1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:15,928 --> 00:00:16,842 [Matt Sighs] 4 00:00:17,930 --> 00:00:20,759 [Matt] Withdrawal is like dying 5 00:00:21,456 --> 00:00:23,675 and rebirth happening at once. 6 00:00:23,849 --> 00:00:25,112 [muffled high-pitched ringing] 7 00:00:25,286 --> 00:00:26,852 [Matt] But with no family 8 00:00:27,027 --> 00:00:28,593 to lovingly send you off 9 00:00:29,333 --> 00:00:33,859 or to greet you with big smiles and open arms, 10 00:00:34,338 --> 00:00:35,426 -a drinker like me... -[groans] 11 00:00:35,600 --> 00:00:36,732 [dramatic music] 12 00:00:36,906 --> 00:00:37,863 [Matt] ...is always alone. 13 00:00:38,386 --> 00:00:40,779 [calm music] 14 00:00:40,953 --> 00:00:46,133 ♪ There was no garden when I was a child ♪ 15 00:00:48,091 --> 00:00:53,705 ♪ So I learned what was edible from the toxic and wild ♪ 16 00:00:55,881 --> 00:00:58,101 ♪ Now I sow seeds ♪ 17 00:00:59,276 --> 00:01:01,409 ♪ Now I pull weeds ♪ 18 00:01:03,019 --> 00:01:05,674 ♪ Now I pay tithes ♪ 19 00:01:05,848 --> 00:01:09,634 -♪ Though the Lord prefers my brother's ♪ -[beeping] 20 00:01:09,808 --> 00:01:14,248 ♪ No one's good at love except for babies ♪ 21 00:01:14,422 --> 00:01:15,988 [horn honking] 22 00:01:19,035 --> 00:01:21,733 [Fred] Matt, Matt get in. 23 00:01:24,432 --> 00:01:27,174 -[Matt groans] -[Fred] Look like you could use a cup of coffee, huh? 24 00:01:28,000 --> 00:01:30,655 -[Matt] I could use a beer. -[tires screeching] 25 00:01:31,265 --> 00:01:34,094 It was a joke, you literal prick, it was a joke. 26 00:01:34,268 --> 00:01:35,573 It's a, it's a seatbelt. 27 00:01:35,747 --> 00:01:36,792 Yeah, I know what it is. 28 00:01:38,402 --> 00:01:41,013 [sighs] Thanks, Papa Fred. 29 00:01:43,712 --> 00:01:44,669 [sighs] 30 00:01:45,583 --> 00:01:48,151 -Nice. -Onward, valet. Onward. 31 00:01:49,413 --> 00:01:51,459 [Fred] Tell me about your, your big plan. 32 00:01:51,633 --> 00:01:53,156 Punching a bartender, huh? 33 00:01:53,330 --> 00:01:55,027 -Worked, didn't it? It worked. -Oh. 34 00:01:55,202 --> 00:01:57,856 Oh, 48 hours, Matt. That's it. 35 00:01:58,335 --> 00:02:00,555 Ye-- you, you don't have no room to get cocky here. 36 00:02:01,556 --> 00:02:02,644 Why are you mocking that? 37 00:02:02,818 --> 00:02:04,646 -[scoffs] -How am I being cocky? 38 00:02:04,820 --> 00:02:06,169 Come on, Matt. 39 00:02:06,343 --> 00:02:08,519 One day at a time, one minute at a time, 40 00:02:08,693 --> 00:02:09,868 one second at a time. 41 00:02:10,042 --> 00:02:11,000 Shoot, this car don't move 42 00:02:11,174 --> 00:02:12,523 until the metal's in the groove. 43 00:02:12,697 --> 00:02:15,222 [somber music] 44 00:02:59,788 --> 00:03:02,530 I need you to understand that this is, this is the time. 45 00:03:02,704 --> 00:03:05,663 -There might not be another chance. -No chance. 46 00:03:05,837 --> 00:03:08,492 -Why? -Because your plans don't work for me. 47 00:03:08,666 --> 00:03:10,233 They would if you commit to them. 48 00:03:10,407 --> 00:03:12,888 I've had 20 successful sponsees, man. 49 00:03:14,063 --> 00:03:17,284 -Twenty. -I know that because you've mentioned it a lot. 50 00:03:18,154 --> 00:03:20,722 Go home now and you'll be drunk in an hour. 51 00:03:20,896 --> 00:03:22,158 Dude, stop. 52 00:03:22,332 --> 00:03:23,812 Or dead in a month. 53 00:03:23,986 --> 00:03:27,424 What the, happened to all that positive self-talk 54 00:03:27,903 --> 00:03:29,339 you were so good at? 55 00:03:31,559 --> 00:03:32,647 [sighs] 56 00:03:32,821 --> 00:03:34,692 Okay, Matt. What's your plan? 57 00:03:35,563 --> 00:03:38,218 Step one, get sober. 58 00:03:40,785 --> 00:03:41,656 Check. 59 00:03:42,961 --> 00:03:45,660 Step two, I will finish the hutch. 60 00:03:49,228 --> 00:03:50,360 I'll start that tomorrow. 61 00:03:51,143 --> 00:03:52,928 And then step three, um, 62 00:03:54,277 --> 00:03:55,235 I will stay sober... 63 00:03:58,977 --> 00:04:00,065 ...for 30 days... 64 00:04:03,373 --> 00:04:06,420 [scoffs] ...so that I can see my mom, uh... 65 00:04:08,596 --> 00:04:09,640 ...before she dies. 66 00:04:10,554 --> 00:04:13,078 Matt, I'm, I'm sorry. I didn't know it was that bad. 67 00:04:13,253 --> 00:04:15,429 Listen, listen, I've, I've got that cabin. 68 00:04:15,603 --> 00:04:17,692 -That little cabin next to our house. -Yeah. 69 00:04:17,866 --> 00:04:19,433 -You know the one I'm talking about, right? -I do. 70 00:04:19,911 --> 00:04:22,130 -Yeah. -Why don't you come out there and finish the hutch? 71 00:04:22,305 --> 00:04:23,567 Rachael's not even there. 72 00:04:24,394 --> 00:04:25,395 She's, 73 00:04:26,178 --> 00:04:28,703 she's back East with family, all right? She's, uh... 74 00:04:28,877 --> 00:04:30,661 I don't wanna live on a farm. 75 00:04:30,835 --> 00:04:33,273 [sighs] It's not a, it's not a farm. 76 00:04:33,447 --> 00:04:35,318 What do you mean, "It's not a farm?" You have chickens. 77 00:04:36,450 --> 00:04:39,104 Matt, sobriety is something that you can't do on your own. 78 00:04:40,062 --> 00:04:43,631 Sobriety is something that I have to do on my own. 79 00:04:49,550 --> 00:04:50,768 [Fred sighs] 80 00:04:53,293 --> 00:04:54,685 Matt, think big picture. 81 00:04:55,773 --> 00:04:56,644 I am. 82 00:04:57,862 --> 00:05:02,954 I am, I'm just thinking differently than you. 83 00:05:05,130 --> 00:05:06,001 [Matt sniffing] 84 00:05:10,614 --> 00:05:13,617 [somber music] 85 00:05:18,579 --> 00:05:21,930 [breathing heavily] 86 00:05:24,498 --> 00:05:25,760 [groans softly] 87 00:05:28,066 --> 00:05:29,024 Oh. 88 00:05:29,938 --> 00:05:30,808 [sighs] 89 00:05:35,378 --> 00:05:36,292 [Matt's Mom] Dear Matt, 90 00:05:37,511 --> 00:05:40,078 well, the doctors finally hit their last option. 91 00:05:40,992 --> 00:05:42,558 They moved me to hospice. 92 00:05:43,952 --> 00:05:47,042 It's not so bad, there's a TV in my room. 93 00:05:48,696 --> 00:05:51,481 I haven't seen you in 15 years, 94 00:05:51,655 --> 00:05:54,615 and you'd think by now I'd give up on my stubbornness 95 00:05:54,789 --> 00:05:57,922 because the idea of not seeing you 96 00:05:58,488 --> 00:06:03,841 before I kick the bucket hurts more than all the surgeries combined. 97 00:06:05,713 --> 00:06:08,716 But I'm holding on to what I can hold onto, 98 00:06:09,934 --> 00:06:11,719 my final dream. 99 00:06:12,372 --> 00:06:14,069 Get sober 100 00:06:15,157 --> 00:06:17,115 and come say goodbye. 101 00:06:19,596 --> 00:06:20,771 I love you. 102 00:06:22,382 --> 00:06:23,121 Mom. 103 00:06:23,295 --> 00:06:25,602 [calm music] 104 00:06:27,299 --> 00:06:29,127 -[Matt exhales] -[dog barking] 105 00:06:29,301 --> 00:06:30,781 [Matt sniffles, sighs] 106 00:06:33,871 --> 00:06:34,698 [exhales] 107 00:06:37,571 --> 00:06:38,398 [exhales] 108 00:06:39,573 --> 00:06:41,488 [Matt breathing heavily] 109 00:06:55,763 --> 00:06:56,590 We're doing this. 110 00:06:58,374 --> 00:06:59,244 Yeah, Matt. 111 00:07:00,550 --> 00:07:03,074 -Thirty days. -Thirty days. 112 00:07:04,075 --> 00:07:05,076 Thirty days. 113 00:07:06,295 --> 00:07:09,603 -[exhales] -We're gonna talk about that ugly hat you're wearing. 114 00:07:10,386 --> 00:07:11,256 Deal. 115 00:07:13,955 --> 00:07:14,825 [Matt] My whole life... 116 00:07:17,088 --> 00:07:18,438 ...unable to rest... 117 00:07:20,352 --> 00:07:22,703 ...in pursuit of some unavowed dream... 118 00:07:25,575 --> 00:07:29,971 ...masked in this insane compulsive desire to self-bleed. 119 00:07:32,016 --> 00:07:34,149 Multiple vices brought my way, 120 00:07:34,323 --> 00:07:36,760 but not the kind that takes one's breath away, 121 00:07:37,761 --> 00:07:39,981 but the kind that tears one's self away. 122 00:07:43,375 --> 00:07:44,420 -[knocking at door] -[roosters crowing] 123 00:07:44,594 --> 00:07:45,726 [Fred] Let's get after it. 124 00:07:46,944 --> 00:07:47,902 Morning, morning. 125 00:07:48,685 --> 00:07:50,861 Uh, uh, morning, oh, Oh. 126 00:07:54,082 --> 00:07:55,300 [Fred] Did I disturb you? 127 00:07:55,475 --> 00:07:59,304 [scoffs] No, no, the knock did. Okay. 128 00:08:01,785 --> 00:08:03,700 -[sighs] -Some leftover benzos. 129 00:08:04,353 --> 00:08:07,051 -Oh, thanks man. -I got plenty of coffee in the truck. 130 00:08:08,052 --> 00:08:13,101 [burps, groans] I don't really feel like hearing how big a piece of shit I am, 131 00:08:13,667 --> 00:08:15,756 right now, to be honest with you. 132 00:08:15,930 --> 00:08:17,018 [groans] 133 00:08:18,759 --> 00:08:21,501 Matt, I get it, you don't like meetings. 134 00:08:22,240 --> 00:08:23,111 Yeah. 135 00:08:25,200 --> 00:08:26,201 I need you to show up. 136 00:08:27,245 --> 00:08:28,464 [sighs] 137 00:08:28,638 --> 00:08:30,379 It's a reasonable request. 138 00:08:33,077 --> 00:08:36,472 -Yeah, yeah, yeah, it is. -[footsteps receding] 139 00:08:37,472 --> 00:08:39,606 -[door closing] -It's a reasonable request. 140 00:08:48,876 --> 00:08:49,746 [dog barking] 141 00:08:51,269 --> 00:08:52,096 [horn honking] 142 00:08:59,147 --> 00:09:00,322 All right, I'll pick you up. 143 00:09:01,192 --> 00:09:03,151 -[Matt] Wait, you're not coming in? -I already went. 144 00:09:04,500 --> 00:09:06,067 -That figures. -All right. 145 00:09:06,241 --> 00:09:08,591 -I got a favor to ask you, man. -What's that? 146 00:09:09,070 --> 00:09:11,072 I'd like to ask you not to wear that hat. 147 00:09:13,248 --> 00:09:14,815 Uh, what do you mean? 148 00:09:15,946 --> 00:09:17,818 -I'm Lakota. -I know. 149 00:09:19,080 --> 00:09:25,390 So basically you're a walking billboard for a stereotype about native people. 150 00:09:25,913 --> 00:09:28,698 Matt, we're not Braves or Redskins, 151 00:09:28,872 --> 00:09:30,395 or-- we're not even Indians. 152 00:09:30,570 --> 00:09:32,397 -We're real people just-- -I, I know. 153 00:09:32,572 --> 00:09:33,747 Just wear this instead, please. 154 00:09:33,921 --> 00:09:36,576 This hat is symbolic of 155 00:09:37,315 --> 00:09:39,970 real players, 156 00:09:40,667 --> 00:09:42,407 and real people, 157 00:09:43,844 --> 00:09:47,717 and a real team that was part of my childhood. 158 00:09:47,891 --> 00:09:51,547 I'm not, it's not a, a, a racist thing. 159 00:09:51,721 --> 00:09:53,984 All right. Imagine you're a, you're a kid... 160 00:09:54,158 --> 00:09:57,901 -Yeah. -...off the reservation, and you, and, and you come to a game 161 00:09:58,075 --> 00:10:02,558 and you idolize these people and you want to be a professional baseball player, 162 00:10:02,732 --> 00:10:05,735 and, and, and you get there and, and you see people, 163 00:10:06,518 --> 00:10:09,043 adults, dressed up like, 164 00:10:09,957 --> 00:10:13,438 like what they think... you're supposed to look like. 165 00:10:14,439 --> 00:10:17,312 What they think, in their mind, an "Indian" looks like, 166 00:10:17,965 --> 00:10:22,230 and, and, and they're going [Fred vocalizing] 167 00:10:22,404 --> 00:10:23,840 act-- acting like idiots. 168 00:10:25,059 --> 00:10:26,190 That affects us. 169 00:10:28,715 --> 00:10:31,718 Like I, I'm not saying that that's great, 170 00:10:31,892 --> 00:10:33,850 I don't get how it affects you though. 171 00:10:36,200 --> 00:10:37,854 That affects my self-esteem. 172 00:10:38,899 --> 00:10:41,728 That affects these kids' self-esteem. 173 00:10:45,775 --> 00:10:46,994 I'm not a mascot. 174 00:10:48,517 --> 00:10:50,650 I'm not a goofy cartoon or a, or a chant, 175 00:10:50,824 --> 00:10:53,565 or, or, we don't do the Tomahawk chop. 176 00:10:54,131 --> 00:10:56,481 That makes a difference in how we feel about ourself, 177 00:10:57,700 --> 00:10:59,441 that affects kids' self-esteem. 178 00:11:01,225 --> 00:11:02,052 Okay. 179 00:11:09,669 --> 00:11:11,801 -Thank you. -Yep, yep. 180 00:11:13,411 --> 00:11:15,196 You win, you win. 181 00:11:15,892 --> 00:11:16,893 [sighs] 182 00:11:17,459 --> 00:11:20,462 Uh, are you picking me up after? 183 00:11:21,115 --> 00:11:22,159 I'll be here. 184 00:11:22,333 --> 00:11:23,291 -Thanks, man. -I got you. 185 00:11:25,206 --> 00:11:28,209 My father was a violent man. 186 00:11:30,515 --> 00:11:31,647 He was a marine... 