1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:18,731 --> 00:00:20,870 Thank you guys for coming up tonight. 4 00:00:20,912 --> 00:00:23,627 I appreciate everyone being here. 5 00:00:23,669 --> 00:00:27,545 I'm actually gonna start with one of the oldest songs 6 00:00:27,587 --> 00:00:29,987 that I've written just 'cause I feel like 7 00:00:30,029 --> 00:00:33,545 I need to do that with you guys tonight. 8 00:00:33,587 --> 00:00:34,566 It didn't make it on to the first album 9 00:00:34,608 --> 00:00:35,904 'cause I was uptight. 10 00:00:35,946 --> 00:00:37,529 So you hear it now. 11 00:00:40,006 --> 00:00:42,181 I'm gonna ask you guys actually 12 00:00:42,223 --> 00:00:43,726 to put your phones away for this one. 13 00:00:43,768 --> 00:00:48,349 I kind of just want us to be all together right now. 14 00:00:48,391 --> 00:00:50,424 So yeah, just be with me. 15 00:00:50,466 --> 00:00:52,976 I'll be with you and we'll, we'll share this moment. 16 00:00:53,018 --> 00:00:56,046 I think it'll be really special. 17 00:00:56,088 --> 00:00:57,224 Does that sound cool? 18 00:00:57,266 --> 00:00:58,057 Yes. 19 00:00:58,099 --> 00:01:01,432 Okay. Some of you might know this one. 20 00:01:17,378 --> 00:01:22,378 ♪ Put my heart in a cargo and ship it West ♪ 21 00:01:23,328 --> 00:01:25,102 ♪ Where the breeze is warm ♪ 22 00:01:25,144 --> 00:01:28,404 ♪ And the people wear less ♪ 23 00:01:28,446 --> 00:01:33,446 ♪ Thinking about God and religion makes me sweat ♪ 24 00:01:34,338 --> 00:01:39,338 ♪ But I need some kind of affection in my chest ♪ 25 00:01:47,733 --> 00:01:52,733 ♪ Stand in line at the cinema down the block ♪ 26 00:01:53,778 --> 00:01:58,778 ♪ The warmer they go just sneak up on you with three knocks ♪ 27 00:01:59,778 --> 00:02:04,778 ♪ I've seen this movie once before ♪ 28 00:02:05,824 --> 00:02:10,824 ♪ But I don't come for a thrill anymore ♪ 29 00:02:15,715 --> 00:02:20,048 ♪ And I've been trying to live this ♪ 30 00:02:28,978 --> 00:02:33,978 ♪ But I need some kind of affection in my chest ♪ 31 00:02:35,146 --> 00:02:38,304 ♪ So remove the heavy weight ♪ 32 00:02:38,346 --> 00:02:41,330 ♪ It confesses the congregation awaits ♪ 33 00:02:41,372 --> 00:02:46,372 ♪ Through the hollow day ♪ 34 00:02:47,137 --> 00:02:50,035 ♪ Confused by how it's made ♪ 35 00:02:50,077 --> 00:02:52,803 ♪ Smile like a child and once it fade ♪ 36 00:02:52,845 --> 00:02:57,845 ♪ You've proved to be the greatest ♪ 37 00:02:58,578 --> 00:03:03,578 ♪ Though used and unforsaken ♪ 38 00:03:04,127 --> 00:03:09,127 ♪ You are the truth and I have been waiting ♪ 39 00:03:09,738 --> 00:03:14,738 ♪ You are the truth and I have been waiting ♪ 40 00:03:27,818 --> 00:03:32,818 ♪ Come on over lend me a sober eyes I'll be fine tomorrow ♪ 41 00:03:33,288 --> 00:03:36,115 ♪ I've been searching for something I can find ♪ 42 00:03:36,157 --> 00:03:41,157 ♪ Help me feel my sorrow ♪ 43 00:03:41,435 --> 00:03:46,435 ♪ Tell me tales I don't know ♪ 44 00:03:46,857 --> 00:03:48,945 ♪ Pray until I let go ♪ 45 00:03:48,987 --> 00:03:53,570 ♪ 'cause I need some kind of affection ♪ 46 00:03:59,897 --> 00:04:04,897 ♪ And I need some kind of affection ♪ 47 00:04:08,232 --> 00:04:11,328 ♪ In my, in my ♪ 48 00:04:11,370 --> 00:04:16,370 ♪ And I need some kind of affection ♪ 49 00:04:20,168 --> 00:04:25,168 ♪ And I just, and I need ♪ 50 00:04:27,710 --> 00:04:32,710 ♪ Some kind of, some kind of ♪ 51 00:04:33,540 --> 00:04:38,540 ♪ Some kind of, I need some kind of ♪ 52 00:04:38,752 --> 00:04:43,752 ♪ Some kind of, I need some kind of ♪ 53 00:04:44,432 --> 00:04:49,432 ♪ Some kind of, I need some kind of ♪ 54 00:04:49,869 --> 00:04:54,869 ♪ Some kind of, I need some kind of ♪ 55 00:04:55,220 --> 00:05:00,220 ♪ Some kind of ♪ 56 00:05:00,821 --> 00:05:05,821 ♪ Some kind of affection in my ♪ 57 00:05:07,687 --> 00:05:12,187 ♪ I need some kind of affection in my ♪ 58 00:05:26,798 --> 00:05:28,289 Thank you. 59 00:05:38,053 --> 00:05:39,907 Oh, you gotta know. 60 00:05:39,949 --> 00:05:41,929 But there's another pole coming. 61 00:05:41,971 --> 00:05:42,787 Another big stick. 62 00:05:42,829 --> 00:05:43,809 You gotta get these sticks outta here 63 00:05:43,851 --> 00:05:46,076 so mom doesn't trip and fall. 64 00:05:46,118 --> 00:05:46,909 Yeah. 65 00:05:46,951 --> 00:05:48,358 You know. That's good. 66 00:05:48,400 --> 00:05:50,795 We don't want that. You ready? 67 00:05:50,837 --> 00:05:52,670 I'm ready. Pass to me. 68 00:06:21,579 --> 00:06:24,329 I gotta tie your shoe. Come here. 69 00:06:27,019 --> 00:06:29,627 Yeah. Gotta be safe out here so you don't trip and fall. 70 00:06:29,669 --> 00:06:31,326 Dad, I really do. 71 00:07:02,144 --> 00:07:03,961 And what do you feel 72 00:07:04,003 --> 00:07:06,753 or see when you look at the bear? 73 00:07:09,967 --> 00:07:13,595 Well at, at first I felt like the bear was my dad 74 00:07:13,637 --> 00:07:15,720 and the whale was my mom. 75 00:07:17,237 --> 00:07:21,237 But as I sit here, I feel like the bear is Jack. 76 00:07:24,768 --> 00:07:28,518 That's an interesting shift. And the whale? 77 00:07:30,877 --> 00:07:32,210 I'm the whale. 78 00:07:34,504 --> 00:07:37,671 But now it's like Jonah and the whale. 79 00:07:39,368 --> 00:07:43,364 I'm Jonah, and I've climbed inside the whale 80 00:07:43,406 --> 00:07:44,906 and it's my armor. 81 00:07:47,408 --> 00:07:48,228 Armor? 82 00:07:48,270 --> 00:07:49,166 Yes. 83 00:07:49,208 --> 00:07:52,595 And why do you think you need armor? 84 00:07:52,637 --> 00:07:53,887 I don't know. 85 00:07:55,416 --> 00:07:59,193 I guess it's always been a part of me. 86 00:07:59,235 --> 00:08:01,113 So you can see the whale 87 00:08:01,155 --> 00:08:03,443 and you are also the whale. 88 00:08:03,485 --> 00:08:04,276 Yes. 89 00:08:04,318 --> 00:08:07,231 Great. Now I'm curious what happens 90 00:08:07,273 --> 00:08:11,356 when you as the whale turn to see who's watching? 91 00:08:13,976 --> 00:08:14,809 Hmm. 92 00:10:17,899 --> 00:10:18,938 Did you really fucking even read it? 93 00:10:18,980 --> 00:10:19,771 Of course I read it. 94 00:10:19,813 --> 00:10:20,815 Yeah. And what did you think? 95 00:10:20,857 --> 00:10:21,648 It sounds. 96 00:10:21,690 --> 00:10:22,655 Oh, you think it looks good? 97 00:10:22,697 --> 00:10:23,655 Yeah. You don't? 98 00:10:23,697 --> 00:10:25,658 They want me to work with a co-writer for the single. 99 00:10:25,700 --> 00:10:27,015 Well, that's within their right. 100 00:10:27,057 --> 00:10:28,284 You wanna cut my balls 101 00:10:28,326 --> 00:10:29,564 and feed them to some prick? 102 00:10:29,606 --> 00:10:31,383 Fucking god. That's hyperbolic. Don't you think? 103 00:10:31,425 --> 00:10:32,623 I'm not signing that fucking contract, 104 00:10:32,665 --> 00:10:33,456 Mia. 105 00:10:33,498 --> 00:10:34,955 I am not working with a co-writer. 106 00:10:34,997 --> 00:10:37,307 They want to fucking pay you a fuck ton of money. 107 00:10:37,349 --> 00:10:39,285 Does it look like I give a fuck about a ton of money? 108 00:10:39,327 --> 00:10:41,326 That doesn't fucking happen anymore, man. 109 00:10:41,368 --> 00:10:43,014 I don't care. 110 00:10:43,056 --> 00:10:44,113 So they want you to write 111 00:10:44,155 --> 00:10:46,211 with a fucking co-writer, who fucking cares? 112 00:10:46,253 --> 00:10:48,214 I care, Dave. I care. 113 00:10:48,256 --> 00:10:50,756 It's the price of admission. 114 00:10:51,666 --> 00:10:53,052 Fuck you. 115 00:10:53,094 --> 00:10:55,354 Fuck you. Seriously, dude. 116 00:10:55,396 --> 00:10:57,443 Price of admission, I'm not a house they're buying. 117 00:10:57,485 --> 00:10:59,214 I know. I fucking, 118 00:10:59,256 --> 00:11:00,774 I fucking know, man. 119 00:11:00,816 --> 00:11:01,607 Yeah. 120 00:11:01,649 --> 00:11:03,232 I'm on your team. 121 00:11:09,426 --> 00:11:12,259 I just wish I could trust money. 122 00:11:18,736 --> 00:11:20,653 It's just a contract. 123 00:11:21,746 --> 00:11:24,474 You know, it's more than that. 124 00:11:24,516 --> 00:11:27,933 The label has been super cool with you. 125 00:11:31,066 --> 00:11:33,433 They know you like I know you. 126 00:11:33,475 --> 00:11:34,474 And they want what's best for you 127 00:11:34,516 --> 00:11:37,172 like I want what's best for you. 128 00:11:37,214 --> 00:11:41,035 So we make a little money along the way. 129 00:11:41,077 --> 00:11:42,654 That sounds fun, right? 130 00:11:42,696 --> 00:11:43,487 Yeah. Well, I'm the one who sings 131 00:11:43,529 --> 00:11:45,696 for our fucking diner, so. 132 00:12:17,903 --> 00:12:20,952 Just wait to sign anything, okay? 133 00:12:20,994 --> 00:12:23,280 Take a day or two, a week, whatever. 134 00:12:23,322 --> 00:12:27,192 We'll just make them shake in their boots. 135 00:12:27,234 --> 00:12:29,610 You can write a shit ton of songs 136 00:12:29,652 --> 00:12:31,725 and you can pick out the one you love. 137 00:12:31,767 --> 00:12:34,632 We'll tell the co-writer to go fuck off, okay? 138 00:12:34,674 --> 00:12:35,757 I'm with you. 139 00:12:39,954 --> 00:12:40,787 Sorry. 140 00:12:44,761 --> 00:12:45,844 Yeah. Okay. 141 00:12:48,281 --> 00:12:49,114 I am. 142 00:12:51,159 --> 00:12:53,659 Yeah. It was too much. Okay. 143 00:12:55,492 --> 00:12:56,768 Play me a song. 144 00:12:56,810 --> 00:12:58,432 Play you a song. 145 00:12:58,474 --> 00:13:02,141 I'm gonna fucking beat you with this guitar. 