654 --> 00:50:08,309
Can the relationship
between the organisms affect the
sound?

847
00:50:12,792 --> 00:50:15,403
The pitch changes
are close to each other.

848
00:50:17,710 --> 00:50:20,539
It's as if they know
they could become lichen.

849
00:50:21,888 --> 00:50:26,197
Do algae and fungi recognize
each other?

850
00:50:30,114 --> 00:50:32,333
I'm on the brink of a major
discovery.

851
00:50:33,117 --> 00:50:36,816
Not just about my condition,
but about life itself.

852
00:50:38,035 --> 00:50:40,559
My research opens up
a new world of possibilities

853
00:50:40,602 --> 00:50:41,995
I hadn't even considered.
[dog barks outside]

854
00:50:47,653 --> 00:50:48,610
Dana got a new dog.

855
00:50:49,220 --> 00:50:50,699
Yaps like hell.

856
00:50:54,790 --> 00:50:56,488
I can't focus.

857
00:50:57,184 --> 00:51:00,796
It took humans only 10,000 years
to turn a wolf into,

858
00:51:01,188 --> 00:51:02,624
essentially, a rat.

859
00:51:04,148 --> 00:51:06,672
I've begun researching
how to soundproof my walls.

860
00:51:09,196 --> 00:51:11,590
I even visited an online
soundproofing community

861
00:51:11,633 --> 00:51:13,374
and explained my situation.

862
00:51:14,419 --> 00:51:16,160
Ignoramuses.

863
00:51:16,725 --> 00:51:19,250
Seems the only way to get
the right answer on the internet

864
00:51:19,293 --> 00:51:21,121
is to post the wrong answer.

865
00:51:22,122 --> 00:51:23,036
I hate it,

866
00:51:24,559 --> 00:51:28,085
but I need to visit the infernal
chaos
of Home Depot.

867
00:51:30,174 --> 00:51:39,705
[background noise]

868
00:51:40,532 --> 00:51:41,968
Reality denied...

869
00:51:42,621 --> 00:51:43,709
comes back...

870
00:51:45,058 --> 00:51:46,407
to haunt.

871
00:51:48,975 --> 00:51:52,370
That was a painful process,
but at last,

872
00:51:52,935 --> 00:51:55,547
I managed to block out the
outside world.

873
00:51:56,939 --> 00:51:59,464
I put my mattress for my
labyrinth
so I can sleep here now.

874
00:52:00,291 --> 00:52:02,902
Did you know the Simpsons
has been on so long,

875
00:52:02,945 --> 00:52:05,122
Bart should now be Homer's age?

876
00:52:07,254 --> 00:52:10,039
Will try my masturbation
to rebalance my cortisol levels.

877
00:52:10,779 --> 00:52:12,825
We'll take notes in an Excel
spreadsheet.

878
00:52:16,263 --> 00:52:18,309
The sound seems sharper now.

879
00:52:19,397 --> 00:52:21,834
I feel like I could understand
it
if I concentrated enough.

880
00:52:24,141 --> 00:52:26,273
Stranger,
that's made it harder to fall
asleep.

881
00:52:28,057 --> 00:52:31,104
The sound is always present
but my isolation makes it

882
00:52:31,148 --> 00:52:32,410
even more noticeable.

883
00:52:33,976 --> 00:52:37,850
At night it's just me the sound
and its countless changes

884
00:52:37,893 --> 00:52:39,373
pulling me from my rest.

885
00:52:40,853 --> 00:52:42,333
I feel the need to adjust
myself,

886
00:52:42,376 --> 00:52:44,857
to harden myself against the
barrage.

887
00:52:47,947 --> 00:52:48,948
It helps.

888
00:52:50,167 --> 00:52:51,733
I can make out the subtlest
changes now.

889
00:52:51,777 --> 00:52:57,261
It's almost like a conversation.

890
00:52:58,305 --> 00:52:59,480
Oh my God,

891
00:53:01,743 --> 00:53:03,528
I know it sounds crazy.

892
00:53:03,571 --> 00:53:06,444
Why would cells need to speak
to one another

893
00:53:06,487 --> 00:53:08,794
beyond the chemical exchange
defined by genetics?

894
00:53:09,186 --> 00:53:12,232
Yet, with the silence around me
I can feel it.

895
00:53:12,798 --> 00:53:14,539
It's clearer all the time.

896
00:53:15,453 --> 00:53:18,195
The sound changes on its own.

897
00:53:19,283 --> 00:53:19,979
[door bell]

898
00:53:20,022 --> 00:53:21,372
Leave, now.

899
00:53:22,982 --> 00:53:25,811
- My dad have a violent temper
and his tour in Iraq

900
00:53:26,115 --> 00:53:27,247
made it worse.

901
00:53:28,944 --> 00:53:31,382
With both of his legs and
two-thirds
of his penis missing,

902
00:53:31,773 --> 00:53:33,688
the only upside was he couldn't
catch me.

903
00:53:34,907 --> 00:53:38,476
He became a marksman at throwing
things,
and it shows.

904
00:53:41,827 --> 00:53:46,135
I hid a lot, in books, in tree
houses,
in our basement.

905
00:53:47,963 --> 00:53:49,226
More or less successful,

906
00:53:50,270 --> 00:53:52,490
but I think I can finally
embrace it.

907
00:53:54,883 --> 00:53:58,583
I exist in agreement
with all the weird turmoil

908
00:53:58,626 --> 00:54:01,325
and destruction
that is part of being alive.

909
00:54:03,631 --> 00:54:04,850
I'm home.

910
00:54:06,982 --> 00:54:08,941
Home isn't where you're born.

911
00:54:09,594 --> 00:54:13,250
It's where all your attempts
to escape cease.

912
00:54:17,863 --> 00:54:20,257
Need to move on to a higher life
form.

913
00:54:21,301 --> 00:54:25,523
Pogonomyrmex barbatus.
Florida harvester ants.

914
00:54:26,350 --> 00:54:28,395
Found a bunch on my porch
near the kitchen.

915
00:54:29,744 --> 00:54:31,311
Feisty creatures.

916
00:54:32,356 --> 00:54:35,837
Building a little jail for them.

917
00:54:37,578 --> 00:54:40,320
Ants communicate with each other
on a chemical level.

918
00:54:40,799 --> 00:54:43,323
They belong to a hive mind
and perform tasks

919
00:54:43,367 --> 00:54:44,542
in accordance with it.

920
00:54:44,585 --> 00:54:46,457
That must be reflected in the
sound.

921
00:54:48,720 --> 00:54:51,375
The hum of life is there,
but different.

922
00:54:53,594 --> 00:54:56,728
As the ants move, the sound
changes.