187 00:11:33,431 --> 00:11:34,432 ...sniper scout, 188 00:11:35,825 --> 00:11:37,740 Pacific Theater during World War II. 189 00:11:39,307 --> 00:11:42,266 He took Iwo Jima, Saipan, Tinian, Roi-Namur, 190 00:11:43,528 --> 00:11:44,704 and the Marianas. 191 00:11:48,403 --> 00:11:49,273 And... 192 00:11:51,188 --> 00:11:55,236 ...he had this hair trigger temper when he drank... 193 00:11:57,064 --> 00:11:58,543 ...and God forbid, 194 00:11:59,631 --> 00:12:00,981 you were in his line of fire, 195 00:12:02,156 --> 00:12:03,505 'cause that wasn't gonna be a good day. 196 00:12:07,117 --> 00:12:08,162 When I was a boy, 197 00:12:08,684 --> 00:12:11,556 I had this dog named Caesar... 198 00:12:13,297 --> 00:12:15,735 ...and he was my buddy, you know, my pal. 199 00:12:17,780 --> 00:12:18,999 In a scary world, 200 00:12:20,261 --> 00:12:21,610 he was like my champion. 201 00:12:26,093 --> 00:12:28,182 And then, uh, one day my dad... 202 00:12:30,271 --> 00:12:32,099 ...just went into one of his ragers and... 203 00:12:33,100 --> 00:12:34,884 I was sitting there with Caesar petting him. 204 00:12:35,058 --> 00:12:38,627 And... he beelines it right at us, you know? 205 00:12:38,801 --> 00:12:42,718 And I thought, "Oh, he's going, he's gonna lay into me, man." 206 00:12:45,677 --> 00:12:48,115 And then, you know, with one hit... 207 00:12:50,770 --> 00:12:52,859 ...he snapped his spine in half. 208 00:12:54,599 --> 00:12:56,210 I'll never forget the sound he made... 209 00:12:57,646 --> 00:13:01,781 ...'cause I, I knew that was it, and he was dying. 210 00:13:04,479 --> 00:13:08,135 So, I put my head... against his chest and pet him. 211 00:13:08,309 --> 00:13:12,226 You know, that... [exhales] was the only thing I could do. 212 00:13:14,097 --> 00:13:15,707 I've done a lot of forgiving since then, 213 00:13:18,449 --> 00:13:20,277 I'm gonna tell you that was a hard one. 214 00:13:24,629 --> 00:13:26,240 [people sighing] 215 00:13:26,414 --> 00:13:28,459 -[man 1] All right. -[man 2] That was tough, man. 216 00:13:28,633 --> 00:13:30,374 [indistinct talk] 217 00:13:47,435 --> 00:13:50,090 You know, the pulls are a great community event. 218 00:13:50,699 --> 00:13:52,570 -Meet a lot of good people. -What are they? 219 00:13:52,744 --> 00:13:56,226 Uh, dog pulls, train your sled dogs? 220 00:13:57,010 --> 00:13:59,316 So, like mushing and all that? 221 00:13:59,882 --> 00:14:01,579 Yeah, something like that. 222 00:14:04,147 --> 00:14:06,280 It's kind of tough being the new guy in the group, huh? 223 00:14:06,976 --> 00:14:08,151 [scoffs softly] 224 00:14:09,587 --> 00:14:11,502 It was tough for me too in the beginning, 225 00:14:12,068 --> 00:14:14,157 but you know, I kind of stick out around here. 226 00:14:16,116 --> 00:14:17,508 Why? Because you don't drink? 227 00:14:18,074 --> 00:14:21,817 Well, no, I, I'm a guest from Al-Anon. 228 00:14:22,687 --> 00:14:23,775 So, you're fine. 229 00:14:24,559 --> 00:14:26,909 Well, not fine, but you know, 230 00:14:27,083 --> 00:14:29,956 alcoholism, it's, it's a family disease. 231 00:14:30,521 --> 00:14:31,609 Not if they're not around. 232 00:14:33,263 --> 00:14:36,179 Listen, I'm in Al-Anon and I give my number out, 233 00:14:36,353 --> 00:14:37,877 so you know, if you're interested... 234 00:14:39,052 --> 00:14:40,401 No, I'm good. 235 00:14:41,837 --> 00:14:45,449 All right, well, I'll let you get back to it and, uh, it's great meeting you. 236 00:14:45,623 --> 00:14:48,104 [peaceful music] 237 00:14:49,584 --> 00:14:52,543 [Matt breathing heavily] 238 00:14:57,592 --> 00:14:58,549 [groans softly] 239 00:15:05,861 --> 00:15:07,080 [sighs] 240 00:15:10,083 --> 00:15:13,086 [chickens clucking loudly] 241 00:15:30,668 --> 00:15:32,409 [roosters crowing] 242 00:15:36,239 --> 00:15:39,373 [chickens clucking louder] 243 00:15:39,547 --> 00:15:42,071 [peaceful music] 244 00:16:24,635 --> 00:16:27,029 -I need this. -He's a stray. 245 00:16:27,203 --> 00:16:29,727 So am I, and look how much you like me. 246 00:16:29,901 --> 00:16:31,599 You remember Kevin, you remember Kevin? 247 00:16:31,773 --> 00:16:34,515 He asked his sponsor for a little job, 248 00:16:34,689 --> 00:16:36,691 and, and his sponsor sent him out to the garden 249 00:16:36,865 --> 00:16:38,258 to pick some dandelions, 250 00:16:38,432 --> 00:16:40,129 just a little bit of light weeding. 251 00:16:41,043 --> 00:16:44,177 He marches through the river, over the woods, 252 00:16:44,351 --> 00:16:46,527 catches the bus one hour one way just to drink. 253 00:16:46,701 --> 00:16:48,964 -Sorry, what does that have to do with me? -Stress, Matt. 254 00:16:49,138 --> 00:16:51,053 Stress. This dog is stress. 255 00:16:51,227 --> 00:16:54,752 -You don't need stress right now. -I'm not asking permission. 256 00:16:54,926 --> 00:16:56,580 -This is my house, man. -Then I will leave your house. 257 00:16:56,754 --> 00:16:57,799 Do you see what you're doing? 258 00:16:58,408 --> 00:16:59,844 Do you even hear what you're doing right now? 259 00:17:00,802 --> 00:17:02,456 Matt, if I let him stay and things go wrong, 260 00:17:02,630 --> 00:17:04,414 you have your excuse, and if... 261 00:17:05,415 --> 00:17:07,287 -I'm listening. -...if I stand my ground... 262 00:17:09,332 --> 00:17:10,420 ...you have your excuse. 263 00:17:12,117 --> 00:17:13,815 He was licking chickens. 264 00:17:13,989 --> 00:17:15,512 -[dog sneezes] -That's not cute. That's brain damage. 265 00:17:16,383 --> 00:17:17,471 -[dog sneezes] -Hmm. 266 00:17:17,645 --> 00:17:19,516 -See? -Bless you. [chuckles] 267 00:17:19,690 --> 00:17:22,476 That's how he protests absurdity. 268 00:17:23,954 --> 00:17:26,480 After my dad died... 269 00:17:28,395 --> 00:17:32,312 ...my Newfoundland that I had, his name was Basil... 270 00:17:34,488 --> 00:17:38,013 ...was how that I knew that my world had not ended. 271 00:17:39,623 --> 00:17:45,194 And when he died, the care that had been in my home was completely gone. 272 00:17:45,760 --> 00:17:49,242 So, I would scrape my knee and it wasn't, 273 00:17:49,416 --> 00:17:50,852 "Hey, are you okay?" 274 00:17:51,026 --> 00:17:54,029 It was, "Put a band aid on it and move on." 275 00:17:55,335 --> 00:17:57,119 I need this. 276 00:17:57,989 --> 00:17:58,903 [sighs] 277 00:18:01,036 --> 00:18:02,385 How about we give it a week? 278 00:18:03,778 --> 00:18:05,171 -One week, Matt. -Deal. 279 00:18:05,649 --> 00:18:06,955 There's one problem. 280 00:18:07,129 --> 00:18:08,348 [sighs] What now? 281 00:18:08,913 --> 00:18:11,612 [chuckles softly] We have to name him. 282 00:18:13,570 --> 00:18:16,660 This, this is your new dog. You pick. 283 00:18:18,358 --> 00:18:20,925 Okay. Yup'ik. 284 00:18:21,535 --> 00:18:24,103 -[chuckles] Oh, Matt. -Yeah, yeah. 285 00:18:24,277 --> 00:18:26,496 -Really? -Yeah, really. 286 00:18:27,410 --> 00:18:28,890 It's a great name, you named him. 287 00:18:29,064 --> 00:18:30,152 It's great. It's great. 288 00:18:31,153 --> 00:18:32,023 Heartfelt. 289 00:18:32,807 --> 00:18:34,243 -[Matt chuckles] -[Yup'ik sneezes] 290 00:18:34,417 --> 00:18:36,332 That's right. You know, you know the smells. 291 00:18:36,506 --> 00:18:38,639 [peaceful music] 292 00:18:40,336 --> 00:18:41,685 [Yup'ik whining] 293 00:18:49,345 --> 00:18:50,955 -[Yup'ik barks] -[Matt] Shut up! 294 00:18:51,434 --> 00:18:52,870 [Yup'ik whining] 295 00:18:53,523 --> 00:18:57,092 -[Yup'ik barks] -Shut up, shut up. Shut up, shut up, shut up. 296 00:18:58,224 --> 00:18:59,573 -[Matt groans] -[Yup'ik whining] 297 00:19:00,182 --> 00:19:01,009 [yelps] 298 00:19:01,183 --> 00:19:03,446 [gentle acoustic music] 299 00:19:05,013 --> 00:19:08,669 ♪ I don't wanna count ♪ 300 00:19:08,843 --> 00:19:12,977 ♪ All the times I've been punched in the face ♪ 301 00:19:13,152 --> 00:19:14,631 At least you're housebroken. 302 00:19:20,115 --> 00:19:23,814 ♪ I remember the special ones ♪ 303 00:19:25,555 --> 00:19:29,255 -Come on, let's go. -♪ It was armistice day ♪ 304 00:19:30,865 --> 00:19:31,996 Yup'ik, let's go. 305 00:19:34,564 --> 00:19:39,090 -Hey. -♪ I don't care to recall ♪ 306 00:19:39,265 --> 00:19:44,357 ♪ All the reasons I had it coming ♪ 307 00:19:50,450 --> 00:19:55,498 ♪ I'd never call karma a bitch ♪ 308 00:19:56,151 --> 00:19:59,328 ♪ But call is a woman ♪ 309 00:19:59,502 --> 00:20:01,722 Yeah, yeah. Hey, hey. 310 00:20:05,421 --> 00:20:08,903 ♪ And I don't long to list ♪ 311 00:20:09,512 --> 00:20:14,648 ♪ All the names I've whispered in bed ♪ 312 00:20:20,523 --> 00:20:24,745 ♪ It's like rattling off deities ♪ 313 00:20:24,919 --> 00:20:29,619 ♪ The words become hollow and dead ♪ 314 00:20:35,973 --> 00:20:39,194 ♪ And I don't count vendettas ♪ 315 00:20:39,368 --> 00:20:45,113 ♪ Towards treacherous partners in crime ♪ 316 00:20:50,814 --> 00:20:54,601 ♪ I try to measure the value ♪ 317 00:20:54,775 --> 00:20:57,952 [Matt] I blame my mom for the way she shut down after my dad died, 318 00:20:58,126 --> 00:21:00,781 -[Yup'ik barking] -The truth was somehow too straight forward. 319 00:21:01,390 --> 00:21:03,479 He crashed into a tree on his way to work. 320 00:21:03,653 --> 00:21:07,222 Broad daylight, no alcohol, no other cars involved. 321 00:21:10,660 --> 00:21:11,792 [Yup'ik barking] 322 00:21:19,321 --> 00:21:23,325 ♪ I don't like feeling vulnerable ♪ 323 00:21:23,499 --> 00:21:26,589 [Yup'ik barks] 324 00:21:32,552 --> 00:21:33,770 [distant beeping] 325 00:21:33,944 --> 00:21:35,119 [thuds] 326 00:21:35,294 --> 00:21:37,208 [Yup'ik barking] 327 00:21:37,383 --> 00:21:38,253 Hmm. 328 00:21:39,385 --> 00:21:41,212 -[Fred] Hey, how is it coming along? -Great. 329 00:21:41,387 --> 00:21:43,911 It's real great, real great, real great. 330 00:21:44,433 --> 00:21:46,392 -You're not gonna take him with you? -Nope. 331 00:21:46,566 --> 00:21:48,394 [Fred] Well, he's your dog, you can't just leave him. 332 00:21:49,482 --> 00:21:50,526 What do you want from me? 333 00:21:51,832 --> 00:21:53,573 I want you to take him with you. 334 00:21:53,747 --> 00:21:55,357 Fine, I'll take him with me and leave him for the cougars. 335 00:21:55,531 --> 00:21:57,272 Great? Great, great. 336 00:21:57,446 --> 00:21:58,969 ["Wish I Were Blind" by The Xray Eyes] 337 00:22:06,586 --> 00:22:08,457 ♪ Wish I were blind ♪ 338 00:22:08,631 --> 00:22:11,591 ♪ Might have to find some guide light in my life ♪ 339 00:22:11,765 --> 00:22:12,592 [exhales] 340 00:22:14,724 --> 00:22:16,335 -♪ If I were blind ♪ -[sighs] 341 00:22:18,206 --> 00:22:21,557 ♪ Wouldn't have to close my eyes when... ♪ 342 00:22:21,731 --> 00:22:24,517 Yup'ik! You're on your own asshole! 343 00:22:27,520 --> 00:22:32,873 ♪ I spent four years behind the wheel of a Chevy sedan ♪ 344 00:22:35,005 --> 00:22:37,399 ♪ Highways and dirt roads ♪ 345 00:22:37,573 --> 00:22:39,445 ♪ I've been down every one ♪ 346 00:22:39,619 --> 00:22:40,837 ♪ And all that I've learned ♪ 347 00:22:41,011 --> 00:22:42,665 ♪ Is your left arm gets tan ♪ 348 00:22:42,839 --> 00:22:44,754 ♪ If you drive in the sun ♪ 349 00:22:44,928 --> 00:22:46,843 ♪ And then you get burned ♪ 350 00:22:53,763 --> 00:22:55,417 ♪ Wish I were blind ♪ 351 00:22:55,591 --> 00:22:59,769 ♪ Wouldn't have to stay inside all the time ♪ 352 00:23:01,684 --> 00:23:03,382 ♪ If I were blind ♪ 353 00:23:05,079 --> 00:23:08,387 ♪ Wouldn't have to close my eyes ♪ 354 00:23:08,561 --> 00:23:12,042 ♪ When I go outside just to get by ♪ 355 00:23:14,436 --> 00:23:20,399 ♪ See projections of faces on faces like cataract screens ♪ 356 00:23:21,530 --> 00:23:24,533 ♪ Like composite sketches of criminals ♪ 357 00:23:24,707 --> 00:23:27,710 ♪ Memories inked from prejudice drawn ♪ 358 00:23:27,884 --> 00:23:29,495 [Matt breathing heavily] 359 00:23:32,236 --> 00:23:35,631 Hey, you all right? Good. All right, here, go ahead, go ahead, go ahead. 