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I got my driver's license last week Just like we always talked about
天啊
在電台播放了
To finally drive up to your house
你正在收聽地球上最受歡迎的樂曲
是由Olivia Rodrigo主唱的 《drivers license》
You weren't around
這絕對是我人生中最瘋狂的一星期
你就讀高中一年級下學期 就已出版你首張單曲專輯？
對…在上學期，甚至不是下學期
我緊張到死
（我考取駕駛執照）
各位剛加入的觀眾 我剛推出了單曲《drivers license》
這是我首張處女…怎麼說？單曲專輯？
這是我首度發行由我主創的歌曲
是世界各大串流音樂平台熱播榜的冠軍
就像破盡了紀錄
我的命運一瞬間改變了
（《時代雜誌》：年度演藝家 Olivia Rodrigo）
感覺很離奇，就像…
我搬離自己的家，不再跟父母同住
專輯已完成，高中亦將畢業
很離奇，所有事情都同時發生
嗨，我是Olivia Rodrigo…
我來自加利福尼亞州
我只想為親友獻上一首小小的樂曲
現在就要開始
《OLIVIA RODRIGO：情歌少女》
待在鹽湖城令我思緒如泉湧
令我想起早期 剛開始為《SOUR》 寫歌的情形
我一直很喜歡寫些情感豐富的歌
記得我寫過的那些歌 感覺都超級激動
關於我如何與世不容之類
那樣的音樂一直深深吸引我
那些能夠打動人心底深處的歌
唱作人是世上最有滿足感的崗位和工藝
跟他人聯繫上的感覺無法比擬
沒任何東西比音樂更直達人心
We broke up a month ago
Your friends are mine
You know I know You've moved on
Found someone new
One more girl Who brings out the better in you
And I thought my heart was detached
From all the sunlight of our past
But she's so sweet She's so pretty
Does she mean you forgot about me?
I hope you're happy
Just not like how you were with me
I'm selfish, I know I can't let you go
So find someone great But don't find no one better
I hope you're happy But don't be happier
Do you tell her
She's the most beautiful girl You've ever seen?
An eternal love bullshit You know you'll never mean
Remember when I believed
You meant it when you said it first to me?
And now I'm picking her apart
Like cutting her down Will make you miss my wretched heart
She's beautiful She looks kind
She probably gives you butterflies
I hope you're happy
Just not like how you were with me
I'm selfish, I know I can't let you go
So find someone great But don't find no one better
I hope you're happy
I wish you all the best, really
Say you love her, baby Not like you loved me
And think of me fondly When your hands are on her
I hope you're happy But don't be happier
I hope you're happy
Just not like how you were with me
I'm selfish, I know I can't let you go
So find someone great But don't find no one better
I hope you're happy Just don't be happier
（猶他州，鹽湖城）
專輯中大部份作品 都在鹽湖城到洛杉磯的途中寫成
能再作最後一次的公路旅行 我認為會很好玩
我想在這些曾對我有深刻意義之地方 演唱專輯的歌曲
（美食）
也想以較成熟的目光重溫舊地吧
還記得當時 我上載那首《happier》到網絡的情形
當時我在想：「天啊，那首歌很爛」
（手推車廣場）
「沒有人點讚， 我唱得也真差 為何要這樣做？」
（邦活保齡球場）
但心底有把聲音叫我堅持下去
那直覺幫了我很大忙 那首歌改變了我一生
（歡迎來到綠河城）
就是因為那帖子，我才遇到丹
他見到那帖文然後說：
「天啊，我愛這首歌，我們應該合作」
《happier》是第一首我們共同製作的歌
（我愛你，說你也是）
跟着整張專輯我也跟丹合作
開著，可以了，剛才我按錯
那個還未開著
（《SOUR》專輯錄音過程，2021年3月）
好
-那是什麼？ -第一首我們一起寫的歌
（音樂監製 丹歷高）
我不要聽，我真的不要
那是什麼？
Crying in the parking lot
You don't know what you want
傷感的Olivia！我很傷感！
Gave you everything
I guess everything ain't enough
You say you lost your best friend How do you think I feel?
