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[glass squeaks]
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[water running]
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[faucet squeaks close]
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[sniffs]
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[soft music playing]
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[inaudible]
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[students chatter indistinctly]
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[dog barks]
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Hi. [chuckles]
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Aww. Oh, my sweet boy.
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Look at me. I wanna see
your handsome face.
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Why are you always
covering it?
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[soft music continues]
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[kernels pop]
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[indistinct chatter,
laughter on TV]
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[Cathy munching]
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Not you. [laughs]
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Listen. [laughs]
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[Cathy and Benjamin Sr.
chuckling]
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[yawns, sighs]
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[dishes clatter]
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[switches click]
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[Benjamin Sr. chuckles]
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[Cathy talking]
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[indistinct chatter]
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...I'm talking about.
His name is...
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[continues indistinctly]
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Hey, I wanna talk to you all
about something.
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[door slams]
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[soft, tense music playing]
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[dogs barking]
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[motorbike revving in distance]
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[insects trilling]
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[dog barking in distance]
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[phone rings]
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Hannah, it's me. Ben.
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[Hannah, over phone] Hi.
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Where are you?
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Are you okay?
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Can you come pick me up?
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[crying]
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I'm outside of, um...
Twin Hill Pizza.
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[Hannah] What the fuck are you
doing outside right now?
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It's like 30 degrees.
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- [inhales deeply]
- Just go somewhere warm.
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I'm on my way.
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[shop bell chimes]
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[door thuds]
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[shop bell chimes]
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[door thuds]
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[Hannah] Ben.
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Hey.
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[doorknob turns]
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This is your bedroom.
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[switch clicks]
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Um...
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that's the bed.
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It's a little messy.
I'll clean up.
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Um, this is the bathroom
right back here.
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Ben?
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Bathroom.
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And, um,
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there's a toothbrush
somewhere.
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[baby crying]
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[baby crying stops]
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[sighs deeply]
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[glass clinking]
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[man] How long has it been?
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[Hannah] Since I've seen him?
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Ten years, Thomas.
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I mean, we-we like, text
"Merry Christmas,"
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but I told you
they're so like righteous
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and so perfectly grounded
and holy.
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[Thomas] I just
don't understand why they--
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[Hannah] Well, it's obviously
because he's gay, right?
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You got this.
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[Hannah] Oh, my God.
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Fuck, I should probably
check on him.
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[footsteps thudding]
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Oh, hey.
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Um, I want you to meet
my, uh, my husband--
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Mornin', sleepyhead.
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My husband, Thomas.
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- Hi.
- [Thomas] Hey,
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it's so good to finally
meet you. Come on.
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[grunts]
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I always wanted
a little brother.
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And, um, this is
your nephew, Cyrus.
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And here, have some breakfast.
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[Cyrus breathing deeply]
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[Thomas] What grade are you in?
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Um, I'm a junior.
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Sixteen, 17.
That's a great year.
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I actually teach high school,
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so it's like I get to be 17
all year round.
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I swear that's boyish charm
and not developmental arrest.
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Anyway, I-I don't know
what your plan is,
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but even if you're just gonna
stay here a-a little while,
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you probably
don't wanna fall behind.
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So Thomas is gonna, um,
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try and register you tomorrow.
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Does that sound good?
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Yeah.
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[Thomas] I'm gonna go
grade some papers.
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[sighs]
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Ben, it would probably
be helpful to know
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what exactly happened.
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I...
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came out to them
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and... they freaked.
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[clicks tongue]
Fucking dicks.
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I'm really, really sorry that
I left you alone with them.
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Can we not tell them
that I'm here?
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Of course, yeah. It's not like
I wanna send them updates.
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Is there anything else
that you need?
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The Wi-Fi?
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Mom and Dad must have shut
my service off.
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Of course they did.
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[soft music playing]
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This is gonna be groovy, Ben.
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North Wake is pretty accepting,
I gotta say.
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Some people even call it
"North Woke."
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Um, what do you teach?
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Chem.
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Yeah, I always thought
that I'd be out in the field,
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but then Teach for America
happened
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and I just fell in love
with teens.
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You know what I mean.
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I fell in love
with teaching teens.
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By the way,
I emailed administration
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that letter
that your mom sent,
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so you're all set
for enrollment.
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Letter? What letter?
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The letter that your mom sent
saying that you're gonna be
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staying with us
for the rest of the year.
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What are you--
What are you talking--
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It's a white lie.
It's no big deal.
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Now just as long as you and I
are honest with each other,
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that's all that matters.
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Totally.
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[soft music continues]
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[indistinct chatter]
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[student] Yo!
What's up, Mr. Wallace?
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Hi, Sarah.
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Yes, thank you.
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Okay, so,
fill this out for me.
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I'm gonna run and grab
your schedule real quick.
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[school bell rings]
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All right, Ben,
here is your schedule.
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Nathan...
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Perfect. Just the man
I wanted to see.
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Hey, Mr. Wallace.
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Hey, this is
my wife's brother, Ben.
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Uh, he's actually
the newest addition
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to the North Wake Crusaders.
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Hey, welcome, welcome, welcome.
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- Thanks.
- Would you mind taking him
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on a tour of the campus?
I gotta get to class.
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Uh, yeah, no problem.
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[Thomas] Awesome. Thank you.
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- Ben, I'll see you in a bit.
- Okay.
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Thank you.
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Whoa, you are fuckin' smart.
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- Thanks.
- No, no, it's cool.
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Like AP calc? I can't even pass
Trig right now,
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and I'm a year older than you.
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I guess I just like math.
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Sir Isaac Newton himself
didn't even like math.
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Somebody must like history.
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[chuckles]
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Oh, uh, you are up here
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for first period
with Miss Ranger.
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You know, we don't get
a lot of new kids.
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- Great.
- Not to fear.
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As long as you keep
your head down
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around the football dickheads,
you should be pretty good.
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Well,
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happy first day.
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[soft music plays]
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[objects clatter]
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[woman] Fuck a duck! Oh!
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[Ben] A-are you okay?
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Shit. Shoot, okay.
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Hi, hi, hi.
I'm Miss Lions. Sorry.
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I'm Ben.
Uh, Ben DeBacker.
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Yes, I got an email about you.
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Okay. This is Art 4.
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This is what we got.
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Clearly, these kids
are more theater people
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because I've seen
about two of them
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in the last six weeks.
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What is your discipline?
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Um, I draw mostly.
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Amazing.
So this is your space.
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You can spread out.
I mean, look at this.
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Look at the range of mediums
that are present.
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We have wheel.
Have you tested a wheel?
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- No.
- Have you seen Ghost?
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It's that thing
that they sit around.
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Patrick Swayze sits around
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and he holds it.
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He holds her
and he sculpts the clay.
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Make something for the art fair.
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Please.
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You're my last hope.
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Sorry-- Art fair?
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I mean, I can try.
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Paint.
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Your body needs to paint.
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Oh, okay.
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Let's go.
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- Should I follow you?
- No, go back to algebra class.
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- Yes, follow me!
- O-okay.
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["I Belong To U"
by Richard Orofino playing]
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[sighs softly]
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♪ I was thinking
about your face ♪
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♪ Thinking about the place
that we said you felt okay ♪
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♪ And I was hoping
that on your mind ♪
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♪ I could take off some time
from anything I can ♪
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♪ 'Cause I belong to
I belong to you ♪
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♪ 'Cause I belong to
I belong to you ♪
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- * I was ♪
- [knock on door]
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♪ Walking around the park ♪
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♪ Hoping that I... ♪
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[door opens]
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Mmm.
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[song fades]
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Homophobic chicken sandwich?
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Thought you'd never ask.
[chuckles]
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[door thuds]
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- Here you go.
- Thanks.
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[Hannah] This...
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All this good stuff.
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What are you workin' on?
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Oh, just sketch... sketches.
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You drawing?
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Cutting, pasting.
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[Hannah] That's cool.
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Uh, thanks for the stuff,
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by the way.
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So how's school going?
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You know, it's...
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different.
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Yeah, God, I mean,
I barely remember high school.
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Feels like it was
a thousand years ago. [chuckles]
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But, you know, I had a lot
going on back then.
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You know, Ben, I just--
[exhales]
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I don't wanna fuck you up
any more than they already have.
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[chuckles]
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They haven't called, have they?
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[Cyrus crying]
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Here.
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- [Hannah clears throat]
- [door opens]
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[door closes]
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[Cyrus continues crying]
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[soft music playing]
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[birds chirping]
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[Ben] Mom and Dad...
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I thought you'd at least call
or text me by now.
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I wish this never happened.
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[door opens]
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I was looking for you
at lunch today. Where were you?
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That open area
behind Building 3.
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Yeah, I wanted to introduce you
to Mel and Sophie.
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Maybe tomorrow you should, uh...
268
00:18:50,297 --> 00:18:51,964
come have lunch
with the cool kids.
269
00:18:53,800 --> 00:18:55,502
I don't know.
I gotta study Lit.
270
00:18:55,602 --> 00:18:57,736
I can already feel
my dyslexic ass falling behind.
271
00:18:57,737 --> 00:18:58,971
Oh, I can help you with that.
272
00:18:59,071 --> 00:19:00,940
Hey, you're-you're good
at math, right?
273
00:19:01,040 --> 00:19:04,076
'Cause somehow I am, like,
bombing Trig. [chuckles]
274
00:19:04,777 --> 00:19:05,778
Yikes.
275
00:19:10,250 --> 00:19:11,984
Mm, maybe you can summarize
Homer for me
276
00:19:12,084 --> 00:19:13,620
and I can do
your Pythagorean theorem.
277
00:19:13,720 --> 00:19:14,987
[music begins]
278
00:19:15,087 --> 00:19:16,456
That'd be dope, yes.
279
00:19:16,556 --> 00:19:19,592
["Barricade" by ilo ilo playing]
280
00:19:22,061 --> 00:19:27,634
[indistinct chatter]
281
00:19:31,438 --> 00:19:34,741
- * Hideaway,
my arms are tied ♪
- [Hannah] Oh! Hi!
282
00:19:34,874 --> 00:19:38,345
♪ When I lie awake
beneath the night ♪
283
00:19:38,978 --> 00:19:42,181
♪ Try to climb
to find some height ♪
284
00:19:42,315 --> 00:19:45,752
♪ I'm a prisoner
when I'm with you ♪
285
00:19:46,486 --> 00:19:49,789
♪ Hideaway,
my arms are tied... ♪
286
00:19:50,457 --> 00:19:51,458
[Hannah] No!
287
00:19:52,592 --> 00:19:54,327
Absolutely fucking not.
288
00:19:54,427 --> 00:19:58,331
We are not doing sad hoodies
for one more day ever.
289
00:19:58,431 --> 00:19:59,566
I like my sad hoodies.
290
00:19:59,666 --> 00:20:01,132
I know you like
your sad hoodies,
291
00:20:01,133 --> 00:20:02,735
but I think we just
need to figure out
292
00:20:02,835 --> 00:20:04,136
what your style is.
293
00:20:05,137 --> 00:20:06,539
Not that.
294
00:20:06,639 --> 00:20:08,575
- A bit formal.
- Yeah, that's...
295
00:20:08,675 --> 00:20:10,343
This-- Look.
This will match your eyes.
296
00:20:10,443 --> 00:20:11,878
That's really cute.
That's a whole outfit.
297
00:20:11,978 --> 00:20:13,479
- Yeah.
- Okay, try that on.
298
00:20:13,480 --> 00:20:16,483
So obviously, um, I-I...
299
00:20:17,049 --> 00:20:20,086
can handle the cost
of some of the, um,
300
00:20:20,186 --> 00:20:24,223
"start your life over basics,"
301
00:20:24,324 --> 00:20:25,492
but, um...
302
00:20:26,225 --> 00:20:27,527
with the baby
and everything,
303
00:20:27,627 --> 00:20:29,095
- I'm feeling just a little--
- Yeah, no.
304
00:20:29,195 --> 00:20:31,230
I was actually thinking
about getting a job.
305
00:20:31,331 --> 00:20:34,434
I mean, like, with everything
you guys have done for me, I...
306
00:20:35,802 --> 00:20:37,437
I-- You know,
I-I could use--
307
00:20:37,537 --> 00:20:38,938
I could use getting out
of the house more.
308
00:20:39,038 --> 00:20:40,940
That's exactly
what I was thinking,
309
00:20:41,040 --> 00:20:42,341
and I actually called
a friend of mine
310
00:20:42,342 --> 00:20:44,175
who has this really cool
camp thing,
311
00:20:44,176 --> 00:20:45,412
and they have an opening.
312
00:20:45,512 --> 00:20:46,946
You'll love it. It's amazing.
313
00:20:48,648 --> 00:20:50,717
[soft piano music playing]
314
00:21:40,400 --> 00:21:43,102
[birds chirping]
315
00:21:48,040 --> 00:21:49,476
[brake squeaks]
316
00:22:04,491 --> 00:22:06,758
The camp for troubled teens
is down the road.
317
00:22:06,759 --> 00:22:09,328
Um, I'm actually
looking for Chris.
318
00:22:10,563 --> 00:22:11,531
Chris!
319
00:22:12,264 --> 00:22:13,366
[chuckles softly]
320
00:22:20,006 --> 00:22:21,173
All right.
321
00:22:21,273 --> 00:22:24,043
[indistinct chatter]
322
00:22:24,143 --> 00:22:27,346
Here we have Raleigh's
one-and-only senior day camp.
323
00:22:27,447 --> 00:22:28,848
It's a place for seniors
who are suffering
324
00:22:28,948 --> 00:22:30,517
from Alzheimer's, dementia,
325
00:22:30,617 --> 00:22:32,652
or from any other disease
that affects memory function.
326
00:22:32,752 --> 00:22:35,054
So we got some
light activities and games...
327
00:22:35,154 --> 00:22:36,656
like you see there.
328
00:22:36,756 --> 00:22:38,391
We got arts and crafts.
329
00:22:38,491 --> 00:22:39,659
We even have
a nice gardening club
330
00:22:39,759 --> 00:22:40,693
that's bustling over here.
331
00:22:40,793 --> 00:22:42,161
The mums are looking excellent.
332
00:22:43,696 --> 00:22:46,332
Now, uh, Hannah tells me that
you have zero work experience.
333
00:22:46,999 --> 00:22:48,401
- No.
- All right, well, that's okay.
334
00:22:48,501 --> 00:22:50,301
We kinda work on the watch
and learn model here.
335
00:22:50,302 --> 00:22:51,904
So basically,
after school every week,
336
00:22:52,004 --> 00:22:53,805
you're gonna show up, you're
gonna monitor the clients,
337
00:22:53,806 --> 00:22:55,575
you're gonna keep your ears
and your eyes open.
338
00:22:56,108 --> 00:22:58,044
And while you are here,
you are gonna be honest,
339
00:22:58,144 --> 00:22:59,310
you're gonna be sober,
340
00:22:59,311 --> 00:23:00,913
and you're gonna be
off your phone.
341
00:23:01,013 --> 00:23:04,216
[screaming]
342
00:23:05,852 --> 00:23:07,019
What the fuck?
343
00:23:07,119 --> 00:23:08,888
- It's just scream therapy.
- Uh...
344
00:23:08,988 --> 00:23:10,557
- It's the best kind.