146 00:13:03,684 --> 00:13:06,767 And when can we get that scheduled? 147 00:13:08,265 --> 00:13:10,682 I see, it seems sort of late. 148 00:13:16,884 --> 00:13:18,551 Yes. Yes, of course. 149 00:13:21,996 --> 00:13:23,277 Jack will be happy to hear 150 00:13:23,319 --> 00:13:27,133 he still has some positive influence around there. 151 00:13:27,175 --> 00:13:28,842 Hi Mommy. 152 00:13:32,983 --> 00:13:33,816 Okay. 153 00:13:37,567 --> 00:13:38,900 Doctor's office. 154 00:13:42,434 --> 00:13:43,267 Okay. 155 00:13:45,135 --> 00:13:47,968 Okay. I'll have those transferred. 156 00:13:49,116 --> 00:13:51,366 Okay. We will see you then. 157 00:14:06,287 --> 00:14:10,120 From up here everything is so good. 158 00:14:18,767 --> 00:14:21,517 I have a very handsome husband. 159 00:14:27,121 --> 00:14:29,704 How have your dates been going? 160 00:14:31,250 --> 00:14:34,216 I thought we agreed to let sleeping dogs lie. 161 00:14:34,258 --> 00:14:37,976 Sleeping dogs don't leave bite marks. 162 00:14:38,018 --> 00:14:40,935 Sorry. I told her not to do that. 163 00:14:41,988 --> 00:14:45,238 It's okay. I'm happy it's going well. 164 00:14:46,698 --> 00:14:51,281 Someone around here needs something to look forward to. 165 00:14:53,199 --> 00:14:55,578 Will you talk to your sister. 166 00:14:55,620 --> 00:14:56,453 I will. 167 00:14:58,348 --> 00:15:02,399 I, I'd like her to know the treatment plan. 168 00:15:02,441 --> 00:15:05,774 Just let me survive the testing first. 169 00:15:07,642 --> 00:15:11,778 We're gonna take good care of you. I promise. 170 00:15:11,820 --> 00:15:14,736 I know. Of course. I know. 171 00:15:14,778 --> 00:15:19,688 Just, I just want her to be filled in on everything. 172 00:15:19,730 --> 00:15:24,147 Yes. But she's got her own shit going on right now. 173 00:15:29,860 --> 00:15:33,027 I just wanna ease into the hard stuff. 174 00:15:35,391 --> 00:15:36,474 Understood. 175 00:15:41,591 --> 00:15:45,174 You don't, you don't have to cover it up. 176 00:15:46,698 --> 00:15:50,709 I want people to think we're still kinky. 177 00:15:50,751 --> 00:15:51,968 We are. 178 00:15:55,631 --> 00:15:57,548 You know what I mean? 179 00:16:01,340 --> 00:16:02,590 Good morning. 180 00:16:04,098 --> 00:16:04,931 Hey. 181 00:16:06,242 --> 00:16:07,737 Hey bud. 182 00:16:07,779 --> 00:16:11,509 So interesting development with our pharma friends. 183 00:16:11,551 --> 00:16:14,240 I think we have a retainer plan in our hands. 184 00:16:14,282 --> 00:16:16,839 The creative is a little bottleneck. 185 00:16:16,881 --> 00:16:19,250 Do you know if we have any outstanding payments 186 00:16:19,292 --> 00:16:21,709 with our well usual suspects? 187 00:16:24,482 --> 00:16:26,245 No, I don't think so. 188 00:16:26,287 --> 00:16:29,712 Okay, 'cause we got some notice 189 00:16:29,754 --> 00:16:32,421 from Jordan on accounts payable. 190 00:17:03,671 --> 00:17:04,749 Mommy! 191 00:17:04,791 --> 00:17:08,190 Come, come, come here right now. 192 00:17:13,543 --> 00:17:14,626 I'm coming. 193 00:17:16,172 --> 00:17:21,172 This is, no, this is a, this is a new word I'm spelling. 194 00:17:21,562 --> 00:17:22,749 This is a new one. 195 00:17:22,791 --> 00:17:24,509 So we'll start with this one on the bottom. 196 00:17:24,551 --> 00:17:26,650 No, we start from that one. 197 00:17:26,692 --> 00:17:30,560 Then, then we go to this word that is- 198 00:17:30,602 --> 00:17:32,185 Quizzes. Quizzes. 199 00:17:36,451 --> 00:17:37,368 Hey Goldie. 200 00:17:39,358 --> 00:17:40,749 Yeah. 201 00:17:40,791 --> 00:17:42,240 I love you. 202 00:17:42,282 --> 00:17:43,365 Thanks mom. 203 00:17:45,720 --> 00:17:50,458 I think we dream so we don't have to be apart for so long. 204 00:17:50,500 --> 00:17:52,418 If we're in each other's dreams, 205 00:17:52,460 --> 00:17:55,127 we can be together all the time. 206 00:17:56,900 --> 00:17:59,098 What did you dream of last night? 207 00:17:59,140 --> 00:18:00,809 I didn't. I don't know. 208 00:18:00,851 --> 00:18:01,749 You don't know? 209 00:18:01,791 --> 00:18:02,998 Yeah. 210 00:18:03,040 --> 00:18:04,577 Do you know what I think about dreams? 211 00:18:04,619 --> 00:18:05,800 What? 212 00:18:05,842 --> 00:18:08,400 I think there are a way for our soul 213 00:18:08,442 --> 00:18:10,960 to tell us how it feels. 214 00:18:11,002 --> 00:18:11,838 Oh. 215 00:18:11,880 --> 00:18:13,229 Do you know what a soul is? 216 00:18:13,271 --> 00:18:14,877 No. 217 00:18:14,919 --> 00:18:19,840 It's the, inside of you 218 00:18:19,882 --> 00:18:21,715 Kind of like pancakes. 219 00:18:22,980 --> 00:18:23,771 Yep. 220 00:18:23,813 --> 00:18:24,604 With sprinkles? 221 00:18:24,646 --> 00:18:25,437 Yeah. 222 00:18:25,479 --> 00:18:26,741 Like daddy makes? 223 00:18:26,783 --> 00:18:27,960 Yeah. 224 00:18:48,463 --> 00:18:50,072 Do you want me to tell her? 225 00:18:50,114 --> 00:18:52,781 You just set it up. Go for it. 226 00:18:55,641 --> 00:18:57,710 We wanted to see if you would officially 227 00:18:57,752 --> 00:18:59,919 become Goldie's godmother. 228 00:19:01,162 --> 00:19:02,450 Wait, are you serious? 229 00:19:02,492 --> 00:19:04,210 Yes. 230 00:19:04,252 --> 00:19:05,530 Okay. I just, I thought I already was. 231 00:19:05,572 --> 00:19:07,709 It seems kind of spooky to ask me now. 232 00:19:07,751 --> 00:19:09,018 No, we just recognized 233 00:19:09,060 --> 00:19:10,417 that we're gonna be a little older 234 00:19:10,459 --> 00:19:12,918 than some of the other parents on the soccer field. 235 00:19:12,960 --> 00:19:17,878 And we'd like to know there's gonna be an assistant coach. 236 00:19:17,920 --> 00:19:21,014 We want to make you his legal guardian 237 00:19:21,056 --> 00:19:22,340 should anything happen to us. 238 00:19:22,382 --> 00:19:25,225 Okay. I am really flattered and it means a lot. 239 00:19:25,267 --> 00:19:27,459 But please tell me you're not going anywhere anytime soon, 240 00:19:27,501 --> 00:19:28,348 no offense, Goldie. 241 00:19:28,390 --> 00:19:29,181 You are the one. 242 00:19:29,223 --> 00:19:30,338 Okay. I just don't understand 243 00:19:30,380 --> 00:19:31,738 why you're asking me this now. 244 00:19:31,780 --> 00:19:33,686 Just checking a few boxes. 245 00:19:33,728 --> 00:19:34,849 You're here now and, 246 00:19:34,891 --> 00:19:37,233 and we've been talking about this for a while. 247 00:19:37,275 --> 00:19:39,192 Okay. Yeah, for sure. 248 00:19:41,200 --> 00:19:44,018 It would be an honor to teach Goldie 249 00:19:44,060 --> 00:19:46,643 how to survive under your roof. 250 00:19:49,120 --> 00:19:51,419 He'll have to do his part. Hm? 251 00:19:59,411 --> 00:20:01,558 Are you gonna tell me what's really going on or? 252 00:20:01,600 --> 00:20:04,460 This is what's going on? 253 00:20:04,502 --> 00:20:07,308 We've just been talking about our life and our family 254 00:20:07,350 --> 00:20:10,180 and we wanna make sure we have our ducks in a row. 255 00:20:10,222 --> 00:20:12,433 But the doctor thing, you're good. 256 00:20:12,475 --> 00:20:16,460 We're visiting your dad next week, leaving Goldie with him 257 00:20:16,502 --> 00:20:19,953 and stopping in to see Dr. Ross for a quick visit. 258 00:20:19,995 --> 00:20:22,028 Fuck. Okay, I knew something was going on. 259 00:20:22,070 --> 00:20:23,868 Why didn't you tell me? 260 00:20:23,910 --> 00:20:25,745 We know things with you have been a bit crazy 261 00:20:25,787 --> 00:20:27,588 and with the good news about the writing project, 262 00:20:27,630 --> 00:20:29,198 we just didn't wanna be sour grapes. 263 00:20:29,240 --> 00:20:31,367 I can handle it. 264 00:20:31,409 --> 00:20:33,798 I probably have to do another round of treatment. 265 00:20:33,840 --> 00:20:36,128 Oh God. Okay. What a nightmare. 266 00:20:36,170 --> 00:20:38,027 I, I, some tests came back 267 00:20:38,069 --> 00:20:40,020 and they were a little off, 268 00:20:40,062 --> 00:20:41,033 and we just wanna make sure 269 00:20:41,075 --> 00:20:42,988 everything is working the way it's supposed to. 270 00:20:43,030 --> 00:20:43,969 Is it serious? 271 00:20:44,011 --> 00:20:46,094 We remain very hopeful. 272 00:20:47,331 --> 00:20:49,678 Just some due diligence. 273 00:20:49,720 --> 00:20:50,838 Okay, 'cause if you're really dying, 274 00:20:50,880 --> 00:20:52,068 my toast was in terrible taste 275 00:20:52,110 --> 00:20:53,849 and I'm never gonna forgive myself. 276 00:21:23,086 --> 00:21:25,281 I got you, okay. 277 00:21:25,323 --> 00:21:26,740 I know, I know. 278 00:21:29,298 --> 00:21:31,548 And I'm not going anywhere. 279 00:21:36,517 --> 00:21:39,100 Don't make a big thing of this. 280 00:21:40,648 --> 00:21:42,645 But I want you to have mom's ring. 281 00:21:42,687 --> 00:21:43,687 Why? 282 00:21:44,798 --> 00:21:46,798 It's a godmother gift. 283 00:21:49,579 --> 00:21:50,412 Sure. 284 00:21:53,027 --> 00:21:56,023 It's meant for both of us. 285 00:21:56,065 --> 00:21:57,482 I've had my turn. 286 00:22:02,448 --> 00:22:04,115 It's a little big. 287 00:22:05,488 --> 00:22:07,776 You can wear it as a necklace. 288 00:22:13,697 --> 00:22:14,488 Ready? 289 00:22:14,530 --> 00:22:15,321 One, two, three. 