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[BIRDS CHIRPING]
[DISTANT CAR HORNS HONKING]
[ALARM BEEPING]
[SIGHS]
EVE: Hey, Scott, it's me.
Now I'm getting worried,
so can you just at least text me so I know you're okay?
[CLICKS TONGUE, EXHALES]
[SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
[COFFEE MAKER BEEPS]
[BLENDER WHIRS]
MAGGIE: Happier now?
NICK: Much.
Although, you know, it's a little empty
without the boys playing football,
running around like idiots out here.
If you keep that up, it's going to be
- a very long weekend. - What?
MAGGIE: Torturing yourself because they're not here.
All right.
[MUSIC CONCLUDES]
[SIGHS]
[CELL PHONE RINGING] Oh, shit.
Hi, Eve. How are you?
EVE: Hey, Mags.
- Um, are you with Nick by chance? - Yeah.
We just got up to the country. He's unloading the car.
- What's up? - I'm not sure.
I just haven't heard from Scott in a few days,
and I'm just a little bit worried.
Um, I thought maybe Nick might have heard from him.
Hold on. He just came in. I'll ask him. It's Eve.
She hasn't heard from Scott in a few days.
- Have you heard from him? - Nope.
Scott, though, probability is,
he's passed out in his own vomit somewhere.
I'm just saying.
I'm so sorry, Eve.
No, Nick hasn't heard from him either.
I'm sure everything's fine.
Scott's been trying to stay sober again,
so I... I can't help but imagine the worst.
Well, um, thank you.
Uh, you know, I'm sure you're right.
I'm sure it's nothing.
All right. Bye. Okay, bye.
Oh, my God. Talk about disaster.
I don't know how my sister puts up with him.
Oh, you know, it's easier to ignore the truth
than to face it.
[CELL PHONE VIBRATING]
Hey, Eve. What's going on?
Uh, I'm just curious. Have you heard from Scott?
[CHUCKLES] At this hour, no.
Have you ever known him to get up before noon?
I know. I just... You know, I didn't hear from him
yesterday or the day before.
And I know you're gonna tell me I'm paranoid.
I just... This time, I'm just I feel worried, you know?
Yeah, but isn't he back on tour?
Yeah. They're in Portland or Seattle. I don't even know.
All right, well then I wouldn't worry about it.
All right? He probably just got busy after the shows
and probably just didn't call
because of the time difference.
Yeah? Yeah, maybe. Um...
Yeah. Okay. Well, if you do hear from him,
will you please tell him to call me?
Yeah, yeah, of course.
But trust me, you're gonna hear from him long before I do.
All right. Thanks, Andy.
All right? - I'll speak to you later. - EVE: Bye.
Sorry about that. It was my little sister.
She hasn't heard from her husband
in a couple of days, and she's worried.
Oh, no. Should she be?
Eh, it's kind of par for the course
for those two, so...
But as for us, I got to tell you,
I'm getting very excited about this weekend.
- Me too. - ANDY: Good.
We should talk about what happened last night, though.
Yeah, last night.
So that wasn't a bad dream I had.
Oh, no. That really happened. What do you think?
Do you want to talk to her? Do you want me to talk to her?
You know, I think it's probably best if I talk to her.
But before I do,
you and I should probably have a conversation first, right?
Well, what about?
Well, about us, this, what it is we're doing,
where we think it might be going.
Why, are you having second thoughts?
No, no. Seriously, just the opposite.
This past month, since we've been together,
has been the happiest I have been in years.
But like we saw last night, it is complicated.
[GLASS SHATTERS IN DISTANCE]
ANDY: The fuck was that?
- You just hear that? - RENEE: Hear what?
ANDY: [GROANS] I think somebody's in the apartment.
TINA: Andy! It's me.
Oh, are you fucking kidding me? It's Tina.
What? What the fuck is she doing here?
I have no idea. I'll be right there!
Okay. You got to do me a favor.
Please, just don't come out and stay here.
I'm not just gonna - hide in here. - Why not? All right?
Just give me a minute to get rid of her.
Oh, we've got to tell her eventually.
Yeah, I know, but not like this.
TINA: Andy. Get out here.
Okay. I'm sorry. All right, please.
Just stay here, and we will tell her another time.
[EXHALES] Oh, Tina.
TINA: Oh! [LAUGHS]
What the hell? What's going on?
I'm sorry. I dropped the bottle.
Yeah, I can see that.
Oh, watch your feet. Watch your feet.
All right, don't worry. I will clean it later.
- Okay. - What are you doing?
What are you doing here?
I was in the neighborhood... having dinner.
Your name came up.
I was gonna call you, and then I realized,
aha! I still have keys.
[LAUGHS] So I thought I would surprise you.
Surprise! [LAUGHS]
Nice. But guess what? You can't just do this
and show up unannounced, all right?
So I'm gonna have to ask you to leave.
I'm sorry. Now, come on, let's go.
I just got here.
The place looks great, by the way.
You haven't changed anything. It's like I never left.
Yeah, well, I haven't gotten around to redecorating yet.
- So please, come on, let's go. - Are you busy? [CLICKS TONGUE]
Living a bachelor life, chasing some girls?
ANDY: Hey, don't try and pretend like any of this was my doing.
Remember you're the one who asked for a separation,
not me.
What if I told you I wasn't seeing that guy anymore?
It wouldn't matter to me one way or the other.
I would still want you to leave.
TINA: Really?
You know? I don't think you're being honest with me.
You know why? Because I know everything that happens
in that little head of yours.
Yeah, yeah, I know you do.
But guess what, I'm gonna get my phone,
I'm gonna call you an Uber, and you're gonna go.
But thank you so much for stopping by.
Wait. Listen.
What if I told you I think I made a mistake?
[SIGHS] Come on. Really?
What the fuck is that?
Do we have company?
[GASPS] We do have company!
[EXHALES] Please, Tina.
She's got style.
TINA: Where is she? Huh? Is she in the bedroom?
She's nowhere. She's...
- TINA: Is she in there? - Don't go in there.
You are not going in the bedroom.
- She's in our bedroom! - ANDY: Come on.
I'm gonna go find her. Hello!
Knock, knock, little whore. You in there?
Come on, you little whore. Are you hiding? Come on out!
- Hi, Tina. - TINA: Are you fucking
kidding me?
You and you.
Okay. [EXHALES] I don't even know what to say.
W... why don't we start with
how and when did this fucking begin?
Do I talk to Tom? No. No. Tina was your friend.
So after the divorce, we went with you.
Oh, is that how it works?
Apparently so.
So now I have to pick one of you two.
- So you heard about us, huh? - Mm-hmm.
- Yeah. - Yeah, sorry about that.
You okay?
Eh, you know, what are you gonna do?
Fifteen years was a good long run.
But if you want,
I guess you could be friends with both of us.
Mm. What if I like you more?
Did to one another, like... You know what? Shh.
I don't even want to fucking hear it.
Forget it. You two disgust me.
[SIGHS]
- I'm so sorry. - It's all right.
- Fuck. - I'm sorry.
[SIGHS] Hey.
You want to explain why I haven't heard from you
in over 48 hours?
What are you talking about?
I texted you when I landed in Sacramento.
EVE: That was three days ago.
Then I haven't heard a peep from you since.
- I was scared. - SCOTT: Of what?
I was working.
You know what a pain in the ass these guys can be.
It's like dealing with a pack of children.
Oh, yeah, I know what that's like.
You didn't make any coffee?
Three hours ago.
SCOTT: Three hours ago. Oh.
Where the hell is the Advil? My head is killing me.
It's where it always is. In the bathroom.
Upstairs.
[GENTLE PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
[WHISPERING] Welcome home.
[WHISTLES] Watch out!
[YELPS]
Wrong way!
ROZ: Oh, I hate when those motherfuckers do that.
I know, and it's like they do it all the time.
It's this new phenomenon. When I first moved here,
you never saw anybody on a bicycle.
Now it's like these guys on their electric bikes
going 35 miles down the frigging sidewalk.
- ROZ: Yeah. Crazy. - It's ridiculous.
ROZ: Wait, how long have you lived here?
Oh, God. Too long. 1998.
I followed my brother and sister here.
Wow, you've been - in the city that long? - Mm-hmm.
I can't do another fucking winter.
Next year this time, I'm in L.A.
Oh, I love living in L.A.
But Scott hates it so much, so I'm kind of stuck here.
Oh, did you grow up there?
Mm-mm, I moved there when I was 19.
You know, kind of like everybody else,
just chasing the dream.
Wait, all these years we've been working together,
and you never said you were also an actress.
No, I wasn't.
I mean, I'm not. I... I had a band.
[GASPS] You were not in a band!
What? Wait, what were you?
The singer? Oh, my God, I could totally see that.
Singer, songwriter, guitar player, you know.
Wait, so what happened?
Did you ever make a record or do anything?
Oh, yeah. Yeah, we made one great record.
And then, I don't know, I...
I don't know. I got pregnant or the band broke up.
One... I don't know what happened first, but...
Yeah, so...
But the dream kind of died.
It's so weird.
I have not thought about this chapter in so long.
And now you are the second person
who's recently brought it up to me.
I also remember you were in a band.
- Mag Scrambler. - Mm-hmm.
That's a great name, by the way.
I mean, not that kids today would get it.
Yeah, that was a long time ago.
And you knew my ex, Stephanie Dawson.
She said you guys were friends from your L.A. days?
Yes. Yes. Steph, I love her. How is she?
Probably better now.
We got divorced a few years ago.
Oh. I'm sorry.
I have a confession to make.
We've met before.
I used to write for "Spin Magazine."
