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One out of every three women is subjected to
physical and/or sexual violence from the age of 15.

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THE DEFENDANT AYLİN IŞIK,
born 1991.

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Widowed, with one kid,
literate, no prior criminal record,

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a housewife and claims to
have no assets. Turkish citizen.

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CRIME
Voluntary Manslaughter of Her Spouse

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THE BREAK UP BULLET!

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The fight over divorce turns into violence!

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Husband shot with a rifle!

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WOMAN CHARGED FOR
KILLING HER HUSBAND WITH A RIFLE!

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THE VERDICT

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She had been subjected to violence...

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SENTENCED TO 15 YEARS IN PRISON…

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THE DEFENDANT HAVVA ZOR,
born 1982.

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Widowed, with 2 kids, literate, has no
prior record, has no job. Turkish citizen.

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CRIME
Voluntary Manslaughter of Her Spouse

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Havva Zor (35) was taken
into custody after having

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claimed to kill her husband
and cut his body into pieces.

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MONSTROUS WOMAN ARRESTED

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Havva Zor, the woman who killed her
husband and cut his body into 4 pieces and

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buried him, after claiming that
he sexually abused her daughter...

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THE VERDICT

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SENTENCED TO 15 YEARS IN PRISON…

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Witch Trilogy 15+
Letters From Prison

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HAVVA:: I use a few words but you
can understand a lot from them.

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AYLİN:: Songs and folk songs are the
biggest dreams of my childhood.

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The first time I ever sang
with a real microphone was when I was 17.

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It was like I was walking on air.

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Back then there were
singing competitions on TV.

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I wanted to audition for
Popstar but I wasn’t of age.

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I had a nice voice.
I was very confident about that.

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They told me “You can join the try outs if you
can get a signed permit from your parents.”

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I was very excited and told my mom about this.
She said “No” without even listening to me.

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We’d be disgraced she said.
“It’s shameful.”

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What would people think she said.
And on and on…

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She said everything but
“You can do it my daughter!”.

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So I was never self confident again.

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My mom prefered to watch
the news that said

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“The murderer Aylin Işık
used to live in this house.”

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rather than see me singing folk songs
in dresses with floral prints.

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What am I gonna tell my son Dağlar?

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HAVVA: Wait!

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How much wood would a wood... chuck wood chuck
if a wood… chuck chuck… could chuck wood?

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I can’t say it.

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How much wood would a wood... chuck wood chuck
if a wood… chuck Chuck... could chuck wood?

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I can’t say it.

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How much wood would a wood... chuck wood chuck
if a wood… chuck chuck… could chuck wood?

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I CAN’T SAY IT!

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How much wood would a wood... chuck wood chuck
if a wood… chuck Chuck... could chuck wood?

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No! I can’t say it.

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There wasn’t anyone who would
read me fairy tales as a kid.

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I don’t know how that feels.

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My poor mom, between
taking care of five kids and

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being both the man and
the woman of the house,

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she never had time to read us fairy tales.
My poor mom…

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We’re not on the best terms…
but she also had a difficult life.

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She got married when she was 13.
She gave birth to me when she was 15.

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I’m the oldest.

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My dad left us.
Married someone else.

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Neither my childhood nor my present
is like any kind of fairy tale.

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My life isn’t as happy
as it is in fairy tales.

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Mine is more like a tragedy.

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AYLİN:
My mom didn’t know any fairy tales.

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She was illiterate.

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That’s why we didn’t have any books
in the house besides school books.

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I wasn’t able to read at home but I read countless
stories and fairy tales to my son in prison.

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I usually made up fairy tales.

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I would start with “There used to be a mom and
her son who lived in a beautiful village…”

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I’d basically tell him my dreams.

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Dağlar would sometimes understand that I was making
these stories up but he’d put a good face on.

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My family used to live in Diyarbakır.

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The whole family moved to different cities
because of a blood feud.

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As luck may have it,
we got Istanbul.

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Wish we didn’t come!

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Cengiz Topel Neighborhood is
where I’ve learnt about life.

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That was the first place I’ve learnt about
poverty, pain, violence and swear words.

