1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:12,839 --> 00:00:16,239 Now, I understand that you have to ask me... 4 00:00:16,320 --> 00:00:20,039 ...that you ask me to... 5 00:00:20,120 --> 00:00:22,239 But no! No-no-no-no! 6 00:00:22,320 --> 00:00:25,199 I don't give a shit! 7 00:00:25,679 --> 00:00:27,120 And you wanna know why? 8 00:00:27,199 --> 00:00:31,280 I fucking do, because everybody wants something from me! 9 00:00:31,359 --> 00:00:33,439 They just keep fuckin' begging me! 10 00:00:35,439 --> 00:00:37,960 Why does nobody care about what I want? 11 00:00:41,200 --> 00:00:43,079 Even Zsolti, really... 12 00:00:47,799 --> 00:00:49,159 You know Zsolti? No... 13 00:00:49,840 --> 00:00:51,719 I'm stupid, you don't know him. 14 00:00:51,799 --> 00:00:55,359 But guess what: we've known each other since we were 7 or 8, 15 00:00:55,439 --> 00:00:58,799 since primary school or kindergarten, or whatever, fuck it. 16 00:00:59,840 --> 00:01:03,439 I wasn't a very popular kid in primary school, 17 00:01:04,159 --> 00:01:05,358 They didn't like me. 18 00:01:06,159 --> 00:01:07,599 They didn't like me because, 19 00:01:08,319 --> 00:01:12,480 I went to school with dumb hicks, whose parents worked on the fields. 20 00:01:13,560 --> 00:01:16,519 Come on, I'm not saying that it's wrong, no, no... 21 00:01:16,599 --> 00:01:17,799 Nothing wrong with that. 22 00:01:17,879 --> 00:01:19,959 Don't get me wrong, nothing wrong with that. 23 00:01:20,039 --> 00:01:24,799 But tell me, what is wrong with being raised by a doctor and a lawyer? 24 00:01:24,879 --> 00:01:28,840 We weren't that rich, we were a bit more well-off than the others, 25 00:01:28,920 --> 00:01:35,479 they were like, "You little blue turd, you little pussy, you faggot." You know? 26 00:01:38,519 --> 00:01:40,959 I didn't have any friends, okay. 27 00:01:41,640 --> 00:01:45,280 How should I put it... I wasn't a popular kid, okay. 28 00:01:45,359 --> 00:01:47,200 I don't care - it is what it is. 29 00:01:48,079 --> 00:01:51,319 You know, sometimes, I could at least... 30 00:01:51,920 --> 00:01:54,799 During summer, every morning, I could go to the field. 31 00:01:54,878 --> 00:01:57,920 I just had to walk a few blocks, 32 00:01:58,000 --> 00:02:01,840 then came the church, and boom, there was the football field. 33 00:02:02,840 --> 00:02:04,040 Alright, okay... 34 00:02:05,000 --> 00:02:09,878 Sure, it was jam-packed later, all the kids played football, 35 00:02:09,960 --> 00:02:12,960 then came the teams who played under Coach Endre. 36 00:02:13,879 --> 00:02:16,800 But I could go there before school, 37 00:02:16,879 --> 00:02:19,199 or on the weekend. 38 00:02:19,280 --> 00:02:22,879 So, I went there, playing by myself, until... 39 00:02:22,960 --> 00:02:24,599 ...I was playing there one day, 40 00:02:25,800 --> 00:02:27,680 I was kicking the ball. 41 00:02:29,560 --> 00:02:30,478 And then... 42 00:02:30,879 --> 00:02:33,319 I don't know, it's like when you... 43 00:02:33,400 --> 00:02:37,000 when you kick the ball with pointed toes, or whatever it's called, 44 00:02:37,079 --> 00:02:39,918 when you hit the ball with pointed toes... 45 00:02:40,000 --> 00:02:44,400 and boom - I hit it, and it went really fucking high above the goalpost, 46 00:02:44,478 --> 00:02:48,199 then it bounced, or went over the fence, 47 00:02:48,280 --> 00:02:50,840 and bang, it slammed against the wall. 48 00:02:52,319 --> 00:02:55,879 So, I went there, obviously, I went there... 49 00:02:56,280 --> 00:02:59,520 I picked up the ball, and there was a window, 50 00:02:59,599 --> 00:03:01,360 above my head, there was a window, 51 00:03:02,080 --> 00:03:06,319 and in there, I saw this village lace-thing... 52 00:03:06,400 --> 00:03:08,240 Whatchamacallit... 53 00:03:08,800 --> 00:03:10,840 This... 54 00:03:11,719 --> 00:03:15,080 Not a carpet, it's this disgusting, rural... 55 00:03:15,400 --> 00:03:17,159 ...curtain! Right! 56 00:03:17,240 --> 00:03:18,639 Yes, curtain. 57 00:03:18,719 --> 00:03:20,759 Behind the curtain, there was Zsolti. 58 00:03:22,039 --> 00:03:23,120 We knew each other. 59 00:03:23,199 --> 00:03:26,719 I mean we didn't, but in a village, everybody knows everybody. 60 00:03:27,520 --> 00:03:31,960 We were never on speaking terms, but I knew he was in Class A. 61 00:03:32,680 --> 00:03:34,840 I think he was in A and I was in C. 62 00:03:36,599 --> 00:03:42,319 We never really talked, but whenever we met, we just waved "Hi." 63 00:03:42,400 --> 00:03:43,319 That's it. 64 00:03:44,039 --> 00:03:46,840 But I knew his name, Zsolti, and he knew mine. 65 00:03:47,639 --> 00:03:49,960 So there he was, standing behind the curtain. 66 00:03:50,719 --> 00:03:51,639 And so... 67 00:03:53,199 --> 00:03:57,120 To this day, I don't know why, but I waved him "Hi." 68 00:03:58,719 --> 00:04:00,439 And he waved me back, "Hi." 69 00:04:01,039 --> 00:04:02,360 And that was a good thing. 70 00:04:02,439 --> 00:04:04,680 You know? I wasn't a popular kid, I don't know. 71 00:04:04,759 --> 00:04:07,560 But the fact that somebody just waves back at you... 72 00:04:08,039 --> 00:04:09,240 That's a good thing. 73 00:04:09,560 --> 00:04:13,039 I nodded him, "Don't you want to come out and kick?" 74 00:04:13,120 --> 00:04:14,520 I mean the ball, you know. 75 00:04:14,879 --> 00:04:18,160 And he opened the window, and said that he would climb out the window, 76 00:04:18,240 --> 00:04:23,160 only his parents were in the kitchen and wouldn't be too happy about it. 77 00:04:23,240 --> 00:04:25,879 So... I just don't know... 78 00:04:27,360 --> 00:04:31,560 He had a weird childhood: his father was drinking, 79 00:04:32,000 --> 00:04:35,439 and the only thing he ever did for him was he gave him a pocketknife. 80 00:04:35,519 --> 00:04:37,120 And then his father died. 81 00:04:38,720 --> 00:04:39,639 Anyway... 82 00:04:40,519 --> 00:04:42,480 Parents die. That's it. 83 00:04:45,319 --> 00:04:46,240 Anyway, 84 00:04:47,079 --> 00:04:48,600 we were there, and... 85 00:04:48,680 --> 00:04:51,159 we had a great time, kicking the ball. 86 00:04:51,240 --> 00:04:53,680 It must've been on the weekend, we played until 8:30 87 00:04:53,759 --> 00:04:55,199 and Coach Endre came. 88 00:04:55,279 --> 00:04:59,360 That was before he joined that circus company, and... 89 00:04:59,439 --> 00:05:01,439 ...before they plowed that football field for good. 90 00:05:01,519 --> 00:05:02,759 So Coach Endre came, 91 00:05:02,839 --> 00:05:06,279 "Get the fuck off the field, the training is about to start." 92 00:05:06,360 --> 00:05:10,720 Then Zsolti asked me if I wanted to go somewhere else. 93 00:05:11,439 --> 00:05:14,560 I said, "Sure, let's go to the clearing and play football there." 94 00:05:14,639 --> 00:05:17,160 We began to play football there, 95 00:05:17,240 --> 00:05:21,319 ...and it was pretty good actually. 