When you guys opened for PJ Harvey
at the Bowery Ballroom, I actually interviewed you.
- You did not. - JOHNNY: I did.
I also reviewed the show, gave it a rave.
[LAUGHS] Well, thank you.
Yeah, we didn't get too many of those.
Well, admittedly,
I may have been a little biased in my assessment of the show.
I had a pretty big crush on you.
Yeah, I think it was the spring of '98.
You guys just released your first album.
That's probably around the time
that my husband Scott started managing us, yeah.
Probably about the same time you started dating him.
And why do I know that?
Because I asked you for your number that night,
and you didn't give it to me because you said
you were seeing someone.
And then that someone quickly came over and told me
our interview was done.
He could probably tell I was flirting with you.
Kind of like now.
[LAUGHS]
[MUSIC CONTINUES]
[KEYBOARD CLACKING]
NICK: Want to taste this?
Babe?
Just let me finish this thought.
[MUSIC CONCLUDES]
Taste it for me.
[HUMMING]
[SIGHS]
Okay. Sure.
- That's too rare. - No, it's fine.
- It's fine? - It's fine.
Needs a little salt.
I'll put it back on for a minute.
Nick?
Please, I just... I'm trying to work.
NICK: Just trying to make dinner.
Can I get you a refill?
No, I'm good.
[EXHALES]
Remember that guy we met a couple weeks ago
at that party in the Hamptons, the music journalist?
You know, I can't say that I do.
You remember.
He was married to my friend Stephanie.
I mean, they're divorced now, but...
[GROANS SOFTLY] No.
Remember, he was doing the book
on the '90s rock scene?
Oh, yeah, the tall guy with the stupid hat,
thinks he's hot shit?
I don't know, I thought he was kind of charming.
Charming?
If you think being a dick is charming, sure.
You should see some of the snarky reviews
he's given my bands.
Drinking again?
On special occasions.
I... Did I forget a date? Is this a special occasion?
Well, I've been gone a week, and I'm enjoying
- a nice night with my wife. - EVE: Oh.
So yeah, it's a special occasion.
- You want one? - No, I'm good.
Anyway, he called.
Oh, he called you?
EVE: Yeah, he wants to interview you.
Oh. About what?
I just said he's doing a book on the '90s music scene.
SCOTT: But then why did he call you?
Why didn't he call the record company?
How did he even get your number?
I don't know. Maybe Stephanie gave it to him.
SCOTT: [SIGHS] Man.
What do you think?
I think he's a dick.
But if he goes through the proper channels
and doesn't call my wife, then maybe I'll consider it.
[SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
Okay.
[BIRDS CHIRPING]
[KEYBOARD CLACKING]
- Hey. - Hi.
Wow.
Up working again, huh?
Yeah, since dawn.
Whoa.
- Almost done, by the way. - What?
Just another day or so.
[MUSIC CONCLUDES]
I can't wait to read it.
MAGGIE: Oh, and... [CHUCKLES]
My brother called again this morning.
- Yeah? - He wants to know
if we're going to that dinner party later tonight.
NICK: Uh-huh.
This new girl of his, what, lives up here somewhere?
Yeah, she's just across the river.
What do we know about her?
Nothing yet.
So we have no idea what we're walking into.
No.
But he says it would be really awesome for you guys
to meet her because this girl is really special.
- NICK: MM-hmm. - And she's just a few miles up the road,
and you guys didn't like Tina anyway,
and yada, yada, yada, yada.
So what do you think?
I... I don't know.
It's up to you. He's your brother.
I mean, you know me. I could stay home.
No, I know, which is why I asked him
to do it on the early side,
since I know you don't like a late night.
- And he said 6:00 was fine. - Yeah.
Come on. I think we should go.
It'd be good for you to get out of the house.
And what's that? W... what? What's that supposed to mean?
MAGGIE: Oh, my God. Nick.
You're getting... [CHUCKLES]
you're getting a little sensitive in your old age.
NICK: I'm not getting a little sensitive.
I just want to know what it means
that it's good for me to get out of the house.
[SIGHS] It means... Look, I just...
It seems to me that you have been
in a little rut lately, right?
So maybe getting out of the house
and being around other people, it would be good.
It would... it would...
it might get your creative juices flowing.
Are we doing this? Really?
Please, Nick, do not turn this into a fight.
- I am just trying to help. - I don't need the help.
Okay, honey?
I was selling books long before you were published.
I work at my own pace.
You work at your own pace.
I cannot get him to sit down and write one thing.
Really? I mean, he used to be so prolific.
No. It's hard to watch, you know, because...
Nick not writing is like Nick's heart isn't beating.
Hm, what do you think's going on?
I think he's lost.
I think since the kids left for college,
he's become untethered, you know, like,
floating around out there without any purpose.
Nick, there's no perfect sentence
or paragraph or story.
If I believed that, I could not carry on.
But that's the very thing that's preventing you
from carrying on. Your need for perfection.
My God, you need to embrace the flow state, right?
And then those breakthroughs will happen.
And everything that's inside of you
is just gonna come pouring out.
Oh, God. I'm sorry. I know,
I'm doing it again. I'm so sorry.
I just...
trying to help.
I know. I appreciate it.
I do.
Well, yeah, I can kind of relate to that.
I mean... I mean, I sort of gave up everything, you know?
I mean, you didn't... you never stopped.
You just kept working.
I mean, it is a little...
Anyway I mean, at least Nick is around, you know?
I mean, Scott is never home.
And then when he does come home,
we just have so little in common now.
I mean, with the kids gone,
we can't even talk about them anymore.
It's just a lot of awkward silences.
So maybe it's a good thing he's on the road a lot.
I mean, unlike Nick, who is constantly underfoot.
I mean, sometimes I just want to say to him,
"Dude, get out of the house and give me some fucking space!"
[LAUGHS] Ah, that is so classic.
They're either home too much - or not home enough. - MAGGIE: Exactly.
Do you ever fantasize about getting divorced?
Fantasize?
I don't know,
that kind of makes it sound like a good thing.
MAGGIE: So the thing is,
I could really use a break from my writing.
And I think a night out with Andy
and his new girlfriend could be fun.
Fun.
So yes, I would like to go.
And I would like you to come with me.
Then it's settled.
Oh, my God. I love it here.
Smell that air.
- Ah, it's beautiful, huh? - Yeah.
You know, this is why I was so determined
to get this house in the divorce.
'Cause if I didn't have a way of getting outta the city,
I think I'd lose my fucking mind.
Plus, I did pay for pretty much all of it.
[LAUGHS]
Well, if you can believe it,
Tina absolutely hated coming up here.
Hated the country.
TINA: Fucking hate it out here.
Why did I agree to this?
ANDY: Babe, because she is your boss,
and she invited you for the weekend.
All right? Don't worry about it.
- We'll make the most of it. - What did Tom say?
Is he on his way?
Yeah, he said about five minutes.
I told you that we can't stay till Monday, right?
I got to go to Milan again next week,
so we got to go back Sunday.
Really?
I don't remember you having to go there this often.
Okay, wait, so you're gonna pretend you give a shit
about when and where I go?
The hell is that supposed to mean?
Of course I do.
You never ask me who I'm with or what I'm doing.
That's because I assume you're working.
You know, where you need to and with whom you need to.
You know, you never ask me about work anymore.
Babe, come on.
We've been married for almost 15 years, right?
So what, you're tired of hearing about it?
You ever ask me about my work?
- No, never. - That's because it upsets you.
Why would that ever upset me?
Because you're either pissed off you didn't sell a painting,
or you didn't get into that show or this gallery,
or you're complaining you can't get your agent on the phone.
I don't know, I figure I don't ask you about it,
that way I can't hurt your feelings.
All right, well, if you're worried
about hurting my feelings, you failed.
RENEE: Are you sure she didn't just hate me and Tom?
Actually, don't answer that.
You know what, this weekend,
let's not talk about Tina or Tom.
You know what I think?
I think that's a great fucking idea.
Okay, I'm gonna go and make a fire.
- All right. - Are you okay with the bags?
Yeah. Yeah.
Should I assume I'm staying in your bedroom, or...
I mean, you know, whatever you like,
but I know what I prefer.
ANDY: [LAUGHS]
Good morning.
Boy, I hope that's a real good smoothie.
Could have got an extra few hours in
if it weren't for your blender.
[SLURPING]
- Mmm. It's delish. - SCOTT: Nice.
Seen your father's latest post?
Who's that new one he's got?
God, I don't know. I don't fucking care.
She's in good shape. Look at those tits.
She's got to be 25 years younger than him.
- Wow. - That would be his norm.
SCOTT: Good for him. Got himself a new little hottie.
EVE: Ugh! God.
What? What's so bad about that?
I'm genuinely happy for the guy.
You remember when my mother died,
- what you said? - SCOTT: Mm?
No, because it was about ten years ago, wasn't it?
It was something along the lines of,
"Well, at least now he's gonna get to chase some women again."
Yeah, because that's all he ever talked about.
Yeah, but don't you see how insensitive that was?
Your parents hated each other.
You said it yourself a thousand times.
But still, my mother wasn't dead a week.
It was a joke.
I was trying to make you feel better.
How is that supposed to possibly make me feel better?
Because it meant that your father wasn't gonna
be some old man in mourning,
that he would finally get the chance
to have some fun again.
[SCOFFS, LAUGHS] Okay.
- SCOTT: What? - Oh.
Well, you're just like him, aren't you?
What? How? How am I just like him?
You think I'm just out chasing women now?
No, it isn't that.
But he was a nasty drunk too.
And he made my mother miserable
by being either hammered or hungover.
And neither one of those states is very much fun to be around.