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My dad was an irresponsible and
a brutal man. We all feared him.

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He never had a regular work life.

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It’s impossible to forget the struggle my mom
went through to take care of us, on her own.

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When my brother was born I realized that poverty would
force you to do anything, even if you didn’t want to.

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We stole a bottle of milk and
two loaves of bread, we had to.

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If my brother didn’t get that milk he’d starve,
if we didn’t get that bread, we would.

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I’d go to bakeries with my older brother
and sister to get stale bread.

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When the market was set, we’d go in the
evening. We’d collect the unharmed fruits and

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vegetables that dropped on the floor
and get happy like we’ve just found gold.

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The vendors would kick us, since us crawling
on the floor would make them hobble.

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But we’d still laugh and
run away from there immediately.

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Whenever I see a market place
I remember us from back then…

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I wish we always stayed that way, me and
my brothers and sisters, and never grew up.

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There was a little boy in our neighborhood
when we were kids.

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We’d go to school together.

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He’d follow me.
Wanted to talk.

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I’d always threaten him using my brother, saying “If
I tell on you to my brother you’d get a beating!”.

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He would persist and say “Do it!”.
He’d follow me again.

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He’d write notes and send it to me through
friends, saying “Will you go out with me?”.

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He’d ask the girls about the things I like.

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My friends and anyone who knew me,
knew that my favourite color was blue.

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One day he gave me a pink rose
that he spray painted blue.

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We were little kids,
we had no idea about love or anything.

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But it made me really happy.

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After that, whenever I saw him I
started to blush. I was embarassed.

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If these feelings were what love was,
Ali was my first love.

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I finally accepted to go out with him.
We used to walk back home from school.

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He’d come up to my street a couple of hours
later. I’d look out to window to see him.

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Is love the feeling you get when you’re gonna
get caught by the people in the house?

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I don’t know…
It’s something else!

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One day, on my way to school I
waited for him around the corner.

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He didn’t come.

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When I went to school, I heard from my friends
and teachers that Ali drowned at the dam.

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He was my first loss in life.

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HAVVA: When I was a kid my favourite
place was the garden at our house.

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That place for me, was heaven.

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I miss that garden a lot.
I spent my childhood there.

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I can never forget the games we played with
my brothers when I came back from school.

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Water fights with my brother Emre…

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Playing with my brother Yunus’ pigeons…

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I miss taking his pigeons out to fly
while he was at work.

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Whenever we played with flying wheels
with my brother Sakıp, he would always win.

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Then I’d give him a good beating.

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Of course being the apple of my mother’s
eye, he’d run and tell me right away.

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My mom then would make us stay in
the house as a punishment.

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I have memories in every
corner of that garden.

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I had carnations, plectranthus, fuschia,
sweet basil, roses and lilacs.

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I’d talk to them.
They understood me.

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They knew I loved them very much.
They each had a name.

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Now my kids experience those beautiful days
and memories I have there but without me.

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I really wish I was there with them.

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I lived in Antakya Narlıca for 35 years.
You’d die for it.

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After I left there I came
to Belen Neighborhood.

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I hate every little thing
about Belen Neighborhood.

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My mom’s house, our garden…

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Our garden.

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The most difficult thing here in prison is
to keep yourself mentally stable.

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Not that I was the most stable person to begin with,
now I’m afraid I’ll lose what little stability I have.

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AYLİN:
I asked him why he was beating me up.

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He said “Because you’re too
beautiful, that’s why.”.

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I filed for divorce.
He made me eat the petition I wrote.

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I passed out that day
because of the beating.

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I swallowed every pill I could find
at the house. I didn’t want to live.

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I was sad that I didn’t die that day.

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LIFE

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He grabbed the gun and
said that he would kill me.

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First he held the gun under my chin and
asked “Should I shoot you from here?”.

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And then he held the gun to the side
of my head and asked “Or from here?”.

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Then he held the gun to my genitals.

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“Should I shoot you from here?
Where should I shoot you from?”.

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HAVVA:
I tried to run away numerous times.

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He broke my nose, my ribs,
my fingers, every bone.