You say it's over again And this time it's real
天啊，那時我多悲傷，你有所不知… 我寫這首歌是很傷感
-天啊 -你很傷感
還記得那天，我鬼咁傷感
-真的？ -對
-很有趣 -那是很久以前了
事隔很久… 差不多一年
-是的 -很瘋狂
我還未復原，天啊
這就像愛情關係，不斷傳來心痛的感覺
那情況就是當時我要去見他
他跟別人一起，令我感到絕望
每天感覺像我旳末日也降臨
沒人會明白或理解我當時的感受
所以我決定寫歌，完全表達情感
就像為自己製造一個朋友
《jealousy, jealousy》 是專輯中我寫的第二首歌
記得我寫歌的當時
非常沉迷那些社交媒體
我討厭那種感覺
我經常感覺被誤解
那對我很困擾，因為…
那絕對令自己經常心思思 想像別人怎樣想你
你希望別人認同你有天份和技巧
但你只有18歲吧
我想別人認為自己 很漂亮、有型或風趣之類
若你太在意這些事情的話
我認為你會在現實中感到迷失
不會有好結果
（微笑吧，你正被拍攝中）
I kinda wanna throw my phone Across the room
'Cause all I see are girls Too good to be true
With paper-white teeth and perfect bodies Wish I didn't care
I know their beauty's not my lack
But it feels like that weight Is on my back
And I can't let it go
Co-comparison Is killing me slowly
I think I think too much
'Bout kids who don't know me
I'm so sick of myself
I'd rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else
My jealousy, jealousy Started following me
And I see everyone Getting all the things I want
And I'm happy for them But then again I'm not
Just cool vintage clothes And vacation photos
I can't stand it God, I sound crazy
Their win is not my loss
Yeah, I know it's true But I can't help getting caught
Up in it all, yeah
Co-comparison Is killing me slowly
I think I think too much
'Bout kids who don't know me
And I'm so sick of myself
I'd rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else
My jealousy, jealousy
All your friends are so cool
You go out every night In your daddy's nice car
Yeah, you're living the life
Got a pretty face A pretty boyfriend too
I wanna be you so bad And I don't even know you
All I see is what I should be
Happier, prettier, jealousy, jealousy
All I see is what I should be
I'm losing it All I get's jealousy, jealousy
Co-comparison Is killing me slowly
I think I think too much
'Bout kids who don't know me
And I'm so sick of myself
Rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else
Jealousy, jealousy
I'm so sick of myself
I'd rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else
Jealousy, jealousy Started following me
I called you on the phone today
Just to ask you how you were
All I did was speak normally
Somehow I still struck a nerve
You got me **** up in the head, boy
Never doubted myself so much
Am I pretty, am I fun, boy?
I hate that I give you power Over that stuff
'Cause it's always one step forward And three steps back
I'm the love of your life Until I make you mad
Yeah, it's one step forward And three steps back
我所有調子都唱錯了
I'm an angel and the devil But you're always a good man
Yeah, you're always the good man
那些舊歌詞
這人跟我分手前一天，我才剛寫了這首歌
記得我有段日子沒法聽這首歌
我在車上寫成了 《1 step forward, 3 steps back》
當時我跟我媽正駕車去鹽湖城
愛上一個善變的人絕不好過
會導致你充滿焦慮，很沒安全感
在這人身邊就像如履薄冰，真的很難受
你其實只想得到這個人的愛、支持和肯定
你好像永遠也感覺不到
愛與接納
'Cause it's always one step forward And three steps back
I'm the love of your life Until I make you mad
（猶他州，眾神谷）
It's always one step forward And three steps back
Do you love me, want me, hate me Boy, I don't understand
No, I don't understand
And maybe in some masochistic way
I kind of find it all exciting
Like, which lover will I get today?
Will you walk me to the door Or send me home crying?
It's always one step forward And three steps back
I'm the love of your life Until I make you mad
It's always one step forward And three steps back
Do you love me, want me, hate me Boy, I don't understand
No, it's back and forth Did I say something wrong?
It's back and forth Going over everything I said
It's back and forth Did I do something wrong?