290 00:22:15,363 --> 00:22:16,154 Go! 291 00:22:16,196 --> 00:22:17,029 Go! 292 00:22:19,131 --> 00:22:22,918 This time we're gonna have a, have... 293 00:22:22,960 --> 00:22:23,946 Have what? 294 00:22:23,988 --> 00:22:27,238 Have a, a contest to see who gets to, 295 00:22:28,080 --> 00:22:31,068 who, who jumps the farthest? 296 00:22:31,110 --> 00:22:32,222 Who jumps the farthest? 297 00:22:32,264 --> 00:22:33,356 You or the polar bear? 298 00:22:33,398 --> 00:22:34,189 Okay. You ready? 299 00:22:34,231 --> 00:22:35,022 Go. 300 00:22:35,064 --> 00:22:37,192 One, two, three. Go. 301 00:22:37,234 --> 00:22:38,089 Oh, it looks like you... 302 00:22:38,131 --> 00:22:39,977 It was you. It was you. 303 00:22:40,019 --> 00:22:41,078 It looks like you won. 304 00:22:41,120 --> 00:22:44,638 I just tumbled down a river, mega dam. 305 00:22:44,680 --> 00:22:45,787 Okay. You're gonna try again? 306 00:22:45,829 --> 00:22:46,620 One more time. 307 00:22:46,662 --> 00:22:47,579 Yeah. Go. 308 00:22:49,041 --> 00:22:51,203 This time polar bear beat you I think. 309 00:22:51,245 --> 00:22:52,786 Yeah. 310 00:22:52,828 --> 00:22:54,422 Here, can you give Auntie Sprinkles a big hug? 311 00:22:57,797 --> 00:22:59,797 Oh, that was a good one. 312 00:23:01,491 --> 00:23:03,545 Oh, I'm tired, now I'm tired. 313 00:23:03,587 --> 00:23:05,004 Oh, I'm bended. 314 00:23:07,587 --> 00:23:08,670 Drive safe. 315 00:23:10,164 --> 00:23:11,123 Thanks for the wine. 316 00:23:11,165 --> 00:23:12,165 Of course. 317 00:23:16,045 --> 00:23:17,403 I love you. 318 00:23:17,445 --> 00:23:19,028 I love you. 319 00:23:22,803 --> 00:23:25,303 Call us if things get weird. 320 00:23:32,066 --> 00:23:33,982 Maybe you should come to the Berkshires. 321 00:23:34,024 --> 00:23:36,223 I wish. 322 00:23:36,265 --> 00:23:38,253 I hate to disrupt Goldie schedule too much. 323 00:23:38,295 --> 00:23:39,594 Kids are flexible. 324 00:23:39,636 --> 00:23:40,886 Not this one. 325 00:23:42,735 --> 00:23:46,485 I promise to only mess 'em up a little bit. 326 00:23:49,625 --> 00:23:51,042 Get outta here. 327 00:23:52,796 --> 00:23:53,629 Bye. 328 00:24:48,415 --> 00:24:49,893 Where should I put this? 329 00:24:49,935 --> 00:24:51,903 Oh yeah. On the table is good. 330 00:24:51,945 --> 00:24:52,778 Perfect. 331 00:24:55,854 --> 00:24:58,063 Thank you for getting that stuff. 332 00:24:58,105 --> 00:25:01,367 I totally just forgot to bring food. 333 00:25:01,409 --> 00:25:03,326 For sure. No problem. 334 00:25:04,793 --> 00:25:06,190 Thanks for the opportunity. 335 00:25:06,232 --> 00:25:07,232 Of course. 336 00:25:08,305 --> 00:25:09,871 We're gonna have a good time. 337 00:25:09,913 --> 00:25:10,746 Yeah. 338 00:25:14,385 --> 00:25:15,343 If you don't mind, 339 00:25:15,385 --> 00:25:18,122 maybe you could grab some firewood from outside. 340 00:25:18,164 --> 00:25:22,291 Then we can roll our first on the record over dinner. 341 00:25:22,333 --> 00:25:23,166 Sure. 342 00:25:24,153 --> 00:25:25,271 Yeah. That'd be great. 343 00:25:25,313 --> 00:25:26,146 Cool. 344 00:25:48,214 --> 00:25:49,303 Okay. I'm just gonna put this here. 345 00:25:49,345 --> 00:25:51,394 Tape recorder is a nice touch. 346 00:25:51,436 --> 00:25:53,269 Yeah, it's my mom's. 347 00:25:55,834 --> 00:26:00,001 So I think that we should start with the contract. 348 00:26:01,926 --> 00:26:05,404 The record deal seems like it got off 349 00:26:05,446 --> 00:26:06,863 to a wonky start. 350 00:26:08,006 --> 00:26:11,089 Honestly, it, it, it wasn't so bad. 351 00:26:12,054 --> 00:26:13,964 High class problems. 352 00:26:14,006 --> 00:26:15,534 I just wanted to dive right in 353 00:26:15,576 --> 00:26:18,332 and get started on the demos that I had sent. 354 00:26:18,374 --> 00:26:21,492 But they really want me to bust something out 355 00:26:21,534 --> 00:26:22,663 with this co-writer. 356 00:26:22,705 --> 00:26:25,288 And you don't wanna co-write? 357 00:26:26,165 --> 00:26:27,851 I think it would be a mess. 358 00:26:27,893 --> 00:26:30,263 I've just always written alone. 359 00:26:30,305 --> 00:26:32,902 Well, not entirely alone. 360 00:26:32,944 --> 00:26:35,221 What do you mean? 361 00:26:35,263 --> 00:26:36,554 I mean, wasn't your last album 362 00:26:36,596 --> 00:26:38,735 all about your messy marriage? 363 00:26:38,777 --> 00:26:40,146 So? 364 00:26:40,188 --> 00:26:42,929 So you had some inspiration 365 00:26:42,971 --> 00:26:46,888 before the chords made their way to your hands. 366 00:26:48,966 --> 00:26:50,002 Whose side are you on? 367 00:26:50,044 --> 00:26:51,492 Yours, definitely. 368 00:26:51,534 --> 00:26:54,117 I'm just, don't you think muses 369 00:26:55,154 --> 00:26:56,452 deserve a little credit? 370 00:26:56,494 --> 00:26:57,327 Muse? 371 00:26:58,886 --> 00:27:02,886 She was my wife, I think turned the liner notes. 372 00:27:03,884 --> 00:27:07,467 Ah, well that album was a goddam bruiser. 373 00:27:08,444 --> 00:27:12,527 Yeah. Well, that's all really just make belief. 374 00:27:13,579 --> 00:27:17,412 Was it tough to write so honestly about sex? 375 00:27:21,316 --> 00:27:23,981 I wish I never tried. 376 00:27:24,023 --> 00:27:25,440 Say more. 377 00:27:29,864 --> 00:27:31,992 It just felt a bit dangerous this time 378 00:27:32,034 --> 00:27:34,284 and not in an artistic way. 379 00:27:35,784 --> 00:27:37,451 Why is that? 380 00:27:39,645 --> 00:27:41,792 Well, I think sex can be a liability 381 00:27:41,834 --> 00:27:43,267 for artists as well as it should be. 382 00:27:43,309 --> 00:27:46,392 And you just have to tread carefully. 383 00:27:48,413 --> 00:27:50,603 And I think it got a bit messy 384 00:27:50,645 --> 00:27:55,395 and things turned out a bit worse than I had anticipated. 385 00:27:57,984 --> 00:28:01,422 Do you mind if I bring up the affair? 386 00:28:01,464 --> 00:28:02,297 Sure. 387 00:28:06,733 --> 00:28:08,483 What was that like? 388 00:28:09,453 --> 00:28:12,753 You know, using your infidelity 389 00:28:12,795 --> 00:28:15,212 as inspiration for your album 390 00:28:16,264 --> 00:28:18,847 and you know, that being known, 391 00:28:20,004 --> 00:28:22,421 and yeah, what was that like? 392 00:28:27,984 --> 00:28:30,563 Well, on one hand it was great. 393 00:28:30,605 --> 00:28:31,683 It was beautiful. 394 00:28:31,725 --> 00:28:33,731 I mean, I had to write it. 395 00:28:33,773 --> 00:28:36,062 I mean, it would've came out one way or another, right? 396 00:28:36,104 --> 00:28:39,021 So it was great. It was liberating. 397 00:28:42,131 --> 00:28:45,881 It was cathartic. I think it hurt some people 398 00:28:46,725 --> 00:28:49,882 and that wasn't my intention, 399 00:28:49,924 --> 00:28:52,251 but I can't really control how people perceive it. 400 00:28:52,293 --> 00:28:54,460 So it was a, it was weird. 401 00:28:59,205 --> 00:29:00,033 I, I was very... 402 00:29:00,075 --> 00:29:02,062 I still feel very torn about it, I guess. 403 00:29:02,104 --> 00:29:03,043 Do you regret it? 404 00:29:03,085 --> 00:29:03,937 No. 405 00:29:03,979 --> 00:29:06,479 Well, the affair or the album? 406 00:29:08,044 --> 00:29:09,883 Both. 407 00:29:09,925 --> 00:29:11,323 Still no. 408 00:29:11,365 --> 00:29:14,602 No. At the end of the day, I don't regret either of them. 409 00:29:14,644 --> 00:29:16,203 Again, my, maybe I wish the outcomes 410 00:29:16,245 --> 00:29:17,584 were a little bit different, 411 00:29:17,626 --> 00:29:19,709 but it, it, it had to be, 412 00:29:26,688 --> 00:29:27,526 it had to be said. 413 00:29:27,568 --> 00:29:29,068 I had to write it. 414 00:29:31,608 --> 00:29:33,920 It would've gotten ugly, I think, 415 00:29:33,962 --> 00:29:37,124 regardless of whether I'd written some songs 416 00:29:37,166 --> 00:29:38,499 about it or not. 417 00:29:41,088 --> 00:29:43,265 That's what I love about the album. 418 00:29:43,307 --> 00:29:47,595 You know, usually I've, I've seen plenty of artists, 419 00:29:47,637 --> 00:29:50,496 you know, write albums about their grievances 420 00:29:50,538 --> 00:29:52,175 about being cheated on, 421 00:29:52,217 --> 00:29:54,083 but I don't know, yours was the first 422 00:29:54,125 --> 00:29:57,292 I felt like really talked about being, 423 00:29:58,288 --> 00:30:02,385 well, you know, for lack of a better word, the cheater. 424 00:30:02,427 --> 00:30:05,260 Yeah, I hear what you're saying. 425 00:30:06,405 --> 00:30:08,572 It, I think it's beautiful 426 00:30:15,088 --> 00:30:17,505 in a way to pity the bad guy. 427 00:30:20,207 --> 00:30:24,170 I mean, it didn't feel bad for me when it was happening. 428 00:30:24,212 --> 00:30:26,795 It felt, it felt good, I guess. 429 00:30:34,019 --> 00:30:36,186 I mean, it felt like free, 430 00:30:38,986 --> 00:30:41,244 and like these were things 431 00:30:41,286 --> 00:30:42,806 that had been stuck in my head forever 432 00:30:42,848 --> 00:30:44,143 and I just needed to get them out. 433 00:30:44,185 --> 00:30:45,177 And I wasn't thinking about them 434 00:30:45,219 --> 00:30:47,176 in terms of I'm good or I'm bad. 435 00:30:47,218 --> 00:30:49,218 It was just what it was. 436 00:30:51,728 --> 00:30:55,145 But obviously when you're listening to it 437 00:30:56,427 --> 00:30:59,185 from a certain perspective, 438 00:30:59,227 --> 00:31:02,633 unless you're relating to it, I sound like an asshole 439 00:31:02,675 --> 00:31:07,195 So it's, well, I, I think that's beautiful though. 