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We lived everyday with the threat of death.

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He told me there’s enough of
him for me and my daughter.

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I turned into a wreck when my
daughter told me what he did to her.

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He told me there’s enough of
him for me and my daughter.

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He went to grab his gun.

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He pointed the gun at my son’s head,
who was sleeping at the time and asked

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“Should I shoot?”.

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I thought, if he was gonna kill my kid,
I should protect him.

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I grabbed the gun.

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I told my daughter that she doesn’t need to be
afraid anymore, that she can sleep safe and sound.

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AYLİN: I opened my eyes
when I heard my son crying.

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I grabbed my kid and left the house.
There was no one around.

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I didn’t know where to go.

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When I went to the police station that day
I thought Dağlar was gonna come with me.

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They’ve put him in a children’s home.

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I cried a lot, begged.
I couldn’t see my son for months.

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They let him stay with me
after a very long time.

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What am I gonna tell Dağlar?

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He’s just a kid,
Only I can mend his wounds.

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When I first got to prison
I was sleeping on the top bunk.

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I jumped with the sound
of the gun from the scene.

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The moment I jumped I
fell off the bunk bed.

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I was scared to sleep. I was sleep deprived
for days, not to live that moment again.

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In my nightmares I usually saw
myself being choked to death.

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Then woke up with
Dağlar screaming “Mom!”.

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The rest was silence…

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I screamed in my sleep at night.
Unintentionally.

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My kid got scared.
He held me and cried.

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His crying made me cry as well.

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“It’s over mommy.” he said.
“You got me, don’t be scared anymore!”.

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I’d die for my Little Blue Eyes.

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He has the weight of
our troubles on his little shoulders.

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He healed me, I healed him.

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We fell asleep at night
imagining the future.

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What our house will be like when we got out
of there, what kind of meals we’ll prepare…

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What we’ll eat?
Sheep’s head, foot soup, mussels…

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HAVVA:
The first day I got to prison,

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I didn’t get out of the
bed, and kept sleeping.

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I was tired, I slept for days.
I didn’t get up for dinner either.

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They were waking us up for the head count.
I’d get up only for the head count.

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They count us.
Are we sheep?

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I started watching the news day and night.

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In the morning news, a female news speaker
said “These vicious women should be hanged!”.

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On the corner of the screen there were
pictures of three women.

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They zoomed in on the pictures.
And what do I see but myself!

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My own photo!

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I was very scared.
They were gonna hang me!

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In a state of panic I ran to my cellmate. “Zeynep
wake up, they’re gonna hang me!” I said.

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Zeynep then replied...

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“Don’t be silly girl,
we have no capital punishment in Turkey!”.

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My friend Zeynep’s voice
makes me feel a lot better.

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And also the sound of ney, the instrument.
The sound of water…

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And unfortunately the sound of
tranquility which I never get to hear…

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I had nightmares during the
whole time I was married.

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I always saw him killing either
me or my kids. God forbid!

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And now look, the nightmares are over.

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My son says he’ll become
a district attorney.

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My daughter will become a kindergarten
teacher as she likes kids so much.

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They sent me a picture, depicting us.

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The three of us hand in hand,
in a house with a garden.

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In each letter they always draw a heart.

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In those hearts are our initials.

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I share everything with my son,
I talk to him and tell him things.

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I know he stands beside me no matter what.

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My kids are God’s greatest gift to me. Thank
God they’re my kids and I’m their mom.

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I dream of the days I’ll hold my kids.
I dream of the days when I’ll be free.

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Actually dreams are the
things that hurt you the most.

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It’s really hard not being able to do anything
when you want those dreams to become reality…

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That’s why I try not to dream a lot.
I usually pray and ask help from God.

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Because only God can
make my dreams come true.

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AYLİN: I moved to Gazi
Neighborhood when I got married.

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I don’t think of that place as Gazi Neighborhood,
for me it’s the “Death” Neighborhood.

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I used to watch my back when I went out to get
groceries. The neighborhood became my nightmare.

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I was at the brink of death so many times
in that neighborhood.

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I can’t stop seeing Kent
Forest in the neighborhood.

