1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:21,720 --> 00:00:24,480 GIGGLING Hello. Hello? 4 00:00:24,520 --> 00:00:27,560 Hello? Testing, testing, testing. 5 00:00:27,600 --> 00:00:29,080 It's good. 6 00:00:29,120 --> 00:00:32,360 Sound, camera, we are rolling whenever you want to go. 7 00:00:32,400 --> 00:00:34,360 OK. Sorry, two seconds! 8 00:00:34,400 --> 00:00:38,240 I do this every shoot! I'm overcome with giggles! 9 00:00:38,280 --> 00:00:40,600 It just takes me a couple of minutes to compose myself. 10 00:00:40,640 --> 00:00:43,040 Take as long as you need. You don't have to explain yourself. 11 00:00:43,080 --> 00:00:45,200 I don't know why. Oh, God! 12 00:00:48,200 --> 00:00:49,760 SHE EXHALES OK. 13 00:00:52,120 --> 00:00:53,880 SHE EXHALES REPEATEDLY 14 00:00:54,960 --> 00:00:58,320 Here, think about why you're doing this. 15 00:01:04,680 --> 00:01:06,080 My name is Lyra McKee. 16 00:01:06,120 --> 00:01:08,760 I'm a freelance journalist from Northern Ireland. 17 00:01:08,800 --> 00:01:11,320 You may know me as the face of The Muckraker, 18 00:01:11,360 --> 00:01:13,160 a blog about investigative journalism. 19 00:01:14,720 --> 00:01:18,080 My passion in life is for investigative journalism. 20 00:01:18,120 --> 00:01:21,080 But I came into the industry at a time when 21 00:01:21,120 --> 00:01:24,000 there didn't seem to be any places left for people like me. 22 00:01:24,040 --> 00:01:27,160 Someone who wanted to go off and chase a story for months 23 00:01:27,200 --> 00:01:29,120 and ask questions and find answers 24 00:01:29,160 --> 00:01:34,840 and try and find out what was really going on beneath the surface. 25 00:01:34,880 --> 00:01:37,720 I really need your help. 26 00:01:37,760 --> 00:01:40,720 I need more time to keep asking questions. 27 00:02:50,320 --> 00:02:51,800 DISTANT SIRENS WAIL 28 00:02:55,240 --> 00:02:57,760 REPORTER: In the last half-hour, there have been reports of 29 00:02:57,800 --> 00:02:59,520 a serious disturbance in Londonderry. 30 00:02:59,560 --> 00:03:03,120 There are reports that the trouble broke out after police raids 31 00:03:03,160 --> 00:03:05,640 on houses in the Creggan area of the city. 32 00:03:06,880 --> 00:03:08,720 FAINT CHATTER 33 00:03:14,160 --> 00:03:18,600 Lyra and I, we'd been out doing our usual. 34 00:03:18,640 --> 00:03:21,600 We've gone to Slimming World and then we'd gone to McDonald's. 35 00:03:24,480 --> 00:03:27,600 And a message comes through about rioting in Creggan. 36 00:03:29,360 --> 00:03:31,640 Our friend saying she's going up 37 00:03:31,680 --> 00:03:33,160 if anybody wants to go up with her. 38 00:03:35,680 --> 00:03:36,680 So we went up. 39 00:03:52,800 --> 00:03:55,600 It was holy Thursday night, the night before Good Friday, 40 00:03:55,640 --> 00:03:57,720 and we had a mass here in the church. 41 00:04:00,280 --> 00:04:03,320 As we were coming to the end, my colleague, Father Paul Fraser, 42 00:04:03,360 --> 00:04:06,720 send word to me to say, will you tell the people not to be going up 43 00:04:06,760 --> 00:04:09,600 Fanad Drive, there seems to be a riot up there. 44 00:04:09,640 --> 00:04:12,040 Literally 200 yards up the road from the church. 45 00:04:13,320 --> 00:04:15,720 SOUNDS OF RIOTING 46 00:04:22,280 --> 00:04:24,160 TANNOY: ..move back down the street. 47 00:04:24,200 --> 00:04:26,440 RAUCOUS LAUGHTER 48 00:04:33,520 --> 00:04:35,040 GLASS SHATTERS 49 00:04:36,720 --> 00:04:39,600 We drove up and the streets were really jammed, 50 00:04:39,640 --> 00:04:41,800 cos everybody was off to watch the riot. 51 00:04:41,840 --> 00:04:44,200 RAUCOUS CHATTER 52 00:04:45,360 --> 00:04:47,360 There were loads of people. 53 00:04:47,400 --> 00:04:48,680 Lots of kids. 54 00:04:50,000 --> 00:04:51,360 Journalists. 55 00:04:51,400 --> 00:04:53,360 YELLING AND BANGING 56 00:04:54,360 --> 00:04:56,120 GLASS SHATTERS 57 00:04:56,160 --> 00:04:57,800 JEERING 58 00:05:00,520 --> 00:05:02,120 FLAMES ROAR 59 00:05:09,960 --> 00:05:12,840 TANNOY: Stay away from the vehicle for your own safety. 60 00:05:16,280 --> 00:05:18,280 Get back, get back! 61 00:05:23,040 --> 00:05:26,480 We were only there for eight minutes from start to finish. 62 00:05:26,520 --> 00:05:30,120 We were sort at the back end of the last set of two Land Rovers. 63 00:05:34,000 --> 00:05:36,040 Lyra has gone into journalist mode, 64 00:05:36,080 --> 00:05:38,280 so she was, like, taking pictures 65 00:05:38,320 --> 00:05:40,440 and she was typing on her phone, 66 00:05:40,480 --> 00:05:42,680 and we didn't really talk very much. 67 00:05:44,880 --> 00:05:47,240 Then I thought, right, we'll move back up a wee bit. 68 00:05:47,280 --> 00:05:48,840 Cos there was stuff on fire 69 00:05:48,880 --> 00:05:51,240 and they were throwing petrol bombs and stones. 70 00:05:51,280 --> 00:05:53,280 YELLING 71 00:05:53,320 --> 00:05:55,320 FLAMES ROAR 72 00:06:05,200 --> 00:06:06,600 We'd moved further back 73 00:06:06,640 --> 00:06:09,280 and the crowd started getting really agitated, and, like, 74 00:06:09,320 --> 00:06:10,560 "Y-o-o-o-o-o-o!" 75 00:06:10,600 --> 00:06:12,040 ANGRY YELLING 76 00:06:13,600 --> 00:06:15,440 GUNFIRE RINGS OUT 77 00:06:20,400 --> 00:06:21,840 ANGRY SHOUTS 78 00:06:21,880 --> 00:06:23,960 GUNFIRE CONTINUES 79 00:06:25,240 --> 00:06:27,120 GLASS SHATTERS 80 00:06:27,160 --> 00:06:28,640 FLAMES ROAR 81 00:06:33,400 --> 00:06:35,440 I turned to Lyra to say, let's move up further, 82 00:06:35,480 --> 00:06:37,920 cos I think they're going to rush towards the Land Rovers, 83 00:06:37,960 --> 00:06:39,480 and she wasn't there. 84 00:06:40,960 --> 00:06:43,360 Lyra! LYRA! 85 00:06:43,400 --> 00:06:45,080 FRANTIC YELLING 86 00:06:45,120 --> 00:06:46,680 She was on the ground. 87 00:06:46,720 --> 00:06:49,360 YELLING AND PANICKED CHATTER 88 00:06:49,400 --> 00:06:51,840 MAN YELLS 89 00:06:54,840 --> 00:06:57,680 I dropped down and then I noticed the wound on her head. 90 00:06:57,720 --> 00:07:00,080 FRANTIC YELLING 91 00:07:12,840 --> 00:07:14,400 SIRENS WAIL 92 00:07:24,200 --> 00:07:26,400 The police took her into the back of the Land Rover. 93 00:07:27,840 --> 00:07:29,240 I was like, "Can I come with you?" 94 00:07:29,280 --> 00:07:31,560 And they were like, "Listen, there's not enough room". 95 00:07:34,120 --> 00:07:35,680 They literally tore off and went 96 00:07:35,720 --> 00:07:38,280 straight through the burning car, and...and flew. 97 00:07:38,320 --> 00:07:39,760 SIREN WAILS 98 00:07:41,840 --> 00:07:44,960 And I was kind of just standing there. I had her phone in my hand 99 00:07:45,000 --> 00:07:47,640 cos I'd lifted it from the ground where she'd dropped it. 100 00:07:47,680 --> 00:07:50,560 And...I was just covered. 101 00:07:50,600 --> 00:07:54,840 My hands were covered in her blood, and...I-I didn't know what to do. 102 00:07:58,880 --> 00:08:00,680 SIGHS DEEPLY 103 00:08:05,600 --> 00:08:08,160 I was just about to get ready for bed and my mobile went. 104 00:08:10,080 --> 00:08:11,400 It was the police. 105 00:08:11,440 --> 00:08:14,080 They said that a woman had been injured 106 00:08:14,120 --> 00:08:17,280 and a priest was asked to attend the scene. 107 00:08:18,480 --> 00:08:21,320 So I came down into the room 108 00:08:21,360 --> 00:08:25,480 and what I saw was the face of a child. 109 00:08:25,520 --> 00:08:27,840 And Lyra's face will never leave me. 110 00:08:29,120 --> 00:08:32,440 Um...it was the face of a child that was... 111 00:08:33,840 --> 00:08:35,160 ..29-year-old, but... 112 00:08:36,480 --> 00:08:38,000 ..Lyra never looked 29-year-old. 113 00:08:40,600 --> 00:08:44,760 Such a beautiful, beautiful child, dead. 114 00:08:48,960 --> 00:08:50,480 And why? 115 00:09:16,520 --> 00:09:20,880 Some breaking news - a 29-year-old woman has been killed 116 00:09:20,920 --> 00:09:24,000 after shots were fired in Londonderry. 117 00:09:24,040 --> 00:09:25,880 Her name was Lyra McKee. 118 00:09:25,920 --> 00:09:28,800 She was a 29-year-old acclaimed writer and journalist. 119 00:09:28,840 --> 00:09:31,840 Journaliste du 29 ans, Lyra McKee... 120 00:09:31,880 --> 00:09:34,520 Her murder happened on the 21st anniversary 121 00:09:34,560 --> 00:09:36,360 of the Good Friday Agreement. 122 00:09:36,400 --> 00:09:38,040 That's the landmark peace deal 123 00:09:38,080 --> 00:09:40,080 that put an end to Northern Ireland's 124 00:09:40,120 --> 00:09:42,680 decades-long sectarian conflict. 125 00:09:42,720 --> 00:09:44,720 Police blame the so-called New IRA - 126 00:09:44,760 --> 00:09:47,040 a violent, dissident republican group 127 00:09:47,080 --> 00:09:50,240 whose supporters do not believe in the Good Friday Peace Agreement 128 00:09:50,280 --> 00:09:53,120 that was signed 21 years ago today. 129 00:09:53,160 --> 00:09:56,000 The police have now confirmed that witnesses to the murder 130 00:09:56,040 --> 00:09:58,240 of Lyra McKee will be offered anonymity. 131 00:09:58,280 --> 00:10:00,560 Detective superintendent Jason Murphy says 132 00:10:00,600 --> 00:10:02,480 any information could be vital. 133 00:10:18,360 --> 00:10:20,080 Oh, my God. 134 00:10:20,120 --> 00:10:23,800 Oh, my God! Mummy still has her dress! 135 00:10:23,840 --> 00:10:25,640 Look how tiny! 136 00:10:26,800 --> 00:10:29,120 Oh, my God. 137 00:10:29,160 --> 00:10:30,800 She hated that dress! 138 00:10:32,120 --> 00:10:34,280 Oh, bless! Oh, my God! 139 00:10:34,320 --> 00:10:36,280 Oh! Thank you! 140 00:10:37,800 --> 00:10:40,040 Oh, isn't this mad? 141 00:10:46,880 --> 00:10:49,520 You'd need a whole house to house at all, you know? 142 00:10:51,880 --> 00:10:53,240 We can't keep everything. 143 00:10:57,200 --> 00:10:59,960 But there's loads and loads of things. 144 00:11:00,000 --> 00:11:04,040 She loved her moleskin notebooks, loved them. 145 00:11:04,080 --> 00:11:07,080 Here's all story leads that she's written down, 146 00:11:07,120 --> 00:11:12,080 so ideas of stories that she could continue to pursue. 147 00:11:12,120 --> 00:11:14,480 There's literally hundreds of them. 148 00:11:14,520 --> 00:11:16,560 Have you kept her Dictaphone as well? 149 00:11:16,600 --> 00:11:20,800 Do you know, I found that as well. 150 00:11:20,840 --> 00:11:23,840 Here, with Lyra, you just never know when a story might pop up, 151 00:11:23,880 --> 00:11:25,600 so she always had it with her. 152 00:11:25,640 --> 00:11:27,960 So it's lovely to be able to play it and... 153 00:11:28,000 --> 00:11:29,840 RECORDING PLAYS, INDISTINCT 154 00:11:29,880 --> 00:11:31,320 ..and listen to her voice. 155 00:11:31,360 --> 00:11:35,760 It kind of makes it feel like she's still here and with you, you know? 156 00:11:35,800 --> 00:11:38,640 RECORDING PLAYS, INDISTINCT 157 00:11:40,000 --> 00:11:41,800 So, you were there that day? Yeah. 158 00:11:43,320 --> 00:11:47,560 The way she got people to speak to her and open up to her, 159 00:11:47,600 --> 00:11:51,920 it's wonderful. She had a real, real gift for it. 160 00:11:51,960 --> 00:11:57,280 She really wanted to understand the past and to change things. 