440 00:31:07,237 --> 00:31:11,190 I think you know that both sides are, are there, 441 00:31:11,232 --> 00:31:14,732 I think that's, that makes it kind of fun. 442 00:31:16,145 --> 00:31:19,354 It makes it dangerous in a good way. 443 00:31:19,396 --> 00:31:21,136 Yeah, I get that. 444 00:31:21,178 --> 00:31:23,097 And it's just interesting 445 00:31:23,139 --> 00:31:25,086 'cause I've always, what I've always said about you 446 00:31:25,128 --> 00:31:28,091 is I feel like that type of duplicity, 447 00:31:28,133 --> 00:31:31,337 that complexity, that contradiction. 448 00:31:31,379 --> 00:31:33,129 Contradiction. Sorry. 449 00:31:34,915 --> 00:31:37,985 That, I think that's what gives you 450 00:31:38,027 --> 00:31:40,194 a raw energy as an artist. 451 00:31:41,939 --> 00:31:43,765 That sounds nice. 452 00:31:43,807 --> 00:31:45,027 Yeah. 453 00:31:45,069 --> 00:31:47,555 Do you, do you actually like my music? 454 00:31:47,597 --> 00:31:49,206 Or is this an assignment? 455 00:31:49,248 --> 00:31:51,206 No, I like your music. 456 00:31:51,248 --> 00:31:52,094 What's your favorite song? 457 00:31:52,136 --> 00:31:53,531 Willow First EP. 458 00:31:53,573 --> 00:31:57,906 Mm. We were married near the lake under the Willow 459 00:31:59,752 --> 00:32:03,835 and you buried me under the lake near the Willow. 460 00:32:04,726 --> 00:32:08,393 Yeah. See what I find so honest about that 461 00:32:10,029 --> 00:32:11,363 is that most people see marriage 462 00:32:11,405 --> 00:32:14,687 as the beginning of something, 463 00:32:14,729 --> 00:32:19,562 but with us we are also seeing it as the end of something. 464 00:32:30,456 --> 00:32:33,147 And do you relate, have you ever been married? 465 00:32:33,189 --> 00:32:34,022 No. 466 00:32:35,259 --> 00:32:37,342 Long-term relationship? 467 00:32:38,645 --> 00:32:40,145 Yes, I am in one 468 00:32:42,845 --> 00:32:47,595 or I guess I'm actually kind of slowly coming out of one. 469 00:32:51,099 --> 00:32:53,266 Is that why you're here? 470 00:32:57,429 --> 00:32:59,429 I wrote Willow at a time 471 00:33:00,714 --> 00:33:04,214 where commitment felt like a death rattle. 472 00:33:07,960 --> 00:33:09,445 So you're divorced now? 473 00:33:09,487 --> 00:33:11,313 Yeah. Yeah. 474 00:33:11,355 --> 00:33:15,406 Yeah. Why didn't you end up reconciling? 475 00:33:15,448 --> 00:33:17,281 Hmm. I fell in love, 476 00:33:19,847 --> 00:33:22,097 which was my first mistake. 477 00:33:27,760 --> 00:33:29,805 What's the story with the ring? 478 00:33:29,847 --> 00:33:32,347 Oh, it was, it was my mom's. 479 00:33:34,373 --> 00:33:36,566 It's very beautiful. 480 00:33:36,608 --> 00:33:38,191 Yeah, I think so. 481 00:33:44,888 --> 00:33:47,486 Well, I think that's a really good start. 482 00:33:47,528 --> 00:33:48,361 Yeah. 483 00:33:49,391 --> 00:33:53,844 Well, tomorrow I guess I'll have to write a hit song. 484 00:33:53,886 --> 00:33:54,969 But tonight... 485 00:34:19,947 --> 00:34:23,235 Hey, sorry, I know it's late over there. 486 00:34:23,277 --> 00:34:25,425 I just wanted to say hi. 487 00:34:25,467 --> 00:34:27,134 And that I miss you. 488 00:34:29,040 --> 00:34:31,873 We need to talk when you get back. 489 00:34:33,042 --> 00:34:37,292 I'll see you in the Wednesday meeting. Sleep tight. 490 00:34:52,048 --> 00:34:56,798 I don't think you're supposed to mix that one with booze. 491 00:34:58,189 --> 00:35:00,222 It's fine. I'm fine. 492 00:35:00,264 --> 00:35:02,014 I do it all the time. 493 00:35:05,939 --> 00:35:08,576 Goldie's went to bed pretty easy tonight. 494 00:35:08,618 --> 00:35:10,817 He's been good lately. 495 00:35:10,859 --> 00:35:13,115 It's about the routine. 496 00:35:13,157 --> 00:35:16,795 Yes. It'd be nice if that routine included you 497 00:35:16,837 --> 00:35:18,920 doing bedtime more often. 498 00:35:19,955 --> 00:35:23,538 So I can just cry for you the whole time. 499 00:35:37,505 --> 00:35:38,922 Do you ever think 500 00:35:40,267 --> 00:35:43,100 maybe we should have had one more? 501 00:35:58,339 --> 00:35:59,756 I am just saying, 502 00:36:04,066 --> 00:36:06,566 I love making a baby with you. 503 00:36:11,498 --> 00:36:13,915 You wanna untie your tubes? 504 00:36:19,756 --> 00:36:22,173 If it could make you happy, 505 00:36:28,787 --> 00:36:30,870 I'd do it in a heartbeat. 506 00:36:33,328 --> 00:36:37,334 So when's the last time you were home? 507 00:36:37,376 --> 00:36:41,876 A long time. Probably a year. Before the tour. Yeah. 508 00:36:43,685 --> 00:36:45,598 Which is weird. 509 00:36:45,640 --> 00:36:47,890 But what's worse is that I, 510 00:36:49,307 --> 00:36:51,025 I feel so weird to sleep in the same place 511 00:36:51,067 --> 00:36:53,484 for more than two nights now. 512 00:36:55,084 --> 00:36:59,782 Well listen, I will get outta your hair in the morning. 513 00:36:59,824 --> 00:37:01,774 I don't wanna get in the way. 514 00:37:01,816 --> 00:37:02,899 No, please. 515 00:37:02,941 --> 00:37:06,691 I, I really like the company. It helps a lot. 516 00:37:08,185 --> 00:37:12,534 Well, still I know that I'm a stranger, so, oh. 517 00:37:12,576 --> 00:37:13,492 At this point my life 518 00:37:13,534 --> 00:37:16,334 is comprised of mostly friendly strangers. 519 00:37:16,376 --> 00:37:18,793 What about your band mates? 520 00:37:20,008 --> 00:37:21,686 Are we back on the record? 521 00:37:21,728 --> 00:37:25,155 Sorry, I don't mean to grill you. 522 00:37:25,197 --> 00:37:26,614 I'm just curious. 523 00:37:29,271 --> 00:37:32,604 Some strangers are closer than others. 524 00:37:35,042 --> 00:37:36,625 Do you wanna snack? 525 00:37:38,826 --> 00:37:41,153 Thought you never asked. 526 00:37:41,195 --> 00:37:42,213 And honestly, I'm just 527 00:37:42,255 --> 00:37:44,414 as much of a stranger here as you are. 528 00:37:44,456 --> 00:37:48,195 Sometimes you gotta just take what you want. 529 00:37:48,237 --> 00:37:49,654 What do you want? 530 00:37:55,208 --> 00:37:57,643 Wow. You're really meticulous with each of these. 531 00:37:57,685 --> 00:37:58,581 That's why that's, you know, 532 00:37:58,623 --> 00:37:59,853 that's how they come out so good. 533 00:37:59,895 --> 00:38:01,253 I know. You just gotta slap it on. 534 00:38:01,295 --> 00:38:02,598 That's what me and my sister did. 535 00:38:02,640 --> 00:38:04,750 It was like a big boom, boom, bam. 536 00:38:04,792 --> 00:38:06,892 A big boom. A big boom, bam, bam. 537 00:38:06,934 --> 00:38:07,725 Show me. 538 00:38:07,767 --> 00:38:12,160 Okay. You just kind of, you gotta slap it on. 539 00:38:12,202 --> 00:38:13,787 Oh, see where it lands. 540 00:38:13,829 --> 00:38:14,774 Your sister taught you that? 541 00:38:14,816 --> 00:38:15,919 Yeah, she did. 542 00:38:15,961 --> 00:38:16,916 Is she older? 543 00:38:16,958 --> 00:38:17,798 Yes. 544 00:38:17,840 --> 00:38:19,384 I, I can tell. 545 00:38:19,426 --> 00:38:20,518 You can tell? 546 00:38:20,560 --> 00:38:21,893 Yeah. 547 00:38:21,935 --> 00:38:24,476 That she's older. Why? 548 00:38:24,518 --> 00:38:26,672 You don't remember 549 00:38:26,714 --> 00:38:27,605 I guess I haven't, 550 00:38:27,647 --> 00:38:29,033 but I feel like she knows me 551 00:38:29,075 --> 00:38:30,430 because she gave you this peanut butter 552 00:38:30,472 --> 00:38:31,606 and I love peanut butter. 553 00:38:31,648 --> 00:38:34,147 I see, I see, I see. 554 00:38:34,189 --> 00:38:35,690 Yeah. What's, what's her name? 555 00:38:35,732 --> 00:38:38,232 Nadine. She's sick. - Nadine. 556 00:38:40,016 --> 00:38:40,849 Ah, I'm... 557 00:38:42,872 --> 00:38:44,636 Sorry. I've never said that out loud before. 558 00:38:44,678 --> 00:38:46,589 It's kind of... 559 00:38:46,631 --> 00:38:50,757 That's okay. I'm very sorry to hear that. 560 00:38:50,799 --> 00:38:51,632 Yeah. 561 00:38:53,024 --> 00:38:56,354 Is she, I don't really know how to ask this, 562 00:38:56,396 --> 00:38:58,276 but is she gonna be okay? 563 00:39:01,552 --> 00:39:02,802 I don't know. 564 00:39:05,111 --> 00:39:07,799 Her husband's out in the yard chopping wood, 565 00:39:07,841 --> 00:39:09,962 which is what he did when his mother died. 566 00:39:10,004 --> 00:39:11,421 So, I don't know. 567 00:39:21,596 --> 00:39:22,387 Sorry to... 568 00:39:22,429 --> 00:39:24,512 No. Bring me, you know, 569 00:39:26,741 --> 00:39:29,338 I feel a bit silly with the sandwiches. 570 00:39:29,380 --> 00:39:30,185 It's okay. Let's eat 'em. 571 00:39:30,227 --> 00:39:32,557 Let's eat, let's eat. Okay. 572 00:40:36,585 --> 00:40:37,585 Oh my God. 573 00:40:51,560 --> 00:40:54,143 Did you have a good New year? 574 00:40:55,588 --> 00:40:56,838 I was sleepy. 575 00:40:58,623 --> 00:41:00,040 Did you go out? 576 00:41:03,358 --> 00:41:07,191 We stayed home. I sort of hate myself for it, 577 00:41:07,233 --> 00:41:10,435 but I fell asleep before midnight. 578 00:41:14,299 --> 00:41:18,762 I went out, but they didn't even do a countdown. 579 00:41:18,804 --> 00:41:21,721 I just drank some shitty champagne. 580 00:41:23,402 --> 00:41:26,902 I barely drank this entire holiday though. 581 00:41:31,519 --> 00:41:34,732 Hey, you have everything you need. 582 00:41:34,774 --> 00:41:36,076 What? 583 00:41:36,118 --> 00:41:40,150 I was just making sure you have everything you need. 584 00:41:40,192 --> 00:41:41,025 Yeah. 585 00:41:41,909 --> 00:41:43,326 Yeah. I think so. 586 00:41:45,022 --> 00:41:46,939 What are you writing? 