(gentle music)
Downloaded from YTS.MX
(glass shattering)
Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX
(gentle music)
- My entire life, I just wanted to be loved,
and on my search for love,
I did some things I knew I might regret someday,
but in the moment,
it felt right for me.
(gentle music)
Good morning babes,
and thank you so much for joining me for breakfast.
Today we have sticky buns. (giggling)
(gentle music)
Extra honey is key.
Mm. (giggling)
(phone bleeping)
(gentle music)
(giggling)
Sticky and sweet.
(gentle music)
All right, babes, and in nine minutes
we'll sink into some ooey, gooey deliciousness.
(gentle music)
- [Vanessa] Hi Jenna, this is Vanessa, your landlord.
It's been brought to my attention
that you've filming pornography in my home.
This is totally unacceptable.
You'll have to leave immediately.
(dramatic music)
(tense music)
(tense music continues)
- Just when I thought I might change everything and move on,
just when I thought I would find love with them,
along came her.
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
- How can I help you?
- Hi, I'm Rain.
I'm here to see Blake.
- Follow me.
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
Here's Rain.
Lemme know if you guys need anything.
- Thanks.
Hi Rain.
- Hi. It's nice to meet you in person.
- Likewise.
Please, take a seat.
(birds tweeting)
You like champagne? I poured you a glass.
- Sure. Thanks.
- It's garnet.
It symbolizes love and friendship.
- This house is beautiful. I really wasn't expecting this.
(birds tweeting)
- What were you expecting?
- Well, I mean, you said in your ad it was $2,000 a month
for the rent.
I just thought it would be nice, but this is next level.
- It was a birthday present from my father.
You can afford to pay 2000 a month in rent?
- Yeah. Yes.
I mean, I told you how I make my money.
That's if you're cool with it.
- I checked out your webpage. Totally cool with it.
- It's going really well, actually.
I almost have 20,000 fans, so, yeah.
- [Blake] Wow.
- Hmm. It's a side thing though.
Until I start nursing school in the fall.
- So you're a naughty nurse then?
- I don't know about that.
- Hmm.
You're cute.
I bet the men on the website love you.
(birds tweeting)
Where's your stuff?
- It's inside.
- Well, this will be fun.
Do you enjoy using the pool to create your sexy videos?
And give your rent to my uncle Sterling.
He's the guy that walked you in.
- Yeah.
- I don't really deal with that kind of thing.
- Definitely.
Thank you.
- So, you want a tour?
- Yeah.
(gentle music)
(golf cart whirring)
Don't let the smiles fool you.
We were both broken,
lost souls drawn together by the flaws we shared
and recognized in each other.
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
It's really nice of your dad
to gift you this place.
- My dad flows with money.
I guess he's good for that at least.
(gentle music)
- I grew up with a single mom.
She worked the front desk at a hotel,
so I guess I can say the money's never flowed.
- Were you guys close?
- Uh, yeah, we were actually.
- What? What'd she do to you?
(birds tweeting)
- She died.
Um, you know, she was really sick for a long time,
and... I'm sorry, we just met and I,
I don't wanna dump all this on you.
- It's okay.
- I don't like to think about it.
She's actually the reason I wanted to become a nurse.
I remember how much she cared for all the nurses
and how much they loved her
and cared for her while she was in hospice,
and I just, I wanna give that back.
- Where's your father?
- I've only met him a couple of times
and he's married to someone
that doesn't really want me around.
They have a couple of kids, so I guess I get it.
- Well, um, we have something in common.
- What's that?
- I lost my mom too, but...
Shooting.
Overdose on pain pills.
- Sorry.
- At least your mom cared about you,
and you guys were close.
My mom didn't give a fuck.
Well, she cared about fucking rock stars and doing blow,
but not about me,
so life is more fun when you don't give a fuck.
She taught me one good thing about that.
(somber music)
(somber music continues)
- Hey babe, I have a very special surprise for you.
(somber music)
What do you think?
