1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:02,968 --> 00:00:05,350 [grand orchestral fanfare playing] 3 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 4 00:00:34,172 --> 00:00:36,415 [overlapping chatter] 5 00:00:36,553 --> 00:00:38,728 ♪ ♪ 6 00:00:56,608 --> 00:00:59,404 [indistinct radio transmission] 7 00:01:02,614 --> 00:01:05,410 [vehicles trundling] 8 00:01:11,243 --> 00:01:15,075 [indistinct radio transmission] 9 00:01:15,213 --> 00:01:16,628 ♪ No clouds in my stones ♪ 10 00:01:16,765 --> 00:01:17,870 ♪ Let it rain ♪ 11 00:01:18,008 --> 00:01:19,562 ♪ I hydroplane in the bank ♪ 12 00:01:19,700 --> 00:01:20,770 ♪ Comin’ down like the Dow Jones... ♪ 13 00:01:20,908 --> 00:01:22,668 [helicopter blades whirring] 14 00:01:22,806 --> 00:01:25,119 ♪ We fly higher than weather ♪ 15 00:01:25,257 --> 00:01:26,638 ♪ In G5s or better ♪ 16 00:01:26,776 --> 00:01:28,226 ♪ You know me ♪ 17 00:01:28,364 --> 00:01:29,848 ♪ In anticipation for precipitation ♪ 18 00:01:29,986 --> 00:01:31,643 ♪ Stack chips for the rainy day ♪ 19 00:01:31,781 --> 00:01:33,645 ♪ Jay, Rain Man is back ♪ 20 00:01:33,783 --> 00:01:35,233 ♪ With Little Ms. Sunshine ♪ 21 00:01:35,371 --> 00:01:36,717 ♪ Rihanna, where you at? ♪ 22 00:01:36,854 --> 00:01:38,545 [singing along]: ♪ You have my heart ♪ 23 00:01:38,684 --> 00:01:41,101 ♪ And we’ll never be worlds apart ♪ 24 00:01:41,239 --> 00:01:43,793 ♪ Maybe in magazines ♪ 25 00:01:43,931 --> 00:01:46,622 ♪ But you’ll still be my star ♪ 26 00:01:46,761 --> 00:01:49,764 ♪ Baby, ’cause in the dark ♪ 27 00:01:49,902 --> 00:01:52,628 ♪ You can’t see shiny cars ♪ 28 00:01:52,767 --> 00:01:54,354 ♪ And that’s when you need me there ♪ 29 00:01:54,493 --> 00:01:55,494 [music stops] 30 00:01:55,632 --> 00:01:57,186 -No! -Aww. 31 00:01:57,324 --> 00:01:58,842 I thought you fixed it! 32 00:01:58,979 --> 00:02:01,017 [exclaims] 33 00:02:01,155 --> 00:02:02,536 -Zoe. -Mm? 34 00:02:02,674 --> 00:02:04,503 -Come on. -Sorry. Here. 35 00:02:07,989 --> 00:02:09,888 Oh, come on, Captain America, we’re in a war zone. 36 00:02:10,026 --> 00:02:12,511 Just... live a little. It’s not like 37 00:02:12,649 --> 00:02:14,306 -anyone’s gonna come, anyway. -[banging] 38 00:02:14,444 --> 00:02:16,204 -Oh, shit, shit, shit! -Shh! 39 00:02:16,343 --> 00:02:17,516 [helicopter passing] 40 00:02:17,654 --> 00:02:19,035 -Shit! -Shit! [mutters] 41 00:02:19,173 --> 00:02:20,519 [window thuds] 42 00:02:20,657 --> 00:02:21,658 Aw, fuck. 43 00:02:21,796 --> 00:02:23,315 Hey, Ramirez. 44 00:02:23,453 --> 00:02:26,836 I see you are filling out that blouse quite nicely. 45 00:02:26,974 --> 00:02:29,597 Ew. God, you are such a mouth-breather. 46 00:02:29,735 --> 00:02:31,392 Hey, Charles! 47 00:02:31,530 --> 00:02:33,014 Lookin’ as pretty as ever. 48 00:02:33,153 --> 00:02:34,326 Mm-mm. 49 00:02:34,464 --> 00:02:35,914 What do you want, Lewis? 50 00:02:36,052 --> 00:02:37,156 Oh, um, Sergeant Shepherd’s on his way. 51 00:02:37,295 --> 00:02:38,675 -For real? -Yep. 52 00:02:38,813 --> 00:02:40,884 Cool, okay. Fuck off, Lewis. 53 00:02:41,022 --> 00:02:42,541 Geez! I was just trying to help. 54 00:02:42,679 --> 00:02:43,749 Fuck off! 55 00:02:43,887 --> 00:02:45,337 -Can I call you? Call me? -No! 56 00:02:45,475 --> 00:02:46,649 -Ugh! -All right. 57 00:02:46,787 --> 00:02:48,375 No, no, no, no, wait, wait, wait, 58 00:02:48,513 --> 00:02:49,859 let me just finish the song, I just-- I can fix it. 59 00:02:49,997 --> 00:02:51,550 -Zoe. -I can fix it, 60 00:02:51,688 --> 00:02:53,069 I can fix it, I can fix it. Just let me just do this, 61 00:02:53,207 --> 00:02:55,761 and I think, if I just hold this like this... 62 00:02:55,899 --> 00:02:57,555 I got it, I got it, I got it-- ready? 63 00:02:57,694 --> 00:02:59,420 ♪ I’ll always share ♪ 64 00:02:59,558 --> 00:03:01,319 BOTH: ♪ Because... ♪ 65 00:03:01,457 --> 00:03:03,735 ♪ When the sun shines, we’ll shine together. ♪ 66 00:03:05,081 --> 00:03:07,428 ZOE: You believe Ventura got medevacked out of here 67 00:03:07,566 --> 00:03:09,292 for that tiny little fuckin’ scratch? 68 00:03:09,430 --> 00:03:10,776 She almost got blown up. 69 00:03:10,914 --> 00:03:12,847 I just hope that everything is okay 70 00:03:12,985 --> 00:03:13,917 with her... 71 00:03:14,055 --> 00:03:15,367 You know. 72 00:03:15,505 --> 00:03:17,197 -Her internal organs? -No, her tits. 73 00:03:17,335 --> 00:03:18,646 She’s got great tits. 74 00:03:18,784 --> 00:03:20,096 So, she might have PTSD and need therapy, 75 00:03:20,234 --> 00:03:21,373 but at least her tits are all right. 76 00:03:21,511 --> 00:03:22,754 Yeah. 77 00:03:22,892 --> 00:03:24,618 They’re important. 78 00:03:26,585 --> 00:03:27,724 [Merit sighs] 79 00:03:27,862 --> 00:03:30,071 Can you promise me something? 80 00:03:30,210 --> 00:03:31,383 Can you promise me we won’t get, like, 81 00:03:31,521 --> 00:03:32,453 fucked up? 82 00:03:32,591 --> 00:03:34,490 That’s too easy. 83 00:03:34,628 --> 00:03:35,939 Taliban can’t touch this. 84 00:03:36,077 --> 00:03:37,078 Come on. 85 00:03:37,216 --> 00:03:39,702 No, I mean, like, in the head. 86 00:03:39,840 --> 00:03:40,772 You already fucked up in the head, 87 00:03:40,910 --> 00:03:42,291 so what does that mean? 88 00:03:42,429 --> 00:03:43,878 Merit, I’m serious! 89 00:03:44,914 --> 00:03:46,605 What are you saying? 90 00:03:47,779 --> 00:03:50,575 I’m saying that if you ever catch me 91 00:03:50,713 --> 00:03:54,130 in some sort of, like, dopey-ass, PTSD 92 00:03:54,268 --> 00:03:55,614 group therapy bullshit, 93 00:03:55,752 --> 00:03:57,133 or any kind of therapy, 94 00:03:57,271 --> 00:04:00,481 you have permission to fucking kill me. 95 00:04:00,619 --> 00:04:02,794 DR. COLE: So, we’re all here? 96 00:04:02,932 --> 00:04:04,727 Good. 97 00:04:04,865 --> 00:04:07,074 Who wants to start? 98 00:04:13,045 --> 00:04:14,771 James. 99 00:04:16,082 --> 00:04:17,809 Uh... 100 00:04:17,947 --> 00:04:19,224 James. 101 00:04:19,362 --> 00:04:20,950 Sergeant, Marine Corps. 102 00:04:21,088 --> 00:04:24,885 2004, Al Anbar Province in Iraq. 103 00:04:25,023 --> 00:04:28,026 Um, our job was to go look for IEDs, 104 00:04:28,164 --> 00:04:29,717 find the guys putting ’em out there. 105 00:04:29,855 --> 00:04:31,374 -Cool story, bro. -Shh! 106 00:04:34,653 --> 00:04:35,930 Merit? 107 00:04:38,761 --> 00:04:40,694 -Everything okay? -Mm... 108 00:04:42,454 --> 00:04:44,284 Mm-hmm. Yes, sir. 109 00:04:45,492 --> 00:04:46,872 Go on, James. 110 00:04:47,010 --> 00:04:51,946 The, uh, negative, unhelpful feelings 111 00:04:52,084 --> 00:04:53,776 that I’m trying to process from that day 112 00:04:53,914 --> 00:04:56,192 are, um... um... 113 00:04:56,330 --> 00:04:57,538 Oh, my God. 114 00:04:57,676 --> 00:04:59,368 James, okay, okay. 115 00:04:59,506 --> 00:05:01,301 Aren’t we better than this-- 116 00:05:01,439 --> 00:05:03,820 than this woe-is-me shit? 117 00:05:03,958 --> 00:05:06,823 Didn’t we join the most powerful military of all time, 118 00:05:06,961 --> 00:05:10,655 did we survive the dumbest wars of all time, 119 00:05:10,793 --> 00:05:12,829 just to sit here broken and all "Kumbaya" 120 00:05:12,967 --> 00:05:15,176 and, oh, "Oh, gee, my feelings"? 