96 00:05:22,000 --> 00:05:25,800 Zsolti and I we began to kick that ball, but then... 97 00:05:29,199 --> 00:05:31,759 But then, I don't know... 98 00:05:31,839 --> 00:05:33,040 He was like... 99 00:05:33,120 --> 00:05:36,879 Zsolti, he was a really simple kid. He didn't really have anything. 100 00:05:36,959 --> 00:05:37,920 You know? 101 00:05:38,600 --> 00:05:41,279 The only thing he had were his mother's old books, 102 00:05:41,680 --> 00:05:44,319 and that pocket knife he got from his father, but... 103 00:05:45,000 --> 00:05:47,279 What I really want to say is, 104 00:05:47,360 --> 00:05:53,480 that playing football for free was the high point of the summer for him. 105 00:05:53,560 --> 00:05:55,560 I don't think he even had a ball. Anyway! 106 00:05:57,040 --> 00:05:59,360 So, we were playing, and had fun, 107 00:06:00,120 --> 00:06:03,839 all I can say that it was really good. 108 00:06:04,360 --> 00:06:06,199 It was good... 109 00:06:06,279 --> 00:06:08,439 ...until that fucking rabid dog didn't come. 110 00:06:08,519 --> 00:06:12,319 It followed us, and we began to run, because we were scared shitless. 111 00:06:12,920 --> 00:06:17,519 So we ran, and we jumped into a ditch, or a pit or whatever. 112 00:06:17,600 --> 00:06:20,240 We thought it wouldn't follow us there - but it did! 113 00:06:20,560 --> 00:06:22,759 Zsolti and I began to panic, 114 00:06:22,839 --> 00:06:25,000 He grabbed one of the dog's paw, and I grabbed the other and... 115 00:06:25,079 --> 00:06:27,839 we yanked it into the ditch, and the dog rolled down there. 116 00:06:28,399 --> 00:06:32,399 So... the dog never came back, and we just ran. 117 00:06:32,839 --> 00:06:34,839 Because we were really fucking scared. 118 00:06:34,920 --> 00:06:39,959 We didn't really discuss it like, "That was pretty heavy." or something. 119 00:06:41,120 --> 00:06:44,040 So, then I asked Zsolti... 120 00:06:45,159 --> 00:06:46,560 If he wanted to meet again. 121 00:06:46,879 --> 00:06:48,319 And he said, "Okay." 122 00:06:48,839 --> 00:06:51,040 He told me I didn't have to... 123 00:06:51,120 --> 00:06:53,959 ...it was enough to just knock on the window. 124 00:06:54,040 --> 00:06:56,240 I didn't have to slam the ball against the wall. 125 00:06:56,720 --> 00:06:58,319 Obviously. 126 00:06:59,720 --> 00:07:00,720 And then... 127 00:07:01,240 --> 00:07:03,879 We played through the entire summer. 128 00:07:04,800 --> 00:07:06,040 And that was really great. 129 00:07:07,959 --> 00:07:09,560 I finally had a friend, you know? 130 00:07:14,600 --> 00:07:16,680 So, he... Zsolti. 131 00:07:18,279 --> 00:07:21,319 Or... I don't know how should I say this to you. 132 00:07:23,199 --> 00:07:25,920 He isn't bad, you know? No, no, no, no, no... 133 00:07:26,000 --> 00:07:27,439 He isn't bad at all. 134 00:07:27,519 --> 00:07:28,439 He wasn't bad. 135 00:07:29,000 --> 00:07:32,480 This is what I'm saying, he was a really simple kid, I mean... 136 00:07:32,560 --> 00:07:34,839 ...he was... very nice. 137 00:07:34,920 --> 00:07:37,560 Everybody liked him right away, I liked him right away. 138 00:07:37,639 --> 00:07:41,959 He was this lovable kinda guy. You look just as lovable as he did. 139 00:07:42,040 --> 00:07:43,639 A little lovable kid, 140 00:07:43,720 --> 00:07:45,839 I always wanted to pinch his cheeks... 141 00:07:46,560 --> 00:07:47,519 You know? 142 00:07:48,480 --> 00:07:50,959 Everybody liked him. 143 00:07:51,040 --> 00:07:54,279 He wasn't popular but wasn't as unpopular as I was. 144 00:07:54,360 --> 00:07:55,639 That they didn't like me. 145 00:07:55,720 --> 00:07:59,279 The other kids just tolerated him, and they said things like, 146 00:07:59,360 --> 00:08:01,120 "Come Zsolti, and have some of my chips!" 147 00:08:01,199 --> 00:08:03,480 or "Zsolti, come to my birthday." You know? 148 00:08:03,560 --> 00:08:07,399 No one has ever asked me for anything, or offered me anything, 149 00:08:07,480 --> 00:08:08,879 nor did they ever invite me anywhere. 150 00:08:08,959 --> 00:08:10,560 But they invited him, you know? 151 00:08:10,639 --> 00:08:13,519 Because he was such a lovable kid. A kind of a loser. 152 00:08:14,439 --> 00:08:17,199 Even my goddamned parents! 153 00:08:17,279 --> 00:08:21,079 They just loved him! Every time, when he came over, they said, 154 00:08:21,160 --> 00:08:25,439 "Ooh, he is such a cute kid!" "Such a darling little kid." 155 00:08:25,519 --> 00:08:28,279 And he is so kind, and he is so helpful, 156 00:08:28,360 --> 00:08:31,319 And Zsolti this and Zsolti that, and Zsolti, whatever the fuck! 157 00:08:32,200 --> 00:08:35,558 But wait! I'm sure you think now, 158 00:08:35,639 --> 00:08:38,200 you think I was jealous of him, but I wasn't. 159 00:08:38,279 --> 00:08:40,000 I was not. I swear to you, I wasn't. 160 00:08:40,080 --> 00:08:41,240 Though actually, 161 00:08:41,919 --> 00:08:44,039 I'm not saying, that... 162 00:08:44,120 --> 00:08:49,360 I felt good when, upon arriving home from school, my mom first question was, 163 00:08:49,440 --> 00:08:52,840 this was after the summer. So this was during the fall. 164 00:08:53,159 --> 00:08:56,879 She asked me about Zsolti. She didn't care about my test results. 165 00:08:57,240 --> 00:08:59,320 "What's up with Zsolti? How is Zsolti doing?" 166 00:08:59,840 --> 00:09:02,120 You know what I mean? So, I'm not saying, that... 167 00:09:03,240 --> 00:09:07,320 It did bother me. Of course I knew... 168 00:09:07,399 --> 00:09:08,960 I knew that my mother loved me. 169 00:09:10,840 --> 00:09:13,919 But... one time... 170 00:09:14,519 --> 00:09:17,480 Zsolti really wanted this... wait... 171 00:09:17,559 --> 00:09:18,559 Yeah! 172 00:09:18,639 --> 00:09:22,399 We were at my parents and Zsolti just said this to me under his breath... 173 00:09:25,559 --> 00:09:28,879 We were eating lunch or supper at our house, whatever. 174 00:09:29,240 --> 00:09:31,279 So, under his breath, he begins to tell me... 175 00:09:31,600 --> 00:09:34,279 We sat in front of each other, while my mom was working. 176 00:09:35,000 --> 00:09:37,759 He said that he really wants to learn to play the guitar. 177 00:09:37,840 --> 00:09:40,320 Only that he doesn't have a guitar, nor can he afford it. 178 00:09:40,399 --> 00:09:42,519 You know what I mean? Right under his breath. 179 00:09:42,840 --> 00:09:46,879 He was pretty smart, he said it loud enough, so my mom could hear it. 180 00:09:47,759 --> 00:09:49,519 A few day went by... 181 00:09:49,600 --> 00:09:52,279 That fall was really great. We were still playing outside. 182 00:09:52,799 --> 00:09:56,320 If I want to be honest, that was the only thing you could do with him. 183 00:09:56,399 --> 00:09:57,399 Anyway. 184 00:09:57,480 --> 00:09:59,799 One day, my dad comes home with a fucking guitar case. 185 00:09:59,879 --> 00:10:02,799 And he just says to Zsolti, "Here is your guitar case." 186 00:10:04,440 --> 00:10:08,080 I mean... it wasn't just a guitar case, 187 00:10:08,799 --> 00:10:13,039 there was an actual guitar in that fucking guitar case. 188 00:10:14,559 --> 00:10:15,720 So, we open it, 189 00:10:16,480 --> 00:10:19,200 and Zsolti... he almost began to cry. 190 00:10:20,200 --> 00:10:21,600 He even hugged my dad! 191 00:10:23,039 --> 00:10:24,600 And I'm looking at this guitar... 