(somber music)
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
- I made this one just for you.
- Really? - Mm-hmm.
- Thanks.
Mm.
- I used to make cocktails at my parents' dinner parties.
- Wait. A child bartender?
- Yep.
- I was joking.
- I was nine.
My parents liked dinner parties, and I liked attention,
so I taught myself just about anything and everything
behind the bar.
- Nine. So you were in like third grade?
- I think it was third grade.
I mean, I don't really remember, but...
you ever try an orange slice vodka shot?
- No, but I'm intrigued.
- I'll teach you.
It was one of my specialties back in the day.
So, um, Sterling catch you with your top off?
- You saw that?
- I was spying on you.
- Oh, really?
Well, since you like the show so much, where's my tip?
- A businesswoman. I like it.
- You know, I used to make a lot of money
working at this strip club, but things are different now.
Everything's online. It's not the same anymore.
Although, I have a couple of clients
that call me for some private bookings,
but I don't really do that anymore.
Sometimes.
- That's really hot.
What happens at a private booking?
- A lot of private things.
- I bet.
You know, after seeing you out there,
not bad, but not that great either.
Especially now that I know that you're a stripper.
You're so boring.
Don't be boring.
- Uh, okay.
- 20,000 followers ain't shit. You need a million.
- I do need a million.
- I can help.
Let's live stream tonight.
- You wanna live stream with me?
- Yeah, why not? I mean, I don't have any other plans.
Do you?
- No. I just, usually only ever make solo content,
and I'm not really into the whole girl girl thing,
if that's what you're thinking.
- We're not going to fuck. Just tease a bit.
It'll be fun.
- I mean, a lot of people are gonna see it.
Would you be okay with that?
- I don't have anyone that cares.
Fuck it.
- Okay.
- Wanna bartend?
I've a feeling I'll have to be drunk
for the live stream tonight.
(gentle music)
we put the gelatin in the orange halves,
but first...
We don't wanna waste any fresh orange juice, right?
Come here.
(gentle music)
Open your mouth.
(pair giggling)
Ready? - Mm-hmm.
- Okay.
(pair giggling)
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
(knife tapping)
(tense music)
(tense music continues)
(pair giggling)
- So you want me to do most of the talking?
Only because you've never done anything like this before?
- Sure. I'll chime in when it makes sense.
Oh, I was thinking, and I'm going to wear this mask.
I'll be your sexy mystery woman.
Call me Claudia. - Ooh.
- [Blake] I knew a hot girl named Claudia once.
- Okay, Claudia.
All right. Are you ready?
- Mm-hmm. - Here we go.
And we're live.
Hey babes. Welcome to my live stream.
Tonight, joining me, I have my beautiful friend, Claudia.
Tonight I think we should play a little game
called "You Tip, We Strip,"
and when we hit our goal of $3,000,
we'll put on a special show for you.
- Some girl on girl action
for all you perverted degenerates.
- Uh, so we have some special customized rewards
to inspire you to get to our goal,
starting with the $50 tier.
For $50, I'll write your name right here,
and of course,
I won't forget to private message you the photo.
For $75, you'll get a set of my explicit nudes
and of course, your name across my tits,
but for a hundred dollars, you'll get both of those rewards,
and I'll call out your name in the hottest way.
- Seriously?
- Yeah.
It'll go something a little like this.
Oh, Larry. (giggling)
Oh, Larry.
Larry.
Insert your name here.
(gentle music)
What some people might call easy money comes with a price,
but it's so totally complicated.
So totally fucked up.
And here we were bonding over our desperate need
for validation, love, and acceptance.
(glasses clinking)
(cash register ringing)
Tip To Strip.
(cash register ringing)
We just hit our goal of 30,000.
- This is freaking wild.
(gentle music)
- Are you ready?
- Ready.
(water trickling)
- Thank you.
(water trickling)
(water splashing)
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
I cannot believe we made three grand in less than an hour.
I've never even come close to that before.