121 00:05:15,315 --> 00:05:16,695 No! Fuck! 122 00:05:16,832 --> 00:05:19,215 Get it together! God! 123 00:05:19,353 --> 00:05:20,906 Ugh! 124 00:05:21,044 --> 00:05:22,667 -Let’s get out of here. -Be quiet. 125 00:05:22,805 --> 00:05:25,014 -I’m listening. -Merit? 126 00:05:31,538 --> 00:05:33,229 I’m sorry. 127 00:05:33,367 --> 00:05:35,162 I’m so-- I’m so... 128 00:05:37,613 --> 00:05:39,683 I’m sorry, James. 129 00:05:45,103 --> 00:05:46,932 Uh, sorry, James. Go on. 130 00:05:47,070 --> 00:05:49,763 [birds chirping] 131 00:05:49,901 --> 00:05:52,282 [distant voices] 132 00:05:55,389 --> 00:05:58,254 [door opens, closes] 133 00:05:58,392 --> 00:06:00,083 [sighs] 134 00:06:00,221 --> 00:06:02,154 Good work. 135 00:06:06,435 --> 00:06:09,472 [indistinct chatter] 136 00:06:15,098 --> 00:06:16,824 I can’t sign that. 137 00:06:16,962 --> 00:06:18,826 I was here. 138 00:06:18,964 --> 00:06:20,725 Yeah, you were here, physically. 139 00:06:20,863 --> 00:06:23,590 But you didn’t share, 140 00:06:23,728 --> 00:06:26,455 you didn’t give your attention to the others. 141 00:06:28,042 --> 00:06:30,251 We all have pasts. 142 00:06:31,667 --> 00:06:32,978 You think you’re the only one 143 00:06:33,116 --> 00:06:35,153 who doesn’t want to talk about it, Merit? 144 00:06:37,051 --> 00:06:38,018 [Merit sighs softly] 145 00:06:38,156 --> 00:06:41,228 ♪ Fuck anybody else ♪ 146 00:06:41,366 --> 00:06:43,230 ♪ They don’t know ♪ 147 00:06:43,368 --> 00:06:46,267 ♪ What we been through ♪ 148 00:06:46,406 --> 00:06:49,167 ♪ Fuck anybody else ♪ 149 00:06:49,305 --> 00:06:50,962 ♪ They don’t know ♪ 150 00:06:51,100 --> 00:06:53,999 ♪ What the world did to you ♪ 151 00:06:54,137 --> 00:06:56,657 ♪ Fuck what they say ♪ 152 00:06:56,795 --> 00:06:59,246 ♪ They really got nothing good to say ♪ 153 00:06:59,384 --> 00:07:01,800 ♪ Anyway, anytime, any place ♪ 154 00:07:01,938 --> 00:07:05,321 ♪ Fuck every one of them ♪ 155 00:07:05,459 --> 00:07:07,323 ♪ They ain’t none of our friends ♪ 156 00:07:07,461 --> 00:07:08,945 ♪ All we need is this ♪ 157 00:07:09,083 --> 00:07:10,844 ♪ Two of us and a full clip ♪ 158 00:07:10,982 --> 00:07:12,811 ♪ No, they don’t want beef ♪ 159 00:07:12,949 --> 00:07:14,779 ♪ They don’t want nails, teeth ♪ 160 00:07:14,917 --> 00:07:19,162 ♪ They don’t want knuckles, no ♪ 161 00:07:19,300 --> 00:07:20,612 ♪ They don’t wanna bleed ♪ 162 00:07:20,750 --> 00:07:23,166 ♪ But I come for blood ♪ 163 00:07:23,304 --> 00:07:26,860 ♪ ’Cause I fuckin’ love you, yeah ♪ 164 00:07:26,998 --> 00:07:28,448 ♪ Yeah, I’m crazy ♪ 165 00:07:28,586 --> 00:07:30,484 ♪ Crazy enough to say ♪ 166 00:07:30,622 --> 00:07:35,316 ♪ I’m crazy enough to swear I’ll die for you, yeah ♪ 167 00:07:35,455 --> 00:07:37,249 ♪ They don’t know shit ♪ 168 00:07:37,387 --> 00:07:39,424 ♪ Don’t know who they’re fuckin’ with ♪ 169 00:07:39,562 --> 00:07:42,358 ♪ It’s the power couple, ah. ♪ 170 00:07:44,153 --> 00:07:47,536 [panting] 171 00:07:47,674 --> 00:07:49,538 [tags jingle] 172 00:07:49,676 --> 00:07:51,125 Honey, you’re home! 173 00:07:51,263 --> 00:07:52,713 [exclaims] 174 00:07:52,851 --> 00:07:54,612 It’s 8:00 a.m. 175 00:07:54,750 --> 00:07:55,889 Do you know why people hate runners? 176 00:07:56,027 --> 00:07:57,649 Flat stomachs? Sculpted legs? 177 00:07:57,787 --> 00:07:59,030 It’s selfish. It’s a selfish sport. 178 00:07:59,168 --> 00:08:00,134 What the hell am I supposed to do 179 00:08:00,272 --> 00:08:02,205 while you’re gone? 180 00:08:02,343 --> 00:08:04,553 You could work on our puzzle. 181 00:08:04,691 --> 00:08:08,177 Man. That VA counselor guy, what a dick. 182 00:08:10,662 --> 00:08:11,905 Mm! 183 00:08:12,043 --> 00:08:13,631 I just had a genius idea. 184 00:08:14,873 --> 00:08:16,323 We watch M*A*S*Hagain, 185 00:08:16,461 --> 00:08:18,394 but it’s a drinking game. 186 00:08:18,532 --> 00:08:20,707 -[phone ringing] -Shit! That is not a no. 187 00:08:20,845 --> 00:08:22,950 Ugh. Why does she always FaceTime? 188 00:08:23,088 --> 00:08:25,056 It’s so creepy. 189 00:08:25,194 --> 00:08:26,782 -Hi, Mom. -KRIS: Is talking 190 00:08:26,920 --> 00:08:28,162 to your mother really that dreadful? 191 00:08:28,300 --> 00:08:31,407 No, Mom, it’s... 192 00:08:31,545 --> 00:08:32,822 How’s China? 193 00:08:32,960 --> 00:08:34,272 I’m in Hong Kong, honey. 194 00:08:34,409 --> 00:08:35,860 -There’s a difference. -Is there? 195 00:08:35,998 --> 00:08:38,241 I mean, they had some limited autonomy then. 196 00:08:38,379 --> 00:08:40,760 So, how’s the warehouse job? 197 00:08:40,899 --> 00:08:42,936 How’s your life, boyfriend? 198 00:08:43,073 --> 00:08:44,075 Any friends? 199 00:08:44,212 --> 00:08:46,456 Mom, please. Stop. 200 00:08:46,595 --> 00:08:48,424 I’m sure you called because you need something. 201 00:08:48,562 --> 00:08:50,081 I’m your mother, I’m allowed to ask about your life. 202 00:08:50,219 --> 00:08:52,739 Okay, so what did you call about? 203 00:08:52,877 --> 00:08:53,912 I need something. 204 00:08:54,050 --> 00:08:55,396 -I knew it. -ZOE: I knew it! 205 00:08:55,535 --> 00:08:57,053 It’s your Grandpa Dale. 206 00:08:57,191 --> 00:08:58,227 They found him wandering. 207 00:08:58,365 --> 00:09:00,160 What do you mean, wandering? 208 00:09:00,298 --> 00:09:02,403 Kwan found him way out at her place. 209 00:09:02,542 --> 00:09:04,198 She took him to the hospital. 210 00:09:04,336 --> 00:09:06,269 -Okay, so he’s okay, then. -No, he’s not-- 211 00:09:06,407 --> 00:09:09,169 I just told you that your grandpa was in the hospital. 212 00:09:09,307 --> 00:09:11,171 What is the matter with you? 213 00:09:11,309 --> 00:09:13,035 Okay, Mom, I... 214 00:09:14,554 --> 00:09:15,727 Sorry. 215 00:09:15,865 --> 00:09:17,246 I gotta go. 216 00:09:17,384 --> 00:09:19,110 No, no, no-- no. I need you to go out there, 217 00:09:19,248 --> 00:09:21,284 I need you to go out to the lake and check in on your grandpa, 218 00:09:21,422 --> 00:09:22,838 -make sure he’s all right. -[exclaims] 219 00:09:22,976 --> 00:09:23,977 It smells like crayon. 220 00:09:24,115 --> 00:09:25,495 [chuckles] 221 00:09:25,634 --> 00:09:28,257 -KRIS: Merit? -I can’t. I, um... 222 00:09:28,395 --> 00:09:29,672 I just started a new group. 223 00:09:29,810 --> 00:09:31,398 -Oh. -At the VA. 224 00:09:31,536 --> 00:09:33,227 Like therapy, counseling? 225 00:09:33,365 --> 00:09:35,436 -Mm-hmm. -Did something happen? 226 00:09:35,575 --> 00:09:37,507 No, I... 227 00:09:37,646 --> 00:09:39,682 I chose to. 228 00:09:40,614 --> 00:09:42,823 It’s good, it’s, it’s... 229 00:09:42,961 --> 00:09:44,376 I think it’s really gonna help me, 230 00:09:44,514 --> 00:09:46,447 but I-I can’t miss any sessions, or... 231 00:09:46,586 --> 00:09:48,104 That’s wonderful news, it really is. 232 00:09:48,242 --> 00:09:50,348 I will figure something out for Grandpa. 