- [chuckles]
345
00:23:11,290 --> 00:23:13,025
I'm Ben. I heard
you guys are waiting
346
00:23:13,125 --> 00:23:15,027
- for some puzzle pieces.
- [chuckle]
347
00:23:15,127 --> 00:23:16,696
- Hey!
- [laughter]
348
00:23:18,631 --> 00:23:19,732
Where do we begin?
349
00:23:20,399 --> 00:23:23,703
[soft music plays]
350
00:23:26,405 --> 00:23:29,476
[inaudible]
351
00:23:33,179 --> 00:23:34,714
[Chris]
Welcome to the team, kid.
352
00:23:35,482 --> 00:23:37,450
- Tomorrow the real work starts.
- Thanks.
353
00:23:37,550 --> 00:23:38,718
Mm-hmm.
354
00:23:39,185 --> 00:23:42,088
["Too Bad"
by King Princess plays]
355
00:23:46,092 --> 00:23:48,527
[students chattering]
356
00:23:48,528 --> 00:23:50,429
Oh, there's-- Ben! Ben!
357
00:23:53,666 --> 00:23:55,768
These are the peeps I've been
trying to introduce you to.
358
00:23:55,868 --> 00:23:57,904
- "Peeps?" That's so--
- Troublingly masc?
359
00:23:58,004 --> 00:23:59,538
Yeah, I know. [munching]
360
00:23:59,539 --> 00:24:01,039
I'm Meleika Wilkins.
361
00:24:01,040 --> 00:24:02,708
I've tried to make
your acquaintance in homeroom,
362
00:24:02,709 --> 00:24:05,544
but you have proven yourself
quite skilled at curving me.
363
00:24:05,545 --> 00:24:07,212
- Oh! Tea.
- [Nathan] Oh. Tea.
364
00:24:07,213 --> 00:24:09,248
- [Meleika] Call me Mel though.
- I promise I'm not a dick,
365
00:24:09,348 --> 00:24:11,484
- just socially inept.
- [Sophie chuckles]
366
00:24:11,584 --> 00:24:13,653
- Same.
- [chuckles] I'm Sophie.
367
00:24:14,186 --> 00:24:15,887
Wait, you're in Art 4, right?
368
00:24:15,888 --> 00:24:18,257
Barely. Wait, are you?
369
00:24:18,858 --> 00:24:20,559
Oh, shit, I, um...
370
00:24:20,560 --> 00:24:22,428
Guess I haven't shown up yet
in that class this year.
371
00:24:22,529 --> 00:24:24,964
Sophie uses art as a free period
to get stoned
372
00:24:25,064 --> 00:24:26,999
and, uh, "build" her portfolio.
373
00:24:27,099 --> 00:24:29,101
- Yes, I do, as is my right.
- [Nathan] Uh-huh.
374
00:24:29,201 --> 00:24:30,770
- [Sophie] Mm-hmm.
- [Meleika] Ben.
375
00:24:30,870 --> 00:24:33,172
- What are you listening to?
- Oh, uh, King Princess.
376
00:24:33,272 --> 00:24:34,306
- [Nathan] Who?
- [Meleika] Oh.
377
00:24:34,406 --> 00:24:36,308
Oh, my God,
I fucking love KP.
378
00:24:36,408 --> 00:24:37,910
We gotta get you
on our Spotify Blend.
379
00:24:38,911 --> 00:24:40,446
Honestly, she could, like,
ruin my pussy.
380
00:24:40,547 --> 00:24:42,649
Ew. Bitch, we're eating.
381
00:24:42,749 --> 00:24:44,183
Okay. Whatever.
As if you don't finger yourself
382
00:24:44,283 --> 00:24:45,917
to Noah Centineo
when you can't sleep.
383
00:24:45,918 --> 00:24:47,319
[Nathan chuckles]
You know what,
384
00:24:47,419 --> 00:24:48,920
Noah is pretty dreamy though.
385
00:24:48,921 --> 00:24:49,989
I'd let him.
386
00:24:50,089 --> 00:24:51,958
The bar really is so low
for men.
387
00:24:52,725 --> 00:24:54,493
Ben, would you fuck
Noah Centineo?
388
00:24:55,294 --> 00:24:56,495
Um, no.
389
00:24:56,596 --> 00:24:57,864
[Sophie chuckles]
I knew I'd love you.
390
00:24:57,964 --> 00:24:59,198
So why'd you transfer?
391
00:25:00,466 --> 00:25:01,634
My sister lives here.
392
00:25:01,734 --> 00:25:02,768
Where was your old school?
393
00:25:02,769 --> 00:25:05,471
Okay, interrogation over.
394
00:25:05,572 --> 00:25:07,674
Fine. He passed the first test.
395
00:25:07,774 --> 00:25:10,577
Is there gonna be like
a final exam or something?
396
00:25:10,677 --> 00:25:13,680
Oh, he has jokes,
unlike someone we know.
397
00:25:13,780 --> 00:25:16,515
You know what?
Let Ben be the judge of that.
398
00:25:18,517 --> 00:25:21,053
Okay, um, enough
with the gay geekery.
399
00:25:21,153 --> 00:25:23,288
Please can we talk
about something fun?
400
00:25:23,289 --> 00:25:25,624
- Yes. Yes.
- Like Steph's party.
401
00:25:25,625 --> 00:25:27,727
Or how blackout wasted
we're gonna be
402
00:25:27,827 --> 00:25:29,328
- at Steph's party.
- [Meleika] That part.
403
00:25:29,428 --> 00:25:31,129
[Nathan] Yes! Sophie,
you read my mind.
404
00:25:31,130 --> 00:25:33,232
[Sophie] I read your mind.
Yes, I did.
405
00:25:37,870 --> 00:25:38,871
[sighs]
406
00:25:44,877 --> 00:25:47,580
My true Lord and Savior,
Benjesus Christ.
407
00:25:48,648 --> 00:25:50,516
[chuckles]
Oh, my gosh.
408
00:25:50,617 --> 00:25:51,884
- Who is this?
- That's Dabs.
409
00:25:51,984 --> 00:25:54,353
Oh, hey, Dabs.
410
00:25:55,988 --> 00:25:58,024
Oh, yeah. [chuckles]
411
00:25:59,491 --> 00:26:00,559
Welcome.
412
00:26:03,896 --> 00:26:05,364
Let me take your stuff.
413
00:26:06,198 --> 00:26:09,334
Take it off, stay a while,
hang with me.
414
00:26:09,335 --> 00:26:10,402
Thanks.
415
00:26:21,347 --> 00:26:24,083
Mm. Cool record player.
416
00:26:24,183 --> 00:26:26,118
Thanks. I mostly use Bluetooth.
417
00:26:26,218 --> 00:26:27,519
I got it for clout.
418
00:26:32,725 --> 00:26:34,894
- Oh, my God. Is this you?
- [scoffs]
419
00:26:35,862 --> 00:26:37,964
What? In the stroller?
Yeah, that was me last week.
420
00:26:38,064 --> 00:26:39,231
[chuckles]
421
00:26:41,100 --> 00:26:42,935
Hey, that's, um--
422
00:26:43,569 --> 00:26:45,237
These are dope.
423
00:26:45,838 --> 00:26:48,474
- Oh, this is--
- It's-it's nothing.
424
00:26:49,508 --> 00:26:50,643
[chuckles]
425
00:26:52,244 --> 00:26:53,646
[sighs loudly]
426
00:26:55,782 --> 00:26:58,685
Fine, okay.
It's my family tree.
427
00:27:00,286 --> 00:27:02,220
Or what was my family tree.
428
00:27:02,221 --> 00:27:04,657
Oh. Past tense.
429
00:27:04,757 --> 00:27:06,224
It's a long story.
430
00:27:06,225 --> 00:27:07,726
[clears throat]
Hey. Why does it feel like
431
00:27:07,727 --> 00:27:09,461
I-I really don't know
anything about you.
432
00:27:10,396 --> 00:27:13,132
Like, like, what do you
wanna be when you grow up?
433
00:27:13,866 --> 00:27:15,301
Seriously?
434
00:27:15,401 --> 00:27:16,635
I don't know.
435
00:27:17,269 --> 00:27:18,170
Alive.
436
00:27:18,270 --> 00:27:19,972
Wow, so emo.
437
00:27:20,072 --> 00:27:21,340
Okay. You?
438
00:27:21,808 --> 00:27:24,977
Ah, I think a writer
or a director.
439
00:27:27,113 --> 00:27:29,515
Tell me about your family.
440
00:27:29,615 --> 00:27:31,083
Tell me about the tree.
441
00:27:33,319 --> 00:27:35,754
- It's just a drawing.
- Uh-uh. Liar.
442
00:27:35,755 --> 00:27:38,524
Fine. My parents
kicked me out of the house
443
00:27:38,624 --> 00:27:42,194
because I'm non--
Not... not straight.
444
00:27:42,294 --> 00:27:45,832
"Not straight." [chuckles]
445
00:27:45,932 --> 00:27:49,268
Fuck. Sorry. I don't know-
I don't know why I laughed.
446
00:27:50,737 --> 00:27:52,138
[sighs deeply]
447
00:27:54,673 --> 00:27:56,208
That's trash.
448
00:27:56,308 --> 00:27:57,810
Boomers suck.
449
00:27:57,910 --> 00:27:59,378
Do you have your book?
450
00:28:00,246 --> 00:28:03,315
["Shadow of a Rose"
by Indigo Sparke playing]
451
00:28:09,756 --> 00:28:12,524
Yeah, just rewrite the equation
with the log terms on the side.
452
00:28:14,493 --> 00:28:17,363
♪ Oh, honey ♪
453
00:28:17,997 --> 00:28:21,367
♪ Touch my face real slow ♪
454
00:28:22,902 --> 00:28:26,806
♪ Tie my hands ♪
455
00:28:26,939 --> 00:28:30,743
♪ Let the river flow ♪
456
00:28:31,510 --> 00:28:35,247
♪ See you and dance ♪
457
00:28:35,381 --> 00:28:39,151
♪ Shadow of a rose ♪
458
00:28:39,285 --> 00:28:43,555
♪ Show me how to grow ♪
459
00:28:47,226 --> 00:28:49,728
♪ Find my car ♪
460
00:28:51,263 --> 00:28:54,967
♪ Pray it stays all night ♪
461
00:28:55,567 --> 00:28:59,305
♪ Your flower blooms ♪
462
00:28:59,438 --> 00:29:03,876
♪ Under the full moonlight ♪
463
00:29:04,443 --> 00:29:08,347
♪ See you and dance ♪
464
00:29:08,480 --> 00:29:11,083
♪ Shadow of a rose ♪
465
00:29:12,251 --> 00:29:16,188
♪ Show me how to grow ♪
466
00:29:20,292 --> 00:29:23,295
♪ Poetic dream ♪
467
00:29:24,130 --> 00:29:27,433
♪ Blooms onto your skin ♪
468
00:29:28,567 --> 00:29:31,537
♪ You search for mine ♪
469
00:29:32,905 --> 00:29:35,540
♪ Where does it begin? ♪
470
00:29:35,541 --> 00:29:37,343
[inaudible]
471
00:29:37,476 --> 00:29:40,746
♪ See you and dance ♪
472
00:29:41,313 --> 00:29:44,851
♪ Shadow of a rose ♪
473
00:29:44,984 --> 00:29:49,221
♪ Show me how to grow ♪
474
00:29:53,059 --> 00:29:56,095
[vocalizing]
475
00:30:03,903 --> 00:30:06,172
[sniffles, cries]
476
00:30:11,143 --> 00:30:12,611
[song ends]
477
00:30:12,711 --> 00:30:13,846
[sniffles]
478
00:30:15,915 --> 00:30:17,483
What's bubbling up in you?
479
00:30:17,583 --> 00:30:18,650
[earbud thuds]
480
00:30:24,991 --> 00:30:26,993
[sighs] I can't talk about it.
481
00:30:28,194 --> 00:30:30,629
Okay, well, if you can't talk
to me about it...
482
00:30:32,798 --> 00:30:34,133
you can talk to the moon.
483
00:30:36,068 --> 00:30:39,505
See, the moon has room
for everyone.
484
00:30:39,605 --> 00:30:42,607
When I needed to divorce
my ex-husband
485
00:30:42,608 --> 00:30:45,177
who is a twat, I...
486
00:30:46,178 --> 00:30:48,180
told the moon
before I told anyone.
487
00:30:50,616 --> 00:30:53,485
So why don't you give it a try?
Just... lay it out.
488
00:30:53,585 --> 00:30:55,321
[Ben sighs]
489
00:30:55,421 --> 00:30:57,623
Okay. Hi-hi, moon.
490
00:30:59,458 --> 00:31:00,927
[Miss Lions as the moon]
Hi, Ben.
491
00:31:05,864 --> 00:31:08,300
What is eating you up inside?
492
00:31:13,539 --> 00:31:14,540
Um...
493
00:31:17,143 --> 00:31:19,378
I can't be myself.
494
00:31:20,846 --> 00:31:23,249
You seem pretty yourself to me.
495
00:31:23,349 --> 00:31:25,985
No, I'm not. This--
496
00:31:27,053 --> 00:31:30,356
This isn't me.
I don't even know who I am.
497
00:31:30,957 --> 00:31:34,526
[normal voice]
Ah. The great unknown.
498
00:31:35,161 --> 00:31:38,197
Or I do,
but it's being this way,
499
00:31:38,297 --> 00:31:40,199
being nonbinary
makes me feel like
500
00:31:40,299 --> 00:31:42,333
nothing and everything
all at once,
501
00:31:42,334 --> 00:31:43,769
and it's blown up my life,
502
00:31:43,869 --> 00:31:46,672
and I just don't know
what to do with myself.
503
00:31:48,207 --> 00:31:52,278
Okay, well, what if I told you
I was nonbinary too?
504
00:31:54,180 --> 00:31:55,114
Wait, really?
505
00:31:55,214 --> 00:31:56,848
Yes, I'm the moon.
506
00:31:57,349 --> 00:31:59,385
The moon is not woman nor man.
507
00:31:59,986 --> 00:32:02,554
The moon is ancient
and yet it is modern,
508
00:32:02,654 --> 00:32:04,056
and it's also gravity,
509
00:32:04,156 --> 00:32:05,723
but that's not exactly
what we're talking about,
510
00:32:05,724 --> 00:32:07,393
and it's not really science.
511
00:32:07,493 --> 00:32:10,963
[chuckles]
512
00:32:11,763 --> 00:32:12,764
[Ben sniffles]
513
00:32:14,733 --> 00:32:16,435
Can you not tell anyone?
514
00:32:16,535 --> 00:32:19,405
This is Art 4.
Do you know how many secrets...?
515
00:32:19,505 --> 00:32:22,074
I could-- I could bring down
the government.
516
00:32:23,509 --> 00:32:24,576
[chuckles]
517
00:32:28,580 --> 00:32:31,117
And this being nonbinary...
518
00:32:31,217 --> 00:32:34,052
this is something
that wasn't understood?
519
00:32:34,053 --> 00:32:35,921
- [breathes deeply]
- [tense music plays]
520
00:32:36,022 --> 00:32:37,489
[Cathy]
What are you trying to tell us?
521
00:32:43,795 --> 00:32:46,165
I'm gonna need you
to take that back, boy.