- You're rich.
- We're rich. Half of that's yours.
No.
- I would've paid to do that.
Keep the money.
- I'll give it to Sterling for rent.
I have a confession to make.
- What?
- That was the first time I've kissed a woman.
- Did you like it?
- Yeah.
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
(phone buzzing)
(tense music)
(tense music continues)
(door knocking)
- Hey, gorgeous.
- Hi. How are you? - Great, great.
You raised your rate on me. What gives?
- Well, I...
I'm not really doing this sort of thing anymore,
but since it was you, we have history,
and you're sexy.
- Well, thank you,
but you doubled your price 'cause you're phasing out?
- Yeah.
- Here's our normal rate.
You want another five bills,
I want something more from you.
I'm not gonna pay a grand for the usual.
I'm happy with our standard date,
but if you're gonna get an attitude with me, forget it.
I get an attitude from my wife seven days a week.
I don't need this.
Okay.
You're making me feel like a jerk.
Come on.
(panting)
(gasping)
(tense music)
Take care.
(tense music)
(tense music continues)
(heels tapping)
- Are you hungry?
- Yeah. Everything looks amazing.
- Please, help yourself.
Where have you been?
- Uh, I was, uh, out.
- What's wrong? You good?
- I did something really stupid this morning.
I went to a private booking.
- Why?
You have 207 new subscribers after last night.
You don't need to do that.
- I feel like such a moron.
I mean, I thought I had some power in this situation.
I mean, last night we made so much money,
I thought I could raise my rate.
Instead he berated me for it,
and he didn't even pay me what I asked for.
- The guy with the dough runs the show, honey.
- It was humiliating.
It's disgusting.
- Fuck him. Gross.
He's just some loser cheating on his wife
and trying to throw what little fucking power
he has over a young woman.
What a disgrace.
His wife probably hates his fucking guts.
No, forget about it.
Let's have some fun and have a great day.
Some retail therapy.
Hmm?
- Do you mind refilling me first?
I kind of wanna forget what just happened.
(gentle music)
From the outside, her life appeared perfect,
with seemingly no worries.
(gentle music)
She was intoxicating. She drew me in.
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
I am not used to day drinking.
- Buying stuff makes me feel better,
even if it's just for the moment.
- You live a fantasy life for most women.
- Did you play any sports
or take music lessons or anything growing up?
- I played soccer.
- Did your mom go to your games?
- Every single one of 'em.
Ironically, she would bring orange slices for the team,
but not as good as your orange slices.
- My orange slices are special.
I took ballet.
I dreamed of dancing at Juilliard.
I practiced day and night.
No one ever came to watch me.
No one.
My nanny would drop me off in the parking lot and wait
until I was done.
On the upside,
I can spend a hundred grand on my father's credit card
without consequences.
- When my mom died,
I had to find a way to pay for groceries.
I literally started giving back massages
to the ladies at a nail salon
just to be able to pay for food.
It's a little hard to relate.
I wanna see you dance.
I had a really good day today with you.
(gentle music)
(sighing) What was I thinking?
- Are you gonna do your lingerie try on haul?
What's wrong?
- I shouldn't have spent so much money.
I, I can't be doing that.
I have to pay for my first semester coming up
and I don't have anyone or anything to fall back on.
If I fail, it's my fault.
- Well, is it a bad time to give you this?
I got something for you today.
The color's perfect for your skin tone,
and neutrals will elevate your style.
I have a feeling you're gonna kill it tonight.
A whole new class of subscribers are gonna show up.
- I... I just can't tonight.
I really have to start this paper.
It's due on the first day
and it's gonna take a lot of research.
I just don't wanna wait for the last minute.
- Okay.
One night away from studying is not gonna hurt you.
Besides, what you spent today you'll make back in, what,
less than an hour?
(gentle music)
- Hey babes, welcome to my lingerie try on haul.
I'm sure you'll love everything just as much as I do.
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
Did you like it?
- I did.