923
00:54:57,903 --> 00:55:02,429
A tiny hum here,
a soft alteration of pitch
there,

924
00:55:05,171 --> 00:55:06,825
yet I can't see any connections

925
00:55:06,868 --> 00:55:08,348
with what the ants are doing.

926
00:55:11,177 --> 00:55:13,397
They're obviously in distress,

927
00:55:13,788 --> 00:55:15,486
fighting against the sticky
tape,

928
00:55:16,487 --> 00:55:18,358
yet they're struggling alone,

929
00:55:18,402 --> 00:55:20,317
no way to inform the hive mind.

930
00:55:21,535 --> 00:55:23,232
Could I see a pattern if I
understood

931
00:55:23,276 --> 00:55:24,625
the will of the hive mind?

932
00:55:27,585 --> 00:55:29,195
Observing them up close is
difficult.

933
00:55:30,022 --> 00:55:31,415
They keep moving.

934
00:55:31,458 --> 00:55:32,851
Why can't they stay still?

935
00:55:34,983 --> 00:55:36,594
I'm too tired for this.

936
00:55:36,942 --> 00:55:39,118
Sleep is a little slice of
death,

937
00:55:39,336 --> 00:55:40,989
but I can't help craving it.

938
00:55:42,034 --> 00:55:45,516
I've observed these jittery,
feculent insects long enough.

939
00:55:47,692 --> 00:55:55,526
[screeching]

940
00:56:00,966 --> 00:56:03,751
I'm so happy
that that horrible screech
faded,

941
00:56:05,449 --> 00:56:06,798
that it isn't permanent.

942
00:56:07,886 --> 00:56:09,888
For a moment, I thought I might
go insane.

943
00:56:13,326 --> 00:56:14,806
Something isn't right.

944
00:56:15,328 --> 00:56:17,243
The sound has changed.

945
00:56:18,679 --> 00:56:20,377
It makes my hair stand on end.

946
00:56:21,465 --> 00:56:23,554
I feel very uncomfortable, on
edge,

947
00:56:24,816 --> 00:56:26,208
but I need to keep going.

948
00:56:28,036 --> 00:56:29,298
I need more ants.

949
00:56:30,909 --> 00:56:33,128
I turned off the air
conditioning
and started leaving food

950
00:56:33,172 --> 00:56:35,304
on the kitchen floor and in
here.

951
00:56:36,001 --> 00:56:39,396
94 Fahrenheit,
34.4 Celsius outside.

952
00:56:39,439 --> 00:56:40,266
Perfect.

953
00:56:40,919 --> 00:56:42,268
It should attract them.

954
00:56:44,531 --> 00:56:46,315
Good, fresh specimens.

955
00:56:47,491 --> 00:56:49,101
Trying to analyze what was going
on.

956
00:56:50,363 --> 00:56:51,190
First,

957
00:56:52,321 --> 00:56:53,453
I could hear the same change as
I did

958
00:56:53,497 --> 00:56:54,846
when I cut up the plant.

959
00:56:55,499 --> 00:56:58,719
The hum of life transitions
into the sound of death.

960
00:56:59,938 --> 00:57:02,462
What was that screeching sound?

961
00:57:04,029 --> 00:57:09,208
My hypothesis is that the other
ants
reacted systemically.

962
00:57:09,251 --> 00:57:10,862
When I killed the ant in front
of them

963
00:57:10,905 --> 00:57:13,386
their sounds changed
in response to its death.

964
00:57:14,779 --> 00:57:16,215
Nothing like that happened
with the plants,

965
00:57:16,258 --> 00:57:19,697
but plants aren't aware
in the same way insects are.

966
00:57:22,439 --> 00:57:24,571
It also explains the change in
the ants.

967
00:57:25,572 --> 00:57:27,444
Those that witnessed the death,

968
00:57:28,749 --> 00:57:31,535
did they recognize me
as the other ants killer?

969
00:57:32,492 --> 00:57:33,798
That can't be.

970
00:57:34,755 --> 00:57:37,715
I must be like a God to them
and there is no way

971
00:57:37,758 --> 00:57:39,499
they can recognize me.

972
00:57:41,414 --> 00:57:45,766
It's like the ants didn't know
but the sound did.

973
00:57:46,593 --> 00:57:50,597
Whatever it is,
it is not tinnitus.

974
00:57:51,598 --> 00:57:52,947
This is a triumph.

975
00:57:54,427 --> 00:57:55,733
I'm making a note here.

976
00:57:55,776 --> 00:57:57,430
Huge success.

977
00:57:57,822 --> 00:57:59,084
Reading my next report.

978
00:57:59,127 --> 00:58:00,825
The scientists have to realize,

979
00:58:00,868 --> 00:58:03,218
I couldn't imagine something
on this scale.

980
00:58:03,262 --> 00:58:05,351
How could I dream this up?

981
00:58:06,961 --> 00:58:09,181
I'm down to two hours of sleep a
day.

982
00:58:10,399 --> 00:58:13,881
A horrible screech in my skull

983
00:58:15,448 --> 00:58:21,541
keeps me in between worlds.

984
00:58:21,585 --> 00:58:22,847
[door bell]

985
00:58:23,151 --> 00:58:23,935
Again?

986
00:58:24,892 --> 00:58:26,894
What do they want this time?

987
00:58:27,329 --> 00:58:28,722
I told my neighbors not to
bother me.

988
00:58:28,766 --> 00:58:30,681
Why did they keep disturbing me?

989
00:58:31,986 --> 00:58:33,640
It can't smell that bad.

990
00:58:37,818 --> 00:58:39,211
It took me some effort,

991
00:58:40,821 --> 00:58:43,607
but I managed to digitally
recreate
that horrible screech.

992
00:58:46,218 --> 00:58:48,176
[screeching]
The sound builds up.

993
00:58:50,309 --> 00:58:51,310
That's it.

994
00:58:51,789 --> 00:58:53,530
That's the sound that haunts me.

995
00:58:53,965 --> 00:59:01,276
[screeching]

996
00:59:01,842 --> 00:59:04,497
The sound
as the ants witnessed the
killing.

997
00:59:05,498 --> 00:59:06,760
I'll share this online.

998
00:59:07,500 --> 00:59:10,068
Invisible things are the only
reality.

999
00:59:12,592 --> 00:59:14,072
Tried to catch geckos outside.

1000
00:59:14,333 --> 00:59:15,334
Too fast.

1001
00:59:16,117 --> 00:59:17,249
Slugs are easier.

1002
00:59:18,859 --> 00:59:20,687
We'll attract them
with Bharat's hipster beer
overnight.

1003
00:59:24,822 --> 00:59:26,214
Success.

1004
00:59:27,172 --> 00:59:29,435
Florida has only a few species
that are native,

1005
00:59:29,478 --> 00:59:32,525
but give me an invasive slug
from Europe any old day.