192 00:10:26,480 --> 00:10:27,840 I mean, it wasn't... 193 00:10:27,919 --> 00:10:34,440 It wasn't a brand new guitar, the kind that you see Santana play... 194 00:10:35,519 --> 00:10:38,440 But it was an actual guitar. 195 00:10:38,759 --> 00:10:41,320 Just a few scratches, and it had new strings. 196 00:10:41,399 --> 00:10:44,039 And I just couldn't get my dad to buy me a Sega! 197 00:10:44,120 --> 00:10:46,919 "No! "It's stupid! What for?" 198 00:10:47,000 --> 00:10:48,960 "You'd be wasting your time!" 199 00:10:49,679 --> 00:10:50,600 Well... 200 00:10:51,279 --> 00:10:54,240 So, Zsolti was just like this. Anyway! 201 00:10:54,320 --> 00:10:55,519 That's not the point. 202 00:10:56,159 --> 00:10:58,879 You know what I want to say, that's just wasn't the point. 203 00:10:59,840 --> 00:11:01,399 What I want to say is this: 204 00:11:02,600 --> 00:11:04,399 Zsolti became a part of my life. 205 00:11:05,240 --> 00:11:07,559 Not just for me, but for the whole family. 206 00:11:07,639 --> 00:11:08,559 For all of us. 207 00:11:09,240 --> 00:11:12,320 But later it was alright, because I got into high school. 208 00:11:12,960 --> 00:11:14,759 A high school for gifted students. 209 00:11:15,759 --> 00:11:18,519 While he wanted to go to vocational school. 210 00:11:20,000 --> 00:11:21,440 I said to him, "For fuck sake, 211 00:11:21,519 --> 00:11:24,240 your father went there, and look what happened to him." 212 00:11:24,320 --> 00:11:28,000 "Your mother too. And look what happened to her. Go to a proper high school!" 213 00:11:28,080 --> 00:11:32,600 "You don't have as many points as I do, but go there anyway." 214 00:11:32,679 --> 00:11:35,639 And you know what? He fucking did. He went there! 215 00:11:36,440 --> 00:11:39,679 Alright, it was a crummy place, but still. 216 00:11:39,759 --> 00:11:42,559 He put himself into perspective, because I told him so. 217 00:11:42,639 --> 00:11:45,879 And then... it was okay, 218 00:11:46,600 --> 00:11:51,120 I was allowed to go home, or I went home on some weekends. 219 00:11:53,000 --> 00:11:56,360 We kept seeing each other, and one time, Zsolti tells me, 220 00:11:56,440 --> 00:11:58,600 that he has a hard time with certain subjects. 221 00:11:58,679 --> 00:12:00,519 I said, "This is the number of my private tutor." 222 00:12:00,600 --> 00:12:02,039 He said couldn't afford it. 223 00:12:02,120 --> 00:12:03,399 I said, "Fuck it!" 224 00:12:03,480 --> 00:12:09,080 "I'll go to my private tutor, and I'll make a photocopy of my notes, 225 00:12:09,159 --> 00:12:12,159 I'll send them via mail, and then you can study from something." 226 00:12:12,480 --> 00:12:16,840 So that you could make something out of this. And... 227 00:12:17,159 --> 00:12:19,440 He finished it. He graduated too. 228 00:12:20,000 --> 00:12:23,399 Then came the career guidance. Career guidance and counseling. 229 00:12:23,480 --> 00:12:27,240 I obviously I did what I was good at - economics. 230 00:12:27,759 --> 00:12:29,440 You need to look at things realistically. 231 00:12:29,519 --> 00:12:30,919 Meanwhile, Zsolti... 232 00:12:31,320 --> 00:12:34,399 Where did he go? What did he choose? Guess what? 233 00:12:34,799 --> 00:12:35,799 Hungarian literature! 234 00:12:36,919 --> 00:12:39,720 Because he wants to become writer, a musician. 235 00:12:39,799 --> 00:12:42,039 I said, "For fuck sake, Zsolti, you can't make a living out of this!" 236 00:12:42,120 --> 00:12:43,559 "No, this what I want to do." 237 00:12:43,639 --> 00:12:46,360 "Okay, I'm not your father or your mother." 238 00:12:46,440 --> 00:12:49,399 I mean, sometimes I felt like I was, but whatever, really. 239 00:12:49,480 --> 00:12:52,120 I'm not his father or mother to tell him what to do. 240 00:12:52,759 --> 00:12:56,919 So right, okay... We live in the same city again. 241 00:12:57,000 --> 00:13:00,240 Our majors were different. Zsolti said that we should live together. 242 00:13:00,320 --> 00:13:03,759 I said, "We can't live together, because you can't afford the rent." 243 00:13:03,840 --> 00:13:05,799 So we didn't live together. 244 00:13:05,879 --> 00:13:09,240 Although he came over plenty of times. 245 00:13:09,320 --> 00:13:10,639 He practically lived there. 246 00:13:11,159 --> 00:13:14,799 Actually, he did chip in sometimes. 247 00:13:14,879 --> 00:13:17,360 He bought some food sometimes, 248 00:13:17,919 --> 00:13:21,000 and on occasion, he paid part of the overhead. 249 00:13:22,039 --> 00:13:26,120 But I didn't mind, because I knew that was Zsolti. 250 00:13:26,840 --> 00:13:30,080 He just lived and fucking ate there. But he didn't ask. 251 00:13:30,159 --> 00:13:31,639 Right, he never asked. 252 00:13:33,080 --> 00:13:34,879 Alright, he asked. Fuck it, he did ask! 253 00:13:35,240 --> 00:13:36,639 And he fucking did come over! 254 00:13:36,960 --> 00:13:39,679 And in second grade, Kata became my girlfriend. 255 00:13:41,879 --> 00:13:43,080 Kata too... 256 00:13:45,480 --> 00:13:47,159 Well, you know... 257 00:13:48,080 --> 00:13:49,320 She loves me. 258 00:13:49,399 --> 00:13:53,120 Or she did love me. She still does, she is my wife, after all. 259 00:13:53,200 --> 00:13:57,519 But you can't help but notice when she keeps saying, "How cute Zsolti is." 260 00:13:58,120 --> 00:14:00,799 Zsolti this, and Zsolti that, and let's invite him. 261 00:14:00,879 --> 00:14:04,440 And I said, "For fuck sake, we're celebrating our six-month anniversary." 262 00:14:04,519 --> 00:14:07,200 But she kept saying that we should ask Zsolti over. 263 00:14:08,960 --> 00:14:11,679 They really did get along, they did like each other, but... 264 00:14:12,480 --> 00:14:16,039 I'm not going to say it didn't bother me, because it did. 265 00:14:16,120 --> 00:14:19,000 Especially at the beginning, when you know, you get home, 266 00:14:19,440 --> 00:14:22,320 you come home after a long as fuck day, 267 00:14:22,399 --> 00:14:25,840 and your best friend and your girlfriend are sitting on the sofa, 268 00:14:25,919 --> 00:14:29,159 they are sipping wine, as they're watching a movie. 269 00:14:29,240 --> 00:14:32,960 And the candles are lit, you know to set the mood. 270 00:14:33,039 --> 00:14:36,080 And they say, "It's nothing, 'cause they're watching an art house film." 271 00:14:36,159 --> 00:14:38,519 To which I say, "Why couldn't you wait for me?" 272 00:14:38,600 --> 00:14:43,080 And they said, "Because you don't like these - you like action flicks." 273 00:14:45,799 --> 00:14:47,159 Alright... 274 00:14:47,240 --> 00:14:53,120 I admit that my taste in film is not the same as hers. 275 00:14:54,559 --> 00:14:57,399 And obviously Zsolti's taste is different too. 276 00:14:59,039 --> 00:15:00,080 Whatever. 277 00:15:00,600 --> 00:15:01,519 Whatever! 