522
00:32:46,265 --> 00:32:49,067
[Cathy] Benjamin. Benjamin,
your father is speaking to you.
523
00:32:49,068 --> 00:32:50,302
Where do you think
you're going?
524
00:32:50,402 --> 00:32:52,638
Listen to me.
God does not want this
525
00:32:52,738 --> 00:32:55,474
- for you or for this family.
- Fuck God.
526
00:32:56,542 --> 00:32:58,110
[Ben] What are you doing?
527
00:32:58,210 --> 00:33:00,112
Mom! Mom!
528
00:33:05,317 --> 00:33:07,553
You are brave.
529
00:33:07,653 --> 00:33:09,321
You are a warrior.
530
00:33:11,090 --> 00:33:13,192
Doesn't feel that way.
531
00:33:13,292 --> 00:33:14,293
[Miss Lions] Well...
532
00:33:14,993 --> 00:33:16,462
you don't need to feel it
right now.
533
00:33:16,562 --> 00:33:18,497
All you have to do is be.
534
00:33:18,597 --> 00:33:20,332
Sometimes I look at myself,
535
00:33:20,432 --> 00:33:22,268
like in the mirror, and...
536
00:33:23,602 --> 00:33:25,971
I don't recognize
what I see. I--
537
00:33:26,072 --> 00:33:29,041
Like it just doesn't look like
what I feel in my head.
538
00:33:29,141 --> 00:33:30,509
Okay, I have another message
539
00:33:30,609 --> 00:33:32,144
coming through
the channel for you,
540
00:33:32,244 --> 00:33:34,713
and that is that good art
comes from life.
541
00:33:35,314 --> 00:33:37,349
So you need to get out there
and live.
542
00:33:37,949 --> 00:33:40,386
If not for yourself,
then for the art fair.
543
00:33:40,986 --> 00:33:42,454
You know...
544
00:33:43,155 --> 00:33:46,124
how much...
I care about the art fair.
545
00:33:46,125 --> 00:33:47,826
- [school bell rings]
- Okay.
546
00:33:48,927 --> 00:33:51,997
["Slot Machine" by Charlotte
Rose Benjamin playing]
547
00:33:57,369 --> 00:34:00,839
♪ I took the ferry in
at 6:00 a.m. ♪
548
00:34:01,607 --> 00:34:05,111
♪ I don't think about
My high school friends ♪
549
00:34:05,244 --> 00:34:10,082
♪ I spend the day making up
stories in my head ♪
550
00:34:13,619 --> 00:34:17,323
♪ The tide is higher now
than yesterday ♪
551
00:34:17,456 --> 00:34:20,359
♪ I've got some problems
but they're so cliché ♪
552
00:34:20,459 --> 00:34:22,761
- [song fades]
- [car door slams]
553
00:34:22,861 --> 00:34:25,864
[woman] I'm telling you,
this is where she's living now.
554
00:34:25,964 --> 00:34:27,665
[dog barking in distance]
555
00:34:27,666 --> 00:34:28,934
[man] Well, let's find out.
556
00:34:30,736 --> 00:34:32,238
- [banging on door]
- [man] Hannah!
557
00:34:32,338 --> 00:34:34,106
- [Cyrus crying]
- It's your father!
558
00:34:37,976 --> 00:34:39,911
- Hello.
- [banging on door]
559
00:34:40,011 --> 00:34:43,282
[Cyrus crying]
560
00:34:48,620 --> 00:34:51,223
What the actual fuck are the two
of you doing here right now?
561
00:34:51,323 --> 00:34:53,091
Now, Hannah, we're not looking
to start a fight.
562
00:34:53,192 --> 00:34:54,460
Good to see you, sweetie.
563
00:34:55,227 --> 00:34:57,062
[Hannah]
That doesn't answer my question.
564
00:34:57,763 --> 00:34:59,865
[Benjamin Sr.] We just came
to see if Ben was here.
565
00:35:01,400 --> 00:35:03,969
Is that my--
Is that my grandson?
566
00:35:04,770 --> 00:35:06,205
[Hannah] No, it's not.
567
00:35:07,005 --> 00:35:09,608
And I don't know where Ben is.
I haven't seen him in a decade.
568
00:35:09,708 --> 00:35:11,643
Hey, don't you lie to me, girl.
569
00:35:11,743 --> 00:35:13,479
[Hannah] Why? Did you
kick him out or something?
570
00:35:13,579 --> 00:35:16,482
[Benjamin Sr.] Ben had a choice.
Ben chose wrong.
571
00:35:17,416 --> 00:35:20,152
- You mean because he's gay?
- [Cyrus crying]
572
00:35:20,252 --> 00:35:21,320
Is that what he said?
573
00:35:23,255 --> 00:35:25,491
[scoffs]
That's not even the half of it.
574
00:35:26,758 --> 00:35:28,226
Ben! Benjamin!
575
00:35:28,227 --> 00:35:29,628
- Son?
- Benjamin!
576
00:35:29,728 --> 00:35:31,597
- Get off my property.
- [Benjamin Sr.] Ben!
577
00:35:31,697 --> 00:35:33,465
Yeah, you know what, we might
have to call the police
578
00:35:33,565 --> 00:35:34,899
'cause I would like to hear
what they have to say
579
00:35:34,900 --> 00:35:36,234
about you kidnapping
your brother.
580
00:35:36,235 --> 00:35:38,170
Kidnapping my brother?
581
00:35:38,270 --> 00:35:39,938
You kicked him out of the house.
582
00:35:40,038 --> 00:35:41,272
- You abandoned him.
- Please.
583
00:35:41,273 --> 00:35:42,674
- Get off my property!
- Come on, Cathy!
584
00:35:42,774 --> 00:35:43,908
I want my son back!
585
00:35:43,909 --> 00:35:46,612
- We've got to go!
- [Cyrus crying]
586
00:35:55,821 --> 00:35:59,157
[dogs barking]
587
00:36:01,960 --> 00:36:04,296
- [Cyrus sobbing]
- I'm gonna put Cyrus to bed,
588
00:36:04,396 --> 00:36:06,998
and when I get back, I wanna
know what exactly is going on.
589
00:36:07,098 --> 00:36:10,602
[footsteps loudly tapping]
590
00:36:32,358 --> 00:36:33,359
[Ben exhales]
591
00:36:35,494 --> 00:36:37,062
I'm nonbinary.
592
00:36:41,600 --> 00:36:42,568
Okay.
593
00:36:45,203 --> 00:36:47,739
Yeah. All right, buddy.
That's cool.
594
00:36:47,839 --> 00:36:49,040
What's that feel like?
595
00:36:51,543 --> 00:36:53,512
Makes me feel like I don't fit.
596
00:36:54,880 --> 00:36:56,848
Like I don't have a place.
597
00:36:56,948 --> 00:36:58,850
My body's always felt weird.
598
00:36:59,518 --> 00:37:01,820
My brain's always felt weird.
It's like...
599
00:37:03,154 --> 00:37:04,723
I'm not supposed to be here.
600
00:37:05,724 --> 00:37:08,226
Not like I wanna kill myself
or anything.
601
00:37:09,695 --> 00:37:11,329
Just something's
always felt off.
602
00:37:11,330 --> 00:37:14,164
I don't feel totally like a boy,
603
00:37:14,165 --> 00:37:15,434
or like a girl.
604
00:37:16,802 --> 00:37:18,370
It's like I feel in-between.
605
00:37:19,170 --> 00:37:21,440
It's like stuck in-between.
606
00:37:21,540 --> 00:37:24,743
So, um, what are you?
607
00:37:26,512 --> 00:37:28,212
Like, uh, uh, your, uh...
608
00:37:28,213 --> 00:37:29,881
- Pronouns.
- [Hannah] Pronouns.
609
00:37:29,981 --> 00:37:31,383
Yeah, I, I just--
610
00:37:31,483 --> 00:37:32,784
I wanna get it right.
[chuckles]
611
00:37:34,653 --> 00:37:38,690
I've-I've never really
said this, I guess. I...
612
00:37:40,058 --> 00:37:41,126
I don't know.
613
00:37:41,593 --> 00:37:43,695
People use they and them.
614
00:37:44,229 --> 00:37:46,865
There are a lot of them.
615
00:37:47,399 --> 00:37:49,267
So I'm not sure yet.
616
00:37:51,770 --> 00:37:53,605
They/Them feels like
it could be right.
617
00:37:54,205 --> 00:37:56,308
Do you want us
to start using that?
618
00:37:57,008 --> 00:37:58,208
[Hannah] Yeah.
619
00:37:58,209 --> 00:37:59,544
Sure. [chuckles]
620
00:37:59,545 --> 00:38:00,612
Great.
621
00:38:01,212 --> 00:38:02,981
But only at home, I think.
622
00:38:03,081 --> 00:38:05,384
Like, I don't want people
at school to know right now.
623
00:38:06,418 --> 00:38:09,254
[Thomas] I-I-I bet they would
all be cool with it.
624
00:38:09,355 --> 00:38:10,721
I'm already the new kid.
625
00:38:10,722 --> 00:38:12,991
Yeah, no, Thomas isn't
gonna say anything.
626
00:38:13,091 --> 00:38:14,426
And, uh...
627
00:38:14,960 --> 00:38:17,062
we will try to get it right
here at home.
628
00:38:20,098 --> 00:38:21,767
Like Demi Lovato,
629
00:38:21,867 --> 00:38:23,935
they use they/them, right?
630
00:38:24,035 --> 00:38:24,936
Oh.
631
00:38:25,036 --> 00:38:26,605
She went back to she.
632
00:38:26,705 --> 00:38:28,940
- [Thomas] Oh.
- So you can flip?
633
00:38:29,040 --> 00:38:30,241
It's messy.
634
00:38:31,309 --> 00:38:33,144
- I was all nervous. This--
- [Thomas] Wow.
635
00:38:33,244 --> 00:38:35,347
I thought this was gonna be
like a whole thing.
636
00:38:35,447 --> 00:38:38,650
We thought you were gonna say,
like, you killed someone.
637
00:38:38,750 --> 00:38:40,752
Oh, my God. [chuckles]
638
00:38:43,221 --> 00:38:45,491
[soft music playing]
639
00:38:49,728 --> 00:38:51,630
How long have you been in love
with Batman?
640
00:38:52,931 --> 00:38:54,132
My kryptonite.
641
00:38:54,566 --> 00:38:55,534
Forever.
642
00:38:56,334 --> 00:38:58,937
My brother would pass down
his old comics growing up and...
643
00:38:59,671 --> 00:39:00,872
I just got hooked.
644
00:39:01,573 --> 00:39:03,675
And then this guy James Tynion
took over a few years ago.
645
00:39:03,775 --> 00:39:05,511
He added all these
queer characters.
646
00:39:06,177 --> 00:39:07,679
It's kind of a breakthrough
moment for me
647
00:39:07,779 --> 00:39:09,615
as a lifelong fan. Mmm.
648
00:39:10,148 --> 00:39:12,450
I felt like seen in some way.
649
00:39:12,451 --> 00:39:13,519
Validated.
650
00:39:14,119 --> 00:39:15,887
Like I belong in gay Gotham.
651
00:39:17,589 --> 00:39:20,025
But it's not bad.
652
00:39:20,125 --> 00:39:21,960
I just moved
a few paragraphs around.
653
00:39:22,528 --> 00:39:23,995
Blessings received.
654
00:39:24,630 --> 00:39:27,298
Yeah, getting through this play
was like literary warfare.
655
00:39:27,833 --> 00:39:31,236
Next time, read it
out loud, perform it.
656
00:39:31,336 --> 00:39:32,571
You know Shakespeare
was all just like
657
00:39:32,671 --> 00:39:34,472
cross-dressing and drag queens,
658
00:39:34,473 --> 00:39:37,308
so I just channel
my inner Sasha Velour.
659
00:39:37,843 --> 00:39:38,976
Really hits different.
660
00:39:38,977 --> 00:39:40,345
Mm. Yeah, you know,
661
00:39:40,446 --> 00:39:43,415
I'd-I'd rather lodge this
into my trachea.
662
00:39:44,850 --> 00:39:47,085
You're kind of a serious person,
aren't you, Ben?
663
00:39:48,987 --> 00:39:51,256
Am I? I don't know.
664
00:39:51,356 --> 00:39:54,593
I just try to avoid
embarrassment at all costs.
665
00:39:55,193 --> 00:39:56,695
And my brain's always full.
666
00:39:57,896 --> 00:39:59,998
[pen scratching]
667
00:40:05,971 --> 00:40:08,540
- Mm... what are you doing?
- I'm releasing
668
00:40:08,640 --> 00:40:10,609
your crown chakra.
669
00:40:12,811 --> 00:40:14,412
My mom is a Reiki practitioner.
670
00:40:14,513 --> 00:40:16,681
It's probably bullshit,
but like,
671
00:40:16,682 --> 00:40:18,850
you need to chill. [chuckles]
672
00:40:19,585 --> 00:40:21,887
[sighs] Hey, um,
673
00:40:22,588 --> 00:40:24,389
I lied to you.
674
00:40:24,490 --> 00:40:25,691
Oh.
675
00:40:26,191 --> 00:40:27,793
I-I just--
Like when you asked
676
00:40:27,893 --> 00:40:29,394
what happened with my parents,
677
00:40:29,495 --> 00:40:31,296
and I said
that I was not straight...
678
00:40:32,197 --> 00:40:35,801
What I meant to say was, like,
I'm not cis.
679
00:40:38,103 --> 00:40:40,772
Now that you say it,
I am feeling a vibe.
680
00:40:40,872 --> 00:40:41,940
[pen thuds softly]
681
00:40:42,040 --> 00:40:43,742
What the fuck does that mean?
682
00:40:43,842 --> 00:40:45,477
Uh, just like a...
683
00:40:46,411 --> 00:40:48,413
a vibe, you know?
684
00:40:49,047 --> 00:40:50,782
You have a soft aura and...
685
00:40:51,583 --> 00:40:53,585
you're really, like,
graceful and...
686
00:40:54,452 --> 00:40:56,454
ethereal almost.
687
00:40:57,355 --> 00:40:58,423
[pen thuds softly]
688
00:41:00,425 --> 00:41:02,293
So is it giving they/them?
689
00:41:04,429 --> 00:41:06,231
Yeah, it's giving they/them.
690
00:41:08,634 --> 00:41:10,268
You're cute when you blush.
691
00:41:15,206 --> 00:41:17,241
Shit, now I'm blushing.
692
00:41:17,242 --> 00:41:18,744
[chuckles]
693
00:41:19,745 --> 00:41:22,981
[soft music playing]
694
00:41:35,627 --> 00:41:37,762
I stole this Easy-Bake Oven
back from my little cousin
695
00:41:37,763 --> 00:41:39,030
after she complained
that it wasn't
696
00:41:39,130 --> 00:41:40,799
the right shade of pink.
697
00:41:41,967 --> 00:41:44,202
On this fine eve,
I thought I'd try
698
00:41:44,302 --> 00:41:47,005
my famous
Lunchable pizza recipe.
699
00:41:51,643 --> 00:41:54,512
[soft music continues]
700
00:42:22,507 --> 00:42:23,575
[music ends]
701
00:42:23,675 --> 00:42:26,077
[school bell rings]
702
00:42:27,212 --> 00:42:29,314
[footsteps tapping]
703
00:42:34,385 --> 00:42:36,087
Are you okay, little nymph?
