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[man] This tape is about mental toughness.

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Achieving mental toughness
is no easy task,

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but if you follow the steps
outlined on this tape,

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you'll get real results.

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Number one, 100% fighting effort.

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That means no whining,
no complaining, no escape routes.

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[Mardy] I'm a couple hours away
from the biggest match of my career.

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The biggest match of my life.

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I was just curled up in a ball,

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trying desperately to figure out a way
to just stop having these thoughts.

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[man] One hundred percent fighting effort

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And I'm about to play
the greatest player of all time…

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to get into the quarterfinals
of the US Open.

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[man] That means no whining,
no complaining, no escape routes.

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[Mardy] This match, I had physically
and mentally and emotionally trained

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for my entire life.

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And now, in the car ride
to Arthur Ashe Stadium,

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my mind is a million places.

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All of a sudden, just… boom!

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[atmospheric music plays]

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The thoughts just came flooding in,

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more and more and more.

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[echoing] Just nonstop thoughts.

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And my heart is just racing.

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Big, deep breaths.

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[deep breaths]

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[man] No complaining. No escape routes.

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[Mardy]
I'm Googling "what is anxiety disorder,"

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"panic disorder," "mental health."

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I'm listening to talks on YouTube
of how to deal with it, how to beat it,

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thinking,
"How am I gonna get through this?"

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[deep breathing]

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I mean, just basically,
I'm… I'm desperate.

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I didn't know what to do.

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[unsettling music builds]

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[silence]

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["Your Sweet Love" by Lee Hazlewood plays]

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♪ Stranger's arms ♪

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♪ Reach out to me ♪

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♪ 'Cause they know  ♪

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♪ I'm so lonely ♪

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♪ Then my mind ♪

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♪ Goes back to you ♪

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♪ And your sweet love ♪

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♪ Sees me through ♪

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[deep breaths]

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[newsman] Tennis in this country
seems to be on the decline.

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Now some people are trying
to do something about that.

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[newswoman]
The United States Tennis Association

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is setting up a nationwide program

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to develop and support talented players
through regional tennis centers.

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We're developing
a national training center

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where we would take
our top young players,

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give them a scholarship,

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and we will have some more champions.

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This is our map, which shows
all of the area training centers

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that we have around the United States.

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We're gonna take the best thousand kids,
and the other 500 of you, you are out.

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Now we are gonna leave 200.
The rest of you are out.

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Now we have ten, and out of these ten,
we must develop a champion.

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[tense string music playing]

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Everything about American sports
is the best

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and about immediate gratification,
and, you know, tennis was no different.

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At that point, American tennis
was sort of on the back nine.

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[newswoman] Tennis officials say
America's best are getting older.

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[newsman] And many around men's tennis
are worried about its future.

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[Kevin] So, enter the USTA,
who really felt the pressure

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and invested tremendous resources
building the next top American.

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[newsman] There are endless demands
from corporate sponsors,

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the media, and fans
for the new hope of US tennis.

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So, even at the academy level,
having an American player

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who potentially could play
at the next level was a commodity.

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But let's just be frank.

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When I first watched Mardy,

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there was nothing that you would say,

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"This guy's a prodigy.
This guy's gonna be world class."

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There was the part that was flat-footed.

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There was the part that you'd go,
"That forehand's pretty terrible."

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But man, his mind intrigued me.

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Mardy would pull you wide.
The short ball would come.

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He'd snap this cross-court angle,
and you'd be like, "Wow, shit. That's…

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That's a big shot."

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So I went to the USTA and said,
"I want Mardy at Saddlebrook."

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[gentle music playing]

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[Sally] Saddlebrook was
a big turning point.

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A lot of tears.

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I went to orientation there
and cried all the way home,

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uh, when we left him.

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We enjoyed having him around the house.
All of a sudden, you know, he's gone.

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[Sally] And I never imagined him
leaving at 15.

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[Mardy] I lived in a small town.
Vero Beach, Florida.

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So I remember
the first time that I moved in

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was a real eye-opening experience.

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Real pros were there.

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Jim Courier trained there.

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Pete Sampras trained there at the time.

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And I got to watch them train
and really feel like a tennis player.

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[Kevin] Here at Saddlebrook,

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we're experts at developing
some of the best players in the world.

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Pete Sampras, Martina Hingis,

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Andy Roddick, Jennifer Capriati.

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The US tennis elite.

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We really believe mental toughness
is one of the biggest defining things

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about them as… as competitors.

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[man] Within the player
development program,

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we'll really work on developing
their physical skills,

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their emotional skills,
their mental skills,

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so that they can become
a successful professional

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and do well in Grand Slams and Davis Cup.

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[Kevin] So we had to instill
that mental discipline early on.

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It was something that was
never gonna be instinctual with a child.

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[Mardy] You'd get up in the morning.

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There are times
when you'd hit even before school.

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I don't know how hard the school was,
but we played a lot of tennis.

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[Kevin] We really believe
in practice makes permanent,

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and you have to practice perfectly.

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[Mardy] And then we'd work out in the gym.

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Go to school for a few hours.

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You're back on the tennis courts
by one o'clock.

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Boom. Groundhog Day the next day.

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And then twice a week,
we'd go into a conference room,

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and we'd watch a mental toughness video
of Jim Courier and Pete Sampras.

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[man] Achieving mental toughness
is no easy task.

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But if you follow the steps
outlined on this tape,

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you'll get real results.

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I learned at that age the philosophy of,
"Put your head down."

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"You go about your business
and not show them any weakness at all."

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That means no whining, no complaining,

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no escape routes.

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[man 2] Can you create a champion?

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Mold them into the next Tiger Woods
or Michael Jordan?

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[newsman] At the Saddlebrook Resort
in Florida,

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a group of promising kids
live and train away from home.

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[newswoman] But only a handful
will make it as professionals.

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It is simply and brutally
the survival of the physically strongest

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and the mentally toughest.

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[keyboard clacking]

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It was pretty jaw-dropping to see
how tough a lot of these players were.

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But Andy Roddick…

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This kid was different.

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[grunts]

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His competitiveness was different
than any of the kids that you played.

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Andy had this fire to him.

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Very intense, ruthless on the court,

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to the point
where I would give in a little bit.

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He wanted to win almost too bad.

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[Andy] A win, I've got a prediction.

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[boy 2] What is it?

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I'll win today.

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That is one of, if not the main reasons
why he had his hall of fame career.

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[interviewer] Andy, what would you like
to achieve in tennis?

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Just to be the best player
I can work to be.

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[interviewer] Who'd you like to be like?
Andre Agassi? Pete Sampras?

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[Andy] Probably Pete Sampras
and Andre Agassi.

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When Andy ended up at the academy,

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there was a buzz about this kid.

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He was really
something extraordinarily different.

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People would go by on the tennis court,

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and everybody would stop
and watch Andy serve.

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I was practicing with Mardy one day,
and I was pissed off in practice.

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I walked up,
did a little half-motion off of two feet.

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I just hit it as hard as I could,

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um, and it went in,

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and then I just did that
for the next 15 years.

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[Kevin] When Andy and Mardy
left the academy,

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Andy was on a track
to be a world-class player.

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[inaudible]

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So Mardy was really meant
to serve Andy's needs.

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The Roddicks knew that Andy
needed peers to practice with.

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They also knew
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to have friends and to enjoy it,

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and Mardy fit that bill.

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[camera clicks]

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He was the guy that could
keep up with him, could have fun with him,

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but, um, ultimately, you know,
was that kid to practice with.

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[wind chimes tinkling]

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[Mardy] When I left, I was 16 years old,

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and the Roddicks were nice enough
to say, "You can live with us."

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Didn't know them personally at the time,

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but I moved in,
and I had a bedroom across the hall.

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I think he was a bit more
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and then he comes into our house,
and he's going, "What is going on?"

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But my dad said, "Hey, listen.
You can stay here. It's a choice."

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"But if you are here,
then I think we operate a certain way."

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My dad was a tough man,
and I say that in a great way.

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You know, army guy. There was no BS.

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His father would wake me up
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and go, "Mardy, it's time to stretch."

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And I'm like,
"It's five o'clock, Mr. Roddick."

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"I can't do it. I'm too tired."

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"Get up. It's time to stretch."

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It was such an intense level
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Now my competition was across the hallway.

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If he was playing better,
it was in my face at dinner.

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[Mardy] We competed at everything,

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whether it was a video game,

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basketball,

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girls.

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We weren't best friends. We were brothers.

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So we could yell at each other,
almost come to fistfights,

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and the next day,
it would be super fun good times.

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It was great for me
to have talent like Mardy close.

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I think ultimately
it was good for the both of us.

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[Mardy] The Roddicks took me
from a top player in the country

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to a top player in the world.

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[presenter] Second in the nation
is not too shabby.

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Mardy Fish.

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[cheering and applause]

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[Kevin] When Andy and Mardy turned pro,

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the expectation for an American
to be good early was…

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it was important.

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The US tennis fan
was so spoiled for so many years.

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Sampras, Agassi, Courier,
Connors, McEnroe.

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I mean, you went through decades
of American dominance in tennis.

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[cameras clicking]

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[Andy] Growing up, I caught the tail-end
of the Connors and McEnroe generation.

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I was at the '91 US Open.

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I remember sneaking into the stadium.

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The atmosphere was insane to me.

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[cameras clicking]

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Connors was going nuts
and just being a rock star.

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[crowd cheering]

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That night had such a huge impact on me.

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It changed my life and my aspirations.

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[crowd cheering]

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[commentator] Wow!

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[Mardy] The American tennis
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was an era that we'll never see again.

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[cheering]

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I grew up watching these guys
my whole life.

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[crowd cheering]

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Americans competing
Slam after Slam for titles.

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[crowd cheering]

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We were in the golden age.

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[crowd cheering]

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I saw Chang win in '89.

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[grunts]

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I was glued to the TV
when Andre won his first Slam.

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[crowd cheering]

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For my ninth birthday, my mom took me
to see Pete win the '90 US Open.

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[cheering and applause]

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Jim Courier won four Slams in '91-'92.

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[laughs]

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So you had
this very special era of tennis,

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a 20-year history of having
the best players in the world.

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Now you had Andy, Mardy.

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That was what they were expected
to be and to do.

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[Andy] Then all of a sudden, at 17, 18,

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this legendary generation
was really pushing me and Mardy.

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…on Pete Sampras's jet.

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[Mardy] There was this huge push
coming from the great champions

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for us to carry this legacy.

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[man] Jesus Christ!
What the hell is going on?

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[Mardy] Meanwhile, my buddies
are seniors in high school.

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[man] Got you, man!

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[Mardy] So it was
a really interesting way to grow up.

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[Andy] We certainly felt
that responsibility.

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Over there and snap it.

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[Andy] We knew the history of it.

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We were there. We got to see it all.

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[announcer] Please welcome
the captain of the US Davis Cup team,

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John McEnroe!

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[crowd cheering]

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[announcer] Andre Agassi!

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[crowd cheering]

268
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Pete Sampras!

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[crowd cheering]

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[crowd cheering]

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[cheering and applause]

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[silence]

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[Mardy] 2003, I end up making
my first final in Cincinnati,

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which is a big Masters Series event
right before the US Open.

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Big points, big prize money on the line.

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There's tens of thousands of people
watching in the stands and on TV.

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Just turned 21 years old.

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This match could change my life forever.

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And I played Andy.

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[theme music plays]

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[host] Until now, comparisons
to the great American champions

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of the past two decades have fallen short.

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But Andy Roddick versus Mardy Fish
in an all-American final next,

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live on ESPN2.

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[crowd cheering]

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[Andy] Four years ago, we were playing
at our coach's apartment complex.

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Now we're playing for a lot of prestige
at this huge tournament in Cincinnati,

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which we had grown up watching.

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[commentator] Mardy Fish spent
about a year in the Roddick house

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down there in South Florida.

291
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You know, we've dreamt
about playing each other, um,

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you know, in a big tournament like this,
uh, ever since we lived with each other.

293
00:16:40,082 --> 00:16:41,291
[crowd cheering]

294
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[commentator] Mardy has watched
Andy Roddick's rise,

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and he said yesterday,
"I always thought it was a matter of time

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before I hopefully will do the same."

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[crowd cheers]

298
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[commentator] Mardy Fish has come out

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and has proven
that he can match Andy Roddick.

300
00:17:04,189 --> 00:17:06,734
He's not intimidated by Roddick at all.

301
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Andy knew my game
better than any player did,

302
00:17:11,071 --> 00:17:13,407
and I knew Andy's game
better than any player did.

303
00:17:14,283 --> 00:17:15,993
And so I used it to my advantage.

304
00:17:17,661 --> 00:17:19,705
-[crowd cheers]
-[commentator] Wow, wow, wow!

305
00:17:19,788 --> 00:17:21,540
There's no mistake on that one.

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[commentator 2] Against all odds,
Mardy Fish has won the first set

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of this championship match
at the Masters Series.

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[Mardy] Just one of those matches

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with two heavyweights
going back and forth.

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[crowd exclaiming]

311
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[commentator] Oh!

312
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Andy Roddick wins the second set. [laughs]

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What a match!

314
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He was so competitive.
It was so mentally tough.

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[yells]

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[Mardy] But I wasn't gonna give in.

317
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-[crowd cheers]
-[commentator] Match point for Mardy Fish.

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All of a sudden, I have match point.
I'm like, "Oh shit, I have match point."

319
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[crowd cheering]

320
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[commentator] Biggest moment
of Mardy Fish's life.

321
00:18:08,545 --> 00:18:11,590
[Mardy] He's serving.
He's got the fastest serve of all time.

322
00:18:12,549 --> 00:18:14,093
I wonder what he's gonna do.

323
00:18:14,843 --> 00:18:16,804
Late in the third set,
it was a chess match.

324
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Mardy knew I wanted
to get to his forehand side

325
00:18:21,433 --> 00:18:24,269
because I've hit that serve against him
a thousand times.

326
00:18:25,479 --> 00:18:27,898
I'm going, "He's gonna sell out forehand.
I know he is."

327
00:18:27,981 --> 00:18:30,025
He knows that my forehand's worse,

328
00:18:30,109 --> 00:18:32,319
so he's probably gonna serve
to my forehand.