It's back and forth Maybe this is all your fault instead
It's one step forward And three steps back
And I'd leave you
But the roller coaster's all I've ever had
It's always one step forward And three steps back
Do you love me, want me, hate me Boy, I don't understand
No, I don't understand
2020年7月13日
「我今天考獲駕駛執照 一項我滿心期待的成就」
「所有親戚都打來祝賀」
「我如此渴望考獲駕駛執照 部份原因我想是」
「因為這男孩」
「我太年輕所以沒法駕車去找他 這令我一直很難受」
「年紀太輕令我沒法擁有任何真正自由」
「我認為他值得配上 一位擁有那些自由的女孩」
「近來我感到他對我的影響 每天越變越細，那感覺不錯」
「雖然到目前為止 我仍沒法愛上任何人」
「這刻我沒法想像去愛人」
我曾覺得這首歌該會很特別
對別人可能無關痛癢，對我卻是如此
因為我感覺這首歌，真能捕捉到那絕望感
一種之前我無法用筆墨形容的感覺
第二段歌詞是…
Today I drove through the suburbs
And pictured I was driving home to you
那句歌詞繪形繪聲
就像我真的駕車到你家之類
但我記得當時感覺 真的像重新經歷那段往事
有時你真的會很愛一個人
你花很多時間跟他們相處
你感覺跟他們一起非常自在
記得聽起這旋律，當時此曲還未發行
我只有試唱版在手機 我會一邊駕車一邊聽
每當音樂響起，我內心都會一沉
我感覺這就像…
非常觸動到我
我認為深愛一個人的最壞之處 就是你有可能失去他
（朋友兼音樂人 積及哥利亞）
-那回應很好 -我總是有那感覺
對於我生命的每方面 甚至對我的職業生涯，我就像說：
「 天啊，我對這一切都很感恩」
但你遇上這麼美好的事情後
你會有點恐懼，內心會有預感
「 若失去了這些怎麼辦？」
你如何捉緊在命運裏遇上的事情…
感覺可能很好或強烈
你怎樣將那些事情轉化成樂曲？
我不知道，我的音樂與創作風格
有時會有點嚇怕我
說故事的話，我認為有時並不需要
-從太絕望的角度出發 -對
在我未來的歌唱事業中 我會一直這樣告訴自己
因我未來人生未必再這樣絕望 這令我害怕
-我沒法再創作一張好的專輯 -你靈感從哪裏來？
-就是了 -對…
我不認為之前聽過一首歌 比《drivers license》
更有神韻
有種感同身受
謝謝
有愛與痛的感覺
（《drivers license》首次錄音情況）
I got my driver's license last week Something we always talked about
'Cause you were so excited for me To finally drive up to your house
But today I drove through the suburbs Crying 'cause you weren't around
我想我仍像 剛發行《drivers license》時天真
Probably with that brunette girl
The one I always thought about
我不知道，或許現在我已堅強了點
She's so much older than me She's everything I'm insecure about
我不知道，我想打從心底我仍是一樣的人
我仍很敏感、情緒化和關心別人 我希望是
太多事情發生了，我人生已完全不同
想來很離奇啊
But I've never felt this way For no one
但我認為我會一直寫歌
這是我表達自我的方式
也是一種理解這個世界的方法
Just tell me that you really meant
The words you wrote about me In that song
好吧，要來了
（《drivers license》錄音過程）
And all my friends are tired Of hearing how much I miss you
I kinda feel sorry for them
（拍攝《drivers license》 音樂錄像的情況）
'Cause they'll never know you The way that I do
Yeah, today I drove through the suburbs
And pictured I was driving home to you
And I know we weren't perfect But I've never felt this way
For no one
（樂隊綵排）
And I just can't imagine How you could be so okay
Now that I'm gone
（《drivers license》 單曲專輯硬照 拍攝情況）
I guess you didn't mean What you wrote in that song about me
'Cause you said forever Now I drive alone past your street
（週六夜現場）
Red lights Stop signs
I still see your face
In the white cars
（2021年 全英音樂獎）
Front yards
Can't drive past the places
（《Shibuya Note TV》日本音樂節目）
We used to Go to
（《MTV PUSH》音樂節目）
'Cause I still **** love you, babe
《占美法隆今晚騷》
Sidewalks We crossed
（《iHeartRadio》音樂節）
I still hear your voice
In the traffic We're laughing
（《SOUR》專輯巡遊）
（《Austin City Limits》現場表演）
Over all the noise
God, I'm so blue Know we're through
But I still **** love you, babe
And I know we weren't perfect But I've never felt this way
For no one
唱吧！
And I just can't imagine How you could be so okay
Now that I'm gone
I guess you didn't mean What you wrote in that song about me
'Cause you said forever Now I drive alone past your street
Yeah, you said forever
Now I drive alone past your street
《drivers license》 的成功改變了一切
由一開始我獨自在睡房表演 或在錄音室跟丹合作
到首次在很多重要場合作大型表演
感覺壓力很大
能發行一首如此大熱的樂曲，你也心想：
「 天啊，真神奇」
然後人人都在問：「 跟着做什麼？ 你能保持熱度嗎？之後還有何作品？」
你心想：「天啊，我才剛有大熱作品」
「這還不足夠嗎？」
我們有談過製作專輯的事嗎？ 我有問你意見嗎？
-不…你沒有 -沒有？
你沒有跟我透露，你真的只是…
我以為我問過：「我要製作專輯 你想合作嗎，丹？」
其實你只是說：「我們要製作專輯 一起合作吧」
記得在鹽湖城有天你感到很慌亂 然後就打給我
你只是說：「你現在必須過來」
我就答：「好的，來吧，一起合作」
《drivers license》推出後一星期 我大概打了給唱片公司
要求製作一張專輯
我說： 「天啊，看來將有比我想像中更多的人」
「會聆聽這些樂曲」
「我必須全力以赴」
我打給他們後，他們的答覆都不太肯定
但我已下定決心勇往直前
So, when you gonna tell her That we did that too?