So I'm nasty and miserable, is that it?
Yeah. You can be.
As you well know.
Okay, well,
on that note, going back to bed.
[CELL PHONE RINGING]
Hello.
Hey, Eve, it's Johnny Banda,
Stephanie's ex.
Oh, hey. Um, hold on one sec, okay?
Hey. How are you doing?
I'm good. No, everything's cool. How about you?
Yeah, I'm good, I think.
- Mostly. - Good.
Hey, listen, I was wondering if...
Did you get a chance to talk to your husband
about doing that interview?
Yeah, I did. Um...
Yeah, he said you should set it up through the label.
Oh, shit. Really? Huh.
Because, you know, I already tried that,
but the PR guy, he's being a bit of a hardhead.
He wants to see a list of my questions
before he'll even consider it.
I don't know, apparently, I did a hatchet job
on one of his artists a few years ago,
you know, according to him.
I just... Listen, I just think the guy doesn't like me.
Why do you think that?
Who knows?
I guess I rub people the wrong way sometimes.
[LAUGHS] Well, you can add my husband to that list.
Really? Damn.
Wait, so, should I just forget about doing the interview, or...
I think it's gonna be a long shot.
Oh.
All right, well, hey, what about you?
I mean, you were... you were part of that scene.
I mean, barely.
What do you mean barely? You had a top 20 hit.
How many bands can say that?
Listen, I'm about to get in the car,
come back to the city right now.
We can meet for a coffee
and talk about the good old days before rock was dead.
What do you say? Uh...
Yeah. Yeah, sure. Why not?
You know, I remember talking to Tina
about her not wanting kids.
She wanted to focus on her work.
But what about you?
I thought we agreed
we weren't gonna talk about Tina.
Well, I'm not really talking about Tina.
I'm asking you about you.
You never mentioned whether you wanted kids or not.
I definitely did not want kids.
Hmm. Why is that?
Probably it's something to do with the fact that my parents
were self-absorbed musicians who loved being on the road
more than they liked being home with their family.
- Oh, they did not. - They did.
And if they were working, we were lucky
if we saw them once a month.
And they were always working.
Well, what about now?
ANDY: What about now? Do I want kids now?
[LAUGHS] Absolutely not.
Oh, my God, that's such a relief.
Because if you turned out to be one of those guys in their 50s
who wanted to start a family,
I might have had to show you the door.
Well, I've got good news for you. All I'm looking for
is a stable relationship with a sane woman
who's approximately my age,
which is why I'm very excited about us.
[DOORBELL RINGS]
Okay, well, if you don't fuck it up this weekend,
we really might have something.[CHUCKLES]
- Hey. - Hey, beautiful.
I got the extra firewood you wanted.
I could bring it in.
Or I could just leave it on the porch.
Oh, just leave it on the porch.
Oh, but hey, I wanted you to meet Andy.
- Hey. - ANDY: Hey, man.
- How are you? - Good. How you doing?
- Good. - Dennis helps me with the property.
And he and his girlfriend,
Lori, are gonna come for dinner tonight.
Yes, we will be there.
But I don't know that Lori would call me her boyfriend
or that I'm interested in calling her my girlfriend.
Oh.
Um, Lori is another divorcée up here.
[LAUGHS]
You say it like that,
you're gonna give me a reputation.
[BOTH LAUGH]
Andy, good to meet you.
Renee, Lori and I will see you tonight.
Okay.
All right. So what's this guy's deal?
He just helps you with the property?
Yeah, no, he has slept
with nearly all the women in this town,
- but not me. - Okay.
He... he just delivers the wood.
[BOTH LAUGH]
[LIGHT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
Wow. Hey. [CHUCKLES]
- Oh, I'm so glad you made it. - Oh.
- Thanks. - Wow.
Can I just say, you look...
you look fantastic.
- Oh, thank you. - Please.
[MUSIC CONCLUDES]
Listen, thank you.
Thank you so much for doing this.
My gosh, of course, although I'm not sure
how much of it you'll actually use.
I don't think anyone really remembers who I am.
Oh, come on. That's not true.
You got to remember the bands you fell in love with
when you were a teenager and in your 20s.
Those bands and their songs, there's no forgetting them.
Wouldn't you agree?
I mean, as we get older, your memories from those days
become more romanticized.
And the songs connected to those memories
become even more important.
So when you hear that special tune, you know, that...
I don't know, that track you thought you forgot,
like your song, "Easy On You," I hear that again, it's like
I don't know, it's like... it's like time traveling.
[BOTH LAUGH]
It offers you a moment where you...
you can go back to your younger days,
experience a few seconds where you actually
think you can go back.
Yeah, I think that's why I don't listen
to those songs from the past.
It's just... [INHALES] ...too painful a reminder.
Of what we are not now.
Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young.
Yeah. "Suite: Judy Blue Eyes."
JOHNNY: Hey, okay.
[BOTH LAUGH]
- EVE: Yes. - So do you mind if I...
do you mind if I turn this on?
Do you mind if I get a drink first?
Are you kidding me? Even better.
- Wine? - White?
Bottle?
Yeah, why not?
Waiter.
Well, we're off to a good start.
[BOTH LAUGH]
Whoa.
You look great.
Thank you.
You look nice too.
But yeah, I had a trunk and a tiny closet
and a twin sized bed and dreams.
[ALL LAUGH] Dreams.
- Dreams. - Dreams.
Well, everyone has that story
of their first tiny New York apartment, though, right?
I mean, everyone except Lori, of course, who's rich.
Fortunately, I was spared that rite of passage. [LAUGHS]
And this one here, he's never left his hometown.
Mm-hmm. Born and bred and proud of it.
Our first place was, oh, not only tiny, but was a...
would you call it a shithole?[LAUGHS] It was a dump.
This tiny studio on Bleecker and 7th.
Least it was a fifth floor walk up.
With the benefit of no AC.
NICK: And a kitchen the size of this table
and those half fridges that kids have in their dorms.
Oh, my God, and there was a hole in the bathroom ceiling.
And if you looked up,
you'd see the guy sitting on the bowl.
[GUESTS LAUGH] No, you could not.
No, I swear to you, you could.
You could see his hairy legs and then some.
Not to mention the cockroaches and the mice.
Oh, my God, and the rat.
And the rat.
Yeah, I remember the rat because I went with Nick
to the hardware store to get the trap.
MAGGIE: Oh, that's right.
And then the old timer there, remember,
he gave us the whole blow by blow
of the horror show that was to follow.
- Ugh! - Ew.
That's disgusting.
NICK: And we were to take this guillotine kind of trap
and spread peanut butter inside of it.
Wait. Rats like peanut butter?
Rats like anything. Do they not?
Yeah, but why specifically peanut butter?
Why not, you know, cheese?
ANDY: Oh, no, the old man explained to us.
The mouse likes the cheese.
The rat apparently likes the peanut butter.
NICK: And we were told we were to lay newspaper
not just underneath the trap. No, no, no, no, no.
Nick, please.
Around the entire locality.
Because when this fucking huge rat
goes for the peanut butter and then...
[GRUNTS] You know what I'm thinking?
That, um, maybe we change the subject,
being that we're eating.
I think they want to know why we put the newspaper.
Oh, you want to know why they put the newspaper out.
It's because it was messy, wasn't it?
NICK: Yeah, it was like, you cannot imagine.
This thing can chop. It can dismember...
MAGGIE: Okay, please, Nick And then you have...
...you have guts, and you have...
[EXHALES] Nick, please, just stop.
Enough. Okay?
Sorry, you brought it up.
I just paint the picture.
But the moral of the story there should be a moral.
What is the moral?
The moral of the story is,
sometimes it's better to live with the rat than, you know,
having to clean up the mess
after he or she gets caught in your trap.
But there is no story, is there?
Because you haven't written it yet.
RENEE: Speaking of writing, um... Nick,
what have you been working on recently?
Because, do you know,
my first job out of school was at "Harper's,"
and we did a huge profile piece on "Everything and the Rest."
- Really? - RENEE: Yes.
Oh, those were the good old days.
Yeah, I mean, you were everywhere back then.
Yes, I guess I was, really.
But to answer your...
I actually have been working on a... on a novel.
I'm calling it, working title, "Falling Into Silence."
It's... it's bittersweet, about an aging author
who no longer has anything left to say.
And so he says... Don't listen to him, Renee.
Nick's just feeling sorry for himself.
I keep trying to convince him that the story is
right under his nose if he'd only look.
NICK: We all can't be as prolific as you, my love.
Maggie has, well, she has the gift
to mine the everyday for her work.
She gets inspiration from every offhand remark
and little banal bit of conversation.
So be careful, everybody,
or you may end up in her next opus.
[BOTH LAUGH]
I can't believe I'm going to say this, but I think...
I think I got everything I need.
Good.[BOTH LAUGH]
Thank you so much for doing this.
Oh, thank you. I mean, it's a lot of fun.
So listen, you...
you mentioned earlier that you're no longer
in love with New York.
So where else would you want to live? Back to L.A.?
Oh, God, I would...
I would kill to go back to L.A., yeah.
I have this fantasy that I live in Laurel Canyon,
this little craftsman style house
that I used to drive by all the time.
Oh, God, it was so sweet.
I mean, that would be my dream house,
my dream life.
Just like Joni Mitchell.
I mean, a girl can fantasize, right?
Listen, I'm here for it.
[LAUGHS]
Yeah.
I don't know. I think I might be done with New York.
Or better put, I think New York is done with me.
Why do you say that?
JOHNNY: It's a young person's town,
a rich man's city. And I'm neither.
It hit me last month.
I was... I was strolling down 5th Avenue,
and I realized...
