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- [Dan] I look like
I'm drunk all the time.

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You know, I have slurred speech,

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stumbling around the streets.

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I'm sure people are
looking at me going,

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"It's like 10 o'clock in the
morning, this guy's lost it,"

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and that's just, this disease.

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[gentle music]

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For an actor, the question
is, "What's next?"

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It's always what's next.

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And I can't do that anymore.
Physically, I can't.

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It's the end of your life.

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It's the end of your career.

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If this is the last play I
ever do, I'll miss acting.

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I never thought I'd quit.

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- [Ruth] Half hour. Half hour.

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Is everybody medicated up?

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- [Dan] Yeah.

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- [Chris] Oh, boy, big crowd.

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- [Joe] Chew this day up and
enjoy it, you know what I mean?

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- [Dan] Okay.

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- There's so much to do today,

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so many moments to get through,

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and it kind of totally
disarms us when we're watching

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because we expect, oh, look
at these dour circumstances,

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and there's nothing, you know,

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like I said in
rehearsal one day,

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you look you're having a
lot more fun than we are,

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you know what I mean?

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[gentle music continues]

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[audience indistinctly chatter]

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- [Ruth] Molly, it's a triangle.

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So this point is over.

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- Let me go on just a
bit ahead of you, okay?

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- [Robert] Okay.

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- Like, as if what you're doing

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is just kinda catching up stuff.

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[Robert laughs]

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- [Robert] Off we go.

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[audience applauding]

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- Yeah. Can you take
us to 32nd, please?

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And Lex, thank you.

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It's pretty special to be a
working actor in New York.

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There's nothing like,

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walking through the
streets of Manhattan

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about 4 o'clock in the morning.

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This was the first time,

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first Woody Allen film I did.

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And knowing that you're gonna
work with Woody Allen all day.

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You know, it's like the
biggest city in the world,

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and you're working.

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- [Chris] There's an advantage

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to being an actor in New York.

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You're doing different
parts all the time,

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so you're learning different
things all the time.

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[gentle music]

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I love the action, and I
love that I can still do it.

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- [Dan] I did an Arthur
Miller play on Broadway,

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and when it was curtain call,
and Arthur Miller walked out,

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and the place, the
theater erupted.

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They immediately rose to their
feet and charged the stage.

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I've never had a theatrical
experience like that.

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The audience screamed.

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I think they thought
he was dead. [laughs]

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- [Chris] And I take work
very seriously. [laughs]

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I keep working at it.

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You're just pushing.

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You're just pushing the
rock up the mountain.

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It's not until
you get to the top

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that you can say,
"I've arrived."

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There's gonna come a time

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when I won't be able
to do it anymore,

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but that time hasn't come yet.

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- [Dan] The reason I
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in the first place
was to do theater.

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And I'm a theater hound.

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I just love doing it.
I love live audiences.

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I love the fact
that it's like jazz.

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- [Chris] Morning.

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I'm here to see Dianne Wiest.

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- You gotta go up to 72.

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- [Chris] 72?

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- [Dianne] Besides,

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there's that haunted look
where Olga's so sad...

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That's beautiful,
Chris, Masha's line.

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- Hmm.

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- Sweet dreams.

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You should-
- [Chris] Dear, dear.

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- Dear.

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- [Chris] Or just you
really should try to-

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- My brother, dear.

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You should really
live a healthier life.

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- [Chris] Yeah.

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- Try to live a healthier life.

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- You don't live your
life. I have one rule.

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Never worry about the future.

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I don't think about
dying or death.

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I think because dying and death,

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features prominently
in the play.

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- I like that. Don't you?

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Are you unhappy with that?

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- No. I like it.

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- I do too.

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- [Dan] How are you, baby?

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- [Chris] Hey, buddy.

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How did we meet?

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- [Dan] How did we meet?

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We did, "A Month In The
Country" with Helen Mirren

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and F. Murray Abraham
and Ron Rifkin.

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And we had shared
a dressing room.

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I saw him in his underwear.

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- So, how did I look in my
underwear in those days?

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- No worse than usual.

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- No worse than usual.

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[Dan laughs]

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[upbeat music]

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- I started acting
about 6th, 7th grade

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playing Winthrop Paroo,

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and I realized I was
with high school girls,

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and they would all
think, "You're so cute,"

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and they would hug me, and
I'd be about breast level,

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and I go [exhales],

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and I was like, "I'm
an actor." [laughs]

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I'm gonna be an actor
for life. [laughs]

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[upbeat music continues]

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- [Chris] My first job was
Troilus in "Troilus and Cressida"

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at Lincoln Center for Joe Papp.

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About which Clive Barnes,

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who was the reviewer
for the New York Times,

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said the most boring three
hours in New York City

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[Dan laughs]
can currently be found

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at Lincoln Center.

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They are called
"Troilus and Cressida."

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[Dan laughs]

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- I almost never come to this.

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In fact, it's usually
the other way around.

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There's lots of people

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who would love to have
a conversation with me.

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Who ask me if they
can walk behind me.

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Don't get any idea that
I'm completely alone

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because I'm not.
- Walk behind me.

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- In fact,

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you're the one that looks like

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you could use a little company.

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I don't know where you get off

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thinking you have anything
to give me anyway.

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I got everything I need,

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and what I don't have,
I know where to get it

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anytime I want.

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In the middle of the night...

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Luckily enough, I
survived as an actor

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for like 20, 30 years.

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I don't know how. [laughs]

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- Explore alternative
lifestyles.

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- No, I don't think you've
been a very good influence

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on Linda, Mr. Weinrib.

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- Weinrib, right.

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So, Gildersleeve is a name that
I use for business purposes.

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- I got an investment in Linda.

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- No question. I honor that.

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But by now, she's probably
repaid you 10-fold or 20-fold.

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- Don't be so fuckin'
sure 'cause you don't know

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what the fuckin' numbers are.

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- It's okay. It's
a point well taken.

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- [Chris] And then
something changed.

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[suspense music]

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- [Dan] I was losing
my balance on stage.

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Where you stand up in this
one part, the whole cast,

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and I like would
lose my balance,

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and I'd kinda go,
what the hell is that?

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- [Chris] And I had a
tremor of some kind.

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My hand would go like this.

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It was uncontrollable.

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- [Dan] It got harder
and harder to move.

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I had one scene where I
couldn't remember five lines.

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I just couldn't
remember five lines.

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I said, "Well, this is weird."

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So, we had a meeting
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and my doctor said,
you got Parkinson's.

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[soft music]

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- [Chris] The image
I give to people

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is if you take a
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and you throw it
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there's a ripple that
goes out from it.

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Well, with me, it's like
my body, you take a stone

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and throw it into
my pool of water,

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and it just goes, bloomp,
like it's in a bed of sand.

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There's no ripple.

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I used to be able to skip a
dose. It wouldn't affect me.

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Now, if I don't
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within four hours from the last
time, I begin to slow down.

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And...

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- [Dan] What time is it?

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- [Chris] It's time to
take some medication.

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- Me too. I'm time
for medication.

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It's time it ended
in the shelter too,

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and yet, I hesitate,
I hesitate to end.

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- [Chris] What do they do while
they're waiting for the end?

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What do they do?

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They perform!

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[upbeat music]

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- [Dan] I was reading
"Endgame" one night.

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- [Chris] Samuel
Beckett's "Endgame."

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It's a great piece of writing.

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- [Dan] I just felt like

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this guy is like talking
about my life here,

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about Parkinson's.

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- [Chris] Hamm is
blind and can't walk.

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He's confined to a wheelchair.

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Clov can see, but it's very
difficult for him to move,

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and he can't sit down.

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- [Dan] The room, they're
locked in this room.

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- [Chris] And it's a prison,

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but it's the prison
that they live in.

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- [Dan] Running in loops.

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Saying the same thing over
and over again. [echoes]

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- Two actors with diminishing
physical abilities

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playing two characters with
diminishing physical abilities,

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trying to get through the
last stages of their lives.

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So, it has great resonance.

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It's the perfect play.

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- Yeah.

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It just dovetails

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into our particular strengths
and weaknesses right now.

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The idea for us is to
rehearsal for 4 or 5 weeks,

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and put up..

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- [Chris] Samuel
Beckett's "Endgame."

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- Put up the play.

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- We'll do it.

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[upbeat music]

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- Yeah.

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[car hoots]

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- [Chris] It's not an easy
play, but it's a great play.

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So, it's worth us
attempting to do it.

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- Something is happening.
What is happening?

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- Something is
taking its course.

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- What is the whole arc,
the umbrella of the play?

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What about what
you guys wanna say?

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Audiences pick up
on all these things.

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I mean, audiences come
out to look at two people

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who are working
under this condition,

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and how does this
condition envelop the play?

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We wanna see if they're
gonna be, you know, okay,

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or we wanna see if they're
gonna stumble a bit or falter,

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and you know what it's like?
- Yeah. You don't wanna feel-

253
00:14:30,236 --> 00:14:31,336
- [Joe] It's like
schadenfreude or whatever.

254
00:14:31,337 --> 00:14:32,971
- Don't wanna feel that.

255
00:14:32,972 --> 00:14:34,372
- It's like, "Ooh,
they're in trouble."

256
00:14:34,373 --> 00:14:36,007
What do you wanna say
about the illness?

257
00:14:36,008 --> 00:14:38,176
What do you wanna say
about the problems?

258
00:14:38,177 --> 00:14:41,145
Or, we say, you know what?

259
00:14:41,146 --> 00:14:44,549
You don't need to see
that because, guess what?

260
00:14:44,550 --> 00:14:46,417
We're gonna be the way we are,

261
00:14:46,418 --> 00:14:48,119
and it's gonna just
fall into place

262
00:14:48,120 --> 00:14:49,988
as a result of Beckett's-

263
00:14:49,989 --> 00:14:51,456
- That's what I would choose.

264
00:14:51,457 --> 00:14:52,191
- Yeah, that's what
I would choose too.

265
00:14:52,192 --> 00:14:53,658
- Yeah.

266
00:14:53,659 --> 00:14:54,159
- I think that the
illness should be

267
00:14:55,461 --> 00:14:57,495
just a part of our lives.

268
00:14:57,496 --> 00:14:58,897
- [Joe] Right.

269
00:14:58,898 --> 00:14:59,931
- And that we're
doing this play.

270
00:14:59,932 --> 00:15:01,099
And we're trying to-

271
00:15:01,100 --> 00:15:02,267
- Want some?
- What is it?

272
00:15:02,268 --> 00:15:03,902
- Sweet stuff.

273
00:15:03,903 --> 00:15:05,004
- We're trying to do
it as well as we can.

274
00:15:07,306 --> 00:15:09,207
- [Joe] Maybe...

275
00:15:09,208 --> 00:15:11,109
- [Chris] We wanna do the play
to the best of our ability.

276
00:15:11,110 --> 00:15:12,911
- [Joe] Right.

277
00:15:12,912 --> 00:15:14,145
- [Chris] I think the challenges
for playing Clov for me

278
00:15:14,146 --> 00:15:16,180
will be to get the physicality.

279
00:15:16,181 --> 00:15:19,417
- Chris, I think has a little
more problem in movement.

280
00:15:19,418 --> 00:15:21,586
I have a little more
problem in speech.

281
00:15:21,587 --> 00:15:24,355
I get this drop-jawed thing.

282
00:15:24,356 --> 00:15:25,924
I mean, he may get
to the production

283
00:15:25,925 --> 00:15:28,259
and find himself
completely locked up.

284
00:15:28,260 --> 00:15:29,694
You know, the night we perform,

285
00:15:29,695 --> 00:15:33,998
I may be completely
jaw tight, mush mouth.

286
00:15:33,999 --> 00:15:36,368
- This play calls
for inventiveness,

287
00:15:38,370 --> 00:15:39,604
[Joe clicks fingers]

288
00:15:39,605 --> 00:15:42,573
and some kind of alertness.

289
00:15:42,574 --> 00:15:43,708
- The challenges of that

290
00:15:43,709 --> 00:15:46,711
is trying to remember the script

291
00:15:46,712 --> 00:15:49,280
because it repeats.
- [Dan] Yeah.

292
00:15:49,281 --> 00:15:51,649
- With subtle variations.

293
00:15:51,650 --> 00:15:54,320
[gentle music]

294
00:15:56,121 --> 00:15:58,990
You think of your body as being
your instrument as an actor.