233 00:09:50,486 --> 00:09:53,316 I’m really proud of you, Merit, I really am. 234 00:09:53,454 --> 00:09:55,974 I know your dad would be, too. 235 00:09:56,112 --> 00:09:57,597 Okay, Mom, I gotta go, I love you. 236 00:09:57,735 --> 00:09:58,770 KRIS: I love you. 237 00:09:58,908 --> 00:10:00,669 ♪ ♪ 238 00:10:05,397 --> 00:10:07,089 Did you hear back yet? 239 00:10:07,227 --> 00:10:09,194 No. 240 00:10:09,332 --> 00:10:10,610 I’m probably not even gonna get in. 241 00:10:10,748 --> 00:10:12,612 Come on. Merit, look. 242 00:10:12,750 --> 00:10:14,993 I think college is stupid and mostly useless, 243 00:10:15,131 --> 00:10:17,962 but you, you can do anything you want. 244 00:10:18,100 --> 00:10:19,446 So if you want it, you’re gonna get it. 245 00:10:19,584 --> 00:10:21,482 You’re the smartest person I know. 246 00:10:21,621 --> 00:10:23,243 Nine-sixteenths. 247 00:10:23,381 --> 00:10:26,246 Let’s see, what could you major in? 248 00:10:26,384 --> 00:10:29,111 Oh... ’90s hip-hop, you’re good at that. 249 00:10:29,249 --> 00:10:30,699 [scoffs] 250 00:10:30,837 --> 00:10:33,494 Lumber sciences, is that a thing? 251 00:10:33,633 --> 00:10:34,703 Yeah. 252 00:10:34,841 --> 00:10:36,152 Maybe, yeah. 253 00:10:36,290 --> 00:10:37,533 You know, ’cause your family owns 254 00:10:37,671 --> 00:10:38,776 a Christmas tree farm? 255 00:10:38,914 --> 00:10:40,329 Just thinkin’ of the family biz. 256 00:10:40,467 --> 00:10:42,089 You could run that shit like Santa. 257 00:10:42,227 --> 00:10:45,540 What about you, after this? 258 00:10:45,679 --> 00:10:47,025 I don’t know. 259 00:10:48,371 --> 00:10:52,134 -[indistinct chatter] -[power tools whirring] 260 00:10:52,272 --> 00:10:53,963 You know, you could do something epic. 261 00:10:54,101 --> 00:10:56,552 Mm-hmm. 262 00:10:56,690 --> 00:10:58,140 Okay. Sure. 263 00:10:58,278 --> 00:11:00,245 ♪ ♪ 264 00:11:00,383 --> 00:11:02,351 DR. COLE: All right. I thought, for today, 265 00:11:02,489 --> 00:11:03,939 we would try something different. 266 00:11:04,077 --> 00:11:06,666 Follow the bouncing ball. 267 00:11:09,013 --> 00:11:12,361 This is stupid, but I’ll-I’ll play ball. 268 00:11:12,499 --> 00:11:14,259 Hi. My name is Assia. 269 00:11:14,397 --> 00:11:16,054 I was a captain in the Army. 270 00:11:16,192 --> 00:11:17,780 Um... 271 00:11:17,918 --> 00:11:21,128 I was the only female in every unit I served in. 272 00:11:21,266 --> 00:11:23,061 On my first deployment, 273 00:11:23,199 --> 00:11:26,202 I was not allowed to stay with my team 274 00:11:26,340 --> 00:11:28,273 where they were sleeping, and, um, 275 00:11:28,411 --> 00:11:29,861 it was only because I was a female. 276 00:11:29,999 --> 00:11:32,036 And so, every day, for our targeting mission, 277 00:11:32,174 --> 00:11:34,521 I had to drive by myself for six hours. 278 00:11:34,659 --> 00:11:37,904 One direction, six hours, back. 279 00:11:38,042 --> 00:11:40,182 Um... 280 00:11:40,320 --> 00:11:42,598 And I’m here 281 00:11:42,736 --> 00:11:45,497 because I’m trying to belong to myself again. 282 00:11:46,257 --> 00:11:48,569 [distant siren wailing] 283 00:11:48,708 --> 00:11:50,295 Try Merit. 284 00:11:52,159 --> 00:11:53,091 [scoffs] 285 00:11:53,229 --> 00:11:54,506 You ready? 286 00:11:59,270 --> 00:12:01,513 My name is Merit. 287 00:12:04,102 --> 00:12:08,313 I was... Army. 288 00:12:08,451 --> 00:12:09,729 ZOE: You’re doing great. 289 00:12:13,422 --> 00:12:17,081 All right. Why don’t we start with an easy one? 290 00:12:17,909 --> 00:12:19,600 Why did you join? 291 00:12:25,606 --> 00:12:27,125 I joined because of my grandpa. 292 00:12:27,263 --> 00:12:28,644 Hmm. 293 00:12:28,782 --> 00:12:30,991 He’s retired from the Army 22 years, 294 00:12:31,129 --> 00:12:32,372 lieutenant colonel. 295 00:12:33,407 --> 00:12:34,892 When I was a kid, 296 00:12:35,030 --> 00:12:36,100 we would go to music in the park 297 00:12:36,238 --> 00:12:38,688 on the Fourth of July, 298 00:12:38,827 --> 00:12:41,657 and the band would play the fight song 299 00:12:41,795 --> 00:12:43,970 for each branch of the military, you know? 300 00:12:44,108 --> 00:12:47,214 And if you were a veteran, 301 00:12:47,352 --> 00:12:50,355 you would stand when they played your song. 302 00:12:50,493 --> 00:12:52,150 Can you email me the rest of this? 303 00:12:52,288 --> 00:12:54,670 When they played the Army song, 304 00:12:54,808 --> 00:12:57,224 my grandpa would stand, and... 305 00:12:59,779 --> 00:13:02,505 I swear, he seemed a hundred feet tall to me. 306 00:13:04,784 --> 00:13:07,648 And I wanted to be tall too, you know? 307 00:13:09,616 --> 00:13:10,824 So... 308 00:13:13,689 --> 00:13:15,691 Now tell us why you’re here. 309 00:13:17,935 --> 00:13:19,177 [faint blip] 310 00:13:19,315 --> 00:13:21,628 ♪ ♪ 311 00:13:21,766 --> 00:13:23,526 [sighs] 312 00:13:27,703 --> 00:13:29,981 What I wanna talk about is, is... 313 00:13:32,466 --> 00:13:35,918 is not an incident, it’s... 314 00:13:37,955 --> 00:13:39,197 ZOE: Leave me alone! 315 00:13:39,335 --> 00:13:41,544 It’s a-- it’s a person. 316 00:13:41,682 --> 00:13:43,201 [door slams] 317 00:13:45,031 --> 00:13:46,549 DR. COLE: Merit? 318 00:13:46,687 --> 00:13:48,206 Go on. 319 00:13:55,248 --> 00:13:58,216 I don’t-- I don’t-- I don’t feel like it today. 320 00:14:01,323 --> 00:14:04,015 Alicia, Air Force, 14 years. 321 00:14:04,153 --> 00:14:05,465 Security forces. 322 00:14:05,603 --> 00:14:07,225 MP, for you other folks. 323 00:14:07,363 --> 00:14:09,400 [chuckling] 324 00:14:09,538 --> 00:14:11,678 -See you later. -Yeah. 325 00:14:14,060 --> 00:14:15,889 I’m sorry. 326 00:14:16,786 --> 00:14:18,133 Why? 327 00:14:18,271 --> 00:14:19,444 I shared. 328 00:14:19,582 --> 00:14:22,068 You shared why you joined the Army. 329 00:14:22,206 --> 00:14:24,587 You did not share why you are here, 330 00:14:24,725 --> 00:14:26,900 which is the point. 331 00:14:27,038 --> 00:14:29,938 If you don’t show up and share, 332 00:14:30,076 --> 00:14:32,733 I will have no choice but to inform the court 333 00:14:32,872 --> 00:14:36,530 that you did not complete the group. 334 00:14:37,911 --> 00:14:39,223 I’m sorry. 335 00:14:39,361 --> 00:14:41,570 ♪ ♪ 336 00:14:45,885 --> 00:14:47,265 [snaps] 337 00:14:47,403 --> 00:14:48,784 ♪ ♪ 338 00:14:49,923 --> 00:14:52,926 I actually do get why you wanna reenlist. 339 00:14:53,064 --> 00:14:54,445 But you’re wrong. 340 00:14:54,583 --> 00:14:55,964 Not everybody has a happy fuckin’ home 341 00:14:56,102 --> 00:14:57,068 to go back to, Merit. 342 00:14:57,206 --> 00:14:58,656 ♪ ♪ 343 00:14:58,794 --> 00:15:00,209 [buzzing] 344 00:15:00,347 --> 00:15:01,901 DR. STOKES: Ma’am, did you hear me? 345 00:15:03,972 --> 00:15:05,007 Sorry, say again? 346 00:15:05,145 --> 00:15:07,423 Your grandfather was found. 