278 00:15:02,200 --> 00:15:04,360 Whatever, you just get over things like this. 279 00:15:04,919 --> 00:15:08,759 Because you just love your wife. You trust that she loves you too. 280 00:15:08,840 --> 00:15:10,679 You trust her that she trusts in you. 281 00:15:12,000 --> 00:15:15,240 So, Kata and I we both graduated. 282 00:15:15,960 --> 00:15:17,879 And I said to Kata... 283 00:15:18,960 --> 00:15:19,879 ...that... 284 00:15:21,159 --> 00:15:26,639 ...we can't stay here: it's a good city to be a university student, and stuff, 285 00:15:26,720 --> 00:15:30,559 but we need a proper life, a proper job, let's move to Pest. 286 00:15:31,320 --> 00:15:33,440 She was reluctant, 287 00:15:33,960 --> 00:15:39,039 because "Our friends and everyone we know live here." 288 00:15:40,960 --> 00:15:43,000 But I convinced her, and we moved here. 289 00:15:44,440 --> 00:15:45,919 Zsolti stayed there. 290 00:15:51,480 --> 00:15:54,440 If I want to be really honest, I'd say that I didn't mind that. 291 00:15:55,200 --> 00:15:56,320 No. 292 00:15:56,399 --> 00:16:02,279 No, what I wanted for Kata and me is to get ahead without knowing anybody. 293 00:16:02,720 --> 00:16:05,679 Of course, at first we rented a shitty apartment. 294 00:16:06,200 --> 00:16:09,000 She got her first job, and I got my first job, 295 00:16:09,080 --> 00:16:12,919 then she had her first raise, and I had my first raise, 296 00:16:13,000 --> 00:16:17,200 we moved into a bigger apartment, then we got a loan, then bam-bam-bam, get it? 297 00:16:17,279 --> 00:16:21,519 And then, before you know it, you have your own apartment. 298 00:16:22,679 --> 00:16:24,679 I mean, of course, 299 00:16:25,000 --> 00:16:26,679 our parents also helped. 300 00:16:29,240 --> 00:16:30,159 But still... 301 00:16:30,679 --> 00:16:31,600 And then... 302 00:16:33,399 --> 00:16:36,159 One day, Kata tells me that "She is ready." 303 00:16:37,799 --> 00:16:41,519 I just looked at her, I just had no idea what she was talking about. 304 00:16:41,600 --> 00:16:44,840 "What the fuck are you ready for?" 305 00:16:45,679 --> 00:16:50,919 Then suddenly, I understood what she meant, and I said, "Oh, okay." 306 00:16:52,240 --> 00:16:53,879 I proposed to her, of course. 307 00:16:54,919 --> 00:16:56,960 To which she said yes. 308 00:16:58,600 --> 00:17:00,639 Not long after that... 309 00:17:00,720 --> 00:17:04,519 I mean nine months later, Vera was born. 310 00:17:05,480 --> 00:17:07,240 And that... 311 00:17:08,118 --> 00:17:11,358 That was good. It was just the three of us. 312 00:17:15,640 --> 00:17:17,319 And Kata still loved me. 313 00:17:17,799 --> 00:17:20,920 I could see it on her. There was no problem. 314 00:17:21,319 --> 00:17:24,358 Vera kept growing. And we got a bigger apartment. 315 00:17:25,000 --> 00:17:29,920 From a bad car, I got fucking great car, and a managing director position. 316 00:17:30,480 --> 00:17:31,440 You know... 317 00:17:33,559 --> 00:17:37,200 I can't really attribute this whole thing on that, but still, 318 00:17:37,680 --> 00:17:40,039 there is this feeling you know... 319 00:17:42,680 --> 00:17:49,279 ...when you are in a relationship, I say that for simplicity's sake. 320 00:17:49,359 --> 00:17:50,799 But it could be anything. 321 00:17:50,880 --> 00:17:56,160 So there is this voice begins to tingle in the back of your head, 322 00:17:56,480 --> 00:18:00,400 "Just what if, if you... haven't tried everything, 323 00:18:00,480 --> 00:18:03,559 you haven't lived enough, you haven't done this or that." 324 00:18:06,160 --> 00:18:08,920 And you wake up in the morning, and behind you... 325 00:18:09,000 --> 00:18:12,000 "Behind?" Your girl is right beside you. 326 00:18:13,960 --> 00:18:15,599 The mother of your child. 327 00:18:15,680 --> 00:18:19,640 You've been together for so many years, 328 00:18:19,720 --> 00:18:23,440 but your first thought isn't going to be 329 00:18:23,519 --> 00:18:27,680 "How wonderful she is" or "How much I love this woman." No. 330 00:18:27,759 --> 00:18:29,119 You'll ask yourself, 331 00:18:29,720 --> 00:18:34,319 "Am I going to spend the rest of my life with this woman?" 332 00:18:36,319 --> 00:18:38,319 And that is terrible. 333 00:18:39,440 --> 00:18:42,640 It slowly eats you up. You can't think of anything else. 334 00:18:46,640 --> 00:18:50,559 And you just... you keep thinking about this, 335 00:18:51,119 --> 00:18:53,039 and then one day, a new colleague comes. 336 00:18:53,119 --> 00:18:54,119 An assistant. 337 00:18:55,000 --> 00:18:58,680 You know it's... I dunno, he's a bit like... 338 00:19:00,079 --> 00:19:03,480 He's clever - a bit of a climber, but he is a very nice kid. 339 00:19:03,559 --> 00:19:04,519 Yeah, so... 340 00:19:05,359 --> 00:19:09,640 He kinda reminds you of yourself, when you thought... 341 00:19:09,720 --> 00:19:13,160 when you had that fire in you, and when you thought, 342 00:19:13,240 --> 00:19:17,480 that you'd do things that nobody had done before. 343 00:19:19,039 --> 00:19:23,759 You just spend an awful lot of time with this kid. 344 00:19:23,839 --> 00:19:28,240 And he just looks up to you, and he is there for you, and you say: 345 00:19:28,319 --> 00:19:30,640 "This is great. He'll be alright." 346 00:19:30,720 --> 00:19:32,799 I'll guide this kid on the right path. 347 00:19:34,079 --> 00:19:38,240 And one day, this kid asks you, 348 00:19:38,319 --> 00:19:40,359 if you would want to have a beer with him. 349 00:19:41,680 --> 00:19:44,920 Sure, you go to the pub. It's you who pays - 350 00:19:45,000 --> 00:19:49,480 it's still early for him... You know, entry level salaries. 351 00:19:49,799 --> 00:19:54,559 We have one round, then another, and your girl is already calling you, 352 00:19:54,640 --> 00:19:57,720 "Where are you? Are you okay?" And you say, "Relax, Kata, relax, 353 00:19:57,799 --> 00:20:00,880 I'll be home soon, I'm just having a beer with this guy." 354 00:20:00,960 --> 00:20:02,279 And then she calms down. 355 00:20:02,960 --> 00:20:06,200 Because you're drinking with a guy, she doesn't get jealous. 356 00:20:06,279 --> 00:20:09,440 Now, you are drinking the third, then the fourth beer, 357 00:20:09,519 --> 00:20:13,720 and you're are feeling this tingle in your brain. 358 00:20:14,039 --> 00:20:18,240 The felling of "I haven't drunk this much in a long time." 359 00:20:20,519 --> 00:20:23,079 I've never been a big drinker, mind you. 360 00:20:23,160 --> 00:20:25,640 But now, as I got old... 361 00:20:25,720 --> 00:20:29,160 I say quote-unquote old, as I'm not that old, but... 362 00:20:29,240 --> 00:20:31,359 ...you get pickled. And then... 363 00:20:32,079 --> 00:20:38,119 And there is this kid, and he keeps looking at me. 364 00:20:41,279 --> 00:20:44,240 But- no-no-no! It's nothing... No! 365 00:20:44,319 --> 00:20:47,279 I know what this looks like, but I swear you it wasn't. 366 00:20:47,359 --> 00:20:49,519 No, but you just feel... 367 00:20:51,400 --> 00:20:52,480 You know... 368 00:20:53,599 --> 00:20:55,279 Right, and then... 369 00:21:02,400 --> 00:21:03,319 And then... 370 00:21:04,759 --> 00:21:08,920 And then you just casually ask him, 371 00:21:09,599 --> 00:21:10,920 and you smile... 