295
00:15:58,991 --> 00:16:02,995
Instead of a piano for a
pianist, it's your body.

296
00:16:10,402 --> 00:16:13,038
- [Joe] Beckett wrote
"Endgame" in '57.

297
00:16:14,440 --> 00:16:17,175
His mother had died
a few years earlier,

298
00:16:17,176 --> 00:16:19,311
in the early '50s,
of Parkinson's.

299
00:16:23,649 --> 00:16:26,451
Beckett wrote this play sort
of almost right on the head

300
00:16:26,452 --> 00:16:29,220
in terms of what we
know about the disease.

301
00:16:29,221 --> 00:16:31,122
Well, Beckett
certainly understood

302
00:16:31,123 --> 00:16:33,458
some of these debilitating
effects of Parkinson's.

303
00:16:33,459 --> 00:16:35,226
[door bangs]

304
00:16:35,227 --> 00:16:36,261
It creates a prison.

305
00:16:39,164 --> 00:16:41,733
It may be a verbal prison,
or it may be a prison

306
00:16:41,734 --> 00:16:44,235
created by a lack of
mobility, you see.

307
00:16:44,236 --> 00:16:48,506
The effects of their physical
disabilities is spiraling.

308
00:16:48,507 --> 00:16:50,641
- [Dan] Hamm says, "What's
happening?" To Clov.

309
00:16:50,642 --> 00:16:52,343
"What's happening?
What's happening?"

310
00:16:52,344 --> 00:16:53,778
Like, something is going on.

311
00:16:53,779 --> 00:16:55,381
And Beckett says with anguish,

312
00:16:57,249 --> 00:17:00,551
and Clov says, "Things are
just taking their course."

313
00:17:00,552 --> 00:17:02,153
- [Chris] Their natural course.

314
00:17:02,154 --> 00:17:04,022
- [Dan] Yeah, their
natural course.

315
00:17:04,023 --> 00:17:06,324
Which I find with Parkinson's,
all the time you're going,

316
00:17:06,325 --> 00:17:08,660
what's happening? What's
happening with my body?

317
00:17:22,341 --> 00:17:24,610
[Dan sighs]

318
00:17:28,213 --> 00:17:30,549
[soft music]

319
00:17:34,119 --> 00:17:37,522
In the beginning, symptoms
weren't showing so much,

320
00:17:37,523 --> 00:17:41,559
but under my skin, it's like
vibrating 24 hours a day.

321
00:17:41,560 --> 00:17:45,063
It's like a live wire.

322
00:17:45,064 --> 00:17:48,600
[Dan sighs and buzzes lips]

323
00:17:51,170 --> 00:17:52,637
It's like a roller coaster.

324
00:17:52,638 --> 00:17:55,206
All of a sudden, you're
shaking. You can't move.

325
00:17:55,207 --> 00:17:57,241
15 minutes later, you
can talk and you can walk

326
00:17:57,242 --> 00:18:00,845
and you can move
and.. [clears throat]

327
00:18:00,846 --> 00:18:03,449
[Dan humming]

328
00:18:14,793 --> 00:18:17,262
I was a very physical actor.

329
00:18:18,864 --> 00:18:22,867
So, I found that extremely,
like I became extremely limited

330
00:18:22,868 --> 00:18:27,305
as far as being able to
physically do things on stage,

331
00:18:27,306 --> 00:18:29,408
which really cut into my work.

332
00:18:30,309 --> 00:18:32,711
[Dan exhales]

333
00:18:50,262 --> 00:18:52,830
- [Chris] When I was diagnosed
about eight years ago,

334
00:18:52,831 --> 00:18:54,565
I was on a medication
immediately

335
00:18:54,566 --> 00:18:57,870
and it messed up my
ability to learn lines

336
00:18:59,471 --> 00:19:04,209
and took away from the
fluidity of my craft.

337
00:19:05,811 --> 00:19:07,879
The first show that I did
after I was diagnosed,

338
00:19:07,880 --> 00:19:11,749
I had a piece of
exposition about this long,

339
00:19:11,750 --> 00:19:12,851
about a page long.

340
00:19:14,386 --> 00:19:16,921
It laid out all the
particulars of the plot

341
00:19:16,922 --> 00:19:18,856
that were important for
the audience to know.

342
00:19:18,857 --> 00:19:20,691
[Dan laughs]
- Good choice.

343
00:19:20,692 --> 00:19:22,560
- And I got through about
two sentences of it.

344
00:19:22,561 --> 00:19:24,462
There's only one other
actress on stage with me,

345
00:19:24,463 --> 00:19:27,432
and I was talking to her,
and I went totally sky high.

346
00:19:28,767 --> 00:19:30,935
And I looked at her
with terror in my eyes,

347
00:19:30,936 --> 00:19:33,871
as if to say, help
me, please. [laughs]

348
00:19:33,872 --> 00:19:35,806
I can't remember what to say.

349
00:19:35,807 --> 00:19:38,876
And she looked at me with
hopelessness in her eyes,

350
00:19:38,877 --> 00:19:40,278
as if to say-

351
00:19:40,279 --> 00:19:41,712
- You're on your own.

352
00:19:41,713 --> 00:19:43,347
- I don't have any
lines here. [laughs]

353
00:19:43,348 --> 00:19:45,216
[Dan laughs]
- You're on your own, brother.

354
00:19:45,217 --> 00:19:48,787
- So, I said, "If I were to
say something to you right now,

355
00:19:51,590 --> 00:19:54,292
what do you think it might be?"

356
00:19:54,293 --> 00:19:55,693
[Dan laughs]

357
00:19:55,694 --> 00:19:57,528
She paused,

358
00:19:57,529 --> 00:20:00,398
and then she said her
approximation of my next line,

359
00:20:00,399 --> 00:20:03,968
and I said, "Right."

360
00:20:03,969 --> 00:20:06,337
[Dan chuckles]

361
00:20:06,338 --> 00:20:07,838
Then what? [laughs]

362
00:20:07,839 --> 00:20:10,709
[everyone laughs]

363
00:20:14,880 --> 00:20:17,349
[car horns]

364
00:20:22,454 --> 00:20:23,688
The name of this show is?

365
00:20:23,689 --> 00:20:24,689
- [Female] "Radiolab."

366
00:20:24,690 --> 00:20:26,324
- [Chris] "Radiolab."

367
00:20:26,325 --> 00:20:27,692
- [Robert] Hey. How
are you? How are you?

368
00:20:27,693 --> 00:20:28,893
- [Chris] Remember me?

369
00:20:28,894 --> 00:20:31,729
- Of course I do. [laughs]

370
00:20:31,730 --> 00:20:35,600
All right. We should go
through this door. So...

371
00:20:35,601 --> 00:20:37,868
So you both leaned
into your weaknesses?

372
00:20:37,869 --> 00:20:39,670
- [Dan] Yes. It's the
only way to do it.

373
00:20:39,671 --> 00:20:42,341
And I can't like go
through the rest of my life

374
00:20:43,675 --> 00:20:45,476
being afraid of this
fucking disease.

375
00:20:45,477 --> 00:20:47,378
- [Robert] They contacted
the Beckett Estate

376
00:20:47,379 --> 00:20:50,414
and got permission to put
on one live performance

377
00:20:50,415 --> 00:20:51,683
in New York.

378
00:20:53,252 --> 00:20:54,685
- [Ruth] Hi, sweetie.
- [Joe] Hey, Chris.

379
00:20:54,686 --> 00:20:56,621
- [Ruth] I have
this image of you

380
00:20:56,622 --> 00:20:58,256
falling asleep on the train
being in the Far Rockaways.

381
00:20:58,257 --> 00:20:59,690
- [Chris] Usually when
people rehearse a play,

382
00:20:59,691 --> 00:21:01,959
they rehearse 7
or 8 hours a day.

383
00:21:01,960 --> 00:21:04,829
I find that my energy
acting in this play

384
00:21:04,830 --> 00:21:06,497
is about three hours.

385
00:21:06,498 --> 00:21:09,667
I'm scared, but we've
got a couple of weeks.

386
00:21:09,668 --> 00:21:11,502
- So, the fact that we
only work for 3 or 4 hours,

387
00:21:11,503 --> 00:21:13,504
and you know, that's the
concentration they have

388
00:21:13,505 --> 00:21:14,772
is like, oh, man.

389
00:21:14,773 --> 00:21:16,007
- [Byron] Can you hear me?

390
00:21:16,008 --> 00:21:17,341
- Yes.

391
00:21:17,342 --> 00:21:18,377
- Our hearing hasn't failed.

392
00:21:19,311 --> 00:21:20,611
- [Carolyn] Our what?

393
00:21:20,612 --> 00:21:22,013
- [Byron] Our hearing!

394
00:21:22,014 --> 00:21:22,881
- Oh.

395
00:21:24,383 --> 00:21:25,516
- How we going out?

396
00:21:25,517 --> 00:21:26,851
You guys are busy, so go ahead.

397
00:21:26,852 --> 00:21:28,886
I'm kinda screwy too, but...

398
00:21:28,887 --> 00:21:31,822
- [Dan] It's nearly impossible
to find 4 to 5 weeks

399
00:21:31,823 --> 00:21:33,824
where we can actually get
together and rehearse.

400
00:21:33,825 --> 00:21:38,830
Nagg and Nell and Hamm and
Clov, and Joe, our director.

401
00:21:39,631 --> 00:21:40,831
[indistinct]

402
00:21:40,832 --> 00:21:42,533
- [Man] There's so many places.

403
00:21:42,534 --> 00:21:43,534
- Okay.

404
00:21:43,535 --> 00:21:44,969
That's the great thing

405
00:21:44,970 --> 00:21:46,637
about working with
experienced actors.

406
00:21:46,638 --> 00:21:48,072
The usual schedule
that things take,

407
00:21:48,073 --> 00:21:50,641
you know, that usually
applies, don't really...

408
00:21:50,642 --> 00:21:51,776
We don't need that, you know?

409
00:21:51,777 --> 00:21:52,878
We can throw all that out.

410
00:21:54,980 --> 00:21:56,847
- [Dan] Joe, he
said on the phone,

411
00:21:56,848 --> 00:22:01,352
"Oh, you know, Dan, it
may never get performed."

412
00:22:01,353 --> 00:22:02,753
- That's the fun part,

413
00:22:02,754 --> 00:22:07,059
a somewhat non-result
oriented sandbox.

414
00:22:09,494 --> 00:22:10,462
- Joe!

415
00:22:10,463 --> 00:22:11,996
[Joe laughs]

416
00:22:11,997 --> 00:22:13,564
- I think it's important

417
00:22:13,565 --> 00:22:18,036
that we shoot for
finishing this by June.

418
00:22:18,837 --> 00:22:20,438
- [Dan] Yeah.

419
00:22:20,439 --> 00:22:21,106
- [Chris] But I
think we've got it.

420
00:22:21,107 --> 00:22:22,740
- I hope.

421
00:22:22,741 --> 00:22:24,975
- I realized there's a
lot less to worry about

422
00:22:24,976 --> 00:22:26,977
than I used to think there was.

423
00:22:26,978 --> 00:22:29,914
- I'm not sure what
it will be yet,

424
00:22:29,915 --> 00:22:33,451
but that's what
rehearsing will teach us.

425
00:22:33,452 --> 00:22:35,086
- We talk about it.
We do the lines.

426
00:22:35,087 --> 00:22:37,555
We think about getting
up and doing it.

427
00:22:37,556 --> 00:22:40,124
- Just getting together
and looking at the script.

428
00:22:40,125 --> 00:22:41,826
- All you need to perform drama

429
00:22:41,827 --> 00:22:43,761
is four boards and a passion.

430
00:22:43,762 --> 00:22:45,996
- Joe is encouraging us to
take all the time we need.

431
00:22:45,997 --> 00:22:47,932
- [Chris] Yeah.

432
00:22:47,933 --> 00:22:49,868
- Thinking about this and
saying it like that and...

433
00:22:50,936 --> 00:22:52,504
- I think I'll be able to do it.

434
00:22:53,772 --> 00:22:55,439
- I'm trying to remember

435
00:22:55,440 --> 00:22:56,440
if it's the first time
we've worked together.

436
00:22:56,441 --> 00:22:57,442
Jeez, and that's weird.

437
00:22:58,477 --> 00:22:59,910
- Can't remember.