329
00:18:32,402 --> 00:18:35,405
But he knows I know that,
so he's probably gonna go to my backhand.

330
00:18:35,489 --> 00:18:37,783
No, he's definitely
not gonna go to my backhand.

331
00:18:39,326 --> 00:18:40,244
Wait a minute.

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He must know that I know that.

333
00:18:46,125 --> 00:18:48,377
-[Mardy] Oh!
-[commentator] Are you kidding?

334
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Not a lot of speed, 86 miles an hour.

335
00:18:51,130 --> 00:18:53,423
Right in the wheelhouse of Mardy Fish.

336
00:18:54,299 --> 00:18:57,636
Shit. I knew he went
kick serve to my backhand.

337
00:18:57,719 --> 00:19:00,097
That would've been
the number one play for me.

338
00:19:00,889 --> 00:19:03,392
But I was lucky enough
to get another match point.

339
00:19:03,475 --> 00:19:04,351
[crowd cheers]

340
00:19:04,434 --> 00:19:07,521
[commentator] This is the time
for intense concentration

341
00:19:07,604 --> 00:19:10,524
and not let your head get involved.

342
00:19:10,607 --> 00:19:13,861
[Mardy] He's bouncing the ball,
and I'm like, "This is your chance."

343
00:19:13,944 --> 00:19:16,613
"He's definitely not gonna go
to my backhand again,

344
00:19:16,697 --> 00:19:19,449
so he's gotta go bomb serve
to my forehand."

345
00:19:19,533 --> 00:19:22,411
"But wait, he knows that I know
that he knew what I knew…"

346
00:19:22,494 --> 00:19:25,497
"…my backhand. No, he's definitely
not gonna go to my backhand."

347
00:19:25,581 --> 00:19:26,915
"He's probably gonna serve…"

348
00:19:26,999 --> 00:19:27,916
[hits ball]

349
00:19:29,042 --> 00:19:30,460
No fucking way.

350
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Kick serve out wide, again.

351
00:19:35,465 --> 00:19:37,259
[commentator] Oh! [chuckles]

352
00:19:37,342 --> 00:19:38,468
[crowd cheering]

353
00:19:38,552 --> 00:19:39,469
[inaudible]

354
00:19:40,220 --> 00:19:41,763
[Mardy] And I overthought it,

355
00:19:42,431 --> 00:19:43,390
and I missed it.

356
00:19:44,683 --> 00:19:47,436
[Andy] I remember him giving me
a little look after I hit it, like,

357
00:19:47,936 --> 00:19:50,147
"We might be the only people
that realize the significance

358
00:19:50,230 --> 00:19:51,773
of what you tried to pull there."

359
00:19:52,274 --> 00:19:54,902
[Mardy] I end up losing the match
seven-six in the third.

360
00:19:55,652 --> 00:19:58,822
My first massive heartbreak kind of loss.

361
00:19:58,906 --> 00:20:01,033
[crowd cheering]

362
00:20:02,451 --> 00:20:03,744
And it still hurts.

363
00:20:04,244 --> 00:20:06,079
[crowd cheering]

364
00:20:06,163 --> 00:20:08,874
First and foremost,
I'd like to congratulate Mardy.

365
00:20:08,957 --> 00:20:12,502
I mean, it's hard to try to kick
someone's ass who you like so much.

366
00:20:12,586 --> 00:20:15,505
[crowd laughing and cheering]

367
00:20:17,841 --> 00:20:20,260
[Kevin] That to me
was that match, defining.

368
00:20:20,344 --> 00:20:22,930
Andy was now the next top American player.

369
00:20:24,806 --> 00:20:26,099
And then… [whoosh]

370
00:20:26,183 --> 00:20:28,685
you know, became
number one player in the world.

371
00:20:33,148 --> 00:20:34,733
[commentator] Talking about the US Open,

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a year ago,
we're talking about Andy Roddick,

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but now we're talking about him
being seeded, Patrick,

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or winning the whole thing.
How things have changed for Andy Roddick.

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00:20:43,200 --> 00:20:47,788
I took the responsibility and the weight,
the expectation seriously.

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00:20:49,957 --> 00:20:54,253
I was fine-tuned, I was prepared,
I was practiced.

377
00:21:02,928 --> 00:21:04,513
[crowd cheering]

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00:21:08,809 --> 00:21:12,688
Purely from a, you know,
little kid dreaming, growing up,

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00:21:12,771 --> 00:21:16,316
there'd be something very special
about getting to play at the US Open.

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00:21:16,400 --> 00:21:18,527
You work towards it
and react one way or the other.

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00:21:18,610 --> 00:21:21,738
You freeze up or you go get it,
and that day, I got it.

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00:21:21,822 --> 00:21:23,740
[commentator] Roddick, one serve away.

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00:21:25,242 --> 00:21:27,202
[announcer] Game, set, match.

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00:21:27,286 --> 00:21:29,121
[crowd cheering]

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00:21:32,082 --> 00:21:33,583
[commentator] I don't believe it.

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00:21:33,667 --> 00:21:35,085
[crowd cheering]

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00:21:37,129 --> 00:21:40,757
Before that, I was a tennis player.
After, it was different, more than tennis.

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00:21:42,759 --> 00:21:43,927
[inaudible]

389
00:21:46,346 --> 00:21:48,056
[inaudible]

390
00:21:48,140 --> 00:21:49,349
[applause]

391
00:21:49,433 --> 00:21:52,185
I can't even begin to tell you
how excited I am to host SNL.

392
00:21:52,269 --> 00:21:53,979
[fans cheering]

393
00:21:54,980 --> 00:21:57,566
-[woman] Andy!
-Andy, sign your name here!

394
00:21:57,649 --> 00:22:00,736
No more "What's it feel like
to be the future of American tennis" crap.

395
00:22:00,819 --> 00:22:02,029
[laughter]

396
00:22:02,112 --> 00:22:02,988
No more.

397
00:22:03,822 --> 00:22:06,241
Andy's success is amazing and awesome.

398
00:22:06,325 --> 00:22:08,410
This guy's your friend and your brother,

399
00:22:08,493 --> 00:22:10,787
and you've been rooting for him
your whole life.

400
00:22:11,913 --> 00:22:14,166
[Andy speaking indistinctly]

401
00:22:14,249 --> 00:22:16,376
[crowd exclaims and laughs]

402
00:22:18,462 --> 00:22:19,588
[Andy] You're such an ass!

403
00:22:20,839 --> 00:22:22,341
Oh! [laughs]

404
00:22:24,426 --> 00:22:26,928
-Yeah, so what was the question?
-[laughter]

405
00:22:27,012 --> 00:22:28,847
There wasn't a jealousy towards it,

406
00:22:28,930 --> 00:22:32,517
but there was a,
"Man, I wish I could have done that."

407
00:22:34,644 --> 00:22:36,104
[Kevin] Andy's US Open win…

408
00:22:36,188 --> 00:22:37,230
[applause]

409
00:22:37,314 --> 00:22:38,357
…it was amazing.

410
00:22:39,066 --> 00:22:42,611
We finally have an American on track
to win multiple Grand Slam titles.

411
00:22:43,111 --> 00:22:44,780
[applause]

412
00:22:49,409 --> 00:22:52,704
[producer] So why did the bubble burst
for American tennis?

413
00:22:52,788 --> 00:22:56,375
I think the bubble
was named Federer, you know?

414
00:22:56,458 --> 00:22:58,835
[tense music plays]

415
00:22:58,919 --> 00:23:02,631
He figured out a way to win every time.

416
00:23:03,965 --> 00:23:05,217
Every single time.

417
00:23:05,300 --> 00:23:07,803
[gentle music playing]

418
00:23:07,886 --> 00:23:11,473
[Andy] Roger's the best defensive
and best offensive player in the world

419
00:23:12,307 --> 00:23:13,308
at the same time.

420
00:23:14,309 --> 00:23:16,728
How do you… How do you attack that?

421
00:23:22,526 --> 00:23:25,278
Roger had this aura
of invincibility about him…

422
00:23:28,782 --> 00:23:33,912
where you just could never breathe,
'cause he could turn it like that.

423
00:23:33,995 --> 00:23:35,330
Boom. Point's over.

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00:23:38,458 --> 00:23:40,419
-[yells]
-[camera clicks]

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00:23:40,502 --> 00:23:45,298
He's the most-liked athlete,
universally, in the world.

426
00:23:45,382 --> 00:23:47,175
[applause]

427
00:23:47,259 --> 00:23:49,428
You speak 17 languages,
and your hair looks amazing,

428
00:23:49,511 --> 00:23:51,555
and it's fantastic, and you don't sweat.

429
00:23:51,638 --> 00:23:52,639
[grunts]

430
00:23:53,598 --> 00:23:54,433
[grunts]

431
00:23:55,976 --> 00:23:57,936
[Andy] I'm not jealous of his success.

432
00:23:58,437 --> 00:23:59,646
[crowd cheers]

433
00:23:59,729 --> 00:24:01,731
[commentator speaking Italian]

434
00:24:02,399 --> 00:24:05,402
[Andy] I'm jealous of the ease
at which he's able to navigate

435
00:24:05,485 --> 00:24:07,237
being the greatest of all time.

436
00:24:08,113 --> 00:24:11,032
[Mardy] We played
in the final of 2004 in Halle.

437
00:24:13,910 --> 00:24:19,166
Roger went up 6-0, 3-0
in, like, 25 minutes.

438
00:24:19,249 --> 00:24:21,543
-[applause]
-I'm like, "Unbelievable."

439
00:24:22,085 --> 00:24:25,255
"This guy's gonna beat me 6-0, 6-0
in the finals of a tournament."

440
00:24:26,715 --> 00:24:29,759
I think he probably felt bad
for all of the people

441
00:24:29,843 --> 00:24:31,803
that had paid money to come watch,

442
00:24:32,637 --> 00:24:35,265
and I'm still, to this day, convinced

443
00:24:35,348 --> 00:24:38,810
that he prolonged the match
a little bit longer so it was 6-0, 6-3.

444
00:24:40,979 --> 00:24:42,814
He made it, like, an hour.

445
00:24:43,648 --> 00:24:46,568
-[announcer speaking indistinctly]
-[cheering and applause]

446
00:24:48,612 --> 00:24:51,364
[Mardy] And then,
when it couldn't get any worse,

447
00:24:52,199 --> 00:24:53,617
in 2005,

448
00:24:54,451 --> 00:24:56,411
a guy named Nadal came around.

449
00:24:57,412 --> 00:24:58,747
[commentator] Amazing!

450
00:24:58,830 --> 00:24:59,873
[cheers]

451
00:24:59,956 --> 00:25:03,919
[Mardy] And then 2007,
a guy named Novak Djokovic.

452
00:25:05,128 --> 00:25:07,839
[commentator] Oh my goodness!
Are you kidding me?

453
00:25:07,923 --> 00:25:09,633
[Mardy] And I'm like, "Whoa."

454
00:25:09,716 --> 00:25:14,179
"The top three greatest players
of all time in the exact same generation."

455
00:25:14,971 --> 00:25:16,515
[Andy] It became this gargantuan effort,

456
00:25:16,598 --> 00:25:19,726
trying to beat the guys that had become
the Mount Rushmore of the game.

457
00:25:22,812 --> 00:25:25,357
[Andy] And all the while
taking criticisms.

458
00:25:27,150 --> 00:25:30,695
[dramatic music playing]

459
00:25:38,453 --> 00:25:41,414
But my dad instilled that army mentality
where if you take it on the chin,

460
00:25:41,498 --> 00:25:43,375
you get up, and you do it again.

461
00:25:45,961 --> 00:25:47,170
I had to get up a lot.

462
00:25:47,254 --> 00:25:49,464
[crowd cheering]

463
00:25:58,306 --> 00:25:59,266
King of the world.

464
00:25:59,849 --> 00:26:01,601
[man] I'm the king of the world!

465
00:26:01,685 --> 00:26:03,144
["Stay in Line" by Trey Gruber plays]

466
00:26:03,228 --> 00:26:06,189
[Mardy] Looking back,
this point in my career,

467
00:26:06,273 --> 00:26:10,610
I was in a really good place
emotionally and mentally.

468
00:26:11,278 --> 00:26:14,906
I felt like I was so lucky
to play professional tennis.

469
00:26:15,407 --> 00:26:16,783
Just an absolute dream.

470
00:26:16,866 --> 00:26:19,661
-♪ Oh, stay in line ♪
-[inaudible]

471
00:26:20,537 --> 00:26:22,831
♪ Oh, stay in line ♪

472
00:26:22,914 --> 00:26:24,916
[Mardy] I went to Asia.
I went to Singapore.

473
00:26:25,000 --> 00:26:28,503
I went to Belgium.
I went to, you know, France, uh…

474
00:26:28,587 --> 00:26:31,506
All over. You know, all over the…
All over the world.

475
00:26:32,090 --> 00:26:34,551
♪ Reckon what you need, you'll find ♪

476
00:26:34,634 --> 00:26:36,886
[Mardy] I loved hanging out with friends

477
00:26:36,970 --> 00:26:40,724
and be able to eat what I wanted
and drink what I wanted.

478
00:26:40,807 --> 00:26:41,933
[laughs]

479
00:26:42,017 --> 00:26:44,519
I think we're gonna go
check out the local nightlife,

480
00:26:44,603 --> 00:26:46,438
so we'll see you guys tomorrow.

481
00:26:46,521 --> 00:26:47,355
[laughs]

482
00:26:47,439 --> 00:26:49,649
It was during this time I met my wife,

483
00:26:50,775 --> 00:26:52,235
who I call an angel.

484
00:26:54,738 --> 00:26:57,240
He was never the cocky kind of athlete.

485
00:26:57,324 --> 00:26:58,450
He wasn't boastful.

486
00:27:00,035 --> 00:27:02,037
He was, like, a fun, goofy guy.

487
00:27:03,038 --> 00:27:04,539
Melted my heart, actually.

488
00:27:05,790 --> 00:27:07,751
It was a very happy time for everybody.