704
00:42:36,822 --> 00:42:38,924
Yeah, it's just...
705
00:42:40,291 --> 00:42:41,392
[sighs] Mmm.
706
00:42:41,492 --> 00:42:43,428
It's just what?
It's just nothing.
707
00:42:43,528 --> 00:42:45,996
This is... This is boring.
708
00:42:45,997 --> 00:42:48,199
This is spiritually bereft.
709
00:42:48,299 --> 00:42:50,368
This is a blank canvas.
710
00:42:50,468 --> 00:42:53,438
Okay, you have to make something
that burns with your passion,
711
00:42:53,538 --> 00:42:55,206
with your rage,
with your humanity.
712
00:42:55,306 --> 00:42:57,275
All I can think about is Nathan.
713
00:42:57,876 --> 00:42:59,611
Then paint Nathan.
714
00:42:59,711 --> 00:43:02,080
Let it out. Call it art therapy.
715
00:43:02,180 --> 00:43:06,051
Tuck deep into
that yoni energy, okay?
716
00:43:06,151 --> 00:43:08,018
And don't tell anyone
I said that to a teenager.
717
00:43:08,019 --> 00:43:09,520
["Tongue Tied"
by Charlotte Lawrence playing]
718
00:43:09,655 --> 00:43:12,624
♪ Darling you were
a rolling stone ♪
719
00:43:12,758 --> 00:43:15,927
♪ I could never hold you down ♪
720
00:43:16,061 --> 00:43:18,864
♪ You always had
a place to go ♪
721
00:43:19,397 --> 00:43:22,033
♪ After all the lights
went out ♪
722
00:43:22,167 --> 00:43:25,270
♪ And now you ♪
723
00:43:25,403 --> 00:43:27,172
♪ When the words
you were saving ♪
724
00:43:27,305 --> 00:43:29,440
♪ Are now in the graveyard ♪
725
00:43:29,574 --> 00:43:31,677
♪ Oh ♪
726
00:43:31,810 --> 00:43:34,512
♪ I got nothing
to say out loud ♪
727
00:43:34,646 --> 00:43:37,816
♪ Now everyone's tongue tied ♪
728
00:43:37,949 --> 00:43:40,952
♪ Forgot how we loved like ♪
729
00:43:41,086 --> 00:43:44,389
♪ Like we were everything ♪
730
00:43:44,522 --> 00:43:47,725
♪ And now we're enemies... ♪
731
00:43:47,726 --> 00:43:49,427
- Hey.
- Jesus.
732
00:43:49,527 --> 00:43:51,462
- Thomas.
- [song playing over earbud]
733
00:43:51,562 --> 00:43:52,563
Oh.
734
00:43:53,899 --> 00:43:55,300
- Is that, uh--
- No.
735
00:43:57,102 --> 00:43:59,470
Looks just like him.
Someone has a crush.
736
00:43:59,570 --> 00:44:01,439
Gay king or--
Shoot, are you gay?
737
00:44:02,240 --> 00:44:03,508
Look, Ben...
738
00:44:04,042 --> 00:44:05,643
I'm sorry.
That was insensitive.
739
00:44:05,744 --> 00:44:07,846
I'm-I'm-I'm new to this
big brother/uncle thing.
740
00:44:07,946 --> 00:44:09,747
- I-I'm learning how to--
- Well, you can bow out
741
00:44:09,748 --> 00:44:11,581
at any time if it's too much
of a strain on you.
742
00:44:11,582 --> 00:44:12,851
That's not what I'm saying.
743
00:44:12,951 --> 00:44:15,153
I know it's not easy
to feel different.
744
00:44:15,586 --> 00:44:18,088
When I was young, I was way
more emotional than other guys.
745
00:44:18,089 --> 00:44:20,090
- I didn't like sports--
- Wow, that must have been
746
00:44:20,091 --> 00:44:23,461
so hard for you
being marginalized like that.
747
00:44:23,561 --> 00:44:25,697
I'm just trying to relate
to you, buddy.
748
00:44:26,564 --> 00:44:27,833
We're on the same side.
749
00:44:31,970 --> 00:44:34,806
So what's fun about this
is that you don't always need
750
00:44:34,906 --> 00:44:36,374
a reason to be choosing a color.
751
00:44:36,474 --> 00:44:38,943
More important
that you get the feeling
752
00:44:38,944 --> 00:44:41,880
out onto the page,
if you feel me.
753
00:44:43,314 --> 00:44:44,382
[paint splatters]
754
00:44:44,916 --> 00:44:46,684
- Christine.
- [laughs]
755
00:44:46,785 --> 00:44:48,119
That's funny to you?
756
00:44:50,421 --> 00:44:52,323
You got me. You got me, okay?
757
00:44:53,358 --> 00:44:54,459
I'm done.
758
00:44:56,094 --> 00:44:57,128
[sighs loudly]
759
00:45:00,031 --> 00:45:02,533
[indistinct TV chatter]
760
00:45:14,045 --> 00:45:15,847
[Hannah] Benji, where are you?
761
00:45:17,348 --> 00:45:18,716
I'm upstairs.
762
00:45:22,888 --> 00:45:23,821
Mmm.
763
00:45:23,822 --> 00:45:25,991
[footsteps approaching]
764
00:45:27,358 --> 00:45:28,358
[sighs]
765
00:45:28,359 --> 00:45:30,228
[footsteps tapping]
766
00:45:30,328 --> 00:45:31,362
[knock on door]
767
00:45:31,462 --> 00:45:33,198
- Come in.
- [door opens]
768
00:45:33,731 --> 00:45:35,066
- Hey.
- Hi.
769
00:45:37,568 --> 00:45:40,170
Thank you so much
for watching him.
770
00:45:40,171 --> 00:45:42,073
- Sure.
- [softly] Hey, baby.
771
00:45:43,641 --> 00:45:44,609
Um...
772
00:45:45,176 --> 00:45:46,277
Thomas said that you guys
773
00:45:46,377 --> 00:45:47,879
had a little bit
of a disagreement.
774
00:45:48,546 --> 00:45:50,348
Yeah, it's fine. I'm over it.
775
00:45:51,216 --> 00:45:52,550
[Cyrus cooing]
776
00:45:52,650 --> 00:45:54,452
He said you were pretty upset.
777
00:45:55,486 --> 00:45:58,790
Well, yeah, him comparing
being a vaguely emo straight man
778
00:45:58,890 --> 00:46:00,591
to being nonbinary upset me.
779
00:46:00,691 --> 00:46:02,627
You know, people say shit
all the time
780
00:46:02,727 --> 00:46:03,962
that they don't mean.
781
00:46:04,729 --> 00:46:07,765
And I think part of growing up
is just...
782
00:46:08,333 --> 00:46:10,568
learning how to not take it
so personally.
783
00:46:10,668 --> 00:46:12,070
Can you stop trying
to parent me?
784
00:46:12,170 --> 00:46:13,972
You're not really giving me
much of a choice.
785
00:46:14,072 --> 00:46:15,873
Well, maybe you could just focus
on your own kid.
786
00:46:15,874 --> 00:46:18,276
- [chuckles]
- [Cyrus cooing]
787
00:46:18,376 --> 00:46:19,377
You know,
788
00:46:20,011 --> 00:46:22,447
we grew up
in the same household.
789
00:46:23,014 --> 00:46:26,550
You and I, we-we had the same,
a lot of the same experiences,
790
00:46:26,551 --> 00:46:29,120
and you don't know
what it is I went through.
791
00:46:29,587 --> 00:46:30,989
Right. I don't.
792
00:46:32,190 --> 00:46:34,559
I only know what it was like
to live in your shadow.
793
00:46:35,560 --> 00:46:37,162
And you don't know
anything about me.
794
00:46:37,262 --> 00:46:38,930
You don't even know
when my birthday is.
795
00:46:39,030 --> 00:46:40,765
Of course I know
when your birthday is.
796
00:46:40,866 --> 00:46:42,600
- When is it?
- It's, um...
797
00:46:42,700 --> 00:46:43,668
Mm?
798
00:46:43,768 --> 00:46:44,769
[clicks tongue]
799
00:46:45,736 --> 00:46:46,938
- It's...
- Today, Hannah.
800
00:46:47,038 --> 00:46:48,306
It's literally today.
801
00:46:50,241 --> 00:46:51,409
[Ben sighs loudly]
802
00:46:52,110 --> 00:46:54,912
[laughter, cheering]
803
00:46:54,913 --> 00:46:58,683
["On The Regular"
by Shamir playing]
804
00:46:59,484 --> 00:47:01,751
I just wanna confirm
that is the bat signal
805
00:47:01,752 --> 00:47:04,522
- on your cheek, right?
- I don't know, maybe.
806
00:47:04,655 --> 00:47:06,557
♪ But really, how long
till the world realize? ♪
807
00:47:06,691 --> 00:47:08,426
♪ Yes, yes I'm the best,
Fuck what you heard ♪
808
00:47:08,559 --> 00:47:10,361
♪ Anything less
is obviously absurd ♪
809
00:47:10,495 --> 00:47:12,797
♪ Haters get the bird,
More like an eagle... ♪
810
00:47:12,898 --> 00:47:14,665
Promise you won't make fun
of me, but--
811
00:47:14,765 --> 00:47:16,367
Uh, are you being vuln?
812
00:47:16,467 --> 00:47:17,767
Wait, can I film this
for my records?
813
00:47:17,768 --> 00:47:19,137
It's such a rare sight
to behold.
814
00:47:19,237 --> 00:47:21,506
I've never been
to a party before.
815
00:47:21,606 --> 00:47:23,174
What? How?
816
00:47:23,274 --> 00:47:25,643
I was a loser at my old school
817
00:47:25,743 --> 00:47:28,846
and I grew up in a dry town,
and no one drank.
818
00:47:28,947 --> 00:47:31,949
Wow, babe, I'm honored.
819
00:47:31,950 --> 00:47:34,784
- Th-this is a--
- Hey! Welcome to Hell, faggots.
820
00:47:34,785 --> 00:47:38,156
- Hey, you're already fucked up.
- Hey! I know.
821
00:47:38,256 --> 00:47:39,490
Oh, give me some,
give me some.
822
00:47:39,590 --> 00:47:41,492
[Steph] Oh, my God.
Are you smoking in here?
823
00:47:41,592 --> 00:47:42,860
- Okay.
- My parents are gonna kill me
824
00:47:42,961 --> 00:47:44,395
- if they smell that.
- Okay. Okay!
825
00:47:44,495 --> 00:47:46,031
- [overlapping chatter]
- [Nathan] Hi, Stephanie.
826
00:47:46,131 --> 00:47:48,333
- Thank you for having us.
- [screaming]
827
00:47:48,433 --> 00:47:50,134
- [Steph] Go!
- Bye, White girl.
828
00:47:50,135 --> 00:47:51,702
[Ben] Are we not supposed
to be here?
829
00:47:51,802 --> 00:47:53,303
[Nathan] Oh, let's not get
caught up in the details.
830
00:47:53,304 --> 00:47:54,972
Don't worry about it.
Don't worry about it.
831
00:47:54,973 --> 00:47:56,207
Hey, yo, where's Mel?
832
00:47:57,442 --> 00:47:59,177
She's over there
standing with Todd.
833
00:48:00,711 --> 00:48:03,248
[inaudible]
834
00:48:04,115 --> 00:48:06,417
- No, I've never done that.
- Oh, God, this is painful.
835
00:48:06,517 --> 00:48:08,353
- Here.
- Oh. Come on. Do it.
836
00:48:08,453 --> 00:48:10,155
- It'll be fun.
- Okay, fine, whatever.
837
00:48:11,957 --> 00:48:13,891
- Here we go, baby's first hit.
- Hey, hey, hey.
838
00:48:13,992 --> 00:48:15,993
[coughs]
839
00:48:15,994 --> 00:48:18,196
- What, what, what?
- I blew it.
840
00:48:18,829 --> 00:48:20,765
- I, like, completely blew it.
- Okay, honey, you're okay.
841
00:48:20,865 --> 00:48:22,767
We just need to get you, like,
slightly more fucked up, okay?
842
00:48:22,867 --> 00:48:24,001
- No. No, I don't need--
- No-- Yes, you do.
843
00:48:24,002 --> 00:48:25,203
Oh, baby.
844
00:48:26,304 --> 00:48:29,407
Time to be real!
845
00:48:32,743 --> 00:48:35,113
Oh, my God. [coughs]
846
00:48:35,213 --> 00:48:39,117
Oh, whoa, whoa.
Bubba, baby boy, slow down.
847
00:48:39,217 --> 00:48:42,420
The night, like a bald sapling,
is still young.
848
00:48:42,520 --> 00:48:44,189
Much growth on the horizon.
849
00:48:45,090 --> 00:48:47,558
You know, I thought being drunk
would make you funnier,
850
00:48:47,658 --> 00:48:49,727
but I don't think it does.
[laughs]
851
00:48:49,827 --> 00:48:51,728
- [Nathan] Oh, no.
- Give me that shit back.
852
00:48:51,729 --> 00:48:53,731
Oh. Hey, yo, Todd, wait up.
853
00:48:53,831 --> 00:48:55,300
- Hey. What's up Nathan?
- Hey, uh,
854
00:48:55,400 --> 00:48:57,034
my friend Mel over there
was wondering
855
00:48:57,035 --> 00:48:58,868
if you could show her
the movie theater.
856
00:48:58,869 --> 00:49:00,405
Yeah, sure.
857
00:49:01,272 --> 00:49:02,407
- Hey.
- Hi.
858
00:49:02,507 --> 00:49:03,741
I'll, uh, show you around.
859
00:49:03,841 --> 00:49:05,110
- Okay.
- [chuckles]
860
00:49:05,210 --> 00:49:06,710
[Meleika] Let's do it.
861
00:49:06,711 --> 00:49:08,479
[whispers]
What the fuck?
862
00:49:09,180 --> 00:49:10,380
Uh-huh?
863
00:49:10,381 --> 00:49:13,451
["Immaterial" by Sophie playing]
864
00:49:17,222 --> 00:49:18,256
Come on.
865
00:49:19,590 --> 00:49:20,791
Baby!
866
00:49:20,891 --> 00:49:23,294
Baby! [laughing]
867
00:49:23,394 --> 00:49:25,463
Oh, yeah! [chuckling]
868
00:49:26,297 --> 00:49:27,298
♪ Immaterial ♪
869
00:49:29,467 --> 00:49:30,701
♪ We're just ♪
870
00:49:30,835 --> 00:49:34,239
♪ Im-ma-ma-material,
immaterial ♪
871
00:49:34,372 --> 00:49:37,542
♪ Immaterial boys,
immaterial girls ♪
872
00:49:37,675 --> 00:49:40,811
♪ Im-ma-ma-material,
immaterial ♪
873
00:49:43,181 --> 00:49:44,849
♪ We're just... ♪
874
00:49:47,985 --> 00:49:50,688
- [door thuds]
- [muffled upbeat music playing]
875
00:49:54,392 --> 00:49:55,360
[sighs loudly]
876
00:50:25,490 --> 00:50:27,792
[phone vibrating]
877
00:50:35,266 --> 00:50:38,403
[Cathy on voicemail] Benjamin.