She thinks it's special
But it's all reused
That was our place I found it first
I made the jokes You tell to her
When she's with you Do you get déjà vu?
在這張專輯中 尤其《deja vu》 這首作品
我非常沉溺，甚至有點害怕
就是世上所有關係，其實都在不斷重複
因我想我才首次認清愛情關係
感覺就像「等等，這些事一點也不特別」
「 就像一切不斷輪迴」
當我跟丹合作寫《deja vu》這首歌時
我們想寫出一首意象清晰又具體的歌曲
我認為《deja vu》完美達標
尤其主歌部份描繪得非常清晰
因為那種具體與真實性
是我在歌曲中最喜愛的元素
我認為這是我從鄉村音樂中學習過來的
我認為鄉村音樂歌曲都非常具體和真實
所以有時聽起來會很傷心
若我寫了一首歌卻欠缺這些元素的話
我大概不會真的喜歡它
很老實說
不想在《drivers license》後 就立即推出這首歌
記得我曾認為這首歌不太好
我不太喜歡它，亦將沒人會喜歡它
記得我們宣佈 推出《deja vu》前三至四天
我打給經理人說：
「斬纜吧，我不想唱這首歌 我做不到，我討厭它」
現在我喜歡這首歌
但《drivers license》 的反應非常好
緊接着推出另一首歌，感覺頗嚇人
《deja vu》跟《drivers license》 兩首歌截然不同
完全是兩種風格
《drivers license》很富戲劇性 帶着很多憎恨情緒
我想若我推出這首歌
我就像一頭栽進去，引發三角關係紛爭
就像叫人「來憎恨其他女孩吧」 我真的不想那樣做
只是…我從來寫歌都不會從那角度出發
那不是我發自內心的感覺
寫了這麼多段紀錄，感覺都一模一樣
這只是我腦內的聲音吧 說我總是會找到些東西
-我要下定決心做了 -若這樣做能讓你好過點…
（與Interscope唱片公司新秀發展部 高級副總裁馬特摩里斯對話中）
-我支持你 -好
每次我聽着《drivers license》 我都心想：「不，這本該由我唱出來」
諸如此類，但這是現時世上最熱爆的歌曲
-對 -人人都喜歡它
沒人覺得任何不妥
-對 -所以…
對
（汽車影院，為你呈獻《deja vu》）
Car rides to Malibu
Strawberry ice cream
One spoon for two
And trading jackets
Laughing 'bout how small it looks on you
Watching reruns of Glee
Being annoying
Singing in harmony
I bet she's bragging
To all her friends saying you're so unique
So when you gonna tell her That we did that too?
She thinks it's special But it's all reused
That was our place I found it first
I made the jokes You tell to her
When she's with you Do you get déjà vu?
Do you call her And almost say my name
'Cause let's be honest We kinda do sound the same
Another actress
Well, I hate to think That I was just your type
And I'll bet that she knows Billy Joel 'Cause you played her "Uptown Girl"
You're singing it together now
I bet you even tell her how You love her
In between the chorus and the verse
So when you gonna tell her That we did that too?
She thinks it's special But it's all reused
That was the show We talked about
Played you the song She's singing now
When she's with you Do you get déjà vu?