587 00:41:50,451 --> 00:41:51,242 Can I see? 588 00:41:51,284 --> 00:41:52,075 No. 589 00:41:52,117 --> 00:41:52,908 Please. - No. 590 00:41:52,950 --> 00:41:55,396 Just a little bit. - It's private. 591 00:42:03,933 --> 00:42:06,100 Can I ask you something? 592 00:42:07,534 --> 00:42:08,878 Yeah. 593 00:42:15,183 --> 00:42:20,183 Do you think I could lay down here just for a little while? 594 00:42:20,325 --> 00:42:22,575 I'm feeling kind of scared. 595 00:42:31,107 --> 00:42:32,556 Yeah. 596 00:42:32,598 --> 00:42:33,431 Okay. 597 00:43:22,290 --> 00:43:26,873 You know, you can put your arm around me if you want. 598 00:44:32,710 --> 00:44:36,452 I mean, there's some good love songs. 599 00:44:36,494 --> 00:44:39,632 Some of them are like compositionally written well right, 600 00:44:39,674 --> 00:44:41,091 but I don't know, 601 00:44:43,270 --> 00:44:45,520 they all talk so much about 602 00:44:49,693 --> 00:44:53,328 self-sacrificing and you are my everything, 603 00:44:53,370 --> 00:44:56,120 and I'm nothing without you just. 604 00:44:58,146 --> 00:45:00,449 Well, love can sometimes be self-sacrificing. 605 00:45:00,491 --> 00:45:01,574 Yeah. But... 606 00:45:03,786 --> 00:45:05,031 I, I get what you're saying. 607 00:45:05,073 --> 00:45:08,740 Yeah. I mean, I'm talking about real love. 608 00:45:11,850 --> 00:45:14,663 You feel like none of the stories you ever write 609 00:45:14,705 --> 00:45:15,955 are about love? 610 00:45:19,244 --> 00:45:23,567 The most romantic thing I think someone could do for me 611 00:45:23,609 --> 00:45:27,442 is feel entirely liberated, entirely abundant. 612 00:45:30,624 --> 00:45:33,882 And like they could survive without me 613 00:45:33,924 --> 00:45:36,007 and then still choose me. 614 00:45:43,256 --> 00:45:46,339 I don't like to romanticize anything. 615 00:45:47,186 --> 00:45:49,405 You're practical. 616 00:45:49,447 --> 00:45:53,114 Or real, whichever way you like to put it. 617 00:45:59,604 --> 00:46:00,778 I admire it. I feel like 618 00:46:00,820 --> 00:46:03,524 I romanticize things a lot in my writing. 619 00:46:03,566 --> 00:46:06,442 You're a songwriter. 620 00:46:06,484 --> 00:46:10,895 Songwriting, songwriting can be real sometimes. 621 00:46:10,937 --> 00:46:12,932 And it's, you know. 622 00:46:12,974 --> 00:46:16,641 Oh yeah, that's what my mom would say too. 623 00:46:18,288 --> 00:46:20,563 Did she write songs? 624 00:46:20,605 --> 00:46:21,992 She was a songwriter. Yeah. 625 00:46:22,034 --> 00:46:23,222 Oh, okay. 626 00:46:23,264 --> 00:46:24,681 This makes sense. 627 00:46:26,986 --> 00:46:29,236 Did you ever interview her? 628 00:46:31,272 --> 00:46:33,855 No. My biggest regret. 629 00:46:51,610 --> 00:46:53,027 Nadine Andrews. 630 00:47:03,800 --> 00:47:05,626 So what we often see 631 00:47:05,668 --> 00:47:07,583 in early stage multiple sclerosis 632 00:47:07,625 --> 00:47:09,941 is inflammation affecting the parts of the body 633 00:47:09,983 --> 00:47:12,036 where nerve damage has already taken a toll. 634 00:47:12,078 --> 00:47:14,094 So I want you to meet with our nutritionist 635 00:47:14,136 --> 00:47:17,309 to establish dietary habits that will curb the inflammation 636 00:47:17,351 --> 00:47:20,528 and start to address at least the symptoms. 637 00:47:20,570 --> 00:47:25,058 And then that should carve out a path to rehabilitation. 638 00:47:25,100 --> 00:47:28,016 So you just want me to cut out bread? 639 00:47:28,058 --> 00:47:29,816 We unfortunately don't have a ton of time today 640 00:47:29,858 --> 00:47:32,339 to get into the nuance here, 641 00:47:32,381 --> 00:47:34,423 but I wanna get more blood work back 642 00:47:34,465 --> 00:47:37,007 before we make our final treatment plan. 643 00:47:37,049 --> 00:47:38,351 Thank you, Doctor. 644 00:47:38,393 --> 00:47:39,937 Take care. 645 00:47:39,979 --> 00:47:41,415 Fucking disease. 646 00:47:41,457 --> 00:47:42,540 Fuck, yeah. 647 00:48:44,085 --> 00:48:48,418 Why didn't I go cemetery, it's just like a church. 648 00:48:49,423 --> 00:48:50,214 It was like a church. 649 00:48:50,256 --> 00:48:51,047 Yeah. 650 00:48:51,089 --> 00:48:53,102 With a cemetery and like in the yard. 651 00:48:53,144 --> 00:48:53,935 Yeah. 652 00:48:53,977 --> 00:48:55,564 Oh, okay. Okay. 653 00:48:55,606 --> 00:48:59,377 Yeah. And it was like a stone path. 654 00:48:59,419 --> 00:49:02,086 The side of that outside church, 655 00:49:03,947 --> 00:49:06,530 and there was like little stone 656 00:49:08,436 --> 00:49:10,686 boxes with stone roof tops. 657 00:49:14,721 --> 00:49:15,771 Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. 658 00:49:15,813 --> 00:49:18,532 And, and that can come off and, 659 00:49:18,574 --> 00:49:22,824 and you put the box inside with the ashes or bones, 660 00:49:24,439 --> 00:49:26,522 and then, and then, then, 661 00:49:28,707 --> 00:49:30,600 then close the top. 662 00:49:30,642 --> 00:49:31,433 Wow. 663 00:49:31,475 --> 00:49:33,717 Just make sure to put flowers on it. 664 00:49:33,759 --> 00:49:34,550 Right. 665 00:49:34,592 --> 00:49:36,841 That one had many flowers. 666 00:49:36,883 --> 00:49:39,830 I don't want you to worry, all right. 667 00:49:39,872 --> 00:49:41,458 Mom's gonna be okay. 668 00:49:41,500 --> 00:49:42,812 Okay. 669 00:49:42,854 --> 00:49:44,493 Okay. You know that right? 670 00:49:44,535 --> 00:49:45,326 Yeah. 671 00:49:45,368 --> 00:49:48,240 All right, she just isn't feeling too well today. 672 00:49:48,282 --> 00:49:49,192 Yeah. 673 00:49:49,234 --> 00:49:51,633 Right. She's gonna be great. 674 00:49:51,675 --> 00:49:53,788 We're gonna be fine. 675 00:49:53,830 --> 00:49:56,051 We're gonna make mom some tea tonight. 676 00:49:56,093 --> 00:49:57,740 It's gonna be good. 677 00:49:57,782 --> 00:50:00,179 And hey, let's watch that movie you like. 678 00:50:00,221 --> 00:50:01,285 What's that movie you like? 679 00:50:01,327 --> 00:50:02,243 "Paw Patrol". 680 00:50:02,285 --> 00:50:04,912 Oh yeah, "Paw Patrol". 681 00:50:04,954 --> 00:50:06,454 Best movie we own. 682 00:50:07,636 --> 00:50:08,747 Yeah. 683 00:50:08,789 --> 00:50:10,039 That's right. 684 00:50:49,105 --> 00:50:52,078 Did you even eat the food I made? 685 00:50:52,120 --> 00:50:52,931 Would I? 686 00:50:52,973 --> 00:50:53,764 Yeah. 687 00:50:53,806 --> 00:50:57,473 If you made food 688 00:50:59,941 --> 00:51:02,304 Yeah. What was the last thing you made me? 689 00:51:02,346 --> 00:51:03,203 Remind me. 690 00:51:03,245 --> 00:51:05,041 I can't remember. 691 00:51:05,083 --> 00:51:06,783 I made you a very good Turkey sandwich. 692 00:51:06,825 --> 00:51:10,217 Oh, a Turkey sandwich. Oh my god, for lunch. 693 00:51:10,259 --> 00:51:11,162 That one time you? 694 00:51:11,204 --> 00:51:11,995 Yep. 695 00:51:12,037 --> 00:51:12,828 How could I forget? 696 00:51:12,870 --> 00:51:13,891 I'm so sorry. 697 00:51:13,933 --> 00:51:17,183 It was edible 698 00:51:21,798 --> 00:51:24,381 Just wait until I burn pasta. 699 00:51:26,093 --> 00:51:28,593 You would burn pasta I know. 700 00:51:31,878 --> 00:51:33,663 Thank you for doing the dishes. 701 00:51:33,705 --> 00:51:36,834 Could have been a little less rough with them though. 702 00:51:36,876 --> 00:51:37,874 They're fine though. 703 00:51:37,916 --> 00:51:40,016 Yeah, they are. 704 00:51:40,058 --> 00:51:42,225 In two weeks will they be? 705 00:51:44,722 --> 00:51:47,166 Are you sure you're a copywriter? 706 00:51:47,208 --> 00:51:50,291 'Cause that was a weird thing to say. 707 00:51:51,429 --> 00:51:54,191 I'm sorry. I am not one with words 708 00:51:54,233 --> 00:51:55,619 outside of my nine to five. 709 00:51:55,661 --> 00:51:57,551 I'm a good with words actually though. 710 00:51:57,593 --> 00:51:59,115 I don't know if I'd say that. 711 00:51:59,157 --> 00:52:00,248 That's so mean. 712 00:52:00,290 --> 00:52:01,183 I'm sorry. 713 00:52:01,225 --> 00:52:02,286 I'm a fucking writer. 714 00:52:02,328 --> 00:52:03,714 Why the fuck did you say that? 715 00:52:03,756 --> 00:52:04,617 I'm so sorry. 716 00:52:04,659 --> 00:52:06,843 I take it back. I take it. 717 00:52:06,885 --> 00:52:07,676 Lena? 718 00:52:07,718 --> 00:52:08,509 What? 719 00:52:08,551 --> 00:52:10,634 I take it back. - Okay. 720 00:52:19,118 --> 00:52:19,951 Fuck. 721 00:52:23,328 --> 00:52:24,161 Really? 722 00:52:25,974 --> 00:52:27,181 Really. 723 00:52:27,223 --> 00:52:29,390 Wow. Wow. I had no idea. 724 00:52:32,463 --> 00:52:34,046 Since I got sick. 725 00:52:37,083 --> 00:52:39,166 Sex has been complicated, 726 00:52:41,250 --> 00:52:45,667 so we're open to dipping our toes in the dating pool. 727 00:52:52,707 --> 00:52:54,290 So you're dating? 728 00:52:58,283 --> 00:52:59,116 No. 729 00:53:01,160 --> 00:53:02,410 Is he dating? 730 00:53:04,508 --> 00:53:05,885 I don't know. 731 00:53:05,927 --> 00:53:07,927 You don't know? 732 00:53:09,507 --> 00:53:10,725 He doesn't say much. 733 00:53:10,767 --> 00:53:12,517 And I try not to ask. 734 00:53:13,954 --> 00:53:16,454 I would have to know. 735 00:53:18,241 --> 00:53:20,343 Have you and Maeve talked about 736 00:53:20,385 --> 00:53:23,278 sleeping with other people? 