225
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That place ruined my life
but I still survived there.

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But despite everything,
I became a mother at Gazi.

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When I was at Diyarbakır
I always wanted to return to Istanbul.

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But after I got married I started
dreaming about going back to Diyarbakır.

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Istanbul is a beautiful
city, but not for me anymore…

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HAVVA: I hate every little
thing about Belen Neighborhood.

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The first day I woke up in that house was the
morning that turned my life into a nightmare.

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I realized that I’ve found myself
in quicksand quite late.

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The struggle for me and
my kids’ lives had begun.

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I realized that the more I tried
to survive it the deeper I got in.

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I’ll never forget those days
for the rest of my life.

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But Allah is great!
I believe in divine justice.

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When I hear the word “bad person”,
I think of “him”.

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In this life, selfish people who only
think of themselves… They have no honor…

239
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People who waste other people for
their own egos, torture them,

240
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steal the bread from the mouth of orphaned
children, steal people’s rightful shares…

241
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The most important thing is,
people who have no fear of Allah, that is bad…

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Let Allah help us avoid
these kind of people.

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He told me there’s enough of
him for me and my daughter.

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When I hear the word “bad person”,
I think of “him”.

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AYLİN:
The most beautiful people I’ve ever met

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came into my life
after what happened.

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My lawyer Esin,
I actually call her “my hero”.

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Cause this was the first time
I saw a woman be so very brave.

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Efsanem, Kıvırcık, Çınar and Güzelim who
didn’t leave me by myself even for a day.

250
00:35:24,080 --> 00:35:31,040
We all had very different lives but
we came together at a stop called prison.

251
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I now have sisters.
That’s why I feel very lucky.

252
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HAVVA: When you're so miserable
and just when you least expect it,

253
00:36:07,320 --> 00:36:13,080
God gives you a chance and
you run into someone like Miss Mehtap.

254
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My lawyer is the only person who’s been with me
through the penal process, under every circumstance.

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Mehtap is the most precious miracle
for me after my kids.

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When I hear the word “bad person”,
I think of “him”.

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He told me there’s enough of
him for me and my daughter.

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00:37:31,320 --> 00:37:33,489
I thought my parents
wouldn’t be able to look

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after my kids since they
had economic difficulties.

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I couldn’t turn myself in.

261
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I thought I had to bury “him”.

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I couldn’t lift the body.

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00:37:51,120 --> 00:37:57,599
My friends called, asking to meet,
I said “okay”.

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I met with them but I wasn't myself.

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00:38:02,320 --> 00:38:05,400
I didn't know what I was doing.

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They were talking to me
but I couldn’t understand a single word.

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00:38:11,680 --> 00:38:17,079
They asked me what was wrong,
I said I wasn’t feeling well.

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I got out of there and came back home.

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I saw the body still lying there!

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00:38:44,840 --> 00:38:49,520
Miss Mehtap asked me:
Havva, how can a body disappear on its own?

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I’ve been through so much cruelty
and begged Allah a lot.

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I thought the body would disappear. Look I
swear to God, I swear to God I thought that.

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AYLİN: He would approach me
quietly behind my back and pull my hair.

274
00:39:40,320 --> 00:39:43,999
I feel like someone would suddenly
appear behind me and do something.

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That’s why I always sit
with my back to the wall.

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I’m very scared of people trying
to wake me up by touching me.

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00:40:37,200 --> 00:40:39,800
I got used to calming myself down.

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The thing I say the most is “it’s over”.
It’s over, it’s over… It’s over…

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I got married. I got lonely.

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I had no one,
I couldn’t share anything with anyone.

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My family was far away.
I had no friends or nothing like that.

282
00:41:33,520 --> 00:41:36,720
I lived through all of these on my own.

283
00:41:39,600 --> 00:41:43,360
I got fed up with being silent.

284
00:41:43,627 --> 00:41:45,627
I was so scared.
I was too silent.

285
00:41:47,160 --> 00:41:48,640
Enough.

286
00:42:10,320 --> 00:42:12,399
I ran away to Diyarbakır.