Strawberry ice cream in Malibu
Don't act like we didn't do that shit too
You're trading jackets like we used to do
Yeah, everything is all reused
Play her piano, but she doesn't know
That I was the one Who taught you Billy Joel
It's a different girl now But there's nothing new
I know you get déjà vu
為了克服心碎的感覺 我不斷思索一個概念
我想你該原諒那位令你痛苦的人
但我認另一件重要的事就是原諒自己
我在手機的筆記本程式 找到這一首小小的詩
"I know that I loved you so bad, I let you treat me like that"
我很喜歡那首詩，形容得很深刻
因此我們在歌曲開首引用了這句話
我認為你該試試
Oh, look--
Look what we be…
Oh, look what we be…
好…就這樣做吧
再激動一點！
-我做得到 -讓情感爆發！
你現在很生氣
有人犯了罪，你慶幸同時亦傷感
很複雜的情感
我很喜歡一句歌詞 「 一顆心破碎，四隻手染血」
二人都要同時承擔責任
心碎這感覺是雙方的 若你不把自己先放在那位置
你就不會心碎
我認為寫這首歌能讓我原諒自己
（亞利桑那州，雅高山地）
Know that I loved you so bad
I let you treat me like that
I was your willing accomplice, honey
I watched as you fled the scene
Doe-eyed as you buried me
One heart broke, four hands bloody
Oh, the things I did
Just so I could call you mine
The things you did
Well, I hope I was your favorite crime
Used me as an alibi
I crossed my heart as you crossed the line
And I defended you to all my friends
And now every time a siren sounds
I wonder if you're around
'Cause you know that I'd do it all again
Oh, the things I did
Just so I could call you mine
The things you did
Well, I hope I was your favorite crime
And it's bittersweet To think about the damage that we'd do
'Cause I was going down But I was doing it with you
Yeah, everything we broke And all the trouble that we made
But I say that I hate you With a smile on my face
Oh, look what we became
Oh, the things I did
Just so I could call you mine
Oh, the things you did
Well, I hope I was your favorite crime
Your favorite crime
'Cause baby you were mine
《good 4 u》是另一首 我突然興起寫的歌
我我希望這首歌表達出憤怒與可悲
但用上較搞笑和輕佻的風格手法
而非激進和刻薄的唱法
棄用那些唱法，感覺反而更強烈
不要這樣？
You will never have to hurt The way you know that I do
-我認為最好不要 -再試一次好嗎？
Way you know that I do
那一句
-有幫助嗎？ -有
別那樣唱會更有影響力
You will never have to hurt The way you know that I do
背景那些呢？我加入了些激烈音效
-我不喜歡，刪除那些音效吧 -你不喜歡激烈？
Well, screw that and screw you
You will never have to hurt The way you know that I do
-必須加入 -我愛那個，是全曲精髓
-歌中有魔鬼啊？ -刪除吧
最少讓我聽清楚
（紅岩峽谷國家保護區，加利福尼亞州）
Well, good for you I guess you moved on really easily
You found a new girl And it only took a couple weeks
Remember when you said That you wanted to give me the world
And good for you, I guess That you've been working on yourself
I guess that therapist I found for you, she really helped
Now you can be a better man For your brand-new girl
Good for you You look happy and healthy, not me
If you ever cared to ask
Good for you
You're doing great out there Without me, baby
God, I wish that I could do that
I've lost my mind I've spent the night
Crying on the floor of my bathroom
You're so unaffected I really don't get it
But I guess good for you
And good for you I guess you're getting everything you want
You bought a new car And your career's really taking off
It's like we never even happened, baby
What the **** is up with that?
And good for you It's like you never even met me
Remember when you swore to God I was the only
Person who ever got you?
Well, screw that and screw you
You will never have to hurt The way you know that I do
Well, good for you You look happy and healthy, not me
If you ever cared to ask
Good for you
You're doing great out there Without me, baby
God, I wish that I could do that
I've lost my mind I've spent the night
Crying on the floor of my bathroom
You're so unaffected I really don't get it
But I guess good for you
Maybe I'm too emotional
Your apathy's like a wound in salt
Maybe I'm too emotional
Or maybe you never cared at all
Maybe I'm too emotional
Your apathy's like a wound in salt
Maybe I'm too emotional
Or maybe you never cared at all
Well, good for you
You look happy and healthy, not me
If you ever cared to ask
Good for you