161 00:11:57,320 --> 00:12:02,880 And, you know, where many people's voices were ignored, 162 00:12:02,920 --> 00:12:06,720 she wanted to say, actually, do you know what, 163 00:12:06,760 --> 00:12:12,160 I hear you and I care and I'm going to be a voice for you. 164 00:12:16,760 --> 00:12:19,520 It's a wee box. 165 00:12:19,560 --> 00:12:20,560 Little one we had. 166 00:12:23,080 --> 00:12:25,000 Are you ready for it? 167 00:12:25,040 --> 00:12:27,600 One of the things my mummy kept a lot of 168 00:12:27,640 --> 00:12:30,240 was glasses belonging to Lyra. 169 00:12:30,280 --> 00:12:34,360 You can see, this is a pair she had when she was very, very tiny. 170 00:12:34,400 --> 00:12:37,480 And she was so small and her features were so tiny, 171 00:12:37,520 --> 00:12:39,760 that they wouldn't sit on her face. 172 00:12:39,800 --> 00:12:42,640 So she had to have these little rubbery things 173 00:12:42,680 --> 00:12:46,200 that would hug around her ears so that they would stay on. 174 00:12:46,240 --> 00:12:50,640 That was a pair she probably wore when she was about four years old. 175 00:12:52,360 --> 00:12:55,120 This is the glasses that she was wearing 176 00:12:55,160 --> 00:12:56,960 on the night that she was killed. 177 00:13:01,680 --> 00:13:04,600 And she'd only got them two weeks before she was killed. 178 00:13:05,960 --> 00:13:07,440 SHE EXHALES 179 00:13:07,480 --> 00:13:10,720 Why did you do it? Why did you do it? 180 00:13:10,760 --> 00:13:14,080 You know, even my wee granddaughter... 181 00:13:16,040 --> 00:13:18,960 ..you know, four years old, coming five... 182 00:13:20,360 --> 00:13:23,680 ..even the four-year-old wants to ask that question. 183 00:13:26,880 --> 00:13:28,960 You're getting dizzy, Lyra. 184 00:13:29,000 --> 00:13:30,760 Lyra, put her down! 185 00:13:33,320 --> 00:13:35,040 Was that OK? OK? 186 00:13:39,640 --> 00:13:42,240 Yeah, they were obsessed with each other. 187 00:13:42,280 --> 00:13:44,080 That was lovely. 188 00:13:44,120 --> 00:13:46,280 THEY LAUGH 189 00:13:52,640 --> 00:13:57,320 What would you say to the bad man who killed your Auntie Lyra? 190 00:13:57,360 --> 00:14:02,560 I want to say, why did you kill my Auntie Lyra? 191 00:14:02,600 --> 00:14:05,320 You want to know why, don't you, chicken? 192 00:14:05,360 --> 00:14:08,000 Mm-hm. I don't know why. 193 00:14:08,040 --> 00:14:10,080 I don't know why either. 194 00:14:11,760 --> 00:14:13,480 SHE SIGHS 195 00:14:20,520 --> 00:14:22,120 LYRA: 196 00:14:45,080 --> 00:14:48,000 You know, I think there's truths and there's narratives. 197 00:14:51,600 --> 00:14:53,200 The truth is what actually happened 198 00:14:53,240 --> 00:14:55,600 and the narrative is what everyone thinks happened. 199 00:14:57,960 --> 00:14:59,680 And the two are rarely the same. 200 00:15:03,880 --> 00:15:06,080 I'm trying to piece together what happened. 201 00:15:08,200 --> 00:15:11,680 You're coming with me on the journey as I try to find answers. 202 00:15:38,920 --> 00:15:41,960 TV NEWS: A Catholic man has been shot dead tonight in north Belfast. 203 00:15:42,000 --> 00:15:44,600 The attack happened in the Ardoyne area of the city. 204 00:15:44,640 --> 00:15:46,520 He was shot dead in a part of Belfast 205 00:15:46,560 --> 00:15:48,280 where a fifth of all those who have died 206 00:15:48,320 --> 00:15:50,760 in Northern Ireland's Troubles have been killed. 207 00:16:06,600 --> 00:16:08,400 I grew up in Ardoyne, 208 00:16:08,440 --> 00:16:11,480 a republican community in north Belfast 209 00:16:11,520 --> 00:16:15,160 in the '90s, on the Cliftonville Road. 210 00:16:21,320 --> 00:16:24,240 The people were mostly decent people, 211 00:16:24,280 --> 00:16:26,080 but it was a tough, tough place. 212 00:16:37,680 --> 00:16:40,320 Cliftonville Road was just off a place called Murder Mile. 213 00:16:40,360 --> 00:16:41,920 That was the nickname. 214 00:16:44,880 --> 00:16:47,920 In fact, they say there's more casualties there per square mile 215 00:16:47,960 --> 00:16:50,640 than any part of Northern Ireland during the conflict. 216 00:17:02,520 --> 00:17:05,000 I remember things as a child, like, you know, 217 00:17:05,040 --> 00:17:07,320 just be careful when you're walking to school. 218 00:17:12,800 --> 00:17:15,720 OK, there's a suspect device on Rosapenna. 219 00:17:28,400 --> 00:17:31,720 I often tell Americans that if you've seen images of Belfast 220 00:17:31,760 --> 00:17:34,520 on fire in the '90s, you were probably seeing Ardoyne. 221 00:18:41,480 --> 00:18:44,360 TV NEWS: Northern Ireland has seized the chance of a new beginning. 222 00:18:44,400 --> 00:18:47,080 That's the outcome of the historic agreement reached this evening 223 00:18:47,120 --> 00:18:49,320 at the Stormont peace talks. 224 00:18:49,360 --> 00:18:51,600 BASS GUITAR PLAYS This is for the fucking scum 225 00:18:51,640 --> 00:18:54,000 paramilitaries that run this fucking country! 226 00:18:54,040 --> 00:18:57,520 TV NEWS: The violence which has been part of life in Northern Ireland 227 00:18:57,560 --> 00:18:59,840 for nearly 30 years may be over permanently, 228 00:18:59,880 --> 00:19:02,280 following last week's peace deal. 229 00:19:02,320 --> 00:19:05,240 After a 30-year winter of sectarian violence, 230 00:19:05,280 --> 00:19:09,120 Northern Ireland today has the promise of a springtime of peace. 231 00:19:09,160 --> 00:19:11,320 Today is Good Friday, 232 00:19:11,360 --> 00:19:13,360 and I think, for the people of Northern Ireland, 233 00:19:13,400 --> 00:19:15,560 it will be a very good Friday. 234 00:19:16,680 --> 00:19:20,920 Yes, 71.12%. 235 00:19:20,960 --> 00:19:22,960 JUBILANT CHEERING 236 00:19:23,000 --> 00:19:26,480 71% of people in the North and 94% of the South 237 00:19:26,520 --> 00:19:28,400 said yes to the Good Friday Agreement, 238 00:19:28,440 --> 00:19:30,760 which aims to bring peace in Northern Ireland. 239 00:19:30,800 --> 00:19:33,440 108 members of the new Northern Ireland Assembly 240 00:19:33,480 --> 00:19:36,080 have taken their seats in the Stormont Parliament building. 241 00:19:36,120 --> 00:19:38,720 Enemies across three decades now face each other 242 00:19:38,760 --> 00:19:41,840 across the floor of their own political forum. 243 00:19:41,880 --> 00:19:45,760 It's up to the local politicians to make this peace agreement work. 244 00:19:47,560 --> 00:19:49,240 CHEERING 245 00:20:23,480 --> 00:20:25,240 I sometimes get angry, 246 00:20:25,280 --> 00:20:28,040 because we talk about the conflict ending in 1998, 247 00:20:28,080 --> 00:20:31,120 but I think the peace we have is a peace that doesn't disrupt 248 00:20:31,160 --> 00:20:33,720 the lives of the middle classes. 249 00:20:33,760 --> 00:20:37,800 For the working classes, you know, they're still struggling. 250 00:20:39,560 --> 00:20:42,080 I mean, in the community that I came from, 251 00:20:42,120 --> 00:20:44,800 there's a real poverty of vision. 252 00:20:44,840 --> 00:20:49,360 We didn't seem to have any prospects. 253 00:20:49,400 --> 00:20:50,960 I even remember in primary school, 254 00:20:51,000 --> 00:20:53,960 perceiving that there was a difference in how the middle class 255 00:20:54,000 --> 00:20:55,640 treated the working-class kids. 256 00:20:57,560 --> 00:21:00,840 So, when a working-class kid says, you know, "I want to be a lawyer", 257 00:21:00,880 --> 00:21:03,160 they're told, "Get back in your station. 258 00:21:03,200 --> 00:21:06,280 "You're not going to be a lawyer, you're going to be a glue-sniffer." 259 00:21:06,320 --> 00:21:10,840 I literally heard that said to people. 260 00:21:10,880 --> 00:21:13,320 And I think that's the difference. 261 00:21:13,360 --> 00:21:16,880 I was told to have ideas above my station. 262 00:21:18,040 --> 00:21:20,720 MUSIC: Teenage Dirtbag by Wheatus 263 00:21:24,480 --> 00:21:25,920 WATER SPLASHES 264 00:21:25,960 --> 00:21:28,120 A-A-A-Argh! You weren't close enough. 265 00:21:31,560 --> 00:21:32,920 WHOOPING 266 00:21:32,960 --> 00:21:34,520 Yo! Huh-huh! 267 00:21:36,800 --> 00:21:39,200 I'd always wanted to be a writer. 268 00:21:39,240 --> 00:21:43,280 Even as a child, my granny used to buy me books. 269 00:21:43,320 --> 00:21:44,840 My granny was this great character. 270 00:21:44,880 --> 00:21:49,680 She was kind of like Hyacinth Bucket in Keeping Up Appearances. 271 00:21:49,720 --> 00:21:52,200 I remember being six years old and Granny saying, 272 00:21:52,240 --> 00:21:53,640 "You're going to be a writer". 273 00:21:53,680 --> 00:21:56,720 And I was like, "No, I'm not, Granny. Why would you think that?" 274 00:21:56,760 --> 00:21:59,440 She always had this in her head. And for my ninth birthday, 275 00:21:59,480 --> 00:22:02,000 she said to me, "I got you two books for your birthday". 276 00:22:02,040 --> 00:22:04,600 She said, "They're called Harry Potter". 277 00:22:04,640 --> 00:22:08,080 And I swear, there wasn't a peep out of me after my birthday 278 00:22:08,120 --> 00:22:10,840 for, like, in the month or something that I read those books. 279 00:22:12,960 --> 00:22:15,240 I'll never forget, one day, I got this... 280 00:22:15,280 --> 00:22:17,040 "Lyra, your granny's on the phone!" 281 00:22:17,080 --> 00:22:18,600 "OK. Hi. What's up, Granny?" 282 00:22:18,640 --> 00:22:20,800 "I just seen JK Rowling on the TV! 283 00:22:20,840 --> 00:22:23,040 "She was really bad in school, just like you." 284 00:22:23,080 --> 00:22:26,840 And I was like, "Really?! JK Rowling? Wow! OK." 285 00:22:26,880 --> 00:22:29,560 And my granny would say, "And she's a single parent". 286 00:22:29,600 --> 00:22:31,360 Cos I was from a single-parent family. 287 00:22:31,400 --> 00:22:33,680 "And she didn't have any money, and look at her now. 288 00:22:33,720 --> 00:22:36,440 "And you can be just like her." 289 00:22:36,480 --> 00:22:40,000 It was the realisation that, OK, I can do this. 290 00:22:43,160 --> 00:22:45,160 You know, I was so lucky. 291 00:22:45,200 --> 00:22:47,640 Hello! Everybody here...? 292 00:22:47,680 --> 00:22:51,200 This is Lyra McKee reporting for home videos. 293 00:22:51,240 --> 00:22:53,080 If you can see me. 294 00:22:57,520 --> 00:22:58,840 Goodbye! 295 00:23:00,080 --> 00:23:03,760 My mum's amazing. She's great. I love my mum. 296 00:23:05,000 --> 00:23:06,680 Are you camera-shy? 297 00:23:11,320 --> 00:23:12,520 So, you're camera-shy? 298 00:23:13,640 --> 00:23:16,720 My mum always said, "You can be anything you want to be". 299 00:23:16,760 --> 00:23:19,440 My big sister as well. My big sister's amazing. 