(gentle music)
(pair giggling)
- Oh, it feels good in here though.
- [Blake] Mm-hm.
- This is perfect.
- Can I ask you a question? - Hmm?
- Why do you call yourself Rain? It's not your real name.
- My real name is Jenna.
Rain is the name I gave myself
when I first started my webpage.
I remember watching the rain late at night
from my bedroom window.
There was a street lamp.
You could see all the glowing droplets falling from the sky.
It was beautiful.
My mom worked a lot, so I was alone,
but the sounds of the water tapping on the roof
kept me company.
- And you're scared, Jenna?
- Scared?
- Of people recognizing you on the website?
That's why you actually go by Rain.
- I mean, I,
I just don't wanna miss out on opportunities
or be judged for trying to survive.
- I get it.
- So what's underneath that? I never see you go without it.
What are you hiding?
- Are you asking me if I'm hiding something
in the way you're hiding your real name?
- Yeah.
- Battle scars.
- Can I see?
- I'm in the process of healing.
Come here.
- [Rain] What?
- Come here. I wanna give you something.
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
I know it sounds weird,
but I feel like I've known you forever.
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
(Rain groaning)
(gentle music continues)
(birds tweeting)
- Hey. - Oh my God.
What are you doing? I was live streaming.
- We need to celebrate.
500 new subscribers, and 50,000 likes on last night's video.
(pair giggling)
(birds tweeting)
Get back into that position.
- Okay. Like this? - Mm-hmm.
- Oh. Hello. - Hello.
Mm. - How's it going?
(pair giggling)
Stop.
(aggressive music)
- Hey, what's up?
- You're really good.
- Thanks.
- Oh, I didn't mean to interrupt.
It's just, I need to pay you the rent,
so can I just transfer it to you?
- Just don't worry about it.
- I mean, if you want a check,
all I have to do is go to the bank.
- You're here 'cause she needs a friend.
She's lonely, you know?
Just keep your money.
- Hmm.
(aggressive music)
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
- I don't ever wanna forget this moment.
- Which part?
- Everything.
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
(Blake panting)
(gentle music continues)
Blake.
(tense music)
You ready?
(tense music)
(group laughing)
- Cheers. - Cheers.
- Mm. Not bad.
Do you want some bread? - Sure.
- Are you drinking? - Nah, I'm good.
Thank you, though. - He's sober.
That's why father sends him here,
to make sure I don't go off the deep end.
- Exactly, because if there's no danger involved,
she's not interested.
- Cheers to that.
- We're working on building Rain's audience.
- Our audience.
She gets off on the likes,
so we've been filming content together.
- Likes are my new drug of choice.
- We're turning up the heat with more foreplay and fantasy.
- Light and dark. - Good and evil.
- Sounds deep. Hope you guys get a lot of likes.
- What are you talking about?
You're part of the show.
(gentle music)
- No, no, not with you two. You guys are crazy.
(gentle music)
- [Rain] Dear diary.
I met a mysterious woman the other night.
Her name was Claudia.
She had me mesmerized one night
while she danced alone in a darkened piano bar.
I felt feelings I'd never felt about a woman before.
Every essence captivated me.
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
- Come with me.
Come with me.
(gentle music)
- All right, I'm outta here.
- Come on. Stay.
- [Sterling] Not a chance.
- Okay.
Bye then.
- Okay, babes. Hope you enjoyed our little movie.
Now it's your turn to join in the fun.
You tell us what happens next.
Does Claudia take off her dress?
Do I strip and dance with her?
- You're the writer, so don't make it boring.
- We'll act out just about anything.
Here we go.
Gino here says,
"You both get naked and shove dildos up your asses."
Really Gino? Not happening.
Okay.
- Victor says,
"Leave the piano bar and go take a shower together."
- I don't think that sounds too crazy.
- I like that story.
Very hot, Victor,
but we're gonna have to get to 4,000 in tips first, babes,
so tip me up. - Mm-hmm.