360 00:23:35,805 --> 00:23:38,112 Go ahead, go ahead, okay. 361 00:23:40,070 --> 00:23:43,160 Good, yeah, yeah, good, good. 362 00:23:44,379 --> 00:23:45,293 [breaks squeak] 363 00:23:46,076 --> 00:23:47,382 -[Julie] Hey. -Hey. 364 00:23:47,556 --> 00:23:48,818 I have a package for Fred. 365 00:23:49,732 --> 00:23:53,432 Uh, yeah, I'll sign for it. Uh... 366 00:23:54,345 --> 00:23:56,870 -You can sign here. -Great, oh. 367 00:23:57,044 --> 00:23:58,654 Wow, you guys got dumped on out here. 368 00:23:59,655 --> 00:24:02,528 -Yeah, yeah it's Montana. It'll probably be gone tomorrow with. -[chuckles] 369 00:24:03,006 --> 00:24:06,619 -Oh, I love your husky. -Uh, he's a pound puppy. 370 00:24:06,793 --> 00:24:08,447 [both laugh] 371 00:24:09,099 --> 00:24:12,494 He's an Alaskan Husky with some Siberian in him. 372 00:24:12,668 --> 00:24:14,409 -[Julie chuckles] -Seriously? 373 00:24:14,583 --> 00:24:16,846 Yep, third generation dog musher right here. 374 00:24:17,325 --> 00:24:18,457 People still do that? 375 00:24:18,631 --> 00:24:20,633 Well, sure I mean, I don't anymore, 376 00:24:20,807 --> 00:24:22,461 but there are a lot of them out there. 377 00:24:23,113 --> 00:24:25,638 -Yeah. -Well, huskies can look kind of muddy 378 00:24:25,812 --> 00:24:27,640 'cause they're not really a "breed" breed, 379 00:24:27,814 --> 00:24:29,380 but they're kind of a special dog, 380 00:24:29,555 --> 00:24:31,557 bred for power, speed, and endurance. 381 00:24:32,340 --> 00:24:34,473 -Not for looks. Right? -[chuckles] 382 00:24:34,647 --> 00:24:35,735 -Definitely not. -Yeah. 383 00:24:35,909 --> 00:24:37,388 But this guy's an epic athlete. 384 00:24:38,607 --> 00:24:40,870 -Wait. -Um, what's the name? 385 00:24:41,044 --> 00:24:41,958 Uh, Yup'ik. 386 00:24:42,524 --> 00:24:44,047 -Yeah. -Your name is Yup'ik? 387 00:24:46,441 --> 00:24:48,225 -No, I'm Matt, he's Yup'ik. -Oh. [chuckles softly] 388 00:24:48,399 --> 00:24:50,445 I, what kind of parent would name a kid Yup'ik, right? 389 00:24:50,619 --> 00:24:53,361 Yeah, that's a good question, Uh, I'm Julie. 390 00:24:53,535 --> 00:24:56,146 -Hi. -They're great sled dogs, but they're also, 391 00:24:56,320 --> 00:24:58,061 they love to pull. There's nothing in the world 392 00:24:58,235 --> 00:25:00,499 an Alaskan Husky loves more than pulling. 393 00:25:00,977 --> 00:25:06,766 I, I don't know. Is that what those signs are around town with like the... big prize money... 394 00:25:06,940 --> 00:25:07,984 -Yeah. Oh. -...thing? 395 00:25:08,158 --> 00:25:09,420 Where are you from? 396 00:25:09,595 --> 00:25:11,684 Uh, I grew up in Whitefish mostly... 397 00:25:11,858 --> 00:25:14,338 -and then I was in, uh, Glendive for a bit... -Hmm. 398 00:25:14,513 --> 00:25:16,993 -...and Miles City. -Yeah, fancy boy. [chuckles] 399 00:25:17,167 --> 00:25:20,170 Yeah that's, that's me, that's me. 400 00:25:20,344 --> 00:25:24,566 Um... well, hey, I, I gotta go. 401 00:25:25,045 --> 00:25:26,873 Hey, uh, what do I do, 402 00:25:27,047 --> 00:25:29,963 uh, if I want to have him pull like you're saying? 403 00:25:30,137 --> 00:25:31,051 Uh, harness him up. 404 00:25:32,226 --> 00:25:34,315 I don't, actually-- Uh, what does that mean? 405 00:25:35,055 --> 00:25:37,405 It means fancy boy, put a harness on him. 406 00:25:38,275 --> 00:25:41,888 Uh, I work at Murdochs this weekend. Come by. I'll hook this guy up. 407 00:25:42,932 --> 00:25:43,672 Okay. 408 00:25:43,846 --> 00:25:44,760 [gentle music] 409 00:25:44,934 --> 00:25:46,370 All right. Come on, 410 00:25:47,023 --> 00:25:48,721 we'll try this. All right. 411 00:25:48,895 --> 00:25:51,680 Okay, okay. What's happening here? 412 00:25:51,854 --> 00:25:55,554 [mumbling] So we, like this. 413 00:25:55,728 --> 00:25:58,644 Come on, come on, come on, you're good. 414 00:25:58,818 --> 00:25:59,993 I'm just gonna take this off of you. 415 00:26:01,168 --> 00:26:01,995 [sighs] 416 00:26:05,433 --> 00:26:06,477 [sighs] 417 00:26:08,262 --> 00:26:11,570 Okay, ready, okay? 418 00:26:12,092 --> 00:26:15,138 Good boy, it's okay, it's okay. 419 00:26:15,312 --> 00:26:19,403 Yeah, here we go, here we go. 420 00:26:24,495 --> 00:26:26,976 Good job. Here we go. 421 00:26:36,551 --> 00:26:39,162 [barking] 422 00:26:40,337 --> 00:26:43,079 ["History of the Night Lamp" by William Stafford] 423 00:26:56,266 --> 00:26:58,138 ♪ They tracked her from the sea ♪ 424 00:26:58,312 --> 00:27:00,183 ♪ Cut her open on the beach ♪ 425 00:27:00,357 --> 00:27:02,316 ♪ A rich man boiled her body fat ♪ 426 00:27:02,490 --> 00:27:04,231 ♪ A poor man ate her meat ♪ 427 00:27:04,405 --> 00:27:06,450 ♪ Adventure and the industry ♪ 428 00:27:06,625 --> 00:27:08,365 ♪ The best part of a century ♪ 429 00:27:08,539 --> 00:27:10,411 ♪ Were not for new technologies ♪ 430 00:27:10,585 --> 00:27:12,587 ♪ The whales would be extinct ♪ 431 00:27:13,066 --> 00:27:16,460 ♪ And it was all for the light ♪ 432 00:27:16,635 --> 00:27:20,508 ♪ To read the bible at night ♪ 433 00:27:20,682 --> 00:27:22,728 ♪ Or to learn a piece of music ♪ 434 00:27:22,902 --> 00:27:24,164 ♪ In the parlor... ♪ 435 00:27:24,338 --> 00:27:27,036 -[Fred] More weight! -[barks, yelps] 436 00:27:28,037 --> 00:27:29,430 -Come here. -Come on, Yup'ik. 437 00:27:29,909 --> 00:27:31,911 [barking] 438 00:27:33,826 --> 00:27:35,871 -[Fred] Come on. -[Matt] Atta boy. 439 00:27:36,350 --> 00:27:39,483 [dramatic music] 440 00:27:41,398 --> 00:27:44,184 -[yelps] -[Fred] What was that? 441 00:27:44,358 --> 00:27:45,489 He almost pulled it. 442 00:27:46,403 --> 00:27:51,191 -Wow, good job. Good job, good job buddy. -What? Good boy! 443 00:27:51,365 --> 00:27:54,194 -Ugh. [laughs] -Good Yup'ik, yeah, yeah. 444 00:27:54,368 --> 00:27:57,545 Are you getting cold? Hm? Are you getting cold? 445 00:27:57,719 --> 00:28:01,897 -Matt, the parking brake was on. -Wait, what? 446 00:28:02,071 --> 00:28:03,856 The parking break was on. 447 00:28:05,640 --> 00:28:11,254 No. What, what, what? 448 00:28:14,475 --> 00:28:17,260 [people cheering] 449 00:28:25,921 --> 00:28:28,881 [people in the crowd] Yeah! Woo-hoo. 450 00:28:29,055 --> 00:28:32,667 [calm music] 451 00:28:36,540 --> 00:28:37,585 [toy squeaking] 452 00:28:37,759 --> 00:28:39,413 Okay, yeah, we-- 453 00:28:39,587 --> 00:28:41,110 Sorry, we can't afford it buddy. 454 00:28:42,459 --> 00:28:44,940 -[Julie] Let's see. -[objects thud softly] 455 00:28:45,767 --> 00:28:47,900 -[electronic beeping] -[printer clanking] 456 00:28:51,730 --> 00:28:52,643 [Julie] Yup'ik! 457 00:28:53,427 --> 00:28:55,037 [gaps] You made it. 458 00:28:56,778 --> 00:28:58,475 I'm gonna give you a treat. 459 00:28:58,649 --> 00:29:01,261 I just need to ask you about the, the dog pulling. 460 00:29:01,870 --> 00:29:03,916 -Weight pulling. Uh... -Weight pulling. 461 00:29:04,090 --> 00:29:05,569 ...mushing's more my specialty, 462 00:29:05,744 --> 00:29:07,223 but you should talk to this guy. 463 00:29:07,397 --> 00:29:09,573 He's the best. He, his dogs are legend, 464 00:29:09,748 --> 00:29:12,707 and he's lived here a long time. A native guy from Alaska. 465 00:29:12,881 --> 00:29:15,492 -Okay. -Uh, he's got really good stories. 466 00:29:15,666 --> 00:29:19,496 -You should ask him about Nugget. -Nugget, okay, Nugget. 467 00:29:21,716 --> 00:29:22,935 Did you hook him up? 468 00:29:23,587 --> 00:29:26,112 -[sighs] Yeah. -I told you. 469 00:29:26,286 --> 00:29:28,941 -Right. -Hey also, the weight pull's just outside. 470 00:29:29,463 --> 00:29:32,031 Um, give it a go. If he pulls weight, you qualify for state. 471 00:29:33,336 --> 00:29:37,514 -Cash or card? -Uh, let's do card please. 472 00:29:37,688 --> 00:29:41,518 Also, uh, make sure that you mix it with water when you feed him, it prevents bloat. 473 00:29:41,692 --> 00:29:42,563 [Matt] Okay. 474 00:29:45,566 --> 00:29:46,436 Yeah. 475 00:29:48,612 --> 00:29:51,050 Your total is $71.37. 476 00:29:52,007 --> 00:29:53,008 Okay. 477 00:29:54,531 --> 00:29:55,358 [electronic beeping] 478 00:29:59,623 --> 00:30:00,711 [beeping] 479 00:30:00,886 --> 00:30:03,018 I'm sorry. It didn't go through. 480 00:30:03,192 --> 00:30:05,542 Just gimme my card back, it's, it's like an old card. 481 00:30:05,716 --> 00:30:08,632 I think the stripe is actually bad on it. 482 00:30:08,807 --> 00:30:10,547 -How much do you have? -I have money, 483 00:30:10,721 --> 00:30:13,028 I'm just finishing up a project right now, so... 484 00:30:14,725 --> 00:30:18,381 Mm, 42 bucks, perfect. 485 00:30:19,513 --> 00:30:20,557 I told you I'd hook you up. 486 00:30:21,428 --> 00:30:23,169 Don't worry about it, employee discount. 487 00:30:24,170 --> 00:30:25,345 Um, gimme Greg's card. 488 00:30:31,003 --> 00:30:32,308 I can show you our dogs. 489 00:30:32,482 --> 00:30:34,049 I've just been out of the game a while. 490 00:30:42,014 --> 00:30:44,581 [somber music] 491 00:30:47,758 --> 00:30:48,629 [mumbles] Good boy. 492 00:30:56,028 --> 00:30:57,768 I'm sorry, we're finished. 493 00:30:57,943 --> 00:31:00,206 Uh, can I just get my dog out there? 494 00:31:00,380 --> 00:31:02,512 -Come to our next pull. -Wh-- when is that? 495 00:31:02,686 --> 00:31:04,863 [Rick] Qualifier's in Butte next week. 496 00:31:06,473 --> 00:31:08,475 Could we just practice? 497 00:31:09,128 --> 00:31:10,694 [sighs] Not today. 498 00:31:14,220 --> 00:31:16,178 You're taking this kind of seriously, aren't you? 499 00:31:16,962 --> 00:31:17,832 I am? 500 00:31:18,659 --> 00:31:21,967 Yeah, I'm just asking to see what my dog can do. 501 00:31:24,012 --> 00:31:25,927 I'll spare you the suspense. 502 00:31:26,101 --> 00:31:28,930 -Excuse me? -It's a little dog. [laughs] 503 00:31:32,020 --> 00:31:32,978 [mumbles] I'm sorry. 504 00:31:37,199 --> 00:31:40,811 -Greg said I should stop by. -Greg sent you? 505 00:31:41,290 --> 00:31:43,118 -Yeah, Greg Peters. -Mm-hmm. 506 00:31:45,164 --> 00:31:48,297 Hey, Greg-ums, guy here says you sent him over. 507 00:31:51,561 --> 00:31:53,259 -Hey, Matt, right? -Yeah. 508 00:31:53,433 --> 00:31:55,478 -[Greg] Good to see you again. -[Matt] Yeah, you too. 509 00:31:55,652 --> 00:31:57,785 Yeah, I think he's worth checking out. 510 00:31:57,959 --> 00:32:00,135 -[scoffs] He ever pulled? -Sure. 511 00:32:01,397 --> 00:32:02,572 Yeah, he's young. 512 00:32:03,269 --> 00:32:05,271 He's got feet like clown shoes. 513 00:32:06,446 --> 00:32:09,492 -Let's get a rig on him, see what he can do. -Are you serious? 514 00:32:12,408 --> 00:32:13,670 [Rick laughs] 515 00:32:15,063 --> 00:32:16,456 All right, make sure it's snug. 516 00:32:16,630 --> 00:32:17,631 [Rick] We had a big malamute in there 517 00:32:17,805 --> 00:32:18,675 last run of the day. 518 00:32:19,285 --> 00:32:20,677 Sampson, you may have seen him. 519 00:32:21,330 --> 00:32:23,767 Your dog's a little smaller. 520 00:32:25,030 --> 00:32:27,989 -It's funny, that's, that's real funny, yeah. -[Rick laughs] 521 00:32:28,163 --> 00:32:30,774 -So what'd you name him? -Uh, his name's Yup'ik. 522 00:32:31,906 --> 00:32:33,255 -Really? -[Matt] Hey, come here, here. 523 00:32:33,429 --> 00:32:34,387 And how'd you come about that? 524 00:32:34,561 --> 00:32:35,649 That's kind of a joke. 525 00:32:36,258 --> 00:32:39,174 I gotta see this, don't wanna jinx the next pull. 526 00:32:39,348 --> 00:32:41,089 Uh, he's superstitious. 527 00:32:41,263 --> 00:32:43,135 Into the Zodiac and stuff like that. 528 00:32:43,309 --> 00:32:44,963 [Matt] Yeah, that seems pretty on brand for him. 529 00:32:45,137 --> 00:32:46,660 [Greg] Come on, Yup'ik. Come on, come on. Go, go, go. 530 00:32:46,834 --> 00:32:48,749 Hey Greg, just so this kid doesn't kill his dog, 531 00:32:48,923 --> 00:32:50,577 we should probably take the weight down a little bit. 532 00:32:50,751 --> 00:32:51,708 How much is on there? 533 00:32:52,187 --> 00:32:54,885 Uh, Sampson's original 2100. 534 00:32:55,060 --> 00:32:57,149 Oh, let's knock it down to 500, 535 00:32:57,323 --> 00:32:58,715 just to give him a feel for it. 536 00:32:58,889 --> 00:33:00,456 Yeah, well he almost pulled a car earlier. 