300 00:23:19,480 --> 00:23:21,720 # She's so lucky 301 00:23:21,760 --> 00:23:23,520 # She's a star 302 00:23:23,560 --> 00:23:26,000 # But she cry, cry, cries... # 303 00:23:26,040 --> 00:23:28,840 She works with kids from deprived areas, 304 00:23:28,880 --> 00:23:30,760 and she's an absolute hero. 305 00:23:30,800 --> 00:23:33,000 # Missing in her life 306 00:23:33,040 --> 00:23:35,960 # Why do tears come at night? 307 00:23:36,000 --> 00:23:37,160 # Hey! # 308 00:23:38,920 --> 00:23:42,600 From my mum to my granny, to my big sister, 309 00:23:42,640 --> 00:23:46,000 they were amazing. They were all amazing. 310 00:23:46,040 --> 00:23:48,520 They believed in me when I didn't believe in me. 311 00:24:02,760 --> 00:24:04,800 RADIO NEWS: The paramilitary group the New IRA 312 00:24:04,840 --> 00:24:08,080 has said it murdered the 29-year-old journalist Lyra McKee, 313 00:24:08,120 --> 00:24:11,880 who was shot dead as she was observing a riot last month. 314 00:24:11,920 --> 00:24:15,280 In a statement, the dissident republican organisation apologised 315 00:24:15,320 --> 00:24:17,160 to her family and friends. 316 00:24:27,440 --> 00:24:29,680 How are you feeling, you two? 317 00:24:29,720 --> 00:24:33,760 I'm really nervous. Are you? Yes. 318 00:24:33,800 --> 00:24:36,680 It's almost like we're going to see our Lyra collecting an award, 319 00:24:36,720 --> 00:24:40,320 in my head, kind of, in a way. Yeah. 320 00:24:40,360 --> 00:24:45,320 Rather than us going and getting an award on her behalf. 321 00:24:45,360 --> 00:24:48,720 You know, that's what it feels like to me. 322 00:24:48,760 --> 00:24:50,200 How about you, Mummy? 323 00:24:50,240 --> 00:24:51,680 QUIETLY: Yes. Yes, love. 324 00:24:53,800 --> 00:24:55,440 Oh, goodness. 325 00:24:55,480 --> 00:24:57,040 With a heavy heart. 326 00:25:00,360 --> 00:25:02,600 As long as I don't start crying. 327 00:25:05,000 --> 00:25:07,000 I wasn't going to go. 328 00:25:12,760 --> 00:25:15,960 Cos I'm still so full up, you know, with... 329 00:25:18,240 --> 00:25:19,800 ..grief. 330 00:25:21,960 --> 00:25:25,600 And then I thought about it and said, "No. It's for Lyra, so... 331 00:25:27,560 --> 00:25:29,200 "..I'll go for her". 332 00:25:29,240 --> 00:25:32,480 It's not sinking in that she's gone. 333 00:25:32,520 --> 00:25:34,080 You know what I mean? 334 00:25:34,120 --> 00:25:37,240 I still think that, um... 335 00:25:37,280 --> 00:25:39,640 ..that she'll be running in the door and... 336 00:25:41,680 --> 00:25:43,360 SHE SIGHS DEEPLY 337 00:25:43,400 --> 00:25:44,960 So hard. 338 00:25:45,000 --> 00:25:47,040 Yeah, I know. 339 00:25:47,080 --> 00:25:48,840 So, so hard. 340 00:25:50,800 --> 00:25:52,160 Hello, Ramsay. 341 00:25:53,800 --> 00:25:56,800 We'll not be long. Not be long. 342 00:25:59,560 --> 00:26:01,120 On 18th of April this year, 343 00:26:01,160 --> 00:26:04,960 headlines emerged that left us in disbelief. 344 00:26:05,000 --> 00:26:06,840 A journalist, Lyra McKee, 345 00:26:06,880 --> 00:26:10,480 going about her work in public, had been shot and killed. 346 00:26:10,520 --> 00:26:14,640 Through her work, Lyra championed the underrepresented. 347 00:26:14,680 --> 00:26:17,960 She gave a voice to those that weren't being heard, 348 00:26:18,000 --> 00:26:20,840 and she held those in power to account. 349 00:26:20,880 --> 00:26:24,280 Now, we are honoured that Lyra's mother Joan and sister Nichola have 350 00:26:24,320 --> 00:26:27,160 travelled from Belfast to be here today, 351 00:26:27,200 --> 00:26:29,400 at what is an incredibly difficult time, 352 00:26:29,440 --> 00:26:32,080 but it is our privilege to present to you 353 00:26:32,120 --> 00:26:34,000 the Journalists' Charity Special Award 354 00:26:34,040 --> 00:26:37,960 for Outstanding Commitment and Contribution to Journalism. 355 00:26:38,000 --> 00:26:39,200 This is for Lyra. 356 00:26:39,240 --> 00:26:40,760 APPLAUSE 357 00:27:06,000 --> 00:27:08,000 Hi. My name's Lyra McKee 358 00:27:08,040 --> 00:27:10,560 and I work as an investigative reporter. 359 00:27:12,240 --> 00:27:14,640 I think my priorities as a journalist 360 00:27:14,680 --> 00:27:16,640 are quite different to most journalists. 361 00:27:16,680 --> 00:27:19,040 Cos, I mean, you know, the latest celebrity news, 362 00:27:19,080 --> 00:27:23,560 like, if I'm honest, I really don't care who Madonna has adopted next. 363 00:27:23,600 --> 00:27:25,320 You know, I don't want to know about that. 364 00:27:25,360 --> 00:27:27,880 Like, I want to know about, you know, how the... 365 00:27:27,920 --> 00:27:30,600 You know, the young mother who's lost her son to suicide. 366 00:27:30,640 --> 00:27:32,400 How does she feel? You know? 367 00:27:32,440 --> 00:27:34,600 Like, I mean, the corrupt businessman 368 00:27:34,640 --> 00:27:37,680 who's screwing the working classes unbelievably, 369 00:27:37,720 --> 00:27:40,040 and no-one's holding him to account. You know? 370 00:27:40,080 --> 00:27:42,680 And no-one knows about it. How do I break that story? 371 00:27:42,720 --> 00:27:45,480 I want to know about real issues. 372 00:27:45,520 --> 00:27:49,520 I am the most annoyingly curious person I know. 373 00:27:49,560 --> 00:27:53,920 I remember my mum saying that some mothers say all they can hear in 374 00:27:53,960 --> 00:27:55,560 their sleep is, "Mummy, Mummy." 375 00:27:55,600 --> 00:27:58,880 She said all she could ever hear was, "Why, why?", 376 00:27:58,920 --> 00:28:01,480 because apparently that was all I ever asked. 377 00:28:01,520 --> 00:28:05,600 I mean, I can remember hearing on the news when I was fairly young, 378 00:28:05,640 --> 00:28:08,160 like, about people being killed in the local area. 379 00:28:08,200 --> 00:28:09,640 You would have thought most kids 380 00:28:09,680 --> 00:28:11,680 wouldn't have paid attention to that stuff. 381 00:28:11,720 --> 00:28:14,560 But I'd be like, "Mummy, why? Why? Why was he shot? Why...? 382 00:28:14,600 --> 00:28:18,000 I just asked the most difficult questions. 383 00:28:18,040 --> 00:28:21,320 I suppose my big break came when I was 16, 384 00:28:21,360 --> 00:28:24,800 I won the Sky News Young Journalist of the Year Award. 385 00:28:27,160 --> 00:28:28,680 Where I'm from in north Belfast, 386 00:28:28,720 --> 00:28:32,520 at that point, suicide had reached epidemic levels. 387 00:28:32,560 --> 00:28:34,320 It was something very close to my heart 388 00:28:34,360 --> 00:28:36,680 cos a lot of my friends had tried to commit suicide. 389 00:28:36,720 --> 00:28:38,000 I'd had to help a lot of them 390 00:28:38,040 --> 00:28:40,320 through really difficult times, you know. 391 00:28:40,360 --> 00:28:43,880 Like, they were almost dropping like flies around you, you know?. 392 00:29:20,240 --> 00:29:23,280 Can I just set this right here, if that's OK? 393 00:29:23,320 --> 00:29:24,520 That's fine. 394 00:29:25,840 --> 00:29:29,000 LYRA: 395 00:29:29,040 --> 00:29:31,360 MIKE: 396 00:29:36,040 --> 00:29:38,400 LYRA: 397 00:29:45,040 --> 00:29:46,320 Yeah. 398 00:29:48,160 --> 00:29:50,040 MIKE: 399 00:29:50,080 --> 00:29:51,440 LYRA: 400 00:29:56,000 --> 00:29:57,000 Yes. 401 00:30:28,760 --> 00:30:30,680 MIKE: 402 00:30:41,080 --> 00:30:44,960 Lyra was certain that 30, 35 years of conflict 403 00:30:45,000 --> 00:30:48,200 had to have had an effect on this society, 404 00:30:48,240 --> 00:30:50,240 and she's absolutely right about that. 405 00:30:50,280 --> 00:30:55,080 I did a study of suicide rates across the UK and Ireland, 406 00:30:55,120 --> 00:30:57,640 looking at the period from 1998, 407 00:30:57,680 --> 00:31:01,240 the year of the Good Friday Agreement, and up to 2017. 408 00:31:01,280 --> 00:31:03,920 And what I found was quite astonishing. 409 00:31:03,960 --> 00:31:07,320 Everywhere else, suicide rates went down. 410 00:31:07,360 --> 00:31:10,320 But in Northern Ireland, they rose sharply. 411 00:31:10,360 --> 00:31:14,800 Here in Northern Ireland, we'd asked people 412 00:31:14,840 --> 00:31:18,600 a set of special questions about their experience of conflict. 413 00:31:18,640 --> 00:31:21,720 Do you know somebody close to you that's been in prison? 414 00:31:21,760 --> 00:31:25,240 Was your house ever raided by the police or the army? 415 00:31:25,280 --> 00:31:26,960 Had you witnessed violence? 416 00:31:27,000 --> 00:31:29,040 Had you ever seen anybody murdered? 417 00:31:29,080 --> 00:31:32,280 One of the things we were able to observe is 418 00:31:32,320 --> 00:31:35,400 that one in five children are growing up 419 00:31:35,440 --> 00:31:37,560 in a household with an adult 420 00:31:37,600 --> 00:31:41,720 who has high-level experience of the conflict. 421 00:31:41,760 --> 00:31:48,080 High conflict experience means far lower mental health 422 00:31:48,120 --> 00:31:50,520 and far lower mental health resilience. 423 00:31:56,520 --> 00:31:58,800 If you don't come from a working-class community, 424 00:31:58,840 --> 00:32:02,040 you aren't necessarily aware of what's going on in that community 425 00:32:02,080 --> 00:32:04,440 or the problems that they face. 426 00:32:04,480 --> 00:32:07,160 We need the people from that community 427 00:32:07,200 --> 00:32:09,360 to be presented and represented. 428 00:32:12,680 --> 00:32:14,920 MALE VOICE: 429 00:35:05,120 --> 00:35:08,560 RADIO NEWS: Police investigating the murder of journalist Lyra McKee 430 00:35:08,600 --> 00:35:11,520 have arrested four men in Londonderry. 431 00:35:11,560 --> 00:35:15,240 The men were arrested under the Terrorism Act this morning. 432 00:35:15,280 --> 00:35:18,400 Detectives investigating the murder have today renewed calls 433 00:35:18,440 --> 00:35:21,680 for the public to help them bring Lyra's killers to justice. 434 00:35:21,720 --> 00:35:23,840 This is a major development. 435 00:35:23,880 --> 00:35:27,640 It absolutely is, it's a major, major, major development. 436 00:35:27,680 --> 00:35:30,720 And...oh, wow. 437 00:35:33,280 --> 00:35:37,200 It's me, and I've got Alison with me. 438 00:35:37,240 --> 00:35:39,400 Will I get an extra one? 439 00:35:40,680 --> 00:35:42,080 Oh, love you! 440 00:35:45,280 --> 00:35:48,720 So, Joan, how are you feeling? 441 00:35:48,760 --> 00:35:52,120 I'm OK, I suppose. 442 00:35:52,160 --> 00:35:56,000 I think if I wasn't a wee bit unwell, I'd be all right. 443 00:35:56,040 --> 00:35:58,240 We've just been sort of sitting waiting. 444 00:35:58,280 --> 00:36:01,760 We like to say patiently but there's no patience about it. 445 00:36:01,800 --> 00:36:04,600 I don't even know how I feel about it. 446 00:36:04,640 --> 00:36:09,120 You know? I felt, like, nothing, because they've taken her, you know. 447 00:36:09,160 --> 00:36:11,600 She's not coming back. And... 448 00:36:16,600 --> 00:36:18,120 It's OK. 449 00:36:22,640 --> 00:36:26,680 Lyra will make sure that there's justice. I know she will. 450 00:36:26,720 --> 00:36:31,200 She's going to make sure that the buggers go away for a long time. 451 00:36:32,680 --> 00:36:34,680 Yeah. You OK? 452 00:36:34,720 --> 00:36:37,400 Yeah. We have to be positive. 