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00:42:12,400 --> 00:42:16,400
I was sitting at a tea garden in
Dağkapı, on my own.

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00:42:20,240 --> 00:42:23,520
I stared at the view.
I could see all of Diyarbakır.

289
00:42:30,280 --> 00:42:32,160
I said “I’m gonna get a divorce!”.

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Enough.

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00:42:51,400 --> 00:42:59,000
I told my family that I filed for
a divorce. No one supported me.

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I won’t forgive them.

293
00:43:12,680 --> 00:43:14,360
I won’t forgive them.

294
00:43:19,200 --> 00:43:22,239
I told my mom that I was going
to leave that place in a coffin,

295
00:43:22,240 --> 00:43:24,720
and my mom told me
“I have been through a lot too.”

296
00:43:28,480 --> 00:43:32,260
That’s true, she had a very tough life.

297
00:43:35,240 --> 00:43:38,839
My dad would treat everyone kindly
and when there was no one around

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00:43:38,840 --> 00:43:40,326
he would take my mom into a room and
start beating her up.

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00:43:40,351 --> 00:43:41,351
We would see him do it.

300
00:44:04,691 --> 00:44:06,650
HAVVA:
My favourite item…

301
00:44:06,800 --> 00:44:11,360
The big doll my dad got me from Arabia.

302
00:44:13,880 --> 00:44:21,880
I think I had that doll since I
was 15 or 16. It meant a lot to me.

303
00:44:21,960 --> 00:44:28,240
Because my dad got me that doll.
I was so happy.

304
00:44:34,480 --> 00:44:40,760
Even though we don’t talk to my dad
anymore, he’s my only love.

305
00:44:41,720 --> 00:44:44,040
Growing up I always missed him.

306
00:44:49,760 --> 00:44:52,520
He abandoned us,
married someone else.

307
00:45:24,120 --> 00:45:29,799
We used to celebrate
Eid Qurban with my family.

308
00:45:29,800 --> 00:45:32,760
And sacrifice an animal too.

309
00:45:33,520 --> 00:45:37,559
I saw animals butchered at a young age.
I wasn’t scared at all.

310
00:45:37,560 --> 00:45:40,160
I was even very good
with giving them a hand.

311
00:45:43,360 --> 00:45:52,870
Six months before the eid my mom got two
sheep to sacrifice: Karabaş and Kınalıbaş.

312
00:45:53,880 --> 00:45:57,520
I raised them, took care of them,
made them grow bigger.

313
00:45:58,920 --> 00:46:01,880
We sold Karabaş and had Kınalıbaş left.

314
00:46:02,800 --> 00:46:05,800
My mom promised me that
we weren't going to sacrifice Kınalıbaş.

315
00:46:08,480 --> 00:46:15,400
On the eve of Eid, again, I asked my mom and she
told me we weren’t going to butcher Kınalıbaş.

316
00:46:18,480 --> 00:46:21,520
But in the morning of eid
I woke up to my uncle’s voice.

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00:46:21,720 --> 00:46:25,120
I got out of my bed and
ran straight to the garden.

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00:46:25,920 --> 00:46:28,879
And I saw my Kınalıbaş
laying on the ground.

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00:46:28,880 --> 00:46:31,640
They severed its head
and put it on its tail.

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00:46:32,320 --> 00:46:37,520
I ran and threw my arms around
its head and cried all day long.

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00:46:42,160 --> 00:46:46,720
I didn’t eat its meat and
didn’t want my parents to eat it either.

322
00:46:48,760 --> 00:46:51,280
It was a very sad Eid Qurban for me.

323
00:46:53,000 --> 00:46:56,880
After that day we never took care of
another sacrifical animal.

324
00:47:04,779 --> 00:47:07,979
“He” was the last sacrifical I ever saw.

325
00:47:20,520 --> 00:47:24,200
AYLİN:
Voluntary Manslaughter…

326
00:47:27,320 --> 00:47:33,840
Even the name of the crime
is discriminatory: Manslaughter.

327
00:47:36,320 --> 00:47:40,400
When in fact it’s the women that
get killed the most in this country.

