Lots of things happen when you walk.
Sometimes you go beyond it.
If you're walking and you feel tired, you must not stop.
So many people stop and they find them dead next morning.
They just can't stand it any more
and they want to give the body a rest
and they go to sleep and they perish.
And I always make sure, no matter how knackered and tired,
I will not stop.
You must never, ever stop.
And that's always in my mind.
Don't stop.
Keep going.
Phew.
Loch Treig. It's known as the Lonely Loch.
There is no road here.
But they used to live here before they built the dam
and all their ruins are down there.
The score now is one, and that's me.
30 and...
..11.
Right, go and sit over there, where you was, before that train comes.
Hang on. Yeah. Perfectus.
Do it now, quick, while the light is on.
I've been living here for almost 40 years now.
Thousands and thousands of pictures, I've taken, over the years.
I don't know the names of these roses.
I'm going to build an archway out of them but it takes time.
I don't know who this lady is but she must have been canned up.
Oh, dear. Definitely!
You look younger there, don't you?
Ken, that was, like, seven years ago.
I can't believe you took a picture of me the very first time I visited,
yet it took you seven years to let me start filming you.
KEN LAUGHS
You look through it and you press the button and you go like that.
You can't take action films with this.
Yeah, there's one thing you can actually do
with the old standard 8 camera.
Have you got a tripod?
No, I don't have a tripod.
You must not move that whatsoever,
and I'm going to say "cut" and "start", right?
OK.
Start.
Cut.
Start.
Cut.
Start.
If you want to live an independent life,
what you'll have to do is learn how to fish.
Now put the reading on the camera.
60 and 16.
Ready to take.
Mm. Bloomin' 'eck.
January brings the snow
Makes our feet and fingers glow
February brings the rain
Thaws the frozen lake again.
There's a good 'un.
There's a good peanut.
March brings breezes loud and shrill
Stirs the dancing daffodil.
This is what they look like, but this is just one of them.
It's in its younger age.
Wash that and eat it.
It's quite a nice taste.
I've peeled most of it off, only my hands are damn mucky. Thank you.
From this vivid yet mystic sense of beauty
All things of beauty before me to cast aside these horrible days
that have gone
I could only wish that such beauty would remain for ever
But it won't
For it's happiness and sadness together
Happiness because the day is young
Sadness because tomorrow's forecast is rain
Today, with its beginning and end, was glory
In all the bitterness of a wicked world.
Taste that one.
Did you like it? No.
KEN LAUGHS
Why... Why should I try it?
Well, you might like it.
I think you're having me on.
I think, if you love the land, it sort of loves you back.
It loves you back in all the things it produces for you.
30th. I'll get the dates right.
My box of memories.
'61. I was still at school then.
I must have had a boring life.
"April 20th, 1963.
"Today I went for a walk."
KEN CHUCKLES
My first wage - three pound, 15 shilling.
I started work when I were 15 years old.
Building fire station, you see?
Foreman.
I never got a high wage. Nothing above £12.
In all them years.
Year after year after year.
Well, I saved up a lot of money.
"24th of the tenth, 1974."
"Taken into hospital from October 15th with a brain haemorrhage.
"Off work until July 31st, 1975."
After I got beat up on t' street.
I was... In age, I was about...
..26 then, and I were discoing it at Ripley.
Five mile from home.
At it till two o'clock in t'morning.
So, time to go home, they boot you out.
So I'm walking up Church Street, past the church,
and there was about eight of 'em.
And they, erm...
They come charging at me and kicked my head in,
shoved me through a baker... baker's window.
Police come roaring up.
They took us all away...
..and I was in bad shape.
And for three days I lay in bed.
And eventually, my head...
You know, it's like you can hardly ever imagine.
It was like it was going to explode.
And, erm, I knew that something was definitely wrong.
I lost consciousness.
And, erm...
How many days?
It was from the f... Erm...
The fourth...
The 4th of October
until the 27th of October, I was unconscious.
So, where is it? Just keep feeling.
Lower. Oh!
How many holes are there? Five.
Oh, yeah.
Wow.
It certainly gives you a different view of life, I can tell you.