453 00:36:37,440 --> 00:36:40,000 It's just nerve-racking, isn't it? 454 00:36:40,040 --> 00:36:42,160 It is. It's a hard time. 455 00:36:47,920 --> 00:36:52,560 Your man, the Secretary of State at the time. 456 00:36:52,600 --> 00:36:54,960 Obviously, Lyra, like. 457 00:36:55,000 --> 00:36:57,160 Isn't that a beautiful photo? Lovely. 458 00:36:57,200 --> 00:36:59,480 Look at her wee face. 459 00:36:59,520 --> 00:37:01,160 She never aged a bit. 460 00:37:07,520 --> 00:37:09,480 Marie? 461 00:37:09,520 --> 00:37:11,720 Hello? 462 00:37:11,760 --> 00:37:16,080 Marie, please. I just want to eat the sandwich alone. That's all. 463 00:37:16,120 --> 00:37:19,560 All I want to do is eat a sandwich on my own 464 00:37:19,600 --> 00:37:21,680 without you trying to rip into it. 465 00:37:21,720 --> 00:37:24,160 Can you let me do that? Please? 466 00:37:25,160 --> 00:37:26,600 Meow! No? 467 00:37:29,440 --> 00:37:31,040 LYRA SIGHS 468 00:37:35,320 --> 00:37:39,200 If I look back over the last three years, it's been really tough. 469 00:37:41,200 --> 00:37:43,160 You know, I don't often talk about this. 470 00:37:44,400 --> 00:37:46,480 I have anxiety disorder. 471 00:37:47,800 --> 00:37:49,200 Writing is like, almost... 472 00:37:49,240 --> 00:37:52,000 It's my great... One of my greatest loves, but also my biggest fear. 473 00:37:53,960 --> 00:37:56,000 I choke up. Like, I literally... 474 00:37:56,040 --> 00:37:59,400 I feel sick sometimes when I sit down at that computer, 475 00:37:59,440 --> 00:38:02,360 cos I'm like, "Oh, God, what's coming today?" 476 00:38:04,720 --> 00:38:06,600 It can cripple you, you know. 477 00:38:07,880 --> 00:38:10,480 I'm trying to get a publisher and I keep falling, 478 00:38:10,520 --> 00:38:13,600 you know, falling flat on my face, all of that. 479 00:38:14,960 --> 00:38:19,640 But you just keep showing up and you just keep doing the work. 480 00:38:19,680 --> 00:38:21,320 Do you know Sylvester Stallone? 481 00:38:21,360 --> 00:38:25,880 He was rejected 1,500 times by agents. 482 00:38:25,920 --> 00:38:29,120 Rocky... Well, they told him it was soppy, 483 00:38:29,160 --> 00:38:31,040 it was rubbish, it would never work. 484 00:38:31,080 --> 00:38:32,960 And he said, "I wrote down everything they said 485 00:38:33,000 --> 00:38:35,520 "and I read it on the night of the Oscars when we won". 486 00:38:35,560 --> 00:38:37,840 And sometimes I think we need to be like Rocky Balboa. 487 00:38:37,880 --> 00:38:39,200 We need to keep fighting. 488 00:38:39,240 --> 00:38:41,960 We need to be like Sylvester Stallone. We need to not give up. 489 00:38:43,840 --> 00:38:47,600 She was always writing, even from whenever she was a wee kid. 490 00:38:47,640 --> 00:38:49,240 She wanted to be a poet, 491 00:38:49,280 --> 00:38:52,040 and then we joked that poets will always be alone. 492 00:38:52,080 --> 00:38:54,200 They'll always be alone and have no money. 493 00:38:54,240 --> 00:38:57,120 So she was like, "Fuck it, I'll be a journalist". 494 00:38:57,160 --> 00:38:59,320 Who wants to see a penalty? 495 00:39:00,920 --> 00:39:03,080 Yahoo! 496 00:39:03,120 --> 00:39:05,560 In your face, Michael Jordan! 497 00:39:05,600 --> 00:39:07,480 HE HOWLS 498 00:39:07,520 --> 00:39:09,880 Lyra, she's my auntie, 499 00:39:09,920 --> 00:39:13,400 but three years' difference between us. 500 00:39:13,440 --> 00:39:15,880 Three years and 18 days. 501 00:39:15,920 --> 00:39:19,360 They used to call us the twins because we were never separated. 502 00:39:20,840 --> 00:39:24,840 Lyra was the first person that I told directly that I'm gay. 503 00:39:24,880 --> 00:39:27,640 She was saying that it was all OK, 504 00:39:27,680 --> 00:39:31,840 and then she's like kind of half said something, 505 00:39:31,880 --> 00:39:33,640 you know, about herself. 506 00:39:33,680 --> 00:39:36,200 And it was like, the way she would always, like, talk about it, 507 00:39:36,240 --> 00:39:39,040 it always, like, played my head. It was like, I know. 508 00:39:50,440 --> 00:39:52,160 CONGREGATION SING 509 00:40:08,680 --> 00:40:09,920 Lyra! 510 00:40:09,960 --> 00:40:13,440 Come on, we want to get some nice photos of you now, stop it. 511 00:40:24,080 --> 00:40:27,920 Religion still plays a massive role in this country, 512 00:40:27,960 --> 00:40:31,280 and the messages we constantly get from our public figures 513 00:40:31,320 --> 00:40:32,960 is that being LGBTQ is wrong. 514 00:40:34,280 --> 00:40:35,960 Can anything be plainer? 515 00:40:36,000 --> 00:40:39,960 God condemns homosexual and lesbian practices. 516 00:40:40,000 --> 00:40:41,880 It is perversion in his eyes. 517 00:40:41,920 --> 00:40:44,920 It is unseemly. It is against nature. 518 00:40:44,960 --> 00:40:47,920 Two lesbians living together are not a family, 519 00:40:47,960 --> 00:40:51,720 they are sexual perverts playing Let's Pretend. 520 00:41:20,160 --> 00:41:22,600 RADIO: A letter written by a local journalist 521 00:41:22,640 --> 00:41:25,880 to her 14-year-old self has been getting a huge reaction online. 522 00:41:25,920 --> 00:41:30,080 Lyra McKee hopes other young people will take heart from her letter 523 00:41:30,120 --> 00:41:32,080 and that some Christians will think twice 524 00:41:32,120 --> 00:41:35,400 before making negative comments about members of the gay community. 525 00:41:35,440 --> 00:41:37,480 Have you got this letter in front of you? 526 00:41:37,520 --> 00:41:39,200 I do. 527 00:41:39,240 --> 00:41:42,040 Maybe you can just read the first paragraph or so for us? 528 00:41:42,080 --> 00:41:43,280 No worries. 529 00:41:43,320 --> 00:41:45,920 Kid, it's going to be OK. 530 00:41:45,960 --> 00:41:48,480 I know you're not feeling that way right now. 531 00:41:48,520 --> 00:41:51,720 You're sitting in school, the other kids are making fun of you. 532 00:41:51,760 --> 00:41:53,600 You told the wrong person you had a crush, 533 00:41:53,640 --> 00:41:56,640 and soon, they all knew your secret. It's horrible. 534 00:41:56,680 --> 00:41:58,120 They make your life hell. 535 00:41:58,160 --> 00:42:01,320 They laugh at you, whisper about you, call you names. 536 00:42:01,360 --> 00:42:03,240 It's not nice. 537 00:42:03,280 --> 00:42:05,160 And you can't ask an adult for help 538 00:42:05,200 --> 00:42:08,120 because if you do that, you'd have to tell them the truth. 539 00:42:11,240 --> 00:42:13,320 Three months before your 21st birthday, 540 00:42:13,360 --> 00:42:15,360 you will tell Mum this secret. 541 00:42:15,400 --> 00:42:16,920 You'll be sobbing and shaking 542 00:42:16,960 --> 00:42:21,480 and she will be frightened because she doesn't know what's wrong. 543 00:42:21,520 --> 00:42:24,320 You'll have to tell her because you met someone you like 544 00:42:24,360 --> 00:42:26,560 and you can't live with the guilt any more. 545 00:42:26,600 --> 00:42:29,600 You can't get the words out, so she says it. 546 00:42:29,640 --> 00:42:31,440 "Are you gay?" 547 00:42:31,480 --> 00:42:34,960 And you say, "Yes, Mummy. I'm so sorry." 548 00:42:35,000 --> 00:42:37,600 And instead of getting mad, she'll reply... 549 00:42:37,640 --> 00:42:39,320 "Thank God you're not pregnant." 550 00:42:58,880 --> 00:43:00,800 I was aware of her writing. 551 00:43:00,840 --> 00:43:04,200 I had read Suicide Of The Ceasefire Babies, 552 00:43:04,240 --> 00:43:06,400 and I'd read Letter To My 14-Year-Old Self. 553 00:43:07,920 --> 00:43:11,920 And I remember I was kind of like, "Wow! You know, she's young, 554 00:43:11,960 --> 00:43:15,280 "she's from Northern Ireland, she's gay and she's THAT talented. 555 00:43:15,320 --> 00:43:16,840 "Like, she's phenomenal!" 556 00:43:16,880 --> 00:43:19,480 Um...never in a million years thinking I'd ever come across her 557 00:43:19,520 --> 00:43:21,760 on, you know, Plenty of Fish of all places. 558 00:43:25,520 --> 00:43:28,200 I was sitting one day and a like came through on my profile. 559 00:43:28,240 --> 00:43:31,560 It's one of the things you could do if you fancied somebody or whatever, 560 00:43:31,600 --> 00:43:33,880 you sent a wee like, and it's kind of a hint to say, "Hey!" 561 00:43:33,920 --> 00:43:35,600 So I clicked on her profile. 562 00:43:35,640 --> 00:43:37,720 She was called scribblesanddoodles. 563 00:43:37,760 --> 00:43:40,360 She asked me, she said, "If you're a true Harry Potter fan, 564 00:43:40,400 --> 00:43:43,640 "you'll know what your American house is". 565 00:43:43,680 --> 00:43:46,000 And I was like, "Of course I know what my American house is, 566 00:43:46,040 --> 00:43:47,880 "it's Pukwudgie!" 567 00:43:47,920 --> 00:43:49,760 And that started it. 568 00:43:49,800 --> 00:43:53,680 And then I did Google her, probably that night, to be fair. 569 00:43:53,720 --> 00:43:56,960 And I was, like, you know, Forbes 30 Under 30. 570 00:43:57,000 --> 00:43:58,960 I was, like, no, there's not a hope in hell 571 00:43:59,000 --> 00:44:02,880 this is going to go anywhere. She is way out of my league. 572 00:44:02,920 --> 00:44:04,360 But there was no awkwardness. 573 00:44:04,400 --> 00:44:07,840 From the very beginning, it was just two chatterboxes together, like. 574 00:44:07,880 --> 00:44:09,360 How many pancakes do you want? 575 00:44:10,400 --> 00:44:13,240 Do ten more squats, and I'll have three. 576 00:44:13,280 --> 00:44:14,480 Jesus! 577 00:44:18,040 --> 00:44:19,520 You know, she was so... 578 00:44:21,080 --> 00:44:23,960 She was... She was just such a tonic, she was so funny. 579 00:44:25,520 --> 00:44:28,920 We dressed as nuns for a charity night. 580 00:44:28,960 --> 00:44:30,800 We learned the songs from Sister Act. 581 00:44:34,800 --> 00:44:37,680 Lyra was very reluctant. 582 00:44:37,720 --> 00:44:40,120 God love her, she had no rhythm at all 583 00:44:40,160 --> 00:44:43,600 and she was giving it her all, she was dancing away. 584 00:44:43,640 --> 00:44:45,240 The craic was great. 585 00:44:45,280 --> 00:44:47,880 And it was the night before her birthday, 586 00:44:47,920 --> 00:44:50,720 so the entire place sang Happy Birthday to her. 587 00:44:50,760 --> 00:44:53,400 She was really pleased, though. You can see it in the video, 588 00:44:53,440 --> 00:44:55,560 she's clapping away and it's just so cute. 589 00:44:57,200 --> 00:44:59,520 She just had such a big heart. 590 00:44:59,560 --> 00:45:03,640 She got really attached to the things that she wrote about 591 00:45:03,680 --> 00:45:05,240 and the people she wrote about. 592 00:45:06,680 --> 00:45:09,720 I started in journalism nearly ten years ago. 593 00:45:09,760 --> 00:45:12,240 I never forget going to my university careers fair 594 00:45:12,280 --> 00:45:15,800 and asking the representative from the major, leading 595 00:45:15,840 --> 00:45:19,840 newspaper in Northern Ireland, did they hire investigative journalists? 