438
00:22:59,911 --> 00:23:01,846
- They're not only two
really wonderful actors.

439
00:23:01,847 --> 00:23:03,948
They're two of the nicest
guy [laughs], you'll meet.

440
00:23:03,949 --> 00:23:05,783
[Dan laughs]

441
00:23:05,784 --> 00:23:07,585
I mentioned their
names last night.

442
00:23:07,586 --> 00:23:09,987
You know, people were lighting
up all over the place,

443
00:23:09,988 --> 00:23:11,122
you know?

444
00:23:11,123 --> 00:23:12,990
Dan's following that girl.

445
00:23:12,991 --> 00:23:16,494
♪ <i>Brother, you can't go to
jail for what you're thinking</i> ♪

446
00:23:16,495 --> 00:23:19,864
♪ <i>Or for that something
look in your eye</i> ♪

447
00:23:19,865 --> 00:23:22,066
♪ <i>That's why we're
standing on a corner</i> ♪

448
00:23:22,067 --> 00:23:23,734
♪ <i>Watching all the girls</i> ♪

449
00:23:23,735 --> 00:23:25,136
♪ <i>Watching all the girls</i> ♪

450
00:23:25,137 --> 00:23:28,672
♪ <i>Watching all the girls go by</i> ♪

451
00:23:28,673 --> 00:23:31,442
[all laughs]

452
00:23:31,443 --> 00:23:32,576
Hi, girls.

453
00:23:32,577 --> 00:23:33,677
- Hi, girls.

454
00:23:33,678 --> 00:23:34,879
Go by.

455
00:23:34,880 --> 00:23:38,549
- They're all going by.
- Go by.

456
00:23:38,550 --> 00:23:40,484
- Oh!

457
00:23:40,485 --> 00:23:41,485
Tags up.

458
00:23:41,486 --> 00:23:43,187
- [Chris] Oh, goodness.

459
00:23:43,188 --> 00:23:46,524
- The light's changing. Better
hurry and cross the street.

460
00:23:46,525 --> 00:23:48,159
- [Ruth] The way, how much of
the story is drawing him in

461
00:23:48,160 --> 00:23:50,128
to get him to give
you that response.

462
00:23:51,630 --> 00:23:52,864
Hamm's the boss.

463
00:23:54,499 --> 00:23:57,168
You wanna just review
what's the punctuations

464
00:23:57,169 --> 00:23:58,669
in there I'll be-

465
00:23:58,670 --> 00:23:59,804
- Yeah.
- In the shelter?

466
00:23:59,805 --> 00:24:00,972
Alone against.

467
00:24:02,908 --> 00:24:05,710
- There I'll be,
in the old shelter,

468
00:24:08,180 --> 00:24:13,185
alone against the silence
and the stillness.

469
00:24:17,456 --> 00:24:19,658
If I can hold my
peace and sit quiet,

470
00:24:20,992 --> 00:24:23,494
it will be all over
with, sound and emotion.

471
00:24:23,495 --> 00:24:24,696
All over and done with.

472
00:24:27,032 --> 00:24:27,899
Yeah?
- Yeah.

473
00:24:31,536 --> 00:24:34,138
Is there any part you wanna run?

474
00:24:34,139 --> 00:24:37,042
- [Dan] I like the stuff
I found yesterday on...

475
00:24:42,214 --> 00:24:43,081
- [Ruth] The rat?

476
00:24:43,081 --> 00:24:43,949
- He'll be gone.

477
00:24:45,584 --> 00:24:47,017
The, he'll go too...

478
00:24:47,018 --> 00:24:49,487
He couldn't come back.
He's been gone too far.

479
00:24:49,488 --> 00:24:51,956
- [Ruth] Yes. Too far.

480
00:24:51,957 --> 00:24:54,024
I do too.
- I'd like to retain that.

481
00:24:54,025 --> 00:24:55,092
- [Ruth] Yeah.

482
00:24:55,093 --> 00:24:57,762
[gentle music]

483
00:25:12,577 --> 00:25:14,011
- [Dan] As an actor,

484
00:25:14,012 --> 00:25:16,248
there is doubt of what
you can do, every time.

485
00:25:26,057 --> 00:25:28,826
My acting teacher at
NYU was Olympia Dukakis,

486
00:25:28,827 --> 00:25:30,995
and she used to say, "You
should feel free here

487
00:25:30,996 --> 00:25:33,597
to fail as miserably
as you want."

488
00:25:33,598 --> 00:25:37,101
That doesn't exist out,
once you get out of school.

489
00:25:37,102 --> 00:25:38,303
You know, you can't fail.

490
00:25:41,940 --> 00:25:43,574
Chris and I are both
definitely feeling

491
00:25:43,575 --> 00:25:46,043
the urge to get it
right, you know?

492
00:25:46,044 --> 00:25:47,177
I don't wanna fuckin'...

493
00:25:47,178 --> 00:25:48,812
I don't wanna just do it like,

494
00:25:48,813 --> 00:25:50,714
"Oh, well, that was
good for Parky guys,"

495
00:25:50,715 --> 00:25:53,551
but I want people
to come and go,

496
00:25:53,552 --> 00:25:56,820
"Oh, fuck. I never
saw a play like this.

497
00:25:56,821 --> 00:25:58,623
I never thought
of it like this."

498
00:25:59,558 --> 00:26:02,293
[gentle music continues]

499
00:26:02,294 --> 00:26:05,129
Well, I wanted to play this
part for like 20 years,

500
00:26:05,130 --> 00:26:09,034
but it's a good
part to try and hit.

501
00:26:11,570 --> 00:26:14,105
Can there be misery

502
00:26:16,942 --> 00:26:18,909
loftier than mine?

503
00:26:18,910 --> 00:26:22,913
I have complications with
his part, making him so big.

504
00:26:22,914 --> 00:26:26,250
I've been sorta working on
him like, not pissed off,

505
00:26:26,251 --> 00:26:27,751
but mean.

506
00:26:27,752 --> 00:26:28,819
How are your eyes?

507
00:26:28,820 --> 00:26:30,187
- [Chris] Bad.

508
00:26:30,188 --> 00:26:31,188
- How are your legs?
- [Chris] Bad.

509
00:26:31,189 --> 00:26:32,323
- But you can move?

510
00:26:32,324 --> 00:26:32,891
- Yeah.
- Then move!

511
00:26:34,993 --> 00:26:36,727
- Let's read without the
stage directions, okay?

512
00:26:36,728 --> 00:26:38,129
- [Chris] Okay.
- You know...

513
00:26:39,598 --> 00:26:40,931
- Play?
- Fool around with that.

514
00:26:40,932 --> 00:26:42,266
- Play with it, yeah.

515
00:26:42,267 --> 00:26:43,267
- Yeah, because
there's no, you know...

516
00:26:43,268 --> 00:26:44,135
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.

517
00:26:44,136 --> 00:26:46,036
- Christ's sake.

518
00:26:46,037 --> 00:26:47,805
What I learned about this is
as many questions as you ask,

519
00:26:47,806 --> 00:26:49,740
there's sort of no right answer.

520
00:26:49,741 --> 00:26:53,010
I mean, you don't know if the
right answer is entertainment,

521
00:26:53,011 --> 00:26:55,846
or pain. [laughs]

522
00:26:55,847 --> 00:26:57,281
- [Chris] Yeah.

523
00:26:57,282 --> 00:26:58,916
- You know what I mean?
- [Chris] Yeah. Yeah.

524
00:26:58,917 --> 00:26:59,784
- You don't know, and
it's best kept that way.

525
00:26:59,784 --> 00:26:59,918
That's Beckett.

526
00:27:02,854 --> 00:27:05,155
- [Samuel] Of the coming
to, of the being at,

527
00:27:05,156 --> 00:27:07,926
of the going from
Knott's habitat,

528
00:27:09,294 --> 00:27:11,996
of the long way,
of the short stay,

529
00:27:11,997 --> 00:27:14,366
of the going back home
the way he had come,

530
00:27:15,967 --> 00:27:18,636
of the empty heart,
of the empty hands,

531
00:27:18,637 --> 00:27:21,740
of the dim mind wayfaring
through barren lands.

532
00:27:24,275 --> 00:27:27,311
- When we first encountered
Beckett, when I was in college,

533
00:27:27,312 --> 00:27:30,782
at that time everybody was
talking all about existentialism.

534
00:27:32,050 --> 00:27:33,684
People often
misinterpret Beckett

535
00:27:33,685 --> 00:27:35,319
and make it very heavy handed,

536
00:27:35,320 --> 00:27:36,920
because they wanna massage

537
00:27:36,921 --> 00:27:39,390
that sort of like,
"Oh, isn't life hard?

538
00:27:39,391 --> 00:27:41,258
Isn't the world falling apart?"

539
00:27:41,259 --> 00:27:45,162
Well, you know, the post-nuclear
apocalyptic interpretations

540
00:27:45,163 --> 00:27:46,797
and all that.

541
00:27:46,798 --> 00:27:47,931
Beckett's idea of
the human condition

542
00:27:47,932 --> 00:27:49,366
is, am I cold or am I hot?

543
00:27:49,367 --> 00:27:53,070
Am I tired or am
I alive and awake?

544
00:27:53,071 --> 00:27:55,105
Am I talking? Am I silent?

545
00:27:55,106 --> 00:27:56,141
It's so basic.

546
00:27:57,742 --> 00:28:00,377
That's why people often
get crazed about Beckett

547
00:28:00,378 --> 00:28:01,945
going, "You know, I know
it's supposed to be good.

548
00:28:01,946 --> 00:28:03,781
I know it's supposed
to be funny,"

549
00:28:03,782 --> 00:28:05,382
and then somehow it never does

550
00:28:05,383 --> 00:28:09,053
because everyone succumbs
to its greatness.

551
00:28:09,054 --> 00:28:10,822
[gentle music]

552
00:28:20,165 --> 00:28:22,399
- [Man] Morning.
- [Dan] Hey, brother.

553
00:28:22,400 --> 00:28:24,034
How you been?

554
00:28:24,035 --> 00:28:24,903
- Hangin' in, you
know how it is.

555
00:28:24,903 --> 00:28:25,770
- All right.

556
00:28:25,770 --> 00:28:26,438
Hey, boys.

557
00:28:26,439 --> 00:28:28,740
[indistinct]

558
00:28:31,376 --> 00:28:32,711
I'll have some Gatorade.

559
00:28:37,048 --> 00:28:37,916
Shit!

560
00:28:39,884 --> 00:28:41,018
- [Man] I got it.

561
00:28:41,019 --> 00:28:42,853
- [Dan] I'm sorry, brother.

562
00:28:42,854 --> 00:28:43,388
- That's all right. Don't
worry about it, man.

563
00:28:43,388 --> 00:28:44,255
- Fuck.

564
00:28:44,256 --> 00:28:45,856
- I got you.

565
00:28:45,857 --> 00:28:46,725
- [Dan] I'm sorry.
- [Man] Just leave it.

566
00:28:46,725 --> 00:28:47,392
- [Dan] Thanks.

567
00:28:47,393 --> 00:28:48,393
I'm sorry.

568
00:28:48,394 --> 00:28:50,227
- It's all right.

569
00:28:50,228 --> 00:28:51,261
The whole place is tight.
That's what happens.

570
00:28:51,262 --> 00:28:52,262
- Yeah, I know.

571
00:28:52,263 --> 00:28:53,263
- Got no space no more.

572
00:28:53,264 --> 00:28:54,733
- I know, brother.

573
00:28:57,469 --> 00:29:01,072
- Okay more, this is
going to be 13, 1,75.

574
00:29:03,374 --> 00:29:04,242
$27.74.

575
00:29:06,377 --> 00:29:10,047
- [Dan] I find that I'm thrown
off balance very easily,

576
00:29:10,048 --> 00:29:11,049
very easily.

577
00:29:12,851 --> 00:29:14,184
I just don't like it.

578
00:29:14,185 --> 00:29:16,821
[gentle music]

579
00:29:18,189 --> 00:29:20,991
I'm very timid compared
to what I used to be.

580
00:29:20,992 --> 00:29:23,460
I mean, I used to feel like
I can walk down the street.

581
00:29:23,461 --> 00:29:25,329
I can say shit to anybody.

582
00:29:25,330 --> 00:29:27,431
Now, I'm worried about
bumping into other people.