737 00:53:23,320 --> 00:53:24,320 No. 738 00:53:27,042 --> 00:53:28,739 Why not? 739 00:53:34,225 --> 00:53:36,142 But if she is or was, 740 00:53:39,053 --> 00:53:41,720 I don't think she would tell me. 741 00:53:43,181 --> 00:53:44,098 How come? 742 00:53:47,360 --> 00:53:49,610 I think she knows I know. 743 00:53:52,652 --> 00:53:54,402 How would you know? 744 00:53:58,175 --> 00:54:02,008 She comes home smelling like different soap. 745 00:54:12,066 --> 00:54:12,899 Right. 746 00:54:18,660 --> 00:54:23,410 I think she would sleep better at night letting it lie. 747 00:54:28,004 --> 00:54:31,816 I lose a sock every time I come here, how is that possible? 748 00:54:31,858 --> 00:54:34,715 It's just the way socks work. 749 00:54:34,757 --> 00:54:35,639 I'll take some more. 750 00:54:35,681 --> 00:54:36,514 Okay. 751 00:54:43,375 --> 00:54:46,625 Okay. I, I will have those sent over. 752 00:54:49,845 --> 00:54:51,262 Yep. First thing. 753 00:54:54,581 --> 00:54:55,414 Okay. 754 00:54:56,786 --> 00:54:57,619 Okay. 755 00:54:59,987 --> 00:55:01,570 It's gonna be okay. 756 00:55:04,166 --> 00:55:08,241 Whoever is, and the person that is on top 757 00:55:08,283 --> 00:55:10,078 is also invisible. 758 00:55:10,120 --> 00:55:11,370 Invisible Jack. 759 00:55:13,008 --> 00:55:14,008 Invisible. 760 00:55:17,091 --> 00:55:18,174 Could she see me? 761 00:55:18,216 --> 00:55:19,058 Could she see me? 762 00:55:19,100 --> 00:55:19,891 No. Yeah. 763 00:55:19,933 --> 00:55:22,753 What are you, what are you sitting on top of? 764 00:55:22,795 --> 00:55:24,273 It's like, it's like you're floating. 765 00:55:24,315 --> 00:55:26,197 No, we both floating. 766 00:55:26,239 --> 00:55:27,708 Yeah. No idea. 767 00:55:27,750 --> 00:55:28,583 Oh. 768 00:55:29,472 --> 00:55:30,931 Oh gosh. 769 00:55:30,973 --> 00:55:33,056 Goldie. Where's Goldie? 770 00:55:34,848 --> 00:55:35,751 I'm back. 771 00:55:35,793 --> 00:55:36,780 There you are. 772 00:55:36,822 --> 00:55:40,024 See, I was here the whole time you didn't lose me. 773 00:55:51,490 --> 00:55:52,907 I have an idea. 774 00:55:58,208 --> 00:55:59,041 Okay. 775 00:56:03,057 --> 00:56:05,231 Do you wanna do mushrooms with me? 776 00:56:05,273 --> 00:56:06,417 Dave gave me them 777 00:56:06,459 --> 00:56:09,798 before I came up here in case I needed to get inspired 778 00:56:09,840 --> 00:56:10,923 or, you know. 779 00:56:14,313 --> 00:56:15,146 No. 780 00:56:16,518 --> 00:56:17,851 No. Seriously? 781 00:56:18,744 --> 00:56:20,361 I've never done them before. 782 00:56:20,403 --> 00:56:21,223 You've never done shrooms? 783 00:56:21,265 --> 00:56:22,056 No. 784 00:56:22,098 --> 00:56:22,889 Really? - Yeah. 785 00:56:22,931 --> 00:56:23,730 Ever? - No. 786 00:56:23,772 --> 00:56:24,563 Not even like... 787 00:56:24,605 --> 00:56:25,739 I've never done shrews before. 788 00:56:25,781 --> 00:56:27,303 Interesting. 789 00:56:27,345 --> 00:56:30,973 Okay. Well it's perfect opportunity. 790 00:56:31,015 --> 00:56:32,427 They're really fun. 791 00:56:32,469 --> 00:56:36,352 I, they're not like crazy like, I mean, I guess they're, 792 00:56:36,394 --> 00:56:38,811 they're psychedelics, but I... 793 00:56:39,848 --> 00:56:40,959 I don't know. I'm kind of nervous. 794 00:56:41,001 --> 00:56:43,253 There's a lot going on up here. 795 00:56:43,295 --> 00:56:45,345 Yeah. But that's even better. 796 00:56:45,387 --> 00:56:49,137 You just gotta lean into like the happy place 797 00:56:50,280 --> 00:56:53,363 and I'll take care of you. I promise. 798 00:56:55,643 --> 00:56:57,052 Okay. 799 00:56:57,094 --> 00:56:57,964 Yeah. - Okay. 800 00:56:58,006 --> 00:56:59,574 Yeah. 801 00:56:59,616 --> 00:57:00,570 You gotta protect me, okay? 802 00:57:00,612 --> 00:57:04,279 I solemnly swear to take great care of you 803 00:57:05,120 --> 00:57:08,703 and protect you from any and all harm, okay. 804 00:57:08,745 --> 00:57:10,662 Here it's a pretty one. 805 00:57:13,309 --> 00:57:15,226 You're gonna like them. 806 00:57:17,037 --> 00:57:18,370 They're freeing. 807 00:57:20,391 --> 00:57:21,182 Just eat it? 808 00:57:21,224 --> 00:57:25,351 Yeah. Just put the whole thing in your mouth and chew. 809 00:57:25,393 --> 00:57:26,252 Like really chew. 810 00:57:26,294 --> 00:57:27,710 Oh my gosh. It's disgusting. 811 00:57:27,752 --> 00:57:28,920 Yeah. They taste like shit. 812 00:57:28,962 --> 00:57:30,129 Oh god. Ooh. 813 00:57:31,553 --> 00:57:33,886 Just don't think about it. 814 00:57:36,863 --> 00:57:38,354 How long does it take to hit? 815 00:58:48,915 --> 00:58:50,841 I had an older brother once, 816 00:58:50,883 --> 00:58:54,050 but his heart had too much electricity 817 00:58:54,955 --> 00:58:57,868 and he died when we were kids. 818 00:59:00,562 --> 00:59:02,729 Wow. That's really sad. 819 00:59:05,335 --> 00:59:08,752 Heavy is the head that wears the crown. 820 00:59:10,043 --> 00:59:10,960 So sorry. 821 00:59:12,715 --> 00:59:14,965 Now I'm the oldest. 822 00:59:17,182 --> 00:59:18,932 What about your ex? 823 00:59:20,548 --> 00:59:22,023 She was an only child. 824 00:59:22,065 --> 00:59:24,565 No, I mean, do you miss her? 825 00:59:30,458 --> 00:59:32,791 It feels like a past life. 826 00:59:35,078 --> 00:59:37,016 I knew I was someone else at one point, 827 00:59:37,058 --> 00:59:39,058 but I forget the details 828 00:59:43,289 --> 00:59:45,937 until I walk into a room 829 00:59:45,979 --> 00:59:49,562 that has a certain smell or color of paint. 830 00:59:54,593 --> 00:59:57,685 Then I'm pressed against a memory 831 00:59:57,727 --> 01:00:01,644 looking through the cracks to a whole other me. 832 01:00:02,825 --> 01:00:07,742 And then I carry that grief in the tips of my feet all day. 833 01:00:09,695 --> 01:00:10,528 Wow. 834 01:00:12,974 --> 01:00:13,807 Wow. 835 01:00:20,290 --> 01:00:22,577 We should go outside. 836 01:00:35,677 --> 01:00:37,395 My therapist asked me if I think love 837 01:00:37,437 --> 01:00:39,270 is a complete circuit. 838 01:00:40,601 --> 01:00:41,851 Do you? 839 01:00:46,750 --> 01:00:47,583 I dunno. 840 01:00:51,135 --> 01:00:55,052 I know what it's like to love deeply in my gut, 841 01:00:59,748 --> 01:01:04,248 but I don't know if I know what it's like to be loved. 842 01:01:05,270 --> 01:01:08,687 Is it like a vibration or a wise knowing? 843 01:01:15,203 --> 01:01:19,286 You are like the opposite of a sociopath. 844 01:01:20,516 --> 01:01:22,183 Like a super empath. 845 01:01:26,764 --> 01:01:29,347 The world is too much. 846 01:01:31,164 --> 01:01:34,331 I think we should get married. 847 01:01:35,940 --> 01:01:36,773 What? 848 01:01:39,888 --> 01:01:44,888 So that you can know what it feels like to be loved. 849 01:01:48,783 --> 01:01:51,700 You think you can love me? 850 01:01:53,055 --> 01:01:55,222 Will you marry me? 851 01:01:56,808 --> 01:01:57,641 When? 852 01:02:00,314 --> 01:02:02,693 Right now. Today. 853 01:02:23,702 --> 01:02:25,702 Repeat after me. 854 01:02:27,545 --> 01:02:31,795 In the presence of God, and these here our friends. 855 01:02:33,276 --> 01:02:35,191 In the presence of God, 856 01:02:35,233 --> 01:02:37,887 and these here our friends. 857 01:02:37,929 --> 01:02:40,307 I, Mia Hawthorne, 858 01:02:40,349 --> 01:02:42,349 take thee, Lena Andrews. 859 01:02:45,302 --> 01:02:46,731 I, Mia Hawthorne, 860 01:02:46,773 --> 01:02:49,940 take thee Lena Andrews, to be my wife. 861 01:02:51,316 --> 01:02:55,983 I, Lena Andrews, take thee, Mia Hawthorne to be my wife. 862 01:02:58,972 --> 01:03:02,317 And promise with divine assistance. 863 01:03:02,359 --> 01:03:05,767 And promise with divine assistance. 864 01:03:05,809 --> 01:03:09,642 To be unto thee, a loving and faithful wife. 865 01:03:10,582 --> 01:03:14,177 To be unto thee, a loving and faithful wife. 866 01:03:14,219 --> 01:03:15,857 So long as we both shall live. 867 01:03:15,899 --> 01:03:18,566 So long as we both shall live. 868 01:03:20,833 --> 01:03:22,967 Now give me the ring. 869 01:03:33,453 --> 01:03:37,953 And you, the trees having been witness to our ceremony 870 01:03:39,273 --> 01:03:41,866 here unto set your branches. 871 01:03:59,352 --> 01:04:03,602 Lift your arms up, and reach back towards the tree. 872 01:04:07,638 --> 01:04:08,888 Do you feel it? 873 01:04:09,886 --> 01:04:12,553 Yes. We are loving you. 874 01:04:25,191 --> 01:04:28,730 If we shadows have offended, think what this 875 01:04:28,772 --> 01:04:30,272 and all is mended, 876 01:04:31,313 --> 01:04:33,857 that you have but slumbered here, 877 01:04:33,899 --> 01:04:36,399 while these visions did appear 878 01:04:38,300 --> 01:04:41,050 and this week and the idol theme, 879 01:04:42,052 --> 01:04:44,552 no more yielding, but a dream. 880 01:04:47,984 --> 01:04:50,151 Gentles do not reprehend. 881 01:04:51,689 --> 01:04:54,356 For if you pardon, we will mend. 882 01:04:55,232 --> 01:04:57,482 And as I am an honest puck. 883 01:04:59,265 --> 01:05:01,348 If we have an earned luck 884 01:05:02,191 --> 01:05:04,771 now to escape the serpent's tongue, 885 01:05:04,813 --> 01:05:07,313 we will make amends here long, 886 01:05:09,264 --> 01:05:11,431 else the puck a liar call. 887 01:05:15,467 --> 01:05:17,634 So goodnight unto you all. 888 01:05:20,121 --> 01:05:23,038 Give me your hands if we be friends 889 01:05:24,513 --> 01:05:27,096 and Robin shall restore amends. 890 01:05:51,328 --> 01:05:53,770 Excuse me 891 01:05:53,812 --> 01:05:56,932 I'm sorry. I didn't mean to startle you. 892 01:05:56,974 --> 01:05:59,474 It's okay. I startle easily. 