372 00:21:12,480 --> 00:21:14,039 "Got a girlfriend? Anything?" 373 00:21:14,960 --> 00:21:18,079 And he says no, he doesn't have a girlfriend, 374 00:21:18,480 --> 00:21:23,039 He is... He can't really think about a relationship. 375 00:21:23,119 --> 00:21:25,640 And you just smile. 376 00:21:25,720 --> 00:21:29,039 He looks at me and says, "You must've been there too." 377 00:21:29,119 --> 00:21:32,200 I say, "Are you kidding? I only had one girlfriend." 378 00:21:32,279 --> 00:21:33,359 "My wife." 379 00:21:33,440 --> 00:21:36,000 "She called me before. She's waiting for me at home." 380 00:21:36,079 --> 00:21:40,200 "I've never been the adventurous type." To this, he says, 381 00:21:40,279 --> 00:21:45,400 "This doesn't mean that he is, but he is open to new things." 382 00:21:47,400 --> 00:21:50,200 Now, at this point... 383 00:21:50,759 --> 00:21:55,359 You're asking yourself, is he implying something, or what? 384 00:21:56,960 --> 00:21:59,960 So, I told him, "Okay, it's time to leave." 385 00:22:00,920 --> 00:22:03,319 But I left my car at the office. 386 00:22:03,400 --> 00:22:07,400 This pub was next to the office. 387 00:22:07,480 --> 00:22:10,599 The weather was really shitty, it was cold as fuck. 388 00:22:10,680 --> 00:22:13,319 You don't want to let the kid to commute. 389 00:22:13,400 --> 00:22:15,079 Especially in this current situation. 390 00:22:15,160 --> 00:22:18,119 So - Taxi. I tell him, 391 00:22:18,200 --> 00:22:20,200 "Sit at the front, because, you'll get out first." 392 00:22:20,279 --> 00:22:23,359 He said no, he will sit next to me. So we sat there at the back. 393 00:22:24,039 --> 00:22:26,039 I sure you know how these downtown cab drivers are. 394 00:22:26,440 --> 00:22:28,480 They just don't give a shit about their customers. 395 00:22:28,559 --> 00:22:31,359 They just drive with their headset on. 396 00:22:32,839 --> 00:22:35,559 We just sit next to each other, you know? And then... 397 00:22:36,039 --> 00:22:37,559 There was quite a lot of room... 398 00:22:38,279 --> 00:22:41,920 But the kid seemed to move closer to me. 399 00:22:46,920 --> 00:22:51,000 I mean, he sat closer he was supposed to. 400 00:22:51,079 --> 00:22:52,680 He kept inching closer... 401 00:22:52,759 --> 00:22:56,359 Then, the cabdriver turns the wheel, at a sharper turn. 402 00:22:56,440 --> 00:23:00,119 Now, the kid gets pressed against me, and his hand falls into my lap, 403 00:23:00,200 --> 00:23:01,920 right between my legs. 404 00:23:02,759 --> 00:23:04,480 And he begins to feel around. 405 00:23:06,279 --> 00:23:07,319 And it... 406 00:23:08,640 --> 00:23:09,799 I didn't mind it. 407 00:23:10,160 --> 00:23:15,160 I didn't mind it, although I knew I should, so I firmly put his hand away. 408 00:23:15,759 --> 00:23:18,039 And then... I was like... 409 00:23:18,480 --> 00:23:23,000 I was hoping that I made it clear that I was not interested. 410 00:23:23,079 --> 00:23:24,000 But he... 411 00:23:24,400 --> 00:23:25,359 He just smiled. 412 00:23:26,759 --> 00:23:27,759 That's it. 413 00:23:28,200 --> 00:23:31,759 You know? He had this knowing smile. 414 00:23:32,359 --> 00:23:35,039 He said, "Thank you". 415 00:23:35,559 --> 00:23:39,039 He thanked me for the ride, and got out, and I went home. 416 00:23:39,559 --> 00:23:41,720 Of course, Kata immediately began to argue with me, 417 00:23:41,799 --> 00:23:45,440 Why was I out for so long? And why do I smell of booze? 418 00:23:46,000 --> 00:23:47,319 Vera wasn't home, of course. 419 00:23:47,680 --> 00:23:49,680 She was sleeping over at one of her friends. 420 00:23:51,000 --> 00:23:54,000 I just took Kata by her hand, and led her into the bedroom. 421 00:23:54,079 --> 00:23:56,160 I went to the office on the next day. 422 00:23:57,400 --> 00:23:59,720 I was waiting for the kid to... 423 00:24:03,039 --> 00:24:04,039 Kid... 424 00:24:05,880 --> 00:24:06,799 Gergő. 425 00:24:07,559 --> 00:24:09,079 Let's say it: Gergő. 426 00:24:10,319 --> 00:24:11,240 So... 427 00:24:11,599 --> 00:24:13,720 I waited for Gergő to say something. 428 00:24:14,519 --> 00:24:15,839 But no-no-no... 429 00:24:15,920 --> 00:24:18,960 No. Like this thing yesterday night, didn't even happen. 430 00:24:19,039 --> 00:24:21,759 And this thing begins to nag you. 431 00:24:22,680 --> 00:24:26,039 What is going on? Did I hallucinate this whole thing, or what? 432 00:24:26,119 --> 00:24:27,119 And so... 433 00:24:27,200 --> 00:24:30,799 A day goes by, then another, and another, and another, and you... 434 00:24:32,319 --> 00:24:34,599 I got suspicious: "What is going on?" 435 00:24:34,680 --> 00:24:36,079 "Is he just messing with me?" 436 00:24:36,720 --> 00:24:38,839 "He won't even come to me?" 437 00:24:38,920 --> 00:24:42,640 He goes for lunch without me, while we always went out for lunch together? 438 00:24:43,319 --> 00:24:45,400 I gotta tell you honestly: it did bother me. 439 00:24:46,039 --> 00:24:47,400 But not because of that! 440 00:24:47,480 --> 00:24:49,839 No! No! It's not about that. 441 00:24:50,799 --> 00:24:54,079 It's not because... because of that... 442 00:24:55,079 --> 00:24:59,440 It's one thing that you think about your wife, but also, "What is going on?" 443 00:24:59,960 --> 00:25:02,319 So now I'm into this kid? 444 00:25:04,680 --> 00:25:06,240 Okay, I said it! 445 00:25:09,440 --> 00:25:10,359 And then... 446 00:25:11,119 --> 00:25:12,440 You go home, 447 00:25:12,519 --> 00:25:18,799 and you want nobody to bother you, while you have a beer in front of the TV, 448 00:25:19,319 --> 00:25:20,880 and then Kata sits down. 449 00:25:21,400 --> 00:25:23,319 She sits down in front of you, 450 00:25:23,680 --> 00:25:24,599 she is smiling... 451 00:25:25,279 --> 00:25:28,559 With tears in her eyes, she tells you that she is pregnant. 452 00:25:31,640 --> 00:25:33,319 She got pregnant on that night. 453 00:25:36,160 --> 00:25:38,519 You just can't say anything. 454 00:25:39,119 --> 00:25:40,079 You just stand... 455 00:25:40,640 --> 00:25:43,039 sit there, time stands still. 456 00:25:43,720 --> 00:25:46,319 You know you have to say something, 457 00:25:46,920 --> 00:25:50,799 you try to imitate her emotional reactions 458 00:25:51,160 --> 00:25:53,640 sort of copy what you see on your wife's face. 459 00:25:53,960 --> 00:25:55,799 But it's... 460 00:25:57,559 --> 00:26:02,759 It's hard for you to be happy, though you are not sad either. 461 00:26:03,200 --> 00:26:07,640 You try to act happy, and smile, 462 00:26:08,039 --> 00:26:11,279 you also try to force some tears to come out... 463 00:26:13,039 --> 00:26:16,200 Why the fuck do we need another kid? 464 00:26:17,440 --> 00:26:19,839 You know? Even one kid costs a shitload of money. 