1006
00:59:33,961 --> 00:59:36,311
Come on, Christopher Columbus.

1007
00:59:38,575 --> 00:59:39,924
Why is there no relationship

1008
00:59:39,967 --> 00:59:41,969
between the slug's actions and
the sound?

1009
00:59:44,319 --> 00:59:46,278
Still, some patterns exist.

1010
00:59:47,540 --> 00:59:49,760
The shifting from life to death
is the most obvious,

1011
00:59:49,803 --> 00:59:51,805
but I've noticed more

1012
00:59:52,676 --> 00:59:56,201
more than one creature together
also causes a change

1013
00:59:56,767 --> 00:59:58,725
and the combination matters.

1014
00:59:59,596 --> 01:00:02,642
Two slugs together sound
different
than a slug and an ant.

1015
01:00:03,077 --> 01:00:06,167
Witnesses to a death suffer
a permanent change.

1016
01:00:07,560 --> 01:00:09,214
Forget my earlier panic,

1017
01:00:09,257 --> 01:00:12,173
the sound responded to the act
itself.

1018
01:00:14,088 --> 01:00:17,439
This isn't something to fear,
but the proof I need.

1019
01:00:19,528 --> 01:00:22,270
Suppose scientists
take a group of organisms

1020
01:00:22,314 --> 01:00:24,751
into an isolated room
and kill one of them.

1021
01:00:25,317 --> 01:00:27,232
Then, they bring me two groups,

1022
01:00:27,275 --> 01:00:30,104
one that was present for the
slaughter
and one that was not.

1023
01:00:30,931 --> 01:00:32,933
When I tell them definitively,

1024
01:00:32,977 --> 01:00:34,674
which ones witnessed the death,

1025
01:00:34,718 --> 01:00:36,633
they'll know I'm not making this
up.

1026
01:00:37,764 --> 01:00:38,983
It won't end there either.

1027
01:00:39,026 --> 01:00:41,115
This could be revolutionary
for the world.

1028
01:00:41,638 --> 01:00:43,857
Imagine how crime investigations
might change

1029
01:00:43,901 --> 01:00:46,512
once you can tell if someone
has witnessed death or not.

1030
01:00:47,861 --> 01:00:49,820
Will I be able to help sick
people?

1031
01:00:50,211 --> 01:00:52,431
Will I be able to really
accomplish

1032
01:00:52,474 --> 01:00:56,174
what all new-age charlatans
out there claim they can?

1033
01:00:56,957 --> 01:00:58,785
I might be getting ahead of
myself.

1034
01:00:58,829 --> 01:01:01,135
I don't fully understand how
this works.

1035
01:01:05,226 --> 01:01:07,664
These slugs are a variety of
ages.

1036
01:01:09,622 --> 01:01:11,972
Is it the sound of death
building up

1037
01:01:12,016 --> 01:01:14,366
in the slug's body as it ages?

1038
01:01:16,368 --> 01:01:18,283
As it age itself?

1039
01:01:21,286 --> 01:01:23,767
Amid all the snarky replies,

1040
01:01:23,810 --> 01:01:27,292
someone online finally wants to
help.

1041
01:01:28,510 --> 01:01:31,775
His YouTube name is Lance,
Lance Liebenfels.

1042
01:01:34,299 --> 01:01:35,996
He replied to my latest video
and says

1043
01:01:36,040 --> 01:01:38,085
he thinks he knows what's going
on.

1044
01:01:38,825 --> 01:01:40,566
He wants more samples to
compare.

1045
01:01:43,351 --> 01:01:45,702
Have I finally found
someone else like me?

1046
01:01:49,749 --> 01:01:53,840
Just one thing I need to do,
for the sake of knowledge.

1047
01:01:54,798 --> 01:01:56,277
I don't have a choice.

1048
01:01:59,803 --> 01:02:01,456
The change in the ants,

1049
01:02:02,370 --> 01:02:04,024
I only tested it with them.

1050
01:02:10,770 --> 01:02:12,903
I need the slug to die slow

1051
01:02:14,643 --> 01:02:16,645
so it gives me time to observe.

1052
01:02:25,393 --> 01:02:26,873
The slug suffers,

1053
01:02:30,268 --> 01:02:31,356
definitely.

1054
01:02:36,840 --> 01:02:37,841
More salt

1055
01:02:39,930 --> 01:02:41,888
[grunts].

1056
01:02:46,066 --> 01:02:47,720
Yes, the same sound.

1057
01:02:48,590 --> 01:02:53,073
It's the same eldritch sound
[grunts].

1058
01:03:01,342 --> 01:03:03,170
My previous experiment confirmed
it.

1059
01:03:03,214 --> 01:03:05,738
The sound was the same
as when I killed the ant.

1060
01:03:06,913 --> 01:03:09,481
We will keep a slug alive in the
cup
just to be safe

1061
01:03:11,570 --> 01:03:13,485
and I'll put the rest in the
freezer.

1062
01:03:13,528 --> 01:03:19,534
[door bell]

1063
01:03:19,578 --> 01:03:22,015
Not now,
I can't have any distractions
now.

1064
01:03:24,017 --> 01:03:25,627
At least,
I've taken the first step.

1065
01:03:26,803 --> 01:03:30,981
Death has a detectable,
repeatable sound.

1066
01:03:32,809 --> 01:03:34,593
Although there seems to be a
difference

1067
01:03:34,636 --> 01:03:36,160
in the quality of death.

1068
01:03:41,600 --> 01:03:43,907
One thing that keeps me going
is Liebenfels,

1069
01:03:44,342 --> 01:03:45,996
my online ally.

1070
01:03:47,519 --> 01:03:49,826
He's a weird fellow,
but he makes me laugh.

1071
01:03:51,479 --> 01:03:52,785
I connect with him.

1072
01:03:54,526 --> 01:03:56,789
He doesn't call me "Florida
Man".

1073
01:03:59,923 --> 01:04:01,925
The first time
I was confronted with death

1074
01:04:01,968 --> 01:04:04,536
was when I was 11 or 12.

1075
01:04:05,624 --> 01:04:08,061
I visited my grandparents
in North Carolina.

1076
01:04:08,975 --> 01:04:10,759
They were some true,

1077
01:04:10,803 --> 01:04:14,241
boiled goober peas-eating
Southern farmers.

1078
01:04:15,852 --> 01:04:19,072
Grandpa took me to the barn
and caught one of his chickens.

1079
01:04:19,812 --> 01:04:22,162
He held it and told me to kill
it.

1080
01:04:22,641 --> 01:04:24,599
Some weird rite of passage.

1081
01:04:25,949 --> 01:04:28,995
I think he wanted me to break
its neck
with my hands.