489
00:27:08,335 --> 00:27:11,046
Watching Mardy with my love for the game,

490
00:27:11,129 --> 00:27:12,213
it was fun.

491
00:27:12,297 --> 00:27:13,715
[laughing] Really fun.

492
00:27:13,798 --> 00:27:17,510
I was as amazed as anybody was.

493
00:27:17,594 --> 00:27:19,721
He's just a normal guy.

494
00:27:19,804 --> 00:27:21,848
You used to say,
"What's Mardy doing out there…"

495
00:27:21,931 --> 00:27:24,225
-What's Mardy doing out there?
-"…on a stadium court?"

496
00:27:24,309 --> 00:27:28,563
-[crowd cheering]
-♪ Lately I've been a stranger ♪

497
00:27:28,647 --> 00:27:30,857
[commentator] Open court. Roddick's in.

498
00:27:30,940 --> 00:27:32,108
And there it is.

499
00:27:32,192 --> 00:27:33,234
[crowd cheering]

500
00:27:34,736 --> 00:27:37,322
[interviewer] What are your goals
for the rest of the year?

501
00:27:37,405 --> 00:27:39,866
I think the ultimate goal
is to maybe beat Andy.

502
00:27:39,949 --> 00:27:42,327
-[laughs]
-[crowd laughs and cheers]

503
00:27:42,410 --> 00:27:44,287
[interviewer] Oh, that's too good.

504
00:27:44,371 --> 00:27:47,040
[Mardy] Honestly,
just sort of a normal career,

505
00:27:47,749 --> 00:27:49,125
and I didn't have success.

506
00:27:49,709 --> 00:27:52,420
[commentator] Mardy's the guy
a lot of people have been waiting for him

507
00:27:52,504 --> 00:27:53,672
to break through.

508
00:27:53,755 --> 00:27:55,965
[Jim] He's been out playing now
for a couple of years…

509
00:27:56,049 --> 00:27:57,592
It's been a big struggle for him…

510
00:27:57,676 --> 00:28:00,345
…and try and be up there
near where Andy Roddick is.

511
00:28:01,054 --> 00:28:03,431
People that are considered
the greatest of all time,

512
00:28:03,515 --> 00:28:05,767
they have this thing,
"We'll rip your head off."

513
00:28:06,267 --> 00:28:10,021
"We'll tear you apart.
We'll stomp on you on our way to victory."

514
00:28:10,105 --> 00:28:11,981
The freaking ball was right on the line!

515
00:28:12,065 --> 00:28:16,194
At that point in his career, I don't know
that Mardy was prepared to do that.

516
00:28:16,277 --> 00:28:18,738
It wasn't because I didn't want it.

517
00:28:18,822 --> 00:28:22,450
I legitimately didn't understand it.
I didn't get it.

518
00:28:23,326 --> 00:28:26,871
[Andy] I can normally tell at 17 or 18
whether a kid gets it.

519
00:28:26,955 --> 00:28:30,041
It doesn't ever correct itself.
Never corrects itself.

520
00:28:31,084 --> 00:28:33,211
Mardy's one of the only guys
I've ever seen

521
00:28:33,712 --> 00:28:35,547
who figured it out and corrected it.

522
00:28:35,630 --> 00:28:37,006
[loud droning]

523
00:28:37,090 --> 00:28:38,550
[tense music playing]

524
00:28:40,218 --> 00:28:43,972
[Mardy] So, 2009,
I got a hyperbaric chamber,

525
00:28:44,055 --> 00:28:48,184
which pumps oxygen into your body
and makes things heal faster,

526
00:28:48,810 --> 00:28:52,063
and I basically slept in there,
would take naps in there,

527
00:28:52,147 --> 00:28:53,815
just be in it nonstop.

528
00:28:55,442 --> 00:28:59,779
And I legitimately had this "Aha"
look-in-the-mirror moment where I'm like,

529
00:28:59,863 --> 00:29:01,448
"I'm 28 years old,

530
00:29:01,531 --> 00:29:03,825
at the back end of my career,

531
00:29:03,908 --> 00:29:06,578
and I'm not gonna get
everything out of my career

532
00:29:06,661 --> 00:29:08,496
that I could've and should've."

533
00:29:09,873 --> 00:29:13,877
I desperately wanted to make sure
that when I was done playing,

534
00:29:13,960 --> 00:29:16,171
I can put my head on my pillow every night

535
00:29:16,254 --> 00:29:19,841
knowing that I tried
everything I could possibly do.

536
00:29:21,718 --> 00:29:23,136
So I said to myself,

537
00:29:23,845 --> 00:29:26,973
"Let's do this.
Let's really fucking do this."

538
00:29:30,435 --> 00:29:33,354
[Christian] I worked for the USTA
for a little over ten years.

539
00:29:34,105 --> 00:29:36,274
I remember getting that call from Mardy.

540
00:29:36,357 --> 00:29:37,442
He wanted to find out

541
00:29:37,525 --> 00:29:41,446
if he really dedicated himself 100%
the way Andy did,

542
00:29:41,529 --> 00:29:43,490
if he would be as successful.

543
00:29:44,324 --> 00:29:46,826
And that's when he convinced me
to move out to LA,

544
00:29:46,910 --> 00:29:48,536
live with him and Stacey,

545
00:29:48,620 --> 00:29:50,455
and see if we could make him better.

546
00:29:51,080 --> 00:29:54,542
[Stacey] He sat down with myself
and his trainer, Christian, and said

547
00:29:54,626 --> 00:29:57,545
he had so much more
that he wanted to accomplish.

548
00:29:57,629 --> 00:30:00,465
[Mardy] I told Christian
the ultimate goal of mine

549
00:30:00,548 --> 00:30:01,758
is getting to London,

550
00:30:03,218 --> 00:30:04,928
making the World Tour Final.

551
00:30:07,430 --> 00:30:09,933
[Christian] The year-end finals
are the crème de la crème.

552
00:30:10,475 --> 00:30:15,063
Only the eight best players in the world
get invited to the year-end finals.

553
00:30:17,816 --> 00:30:20,902
So my goal was to get Mardy
as fit as possible.

554
00:30:22,070 --> 00:30:24,405
And first was diet, to lose the weight.

555
00:30:25,949 --> 00:30:27,700
I was 203 pounds.

556
00:30:28,326 --> 00:30:29,953
So I set out to lose 12 pounds.

557
00:30:31,037 --> 00:30:34,541
I cut out alcohol, pizza, desserts, fries.

558
00:30:35,750 --> 00:30:37,585
I was starving every day.

559
00:30:38,461 --> 00:30:42,006
[Christian] So next we started to train
as hard as we could

560
00:30:42,090 --> 00:30:43,633
all day, every day.

561
00:30:46,803 --> 00:30:48,680
[Mardy] When I got back on the court,

562
00:30:48,763 --> 00:30:51,516
I told my coach, "Give me a racket."

563
00:30:52,767 --> 00:30:55,895
"Put one ball on this side,
the next ball on the other side,

564
00:30:55,979 --> 00:30:59,399
the next ball on that side, and let's
just do that for hours and hours."

565
00:31:03,570 --> 00:31:06,739
If you want to beat
Roger and Rafa and Novak,

566
00:31:07,657 --> 00:31:10,326
you gotta have the leg strength
of a football player,

567
00:31:10,410 --> 00:31:12,620
the lungs of a marathon runner,

568
00:31:12,704 --> 00:31:15,623
and on top of that,
an unbelievable level of focus.

569
00:31:18,293 --> 00:31:20,920
So we would do dynamic warm-up exercises,

570
00:31:21,004 --> 00:31:22,964
movement drills, medicine ball throws,

571
00:31:23,047 --> 00:31:25,383
side-to-side, cross-training, suicides.

572
00:31:26,342 --> 00:31:28,887
[Mardy] Now I'm getting fit.
I'm not getting tired.

573
00:31:28,970 --> 00:31:30,847
I can train for hours.

574
00:31:35,977 --> 00:31:37,979
I can run forever,

575
00:31:38,605 --> 00:31:40,899
and it becomes like a religion,
like a lifestyle.

576
00:31:41,816 --> 00:31:44,360
"I'm gonna play two sets with you,
two sets with you."

577
00:31:44,444 --> 00:31:48,031
"In the afternoon, I'll play two sets
with you. We'll do it again and again."

578
00:31:48,114 --> 00:31:51,034
Ice everything down,
and do it all over again the next day.

579
00:31:51,910 --> 00:31:55,538
It was extreme, for better or worse,
but it was like that with everything.

580
00:31:55,622 --> 00:31:58,416
Going to bed at 7:30
and never seeing friends anymore.

581
00:31:58,499 --> 00:31:59,334
[dog whimpers]

582
00:31:59,417 --> 00:32:01,836
It didn't leave much time
for anything else.

583
00:32:01,920 --> 00:32:05,590
[Mardy] From that point on,
every single decision that I made

584
00:32:05,673 --> 00:32:07,216
had to do with my career.

585
00:32:11,179 --> 00:32:12,722
I was obsessed.

586
00:32:12,805 --> 00:32:15,725
It was never-ending.
I could never be too fit.

587
00:32:22,523 --> 00:32:25,109
[Mardy] All of a sudden,
two and a half months go by,

588
00:32:25,193 --> 00:32:27,862
I jump on the scale, and I weighed myself.

589
00:32:27,946 --> 00:32:30,823
172. I'd lost 31 pounds.

590
00:32:30,907 --> 00:32:34,994
So he really…
He turned himself into an absolute beast.

591
00:32:38,331 --> 00:32:40,500
Now the season starts.

592
00:32:41,501 --> 00:32:46,089
Still, to this day, I don't know
why I came to this conclusion,

593
00:32:46,589 --> 00:32:49,467
but I decided to go to Newport.

594
00:32:49,550 --> 00:32:52,095
["Circuital" by My Morning Jacket playing]

595
00:32:52,178 --> 00:32:53,888
[Mardy] Really small tournament

596
00:32:54,639 --> 00:32:57,183
in this beautiful little town
in New England.

597
00:32:58,017 --> 00:33:01,229
But said to myself
that I had to win this tournament.

598
00:33:01,312 --> 00:33:02,855
"I have to win this tournament."

599
00:33:04,148 --> 00:33:05,942
Got all the way to the quarters,

600
00:33:06,025 --> 00:33:09,153
and I play a buddy of mine,
Frank Dancevic.

601
00:33:09,237 --> 00:33:12,448
[commentator 1] Mardy Fish,
30 pounds lighter.

602
00:33:12,532 --> 00:33:14,701
It was kind of jolting, Jimmy,
to see up close.

603
00:33:16,953 --> 00:33:19,080
[Mardy] And I lose the first set quickly.

604
00:33:19,706 --> 00:33:22,875
[commentator 2] And there it is.
First set to the young Belgian.

605
00:33:23,501 --> 00:33:25,795
[commentator 1]
It's hard to know what Fish is thinking.

606
00:33:25,878 --> 00:33:28,131
[Mardy] "Shit, man,
this guy's gonna beat me."

607
00:33:29,048 --> 00:33:32,218
All of the sacrifice that I had made.
I had changed my life.

608
00:33:32,301 --> 00:33:34,220
[tense droning]

609
00:33:35,722 --> 00:33:37,098
"I have to win this match."

610
00:33:38,599 --> 00:33:42,145
If I didn't do something to stop this guy,

611
00:33:42,729 --> 00:33:44,147
then I don't know.

612
00:33:44,230 --> 00:33:46,858
"Is this gonna happen?
Am I gonna turn my career around?"

613
00:33:50,653 --> 00:33:52,655
So we come to the changeover.

614
00:33:53,489 --> 00:33:54,949
I remember walking up to him,

615
00:33:55,450 --> 00:33:57,243
and out of nowhere…

616
00:33:57,910 --> 00:33:58,995
[inaudible]

617
00:34:00,246 --> 00:34:03,708
"There's no way you can fucking beat me.
You can't beat me. No chance."

618
00:34:03,791 --> 00:34:06,169
"I'm gonna fucking beat you.
I'm coming back to win."

619
00:34:06,252 --> 00:34:08,046
"There's no way you can fucking win."

620
00:34:15,928 --> 00:34:18,514
And Frank's like,
"What? What is going on?"

621
00:34:18,598 --> 00:34:20,433
The umpire's like, "Mardy, calm down."

622
00:34:20,516 --> 00:34:21,642
[man] Mardy!

623
00:34:21,726 --> 00:34:25,980
And I couldn't believe it,
but it actually got him out of his rhythm.

624
00:34:26,064 --> 00:34:27,607
[grunting]

625
00:34:29,192 --> 00:34:30,026
[crowd cheers]

626
00:34:30,109 --> 00:34:31,402
[commentator] And Mardy Fish…

627
00:34:31,486 --> 00:34:34,572
Finally, Mardy Fish comes roaring back.

628
00:34:35,114 --> 00:34:37,283
Big kicker. Open court. There it is.

629
00:34:37,366 --> 00:34:38,785
-[crowd cheering]
-Mardy Fish.

630
00:34:39,994 --> 00:34:42,080
Unbelievable last point.

631
00:34:42,705 --> 00:34:43,915
Fitness prevailed there,

632
00:34:43,998 --> 00:34:46,334
and, uh, you know,
I've worked really hard.

633
00:34:46,834 --> 00:34:48,961
Christian and I have worked really hard.

634
00:34:49,045 --> 00:34:51,172
[Mardy] I went on to win that tournament.

635
00:34:51,714 --> 00:34:53,883
[man] There he is,
our champion, Mardy Fish.

636
00:34:53,966 --> 00:34:56,052
-Congratulations!
-[crowd cheering]

637
00:34:56,135 --> 00:34:58,513
[Mardy] I did whatever it took to win.

638
00:35:00,431 --> 00:35:01,599
I lost a friendship,

639
00:35:02,141 --> 00:35:03,935
but I had to do it.

640
00:35:05,394 --> 00:35:08,940
Like, this match was the turning point
that changed my life.

641
00:35:09,023 --> 00:35:10,441
Really did. It changed my life.

642
00:35:10,525 --> 00:35:12,819
["Circuital" continues playing]

643
00:35:14,779 --> 00:35:16,906
[commentator]
Terrific shot-making by Fish.