596 00:45:19,880 --> 00:45:23,320 And she laughed at me and said no, they didn't hire those people 597 00:45:23,360 --> 00:45:25,800 any more, and that was an excess of the past. 598 00:45:25,840 --> 00:45:28,800 So that was what journalism looked like when I was starting out. 599 00:45:28,840 --> 00:45:31,640 So, I had to find another way. 600 00:45:31,680 --> 00:45:34,400 The best bit of advice I ever received was that brick walls 601 00:45:34,440 --> 00:45:38,000 aren't there to keep you out, they're there to see how badly you want it. 602 00:45:38,040 --> 00:45:42,040 I always think a good story can be universal. 603 00:45:44,400 --> 00:45:46,680 To give an example, I don't think the editor that 604 00:45:46,720 --> 00:45:49,280 I was dealing with knew anything about the Troubles. 605 00:45:49,320 --> 00:45:54,600 The story I pitched then was about a woman who spent 20 years 606 00:45:54,640 --> 00:45:57,760 investigating the murder of her father, 607 00:45:57,800 --> 00:46:01,520 looking for evidence that would basically incriminate his murderers. 608 00:46:27,520 --> 00:46:29,440 Hello? Come on in. 609 00:47:09,680 --> 00:47:14,760 My father was shot on the 9th of August 1971, by the 610 00:47:14,800 --> 00:47:18,280 Parachute Regiment in what is now known as the Ballymurphy Massacre. 611 00:47:21,080 --> 00:47:24,080 There wasn't much rioting last night - little stone-throwing 612 00:47:24,120 --> 00:47:27,280 and no pitched battles between the troops and the mobs. 613 00:47:27,320 --> 00:47:28,960 Instead, the bullets flew. 614 00:49:07,320 --> 00:49:09,520 She came in and she just looked around 615 00:49:09,560 --> 00:49:11,760 and she went, "And what's them?" 616 00:49:11,800 --> 00:49:15,040 I went, "They're witnesses, they're this." 617 00:49:15,080 --> 00:49:16,880 "But how did you get it?" 618 00:49:16,920 --> 00:49:19,960 Even when she looked. "Army statements." 619 00:49:20,000 --> 00:49:23,000 "But you can't have army statement." I went, "I do have army statements." 620 00:49:23,040 --> 00:49:24,360 I remember she says, 621 00:49:24,400 --> 00:49:27,720 "Did you ever think about being an investigative journalist?" 622 00:49:27,760 --> 00:49:31,640 I went, "Oh, dear, I think I have enough to do doing Ballymurphy!" 623 00:49:38,960 --> 00:49:43,200 The first time I had asked my mummy if I could get the inquest papers, 624 00:49:43,240 --> 00:49:47,040 she told me, "Love, they'll never give you the inquest papers, 625 00:49:47,080 --> 00:49:49,400 "The British Government will never give you." 626 00:50:11,080 --> 00:50:13,480 You're really starting to go into some of the really 627 00:50:13,520 --> 00:50:15,560 dark things that happened here. 628 00:50:15,600 --> 00:50:18,400 It's funny how a lot of those documents have went missing. 629 00:50:18,440 --> 00:50:22,520 It is an issue, especially in Northern Ireland. 630 00:50:22,560 --> 00:50:24,600 What is it that they don't want us to know? 631 00:50:26,560 --> 00:50:28,720 Around about 2000 and... 632 00:50:30,520 --> 00:50:31,600 ..12, 13... 633 00:50:45,640 --> 00:50:51,760 But under further examination, there was a bullet under the tibia bone. 634 00:50:51,800 --> 00:50:53,240 The hairs on my arm stood up. 635 00:50:53,280 --> 00:50:56,920 A deposition from the doctor said that the bullet 636 00:50:56,960 --> 00:50:59,880 that would basically incriminate his murderers 637 00:50:59,920 --> 00:51:02,160 was still encased in his skeleton. 638 00:52:00,960 --> 00:52:04,880 The bullet. They found the bullet. 639 00:52:04,920 --> 00:52:07,080 That was emotional. 640 00:52:07,120 --> 00:52:09,600 I did ring Lyra and tell Lyra. 641 00:52:09,640 --> 00:52:11,720 I was in tears. 642 00:52:11,760 --> 00:52:15,600 That's the bullet, and that's the back end of it, 643 00:52:15,640 --> 00:52:16,960 so that is the bullet. 644 00:52:20,920 --> 00:52:22,120 What did Lyra say to you? 645 00:52:24,280 --> 00:52:26,560 She couldn't speak. She couldn't, um... 646 00:52:28,280 --> 00:52:29,280 What do you say? 647 00:52:30,720 --> 00:52:35,040 When I was telling my story to her, 648 00:52:35,080 --> 00:52:38,680 I felt comfortable, and... 649 00:52:38,720 --> 00:52:40,520 ..she helped me through my emotion. 650 00:52:46,400 --> 00:52:52,480 It was just such a nice way with her, 651 00:52:52,520 --> 00:52:57,040 Even when you spoke to her, her voice... 652 00:52:57,080 --> 00:52:58,080 SHE SIGHS 653 00:52:58,120 --> 00:53:02,440 It's just ironic that she was trying to help victims like myself, 654 00:53:02,480 --> 00:53:05,600 and then for this to happen to her and her family, 655 00:53:05,640 --> 00:53:09,200 that's going to face now what my family has faced. 656 00:53:23,440 --> 00:53:26,000 RADIO NEWS: A 52-year-old man has been charged with the murder 657 00:53:26,040 --> 00:53:28,800 of journalist Lyra McKee. 658 00:53:28,840 --> 00:53:34,360 The man is an alleged accomplice of the gunman who pulled the trigger. 659 00:53:34,400 --> 00:53:37,800 He will appear in the city's Magistrates' Court tomorrow. 660 00:53:37,840 --> 00:53:41,360 As well as a murder charge, he is accused of possessing a firearm 661 00:53:41,400 --> 00:53:44,000 and membership of an illegal organisation. 662 00:53:46,480 --> 00:53:49,240 I'm imposing a restriction on yous here under Article 42, 663 00:53:49,280 --> 00:53:51,120 the Public Order (Northern Ireland) Order 664 00:53:51,160 --> 00:53:52,960 in relation to where yous can protest. 665 00:53:53,000 --> 00:53:56,120 Yous are obviously entitled to a protest, a peaceful protest. 666 00:53:57,960 --> 00:53:59,840 Would you just please move back, gentlemen? 667 00:53:59,880 --> 00:54:02,520 You have your right to assembly, your freedom of expression. 668 00:54:02,560 --> 00:54:04,760 I'm going to ask yous to move back under Article 42, 669 00:54:04,800 --> 00:54:06,440 the Public Order Order. 670 00:54:08,040 --> 00:54:09,040 Hey! Hey! 671 00:54:11,280 --> 00:54:12,280 Get back! 672 00:54:15,000 --> 00:54:18,520 SHOUTING 673 00:54:19,880 --> 00:54:21,480 We all know you're innocent! 674 00:54:27,080 --> 00:54:32,360 SHOUTING, CHEERING 675 00:54:32,400 --> 00:54:36,480 SHOUTING, CHEERING CONTINUES 676 00:54:40,680 --> 00:54:42,000 Fuckin' scumbags! 677 00:54:44,120 --> 00:54:48,440 We're here to support Paul McIntyre because we know he's innocent. 678 00:54:48,480 --> 00:54:50,280 Er... 679 00:54:50,320 --> 00:54:51,320 It's wrong. 680 00:54:52,440 --> 00:54:53,440 Er... 681 00:54:54,920 --> 00:54:57,080 We don't want an innocent man going down. 682 00:54:59,760 --> 00:55:01,320 Friend. Friends, aye. 683 00:55:11,280 --> 00:55:14,680 Sorry to hear that. Oh, I'm sorry to hear that. Aye, well. 684 00:55:14,720 --> 00:55:18,280 Condolences to her friends and family, like, and her partner. 685 00:55:18,320 --> 00:55:20,000 But, at the end of the day, 686 00:55:20,040 --> 00:55:23,840 an innocent man is getting charged - hasn't done wrong. 687 00:55:23,880 --> 00:55:24,880 He didn't do it. 688 00:55:29,200 --> 00:55:32,480 Well, we can't comment on that. We don't know who done it. 689 00:55:39,800 --> 00:55:41,480 We don't know who's done it, so. 690 00:55:43,040 --> 00:55:46,040 No, we don't know who done it but 691 00:55:46,080 --> 00:55:50,040 Paul McIntyre didn't do it and he's completely innocent, so he is. 692 00:56:12,520 --> 00:56:15,440 I'm shaking. I'm totally shaking. 693 00:56:19,960 --> 00:56:24,320 It's the first step in a very, very long journey ahead of us all. 694 00:56:27,400 --> 00:56:29,320 And I suppose... 695 00:56:29,360 --> 00:56:32,880 Was it daunting? How did it feel, all those people? 696 00:56:36,200 --> 00:56:38,520 It wasn't so much the people, 697 00:56:38,560 --> 00:56:42,640 it's just whenever Paul McIntyre came out 698 00:56:42,680 --> 00:56:46,760 and he looked me and Nichola straight in the face, 699 00:56:46,800 --> 00:56:48,840 didn't care. 700 00:56:48,880 --> 00:56:52,120 And his hands up like this to his mates. 701 00:56:52,160 --> 00:56:56,120 And they were doing it back to him, and he was trying to encourage them. 702 00:56:56,160 --> 00:56:58,760 But it was really important to be there to see the person 703 00:56:58,800 --> 00:57:03,120 who has been charged with our Lyra's murder. 704 00:57:18,160 --> 00:57:21,920 I am relieved that they've charged a man now related to Lyra's murder, 705 00:57:21,960 --> 00:57:25,680 but I know he's not the one who pulled the trigger. 706 00:57:27,960 --> 00:57:31,160 Derry's a really small city 707 00:57:31,200 --> 00:57:33,880 and I could walk past the man who killed her at any time. 708 00:57:37,280 --> 00:57:40,320 The police know who the gunman is 709 00:57:40,360 --> 00:57:42,760 but they don't have the evidence to charge him yet. 710 00:57:44,560 --> 00:57:47,480 People know who did it, but they're too frightened to speak out. 711 00:57:51,200 --> 00:57:52,640 And I understand that's how it is, 712 00:57:52,680 --> 00:57:55,760 and how it always has been in this country, in all communities. 713 00:57:59,800 --> 00:58:01,640 It has to change. 714 00:58:04,600 --> 00:58:07,120 That's what Lyra was writing about. 715 00:58:08,720 --> 00:58:11,000 And now we have to do that for her. 716 00:58:13,000 --> 00:58:15,720 We have to find a way to break that silence. 717 00:58:20,240 --> 00:58:23,120 Because our politicians certainly aren't going to do it for us. 718 00:58:28,560 --> 00:58:32,000 On tonight's programme - crisis in Stormont. 719 00:58:32,040 --> 00:58:35,000 For years, power has been shared in Northern Ireland. 720 00:58:35,040 --> 00:58:38,120 It was one of the foundation stones of peace. 721 00:58:38,160 --> 00:58:41,400 Today, that power-sharing government collapsed. 722 00:58:41,440 --> 00:58:45,440 There can be no return to the status quo. 723 00:58:45,480 --> 00:58:47,800 If something is broke, you stop. 724 00:58:47,840 --> 00:58:52,080 What does all this mean? Uncertainty for Northern Ireland. 725 00:58:55,120 --> 00:58:57,440 APPLAUSE 726 00:58:57,480 --> 00:59:00,560 Folks, welcome to our TEDx Stormont Women event this evening. 727 00:59:00,600 --> 00:59:02,120 It's lovely to be here tonight. 728 00:59:02,160 --> 00:59:05,280 It's quite symbolic, actually, that we're all sitting in Stormont with 729 00:59:05,320 --> 00:59:07,880 no government, but we'll get there. 730 00:59:07,920 --> 00:59:12,960 So, I want you to give it up for a fantastic freelance journalist. 731 00:59:13,000 --> 00:59:16,680 Her wisdom and maturity at such a young age is incredible. 732 00:59:16,720 --> 00:59:18,960 She is one to watch. Lyra McKee. 