Sweetie, it's your mom calling,
878
00:50:38,503 --> 00:50:40,571
wishing you a happy birthday.
879
00:50:40,671 --> 00:50:42,306
[sighs] Wish I could see you.
880
00:50:42,307 --> 00:50:44,008
- [continues indistinctly]
- [Nathan] Ben, you good?
881
00:50:44,109 --> 00:50:45,710
Yeah, sorry.
882
00:50:49,780 --> 00:50:51,316
- Oh!
- Ben, are you okay?
883
00:50:56,521 --> 00:50:57,555
Ben!
884
00:50:57,655 --> 00:51:01,992
Oh, what the fuck? [cries]
885
00:51:03,728 --> 00:51:06,131
[laughing]
886
00:51:07,064 --> 00:51:08,366
Oh, my God. You've lost it.
887
00:51:09,800 --> 00:51:11,869
[crying]
888
00:51:16,241 --> 00:51:18,343
[somber music plays]
889
00:51:20,678 --> 00:51:22,747
- Oh, babe.
- [sobbing]
890
00:51:22,847 --> 00:51:24,215
- Oh...
- [sobbing continues]
891
00:51:25,250 --> 00:51:26,251
[whispers] It's okay.
892
00:51:27,685 --> 00:51:29,387
- Oh, no.
- [sobbing continues]
893
00:51:29,487 --> 00:51:31,256
Shh... Shh-shh.
894
00:51:31,356 --> 00:51:33,090
[insects trilling]
895
00:51:33,191 --> 00:51:35,359
[soft dramatic music playing]
896
00:51:35,360 --> 00:51:36,727
[Nathan sighs]
897
00:51:36,827 --> 00:51:38,195
I come here when I feel nuts,
898
00:51:38,196 --> 00:51:40,898
and clearly,
you're spiraling, so...
899
00:51:43,368 --> 00:51:44,369
[Ben grunts softly]
900
00:51:48,373 --> 00:51:49,740
My mom called me.
901
00:51:51,709 --> 00:51:52,810
What'd she say?
902
00:51:56,347 --> 00:51:58,048
[Ben sighs]
903
00:52:01,752 --> 00:52:03,120
Yeah, parents
don't know what to do
904
00:52:03,221 --> 00:52:05,590
when their kids don't turn out
just like them.
905
00:52:07,558 --> 00:52:10,428
My-my mom's sister
won't even look me in the eyes
906
00:52:10,528 --> 00:52:11,762
just cause I'm bi.
907
00:52:13,130 --> 00:52:14,131
Really?
908
00:52:16,133 --> 00:52:17,335
Yeah, for real.
909
00:52:21,872 --> 00:52:22,973
Could I hear it?
910
00:52:29,780 --> 00:52:32,717
[Cathy on voicemail] Benjamin.
Sweetie, it's your mom calling.
911
00:52:32,817 --> 00:52:35,453
Wishing you
a happy birthday. [sighs]
912
00:52:35,553 --> 00:52:36,821
- Wait.
- Wish I could see you.
913
00:52:36,921 --> 00:52:38,155
Wait, it's your birthday?
914
00:52:39,224 --> 00:52:41,826
[Cathy] Um, we regret
how we behaved.
915
00:52:41,926 --> 00:52:44,995
Happy fucking birthday,
Ben DeBacker!
916
00:52:45,095 --> 00:52:47,597
- [laughs, smooches]
- I actually wanted to see if--
917
00:52:47,598 --> 00:52:50,335
- [continues indistinctly]
- [smooching]
918
00:52:52,002 --> 00:52:53,003
Thanks.
919
00:52:56,574 --> 00:52:58,843
So, what-what do you wanna do?
920
00:53:00,578 --> 00:53:02,780
Mmm, sleep on it.
921
00:53:03,848 --> 00:53:06,483
- The room is spinning.
- [chuckles]
922
00:53:06,484 --> 00:53:07,618
Aww.
923
00:53:08,286 --> 00:53:10,154
Baby's first drunk.
924
00:53:10,255 --> 00:53:12,357
- Mm.
- [both chuckle]
925
00:53:13,691 --> 00:53:14,958
Let's go to bed.
926
00:53:14,959 --> 00:53:16,026
[Ben sniffles]
927
00:53:19,697 --> 00:53:20,698
[sniffles]
928
00:53:25,102 --> 00:53:28,172
- [insects trilling]
- [birds chirping]
929
00:53:28,673 --> 00:53:29,674
[Ben sighs]
930
00:53:38,616 --> 00:53:40,818
[soft dramatic music playing]
931
00:54:00,905 --> 00:54:02,006
[music ends]
932
00:54:13,217 --> 00:54:14,719
What the hell, Ben?
933
00:54:14,819 --> 00:54:16,387
- What?
- Where have you been?
934
00:54:16,487 --> 00:54:18,055
I've been worried sick.
935
00:54:18,155 --> 00:54:21,191
I'm sorry.
I spent the night at Nathan's.
936
00:54:22,192 --> 00:54:25,563
[sighs] If you wanna live
under this roof in my house,
937
00:54:25,663 --> 00:54:27,197
you have to communicate.
938
00:54:28,333 --> 00:54:29,600
I said I'm sorry.
939
00:54:30,167 --> 00:54:32,803
I'm sorry, I don't mean it
like that, just...
940
00:54:34,238 --> 00:54:36,874
I mean, please text me
next time.
941
00:54:37,508 --> 00:54:38,576
I will.
942
00:54:41,512 --> 00:54:43,380
I'm just scared.
943
00:54:43,381 --> 00:54:45,716
- [sighs] Yeah.
- Yeah.
944
00:54:48,085 --> 00:54:49,153
You look great.
945
00:54:50,388 --> 00:54:51,889
How was your birthday?
946
00:54:54,091 --> 00:54:55,159
Really good.
947
00:55:08,305 --> 00:55:09,774
Why did you leave?
948
00:55:14,579 --> 00:55:15,780
I got pregnant.
949
00:55:16,714 --> 00:55:18,115
By Joel?
950
00:55:18,916 --> 00:55:20,084
Yeah, by Joel.
951
00:55:21,285 --> 00:55:22,520
Shit.
952
00:55:22,620 --> 00:55:24,021
And he-he and I talked about it,
953
00:55:24,121 --> 00:55:25,923
and he was really, um...
954
00:55:28,292 --> 00:55:31,195
really supportive
of me getting an abortion.
955
00:55:31,295 --> 00:55:33,263
Until Mom and Dad got to him.
956
00:55:35,600 --> 00:55:37,334
They tried to make me go
957
00:55:37,435 --> 00:55:39,303
to some place in Utah
to have the kid,
958
00:55:39,404 --> 00:55:40,770
and then give it up
for adoption,
959
00:55:40,771 --> 00:55:42,773
and I was like, "Fuck that."
960
00:55:43,240 --> 00:55:44,975
So I ran away.
961
00:55:45,510 --> 00:55:48,178
I took a Greyhound to DC.
962
00:55:49,079 --> 00:55:50,848
And I took care of business.
963
00:55:52,450 --> 00:55:54,819
And then when I tried
to come home, they--
964
00:55:54,919 --> 00:55:56,186
Wait, you tried to come home?
965
00:55:56,286 --> 00:55:57,388
Yeah.
966
00:55:58,322 --> 00:55:59,323
Yeah.
967
00:56:00,858 --> 00:56:03,394
They, uh, they said
that I was not welcome
968
00:56:03,494 --> 00:56:04,895
in-in their home.
969
00:56:07,131 --> 00:56:09,900
Hannah, they told me
you were a drug addict.
970
00:56:12,169 --> 00:56:13,404
I went through all that,
971
00:56:13,504 --> 00:56:14,772
and they said
I was a drug addict?
972
00:56:14,872 --> 00:56:16,841
[chuckles]
973
00:56:16,941 --> 00:56:19,009
I've never even smoked pot.
974
00:56:19,109 --> 00:56:20,545
[breathes heavily]
975
00:56:20,645 --> 00:56:21,646
[sighs]
976
00:56:23,714 --> 00:56:25,382
I have an idea.
977
00:56:25,483 --> 00:56:26,717
Yeah.
978
00:56:26,817 --> 00:56:28,853
- What?
- Get your car keys.
979
00:56:29,353 --> 00:56:30,755
- What?
- Come on, come on.
980
00:56:31,522 --> 00:56:32,857
[loud slurping]
981
00:56:32,957 --> 00:56:35,225
I haven't had one of these
since high school.
982
00:56:36,293 --> 00:56:38,095
- I forgot how good it was.
- [sniffs]
983
00:56:38,663 --> 00:56:39,664
[sighs]
984
00:56:41,365 --> 00:56:44,000
[screams loudly]
985
00:56:44,001 --> 00:56:45,703
- What?
- [sighs]
986
00:56:45,803 --> 00:56:48,171
- [screaming] Scream therapy!
- What the hell
987
00:56:48,172 --> 00:56:49,406
are you talking about?
988
00:56:49,507 --> 00:56:51,108
[laughs]
989
00:56:51,208 --> 00:56:53,744
It's this thing we do
with the old folks.
990
00:56:55,345 --> 00:56:56,581
Scream therapy.
991
00:56:57,815 --> 00:57:00,184
It's good for the soul.
You should try it.
992
00:57:01,986 --> 00:57:04,121
That scared the shit
out of me, Ben.
993
00:57:04,221 --> 00:57:05,456
[laughs]
994
00:57:05,556 --> 00:57:07,124
You just scream?
995
00:57:09,326 --> 00:57:11,228
Like... [screams weakly] Ahh...
996
00:57:11,328 --> 00:57:12,563
Ahh...
997
00:57:12,663 --> 00:57:14,698
- No, you can do--
- [louder] Ahh!
998
00:57:14,699 --> 00:57:17,768
No, you can do
so much better than that.
999
00:57:18,368 --> 00:57:19,470
Here, after me.
1000
00:57:20,938 --> 00:57:25,309
[screaming]
Fuck Mom and Dad!
1001
00:57:25,876 --> 00:57:26,877
[sighs deeply]
1002
00:57:29,379 --> 00:57:30,581
[sighs deeply]
1003
00:57:39,256 --> 00:57:42,760
[screaming]
Fuck Mom and Dad!
1004
00:57:44,895 --> 00:57:48,432
[both screaming]
Fuck Mom and Dad!
1005
00:57:48,533 --> 00:57:51,669
- Fuck Mom and Dad!
- Fuck!
1006
00:57:51,769 --> 00:57:53,402
- Fuck Mom and Dad!
- [laughs]
1007
00:57:53,403 --> 00:57:55,606
- [screaming]
- [laughing]
1008
00:57:55,706 --> 00:57:57,975
[hopeful piano music playing]
1009
00:57:58,075 --> 00:58:00,545
[Miss Lions] This...
will be in the art fair.
1010
00:58:01,912 --> 00:58:03,246
Seriously?
1011
00:58:03,247 --> 00:58:05,015
But I do think
that you need to do something
1012
00:58:05,115 --> 00:58:07,518
that expresses more
of who you are,
1013
00:58:07,618 --> 00:58:09,854
not just your obsession
with Nathan.
1014
00:58:10,588 --> 00:58:13,691
Well, I had this idea about,
1015
00:58:13,791 --> 00:58:16,026
like, painting my face.
1016
00:58:16,627 --> 00:58:20,597
Or, like, um, building--
building off my face.
1017
00:58:20,598 --> 00:58:24,934
Ooh, so like a face on a face
on a face.
1018
00:58:24,935 --> 00:58:26,269
Like a sculptural concept.
1019
00:58:26,270 --> 00:58:29,607
A sculpture
on God's greatest sculpture.
1020
00:58:30,107 --> 00:58:31,842
I love! So fresh.
1021
00:58:36,246 --> 00:58:38,115
Where did you just go?
1022
00:58:41,518 --> 00:58:43,688
Sorry, just...
1023
00:58:45,522 --> 00:58:48,859
Sometimes my face reminds me
so much of my dad's.
1024
00:58:50,460 --> 00:58:51,961
Do you wanna talk about them?
1025
00:58:51,962 --> 00:58:53,698
Is there anything
you can remember about them
1026
00:58:53,798 --> 00:58:54,999
that makes you feel good?
1027
00:58:55,866 --> 00:58:58,402
I'd rather not.
They aren't dead.
1028
00:58:58,502 --> 00:59:01,071
Fine, suit yourself,
Dissociation Station.
1029
00:59:01,171 --> 00:59:02,573
[chair wheels roll, clack]
1030
00:59:02,673 --> 00:59:03,874
[drawer opens]
1031
00:59:03,974 --> 00:59:06,143
I have a lot of glitter
to organize.
1032
00:59:07,678 --> 00:59:10,547
[soft music playing]
1033
00:59:13,884 --> 00:59:15,920
I used to go to work
with my mom.
1034
00:59:17,554 --> 00:59:22,059
She'd always wear animal scrubs
'cause she's a nurse.
1035
00:59:22,960 --> 00:59:24,895
And in the summer,
she would bring me along
1036
00:59:24,995 --> 00:59:26,530
a few days a week,
1037
00:59:26,631 --> 00:59:28,398
let me help out
1038
00:59:29,499 --> 00:59:30,868
shredding stuff.
1039
00:59:31,969 --> 00:59:34,238
And we'd visit
the older patients
1040
00:59:34,338 --> 00:59:35,873
and try to cheer them up.
1041
00:59:37,307 --> 00:59:39,209
That was my favorite part.
1042
00:59:42,146 --> 00:59:44,949
And on Friday nights
we'd have movie night.
1043
00:59:45,850 --> 00:59:48,252
Watching Westerns way too loud.
1044
00:59:50,487 --> 00:59:54,091
Dad and me,
we'd try to throw popcorn
1045
00:59:54,191 --> 00:59:55,726
in each other's mouths.
1046
00:59:58,495 --> 01:00:00,898
And I used to help my mom
in the garden.
1047
01:00:02,566 --> 01:00:07,304
And I'd get all sunburned
and she'd cover me in aloe.
1048
01:00:09,406 --> 01:00:10,407
[exhales]
1049
01:00:19,116 --> 01:00:21,118
I miss them. [cries]
1050
01:00:26,691 --> 01:00:27,792
I know I shouldn't.
1051
01:00:28,893 --> 01:00:30,160
It's okay to miss them.
1052
01:00:30,761 --> 01:00:31,962
They're your parents.
1053
01:00:32,596 --> 01:00:34,731
I just don't understand
how being their kid
1054
01:00:34,732 --> 01:00:36,133
isn't enough for them.
1055
01:00:41,038 --> 01:00:44,474
And now my mom
wants to have dinner with me.
1056
01:00:45,976 --> 01:00:49,446
Well, don't go alone
if you go at all, okay?
1057
01:00:53,417 --> 01:00:54,418
Hi.
1058
01:00:55,720 --> 01:00:56,687
Hey!
1059
01:00:57,221 --> 01:00:58,622
Shoes off!
1060
01:00:58,723 --> 01:00:59,790
Are you crazy?
1061
01:01:01,792 --> 01:01:03,493
Can I talk?
1062
01:01:03,593 --> 01:01:05,996
Yes, please talk to me
about something.
1063
01:01:06,096 --> 01:01:10,467
Save me from this boring life
of domesticity.