465 00:26:20,839 --> 00:26:24,559 And Kata isn't young either. 466 00:26:24,640 --> 00:26:29,839 She is in that age when this is very dangerous, especially now, 467 00:26:29,920 --> 00:26:31,920 with all this going on, you know. 468 00:26:32,000 --> 00:26:35,160 But at the same time, you also think, 469 00:26:35,480 --> 00:26:38,119 just what if - if it's a boy? 470 00:26:41,599 --> 00:26:42,599 Yeah... 471 00:26:43,279 --> 00:26:47,799 Right, sure, I love Vera, really. I'd walk through fire for her. 472 00:26:48,359 --> 00:26:50,119 But you can't play football with her. 473 00:26:50,599 --> 00:26:52,400 That's it. She is just not interested. 474 00:26:53,200 --> 00:26:55,079 And then... 475 00:26:55,599 --> 00:26:57,640 When it's total chaos... 476 00:26:57,720 --> 00:27:01,880 It's total chaos, and you may think that you have enough on your plate. 477 00:27:02,480 --> 00:27:06,359 But no, no! A week passes, and you hear a knock on the door, 478 00:27:06,880 --> 00:27:08,559 Guess who is standing at the door? 479 00:27:09,720 --> 00:27:10,759 It's Zsolti! 480 00:27:10,839 --> 00:27:13,759 He is just fucking standing there, smiling. 481 00:27:13,839 --> 00:27:16,960 We haven't seen each other for more than ten years, 482 00:27:17,039 --> 00:27:20,319 we rarely speak on the phone, except on birthdays, or on at Christmas. 483 00:27:20,400 --> 00:27:23,480 We hardly ever talk, but there he is now, 484 00:27:23,559 --> 00:27:26,240 he smiles, and jumps into my neck, 485 00:27:26,319 --> 00:27:30,400 "Man, am I glad to see you!!" And I say, "Sure, me too." 486 00:27:30,480 --> 00:27:32,599 It's good to see him again, but... 487 00:27:33,440 --> 00:27:35,200 ...I was really glad for him... 488 00:27:37,240 --> 00:27:38,359 Really, but... 489 00:27:38,440 --> 00:27:41,920 ...then you notice that there is a sports bag by his feet. 490 00:27:43,759 --> 00:27:45,440 You know? 491 00:27:45,519 --> 00:27:47,359 He didn't just came, like 492 00:27:47,440 --> 00:27:49,799 "Hey, I thought I'd drop by for a surprise visit." 493 00:27:49,880 --> 00:27:52,359 No, he came with a fucking sports bag! 494 00:27:53,880 --> 00:27:57,240 You let him in, and sure enough, he and Kata are glad to see each other. 495 00:27:57,319 --> 00:27:59,359 Ooooh, they are really happy! 496 00:27:59,440 --> 00:28:01,440 Such happiness! 497 00:28:01,519 --> 00:28:06,039 And it hits you, "Just what are they so happy about?" 498 00:28:08,000 --> 00:28:08,920 Alright. 499 00:28:09,240 --> 00:28:11,200 Okay, I don't want to drag this any longer. 500 00:28:13,039 --> 00:28:15,519 Thirty minutes in, Zsolti tells us, 501 00:28:15,599 --> 00:28:18,400 that he was fired both from his job and his apartment. 502 00:28:19,440 --> 00:28:22,440 Because in the last five years, he devoted his life... 503 00:28:22,799 --> 00:28:24,599 He fucking did say that! 504 00:28:25,079 --> 00:28:28,519 In the last five years, he devoted his life... 505 00:28:29,160 --> 00:28:34,400 "...to write the greatest Hungarian family saga." 506 00:28:37,920 --> 00:28:39,839 "And that it will be everything." 507 00:28:40,480 --> 00:28:44,480 "It would be for everyone! And it would be a bestseller!" 508 00:28:44,839 --> 00:28:46,559 And that he would become rich! 509 00:28:46,640 --> 00:28:50,200 But nobody believed him: neither his boss, nor his landlord! 510 00:28:50,279 --> 00:28:53,279 So they threw his ass out! That's right! They threw his ass out! 511 00:28:54,119 --> 00:28:55,920 So, he has no place to live. 512 00:28:56,000 --> 00:28:58,440 And this... little man... 513 00:28:58,519 --> 00:29:04,880 He loaded up his shitty car from his last 5,000 forints, 514 00:29:04,960 --> 00:29:06,519 and he drove up to Pest. 515 00:29:06,599 --> 00:29:08,599 He came to me, 'cause he thought, 516 00:29:08,680 --> 00:29:12,319 that I'd give him a place to stay until he finishes his book. 517 00:29:12,400 --> 00:29:13,319 Yeah... 518 00:29:13,960 --> 00:29:14,960 Because... 519 00:29:15,359 --> 00:29:17,799 I don't know how he said it... 520 00:29:18,240 --> 00:29:19,160 Because... 521 00:29:19,680 --> 00:29:24,680 Because the ending of his book "still feels very false." 522 00:29:24,759 --> 00:29:28,039 That's what he said, and immediately, Kata goes like, "It's wonderful!" 523 00:29:28,119 --> 00:29:30,920 "It's great - Oh, right we have a free guestroom." 524 00:29:31,000 --> 00:29:33,640 Yes! Yes, we have a free guestroom, 525 00:29:33,720 --> 00:29:36,000 Yes, we have a free guestroom, but it's not for you, 526 00:29:36,079 --> 00:29:38,039 it's for the parents, not for Zsolti! 527 00:29:38,119 --> 00:29:41,200 That's the whole point! It's not for Zsolti! 528 00:29:41,839 --> 00:29:45,119 But you try to make a face like when you heard the baby news. 529 00:29:45,200 --> 00:29:49,440 You try to smile, try to act like you're interested in this, 530 00:29:49,519 --> 00:29:50,519 but you're unhappy! 531 00:29:50,599 --> 00:29:54,839 I wouldn't wish that on anyone, to have Zsolti for a week! 532 00:29:55,200 --> 00:29:58,759 But okay, I give in, I give in for Kata. 533 00:29:58,839 --> 00:29:59,839 If Kata asks for it... 534 00:30:00,799 --> 00:30:03,720 Okay, and they are both artist types, 535 00:30:03,799 --> 00:30:08,480 and Kata can hardly wait to read the first draft of the book. 536 00:30:09,400 --> 00:30:13,759 And anyway... I thought that... 537 00:30:14,119 --> 00:30:16,720 That this could turn out real good. 538 00:30:16,799 --> 00:30:18,920 You know? That night, 539 00:30:19,000 --> 00:30:23,400 Zsolti asks me what if we go to grab a few beers and play some pool? 540 00:30:23,480 --> 00:30:24,599 "Oooohh" I say. 541 00:30:25,200 --> 00:30:26,559 And that's when I say, 542 00:30:26,640 --> 00:30:29,880 "This doesn't sound bad. Let's give it a try." 543 00:30:29,960 --> 00:30:32,920 "Great! Let's go!" And we're off to get some beer. 544 00:30:33,000 --> 00:30:35,000 I pay, obviously. 545 00:30:36,279 --> 00:30:39,839 But we had a fucking great conversation. A fucking great conversation. 546 00:30:40,880 --> 00:30:42,880 I ask him, "What've you been up to?" 547 00:30:42,960 --> 00:30:44,880 "Since the last time I saw you, Zsolti?" 548 00:30:44,960 --> 00:30:47,440 He said he had a few relationships, 549 00:30:48,400 --> 00:30:52,640 but after several rounds of beer, he blurted out, 550 00:30:52,720 --> 00:30:54,720 "If I have to be honest, 551 00:30:54,799 --> 00:31:00,200 looking back, on this long period of my life, 552 00:31:01,039 --> 00:31:04,119 the reason I've had so many relationships, 553 00:31:04,200 --> 00:31:06,319 is that I always loved Kata." 554 00:31:07,160 --> 00:31:08,079 You know? 555 00:31:08,880 --> 00:31:09,799 That's when... 556 00:31:10,839 --> 00:31:14,880 You don't just freak out on this, but instead, you say, 557 00:31:15,480 --> 00:31:16,480 "Aha!" 558 00:31:16,559 --> 00:31:19,559 "Gotcha! I knew it! I fuckin' knew it!" 559 00:31:19,640 --> 00:31:23,799 "I knew! For twenty years! Because it was obvious!" 