I'm fucking invisible, you know?
And I used to be the guy that young girls smiled at
and that other dudes noticed.
You know, I had a definite style
and a certain swagger.
But now, at best,
I'm just a bespectacled gray beard,
a charming old codger, you know, a harmless old man.
Oh, my God.
JOHNNY: You know what? It's worse than that.
I... I don't even think it registers with some women
that I'm a man at all.
I mean, first of all, that's the problem
with trying to attract young girls, okay?
Secondly, you are none of those things.
You're very handsome...
and charming.
You think so?
Yeah, I do.
ANDY: Oh, hey.
So tell me, what do you think of Renee?
- She seems nice. - But?
You got something on your mind.
No, it's just...
I'm just thinking of Tina, you know?
[WHISPERING] I didn't know she worked for her.
Oh, wow, so now all of a sudden,
your concern is with Tina?
I wouldn't go that far.
Look, you seem to be forgetting the fact
that she dumped me, not the other way around, right?
I was happily married, and I definitely was not
looking to get divorced.
And then out of the blue, she dumps me.
- Hi. - Hi.
What's going on?
I have something I want to say.
All right. What's up?
Um, you know how I turned 42 last week
and last month we celebrated our 15th wedding anniversary?
And today, I just...
And I don't... I don't come by this casually,
but today, I feel like I...
I need to be on my own, at least for a little while.
What? What's going on here? This is about your mom?
I'm sure it has something to do with it.
How could it not?
Because, babe, your mom smoked two packs
of Marlboro Reds a day, okay? You are not her.
She's got this crazy notion because her mother died at 45,
that she, too, is gonna die at 45.
What are your thoughts, Tina?
My thoughts? If I'm gonna die in a few years,
I don't want to be stuck in a marriage
that has no life, no spark to it.
You know what it's like?
It's like I'm in a cage, and it's closing.
And if I don't get out, I'm gonna be stuck
in it for the rest of my life.
Yeah, that's assuming that she doesn't die
in the next 15 minutes from a heart attack like her mother,
- right? - TINA: That's not the point.
The point is, life is short.
I was 25 when we started dating.
I'm a different person now. I want a new chapter.
I think when I come back from London,
I should stay elsewhere.
Really? Can't fucking believe this.
- Stay elsewhere? - TINA: Mm-hmm.
So what the fuck does that mean? You're gonna move out?
Yes.
I'm sorry.
[SIGHS] Christ. Really?
Unbelievable.
Yeah, I wish I had some fucking clue
that this was going on, because I had no fucking idea.
Well, maybe if you were paying attention,
you would have.
Do you ever feel like we made a mistake not having kids?
ANDY: No. [CHUCKLES] Definitely not.
Why? Why, do you?
I don't know. Maybe.
Well, I think it's too late
to do anything about it now, right?
Is it?
Yeah. Yeah, it is.
At least for me.
So where were you all day today?
I had an interview with that writer.
What were you doing?
Getting shit faced? Back to that?
Please don't start that shit.
I'm allowed to have a few beers.
So what exactly did he want to talk to you about?
[SIGHS] Don't be an asshole. Mag Scrambler.
- Really? - EVE: Mm-hmm.
Yeah, he interviewed me for almost three hours.
Three hours? Wow. Then what?
Nothing. What?
He walked me home and said goodbye.
He walked you home? Oh.
Well, in that case, you should have brought him up.
We could have done the interview
that he wanted to do with me.
So that was it, though? Didn't ask you to dinner?
Maybe back to his apartment?
No.
He did say that if he had any follow up questions...
There it is.
...he might want to sit down again.
I knew that fucking guy was a jerk.
[SIGHS] Just to be clear, babe,
he doesn't give a shit about your band,
and your interview is not making it
into his fucking book.
- That's the truth. - Oh, god.
Why is it so hard for you to believe
that someone might want to interview me
about my experiences and my memories from that time?
Because, and don't take this the wrong way, babe,
but nobody remembers your fucking band.
Oh. Well, you know what? He does.
And he seems to think there's plenty of other people
- out there who may as well. - Fine. Fuck it.
You wanna another interview? Do another interview.
But I'm telling you this,
he's only trying to get into your pants.
Jesus Christ. You're such a fucking asshole!
You know that?
You've always tried to undermine
my career and my talent.
- And I know why. - You do?
Well, do tell.
Because I was a better songwriter than you.
And I was a better singer than you
and a better guitar player.
And your little fucking ego couldn't handle it.
That's why you sabotaged my career.
I sabotaged your career? Where did that come from?
Maybe you're the one that's drunk.
[SOMBER PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
- That was a real pleasure, Eve. - It was.
Listen, if I have any follow up questions
or need another interview, would you be open to that?
Yeah, sure. That was fun.
I was serious when I said you should really think
about picking up the guitar again.
[LAUGHS]
It's high time for some new music out of you.
- Oh, I don't know. - Time for a new beginning.
Yeah. [CHUCKLES]
I don't know if you realize this,
but I'm on the other side of 50.
So I think time for new beginnings
might have passed.
No, I'm not buying it.
I mean, I would say you have less to lose now
than you did at 25.
You already paid for the college educations,
bought the house, taken the exotic trips, right?
Well, yeah.
And now might be the best time to gamble.
Hmm.
Yeah, you know, when I was just a new mom,
I had the idea of doing, like, a children's album or something
when the kids were little.
But, no, Scott thought that there wasn't really
an audience for that, so...
Well, if you don't mind me saying,
that's a little fucked up, don't you think?
Your spouse should be supportive of your art,
not trying to sabotage it.
Yeah.
I mean, yeah, I think back on those days and it's like,
could have kept writing, you know?
I could have maybe done a few more albums,
gone on tour, but I...
I don't know. You know, what are you gonna do?
Past is the past.
Well, how old are your kids now?
Oh, it's hard to believe, but they're through college
and out of the house.
Yeah.
Both my kids are out of the house as well.
It's... it's bittersweet, though, isn't it?
I mean, you're happy for the newfound freedom,
but you also miss them like crazy.
Yeah. Yeah.
Although, my boys were all too happy to get out.
MARK: Don't bother, Mom.
He's not gonna show up.
[MUSIC CONCLUDES]
Scott, we... [EXHALES] where the hell are you?
We've been waiting for you for over an hour.
Bodie is onstage about to start his audition.
[SIGHS]
I don't know why we're waiting for him.
He's always late.
EVE: Okay.
[PIANO PLAYING]
What the fuck! Eve?
Eve! Why can't you wait for me?
What the hell? Bodie, start again.
Uh, just... I just...[PIANO PLAYING CONTINUES]
I just want to hear from the top, all right?
I just want to hear the beginning.
- EVE: Scott. - Shh. Just from the top.
Bodie! Hey!
Bud, take it from the top.
[CLAPPING] Hey! Hey!
- EVE: Scott! - I'm talking to you.
- EVE: Scott! - Will you just... What?
You are ruining his audition.
I'm not ruining shit. You already ruined it.
Why couldn't you wait for me? Why couldn't you wait for me?
We waited for you for over an hour.
God!
Sit down or get the fuck out of here.
Dad, get the fuck out of here.
No one wants you here.
Look, Eve, you finally got your fucking wish
my own kid turning against me.
Nobody wants me here?
You don't want me here?
I told you to fucking stop!
[PIANO MUSIC STOPS]
I'm out of here.
[SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
Well, look, when we were kids, I mean,
she absolutely was the toughest.
I had to be. Our parents were not around.
Yeah, that's why...
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
Hey. I'm gonna go get a glass of water.
Can I get you anything?
Uh, who's driving home?
- I think I should. - I think that's fine.
- Okay. - I'll go back to the trough.
Okay.
MAGGIE: What the fuck are you doing here?
DENNIS: If I knew you were gonna be here,
with your husband no less, I would have steered clear.
[WHISPERING] But I gotta admit, it's great to see you.
Can I make a confession?
- Oh, God, please don't. - Don't worry.
It's nothing dramatic.
But I was a bit disappointed
I didn't hear from you this fall.
It seems to me like you're doing just fine.
[LAUGHS]
So how's the new book coming?
Actually, I'm nearly finished.
- Congratulations. - What's it called?
I don't know.
I mean, the working title is "Filling Station."
Well, if you ever let anyone read an early copy,
you know what a fan I am.
I'll be in touch.
That wasn't so bad, was it?
What? No. No, that was actually...
okay, that was fun.
That was fun.
[MUSIC CONCLUDES]
I didn't...
[CRICKETS CHIRPING]
NICK: And what did you think of uh... [SMACKS LIPS]
...Andy's new girl? I liked her.
Yeah, I mean, if it's between her and Tina,
I'd take her any day of the week.
Completely agree with that.
I'm a sucker for that English accent.
[WITH ENGLISH ACCENT] Sounds so smart.
Smart and sexy.
Okay.
What about, who else? Dennis?
Oh, my God, the mysterious gardener.
Dennis. I don't know, if I was Andy, I...
I would look out for that dude.
Dennis is a...
Dennis is a player, I think Dennis is.
Really? That wasn't my read on him.
Really?
I saw you two chatting it up in the kitchen.
What was your read on Dennis?
He was asking me what I'm working on.
- He's a fan. - Oh, my God.
And... [SCOFFS]
We were talking about Renee's property.
He had had them put in some cherry blossom trees
- that he was worried about. - NICK: Mm-hmm?
And he is not a gardener.
- He is a caretaker. - Oh, is he? He's a caretaker.
Oh. [LAUGHS]
Does that mean he does more than mow the lawn
and trim the hedges?
- Don't be such a snob. - He takes care.
And by the way, you've met him, actually.