644
00:35:18,157 --> 00:35:19,033
[crowd cheers]

645
00:35:19,117 --> 00:35:20,493
[commentator] That's so good.

646
00:35:20,576 --> 00:35:22,120
Match points.

647
00:35:28,960 --> 00:35:32,505
[commentator] And Mardy Fish
winning Newport and Atlanta.

648
00:35:32,588 --> 00:35:34,298
Two tournaments in a row.

649
00:35:34,799 --> 00:35:38,344
Holy shit. Mardy just started winning
back to back to back matches.

650
00:35:39,637 --> 00:35:41,722
[commentator] What a point by Fish!

651
00:35:43,307 --> 00:35:44,308
[crowd cheering]

652
00:35:44,392 --> 00:35:47,061
[commentator] Ten matches in a row now
for Mardy Fish.

653
00:35:47,812 --> 00:35:50,231
[Andy] The new Mardy shows up,
and all of a sudden,

654
00:35:50,314 --> 00:35:52,525
he has half of the face
that he used to have.

655
00:35:52,608 --> 00:35:54,527
He was winning the matches every week.

656
00:35:54,610 --> 00:35:56,946
You sit back and you go, "Huh."

657
00:35:57,029 --> 00:35:59,699
["Circuital" by My Morning Jacket
continues playing]

658
00:36:01,951 --> 00:36:03,119
[crowd cheering]

659
00:36:03,202 --> 00:36:05,246
-[commentator 1] Fish got there!
-[commentator 2] Wow!

660
00:36:05,329 --> 00:36:08,040
[Christian] He flipped a switch,
and he would get super aggressive,

661
00:36:08,124 --> 00:36:09,167
super focused,

662
00:36:09,250 --> 00:36:10,793
just super intense.

663
00:36:15,298 --> 00:36:18,176
-[crowd exclaims]
-[commentator] That is world class.

664
00:36:18,259 --> 00:36:20,845
Now I'm just consistently
week in, week out,

665
00:36:20,928 --> 00:36:23,389
making the semis and finals
of tournaments.

666
00:36:27,643 --> 00:36:31,480
Pretty soon it got to the stage of playing
the greatest players of all time.

667
00:36:32,815 --> 00:36:36,736
[commentator] Mardy Fish and Andy Murray
getting ready to play on Center Court.

668
00:36:50,917 --> 00:36:53,085
-[commentator 1] Wow.
-[commentator 2] That's so good!

669
00:36:53,169 --> 00:36:55,171
Mardy Fish beats Andy Murray.

670
00:36:55,254 --> 00:36:57,131
[crowd cheering]

671
00:36:59,550 --> 00:37:03,221
I took that confidence of winning,
and that catapulted me.

672
00:37:05,598 --> 00:37:08,351
[commentator] He's gonna face
one of the all-time greats.

673
00:37:10,269 --> 00:37:11,145
[grunts]

674
00:37:12,563 --> 00:37:13,397
[grunts]

675
00:37:15,691 --> 00:37:17,360
-[commentator] Wow.
-[crowd cheering]

676
00:37:17,443 --> 00:37:21,739
Rafael Nadal struggling
not with the heat, but with Mardy Fish.

677
00:37:23,157 --> 00:37:24,700
Oh, do you like that?

678
00:37:26,077 --> 00:37:28,955
Fish continuing to punish Nadal.

679
00:37:29,705 --> 00:37:32,625
And that brings Mardy triple match point.

680
00:37:38,589 --> 00:37:39,674
Yes!

681
00:37:39,757 --> 00:37:44,762
Mardy Fish has defeated Rafael Nadal
for the first time in his career.

682
00:37:44,845 --> 00:37:47,390
[crowd cheering]

683
00:37:48,015 --> 00:37:51,060
[commentator] What a great effort.
He got a standing ovation.

684
00:37:51,143 --> 00:37:53,229
Everybody's so happy for Mardy Fish.

685
00:37:53,312 --> 00:37:54,355
[crowd cheering]

686
00:37:54,438 --> 00:37:56,023
[Mardy] Now I'm top 20 in the world.

687
00:37:56,899 --> 00:37:59,485
If I could win just a couple of matches,

688
00:37:59,568 --> 00:38:03,614
I'd legitimately have a chance
of making the World Tour Final.

689
00:38:04,407 --> 00:38:06,492
[interviewer] What would it mean
to qualify for London?

690
00:38:06,575 --> 00:38:09,245
A lot. There are about 100 guys
at the start of the year

691
00:38:09,328 --> 00:38:12,206
that have ambitions
of being in London at the end of the year,

692
00:38:12,290 --> 00:38:16,419
and I hear everything that has to do
with the World Tour Finals is amazing,

693
00:38:16,502 --> 00:38:20,298
and I'd love to…
love to experience it for myself.

694
00:38:21,966 --> 00:38:23,551
[Mardy] But then I played Andy.

695
00:38:25,177 --> 00:38:27,680
And I'd lost to Andy nine times in a row.

696
00:38:28,389 --> 00:38:30,474
[commentator 1] And what a match
we have tonight

697
00:38:30,558 --> 00:38:33,978
with Andy Roddick against Mardy Fish,
his good buddy.

698
00:38:34,061 --> 00:38:37,606
[commentator 2] Mardy Fish, he's lost
nine times in a row to Andy Roddick.

699
00:38:39,442 --> 00:38:40,985
[Andy] When we played
against each other,

700
00:38:41,068 --> 00:38:43,446
I wanted to make it physical,
I wanted to make it gross.

701
00:38:43,529 --> 00:38:45,740
I wanted to drag him
into the gutter with me.

702
00:38:46,615 --> 00:38:47,700
[crowd cheers]

703
00:38:47,783 --> 00:38:49,744
He never was prepared to do that.

704
00:38:49,827 --> 00:38:53,622
[commentator] I just think Roddick
still mentally a little bit tougher.

705
00:38:54,457 --> 00:38:58,377
[Mardy] I had lost to him so much
because he was so mentally tough,

706
00:38:58,878 --> 00:39:00,963
and he would always out-physical me.

707
00:39:02,631 --> 00:39:06,510
But now I had this new body
that could kinda outwork him.

708
00:39:07,970 --> 00:39:11,932
[Andy] All of a sudden, he's inviting
to get into 10, 15, 20-ball rallies.

709
00:39:13,559 --> 00:39:15,603
He was willing to get dirty at that point.

710
00:39:15,686 --> 00:39:17,897
["Circuital" continues playing]

711
00:39:23,277 --> 00:39:25,529
[commentator]
Oh, how do you explain that one?

712
00:39:31,243 --> 00:39:32,620
[crowd cheers]

713
00:39:32,703 --> 00:39:35,664
[commentator] And that brings Mardy
to triple match point.

714
00:39:42,797 --> 00:39:44,131
[crowd cheers]

715
00:39:44,215 --> 00:39:46,717
[commentator 1]
Mardy Fish beats Andy Roddick.

716
00:39:47,635 --> 00:39:50,096
[commentator 2] Nobody beats Mardy Fish
ten times in a row.

717
00:39:50,179 --> 00:39:52,014
[crowd cheering]

718
00:39:55,101 --> 00:39:56,977
[commentator]
Mardy got here off the court.

719
00:39:57,061 --> 00:40:00,314
Congratulations. Skipping
those french fries was worth it, right?

720
00:40:00,398 --> 00:40:01,357
It definitely was.

721
00:40:01,440 --> 00:40:05,778
This is one of the best wins
I've had, obviously, by far.

722
00:40:05,861 --> 00:40:07,696
[crowd cheering]

723
00:40:07,780 --> 00:40:10,574
Mardy did what Andy always feared
Mardy could do,

724
00:40:11,117 --> 00:40:13,160
and then it happened,
then it happened twice.

725
00:40:18,874 --> 00:40:20,626
[crowd cheering]

726
00:40:22,128 --> 00:40:23,754
[commentator] Victorious.

727
00:40:23,838 --> 00:40:25,589
Just the second time.

728
00:40:27,550 --> 00:40:28,884
[Andy] At that point, I'm going,

729
00:40:29,927 --> 00:40:31,679
"Maybe I'm not the better player anymore."

730
00:40:31,762 --> 00:40:33,889
Maybe ten years later
than we both expected,

731
00:40:33,973 --> 00:40:36,225
but I'm sure he felt
he was going to his rightful place

732
00:40:36,308 --> 00:40:37,810
to become the top American.

733
00:40:38,769 --> 00:40:41,439
[Dr. Phil] For those who may not be
tennis fans, this is Mardy Fish.

734
00:40:41,522 --> 00:40:45,067
He is the number-one-ranked
US tennis player in America.

735
00:40:45,151 --> 00:40:46,110
[cheers and applause]

736
00:40:46,193 --> 00:40:50,489
[host] You're gonna be 30 years old.
For now, the number one American player.

737
00:40:51,449 --> 00:40:52,783
What took you so long?

738
00:40:52,867 --> 00:40:53,701
[laughs]

739
00:40:54,493 --> 00:40:57,955
"Holy shit. I'm the number one player
in this whole country."

740
00:40:58,831 --> 00:40:59,999
-[man] Mardy!
-[crowd] Fish!

741
00:41:00,082 --> 00:41:01,459
-[man] Mardy!
-[crowd] Fish!

742
00:41:01,542 --> 00:41:02,710
-[man] Mardy!
-[crowd] Fish!

743
00:41:02,793 --> 00:41:04,253
-[man] Mardy!
-[crowd] Fish!

744
00:41:04,336 --> 00:41:07,089
See, I knew it.
He really could be one of the best.

745
00:41:08,966 --> 00:41:12,803
And then he got to seven in the world,
and I was like, "Oh my gosh."

746
00:41:12,887 --> 00:41:15,473
Yes! Pow, that's our Mardy.

747
00:41:15,556 --> 00:41:17,433
[crowd cheering]

748
00:41:17,516 --> 00:41:18,642
[yells]

749
00:41:19,477 --> 00:41:20,853
[Mardy] My ranking went way up.

750
00:41:21,812 --> 00:41:24,815
I finished the year at a career high,
seven in the world.

751
00:41:28,569 --> 00:41:30,988
And so I told my trainer,
and I told my wife,

752
00:41:31,489 --> 00:41:34,325
"Pack up. London is calling."

753
00:41:40,748 --> 00:41:43,792
When I qualified,
I got a call from Jim Courier,

754
00:41:43,876 --> 00:41:46,420
who was number one in the world
and won four majors.

755
00:41:46,504 --> 00:41:49,465
He was our Davis Cup captain.
He said, "What are you doing?"

756
00:41:50,216 --> 00:41:53,093
I said, "Nothing. I'm in the bathroom."
Like, you know, whatever.

757
00:41:53,177 --> 00:41:54,929
I didn't… I didn't bring it up.

758
00:41:55,012 --> 00:41:56,472
And he goes,

759
00:41:56,555 --> 00:41:57,973
"Take a look in the mirror."

760
00:41:58,641 --> 00:42:00,976
"That's a guy that's
top ten in the world."

761
00:42:01,060 --> 00:42:03,437
And I went, "Damn right."

762
00:42:04,271 --> 00:42:05,356
[applause]

763
00:42:05,439 --> 00:42:07,399
[announcer] Mardy Fish!

764
00:42:07,483 --> 00:42:09,235
[cheering and applause]

765
00:42:09,318 --> 00:42:13,030
[emotional music playing]

766
00:42:15,074 --> 00:42:17,952
It's an incredibly special event.

767
00:42:19,411 --> 00:42:21,622
Just incredible tennis players.

768
00:42:22,873 --> 00:42:24,667
Federer. Nadal.

769
00:42:24,750 --> 00:42:26,585
Djokovic. Murray.

770
00:42:27,628 --> 00:42:28,587
Fish.

771
00:42:29,463 --> 00:42:32,049
Does that fit, you know?
Does that really fit?

772
00:42:33,384 --> 00:42:37,012
And for some reason, it just…
it felt right.

773
00:42:37,096 --> 00:42:39,431
There's a reason why, uh,
all of us are here.

774
00:42:39,515 --> 00:42:42,142
Uh, we've had great results
throughout the year,

775
00:42:42,226 --> 00:42:45,604
and I'm actually the only non-European
that's, uh… that's here.

776
00:42:48,524 --> 00:42:50,901
[crowd cheering]

777
00:42:51,735 --> 00:42:55,698
[Christian] It was validation.
It was relief. It was exuberance.

778
00:42:55,781 --> 00:42:59,285
It was everything
that we'd been working towards.

779
00:42:59,368 --> 00:43:02,121
You don't expect your child
to be doing these crazy things.

780
00:43:03,163 --> 00:43:04,832
There's Mardy out there.

781
00:43:05,457 --> 00:43:06,500
He's in the club.

782
00:43:08,168 --> 00:43:11,547
[Mardy] I lost a close battle to the king,
Roger Federer.

783
00:43:12,673 --> 00:43:15,217
But I didn't care, man. I really didn't.

784
00:43:18,637 --> 00:43:20,889
The memories
of being one of those eight guys,

785
00:43:22,099 --> 00:43:24,810
one of the most special moments
of my life.

786
00:43:26,562 --> 00:43:28,731
[camera clicking]

787
00:43:30,274 --> 00:43:35,779
Those were the moments where I could
look back and say it was all worth it.

788
00:43:36,405 --> 00:43:38,991
[interviewer] What are the main things
you'll take out of this year?

789
00:43:39,074 --> 00:43:41,493
That it's possible to be here, playing,

790
00:43:41,577 --> 00:43:42,995
knowing that I can make it.

791
00:43:43,495 --> 00:43:45,789
It just gives you confidence
you can do it again.

792
00:43:45,873 --> 00:43:49,710
And so, I hope that when I turn 30,
it doesn't mean that I'll go backwards.

793
00:43:55,132 --> 00:43:56,383
[helicopter whirring]

794
00:44:01,680 --> 00:44:03,641
[Andy] Being the number one American,

795
00:44:04,266 --> 00:44:05,517
it's an amazing thing.

796
00:44:06,185 --> 00:44:07,436
It's a dream come true.

797
00:44:08,729 --> 00:44:10,606
But there's a lot of pressure around it.