583
00:29:27,432 --> 00:29:29,366
I've had a couple
altercations on the street

584
00:29:29,367 --> 00:29:31,468
because I bumped into people.

585
00:29:31,469 --> 00:29:34,271
And I don't wanna
do that anymore.

586
00:29:34,272 --> 00:29:36,173
I don't wanna fist
fight anymore.

587
00:29:36,174 --> 00:29:38,008
I'd like to, actually. [laughs]

588
00:29:38,009 --> 00:29:39,978
I don't think I should.

589
00:29:43,982 --> 00:29:47,284
I find that I burst out.

590
00:29:47,285 --> 00:29:49,554
You hold this shit in,
then it comes out like,

591
00:29:51,222 --> 00:29:52,390
"I don't wanna do that!"

592
00:29:54,392 --> 00:29:57,862
To somebody you love,
or some stranger.

593
00:30:01,833 --> 00:30:05,536
- [Ruth] Dan was working in a
traveling Shakespeare company,

594
00:30:05,537 --> 00:30:07,437
and I joined.

595
00:30:07,438 --> 00:30:09,040
I fell in love at first sight.

596
00:30:11,543 --> 00:30:13,377
I think one of the things
that drew me to Dan

597
00:30:13,378 --> 00:30:16,314
was this kind of man's man guy.

598
00:30:23,054 --> 00:30:25,255
He's always been quite alpha.

599
00:30:25,256 --> 00:30:30,261
He, is gregarious, you know?

600
00:30:31,196 --> 00:30:34,132
[gentle music continues]

601
00:30:44,876 --> 00:30:46,477
He was gorgeous.

602
00:30:53,218 --> 00:30:55,285
He was an incredibly
physical actor,

603
00:30:55,286 --> 00:30:58,422
and of course, that's
a complete change.

604
00:30:58,423 --> 00:31:00,924
It's difficult for him
not to have his body

605
00:31:00,925 --> 00:31:02,260
at his beck and call.

606
00:31:05,897 --> 00:31:10,234
He, for most of his life,
has been an extrovert

607
00:31:10,235 --> 00:31:14,606
who draws energy out
of group situations.

608
00:31:17,342 --> 00:31:21,144
What's happening right
now, is his self-image

609
00:31:21,145 --> 00:31:24,014
is not matching up to
what he can physically do.

610
00:31:24,015 --> 00:31:25,916
[gentle music]

611
00:31:25,917 --> 00:31:27,051
- [Dan] How do you feel?

612
00:31:30,054 --> 00:31:30,989
Do you feel normal?

613
00:31:33,524 --> 00:31:35,493
I feel a little strange.

614
00:31:40,932 --> 00:31:42,300
- [Chris] Over the last week,

615
00:31:44,135 --> 00:31:46,104
I've gone through the whole
night without getting up.

616
00:31:47,538 --> 00:31:48,406
- Good.

617
00:31:53,111 --> 00:31:54,478
How's your thinking?

618
00:31:54,479 --> 00:31:55,346
[Chris laughs]
- I think it's okay.

619
00:31:55,347 --> 00:31:57,014
- You do? Okay.

620
00:31:57,015 --> 00:31:59,050
No trouble with forgetfulness?

621
00:31:59,984 --> 00:32:01,085
Figuring things out?

622
00:32:07,158 --> 00:32:09,026
- Trying to figure out the
answer to that question,

623
00:32:09,027 --> 00:32:10,260
I'm having a little problem.

624
00:32:10,261 --> 00:32:12,095
[Mary Beth laughs]

625
00:32:12,096 --> 00:32:13,230
- [Mary Beth] Chris'
posture has gotten worse.

626
00:32:13,231 --> 00:32:14,498
- He tends to lean to the right.

627
00:32:14,499 --> 00:32:16,366
You don't fall, right?

628
00:32:16,367 --> 00:32:17,936
- [Chris] I don't fall.
- You have not fallen? Good.

629
00:32:19,537 --> 00:32:23,173
- The last six months, I've
physically deteriorated.

630
00:32:23,174 --> 00:32:25,276
It's harder for me to
get through the day.

631
00:32:26,678 --> 00:32:29,246
So, it's a little less
easy to be optimistic

632
00:32:29,247 --> 00:32:31,048
than it used to be.

633
00:32:31,049 --> 00:32:32,449
- This is the pull test.

634
00:32:32,450 --> 00:32:33,951
I'm gonna pull you back
from the shoulders.

635
00:32:33,952 --> 00:32:35,218
- Okay.
- Okay.

636
00:32:35,219 --> 00:32:36,353
You know what to do?
- Sure.

637
00:32:36,354 --> 00:32:37,988
- Take a little step back.

638
00:32:37,989 --> 00:32:39,656
Okay. This is gonna
be a very light pull.

639
00:32:39,657 --> 00:32:41,224
So, here's a practice. One,
two, three, and just...

640
00:32:41,225 --> 00:32:42,659
Good. Perfect.

641
00:32:42,660 --> 00:32:45,229
So, here's a bigger
pull. One, two, three.

642
00:32:46,297 --> 00:32:47,731
Okay. Good.

643
00:32:47,732 --> 00:32:49,266
With your left hand,
can you go like this?

644
00:32:49,267 --> 00:32:50,600
Just tap. Big and wide.

645
00:32:50,601 --> 00:32:52,602
- [Chris] The
dopamine in the brain

646
00:32:52,603 --> 00:32:57,240
is what communicates
to the muscles, move,

647
00:32:57,241 --> 00:32:58,642
and in my brain,

648
00:32:58,643 --> 00:33:01,745
the cells that carry
the dopamine are dying.

649
00:33:01,746 --> 00:33:03,413
- [Blair] Why they
die off is not clear.

650
00:33:03,414 --> 00:33:06,216
That is the root mystery
of Parkinson's disease.

651
00:33:06,217 --> 00:33:09,019
- [Chris] Could be that
the garbage disposal system

652
00:33:09,020 --> 00:33:11,655
in the cells isn't
working properly.

653
00:33:11,656 --> 00:33:13,724
They fill up with
trash, so they die.

654
00:33:13,725 --> 00:33:15,325
- [Blair] Take your left foot.

655
00:33:15,326 --> 00:33:16,260
Can you plant the heel
and tap like this?

656
00:33:18,096 --> 00:33:19,463
- [Mary Beth] You know, we
always have to ask you this,

657
00:33:19,464 --> 00:33:21,999
but you never answer, but...

658
00:33:22,000 --> 00:33:23,600
- [Blair] I never do? Do what?

659
00:33:23,601 --> 00:33:26,003
- Do you think his trajectory
continues to go great

660
00:33:26,004 --> 00:33:29,573
for 5 years, 10 years, 2 years?

661
00:33:29,574 --> 00:33:33,043
- You can't dwell on
how much more time,

662
00:33:33,044 --> 00:33:34,745
you know, do I have at
this level of function

663
00:33:34,746 --> 00:33:36,547
because it's totally
unpredictable.

664
00:33:37,615 --> 00:33:39,249
- His range is narrowing.

665
00:33:39,250 --> 00:33:41,151
His palate used to
be rainbow colored,

666
00:33:41,152 --> 00:33:43,354
and now it's kind of come
down to shades of gray.

667
00:33:45,223 --> 00:33:47,224
Chris was in a movie
with Kirk Douglas,

668
00:33:47,225 --> 00:33:49,393
and a friend of mine was
trying to match me up.

669
00:33:49,394 --> 00:33:53,163
They said, "This great guy,
actor, very funny, red hair."

670
00:33:53,164 --> 00:33:55,599
I said, "Nah, not so interested.

671
00:33:55,600 --> 00:33:58,068
I'm having so much
fun being single,

672
00:33:58,069 --> 00:34:00,704
but I'd love another friend."

673
00:34:00,705 --> 00:34:02,305
[Mary Beth laughs]

674
00:34:02,306 --> 00:34:04,608
My plan didn't really
work out. [laughs]

675
00:34:04,609 --> 00:34:07,377
But then when the movie came
out, it was a small party,

676
00:34:07,378 --> 00:34:09,112
and then we met at the doorway.

677
00:34:09,113 --> 00:34:10,514
The doorbell was broken,

678
00:34:10,515 --> 00:34:12,282
so we were just
both standing there.

679
00:34:12,283 --> 00:34:14,351
I said, "Oh, you must
be a friend of Skip's."

680
00:34:14,352 --> 00:34:15,752
- What's up?

681
00:34:15,753 --> 00:34:17,487
- We found somebody
we'd like to get to run

682
00:34:17,488 --> 00:34:19,122
for that selectman's seat.

683
00:34:19,123 --> 00:34:20,824
I don't need to tell
you, it's a big honor.

684
00:34:20,825 --> 00:34:22,392
- That's what they call
it when you work hard

685
00:34:22,393 --> 00:34:24,528
but you don't get paid. [laughs]

686
00:34:24,529 --> 00:34:29,399
- And then we, you
know, dated a few times,

687
00:34:29,400 --> 00:34:31,268
and then I said, look.

688
00:34:31,269 --> 00:34:33,136
You know, maybe, I could
fit you in like once a week,

689
00:34:33,137 --> 00:34:34,704
and then we started seeing
each other every day,

690
00:34:34,705 --> 00:34:37,741
and then moved in
together. [laughs]

691
00:34:37,742 --> 00:34:40,411
[gentle music]

692
00:35:00,198 --> 00:35:03,700
- [Chris] The sort of
painful part for me,

693
00:35:03,701 --> 00:35:05,169
I've got three kids.

694
00:35:07,138 --> 00:35:09,606
They remember me when
I didn't have it,

695
00:35:09,607 --> 00:35:11,675
but it's getting on to the time

696
00:35:11,676 --> 00:35:14,211
when they'll have more
years with me with it

697
00:35:14,212 --> 00:35:15,679
than without it.

698
00:35:15,680 --> 00:35:17,547
That's good.
- Wait, what are we making?

699
00:35:17,548 --> 00:35:19,584
Pan roasted chicken
with rosemary garlic?

700
00:35:20,785 --> 00:35:24,754
- Salt, pepper, and wine.

701
00:35:24,755 --> 00:35:26,157
- Salt, pepper,

702
00:35:27,358 --> 00:35:30,495
and where would the wine be?

703
00:35:32,830 --> 00:35:35,832
- [Chris] They have
to live with a father

704
00:35:35,833 --> 00:35:37,701
who could be a grandfather,

705
00:35:37,702 --> 00:35:40,570
and [laughs], they've
been absolutely terrific.

706
00:35:40,571 --> 00:35:42,906
Okay, I'm gonna
need some help here.

707
00:35:42,907 --> 00:35:44,574
Oops!
- Oh.

708
00:35:44,575 --> 00:35:46,344
- I need to get
some of these out.

709
00:35:49,647 --> 00:35:50,647
- Here.

710
00:35:50,648 --> 00:35:51,382
It's really full.

711
00:35:56,888 --> 00:35:57,921
Pour it into that?

712
00:35:57,922 --> 00:35:58,789
- Yeah, bud.

713
00:35:59,924 --> 00:36:01,292
- That is so good.

714
00:36:02,693 --> 00:36:03,927
It's amazing.

715
00:36:03,928 --> 00:36:06,396
- [Mary Beth] It's really good.

716
00:36:06,397 --> 00:36:08,298
- Sometimes I wonder if
I'm in my right mind,

717
00:36:08,299 --> 00:36:11,269
then it passes it over and
I'm as lucid as before.

718
00:36:12,837 --> 00:36:14,738
Sometimes I wonder if
I'm in my right senses,

719
00:36:14,739 --> 00:36:17,275
then it passes off and I'm
as intelligent as ever.

720
00:36:18,409 --> 00:36:19,543
- That was your line?

721
00:36:19,544 --> 00:36:20,544
- [Hayden] These are all...

722
00:36:20,545 --> 00:36:21,945
- These are all... Hmm.

723
00:36:21,946 --> 00:36:23,580
- [Hayden] Pure gold.
[Mary Beth laughs]

724
00:36:23,581 --> 00:36:24,714
[Chris' Daughter]
These are all lines

725
00:36:24,715 --> 00:36:25,849
you really gotta listen to.

726
00:36:25,850 --> 00:36:27,184
- [Chris] What's he doing?

727
00:36:27,185 --> 00:36:28,652
He's crying, then he's living.