1082
01:04:30,083 --> 01:04:31,650
Instead,

1083
01:04:31,693 --> 01:04:34,522
I took the little plastic water
pistol
I had in my pocket

1084
01:04:34,566 --> 01:04:36,220
and began to hit its head with
it.

1085
01:04:37,961 --> 01:04:39,658
The chicken stared at me.

1086
01:04:41,094 --> 01:04:43,096
Although it knew the end was
near,

1087
01:04:43,140 --> 01:04:46,926
its eyes were full of absolute
disdain and pity.

1088
01:04:48,667 --> 01:04:52,410
I have never ever seen a being
look at me that way.

1089
01:04:54,455 --> 01:04:57,458
"What the hell are you doing?

1090
01:04:57,502 --> 01:05:00,070
You are a complete idiot."

1091
01:05:02,159 --> 01:05:04,422
Grandpa ended it quickly with a
snap.

1092
01:05:08,948 --> 01:05:11,995
This bird can help me
further select the changes.

1093
01:05:13,213 --> 01:05:14,649
Little by little,

1094
01:05:14,693 --> 01:05:16,303
the patterns emerge.

1095
01:05:28,098 --> 01:05:29,273
Back to the pet store.

1096
01:05:29,534 --> 01:05:30,404
Stressful.

1097
01:05:33,668 --> 01:05:34,887
New bird.

1098
01:05:36,236 --> 01:05:40,284
I poisoned this one with Draino,
slowly every one hour.

1099
01:05:42,025 --> 01:05:46,725
I predicted the time of death,
I heard the end approaching.

1100
01:05:47,726 --> 01:05:54,211
[sound]

1101
01:05:54,559 --> 01:05:56,996
This is enough,
birds are expensive.

1102
01:06:03,046 --> 01:06:05,135
Turning the remains
of the bird into charcoal,

1103
01:06:05,483 --> 01:06:06,658
filtering it.

1104
01:06:08,703 --> 01:06:10,923
I can hear patterns.

1105
01:06:12,142 --> 01:06:13,926
I can see patterns.

1106
01:06:15,449 --> 01:06:18,757
I can hear the essence
of the bird's demise.

1107
01:06:22,108 --> 01:06:24,763
I've compiled my notes
and evidence into a new file.

1108
01:06:25,416 --> 01:06:28,593
This time with an offer
to demonstrate my skills

1109
01:06:28,636 --> 01:06:31,117
and any way the experts deem
necessary.

1110
01:06:31,596 --> 01:06:34,164
Whether it's judging age,
predicting illness,

1111
01:06:34,207 --> 01:06:36,862
or identifying which organisms
have witness to death.

1112
01:06:40,039 --> 01:06:44,565
The real question is,
do I still want to cure?

1113
01:06:46,915 --> 01:06:49,005
Or would it be better
to see this as a gift?

1114
01:06:50,571 --> 01:06:53,009
This could revolutionize
criminal investigations,

1115
01:06:53,052 --> 01:06:54,227
the medical world.

1116
01:06:55,054 --> 01:06:56,664
The possibilities are endless.

1117
01:06:58,449 --> 01:06:59,232
I did it.

1118
01:07:00,538 --> 01:07:02,105
I really did it.

1119
01:07:04,281 --> 01:07:09,764
Persistence, it's part of my
DNA,
part of being human.

1120
01:07:10,678 --> 01:07:13,594
Ancestrally,
we are persistence hunters.

1121
01:07:14,465 --> 01:07:16,162
We're almost entirely hairless,

1122
01:07:16,206 --> 01:07:17,990
which means better heat
dissipation.

1123
01:07:18,034 --> 01:07:19,905
We have a lot of sweat glands.

1124
01:07:19,948 --> 01:07:22,125
The way we walk on our two legs

1125
01:07:22,168 --> 01:07:24,562
is just a succession of
controlled falls.

1126
01:07:24,953 --> 01:07:27,304
Gravity does half the work,
and as a result,

1127
01:07:27,347 --> 01:07:29,001
we use up fewer calories.

1128
01:07:32,178 --> 01:07:34,180
Imagine being an antelope.

1129
01:07:35,355 --> 01:07:38,141
Picture yourself 100 millennia
ago,

1130
01:07:38,880 --> 01:07:40,665
somewhere in the African steppe.

1131
01:07:41,666 --> 01:07:43,102
Sun burns down.

1132
01:07:44,234 --> 01:07:47,150
You're just hanging around
in the shade of a bush

1133
01:07:47,193 --> 01:07:51,110
doing your grazing thing,
when you see in the distance,

1134
01:07:52,633 --> 01:07:54,635
strange-looking predator.

1135
01:07:57,116 --> 01:08:00,076
He's walking on two legs, so
he's slow.

1136
01:08:00,946 --> 01:08:04,254
As he gets closer,
you run off, and you assume you
escaped.

1137
01:08:05,211 --> 01:08:07,561
Most predators give up
after a short while,

1138
01:08:07,605 --> 01:08:09,911
but this predator is different.

1139
01:08:11,435 --> 01:08:13,698
Here he is again, so you flee,

1140
01:08:14,525 --> 01:08:16,831
and after some time
you see him approach again.

1141
01:08:18,137 --> 01:08:21,488
He returns, and returns, and
returns,

1142
01:08:22,185 --> 01:08:25,188
and you run, and run, and run.

1143
01:08:26,189 --> 01:08:28,843
You're getting hot, so you need
to stop,

1144
01:08:28,887 --> 01:08:30,149
but he just keeps coming.

1145
01:08:30,845 --> 01:08:33,326
You're tired, exhausted.

1146
01:08:34,197 --> 01:08:36,503
You're a fast creature
but not for very long.

1147
01:08:36,547 --> 01:08:38,897
After a while you reach your
limits.

1148
01:08:38,940 --> 01:08:41,856
Eventually,
you just lay there out of
energy,

1149
01:08:42,161 --> 01:08:44,598
overheated, panting.

1150
01:08:44,642 --> 01:08:50,213
This ridiculous hairless ape
with his crazy staring eyes

1151
01:08:50,256 --> 01:08:53,520
gets closer and closer,
eventually just jogging over to
you.

1152
01:08:54,739 --> 01:08:58,264
Something bites in your
skin,opening it.

1153
01:08:58,308 --> 01:09:01,746
Your awareness melts away
with each drop of blood.

1154
01:09:02,094 --> 01:09:06,142
He diminishes,
he gorges on your precious
proteins,

1155
01:09:06,490 --> 01:09:08,796
wallowing in your organs.

1156
01:09:12,974 --> 01:09:14,411
It's part of us.

1157
01:09:14,889 --> 01:09:15,847
We do not stop.

1158
01:09:16,456 --> 01:09:17,805
We do not give up.

1159
01:09:19,677 --> 01:09:20,895
I do not give up.