537 00:33:01,022 --> 00:33:01,762 -Yeah? -[Matt] Yeah. 538 00:33:01,936 --> 00:33:02,850 You never set your dog 539 00:33:03,024 --> 00:33:04,373 up to fail, it shames him. 540 00:33:04,547 --> 00:33:05,809 This guy's a total amateur. 541 00:33:05,984 --> 00:33:07,507 We were all amateurs once. 542 00:33:07,681 --> 00:33:09,683 That trust is a difficult thing to earn back. 543 00:33:10,336 --> 00:33:11,815 Yeah, and I know something about that. 544 00:33:12,468 --> 00:33:14,166 Oh, okay. 545 00:33:14,340 --> 00:33:16,037 -Yeah. -Well, here's how it works, 546 00:33:16,603 --> 00:33:18,344 Each of those bricks is 50 pounds. 547 00:33:18,909 --> 00:33:22,652 After each successful pull, the weight goes up 100 pounds. 548 00:33:22,826 --> 00:33:26,395 You are starting at 2100 pounds. All right? 549 00:33:26,569 --> 00:33:30,095 -[Matt] Okay. -So you're gonna go down to the end of the lane, that's 16 feet. 550 00:33:30,269 --> 00:33:35,100 Your time starts when you call your dog or when your dog makes a move off the line. 551 00:33:35,709 --> 00:33:38,842 -Thirty seconds for him to get-- -You've got 30 seconds to get the front of the sled 552 00:33:39,017 --> 00:33:41,628 -across that line. -[Matt] Okay, got it. 553 00:33:42,194 --> 00:33:43,238 You're on, Sparky. 554 00:33:51,290 --> 00:33:52,639 Okay. Yup'ik, come. 555 00:33:55,250 --> 00:33:57,818 You're right. He's really strong. 556 00:33:59,776 --> 00:34:01,474 -[laughs] -Prick. 557 00:34:04,085 --> 00:34:04,912 [sighs] 558 00:34:05,478 --> 00:34:06,783 Yup'ik, come. 559 00:34:11,527 --> 00:34:12,876 He's not interested. 560 00:34:17,054 --> 00:34:18,839 The dog just won't listen, man. 561 00:34:19,013 --> 00:34:21,494 Yup'ik, not "the dog". 562 00:34:21,668 --> 00:34:23,016 "Not the dog," does that really matter? 563 00:34:23,583 --> 00:34:27,674 Yes. When you call Yup'ik, mean it. 564 00:34:27,848 --> 00:34:29,545 I do mean it. 565 00:34:32,112 --> 00:34:35,333 Remember a time when you had fun with him. 566 00:34:36,204 --> 00:34:38,163 -Remember a time when I had fun with him? -[Greg] Yes. 567 00:34:38,337 --> 00:34:40,860 Breathe into that, it's very simple. 568 00:34:45,300 --> 00:34:48,303 [peaceful music] 569 00:34:54,744 --> 00:34:56,442 Stay in that place. 570 00:35:04,363 --> 00:35:06,452 [Greg] When you're ready, call him. 571 00:35:08,628 --> 00:35:10,847 Yup'ik, come. 572 00:35:14,024 --> 00:35:17,593 -Wait, wait, wait, wait. -When he puts his head down, you leave him. 573 00:35:17,767 --> 00:35:19,291 [Matt] Wh-- Sorry, why are you yelling at me? 574 00:35:19,465 --> 00:35:21,336 Because you are a moron. 575 00:35:21,989 --> 00:35:24,034 [Matt] You work at a doggy weight pull, man. 576 00:35:24,209 --> 00:35:25,819 How often do you think your wife brags about you? 577 00:35:25,993 --> 00:35:26,733 -[Yup'ik whimpers] -Oh, yeah? 578 00:35:26,907 --> 00:35:28,169 [barks] 579 00:35:29,039 --> 00:35:31,259 [sled dragging] 580 00:35:32,782 --> 00:35:36,351 Oh shit. Quick, quick, come, come, yep, good, good. 581 00:35:36,525 --> 00:35:37,961 Nine seconds. 582 00:35:38,919 --> 00:35:40,355 -Not bad. -Yeah. 583 00:35:43,228 --> 00:35:44,794 Yeah, you know? 584 00:35:45,969 --> 00:35:50,278 Hey, so, I, I just wanted to say that I'm going through kind of a, a rough patch. 585 00:35:50,452 --> 00:35:51,932 Yeah, I get it. 586 00:35:52,498 --> 00:35:53,325 Yeah, look... 587 00:35:54,717 --> 00:35:56,719 ...bring this with you to the qualifier. 588 00:35:56,893 --> 00:35:58,156 It'll get you in for free. 589 00:35:58,330 --> 00:35:59,722 It's got my name on it. 590 00:36:00,201 --> 00:36:01,942 Right, so you think he can qualify? 591 00:36:02,595 --> 00:36:06,207 I wouldn't get too excited just 'cause you got him to cross the line once, 592 00:36:06,729 --> 00:36:09,428 doesn't mean you can do it again. [scoffs] Good luck, champ. 593 00:36:12,387 --> 00:36:13,388 Matthew... 594 00:36:14,563 --> 00:36:16,565 ...Yup'ik is a very special name. 595 00:36:17,523 --> 00:36:21,701 It's a Yup'ik word, spelled Y-U-P-I-K, 596 00:36:22,484 --> 00:36:23,833 and it's sacred. 597 00:36:25,879 --> 00:36:27,315 He's a sensitive dog... 598 00:36:28,403 --> 00:36:30,536 ...and you will have to become sensitive, too. 599 00:36:31,711 --> 00:36:33,756 Lean into that connection, okay? 600 00:36:36,542 --> 00:36:37,412 You're doing a good job. 601 00:36:50,208 --> 00:36:51,731 Okay, Yup'ik come. 602 00:36:55,996 --> 00:37:00,522 I thought we had a deal, I lean in and you respond. 603 00:37:03,917 --> 00:37:04,744 [sighs] 604 00:37:05,614 --> 00:37:06,528 What's the problem? 605 00:37:08,182 --> 00:37:09,052 [soft whimper] 606 00:37:10,576 --> 00:37:12,926 I'm sorry about the car earlier, okay? 607 00:37:13,100 --> 00:37:15,015 I didn't mean to shame you with it. 608 00:37:15,972 --> 00:37:17,147 [barks] 609 00:37:17,322 --> 00:37:18,061 [singing] ♪ I met you ♪ 610 00:37:18,236 --> 00:37:19,715 [guitar music playing] 611 00:37:23,197 --> 00:37:25,286 ♪ And everything changed ♪ 612 00:37:31,553 --> 00:37:33,512 ♪ The crazy fighting ♪ 613 00:37:40,170 --> 00:37:41,737 ♪ Never in vain ♪ 614 00:37:47,439 --> 00:37:48,570 ♪ Just two ♪ 615 00:37:52,661 --> 00:37:54,402 ♪ Lost souls ♪ 616 00:37:59,842 --> 00:38:01,279 ♪ Running from pain ♪ 617 00:38:05,195 --> 00:38:06,196 [music fades] 618 00:38:07,415 --> 00:38:08,677 [humming] 619 00:38:19,253 --> 00:38:20,123 [sighs] 620 00:38:24,432 --> 00:38:26,042 [humming] 621 00:38:34,747 --> 00:38:37,010 So, you wanna make sure and make eye contact with him. 622 00:38:38,098 --> 00:38:39,360 And go very slowly. 623 00:38:39,534 --> 00:38:41,797 Make sure that he's following the treat. 624 00:38:45,671 --> 00:38:46,672 [chuckles softly] 625 00:38:46,846 --> 00:38:48,674 -Okay, you try. -Okay. 626 00:38:50,153 --> 00:38:54,201 -So, I make eye contact. -With Yup'ik. 627 00:38:54,375 --> 00:38:58,031 With Yup'ik, right, right, and go slowly. 628 00:38:58,205 --> 00:38:59,075 Yes. 629 00:38:59,859 --> 00:39:01,774 Okay, slow. 630 00:39:01,948 --> 00:39:04,211 [peaceful music] 631 00:39:16,528 --> 00:39:17,833 Okay, just toss it to him now. 632 00:39:18,704 --> 00:39:20,401 Just toss it to him? 633 00:39:20,575 --> 00:39:21,837 Yeah, just pop it up in the air. 634 00:39:22,011 --> 00:39:24,057 Just pop it up in the air, all right. 635 00:39:24,231 --> 00:39:26,842 -What if I hit him? -He'll catch it. It's a treat. 636 00:39:28,278 --> 00:39:31,804 [cheerful flute music] 637 00:39:39,115 --> 00:39:40,465 [church bell tolls] 638 00:39:43,816 --> 00:39:45,295 [water gushing] 639 00:39:51,606 --> 00:39:54,348 So, just like baseball, it's all about the fundamentals. 640 00:39:54,522 --> 00:39:55,480 So, sit. 641 00:40:04,140 --> 00:40:06,142 [upbeat instrumental music] 642 00:40:10,930 --> 00:40:14,542 ♪ The path that can be spoken is not the eternal path ♪ 643 00:40:14,716 --> 00:40:17,415 ♪ The way they can be named is not the eternal way ♪ 644 00:40:18,154 --> 00:40:21,027 ♪ Don't call no, not, don't ♪ 645 00:40:21,201 --> 00:40:24,813 ♪ None can show how to stay the way ♪ 646 00:40:28,904 --> 00:40:30,645 ♪ Trouble follow thought ♪ 647 00:40:30,819 --> 00:40:34,214 ♪ Like a cart follow ox Off path in the bramble ♪ 648 00:40:34,388 --> 00:40:36,042 ♪ Subtle is the walk ♪ 649 00:40:36,216 --> 00:40:38,479 ♪ You cut your foot and curse It hurts ♪ 650 00:40:38,653 --> 00:40:39,698 ♪ I know ♪ 651 00:40:39,872 --> 00:40:41,134 ♪ But there is a better place ♪ 652 00:40:41,308 --> 00:40:43,005 ♪ To put your other foot ♪ 653 00:40:43,179 --> 00:40:44,877 ♪ Step forward and continue ♪ 654 00:40:45,051 --> 00:40:46,835 ♪ The strength is within you ♪ 655 00:40:47,009 --> 00:40:49,229 ♪ If you need to borrow shoes I've got a pair ♪ 656 00:40:49,403 --> 00:40:52,058 ♪ I could lend you They probably won't fit you ♪ 657 00:40:52,232 --> 00:40:54,364 ♪ And you need to go your own way ♪ 658 00:40:54,539 --> 00:40:57,933 ♪ I'm coming with you 'cause I'm feeling kind of feng shui ♪ 659 00:40:59,718 --> 00:41:02,198 ♪ Don't call, no, not, don't ♪ 660 00:41:02,372 --> 00:41:05,811 ♪ None can show how to stay the way ♪ 661 00:41:06,812 --> 00:41:09,162 ♪ Now is the time of power ♪ 662 00:41:09,815 --> 00:41:11,207 [somber music] 663 00:41:11,381 --> 00:41:13,427 [breathing heavily] 664 00:41:14,907 --> 00:41:16,865 Dang, how much bacon can he eat? 665 00:41:17,039 --> 00:41:18,519 I'm pretty sure he's bottomless. 666 00:41:19,477 --> 00:41:20,565 So, you all race ready? 667 00:41:21,696 --> 00:41:24,656 About as ready we're ever gonna be, I guess. [laughs] 668 00:41:25,918 --> 00:41:26,875 [Fred sighs] 669 00:41:29,269 --> 00:41:30,183 [sighs] 670 00:41:34,230 --> 00:41:35,275 [sighs] 671 00:41:52,335 --> 00:41:54,860 [breathing heavily] 672 00:41:59,691 --> 00:42:01,823 [melancholic music] 673 00:42:08,047 --> 00:42:10,658 [dogs barking] 674 00:42:16,359 --> 00:42:17,839 [Matt] Wait, your mom was a musher? 675 00:42:18,013 --> 00:42:20,538 She trained with Susan Butcher for years. 676 00:42:20,712 --> 00:42:22,191 I don't know who that is. 677 00:42:22,844 --> 00:42:24,672 It's just a four time Iditarod winner. 678 00:42:27,327 --> 00:42:29,634 -She's pretty. -Well, that's where I get it. 679 00:42:30,939 --> 00:42:34,247 -What's with the hat? -It's called an ushanka, 680 00:42:34,421 --> 00:42:37,206 and it's Prada for mushers. 681 00:42:37,685 --> 00:42:39,295 Do you have one? 682 00:42:39,469 --> 00:42:41,428 Nah, it's for serious mushers. 683 00:42:42,385 --> 00:42:44,039 And, and you're not a serious musher? 684 00:42:44,953 --> 00:42:49,828 I love it. I don't know, it, it's kind of my mom's thing, hard to live up to. 685 00:42:50,437 --> 00:42:51,960 Well, yeah, especially without a... 686 00:42:52,526 --> 00:42:55,747 -...u-- [clears throat] U-- -Ushanka. 687 00:42:55,921 --> 00:42:59,141 Ushanka, ushanka,okay. 688 00:43:01,709 --> 00:43:02,667 What about your dad? 689 00:43:04,146 --> 00:43:05,060 [sighs] 690 00:43:05,234 --> 00:43:06,627 Carpenter, technically. 691 00:43:10,022 --> 00:43:11,632 Which is a noble profession. 692 00:43:14,592 --> 00:43:20,075 [sighs] In my dad's case, he was mostly an unemployed and resentful house husband. 693 00:43:20,859 --> 00:43:25,428 My mom had this dream and she was living it and he didn't. 694 00:43:26,734 --> 00:43:28,606 He did manage to keep the dogs alive though. 695 00:43:28,780 --> 00:43:31,652 I'd come out here occasionally to help out. 696 00:43:32,392 --> 00:43:35,308 So, that's my sob story, what about you? 697 00:43:35,482 --> 00:43:36,875 How many days sober? 698 00:43:41,488 --> 00:43:43,533 I can be a bit much. 699 00:43:47,799 --> 00:43:49,627 Yeah, I don't really like to talk about it. 700 00:43:52,238 --> 00:43:53,239 You got it. 701 00:43:55,328 --> 00:43:56,895 [sighs deeply] 702 00:43:59,462 --> 00:44:01,116 So, I was thinking 703 00:44:01,595 --> 00:44:03,597 I'd like to take you and Yup'ik dog sledding. 704 00:44:04,163 --> 00:44:05,033 I think you'd love it. 705 00:44:06,774 --> 00:44:07,993 [sighs] 706 00:44:09,472 --> 00:44:11,823 -Um... -If not, I understand. 707 00:44:15,914 --> 00:44:18,656 I appreciate your help with him so far. 708 00:44:18,830 --> 00:44:20,483 Like, really. 709 00:44:21,397 --> 00:44:24,487 -I'm not-- -Hey, this doesn't have to be a thing. 710 00:44:26,838 --> 00:44:27,969 Thought you could use a friend. 711 00:44:29,623 --> 00:44:31,320 It's just a dog sled ride. 712 00:44:37,587 --> 00:44:39,241 [Fred] Hola, amigo. 713 00:44:39,415 --> 00:44:40,678 Dang, the hutch's looking pretty good. 714 00:44:40,852 --> 00:44:43,724 Yeah, she's coming along, coming along. 715 00:44:43,898 --> 00:44:44,986 Got you something. 716 00:44:45,160 --> 00:44:47,293 -What's this? -Just a small, 717 00:44:48,337 --> 00:44:51,036 -small present. -Got me a bowling ball? 718 00:44:51,210 --> 00:44:53,734 -It's a necklace. -Yes. [laughs] 719 00:44:54,779 --> 00:44:56,650 -Heavy. -It's a sweater. 