728
00:36:28,653 --> 00:36:30,487
- [Chris' Daughter]
What Dad just said-

729
00:36:30,488 --> 00:36:32,289
- [Mary Beth] What is
Beckett known for? Observe?

730
00:36:32,290 --> 00:36:32,423
- You're on Earth.
There's no cure for that.

731
00:36:34,659 --> 00:36:37,294
- [Hayden] That was a
line worthy of fame.

732
00:36:37,295 --> 00:36:41,666
- [Chris] My kids have been
unbelievably supportive.

733
00:36:42,733 --> 00:36:44,634
But in terms of my family,

734
00:36:44,635 --> 00:36:47,304
my wife, for the first six
years of my being diagnosed,

735
00:36:47,305 --> 00:36:48,638
was very angry.

736
00:36:48,639 --> 00:36:50,273
What's sort of ironic

737
00:36:50,274 --> 00:36:52,242
is she is the kind of
positive, generous,

738
00:36:52,243 --> 00:36:54,245
supportive of the two of us.

739
00:36:55,646 --> 00:36:57,280
- [Mary Beth] Nice
dinner. Thank you.

740
00:36:57,281 --> 00:36:58,715
- [Chris] It was
good. Thanks Beth.

741
00:36:58,716 --> 00:37:00,383
- [Mary Beth] You
gonna go for a walk?

742
00:37:00,384 --> 00:37:01,384
- [Chris] I think
so. I'm exhausted.

743
00:37:01,385 --> 00:37:02,819
- You guys go ahead.

744
00:37:02,820 --> 00:37:04,922
You go for a walk
with Ron and Joanna.

745
00:37:09,460 --> 00:37:13,463
- I think that Chris and Dan's
resilience is incredible,

746
00:37:13,464 --> 00:37:14,764
and the fact that
they're still carving out

747
00:37:14,765 --> 00:37:16,367
this beautiful, creative life,

748
00:37:17,535 --> 00:37:18,835
but it comes at a cost.

749
00:37:18,836 --> 00:37:20,871
He's not the guy I married.

750
00:37:21,806 --> 00:37:22,940
- Wave to Mom. Wave.

751
00:37:24,809 --> 00:37:26,710
His first swim by himself!

752
00:37:26,711 --> 00:37:28,345
- [Mary Beth] Wow.

753
00:37:28,346 --> 00:37:30,247
- The biggest boy.
Now, watch this.

754
00:37:30,248 --> 00:37:31,248
- No, no.

755
00:37:31,249 --> 00:37:32,249
- No, no, he says.

756
00:37:32,250 --> 00:37:33,783
That means yes, yes.

757
00:37:33,784 --> 00:37:35,286
- [Mary Beth] Really? Ta-da.

758
00:37:36,654 --> 00:37:37,521
- Ta-da.

759
00:37:45,896 --> 00:37:47,330
- [Mary Beth] I think
that he definitely

760
00:37:47,331 --> 00:37:48,765
has to put on a game face

761
00:37:48,766 --> 00:37:50,735
in most simple tasks in life.

762
00:37:57,308 --> 00:37:58,708
- This 109-
- Oh no.

763
00:37:58,709 --> 00:38:00,011
- So, that regular price.

764
00:38:02,613 --> 00:38:04,014
And sir, when you're ready,

765
00:38:04,015 --> 00:38:05,315
I'll actually have
Louise check you out.

766
00:38:05,316 --> 00:38:05,983
- Okay.

767
00:38:07,752 --> 00:38:09,419
- [Man] Yeah, I just realized
that we're not open yet,

768
00:38:09,420 --> 00:38:11,288
but if you give them
a call and say that.

769
00:38:11,289 --> 00:38:14,624
I think on Saturday
morning, I won't be here,

770
00:38:14,625 --> 00:38:16,694
but should be in the gym.

771
00:38:18,296 --> 00:38:19,896
Otherwise just come in
and pick it up Friday.

772
00:38:19,897 --> 00:38:21,898
- [Mary Beth] The
Parkinson's I think,

773
00:38:21,899 --> 00:38:25,870
kinda pulls him
back to apathetic.

774
00:38:27,638 --> 00:38:32,375
And he's not able to
switch gears well,

775
00:38:32,376 --> 00:38:34,611
and he's not able to
complete tasks well,

776
00:38:34,612 --> 00:38:36,680
and he's exhausted,

777
00:38:36,681 --> 00:38:38,581
like when you're talking
to him around dinner

778
00:38:38,582 --> 00:38:39,684
and he falls asleep.

779
00:38:42,486 --> 00:38:44,854
If he's asleep while I'm talking
to him about my feelings,

780
00:38:44,855 --> 00:38:46,723
it doesn't really matter.

781
00:38:46,724 --> 00:38:50,593
Now you have to be the
nurse to your sick spouse.

782
00:38:50,594 --> 00:38:52,930
[indistinct]

783
00:38:56,334 --> 00:38:58,034
And I feel upset with myself

784
00:38:58,035 --> 00:39:00,438
whenever I get
impatient with him,

785
00:39:01,806 --> 00:39:03,440
or say, "Come on,
come on," you know?

786
00:39:03,441 --> 00:39:05,408
I can't help it though.

787
00:39:05,409 --> 00:39:09,045
And I feel sorry that
I'm not more patient.

788
00:39:09,046 --> 00:39:12,383
I feel sorry every day that
I'm not like Mother Teresa.

789
00:39:13,684 --> 00:39:15,085
- [Dan] With Chris and I,

790
00:39:15,086 --> 00:39:16,654
we both fall into what
we call power nap.

791
00:39:18,689 --> 00:39:21,459
I mean, we're just like in
the middle of the day just...

792
00:39:22,593 --> 00:39:24,661
[Dan snores]

793
00:39:24,662 --> 00:39:25,529
Go out.

794
00:39:26,630 --> 00:39:28,365
[Dan snores]

795
00:39:28,366 --> 00:39:30,367
I do it often.

796
00:39:30,368 --> 00:39:31,801
- [Chris] What about that pee?

797
00:39:31,802 --> 00:39:32,670
[Dan chuckles]

798
00:39:32,671 --> 00:39:33,870
- I'm having it.

799
00:39:33,871 --> 00:39:35,004
[Chris laughs]

800
00:39:35,005 --> 00:39:36,873
- [Chris] Ah, that's the spirit.

801
00:39:36,874 --> 00:39:38,775
- [Dan] I'm a little worried
that I start to play off asleep

802
00:39:38,776 --> 00:39:39,776
on the stage.

803
00:39:39,777 --> 00:39:40,678
And I'll be gone.

804
00:39:40,679 --> 00:39:42,011
I'll be out.

805
00:39:42,012 --> 00:39:42,980
- [Chris] He's up.

806
00:39:42,981 --> 00:39:44,647
- Uppa!

807
00:39:44,648 --> 00:39:45,648
- [Joe] Da, da, da, da.
- [Chris] Up periscope.

808
00:39:45,649 --> 00:39:47,550
- He's down again.

809
00:39:47,551 --> 00:39:49,753
- [Joe] Bum, bum, bum, bum,
bum, bum, bum, bum, bum, bum.

810
00:39:49,754 --> 00:39:52,723
- He's up. Look at this guy.

811
00:39:54,024 --> 00:39:55,425
Unbelievable.

812
00:39:55,426 --> 00:39:56,926
You just take your medication?

813
00:39:56,927 --> 00:39:58,061
- Just now.

814
00:39:58,062 --> 00:39:59,396
But it hasn't kicked in yet.

815
00:39:59,397 --> 00:40:00,830
- [Joe] He's all juiced up.

816
00:40:00,831 --> 00:40:01,732
- I'm trying to
get it kicked in.

817
00:40:01,733 --> 00:40:02,866
You gotta move.

818
00:40:02,867 --> 00:40:04,134
You gotta move and groove.

819
00:40:04,135 --> 00:40:06,003
Move and groove, baby.

820
00:40:08,606 --> 00:40:10,106
- [Joe] You gotta
move your lips...

821
00:40:10,107 --> 00:40:12,777
[gentle music]

822
00:40:17,581 --> 00:40:19,483
- Yes, is this Dr.
Di Rocco's office?

823
00:40:20,851 --> 00:40:23,019
I'll take the Thursday
at four. I'll be there.

824
00:40:23,020 --> 00:40:25,121
Okay. Talk to you in a soon.

825
00:40:25,122 --> 00:40:27,792
[gentle music]

826
00:40:39,703 --> 00:40:42,806
[Dan clears throat]

827
00:40:42,807 --> 00:40:45,476
- [Woman] Hi, Dan. How are you?

828
00:40:49,980 --> 00:40:52,015
- [Dan] At Dr. DiRocco's office,

829
00:40:52,016 --> 00:40:54,584
they make me fill
out these forms.

830
00:40:54,585 --> 00:40:58,054
How's the shaking? How's the
balance? Have you fallen?

831
00:40:58,055 --> 00:40:59,622
About what pills I'm taking.

832
00:40:59,623 --> 00:41:01,492
Every time, the same one.

833
00:41:02,860 --> 00:41:04,160
And I think they wanna
see your handwriting too

834
00:41:04,161 --> 00:41:06,129
because my handwriting's
getting worse.

835
00:41:06,130 --> 00:41:07,797
My handwriting's
getting very tiny,

836
00:41:07,798 --> 00:41:10,066
like it's supposed to
get with Parkinson's,

837
00:41:10,067 --> 00:41:14,138
and I say, "Can I just Xerox
one from three months before?"

838
00:41:16,807 --> 00:41:21,711
But, on a general scale
of how I feel day to day,

839
00:41:21,712 --> 00:41:24,181
it's like a roller coaster.

840
00:41:27,551 --> 00:41:29,085
The thing is with Parkinson,

841
00:41:29,086 --> 00:41:31,254
I have no freaking idea

842
00:41:31,255 --> 00:41:33,724
what complications
I'm gonna be hit with.

843
00:41:35,159 --> 00:41:38,696
[gentle music continues]

844
00:41:54,278 --> 00:41:55,880
- Good. No change.

845
00:41:57,248 --> 00:41:58,615
- I'm glad! I'm the same person.

846
00:41:58,616 --> 00:42:00,583
[doctor laughs]
[Dan laughs]

847
00:42:00,584 --> 00:42:02,018
- That's my friend.

848
00:42:02,019 --> 00:42:03,553
- The only sorta new
thing that dropped in

849
00:42:03,554 --> 00:42:05,655
was some hallucinations.

850
00:42:05,656 --> 00:42:08,725
Rats coming down
on spider strings.

851
00:42:08,726 --> 00:42:09,859
- [Dr. Di Rocco]
But you were asleep?

852
00:42:09,860 --> 00:42:12,962
- In bed, and attacking Ruthie.

853
00:42:12,963 --> 00:42:14,797
That's the first
time I've had that.

854
00:42:14,798 --> 00:42:17,267
- Technically, these
are not hallucinations.

855
00:42:17,268 --> 00:42:18,601
- Okay. [laughs]

856
00:42:18,602 --> 00:42:20,103
- [Dr. Di Rocco] So, these are-

857
00:42:20,104 --> 00:42:21,071
- That's real?
- [Dr. Di Rocco] It's real.

858
00:42:21,072 --> 00:42:22,672
- Good. [laughs]

859
00:42:22,673 --> 00:42:23,541
- [Dr. Di Rocco]
That was a reality.

860
00:42:23,542 --> 00:42:24,542
- I'm glad.

861
00:42:24,543 --> 00:42:26,276
- Those are dreams.

862
00:42:26,277 --> 00:42:28,044
So, in Parkinson, you got
dreams that are so vivid.

863
00:42:28,045 --> 00:42:29,178
- [Dan] Yeah.

864
00:42:29,179 --> 00:42:30,914
- That they become reality.

865
00:42:30,915 --> 00:42:32,282
- Okay.
- [Dr. Di Rocco] Usually,

866
00:42:32,283 --> 00:42:33,883
we dream in silence
when we dream

867
00:42:33,884 --> 00:42:34,618
and we don't move,
we don't talk.

868
00:42:34,619 --> 00:42:36,252
- Right.

869
00:42:36,253 --> 00:42:37,587
- When you have Parkinson,
you talk, you move,

870
00:42:37,588 --> 00:42:39,255
you act out your dreams.

871
00:42:39,256 --> 00:42:42,759
It's a common, it's part of the
little gifts that Parkinson-

872
00:42:42,760 --> 00:42:44,127
[Dan laughs]

873
00:42:44,128 --> 00:42:45,996
Yeah, one of the many.