798
00:44:11,482 --> 00:44:15,110
The higher the stakes, the harder it gets,
the more responsibility.

799
00:44:16,111 --> 00:44:19,573
You become so invested
that it hurts when you don't win.

800
00:44:20,741 --> 00:44:23,952
And the psychological part of it
is brutal.

801
00:44:25,829 --> 00:44:28,415
The toughest moments of your life,
you're out there alone

802
00:44:29,416 --> 00:44:32,002
on an island by yourself,

803
00:44:33,253 --> 00:44:35,381
and it's a terrible place to be, you know,

804
00:44:35,464 --> 00:44:38,759
where you can't show it,
but you're feeling these insane emotions.

805
00:44:38,842 --> 00:44:41,011
[deep breath]

806
00:44:41,095 --> 00:44:44,682
[Andy] And the ugly part of it is
that it'll start a young age.

807
00:44:46,433 --> 00:44:48,435
At 12, you're like, "That guy's soft."

808
00:44:49,853 --> 00:44:51,063
You don't want that reputation.

809
00:44:53,273 --> 00:44:56,068
So I have a reputation
that I was pretty tough.

810
00:44:58,153 --> 00:45:01,031
But I just faked it real well.
I was super insecure.

811
00:45:01,115 --> 00:45:03,617
Terrible during Slams to be around.

812
00:45:05,077 --> 00:45:08,831
I have a hard time eating
a certain type of sports bar now

813
00:45:09,415 --> 00:45:12,793
because it makes me nervous,
'cause that's what I associate it with,

814
00:45:12,876 --> 00:45:15,379
and I can't actually swallow it.

815
00:45:16,213 --> 00:45:19,591
[director] We're gonna try
a picture on this. And action!

816
00:45:19,675 --> 00:45:20,718
[clapperboard strikes]

817
00:45:20,801 --> 00:45:22,344
[tense music plays]

818
00:45:24,179 --> 00:45:25,681
-[woman] Cut!
-[director] That's a cut.

819
00:45:25,764 --> 00:45:30,436
[Mardy] 2012, I had some different
opportunities now all of a sudden,

820
00:45:31,061 --> 00:45:33,689
not only to play some tournaments
I'd never played before,

821
00:45:33,772 --> 00:45:37,109
but the… the appearance fees
were a lot different.

822
00:45:37,192 --> 00:45:40,696
So we decided to pack my schedule early.

823
00:45:43,490 --> 00:45:46,368
I started the year leaving for Australia…

824
00:45:49,371 --> 00:45:50,789
and lost in the first round.

825
00:45:51,457 --> 00:45:54,251
[commentator] A disappointing result
for Mardy Fish.

826
00:45:54,334 --> 00:45:57,087
[Mardy] And then going back to LA
for about six days.

827
00:45:58,005 --> 00:46:00,090
Flying over to Switzerland for Davis Cup.

828
00:46:01,300 --> 00:46:02,384
Back for four days.

829
00:46:05,220 --> 00:46:08,724
Your body's like, "What the hell?
There's supposed to be sleep."

830
00:46:10,184 --> 00:46:12,019
And then all the way back to Marseille.

831
00:46:12,811 --> 00:46:14,438
The loss, first round in Marseille.

832
00:46:14,521 --> 00:46:16,648
[commentator] I don't know
what's going on with Mardy.

833
00:46:16,732 --> 00:46:18,442
Not playing the same level.

834
00:46:19,109 --> 00:46:20,402
[Mardy] Flying over to Dubai.

835
00:46:21,361 --> 00:46:24,823
Dubai, I started taking a ton of Ambien
just to try to get on time zones,

836
00:46:24,907 --> 00:46:26,909
but I lost the second round in Dubai.

837
00:46:26,992 --> 00:46:29,995
[commentator] He's top ten in the world.
Mardy should be winning.

838
00:46:30,078 --> 00:46:32,039
[Mardy] Now the stress
is starting to mount.

839
00:46:32,122 --> 00:46:33,582
Pressure is starting to mount.

840
00:46:35,042 --> 00:46:36,001
[yells indistinctly]

841
00:46:36,084 --> 00:46:38,378
[speaking indistinctly]

842
00:46:38,462 --> 00:46:40,589
[interviewer] What's happening
to US men's tennis?

843
00:46:40,672 --> 00:46:42,758
Obviously,
we're not doing very well right now.

844
00:46:42,841 --> 00:46:46,845
Mardy, it's a great effort
for him to reach the top ten,

845
00:46:46,929 --> 00:46:50,015
but we need to get better athletes,
we need to get hungrier players.

846
00:46:50,098 --> 00:46:52,810
Believe me,
we're wondering the same thing.

847
00:46:53,727 --> 00:46:58,899
All of the hopes and criticisms
of past number-one Americans,

848
00:46:58,982 --> 00:47:00,526
they were all heaped on Mardy.

849
00:47:00,609 --> 00:47:02,736
[reporter 1] Fish in a big hole.

850
00:47:02,820 --> 00:47:05,489
-[reporter 2] Fish struggles…
-[reporter 3] Continues to have trouble…

851
00:47:05,572 --> 00:47:07,658
[reporter 4]
Very disappointing for Mardy Fish.

852
00:47:07,741 --> 00:47:09,827
[interviewer] Ever wonder why
you're in the top ten?

853
00:47:11,203 --> 00:47:12,788
I won a lot of matches last year.

854
00:47:13,288 --> 00:47:18,460
So, um, I didn't just get to eight or nine
in the world by one week.

855
00:47:18,544 --> 00:47:23,215
Mardy wanted to win a Slam
and prove that American tennis was great.

856
00:47:23,298 --> 00:47:24,174
[man] Let's go, Mardy!

857
00:47:24,258 --> 00:47:26,635
[Mardy] I did everything
I could possibly do

858
00:47:26,718 --> 00:47:29,596
to be 100% perfect.

859
00:47:29,680 --> 00:47:30,889
No alcohol.

860
00:47:30,973 --> 00:47:32,099
Stay disciplined.

861
00:47:32,182 --> 00:47:34,726
Make sure you're eating correctly
every day.

862
00:47:35,269 --> 00:47:38,814
It feels like it never ends.
It just feels like it just keeps going.

863
00:47:40,232 --> 00:47:42,568
[Christian ]His mind
would fixate on something.

864
00:47:43,694 --> 00:47:46,363
He… He became a different person.

865
00:47:47,698 --> 00:47:50,117
It's almost like something snapped.

866
00:47:51,869 --> 00:47:55,914
I don't know if he spoke to you at all
about the first time in… in Miami.

867
00:47:57,082 --> 00:47:58,542
[Mardy] So we get to Miami,

868
00:47:59,293 --> 00:48:00,794
and things were off.

869
00:48:02,170 --> 00:48:04,006
My tennis wasn't necessarily off,

870
00:48:04,756 --> 00:48:06,300
but my mind was off.

871
00:48:06,383 --> 00:48:07,217
[grunts]

872
00:48:09,428 --> 00:48:11,430
[commentator] Another miss from Mardy.

873
00:48:13,223 --> 00:48:16,393
Mardy Fish can't play
much worse than that.

874
00:48:16,476 --> 00:48:18,937
I remember walking off the court.

875
00:48:19,730 --> 00:48:21,982
There was a TV in the locker room.

876
00:48:22,524 --> 00:48:26,278
It was on ESPN with Patrick McEnroe,
my Davis Cup captain.

877
00:48:26,361 --> 00:48:27,195
[inaudible]

878
00:48:27,279 --> 00:48:29,740
And I could hear as I walked in…

879
00:48:29,823 --> 00:48:32,993
[Patrick] Mardy Fish, just…
There's no other way to say it.

880
00:48:33,076 --> 00:48:34,870
Just a horrendous performance.

881
00:48:35,621 --> 00:48:38,248
I'm like, "Well, first of all,

882
00:48:38,332 --> 00:48:40,667
that's a horrendous take."

883
00:48:40,751 --> 00:48:43,253
And he started
going over and over this in his mind.

884
00:48:43,337 --> 00:48:44,755
[Patrick] …horrendous performance…

885
00:48:44,838 --> 00:48:47,841
And second of all, why would you say that?
You're my friend.

886
00:48:47,925 --> 00:48:50,886
You're my Davis Cup captain.
We've been through battles together.

887
00:48:50,969 --> 00:48:53,055
Just got bigger, bigger, bigger, bigger.

888
00:48:53,138 --> 00:48:54,973
And that's on national TV.

889
00:48:55,057 --> 00:48:57,017
So I heard it, and it hit hard.

890
00:48:57,100 --> 00:48:59,227
It was something that he couldn't control.

891
00:48:59,311 --> 00:49:01,146
Half of it, he's right.
Half of it, I'm like,

892
00:49:01,229 --> 00:49:03,899
"Maybe he's not the only one
saying that type of stuff."

893
00:49:03,982 --> 00:49:05,859
[Patrick] …horrendous performance…

894
00:49:10,155 --> 00:49:12,282
You know, that all weighed on me big-time.

895
00:49:13,492 --> 00:49:14,868
[rapid heartbeat]

896
00:49:14,952 --> 00:49:18,246
That night, I wake up at 3:00 a.m.,

897
00:49:18,330 --> 00:49:21,166
and my heart is just racing.

898
00:49:21,249 --> 00:49:23,335
-[rapid heartbeat]
-[panting]

899
00:49:23,418 --> 00:49:25,420
"Holy shit, am I having a heart attack?"

900
00:49:25,504 --> 00:49:26,755
"I can't stop this."

901
00:49:26,838 --> 00:49:29,925
"Honest to God, like, I think I'm…
I think I'm dying."

902
00:49:30,008 --> 00:49:31,176
-[rapid heartbeat]
-[panting]

903
00:49:31,259 --> 00:49:33,553
So I call Christian.
He doesn't answer the first time.

904
00:49:33,637 --> 00:49:37,349
Call him again. Doesn't answer.
Call him a third time. Just nonstop.

905
00:49:37,432 --> 00:49:38,517
Mardy woke me up.

906
00:49:38,600 --> 00:49:40,560
He was terrified. I was scared as well.

907
00:49:40,644 --> 00:49:42,813
So we had to call the ambulance
and go to the hospital.

908
00:49:43,480 --> 00:49:45,232
[Mardy] They put me on the EKG.

909
00:49:45,315 --> 00:49:48,068
My heart rate was 240 beats per minute.

910
00:49:48,151 --> 00:49:50,195
I've never seen it above 192.

911
00:49:51,905 --> 00:49:55,534
The doctors checked me out, and they said,
"We think we know what it is."

912
00:49:55,617 --> 00:49:58,370
"It's a thing called tachycardia."

913
00:49:59,663 --> 00:50:01,581
There's electricity around your heart.

914
00:50:01,665 --> 00:50:04,084
When those malfunction,
they just fire uncontrolled.

915
00:50:06,211 --> 00:50:09,756
There's a small procedure
that you can do called an ablation.

916
00:50:11,133 --> 00:50:13,343
They put you under for hours and hours.

917
00:50:13,427 --> 00:50:16,138
They go through your groin
and up to your heart.

918
00:50:17,139 --> 00:50:18,223
It was successful.

919
00:50:19,433 --> 00:50:21,643
I had a full checkout.

920
00:50:21,727 --> 00:50:23,437
I was 100% healthy.

921
00:50:23,520 --> 00:50:26,314
They figured out exactly
where the problem was coming from,

922
00:50:26,398 --> 00:50:28,066
and they fixed that problem.

923
00:50:28,150 --> 00:50:32,070
But it turned out there was
something bigger going on underneath.

924
00:50:37,200 --> 00:50:38,994
[Mardy] After the procedure,

925
00:50:39,077 --> 00:50:42,080
that was the first time that I felt

926
00:50:43,040 --> 00:50:45,042
these uncomfortable thoughts.

927
00:50:47,586 --> 00:50:51,173
I wasn't aware of what they were or why.

928
00:50:53,800 --> 00:50:58,263
I had never been around anyone
with any mental health issue.

929
00:50:59,890 --> 00:51:02,642
I just… I didn't know where to go with it.

930
00:51:05,353 --> 00:51:07,981
And no one knew what I was going through,

931
00:51:09,357 --> 00:51:14,571
'cause I had trained myself
to show no weakness.

932
00:51:16,907 --> 00:51:19,117
And that was something
that I was proud of.

933
00:51:21,203 --> 00:51:23,497
But leading up till the US Open,

934
00:51:24,873 --> 00:51:28,376
the thoughts were coming
more and more and more.

935
00:51:30,087 --> 00:51:32,464
Every three days, to every two days,

936
00:51:32,547 --> 00:51:36,301
to every day, to every hour.

937
00:51:39,012 --> 00:51:43,433
But telling other people about it
was showing weakness.

938
00:51:44,684 --> 00:51:46,144
[cameras clicking]

939
00:51:46,228 --> 00:51:48,980
And I didn't know how to handle that.

940
00:51:49,064 --> 00:51:52,275
[cameras clicking]

941
00:51:55,028 --> 00:51:57,197
So I just always kept it inside.

942
00:51:57,906 --> 00:52:01,284
[reflective music playing]

943
00:52:11,586 --> 00:52:13,922
[Andy] The 2012 US Open
is a weird tournament.

944
00:52:14,673 --> 00:52:17,384
For me, it's like, "I can't do
another year of this. It's hard."

945
00:52:17,467 --> 00:52:20,428
"I can't physically prepare again.
I can't mentally prepare again."

946
00:52:20,512 --> 00:52:23,265
So I… I walked away from a career.

947
00:52:24,099 --> 00:52:27,310
All right. Well, thank you all
for, uh… for coming. Um…

948
00:52:28,353 --> 00:52:30,355
I'll, uh, make this short and sweet. Uh…

949
00:52:30,438 --> 00:52:33,692
I've decided that this is gonna be,
uh, my last tournament.

950
00:52:34,526 --> 00:52:36,403
[reporter] You're 30
and 30 is not that old.

951
00:52:36,486 --> 00:52:39,030
Obviously, Federer is 31.

952
00:52:39,114 --> 00:52:42,325
In a sense, you're sort of
retiring early, no?