560 00:31:23,880 --> 00:31:28,799 He says he never wanted to stand between the two of us, 561 00:31:28,880 --> 00:31:33,519 "Because Kata looks at you as if you were this I don't know what." 562 00:31:33,599 --> 00:31:38,359 And you know it feels good, it's very safe and comforting, 563 00:31:38,720 --> 00:31:41,400 that your wife stands by you, but... 564 00:31:45,720 --> 00:31:47,119 I say to him, "Alright." 565 00:31:47,200 --> 00:31:50,359 "I have to take a leak." I go to the men's room for a piss. 566 00:31:50,720 --> 00:31:52,559 As I'm pissing, my phone is ringing. 567 00:31:53,319 --> 00:31:55,759 I answer it and it's Gergő. 568 00:31:58,279 --> 00:31:59,200 That... 569 00:32:00,039 --> 00:32:05,480 That he is still in the office, he has to work for a few more hours, 570 00:32:06,000 --> 00:32:08,480 he is looking through some contracts, but then... 571 00:32:08,559 --> 00:32:10,480 ...he is going home, and what if I go over? 572 00:32:11,680 --> 00:32:13,359 His flat is empty, 573 00:32:13,880 --> 00:32:16,039 his flatmate has gone for two days. 574 00:32:16,440 --> 00:32:17,359 And... 575 00:32:18,359 --> 00:32:20,480 How about spending the night there? 576 00:32:21,440 --> 00:32:22,359 No. 577 00:32:22,720 --> 00:32:26,880 He said, he'd be happy if I spent the night with him. 578 00:32:30,640 --> 00:32:32,720 You're just standing there, you know... 579 00:32:33,680 --> 00:32:35,839 And you want to say no. 580 00:32:36,519 --> 00:32:37,759 No. No. 581 00:32:37,839 --> 00:32:39,559 No- yes. Yes. 582 00:32:40,720 --> 00:32:43,559 But yes. You say, yes, I'll go. 583 00:32:44,160 --> 00:32:45,359 I must go there. 584 00:32:45,440 --> 00:32:46,960 But Zsolti is still here. 585 00:32:47,039 --> 00:32:50,200 I tell Gergő I need an hour until I get there. 586 00:32:51,440 --> 00:32:54,319 I knew his address because of our cab ride the last time. 587 00:32:56,039 --> 00:33:01,400 I come... I go out, I try to keep on playing pool with Zsolti, 588 00:33:02,880 --> 00:33:07,440 to listen to his bullshit about his book, but I just can't. 589 00:33:07,519 --> 00:33:10,119 I can't concentrate on him, or even the game. 590 00:33:10,759 --> 00:33:13,519 So I tell him, that I need to go to the office. 591 00:33:13,839 --> 00:33:17,480 Of course he is doubtful, 592 00:33:17,880 --> 00:33:21,519 then he eats it up, and asks me if I want him to join me. 593 00:33:21,599 --> 00:33:23,799 I say, no, you don't have to, 594 00:33:23,880 --> 00:33:28,319 "Go home, and tell Kata everything is fine." I order two cabs. 595 00:33:28,400 --> 00:33:30,559 "Sure, Zsolti! Just go home!" 596 00:33:31,039 --> 00:33:34,400 And I sit into the other cab, and the driver asks me "Where to?" 597 00:33:38,640 --> 00:33:41,039 That's when it goes through your mind, 598 00:33:42,599 --> 00:33:45,599 that you shouldn't go there. It's better if you go home. 599 00:33:46,279 --> 00:33:50,279 You should just hug your wife and everything will be alright. 600 00:33:50,359 --> 00:33:51,279 But... 601 00:33:51,720 --> 00:33:52,920 ...I say the address. 602 00:33:54,359 --> 00:33:59,160 We arrive, we get there, first floor. It's a big-ass condominium. 603 00:33:59,240 --> 00:34:00,720 Gergő lives on the first floor. 604 00:34:01,880 --> 00:34:03,240 He's standing on the terrace. 605 00:34:04,519 --> 00:34:08,920 He gives me the code for the flat, and tells me it's open. 606 00:34:10,000 --> 00:34:11,360 I enter, and it's... 607 00:34:12,119 --> 00:34:16,639 It's decorated really tastefully. It's like as if I had decorated it. 608 00:34:17,840 --> 00:34:24,280 I see the laptop, it's being open on the table, it's a coffeetable. 609 00:34:24,360 --> 00:34:27,559 I see the contracts on it, and he says, 610 00:34:27,639 --> 00:34:32,480 "We could go through the contracts now, so we'll have less work tomorrow." 611 00:34:32,880 --> 00:34:34,719 And he's smiling, you know? 612 00:34:34,800 --> 00:34:37,239 He sits down, we look at the contracts, 613 00:34:37,719 --> 00:34:38,800 and he asks me... 614 00:34:40,280 --> 00:34:44,000 ...if he could bring me a glass of water, because... 615 00:34:44,079 --> 00:34:48,639 it's like I'm all red and sweating. I say sure. 616 00:34:49,000 --> 00:34:50,239 He goes out for the water, 617 00:34:51,280 --> 00:34:56,039 and this... I swear, this was the longest 30 seconds of my life. 618 00:34:56,960 --> 00:35:00,960 Because I knew that while he is in the kitchen, I have to decide. 619 00:35:01,039 --> 00:35:02,880 I have to make a decision: 620 00:35:03,360 --> 00:35:06,280 do I thank him for the water, and I drink it, 621 00:35:06,360 --> 00:35:12,320 then I find a stupid excuse, leave, and it'll be alright, or I stay, 622 00:35:13,880 --> 00:35:15,719 and we'll see what happens. 623 00:35:17,559 --> 00:35:18,840 And I decided. 624 00:35:21,440 --> 00:35:22,400 He put down the water, 625 00:35:26,679 --> 00:35:28,039 And really, right there... 626 00:35:30,440 --> 00:35:34,320 It must have been really stupid, when... 627 00:35:34,400 --> 00:35:37,519 I'm explaining myself to my assistant completely naked. 628 00:35:38,159 --> 00:35:42,679 "I'm not gay, I'm not a faggot." He said, "I'm not either, so relax." 629 00:35:43,239 --> 00:35:46,280 "It's just two colleagues experimenting on each other." 630 00:35:48,239 --> 00:35:49,800 That's how he said it. 631 00:35:51,280 --> 00:35:54,800 "Two colleagues experimenting" while my dick is in his hand. 632 00:35:58,679 --> 00:36:01,000 I could say, sure... 633 00:36:01,400 --> 00:36:02,880 My mind will clear out, and... 634 00:36:03,719 --> 00:36:07,320 ...and that I, this is what I thought, and... 635 00:36:07,400 --> 00:36:09,760 ...that I knew that I don't want this when I went there, 636 00:36:09,840 --> 00:36:11,880 but I went there, because I want him, 637 00:36:11,960 --> 00:36:15,320 but this isn't what I want, and I'll see clearly, you know, 638 00:36:15,400 --> 00:36:17,280 and it is Kata whom I want, 639 00:36:17,800 --> 00:36:22,039 because, if it's not Kata, then it's not Kata whom I want, but no... 640 00:36:22,119 --> 00:36:26,719 I was still full of doubts, I didn't have a clue about anything. 641 00:36:27,400 --> 00:36:31,000 I didn't know. I was sitting in the car, and I kept thinking 642 00:36:31,360 --> 00:36:34,079 that this thing will never be this simple. 643 00:36:34,800 --> 00:36:37,840 The next day I go to the office, 644 00:36:38,239 --> 00:36:41,039 expecting that Gergő will say something, and sure enough, 645 00:36:41,119 --> 00:36:44,519 he acts like as if nothing had happened, just like the last time. 646 00:36:44,880 --> 00:36:49,280 And I thought, "It's good that we don't spend too much time on this." 647 00:36:49,360 --> 00:36:52,519 So then I just go home, dead tired, 648 00:36:53,960 --> 00:36:58,440 I'm usually very tired by then. Kata and Vera went shopping. 649 00:36:58,960 --> 00:37:02,679 They went to look for baby clothes, though we don't know the kid's gender. 