They said I would never recover.
They said I would never speak again.
They said I would never write again.
They said I would never walk again.
But I did.
And that's when I decided to never live on anyone's terms but my own.
I'd gone out of British Columbia and I'd gone into the Yukon.
It was this old strip of road.
I thought to myself, if I left this long strip
and walked into the forest, I wonder how long I'd last.
I just walked off the highway.
To go into nowhere.
If you go somewhere that isn't planned, that becomes an adventure.
22,000 mile in all.
And that's how it began.
So, when I leave here, when will you next see someone?
Erm...
..it could be the next day,
could be a fortnight.
I don't really know.
You're up. How long have you been up?
Oh, wait. Just, like, five minutes, really.
Something for you to film.
It's so pretty.
You won't notice it at the moment, but I was just...
..washing blood away.
What happened? I tripped.
When? Last night?
Yeah. Look. Oh!
KEN CHUCKLES
No.
When was that? Just... Just after you went.
I went, erm...
Erm...
I was coming towards the door to go out for a pee
and I tripped over something.
I don't know what I hit my bloomin' head on. Oh, no.
Did you get up straight away?
Did I what? Did you... You weren't knocked out or anything? No. No.
I just got up and then I thought, well, I'll go to bed now, then.
Oh, no. You should have come and got me.
Yeah, you were still awake. I did look across and I could see a light.
It were just after you left.
Oh, no. That's all... Nowt like an injury, eh?
That's all the booze, eh? Eh?
That's all the booze.
No, there was something on t' floor. I don't...
Cos I didn't drink much.
I tripped.
Isn't it nice to have an accident?
What are you filming?
Well, I was filming the wood and now I'm filming you.
LIZZIE LAUGHS
I'll come down in a minute.
I'm going inside. It's a bit cool here. Mm.
If you've got another sack, I can carry some back as well.
No, that's it. This will be enough for today.
Because I'm sure you wouldn't be able to do this.
Are you filming? Yeah.
Whoa.
Could you do that?
Let's go.
RADIO: Rain still remains the big story.
We've got numerous flood warnings still in force.
One severe flood warning, and rain on the way.
And another named storm - Storm Jorge -
which is going to wind itself up
during the course of tomorrow and Saturday.
Clearly a concern for some severe gale-force damaging winds,
but also another very significant...
WIND HOWLS
RADIO: An extremely powerful weather system is developing
and bearing down on Scotland,
with the Met Office having issued a red weather warning.
This is as serious as...
RADIO OFF
HE SIGHS
You can leave me alone to...
..do my writing now.
HELICOPTER ROTORS WHIR
MACHINE BEEPS
Your brain, it swells and shrinks
and swells and shrinks and swells and shrinks
with every heartbeat of your body.
You'll look at the clock and it'll say a time
and you'll think you've gone through a day and look at it again
and only five minutes have passed.
It's terrible.
I saw myself having a bath this morning in t'mirror,
looking like a right bloomin' skeleton.
You are pretty scrawny.
But you've put weight on. Yeah, I've put weight on.
So I'm over 8st now.
This is the trial run to see how your balance and everything is.
Oops. I'm staggering.
We just want to make sure that everything that you need to do,
day-to-day, you're going to be safe to do. I am wobbling?
KEN EXCLAIMS
This is why we've done this, you know, just to see...
To see what happens? Yeah, it's a strange feeling, this is.
Are you sure you're happy to walk back?
Yeah. Have you got enough energy?
You want to sit down for five minutes before you go?
No, you'll be all right. I'm feeling a lot better than I did before.
We'll walk back and you can intercept us halfway,
and if I'm not feeling too good, then I'll come back.
Yeah. I'll do exactly the same thing.
I'll be on the end of a phone anyway,
so I can just come to wherever you are, if need be. OK?
What I'm wondering is, you see when you're walking?
When you're carrying a big, heavy bag,
do you think that'll throw you off a wee it?
But it might be to begin with, if you fill it halfway
and if Lizzie's with you, just to make sure.
Just don't go all guns blazing straight away.
So you're here because the doctor said, go and sort your life out,
basically, are you? More or less.