You're doing great out there Without me
Like a damn sociopath
I've lost my mind I've spent the night
Crying on the floor of my bathroom
You're so unaffected I really don't get it
But I guess good for you
Well, good for you I guess you moved on really easily
我在想我怎樣寫出《enough for you》
其實當時我身處鹽湖城 我在睡房地板寫成的
我望住一塊全身鏡
我拿起結他，對着鏡中的自己彈奏
只要想到這首歌的主題，就覺得搞笑
當時我只在想
我感到非常自卑
我認為當一個人深深愛着另一個人
你就會感到很自卑
你感到自己配不起那個人
他是你整個世界的全部 完全摧毁我的自信
但我很喜歡這首歌的開頭
由自我輕視的角度出發
最後卻變得有希望一點
'Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough
But I don't think anything Could ever be enough
For you
Enough for you
No, nothing's enough for you
-怎麼了？ -我感到很悲傷，我不知道
這個你也不喜歡？
-我不知道 -有什麼事你不喜歡？
這首歌跟我錄過的其他歌沒分別
只是歌詞不同了
好吧，你想加入電子結他？
有幫助嗎？
我不知道
好吧
那就像進入錄製專輯過程的尾聲
記得我聽到那首歌然後說：
「整首歌都充滿問題」
我愛那首歌、歌詞和旋律
但記得我說過：
「結他聲不夠好，節奏不夠準」
「我不喜歡那樣，亦不會唱得好…」
在我腦海中有很多問題
（Interscope新秀發展部高級副總裁 馬特摩里斯）
我只希望某幾段的感情更豐富
我覺得若你不好好留意歌詞
你就不會清楚首歌講什麼
我認為你思慮過度
-我同意，這首歌充滿感情 -超多感情
不錯
充滿太多感情，每次聽到都讓我非常傷感
作為一位童星
身邊人都經常讚你
你平常地敷衍下，他們都跟你說： 「 你是個明星」
由我年紀很小開始
我已對此感到絕望
我經常想： 「無論怎樣做，他們都會如此說」
所以我會跌入另一個極端
開始以為我做的所有事都有錯
我開始自我批評：
「不， 你一定可以做得更好…」
人們讚我做得好，我都不會接受
記得那段時間我和我爸常在一起
因為我感覺他是唯一會跟我說真話的人
當時我年紀還小 沒法相信任何人的感覺
真的很難受
你做錯事的話，沒人會提點你
我都覺得丹會跟我說真話
在我遇過的人中
丹是那種口直心快的人
「你不應那樣做，若我是你的話就不會」
我真的很感激他
不是很多人真的關心你，會對你說真話
你明白吧？
一個人要善良到某程度，真的關心別人
還要具備勇氣，才會這樣幫助他人
I wore makeup when we dated 'Cause I thought you'd like me more
If I looked like the other prom queens I know that you loved before
Tried so hard to be Everything that you liked
Just for you to say You're not the compliment type
And I knew how you took your coffee And your favorite songs by heart
I read all of your self-help books So you'd think that I was smart
Stupid, emotional, obsessive little me
I knew from the start This is exactly how you'd leave
You found someone more exciting The next second you were gone
And you left me there crying Wondering what I did wrong
And you always say I'm never satisfied But I don't think that's true
'Cause all I ever wanted Was to be enough for you
Yeah, all I ever wanted Was to be enough for you
And maybe I'm just not as interesting As the girls you had before
But God, you couldn't have cared less About someone who loved you more
I'd say you broke my heart But you broke much more than that
Now I don't want your sympathy I just want myself back
Before you found someone more exciting The next second you were gone
And you left me there crying Wondering what I did wrong
And you always say I'm never satisfied But I don't think that's true
'Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough
And don't you think I loved you too much To be used and discarded?
Don't you think I loved you too much To think I deserve nothing?
But don't tell me you're sorry, boy Feel sorry for yourself
'Cause someday I'll be everything To somebody else
They'll think that I am so exciting
Then you'll be the one who's crying
Yeah, you always say I'm never satisfied
But I don't think that's true
You say I'm never satisfied But that's not me, it's you
'Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough
But I don't think anything Could ever be enough
For you
Enough for you
No, nothing's enough for you
（Earl's 66旅館，有吉房）
（住宿）
（在亞利桑那州溫斯洛城的角落）
那是什麼？
不知道
-你準備好？ -對
You betrayed me
And I know that you'll never feel sorry
For the way I hurt, yeah
You talked to her
你是對的，我不喜歡…
那應該是…
The way I hurt, yeah
You talked to her When we were together
Loved you at your worst But that didn't matter
我認為《traitor》是其中一首 我最喜歡的自家創作
真的很喜歡那歌詞
「或許稱不上出軌 但你仍是個不折不扣的背叛者」
因為那樣能非常簡潔表達出
被背叛時那超級心痛的感覺
尤其當那個人這麼快就移情別戀
（ROY'S汽車旅館咖啡室）
（加利福尼亞州，安博伊）
我認為成為唱作人最艱辛的部份
就是要沉溺於這些非常痛苦的情緒
當你寫歌時 你永遠也沒法對自己說謊
最少這對我來說很困難
Brown, guilty eyes And little white lies, yeah
I played dumb, but I always knew
That you talked to her maybe Did even worse
I kept quiet so I could keep you
And ain't it funny
How you ran to her The second that we called it quits?