1064
01:01:13,003 --> 01:01:14,471
Mom called.
1065
01:01:15,105 --> 01:01:16,273
Seriously?
1066
01:01:16,907 --> 01:01:18,308
- Yeah.
- Why?
1067
01:01:19,309 --> 01:01:20,444
They wanna see me?
1068
01:01:21,511 --> 01:01:22,512
No.
1069
01:01:23,547 --> 01:01:25,816
Hannah, I-I kinda want to...
1070
01:01:26,416 --> 01:01:28,618
- go.
- Well, I-I don't--
1071
01:01:29,286 --> 01:01:31,021
I just really don't think
1072
01:01:31,121 --> 01:01:32,890
that's the right choice
right now.
1073
01:01:34,158 --> 01:01:35,624
Well, isn't it
kind of inevitable?
1074
01:01:35,625 --> 01:01:37,627
I mean, it wasn't for me.
1075
01:01:39,263 --> 01:01:40,831
Until you came along.
1076
01:01:42,666 --> 01:01:45,202
I just wanna hear them out,
you know?
1077
01:01:45,302 --> 01:01:47,637
Like it's really not gonna be
anything more than that.
1078
01:01:49,106 --> 01:01:51,241
Okay, well, then
I'm coming with you.
1079
01:01:51,341 --> 01:01:55,212
With love, I need
to do it alone, I think.
1080
01:01:55,312 --> 01:01:57,414
Nathan and Soph
are gonna tag along though
1081
01:01:57,514 --> 01:01:58,883
in case they try to kidnap me.
1082
01:02:00,184 --> 01:02:01,185
Okay.
1083
01:02:02,853 --> 01:02:04,855
Can you share your location
with me?
1084
01:02:05,856 --> 01:02:06,857
Deal.
1085
01:02:07,724 --> 01:02:08,657
[Hannah, softly] Okay.
1086
01:02:08,658 --> 01:02:09,894
Wait, um...
1087
01:02:10,861 --> 01:02:14,163
So, Thomas and I were talking
1088
01:02:14,164 --> 01:02:17,234
and I think if we're--
if we're really doing this,
1089
01:02:17,334 --> 01:02:20,437
then we-we should probably
make it official.
1090
01:02:21,171 --> 01:02:23,040
Are you proposing to me?
1091
01:02:23,140 --> 01:02:25,242
[chuckles] I'm proposing
1092
01:02:26,043 --> 01:02:29,279
that we file
for permanent guardianship.
1093
01:02:29,379 --> 01:02:31,581
Aren't I a little too old
for that?
1094
01:02:31,681 --> 01:02:34,785
Maybe, but the tax benefits
are really too good
1095
01:02:34,885 --> 01:02:36,386
to pass up. [chuckles]
1096
01:02:36,486 --> 01:02:39,423
Hannah, you know, capitalism
is the root of all evil.
1097
01:02:39,523 --> 01:02:40,791
All jokes aside,
1098
01:02:40,891 --> 01:02:42,459
it'll save us a headache,
1099
01:02:42,559 --> 01:02:44,895
even if it's just
for a little while.
1100
01:02:44,995 --> 01:02:45,963
[sighs]
1101
01:02:46,563 --> 01:02:47,631
Thank you.
1102
01:02:49,366 --> 01:02:50,700
You saved my life.
1103
01:03:02,346 --> 01:03:05,115
[soft tense music playing]
1104
01:03:08,518 --> 01:03:11,055
- [Nathan] Is that them?
- [footsteps tapping]
1105
01:03:13,757 --> 01:03:16,426
Soph, why don't you run in
and grab us a table?
1106
01:03:16,526 --> 01:03:18,428
I don't think you two have time
to blow each other.
1107
01:03:18,528 --> 01:03:20,729
- [grunts]
- Okay, okay, table for two,
1108
01:03:20,730 --> 01:03:22,099
coming right up.
1109
01:03:22,199 --> 01:03:23,167
[car door slams]
1110
01:03:25,970 --> 01:03:27,972
[Nathan] Hey. Look at me.
1111
01:03:31,241 --> 01:03:32,809
No matter what happens tonight,
1112
01:03:33,878 --> 01:03:35,745
Benjamin DeBacker, I...
1113
01:03:38,048 --> 01:03:39,483
I wish you all the best...
1114
01:03:40,317 --> 01:03:41,751
because you deserve it.
1115
01:03:43,587 --> 01:03:44,688
[whispers] Thank you.
1116
01:03:49,426 --> 01:03:50,794
- [Benjamin Sr.] Yes.
- [Cathy sighs]
1117
01:03:50,895 --> 01:03:52,963
- I feel like giving him a hug.
- I know, I was--
1118
01:03:53,063 --> 01:03:54,464
- [Benjamin Sr.] Hey.
- [both chuckle]
1119
01:03:54,564 --> 01:03:56,265
It's good to see you.
1120
01:03:56,266 --> 01:03:57,467
[Benjamin Sr. sighs]
1121
01:03:59,136 --> 01:04:01,906
Did you get your ears
pierced? Wow.
1122
01:04:02,940 --> 01:04:04,108
It looks good.
1123
01:04:05,910 --> 01:04:07,111
- Thanks.
- Yeah.
1124
01:04:08,278 --> 01:04:10,014
[Cathy sighs]
First and foremost,
1125
01:04:10,647 --> 01:04:11,815
your father and I,
1126
01:04:12,482 --> 01:04:13,950
we just wanna tell you
that we love you.
1127
01:04:13,951 --> 01:04:15,019
Mm-hmm.
1128
01:04:16,653 --> 01:04:17,988
We miss you at home.
1129
01:04:20,991 --> 01:04:23,060
Yeah, I miss it too.
1130
01:04:23,793 --> 01:04:25,395
But it's nice here.
1131
01:04:25,495 --> 01:04:27,231
[Cathy] I'm just not sure
that your-your sister's
1132
01:04:27,331 --> 01:04:28,999
a very good influence on you.
1133
01:04:30,200 --> 01:04:32,801
Yeah, I mean,
she's got her shit,
1134
01:04:32,802 --> 01:04:35,138
sorry, stuff together, so...
1135
01:04:35,139 --> 01:04:36,873
[Cathy] Right, no.
Of course, of course.
1136
01:04:36,974 --> 01:04:39,176
Listen... [clears throat]
1137
01:04:39,276 --> 01:04:41,912
We are just happy
to see you again, son.
1138
01:04:43,313 --> 01:04:44,548
Child.
1139
01:04:45,182 --> 01:04:47,784
[Cathy] Yep. We wanna talk
to you about all that...
1140
01:04:47,884 --> 01:04:49,353
- all that stuff.
- All that.
1141
01:04:49,453 --> 01:04:50,754
[Cathy] We do.
1142
01:04:50,854 --> 01:04:53,490
But we just wanna make sure
you know just...
1143
01:04:54,324 --> 01:04:55,425
We miss you.
1144
01:04:57,461 --> 01:04:58,562
Do you miss us?
1145
01:05:06,636 --> 01:05:07,604
[sighs]
1146
01:05:09,373 --> 01:05:10,507
I feel like...
1147
01:05:12,242 --> 01:05:14,178
we could've handled things
better.
1148
01:05:15,079 --> 01:05:17,881
[Cathy] Exactly. I've been,
um, talking to the...
1149
01:05:17,982 --> 01:05:19,883
you know, the other girls
at the hospital
1150
01:05:19,984 --> 01:05:22,685
and going and like,
looking online,
1151
01:05:22,686 --> 01:05:25,021
going to Facebook chats stuff,
1152
01:05:25,022 --> 01:05:28,125
trying to get my head
around this thing, our heads,
1153
01:05:28,225 --> 01:05:31,295
and-and we know
we were very reactive.
1154
01:05:36,266 --> 01:05:37,867
We've-we've reflected.
1155
01:05:38,902 --> 01:05:39,903
And...
1156
01:05:40,604 --> 01:05:41,871
we see you.
1157
01:05:43,107 --> 01:05:44,208
We see you.
1158
01:05:46,843 --> 01:05:49,213
And we see the pain
that we've caused.
1159
01:05:51,915 --> 01:05:53,950
[Benjamin Sr.] I think what
your mother is trying to say is,
1160
01:05:54,051 --> 01:05:55,452
that, you know, what--
1161
01:05:55,552 --> 01:05:57,287
What if it's not all
this gender bender,
1162
01:05:57,387 --> 01:05:59,123
uh, uh, uh liquid...
1163
01:05:59,223 --> 01:06:02,659
uh, y-you know, like, I mean,
what if you're just gay?
1164
01:06:02,759 --> 01:06:05,129
Being gay and being nonbinary
are different things.
1165
01:06:05,629 --> 01:06:08,265
[Benjamin Sr.] And-and, Ben,
Ben, we found a solution.
1166
01:06:08,365 --> 01:06:10,267
[Cathy] That's right.
Praise Jesus, we did. [chuckles]
1167
01:06:10,367 --> 01:06:12,602
- [Benjamin Sr.] Amen.
- In all this confusion,
1168
01:06:12,702 --> 01:06:15,005
there's just this answer
that came to us and...
1169
01:06:15,105 --> 01:06:16,473
[sighs]
1170
01:06:16,573 --> 01:06:18,508
- Pastor Joe...
- Thank God for Joe.
1171
01:06:18,608 --> 01:06:20,010
...showed us this place.
Oh, my gosh.
1172
01:06:20,110 --> 01:06:21,811
Wait, no,
wait till you see this.
1173
01:06:21,911 --> 01:06:23,613
It's almost like a spa,
1174
01:06:23,713 --> 01:06:26,415
and these counselors,
these counselors,
1175
01:06:26,416 --> 01:06:28,152
they just--
they're just great...
1176
01:06:28,252 --> 01:06:30,187
[sounds drowns out]
1177
01:06:36,093 --> 01:06:38,662
[Cathy] These people,
they're gonna help you
1178
01:06:38,762 --> 01:06:41,498
with all of your, you know,
the confusion--
1179
01:06:41,598 --> 01:06:43,367
Okay, I'm sorry,
I think you, um...
1180
01:06:43,467 --> 01:06:44,834
[taps table]
1181
01:06:44,934 --> 01:06:46,303
...are missing the point.
1182
01:06:46,403 --> 01:06:48,338
I'm not confused at all.
1183
01:06:48,938 --> 01:06:51,607
And I'm not leaving Raleigh.
I have friends here who--
1184
01:06:51,608 --> 01:06:53,843
- Oh, that group over there?
- No.
1185
01:06:53,943 --> 01:06:56,380
You gotta understand
how difficult this has been
1186
01:06:56,480 --> 01:06:57,781
for the both of us.
1187
01:06:59,015 --> 01:07:00,517
Yeah, you're gonna
come home, sweetie.
1188
01:07:00,617 --> 01:07:02,486
Now it's nice that you've had
some time here,
1189
01:07:02,586 --> 01:07:04,287
but this isn't up to you
and it doesn't really matter
1190
01:07:04,288 --> 01:07:05,722
what your sister has to say
about it, 'cause we gotta do
1191
01:07:05,822 --> 01:07:07,023
what's right for you as our son.
1192
01:07:07,124 --> 01:07:09,359
- No.
- [sighs] Sweetie, please.
1193
01:07:09,459 --> 01:07:11,228
Let go of me.
You don't get a say
1194
01:07:11,328 --> 01:07:13,197
in how I live my life,
okay? I'm done.
1195
01:07:13,297 --> 01:07:16,466
I filed for emancipation,
so please just leave me alone.
1196
01:07:40,056 --> 01:07:42,592
I told them I was filing
for emancipation.
1197
01:07:43,727 --> 01:07:45,061
You're getting emancipated?
1198
01:07:45,729 --> 01:07:46,730
No.
1199
01:07:47,197 --> 01:07:49,099
Oh. [chuckles]
1200
01:07:49,199 --> 01:07:51,167
It's not funny.
I'm fucking scared
1201
01:07:51,168 --> 01:07:53,703
they could come back
at any moment and take me away.
1202
01:07:56,973 --> 01:07:58,542
I'm not gonna let that happen.
1203
01:08:03,547 --> 01:08:04,481
[smooch]
1204
01:08:05,549 --> 01:08:09,518
Mm. I feel like we're what
Love, Simon could never be.
1205
01:08:09,519 --> 01:08:12,622
[both chuckle]
1206
01:08:16,926 --> 01:08:18,094
Tell me...
1207
01:08:19,729 --> 01:08:21,131
your deepest...
1208
01:08:22,599 --> 01:08:24,634
darkest secret.
1209
01:08:30,340 --> 01:08:31,408
I'm...
1210
01:08:36,880 --> 01:08:38,315
a virgin.
1211
01:08:39,783 --> 01:08:40,784
Duh.
1212
01:08:41,851 --> 01:08:42,919
Me too.
1213
01:08:46,790 --> 01:08:47,791
Really?
1214
01:08:48,858 --> 01:08:49,993
For realsies.
1215
01:09:13,650 --> 01:09:14,684
[sighs]
1216
01:09:34,671 --> 01:09:36,606
[Ben moans, sighs]
1217
01:09:40,444 --> 01:09:43,513
[slow music plays]
1218
01:09:44,814 --> 01:09:46,850
[panting]
1219
01:09:48,952 --> 01:09:50,053
Do you want to?
1220
01:09:52,656 --> 01:09:53,657
Yeah.
1221
01:09:59,796 --> 01:10:01,164
[Nathan] I'm gonna get a condom.
1222
01:10:18,948 --> 01:10:20,884
- [Ben grunts]
- [sighs]
1223
01:10:27,557 --> 01:10:28,925
[moaning]
1224
01:10:43,172 --> 01:10:45,442
[birds chirping]
1225
01:11:02,926 --> 01:11:04,561
[Nathan]
Hey, have I told you yet
1226
01:11:04,661 --> 01:11:05,962
how much I love you?
1227
01:11:12,669 --> 01:11:13,737
You know, it's like...
1228
01:11:14,338 --> 01:11:18,374
love, love, love, love,
love, love, love you.
1229
01:11:18,375 --> 01:11:19,476
Mm-hmm.
1230
01:11:20,276 --> 01:11:21,745
- [exhales]
- 'Cause I do.
1231
01:11:31,455 --> 01:11:32,789
[Nathan exhales]
1232
01:11:45,569 --> 01:11:46,603
Okay.
1233
01:11:47,537 --> 01:11:48,972
What's up? Did I do something?
1234
01:11:50,540 --> 01:11:51,508
No.
1235
01:11:53,810 --> 01:11:54,811
[plate clinks]
1236
01:11:59,148 --> 01:12:00,450
Can you stop?
1237
01:12:00,550 --> 01:12:01,685
It's just creeping me out.
1238
01:12:01,785 --> 01:12:03,553
[scoffs] Whoa.
1239
01:12:04,788 --> 01:12:06,690
Just trying to figure out
what's going on with you.
1240
01:12:08,224 --> 01:12:10,660
Yeah, well, I don't... [sighs]
1241
01:12:10,760 --> 01:12:13,763
...really fucking know
what to do right now.
1242
01:12:16,099 --> 01:12:17,667
[sighs]
1243
01:12:17,767 --> 01:12:18,768
Like...
1244
01:12:21,104 --> 01:12:23,707
Jesus, fuck--
Like, I-I feel crazy.