They've been trying for a long while to get me to come into town
and this last do I had, that was the first thing they said.
"We reckon you ought to go and live in civilisation." And I says,
"Well, I don't want to go into a council house
"or anything like that."
How much gas do you pay?
How much coal do you pay?
What kind of facilities does the log cabin have?
I mean, does it have electricity? No. Have any running water?
And there's obviously no gas heating of any sort? No, nothing like that.
And how is the heating arranged, then?
Logs. It gets the place really warm.
The council might consider that a home,
but I would have to look into the detail of that
to see whether that would constitute a reasonable home to live in.
I suspect not, in which case you could make a claim for homelessness.
I don't want to make a claim at the moment.
No, but you're thinking... What?
Are we talking months or years down the line?
What kind of timescale?
No idea. No idea at this stage? If I go ill again, then it'll be quick.
But if I don't go ill, I'll be there a long while.
But you're happy to remain there, health withstanding?
While I'm fit. Yeah. Yeah, while I'm fit.
And is it good enough to read, the light and everything?
Can you read books and stuff? Do you have a library of books there?
Oh, I've got loads of books and magazines I'm going through.
Yeah.
Yeah, it's a good life, I think. Yeah?
Do you think the quality of life is far better living in the lodge?
Is it a very happy, comfortable life for you? Yeah.
If you moved into a flat here in Fort William,
you would have carers and nurses, you'd have money coming in.
But the quality of life? That would be a big question mark over that.
I'm going to try everything to stop and I hope I live to 102
but if I have another one... Yeah. ..then it'll be different then.
Mentally, you're better in the lodge,
physically, you're better in Fort William. Yeah.
Big, big decision. That's the dilemma, yeah.
We've got time to kill, so what do we do?
It contains that? Yes.
INDISTINCT
Sure.
BIRDS SING
It's not a good thing.
The moment you start to move around, you get two different visions.
I'll tell you, it's really weird.
Why don't you go back to the hospital?
They know about it.
They can't do anything.
Maybe the optician guy can.
No, this is something on the brain.
This is a blood clot.
Hoping that it'll dissolve.
It's extremely pretty.
What? What I'm seeing.
At least it's not ugly.
Can you describe it?
Colourful zigzags...
..all over, like waves.
And they're every colour you can think of.
Very pretty.
I've not been down here for a long while.
Can't see it.
Which way does it go? Well, it must be other way.
I can't see which way it's supposed to go.
Which way is it spinning? It's my eyesight.
So...
It must be that way.
It might just not be our day. It seems so.
Ooh.
Bloomin' 'eck, my eyes.
I never knew I'd be like this.
Just cos of a bloody stroke.
Have you got any doctor's appointments coming up?
Nah.
No? Got to go in for my tablets, though.
When's your next check-up?
Don't have any more.
OK. Yeah, we got everything sorted out.
They've given me all the tablets to last me for...
Do you want to see all me tablets?
HE LAUGHS
What?!
Hmm. A lot of maps.
Beaufort Sea, that's where I went up to.
I just went...
..up through the wilderness.
You can imagine all these things during the travel that I did
all them years ago, and living in cold.
I knew all these woods in them days,
when I was over in Canada
teaching myself to read and write again.
But I seem to have forgot 'em now.
"Endurance. Indignant. Moved by anger and scorn.
"Invi..." Oh, invincible.
Right.
"7th of May, 1979.
"Dear Mum and Dad,
"I told you I was going in search of a wilderness -
"the most wild I could imagine, and I think I've found it.
"Oh, if only I could convey to you
"what this wilderness is really like.
"I miss you both but this wilderness beckons me.
"Two years I've roamed.
"I just kept walking.
"It was the ocean that stopped me.
"But next month I depart for home.
"I'm like one of these many clusters of perched young swallows
"up on pylon lines,
"undecided, but know the magnetic pole to home is there.
"One day they are there and the next day they are gone.
"I hope you'll receive this letter in time to receive me
"from Heathrow Airport."
They had died.
No home to go back to.
That hit me real bad, that did.
After that happened and I learnt, it took a long while to hit me.