953
00:52:42,409 --> 00:52:44,411
I didn't wanna make it
through this press conference

954
00:52:44,494 --> 00:52:46,955
without a direct comparison to Roger,
so thank you for that.

955
00:52:47,038 --> 00:52:47,873
[laughter]

956
00:52:47,956 --> 00:52:50,625
Frankly, these guys have gotten
really, really, really good,

957
00:52:50,709 --> 00:52:54,588
and, um, you know, I'm not sure that, um…

958
00:52:55,422 --> 00:52:59,342
with compromised health that…
that I can do what I wanna do right now.

959
00:53:00,635 --> 00:53:03,263
I look back on that tournament,
I have a little bit of guilt

960
00:53:03,346 --> 00:53:05,432
'cause I'm kind of taking a victory lap,

961
00:53:05,515 --> 00:53:09,019
and I don't know that I knew the depths
of what Mardy was going through.

962
00:53:09,102 --> 00:53:12,063
I don't know that I completely understood
what was going on.

963
00:53:15,275 --> 00:53:16,985
[Mardy] Once we got to New York,

964
00:53:17,485 --> 00:53:20,113
my mind had completely consumed me,

965
00:53:22,115 --> 00:53:23,658
all day of every day.

966
00:53:26,036 --> 00:53:27,871
And then Andy retired.

967
00:53:27,954 --> 00:53:31,166
Are you surprised
that he's calling it here at the Open?

968
00:53:31,249 --> 00:53:32,959
Did this catch you off guard at all?

969
00:53:33,043 --> 00:53:37,255
Uh, yeah. I mean, you know, look,
we all have, uh, doubts,

970
00:53:37,339 --> 00:53:40,008
and I never really was able to… to realize

971
00:53:40,091 --> 00:53:43,011
exactly how much pressure
he's always been under

972
00:53:43,094 --> 00:53:44,512
at a tournament like this

973
00:53:44,596 --> 00:53:47,265
until last year
when I came in as the top American,

974
00:53:47,349 --> 00:53:49,226
and he's handled that incredibly well

975
00:53:49,309 --> 00:53:52,103
without even telling us,
um, how bad it is.

976
00:53:52,187 --> 00:53:53,146
[crowd cheering]

977
00:53:53,230 --> 00:53:56,399
[commentator] Possibly the final point
of Andy Roddick's career.

978
00:54:05,408 --> 00:54:06,701
[crowd exclaims]

979
00:54:06,785 --> 00:54:09,037
[announcer] Game, set, match, del Potro.

980
00:54:09,829 --> 00:54:11,539
[cheering and applause]

981
00:54:11,623 --> 00:54:13,625
[man] Andy, it's your moment.

982
00:54:14,125 --> 00:54:15,877
-It's your microphone.
-[chuckles]

983
00:54:16,878 --> 00:54:17,754
Oh, wow.

984
00:54:18,922 --> 00:54:21,883
Since I was a kid, uh,
I've been coming to this tournament,

985
00:54:21,967 --> 00:54:24,344
and I felt lucky just to…

986
00:54:24,427 --> 00:54:27,639
to sit where all of you are sitting today
and to watch this game,

987
00:54:27,722 --> 00:54:31,017
and to see the champions
that have come and gone, and, uh…

988
00:54:32,310 --> 00:54:35,272
[voice breaking]
I… I've loved every minute of it, and, um…

989
00:54:36,189 --> 00:54:37,023
[chuckles]

990
00:54:37,107 --> 00:54:38,608
[cheering and applause]

991
00:54:43,863 --> 00:54:47,742
Thank you for everything. I love you,
and thank you, guys. Thank you.

992
00:54:47,826 --> 00:54:49,703
[cheering and applause]

993
00:55:03,258 --> 00:55:06,928
[Mardy] Third round, they scheduled me
for a night match on Arthur Ashe Stadium

994
00:55:07,012 --> 00:55:10,932
when, like, they only scheduled
the big boys for night matches.

995
00:55:12,475 --> 00:55:16,438
And it's not because I'm playing Federer
or Roddick or Nadal.

996
00:55:18,023 --> 00:55:19,107
It was because of me.

997
00:55:20,775 --> 00:55:23,236
That year, people were excited for Mardy.

998
00:55:24,154 --> 00:55:27,073
[reporter] It's been years since
an American won the men's singles title.

999
00:55:27,157 --> 00:55:30,327
Are there any men with a chance
to bring home the title this year?

1000
00:55:30,410 --> 00:55:32,620
[reporter 2] Mardy Fish.
He's has been around for a while,

1001
00:55:32,704 --> 00:55:33,872
but he's playing great tennis

1002
00:55:33,955 --> 00:55:35,832
and ready to win the US Open title.

1003
00:55:35,915 --> 00:55:38,668
If you're a fan of American tennis,
root for Mardy Fish.

1004
00:55:38,752 --> 00:55:39,669
[both] Mardy Fish.

1005
00:55:39,753 --> 00:55:41,921
Yeah, he's the last one standing!

1006
00:55:42,005 --> 00:55:45,133
[Kevin] All these trailers that are set up
or all the TV trailers,

1007
00:55:45,216 --> 00:55:46,301
the US was watching.

1008
00:55:46,384 --> 00:55:47,677
The world was watching.

1009
00:55:49,012 --> 00:55:52,766
[commentator] It's night at the US Open.
American players love the nights.

1010
00:55:52,849 --> 00:55:55,060
We have seen so much drama
through the years,

1011
00:55:55,143 --> 00:55:57,771
-so much electricity in these moments.
-Yeah.

1012
00:55:57,854 --> 00:56:00,607
Mardy Fish has worked awfully hard
to get into these moments.

1013
00:56:00,690 --> 00:56:04,069
He's seen Andy Roddick, his great friend,
have so many moments like this.

1014
00:56:04,152 --> 00:56:08,031
And now he'll turn up the energy.
It's go time here.

1015
00:56:08,990 --> 00:56:12,369
[announcer] Ladies and gentlemen,
please welcome the players.

1016
00:56:12,452 --> 00:56:17,374
Mardy Fish and Gilles Simon.

1017
00:56:17,457 --> 00:56:19,376
[cheering and applause]

1018
00:56:20,543 --> 00:56:23,046
-[fan cheers]
-[fans] Let's go, Mardy! Let's go!

1019
00:56:23,129 --> 00:56:24,005
[rhythmic clapping]

1020
00:56:24,089 --> 00:56:26,007
[fans] Let's go, Mardy! Let's go!

1021
00:56:26,091 --> 00:56:27,384
[rhythmic clapping]

1022
00:56:27,467 --> 00:56:29,010
[fan] Go, Mardy!

1023
00:56:29,094 --> 00:56:30,303
[grunts]

1024
00:56:31,930 --> 00:56:33,723
[crowd exclaims]

1025
00:56:34,974 --> 00:56:36,267
[applause]

1026
00:56:44,484 --> 00:56:46,694
[crowd exclaims]

1027
00:56:46,778 --> 00:56:48,780
[yells] Fuck! Fuck!

1028
00:56:48,863 --> 00:56:53,159
It was a really stressful,
emotional roller coaster-type match.

1029
00:56:53,243 --> 00:56:54,702
[crowd cheering]

1030
00:56:56,037 --> 00:56:57,330
[inaudible]

1031
00:56:58,081 --> 00:57:00,083
One of those matches
where you're just on edge.

1032
00:57:00,166 --> 00:57:01,668
[crowd] Oh!

1033
00:57:01,751 --> 00:57:03,503
[applause]

1034
00:57:03,586 --> 00:57:05,130
But again, I'm playing well.

1035
00:57:07,632 --> 00:57:09,926
I'm not having
any of these thoughts on the court.

1036
00:57:10,593 --> 00:57:12,220
You know, that's my safe haven.

1037
00:57:13,513 --> 00:57:14,639
[crowd cheering]

1038
00:57:14,722 --> 00:57:16,266
[yells]

1039
00:57:16,349 --> 00:57:17,934
[fans] Let's go, Mardy!

1040
00:57:18,017 --> 00:57:20,979
[Mardy] That was the first time
I started truly believing

1041
00:57:21,062 --> 00:57:22,897
I could win this Grand Slam.

1042
00:57:24,566 --> 00:57:26,568
[crowd cheering]

1043
00:57:27,193 --> 00:57:28,987
[crowd exclaims, cheers]

1044
00:57:29,654 --> 00:57:31,448
[fans] Let's go, Mardy!

1045
00:57:32,282 --> 00:57:35,160
[Mardy] I eventually win the third set
in a breaker,

1046
00:57:35,743 --> 00:57:37,912
and I sit down at the changeover,

1047
00:57:38,496 --> 00:57:40,248
and I calm down just a little bit.

1048
00:57:42,208 --> 00:57:45,211
And for some reason,
I glance at the time clock.

1049
00:57:45,295 --> 00:57:46,504
[tense droning]

1050
00:57:46,588 --> 00:57:48,590
It says 1:15.

1051
00:57:49,174 --> 00:57:50,967
"Oh man, it's so late."

1052
00:57:51,593 --> 00:57:54,971
"We're only in the fourth set.
This is gonna take forever."

1053
00:57:55,054 --> 00:57:58,516
"I'm not gonna get to bed till 4:00 a.m.,
and that's only if I win this set."

1054
00:58:01,769 --> 00:58:03,062
And then all of a sudden,

1055
00:58:03,855 --> 00:58:04,981
like, out of nowhere,

1056
00:58:06,399 --> 00:58:07,442
just… boom!

1057
00:58:10,361 --> 00:58:11,988
"Oh no."

1058
00:58:12,071 --> 00:58:15,074
This is the first time
that this has happened on the court.

1059
00:58:15,909 --> 00:58:20,622
Just the whole weight of the stress
came flooding in.

1060
00:58:20,705 --> 00:58:21,748
"My body doesn't feel…"

1061
00:58:21,831 --> 00:58:22,916
"Am I gonna get sick?"

1062
00:58:22,999 --> 00:58:25,376
"My health is gonna go…"
"Should go to the hospital…"

1063
00:58:25,460 --> 00:58:27,337
"Heart attack?" "Did I eat too much?"

1064
00:58:27,420 --> 00:58:29,464
"Did I eat too little?"
"Did I get enough sleep?"

1065
00:58:29,547 --> 00:58:31,257
Just nonstop thoughts.

1066
00:58:31,341 --> 00:58:32,675
I can't stop this.

1067
00:58:32,759 --> 00:58:34,552
[overlapping indistinct thoughts]

1068
00:58:34,636 --> 00:58:38,097
There's tens of thousands of people
watching in the stands and on TV.

1069
00:58:38,181 --> 00:58:40,266
[overlapping indistinct thoughts]

1070
00:58:40,350 --> 00:58:43,061
There was nowhere to go,
and there was no hiding.

1071
00:58:43,144 --> 00:58:45,563
[crowd chanting] Mardy! Mardy! Mardy!

1072
00:58:45,647 --> 00:58:46,940
[Mardy] I was all of a sudden…

1073
00:58:47,023 --> 00:58:48,191
[silence]

1074
00:58:48,274 --> 00:58:49,275
…all alone.

1075
00:58:54,239 --> 00:58:56,366
["Five day Morning"
by The Clientele plays]

1076
00:58:56,449 --> 00:58:59,786
♪ Mrs. Jones and I
Were dreaming of the moon ♪

1077
00:58:59,869 --> 00:59:04,582
[Mardy] My only safe place was now taken.

1078
00:59:06,042 --> 00:59:08,920
But deep down, you can't…
you can't show it.

1079
00:59:09,420 --> 00:59:12,465
[man] Mental toughness
is 100% fighting effort.

1080
00:59:12,549 --> 00:59:15,969
No whining, no complaining,
no escape routes.

1081
00:59:16,469 --> 00:59:18,471
[Mardy] I have to keep playing.

1082
00:59:18,555 --> 00:59:20,473
[cheering and applause]

1083
00:59:21,975 --> 00:59:25,520
I remember looking at Christian,
and we both knew something was wrong

1084
00:59:25,603 --> 00:59:26,980
and he wasn't himself.

1085
00:59:27,063 --> 00:59:29,482
["Five Day Morning" continues playing]

1086
00:59:29,566 --> 00:59:34,946
[Mardy] I don't remember anything
of the rest of the match.

1087
00:59:35,029 --> 00:59:38,157
[overlapping indistinct thoughts]

1088
00:59:38,241 --> 00:59:39,867
Which is mind-blowing.

1089
00:59:39,951 --> 00:59:42,328
[overlapping indistinct thoughts]

1090
00:59:44,247 --> 00:59:45,582
[applause]

1091
00:59:46,749 --> 00:59:48,751
[overlapping indistinct thoughts]

1092
00:59:49,794 --> 00:59:51,212
[cheering]

1093
00:59:53,715 --> 00:59:57,302
[Mardy] I'm surprised the last few games
went the way they did.

1094
01:00:01,347 --> 01:00:04,559
'Cause I was just in another zone,
on another planet.

1095
01:00:12,734 --> 01:00:15,320
-[cheering]
-[commentator] Game, set, and match, Fish.

1096
01:00:15,403 --> 01:00:18,615
6-1, 5-7, 7-6, 6-3.

1097
01:00:19,782 --> 01:00:21,701
[Mardy] Justin Gimelstob was the sideline.

1098
01:00:21,784 --> 01:00:23,911
All I remember saying
was, like, "Please hurry."

1099
01:00:23,995 --> 01:00:25,747
Please hurry. I'm not feeling well.

1100
01:00:28,124 --> 01:00:30,126
[interviewer]
Roger Federer moving forward.

1101
01:00:30,209 --> 01:00:32,962
What will you need to do
to be competitive and try and beat him?

1102
01:00:33,046 --> 01:00:36,799
Uh, I have no idea right now,
uh, to be honest. Uh…

1103
01:00:36,883 --> 01:00:38,843
A lot more than I did today. Um…

1104
01:00:38,926 --> 01:00:42,430
But we'll try to rest as best we can
and see what we can do.

1105
01:00:42,513 --> 01:00:44,515
[interviewer]
Mardy, thanks a lot. Well done.