893 01:06:02,560 --> 01:06:06,167 I'm a teacher at the Hudson Montessori School. 894 01:06:06,209 --> 01:06:07,792 You were on a tour. 895 01:06:11,621 --> 01:06:14,204 Yes. Remember you, Mr. Jokes. 896 01:06:17,358 --> 01:06:19,608 You are right, Mr. Jokes. 897 01:06:22,742 --> 01:06:23,742 Could I sit? 898 01:06:33,450 --> 01:06:38,450 So how's all that been going for you? 899 01:06:39,286 --> 01:06:42,306 We are still exploring our options. 900 01:06:42,348 --> 01:06:43,431 Understand. 901 01:06:47,151 --> 01:06:51,234 Could I ask you something a little more personal? 902 01:06:52,486 --> 01:06:53,319 Sure. 903 01:06:55,417 --> 01:06:57,750 Well, when you were there, 904 01:06:59,824 --> 01:07:02,590 you were with your husband, right? 905 01:07:02,632 --> 01:07:03,632 Yes. Jack. 906 01:07:05,048 --> 01:07:06,215 Right. Jack. 907 01:07:12,110 --> 01:07:13,527 Why do you ask? 908 01:07:14,989 --> 01:07:18,572 Oh, you seem like a sophisticated person. 909 01:07:21,944 --> 01:07:23,277 Sophisticated? 910 01:07:25,090 --> 01:07:25,923 Yeah. 911 01:07:27,504 --> 01:07:30,171 Hmm. 912 01:07:32,911 --> 01:07:35,078 You don't think you are? 913 01:07:36,607 --> 01:07:39,107 My mother was sophisticated. 914 01:07:41,238 --> 01:07:43,488 What would you rather be? 915 01:07:44,670 --> 01:07:46,503 An object of desire. 916 01:08:28,272 --> 01:08:30,105 It's over with Lena. 917 01:08:34,181 --> 01:08:35,679 Oh God. 918 01:08:35,721 --> 01:08:38,054 I know you'd can say that. 919 01:08:41,420 --> 01:08:43,670 She's gonna be fucked up. 920 01:09:40,110 --> 01:09:41,956 I have a thought. 921 01:09:41,998 --> 01:09:42,789 What? 922 01:09:42,831 --> 01:09:45,971 I would like to ask you some questions. 923 01:09:46,013 --> 01:09:48,096 Would you let me do that? 924 01:09:49,611 --> 01:09:52,694 Okay. But I might not make the cut. 925 01:09:55,914 --> 01:09:56,796 Can I see? Can I... 926 01:09:56,838 --> 01:09:57,921 Yeah. Here. 927 01:10:00,578 --> 01:10:02,828 This is for your editor. 928 01:10:03,889 --> 01:10:06,949 Mia thinks that this will be very good stuff 929 01:10:06,991 --> 01:10:08,484 and you should use all of it. 930 01:10:08,526 --> 01:10:10,109 Okay. Okay. Wrap. 931 01:10:12,784 --> 01:10:14,617 Okay. All go for it. 932 01:10:22,611 --> 01:10:27,528 Do you prefer living in the chaos or living in the quiet? 933 01:10:31,451 --> 01:10:35,637 I'm not sure I really know the difference between the two. 934 01:10:35,679 --> 01:10:37,762 Please elaborate again. 935 01:10:40,409 --> 01:10:43,826 I mean I, so Maeve, she used to tell me 936 01:10:49,649 --> 01:10:53,399 that I needed to quiet the voice in my head. 937 01:10:57,349 --> 01:10:59,516 And it really bothered me. 938 01:11:02,354 --> 01:11:05,771 It was like it was something she needed. 939 01:11:08,283 --> 01:11:10,700 Like it was too much for her. 940 01:11:13,253 --> 01:11:17,034 And it was just really hard for me to explain to her 941 01:11:17,076 --> 01:11:19,576 that it was really hard for me 942 01:11:21,211 --> 01:11:23,211 to just sit with myself. 943 01:11:30,884 --> 01:11:31,818 To be alone. 944 01:11:31,860 --> 01:11:32,693 Yeah. 945 01:11:37,571 --> 01:11:40,321 But I'm starting to see the mercy 946 01:11:45,875 --> 01:11:48,625 and that advice that she gave me. 947 01:11:53,553 --> 01:11:56,457 You know, our relationship didn't last 948 01:11:56,499 --> 01:11:58,999 but, but it carried a message. 949 01:12:11,989 --> 01:12:14,406 And I've started to sit alone 950 01:12:16,664 --> 01:12:18,826 with my thoughts a little more. 951 01:12:18,868 --> 01:12:20,951 You know, just be curious 952 01:12:26,113 --> 01:12:29,863 about the thoughts and feelings that come up. 953 01:12:37,685 --> 01:12:38,852 And it's nice. 954 01:12:43,821 --> 01:12:47,404 It's, it's like a fog is trying to lift and 955 01:13:01,615 --> 01:13:03,365 I really like myself. 956 01:13:15,536 --> 01:13:17,286 I really like myself. 957 01:13:31,607 --> 01:13:34,274 That's good 'cause I like you. 958 01:13:52,439 --> 01:13:54,269 Dinner was good. 959 01:13:54,311 --> 01:13:56,180 Jack gave me the recipe. 960 01:13:56,222 --> 01:13:57,132 Yeah. 961 01:13:57,174 --> 01:14:01,424 Yeah. He's letting me run point on a new project. 962 01:14:02,915 --> 01:14:04,543 Does he know you used to have a crush on him? 963 01:14:04,585 --> 01:14:05,733 No, that was Janet. 964 01:14:05,775 --> 01:14:07,568 Janet. You had a crush on Janet? 965 01:14:07,610 --> 01:14:09,943 Janet had a crush on Jack. 966 01:14:12,103 --> 01:14:13,270 Very cliche. 967 01:14:15,276 --> 01:14:17,526 Just a little work crush. 968 01:14:18,523 --> 01:14:19,773 I have those. 969 01:14:21,106 --> 01:14:23,126 Oh yeah, yeah, yeah. 970 01:14:23,168 --> 01:14:24,418 Like, like who? 971 01:14:27,050 --> 01:14:30,050 Well, there is this very cute girl 972 01:14:30,952 --> 01:14:34,285 that delivers the catering on Thursdays. 973 01:14:35,785 --> 01:14:37,618 And what's her name? 974 01:14:41,490 --> 01:14:45,157 Okay. No clue. 975 01:14:55,441 --> 01:14:59,059 I don't know. It's just some cute smiles. 976 01:14:59,101 --> 01:15:00,268 Longing looks. 977 01:15:01,180 --> 01:15:02,986 Well, I give you permission 978 01:15:03,028 --> 01:15:05,945 to say hello every once in a while. 979 01:15:08,121 --> 01:15:11,121 Appreciate it. I'll work up to it. 980 01:15:13,327 --> 01:15:18,097 I don't, I mean that's pretty big. Pretty famous. 981 01:15:18,139 --> 01:15:20,531 Yeah. But you're kind of famous. 982 01:15:20,573 --> 01:15:21,730 A sensation. 983 01:15:21,772 --> 01:15:22,609 You're kind of famous. 984 01:15:22,651 --> 01:15:24,106 Am I? I dunno. 985 01:15:24,148 --> 01:15:25,888 I know who you are. 986 01:15:25,930 --> 01:15:29,430 That's true. I didn't know who you were. 987 01:15:30,264 --> 01:15:31,740 So I guess that's fame. 988 01:15:31,782 --> 01:15:32,763 Fame. 989 01:15:36,484 --> 01:15:37,808 Yeah. It's weird. 990 01:15:37,850 --> 01:15:39,933 Fame is fame. Fame. Fame. 991 01:15:43,194 --> 01:15:46,444 It's a weird thing. It's a weird thing. 992 01:15:49,922 --> 01:15:50,828 No, but I don't think 993 01:15:50,870 --> 01:15:53,870 I'd ever wanna be like super famous. 994 01:15:54,851 --> 01:15:55,642 No. 995 01:15:55,684 --> 01:15:58,434 You know, like billboard crazy. 996 01:15:59,593 --> 01:16:00,937 I feel like that'd be so hard. 997 01:16:00,979 --> 01:16:04,460 World tour. I think I would not do well. 998 01:16:04,502 --> 01:16:06,216 Yeah, that'd be really hard. 999 01:16:06,258 --> 01:16:07,141 If you could just like never do 1000 01:16:07,183 --> 01:16:09,384 your own thing then or anything. 1001 01:16:09,426 --> 01:16:11,343 Always being watched. 1002 01:16:12,221 --> 01:16:15,971 It would probably be really lonely I think. 1003 01:16:17,545 --> 01:16:18,628 Maybe not. 1004 01:16:37,235 --> 01:16:39,568 Did you take off the ring? 1005 01:16:40,546 --> 01:16:41,538 The ring? 1006 01:16:41,580 --> 01:16:42,997 Yeah, the ring. 1007 01:16:45,903 --> 01:16:46,895 Do you remember me taking it off? 1008 01:16:46,937 --> 01:16:47,929 Oh, I thought, I mean, 1009 01:16:47,971 --> 01:16:49,238 you're not wearing it so I thought you... 1010 01:16:49,280 --> 01:16:51,030 Yeah. That's weird. 1011 01:16:52,403 --> 01:16:53,194 Your side of the bed? 1012 01:16:53,236 --> 01:16:55,354 I don't you remember last night if I took it off? 1013 01:16:55,396 --> 01:16:56,758 I don't remember. I don't know. 1014 01:16:56,800 --> 01:16:57,591 But could you just check? 1015 01:16:57,633 --> 01:16:59,445 I just wanna make sure we didn't lose it. 1016 01:16:59,487 --> 01:17:01,976 No, there's no way we lost it. 1017 01:17:02,018 --> 01:17:06,518 It's probably, maybe I under your pillow or something. 1018 01:17:09,575 --> 01:17:10,492 Oh, I def... 1019 01:17:14,591 --> 01:17:15,982 Maybe it's downstairs. 1020 01:17:16,024 --> 01:17:16,815 I don't dunno. 1021 01:17:16,857 --> 01:17:18,510 Did you take it off downstairs? 1022 01:17:18,552 --> 01:17:21,300 I don't remember taking it off at all. 1023 01:17:21,342 --> 01:17:23,295 But also, I mean, I don't, 1024 01:17:23,337 --> 01:17:25,523 wasn't really remembering things very well, so maybe I did, 1025 01:17:25,565 --> 01:17:27,202 but I don't, I don't really know. 1026 01:17:27,244 --> 01:17:30,029 It's not far. I mean, it's gotta be here. 1027 01:17:30,071 --> 01:17:32,542 It's not in the bed somewhere. 1028 01:17:32,584 --> 01:17:35,825 I just need to make sure that we find it, 1029 01:17:35,867 --> 01:17:36,950 to be honest. 1030 01:17:38,154 --> 01:17:41,571 It's not lost. I'm gonna find it. 1031 01:17:44,819 --> 01:17:47,152 It's definitely in the area. 1032 01:17:51,294 --> 01:17:52,556 We just really have to find it. 1033 01:17:52,598 --> 01:17:55,080 Is it's under the bed? 1034 01:17:55,122 --> 01:17:56,900 It's in the room. Like it has to be in the room. 1035 01:17:56,942 --> 01:17:58,208 Maybe downstairs. 1036 01:17:58,250 --> 01:18:00,911 Yeah. I'll check downstairs. 1037 01:18:00,953 --> 01:18:03,272 I check maybe in the kitchen or something. 1038 01:18:03,314 --> 01:18:05,809 Yeah. I don't know. But I... 1039 01:18:05,851 --> 01:18:07,684 That's really weird. 