- Oh, look at this.
They must think we're very dirty and really need a shower.
(pair giggling)
- And Rain needs 200 new subscribers,
so if you're watching and not subscribed,
be sure to hit that subscribe button right now.
- Oh wow. Thanks babes.
All righty. We will see you when we get to the shower.
(pair giggling)
(gentle music)
- What's happening?
(gentle music)
You're magical.
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
You're so beautiful.
(gentle music)
You make me so happy.
(gentle music)
Every day feels like a dream.
(gentle music)
Why aren't you responding?
(gentle music)
Do you not feel the same as I do?
(gentle music)
- I just need time.
This is all so new for me.
- What's new? Being with a woman?
(gentle music)
- I do know I'm enjoying spending my time with you.
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
- [Blake] He pays you.
- [Sterling] Yeah, because of your fucked up shit.
- [Blake] I don't do anything.
- (indistinct)
- I'm not. Are you fucking kidding me?
Stay the fuck out of it. Stay out of it.
- [Sterling] Come on.
- That's not even fucking true
(tense music)
(tense music continues)
- Good morning.
- You saw us fighting.
- Sorta. Yeah, I was just grabbing coffee.
Are you okay?
- I'm okay.
You know he's not my real uncle.
I only call him that because I've known him
since I was a kid.
He used to work at my dad's recording studio in Hollywood,
and, as I've said, he's here to make sure I behave.
- What do you mean, behave? You're a grown woman.
- My hypocrite father seems to think that I drink too much,
and that I'm predisposed to a drug addiction
because of my mother.
So stupid. Like, I'm my own fucking person.
- You said he doesn't care. Sounds like he does.
- He's a drug addict. He's a liar and a manipulator.
It's his ego, not me.
- I don't believe that.
- You don't know him.
Did your mom ever show up high
with fucking blow all over her face
to your fucking soccer games?
No?
Did your dad ever bring over $5 hookers
and do blow off their tits and their ass in front of you
while your mom was passed out in another room?
Apologies...
if it fucks me up a little bit.
- I'm sorry that that happened to you,
but why are you taking this all out on me?
We're friends.
- Right?
We're friends.
I woke up today already fucking irritated.
Now everything is pissing me off.
(book slamming)
(somber music)
- And in an instant, everything changed.
(somber music)
She would lock me out.
(somber music)
Why did she do this to me? Is this just a meaningless game?
(somber music)
I see you. I see you, Blake.
- I need to apologize for earlier.
I'm truly sorry.
I was being crazy.
- I don't know what to say.
It's like I'm on a rollercoaster with you.
- No. No.
Just... I'm working on things.
I am.
Everyone's so dramatic. I'm fine.
I just...
None of this is my fault.
Have you ever been to the south of France?
- Uh, no.
- I wanna take you there.
My dad has all the hookups.
I could take a yacht to Monaco.
It's insane. You'll love it.
(exhaling)
- Where's Sterling?
- Probably at the studio.
Fuck him. Who cares?
(sniffing)
Don't you wanna have fun with me?
- You make me bad.
(Rain sniffing) (tense music)
(tense music continues)
- [Sterling] What are you doing?
- Have you seen Blake?
Where is she?
- Therapy.
- Oh.
- Did you find any needles in there?
- Needles?
No.
- She knows if she shoots up again, it'll kill her,
and you can't rescue her.
- She hasn't said anything about needles before.
- She's an addict. That's what they do.
Keep secrets and tell lies.
- Well, what about her dad?
- He pays me to enable her
so he doesn't have to deal with it.
You're competing with a drug, and that won't change.
(somber music)
(somber music continues)
- Hey. - Hey.
(somber music)
(somber music continues)
Such a fiend.
(somber music)
You wanna come inside?
- I'm seeing someone. I can't fuck it up.
- Please. It's only a matter of time.
(somber music)
(somber music continues)
(Rain panting)
(phone bleeping)
(somber music)
- Hey, it's Blake. Text me.