Ain't it funny
How you said you were friends? Now it sure as hell don't look like it
You betrayed me
And I know that you'll never feel sorry
For the way I hurt, yeah
You talked to her When we were together
Loved you at your worst But that didn't matter
It took you two weeks To go off and date her
Guess you didn't cheat But you're still a traitor
God, I wish that you Had thought this through
Before I went and fell in love with you
And when she's sleeping in the bed we made
Don't you dare forget about the way
You betrayed me
'Cause I know that you'll never feel sorry
For the way I hurt, yeah
You talked to her When we were together
You gave me your word But that didn't matter
It took you two weeks To go off and date her
Guess you didn't cheat But you're still
You're still a traitor
Yeah, you're still a traitor
God, I wish that you Had thought this through
Before I went and fell in love with you
其實丹跟我現在都快瘋了
（《SOUR》歌曲清單交貨前五日 2021年3月）
為何這樣？
我們想加一首輕快歌曲到專輯中
等等…今次不是「我們」
我想把一首輕快…
Olivia想在專輯中加入一首輕快歌曲
但我們選不到哪首歌
你意思是？
在我的錄音軟件中有些歌 我們都逐一聽過
但要在五日內決定歌曲清單談何容易
而你每天都改變主意？
我沒每天都改變主意！ 我只想加入一首輕快樂曲!
I got my driver's license
是B調嗎…
-Driver's license… -不，是降B大調
-對，降B大調 -好
我們應否…寫首歌，我們今天可以寫首歌
-彈什麼調… -是升G小調
-那是什麼？ -我不知道
很好
-什麼？ -我要去錄音，所以不會忘記
那很好
Well, I I wanna cry now
很好啊，丹，我喜歡
Tell me so
然後這裏你要唱…
-幾好玩 -我喜歡
有首歌可以叫《brutal》真好
我當時想：「若歌曲的鈎印是這樣…」
主歌就會是： 「人人都很卑鄙，世界也很冷酷」
然後鈎印…
就會是「冷酷的現實傷透我心」
-「冷酷的現實傷透我心」，我喜歡 -你喜歡嗎？
很龐克的感覺
沒錯，我真的很喜歡…
-好 -我喜歡那個…
冷酷的現實傷透我心
《brutal》的首次錄音，亦是唯一一次
我們昨天寫好這首歌
好吧，你會有延誤嗎？還是無問題？
-我很…不…我聽不到 -你聽不到…因為…
現在試試
I'm so insecure I think That I'll die before I drink
-好 -可以嗎？
我會食了那支咪
完全吞下去
第四回吧？
第四回，來吧，三，開始！
I'm so insecure I think That I'll die before I drink
I'm so caught up in the news Of who likes me and who hates you
I'm so tired that I might Quit my job, start a new life
And they'd all be so disappointed 'Cause I'm the girl that they exploited
And I'm so sick of 17 Where's my **** teenage dream?
If someone tells me one more time Enjoy your youth, I'm gonna cry
And I wish I was someone else I'm anxious and no one can help
And I wish I'd done this before And I wish people liked me more
這真是一首好歌，丹 真慶幸我們能這樣即興創作
-有何不可？好玩吧？ -對
我們不就是為此而生嗎？
-對 -一直以來做音樂都不好玩
都不好玩，尤其是做我們的音樂
-這是個嚴肅話題 -令人沮喪
記得我曾有種被困住的感覺
有點像要在毫無準備下面對狀況
所有事情都一夜間發生
突然間人人都望住你
而我在想： 「天啊，我真的想過這種生活？」
這問題事關重大
記得我很喜愛那句歌詞 「無汁可榨該如何收場？」
寫這句歌詞的那刻，我…非常激動
我在想：「對，這就是我想說的話」
我那一階段的人生非常古怪
我曾經感到很孤單
（加利福尼亞州，莫哈韋沙漠）
記得我曾非常渴望擁有男朋友
記得我當時
我周圍看看
人們在網絡或雜誌上怎樣評論我
而我依然情傷未癒
還有那些衍生出來的大小事情
我們正要完成這張專輯
太多事情同時發生
好像真的要來個了斷
《brutal》 （特別介紹Blu DeTiger與Towa Bird）
I'm so insecure I think That I'll die before I drink
I'm so caught up in the news Of who likes me and who hates you
And I'm so tired that I might Quit my job, start a new life
And they'd all be so disappointed 'Cause who am I if not exploited?
I'm so sick of 17 Where's my **** teenage dream?