733 00:59:19,000 --> 00:59:21,240 APPLAUSE 734 00:59:24,480 --> 00:59:27,000 Thank you very much, folks, it's lovely to be here. 735 00:59:29,400 --> 00:59:32,680 I want to tell you a story about a conversation I witnessed 736 00:59:32,720 --> 00:59:35,360 at a mosque, which changed my life. 737 00:59:35,400 --> 00:59:38,400 But to tell you that story, I have to tell you another story first, 738 00:59:38,440 --> 00:59:40,680 and I've only got 12 minutes. 739 00:59:40,720 --> 00:59:43,520 You are now recording. Hi! 740 00:59:45,400 --> 00:59:50,000 I got the opportunity to go on a trip to the United States... 741 00:59:50,040 --> 00:59:51,360 LYRA GIGGLES 742 00:59:51,400 --> 00:59:53,320 ..to learn about American values. 743 00:59:58,560 --> 01:00:02,960 So, the thing about these trips is, they offer you a number of perks. 744 01:00:03,000 --> 01:00:05,760 So, in our case, they took us to Disneyland. 745 01:00:05,800 --> 01:00:09,280 Which I can confirm is definitely one of the happiest places on Earth. 746 01:00:10,640 --> 01:00:13,560 Then they took us to Nasa which, as a Star Wars nerd, 747 01:00:13,600 --> 01:00:15,560 I have to say competed in my heart 748 01:00:15,600 --> 01:00:18,120 for the title of happiest place on Earth. 749 01:00:18,160 --> 01:00:20,440 Oh, my God, that thing is coming for me! 750 01:00:20,480 --> 01:00:23,520 And you're probably thinking, where do I sign up for this trip? 751 01:00:23,560 --> 01:00:25,760 This sounds amazing, it's a free jolly. 752 01:00:25,800 --> 01:00:27,520 Which is what I thought it was. 753 01:00:27,560 --> 01:00:30,440 But I had to go through hell to get these perks. 754 01:00:30,480 --> 01:00:34,480 They offer your carrots they can dangle in front of you 755 01:00:34,520 --> 01:00:37,760 whenever the going gets tough, when you're in the 100th meeting 756 01:00:37,800 --> 01:00:41,400 of the day with someone whose views you find absolutely reprehensible. 757 01:00:48,280 --> 01:00:51,080 For me, though, the hardest part of the trip was when they told us 758 01:00:51,120 --> 01:00:54,840 we were going to be visiting a mosque. 759 01:00:54,880 --> 01:00:58,120 Now, you ask yourself, why would I find it hard to visit a mosque? 760 01:00:58,160 --> 01:01:01,960 Well, for those of you who don't have gaydar, I'm gay. 761 01:01:02,000 --> 01:01:05,560 Don't worry, you can laugh, it's OK! 762 01:01:05,600 --> 01:01:09,760 And the first lesson I learned about being gay was that it was evil, 763 01:01:09,800 --> 01:01:12,040 and that I was going to hell for it. 764 01:01:12,080 --> 01:01:13,680 And I learned that from the Bible. 765 01:01:15,400 --> 01:01:18,000 There were times that I would cry in my bedroom as a teenager, 766 01:01:18,040 --> 01:01:20,760 bargaining with God, asking him not to send me to hell, 767 01:01:20,800 --> 01:01:23,560 because I was so convinced that I was going there. 768 01:01:23,600 --> 01:01:25,040 You know, this text, this Bible, 769 01:01:25,080 --> 01:01:26,920 I know for so many people, it offers them hope 770 01:01:26,960 --> 01:01:28,920 and it offers them salvation. 771 01:01:28,960 --> 01:01:32,000 But for me, it offered a prison sentence. 772 01:01:32,040 --> 01:01:35,720 But I was intrigued by this mosque, because it was in Orlando. 773 01:01:37,160 --> 01:01:39,320 And a year to the week that we were in Orlando, 774 01:01:39,360 --> 01:01:43,200 49 people were slaughtered in a gay nightclub called Pulse. 775 01:01:45,880 --> 01:01:48,800 And this mosque had led the response to that tragedy 776 01:01:48,840 --> 01:01:51,400 and had condemned it. 777 01:01:51,440 --> 01:01:54,840 This was at a time when Christian churches in Orlando 778 01:01:54,880 --> 01:01:58,920 were refusing to bury some of the dead because they were gay. 779 01:01:58,960 --> 01:02:02,400 So I decided that I would go into this mosque with an open mind. 780 01:02:02,440 --> 01:02:05,120 And I did, and we met with this lovely man called Bassem, 781 01:02:05,160 --> 01:02:07,160 who was one of the leaders in the mosque. 782 01:02:07,200 --> 01:02:11,400 And Bassem and I had a conversation about LGBT rights 783 01:02:11,440 --> 01:02:14,400 and what Muslims think of gay people, and... 784 01:02:14,440 --> 01:02:16,160 Difficult, thorny subject. 785 01:02:16,200 --> 01:02:18,320 But there was a young Muslim man, 786 01:02:18,360 --> 01:02:22,880 and he was listening to the exchange between Bassem and I, 787 01:02:22,920 --> 01:02:26,320 and he said, "My best friend was gay. 788 01:02:26,360 --> 01:02:29,280 "He was Muslim and he committed suicide." 789 01:02:29,320 --> 01:02:33,120 And at this point, he burst into tears. 790 01:02:33,160 --> 01:02:38,160 And he said, "I did everything I could to save him, but I couldn't". 791 01:02:38,200 --> 01:02:41,360 LGBT suicide rates are through the roof. 792 01:02:41,400 --> 01:02:43,000 What do we do about this? 793 01:02:44,560 --> 01:02:49,200 I feel the only answer is to change religious teaching of homosexuality. 794 01:02:49,240 --> 01:02:51,880 And I don't mean we berate Christians and shout at them, 795 01:02:51,920 --> 01:02:54,520 or berate Muslims and shout at them. 796 01:02:54,560 --> 01:02:58,160 We need to have conversations, difficult conversations, 797 01:02:58,200 --> 01:03:02,040 and fight for the hearts and minds of those who oppose us. 798 01:03:02,080 --> 01:03:04,560 Don't tell me there's no hope, 799 01:03:04,600 --> 01:03:07,000 because for too many LGBT young people, 800 01:03:07,040 --> 01:03:10,880 that is the only thing they have that keeps them living. 801 01:03:10,920 --> 01:03:13,080 This talk is in memory of the Pulse 49 802 01:03:13,120 --> 01:03:15,840 and all LGBT people who've died by suicide. 803 01:03:15,880 --> 01:03:17,440 Thank you very much, folks. 804 01:03:17,480 --> 01:03:19,760 RAPTUROUS CHEERING AND APPLAUSE 805 01:03:21,480 --> 01:03:24,320 Lyra McKee, ladies and gentlemen. 806 01:03:24,360 --> 01:03:26,040 Come out again! 807 01:03:26,080 --> 01:03:27,760 CHEERING AND APPLAUSE CONTINUES 808 01:03:30,520 --> 01:03:32,160 Look at that! 809 01:03:34,520 --> 01:03:36,200 You're amazing. You're amazing. 810 01:03:47,440 --> 01:03:48,760 Hey, Ali. 811 01:03:48,800 --> 01:03:52,760 Me and Marie the cat want to wish you a fabulous birthday. 812 01:03:52,800 --> 01:03:54,480 Isn't that right, Marie? 813 01:03:54,520 --> 01:03:55,800 Yes. 814 01:03:55,840 --> 01:03:57,520 Have a great one. I love you loads. 815 01:04:00,480 --> 01:04:02,360 I'd always wanted to write a book, 816 01:04:02,400 --> 01:04:05,600 and I decided I was going to finally do it. 817 01:04:05,640 --> 01:04:07,800 It's going to be one story 818 01:04:07,840 --> 01:04:12,520 that other reporters here would be really afraid to report. 819 01:04:12,560 --> 01:04:13,960 Or wouldn't. 820 01:04:44,360 --> 01:04:46,400 So, how can I help you? 821 01:04:46,440 --> 01:04:50,960 I'm working on a proposal for a book called The Lost Boys. 822 01:05:36,160 --> 01:05:38,120 I'm really curious about this case. 823 01:05:38,160 --> 01:05:41,080 And everyone I speak to, whether they're a journalist or a cop, 824 01:05:41,120 --> 01:05:44,320 it seems that everyone's saying, there's something not right here, 825 01:05:44,360 --> 01:05:46,440 we need to find out what happened. 826 01:05:46,480 --> 01:05:50,240 There's always cases from your career, you look at and you think, 827 01:05:50,280 --> 01:05:53,400 "I wish we'd done that." And this is mine. 828 01:05:53,440 --> 01:05:56,840 It's one I would really like to see solved. OK. 829 01:05:56,880 --> 01:05:59,000 Because I think it is solvable. 830 01:06:00,720 --> 01:06:05,920 Somebody in West Belfast knows where these children are, 831 01:06:05,960 --> 01:06:07,560 or what happened to them. 832 01:06:07,600 --> 01:06:10,600 There's a lot of kids who went missing during the Troubles. 833 01:06:10,640 --> 01:06:12,760 How so? Like, why? 834 01:06:12,800 --> 01:06:16,120 At that time, we had all sorts of bombings, 835 01:06:16,160 --> 01:06:19,000 explosions, killings, everywhere. 836 01:06:19,040 --> 01:06:23,120 And the disappearance of two little boys 837 01:06:23,160 --> 01:06:25,720 would have been noted, 838 01:06:25,760 --> 01:06:28,640 but it wouldn't have been high on the scale of priorities. 839 01:06:28,680 --> 01:06:31,640 Yeah. You know, people were being killed en masse. 840 01:06:33,560 --> 01:06:37,000 From the police point of view, you have virtually no resources, 841 01:06:37,040 --> 01:06:40,120 because they're all tied up with shootings and bombings. 842 01:06:40,160 --> 01:06:43,040 And you're trying to make public appeals for information. 843 01:06:43,080 --> 01:06:44,600 People don't trust the police. 844 01:06:46,120 --> 01:06:50,400 If anybody cooperates with you, they risk being shot. 845 01:06:52,440 --> 01:06:54,680 So with all the other normal problems, 846 01:06:54,720 --> 01:06:57,080 this investigation initially went nowhere. 847 01:07:18,600 --> 01:07:21,280 She was really determined to find answers, 848 01:07:21,320 --> 01:07:23,520 but she really wanted to find those boys 849 01:07:23,560 --> 01:07:26,000 and give their families that closure. 850 01:07:26,040 --> 01:07:28,680 She was so excited every time there was a wee breakthrough 851 01:07:28,720 --> 01:07:32,600 or she heard something that she'd been looking for. 852 01:07:32,640 --> 01:07:34,800 I remember we were in Alicante, actually, 853 01:07:34,840 --> 01:07:37,400 she got a phone call from Father Martin Magill. 854 01:07:37,440 --> 01:07:41,400 Thanks again, Martin. You're a star. Thank you. Bye. Bye, bye, bye. 855 01:07:43,720 --> 01:07:45,560 I'm guessing that was something good. 856 01:07:45,600 --> 01:07:48,400 I'm doing what Ali told me to do. THEY LAUGH 857 01:07:48,440 --> 01:07:51,920 So the priest went and spoke to his parishioner. Yeah? 858 01:07:51,960 --> 01:07:55,560 And, er... This is mental! 859 01:07:55,600 --> 01:07:57,400 There's a number of things. 860 01:07:57,440 --> 01:08:00,040 Apparently, the parishioner gave a statement to the police 861 01:08:00,080 --> 01:08:04,200 saying that the bus came, but the boys didn't get on it. 862 01:08:04,240 --> 01:08:06,520 That's not the account that the police have given. 863 01:08:06,560 --> 01:08:09,160 Ooh! So the statement must have been lost. 864 01:08:09,200 --> 01:08:13,720 Second... Yes? The... Apparently, they were coming back from the 865 01:08:13,760 --> 01:08:17,360 cinema one night, John and his mum, 866 01:08:17,400 --> 01:08:20,160 and they saw some men setting the tripwire. 867 01:08:20,200 --> 01:08:22,560 And John said to them, 868 01:08:22,600 --> 01:08:25,560 "I know who you are and I'm going to tell the police". 869 01:08:25,600 --> 01:08:27,440 And it was local IRA men. Ohh! 870 01:08:27,480 --> 01:08:30,040 And she couldn't remember exactly who... 871 01:08:30,080 --> 01:08:32,120 ..the exact date... 872 01:08:32,160 --> 01:08:35,000 But that corresponds with what I've been told. Mm. 873 01:08:35,040 --> 01:08:38,920 That one of the boys killed was one of them saying, "I'm going to tell". 