347 00:15:09,218 --> 00:15:10,668 He was found wandering. 348 00:15:10,806 --> 00:15:13,257 He didn’t seem to know where he was. 349 00:15:13,395 --> 00:15:15,431 We’re lucky someone brought him in. 350 00:15:15,569 --> 00:15:16,985 Right, yeah, that’s Kwan. 351 00:15:17,123 --> 00:15:18,331 She-she owns the lake house next to ours. 352 00:15:18,469 --> 00:15:19,780 This has happened before, so-- 353 00:15:19,919 --> 00:15:21,921 DR. STOKES: No. That was last time. 354 00:15:22,059 --> 00:15:23,888 Dale was found on the side of Highway 8. 355 00:15:24,026 --> 00:15:25,752 The police brought him in. 356 00:15:25,890 --> 00:15:28,237 Look. We ran some tests. 357 00:15:32,552 --> 00:15:35,520 I’m diagnosing him with early stage Alzheimer’s. 358 00:15:38,247 --> 00:15:39,662 I’m sorry. 359 00:15:43,011 --> 00:15:44,874 [sighs] 360 00:15:47,463 --> 00:15:50,259 Never thought I’d see the day when a man can’t go for a walk 361 00:15:50,397 --> 00:15:51,985 on his own property. 362 00:15:52,123 --> 00:15:54,746 You weren’t on your own property, Grandpa. 363 00:15:54,884 --> 00:15:56,990 You were on Highway 8. 364 00:15:57,128 --> 00:15:58,819 And Kwan’s before that. 365 00:15:58,958 --> 00:16:01,512 -Who? -Exactly. 366 00:16:01,650 --> 00:16:04,618 I know who Kwan is. You just pronounced it wrong. 367 00:16:04,756 --> 00:16:07,483 -How do you pronounce it? -Kwan. 368 00:16:07,621 --> 00:16:09,554 Kwan... 369 00:16:09,692 --> 00:16:11,660 Sounds the same to me. 370 00:16:16,734 --> 00:16:18,184 What the hell is this thing? 371 00:16:18,322 --> 00:16:20,807 It’s an iPod, it plays music. 372 00:16:20,945 --> 00:16:24,155 Huh. I’ve seen AN/PRC-25 field radios 373 00:16:24,293 --> 00:16:25,846 in the garbage look like they play music 374 00:16:25,985 --> 00:16:27,089 better than this thing. 375 00:16:28,988 --> 00:16:30,886 Dale’s got jokes. 376 00:16:31,680 --> 00:16:33,993 ♪ ♪ 377 00:16:35,684 --> 00:16:37,893 [birds chirping] 378 00:16:48,490 --> 00:16:50,043 Want me to help you in? 379 00:16:50,181 --> 00:16:52,011 Help how? 380 00:16:52,149 --> 00:16:54,358 ♪ ♪ 381 00:16:58,914 --> 00:16:59,880 You sure you’re all right? 382 00:17:00,019 --> 00:17:02,055 I’m better than all right. 383 00:17:04,333 --> 00:17:06,300 You don’t think you should help him in? 384 00:17:07,405 --> 00:17:09,028 Nah. 385 00:17:09,165 --> 00:17:10,752 You heard him. 386 00:17:12,513 --> 00:17:14,240 He’s better than all right. 387 00:17:14,377 --> 00:17:16,863 ♪ ♪ 388 00:17:30,877 --> 00:17:32,430 [wings fluttering] 389 00:17:32,568 --> 00:17:34,743 ♪ ♪ 390 00:17:50,276 --> 00:17:52,968 [panting] 391 00:17:55,971 --> 00:17:57,938 Hi, Merit! 392 00:17:59,216 --> 00:18:01,149 Not much of a talker, are you? 393 00:18:02,219 --> 00:18:03,703 People talk enough. 394 00:18:03,841 --> 00:18:05,567 I meant, in group. 395 00:18:05,705 --> 00:18:08,397 I mean, that’s kind of the point. 396 00:18:08,535 --> 00:18:10,572 Talking. Listening. 397 00:18:11,642 --> 00:18:13,782 Not being alone. 398 00:18:13,920 --> 00:18:15,646 It’s not as simple as you think. 399 00:18:15,784 --> 00:18:18,200 Who said it was simple? 400 00:18:18,338 --> 00:18:20,720 You think it’s easy for everybody, anybody? 401 00:18:20,858 --> 00:18:22,239 No, I... 402 00:18:23,481 --> 00:18:25,690 Honestly, I don’t even know if I should be here. 403 00:18:25,828 --> 00:18:28,176 Well, it’s not about you, Merit. 404 00:18:28,314 --> 00:18:30,730 There are other people in there. 405 00:18:30,868 --> 00:18:32,973 People who need your attention. 406 00:18:33,112 --> 00:18:35,562 If you can’t talk openly about your life, 407 00:18:35,700 --> 00:18:37,116 how can they? 408 00:18:39,911 --> 00:18:42,500 I was medevacked out of Vietnam 409 00:18:42,638 --> 00:18:45,193 in November 1968. 410 00:18:45,331 --> 00:18:47,954 I was shot, almost lost my fuckin’ arm. 411 00:18:48,092 --> 00:18:51,371 And for a decade, I was alone, 412 00:18:51,509 --> 00:18:53,442 self-medicating. 413 00:18:54,857 --> 00:18:57,688 Strong and silent, or so I thought at the time. 414 00:18:59,207 --> 00:19:02,244 It wasn’t until 1978 that I finally started 415 00:19:02,382 --> 00:19:04,039 to talk about it. 416 00:19:04,177 --> 00:19:06,490 Respectfully, sir... 417 00:19:10,183 --> 00:19:12,634 I don’t know if getting hurt is the same as losing somebody. 418 00:19:18,157 --> 00:19:20,952 I don’t know what happened to you, Merit, 419 00:19:21,090 --> 00:19:23,403 what you lost, or who, 420 00:19:23,541 --> 00:19:25,336 but I do know that the kind of behavior 421 00:19:25,474 --> 00:19:27,235 that brought you to me 422 00:19:27,373 --> 00:19:29,961 is not the kind of behavior of a person who is healed. 423 00:19:30,099 --> 00:19:32,516 That behavior was an accident, Dr. Cole. 424 00:19:32,654 --> 00:19:35,553 You dropped a forklift load of television sets, 425 00:19:35,691 --> 00:19:37,314 almost crushed a coworker. 426 00:19:37,452 --> 00:19:38,556 Please! That guy at the warehouse 427 00:19:38,694 --> 00:19:39,764 was all up in your shit. 428 00:19:39,902 --> 00:19:41,594 What you’re calling an accident, 429 00:19:41,732 --> 00:19:44,424 the court’s calling criminal negligence. 430 00:19:44,562 --> 00:19:46,737 -Nobody died. -Nobody died. 431 00:19:46,875 --> 00:19:48,083 What? 432 00:19:49,291 --> 00:19:51,811 Merit, I know you think you’re above this. 433 00:19:51,949 --> 00:19:55,608 But... courage is moving forward. 434 00:19:55,746 --> 00:19:59,370 I-It’s not being unmoved. 435 00:19:59,508 --> 00:20:02,822 What is it that you are so afraid to talk about? 436 00:20:02,960 --> 00:20:04,858 MERIT: What is wrong with you? 437 00:20:04,996 --> 00:20:07,102 Get back inside! 438 00:20:07,240 --> 00:20:08,724 I just can’t. 439 00:20:08,862 --> 00:20:10,623 If you don’t show up and participate 440 00:20:10,761 --> 00:20:12,211 and I don’t sign off, 441 00:20:12,349 --> 00:20:14,247 you’re back on the mercy of the court. 442 00:20:14,385 --> 00:20:15,766 They’ll fine you. 443 00:20:15,904 --> 00:20:18,217 Hell, they may even put you in jail. 444 00:20:18,355 --> 00:20:20,219 If I were you, 445 00:20:21,461 --> 00:20:24,257 I would think very seriously 446 00:20:24,395 --> 00:20:27,916 about what living in the past is worth. 447 00:20:29,435 --> 00:20:31,160 Just sayin’. 448 00:20:31,299 --> 00:20:33,611 ♪ ♪ 449 00:20:36,925 --> 00:20:40,239 ♪ ♪ 450 00:20:42,896 --> 00:20:45,727 God, this literal shit is literally killing me. 451 00:20:45,865 --> 00:20:47,487 [sighs] 452 00:20:47,625 --> 00:20:50,041 We are light-wheel mechanics. This is not that. Ugh. 453 00:20:50,179 --> 00:20:52,492 -Welcome to the Army. -[flies buzzing] 454 00:20:52,630 --> 00:20:54,391 Hey, did you give any more thought 455 00:20:54,529 --> 00:20:57,670 to any of those super cool majors I suggested? 456 00:20:57,808 --> 00:21:00,293 [flies buzzing] 457 00:21:00,431 --> 00:21:02,502 -What? -[helicopter blades whirring] 458 00:21:06,161 --> 00:21:07,921 [sighs] 459 00:21:09,682 --> 00:21:11,753 Actually, um... 460 00:21:14,203 --> 00:21:17,276 I got in... to Oregon. 