1160
01:09:23,028 --> 01:09:25,204
Civilization is a thin layer of
ice

1161
01:09:25,248 --> 01:09:27,554
over a deep ocean of chaos.

1162
01:10:01,153 --> 01:10:05,636
It's 84 Fahrenheit,
28 Celsius inside my house.

1163
01:10:07,072 --> 01:10:09,205
As obtaining more ants is
unnecessary,

1164
01:10:09,248 --> 01:10:11,076
I tried to restart the air
conditioning.

1165
01:10:11,119 --> 01:10:12,947
There's a technical malfunction.

1166
01:10:14,340 --> 01:10:16,647
Temperatures above 26 Celsius

1167
01:10:16,690 --> 01:10:19,127
usually trigger an avoidance
response
in humans,

1168
01:10:20,303 --> 01:10:22,305
strangely, not in my case.

1169
01:10:23,436 --> 01:10:27,919
I'm sweating heavily
but feel no excessive discomfort

1170
01:10:27,962 --> 01:10:29,921
besides skin irritation.

1171
01:10:30,965 --> 01:10:32,880
Harvesting biomatter.

1172
01:10:38,146 --> 01:10:39,670
Maybe some more.

1173
01:10:46,503 --> 01:10:48,461
In the US Southwest,

1174
01:10:48,809 --> 01:10:52,291
there's a gas station chain
with a green dinosaur as a
mascot.

1175
01:10:54,598 --> 01:10:57,209
I always found this remarkably
honest.

1176
01:10:58,166 --> 01:11:00,778
Look at our whole
industrial civilization,

1177
01:11:00,821 --> 01:11:03,346
look at last century's
rapid population growth.

1178
01:11:04,260 --> 01:11:07,001
All our cheap and abundant
fossil fuels,

1179
01:11:07,045 --> 01:11:11,005
all our fertilizers, all our
medicine,
and plastic,

1180
01:11:11,049 --> 01:11:12,964
it is made out of beings

1181
01:11:13,007 --> 01:11:15,358
that lived millions of years
ago.

1182
01:11:16,533 --> 01:11:20,537
Our entire way of life
is based on harvesting

1183
01:11:20,580 --> 01:11:22,887
an unimaginable amount of death.

1184
01:11:25,281 --> 01:11:26,238
Death...

1185
01:11:26,847 --> 01:11:28,240
energy...

1186
01:11:29,372 --> 01:11:32,070
might be the key
to understanding my ability.

1187
01:11:36,422 --> 01:11:38,294
A new reply
from Liebenfels has arrived.

1188
01:11:39,643 --> 01:11:41,122
Let's see what he has to say.

1189
01:11:42,428 --> 01:11:44,648
"After looking over everything
you've told me

1190
01:11:44,691 --> 01:11:46,345
and comparing it to my notes,

1191
01:11:46,954 --> 01:11:49,914
I've reached the conclusion that
this is,
without a doubt,

1192
01:11:54,048 --> 01:11:56,312
the work of the Queer Lizard
People."

1193
01:11:58,009 --> 01:11:58,966
What?

1194
01:12:00,359 --> 01:12:02,361
This is what he comes back with?

1195
01:12:03,754 --> 01:12:05,190
Is he trolling me?

1196
01:12:06,931 --> 01:12:09,934
I will report you as abusive!

1197
01:12:11,152 --> 01:12:12,415
Asshole!

1198
01:12:14,808 --> 01:12:16,332
Dozed off for five minutes.

1199
01:12:16,549 --> 01:12:18,072
I had a very vivid dream.

1200
01:12:19,465 --> 01:12:22,816
It consisted largely of plunges
through abysmal realms

1201
01:12:22,860 --> 01:12:25,558
of inexplicably colored twilight

1202
01:12:25,602 --> 01:12:27,995
and jarringly symphonic
cacophonies.

1203
01:12:29,214 --> 01:12:32,086
All of a sudden,
I was home in our living room.

1204
01:12:32,783 --> 01:12:34,741
My dad was there in his
wheelchair.

1205
01:12:34,785 --> 01:12:38,441
He's friendly,
talking about his coming
grandchild.

1206
01:12:39,877 --> 01:12:41,618
I realized that I was pregnant.

1207
01:12:43,489 --> 01:12:44,969
It was a good feeling.

1208
01:12:47,885 --> 01:12:50,017
I couldn't wait any longer
to be a mother,

1209
01:12:53,194 --> 01:12:56,067
so I grabbed a knife
to rip the baby from my stomach.

1210
01:12:59,026 --> 01:13:01,289
I have to get back
to the very core of this.

1211
01:13:02,160 --> 01:13:03,901
I need to trust my perception.

1212
01:13:05,468 --> 01:13:07,165
Oh, look.

1213
01:13:08,993 --> 01:13:11,474
Gromphadorhina portentosa.

1214
01:13:12,649 --> 01:13:13,563
Extraordinary.

1215
01:13:13,998 --> 01:13:15,434
Good to hear.

1216
01:13:17,567 --> 01:13:18,785
[chuckles]

1217
01:13:19,830 --> 01:13:21,222
In general,

1218
01:13:22,354 --> 01:13:24,704
it seems the sound
is getting more and more dense.

1219
01:13:26,489 --> 01:13:29,056
Each subtle change has a meaning
to me,

1220
01:13:29,927 --> 01:13:31,798
but do they interact with each
other?

1221
01:13:33,321 --> 01:13:34,584
So many sounds have meanings.

1222
01:13:35,454 --> 01:13:37,282
So many patterns I can detect.

1223
01:13:39,023 --> 01:13:41,460
Sometimes it seems as though
it's a language of its own.

1224
01:13:44,115 --> 01:13:45,333
Can I learn it?

1225
01:13:48,859 --> 01:13:50,426
Haven't slept at all.

1226
01:13:52,210 --> 01:13:55,909
Imagine trying to sleep
while people chatter near you.

1227
01:13:56,780 --> 01:13:58,651
Their voices are just quiet
enough

1228
01:13:58,695 --> 01:14:00,000
that you can't understand.

1229
01:14:01,567 --> 01:14:04,918
As you find yourself
concentrating,
trying to hear...

1230
01:14:06,529 --> 01:14:07,791
It would be less disturbing

1231
01:14:07,834 --> 01:14:09,096
if you knew what they were
saying.

1232
01:14:10,663 --> 01:14:12,491
It is a language.

1233
01:14:12,796 --> 01:14:15,276
The more I work,
the clearer it becomes.

1234
01:14:15,712 --> 01:14:17,540
Still garbled, but not as bad,

1235
01:14:17,583 --> 01:14:19,585
like a radio frequency that's
off.

1236
01:14:21,457 --> 01:14:23,502
I need to masturbate
at more regular intervals.

1237
01:14:23,546 --> 01:14:26,070
The side effects
include vertigo and vomiting.