720 00:44:57,172 --> 00:44:59,261 [chuckles] You opened it? 721 00:44:59,784 --> 00:45:01,220 I had to, man, I had to look at it. 722 00:45:01,394 --> 00:45:03,483 A sweater, it's a sweater. 723 00:45:06,486 --> 00:45:08,183 Whoa, whoa, whoa. 724 00:45:12,622 --> 00:45:16,278 -[Matt sniffles] -[Fred] Two days away. 725 00:45:18,803 --> 00:45:21,153 It makes no damn sense to me why they're your favorite team. 726 00:45:24,112 --> 00:45:27,072 -I think I got the font as close as I could get it. -[chuckles] 727 00:45:27,246 --> 00:45:29,204 We didn't have a team in Montana... 728 00:45:30,597 --> 00:45:31,990 ...and my dad loved them. 729 00:45:33,687 --> 00:45:36,646 And it was my thing with him. 730 00:45:39,649 --> 00:45:42,217 -Whew. -That's why, huh? Your dad. 731 00:45:42,391 --> 00:45:45,046 -Okay, now I understand. -Oh. 732 00:45:45,220 --> 00:45:48,006 I just couldn't put the team name on there 'cause I-- 733 00:45:48,528 --> 00:45:51,313 -Well, you know. -I know. I do know. 734 00:45:52,010 --> 00:45:54,708 -But I got a baseball on there. That's the symbol. -[laughs] 735 00:45:57,276 --> 00:45:59,278 That relationship between you and your dad, Matt, 736 00:45:59,452 --> 00:46:01,889 -that's what's important. -Yeah. 737 00:46:02,977 --> 00:46:05,588 I just don't wanna miss the chance to get it to you before the big race. 738 00:46:15,250 --> 00:46:18,036 [indistinct crowd chatter] 739 00:46:20,081 --> 00:46:22,910 I'd like to register my dog, please. 740 00:46:23,563 --> 00:46:26,522 You have to have your pull dog with you. 741 00:46:26,696 --> 00:46:28,394 Can I just have my bib please? 742 00:46:29,743 --> 00:46:33,181 -[Tina] You're quite rude. -It's okay, Tina, he's an acquired taste. 743 00:46:33,355 --> 00:46:35,488 [Tina] Yeah, some people just weren't raised right. 744 00:46:36,750 --> 00:46:38,752 You have a problem with authority, kid. 745 00:46:39,666 --> 00:46:41,363 Come on, let's go. 746 00:46:42,974 --> 00:46:44,105 [dogs barking] 747 00:46:45,846 --> 00:46:48,631 -[Matt] Hey. Hey. -[bystander] Hey, rat pull's next week, bud. 748 00:46:48,806 --> 00:46:50,459 Rat pull's in your pants, buddy. 749 00:46:50,633 --> 00:46:52,200 Crowd can get a little rowdy at these things, 750 00:46:52,374 --> 00:46:53,375 don't take it personal. 751 00:46:53,549 --> 00:46:54,724 Let's get one thing straight... 752 00:46:54,899 --> 00:46:55,638 -Mm. -...I don't need your help. 753 00:46:55,813 --> 00:46:56,944 Oh, whatever you say. 754 00:46:57,118 --> 00:46:57,945 Here, here, here. 755 00:46:58,119 --> 00:46:59,817 -Number? -Uh, 88. 756 00:46:59,991 --> 00:47:01,557 -You're up next. -Okay. 757 00:47:01,731 --> 00:47:04,865 Eighty-eight. It's a lucky number, astrologically. 758 00:47:05,039 --> 00:47:06,693 The stars are in your favor, pal. 759 00:47:07,302 --> 00:47:10,392 Stop, stop, stop. I can't do this zodiac astrological bullshit, okay? 760 00:47:10,566 --> 00:47:12,046 I'm trying to concentrate and you're just yapping in my ear. 761 00:47:12,220 --> 00:47:14,527 Accept the help or don't, but stop complaining. 762 00:47:14,701 --> 00:47:15,920 You sound like a little bitch. 763 00:47:16,442 --> 00:47:17,660 [sighs] 764 00:47:17,835 --> 00:47:19,184 [gentle music] 765 00:47:19,967 --> 00:47:22,100 [announcer] Our defending champion, weighing in at a robust 766 00:47:22,274 --> 00:47:24,406 -One hundred and forty-two pounds. -[crowd cheering] Yeah. 767 00:47:24,580 --> 00:47:27,540 Malamute, Alaskan freight dog. 768 00:47:27,714 --> 00:47:30,543 He has size, heart, pure will. 769 00:47:30,717 --> 00:47:32,240 That's your competition. 770 00:47:33,067 --> 00:47:36,462 He's won state the last three years and beat last year's national record. 771 00:47:38,507 --> 00:47:40,640 -You're up. -Okay, Yup'ik, come on. Come on. 772 00:47:40,814 --> 00:47:42,685 Dog goes on the scale, not you. 773 00:47:42,860 --> 00:47:44,122 [Matt] Hey, get up here, come on. 774 00:47:45,558 --> 00:47:46,864 [crowd laughing] 775 00:47:47,038 --> 00:47:49,344 Next up, we have Yup'ik weighing in at 776 00:47:50,041 --> 00:47:53,392 a svelte, featherweight 44 pounds. 777 00:47:53,566 --> 00:47:57,744 [crowd laughing and cheering] 778 00:47:59,006 --> 00:48:00,965 All right, guys, thank you all for coming. 779 00:48:01,139 --> 00:48:02,531 We got a really quick event today. 780 00:48:02,705 --> 00:48:04,272 Each dog has 30 seconds 781 00:48:04,446 --> 00:48:06,144 to pull 1500 pounds across the line. 782 00:48:06,318 --> 00:48:08,363 Cross the line, they qualify for state. 783 00:48:08,537 --> 00:48:11,627 [crowd cheering] 784 00:48:11,801 --> 00:48:13,194 [bystander 1] Come on, Sampson. 785 00:48:13,368 --> 00:48:16,154 [bystander 2] Sampson, let's go, let's go. 786 00:48:16,328 --> 00:48:18,373 [crowd cheering] 787 00:48:18,547 --> 00:48:19,853 [upbeat music] 788 00:48:20,027 --> 00:48:21,507 [bystander 2] You got this, come on! 789 00:48:21,681 --> 00:48:24,336 Sampson, hey, come on. 790 00:48:25,163 --> 00:48:26,904 [bystander 2] Let's go, let's go. 791 00:48:27,078 --> 00:48:29,341 [crowd cheering] 792 00:48:31,038 --> 00:48:34,128 That's seven seconds, that's a new qualifying record. 793 00:48:34,302 --> 00:48:37,044 [owner] Come on, good boy, good boy. 794 00:48:39,046 --> 00:48:42,658 ♪ You may die along the road ♪ 795 00:48:42,832 --> 00:48:47,011 ♪ Yes, you may die along the road ♪ 796 00:48:47,185 --> 00:48:50,188 ♪ To the tower you could go ♪ 797 00:48:53,800 --> 00:48:56,368 ♪ Not many gonna make it through those woods ♪ 798 00:48:57,891 --> 00:49:00,459 -♪ Not many gonna make it Through those woods ♪ -[dog whimpers] 799 00:49:00,633 --> 00:49:03,375 [crowd cheering] 800 00:49:05,246 --> 00:49:06,421 [crowd] Yeah! Woo. 801 00:49:09,598 --> 00:49:10,686 ♪ Nope, they died ♪ 802 00:49:11,557 --> 00:49:13,037 ♪ Along the road ♪ 803 00:49:13,689 --> 00:49:17,171 ♪ They all die along the road ♪ 804 00:49:17,650 --> 00:49:21,436 ♪ You, too, may die along the road ♪ 805 00:49:21,610 --> 00:49:22,960 Yup'ik, Yup'ik, come, come here. 806 00:49:25,049 --> 00:49:26,354 Yup'ik, come here. 807 00:49:27,181 --> 00:49:28,704 Yup'ik, come. 808 00:49:30,271 --> 00:49:31,011 Yup'ik. 809 00:49:31,185 --> 00:49:32,404 [Yup'ik whimpers] 810 00:49:32,578 --> 00:49:33,535 [sighs] 811 00:49:33,709 --> 00:49:36,190 [dramatic music] 812 00:49:40,020 --> 00:49:41,021 [clears throat softly] 813 00:49:42,544 --> 00:49:45,025 Ah, Yup'ik, come. 814 00:49:46,766 --> 00:49:48,202 Come. Ah! 815 00:49:48,986 --> 00:49:50,465 Come! Come! 816 00:50:03,043 --> 00:50:05,741 You do that shit at state, I'm gonna kick your ass. 817 00:50:05,915 --> 00:50:08,005 So, we're not gonna be carpooling together, is that what you're saying? 818 00:50:12,357 --> 00:50:13,227 Hey. 819 00:50:13,923 --> 00:50:15,186 [weight pull supervisor] That was disgusting. 820 00:50:15,360 --> 00:50:16,883 -Another lecture, okay. -The-- Hmm, 821 00:50:17,057 --> 00:50:19,059 -the only reason you're not disqualified... -Mm-hmm. 822 00:50:19,233 --> 00:50:21,061 -Hmm-mm. -...is 'cause your friend was going around telling everyone 823 00:50:21,235 --> 00:50:24,195 how stupid you are, and I happen to agree with him. 824 00:50:24,369 --> 00:50:26,719 Pull that at state and you're disqualified. 825 00:50:27,850 --> 00:50:30,288 -Great. -[phone ringing] 826 00:50:31,637 --> 00:50:33,291 [Matt's Mom] Hi, it's me, leave a message. 827 00:50:34,118 --> 00:50:37,295 [Matt] Hey, Mom, it's Matt. Um, 828 00:50:38,122 --> 00:50:39,601 What do you say after 15 years? 829 00:50:39,775 --> 00:50:41,603 [chuckles] Oh. 830 00:50:46,521 --> 00:50:47,479 I made it. 831 00:50:52,962 --> 00:50:54,703 I'd like to see you. Uh... 832 00:50:57,402 --> 00:51:00,361 Oh, uh, call me back? 833 00:51:04,061 --> 00:51:06,411 [exhales] 834 00:51:07,977 --> 00:51:11,981 Good, good, good. Stay here, stay here. 835 00:51:12,156 --> 00:51:15,289 -Hey, hey. -[phone ringing] 836 00:51:16,203 --> 00:51:17,857 -Hi, this is Matt. -[Denise] Hi Matt, I'm Denise, 837 00:51:18,031 --> 00:51:19,772 I'm one of your mom's hospice nurses. 838 00:51:30,609 --> 00:51:32,611 -Hey, champ-- -Hey, did you get a letter from my mom? 839 00:51:32,785 --> 00:51:33,612 Um... 840 00:51:34,830 --> 00:51:36,484 -...oh, uh, yeah. Hey. -Where is it? 841 00:51:36,658 --> 00:51:38,704 -Where is it? Where is it? -Sit down! 842 00:51:38,878 --> 00:51:40,053 -Sit down. -Get your hands off me. 843 00:51:40,227 --> 00:51:41,402 I've had enough of this. 844 00:51:41,576 --> 00:51:42,751 -Get your ass down. -So have I. 845 00:51:43,970 --> 00:51:47,278 -Where, oh, fuck, where is it? -[bottles clinking] 846 00:51:48,017 --> 00:51:50,629 -Where is it? -It's on top of the hutch. 847 00:51:50,803 --> 00:51:53,284 [breathing heavily] 848 00:51:55,851 --> 00:51:57,462 You're so close to 30 days, Matt. 849 00:52:03,816 --> 00:52:06,035 [crying] 850 00:52:32,061 --> 00:52:33,715 I understand why you're upset. 851 00:52:37,110 --> 00:52:40,113 And it's just that you were doing so, so good. 852 00:52:40,766 --> 00:52:43,203 I asked you to be my sponsor, 853 00:52:43,725 --> 00:52:46,467 because you had a willpower that I didn't have 854 00:52:46,641 --> 00:52:48,295 And I trusted you man. 855 00:52:48,469 --> 00:52:49,514 And I shouldn't have, 856 00:52:49,688 --> 00:52:51,951 because you are scared shitless 857 00:52:52,125 --> 00:52:53,344 of being out of control. 858 00:52:54,693 --> 00:52:55,911 And you lied to me. 859 00:52:56,085 --> 00:52:57,913 And for as long as I've known you, 860 00:52:58,697 --> 00:53:01,265 you have taken the easy way out. 861 00:53:01,787 --> 00:53:04,398 Hey, that's what makes these last 30 days so exceptional. 862 00:53:07,401 --> 00:53:10,752 There's no shortcuts to sobriety, Matt, 863 00:53:10,926 --> 00:53:12,580 'cause believe me, you would've found them by now. 864 00:53:14,060 --> 00:53:15,540 Your mom's death isn't your fault. 865 00:53:17,063 --> 00:53:18,020 [sniffles] 866 00:53:18,195 --> 00:53:19,544 And where's your wife, Fred? 867 00:53:25,202 --> 00:53:26,464 No, don't do this. 868 00:53:28,857 --> 00:53:32,513 You talk about your life like it's Eden. 869 00:53:33,122 --> 00:53:34,341 So where is she? 870 00:53:34,820 --> 00:53:36,430 Did she leave you for some guy who'd let her choose 871 00:53:36,604 --> 00:53:38,780 what day of the week she wanted to wash her underwear? 872 00:53:40,260 --> 00:53:42,523 You keep talking to me like this, you can't stay here. 873 00:53:44,525 --> 00:53:45,961 We'll be gone tomorrow. 874 00:53:46,614 --> 00:53:47,398 Great. 875 00:53:49,138 --> 00:53:50,009 Great. 876 00:53:53,230 --> 00:53:54,100 [door slamming] 877 00:53:55,797 --> 00:53:56,798 [sniffles] 878 00:53:58,974 --> 00:54:01,760 [wind buffeting] 879 00:54:06,112 --> 00:54:08,114 Fuck. Get in there. 880 00:54:12,858 --> 00:54:13,946 [Yup'ik whimpers] 881 00:54:18,820 --> 00:54:19,647 [exhales] 882 00:54:21,301 --> 00:54:23,260 -[Matt] Come here, come. -[taps on floor] 883 00:54:28,917 --> 00:54:29,744 [door knocking] 884 00:54:30,789 --> 00:54:33,922 Surprise! Fred invited me for pizza. 885 00:54:34,836 --> 00:54:36,534 I thought, well, we thought we'd celebrate. 886 00:54:38,449 --> 00:54:42,322 I get that you're lonely, but I don't want this. 887 00:54:44,542 --> 00:54:46,195 What is it that you don't want, Matt? 888 00:54:46,892 --> 00:54:50,025 My friendship, a human connection, 889 00:54:50,199 --> 00:54:51,723 this card that I brought? 890 00:54:51,897 --> 00:54:54,334 -Let's be specific. -I don't want any of it. 891 00:54:56,031 --> 00:54:57,990 I'm going through shit right now. 892 00:54:59,513 --> 00:55:00,906 I don't have anybody. 893 00:55:01,733 --> 00:55:05,040 I just drove an hour here to celebrate with you. 894 00:55:05,867 --> 00:55:06,738 Get out. 895 00:55:10,742 --> 00:55:11,569 Get out. 896 00:55:14,876 --> 00:55:16,182 [Yup'ik whimpering] 897 00:55:16,356 --> 00:55:17,792 Matt, Matt, I think something's wrong. 