I hate talking on the phone.
(birds tweeting)
(somber music)
(book thudding)
How's the studying going?
- I'm having a hard time focusing.
- Sterling told me you found some personal things of mine.
- My nose was just bleeding,
and I was just looking for something to stop it.
- I know I'm not easy to love.
Not like you.
You're easy.
(tense music)
I really am sorry. I just can't lose you.
(tense music)
(Blake groaning)
(tense music)
(Blake groaning)
(tense music continues)
(phone bleeping)
(dogs barking)
(phone buzzing)
- What's up?
- I have... I have the fucking results and I need to party.
I need something.
(coughing)
Please. Please, please.
- Yeah, come through. I'm, I'm here right now.
- I can't. I can't.
I have therapy and I can't. I can't get to you.
Can you... can you please come over tonight?
- I'll try. I don't know though.
I might be busy tonight.
I'll have to let you know.
(tense music)
(tense music continues)
- I think we should call your dad. What do you think?
- If you want.
(tense music)
(phone bleeping)
- [Richard] You've reached Richard Malone.
You know what to do.
- Hey, Richard, it's Sterling and Blake.
Just thought I'd give you a call, see what's going on.
Haven't heard from you in a while.
I know your daughter would like to hear from you.
Give us a call when you can.
Okay, talk soon. Later.
I'm sure he'll call back.
(tense music)
(tense music continues)
That girl can't come inside.
(Blake laughing)
(tense music)
- Hey, Claudia.
(pair giggling)
(water dripping)
(tense music)
- Wanna play with Claudia?
Tonight is gonna be insane. Get ready and come back.
(tense music)
(pair giggling)
(tense music)
- I got the X from one of my connects in Cathedral City.
- That was a smooth pass you did earlier.
Sterling had no fucking idea you put it in my pocket.
- You know I've always been good with my hands.
(tense music)
- Do you miss me?
- I don't want you back, but I'll fuck with you.
More party favors.
- No fucking way.
(tense music)
For when I wanna feel nothing instead of everything.
(tense music)
- You know, Sterling will have me arrested if he finds out.
- He's on the need to know basis about everything.
(pair giggling)
Damn, girl.
- Claudia invited me to the party.
- Meet Lisa, my past toxic relationship.
- Well, join us.
(tense music)
- Don't overthink it.
(tense music)
(tense music continues)
Hi, it's Claudia. Welcome to our night of debauchery.
Don't forget to hit the like and subscribe button.
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
I love you, Jenna Thayer.
- I've never said that to anyone before.
- You can say it to me.
- And here I thought you were dead inside.
- Jenna is a beautiful soul.
And she's gonna be a nurse.
She's a healer.
(gentle music)
I just want you to love me, Jenna.
Do you love me?
- I love you.
- Oh nice, Jenna. Oh, that's beautiful.
- Shit.
(panting)
Fuck.
(panting)
(somber music)
- [Blake] We made $11,000 last night.
- There's no way.
- Yes way. And 24,000 likes.
(Rain gagging)
Let me know if you need anything.
- [Rain] Mm-hmm.
(gagging)
- You really should get up and move around.
- I can't.
(somber music)
- I'll take care of you.
(tense music)
(crickets chirping)
(critters howling)
(crickets chirping) (critters howling)
You want a drink?
(tense music)
(tense music continues)
Um, do you remember what you said to me last night?
(tense music)
- What?
(tense music)
- You told me that you love me.
- Last night was really fucked up.
- Um, okay. What, what is that supposed to mean?
Does that mean that you didn't mean what you said?
- I don't know. I'm kind of freaking out right now.
I think the live stream was still on
when you called me Jenna, and then the nurse thing came up.
I fucked myself.
I was too scared to even check my fucking computer
to see what happened.
(tense music)
(critter howling)
You know, this is really creepy and I don't feel safe.
Can we please go?
- But do you remember what you said to me?
- Do you hear what I said?