328
00:47:43,960 --> 00:47:51,559
I’m here because I survived.
These so-called justice warriors ask me

329
00:47:51,560 --> 00:47:55,240
“Why did you defend yourself?
You could’ve chosen to die.”

330
00:47:58,114 --> 00:48:01,554
This is how they punish survivors.

331
00:48:01,680 --> 00:48:06,000
“You should’ve died.” they say.
“Why didn’t you die?”

332
00:48:10,034 --> 00:48:11,274
“Why didn’t you die?”.

333
00:48:49,920 --> 00:48:55,919
HAVVA:
The only dream I have is to have a house

334
00:48:55,920 --> 00:49:00,239
with a big garden where I can
grow every kind of vegetable.

335
00:49:00,240 --> 00:49:07,600
A huge barn with chickens, cows,
geese, sheep and goats inside.

336
00:49:10,240 --> 00:49:16,479
To put it in other words I want the simple life.
I wanna grow and pick everything myself.

337
00:49:16,480 --> 00:49:18,080
Is this too much to ask now?

338
00:49:47,360 --> 00:49:50,239
AYLİN:
Of course I miss vineyards, gardens,

339
00:49:50,240 --> 00:49:53,440
flowers and weeds now that I’m in prison.

340
00:49:54,800 --> 00:49:59,079
I sometimes look at a bunch parsley and
spring onions and laugh and talk to them

341
00:49:59,080 --> 00:50:01,600
“I’m going to forget the color
green if it weren’t for you.”

342
00:50:04,400 --> 00:50:09,479
Once I saw a yellow flower
growing on concrete and told it

343
00:50:09,480 --> 00:50:13,120
“Even you have the hope to
live, why shouldn’t I?”.

344
00:50:15,440 --> 00:50:19,639
Flowers, no matter the species,
that declare their independence,

345
00:50:19,640 --> 00:50:23,039
that even defy concrete to live, to grow,

346
00:50:23,040 --> 00:50:27,920
are the most precious living beings
and they’re now my idols.

347
00:50:29,560 --> 00:50:32,480
That’s why I tell myself
“I’m a flower lady!"

348
00:50:52,560 --> 00:50:56,200
HAVVA: Photographs are beautiful
memories left from the past.

349
00:51:00,120 --> 00:51:07,320
The roses in Zeynep and Efe’s photo,
I planted them with my own two hands.

350
00:51:13,560 --> 00:51:17,240
The more I think of my daughter the more
I regret the things I couldn’t do for her.

351
00:51:26,791 --> 00:51:30,711
Photographs are beautiful
memories left from the past.

352
00:51:38,600 --> 00:51:42,240
I look at my childrens’
photos here and feel happy.

353
00:51:54,320 --> 00:51:59,559
AYLİN: I don’t have many
pictures left from my childhood.

354
00:51:59,560 --> 00:52:02,560
Three or four at most.

355
00:52:13,027 --> 00:52:16,827
I don’t have a picture
with my family either.

356
00:52:22,400 --> 00:52:27,000
In none of the photos you see my mom,
my dad and my five siblings together.

357
00:52:47,880 --> 00:52:51,685
That’s why I loved taking
pictures of Dağlar in every

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00:52:51,709 --> 00:52:55,440
situation at every moment,
to even out those days.

359
00:53:21,787 --> 00:53:29,786
His first clothes, his first pair of shoes,
his first toy, memories from his birth.

360
00:53:29,920 --> 00:53:33,040
I even kept my Little Blue Eyes’ nails.

361
00:53:38,160 --> 00:53:40,480
They were all left in that house.

362
00:53:50,600 --> 00:53:58,200
When Dağlar was a baby I talked to him so much
that he could start speaking and would talk to me…

363
00:54:00,160 --> 00:54:03,440
I thought maybe it could
help with my loneliness.

364
00:54:13,240 --> 00:54:19,960
Dağlar grew up, started speaking.
He started understanding everything.

365
00:54:37,840 --> 00:54:44,560
After that I had to keep
what’s going on a secret from him.

366
00:54:53,797 --> 00:54:58,997
My son saw me covered in blood. I was
looking at Death in the eye every day.