898 00:55:17,966 --> 00:55:19,403 Get out. 899 00:55:19,577 --> 00:55:21,666 -Seriously. -[shouts] Seriously, get out! 900 00:55:23,145 --> 00:55:24,059 [sighs] 901 00:55:29,021 --> 00:55:31,110 [melancholic music] 902 00:55:34,722 --> 00:55:37,682 [breathing heavily] 903 00:55:40,032 --> 00:55:40,859 [loud thud] 904 00:55:52,131 --> 00:55:53,175 -[screaming] -[glass shattering] 905 00:55:53,350 --> 00:55:55,308 [wood crunching] 906 00:55:55,482 --> 00:55:56,788 [grunting] 907 00:56:01,793 --> 00:56:02,837 [melancholic music continues] 908 00:56:04,448 --> 00:56:05,666 [doorbell rings] 909 00:56:07,973 --> 00:56:09,148 [sniffles] Hey. 910 00:56:10,367 --> 00:56:11,368 [exhales] 911 00:56:14,545 --> 00:56:15,502 [exhaling sharply] 912 00:56:31,475 --> 00:56:34,521 [somber music] 913 00:56:37,350 --> 00:56:41,180 [Matt] When I was ten, a storm destroyed our deck. 914 00:56:41,963 --> 00:56:43,574 And my dad was excited. 915 00:56:44,879 --> 00:56:47,491 He couldn't wait to tear it out and rebuild the damn thing. 916 00:56:48,492 --> 00:56:50,363 He made me get up early for weeks to help him, 917 00:56:51,103 --> 00:56:52,757 he was even whistling while we worked. 918 00:56:53,322 --> 00:56:56,413 Man, I was so mad at him for being so cheerful 919 00:56:56,587 --> 00:56:58,327 about building the stupid deck. 920 00:56:59,546 --> 00:57:02,331 I hated every hammer swing and every nail 921 00:57:02,854 --> 00:57:04,725 and every board we replaced. 922 00:57:06,161 --> 00:57:10,035 We finished on a Sunday right before he got paged into work, 923 00:57:11,210 --> 00:57:12,907 and I was mad about that too, him leaving. 924 00:57:13,908 --> 00:57:16,215 And I hated that beeper noise. 925 00:57:18,565 --> 00:57:19,740 And that was the last time I saw him. 926 00:57:19,914 --> 00:57:23,091 [somber music] 927 00:57:52,643 --> 00:57:53,600 It's ruined. 928 00:57:54,688 --> 00:57:57,735 No, Matt, nothing's beyond repair. 929 00:58:23,674 --> 00:58:25,545 [breathes deeply] 930 00:58:34,511 --> 00:58:35,512 [exhales] 931 00:58:41,953 --> 00:58:46,044 Um, so, this is a peace offering. 932 00:58:48,046 --> 00:58:50,178 [Yup'ik whimpering] 933 00:58:50,352 --> 00:58:51,223 Here. 934 00:58:59,971 --> 00:59:02,060 [low dramatic music] 935 00:59:05,585 --> 00:59:07,718 [heart monitor beeping] 936 00:59:07,892 --> 00:59:09,328 -[Matt exhales] -[Yup'ik whimpers softly] 937 00:59:13,637 --> 00:59:16,683 -He's gonna be okay, right? -[vet 1] We're gonna do everything we can for him. 938 00:59:21,601 --> 00:59:23,124 [Yup'ik whimpering] 939 00:59:29,870 --> 00:59:31,306 [vet 2] Well, it's not the antifreeze. 940 00:59:33,004 --> 00:59:35,006 Wait what? So, so what's wrong with him? 941 00:59:35,180 --> 00:59:36,355 [vet 2] We're unsure at this time, 942 00:59:36,529 --> 00:59:38,009 but as soon as we can figure it out, 943 00:59:38,183 --> 00:59:38,923 we'll let you guys know. 944 00:59:39,097 --> 00:59:41,708 [electronic beeping] 945 00:59:46,583 --> 00:59:48,019 [Fred sniffles] You were right. 946 00:59:49,237 --> 00:59:50,369 You needed him. 947 00:59:52,197 --> 00:59:54,503 I'd give anything to have the fun you two do. 948 00:59:56,070 --> 00:59:59,030 [sniffles] He's my buddy, man, he's my buddy. 949 01:00:02,294 --> 01:00:03,730 [sighs heavily] 950 01:00:09,127 --> 01:00:10,650 Matt, I need to tell you something. 951 01:00:12,260 --> 01:00:15,699 I don't know, know if I can do another talk right now. 952 01:00:16,613 --> 01:00:18,484 [exhales] I need this. 953 01:00:20,399 --> 01:00:21,269 Okay. 954 01:00:23,837 --> 01:00:24,882 [sighs] 955 01:00:29,408 --> 01:00:31,889 [sobs softly] 956 01:00:37,372 --> 01:00:38,983 [exhales] Matt, I drank. 957 01:00:45,598 --> 01:00:47,339 That's why Rachael went to her sister's. 958 01:00:56,391 --> 01:00:58,437 Thank you for telling me. 959 01:01:01,483 --> 01:01:03,311 Matt, I don't wanna be your sponsor anymore. 960 01:01:04,008 --> 01:01:05,183 Oh. 961 01:01:07,359 --> 01:01:08,577 I just wanna be your friend. 962 01:01:11,972 --> 01:01:13,234 I, I could use both. 963 01:01:15,976 --> 01:01:18,587 It's gonna be a while, we need you to go home. 964 01:01:19,676 --> 01:01:21,765 [Matt] I, I would like to stay here. 965 01:01:21,939 --> 01:01:23,157 Go home and get some rest, 966 01:01:23,331 --> 01:01:24,768 we'll call you as soon as he's up. 967 01:01:28,902 --> 01:01:29,947 Let's go get some coffee. 968 01:01:31,905 --> 01:01:34,342 I, I can't believe this, but I want to go somewhere else. 969 01:01:37,476 --> 01:01:40,044 Uh, I'm Matt, and I'm an alcoholic. 970 01:01:40,218 --> 01:01:42,176 -[crowd] Hey, Matt. -Hey. 971 01:01:42,350 --> 01:01:46,746 About a month ago after, uh, a short bender, um... 972 01:01:50,794 --> 01:01:51,838 [exhales] 973 01:01:53,144 --> 01:01:55,799 ...I, uh, found out [clears throat] 974 01:01:55,973 --> 01:01:57,626 from a doctor that 975 01:01:57,801 --> 01:01:59,672 I was throwing up my stomach. 976 01:02:03,720 --> 01:02:05,939 And that if I didn't stop drinking, I would die. 977 01:02:07,636 --> 01:02:09,247 I went from the appointment to the bar... 978 01:02:10,117 --> 01:02:11,379 [scoffs] 979 01:02:11,553 --> 01:02:13,642 ...uh, ready to drink the place dry. 980 01:02:14,339 --> 01:02:17,603 A couple of drinks in, I opened up a letter that... 981 01:02:19,561 --> 01:02:22,608 ...I had received that day, and I found out that my mom... 982 01:02:23,740 --> 01:02:25,002 ...was going into hospice. 983 01:02:26,525 --> 01:02:28,788 She'd refused to see me until I was 30 days sober, 984 01:02:28,962 --> 01:02:31,008 um, it'd been 15 years. 985 01:02:31,660 --> 01:02:37,710 So, I, uh, really smartly, um, decided to punch a bartender... 986 01:02:39,538 --> 01:02:42,367 ...so I could get thrown into jail, um, 'cause I know that, 987 01:02:43,150 --> 01:02:47,459 knew that that's the only chance I had [clears throat]... 988 01:02:48,721 --> 01:02:51,332 ... to get sober. That was my sobriety plan. 989 01:02:53,160 --> 01:02:54,640 After my, uh, after my dad had died, 990 01:02:54,814 --> 01:02:57,164 I had a teacher who encouraged me to write poetry 991 01:02:57,817 --> 01:02:59,297 as a way to process my feelings. 992 01:02:59,471 --> 01:03:01,473 So I'm gonna read something I wrote. 993 01:03:01,647 --> 01:03:04,955 Um, [sniffles] I'm not really good at this kind of thing. 994 01:03:05,129 --> 01:03:07,696 Um, it's called Broken Soul. 995 01:03:07,871 --> 01:03:09,611 [somber music] 996 01:03:09,786 --> 01:03:12,701 "My whole life, unable to rest, 997 01:03:13,311 --> 01:03:15,530 in pursuit of some unavowed dream, 998 01:03:16,227 --> 01:03:20,492 masked in this insane compulsive desire to self-bleed. 999 01:03:20,666 --> 01:03:25,366 Multiple vices brought my way, but not the kind that takes one's breath away, 1000 01:03:25,540 --> 01:03:28,282 but the kind that tears one's self away." [sniffles] 1001 01:03:28,456 --> 01:03:32,417 "My dad died and left me with no life coming through my eyes 1002 01:03:32,591 --> 01:03:33,940 and my mom's gone now too. 1003 01:03:37,814 --> 01:03:40,729 In those moments when I realize this, 1004 01:03:40,904 --> 01:03:45,778 my mind goes one way, but then my body refuses to own it, 1005 01:03:45,952 --> 01:03:51,523 and my insides are rupturing on the brink about to explode." 1006 01:03:51,697 --> 01:03:54,831 [sniffles] "But it's not what you think. It's pain and it's old. 1007 01:03:55,005 --> 01:03:57,964 A broken heart in a broken soul, 1008 01:03:59,618 --> 01:04:01,402 trying to escape." [sniffles] 1009 01:04:02,360 --> 01:04:05,145 "But my mind's a square peg and my body's a round hole. 1010 01:04:06,103 --> 01:04:09,062 If I had a broken bone or something visible, 1011 01:04:09,236 --> 01:04:11,369 I think people would be less critical. 1012 01:04:14,807 --> 01:04:19,159 But you have a broken spirit and the support, it's minimal. 1013 01:04:21,379 --> 01:04:23,598 And now I see the illusion, 1014 01:04:24,164 --> 01:04:27,994 an unexpected sunrise unraveled the confusion. 1015 01:04:29,256 --> 01:04:32,303 Wholeness happens in a flash 1016 01:04:32,869 --> 01:04:35,306 and it's not extraordinary because it lasts. 1017 01:04:35,915 --> 01:04:36,960 The beauty, 1018 01:04:37,699 --> 01:04:40,877 lives in that moment of accepting the past is the past." 1019 01:04:41,921 --> 01:04:44,054 [somber music] 1020 01:04:48,449 --> 01:04:51,278 [crowd] Thanks, Matt. Thanks, Matt. 1021 01:04:52,540 --> 01:04:53,454 [quietly] Thanks, Matt. 1022 01:04:57,981 --> 01:04:59,199 [breathing deeply] 1023 01:05:12,604 --> 01:05:15,737 [hopeful music] 1024 01:05:21,395 --> 01:05:24,094 [Matt quietly] Hey, how are you? 1025 01:05:31,536 --> 01:05:32,537 You're okay. 1026 01:05:35,627 --> 01:05:36,802 -[Yup'ik whimpers] -It's okay. 1027 01:05:38,282 --> 01:05:40,066 It's okay, it's okay, it's okay. 1028 01:05:40,675 --> 01:05:41,807 Yeah, it's okay. 1029 01:05:44,505 --> 01:05:49,858 Uh, ooh, it's okay, it's okay. Oh. 1030 01:05:50,772 --> 01:05:51,948 Oh, buddy. 1031 01:05:53,688 --> 01:05:56,822 All right, let's get the patient over here. 1032 01:05:57,344 --> 01:05:58,389 See what we're working with. 1033 01:05:58,563 --> 01:05:59,477 Come here. [tutting] 1034 01:05:59,651 --> 01:06:01,087 Yeah, that's it, come here. 1035 01:06:01,261 --> 01:06:03,785 Come here. You know me. Come here. Come on. 1036 01:06:03,960 --> 01:06:05,048 Hi. 1037 01:06:05,222 --> 01:06:06,527 -See what we got here. -Yeah. 1038 01:06:07,964 --> 01:06:12,490 Whoa, buddy, what kind of voodoo doctor put this together? 1039 01:06:12,664 --> 01:06:13,534 [Yup'ik whimpers softly] 1040 01:06:14,187 --> 01:06:16,015 I mean, it was the best I could do. 1041 01:06:16,189 --> 01:06:17,756 -You did this? -Yeah. 1042 01:06:17,930 --> 01:06:18,713 -Wow. -Yeah. 1043 01:06:18,887 --> 01:06:19,801 Okay. 1044 01:06:20,628 --> 01:06:23,718 Yeah, I'll show you what we got here. 1045 01:06:25,677 --> 01:06:27,809 -What is that? -It's the real deal, buddy. 1046 01:06:27,984 --> 01:06:31,639 -Yup'ik version of Neosporin and-- -Looks like pomade. 1047 01:06:31,813 --> 01:06:34,207 -Okay. -Yeah, it's the good stuff, man. 1048 01:06:34,991 --> 01:06:36,601 What exactly did the vet say? 1049 01:06:37,297 --> 01:06:44,043 Uh, he told me that, uh, he had gas get into his stomach and it flipped. 1050 01:06:45,175 --> 01:06:47,655 Yeah. That usually happens to big horses, 1051 01:06:47,829 --> 01:06:51,094 and... dogs about his size 1052 01:06:51,268 --> 01:06:53,748 and... pull dogs. 1053 01:06:55,533 --> 01:06:58,101 But, listen here, let's get you over here 1054 01:06:58,275 --> 01:07:00,059 'cause you need to learn how to do this. 1055 01:07:00,233 --> 01:07:02,583 [peaceful music] 1056 01:07:27,304 --> 01:07:28,218 Call him. 1057 01:07:28,957 --> 01:07:30,350 And you're sure this is okay? 1058 01:07:30,524 --> 01:07:33,527 Yes, he will let you know what he needs 1059 01:07:33,701 --> 01:07:35,094 and what he doesn't need. 1060 01:07:35,790 --> 01:07:40,447 Unlike you, he's not conditioned to hide the way he truly feels. 1061 01:07:45,844 --> 01:07:46,671 [quietly] Okay. 1062 01:07:48,020 --> 01:07:49,761 -Yup'ik come. -Argh. 1063 01:07:50,588 --> 01:07:52,155 I need you to be here. 1064 01:07:53,591 --> 01:07:55,549 Here. Look around you. 1065 01:07:55,723 --> 01:07:57,638 I need you to be here with the mountains, 1066 01:07:58,552 --> 01:07:59,988 be here with the snow. 1067 01:08:02,034 --> 01:08:05,255 The relationship between human being and dog is ancient. 1068 01:08:05,733 --> 01:08:08,780 The pathway is there, he's just waiting for you to use it. 1069 01:08:26,406 --> 01:08:27,233 Yup'ik come. 1070 01:08:30,106 --> 01:08:31,193 [sighs] 1071 01:08:31,716 --> 01:08:32,978 -Here, take this. -All right. 1072 01:08:33,805 --> 01:08:35,807 Ah, see what you just did? 1073 01:08:35,981 --> 01:08:38,505 -Oh. -That is reflex. 