874
00:42:47,798 --> 00:42:49,699
- When I was diagnosed,
the doctor said,

875
00:42:49,700 --> 00:42:51,768
basically, there's
not gonna be any cure.

876
00:42:51,769 --> 00:42:55,238
Maybe in 10, 15 years
we'll have something.

877
00:42:55,239 --> 00:42:57,574
I mean, like the way
I was asking him,

878
00:42:57,575 --> 00:43:00,977
"Will I be able to
be normal again?

879
00:43:00,978 --> 00:43:03,313
Will I be able to
speak normally?

880
00:43:03,314 --> 00:43:07,050
Will it come out the
way I want it to?"

881
00:43:07,051 --> 00:43:10,921
And he said, "Not soon enough."

882
00:43:18,762 --> 00:43:21,098
[indistinct]

883
00:43:22,166 --> 00:43:23,033
- Ah!

884
00:43:24,868 --> 00:43:29,672
Danny, his process in "Endgame"
has been a little different.

885
00:43:29,673 --> 00:43:31,841
He's been running lines and
running lines and running lines,

886
00:43:31,842 --> 00:43:36,847
and working until the wee
hours almost on a daily basis.

887
00:43:38,682 --> 00:43:39,883
I think he goes through the
play probably twice every day.

888
00:43:42,219 --> 00:43:43,820
It's taking a lot of time.

889
00:43:43,821 --> 00:43:45,755
I mean, it is his main focus.

890
00:43:45,756 --> 00:43:48,626
It's definitely been his main
focus for, I'd say, a year.

891
00:43:51,195 --> 00:43:53,062
- I'll tell you the
combination of the cupboard

892
00:43:53,063 --> 00:43:54,897
if you promise to finish me.

893
00:43:54,898 --> 00:43:56,866
- But I couldn't finish you.

894
00:43:56,867 --> 00:43:59,069
- Then you won't finish me.

895
00:44:01,171 --> 00:44:03,006
- I'm leaving you.
I have things to do.

896
00:44:03,007 --> 00:44:04,408
- In your kitchen?

897
00:44:07,911 --> 00:44:09,379
- [Ruth] Sorry.

898
00:44:09,380 --> 00:44:10,980
- Huh?

899
00:44:10,981 --> 00:44:11,849
- [Ruth] Do you remember
when you came here?

900
00:44:11,850 --> 00:44:14,884
- Oh, right.

901
00:44:14,885 --> 00:44:16,153
Do you remember?

902
00:44:17,888 --> 00:44:21,124
What was just before
this? What was it?

903
00:44:21,125 --> 00:44:22,692
- [Ruth] I'll tell you the
combination of the cupboard

904
00:44:22,693 --> 00:44:23,826
if you-

905
00:44:23,827 --> 00:44:25,428
- The last thing I've done,

906
00:44:25,429 --> 00:44:28,031
I had like three speeches
to start off with.

907
00:44:28,032 --> 00:44:32,268
There's nobody on stage to
give me lines, and I went dead,

908
00:44:32,269 --> 00:44:34,203
and I just started
looking at the audience.

909
00:44:34,204 --> 00:44:37,774
And I found myself, for the
first time, this was spooky,

910
00:44:37,775 --> 00:44:39,208
not going like, "Oh, what's
my line? What's my line?

911
00:44:39,209 --> 00:44:41,144
Think of my line.
Think of your line!"

912
00:44:41,145 --> 00:44:43,379
Going over my lines like a
mile a minute in my head.

913
00:44:43,380 --> 00:44:46,049
Instead, I sat there,
and I just went,

914
00:44:46,050 --> 00:44:49,019
"Oh, look, there's Jim.

915
00:44:50,888 --> 00:44:53,724
Oh, he's got a black shirt
on. He didn't wear a tie.

916
00:44:55,092 --> 00:44:57,026
He shoulda worn a
tie to the play.

917
00:44:57,027 --> 00:44:59,196
Oh, well. He's underdressed.

918
00:45:00,764 --> 00:45:04,267
There's Mary Louise.
Oh, she's a goofball.

919
00:45:04,268 --> 00:45:06,236
Oh, God. I better
think of this line."

920
00:45:10,841 --> 00:45:13,177
[indistinct]

921
00:45:14,745 --> 00:45:18,382
And that was scary, to
not even worry about it.

922
00:45:21,251 --> 00:45:25,421
[laughing in the background]

923
00:45:25,422 --> 00:45:27,023
I'm not gonna be acting
that much anymore.

924
00:45:27,024 --> 00:45:28,257
I mean, I just can't.

925
00:45:28,258 --> 00:45:30,728
I just can't do it.

926
00:45:32,396 --> 00:45:34,964
I can't control my
body or my voice.

927
00:45:34,965 --> 00:45:37,233
And I'm losing my voice
and I'm losing my body,

928
00:45:37,234 --> 00:45:38,835
control of my body.

929
00:45:38,836 --> 00:45:40,770
And that's what you
use as an actor.

930
00:45:40,771 --> 00:45:42,305
So, I don't see me
doing much more.

931
00:45:42,306 --> 00:45:44,174
So, I look at this
as kind of like,

932
00:45:45,409 --> 00:45:47,176
a goodbye to theater.

933
00:45:47,177 --> 00:45:48,945
Which is sad,

934
00:45:48,946 --> 00:45:51,447
because I thought I'd be
doing it my whole life.

935
00:45:51,448 --> 00:45:52,316
It's very weird.

936
00:45:54,418 --> 00:45:56,854
I've lost that
sense of identity.

937
00:46:02,459 --> 00:46:04,261
- [Chris] I look at the wall.

938
00:46:07,231 --> 00:46:08,265
- [Dan] The wall!

939
00:46:09,833 --> 00:46:11,534
And what do you
see on your wall?

940
00:46:11,535 --> 00:46:13,237
Mene, mene?

941
00:46:14,104 --> 00:46:15,439
Naked bodies?

942
00:46:17,474 --> 00:46:21,078
- [Chris] I see my
light dying. [echos]

943
00:46:34,191 --> 00:46:36,860
[upbeat music]

944
00:46:41,031 --> 00:46:42,431
- [Robert] You want a chair?

945
00:46:42,432 --> 00:46:43,933
No?

946
00:46:43,934 --> 00:46:46,270
[soft music]

947
00:47:06,523 --> 00:47:08,925
- You know, when people tell
me Chris is doing great,

948
00:47:08,926 --> 00:47:10,326
I feel like, "Oh, yeah?

949
00:47:10,327 --> 00:47:12,261
You should see him
asleep at the computer,

950
00:47:12,262 --> 00:47:14,297
you know, at 5 in the afternoon.

951
00:47:14,298 --> 00:47:16,032
Or you should help
him on with his shirt

952
00:47:16,033 --> 00:47:17,166
at 6 in the morning.

953
00:47:17,167 --> 00:47:18,434
You think he's doing so great?

954
00:47:18,435 --> 00:47:19,903
He's not doing that great.

955
00:47:22,573 --> 00:47:25,576
You know, I feel that
there's the tyranny of,

956
00:47:27,110 --> 00:47:29,278
who's the actor who
has Parkinson's?

957
00:47:29,279 --> 00:47:30,947
Michael J. Fox.

958
00:47:30,948 --> 00:47:32,882
Michael J. Fox has put
so much pressure on me

959
00:47:32,883 --> 00:47:35,451
to be happy all the time with
a spouse who has Parkinson's,

960
00:47:35,452 --> 00:47:39,288
and you know, we don't
have the endless supply

961
00:47:39,289 --> 00:47:44,061
of sunshine, money,
pharmaceuticals to keep us all happy.

962
00:47:45,028 --> 00:47:47,463
[indistinct]

963
00:47:47,464 --> 00:47:49,265
- [Ruth] That's back that there.

964
00:47:49,266 --> 00:47:51,034
- [Robert] This?
- [Ruth] Uh-huh.

965
00:47:53,570 --> 00:47:54,538
If that's the-
- [Joe] Got it.

966
00:47:54,539 --> 00:47:57,373
[indistinct]

967
00:47:57,374 --> 00:47:59,542
- [Ruth] It's pretty good.

968
00:47:59,543 --> 00:48:02,880
I try not to imagine, a future.

969
00:48:04,481 --> 00:48:06,382
I used to imagine a future,

970
00:48:06,383 --> 00:48:10,587
but I just kind of think,
let's be where we are today.

971
00:48:13,023 --> 00:48:15,125
I have a feeling it's
gonna get difficult,

972
00:48:16,493 --> 00:48:18,427
but I don't know that.

973
00:48:18,428 --> 00:48:20,296
I just don't know.

974
00:48:20,297 --> 00:48:21,899
I don't know.

975
00:48:31,675 --> 00:48:33,644
- I'm just not here.

976
00:48:41,985 --> 00:48:46,122
You know, I mean, I've been
inhabited by another person,

977
00:48:46,123 --> 00:48:49,625
and I don't know who
that person is, you know?

978
00:48:49,626 --> 00:48:51,962
I mean, I'm still trying
to learn who he is.

979
00:48:53,330 --> 00:48:57,301
This gaped mouth, this
guy I see in the window.

980
00:49:11,615 --> 00:49:13,015
[Dan sobs]

981
00:49:13,016 --> 00:49:15,018
You know, it's not fair.

982
00:49:19,022 --> 00:49:22,491
I mean... [cries]

983
00:49:22,492 --> 00:49:26,029
[gentle music continues]

984
00:50:04,034 --> 00:50:06,435
[indistinct]

985
00:50:06,436 --> 00:50:09,472
- [Ruth] On the minimum
ladder, or an actual ladder

986
00:50:09,473 --> 00:50:11,340
because the problem,

987
00:50:11,341 --> 00:50:13,009
you know, when he's on an
eight-foot ladder, it's great

988
00:50:13,010 --> 00:50:14,143
because there's so
many [indistinct]

989
00:50:14,144 --> 00:50:15,678
- [Robert] [indistinct] Ladder.

990
00:50:15,679 --> 00:50:17,380
[indistinct]

991
00:50:17,381 --> 00:50:19,382
Yeah. Oh, yeah.

992
00:50:19,383 --> 00:50:22,018
- It's awkward. I mean,
physically, it's awkward.

993
00:50:22,019 --> 00:50:24,620
So, the 9th of July
is the loading time.

994
00:50:24,621 --> 00:50:28,090
Robert, we'll talk in a
few minutes about props

995
00:50:28,091 --> 00:50:30,793
and what the designs
Robert's been thinking about.

996
00:50:30,794 --> 00:50:32,395
- [Joe] Yeah.

997
00:50:32,396 --> 00:50:34,030
I think we should decide
first on the floor,

998
00:50:34,031 --> 00:50:36,332
and then decide what
the windows solution is.

999
00:50:36,333 --> 00:50:38,200
- [Robert] Chris, one of the
things that we're talking about

1000
00:50:38,201 --> 00:50:41,504
is hanging the windows
without a wall.

1001
00:50:41,505 --> 00:50:42,805
Oh, are they all painted
black in the back?

1002
00:50:42,806 --> 00:50:44,640
- [Ruth] Mm-hmm.

1003
00:50:44,641 --> 00:50:46,275
They're covered with
canvas and painted black.

1004
00:50:46,276 --> 00:50:47,676
- [Robert] Oh, they're
covered with canvas?

1005
00:50:47,677 --> 00:50:49,311
- [Beverly] Yeah.
- [Robert] Oh.

1006
00:50:49,312 --> 00:50:51,180
- [Beverly] He wants the
corner blocks to show.

1007
00:50:51,181 --> 00:50:52,181
- I'm just wondering if the
whole day's kind of sunk

1008
00:50:52,182 --> 00:50:53,315
into talking about tech.

1009
00:50:53,316 --> 00:50:55,251
- No, we're not. 10 minutes.

1010
00:50:55,252 --> 00:50:56,685
- [Dan] And I told him, I
said, "We gotta rehearse."

1011
00:50:56,686 --> 00:50:59,355
- If the windows
were down here along,

1012
00:50:59,356 --> 00:51:01,123
or on the same
line as the window.

1013
00:51:01,124 --> 00:51:01,792
- [Robert] Yes. Yeah.

1014
00:51:01,793 --> 00:51:05,127
[indistinct]

1015
00:51:05,128 --> 00:51:07,664
- [Woman] Whereas us, we
don't have that same...