367
00:55:03,440 --> 00:55:08,039
He was three years old, he would get mad at
what his father was doing to me.

368
00:55:08,040 --> 00:55:12,760
He would pack his tiny suitcase and say “I’m
going to Diyarbakır, you come with me as well!”.

369
00:55:29,162 --> 00:55:35,642
Dağlar would stroke my hair and say “Don’t
worry I’ll stroke without pulling it”.

370
00:55:50,360 --> 00:55:54,680
My favourite photo of us is the one where
we look at the streamlet in the village.

371
00:55:57,720 --> 00:56:00,720
Over there I told the
water about my dreams.

372
00:56:02,480 --> 00:56:07,600
My dream was to be on my own with Dağlar...

373
00:56:22,680 --> 00:56:30,680
Now my son is there where I had those
dreams, with my parents in Diyarbakır…

374
00:56:40,840 --> 00:56:45,280
He started school there
and I got his photos in school.

375
00:56:46,120 --> 00:56:50,600
He drew a picture of me.
He drew my eyes real big.

376
00:56:58,920 --> 00:57:03,360
Dağlar used to say…
“I want to be a police officer”.

377
00:57:04,520 --> 00:57:06,960
Now he says “I want to be a painter”.

378
00:57:07,480 --> 00:57:10,680
That made me really happy, really.

379
00:57:38,160 --> 00:57:42,399
I promised Dağlar when
I sent him away from here:

380
00:57:42,400 --> 00:57:48,760
I’ll come back one morning when you’re
asleep, my son, and wake you with a kiss…

381
00:57:51,960 --> 00:57:54,720
This is what I dream of the most.

382
00:58:39,120 --> 00:58:43,720
HAVVA:
Samandağ is the place I miss the most…

383
00:58:44,600 --> 00:58:49,679
I miss eating warm, stuffed sheep
sausages and tripe soup over there.

384
00:58:49,680 --> 00:58:57,680
I miss the coast and the sea, the memories I
have of me fishing there were very precious.

385
00:59:21,640 --> 00:59:26,600
The stores I stared at the most while passing
through were always the ones that sold birds.

386
00:59:27,280 --> 00:59:31,040
Canaries, parrots…
All in different colors, so lively.

387
00:59:37,000 --> 00:59:40,360
My bird was very precious to me: Haydar!

388
00:59:42,840 --> 00:59:45,319
He used to tweet in five different ways
just in one breath.

389
00:59:45,320 --> 00:59:47,400
I woke up each morning
to the sound of my bird.

390
00:59:48,120 --> 00:59:50,639
I’d open the door to his cage and
he would have breakfast with me.

391
00:59:50,640 --> 00:59:52,320
He would never leave my shoulder.

392
00:59:55,440 --> 01:00:00,560
He got sick one day and went to heaven.
I was so sad, I cried a lot.

393
01:00:16,120 --> 01:00:19,200
AYLİN: I love birds a lot.

394
01:00:20,760 --> 01:00:25,360
I love them so much that
I have a swallow tattoed on my arm.

395
01:00:28,440 --> 01:00:32,320
It means good luck and freedom.

396
01:00:34,417 --> 01:00:39,617
Nevertheless birds never
brought me luck or good fortune.

397
01:00:42,640 --> 01:00:50,040
When I was a kid the more a bird visited our house
the more we got the news of a relative’s death.

398
01:00:52,240 --> 01:00:55,759
My mom used to always say

399
01:00:55,760 --> 01:00:58,600
“They bring bad fortune. No birds
are allowed in this house anymore.”.

400
01:01:05,200 --> 01:01:09,640
The last time,
Dağlar got a parrot as a present.

401
01:01:15,280 --> 01:01:23,280
On that night,
the parrot squawked at us nonstop,

402
01:01:29,200 --> 01:01:32,880
till it heard the sound of the gunshot.

403
01:01:42,080 --> 01:01:43,880
Then it stopped.

404
01:01:48,120 --> 01:01:50,280
I have no idea what happened to it.

405
01:01:52,200 --> 01:01:54,760
I get sad each time I think of it.