1245
01:12:24,508 --> 01:12:25,542
Nathan, I--
1246
01:12:26,443 --> 01:12:29,846
You're-you're perfect
and happy like all the time,
1247
01:12:29,946 --> 01:12:31,881
- and I'm a mess.
- Hey.
1248
01:12:32,549 --> 01:12:35,552
Babe, you are not a mess.
You're just--
1249
01:12:36,285 --> 01:12:37,953
You're just a little messy
sometimes.
1250
01:12:37,954 --> 01:12:39,121
No, I am.
1251
01:12:39,122 --> 01:12:41,157
You don't wanna be
in this brain.
1252
01:12:41,791 --> 01:12:43,893
I don't even wanna be
inside this brain right now.
1253
01:12:43,993 --> 01:12:46,029
You can't be so hard
on yourself.
1254
01:12:46,129 --> 01:12:48,197
Be sweeter to yourself, okay?
Your--
1255
01:12:49,298 --> 01:12:51,234
Your life is not so bad.
1256
01:12:51,334 --> 01:12:54,838
Okay, Nathan, I'm not
a fucking idiot. Like,
1257
01:12:56,005 --> 01:12:58,174
it's not lost on me that
most kids in my situation
1258
01:12:58,274 --> 01:12:59,676
would be homeless, or...
1259
01:13:00,610 --> 01:13:03,212
have already killed
themselves by now. [sobs]
1260
01:13:03,312 --> 01:13:05,682
But I still have this, like,
pit in my stomach. Like...
1261
01:13:05,782 --> 01:13:07,250
[sobs]
1262
01:13:07,350 --> 01:13:09,652
This guilt, like, I'm just,
like, fucking up bad,
1263
01:13:09,653 --> 01:13:12,255
and I don't know
how to get rid of it.
1264
01:13:12,956 --> 01:13:14,057
[Ben breathes shakily]
1265
01:13:15,992 --> 01:13:18,027
You're just a lot sometimes.
I'm sorry.
1266
01:13:18,127 --> 01:13:19,828
[footsteps recede]
1267
01:13:19,829 --> 01:13:22,999
["Faded Dream"
by Goldmyth playing]
1268
01:13:29,138 --> 01:13:30,674
[screams]
1269
01:13:31,741 --> 01:13:32,742
[sighs]
1270
01:13:43,820 --> 01:13:48,191
♪ Island off the coast ♪
1271
01:13:49,926 --> 01:13:55,999
♪ Whatever feels
the most like dreaming ♪
1272
01:13:56,132 --> 01:14:00,803
♪ It's like
you weren't real... ♪
1273
01:14:00,804 --> 01:14:03,473
[Ben] I can't stomach
talking to Nathan right now.
1274
01:14:08,011 --> 01:14:10,914
I think I might be depressed.
1275
01:14:12,181 --> 01:14:13,316
[Miss Lions]
And what do you mean
1276
01:14:13,416 --> 01:14:14,618
when you say depressed?
1277
01:14:15,318 --> 01:14:17,420
It's just that life feels...
1278
01:14:18,522 --> 01:14:20,323
too much sometimes.
1279
01:14:20,957 --> 01:14:22,626
And it all came at me at once
1280
01:14:22,726 --> 01:14:24,761
and it feels like
there's little I can do
1281
01:14:24,861 --> 01:14:25,995
to control any of it.
1282
01:14:26,763 --> 01:14:30,233
And... I just wanna be alone.
1283
01:14:30,366 --> 01:14:32,936
♪ A faded dream ♪
1284
01:14:45,181 --> 01:14:49,418
♪ Photographed in time ♪
1285
01:14:51,454 --> 01:14:57,561
♪ Every kiss combined
and fleeting ♪
1286
01:14:57,694 --> 01:15:01,665
♪ Now that I'm waking ♪
1287
01:15:03,567 --> 01:15:07,102
♪ Your voice is fading ♪
1288
01:15:07,103 --> 01:15:08,437
[Hannah] You wanna talk today?
1289
01:15:09,606 --> 01:15:11,007
Not today.
1290
01:15:11,140 --> 01:15:14,377
♪ When you lay by me ♪
1291
01:15:14,477 --> 01:15:16,379
[Miss Lions] Well, isolation
is not a safe neighborhood
1292
01:15:16,479 --> 01:15:18,147
for people like you and me.
1293
01:15:18,782 --> 01:15:20,650
We need to find love.
1294
01:15:20,750 --> 01:15:23,452
We all need to be carried
from time to time.
1295
01:15:23,587 --> 01:15:28,592
♪ It's just a dream ♪
1296
01:15:29,593 --> 01:15:32,628
♪ A faded dream. ♪
1297
01:15:32,629 --> 01:15:35,463
[Hannah] Alright,
it's been a week.
1298
01:15:35,464 --> 01:15:36,799
Time to get up.
1299
01:15:36,800 --> 01:15:38,466
[Ben] Mmm... liar.
1300
01:15:38,467 --> 01:15:40,135
[Thomas] No, it has.
And Chris called us.
1301
01:15:40,136 --> 01:15:41,404
He said you're going
to get fired.
1302
01:15:41,504 --> 01:15:43,172
So life sucks. Let's go.
1303
01:15:43,272 --> 01:15:45,008
Mm, no, he's not gonna fire me.
1304
01:15:45,108 --> 01:15:47,210
- He absolutely will fire you.
- Yeah, without a doubt.
1305
01:15:47,310 --> 01:15:49,012
- And you stink, kiddo.
- You reek.
1306
01:15:49,112 --> 01:15:51,047
[Hannah]
You need clothes and a shower.
1307
01:15:51,147 --> 01:15:52,148
Here.
1308
01:15:53,449 --> 01:15:55,819
- There you go. Perfect.
- [Thomas] Where do you sleep?
1309
01:15:58,454 --> 01:16:00,556
Sorry. I've been dealing
1310
01:16:00,657 --> 01:16:02,391
with some gender shit
and family shit
1311
01:16:02,491 --> 01:16:03,893
and I feel like an asshole.
1312
01:16:03,993 --> 01:16:05,595
[Chris] You think I give a fuck
about your gender
1313
01:16:05,695 --> 01:16:06,696
or your family?
1314
01:16:06,796 --> 01:16:08,331
This is work.
1315
01:16:09,332 --> 01:16:11,400
When life gets crazy,
we have to learn how to show up
1316
01:16:11,500 --> 01:16:12,902
for ourselves
and for other people.
1317
01:16:13,002 --> 01:16:14,503
No if, ands, or buts.
1318
01:16:19,208 --> 01:16:21,077
You know, my boyfriend and I
1319
01:16:21,177 --> 01:16:23,747
have been together in this town
for years.
1320
01:16:25,982 --> 01:16:27,216
You're gay?
1321
01:16:27,316 --> 01:16:28,551
Baby, there are all kinds
of black bears
1322
01:16:28,652 --> 01:16:29,719
in these woods.
1323
01:16:30,920 --> 01:16:32,221
I want you on that wall.
1324
01:16:33,757 --> 01:16:35,324
Those are my Hall of Famers.
1325
01:16:35,424 --> 01:16:37,727
The misfits who came here
1326
01:16:38,227 --> 01:16:39,929
and found something
of themselves.
1327
01:16:41,931 --> 01:16:44,567
Can you commit
to showing up this summer
1328
01:16:44,668 --> 01:16:46,435
and being present
and accountable?
1329
01:16:49,005 --> 01:16:50,473
["Count On You"
by Banoffee playing]
1330
01:16:50,573 --> 01:16:52,441
[Thomas] Hello my sibling-child.
1331
01:16:52,942 --> 01:16:55,144
It's me, your brother-father.
1332
01:16:56,112 --> 01:16:57,313
What are you doing tonight?
1333
01:16:57,413 --> 01:16:58,982
Wallowing in my own self-pity.
1334
01:16:59,082 --> 01:17:00,548
I'll be frank, okay?
1335
01:17:00,549 --> 01:17:02,718
I am trying to have sex
with your sister.
1336
01:17:02,719 --> 01:17:03,953
Okay, I can't with you.
1337
01:17:04,053 --> 01:17:05,154
No, I can't with you.
1338
01:17:06,022 --> 01:17:09,158
So why don't you go crash
Senior Night?
1339
01:17:09,258 --> 01:17:10,726
I'm a junior.
1340
01:17:10,727 --> 01:17:12,896
Sorry, guys, I tried.
1341
01:17:14,130 --> 01:17:15,999
[Sophie] Uh-uh. My God. Okay.
1342
01:17:16,099 --> 01:17:18,066
Enough with the Euphoria
depression spiral. Okay?
1343
01:17:18,067 --> 01:17:20,402
Nobody cares about you
or your gender identity.
1344
01:17:20,403 --> 01:17:21,971
[Meleika] So, that was rude.
1345
01:17:22,071 --> 01:17:23,906
What she really means to say
1346
01:17:23,907 --> 01:17:26,175
is that we love you
no matter what.
1347
01:17:26,943 --> 01:17:29,178
And we have approximately
eight minutes to get to the rink
1348
01:17:29,278 --> 01:17:31,114
before we're officially past
"late is cool."
1349
01:17:31,214 --> 01:17:33,616
So if we could like hurry
this up, that'd be so great.
1350
01:17:33,717 --> 01:17:35,618
Ooh, ah, okay.
If this doesn't scream
1351
01:17:35,719 --> 01:17:37,020
trans rights,
then I don't know what does.
1352
01:17:37,120 --> 01:17:38,287
- Period.
- Right?
1353
01:17:38,387 --> 01:17:39,956
- [car revs]
- [tires screech]
1354
01:17:40,056 --> 01:17:41,991
Oh, my God!
Can you please stay in a lane?
1355
01:17:42,091 --> 01:17:43,425
Sorry, I'm trying to get us
there, bitch.
1356
01:17:43,426 --> 01:17:45,128
- We're already late.
- Where's Nathan?
1357
01:17:46,295 --> 01:17:48,364
Okay, so to be honest,
he was kind of pissed
1358
01:17:48,464 --> 01:17:49,699
about the way
you ghosted his ass,
1359
01:17:49,799 --> 01:17:51,334
so he didn't feel like
joining the, um,
1360
01:17:51,434 --> 01:17:53,036
"revive Ben
from their deathbed" party.
1361
01:17:53,136 --> 01:17:54,470
- [Meleika] Mm.
- I'm gonna puke again.
1362
01:17:54,570 --> 01:17:56,005
No, no, chug this instead.
1363
01:17:57,941 --> 01:18:00,108
Oh, my God.
What the fuck is in this?
1364
01:18:00,109 --> 01:18:02,846
It was a special occasion raid
of my parents' liquor cabinet.
1365
01:18:02,946 --> 01:18:04,013
Only the best.
1366
01:18:08,684 --> 01:18:09,785
- [Meleika] Let's do it.
- [Sophie] Smile!
1367
01:18:09,786 --> 01:18:10,854
[shutter clicks]
1368
01:18:11,855 --> 01:18:14,758
[upbeat party music playing]
1369
01:18:14,858 --> 01:18:16,624
[Meleika] I mean, I don't know,
it all just depends on
1370
01:18:16,625 --> 01:18:18,161
- if Todd is here and--
- Oh.
1371
01:18:18,261 --> 01:18:19,662
- Todd is gonna be here.
- He's gonna be here.
1372
01:18:19,763 --> 01:18:20,963
- He's gonna be here.
- I mean, I don't--
1373
01:18:20,964 --> 01:18:22,065
And what are you gonna do
about it?
1374
01:18:22,165 --> 01:18:23,465
- Ooh. Ooh.
- Ooh. Ooh.
1375
01:18:23,466 --> 01:18:26,035
- Letting you know...
- [overlapping chatter]
1376
01:18:26,135 --> 01:18:27,570
Like, you're...
1377
01:18:27,670 --> 01:18:29,505
Oh, I'm obsessed.
I'm obsessed.
1378
01:18:29,605 --> 01:18:31,473
- This is so cute!
- Let's go get our skates.
1379
01:18:31,474 --> 01:18:34,477
["Do What I Like"
by Queen Jasira playing]
1380
01:18:35,011 --> 01:18:38,047
♪ Take a chance on myself ♪
1381
01:18:39,015 --> 01:18:42,018
♪ Can't hold me down ♪
1382
01:18:43,619 --> 01:18:45,254
♪ I do what I like ♪
1383
01:18:47,857 --> 01:18:50,059
♪ I own this life ♪
1384
01:18:51,727 --> 01:18:53,328
♪ I do what I like ♪
1385
01:18:53,329 --> 01:18:54,997
[Sophie] Jeez. Oh! Ben.
1386
01:18:54,998 --> 01:18:57,333
- Yeah?
- What's your shoe size?
1387
01:18:58,301 --> 01:18:59,803
I'm an eight and a half.
1388
01:19:04,240 --> 01:19:06,876
Um, I've been thinking
about something.
1389
01:19:06,976 --> 01:19:09,779
- I wanna change my name.
- [Meleika] To what?
1390
01:19:09,879 --> 01:19:12,115
I don't know, something
super fluid like Rainforest.
1391
01:19:12,215 --> 01:19:15,350
- [chuckling]
- How about Rainforest Cafe?
1392
01:19:15,351 --> 01:19:17,386
I-I think I wanna try, um...
1393
01:19:18,187 --> 01:19:19,288
"B."
1394
01:19:19,388 --> 01:19:21,457
No Benji, no Ben,
1395
01:19:21,557 --> 01:19:22,926
just the letter B.
1396
01:19:23,526 --> 01:19:24,593
I love.
1397
01:19:24,693 --> 01:19:25,728
- Yes!
- It's giving B like,
1398
01:19:25,829 --> 01:19:27,797
"This is my friend B.
1399
01:19:27,897 --> 01:19:29,732
- Let me introduce you to them."
- It has a nice ring to it. Yes.
1400
01:19:29,833 --> 01:19:32,135
- [Sophie] B for Barb.
- Nicki would be so proud.
1401
01:19:32,235 --> 01:19:33,436
Nicki would be so proud.
1402
01:19:36,439 --> 01:19:38,074
I'm actually kinda
Tonya Harding.
1403
01:19:38,174 --> 01:19:39,775
- [B grunting] Whoa!
- [Meleika] Shit.
1404
01:19:39,876 --> 01:19:41,077
Ahh!
1405
01:19:41,177 --> 01:19:42,645
- [laughing]
- Yeah, shit, I'm gonna--
1406
01:19:46,415 --> 01:19:48,617
- [mutters]
- Okay. We're gonna go pee.