1074 01:08:39,157 --> 01:08:41,117 I need you to be here. 1075 01:08:41,291 --> 01:08:43,335 Be here in this moment with this. 1076 01:08:43,510 --> 01:08:47,818 Now, I'm gonna do it again at the same tension, but just go with it. 1077 01:08:47,993 --> 01:08:49,429 -Stop staring at the leash, look at me. -[chuckles softly] 1078 01:08:50,430 --> 01:08:52,737 Just go with it, be here. 1079 01:08:56,262 --> 01:08:57,175 Very good. 1080 01:08:58,090 --> 01:08:59,874 It needs to be from here. 1081 01:09:01,049 --> 01:09:03,617 Everything you do needs to be from here. 1082 01:09:04,139 --> 01:09:06,054 This is what your life is missing. 1083 01:09:08,144 --> 01:09:09,014 Try it again. 1084 01:09:21,983 --> 01:09:24,246 [peaceful music] 1085 01:09:33,169 --> 01:09:34,126 Yup'ik, come. 1086 01:09:36,563 --> 01:09:39,697 Good boy, hi, hi. Good boy. 1087 01:09:39,871 --> 01:09:41,438 Okay. That's so good. 1088 01:09:45,354 --> 01:09:46,573 Hey... [tutting] 1089 01:09:46,746 --> 01:09:49,315 ...come here. Come here. Slow, 1090 01:09:49,488 --> 01:09:50,837 gentle, gentle, gentle. 1091 01:09:51,012 --> 01:09:52,231 You knucklehead. 1092 01:09:52,405 --> 01:09:54,929 All right. Yeah, okay. Sit. 1093 01:09:55,974 --> 01:09:57,715 Good, good. Okay. 1094 01:09:58,541 --> 01:10:01,893 Okay, good. Yeah. Just watch yourself. 1095 01:10:02,589 --> 01:10:04,068 Okay, and what about this? 1096 01:10:04,243 --> 01:10:06,114 [peaceful music continues] 1097 01:10:10,510 --> 01:10:12,730 [peaceful music continues] 1098 01:11:23,714 --> 01:11:26,760 [peaceful music continues] 1099 01:11:50,915 --> 01:11:52,916 [Matt grunting] 1100 01:12:12,850 --> 01:12:14,330 I'll need your signature. 1101 01:12:17,157 --> 01:12:17,985 [Matt] Hey. 1102 01:12:24,383 --> 01:12:27,647 Hey, Yup'ik, I brought you something. 1103 01:12:29,083 --> 01:12:30,302 -Can I give him a treat? -[Matt] Yeah. 1104 01:12:37,309 --> 01:12:40,138 I heard about your mom, I'm sorry. 1105 01:12:40,791 --> 01:12:45,448 Yeah, that was rough, um, thank you, thank you. 1106 01:12:47,058 --> 01:12:49,669 Uh, I'm, uh, sorry. 1107 01:12:50,322 --> 01:12:51,410 Um... 1108 01:12:53,107 --> 01:12:56,327 I was hurting a lot and I was so focused on me 1109 01:12:56,894 --> 01:13:01,202 and I, I don't know, I, I didn't listen to you... about the food. 1110 01:13:01,768 --> 01:13:03,379 I didn't listen to you about him. 1111 01:13:05,076 --> 01:13:06,251 That night, he got sick. 1112 01:13:06,773 --> 01:13:10,864 I just didn't listen and... I didn't care. 1113 01:13:12,431 --> 01:13:13,432 And I went after you. 1114 01:13:21,005 --> 01:13:22,920 You know, we're all just trying. 1115 01:13:26,053 --> 01:13:26,924 Yeah. 1116 01:13:27,707 --> 01:13:28,534 Look... 1117 01:13:30,101 --> 01:13:31,710 ...I'm sorry that I pushed. 1118 01:13:31,885 --> 01:13:34,061 I've never been great at boundaries. 1119 01:13:36,716 --> 01:13:41,591 I, I don't want boundaries. I, I, I know boundaries are good for us, but... 1120 01:13:44,202 --> 01:13:47,205 ...the truth is I don't know what's good for me. 1121 01:13:48,598 --> 01:13:49,686 But I think you are. 1122 01:13:50,904 --> 01:13:55,169 And I actually got this for... you. 1123 01:13:56,996 --> 01:13:58,564 For me? Mm. 1124 01:14:00,305 --> 01:14:03,743 So, you didn't reply to my text messages, which is fine, uh, 1125 01:14:03,916 --> 01:14:05,919 like I understand. Um, 1126 01:14:06,572 --> 01:14:08,356 I needed a way to apologize in person 1127 01:14:08,531 --> 01:14:11,577 and so this was my, my plan. 1128 01:14:12,317 --> 01:14:13,927 [chuckles softly] 1129 01:14:14,101 --> 01:14:16,626 I thought it might inspire you in some way. 1130 01:14:17,452 --> 01:14:20,325 [peaceful music] 1131 01:14:25,373 --> 01:14:26,505 Can I give you a hug? 1132 01:14:27,375 --> 01:14:28,246 Definitely. 1133 01:14:35,993 --> 01:14:36,820 [Julie] Mm. 1134 01:14:39,039 --> 01:14:40,476 I'm going home for a bit. 1135 01:14:42,303 --> 01:14:45,002 -Because you have a ushankanow? -[laughs] 1136 01:14:45,698 --> 01:14:48,222 No, I miss the dogs. 1137 01:14:49,833 --> 01:14:51,617 -[chuckles] -But they'll love my new look. 1138 01:14:51,791 --> 01:14:53,010 [both laugh] 1139 01:15:04,891 --> 01:15:05,762 Uh, Julie? 1140 01:15:07,111 --> 01:15:07,981 Yeah? 1141 01:15:08,547 --> 01:15:09,940 If, if... 1142 01:15:11,157 --> 01:15:13,465 ...if I come out sometime can we go dog sledding? 1143 01:15:15,946 --> 01:15:17,425 Yeah, I'd like that. 1144 01:15:18,949 --> 01:15:20,428 Me too, me too. 1145 01:15:22,561 --> 01:15:24,258 Yeah, yeah. 1146 01:15:41,537 --> 01:15:42,407 [soft knocking] 1147 01:15:48,934 --> 01:15:51,111 -What's this? -It's everything I borrowed. 1148 01:15:51,285 --> 01:15:54,071 My one year of community college included a finance class, 1149 01:15:54,245 --> 01:15:55,507 so interest is included. 1150 01:15:56,769 --> 01:15:59,555 -Are you gonna have enough to live off of? -We'll make it work. 1151 01:16:00,468 --> 01:16:01,818 You use this for the pull. 1152 01:16:01,992 --> 01:16:03,123 Matt, I don't need it right now. 1153 01:16:04,516 --> 01:16:06,605 -I'm not gonna have him pull. -Why? 1154 01:16:08,085 --> 01:16:09,608 He's healed, I saw him out there. 1155 01:16:10,653 --> 01:16:11,915 He is, but I'm not. 1156 01:16:12,437 --> 01:16:16,267 And I was reckless with him before. I was an idiot. 1157 01:16:18,094 --> 01:16:19,313 And I'm overwhelmed. 1158 01:16:23,317 --> 01:16:24,884 Uh, you know what they say? 1159 01:16:27,103 --> 01:16:29,410 One day at a time. 1160 01:16:29,585 --> 01:16:31,195 Music to my ears. 1161 01:16:32,370 --> 01:16:36,068 The Pull's the day after the memorial, um anyway, so. 1162 01:16:37,027 --> 01:16:38,681 You need support at the service? 1163 01:16:42,859 --> 01:16:43,686 We're okay. 1164 01:16:44,643 --> 01:16:45,688 [Yup'ik snorts] 1165 01:16:48,691 --> 01:16:54,348 My, uh, mom and I had a complicated relationship, 1166 01:16:59,440 --> 01:17:00,311 [grunts softly] 1167 01:17:01,704 --> 01:17:04,663 This was the last letter that she wrote me... 1168 01:17:06,143 --> 01:17:08,536 ...the day that she passed away. 1169 01:17:11,191 --> 01:17:12,018 "Dear Matt... 1170 01:17:14,064 --> 01:17:15,065 ...I want you to know 1171 01:17:15,718 --> 01:17:16,936 it is so hard 1172 01:17:17,719 --> 01:17:19,678 to say what I have to say to you now... 1173 01:17:22,289 --> 01:17:24,857 ...knowing this may be my last chance to do so. 1174 01:17:30,341 --> 01:17:33,257 I know it is hard for you to believe... 1175 01:17:39,959 --> 01:17:41,047 ...but I love you... 1176 01:17:43,353 --> 01:17:44,834 ...and have always loved you. 1177 01:17:49,752 --> 01:17:51,318 I remember when you were born..." 1178 01:17:53,886 --> 01:17:55,800 [sniffles] "...they brought you to me. 1179 01:17:57,934 --> 01:18:01,067 "I looked into your sparkling, weird little eyes 1180 01:18:01,851 --> 01:18:03,591 while I held you for the first time." 1181 01:18:11,773 --> 01:18:12,862 [exhales] 1182 01:18:14,037 --> 01:18:16,648 "They were over brimming with light and life. 1183 01:18:20,913 --> 01:18:24,960 I love that line by Leonard Cohen, where he says... 1184 01:18:30,270 --> 01:18:33,143 ...'Ring the bell that still can ring. 1185 01:18:36,362 --> 01:18:38,148 Forget your perfect offering. 1186 01:18:39,976 --> 01:18:41,107 There is a crack, 1187 01:18:42,543 --> 01:18:44,154 a crack in everything. 1188 01:18:47,766 --> 01:18:49,289 That's how the light gets in.' 1189 01:18:55,731 --> 01:18:59,386 You and your sister came to your father and me 1190 01:19:00,213 --> 01:19:03,739 miraculously to give us life. 1191 01:19:09,527 --> 01:19:13,487 And that will always remain somewhere where everything that matters happen." 1192 01:19:16,316 --> 01:19:17,143 [exhales] 1193 01:19:17,927 --> 01:19:18,754 "Love, Mom." 1194 01:19:21,017 --> 01:19:23,323 [paper crinkling] 1195 01:19:23,496 --> 01:19:24,455 [sniffles] 1196 01:19:25,804 --> 01:19:26,674 [sighs] 1197 01:19:29,547 --> 01:19:31,114 [door creaking] 1198 01:19:33,856 --> 01:19:34,726 [sighs] 1199 01:19:40,427 --> 01:19:41,472 [sighs] 1200 01:19:41,646 --> 01:19:43,213 I never wanna do that again. 1201 01:19:43,387 --> 01:19:44,344 [laughs] 1202 01:19:44,518 --> 01:19:46,433 Well, a tree could fall 1203 01:19:46,607 --> 01:19:48,130 or we could have an earthquake. 1204 01:19:48,784 --> 01:19:52,612 -And there's no final success, so you can forget that. -Dad. 1205 01:19:52,788 --> 01:19:53,614 [pager beeping] 1206 01:19:53,789 --> 01:19:56,400 Argh, I gotta go to work. 1207 01:19:57,793 --> 01:19:58,663 Here's the thing... 1208 01:20:01,187 --> 01:20:02,406 ...we don't leave things broken. 1209 01:20:05,800 --> 01:20:06,671 [sighs] 1210 01:20:06,844 --> 01:20:09,761 [peaceful music] 1211 01:20:23,644 --> 01:20:24,514 Matty. 1212 01:20:49,975 --> 01:20:52,848 [upbeat rock music] 1213 01:20:58,331 --> 01:21:00,898 [crowd cheering] 1214 01:21:17,263 --> 01:21:19,396 [announcer] Yes, ladies and gentlemen, 1215 01:21:19,570 --> 01:21:21,789 it's our first pull of the day and it's a great one. 1216 01:21:21,964 --> 01:21:25,315 Fifteen hundred pounds from our pit bull terrier, Sebastian, 1217 01:21:25,489 --> 01:21:27,012 let's add on another hundred pounds. 1218 01:21:31,234 --> 01:21:34,063 ♪ Dreams will eat away at your souls ♪ 1219 01:21:34,237 --> 01:21:37,544 ♪ Get off your feet to get on your knees ♪ 1220 01:21:37,718 --> 01:21:39,546 ♪ Crying for forgiveness ♪ 1221 01:21:39,719 --> 01:21:41,460 ♪ While you won't even see ♪ 1222 01:21:41,635 --> 01:21:43,333 ♪ But I'm optimistic ♪ 1223 01:21:45,901 --> 01:21:48,120 ♪ Well, I'm optimistic ♪ 1224 01:21:50,035 --> 01:21:51,994 ♪ Well, I'm optimistic ♪ 1225 01:21:52,168 --> 01:21:56,215 [announcer] Next up, we have Yup'ik, our very own chihuahua. 1226 01:21:57,825 --> 01:22:00,567 [somber music] 1227 01:22:13,929 --> 01:22:14,799 [lead clicking] 1228 01:22:29,074 --> 01:22:30,989 Ladies and gentlemen, here we go. 1229 01:22:31,163 --> 01:22:32,991 Let's see what this little guy can do. 1230 01:22:37,213 --> 01:22:39,519 Okay, all right. 1231 01:22:41,347 --> 01:22:42,174 Come. 1232 01:22:44,611 --> 01:22:45,612 Yup'ik, come. 1233 01:22:57,059 --> 01:22:59,887 [melancholic orchestral music] 1234 01:23:04,370 --> 01:23:05,284 [barks] 1235 01:23:07,156 --> 01:23:08,809 [crowd cheering] 1236 01:23:08,984 --> 01:23:10,986 Good, good, yeah, yeah, come, come. 1237 01:23:14,424 --> 01:23:17,209 [announcer] Mighty Mouse has done it, okay. 1238 01:23:17,383 --> 01:23:18,645 [upbeat rock music] 1239 01:23:18,818 --> 01:23:20,734 [Yup'ik barking] 1240 01:23:20,907 --> 01:23:23,911 [crowd cheering] 1241 01:23:43,888 --> 01:23:46,543 [crowd cheering] 1242 01:23:48,545 --> 01:23:49,502 [muted voice] 1243 01:23:50,416 --> 01:23:54,725 ♪ Long gone, wild and free ♪ 1244 01:23:54,898 --> 01:23:59,730 ♪ Let's be the ones who open our own eyes to see ♪ 1245 01:23:59,904 --> 01:24:04,561 ♪ Finally, we need to save ourselves, yeah ♪ 1246 01:24:04,735 --> 01:24:06,998 [horn blaring] 1247 01:24:08,565 --> 01:24:10,697 ♪ I'm optimistic ♪ 1248 01:24:12,568 --> 01:24:15,224 ♪ I'm optimistic, yeah ♪ 1249 01:24:15,789 --> 01:24:17,530 ♪ Well, I'm optimistic ♪ 1250 01:24:17,704 --> 01:24:21,621 ♪ Yes I am, yes we can ♪ 1251 01:24:21,795 --> 01:24:24,537 [crowd cheering] 1252 01:24:24,710 --> 01:24:26,539 [horn blaring] 1253 01:24:26,713 --> 01:24:29,325 [crowd cheering, applauding] 1254 01:24:32,327 --> 01:24:33,981 [horn blaring] 1255 01:24:34,156 --> 01:24:37,202 And it looks like our trio is down to two. 1256 01:24:37,376 --> 01:24:39,900 Up next, we have the Alaskan Assassin, 1257 01:24:40,075 --> 01:24:42,032 the Mighty, Mighty Mouse coming up. 1258 01:24:43,252 --> 01:24:46,255 If he pulls this off, he will be the first dog 1259 01:24:46,429 --> 01:24:50,607 under 50 pounds in our history to pull off 2,500 pounds. 