1106
01:00:44,599 --> 01:00:46,017
[crowd cheering]

1107
01:00:50,480 --> 01:00:54,025
[Christian] To play Roger at the US Open

1108
01:00:54,108 --> 01:00:57,070
on Center Court
to get to the quarterfinal,

1109
01:00:57,153 --> 01:01:00,073
this is what the number-one-ranked
American player does.

1110
01:01:00,156 --> 01:01:02,659
Something he kind of had worked
his whole life to get to

1111
01:01:02,742 --> 01:01:05,870
and have the opportunity to play.
It's like a tennis player's dream.

1112
01:01:06,788 --> 01:01:08,706
[reporter] It's Labor Day
at the US Open,

1113
01:01:08,790 --> 01:01:12,335
and here in New York, it's a day
when champions will be hard at work.

1114
01:01:12,418 --> 01:01:15,421
Roger Federer against American Mardy Fish,

1115
01:01:15,505 --> 01:01:17,632
and we'll return to CBS after this word.

1116
01:01:17,715 --> 01:01:20,259
[tense music playing]

1117
01:01:20,343 --> 01:01:24,097
[Mardy] I wake up the next day thinking,
"How am I gonna get through this?"

1118
01:01:24,180 --> 01:01:30,019
Trying desperately to figure out a way
to just stop having these thoughts.

1119
01:01:30,520 --> 01:01:31,854
It kinda just all came out

1120
01:01:31,938 --> 01:01:35,817
that he was grappling with thoughts
that were, you know, disturbing him.

1121
01:01:35,900 --> 01:01:37,151
And he was scared.

1122
01:01:38,736 --> 01:01:40,071
[reporter] And there he is.

1123
01:01:40,154 --> 01:01:43,282
World number one Roger Federer
arriving for his match

1124
01:01:43,366 --> 01:01:45,785
against American hopeful Mardy Fish.

1125
01:01:47,286 --> 01:01:52,291
It was tough for me to sit back and know
that my friend was going through this,

1126
01:01:52,375 --> 01:01:55,837
so I shared my difficulties
that I had in my life with him.

1127
01:01:55,920 --> 01:01:57,088
And…

1128
01:01:58,798 --> 01:02:00,675
I remember Christian saying…

1129
01:02:00,758 --> 01:02:03,886
I had depression, anxiety issues myself,

1130
01:02:03,970 --> 01:02:06,347
and how I had taken medication,

1131
01:02:06,889 --> 01:02:09,350
and it may be helpful for him.

1132
01:02:09,434 --> 01:02:11,602
I just gave him a hug,

1133
01:02:11,686 --> 01:02:14,230
reassure him
that everything would be all right.

1134
01:02:15,815 --> 01:02:18,818
[Mardy] My wife and I get into the car,
ride to Arthur Ashe Stadium.

1135
01:02:19,402 --> 01:02:21,696
The thoughts just start
flooding back again.

1136
01:02:23,781 --> 01:02:26,284
[Stacey] I was just scared
for his well-being.

1137
01:02:27,160 --> 01:02:29,120
His eyes were filled with tears,

1138
01:02:29,203 --> 01:02:32,540
and I remember just reaching over
and holding his hand and saying,

1139
01:02:32,623 --> 01:02:34,083
"You don't have to play."

1140
01:02:36,043 --> 01:02:39,046
"What do you mean,
'You don't have to play'? I gotta pl--"

1141
01:02:39,130 --> 01:02:40,298
"I have to play."

1142
01:02:41,632 --> 01:02:43,259
I had physically and mentally

1143
01:02:43,342 --> 01:02:46,053
and emotionally trained my whole life
for that moment.

1144
01:02:47,221 --> 01:02:50,057
The thought of pulling out
was just unheard of.

1145
01:02:50,641 --> 01:02:52,769
I started thinking for a second. I'm like,

1146
01:02:53,478 --> 01:02:55,938
"Wait a minute. I don't have to play."

1147
01:02:57,356 --> 01:02:59,609
[Sally] We were all sitting,
waiting to go in.

1148
01:03:00,610 --> 01:03:02,862
We got a text from Stacey
saying they were coming,

1149
01:03:02,945 --> 01:03:04,781
but something was going on,

1150
01:03:05,573 --> 01:03:08,201
and then I remembered
Justin Gimelstob saying,

1151
01:03:09,076 --> 01:03:12,288
"If Mardy doesn't play this match,
CBS is gonna kill somebody."

1152
01:03:12,789 --> 01:03:16,042
And I remember thinking,
"Oh my God," you know.

1153
01:03:16,751 --> 01:03:18,336
"What's happened here?"

1154
01:03:18,961 --> 01:03:20,546
[reporter] We're getting official word

1155
01:03:20,630 --> 01:03:23,090
that Roger Federer-Mardy Fish match
is not gonna happen.

1156
01:03:23,174 --> 01:03:24,759
Mardy Fish has withdrawn.

1157
01:03:25,635 --> 01:03:31,224
We got to the court and told the USTA
I actually wasn't gonna play this match.

1158
01:03:33,184 --> 01:03:37,313
And I just broke down
right there in front of everyone.

1159
01:03:39,607 --> 01:03:42,318
Tennis had just been
taken away from me completely,

1160
01:03:42,819 --> 01:03:47,114
and, uh, it all
just kinda came out right there.

1161
01:03:49,075 --> 01:03:51,619
[sportscaster] Mardy Fish, who was
scheduled to face Roger Federer,

1162
01:03:51,702 --> 01:03:53,412
withdrew due to health concerns…

1163
01:03:53,496 --> 01:03:56,582
How is this all manifesting itself
to the point where he has to withdraw

1164
01:03:56,666 --> 01:03:58,960
from a potential shot
at getting to the quarterfinal?

1165
01:03:59,043 --> 01:04:01,671
It is symbolic he's playing
one of the biggest matches of his career

1166
01:04:01,754 --> 01:04:03,297
against the greatest player of all time,

1167
01:04:03,381 --> 01:04:06,050
where expectations
should be at an all-time low,

1168
01:04:06,133 --> 01:04:08,052
and he couldn't even take the court.

1169
01:04:09,428 --> 01:04:12,849
[Kevin] I remember looking in his eyes.
That was not a tennis player.

1170
01:04:13,683 --> 01:04:15,601
This wasn't performance anxiety.

1171
01:04:15,685 --> 01:04:18,771
This wasn't, you know, composure.

1172
01:04:18,855 --> 01:04:22,358
Like, this was something
that was, you know,

1173
01:04:23,693 --> 01:04:24,610
wrong.

1174
01:04:29,657 --> 01:04:31,367
[Mardy] My life at that time,

1175
01:04:32,034 --> 01:04:33,160
it was a living hell.

1176
01:04:33,828 --> 01:04:36,914
I was in so much pain mentally.

1177
01:04:36,998 --> 01:04:39,917
All I wanna do
is just curl up in a dark room

1178
01:04:40,001 --> 01:04:42,920
and, like, just not see the world.

1179
01:04:45,298 --> 01:04:46,924
I sat in my house for…

1180
01:04:47,758 --> 01:04:52,179
for months, um, without leaving.

1181
01:04:55,099 --> 01:04:57,184
[Tom] He was having
full-blown panic attacks,

1182
01:04:57,268 --> 01:04:59,812
and he couldn't get out of bed, basically.

1183
01:04:59,896 --> 01:05:01,564
I mean, he was just so far gone.

1184
01:05:01,647 --> 01:05:04,317
It was scary how bad he was.

1185
01:05:06,611 --> 01:05:07,778
You know…

1186
01:05:07,862 --> 01:05:10,406
You know, "What's happening here?"
You know?

1187
01:05:10,489 --> 01:05:12,241
Forget the tennis.

1188
01:05:12,325 --> 01:05:14,118
Can this kid get better?

1189
01:05:14,201 --> 01:05:16,621
Can… Can he lead the rest of his life?

1190
01:05:17,580 --> 01:05:21,334
[Stacey] It was heartbreaking
to see this side of Mardy

1191
01:05:21,417 --> 01:05:23,502
that I had never seen before,

1192
01:05:24,003 --> 01:05:27,924
and we just didn't know
would he ever be back to his normal self.

1193
01:05:28,007 --> 01:05:30,718
It was, like,
a scary possibility and question.

1194
01:05:31,552 --> 01:05:34,305
His family were asking me,
"Is this gonna be all right?"

1195
01:05:34,388 --> 01:05:35,973
And I'd be like, "Yes,"

1196
01:05:36,057 --> 01:05:38,434
and I'd close the door,
and I'd be like, "Shit!"

1197
01:05:38,517 --> 01:05:40,811
We didn't know
if we had to put him in the hospital.

1198
01:05:41,771 --> 01:05:44,440
So I just said I'd go out there
and see what I can do.

1199
01:05:45,650 --> 01:05:47,151
I mean, he couldn't talk.

1200
01:05:47,818 --> 01:05:51,989
So we played catch
'cause that was something he did as a kid.

1201
01:05:52,949 --> 01:05:54,075
Gave him comfort.

1202
01:05:54,825 --> 01:05:58,788
And we were, you know,
really worried about him at that stage.

1203
01:05:59,538 --> 01:06:01,207
[somber music playing]

1204
01:06:02,625 --> 01:06:05,503
[Mardy] I would start thinking
the worst of things

1205
01:06:06,754 --> 01:06:08,589
and needed professional help.

1206
01:06:09,715 --> 01:06:10,716
Eventually,

1207
01:06:10,800 --> 01:06:12,802
we found, actually, um,

1208
01:06:13,344 --> 01:06:15,179
a child psychologist.

1209
01:06:16,180 --> 01:06:17,890
The first time I saw him,

1210
01:06:17,974 --> 01:06:22,269
he told me, "You have a case
of severe anxiety disorder."

1211
01:06:22,353 --> 01:06:23,980
"Incredibly severe."

1212
01:06:25,356 --> 01:06:28,859
I started by seeing him every day,
seven days a week.

1213
01:06:29,777 --> 01:06:33,781
He prescribed me some medication,
we did some meditation,

1214
01:06:35,157 --> 01:06:38,869
and talked me through how to change
the narrative of my thought process

1215
01:06:38,953 --> 01:06:40,997
when it went into bad places.

1216
01:06:42,248 --> 01:06:46,627
[Christian] It turned out the racing
heart rate was the symptom of his anxiety.

1217
01:06:47,169 --> 01:06:48,587
Once he got anxious enough,

1218
01:06:48,671 --> 01:06:51,424
then his heart would beat too quickly
in that one area.

1219
01:06:51,507 --> 01:06:54,635
That'd make him a little bit nervous,
and then it'd go up a bit more.

1220
01:06:54,719 --> 01:06:55,886
It'd self-fulfill itself.

1221
01:06:57,888 --> 01:07:00,391
[Mardy] How can I take
what I've learned in tennis,

1222
01:07:00,474 --> 01:07:02,560
in the mental side of the game,

1223
01:07:02,643 --> 01:07:04,270
see if that gives me a leg up?

1224
01:07:04,854 --> 01:07:07,982
And it turns out
a lot of things I thought were similar

1225
01:07:08,065 --> 01:07:09,650
were maybe almost the opposite.

1226
01:07:10,568 --> 01:07:14,864
Talking about what I was dealing with
made me feel better.

1227
01:07:14,947 --> 01:07:19,160
Talking about it to the doctors,
to my wife, family, friends

1228
01:07:19,660 --> 01:07:21,287
eventually helped me.

1229
01:07:22,121 --> 01:07:27,126
And so, ironically,
showing weakness and showing fear

1230
01:07:27,209 --> 01:07:29,879
and… and letting people in

1231
01:07:29,962 --> 01:07:31,881
was a huge, uh…

1232
01:07:33,049 --> 01:07:35,217
a huge part of my comeback.

1233
01:07:35,301 --> 01:07:36,343
[inaudible]

1234
01:07:41,932 --> 01:07:45,978
When I retired, I was a shadow
of what the best version of myself was

1235
01:07:46,062 --> 01:07:47,396
on the tennis court.

1236
01:07:47,480 --> 01:07:49,815
When Mardy left,

1237
01:07:49,899 --> 01:07:52,860
he was arguably
the best version of himself.

1238
01:07:53,360 --> 01:07:55,237
That has to be torture.

1239
01:07:55,738 --> 01:08:00,034
But I think I probably was
the best version of myself as a friend,

1240
01:08:00,117 --> 01:08:02,328
um, once I wasn't playing anymore.

1241
01:08:04,205 --> 01:08:05,831
I'm not much of a phone talker.

1242
01:08:06,916 --> 01:08:10,503
But with Mardy, we'd call each other
every other week and talk for 20 minutes.

1243
01:08:11,003 --> 01:08:13,714
I always like to throw
a little kind of bait.

1244
01:08:13,798 --> 01:08:16,509
You know, "God, man, you could…
you could still play."

1245
01:08:16,592 --> 01:08:18,844
"You could…
you could probably still do it."

1246
01:08:18,928 --> 01:08:21,889
He didn't want to. "I don't wanna play.
I'm not even close to it,"

1247
01:08:21,972 --> 01:08:24,558
and that was the conversation
for a couple of years.

1248
01:08:26,102 --> 01:08:27,228
Then it changed a bit.

1249
01:08:28,187 --> 01:08:30,147
[Mardy] Andy was already retired,

1250
01:08:30,231 --> 01:08:33,901
but he said, "Wouldn't it be cool
if we could play doubles one more time?"

1251
01:08:34,610 --> 01:08:36,695
I was like,
"That'd be cool. Let's do that."

1252
01:08:37,488 --> 01:08:40,032
So we ended up playing doubles in Atlanta.

1253
01:08:40,116 --> 01:08:42,827
[Andy] "If you do this, I'll show up too."

1254
01:08:42,910 --> 01:08:45,121
"You make an ass of yourself,
hey, I'll do it with you."

1255
01:08:45,204 --> 01:08:48,207
[laughs] "Let's… let's… let's…
let's jump in the deep end together."

1256
01:08:48,290 --> 01:08:50,668
In a couple of weeks,
you'll get back on the court.

1257
01:08:50,751 --> 01:08:52,169
-[laughs] Yeah.
-With Mardy Fish.