650 00:37:02,760 --> 00:37:04,199 I hope it's a boy. 651 00:37:05,480 --> 00:37:07,719 And I find Zsolti sitting in the living room, 652 00:37:08,880 --> 00:37:10,599 he is sitting there, typing. 653 00:37:11,320 --> 00:37:14,800 He says he wants to tell me something. I say "Go ahead." 654 00:37:16,159 --> 00:37:21,079 He begins to talk about his book. Like if I give a fuck about his book! 655 00:37:21,159 --> 00:37:24,719 It's a stupid, nonsensical family drama, 656 00:37:24,800 --> 00:37:28,199 where a family is falling apart, the mom and the dad are drifting away, 657 00:37:28,280 --> 00:37:31,519 the kids are turning against each other and against the family, and all that. 658 00:37:31,599 --> 00:37:34,199 But he found a central conflict! 659 00:37:34,599 --> 00:37:36,840 And a detail! An element! 660 00:37:38,000 --> 00:37:39,760 And he begins to smile. 661 00:37:41,920 --> 00:37:42,840 And you know, 662 00:37:44,280 --> 00:37:46,119 it's the kind of smile that... 663 00:37:46,880 --> 00:37:50,920 the same kind when he told me that he is in love with Kata, 664 00:37:52,280 --> 00:37:55,679 and this smile makes you feel... 665 00:37:56,679 --> 00:37:57,840 "Aha..." 666 00:37:58,519 --> 00:37:59,840 "Aha..." 667 00:37:59,920 --> 00:38:02,079 "This is the real Zsolti." 668 00:38:02,960 --> 00:38:04,920 "This smile..." 669 00:38:05,320 --> 00:38:07,199 "This is the real Zsolti." 670 00:38:07,519 --> 00:38:11,079 "The one who fucking told me that he loves Kata, this cocksucker, 671 00:38:11,159 --> 00:38:13,599 this little motherfucking moocher! 672 00:38:13,679 --> 00:38:15,079 This is the Zsolti I know!" 673 00:38:15,760 --> 00:38:17,920 And then he turns his laptop. 674 00:38:21,039 --> 00:38:21,960 Images, 675 00:38:22,280 --> 00:38:23,960 video, the whole thing. 676 00:38:24,039 --> 00:38:26,320 About last night. That night... 677 00:38:27,199 --> 00:38:29,559 ...with Gergő. Shit... 678 00:38:30,519 --> 00:38:36,679 This cocksucking Zsolti followed me and he recorded the whole thing, 679 00:38:36,760 --> 00:38:39,519 I'm not lying to you, he recorded the whole thing. 680 00:38:39,599 --> 00:38:42,119 Everything! Images, videos, with my face! 681 00:38:42,199 --> 00:38:44,599 My face is clearly recognizable! 682 00:38:45,400 --> 00:38:46,800 So, I'm asking him, 683 00:38:47,719 --> 00:38:49,159 "What the fuck do you want?" 684 00:38:49,880 --> 00:38:51,880 To which he tells me... 685 00:38:51,960 --> 00:38:55,599 Shit, he has the nerve to tell me, 686 00:38:55,679 --> 00:39:00,840 "I want what I've always worked for, 687 00:39:00,920 --> 00:39:02,760 that you've taken for granted, 688 00:39:02,840 --> 00:39:04,920 that you kept taking from me through my whole life, 689 00:39:05,000 --> 00:39:09,159 that you've just taken for granted!" and he just points around himself. 690 00:39:09,239 --> 00:39:13,280 "Your apartment, Kata, Vera, and the baby!" 691 00:39:13,360 --> 00:39:16,960 And I say to him "Go fuck yourself!" 692 00:39:19,639 --> 00:39:21,239 No! What... 693 00:39:22,960 --> 00:39:24,199 I won't let him! 694 00:39:24,559 --> 00:39:27,480 I won't let him to take my life from me! 695 00:39:29,000 --> 00:39:33,599 You know what he said? He said, "If you don't let me take your life, 696 00:39:33,679 --> 00:39:37,800 then I'm going to ruin you!" I'm going to ruin your whole life, 697 00:39:37,880 --> 00:39:39,480 I'll tear it to the ground! 698 00:39:39,559 --> 00:39:42,920 I said, "What are you using to tear it to the ground?" 699 00:39:43,000 --> 00:39:45,320 Then he turns the pics toward me. 700 00:39:51,679 --> 00:39:52,599 And so then... 701 00:39:56,000 --> 00:39:59,039 you know it's ... yeah... 702 00:39:59,400 --> 00:40:04,679 If Kata learns about this, she'll throw me out. And Vera... 703 00:40:05,000 --> 00:40:10,000 I'll never see her, and they'd fire me from the office, 704 00:40:10,079 --> 00:40:14,280 'cause let's be honest, this is not tolerated in this country! 705 00:40:14,360 --> 00:40:18,159 It's okay if you do it with whores on the Adriatic Sea, but otherwise, it's not. 706 00:40:18,760 --> 00:40:21,000 Then I say to him, "Alright... alright... 707 00:40:21,079 --> 00:40:24,159 alright, tell me what you want? Tell me! Tell me what you want?" 708 00:40:24,239 --> 00:40:27,320 "What do you want me to do?" To which he just tells me... 709 00:40:28,360 --> 00:40:31,199 "He thought out the whole thing: that I should say... 710 00:40:32,000 --> 00:40:35,119 ...that there is another woman, or that I should say, that... 711 00:40:35,199 --> 00:40:37,519 ...I'm not ready for a second child. 712 00:40:37,880 --> 00:40:39,440 Or something like that." 713 00:40:39,920 --> 00:40:44,960 I ask him, "How about I smash this laptop on your head?" 714 00:40:45,039 --> 00:40:48,199 He is grinning and asks back, 715 00:40:48,280 --> 00:40:51,760 "You think I didn't make thousands of copies?" 716 00:40:51,840 --> 00:40:54,599 Then I start to beg, and beg, 717 00:40:54,679 --> 00:40:56,400 "Don't, don't!" 718 00:40:56,480 --> 00:40:59,280 After all I did for him! After all my parents did! 719 00:40:59,360 --> 00:41:00,440 My mother! 720 00:41:00,519 --> 00:41:01,760 That guitar! 721 00:41:03,320 --> 00:41:06,239 All those dinners! He could live with us for free! 722 00:41:06,320 --> 00:41:09,639 For free! The ball! Me! And the whole thing! 723 00:41:10,440 --> 00:41:15,639 No, no, I kept begging, and he tells me that he gives me 48 hours to decide. 724 00:41:15,719 --> 00:41:18,800 He gives me fucking 48 hours to decide, 725 00:41:18,880 --> 00:41:22,639 how do I want him to destroy my life? Painful or less painful? 726 00:41:22,719 --> 00:41:24,679 Or really fucking painful, you know? 727 00:41:27,360 --> 00:41:29,119 You know? 728 00:41:29,599 --> 00:41:34,760 Zsolti - this guy whose life was only about asking for things! 729 00:41:34,840 --> 00:41:37,519 He even asked for something without saying a fucking word! 730 00:41:37,599 --> 00:41:39,199 And now, he tells me... 731 00:41:40,679 --> 00:41:43,880 that he doesn't leave me a choice. He doesn't leave me a choice! 732 00:41:46,880 --> 00:41:48,239 Then I tell him... 733 00:41:51,039 --> 00:41:54,920 Why am I telling you all this? Why? 734 00:41:56,320 --> 00:41:58,159 I do not know. 735 00:41:58,239 --> 00:42:00,320 I ask you to put on mask, 736 00:42:01,000 --> 00:42:02,719 because I can't serve you. 737 00:42:03,159 --> 00:42:05,719 But you talk, talk, talk, talk... 738 00:42:05,800 --> 00:42:06,920 Yeah-yeah... 739 00:42:07,239 --> 00:42:09,079 Of course, mask, right... 740 00:42:10,079 --> 00:42:11,880 You asked me... 741 00:42:11,960 --> 00:42:12,880 Mask... 742 00:42:16,440 --> 00:42:17,360 Huh? 743 00:42:18,159 --> 00:42:20,719 That... that Jack. The whole bottle. 744 00:42:25,280 --> 00:42:26,199 How much? 745 00:42:44,800 --> 00:42:45,719 Thanks. 746 00:43:12,880 --> 00:43:15,280 You are not gonna fucking believe this!