461 00:21:19,864 --> 00:21:21,487 That’s great. 462 00:21:26,423 --> 00:21:27,596 Thanks. 463 00:21:27,734 --> 00:21:30,427 Yeah, no, my, um... 464 00:21:30,565 --> 00:21:32,532 my cousin just, uh, 465 00:21:32,670 --> 00:21:34,914 told me he’s gonna have a job for me when I get out, so... 466 00:21:35,052 --> 00:21:36,329 -Yeah? -That’s cool. 467 00:21:36,467 --> 00:21:37,503 -Your cousin? -Mm-hmm. 468 00:21:37,641 --> 00:21:38,573 Which one? 469 00:21:38,711 --> 00:21:41,334 Why didn’t you tell me? 470 00:21:42,611 --> 00:21:44,303 I don’t know, Zoe, I... 471 00:21:46,857 --> 00:21:48,686 I didn’t know how you would react. 472 00:21:50,205 --> 00:21:51,482 It’s not like you’ve had anything 473 00:21:51,620 --> 00:21:53,070 super positive to say about college. 474 00:21:53,208 --> 00:21:56,211 I love college. I think college is amazing. 475 00:21:57,246 --> 00:21:59,110 Rich kids and snowflakes. 476 00:21:59,248 --> 00:22:01,596 There it is. 477 00:22:02,562 --> 00:22:03,943 And I’m neither, by the way. 478 00:22:04,081 --> 00:22:05,669 Okay. 479 00:22:05,807 --> 00:22:07,360 You know what I honestly think? 480 00:22:07,498 --> 00:22:09,397 -Here it goes. -I think you get uncomfortable 481 00:22:09,535 --> 00:22:11,640 when anybody talks about life after the military. 482 00:22:11,778 --> 00:22:13,504 -Oh, is that what you think? -Yeah, that’s what I think. 483 00:22:13,642 --> 00:22:16,990 Well... sorry you misinterpreted me. 484 00:22:17,128 --> 00:22:18,992 I’m actually really proud of you. 485 00:22:19,130 --> 00:22:21,443 I’m really excited for you. Congratulations. 486 00:22:21,581 --> 00:22:24,239 ♪ ♪ 487 00:22:29,106 --> 00:22:30,245 [muttering] 488 00:22:30,383 --> 00:22:32,351 [flies buzzing] 489 00:22:35,146 --> 00:22:36,562 [panting] 490 00:22:36,700 --> 00:22:39,219 [TV playing indistinctly] 491 00:22:39,358 --> 00:22:41,843 [chuckling] 492 00:22:41,981 --> 00:22:43,707 [Zoe laughs] 493 00:22:43,845 --> 00:22:45,364 Hey. 494 00:22:46,572 --> 00:22:49,989 Your mother called... again. 495 00:22:51,887 --> 00:22:54,442 If I were you, I would not call her back. 496 00:22:55,719 --> 00:22:57,030 MERIT: Ugh. 497 00:22:59,964 --> 00:23:02,381 [phone ringing] 498 00:23:07,006 --> 00:23:08,421 [sighs] 499 00:23:11,942 --> 00:23:13,668 KRIS [over phone]: You dropped him off? 500 00:23:13,806 --> 00:23:15,083 What is wrong with you? 501 00:23:15,221 --> 00:23:16,256 -Mom. -Merit, 502 00:23:16,395 --> 00:23:17,706 you’re gonna go back there, 503 00:23:17,844 --> 00:23:19,743 you’re gonna help me sell that cabin. 504 00:23:19,881 --> 00:23:22,159 I’ve already contacted a realtor. 505 00:23:22,297 --> 00:23:23,988 What? Grandpa still lives there. 506 00:23:24,126 --> 00:23:26,853 And that was fine as long as he was fine, 507 00:23:26,991 --> 00:23:29,408 -but he’s not anymore. -Where is he gonna live? 508 00:23:29,546 --> 00:23:31,099 He’s going to a retirement home, 509 00:23:31,237 --> 00:23:32,963 and I’ve already started making some calls. 510 00:23:33,101 --> 00:23:35,414 This has to be done, Merit. 511 00:23:35,552 --> 00:23:36,760 He needs help. 512 00:23:37,519 --> 00:23:38,624 Mom, I can’t. 513 00:23:38,762 --> 00:23:40,177 I just don’t understand, Merit. 514 00:23:40,315 --> 00:23:41,937 There’s no therapy at the cabin. 515 00:23:42,075 --> 00:23:44,837 You used to spend so much time with your grandpa. 516 00:23:44,975 --> 00:23:47,633 ♪ ♪ 517 00:23:56,400 --> 00:23:58,298 [clicking] 518 00:24:01,957 --> 00:24:08,723 [singing along]: ♪ Time presses on and on and on and on ♪ 519 00:24:09,689 --> 00:24:14,625 ♪ Time presses on and on ♪ 520 00:24:14,763 --> 00:24:17,283 ♪ ♪ 521 00:24:17,421 --> 00:24:24,359 ♪ Time presses on and on and on and on. ♪ 522 00:24:24,497 --> 00:24:28,777 ♪ Me and my red guitar sitting on the hardwood floor ♪ 523 00:24:28,915 --> 00:24:33,230 ♪ Singing this song about how I don’t love you anymore. ♪ 524 00:24:33,368 --> 00:24:35,335 ♪ Crank the bass, turn me up ♪ 525 00:24:35,474 --> 00:24:37,441 ♪ We’re tryna race, burn it up ♪ 526 00:24:37,579 --> 00:24:38,718 ♪ Whoo, uh ♪ 527 00:24:38,856 --> 00:24:40,168 ♪ Shake the place, tear it up ♪ 528 00:24:40,306 --> 00:24:41,756 ♪ Shake it, whoop ♪ 529 00:24:41,894 --> 00:24:43,412 ♪ We the craze, know you heard of us! ♪ 530 00:24:49,004 --> 00:24:50,178 ♪ Shake the place, tear it up ♪ 531 00:24:50,316 --> 00:24:51,973 ♪ Shake it, whoo ♪ 532 00:24:52,111 --> 00:24:53,181 ♪ Yeah, we the greats, know you heard of us ♪ 533 00:24:53,319 --> 00:24:54,734 ♪ Heard about us, uh ♪ 534 00:24:54,872 --> 00:24:55,977 ♪ Uh, driving like I know I want it ♪ 535 00:24:56,115 --> 00:24:57,668 ♪ Uh, yeah ♪ 536 00:24:57,806 --> 00:24:58,566 ♪ Celebrate it if you pull up on ’em ♪ 537 00:24:58,704 --> 00:24:59,877 ♪ Zone, what up ♪ 538 00:25:00,015 --> 00:25:01,189 ♪ Simon got that pretty woman ♪ 539 00:25:01,327 --> 00:25:03,191 ♪ Uh, yeah... ♪ 540 00:25:03,329 --> 00:25:04,710 ZOE: Wow. You didn’t tell me your grandfather lived 541 00:25:04,848 --> 00:25:06,401 on the set of a horror film. 542 00:25:06,539 --> 00:25:08,334 [music continues faintly] 543 00:25:08,472 --> 00:25:11,613 So which one of us do you think is gonna get killed first? 544 00:25:11,751 --> 00:25:14,892 I mean, on the one hand, you’re Black. 545 00:25:15,030 --> 00:25:16,584 You guys don’t make it long in horror movies. 546 00:25:16,722 --> 00:25:18,206 But on the other hand, I’m already dead. 547 00:25:18,344 --> 00:25:19,276 [Merit laughs] 548 00:25:19,414 --> 00:25:21,243 You seriously need to stop. 549 00:25:21,381 --> 00:25:24,661 What? Isn’t Oregon known for its serial killers? 550 00:25:24,799 --> 00:25:27,008 Randall Woodfield, the I-5 Bandit. 551 00:25:27,146 --> 00:25:30,977 Dayton Leroy Rogers, the Molalla Forest Killer. 552 00:25:31,115 --> 00:25:32,392 There’s something wrong with your brain. 553 00:25:32,531 --> 00:25:33,946 Or is it yours? 554 00:25:37,087 --> 00:25:39,641 [birds chirping] 555 00:25:52,240 --> 00:25:54,414 You know, this is exactly how these movies start. 556 00:25:57,176 --> 00:25:58,418 Bunch of bees over there. 557 00:25:58,557 --> 00:25:59,903 [Merit sighs] 558 00:26:05,736 --> 00:26:07,945 -[creaking] -Wow, so secure. 559 00:26:08,083 --> 00:26:09,947 I feel very safe. 560 00:26:11,397 --> 00:26:12,467 Grandpa? 561 00:26:18,059 --> 00:26:19,439 [drops bag] 562 00:26:24,962 --> 00:26:26,930 Your grandma’s so pretty. 563 00:26:28,690 --> 00:26:31,106 Yeah, she was. 564 00:26:31,244 --> 00:26:32,832 How come you never talk about your dad? 565 00:26:34,006 --> 00:26:35,455 [Merit sighs] 566 00:26:36,595 --> 00:26:37,665 He died. 567 00:26:37,803 --> 00:26:39,252 Cancer. 568 00:26:39,390 --> 00:26:40,978 I was seven. 569 00:26:41,116 --> 00:26:43,015 Well, you should learn to talk about 570 00:26:43,153 --> 00:26:44,982 your dead loved ones more often. 