1260 01:24:50,781 --> 01:24:53,784 [energetic music] 1261 01:24:55,481 --> 01:24:58,093 [crowd cheering] 1262 01:25:07,189 --> 01:25:09,321 [whimsical music] 1263 01:25:11,628 --> 01:25:14,109 [crowd cheering] 1264 01:25:14,282 --> 01:25:17,112 [barking] 1265 01:25:18,635 --> 01:25:21,116 [whimpering softly] 1266 01:25:22,334 --> 01:25:28,079 [crowd chanting] Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik. 1267 01:25:28,253 --> 01:25:30,647 Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, 1268 01:25:30,821 --> 01:25:34,781 Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik. 1269 01:25:34,955 --> 01:25:36,696 -Come on. -[crowd] Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik. 1270 01:25:38,175 --> 01:25:41,266 [crowd cheering] 1271 01:25:44,139 --> 01:25:49,013 [announcer] Okay, we have Sampson up, attempting a monstrous 2,600 pounds. 1272 01:25:49,187 --> 01:25:50,710 If he succeeds, 1273 01:25:51,320 --> 01:25:53,409 this will be the most weight pulled by a dog 1274 01:25:53,583 --> 01:25:55,715 in a competition in the last two years. 1275 01:25:56,193 --> 01:25:59,719 He is attempting to pull a walrus across the ice, folks. 1276 01:26:04,246 --> 01:26:06,726 [crowd cheering] 1277 01:26:07,249 --> 01:26:09,773 [Sampson's owner] Come on Sampson, good boy, good boy. 1278 01:26:11,644 --> 01:26:13,385 [whimpers softly] 1279 01:26:13,559 --> 01:26:15,735 [Sampson's owner] Come on, good boy. Come on, good boy. 1280 01:26:15,909 --> 01:26:17,433 Good boy. Come on, Sampson. 1281 01:26:17,911 --> 01:26:19,174 [horn blaring] 1282 01:26:20,218 --> 01:26:21,219 [announcer] I don't believe it folks. 1283 01:26:22,089 --> 01:26:24,353 If Toothpick can pull 2,600 pounds, 1284 01:26:24,527 --> 01:26:28,094 he will be our new champion and record holder for the year. 1285 01:26:29,009 --> 01:26:30,532 [inspirational music] 1286 01:27:03,218 --> 01:27:06,612 [inspirational music continues] 1287 01:27:53,050 --> 01:27:55,094 [muted voices] 1288 01:27:58,577 --> 01:27:59,709 [muted voice] 1289 01:28:11,503 --> 01:28:13,853 Yeah. Yeah. 1290 01:28:14,027 --> 01:28:15,072 [Fred] Yeah, baby! 1291 01:28:15,986 --> 01:28:17,074 Ahh! 1292 01:28:17,248 --> 01:28:19,032 -Oh. -Thank you. 1293 01:28:19,684 --> 01:28:21,077 -I'm proud of you guys. -Thanks, man. 1294 01:28:21,252 --> 01:28:25,038 Woo-hoo, and you, Yup'ik, you did so good. 1295 01:28:25,517 --> 01:28:27,954 -You did so good. -He's a little diva now. 1296 01:28:28,128 --> 01:28:31,218 So, you gotta be, you gotta show respect. You know, when you see him. 1297 01:28:31,393 --> 01:28:34,352 -I didn't have a chicken to lick for him, but-- -Yeah, funny. [laughs] 1298 01:28:34,526 --> 01:28:35,875 I'll see you guys back at the ranch? 1299 01:28:36,049 --> 01:28:37,312 Yeah, yeah, we-- 1300 01:28:39,443 --> 01:28:40,315 It's a farm. 1301 01:28:41,794 --> 01:28:45,058 -It's not a farm bro. -You have chickens, man. What the fuck? 1302 01:28:46,625 --> 01:28:47,670 [exhales] 1303 01:28:52,501 --> 01:28:54,807 -So, how does it feel? -[chuckles] 1304 01:28:56,766 --> 01:28:59,421 Uh, pretty hard to describe. [chuckles] 1305 01:29:04,991 --> 01:29:06,341 You know, Yup'ik... 1306 01:29:07,559 --> 01:29:11,128 ...means "Real person, one who comes into themselves." 1307 01:29:15,001 --> 01:29:18,396 Well, he, uh... he did that today. 1308 01:29:20,050 --> 01:29:20,877 So did you. 1309 01:29:28,580 --> 01:29:32,802 Julie, uh, told me to ask you about Nugget a while ago. 1310 01:29:32,976 --> 01:29:34,193 Oh, she did, huh? 1311 01:29:36,196 --> 01:29:39,678 Well... Emmett Peters, 1312 01:29:40,592 --> 01:29:42,812 his lead dog in the second Iditarod, 1313 01:29:43,334 --> 01:29:45,467 was a Siberian named Nugget. 1314 01:29:47,294 --> 01:29:50,602 She was 12 years old, pregnant, had cancer. 1315 01:29:50,776 --> 01:29:53,431 They broke the Iditarod record by six days. 1316 01:29:54,258 --> 01:29:57,174 She was the greatest sled dog ever. 1317 01:29:58,567 --> 01:30:01,047 And Emmett, that was my grandfather. 1318 01:30:02,179 --> 01:30:05,574 Well, Sampson, that dog you just beat, 1319 01:30:05,748 --> 01:30:10,187 he's Nugget's great, great, great grandson. 1320 01:30:11,841 --> 01:30:13,451 That's pretty epic, my friend. 1321 01:30:20,371 --> 01:30:21,241 Come on. 1322 01:30:22,634 --> 01:30:23,460 Come on. 1323 01:30:24,462 --> 01:30:25,332 Let's go. 1324 01:30:34,907 --> 01:30:35,734 [chuckles softly] 1325 01:30:39,651 --> 01:30:40,522 [Rick] Matt, 1326 01:30:41,044 --> 01:30:42,262 I wanted to catch you 1327 01:30:42,437 --> 01:30:44,221 to say congratulations, in person. 1328 01:30:44,830 --> 01:30:46,092 -Yeah. -I'm sorry for what? 1329 01:30:46,266 --> 01:30:47,616 -[scoffs] -[chuckles] 1330 01:30:47,790 --> 01:30:49,531 I, I need to tell you that, 1331 01:30:49,705 --> 01:30:51,532 that you were right about me. 1332 01:30:51,707 --> 01:30:52,969 -Stop. -No, you were. 1333 01:30:53,143 --> 01:30:54,666 We've all been through hard times. 1334 01:30:54,840 --> 01:30:56,712 We've all needed a break, man. 1335 01:30:57,234 --> 01:30:59,802 Yeah, and I also thought you should know 1336 01:30:59,976 --> 01:31:01,412 since you gave me so much shit 1337 01:31:01,585 --> 01:31:03,196 for my love of the metaphysical. 1338 01:31:03,370 --> 01:31:05,329 -It's weird, man. -Hey, hey. [chuckles] 1339 01:31:05,503 --> 01:31:07,505 I, I just wanted your ungrateful ass to know 1340 01:31:07,679 --> 01:31:09,202 that according to the Chinese Zodiac, 1341 01:31:09,376 --> 01:31:10,813 this is the year of the dog. 1342 01:31:12,597 --> 01:31:15,295 Wait, what? Wait are you serious? 1343 01:31:23,173 --> 01:31:26,959 [Matt] If there is a cure for addiction, 1344 01:31:27,743 --> 01:31:32,617 it is someone you care for saying, "You're not alone... 1345 01:31:34,532 --> 01:31:35,532 ...I love you." 1346 01:31:38,231 --> 01:31:42,192 The opposite of addiction is not sobriety. 1347 01:31:43,498 --> 01:31:45,282 The opposite of addiction, 1348 01:31:45,456 --> 01:31:47,240 and maybe any suffering, 1349 01:31:47,937 --> 01:31:48,938 is connection... 1350 01:31:51,549 --> 01:31:52,507 ...to yourself... 1351 01:31:54,509 --> 01:31:55,510 ...to a passion... 1352 01:31:57,860 --> 01:31:58,773 ...to a partner... 1353 01:32:01,341 --> 01:32:02,778 ...or to a scrawny dog 1354 01:32:03,996 --> 01:32:05,258 with a sacred name. 1355 01:32:05,432 --> 01:32:07,870 ["Real Peach" by Henry Jamison] 1356 01:32:13,440 --> 01:32:16,531 ♪ Well, nighttime passes ♪ 1357 01:32:17,009 --> 01:32:18,924 ♪ But the dark remains ♪ 1358 01:32:20,056 --> 01:32:22,710 ♪ And I was feelin' like a little child ♪ 1359 01:32:23,276 --> 01:32:25,540 ♪ But I am loathe to place blame ♪ 1360 01:32:25,714 --> 01:32:29,021 ♪ On that lioness-esque woman ♪ 1361 01:32:29,718 --> 01:32:31,981 ♪ Who will go here unnamed ♪ 1362 01:32:32,764 --> 01:32:35,288 ♪ She was looking in me for a lion ♪ 1363 01:32:35,985 --> 01:32:40,032 ♪ When she found it so tame Oh, oh ♪ 1364 01:32:45,124 --> 01:32:47,866 ♪ On that erstwhile May morning ♪ 1365 01:32:48,519 --> 01:32:51,130 ♪ I took the six downtown to Spring ♪ 1366 01:32:51,653 --> 01:32:54,351 ♪ And I was writing something elegiac ♪ 1367 01:32:54,916 --> 01:32:57,484 ♪ That I never learned to sing ♪ 1368 01:32:57,659 --> 01:33:00,662 ♪ But I think it was this song ♪ 1369 01:33:01,227 --> 01:33:04,100 ♪ Just four years premature ♪ 1370 01:33:04,273 --> 01:33:06,842 ♪ And I remember crossing out the line ♪ 1371 01:33:07,755 --> 01:33:10,148 ♪ All is fair in love and war ♪ 1372 01:33:10,323 --> 01:33:12,412 ♪ Well, if all is fair ♪ 1373 01:33:13,849 --> 01:33:15,502 ♪ In love and war ♪ 1374 01:33:17,330 --> 01:33:22,422 ♪ Then I don't know what we are fighting for ♪ 1375 01:33:22,597 --> 01:33:25,991 ♪ 'Cause my baby she's a real peach ♪ 1376 01:33:26,165 --> 01:33:29,691 ♪ Even when the night come crashin' down ♪ 1377 01:33:30,474 --> 01:33:32,084 ♪ Real peach ♪ 1378 01:33:32,868 --> 01:33:38,351 ♪ And the nighttime rolls away all right ♪ 1379 01:33:39,135 --> 01:33:43,008 ♪ And we're comin' back to the demon-killing work of love ♪ 1380 01:33:43,182 --> 01:33:44,662 ♪ My God ♪ 1381 01:33:48,231 --> 01:33:51,582 ♪ Well, nighttime passes ♪ 1382 01:33:51,755 --> 01:33:53,584 ♪ And the dark retreats ♪ 1383 01:33:54,716 --> 01:33:57,632 ♪ I hand it over to my upper angel ♪ 1384 01:33:58,110 --> 01:34:00,156 ♪ Who visits me in sleep ♪ 1385 01:34:00,678 --> 01:34:04,246 ♪ We're in the field beyond the right and wrong ♪ 1386 01:34:04,421 --> 01:34:06,510 ♪ And the fallacy of form ♪ 1387 01:34:07,380 --> 01:34:10,166 ♪ Well, you can call it what you wanna call it ♪ 1388 01:34:10,340 --> 01:34:13,299 ♪ I just say that all is fair in love and war ♪ 1389 01:34:13,473 --> 01:34:15,737 ♪ Well, if all is fair ♪ 1390 01:34:16,999 --> 01:34:18,696 ♪ In love and war ♪ 1391 01:34:20,437 --> 01:34:25,877 ♪ Then I don't know what we are fighting for ♪ 1392 01:34:26,050 --> 01:34:31,317 ♪ So, if we don't care to fight no more ♪ 1393 01:34:32,841 --> 01:34:37,672 ♪ Let's go upstairs and let's shut the door ♪ 1394 01:34:38,368 --> 01:34:41,719 ♪ 'Cause my baby she's a real peach ♪ 1395 01:34:41,893 --> 01:34:45,375 ♪ Even when the night come crashing down ♪ 1396 01:34:46,245 --> 01:34:47,986 ♪ Real peach ♪ 1397 01:34:48,639 --> 01:34:54,036 ♪ And the nighttime rolls away all right ♪ 1398 01:34:54,210 --> 01:34:57,474 ♪ 'Cause my baby she's a real peach ♪ 1399 01:34:57,648 --> 01:35:01,304 ♪ Even when the night come crashing down ♪ 1400 01:35:02,000 --> 01:35:03,567 ♪ Real peach ♪ 1401 01:35:04,437 --> 01:35:10,008 ♪ And the nighttime rolls away all right ♪ 1402 01:35:10,835 --> 01:35:14,491 ♪ And we're comin' back to the demon-killing work of love ♪ 1403 01:35:14,665 --> 01:35:16,710 ♪ My God ♪ 1404 01:35:16,885 --> 01:35:18,407 ♪ Illuminate ♪ 1405 01:35:32,683 --> 01:35:37,732 ♪ And if all is fair in love and war ♪ 1406 01:35:39,516 --> 01:35:41,431 ♪ Then I don't know... ♪ 1407 01:36:01,364 --> 01:36:04,410 [man] Good, this is all in the realm of fun and games. 1408 01:36:04,584 --> 01:36:06,282 [woman] Sorry, guys, this is my first time hazing. 1409 01:36:06,456 --> 01:36:07,805 [all laugh] 1410 01:36:08,501 --> 01:36:09,285 [man] You did good. 1411 01:36:09,459 --> 01:36:11,156 One drunk away from, uh, 1412 01:36:12,462 --> 01:36:13,724 -losing that-- -One, one drink, 1413 01:36:13,898 --> 01:36:14,898 -one drink away from a drunk. -What? 1414 01:36:15,073 --> 01:36:17,335 -One-- -One drink [laughs] 1415 01:36:17,510 --> 01:36:18,816 -One drink away from a drunk. -[burps] 1416 01:36:18,990 --> 01:36:20,513 Oh, excuse me, sorry. 1417 01:36:20,687 --> 01:36:22,080 [man] Uh, why don't you have a drink with us? 1418 01:36:22,254 --> 01:36:23,995 -I'll just... -No, no, come have a drink. 1419 01:36:24,603 --> 01:36:27,956 -That's really a good-looking dog, like is, is-- yeah. -Yeah, he's so cute. 1420 01:36:28,130 --> 01:36:29,958 -Mm. -Mm. 1421 01:36:30,132 --> 01:36:32,003 -What, wha-- what's his name? Oh, my God. -Oh, my God. 1422 01:36:32,177 --> 01:36:34,092 -That's a cute dog. My God. -[chuckles] 1423 01:36:34,266 --> 01:36:35,615 -[Matt] It's Yup'ik. -Yup'ik? 1424 01:36:37,008 --> 01:36:38,749 -[Matt] Yeah. -Like toothpick? 1425 01:36:41,317 --> 01:36:44,233 -You pick that yourself? -[all laughing] 1426 01:36:44,407 --> 01:36:47,627 -That's okay, sit. -[director] Then, he walks off. 1427 01:36:47,802 --> 01:36:49,804 -Okay, look now. -You're so good. 1428 01:36:49,978 --> 01:36:52,327 [Fred] I'll take the plates and, and if you would like, 1429 01:36:52,502 --> 01:36:55,548 -I'll, I'll wrap them up here and, and, we'll-- -I'll help you clear. 1430 01:36:57,289 --> 01:36:59,117 Um, at this time I'd like to... 1431 01:37:00,335 --> 01:37:03,382 ...offer the podium to anyone who'd like to come share? 1432 01:37:04,427 --> 01:37:05,907 -[crew] Yeah, lay down in the grass. -That's so good. 1433 01:37:06,081 --> 01:37:09,214 That's so good, you're so good. You're so good. 1434 01:37:09,388 --> 01:37:11,782 Yeah, yeah. I know.