Yes, we interviewed him for our house a few years ago.
- Did we? - Yes.
I don't recall.
Perhaps he didn't make much of an impression.
I'm going up.
You go up. I'll be there.
- Bye. - I'm going up.
[SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
DENNIS: Maggie Miller?
- Hey, how are you? - MAGGIE: Good.
I recognized your truck from the other day.
Oh, so it's just the truck that caught your eye?
[CHUCKLES] DENNIS: Sorry.
So how's the research going?
Yeah, good.
It's been a productive couple of days.
Well, I've just got to run this mail up to the house.
Would you have any interest
in grabbing a cup of coffee afterwards?
You could pick my brain if you want,
get a local's look at life in a small town.
Tempting, but I don't think so.
Why not?
Because I have friends in this town,
as I'm sure you do too.
Well, then, how would you feel
about walking the property with me?
It's a beautiful piece of land.
Don't worry. No one's home. We can talk up there.
Follow me up the drive.
No one'll see your car there.
[INDISTINCT CHATTER, LAUGHTER]
[THUNDER RUMBLES]
If you don't mind, can I show you something?
I want to get your opinion on it.
Sure.
The homeowner wants to sell this,
and it needs a little work, but it is a beauty.
- It is gorgeous. - Yeah.
It's a fairly extravagant purchase.
But he said he'd be willing to give me a pretty good deal.
So I think I'd like to go for it.
Yeah. Well, I think you should.
[SCOFFS]
So the homeowner's...
not here.
That's right.
Hmm.
NICK: You know, I wasn't gonna say anything,
but I didn't really appreciate your comment
about my writing tonight at dinner.
[MUSIC CONCLUDES]
You mean your lack of writing?
[LAUGHS] Wow. Really?
You don't want to apologize? You want to double down?
MAGGIE: I want you to stop being so afraid.
You're such a good writer.
So big deal, you got one bad review.
NICK: I got nothing but bad reviews,
dozens of bad reviews.
Yes, but for one book.
I mean, the book before that one,
"Everything in the Universe," that did fine.
Yeah, it was fine. But it wasn't the plan, was it?
It's not the dream, is it, Maggie?
You know the dream.
The dream is to write the book, Maggie.
The book.
And sadly, I'm coming to the conclusion
that it's not gonna happen, so...
Especially if you don't try.
Do you not think I want to?
Is that what you think? I want to. Trust me.
Just can't find it.
Oh, I don't believe that.
I don't know, take tonight, for example,
that story we told at dinner
about our first apartment and the rat.
Well, that would make for a good short story.
Well, think about it, a couple of 20 something kids like us
who come to New York in the '90s
chasing their literary dream... Whoa, whoa, whoa!
Do me a favor.
I don't need you to pitch me fucking story ideas, okay?
Or to give me your sage author advice.
You save it.
Save it for Johnny Appleseed and his cherry blossoms, okay?
Oh, God.
Well, then will you please
stop fucking feeling sorry for yourself
and just sit down and write?
It is killing me watching you wallow.
It's killing you?
And what was that bullshit tonight
about "Falling Into Silence"?
I mean, just you've got plenty left to say.
Just sit down and do the work!
I'm glad that you can do it. You can.
You can sit and... and spin your tales
about Manhattan moms dissatisfied
and their nannies and dog walkers
and trainers they want to fuck, but I can't do it, Maggie.
I can't do it, because what I do requires
precision and focus and research and discipline!
I can't just... [SIGHS]
Surrender to the fucking flow state!
Oh, go fuck yourself, Nick!
The only thing less sexy than you wallowing in self pity
is your jealousy.
Fucking asshole.
[CELL PHONE RINGING]
[SIGHS]
[BIRDS CHIRPING]
[SIGHS]
Morning.
Oh, good afternoon.
ANDY: Yeah, sorry about that.
I can't believe I slept in that much.
You should have woken me, though.
I would've helped clean up the mess.
Oh, it's fine. It's my house, my mess.
There's coffee if you need.
I need. Thank you.
Hey, by the way, I heard from my sister,
and she said she and Nick loved meeting you last night.
So thank you for hosting them.
I really liked meeting them too.
Well, I like Nick.
Your sister's harder to like.
I told you, right? I mean, she can be tough.
Yeah. I mean, it got...
it got properly awkward at the end there.
Well, that was nothing. You want to see awkward?
One night we'll have dinner with my sister Eve
and her husband.
I swear to you, whatever those two saw in one another,
I'll never know.
I think it's like that in the beginning
of some relationships, though.
You know, what you like in the beginning
ends up repelling you.
Like, Tom,
you know, in the beginning, it was so cute.
Like, he was, like, living out of his car
and he was a starving artist and I could take care of him
and it was great, and, like, 15 years later,
you're like, dude, help me pay the mortgage.
[PHONE BUZZING] Yeah, well, speaking of,
this is Tina.
So you mind if I just take this?
RENEE: Wait, what?
You're not gonna take that call.
Well, look, she's tried me, like, five times
already this morning, so...
So?
Wait, why would you take that call
if you're here with me?
Because I don't know. Maybe it's an emergency.
I don't understand what could be so important.
I mean, if you had kids, then maybe.
But you don't.
Let me take it so I don't have to worry,
all right? I don't know.
Maybe it's about the cat.
Oh, the cat.
- Hey. - The cat.
What's going on?
- Is everything all right? - TINA: Guess where I am.
In our apartment, enjoying a glass of wine.
Okay, you are gonna need to return those keys,
or I am gonna have to change the locks, all right?
All right. Calm down.
I told you I had to get some things.
That's what I'm doing.
Maybe I was hoping to run into you too.
Look, I want to meet for a drink and talk.
When are you back from your romantic getaway?
Okay, first of all, we are not meeting for a drink.
You want to meet, we can
do breakfast. How about that?
What and you don't trust yourself?
No, after the other night, I don't trust you.
[LAUGHS] Fine. Breakfast it is.
I'll text you the details.
All right. I'll see you then.
[GENTLE PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
[CAR UNLOCKS]
NICK: Good morning.
Oh. Hey.
How's your head?
Oh, it's a carnival in there. Listen...
[EXHALES HEAVILY]
I am sorry about last night.
Obviously, I had a few too many,
you know, trips to the well, and...
No, I should apologize to you.
I shouldn't have said what I said.
I know the last thing you need is career advice from me.
Well, at least we agree on that.
You were up early this morning, huh?
MAGGIE: Yeah. I couldn't sleep.
And I had a final burst of inspiration.
I actually finished.
What?
[MUSIC CONCLUDES]
Good for you, Mags.
Thank you.
Where are we off to?
Well, I'm... going to town,
um... to make some copies.
You know, and maybe do a little food shopping
and pick up a nice bottle of red so we can celebrate.
All right. Celebrate. Of course.
I'll... prepare something.
- Okay. - NICK: See you in a bit.
See you later.
[GENTLE PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
[FIRE CRACKLING]
[CHUCKLES]
DENNIS: Ah, I love this line.
"He's worse than a wallflower.
"He's the bones of the house hiding behind the sheetrock,
as lively as a 2x4."
Keep reading. Keep reading.
Uh, by the way, now that I know
what the title refers to,
I like it even more.
I thought you might.
Maggie Miller, right?
Uh, do I know you?
Dennis Long.
You and your husband interviewed me a few years ago.
I'm a caretaker, property manager,
house watcher, that sort of thing.
Yeah. Yeah. Good to see you again.
It's okay if you don't remember.
It was a long time ago.[CHUCKLES]
But I, of course, remember who you are
- because I'm a fan. - Really?
Yeah, starting with "Folding Chair."
And I loved "Boiling Water."
And what was the one you did up here?
"Shoveling Snow."Yeah, I love that one.
You captured the offseason up here perfectly.
I would have thought you were a local.
You really... you really are a fan.
From way back.
When did the first one come out?
- '98? - Oh, God, don't...
- '99? - No, no, don't remind me.
It was so long ago. '97.
What's next? You got anything in the works?
Well, I've had a few false starts.
That's actually why I'm up here.
I'm just looking for some inspiration,
doing some research.
Well, if I can be of any help,
just let me know.
Born and raised.
♪ And the one thing You wish you could hide ♪
♪ Is shining
♪ Is shining on
♪ Inside
[MUTTERS]
♪ It's a lot like being alone
♪ Inside a spotlight ♪
♪ All on your own ♪
♪ With a thousand-watt light In your eyes ♪
♪ With a thousand watt Light in your eyes ♪
♪ And the one thing You wish you could hide ♪
♪ Shining on
- Home. - EVE: I'm in here.
We got dinner plans?
Um, I'm not really that hungry.
I was just gonna make a smoothie or something.
What's up with you and smoothies?
You on a diet or something?
[CHUCKLES] No, I'm just not that hungry.
Well, maybe you can rustle up a little pasta or something?
Just something simple.
Um, well, there's some leftovers in the fridge.
You could heat them up.
Really?
You don't want to cook anything?
I thought we could have a little dinner together.
Well, I'm just working.
And who inspired that?
Jerk off journalist?
[SIGHS, SCOFFS]
You know, I've been thinking a lot lately
about all the things that I gave up for you. And...
you know what, I'm not gonna do it anymore.
So if I want to get back into my music, I'm going to.
And if you don't like it, I don't give a fuck.
Wow. Easy, girl.
Don't lay all that on me.
You have your regrets, you have your regrets.
We all do.
But I didn't ask you to give up shit for me.
Are you kidding me?
I left L.A. for you. I left my friends for you.
I quit my fucking band for you.
You quit your fucking band for me
because you were pregnant.
Yeah, because you suggested it.