571 00:26:45,120 --> 00:26:47,744 ♪ ♪ 572 00:26:48,814 --> 00:26:50,988 That’s an interesting place for milk. 573 00:26:56,960 --> 00:26:59,307 Hey, there’s your grandpa. 574 00:26:59,445 --> 00:27:01,378 ♪ ♪ 575 00:27:10,249 --> 00:27:11,975 [water drops] 576 00:27:12,113 --> 00:27:13,321 MERIT: Hey. 577 00:27:14,287 --> 00:27:15,530 Hi. 578 00:27:15,668 --> 00:27:16,669 Uh, hi. 579 00:27:16,807 --> 00:27:18,533 Wow, you’re doing great. 580 00:27:18,671 --> 00:27:20,224 If you’re here for your grandmother’s funeral, 581 00:27:20,362 --> 00:27:22,502 you’re ten months late. 582 00:27:24,815 --> 00:27:25,954 I’m here to see you. 583 00:27:26,092 --> 00:27:28,370 No, you’re here to check on me. 584 00:27:28,508 --> 00:27:30,165 Your mother put you up to it. 585 00:27:30,303 --> 00:27:31,408 [Merit sighs] 586 00:27:31,546 --> 00:27:33,168 I’m here to see you, Grandpa. 587 00:27:33,306 --> 00:27:34,894 DALE: I’ll bet she guilted you so bad 588 00:27:35,032 --> 00:27:36,447 you just rushed right over here, 589 00:27:36,585 --> 00:27:38,415 didn’t even remember to pack. 590 00:27:38,553 --> 00:27:40,659 We did forget the toothpaste. 591 00:27:40,797 --> 00:27:41,936 Am I wrong? 592 00:27:42,074 --> 00:27:43,523 I, um... 593 00:27:44,870 --> 00:27:46,699 I did talk to Mom, 594 00:27:46,837 --> 00:27:50,392 but I’m here because I want to be. 595 00:27:55,881 --> 00:27:57,676 I’m sorry I left the other day. 596 00:28:06,926 --> 00:28:10,067 Upstairs, second door on the right. 597 00:28:11,862 --> 00:28:14,037 In case you don’t remember. 598 00:28:17,143 --> 00:28:19,559 [insects chirring] 599 00:28:19,698 --> 00:28:21,320 ZOE: This house is legit spooky. 600 00:28:21,458 --> 00:28:24,150 I saw a bat earlier, I’m not even kidding. 601 00:28:24,288 --> 00:28:25,876 -[Merit scoffs] -So your Grandpa Dale 602 00:28:26,014 --> 00:28:27,464 does not fuck around, does he? 603 00:28:27,602 --> 00:28:29,155 Yeah, nah, that’s not really his thing. 604 00:28:29,293 --> 00:28:31,571 [phone ringing] 605 00:28:31,710 --> 00:28:33,228 -[Merit sighs] -No, no, no, no. 606 00:28:33,366 --> 00:28:34,851 When was the last time your phone rang 607 00:28:34,989 --> 00:28:37,198 and it was good news? Don’t pick that up. 608 00:28:37,336 --> 00:28:38,544 [Merit sighs] 609 00:28:39,545 --> 00:28:41,789 [line ringing] 610 00:28:44,170 --> 00:28:45,931 Hello? 611 00:28:46,069 --> 00:28:48,519 DR. COLE: You missed tonight’s session, Merit. 612 00:28:48,657 --> 00:28:49,866 Yeah. 613 00:28:51,591 --> 00:28:53,939 Yeah, I don’t-- I don’t-- I don’t know what to tell you. 614 00:28:54,077 --> 00:28:55,492 I’m with my grandpa. 615 00:28:55,630 --> 00:28:57,874 He has early stage Alzheimer’s. 616 00:28:58,012 --> 00:28:59,599 I have to stay with him, he lives alone-- 617 00:28:59,738 --> 00:29:01,394 We’ve only got two sessions left. 618 00:29:03,603 --> 00:29:05,985 We all have demons, Merit. 619 00:29:07,262 --> 00:29:10,162 But you don’t have to face them alone. 620 00:29:10,300 --> 00:29:11,853 [line beeps] 621 00:29:11,991 --> 00:29:14,753 ♪ ♪ 622 00:29:26,281 --> 00:29:28,628 -Why is that guy so obsessed with you? -Ew. 623 00:29:28,767 --> 00:29:30,216 Guess you still got it. 624 00:29:30,354 --> 00:29:31,286 Oh, please. 625 00:29:31,424 --> 00:29:33,564 Still got it. 626 00:29:33,702 --> 00:29:34,773 [chuckles] 627 00:29:34,911 --> 00:29:36,602 [muffled footsteps] 628 00:29:36,740 --> 00:29:39,191 [clattering] 629 00:29:47,647 --> 00:29:50,478 [soft clattering continues] 630 00:29:53,274 --> 00:29:55,483 ♪ ♪ 631 00:30:12,638 --> 00:30:14,019 [birds chirping] 632 00:30:14,157 --> 00:30:16,607 [muffled clattering] 633 00:30:18,851 --> 00:30:20,957 ♪ ♪ 634 00:30:29,517 --> 00:30:32,278 ♪ ♪ 635 00:30:57,925 --> 00:31:00,410 ♪ ♪ 636 00:31:10,178 --> 00:31:11,524 ZOE: Verl. 637 00:31:11,662 --> 00:31:14,113 Damn, what a name. Hmm. 638 00:31:14,251 --> 00:31:16,771 1927 to 1944. 639 00:31:16,909 --> 00:31:18,704 -What is that? -17. 640 00:31:20,016 --> 00:31:22,087 Probably died on D-Day. 641 00:31:22,225 --> 00:31:23,951 Damn, good for you, Verl. 642 00:31:24,089 --> 00:31:25,228 Don’t say that. 643 00:31:25,366 --> 00:31:26,954 What? I can joke about the dead. 644 00:31:27,092 --> 00:31:28,265 These are my people. 645 00:31:28,403 --> 00:31:33,374 [Weedwacker whirring] 646 00:31:35,445 --> 00:31:38,172 -What is that? -Whatever it is, let it go. 647 00:31:40,174 --> 00:31:41,830 I said let it go. 648 00:31:43,211 --> 00:31:45,973 -Hey! -[Weedwacker continues loudly] 649 00:31:46,111 --> 00:31:49,769 Hey! Hey! 650 00:31:49,908 --> 00:31:51,875 Holy shit. 651 00:31:52,013 --> 00:31:53,152 Sorry. 652 00:31:53,290 --> 00:31:55,258 Whew. 653 00:31:55,396 --> 00:31:57,605 -[laughs] -What the hell are you doing? 654 00:31:57,743 --> 00:31:58,986 Oh, man, you scared me. Hi. 655 00:31:59,124 --> 00:32:00,435 This is a cemetery. 656 00:32:00,573 --> 00:32:03,473 Yeah, thank you for the observation. 657 00:32:03,611 --> 00:32:04,957 You’re noise polluting 658 00:32:05,095 --> 00:32:06,683 and you’re disturbing the visitors. 659 00:32:06,821 --> 00:32:08,892 To be fair, there’s one visitor, 660 00:32:09,030 --> 00:32:10,480 singular, and, uh, 661 00:32:10,618 --> 00:32:12,931 how do you know you’re not disturbing me? 662 00:32:14,139 --> 00:32:16,003 Look, guy... 663 00:32:16,141 --> 00:32:17,383 My name’s Alex. 664 00:32:17,521 --> 00:32:19,109 It’s not even 8:00 a.m. 665 00:32:19,247 --> 00:32:20,939 I’m sorry, did I wake you? 666 00:32:21,077 --> 00:32:23,803 Were you-- were you sleeping behind a grave over there? 667 00:32:23,942 --> 00:32:25,081 What’s going on? 668 00:32:25,219 --> 00:32:26,634 Right now in the morning, 669 00:32:26,772 --> 00:32:28,291 when it’s early before work, 670 00:32:28,429 --> 00:32:29,948 that’s-that’s when I’m free, okay? 671 00:32:30,086 --> 00:32:31,570 You don’t work here? 672 00:32:31,708 --> 00:32:33,123 You’re Weedwacking and you don’t work here? 673 00:32:33,261 --> 00:32:35,367 No, my grandparents are buried over there. 674 00:32:35,505 --> 00:32:36,989 I know what you’re thinking. 675 00:32:37,127 --> 00:32:38,680 It’s very cool that I’m descended 676 00:32:38,818 --> 00:32:41,028 from one of the first Indian families in Portland. 677 00:32:41,166 --> 00:32:42,546 Unless you don’t think it’s cool 678 00:32:42,684 --> 00:32:44,652 that my Thatha and my Patti are buried here, 679 00:32:44,790 --> 00:32:46,171 in which case, you’re a racist. 680 00:32:46,309 --> 00:32:47,724 [chuckles] 681 00:32:47,862 --> 00:32:49,829 I’m playing, it’s the dandelions. 682 00:32:49,968 --> 00:32:51,383 They grow like damn weeds. 