406
01:01:56,320 --> 01:02:00,560
I also say I’m never going
to have a bird as a pet anymore.

407
01:02:05,240 --> 01:02:09,200
I love birds a lot but
only when they’re in the sky.

408
01:02:58,640 --> 01:03:02,960
The first place I would go to when I get
out of here would be an amusement park.

409
01:03:05,120 --> 01:03:10,440
Is there anyone who
doesn’t like amusement parks?

410
01:03:13,514 --> 01:03:17,394
I guess there’s no place
more fun than amusement parks.

411
01:03:18,520 --> 01:03:20,600
I used to go with the kids a lot.

412
01:03:22,720 --> 01:03:26,240
These colorful, grand rides...

413
01:03:27,840 --> 01:03:32,160
I liked the bumping cars
and riding the rollercoaster.

414
01:03:33,720 --> 01:03:36,600
I used to play with my kids like crazy.

415
01:03:39,280 --> 01:03:45,200
It was like a festival place.
And if I had the money to buy tokens,

416
01:03:48,680 --> 01:03:55,120
I’d feel like I’m gonna fly in the sky
like those rides make you feel.

417
01:03:59,240 --> 01:04:04,040
The most precious gift one has is their freedom.
You only get that when you’re here in prison.

418
01:04:07,160 --> 01:04:10,520
I liked the ballerina ride the most.
I used to ride that one first.

419
01:04:11,720 --> 01:04:15,600
I liked how it suddenly went up and down.

420
01:04:18,720 --> 01:04:22,440
When it was spinning fast
I felt like the world itself was spinning.

421
01:04:27,360 --> 01:04:33,160
Later I realized that life is
also like that ballerina ride.

422
01:04:34,880 --> 01:04:48,580
Whether you go up or down or spin around we
can stay on your own two feet if you want to.

423
01:05:39,200 --> 01:05:41,280
When I get out of prison…

424
01:05:41,395 --> 01:05:46,515
I would raise my head first.
I would look at the sky as long as I like.

425
01:05:50,160 --> 01:05:56,560
I would take a deep
breath and fill my lungs.

426
01:05:59,880 --> 01:06:03,320
I would smell the weeds,
the flowers on the ground.

427
01:06:09,360 --> 01:06:13,240
Wherever I will be, the first thing
I would do is to go to my Dağlar…

428
01:06:15,520 --> 01:06:22,640
Do immediately whatever Dağlar
missed the most while I wasn’t there…

429
01:06:24,560 --> 01:06:30,240
Then I would go to my kids, hug them and kiss
them as much as I want and smell their scents.

430
01:06:34,200 --> 01:06:41,520
I want to take my son and go to the
village. Just me, my son and our dog.

431
01:06:44,080 --> 01:06:47,200
I would have breakfast with my kids,
chat with them.

432
01:06:47,920 --> 01:06:49,800
I would sleep with them by my side.

433
01:06:53,160 --> 01:06:58,399
I want to walk barefoot on
the ground near the streamlet.

434
01:06:58,400 --> 01:07:02,720
I want to look as faraway as I can see.

435
01:07:05,360 --> 01:07:08,680
Once I get out of here
I will be born again.

436
01:07:27,120 --> 01:07:32,479
We started this journey with the dream of imprisoned
women telling their own stories directly to the camera.

437
01:07:32,480 --> 01:07:36,519
The Ministry of Justice had declined our appeal to enter
the prisons with cameras and record our interviews.

438
01:07:36,520 --> 01:07:39,759
Again, we appealed to them to -at least-
record the voices of Aylin and Havva.

439
01:07:39,760 --> 01:07:43,039
Once again, our appeal had been declined.

440
01:07:43,040 --> 01:07:46,079
In the end we have decided to make our
very own interviews by exchanging letters.

441
01:07:46,080 --> 01:07:49,479
They poured out their hearts in letters.

442
01:07:49,480 --> 01:07:53,280
Two actors became
Aylin and Havva's voices.

443
01:08:02,280 --> 01:08:07,760
How much wood would a woodchuck chuck
if a woodchuck could chuck wood!