1238
01:14:28,594 --> 01:14:29,465
What's that?

1239
01:14:29,813 --> 01:14:32,337
[whispering]

1240
01:14:45,916 --> 01:14:47,918
[phone ring]

1241
01:14:48,179 --> 01:14:49,223
Oh, my boss.

1242
01:14:49,702 --> 01:14:51,182
I won't answer it.

1243
01:14:51,748 --> 01:14:53,140
Answers bring me peace.

1244
01:14:54,185 --> 01:14:56,579
Objects brought together
cause variations.

1245
01:14:56,840 --> 01:15:01,235
Organisms cause greater
variations,
but it isn't conscious.

1246
01:15:03,890 --> 01:15:05,109
Happened to objects...

1247
01:15:05,675 --> 01:15:07,590
...not conscious.

1248
01:15:09,069 --> 01:15:10,288
Of course,

1249
01:15:11,768 --> 01:15:14,379
the organisms aren't talking,

1250
01:15:15,685 --> 01:15:17,991
their cells are.

1251
01:15:27,914 --> 01:15:29,916
Every cell in the universe
engaged

1252
01:15:29,960 --> 01:15:32,136
in communication with every
other cell.

1253
01:15:32,179 --> 01:15:35,356
This is bigger than anything
I ever imagined before.

1254
01:15:35,400 --> 01:15:37,576
No wonder it's difficult
to be around people

1255
01:15:37,620 --> 01:15:39,491
with all those cells talking

1256
01:15:39,535 --> 01:15:41,449
to one another at the same time.

1257
01:15:44,627 --> 01:15:46,106
[sighs]

1258
01:15:48,239 --> 01:15:49,545
Email from HR.

1259
01:15:51,285 --> 01:15:52,330
Fired.

1260
01:15:55,246 --> 01:15:56,552
A relief.

1261
01:16:09,826 --> 01:16:12,611
We are not alone.

1262
01:16:13,481 --> 01:16:15,440
The universe is talking.

1263
01:16:16,920 --> 01:16:19,313
Something is out there in the
emptiness,

1264
01:16:19,357 --> 01:16:21,751
in every void we think we see.

1265
01:16:23,491 --> 01:16:25,493
Why was humanity excluded?

1266
01:16:27,626 --> 01:16:30,194
Should we be happy that we were?

1267
01:16:32,718 --> 01:16:34,590
The cells know the language.

1268
01:16:35,547 --> 01:16:40,204
The cells react to the
conversation.

1269
01:16:41,248 --> 01:16:42,685
How beautiful.

1270
01:16:44,338 --> 01:16:45,862
My hair's part of it?

1271
01:16:46,297 --> 01:16:47,994
Listen to the sound change.

1272
01:16:48,908 --> 01:16:50,214
Oh, never mind.

1273
01:16:50,257 --> 01:16:51,389
You can't hear.

1274
01:16:53,043 --> 01:16:54,958
I should have realized this long
ago,

1275
01:16:56,307 --> 01:16:59,310
my body is a part of the sound.

1276
01:17:00,050 --> 01:17:03,009
The sound of silence, I called
it.

1277
01:17:03,662 --> 01:17:05,272
It's not silence.

1278
01:17:05,316 --> 01:17:06,709
Not at all.

1279
01:17:07,535 --> 01:17:10,060
My cells talk to one another.

1280
01:17:10,103 --> 01:17:12,497
That is the sound of silence!

1281
01:17:13,977 --> 01:17:15,195
What are they saying?

1282
01:17:15,761 --> 01:17:17,502
Why can't we understand them?

1283
01:17:19,243 --> 01:17:20,723
Are they planning something?

1284
01:17:26,380 --> 01:17:28,687
My blood does it too.

1285
01:17:29,775 --> 01:17:31,211
All blood must do it.

1286
01:17:32,735 --> 01:17:36,652
My blood talks to the cells
around it constantly.

1287
01:17:38,871 --> 01:17:40,612
What is it saying right now?

1288
01:17:42,875 --> 01:17:44,834
Do they know I've learned the
secret?

1289
01:17:46,139 --> 01:17:48,315
What if they want it kept a
secret?

1290
01:17:53,146 --> 01:17:54,321
[door bell]

1291
01:17:54,365 --> 01:17:56,454
What is the matter with my
soundproofing?

1292
01:18:01,981 --> 01:18:03,548
Fascinating.

1293
01:18:04,592 --> 01:18:05,724
[laughs]

1294
01:18:06,943 --> 01:18:08,161
Don't worry.

1295
01:18:09,815 --> 01:18:11,991
Maybe our exclusion is not
intentional.

1296
01:18:12,731 --> 01:18:14,298
Maybe it's for the best.

1297
01:18:14,864 --> 01:18:17,170
I'm a perfect example.

1298
01:18:18,694 --> 01:18:20,696
Look how the sound has affected
me,

1299
01:18:21,609 --> 01:18:23,742
tormented me from the first day.

1300
01:18:23,786 --> 01:18:25,526
The more I came to understand
it,

1301
01:18:25,570 --> 01:18:27,615
the more it preyed on my mind.

1302
01:18:29,356 --> 01:18:30,967
The universe is not harmonious.

1303
01:18:31,010 --> 01:18:32,751
You know that by looking out the
window.

1304
01:18:39,323 --> 01:18:41,107
Maybe I'm looking at it the
wrong way.

1305
01:18:42,805 --> 01:18:45,677
Maybe perceiving is the problem.

1306
01:18:48,854 --> 01:18:51,770
Our nervous systems filter
our sensory input.

1307
01:18:52,858 --> 01:18:55,339
Animal consciousness,
and that includes human
consciousness,

1308
01:18:56,166 --> 01:18:57,558
can only take so much.

1309
01:18:58,777 --> 01:19:01,040
It was trained over eons,

1310
01:19:01,780 --> 01:19:05,218
mutation by mutation to accept
only what it can handle.

1311
01:19:05,915 --> 01:19:08,656
This creates a bearable universe
for us

1312
01:19:09,353 --> 01:19:11,747
in which we can live like fruit
flies.

1313
01:19:13,139 --> 01:19:17,796
We are born, grow,
maybe procreate, and die.

1314
01:19:18,841 --> 01:19:21,191
Our brain helps us fulfill these
tasks.

1315
01:19:21,626 --> 01:19:24,411
Makes it possible for us
to live in this universe

1316
01:19:24,455 --> 01:19:26,805
that is so much more than what
we know

1317
01:19:27,414 --> 01:19:30,548
by filtering out
the unknown depths and horrors.

1318
01:19:30,940 --> 01:19:34,682
Keeping us safe in a reality
where we can live oblivious

1319
01:19:34,726 --> 01:19:36,772
to what is in and around us.