If someone tells me one more time Enjoy your youth, I'm gonna cry
And I don't stick up for myself I'm anxious and nothing can help
And I wish I'd done this before And I wish people liked me more
All I did was try my best This the kinda thanks I get
Unrelentlessly upset
They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here
I feel like no one wants me And I hate the way I'm perceived
I only have two real friends And lately I'm a nervous wreck
'Cause I love people I don't like And I hate every song I write
And I'm not cool, and I'm not smart And I can't even parallel park
All I did was try my best This the kinda thanks I get
Unrelentlessly upset
They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here
Got a broken ego, broken heart
And God, I don't even know where
To start
《hope ur ok》是專輯中 我最後完成的一首歌
我想寫一首有民謠風格 有唱作人感覺、同時又有故事的歌曲
以希望這主題作專輯總結
儘管我在專輯中經常提到的主題
是這些心碎和痛苦的感覺
一段關係結束時，仍會讓人感到希望
來一個新的開始
一些我最愛的歌詞都出現在那首歌中
我很喜歡那句 「我希望他能打好爛牌，一鋪翻身」
我是在睡房或客廳之類的地方寫這首歌
我記得步入另一間房 當時我爸在那裏，我就問：
「爸爸 你拿過的最佳啤牌組合是什麼？」
他說：「大牌同花順」 我說：「非常好，那很押韻」
然後我將這元素加進這首歌
你對這樂曲清單有何看法？
先開始吧，我們遲些再談那個
-我有很多想法 -好吧
一步一步來吧
我希望《brutal》能成為專輯的第一首歌
-真的嗎？ -是
那麼這週末我會非常忙碌
我知道
等等…抱歉，我還未準備好…
我準備好了
And when the clouds won't iron out And the monsters creep into your house
And every door is hard to close
Well, I hope you know
好啊…我認為那非常好…
我還有些…多錄一次吧 然後我會講些想法
好的
我希望你習慣令聲音更入咪
你想點擊得大聲點嗎？你沒問題吧…
-可以讓我大聲點嗎？ -讓你大聲點？
對，我是個自戀狂
等等
（《SOUR》專輯最後一次錄音 2021年3月30日）
-我認為我們完成了，丹！ -是嗎？
要出版了嗎？
-好 -感覺很好吧？
我想大哭一場！
-我要哭了 -真令人傷感
-很離奇吧
非常離奇，真的在錄音室度過了一整年
我明白，所有事情都不再一樣了
希望不是吧…
希望下次錄音不會這麼傷感
只是…有種苦中帶甜的感覺
我明白這種矛盾心情
感覺很像學期的最後一天
心中充滿的傷感與絕望
而你能將它們轉化成令你自豪的東西
讓其他人欣賞
為這世界加添一點光彩、快樂與接納
沒什麼比這個更有滿足感
我經歷的每一天
都為獲得這機會而感恩
能做到這一切令我很自豪
（加利福尼亞州，馬里布）
我在一年內大幅成長，像經歷了五年之久
我想我在很多方面都大有進步了
我學懂讓面皮厚一點 也要為自己據理力爭
我很想告訴其他人我的經歷
包括我內心感覺和腦中想法
並以令我自豪的方式表達
身為一位年輕女性，做到這點很重要
I knew a boy once when I was small A towhead blond with eyes of salt
He played the drum in the marching band
His parents cared more about the Bible Than being good to their own child
He wore long sleeves 'cause of his dad
And somehow we fell out of touch
Hope he took his bad deal And made a royal flush
Don't know if I'll see you again someday
But if you're out there
I hope that you're okay
My middle school friend grew up alone She raised her brothers on her own
Her parents hated who she loved
She couldn't wait to go to college
She was tired 'cause she was brought into
A world where family was merely blood
Does she know how proud I am She was created
With the courage to unlearn All of their hatred?
We don't talk much, but I just gotta say
I miss you
And I hope that you're okay
Address the letters To the holes in my butterfly wings
Nothing's forever Nothing's as good as it seems
And when the clouds won't iron out And the monsters creep into your house
And every door is hard to close
Well I hope you know how proud I am You were created
With the courage to unlearn All of their hatred
And God, I hope that you're happier today
'Cause I love you
And I hope that you're okay
I hope that you're okay
《OLIVIA RODRIGO：情歌少女》
I know you're with somebody new
But I can't write a song That's not all about you
It's not fair, baby
How come it's so easy
For you to forget everything you said?
Like how I was the best girl That you'd ever met
Guess you take it back
Should've expected that
But when I say I'm fine I'm lying really well
'Cause I can't love anyone else
And I'm so jealous that you can
Scared I'll never feel that again
'Cause I still can't call anyone "baby"
'Cause "baby" is still you to me
Don't you think I wanna move on too?
But I can't love anyone the way The way I loved you
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