I felt nothing.
Mm.
By now, I'd walked the British Isles
and I was coming up from Rannoch, actually.
And walking up the line, and I started, erm...
..to remember them, and I started to cry.
Cried all the way while walking.
I thought, where's the most isolated place in Britain?
So I went round...
..and followed the whole lot -
every bay, every Ben
where there wasn't a house built.
Hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of miles of nothingness.
Looked across the loch...
..saw this woodland.
That's the place.
This place was the place that you finally grieved?
Yeah.
Cried everything out and went back to normal.
And that's when you stopped walking?
Yeah, I suppose so.
I write lots of letters.
When I write a letter, I put down who I've wrote to.
Friends, my ex-gaffer...
A lady that lived at Teslin.
It's in the Yukon Territory.
Allan J. MacLeod. He's the head stalker.
He's the one that looks after the hills around here.
Since I had the stroke,
Allan has been bringing me food every few weeks.
People these days have been very good to me.
Now I've got a small pension that comes through once a month.
Hello?
How are you doing for food? Are you needing food, yeah?
I've got... I've got food,
but I'm down to the last dwindling, as you might say. Aye.
There's two radios, Ken. Oh, right.
I'll certainly miss the radios.
One's batteries and one's...
..erm, wind up and solar power.
How much do I owe you for them?
Erm, £30 for the two of them. So I'll give you an extra 30.
Well, that's for the food. Thanks.
When I collapsed last time with that stroke...
..he'd delivered this just two hours previous.
If I hadn't had that, I don't think I'd have been here now.
So what is it for?
The OK signal, to say I'm all right.
On.
O...K.
Now, that's where it'll remain for the next 15 minutes
and the signal will go through. And it's like it's satellite?
Eh? Is it a G...satellite? Yeah.
And you have to do that every week.
Yeah, just to let them know I'm all right.
Look at this. The wilderness, and he's the only man there.
When did you come across that book?
Probably 40 years ago. Mm.
See how he's got all the wood?
It's drying. He's lay it down to dry.
And here he's beginning to put it in again.
So is that what you did with yours? Yeah.
Well, I didn't dry mine out. It never dries out in Britain.
Especially Scotland.
And what beautiful work he did. Far better than me.
Was it this book that helped you make your cabin?
Yeah. I built one out of little sticks.
What do you mean?
Just to see how to do it.
It's a nice life. Everybody wishes they could do it,
but nobody ever does.
What happened to that cabin?
I wasn't there at the time.
I was a long way off, and a big mushroom come up.
It's very old.
Amazing what time does to a place.
I started in a run, to see if I could get to me cabin.
Because I was so far away, by the time I got there it was...
..it was the end.
It burned down. It had gone.
I was up there, way up there, and I saw it burn.
You'll be able to take a view of that.
I was way up there when I saw it burning.
And I got down to the ashes.
You can see how intense the fire was -
it's burnt the surrounding trees.
Killed them off.
All the bark's come away.
That was one of me gardens, there.
Somewhere in here is all me photography equipment
that went up in flames.
And I'm looking for it.
I suppose the camera rots away very easily, eh?
Do you feel sad when you look at it?
No. Everything you've got, you eventually lose it when you die.
It stops on Earth, so you can't take it with you.
This is full entirely of fruit trees and buddleia.
And sometimes I come here to pick the berries.
I'm now at the bottom of the ladder...
..but there's nothing going to stop me climbing to its top.
Yeah, that'll keep the cold out.
That view...
..or...
..that view. Stand there and look out.
Not a bad view.
KEN LAUGHS
Go on, tell me which is the best view.
I think...this one.
Yeah, so did I, actually.
There's a couple of branches from that dead tree
that have got to be chopped down.
Yes. This is the spot that I want to be buried.
Hope it's not yet, though.
When you're 102.
Yeah, when I'm 102.
"Dear Reverend Gerry Dillon...
"..I've been in contact with you before, I think.
"My memory isn't good.
"I was just trying my hardest to remember the word 'consecrate'.
"Is that the word?
"You'll bless the ground where I'd like to be buried,
"a certain distance from flowing burns.