1016
00:51:16,673 --> 00:51:19,341
- [Dan] We thought we'd
have like two weeks to run,

1017
00:51:19,342 --> 00:51:22,144
every day, for two weeks.

1018
00:51:22,145 --> 00:51:23,180
That's not happening.

1019
00:51:24,848 --> 00:51:26,715
Because Chris and I,

1020
00:51:26,716 --> 00:51:28,317
you know, we're very rarely
on the same medication.

1021
00:51:28,318 --> 00:51:29,552
So, when I'm feeling
good, he's feeling bad,

1022
00:51:29,553 --> 00:51:30,787
or we're both feeling bad.

1023
00:51:32,489 --> 00:51:35,125
[gentle music]

1024
00:51:42,165 --> 00:51:45,802
I want a bacon burger
and a Coke and a water.

1025
00:51:54,177 --> 00:51:55,245
"Me to play."

1026
00:51:57,514 --> 00:51:58,648
"Old Stauncher."

1027
00:52:00,383 --> 00:52:01,851
"Can there be misery..."

1028
00:52:01,852 --> 00:52:04,286
We ran yesterday,
and that was okay,

1029
00:52:04,287 --> 00:52:05,822
but it was very, very rough.

1030
00:52:07,324 --> 00:52:08,825
And the first 10
pages totally sucked.

1031
00:52:11,728 --> 00:52:14,430
From the beginning, I'm
saying, I need to run the show

1032
00:52:14,431 --> 00:52:16,165
because I have the most lines.

1033
00:52:16,166 --> 00:52:18,534
I need to run the whole thing.

1034
00:52:18,535 --> 00:52:21,604
I can't like, cut loose,
unless I know I know the lines.

1035
00:52:21,605 --> 00:52:23,806
I know the lines,
then I can play.

1036
00:52:23,807 --> 00:52:26,242
But if I don't know the
fucking lines, I can't play.

1037
00:52:26,243 --> 00:52:28,244
- There's a lot of
anxiety about lines.

1038
00:52:28,245 --> 00:52:30,846
Running lines is actually
getting to be a little compulsive.

1039
00:52:30,847 --> 00:52:32,748
[Ruth laughs]

1040
00:52:32,749 --> 00:52:34,583
But again, it's not me that
has to stand up there [laughs]

1041
00:52:34,584 --> 00:52:37,920
and be able to, you know,
play with the words.

1042
00:52:37,921 --> 00:52:39,522
- [Chris' Daughter] He was
offered a job as a gardener.

1043
00:52:39,523 --> 00:52:41,190
[Chris laughs]

1044
00:52:41,191 --> 00:52:42,625
- [Chris' Daughter] What
is so funny about that?

1045
00:52:42,626 --> 00:52:44,360
- [Chris] A job as gardener.

1046
00:52:44,361 --> 00:52:45,494
- Is that what tickles you?

1047
00:52:45,495 --> 00:52:47,296
- [Chris] It must be that.

1048
00:52:47,297 --> 00:52:49,766
[upbeat music]

1049
00:53:19,496 --> 00:53:20,363
- Ah. Ah.

1050
00:53:21,731 --> 00:53:22,898
"Me to play."

1051
00:53:22,899 --> 00:53:24,700
"Me to play."

1052
00:53:24,701 --> 00:53:25,669
"Me to play."

1053
00:53:25,670 --> 00:53:27,536
"Me to play."

1054
00:53:27,537 --> 00:53:28,605
"Me to play."

1055
00:53:29,673 --> 00:53:30,740
"Me to play."

1056
00:53:31,675 --> 00:53:32,742
"Me to play."

1057
00:53:34,878 --> 00:53:37,414
[indistinct]

1058
00:53:41,718 --> 00:53:43,253
- [Ruth] 11:59 A.M.

1059
00:53:44,621 --> 00:53:46,990
Unless he emailed me
from his phone. Wait.

1060
00:53:48,358 --> 00:53:49,825
I don't know. I don't know.

1061
00:53:49,826 --> 00:53:52,629
[suspense music]

1062
00:54:01,738 --> 00:54:03,740
- [Joe] Ah. Christopher?

1063
00:54:05,408 --> 00:54:07,010
Chris. So, what happened?

1064
00:54:09,813 --> 00:54:11,280
- [Chris] What do you mean?

1065
00:54:11,281 --> 00:54:14,283
- Well, we were called at 12.

1066
00:54:14,284 --> 00:54:15,985
- [Chris] I thought it was 1.

1067
00:54:15,986 --> 00:54:17,953
- No. In fact, you were the
one that changed it yesterday.

1068
00:54:17,954 --> 00:54:19,021
Oh, you thought it was 1?

1069
00:54:19,022 --> 00:54:20,789
- [Chris] Yeah.
- Okay.

1070
00:54:20,790 --> 00:54:22,625
- I had 1 written down.

1071
00:54:22,626 --> 00:54:25,327
- Yeah. All right. We
changed it to 12 yesterday.

1072
00:54:25,328 --> 00:54:25,996
- Oh, I'm sorry.

1073
00:54:29,499 --> 00:54:33,703
- Katie, take out the lights
and let's give it a go.

1074
00:54:38,008 --> 00:54:39,375
- Line.
- [Katie] Clov.

1075
00:54:39,376 --> 00:54:41,845
- [Joe] Go to the chair, Chris.

1076
00:54:47,651 --> 00:54:48,818
- Line.
- [Katie] Clov.

1077
00:54:50,320 --> 00:54:51,620
- Clov.

1078
00:54:51,621 --> 00:54:52,755
- Yes?

1079
00:54:52,756 --> 00:54:53,889
- Nature has forgotten us.

1080
00:54:53,890 --> 00:54:55,057
- There's no more nature.

1081
00:54:55,058 --> 00:54:56,492
- No more nature?

1082
00:54:56,493 --> 00:54:57,626
You exaggerate.

1083
00:54:57,627 --> 00:54:58,762
- [Chris] In the vicinity.

1084
00:55:00,630 --> 00:55:01,765
- Time enough.

1085
00:55:13,677 --> 00:55:14,810
Line.

1086
00:55:14,811 --> 00:55:15,944
- [Katie] Give me my pain.

1087
00:55:15,945 --> 00:55:16,945
- Give me my painkillers.

1088
00:55:16,946 --> 00:55:18,648
- [Chris] It's too soon.

1089
00:55:19,783 --> 00:55:21,417
She has no pulse.

1090
00:55:21,418 --> 00:55:23,085
- [Dan] What was she
blathering about?

1091
00:55:23,086 --> 00:55:25,721
- [Chris] She told me to
go away into the desert.

1092
00:55:25,722 --> 00:55:28,757
- [Dan] Damn
busybody. Is that all?

1093
00:55:28,758 --> 00:55:31,428
[gentle music]

1094
00:55:47,544 --> 00:55:48,945
- [Ruth] You lost?

1095
00:55:54,451 --> 00:55:55,884
- Line.

1096
00:55:55,885 --> 00:55:58,654
- [Katie] What are
you insinuating?

1097
00:55:58,655 --> 00:56:01,690
- What are you insinuating,

1098
00:56:01,691 --> 00:56:03,493
that the place is
still inhabited?

1099
00:56:04,994 --> 00:56:06,862
No.

1100
00:56:06,863 --> 00:56:11,066
No, not a soul, except
for himself and the child,

1101
00:56:11,067 --> 00:56:12,702
assuming he existed.

1102
00:56:27,417 --> 00:56:28,884
Line.

1103
00:56:28,885 --> 00:56:31,019
- [Katie] Good. I
inquired about...

1104
00:56:31,020 --> 00:56:31,888
- Good.

1105
00:56:32,822 --> 00:56:34,157
I inquired about Kov.

1106
00:56:36,159 --> 00:56:40,497
I inquired about the situation
at Kov, beyond the gulf.

1107
00:56:44,701 --> 00:56:45,834
Line.

1108
00:56:45,835 --> 00:56:47,035
- [Katie] Bring me under...

1109
00:56:47,036 --> 00:56:49,839
[suspense music]

1110
00:57:07,891 --> 00:57:09,892
- So, I'm the problem.

1111
00:57:09,893 --> 00:57:11,894
[door slams]

1112
00:57:11,895 --> 00:57:13,629
Great.

1113
00:57:13,630 --> 00:57:15,464
- [Ruth] Was it a concentration
thing, do you think,

1114
00:57:15,465 --> 00:57:18,534
or was it a cognitive thing,
or a medication thing?

1115
00:57:18,535 --> 00:57:20,803
Or just, you went up and
then you started thinking?

1116
00:57:20,804 --> 00:57:22,738
- There's just so
much fucking words.

1117
00:57:22,739 --> 00:57:24,540
- Yeah, there are.
You know them.

1118
00:57:24,541 --> 00:57:25,874
You know the mass majority
of, you know them.

1119
00:57:25,875 --> 00:57:27,743
You know that section.

1120
00:57:27,744 --> 00:57:28,812
You just, you went up.

1121
00:57:37,086 --> 00:57:37,954
- Fuck.

1122
00:57:57,507 --> 00:57:59,575
- [Chris] Don't worry, man.

1123
00:57:59,576 --> 00:58:00,909
Not to worry.

1124
00:58:00,910 --> 00:58:03,212
Don't feel bad at all.

1125
00:58:03,213 --> 00:58:05,914
You're a monster. [laughs]

1126
00:58:05,915 --> 00:58:07,716
You've done a great thing.

1127
00:58:07,717 --> 00:58:09,818
It's just the beginning.
Don't feel bad.

1128
00:58:09,819 --> 00:58:11,253
- [Dan] I'm fucking it up.

1129
00:58:11,254 --> 00:58:13,890
- [Chris] You're
not fucking it up.

1130
00:58:15,492 --> 00:58:19,194
It's like you're taking
batting practice, right?

1131
00:58:19,195 --> 00:58:22,732
And they're pitching,
and just keep swinging.

1132
00:58:26,503 --> 00:58:28,838
- I can't seem to
enjoy myself out there.

1133
00:58:38,214 --> 00:58:39,983
We're not doing
this. We're done.

1134
00:58:41,751 --> 00:58:43,887
- Don't fret. Come on.

1135
00:58:45,855 --> 00:58:47,289
He's gonna do it.

1136
00:58:47,290 --> 00:58:49,024
- Sometimes you just
have to be upset.

1137
00:58:49,025 --> 00:58:49,993
- Yeah, I guess so.

1138
00:58:52,795 --> 00:58:54,263
- [Joe] I think what
Beckett's trying to say

1139
00:58:54,264 --> 00:58:56,064
is that we gotta get
to this kinda stuff.

1140
00:58:56,065 --> 00:58:59,067
This is a play about overcoming,
not a play about caving.

1141
00:58:59,068 --> 00:59:01,136
You know, we gotta go
on, you know what I mean?

1142
00:59:01,137 --> 00:59:03,739
We go on. He says it a
million times, we go on.

1143
00:59:03,740 --> 00:59:05,875
That's kind of the interesting,

1144
00:59:07,243 --> 00:59:09,611
you know, aspect
that's really good.

1145
00:59:09,612 --> 00:59:14,082
It allows us to really
[laughs] feel all this shit,

1146
00:59:14,083 --> 00:59:14,951
and then move on.

1147
00:59:15,852 --> 00:59:18,187
[soft music]

1148
00:59:27,931 --> 00:59:28,798
- [Dan] Clov?

1149
00:59:28,799 --> 00:59:30,632
- [Chris] Yes?

1150
00:59:30,633 --> 00:59:31,301
- [Dan] Do you not think
this has gone on long enough?

1151
00:59:31,301 --> 00:59:31,935
- [Chris] Yes.

1152
00:59:33,336 --> 00:59:34,703
What?

1153
00:59:34,704 --> 00:59:36,705
- [Dan] This. This thing.

1154
00:59:36,706 --> 00:59:38,340
- [Chris] I've
always thought so.

1155
00:59:38,341 --> 00:59:39,942
You not?

1156
00:59:39,943 --> 00:59:41,276
- [Dan] Then it's a
day like any other day.

1157
00:59:41,277 --> 00:59:42,879
- [Chris] As long as it lasts.