683 00:32:51,521 --> 00:32:52,763 Well, they are a weed. 684 00:32:52,901 --> 00:32:54,110 Yeah, well, I cleaned my, uh, 685 00:32:54,248 --> 00:32:55,180 my grandparents’ tombstones, 686 00:32:55,318 --> 00:32:56,802 and they look beautiful, 687 00:32:56,940 --> 00:32:58,355 but then all the other ones look like shit. 688 00:32:58,493 --> 00:33:02,014 And I-I got this thing about cleanliness, so... 689 00:33:02,152 --> 00:33:04,499 And then you stomped in and you started yelling at me. 690 00:33:06,398 --> 00:33:08,055 -It’s weirdly... -Selfless? 691 00:33:08,193 --> 00:33:10,126 -Considerate. -It’s very selfless. 692 00:33:10,264 --> 00:33:12,024 But it’s weirdly considerate. 693 00:33:13,163 --> 00:33:14,475 [laughs] 694 00:33:14,613 --> 00:33:16,270 You should get a quieter one. 695 00:33:16,408 --> 00:33:18,030 They’re better for the environment. 696 00:33:18,168 --> 00:33:20,515 You’re right, thank you for the tip, stranger. 697 00:33:21,585 --> 00:33:23,484 -Merit. -Merit. 698 00:33:23,622 --> 00:33:25,693 Wrap it up, high speed. 699 00:33:31,423 --> 00:33:33,563 Okay, have a good run. 700 00:33:33,701 --> 00:33:36,497 Get a quieter one! 701 00:33:36,635 --> 00:33:39,327 TESSA [over radio]: But first, let me introduce today’s guest. 702 00:33:39,465 --> 00:33:41,053 Bill Stokes is the author 703 00:33:41,191 --> 00:33:43,090 of the Birder’s Conservation Handbook. 704 00:33:43,228 --> 00:33:44,505 He’s also an ornithologist 705 00:33:44,643 --> 00:33:46,265 at the Oregon Songbird Initiative. 706 00:33:46,403 --> 00:33:47,784 He joins us today from Portland. 707 00:33:47,922 --> 00:33:49,268 Thanks for talking with us today, Bill. 708 00:33:49,406 --> 00:33:50,821 BILL: Thanks, Tessa. 709 00:33:50,959 --> 00:33:51,788 TESSA: Let’s talk about some of the birds 710 00:33:51,926 --> 00:33:53,100 you cover in your book. 711 00:33:53,238 --> 00:33:54,929 [broadcast continues] 712 00:33:56,206 --> 00:33:57,207 Want a hand? 713 00:33:58,553 --> 00:34:00,279 No. 714 00:34:00,417 --> 00:34:03,800 Reckon you’ll just tell me it ought to be replaced. 715 00:34:03,938 --> 00:34:06,630 Isn’t that what your generation does? 716 00:34:06,768 --> 00:34:09,771 Something needs repair, you just get a new one. 717 00:34:09,909 --> 00:34:11,255 Well, I can’t speak for my generation, 718 00:34:11,393 --> 00:34:12,705 but I was a 63 Bravo, 719 00:34:12,842 --> 00:34:14,534 so I can repair just about anything. 720 00:34:16,708 --> 00:34:18,263 -There. -[Merit sighs] 721 00:34:18,400 --> 00:34:19,987 [radio broadcast continues] 722 00:34:26,754 --> 00:34:29,308 Wow, Merit, you’re great at affection. 723 00:34:29,446 --> 00:34:32,898 Well, as long as you’re here. 724 00:34:34,106 --> 00:34:35,969 Paper goes in six, remember? 725 00:34:36,108 --> 00:34:38,076 [radio broadcast continues] 726 00:34:38,214 --> 00:34:39,560 We don’t live in the city. 727 00:34:39,697 --> 00:34:42,080 We sort our own trash out here. 728 00:34:42,873 --> 00:34:44,150 Paper... 729 00:34:44,289 --> 00:34:46,705 [paper rustling] 730 00:34:46,842 --> 00:34:48,983 ...goes in six. 731 00:34:52,918 --> 00:34:55,023 Metal in one, compost in two, 732 00:34:55,161 --> 00:34:57,302 plastic in three, burn in four, 733 00:34:57,440 --> 00:35:00,581 trash in five, paper in six. 734 00:35:01,789 --> 00:35:03,170 Hmm? 735 00:35:03,308 --> 00:35:06,932 Metal, compost, plastic, burn, trash, paper. 736 00:35:08,485 --> 00:35:09,417 Got it? 737 00:35:09,555 --> 00:35:11,626 Got it. 738 00:35:11,764 --> 00:35:13,111 Do you got it? 739 00:35:15,078 --> 00:35:16,631 I don’t got it. 740 00:35:18,254 --> 00:35:19,634 What’s the little one for? 741 00:35:19,772 --> 00:35:21,153 Is that just a mystery? 742 00:35:22,016 --> 00:35:23,742 [bee buzzing] 743 00:35:23,880 --> 00:35:25,537 MERIT: Okay, Mom, I’m on my way. 744 00:35:25,675 --> 00:35:27,194 [line beeps] 745 00:35:30,783 --> 00:35:32,406 [phone chimes] 746 00:35:32,544 --> 00:35:33,717 [sighs] 747 00:35:33,855 --> 00:35:36,099 [paper rustling] 748 00:35:51,770 --> 00:35:54,393 [phone chiming] 749 00:35:58,949 --> 00:36:01,814 Yes, yes. 750 00:36:17,968 --> 00:36:19,556 Hi, sorry I’m late. 751 00:36:19,694 --> 00:36:22,180 My mother called ahead about a room for Dale Tillman. 752 00:36:22,318 --> 00:36:23,871 Said you need a family signature. 753 00:36:24,009 --> 00:36:27,081 Where’s the sugar-free candy? We used to... 754 00:36:27,219 --> 00:36:28,462 Oh, hey. 755 00:36:28,600 --> 00:36:30,222 Uh, it was "stranger," right? 756 00:36:30,360 --> 00:36:32,120 -Merit. -Merit, hi. 757 00:36:32,259 --> 00:36:33,605 -Alex. -Yeah. 758 00:36:33,743 --> 00:36:34,778 Wow, you remembered. 759 00:36:34,916 --> 00:36:36,918 -So you work here? -Yup. 760 00:36:37,056 --> 00:36:39,266 Actually, my family owns the place. 761 00:36:39,404 --> 00:36:42,234 You know, they decided not to go into the hotel industry 762 00:36:42,372 --> 00:36:43,684 ’cause my dad was like, 763 00:36:43,822 --> 00:36:45,893 [silly voice]: "Mm, assisted living. 764 00:36:46,031 --> 00:36:47,205 Recession-proof." 765 00:36:48,723 --> 00:36:50,208 [normal voice]: My dad is apparently Yoda. 766 00:36:50,346 --> 00:36:51,416 I don’t know why I did that. 767 00:36:51,554 --> 00:36:53,280 Um... 768 00:36:53,418 --> 00:36:57,076 Would-- uh, would you like to see the room? 769 00:36:57,215 --> 00:36:59,389 Is that how-- how it normally goes? 770 00:36:59,527 --> 00:37:01,011 People normally wanna see it? 771 00:37:01,149 --> 00:37:03,462 Uh, yeah, unless they hate their parents, 772 00:37:03,600 --> 00:37:05,982 then they usually just drop ’em on the curb outside. 773 00:37:06,120 --> 00:37:07,121 [Alex laughs] 774 00:37:07,259 --> 00:37:08,433 -Okay. -Okay. 775 00:37:08,571 --> 00:37:10,228 Thank you. 776 00:37:12,368 --> 00:37:13,472 Just this way. 777 00:37:13,610 --> 00:37:16,199 Dr. Castro, how you doin’? 778 00:37:19,444 --> 00:37:20,928 So... 779 00:37:22,861 --> 00:37:24,276 Is it, um... 780 00:37:24,414 --> 00:37:26,485 Yeah, it’s right up in here. 781 00:37:26,623 --> 00:37:28,246 Here we are. 782 00:37:32,250 --> 00:37:35,770 Closet, bathroom, and bedroom’s back there. 783 00:37:39,671 --> 00:37:41,259 People normally sign right away? 784 00:37:41,397 --> 00:37:42,915 Yeah, it’s in high demand. 785 00:37:44,434 --> 00:37:46,091 Yeah, my mom says these rooms are harder to get into than-- 786 00:37:46,229 --> 00:37:47,610 -Yale. -Yale. 787 00:37:47,748 --> 00:37:49,715 Yeah, let me guess, did your mom go to Yale? 788 00:37:52,200 --> 00:37:54,272 [sighs] 789 00:37:54,410 --> 00:37:55,963 Can I ask you a question? 790 00:37:56,101 --> 00:37:57,792 Sure. 791 00:37:59,000 --> 00:38:01,071 Is this a good place? 792 00:38:01,209 --> 00:38:03,488 A lot of people wish they could be in here. 793 00:38:06,180 --> 00:38:07,802 My grandfather’s particular. 794 00:38:07,940 --> 00:38:10,011 ♪ ♪ 795 00:38:10,149 --> 00:38:11,737 My grandmother... 796 00:38:11,875 --> 00:38:13,532 when she died, 797 00:38:13,670 --> 00:38:15,845 he became a different version of himself, you know? 798 00:38:16,949 --> 00:38:21,091 Not worse, but... not better. 