1320
01:19:38,861 --> 01:19:43,561
But I tapped into it like a worm
crawling onto a highway.

1321
01:19:49,436 --> 01:19:50,916
Lack of sleep is getting to me,

1322
01:19:51,699 --> 01:19:54,528
giving me thoughts
that can't possibly be true.

1323
01:19:55,965 --> 01:19:57,401
If only I could shut out the
sound.

1324
01:19:57,444 --> 01:19:59,664
If only I could stop listening.

1325
01:20:02,754 --> 01:20:04,712
A Vice article cited my
research.

1326
01:20:05,583 --> 01:20:09,805
Top 10 Weirdest
Nutjob Conspiracy Theories.

1327
01:20:10,762 --> 01:20:14,635
Who is conspiring against whom?

1328
01:20:15,462 --> 01:20:18,944
This is an entire new cosmology,
for fuck sake.

1329
01:20:18,988 --> 01:20:20,250
Don't they get it?

1330
01:20:22,252 --> 01:20:23,035
I hate Vice.

1331
01:20:23,079 --> 01:20:24,645
It's journalistic cancer.

1332
01:20:24,689 --> 01:20:25,951
No, no.

1333
01:20:25,995 --> 01:20:26,996
It's not even journalism,
it's just cancer.

1334
01:20:28,040 --> 01:20:29,389
Decision.

1335
01:20:29,433 --> 01:20:30,782
No sleeping.

1336
01:20:33,002 --> 01:20:35,395
[dog barks]

1337
01:20:36,570 --> 01:20:38,485
Intolerable disturbance.

1338
01:20:38,964 --> 01:20:42,533
We're made of starstuff,
but so is dogshit.

1339
01:20:46,754 --> 01:20:48,539
Will they ever talk to me?

1340
01:20:49,105 --> 01:20:49,975
[dog whimpers]

1341
01:20:50,280 --> 01:20:51,237
Yes.

1342
01:20:52,456 --> 01:20:53,892
Maybe they will tell me
everything's okay,

1343
01:20:55,763 --> 01:20:57,548
perhaps they will tell me how to
stop it.

1344
01:20:59,115 --> 01:21:10,909
[burning noise]

1345
01:21:13,520 --> 01:21:15,740
What is so special about dying?

1346
01:21:18,264 --> 01:21:19,918
The total depletion of ATP,

1347
01:21:20,223 --> 01:21:22,399
the chemical that provides
energy
to the cells.

1348
01:21:22,703 --> 01:21:23,443
[door bell rings]

1349
01:21:23,487 --> 01:21:26,142
No, someone's here again.

1350
01:21:26,185 --> 01:21:27,883
Hello, are you home?

1351
01:21:27,926 --> 01:21:29,232
I need to concentrate.

1352
01:21:30,624 --> 01:21:31,451
Hello?

1353
01:21:33,627 --> 01:21:36,804
- Once I understand,
everything will be all right.

1354
01:21:36,848 --> 01:21:37,980
- Hey,
the front door was unlocked.

1355
01:21:38,023 --> 01:21:39,329
I brought you some dinner.

1356
01:21:40,808 --> 01:21:41,940
Pebbles?

1357
01:21:41,984 --> 01:21:43,811
Dedication is the glue of life.

1358
01:21:43,855 --> 01:21:44,638
Oh, my God!

1359
01:21:44,682 --> 01:21:45,813
Oh my God!

1360
01:21:46,684 --> 01:21:50,470
[screams]
[scuffle]

1361
01:22:02,004 --> 01:22:07,357
- Shh,
I can help you hold back your
tears.

1362
01:22:20,022 --> 01:22:21,545
Where are the trash bags?

1363
01:22:31,033 --> 01:22:34,036
I need absolute concentration
to listen to her essence.

1364
01:22:35,298 --> 01:22:36,516
Remember it.

1365
01:22:39,563 --> 01:22:41,478
She brought me
a homemade burrito.

1366
01:22:43,001 --> 01:22:45,830
Gender role still force women
to emphasize that stuff.

1367
01:22:45,873 --> 01:22:47,005
How sad.

1368
01:22:48,528 --> 01:22:51,314
We all need to explore new
spheres

1369
01:22:51,357 --> 01:22:52,880
of possibility.

1370
01:22:54,534 --> 01:22:56,406
They help us understand.

1371
01:23:01,672 --> 01:23:03,500
Nothing makes it stop.

1372
01:23:09,158 --> 01:23:11,508
How can I work
when they're always talking?

1373
01:23:12,422 --> 01:23:13,510
It's too much.

1374
01:23:13,553 --> 01:23:14,859
It's just too much.

1375
01:23:16,078 --> 01:23:17,340
Wish I didn't know.

1376
01:23:18,602 --> 01:23:21,083
There's a reason we aren't aware
of this conversation.

1377
01:23:22,780 --> 01:23:24,216
Conversation.

1378
01:23:25,913 --> 01:23:27,176
Conversation?

1379
01:23:32,268 --> 01:23:35,445
Maybe I was too optimistic, too
naiïve.

1380
01:23:36,837 --> 01:23:38,317
This is no conversation.

1381
01:23:39,144 --> 01:23:41,799
No cosmic chitchat hippie
bullshit.

1382
01:23:42,147 --> 01:23:44,584
It must be something deeper.

1383
01:23:45,629 --> 01:23:47,326
Maybe what I can hear,

1384
01:23:47,979 --> 01:23:49,720
what I called a conversation

1385
01:23:50,242 --> 01:23:53,289
is an immune response to
something.

1386
01:23:54,333 --> 01:23:57,162
It's my body's response
to some form of intrusion,

1387
01:23:57,206 --> 01:24:00,513
subdual, one that started three
years ago.

1388
01:24:00,774 --> 01:24:02,124
[door bell rings]

1389
01:24:02,167 --> 01:24:04,822
Hey? Are you home?

1390
01:24:06,041 --> 01:24:07,520
[screams]

1391
01:24:09,000 --> 01:24:11,046
- It is nice of my mother to drop
by.

1392
01:24:12,743 --> 01:24:14,136
Just between us,

1393
01:24:14,179 --> 01:24:15,050
well,

1394
01:24:16,138 --> 01:24:17,704
she could have given me a heads
up.

1395
01:24:17,748 --> 01:24:20,098
Ah, the conversation.

1396
01:24:21,447 --> 01:24:22,970
Yes, yes, it's something else.

1397
01:24:23,797 --> 01:24:27,192
I can hear a form of cellular
distress.

1398
01:24:31,153 --> 01:24:33,111
Be quiet mother.

1399
01:24:36,941 --> 01:24:40,379
Something is out there...
...in there... all around.

1400
01:24:41,772 --> 01:24:43,295
I can feel it.