"Hope same date can be sorted out in this line and I'll pay you well.
"Ken."
There is life after death. I believe it strong.
See if it rings a bell with you.
Smell it.
Is it bog myrtle? Yeah. Yeah.
KEN LAUGHS
How many miles do you reckon we just walked?
27 each way.
54 miles just to post a letter!
Aye, well, the sun's shining.
For now, anyway.
I don't know if I can do it now,
but when I were foreman I used to do it -
driving cows on. Have you ever seen me do it?
No.
With this hand not being too good now, might not be able to.
Ohh. No, it's not as good now.
Why? And then...
Because me hand was paralysed...
I lost the feeling in my hand when I had the stroke.
And is it coming back to strength?
Yeah. It's coming back, bit by bit.
But I don't think I'll ever get as good as I was.
Then I used to wang it into t'air and catch it again.
Cool. Can you do that now?
No. Not until I get me arm right.
Are you doing exercises to strengthen your arm?
I did when I were in hospital.
But I think swinging an axe is as good as new...
..as good as anything, anyway.
Oh, dear.
Putting logs on t'fire is like turning your gas up.
LIZZIE LAUGHS
And what about relationships?
Romantic relationships.
Have you ever been in love?
Yeah, there was only really one girl that I really liked.
All I wanted to do was see the world.
And I can remember her up against the window,
washing the window,
and she kept waddling her arse about,
and there... I was thinking,
"What is she up to?"
And then she said, erm, "Ken...
"..will you marry me?"
And that's when I told her I was going abroad
but if she still thought the same when I come back,
then I probably would have married her.
Never went back.
You never went back?
No. Well, nowhere to go to anyway.
It's quite a good beam, isn't it?
Look, it's lighting the roses up.
Do you see them?
Oh, yeah.
I think that's a beautiful rose, isn't it?
Yeah. That's the one I'm taking care of.
I've put all these shells below.
And then what you're supposed to do is, erm...
..talk to it.
It does have an effect on them because plants can feel.
No, I can't find it.
That is brand-new and I didn't buy it.
Allan brought it down.
Did he? Yeah.
When did he bring it?
On Friday, when he brought all the shopping as well.
Right. That's my memory that's suddenly gone strange.
I can't recall seeing that, actually.
Hmm? I can't recall seeing this before, in flower.
That's the one you showed me last night.
You love that, don't you, rose?
They love it, actually. They have a feeling.
Every plant has a feeling.
Do you think it helps them grow? Yeah, it does.
Yeah, you speak to them kindly.
Hmm.
You know? Who's a beautiful, beautiful little flower, then, eh?
THEY CHUCKLE
Hmm. What's today's day, you say?
Erm, the 29th, I think.
29th of...? So, the page back.
You have to go back the way, yeah.
No entry.
Right. No mention of you on here at all.
So I'd...skipped a day...
..which was strange.
And I'd become one day behind with every entry I put down.
Mm.
Doctors have told me about what's happened to my mind.
It's since...I had that stroke.
And they call it the cloud, or something like that.
It has damaged my memory, that stroke did.
That's the nuisance of it.
You now live in a cloud world.
It's nice to have the truth wrote down.
I started in 1952.
I wrote it in pencil.
What year were that?
Oh, just look up in your diary.
And, you know, all your history is behind you.
And you start to look through it and you read a little bit
and automatically it comes straight to you.
Oh, yeah, I remember that day.
And it's not long before you can get yourself back into square one again.
The first pictures that I ever took.
Yeah, I first started taking pictures when I was about eight,
and that was with a box camera.
And I remember my first picture I ever took
was a load of crows flying above me.
Why can't I find my slides?
That's another thing.
Photos are good for your memory.
When I had that haemorrhage, I lost a lot of memory.
When I was in hospital, my dad brought photos
to bring back my memory.
Don't you think you'd be so much more comfortable
if you lived in a town?
No.
What would I do? Sit in a pub drinking beer?
But do you think if you had another accident again, like in winter,
you'd think about going?
Yeah, I reckon something is going to happen to me one day.
We weren't put on Earth forever...
..so something's got to happen.