I ruined my entire life last night.
- What the hell is the big deal?
You live your entire life online anyways.
I'm surprised you're not taking some kind of selfie
to document your fucking hangover right now.
(tense music)
- I can't even have this conversation with you right now.
You're clearly on something.
(tense music)
I can't even believe you're drinking again.
I'm tired of being with a druggie.
- You're right. You did fuck yourself.
Most people probably don't want some kind of
amateur porn star nurse attending to them.
Jenna.
- It's temporary.
- Decisions like these are not temporary.
I would've thought that last night
you would've had some kind of wake up call.
(tense music)
You really put yourself on blast.
I don't think you're smart enough to be a nurse.
I think most medical professionals
need some kind of common sense, more than you at least.
(tense music)
- Did you just call me stupid?
- Who the fuck are you, Jenna? Who the fuck is Rain?
You dehumanize yourself, made yourself a sexual object,
and now you wanna be taken seriously?
(tense music)
I think the ship has sailed on that one.
(tense music)
Good luck, honey.
I think you'll have better luck
going back to private bookings again.
- Fuck you for that.
You're a fucking bitch.
- How did you think the truth wouldn't come out?
Truth always comes out in the end.
(laughing)
(tense music)
(tense music continues)
Jenna.
Jenna. Jenna.
Open the door.
Jenna. (door knocking)
Open the door.
Fucking needles. Fucking needles.
(tense music)
(tense music continues)
Did my dad ever call me back?
- You need to sleep this off.
(tense music)
- Where are you going?
(somber music)
- I have a job interview.
- What job? You didn't tell me about any job.
- It's in urgent care. An internship.
- Are you sure it isn't a private booking?
Don't.
Don't leave me, please. Please.
I didn't mean to hurt you.
Please don't leave me.
It was a test to make sure you wouldn't leave me,
but I pushed you away.
I know I did.
- Just stop. I, I have to go.
- Do you think I wanna be this way?
No.
I can't control it.
I can't control who I am.
I don't wanna be alone.
I can't be alone.
Please don't leave me.
- You're right. You don't wanna be alone.
This has nothing to do with me.
You're in a toxic relationship with yourself.
- I love you, Rain.
- This isn't love.
It's a fucking train wreck.
- Please.
Please.
(somber music)
(somber music continues)
Leave me the fuck alone.
(somber music)
- [Rain] It was in that moment that I knew
it was time to let go of my past.
Forgive myself for the mistakes that I had made and move on.
(somber music)
(somber music continues)
(Blake crying)
- Hey.
(orange juice pouring)
Are you okay?
- (sniggering)
You look hot today, Uncle. That shirt looks good on you.
- Thanks.
I kind of need to run to the studio.
Are you okay if I go for a bit?
I mean, I can stay if you need me to.
- No, go.
I'm really good.
- Are you sure?
- [Blake] Yeah.
- Okay, cool.
- Have fun.
(birds tweeting)
(tense music)
(tense music continues)
I'd rather feel nothing than everything.
Maybe I'm better off alone.
Maybe I deserve all of this pain that I feel.
I love you, but I can't love myself.
I'm fucking worthless.
(tense music)
I am empty. No one has ever loved me.
My head is a very dark place.
(tense music)
In the end, I am always alone, and suddenly I felt nothing.
(somber music)
(somber music continues)
I just want you to love me, Jenna.
Do you love me?
(somber music)
(somber music continues)
You're magical.
(somber music)
(somber music continues)
- (gasping)
Oh my god.
(somber music)
Oh my god.
Help. Help somebody.
Help. Please.
Please help.
Please, please help, please.
(somber music)
(somber music continues)
I will never understand the point of life,
the loneliness, the pain we suffer.
(somber music)
(somber music continues)
If I hadn't left, maybe she'd still be here.
Maybe the pain was too deep and she had to go.
(dramatic music)
Blake will never know that she was my first love.
(gentle music)
(gentle music continues)
(no audio)