And you were my manager and my fucking husband.
And I listened to you.
At the time, it was the right decision
for both of us,
for the sake of our family. You've got to admit that!
Oh.
No, no, that is not how...
Look, I'm sorry your career didn't pan out
the way that you hoped.
But we have a pretty nice life, don't we?
Have I not provided a nice life for us?
I never get one fucking ounce of gratitude for that,
not one acknowledgment for all the hard work that I do.
Instead, all you want to do is just change me.
- Change you? - SCOTT: Yeah.
I want you to stay fucking sober.
Is that such a crazy request?
And I failed you yet again. Is that right?
Yes.
Yet again.
Are you happy in this marriage?
I don't want to have this conversation
while you're drinking.
While I'm drinking?
It's a fucking beer. I'm not drunk.
No, not yet.
But you will be.
[SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
ANDY: Hey. Are we all good?
Or you need me to help with anything else?
No, we're all good.
You need me to lock it or anything?
No, it locks itself.
You know, this was a pretty big test for us this weekend.
I think we passed with flying colors, right?
I mean, it's one thing to spend the night together,
- but a whole weekend? - Can you unlock the door?
All right, yeah.
[SIGHS]
All right, you want to tell me what I did to piss you off?
- You don't know? - No.
- Really? - No. Don't have a clue.
I invite you up to my house
to stay with me for the weekend.
I want to introduce you to some of my friends.
And you take a call from your ex-wife,
even though I asked you not to.
And to make it worse, you took the call outside
like you've got something to hide.
Do you have something to hide?
Okay, first of all,
she's not my ex-wife yet, right?
I mean, we're only separated.
What the fuck does that mean?
Are you wanting to get back together with her?
No, not at all.
I am just simply stating the facts.
Oh, the facts. You are stating the facts.
Okay, here's a fact.
Tina is not a nice person.
You just said back there,
you don't know what your sister saw in her husband.
Well, what did you ever see in Tina?
Look, if you must know, there were times
when she could be very nice and very sweet, all right?
There were? Oh, I never saw that.
Renee, what are you doing? What are you doing?
We just have this great weekend,
and now you want to end on a sour note.
What am I doing?
This? No. No, no, no, no.
You're the one who insisted on taking a call
from your wife.
Hey.
Well, that took a long time.
Ugh, I know. I'm sorry.
The traffic this weekend is worse than it is in the summer.
I think there must have been some sort of accident.
Okay.[MUSIC CONCLUDES]
Did you... The wine in the car?
Oh, fuck. I forgot.
NICK: You forgot the wine.
Oh, that's out of character.
Well... well, so much for our little celebration.
Well, I made extra copies.
If you want to read it, we can celebrate after.
Yeah, I'll look at it, later.
I'm... I'm gonna go upstairs
and take a nap because I just... I didn't sleep last night.
SCOTT: Eve?
I'm gonna go out for a little bit.
[UNDER HIS BREATH] If you'd have fucking cooked.
Eve!
Are you sleeping?
Yeah.
I'm gonna go get a bite to eat.
Not that the...
leftovers weren't wonderful.
[SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
EVE: You hope and pray that he wakes up one day
and wants to be different.
I don't know. You know what? He did.
He'd get sober for three months,
and nothing changes.
Did you ever think about, you know, making a change?
Yeah, but I don't know.
I think when I was younger, maybe.
But it's just a little hard to imagine now, you know?
Being out there alone at my age, just...
At your age? [LAUGHS] That's crazy.
No, I mean, you're gorgeous. You're smart.
You're fucking talented to boot.
The last thing that you would be is alone.
Anyway, this is my place. You want to feel really old,
this place used to be Area, this building.
- You remember that? - The nightclub?
Yes. [LAUGHS] Get out of here.
Well, then I'm pretty sure that I stood in this exact alleyway
back in 1987, probably coked out of my mind.
Mm.
You don't party like that anymore, do you?
No, I mean, that was that was a lifetime ago.
Now, at the most, I barely even drink.
unless, you know, I'm sharing a bottle with someone I like.
So you mentioned that you might want
to ask a few more questions.
Scott's gonna be on the road this weekend
if you wanted to, I don't know, maybe get together for lunch.
Yes, absolutely.
I would love that.
You know what? I... [CHUCKLES]
I got to head back to the country tomorrow, though,
so... Oh.
Okay. I mean, any some other time.
No, but hey, tell you what, if...
if you're comfortable, it's only a...
you know, a two-hour train ride.
For lunch?
Yeah, or... you could spend the night.
[LAUGHS, CLEARS THROAT] Um...
Uh, no, I mean, you know, if you're open to it.
Yeah, I'll think about that.
All right. Okay.
- Yeah. Well. - Talk soon.
Okay.[LAUGHS]
[MUSIC CONTINUES]
[MUSIC CONCLUDES]
Look, I am sorry I took the call.
If I had any idea it would upset you like this,
I never would have answered it.
Was it an emergency?
I mean, I hope the cat's okay.
[SIGHS]
Let me get your bag.
No, pop the trunk. I'll get it myself.
Renee, hold up.[CAR DOOR CLOSES]
[SIGHS]
I mean, what is going on here? It was just a phone call.
I know. I'm...
Look, I am as surprised as you are
by this reaction, honestly.
And it scares me because I...
I think I really like you.
Oh, well, that's a good thing, right?
Because I really like you.
And now that I know how my speaking to her affects you,
I promise you I will be more mindful of that.
Okay? I am sorry.
Okay. Thanks. I'm sorry too.
[SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
I think I've just got some trust issues after Tom
that I've got to work through. And remember, I know Tina.
I know how manipulative and vindictive she can be.
Yeah, I know. And I'm telling you, though,
you have nothing to worry about.
So are we still on for tomorrow night, I hope?
Yeah.
- All right, good. - Okay.
- I'll see you tomorrow. - Okay.
- Bye. - Bye.
[MUSIC CONCLUDES]
So I noticed you didn't get very far in my book last night.
Yes.
You didn't like it?
Actually, I just had to put it aside.
Really? Why?
I don't know.
Hitting a little too close to home, I guess.
In what way?
NICK: [SIGHS]
Well, I...
I got to the dinner chapter.
The husband character was, I don't know,
chopping and preparing and cooking and going on
about how fresh the produce was.
And he asks his wife character, to, you know, have a taste.
Yeah. And?
Well, then great insightful detail
about her reluctance to open her mouth
as he feeds her by hand
and how she's repulsed by his slightest touch,
and mostly that... [CLEARS THROAT]
...how she's annoyed by his constant and needy requests
for her to taste his cooking.
Nick. This isn't us. He's not you.
Yeah, I particularly enjoyed the silver haired husband
moping around, about how it's a rough time for him
because the kids are gone.
And then at some point, he makes the suggestion,
shockingly familiar, that, I don't know,
they sell their apartment because it's just too sad there
without their two daughters. [SCOFFS] I mean...
You're a fucking writer, for Christ's sake, Nick!
It's fiction.
Oh, boy.
I mean, you've used me before, but, you know, come on, Maggie.
That's... Oh, God.
[SCOFFS, LAUGHS]
[SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
[horn honking]
I'm so sorry. Were you waiting long?
I hit a little bit of traffic on the way over here.
I also wanted to get some wine, so...
Okay. No, it was fine.
You look... you look great, by the way.
Thank you.
What?
I'm just happy you're here.
JOHNNY: Hey, you see that place right there?
You know your dream house in Laurel Canyon?
That right there is mine.
Some fucking tech bro owns it now.
[EXHALES]
- I'm just gonna get some air. - Are you okay?
You, uh, you look a little green.
[CLEARS THROAT] No, no, no, I'm fine.
I'm just... I'm just a little nervous.
Oh, no need to be nervous.
- Sure you're all right? - Yeah.
I'll be really, really quick.
[COUGHING, RETCHING]
[BREATHES HEAVILY]
[MUSIC CONCLUDES]
Hi.
Hey.
Thank you for agreeing to meet with me.
Yeah, of course.
Oh. Your keys.
- Ah. Thank you. - Mm-hmm.
Oh, yeah, I have to apologize for the other night.
I was a little out of control.
All right, then. I owe you an apology as well.
You did not need to find out about me and Renee
the way you did, all right?
You know, I wanted to tell you earlier, but I just...
I don't know, I didn't know how.
How's it going with you two, anyhow?
Pretty good, I guess.
She's very different than I am,
but I can see why you like her.
Hi. Did you want some coffee as well, or...
Do you promise me that nothing ever happened
between you two while we were together?
Come on. Are you kidding me?
No. No, of course not.
I never even looked at her back then.
All right?
This thing that has happened between us
was completely unexpected.
Do you find her more attractive than I am?
[SIGHS]
You know what? I'm not gonna answer that.
I mean, she has great personal style.
I'm so much fucking hotter than she is, though.
I mean, if you're into that sort of thing.
[BOTH LAUGH]
Oh, I'll note that you did not disagree.
Okay, you know what we're gonna do?
We're gonna agree not to talk about her.
We're not talking about her. We're talking about me.
Are you still attracted to me?
- Why does that matter? - Just does.
Well, then yeah, of course.
I mean, that's not gonna change.
As you well know, that was not one of our issues, was it?
Not, it wasn't.
Okay. [INHALES]
So what I wanted to tell you today was,
even though I was tipsy that night that I let myself
into our apartment,
I went there with a clear intention.
All right. What was that?
[SOFT MUSIC PLAYING]
I miss you.
[BIRDS CHIRPING]
- JOHNNY: Feeling a little better? - Oh, yeah.
- Sorry about that. - No worries.
Come on in.
I'll fix us something to drink.