1040 01:18:09,383 --> 01:18:11,374 Shoulda never used it. 1041 01:18:11,416 --> 01:18:12,207 What? 1042 01:18:12,249 --> 01:18:14,142 I mean, just should have never used it. 1043 01:18:14,184 --> 01:18:16,575 No, I'm, I'm gonna find it. It's not lost. 1044 01:18:16,617 --> 01:18:18,108 It's not like we left anywhere. 1045 01:18:18,150 --> 01:18:18,941 Yeah, I know. 1046 01:18:18,983 --> 01:18:22,150 But we just should have never used it. 1047 01:18:26,883 --> 01:18:30,493 I think I just need to focus on work today. 1048 01:18:30,535 --> 01:18:31,618 Yeah. Okay. 1049 01:18:39,082 --> 01:18:41,609 Can't believe I lost the ring. 1050 01:18:41,651 --> 01:18:44,969 You, I fucking lost the ring. 1051 01:18:45,011 --> 01:18:46,883 Look, I don't wanna ruin yesterday. 1052 01:18:46,925 --> 01:18:48,181 Yesterday? 1053 01:18:48,223 --> 01:18:49,390 Yeah. 1054 01:18:50,379 --> 01:18:52,097 We tripped. 1055 01:18:52,139 --> 01:18:53,758 And it meant something to me. 1056 01:18:53,800 --> 01:18:55,958 Yeah. Well, I guess that's just marriage babe. 1057 01:18:56,000 --> 01:18:57,982 Love and wreckage. 1058 01:18:58,024 --> 01:19:01,073 Guess I didn't know I was just another one of your muses. 1059 01:19:01,115 --> 01:19:03,365 My muse. You got a story? 1060 01:19:04,888 --> 01:19:05,722 Isn't that what you wanted? 1061 01:19:05,764 --> 01:19:06,555 You know what I mean? 1062 01:19:06,597 --> 01:19:07,662 Oh, I guess I just fucking don't. 1063 01:19:07,704 --> 01:19:10,049 Okay. I really should go home. 1064 01:19:10,091 --> 01:19:11,545 You can do whatever you want. 1065 01:19:11,587 --> 01:19:12,420 I know. 1066 01:19:20,607 --> 01:19:22,670 I've missed this. 1067 01:19:33,059 --> 01:19:35,226 I don't want it to hurt. 1068 01:19:37,448 --> 01:19:39,111 It's okay. 1069 01:19:50,441 --> 01:19:52,524 I hate that I hurt you. 1070 01:19:54,707 --> 01:19:56,290 I said it's okay. 1071 01:19:58,942 --> 01:20:00,442 I want it to hurt. 1072 01:20:37,830 --> 01:20:39,663 I am running a path. 1073 01:21:03,086 --> 01:21:04,706 You can do this. 1074 01:21:04,748 --> 01:21:06,331 Thank you. 1075 01:21:12,102 --> 01:21:15,769 Here I've been meaning to bring you these. 1076 01:21:17,375 --> 01:21:22,052 You should just keep a pair in case you get locked out. 1077 01:21:22,094 --> 01:21:23,344 I don't know. 1078 01:21:25,462 --> 01:21:29,212 You don't know if you should or if you can. 1079 01:21:30,734 --> 01:21:33,484 I don't. I just, I don't know. 1080 01:21:43,536 --> 01:21:46,036 These are not my house keys. 1081 01:21:49,319 --> 01:21:51,198 I, I have a temporary rental. 1082 01:21:51,240 --> 01:21:52,073 Oh yeah. 1083 01:21:53,596 --> 01:21:57,142 Let's not go down that rabbit hole here. 1084 01:21:57,184 --> 01:21:59,254 With a friend? 1085 01:21:59,296 --> 01:22:03,629 Just a place to keep my stuff while I'm in London. 1086 01:22:14,189 --> 01:22:16,272 I should get to Nadine. 1087 01:22:19,250 --> 01:22:20,704 Bye 1088 01:22:20,746 --> 01:22:21,579 Bye. 1089 01:22:55,282 --> 01:22:56,365 I found it. 1090 01:23:37,852 --> 01:23:39,133 Thank you. 1091 01:23:43,609 --> 01:23:46,282 Yeah, that one's called "Fiction" 1092 01:23:46,324 --> 01:23:47,778 if you didn't know. 1093 01:23:50,433 --> 01:23:51,983 Do another. 1094 01:23:52,025 --> 01:23:52,861 Well, I, I will. 1095 01:23:52,903 --> 01:23:56,953 That was the first one so I'll, I'll do a couple more. 1096 01:23:56,995 --> 01:23:58,828 Can I have your phone? 1097 01:24:04,871 --> 01:24:08,165 Okay. I'm gonna text you some details. Take it easy. 1098 01:24:08,207 --> 01:24:09,690 Lena, right? 1099 01:24:09,732 --> 01:24:11,815 Yeah. Short for Helena. 1100 01:24:15,540 --> 01:24:18,346 The management company is letting me stay 1101 01:24:18,388 --> 01:24:21,674 at this place called Moonbeam, near the Berkshires. 1102 01:24:21,716 --> 01:24:24,049 Oh, that's awesome. 1103 01:24:26,056 --> 01:24:28,547 You should come up. 1104 01:24:28,589 --> 01:24:29,380 What? 1105 01:24:29,422 --> 01:24:30,796 Like, you should come up for a few days. 1106 01:24:30,838 --> 01:24:33,348 I mean, you want an interview, right? 1107 01:24:33,390 --> 01:24:34,876 Yeah. Right. 1108 01:24:34,918 --> 01:24:38,202 Well, then let's give your editor something wild. 1109 01:24:38,244 --> 01:24:41,227 I don't dunno, I don't wanna 1110 01:24:41,269 --> 01:24:42,678 Look, it's in the middle of the woods 1111 01:24:42,720 --> 01:24:47,519 and I'm kind of a scaredy cat so I could use the company. 1112 01:26:02,175 --> 01:26:03,175 Don't leave. 1113 01:26:07,551 --> 01:26:09,218 Don't leave. Please. 1114 01:26:11,588 --> 01:26:13,171 Why am I staying? 1115 01:26:16,471 --> 01:26:18,471 Because, I don't know. 1116 01:26:21,308 --> 01:26:23,700 I don't know because I'm, I'm a fucking mess 1117 01:26:23,742 --> 01:26:27,575 and I can't, I can't sleep alone another night 1118 01:26:28,783 --> 01:26:30,500 because I just feel like a stranger, 1119 01:26:30,542 --> 01:26:32,209 and I, I don't know. 1120 01:26:33,240 --> 01:26:35,976 You feel like a whole entire place. 1121 01:26:36,018 --> 01:26:37,935 You feel like a planet. 1122 01:26:39,238 --> 01:26:42,919 And I just, I finally got some sleep the last few days 1123 01:26:42,961 --> 01:26:46,318 because you were here and I felt safe 1124 01:26:46,360 --> 01:26:50,693 and I didn't feel like a stranger anymore, you know. 1125 01:26:52,222 --> 01:26:55,430 And I, I felt like I was home, you know? 1126 01:26:55,472 --> 01:26:58,472 I need that. So just stay and please 1127 01:26:59,342 --> 01:27:03,842 and, and, and then come with me on tour to the studio, 1128 01:27:05,972 --> 01:27:07,472 hotel after hotel, 1129 01:27:10,970 --> 01:27:13,887 and then we can come home together. 1130 01:27:15,445 --> 01:27:17,528 I wanna meet your family, 1131 01:27:19,894 --> 01:27:21,760 and I want you to remind me 1132 01:27:21,802 --> 01:27:23,960 to brush my teeth in the morning. 1133 01:27:24,002 --> 01:27:26,952 And I want you to know that I take my, 1134 01:27:26,994 --> 01:27:28,635 my special pillowcase with me everywhere, 1135 01:27:28,677 --> 01:27:31,692 I want you to, I want you to be here 1136 01:27:31,734 --> 01:27:33,901 'cause I, I, I don't know. 1137 01:27:36,754 --> 01:27:38,337 I, I loved being married to you 1138 01:27:38,379 --> 01:27:41,046 even if it was only for a night. 1139 01:27:42,756 --> 01:27:43,839 So just stay. 1140 01:27:46,510 --> 01:27:47,343 Okay. 1141 01:27:48,411 --> 01:27:49,991 Yeah? 1142 01:27:50,033 --> 01:27:51,116 Yeah. Okay. 1143 01:28:24,269 --> 01:28:27,519 I am sorry. I'm sorry about the ring. 1144 01:28:43,606 --> 01:28:48,606 And in the end, I'm sitting at a picnic table again. 1145 01:28:48,690 --> 01:28:51,273 This time the storm has passed, 1146 01:28:52,434 --> 01:28:55,184 but the sky is still a blue gray. 1147 01:28:56,825 --> 01:28:59,742 The clouds seem bigger than normal. 1148 01:29:02,094 --> 01:29:06,594 And suddenly Goldie runs up to the table, arms folded. 1149 01:29:08,817 --> 01:29:10,567 He looks right at me. 1150 01:29:12,910 --> 01:29:15,577 I almost can't look at him back. 1151 01:29:18,253 --> 01:29:22,003 I feel like he wants to feed me or something. 1152 01:29:26,594 --> 01:29:28,435 I say I am not hungry. 1153 01:29:28,477 --> 01:29:31,394 And I know we both know it's a lie. 1154 01:29:36,757 --> 01:29:39,674 He's clearly holding out bread now. 1155 01:29:42,662 --> 01:29:46,662 I feel like I want to reach for it, but I don't. 1156 01:29:50,890 --> 01:29:53,307 I smile, look him in the eye. 1157 01:29:56,609 --> 01:29:59,359 He calms down a bit and runs off. 1158 01:30:01,340 --> 01:30:02,923 And then I wake up. 1159 01:30:04,087 --> 01:30:06,270 That's a powerful dream. 1160 01:30:06,312 --> 01:30:09,372 It's your soul offering you sustenance, 1161 01:30:09,414 --> 01:30:13,242 do you think eventually you would take it? 1162 01:30:13,284 --> 01:30:16,951 I don't know, I feel like I'm out of time. 1163 01:30:17,950 --> 01:30:20,911 This week I want you to try 1164 01:30:20,953 --> 01:30:22,935 and contain those images. 1165 01:30:22,977 --> 01:30:25,014 See if we can bring them into our next session. 1166 01:30:25,056 --> 01:30:26,994 We can use them as a container for this work. 1167 01:30:27,036 --> 01:30:30,283 It's really great to give those feelings, 1168 01:30:30,325 --> 01:30:33,143 that anxiety an image to bring it out 1169 01:30:33,185 --> 01:30:35,655 and to be in dialogue with it. 1170 01:30:35,697 --> 01:30:39,947 Yeah. Okay. Thank you 1171 01:30:41,589 --> 01:30:44,187 Oh, shit. Sorry I, I know we ran over. 1172 01:30:44,229 --> 01:30:47,646 That's okay. It's my job to keep track. 1173 01:30:48,970 --> 01:30:50,553 You seem different. 1174 01:30:51,940 --> 01:30:53,933 What do you mean? 1175 01:30:53,975 --> 01:30:55,495 You have a calm to you 1176 01:30:55,537 --> 01:30:58,704 or I guess a brightness to your being. 1177 01:31:01,180 --> 01:31:05,822 I feel this sort of fundamental shift in my mind. 1178 01:31:05,864 --> 01:31:07,980 I don't know if I can really articulate it. 1179 01:31:08,022 --> 01:31:08,855 Try. 1180 01:31:11,740 --> 01:31:12,886 I've already run my time. 1181 01:31:12,928 --> 01:31:14,928 It's okay. 1182 01:31:19,762 --> 01:31:22,595 I'm settling into my body a bit. 1183 01:31:25,270 --> 01:31:27,770 It's my only vessel, you know. 1184 01:31:29,704 --> 01:31:32,129 It's a wrecked vessel. 1185 01:31:37,689 --> 01:31:38,522 Yes.