1401
01:24:43,730 --> 01:24:45,993
This being lurking,

1402
01:24:46,037 --> 01:24:47,299
just beyond my comprehension.

1403
01:24:48,387 --> 01:24:49,693
The cells are hurting.

1404
01:24:49,736 --> 01:24:51,564
They respond to an outside
force.

1405
01:24:51,608 --> 01:24:53,000
And the force...

1406
01:24:54,741 --> 01:24:58,180
something vast and powerful,

1407
01:24:58,223 --> 01:25:01,183
far from our own realm, lurking
out

1408
01:25:01,226 --> 01:25:04,664
in that indescribable void
among the dimensions.

1409
01:25:05,622 --> 01:25:07,102
Does it feast on me?

1410
01:25:08,059 --> 01:25:09,408
Feast on all of us?

1411
01:25:10,714 --> 01:25:11,715
Yes.

1412
01:25:12,498 --> 01:25:15,066
I'm not even a worm compared to
it.

1413
01:25:16,676 --> 01:25:19,026
It is like a giant sea creature

1414
01:25:19,070 --> 01:25:22,160
and I'm merely a bacterium
that got in his path.

1415
01:25:23,118 --> 01:25:24,380
It's all around me.

1416
01:25:24,989 --> 01:25:27,122
Absorbing me, changing me.

1417
01:25:29,211 --> 01:25:30,603
I can hear it all.

1418
01:25:34,651 --> 01:25:37,088
Am I as delusional as Liebenfels

1419
01:25:37,132 --> 01:25:38,655
and all the other trolls out
there?

1420
01:25:40,657 --> 01:25:45,009
I am without knowledge or luster
or name.

1421
01:25:47,272 --> 01:25:49,492
All I can focus on is this
sound.

1422
01:25:51,276 --> 01:25:53,757
This hideous sound it's
emanating.

1423
01:25:59,241 --> 01:26:01,025
Amazon delivery guy.

1424
01:26:06,073 --> 01:26:07,814
You remind me of my dad.

1425
01:26:10,991 --> 01:26:16,171
It might be preposterous of me,
but maybe I was chosen.

1426
01:26:17,737 --> 01:26:18,738
Yes!

1427
01:26:19,304 --> 01:26:21,132
That explains everything.

1428
01:26:22,307 --> 01:26:26,746
Chosen by a being older
than space and time.

1429
01:26:28,444 --> 01:26:30,794
Are my experiments
a kind of sacrifice to it?

1430
01:26:31,969 --> 01:26:35,015
Is that why I needed to go so
far
to understand?

1431
01:26:36,452 --> 01:26:38,584
Does it enjoy me killing?

1432
01:26:39,629 --> 01:26:41,326
Am I pleasing it?

1433
01:26:42,893 --> 01:26:46,853
Did it make me, slowly over the
years,
become what I am?

1434
01:26:48,290 --> 01:26:52,294
From that very first moment in
the lab,
did I summon it?

1435
01:26:53,512 --> 01:26:56,559
Did it know this day, today,
would eventually come?

1436
01:26:58,300 --> 01:27:00,911
I need to upload my remaining
findings
for all to understand.

1437
01:27:04,175 --> 01:27:09,224
I need to come to terms with my
place
in the universe.

1438
01:27:10,312 --> 01:27:14,446
A place that it gave me
and the sacrifice it demands.

1439
01:27:16,666 --> 01:27:17,797
Is it God?

1440
01:27:18,624 --> 01:27:20,017
I don't know...

1441
01:27:22,062 --> 01:27:23,629
but it is my god.

1442
01:27:24,804 --> 01:27:25,892
What does it want?

1443
01:27:25,936 --> 01:27:27,416
What is it asking me to do?

1444
01:27:28,765 --> 01:27:31,246
Leap of courage?
Leap of faith?

1445
01:27:31,681 --> 01:27:35,511
What offering
will make this imbalance end?

1446
01:27:36,338 --> 01:27:38,688
How can I empty space and time?

1447
01:27:42,866 --> 01:27:44,563
I finally understand.

1448
01:27:46,826 --> 01:27:50,047
That last and final moment is
yours.

1449
01:27:51,004 --> 01:27:53,485
That agony is your triumph.

1450
01:27:55,400 --> 01:27:57,402
[gun cocking]

1451
01:27:59,404 --> 01:28:03,234
I just wish it wasn't so loud.

1452
01:28:03,539 --> 01:28:04,714
[gunshot]

1453
01:28:08,370 --> 01:28:18,380
[silence]

1454
01:28:18,423 --> 01:28:28,433
[silence]

1455
01:28:28,477 --> 01:28:33,830
[silence]

1456
01:28:33,830 --> 01:28:38,487
[silence]

1457
01:29:37,937 --> 01:29:40,026
Geez, what's with the AC?

1458
01:29:40,331 --> 01:29:41,419
They're working on it.

1459
01:29:41,463 --> 01:29:43,073
We should get hazard pay.

1460
01:29:45,162 --> 01:29:46,946
What do you think
about this reference file case?

1461
01:29:47,817 --> 01:29:48,992
Reference what?

1462
01:29:49,035 --> 01:29:50,385
Reference file case.

1463
01:29:50,428 --> 01:29:52,125
It's high priority for the
chief.

1464
01:29:52,169 --> 01:29:53,126
Huh?

1465
01:29:54,519 --> 01:29:56,347
- Yes, the 1087 two days ago
on West 8th Street.

1466
01:29:56,391 --> 01:29:57,696
Yes.

1467
01:29:58,088 --> 01:30:00,351
A block over
from Lighthouse of Deliverance.

1468
01:30:00,699 --> 01:30:02,788
From what the neighbors said,
it sounds pretty cut and dry.

1469
01:30:03,049 --> 01:30:04,442
It gave me the creeps.

1470
01:30:06,096 --> 01:30:07,445
- Why have they been calling it
the reference file case anyway?

1471
01:30:07,880 --> 01:30:08,968
Because of the video files.

1472
01:30:09,012 --> 01:30:10,448
That's what the guy named it.

1473
01:30:12,711 --> 01:30:14,191
I'm getting coffee.

1474
01:30:14,234 --> 01:30:15,061
You want any?

1475
01:30:15,627 --> 01:30:16,715
Oh, sure.

1476
01:30:18,064 --> 01:30:19,196
While you're at it,
get me some Boston creams?

1477
01:30:19,457 --> 01:30:20,415
Yes, sure.

1478
01:30:23,461 --> 01:30:27,422
[clicking]

1479
01:30:34,298 --> 01:30:35,778
[screaming]

1480
01:30:35,821 --> 01:30:36,822
Oh, wow.

1481
01:30:36,866 --> 01:30:38,084
You're going to watch it?

1482
01:30:38,607 --> 01:30:41,348
No spoilers,
start from the beginning.