1258
01:08:52,253 --> 01:08:54,588
-Yeah. Mardy is…
-Childhood friend, as you say.

1259
01:08:54,672 --> 01:08:57,675
Childhood friend. Was a great--
Still is a great tennis player.

1260
01:08:57,758 --> 01:09:01,095
Um, we never got that chance
to play one last time.

1261
01:09:01,178 --> 01:09:03,264
He's gonna try
to make a go of it this summer,

1262
01:09:03,347 --> 01:09:05,850
and I'm just so proud
that he's trying to get back.

1263
01:09:07,685 --> 01:09:10,896
[Andy] You know, it was
a complex relationship for a long time.

1264
01:09:10,980 --> 01:09:13,941
It was competitive,
and there was ego, and…

1265
01:09:15,484 --> 01:09:20,364
I was probably worse about that
than he was, frankly, but, um, you know…

1266
01:09:21,448 --> 01:09:24,410
He, uh, has been nice enough
to kinda get me back out here,

1267
01:09:24,493 --> 01:09:28,998
and, um, it's been a goal of ours
to try to play one more time together.

1268
01:09:31,834 --> 01:09:33,836
[Andy] It was… It was so much fun.

1269
01:09:33,919 --> 01:09:34,962
We had a blast.

1270
01:09:37,006 --> 01:09:40,384
It was like a tennis version
of having a beer together. [chuckles]

1271
01:09:41,468 --> 01:09:44,638
[Mardy] I remember saying,
"This is pretty damn cool."

1272
01:09:46,599 --> 01:09:49,977
We went through
life's experiences together.

1273
01:09:50,769 --> 01:09:52,563
We played each other
when we were 12.

1274
01:09:52,646 --> 01:09:54,815
[Andy] Us coming from training
at that apartment complex

1275
01:09:54,899 --> 01:09:57,943
and my dad waking us up
at ridiculous hours.

1276
01:09:58,027 --> 01:10:00,988
[Mardy] At one point,
we were both top ten in the world.

1277
01:10:01,071 --> 01:10:06,327
Ultimately, the number one player
at our profession in our country.

1278
01:10:08,495 --> 01:10:10,456
[Mardy] And we won a round,

1279
01:10:11,207 --> 01:10:12,541
which was, um…

1280
01:10:13,125 --> 01:10:15,544
which was an upset of the… of the century.

1281
01:10:17,546 --> 01:10:20,466
Thankfully, when we lost,
I was done all over again.

1282
01:10:20,549 --> 01:10:24,720
But he went on to, uh,
have a pretty cool summer in 2015.

1283
01:10:26,055 --> 01:10:28,515
[man] This tape is about mental toughness.

1284
01:10:29,016 --> 01:10:32,186
Deep down, it really ate at me

1285
01:10:32,269 --> 01:10:34,772
that I could never get back
to the US Open.

1286
01:10:35,773 --> 01:10:36,857
[man] Follow the steps…

1287
01:10:36,941 --> 01:10:38,984
[Mardy] It wasn't about winning.

1288
01:10:39,068 --> 01:10:41,612
I didn't really care about that part.

1289
01:10:41,695 --> 01:10:43,739
I had a different purpose.

1290
01:10:43,822 --> 01:10:46,867
Going back and conquering the demons

1291
01:10:46,951 --> 01:10:51,288
that took everything away from me
and changed my life forever.

1292
01:10:52,498 --> 01:10:57,002
But I still hadn't come out
about my issues with mental health.

1293
01:10:58,128 --> 01:11:03,592
So I thought it was a perfect time
to sorta tell my story.

1294
01:11:03,676 --> 01:11:07,846
There was kind of a family discussion
whether he should come out with it.

1295
01:11:07,930 --> 01:11:10,516
Everybody wasn't sure
about how it would impact his…

1296
01:11:10,599 --> 01:11:11,642
like, his career.

1297
01:11:11,725 --> 01:11:14,436
There was some debate
as to whether or not he should do it.

1298
01:11:14,520 --> 01:11:17,690
Mardy wanted to do it. I thought
it would be good for him to do it.

1299
01:11:17,773 --> 01:11:21,151
Some other people
had discouraged him from doing it.

1300
01:11:21,235 --> 01:11:22,152
You're…

1301
01:11:23,404 --> 01:11:24,655
exposing your weakness,

1302
01:11:24,738 --> 01:11:26,490
and a weakness isn't…

1303
01:11:26,991 --> 01:11:28,534
Not good for an athlete.

1304
01:11:28,617 --> 01:11:31,328
Look, I love sports.

1305
01:11:31,870 --> 01:11:34,206
Um, I've loved sports my whole life.

1306
01:11:34,290 --> 01:11:36,500
When I was going through
this whole process,

1307
01:11:36,583 --> 01:11:39,420
I didn't really have
a success story I could find

1308
01:11:39,503 --> 01:11:42,715
where a world-class athlete
had mental health issues

1309
01:11:42,798 --> 01:11:43,966
and then came back,

1310
01:11:44,049 --> 01:11:45,926
and came back at the highest level.

1311
01:11:49,221 --> 01:11:55,060
So I wrote a story to be released
the first day of the US Open.

1312
01:11:55,144 --> 01:11:57,813
[emotional music playing]

1313
01:12:02,109 --> 01:12:04,945
I had trouble with anxiety disorder, um…

1314
01:12:05,738 --> 01:12:08,907
for the past three years,
so that's why I haven't been back.

1315
01:12:09,783 --> 01:12:12,870
And, um, when you can't control it,
it's, uh…

1316
01:12:13,370 --> 01:12:14,330
it's pretty tough.

1317
01:12:15,581 --> 01:12:18,334
[Marty] I really wanted people
to understand

1318
01:12:18,417 --> 01:12:21,420
beating the stigma of, "Hey, suck it up,"

1319
01:12:22,004 --> 01:12:24,131
um, is really important

1320
01:12:24,214 --> 01:12:27,092
because it's not as easy as that.

1321
01:12:27,176 --> 01:12:30,721
There's absolutely no telling
if two months down the road,

1322
01:12:30,804 --> 01:12:32,973
or… or maybe even less,

1323
01:12:33,057 --> 01:12:34,975
if I didn't get help,

1324
01:12:35,059 --> 01:12:37,478
if I didn't get the medication,

1325
01:12:37,561 --> 01:12:41,398
if I didn't have someone there
with me all the time,

1326
01:12:41,482 --> 01:12:43,484
I have no idea if I'd still be here.

1327
01:12:46,653 --> 01:12:49,698
[Mardy] It helps me personally
to be open and talk about it.

1328
01:12:50,282 --> 01:12:53,202
I've spoken to some players privately,

1329
01:12:53,285 --> 01:12:58,332
and maybe they're just not comfortable,
you know, right here with cameras on 'em

1330
01:12:59,083 --> 01:13:02,044
talking about it,
but now I've gotten to the point where

1331
01:13:03,629 --> 01:13:05,798
I wanna share my story so I can help.

1332
01:13:05,881 --> 01:13:07,257
[reporter] Thanks a lot, Mardy.

1333
01:13:07,341 --> 01:13:08,258
[applause]

1334
01:13:08,342 --> 01:13:09,927
[announcer] Ladies and gentlemen,

1335
01:13:10,511 --> 01:13:13,263
please welcome Mardy Fish!

1336
01:13:13,347 --> 01:13:15,432
-[fan] Mardy!
-[crowd cheering]

1337
01:13:17,935 --> 01:13:19,978
[Tom] When Mardy came out with his story

1338
01:13:20,562 --> 01:13:22,481
and we read it ourselves,

1339
01:13:24,191 --> 01:13:25,567
I was so proud of him.

1340
01:13:28,570 --> 01:13:30,572
[crowd cheering]

1341
01:13:33,617 --> 01:13:35,577
[host] What will his legacy be?

1342
01:13:35,661 --> 01:13:37,371
For a long time, people knew Mardy Fish,

1343
01:13:37,454 --> 01:13:40,457
but he was always obscured a bit
by Andy Roddick.

1344
01:13:40,541 --> 01:13:43,210
Honestly, I think
his being so open about mental health,

1345
01:13:43,293 --> 01:13:45,379
which is always
a bit of a taboo in sports,

1346
01:13:45,462 --> 01:13:48,298
I think that's a defining point
for Mardy Fish.

1347
01:13:48,382 --> 01:13:51,093
He got a lot of thanks from other players.

1348
01:13:51,176 --> 01:13:53,679
Current players, former players…

1349
01:13:53,762 --> 01:13:56,640
-[inaudible]
-…they were all very appreciative

1350
01:13:56,723 --> 01:14:01,812
that he had the courage to come out
and talk about his issues the way he did.

1351
01:14:03,313 --> 01:14:04,690
And to be able to…

1352
01:14:05,691 --> 01:14:07,651
[voice breaking] …help him do that, uh…

1353
01:14:08,986 --> 01:14:09,945
it meant a lot.

1354
01:14:12,531 --> 01:14:13,866
[announcer] Ladies and gentlemen,

1355
01:14:14,450 --> 01:14:16,368
Mardy Fish!

1356
01:14:16,452 --> 01:14:18,162
Let's hear it for him, New York!

1357
01:14:18,245 --> 01:14:19,746
[cheering and applause]

1358
01:14:25,461 --> 01:14:27,921
Say, "Bye-bye, tennis!"

1359
01:14:28,005 --> 01:14:30,090
Bye-bye, tennis!

1360
01:14:30,799 --> 01:14:32,301
Bye-bye, tennis!

1361
01:14:32,384 --> 01:14:33,886
Bye-bye, tennis!

1362
01:14:38,098 --> 01:14:41,894
The United States has been playing
Davis Cup for 120 years.

1363
01:14:41,977 --> 01:14:43,604
They have won 32 titles.

1364
01:14:43,687 --> 01:14:46,482
They have just named their 41st captain.

1365
01:14:46,565 --> 01:14:49,776
Mardy Fish is the new captain of Team USA.

1366
01:14:50,360 --> 01:14:52,112
["Same" by Trey Gruber plays]

1367
01:14:56,950 --> 01:14:59,411
[Mardy] The head of the USTA
called me and said,

1368
01:14:59,495 --> 01:15:03,790
"Well, uh, we've decided to offer you
the position of Davis Cup captain."

1369
01:15:03,874 --> 01:15:07,461
And, uh, I mean,
I'll never forget those words.

1370
01:15:08,629 --> 01:15:10,589
I was instructed not to tell anyone.

1371
01:15:11,173 --> 01:15:13,342
He called me up, and he said,

1372
01:15:13,425 --> 01:15:17,554
"You are now talking
to the new US Davis Cup captain."

1373
01:15:17,638 --> 01:15:19,348
-[Sally] Oh boy.
-Just like, "Wow!"

1374
01:15:19,848 --> 01:15:21,058
He called and just said,

1375
01:15:21,141 --> 01:15:23,685
"You have to refer to me as Captain
from now on." [laughs]

1376
01:15:23,769 --> 01:15:26,855
I was like, "You know what, Mardy?
You can still eat shit

1377
01:15:26,939 --> 01:15:29,399
because, you know,
you're still Mardy Fish."

1378
01:15:30,400 --> 01:15:31,693
[Christian] Mardy called and said

1379
01:15:31,777 --> 01:15:33,779
he wanted to get the old band
back together

1380
01:15:33,862 --> 01:15:37,866
and see if we could do it one more time,
and I said, "Absolutely."

1381
01:15:39,743 --> 01:15:42,579
[Mardy] Davis Cup is
our major team competition.

1382
01:15:43,163 --> 01:15:45,207
It's like the World Cup of soccer.

1383
01:15:45,916 --> 01:15:49,044
The captain picks the team
and runs the team,

1384
01:15:50,045 --> 01:15:55,509
and it's the perfect way for me
to help the future of American tennis.

1385
01:15:58,887 --> 01:16:01,932
[Tom] With Mardy as the 41st captain,

1386
01:16:02,015 --> 01:16:05,227
I think it's a great statement
not just for Mardy,

1387
01:16:05,310 --> 01:16:09,356
but for maybe mental health issues
in American tennis.

1388
01:16:11,066 --> 01:16:14,194
[Kevin] In a lot of ways,
I think Mardy's mental toughness,

1389
01:16:14,278 --> 01:16:16,321
it's even more impressive.

1390
01:16:17,823 --> 01:16:20,784
His ability to process things,
then communicate them

1391
01:16:20,867 --> 01:16:23,662
and not being afraid
to confront his demons

1392
01:16:24,246 --> 01:16:26,290
is gonna be a really important part

1393
01:16:26,373 --> 01:16:29,001
of why he's gonna be a good coach
and a great captain.

1394
01:16:30,377 --> 01:16:33,755
[Andy] I think he'll be best at the job,
and he should have the job.

1395
01:16:34,923 --> 01:16:38,677
But battling through to where
you don't care about the judgment anymore

1396
01:16:39,595 --> 01:16:41,179
is the part I'm most proud of.

1397
01:16:42,556 --> 01:16:44,391
I'm glad Mardy got to the point

1398
01:16:44,474 --> 01:16:47,227
where he could decide
the risk was worth the reward.

1399
01:16:51,815 --> 01:16:56,987
[Mardy] Look, I will always
deal with some sort of mental health.

1400
01:16:58,488 --> 01:17:02,492
I used to say to my doctors, "I can't wait
for this to go away and be behind me."

1401
01:17:03,160 --> 01:17:07,581
He's like, "I hate to tell you, but this
is always gonna be part of your life."

1402
01:17:07,664 --> 01:17:12,210
And still, you know,
six, seven, eight years past, um…

1403
01:17:12,753 --> 01:17:15,464
uh, it's still, um…

1404
01:17:15,547 --> 01:17:18,133
still is a daily battle,

1405
01:17:18,717 --> 01:17:20,427
but I win every day.

1406
01:17:20,510 --> 01:17:22,512
["Same" by Trey Gruber playing]

1407
01:17:56,213 --> 01:17:58,048
[music slowing down]

1408
01:18:13,772 --> 01:18:15,232
[music distorts]

1409
01:18:23,824 --> 01:18:24,783
[music stops]