874 01:08:38,960 --> 01:08:40,320 Shit. 875 01:08:40,360 --> 01:08:41,920 That's pretty huge. 876 01:08:43,440 --> 01:08:46,000 Oh, my God, that priest was amazing! Yeah! 877 01:08:46,040 --> 01:08:48,720 You know what I say about priests! No, I know. 878 01:08:48,760 --> 01:08:51,200 Especially the way you said it - it was kind of worrying! 879 01:08:51,240 --> 01:08:52,560 LAUGHTER 880 01:08:53,680 --> 01:08:56,320 So, when I answered the door to her, 881 01:08:56,360 --> 01:08:59,120 "Oh, my Lord..." Looked like a wee schoolgirl, actually, 882 01:08:59,160 --> 01:09:00,800 in some ways! 883 01:09:00,840 --> 01:09:03,000 But when I actually heard the story, 884 01:09:03,040 --> 01:09:05,440 when I heard the connection with this parish, 885 01:09:05,480 --> 01:09:07,560 I couldn't believe it. Her... 886 01:09:07,600 --> 01:09:11,760 ..desire to do this was really infectious, and at the end of 887 01:09:11,800 --> 01:09:13,600 this conversation, 888 01:09:13,640 --> 01:09:15,160 this meeting with her, 889 01:09:15,200 --> 01:09:17,600 I'm thinking, "I really must help Lyra with this." 890 01:09:17,640 --> 01:09:19,160 What was very clear was 891 01:09:19,200 --> 01:09:20,960 just how extensive the research 892 01:09:21,000 --> 01:09:22,360 actually was and she 893 01:09:22,400 --> 01:09:27,080 certainly was talking to a lot of different people. 894 01:09:27,120 --> 01:09:29,680 And if anybody was going to find out 895 01:09:29,720 --> 01:09:32,160 what had happened to the two boys, it was Lyra. 896 01:09:35,360 --> 01:09:39,120 Five, six, seven, eight... Tap, tap... 897 01:09:41,960 --> 01:09:44,840 One, two, three, four, five, six... 898 01:09:44,880 --> 01:09:48,680 I've never really been motivated by making money. 899 01:09:48,720 --> 01:09:50,360 Making money looks like... 900 01:09:50,400 --> 01:09:53,040 It's OK, but it just doesn't... I can't... 901 01:09:53,080 --> 01:09:55,880 It's nothing I can get out of bed for. 902 01:09:55,920 --> 01:09:58,520 It's really about disrupting the status quo 903 01:09:58,560 --> 01:10:01,160 and trying to fix something that is wrong. 904 01:10:03,400 --> 01:10:07,080 Thinking about money and how to make money, constrains your creativity. 905 01:10:07,120 --> 01:10:09,440 It really takes the soul out of it. 906 01:10:09,480 --> 01:10:11,640 And you don't do the crazy things 907 01:10:11,680 --> 01:10:14,720 that could, you know, change the world. 908 01:10:14,760 --> 01:10:17,840 Three, four, five, six, stand up. 909 01:10:17,880 --> 01:10:20,720 One, two, three, put her down. 910 01:10:20,760 --> 01:10:23,040 Five, six. Cross hands and kick. 911 01:10:24,600 --> 01:10:27,640 Sometimes you get lucky and people pay you to do what you love. 912 01:10:32,120 --> 01:10:34,400 It's rare to read something 913 01:10:34,440 --> 01:10:38,440 that has the immediate feel of a classic. 914 01:10:38,480 --> 01:10:43,720 She has such a kind of striking, er...feel on the page. 915 01:10:43,760 --> 01:10:47,880 As an editor, you're always looking for the next voice of their generation. 916 01:10:47,920 --> 01:10:51,440 You want those sort of next essayists, the next great novelists, 917 01:10:51,480 --> 01:10:55,440 the best thinkers, and Lyra was that person. 918 01:10:55,480 --> 01:10:58,000 She was absolutely the kind of rising star 919 01:10:58,040 --> 01:11:00,320 for Faber's nonfiction. 920 01:11:00,360 --> 01:11:03,080 Lyra, thanks so much for joining us on the podcast today. 921 01:11:03,120 --> 01:11:04,800 Thank you very much for having me. 922 01:11:04,840 --> 01:11:07,120 So, people might look at you and think, 923 01:11:07,160 --> 01:11:09,040 high-profile, two-book deal, 924 01:11:09,080 --> 01:11:11,640 look at you as a success within the field. 925 01:11:11,680 --> 01:11:14,600 LYRA LAUGHS I'm not a success! Um... 926 01:11:14,640 --> 01:11:17,200 I'm still chasing my dreams. 927 01:11:17,240 --> 01:11:20,040 Listen, I'm a kid from North Belfast. 928 01:11:20,080 --> 01:11:23,840 There was never any indication that I was anything, you know, special. 929 01:11:23,880 --> 01:11:26,600 And I'd still say I'm not anything special. 930 01:11:28,080 --> 01:11:32,040 The only difference between me and someone else is I'm a cockroach. 931 01:11:33,880 --> 01:11:35,360 You can't kill me. 932 01:11:43,040 --> 01:11:45,200 So she'd started work on the book. 933 01:11:45,240 --> 01:11:47,240 It was all going really, really well, 934 01:11:47,280 --> 01:11:49,080 and we were planning on a holiday. 935 01:11:49,120 --> 01:11:52,600 She said to me, "I got you something amazing today for holidays", 936 01:11:52,640 --> 01:11:55,880 cos we were going to New York, and, um...I said, "What is it?" 937 01:11:55,920 --> 01:11:58,200 "I'm not telling you, but you're going to love it." 938 01:11:58,240 --> 01:12:00,120 "Happy days. That's grand. I can wait." 939 01:12:00,160 --> 01:12:01,640 Lyra couldn't wait. 940 01:12:01,680 --> 01:12:04,160 Pulled up outside the house, she pulled out her phone, 941 01:12:04,200 --> 01:12:06,600 "I can't hold it in any more. I can't keep this from you." 942 01:12:06,640 --> 01:12:09,080 I was like, "What is it?!" Thinking it was something bad. 943 01:12:09,120 --> 01:12:11,400 "I bought your engagement ring today and this is it!" 944 01:12:11,440 --> 01:12:13,680 She showed me a picture of it on her phone and I was like, 945 01:12:13,720 --> 01:12:15,480 "Lyra! What are you doing?! 946 01:12:15,520 --> 01:12:17,160 "You don't show me the picture! 947 01:12:17,200 --> 01:12:19,640 "Oh, no, it feels like a really bad secret!" 948 01:12:19,680 --> 01:12:23,160 "It's the opposite of a bad secret, it's a great secret, it's a lovely secret." 949 01:12:23,200 --> 01:12:25,360 I mean, she'd picked the perfect ring. 950 01:12:25,400 --> 01:12:28,600 And I was, "You can't tell me when... You can't do it any time now. 951 01:12:28,640 --> 01:12:32,120 "I'm going to be suspicious everywhere we go." 952 01:12:32,160 --> 01:12:35,760 Um...but she had planned to do it in New York. 953 01:12:35,800 --> 01:12:38,040 She was going to pop the question. 954 01:12:39,800 --> 01:12:41,480 She was the woman for it, like. 955 01:13:01,720 --> 01:13:04,920 She called me every day, if not ten times a day. 956 01:13:04,960 --> 01:13:08,640 But on the Wednesday, she phoned me 957 01:13:08,680 --> 01:13:13,200 because she'd had a horrible dream the night before. 958 01:13:13,240 --> 01:13:15,920 And we would always talk about our dreams to each other. 959 01:13:15,960 --> 01:13:17,240 She said, um... 960 01:13:18,640 --> 01:13:21,600 "I had a dream that I was shot." 961 01:13:21,640 --> 01:13:24,000 She said, "It felt so real!" 962 01:13:24,040 --> 01:13:26,200 And I said, "Maybe it's just a dream. 963 01:13:26,240 --> 01:13:29,800 "Cos sometimes we just have really frightening nightmares." 964 01:13:29,840 --> 01:13:33,760 And she said, "No. It felt too real. 965 01:13:33,800 --> 01:13:36,160 "It felt like it actually happened." 966 01:13:43,400 --> 01:13:45,480 REPORTER: Good evening. In the last half-hour, 967 01:13:45,520 --> 01:13:49,320 there have been reports of a serious disturbance in Londonderry. 968 01:13:49,360 --> 01:13:51,600 SHOUTING AND SIRENS 969 01:13:56,920 --> 01:13:59,840 It was Andrew's birthday, and, um... 970 01:14:01,600 --> 01:14:04,960 ..we were just sitting down and watching the TV in the evening, 971 01:14:05,000 --> 01:14:07,120 and me phone rang. 972 01:14:09,000 --> 01:14:10,560 "Hello?" 973 01:14:10,600 --> 01:14:14,720 "We were down at a riot. Lyra's been hit in the head 974 01:14:14,760 --> 01:14:17,800 "and she's been taken to hospital." 975 01:14:17,840 --> 01:14:20,320 I assumed it was going to be a brick or a bottle 976 01:14:20,360 --> 01:14:21,800 or something of that nature. 977 01:14:22,960 --> 01:14:25,040 And I said, "We need to go and get my mummy." 978 01:14:31,520 --> 01:14:34,320 Off we went, up to my mummy's house. 979 01:14:35,800 --> 01:14:37,760 My phone went again. 980 01:14:39,760 --> 01:14:44,200 And I was told that Lyra has been shot. 981 01:14:47,520 --> 01:14:49,440 And that it wasn't looking good. 982 01:14:52,720 --> 01:14:57,720 So got my mummy then, sorted, and into my husband's car. 983 01:14:57,760 --> 01:15:00,440 My phone went again. 984 01:15:00,480 --> 01:15:04,040 This time, it was a police officer wanting to speak to me. 985 01:15:04,080 --> 01:15:08,600 I said, "Can you tell me something - is my sister still alive?" 986 01:15:10,040 --> 01:15:14,200 And he said, "I'm really sorry to have to tell you this, 987 01:15:14,240 --> 01:15:17,040 "but your sister has passed away." 988 01:15:17,080 --> 01:15:20,800 And my heart just broke there and then. 989 01:15:20,840 --> 01:15:23,440 And my mummy's still sitting in the car. 990 01:15:28,320 --> 01:15:30,000 Lovely. Want to blow it out, Lyra? 991 01:15:32,080 --> 01:15:34,120 CHEERING 992 01:15:35,440 --> 01:15:36,760 Way to go! 993 01:15:36,800 --> 01:15:38,440 Yummy? 994 01:15:38,480 --> 01:15:40,760 My wee mummy, 995 01:15:40,800 --> 01:15:46,040 who adored every cell in that child's body... 996 01:15:49,360 --> 01:15:52,440 ..to tell her her baby, she'd been killed! 997 01:15:54,720 --> 01:15:56,880 Killed by a bullet! 998 01:16:04,120 --> 01:16:06,040 We got to the hospital. 999 01:16:07,400 --> 01:16:09,960 My mummy didn't want to see her at that point. 1000 01:16:12,000 --> 01:16:14,040 I went in to see her... 1001 01:16:14,080 --> 01:16:15,720 SHE SIGHS DEEPLY 1002 01:16:15,760 --> 01:16:18,920 ..and I couldn't believe it, cos she just looked like she was lying sleeping. 1003 01:16:20,920 --> 01:16:24,360 And so, I decided I would just sit beside her till she woke up. 1004 01:16:25,600 --> 01:16:28,160 Because my mind wasn't working, probably, 1005 01:16:28,200 --> 01:16:31,040 particularly accurately at the time. 1006 01:16:31,080 --> 01:16:34,800 And I didn't want to leave her, I just wanted to stay beside her. 1007 01:16:34,840 --> 01:16:38,360 If I could have got up on the bed with her, and died, I would have done it. 1008 01:16:41,840 --> 01:16:43,560 Just so I could cuddle her. 1009 01:17:00,840 --> 01:17:03,080 I was in the Belfast newsroom last night, 1010 01:17:03,120 --> 01:17:05,200 and it became clear around one o'clock this morning, 1011 01:17:05,240 --> 01:17:06,920 that Lyra McKee had died, 1012 01:17:06,960 --> 01:17:08,680 in the Creggan estate. 1013 01:17:11,360 --> 01:17:13,960 This morning, I woke to the sense of disbelief 1014 01:17:14,000 --> 01:17:17,600 and the sense of outrage and the sense of sadness. 1015 01:17:17,640 --> 01:17:20,200 CALLER: It's just horrible. It's just horrible. 