1407
01:19:49,552 --> 01:19:53,556
["Pose" by MICHELLE playing]
1408
01:20:03,032 --> 01:20:04,367
["So Sad So Sexy"
by Lykke Li playing]
1409
01:20:04,500 --> 01:20:06,735
♪ Open your eyes ♪
1410
01:20:06,870 --> 01:20:09,472
♪ I'm right in front of you ♪
1411
01:20:10,373 --> 01:20:13,142
♪ Open your eyes ♪
1412
01:20:17,480 --> 01:20:20,984
♪ Open your eyes ♪
1413
01:20:21,117 --> 01:20:24,220
♪ I'm walking out on you ♪
1414
01:20:24,353 --> 01:20:27,623
♪ For the last time ♪
1415
01:20:31,394 --> 01:20:34,297
♪ I ♪
1416
01:20:35,331 --> 01:20:38,501
♪ Keep my heart aching ♪
1417
01:20:38,634 --> 01:20:41,704
♪ Why ♪
1418
01:20:42,505 --> 01:20:46,175
♪ Do we keep faking? ♪
1419
01:20:46,976 --> 01:20:50,713
♪ I was only lying
When I looked in your eyes ♪
1420
01:20:50,846 --> 01:20:54,050
♪ I'm crying diamonds
Like a river inside ♪
1421
01:20:54,183 --> 01:20:57,220
♪ And it's so sad, so sexy ♪
1422
01:20:58,421 --> 01:21:01,290
♪ So sad, so sexy ♪
1423
01:21:01,424 --> 01:21:05,594
♪ I was only lying
When I looked in your eyes ♪
1424
01:21:05,728 --> 01:21:08,264
♪ Now I'm lying with you
one last time ♪
1425
01:21:08,397 --> 01:21:11,834
♪ And it's so sad, so sexy ♪
1426
01:21:12,735 --> 01:21:15,271
♪ So sad, so sexy ♪
1427
01:21:16,405 --> 01:21:19,808
♪ Only lying when I looked
in your eyes ♪
1428
01:21:19,943 --> 01:21:22,578
♪ Now I'm lying with you
one last time ♪
1429
01:21:22,711 --> 01:21:25,548
♪ And it's so sad, so sexy ♪
1430
01:21:25,648 --> 01:21:26,983
[chuckles]
1431
01:21:27,116 --> 01:21:29,518
♪ So sad, so sexy ♪
1432
01:21:32,521 --> 01:21:34,890
♪ So sad, so sexy ♪
1433
01:21:36,059 --> 01:21:38,561
♪ So sad, so sexy ♪
1434
01:21:39,628 --> 01:21:42,231
♪ So sad, so sexy ♪
1435
01:21:43,066 --> 01:21:47,536
♪ Our love was a slow dance ♪
1436
01:21:47,636 --> 01:21:49,038
[song fades]
1437
01:21:49,138 --> 01:21:50,339
[B] Mmm?
1438
01:21:51,874 --> 01:21:54,110
Thomas gave this to me
on our wedding day.
1439
01:21:54,210 --> 01:21:55,244
Oh!
1440
01:21:55,344 --> 01:21:56,779
I think it really suits you.
1441
01:21:58,881 --> 01:21:59,949
You sure?
1442
01:22:00,516 --> 01:22:01,517
Yeah.
1443
01:22:03,019 --> 01:22:04,787
Hannah, it's beautiful.
1444
01:22:04,887 --> 01:22:06,021
I love it.
1445
01:22:06,022 --> 01:22:07,623
[breathes deeply]
1446
01:22:07,723 --> 01:22:09,058
- Are you ready?
- Yeah.
1447
01:22:09,158 --> 01:22:10,559
- Okay.
- [sniffles] Okay.
1448
01:22:10,659 --> 01:22:11,859
[sighs]
1449
01:22:11,860 --> 01:22:15,298
["Spring in Hours"
by Florist playing]
1450
01:22:22,338 --> 01:22:23,939
Okay, you're scaring me.
1451
01:22:27,776 --> 01:22:31,080
Babe, I am struck silent.
1452
01:22:31,914 --> 01:22:34,216
Speechless. Aghast. Bewildered.
1453
01:22:34,217 --> 01:22:36,452
I didn't know you could paint
like this.
1454
01:22:36,552 --> 01:22:37,620
Yeah.
1455
01:22:38,287 --> 01:22:39,922
This piece right here
landed me a spot
1456
01:22:40,023 --> 01:22:41,424
in Cooper Union in the fall.
1457
01:22:41,957 --> 01:22:44,760
Oh, my God, that's amazing.
[chuckles] Congrats.
1458
01:22:44,860 --> 01:22:46,996
I know. Thank you.
You guys are so cute though.
1459
01:22:47,963 --> 01:22:49,898
Chris? What are you doing here?
1460
01:22:50,699 --> 01:22:52,501
What can I say?
I'm a lover of shitty Merlot.
1461
01:22:52,601 --> 01:22:54,837
- I'm shitty Merlot.
- Mm, yeah, my shitty Merlot.
1462
01:22:54,937 --> 01:22:56,805
Wait, wait,
you guys are like...?
1463
01:22:57,406 --> 01:22:58,774
- Just like that.
- [snorts]
1464
01:22:58,874 --> 01:23:00,776
- [Meleika] A toast.
- Yeah!
1465
01:23:00,876 --> 01:23:03,012
- Let's go!
- To our Prince B:
1466
01:23:03,112 --> 01:23:06,349
Royal Mess of Makeup and Pop Art
in the roaring twenties.
1467
01:23:06,449 --> 01:23:08,583
- Yes.
- And to Sophie,
1468
01:23:08,584 --> 01:23:10,319
our generation's
new Sally Mann.
1469
01:23:10,419 --> 01:23:12,688
- [Nathan] Oh.
- Oh, thank you.
1470
01:23:13,289 --> 01:23:15,124
- And to Nathan...
- [Nathan] Huh?
1471
01:23:15,224 --> 01:23:16,492
...for finally getting
over himself.
1472
01:23:16,592 --> 01:23:17,693
- Hey!
- Yeah!
1473
01:23:17,793 --> 01:23:19,795
That's really cute. Okay.
1474
01:23:19,895 --> 01:23:21,664
All right, say, "Cheese."
1475
01:23:21,764 --> 01:23:23,299
- Big cheesy cheese.
- Brie!
1476
01:23:23,399 --> 01:23:24,700
- Parmesan!
- Parmesan!
1477
01:23:24,800 --> 01:23:26,635
["Spring in Hours" continues]
1478
01:23:35,478 --> 01:23:37,546
[whispers] Hi.
What are you guys doing here?
1479
01:23:37,646 --> 01:23:39,382
[indistinct whispering]
1480
01:23:48,357 --> 01:23:50,459
B, come on,
let's get you out of here.
1481
01:23:54,630 --> 01:23:56,165
[inaudible]
1482
01:24:07,009 --> 01:24:08,077
[song ends]
1483
01:24:13,216 --> 01:24:14,317
This is it?
1484
01:24:15,718 --> 01:24:17,186
What?
1485
01:24:18,087 --> 01:24:20,823
This letter,
this piece of paper?
1486
01:24:23,559 --> 01:24:24,560
[Thomas] Yep.
1487
01:24:25,294 --> 01:24:26,729
We're your guardians now.
1488
01:24:28,063 --> 01:24:31,767
We're still your siblings,
your parents.
1489
01:24:33,068 --> 01:24:34,537
We're a family.
1490
01:24:35,070 --> 01:24:36,071
Yeah.
1491
01:24:42,211 --> 01:24:43,512
[Hannah sighs deeply]
1492
01:24:45,047 --> 01:24:46,549
[B] Dear Mom and Dad,
1493
01:24:48,083 --> 01:24:50,119
I want you to know
I don't hate you.
1494
01:24:50,219 --> 01:24:53,789
And I'm thankful that you're
letting me go right now.
1495
01:24:53,889 --> 01:24:54,890
[keyboard clacks]
1496
01:24:56,992 --> 01:24:58,761
I wish this could be different.
1497
01:25:00,363 --> 01:25:01,730
I wish you could just...
1498
01:25:01,830 --> 01:25:03,166
- [inhales deeply]
- [keyboard clacks]
1499
01:25:03,266 --> 01:25:05,734
[sighs] ...grow up.
1500
01:25:06,435 --> 01:25:08,604
We're all in pain.
I know that.
1501
01:25:09,705 --> 01:25:12,308
But I gotta deal with my pain
before I can carry yours.
1502
01:25:12,408 --> 01:25:14,410
[keyboard clacking]
1503
01:25:15,178 --> 01:25:17,313
I'm here...
1504
01:25:17,413 --> 01:25:19,382
when you're ready to listen
and evolve.
1505
01:25:21,049 --> 01:25:22,185
If you want to.
1506
01:25:23,619 --> 01:25:24,987
Sometime down the line.
1507
01:25:27,590 --> 01:25:28,657
And who knows...
1508
01:25:29,858 --> 01:25:33,429
One day, maybe we'll
find each other again.
1509
01:25:36,031 --> 01:25:39,435
But it isn't my responsibility
to mend this.
1510
01:25:40,769 --> 01:25:41,837
It's yours.
1511
01:25:46,542 --> 01:25:47,643
If you want to.
1512
01:25:48,877 --> 01:25:51,013
And I wish you all the best.
1513
01:25:51,113 --> 01:25:52,114
[laptop thuds]
1514
01:25:54,082 --> 01:25:56,285
[waves splashing]
1515
01:25:56,385 --> 01:25:59,087
[birds squawking in distance]
1516
01:26:09,798 --> 01:26:11,367
[B] Is this how
it's gonna be though?
1517
01:26:12,568 --> 01:26:13,536
What?
1518
01:26:15,304 --> 01:26:17,206
Just like...
1519
01:26:18,574 --> 01:26:21,143
one long never-ending life
of coming out.
1520
01:26:23,846 --> 01:26:24,847
Maybe.
1521
01:26:27,650 --> 01:26:31,320
But also, you don't really owe
all of that to everybody.
1522
01:26:32,187 --> 01:26:33,989
An explanation, or...
1523
01:26:34,690 --> 01:26:35,824
or all of you.
1524
01:26:38,193 --> 01:26:39,528
You know,
fuck what people think.
1525
01:26:39,628 --> 01:26:41,397
You're you. [inhales]
1526
01:26:42,197 --> 01:26:43,232
Perfect.
1527
01:26:44,267 --> 01:26:45,401
Beautiful.
1528
01:26:46,635 --> 01:26:47,969
Miserable you.
1529
01:26:47,970 --> 01:26:51,240
["Closer to Fine"
by Indigo Girls begins]
1530
01:26:57,580 --> 01:27:01,216
♪ I'm trying to tell you
something 'bout my life ♪
1531
01:27:01,950 --> 01:27:06,489
♪ Maybe give me insight
between black and white ♪
1532
01:27:07,222 --> 01:27:11,059
♪ And the best thing
you ever done for me ♪
1533
01:27:11,860 --> 01:27:15,831
♪ Is to help me
take my life less seriously ♪
1534
01:27:15,964 --> 01:27:19,268
♪ It's only life after all ♪
1535
01:27:19,402 --> 01:27:20,436
♪ Yeah ♪
1536
01:27:21,937 --> 01:27:25,941
♪ Well, darkness has a hunger
that's insatiable ♪
1537
01:27:26,809 --> 01:27:30,713
♪ And lightness has a call
that's hard to hear ♪
1538
01:27:31,647 --> 01:27:35,418
♪ And I wrap my fear around me
like a blanket ♪
1539
01:27:36,619 --> 01:27:40,155
♪ I sailed my ship of safety
till I sank it ♪
1540
01:27:40,289 --> 01:27:42,991
♪ I'm crawling on your shores ♪
1541
01:27:43,792 --> 01:27:48,764
♪ And I went to the doctor
I went to the mountains ♪
1542
01:27:48,897 --> 01:27:53,536
♪ I looked to the children
I drank from the fountains ♪
1543
01:27:53,669 --> 01:27:57,540
♪ There's more than one answer
to these questions ♪
1544
01:27:57,673 --> 01:28:00,208
♪ Pointing me
in a crooked line ♪
1545
01:28:00,843 --> 01:28:04,647
♪ And the less I seek my source
for some definitive ♪
1546
01:28:04,780 --> 01:28:09,952
♪ Closer I am to fine, yeah ♪
1547
01:28:10,619 --> 01:28:13,121
[song plays over earbud]
1548
01:28:14,289 --> 01:28:15,524
[song resumes normally]
1549
01:28:15,658 --> 01:28:16,859
♪ And I went to see ♪
1550
01:28:16,992 --> 01:28:19,762
♪ The doctor of philosophy ♪
1551
01:28:20,463 --> 01:28:25,300
♪ With a poster of Rasputin
and a beard down to his knee ♪
1552
01:28:25,434 --> 01:28:30,172
♪ He never did marry
or see a B-grade movie ♪
1553
01:28:30,305 --> 01:28:32,541
♪ He graded my performance ♪
1554
01:28:32,675 --> 01:28:34,810
♪ He said he could see
through me ♪
1555
01:28:34,943 --> 01:28:38,414
♪ I spent four years prostrate
to the higher mind ♪
1556
01:28:38,547 --> 01:28:41,917
♪ Got my paper and I was free ♪
1557
01:28:42,518 --> 01:28:47,189
♪ And I went to the doctor
I went to the mountains ♪
1558
01:28:47,322 --> 01:28:52,094
♪ I looked to the children
I drank from the fountains ♪
1559
01:28:52,227 --> 01:28:56,031
♪ There's more than one answer
to these questions ♪
1560
01:28:56,164 --> 01:28:58,867
♪ Pointing me
in a crooked line ♪
1561
01:28:59,402 --> 01:29:03,271
♪ And the less I seek my source
for some definitive ♪
1562
01:29:03,406 --> 01:29:08,343
♪ Closer I am to fine, yeah ♪
1563
01:29:08,477 --> 01:29:13,181
♪ Closer I am to fine, yeah ♪
1564
01:29:23,892 --> 01:29:27,530
♪ I stopped by the bar
at 3:00 a.m. ♪
1565
01:29:28,230 --> 01:29:33,402
♪ To seek solace in a bottle
or possibly a friend ♪
1566
01:29:33,536 --> 01:29:38,474
♪ And I woke up with a headache
like my head against a board ♪
1567
01:29:38,607 --> 01:29:42,144
♪ Twice as cloudy as I'd been
the night before ♪
1568
01:29:42,277 --> 01:29:45,180
♪ And I went
in seeking clarity ♪
1569
01:29:45,948 --> 01:29:50,619
♪ I went to the doctor
I went to the mountains ♪
1570
01:29:50,753 --> 01:29:55,290
♪ I looked to the children
I drank from the fountains ♪
1571
01:29:55,424 --> 01:30:00,429
♪ We go to the doctor
We go to the mountains ♪
1572
01:30:00,563 --> 01:30:04,967
♪ We look to the children
We drink from the fountain ♪
1573
01:30:05,100 --> 01:30:10,172
♪ Yeah, we go to the Bible
We go through the workout ♪
1574
01:30:10,305 --> 01:30:15,077
♪ We read up on revival
We stand up for the lookout ♪
1575
01:30:15,210 --> 01:30:19,014
♪ There's more than one answer
to these questions ♪
1576
01:30:19,147 --> 01:30:22,417
♪ Pointing me
in a crooked line ♪
1577
01:30:22,551 --> 01:30:26,254
♪ And the less I seek my source
for some definitive ♪
1578
01:30:26,388 --> 01:30:31,193
♪ Closer I am to fine ♪
1579
01:30:31,326 --> 01:30:36,164
♪ Closer I am to fine ♪
1580
01:30:36,298 --> 01:30:40,969
♪ Closer I am to fine, yeah ♪
1581
01:30:42,738 --> 01:30:44,473
[song ends]
1582
01:30:45,774 --> 01:30:48,477
[soft music playing]
1583
01:33:12,721 --> 01:33:14,356
[music ends]