KEN EXCLAIMS
Do you ever worry about it?
No.
Not really.
It's already happened to me once.
At least you've got more people around now.
Yeah. More visitors.
When it hit me, the stroke...
..a terrible feeling.
But once I'd said that prayer and hit the floor,
an incredible calmness came about.
Really, really strange.
I didn't feel worried about anything.
Really strange.
Nobody was there, but you felt really relaxed.
Erm...
..just lying there in the snow.
No worry, no fear, no nothing.
And do you think that's because you prayed?
I don't know.
It certainly calmed me down, that's for sure.
That might hold it.
Is that one bag-full?
Yeah.
We need, erm... One, two...
Ah.
I don't know if I'll get this one up.
Ooh, it's a heavy sod!
This one I'll have a job to get up.
KEN GROANS
Makes you grunt summat when you start lifting these bloomin' things!
LIZZIE CHUCKLES
Are you coming back for your camera? Yeah, I'll have to.
Watch you don't slip. There's ice under this snow.
Are you happy first or shall I go first?
Eh? Are you happy in the front? Yeah.
Would you be able to carry with one hand?
Your camera.
Erm...
I could try.
As long as you don't slip, eh?
Aww.
KEN LAUGHS
"Ooh, argh, has to come to cut my hair."
KEN LAUGHS
Oh, dear.
You can tuck this in at my neck.
What colour was you hair when you were younger?
Blonde. I was a blonde until I was 16. Really? Yeah.
And then what?
It went black.
When did your hair go grey?
When me cabin burnt down.
Six weeks later, it went grey.
Really? Yeah. Completely grey?
From stress?
Eh? From the stress?
I don't know.
I remember looking at it six weeks later and that was it.
Wow. Because that was...
..ooh, how many years ago?
I wasn't all that old then.
KNOCKING
LAUGHTER
Come on in. Thank you.
Oh, wow.
Why did you place your cabin here?
I would never have found it in a million years.
Oh, yeah.
At least I've got a view. Stunning.
Are you tired? I am.
KEN LAUGHS
So, we always pray in the name of God,
the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen.
Prevent us, oh, Lord, in all our doings
with Thy most gracious favour
and further us with Thy continual help,
that in all our works, begun, continued and ended in Thee,
we may glorify Thy holy name,
and finally, by Thy mercy, obtain everlasting life
and the blessing of God Almighty,
the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit...
..be among You and remain with You always.
Amen.
Amen. It is done.
It is set apart.
Warm water to dissolve the sugar and sterilise it.
Next, the yeast.
When I die,
instead of everybody moaning and sad,
I want everybody to be merry.
Getting pissed up, all on my wine.
Who are you going to invite?
Anybody can come that I know.
And they'll know me, so they'll come.
How much do you think you've got there in total, gallon wise?
Eight, 16...
..32. There's 32 gallons visible
and, erm, another eight there.
That's 40 up to now. 40 gallon.
And I've got about 70 altogether.
How many gallons do you want to make, in total?
Well, I'll just be making it forever, I suppose.
I doesn't matter how many.
Ken, be careful.
I'm going to try me hardest.
LIZZIE CHUCKLES
Did you get it?
Yeah.
Success.
If you imagine your old age,
what's, like, all the different options?
Hmm.
A big choice.
I'll stop here till my final days come.
Definitely.
I wouldn't want to go back to civilisation.
Say it's comfy, but I call it bloomin' boring.
You've got to have a different life.
HE GROANS I can see them zig-zags again.
I have had lots of incidents
and I seem to have survived them all.
I know one thing for sure, no matter what,
I am bound to go ill again sometime.
Something will happen to me that will take me away one day,
as it does for everybody else.
But I'm hoping that I'll get to 102.
Cwoar!
We've got a beauty!
Come and play it.
I'm coming, I'm coming. I need to set the camera up.
Don't rig the camera up, just come and play it.
I'm coming.
What should I do?
Hold it and wind.
Keep the rod in the air.
It's a trout, no?
No. Keep your rod down.
Down.
It's a nice fish. It's there.
Move into shore.
Don't lift it.
Don't lift the rod.