1158
00:59:49,252 --> 00:59:52,321
- [Dan] Samuel
Beckett in "Endgame"

1159
00:59:52,322 --> 00:59:55,190
is pretty much telling the same,

1160
00:59:55,191 --> 00:59:57,694
"I can't go on, I'll go on."

1161
00:59:59,929 --> 01:00:01,630
But the food's gone.
The rations are gone.

1162
01:00:01,631 --> 01:00:03,365
It all looks, it looks
grim for our boys,

1163
01:00:03,366 --> 01:00:05,267
but there's always tomorrow.

1164
01:00:05,268 --> 01:00:07,804
There's always another
day. So, you never know.

1165
01:00:14,711 --> 01:00:16,878
[indistinct]

1166
01:00:16,879 --> 01:00:18,347
- [Joe] I think the whole trick

1167
01:00:18,348 --> 01:00:19,915
is to get you off
on the right foot

1168
01:00:19,916 --> 01:00:21,750
because I know
what's gonna happen.

1169
01:00:21,751 --> 01:00:23,619
You're gonna get about a
dozen laughs at the beginning,

1170
01:00:23,620 --> 01:00:25,153
and that's gonna set you up.

1171
01:00:25,154 --> 01:00:27,289
'Cause I notice it, it
really affects you guys,

1172
01:00:27,290 --> 01:00:28,957
you know what I mean?
- [Dan] Yeah.

1173
01:00:28,958 --> 01:00:30,792
- It really makes
you feel happier.

1174
01:00:30,793 --> 01:00:31,661
- Feel a little good.
- And you start to enjoy it.

1175
01:00:31,661 --> 01:00:32,629
- Both hams.

1176
01:00:34,297 --> 01:00:36,765
- [Joe] There always tends
to be strange up and downs

1177
01:00:36,766 --> 01:00:39,301
just before audiences come in.

1178
01:00:39,302 --> 01:00:41,303
- [Dan] I don't know what it
is about forgetting the lines.

1179
01:00:41,304 --> 01:00:42,904
I don't know why
I'm so scared of it.

1180
01:00:42,905 --> 01:00:43,972
I guess 'cause I don't
want the audience

1181
01:00:43,973 --> 01:00:45,907
to feel uncomfortable.

1182
01:00:45,908 --> 01:00:47,709
But it's probably more about me.

1183
01:00:47,710 --> 01:00:49,111
It's probably more
about me being afraid

1184
01:00:49,112 --> 01:00:51,781
of being caught
with my pants down.

1185
01:00:53,416 --> 01:00:56,051
- [Chris] My fear was that
I would be a black hole.

1186
01:00:56,052 --> 01:00:59,722
My energy would suck the
play into a nothingness.

1187
01:01:00,390 --> 01:01:03,059
[gentle music]

1188
01:01:14,804 --> 01:01:17,305
- Ruthie was asking me,
she said, "Isn't it fun?"

1189
01:01:17,306 --> 01:01:19,441
And I said, "Well, yeah.

1190
01:01:19,442 --> 01:01:21,143
I said, but you know,

1191
01:01:21,144 --> 01:01:23,679
the guy is talking about
the end of his life."

1192
01:01:23,680 --> 01:01:25,047
I said, "There's
shit I gotta say

1193
01:01:25,048 --> 01:01:27,349
that I have to
mean and be a part,

1194
01:01:27,350 --> 01:01:29,985
that is not fun to touch,"

1195
01:01:29,986 --> 01:01:33,455
especially, you know, with
Parkinson's and all that shit,

1196
01:01:33,456 --> 01:01:36,158
and feeling like I'm
gonna die. [laughs]

1197
01:01:36,159 --> 01:01:38,161
- Half hour. Has
everybody medicated up?

1198
01:01:39,095 --> 01:01:41,029
[kisses]

1199
01:01:41,030 --> 01:01:43,866
Have a good time. I think
that it's gonna just be great.

1200
01:01:45,468 --> 01:01:48,236
- In Endgame, Beckett
says, "There'll come a time

1201
01:01:48,237 --> 01:01:53,242
when you'll say, "I'm
tired. I'll sit down,"

1202
01:01:55,445 --> 01:01:57,779
then you'll go and sit down,

1203
01:01:57,780 --> 01:02:00,315
and then you'll
say, "I'm hungry.

1204
01:02:00,316 --> 01:02:03,753
I'll get up and get something
to eat," but you won't get up.

1205
01:02:05,855 --> 01:02:09,091
And you'll say, "I
shouldn't have sat down,

1206
01:02:09,092 --> 01:02:12,095
but since I have, I'll
sit down a little longer,

1207
01:02:13,463 --> 01:02:15,363
then I'll get up and
get something to eat."

1208
01:02:15,364 --> 01:02:17,500
But you won't get up and
get something to eat.

1209
01:02:19,335 --> 01:02:21,104
You'll look at the wall a while.

1210
01:02:24,040 --> 01:02:26,976
You'll say, "I'll close my eyes,

1211
01:02:28,778 --> 01:02:32,147
perhaps have a little sleep,
then I'll feel better,"

1212
01:02:32,148 --> 01:02:35,150
and you'll close them, and
when you open them again,

1213
01:02:35,151 --> 01:02:37,386
there'll be no wall anymore.

1214
01:02:38,888 --> 01:02:41,057
Infinite emptiness
will be all around you.

1215
01:02:42,992 --> 01:02:46,262
All the resurrected dead of
all the ages wouldn't fill it,

1216
01:02:47,296 --> 01:02:49,197
and there you'll be,

1217
01:02:49,198 --> 01:02:53,002
like a little bit of grit
in the middle of a steppe."

1218
01:02:55,138 --> 01:02:56,005
It's perfect.

1219
01:02:57,373 --> 01:02:59,241
Now, that's the shit
I read, and I go,

1220
01:02:59,242 --> 01:03:01,277
"Yeah, yeah, you got it, man."

1221
01:03:03,212 --> 01:03:04,447
You're talking a language.

1222
01:03:05,515 --> 01:03:08,316
You know, that's what it's like.

1223
01:03:08,317 --> 01:03:09,985
- [House Manager] Just
checking on both of you.

1224
01:03:09,986 --> 01:03:11,820
I figured, yeah,
I'll check on them.

1225
01:03:11,821 --> 01:03:13,155
If it gets too much,
we'll go with [indistinct]

1226
01:03:13,156 --> 01:03:14,190
- [Ruth] Okay. Great.

1227
01:03:15,558 --> 01:03:17,125
- [House Manager]
You guys ready?

1228
01:03:17,126 --> 01:03:18,326
- Ladies and gentlemen,
the house is open!

1229
01:03:18,327 --> 01:03:20,863
[indistinct]

1230
01:03:22,498 --> 01:03:26,902
- [Joe] There's all kinds
of odd invasions of the mind

1231
01:03:26,903 --> 01:03:29,337
just before audiences come in.

1232
01:03:29,338 --> 01:03:31,206
It's so weird how it happens.

1233
01:03:31,207 --> 01:03:33,508
I should've known after
acting for 40 years.

1234
01:03:33,509 --> 01:03:36,244
I used to get very
concerned about it,

1235
01:03:36,245 --> 01:03:37,913
but now I realize,

1236
01:03:37,914 --> 01:03:39,881
that's where the real
communication happens.

1237
01:03:39,882 --> 01:03:43,251
Audiences change
the whole equation.

1238
01:03:43,252 --> 01:03:45,922
[upbeat music]

1239
01:04:01,571 --> 01:04:04,907
[audience applauding]

1240
01:04:13,583 --> 01:04:16,952
[Dan grunts]

1241
01:04:16,953 --> 01:04:18,554
- "Me to play."

1242
01:04:30,299 --> 01:04:31,299
- How do you feel?

1243
01:04:31,300 --> 01:04:33,368
- I don't complain.

1244
01:04:33,369 --> 01:04:35,537
[audience laughing]

1245
01:04:35,538 --> 01:04:36,872
- Do you feel normal?

1246
01:04:36,873 --> 01:04:41,309
- I tell you, I don't complain.

1247
01:04:41,310 --> 01:04:44,279
- I feel a little strange.

1248
01:04:44,280 --> 01:04:45,447
Clov.
- Yes?

1249
01:04:45,448 --> 01:04:46,915
- Have you not had enough?

1250
01:04:46,916 --> 01:04:50,585
- Yes.
[audience laughs]

1251
01:04:50,586 --> 01:04:51,653
Of what?

1252
01:04:51,654 --> 01:04:54,657
[audience laughing]

1253
01:04:59,629 --> 01:05:02,430
- This is not much fun.

1254
01:05:02,431 --> 01:05:05,301
[audience laughs]

1255
01:05:06,402 --> 01:05:08,004
- There's your dog for you.

1256
01:05:09,171 --> 01:05:10,305
- He hit me.

1257
01:05:10,306 --> 01:05:12,274
- You drive me mad. I'm mad!

1258
01:05:12,275 --> 01:05:15,644
- If you must hit me, hit
me with the ax, not the dog.

1259
01:05:15,645 --> 01:05:17,913
[audience laughing]

1260
01:05:17,914 --> 01:05:20,582
With the gaff or with the ax.

1261
01:05:20,583 --> 01:05:22,317
- Nothing is funnier
than unhappiness,

1262
01:05:22,318 --> 01:05:24,519
I grant you that, but...

1263
01:05:24,520 --> 01:05:27,555
- What about having a good
guffaw together, the two of us?

1264
01:05:27,556 --> 01:05:30,292
- Oh, I couldn't
guffaw again today.

1265
01:05:30,293 --> 01:05:32,628
[Joe laughs]

1266
01:05:35,598 --> 01:05:37,400
- Old stauncher.

1267
01:05:42,405 --> 01:05:43,673
You remain.

1268
01:05:57,420 --> 01:06:00,155
[audience applauding]

1269
01:06:00,156 --> 01:06:03,159
[audience cheering]

1270
01:06:33,289 --> 01:06:37,159
[audience continues cheering]

1271
01:06:39,295 --> 01:06:41,096
- [Chris] Thanks for this.

1272
01:06:41,097 --> 01:06:42,098
- Thank you.

1273
01:06:44,233 --> 01:06:45,500
- [Chris] You did
such a great job.

1274
01:06:45,501 --> 01:06:47,635
- Obliged. [laughs]

1275
01:06:47,636 --> 01:06:50,306
[gentle music]

1276
01:06:51,440 --> 01:06:53,341
[smacks lips]

1277
01:06:53,342 --> 01:06:55,678
[indistinct]

1278
01:06:57,747 --> 01:07:00,149
- Beyond my wildest imagination.

1279
01:07:03,019 --> 01:07:06,222
I'm just so moved by
their response. [sobs]

1280
01:07:08,591 --> 01:07:11,660
[indistinct chatter]

1281
01:07:17,666 --> 01:07:19,134
- [Mary Beth] Brilliant.

1282
01:07:19,135 --> 01:07:20,802
- Brilliant. Brilliant.
- Brilliant.

1283
01:07:20,803 --> 01:07:22,604
- I'm sorry for catching
you with your trousers down.

1284
01:07:22,605 --> 01:07:23,472
[Mary Beth laughs]
But that's a very

1285
01:07:23,473 --> 01:07:25,373
Beckett moment.

1286
01:07:25,374 --> 01:07:27,510
It was the clearest I've
ever known the play to be.

1287
01:07:29,512 --> 01:07:31,414
It made complete sense.

1288
01:07:46,695 --> 01:07:51,700
[indistinct]
[gentle music]

1289
01:07:59,708 --> 01:08:01,576
- [Chris] When I
commit to a project,

1290
01:08:01,577 --> 01:08:04,145
one of the things that
I'm sort of curious about

1291
01:08:04,146 --> 01:08:07,316
is who will I meet
in the person of me?

1292
01:08:08,451 --> 01:08:13,189
And I was pretty
proud of [sighs]

1293
01:08:15,357 --> 01:08:16,659
who I found on this one.

1294
01:08:19,528 --> 01:08:21,396
- [Dan] One of the reasons
I wanted to do "Endgame"

1295
01:08:21,397 --> 01:08:23,665
was because I thought
that would be a sweet show

1296
01:08:23,666 --> 01:08:26,334
to end my career on.

1297
01:08:26,335 --> 01:08:31,340
If this is the last play I ever
do, I'll be happy with that.

1298
01:08:35,311 --> 01:08:36,312
I don't think it is.

1299
01:08:37,513 --> 01:08:40,850
[gentle music continues]