This place is really beautiful.
It's pretty amazing, isn't it?
It's not mine, though.
My brother lets me use it when I'm trying to write.
It's a little bit easier to focus up here, you know?
So this is it.
Welcome to my humble abode.
It's nice.
[MUSIC CONCLUDES]
There's a guest bedroom upstairs,
if that'll make you more comfortable.
Yeah, yeah, I think that's probably the best thing,
- for now. - I figured as much.
But I'll leave my room unlocked
just in case you get lonely, huh?
[LAUGHS] Okay.
JOHNNY: Come on up.
Your bathroom's right here.
All right.
Not too bad, right?
This is really nice.
Wow, it's so big here.
- It's beautiful. - Is it gonna be okay?
What? Oh.
- I'm gonna be comfortable. - Good.
I... I should probably brush my teeth first,
- right? - Yeah. Okay.
No, that's... [CHUCKLES] That's a good idea.
And then just...
I might need a couple minutes just to get settled.
Yeah. No, of course.
I'll tell you what, if you're open to it,
we can pick up on the interview again.
I can grab my notes, and I can ask you a few more questions.
Okay. [LAUGHS] JOHNNY: Good.
Uh, what can I get you to drink? Wine? Something stronger maybe?
I think just water for now.
Water? Sure. Water it is.
Meet me out back. We can talk on the lawn.
All right, look, I'm sorry. I can't.
- Can't what? - Can't what?
- I think you know what. - TINA: Come on.
Nobody needs to know. It could be fun.
Yeah, it could be a lot of fun.
But you seem to be forgetting the fact
that you're the one who wanted to end things, right?
Remember, you wanted a "new chapter."
I know. I know.
Doesn't mean I can't miss you.
All right, you know what? I think it's best
if we get the check and I get out of here.
Come on.
Could be our little secret. Um...
[WHISPERING] I already have the room upstairs. [GIGGLES]
[BIRDS CHIRPING]
Wow.
What a day.
It's my favorite spot. Come on over and sit down.
[SIGHS]
So are you really gonna use any of this in your book?
JOHNNY: [LAUGHS]
Well, let me just say it this way.
You are dangerously close
to becoming my favorite chapter.
[LAUGHS] God.
You know, I have to tell you, you did inspire me.
You know, that day after we had the first interview,
I went home, and I just started writing.
And I wrote the first song that I've written in years.
That's amazing. Good for you.
See, I told you, it's never too late.
EVE: [CHUCKLES]
So how are you feeling about it?
I think it's pretty special.
I mean, it just kind of poured out of me,
which is usually a pretty good sign.
What do you call it?
"Shining On."
It's about fresh starts.
Second acts. You know.
The promise of new beginnings, if you will.
Well, I... I have to tell you, I do have a guitar
inside the house, so if you ever want to play it for me...
I mean, a personal concert by none other than Ms. Eve Miller?
Sign me up.[HESITATES]
Well, I would like to hear your thoughts about it.
So, maybe after dinner.
Okay. It's a deal.[CHUCKLES]
[LINE RINGING]
RENEE: Hello? Renee.
Hi, it's Tina.
Oh, hey, Tina. What can I do for you?
I wanted to know why you're dating Andy.
I thought you and I were friends.
Yeah, but not good friends,
though, right, if we're being honest?
[SCOFFS, LAUGHS]
Well, that's clearly your impression
of our relationship. I thought differently.
Really? Because after you left Chanel,
I never heard from you again.
I mean, I remember calling you after my divorce,
and you just never called me back.
I had shit going on. New job, more responsibility.
Sorry, I was a little distracted.
Oh, there's no need to apologize.
I wasn't mad. It was just...
Think it explains why I never considered us great friends.
[SIGHS]
I remember you and I having conversations about Andy,
about our relationship.
Have you shared any of that with him?
- No. - TINA: Good.
I feel pretty terrible about some of the things I said.
Mm, well, you probably should,
because you could be very cruel.
Is that why you pursued him?
I didn't pursue him.
How'd you guys end up together?
We just ran into each other, actually. It was a coincidence.
And you ended up in bed together how?
Well, I guess we hit it off.
So this thing with Andy, is that gonna continue?
I think so.
Interesting.
It's not the impression I got when I saw him today.
Hey, I'm gonna go for a walk.
- Care to join me? - No, thanks.
I'm gonna stick with "Filling Station."
Are you sure?
You don't have to if you don't want to.
Oh, I want to.
That way, we can celebrate when I'm finished.
Okay, great.
NICK: It's good, Mags.
I mean, it's always good. You're always good.
[SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
It's still a little, you know,
rich people and their champagne problems, but...
Well, I write what I know.
[CRICKETS CHIRPING]
DENNIS: This isn't the first time you've done this,
is it?
- MAGGIE: Why would you say that? - DENNIS: I don't know.
You seem very relaxed about the whole thing.
Compared to who? Have you had many affairs?
Well, let's just say, you meet a lot of unhappy women
up here during the summer.
Hmm. Why are they so unhappy?
Probably for the same reasons you are.
Who says I'm unhappy?
Aren't you?
No.
Why would you assume that?
DENNIS: Because you're here,
and not at home with your husband.
[INHALES, EXHALES]
Well, maybe I don't believe in monogamy.
Maybe my husband and I have an agreement about that.
DENNIS: Do you?
[MUSIC CONTINUES]
JOHNNY: Whoo!
[EXHALES] Damn. It's getting cold out there.
[LAUGHS] Wow![EXHALES]
God, you smell good.
- Thanks. - You know, I remember your perfume from lunch too.
Oh. Thanks.
[CLEARS THROAT]
You, uh, you're sure I can't interest you in a glass?
Uh, no, you know, I'm really... I'm... I'm good.
Thanks, though.
So you and your husband never got a place up here, huh?
No, no.
Scott is one of the few people
that actually likes New York in the summer.
Ah, so he's a fan of the stink of piss
on every street corner, hmm?
EVE: I mean, I think he just likes the fact
that no one's actually in town.
And then, you know, he always says
that real New Yorkers don't complain about crowded subways
or cold winters or the stink of piss.
- JOHNNY: Okay, Mr. Hardcore. - EVE: [LAUGHS]
Well, I've got time enough there
to know that I can happily do without
any of those things,
which is why I come up here as often as I do.
So why didn't you ever get a place up here?
Well, for one thing, I don't manage
big time rock and roll bands. I just write about them.
But to answer your question, you know,
I grew up mostly in Northern California.
But when my folks got divorced, my old man moved
back to New York City,
and we would go out to visit him every summer.
And he would always take us on a one-week vacation up here.
You know, get a cabin out in the woods,
do some fishing, hiking, shit like that.
And that's how I fell in love with this place.
And on the drive up here, my brothers and sisters,
they would always point out the houses or the farms
that we were gonna live in
when they struck it rich, you know?
But every summer, they always...
they always picked a different house.
But I always picked the same one.
The Victorian that the tech bro got.
JOHNNY: Yeah.
And I really believed that I was gonna get the money
to buy that place one day.
I was convinced that I would get it done
by the time I was 30 because, of course,
I'd be a best selling author by then.
But instead, I was unpublished.
I... Married with two kids.
So... 30 turned into 40.
And instead of writing a best seller,
I end up in a velvet coffin doing profiles for half talents
for "Spin" and "Rolling Stone."
Then I got divorced.
So... 40 turned to 50.
And then riding over here with you today,
that was the first time I went past that house
and didn't think that one day it would be mine.
That's a 45-year-old fucking dream
finally put to rest.
[CHUCKLES] Wow.
Well...
here's to the pleasures that failed to last
and the dreams that didn't come true.
Oh. [CLEARS THROAT]
But hey, you know what?
With this new book, maybe the house of my dreams
is yet within my grasp.
Yeah, you know, and at least you have this place
to come up and use, right?
I mean, and you've got the book you're writing.
It's... it's... it's gonna,
I think that subject matter has got a lot of potential,
the '90s and... [INHALES]
You are so beautiful, you know that?
[SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
Oh... oh. No.
- What? - Um...
What is it?
God, I'm so sorry, Johnny. I'm sorry. I really like you.
I do.
I just...
You know, it's a big step for me.
And I need to just, you know, go at my pace.
Yeah. No, of course. My bad.
This is not easy for me either.
I'm a little out of practice, I guess. So...
It's just, I really like you, Eve.
And I was hoping that...
Anyway, I'll go check on the grill.
[MUSIC CONTINUES]
[CELL PHONE RINGING]
Hey, Eve. How are you?
Hey, listen, can I ask you a favor?
Are you okay? Why are you whispering?
No, no, no, I'm fine. Everything's fine.
I'm just... I'm actually up by you.
Um, I... I came to stay, uh, with a girlfriend, and...
and then she just told me
that her boyfriend is coming up unexpectedly.
So I was just wondering if maybe it'd be okay
if I just spent the night at your place.
When? Tonight?
Yeah, like, like now.
Oh. Yeah, no, sure. Come on over.
Okay, thanks. All right.
I'm just gonna call an Uber, and I'll...
I'll see you soon.
MAGGIE: Okay.
Thanks, Mags.
[MUSIC CONCLUDES]
You look like you could use a glass of wine.
Oh, God, yes, please.
[EXHALES] Are you sure I'm not a bother?
Eve, don't be silly. I'm happy to see you.
Where's Nick? Is he home?
Yeah, he is.
He just, um, wasn't feeling well.
And he went up to bed already.
Oh.
You two are so lucky, you know? Your relationship.
I always wished Scott and I had something like you two.
Yeah. I mean...
[SIGHS]
You know what? Today, I finished my book.