1016 01:17:20,240 --> 01:17:22,160 We can't...go past these days. 1017 01:17:24,160 --> 01:17:27,160 REPORTER: Hundreds of people across Ireland are expressing their anger 1018 01:17:27,200 --> 01:17:30,800 and grief at the tragic murder last night of Lyra McKee. 1019 01:17:30,840 --> 01:17:32,800 An outpouring of feeling 1020 01:17:32,840 --> 01:17:34,760 that we have not seen in decades. 1021 01:17:36,680 --> 01:17:38,200 REPORTER: This evening, vigils are 1022 01:17:38,240 --> 01:17:39,880 taking place in Derry and in Belfast, 1023 01:17:39,920 --> 01:17:42,160 and books of condolence have been opened for people to pay 1024 01:17:42,200 --> 01:17:44,160 tribute to the murdered journalist. 1025 01:17:52,400 --> 01:17:55,160 I was standing out in my mum's back garden - 1026 01:17:55,200 --> 01:17:57,760 the Irish Government on the phone asking could this one go, 1027 01:17:57,800 --> 01:18:00,000 and that one go. 1028 01:18:00,040 --> 01:18:02,880 And then the Northern Ireland Office was on the phone, 1029 01:18:02,920 --> 01:18:04,440 the Secretary of State 1030 01:18:04,480 --> 01:18:06,280 wanted to come, and maybe 1031 01:18:06,320 --> 01:18:07,760 the Prime Minister, 1032 01:18:07,800 --> 01:18:09,360 and I'm thinking, "Why would 1033 01:18:09,400 --> 01:18:11,800 "the Prime Minister want to come to our Lyra's funeral?" 1034 01:18:49,200 --> 01:18:52,320 Before Lyra's funeral, it was becoming abundantly clear 1035 01:18:52,360 --> 01:18:54,000 this was very different. 1036 01:18:54,040 --> 01:18:56,560 This was something that I'd never encountered before, 1037 01:18:56,600 --> 01:18:59,200 with the likes of politicians and leaders. 1038 01:18:59,240 --> 01:19:02,240 That in some ways helped me to frame what I was going to say. 1039 01:19:06,240 --> 01:19:10,480 At the time of Lyra's death, we had no functioning government. 1040 01:19:10,520 --> 01:19:12,320 There was a political vacuum. 1041 01:19:13,680 --> 01:19:16,120 Lyra's funeral was one of the first times 1042 01:19:16,160 --> 01:19:19,280 that all our political leaders sat together in over two years. 1043 01:19:22,160 --> 01:19:25,400 The concern was - for that sort of vacuum that we've had in the past, 1044 01:19:25,440 --> 01:19:27,360 it gives those who 1045 01:19:27,400 --> 01:19:29,200 would use violence as a way to 1046 01:19:29,240 --> 01:19:31,200 achieve their ends, an opportunity 1047 01:19:31,240 --> 01:19:34,240 and the likes of this ongoing situation, 1048 01:19:34,280 --> 01:19:36,720 allowed some of the violence to increase. 1049 01:19:53,720 --> 01:19:56,480 It was the most insane 1050 01:19:56,520 --> 01:19:58,920 overwhelming thing. 1051 01:19:58,960 --> 01:20:02,560 We'd pulled up, and we'd just seen everyone there. 1052 01:20:02,600 --> 01:20:06,040 The amount of people who were out there was ridiculous. 1053 01:20:06,080 --> 01:20:08,400 And everything begins to feel numb. 1054 01:20:10,280 --> 01:20:12,440 Coming into the cathedral, at that stage, 1055 01:20:12,480 --> 01:20:14,400 the service was delayed because 1056 01:20:14,440 --> 01:20:17,440 the Prime Minister, Theresa May, her flight had been delayed. 1057 01:20:17,480 --> 01:20:19,320 And in consultation with the family, 1058 01:20:19,360 --> 01:20:22,720 they decided they'd hold the service back a little bit. 1059 01:20:22,760 --> 01:20:26,000 Typical politicians, they tend to just nod to everything you say, 1060 01:20:26,040 --> 01:20:29,080 but give you absolutely no concrete assurances of anything. 1061 01:20:31,840 --> 01:20:35,840 She came in and gave her condolences to Lyra's mum and her sister. 1062 01:20:35,880 --> 01:20:39,400 And I thought, while I have you here, you're going to listen to me. 1063 01:20:39,440 --> 01:20:42,080 So I spoke to her about the fact that we didn't have a functioning 1064 01:20:42,120 --> 01:20:45,280 government in Northern Ireland and we were being left adrift, 1065 01:20:45,320 --> 01:20:48,000 and really let down by the British Government. 1066 01:20:48,040 --> 01:20:51,000 And I said, "It's not just you, it's been successive Prime Ministers". 1067 01:20:51,040 --> 01:20:53,720 I said, "But you're letting us down day and daily, 1068 01:20:53,760 --> 01:20:55,080 "and it needs to change" 1069 01:21:00,440 --> 01:21:07,160 # Oh, my life is changing every day 1070 01:21:09,000 --> 01:21:11,920 # In every possible way 1071 01:21:16,920 --> 01:21:20,880 # And oh, in my dreams 1072 01:21:20,920 --> 01:21:24,800 # It's never quite as it seems 1073 01:21:24,840 --> 01:21:28,200 # Never quite as it seems 1074 01:21:31,560 --> 01:21:35,400 # I know I felt like this before 1075 01:21:35,440 --> 01:21:39,200 # But now I'm feeling it even more 1076 01:21:40,400 --> 01:21:43,800 # Because it came from you 1077 01:21:46,680 --> 01:21:49,120 # Then I open up and see 1078 01:21:50,320 --> 01:21:53,600 # The person falling here is me 1079 01:21:54,760 --> 01:21:57,400 # A different way to be... # 1080 01:22:00,760 --> 01:22:02,560 HE SIGHS DEEPLY 1081 01:22:09,440 --> 01:22:15,080 I couldn't believe it when I heard the news on Good Friday morning 1082 01:22:15,120 --> 01:22:18,200 that Lyra McKee had been shot dead. 1083 01:22:19,760 --> 01:22:22,600 The irony could not be more poignant 1084 01:22:22,640 --> 01:22:26,560 when we consider the signing of the Good Friday Agreement, 1085 01:22:26,600 --> 01:22:31,640 which was about ensuring there would be no more deaths like Lyra's. 1086 01:22:33,120 --> 01:22:40,160 And so, we don't need any more innocent blood to be shed. 1087 01:22:41,720 --> 01:22:47,240 Many of us will be praying that Lyra's death, in its own way, 1088 01:22:47,280 --> 01:22:50,080 will not have been in vain, 1089 01:22:50,120 --> 01:22:55,760 and will contribute in some way to building peace here. 1090 01:22:59,080 --> 01:23:03,640 I am, however, left with a question. 1091 01:23:05,120 --> 01:23:08,280 Why in God's name 1092 01:23:08,320 --> 01:23:11,760 does it take the death of a 29-year-old woman 1093 01:23:11,800 --> 01:23:14,680 with her whole life in front of her...?! 1094 01:23:14,720 --> 01:23:19,200 LOUD APPLAUSE 1095 01:23:43,080 --> 01:23:45,920 As our Lyra wrote... 1096 01:23:45,960 --> 01:23:48,000 ..conflict victims... 1097 01:23:49,280 --> 01:23:52,920 ..were a unique form of political currency, 1098 01:23:52,960 --> 01:23:55,200 bartered by each side. 1099 01:23:56,680 --> 01:23:59,240 And when we think about it, you know, 1100 01:23:59,280 --> 01:24:01,640 that...that's exactly what she became. 1101 01:24:01,680 --> 01:24:04,840 It's...it's so frightening that... 1102 01:24:04,880 --> 01:24:07,240 ..she would become what she wrote about. 1103 01:24:08,320 --> 01:24:10,960 And we, too, her family, 1104 01:24:11,000 --> 01:24:12,760 would become what she wrote about. 1105 01:24:14,240 --> 01:24:18,560 Because we're now among the many thousands of conflict victims. 1106 01:24:39,040 --> 01:24:42,000 RESPECTFUL APPLAUSE 1107 01:24:47,400 --> 01:24:51,440 # Soon I will be done 1108 01:24:52,680 --> 01:24:57,480 # With the trouble around the world 1109 01:24:59,400 --> 01:25:05,760 # Trouble of the world 1110 01:25:05,800 --> 01:25:09,520 # Trouble of the world 1111 01:25:11,360 --> 01:25:15,280 # Soon I will be done 1112 01:25:16,960 --> 01:25:21,680 # With the trouble of the world 1113 01:25:23,000 --> 01:25:26,120 # Going home 1114 01:25:26,160 --> 01:25:32,720 # To live with God 1115 01:25:35,880 --> 01:25:40,000 # No more 1116 01:25:41,640 --> 01:25:47,520 # Weeping and wailing 1117 01:25:47,560 --> 01:25:51,760 # No more 1118 01:25:53,760 --> 01:25:59,680 # Weeping and wailing 1119 01:25:59,720 --> 01:26:04,040 # No more 1120 01:26:05,680 --> 01:26:11,440 # Weeping and wailing 1121 01:26:11,480 --> 01:26:15,000 # Going home 1122 01:26:15,040 --> 01:26:21,080 # To live with God... # 1123 01:26:24,320 --> 01:26:27,880 They killed my mum the day they killed my Lyra. 1124 01:26:29,880 --> 01:26:32,400 She just missed Lyra so much. 1125 01:26:32,440 --> 01:26:34,360 She wrote a wee book, 1126 01:26:34,400 --> 01:26:37,040 wrote about how her heart's so broken. 1127 01:26:39,400 --> 01:26:42,800 I said to Mummy when she was passing away, 1128 01:26:42,840 --> 01:26:46,320 "Make sure to tell Lyra we won't ever stop fighting for her." 1129 01:26:46,360 --> 01:26:49,000 You know? 1130 01:26:49,040 --> 01:26:52,240 "When she comes for you, just go. Just go with her. 1131 01:26:53,800 --> 01:26:55,480 "We'll be OK." 1132 01:26:58,680 --> 01:27:00,560 And we have to be. 1133 01:27:03,160 --> 01:27:04,800 SHE SIGHS DEEPLY 1134 01:27:06,360 --> 01:27:08,200 I hope it stops here. 1135 01:27:08,240 --> 01:27:10,360 I hope that bullet stops here. 1136 01:27:10,400 --> 01:27:13,040 I hope it does not travel any further. 1137 01:27:17,840 --> 01:27:19,960 It has to. 1138 01:27:21,440 --> 01:27:24,760 Because we've been all through enough. 1139 01:27:24,800 --> 01:27:30,600 # I want 1140 01:27:30,640 --> 01:27:36,800 # To see my mother 1141 01:27:36,840 --> 01:27:41,160 # I want 1142 01:27:42,320 --> 01:27:48,440 # To see my mother 1143 01:27:48,480 --> 01:27:51,840 # Going home 1144 01:27:51,880 --> 01:27:54,760 # To live 1145 01:27:54,800 --> 01:27:58,440 # With God 1146 01:28:01,200 --> 01:28:05,480 # Soon I will be done 1147 01:28:05,520 --> 01:28:12,000 # Oh, trouble of the world 1148 01:28:13,120 --> 01:28:19,680 # Trouble of the world 1149 01:28:19,720 --> 01:28:23,840 # Trouble Of the world 1150 01:28:25,240 --> 01:28:30,640 # Soon I will be done 1151 01:28:30,680 --> 01:28:36,760 # With the trouble of the world 1152 01:28:36,800 --> 01:28:40,560 # Going home 1153 01:28:42,360 --> 01:28:46,040 # To live 1154 01:28:47,960 --> 01:28:53,320 # With God. # 1155 01:29:02,360 --> 01:29:07,720 My mummy left me with the job of keeping everything going. 1156 01:29:07,760 --> 01:29:12,400 And she wanted me to keep sharing Lyra's voice... 1157 01:29:13,760 --> 01:29:14,880 ..because... 1158 01:29:17,240 --> 01:29:20,680 ..she didn't want our Lyra ever to be forgotten. 1159 01:29:30,960 --> 01:29:32,760 I got into journalism because I loved it, 1160 01:29:32,800 --> 01:29:36,920 and because I thought I could change the world. 1161 01:29:40,800 --> 01:29:41,800 I still think that. 1162 01:29:47,880 --> 01:29:51,120 I'll probably laugh at myself when I look back at this video when I am 40 1163 01:29:51,160 --> 01:29:58,400 at how, you know, I really was convinced I could do it, but... 1164 01:29:58,440 --> 01:30:01,480 Yeah, I think it's just better to go down fighting. 1165 01:30:06,560 --> 01:30:13,040 Listen, do not fucking listen to bullshitters and naysayers. 1166 01:30:15,040 --> 01:30:18,040 See if you want to do it, you go do it. 1167 01:30:20,480 --> 01:30:24,040 And don't let anyone tell you that you can't do it. 1168 01:31:41,920 --> 01:31:46,320 Subtitles for the deaf and hard of hearing by Red Bee Media