Wow. Oh! Is this it?[CHUCKLES] Yep.
"Filling Station" by Maggie Miller.
[LAUGHS]
Your name looks so good in print.
Wow.
Do you ever regret keeping your maiden name?
No.
I mean, looking back, it was actually the only good advice
Mom ever gave us.
Why would you say that?
Because we're both artists.
The work is ours. We should own it.
Yeah, that was one of the things
Scott always resented.
Oh, fuck him.
[LAUGHS] You're right. Fuck him.
Fuck him. [LAUGHS]
[SIGHS]
We had some really great times here
over the years in this house.
Didn't we, Mags?
We sure did.
You know, when the kids were little and...
Mom was still alive.[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]
- Those were my favorite summers. - MAGGIE: They were good times.
God, it's so hard now, isn't it?
Getting older...
be married, and kids leaving, the whole thing.
Yeah.
It can be hard.
I mean, do you ever wish that you could just go back
and do it all differently?
Just start all over again?
Sure, Eve.
I mean, I think everyone wishes
they could do that sometimes.
[EXHALES] God, I just...
I get so mad at myself because I just...
I just threw all those years away, you know?
And I was... Oh, fuck,
I was actually fucking good, you know?
And I just listened to him.
And I gave it all up.
I gave it all...
[SIGHS] Like, all I was good for was, like,
fucking pickups and dinners and...
And I actually, you know,
I think I had something to offer.
Oh, God, whatever. It's... [INHALES]
[SIGHS, LAUGHS] It's so ridiculous.
[SIGHS] Anyway, I'm gonna go to bed.
- MAGGIE: You sure? - So fucking tired, yeah.
Okay. Just take one of the boys' rooms.
Okay. Thanks.
- Sleep well. - Okay.
Uh, so I really wanted to apologize for yesterday.
You know, I totally overreacted
and ruined what was a really very nice time.
And I've been thinking it'd be so great
to get together with your sister Eve and her husband
and, you know, get to know them too.
And maybe we could have dinner in the city next weekend.
Or, you know, maybe Maggie and Nick
could have them to stay upstate,
and we could do a whole family thing, you know?
Because I think I think you said
that Tina hated your sisters
and that your sisters hated Tina.
So perhaps they won't hate me, and it could be really good.
What do you think?
Yeah, yeah, I think either one of those situations
could be, you know...
Were you gonna tell me
that you got together with Tina today?
[SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
[SIGHS]
Uh, you know what? I... I wasn't.
Really? Why the fuck not?
Well, because, as evidenced by how you're reacting now,
I figured it would probably upset you.
Well, your not telling me upsets me more.
So how was it?
It was nothing. I mean, it was uneventful.
But how did you even find out about it?
Because she called me right afterwards.
Was the meeting her idea or was it your idea?
No, it was her idea.
Look, she wanted to get together to apologize
for her behavior the other night,
and I wanted to get my keys back
so that we wouldn't have another situation like that.
Why didn't you just tell me?
Seriously? Because... [SCOFFS] I mean, come on.
She's my ex-wife. It's none of your business.
Are you fucking kidding me?
We're dating.
Of course it's my fucking business.
Yeah, but she's my ex-wife.
I'm gonna have to deal with her from time to time, right?
I mean, you've got to understand that.
Do you not have to deal with fucking Tom sometimes?
Yeah, I mean, I just try not to.
Yeah, but I don't think you owe it to me
to tell me when you do.
Right? And in my defense, my breakup with Tina
is a little bit more recent, right,
than your divorce with Tom.
Oh, what does that mean?
That means you've got to give me a fucking break here.
This is new terrain for me, okay? You know,
and I'm trying to figure it out. I don't know the rules.
I don't know the do's and don'ts.
Oh. Hey, you're still up?
[SIGHS]
How's she doing?
Well, not good.
I finished, uh, your book.
And?
Are you seeing someone else, Maggie?
What? [CHUCKLES] No.
Wait. No, wait.
Just listen.
Thirty-two years, you've never been unfaithful?
Nick.
I'm going to sleep.
[SCOFFS] For what it's worth, the book is great.
Probably your best one ever.
So... good job there.
MAGGIE: [EXHALES]
You know she only wants to get back together with you
because you're with me now. You know that, right?
She just sees that you're not
hanging around waiting for her anymore,
and she wants to see if she can get you back.
Well, it doesn't matter what she thinks
or what she feels, okay?
What matters is what I think and what I feel.
And I don't want to be back with her.
Okay? I want to be with you.
But why'd you go up there in the first place?
No, I don't know.
I mean, look, we were married for 15 years.
So was there a moment where maybe...
a moment of weakness or insecurity
where I thought...
where I thought maybe I did want to see
if there was anything, I don't know...
that we could maybe get back together? I don't know.
[CHAMPAGNE POPS]
TINA: I didn't think you'd actually say yes.
Is it too early? Champagne?
I'm here, right?[LAUGHS]
- To us. - To us.
So look, before this goes any further,
what do you... what do you want from this?
What do you mean?
Well, what's your hope for where this leads?
I mean, is this about us trying to reconcile?
Are we just up here to fuck?
Or are you looking to put an end to me and Renee, maybe?
All three.
Look, Renee, I apologize. Okay?
I know I fucked up, but I do not...
I do not want to be back together with her.
I want to be here with you.
You know, I worked really hard
to be in a good place.
For so many years, I juggled being a mother
with having a super demanding job
and this awful husband.
And I got out of the shitty marriage.
But it's cool because my kids are great.
And I love... I love what I do.
But I think what I want now...
and what I deserve...
[SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
...is to have a good time.
Not to be in a complicated relationship,
or, more accurately, a messy one.
I really like you.
ANDY: But?
Yeah. I'm sorry, Andy.
Thank you for letting me crash last night.
Of course. Are you gonna be okay?
Yeah. Yeah, I'm gonna be okay.
- What about you? - Eh...
Oh. [SIGHS]
- Bye. - Bye.
[MUSIC CONTINUES]
[BIRDS CHIRPING]
Nick?
I'm back.
Nick?
[SIGHS]
[MUSIC CONCLUDES]
[MELANCHOLIC PIANO MUSIC PLAYING]
♪ Oh, oh
♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh, Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
♪ Oh, oh ♪
♪ You turned out the light ♪
♪ Blew out my candle ♪
♪ I was on the road, I was on the road ♪
♪ I was a lot to handle ♪
♪ Like the irony ♪
♪ Of you calling me ♪
♪ A showstopper ♪
♪ You said my life at 34
♪ Had so much more to offer ♪
♪ Oh, oh, You tried to change me ♪
♪ Oh, oh, Did it drive you crazy? ♪
♪ You were always there To steer me wrong ♪
♪ Lend a hand to make me Everything you are ♪
♪ You're gonna miss the girl You know I never was ♪
♪ She's gone
♪ I'm shining on ♪
♪ Shine on like a diamond ♪
♪ Shine on like a star ♪
♪ Shine on like a fire ♪
♪ I found a light In my heart ♪
♪ Shine on like a diamond ♪
♪ Shine on like a star ♪
♪ Shine on like I finally Found a light in my heart ♪
♪ Shine on like a diamond ♪
♪ Shine on like a star ♪
♪ Shine on like I finally Found a light in my heart ♪
♪ Shine on, Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
♪ Shine on, oh, oh ♪
♪ Light in my heart ♪
♪ Shine on, Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
♪ Shine on, oh, oh ♪
♪ Light in my heart ♪
♪ I said I wouldn't Hold on to your love ♪
♪ No, it's fleeting ♪
♪ When time ties my hands up ♪
♪ I can't leave it in the past ♪
♪ It is too classic To throw away ♪
♪ So let the hands take apart
♪ I'm feeling them leaving ♪
♪ It feels not quite its force ♪
♪ I'm still here until my Ears write what appears ♪
♪ Not what I say ♪
♪ Oh, and I've been Looking back on our faces ♪
♪ Smiling like we're good ♪
♪ Question this wisdom If I want to ♪
♪ If I should ♪
♪ I'm losing control ♪
♪ I want to hold on to it all ♪
♪ But I don't even know If I should ♪
♪ Oh, fading memories ♪
♪ That your brain can Feel them dying ♪
♪ Going back I know there's no going back ♪
♪ But still the test ♪
♪ Can't break out of the past ♪
♪ It's raining ♪
♪ Every drop is saying ♪
♪ Don't stop trying ♪
♪ Going back ♪
♪ I know there's no going back ♪
♪ But still the test ♪
♪ Can't break Out of the past now ♪
♪ Baby, tell me Was it ever really love? ♪
♪ 'Cause your yelling's Now just noise ♪
♪ Can't be the voice ♪
♪ From when we met ♪
♪ Now, I forget How did this happen? ♪
♪ We went from lovers To loving a mad reaction ♪
♪ I was suffering, smothering ♪
♪ Now like in the past ♪
♪ And I have to be on my way ♪
♪ And I've been
♪ Looking back on our faces ♪
♪ Smiling when we could ♪
♪ Feel like I'm erasing Everything that's done ♪
♪ I'm losing control ♪
♪ Still want to Hold on to it all ♪
♪ But I don't even know If I should ♪
♪ Fading memories ♪
♪ That your brain can Feel them dying ♪
♪ Going back ♪
♪ I know there's no going back ♪
♪ But still the test ♪
♪ Can't break out of the past ♪
♪ It's raining ♪
♪ Every drop is saying ♪
♪ Don't stop trying Going back ♪
♪ I know there's no going back ♪
♪ But still the test ♪
♪ Can't break out Of the test now ♪
♪ No going back
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
♪ Yeah, yeah
♪ Going back
♪ I'm not going back ♪
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