799 00:38:22,300 --> 00:38:25,406 It’s like when you lose someone, 800 00:38:25,544 --> 00:38:27,891 you don’t know who you are without ’em. 801 00:38:28,029 --> 00:38:30,549 You want to know if he’ll find a home here. 802 00:38:30,687 --> 00:38:32,896 ♪ ♪ 803 00:38:33,034 --> 00:38:35,382 -Yeah. -It’s a hard decision. 804 00:38:35,520 --> 00:38:36,762 Um... 805 00:38:36,900 --> 00:38:38,730 Take a few days to think about it. 806 00:38:38,868 --> 00:38:41,595 And, uh, I’m not supposed to do this, 807 00:38:41,733 --> 00:38:44,183 but I’ll-I’ll hold the room for you. 808 00:38:44,322 --> 00:38:45,737 -Really? -Yeah. 809 00:38:45,875 --> 00:38:47,842 I mean, even the Yale of assisted livings 810 00:38:47,980 --> 00:38:49,499 has an A-list. 811 00:38:49,637 --> 00:38:51,846 -You’re scared of my mom. -I’m terrified. 812 00:38:51,984 --> 00:38:53,883 -Thank you. -Mm-hmm. 813 00:38:54,021 --> 00:38:56,334 Hey, I know-- I know-- I know you don’t like noise, 814 00:38:56,472 --> 00:38:59,095 and I’m guessing you probably don’t like people either, 815 00:38:59,233 --> 00:39:01,684 but sometimes I go to this bar called the WildHorse. 816 00:39:01,822 --> 00:39:03,375 Sometimes, um, 817 00:39:03,513 --> 00:39:08,346 like tonight around 8:00-ish. 818 00:39:12,729 --> 00:39:15,974 -Okay. -Okay. 819 00:39:20,875 --> 00:39:23,050 [door opens] 820 00:39:23,188 --> 00:39:25,363 [birds chirping] 821 00:39:29,263 --> 00:39:30,782 ZOE: So, you’re really thinking about 822 00:39:30,920 --> 00:39:33,647 taking him away from this place? 823 00:39:33,785 --> 00:39:35,511 [Merit sighs] 824 00:39:42,759 --> 00:39:44,727 [cans clattering] 825 00:39:47,833 --> 00:39:49,179 Oh, what the hell? 826 00:39:49,317 --> 00:39:50,871 MERIT: Grandpa? 827 00:39:51,009 --> 00:39:53,460 [cans clattering] 828 00:39:53,598 --> 00:39:54,875 You all right? 829 00:39:56,773 --> 00:39:58,257 Not especially, no. 830 00:39:59,673 --> 00:40:01,433 ’Cause paper goes in goddamn six. 831 00:40:01,571 --> 00:40:05,610 Metal, compost, plastic, burn, trash, paper. 832 00:40:05,748 --> 00:40:07,750 Is that hard? 833 00:40:07,888 --> 00:40:09,476 Is that impossible? 834 00:40:09,614 --> 00:40:11,857 You know, you come here, 835 00:40:11,995 --> 00:40:15,136 you eat my food, you use my water. 836 00:40:15,274 --> 00:40:16,759 Fine, have at it. 837 00:40:16,897 --> 00:40:18,485 But it defies imagination that you and I were in 838 00:40:18,623 --> 00:40:19,969 the same branch of the service. 839 00:40:20,107 --> 00:40:21,729 If you’d learned anything in the Army, 840 00:40:21,867 --> 00:40:23,973 you’d have learned respect. 841 00:40:24,111 --> 00:40:26,562 Do you think I’m crazy? 842 00:40:26,700 --> 00:40:28,805 Your mother thinks I’m crazy. 843 00:40:28,943 --> 00:40:31,636 Fine! But as long as you’re under my roof, 844 00:40:31,774 --> 00:40:34,777 paper goes in goddamn six! 845 00:40:38,505 --> 00:40:40,127 Clean it up! 846 00:40:42,819 --> 00:40:44,580 [flies buzzing] 847 00:40:46,340 --> 00:40:48,273 [sighing] 848 00:40:51,725 --> 00:40:54,175 Where does plastic go again? 849 00:40:54,313 --> 00:40:55,970 [utensils clinking] 850 00:40:57,765 --> 00:41:00,975 ZOE: You know, I’ve read about us vets getting PTSD, 851 00:41:01,113 --> 00:41:03,633 but good for your granddad. 852 00:41:03,771 --> 00:41:05,980 Not a lot of vets trying to give PTSD. 853 00:41:09,156 --> 00:41:10,709 You sure about this? 854 00:41:10,847 --> 00:41:12,055 He’s just angry. 855 00:41:12,193 --> 00:41:13,850 But he is not gonna 856 00:41:13,988 --> 00:41:16,232 -scare me off. -[door closes] 857 00:41:16,370 --> 00:41:18,510 [muffled radio playing] 858 00:41:34,699 --> 00:41:36,079 Gran-- 859 00:41:36,217 --> 00:41:37,874 [microwave beeps, whirs] 860 00:41:41,706 --> 00:41:43,224 [can pops] 861 00:41:46,745 --> 00:41:48,091 [microwave beeping] 862 00:41:48,229 --> 00:41:49,990 [microwave door opens] 863 00:42:12,737 --> 00:42:14,083 How’s it going over there? 864 00:42:14,221 --> 00:42:16,361 [muffled radio playing] 865 00:42:18,915 --> 00:42:20,261 MERIT: Hmm. 866 00:42:24,162 --> 00:42:28,822 It-it can be complicated, the trash system. 867 00:42:38,383 --> 00:42:40,592 How’s that bird feeder repair going? 868 00:42:40,730 --> 00:42:42,421 Oh, it’s going. 869 00:42:47,047 --> 00:42:49,152 ♪ ♪ 870 00:42:56,090 --> 00:42:57,609 You’re really gonna go meet this guy, 871 00:42:57,747 --> 00:42:59,197 the weed whacker? 872 00:43:00,129 --> 00:43:03,304 I just thought it would be... 873 00:43:03,442 --> 00:43:06,342 good to... 874 00:43:06,480 --> 00:43:08,137 I don’t know, get a change of scenery. 875 00:43:08,275 --> 00:43:09,828 You mean you don’t want to see me. 876 00:43:09,966 --> 00:43:11,865 -It’s just for tonight. -Mm. 877 00:43:12,003 --> 00:43:14,005 What if he’s a murderer? 878 00:43:14,143 --> 00:43:15,903 You don’t think he would’ve murdered me when we were alone? 879 00:43:16,904 --> 00:43:18,250 Like in the cemetery? 880 00:43:21,184 --> 00:43:23,911 It’s just for tonight, I promise. 881 00:43:24,049 --> 00:43:26,224 Just for tonight. 882 00:43:28,675 --> 00:43:30,504 NEWSCASTER: The forecast that we have up at Mount Hood today, 883 00:43:30,642 --> 00:43:32,989 -we are going to stay sunny... -[footsteps] 884 00:43:33,127 --> 00:43:35,820 [pan sizzling] 885 00:43:35,958 --> 00:43:38,201 [TV chatter continues] 886 00:43:39,030 --> 00:43:41,308 ♪ ♪ 887 00:43:51,145 --> 00:43:53,527 [flagpole clanging] 888 00:43:53,665 --> 00:43:55,046 ZOE: They were supposed to be kids, but I think 889 00:43:55,184 --> 00:43:56,392 they’re actually like adult women. 890 00:43:56,530 --> 00:43:57,704 -Really? -I’m not even kidding. 891 00:43:57,842 --> 00:43:58,981 The handwriting, you can tell. 892 00:43:59,119 --> 00:44:00,603 [laughs] 893 00:44:00,741 --> 00:44:02,881 The Dynamic Duo. 894 00:44:03,019 --> 00:44:04,331 Hey, Ramirez. 895 00:44:04,469 --> 00:44:05,608 Fuck off, Lewis. 896 00:44:05,746 --> 00:44:07,161 MERIT: What’s up? 897 00:44:07,299 --> 00:44:08,507 Green to green. 898 00:44:08,646 --> 00:44:10,544 Threatcon got bumped up to amber. 899 00:44:10,682 --> 00:44:12,995 Some jackass from first platoon said there’s a sniper out there. 900 00:44:13,133 --> 00:44:14,375 Look, we didn’t see anything. 901 00:44:14,513 --> 00:44:15,860 Sounds like the bogeyman. 902 00:44:15,998 --> 00:44:17,413 Sergeant Charles, 903 00:44:17,551 --> 00:44:19,035 you girls gonna be okay out there? 904 00:44:19,173 --> 00:44:20,830 -Listen, Ser-- -Hey, you talk to her 905 00:44:20,968 --> 00:44:22,660 like that one more time, I’m gonna make you wish 906 00:44:22,798 --> 00:44:24,247 that sniper got you. 907 00:44:24,385 --> 00:44:25,455 What’d you just say to me? 908 00:44:25,593 --> 00:44:26,974 You heard me. 909 00:44:27,112 --> 00:44:29,632 See me after your shift, Specialist. 910 00:44:30,978 --> 00:44:32,773 Ooh. 911 00:44:34,775 --> 00:44:36,397 Bye, Ramirez. 912 00:44:38,572 --> 00:44:41,057 [distant helicopter blades whirring] 913 00:44:48,168 --> 00:44:50,101 You didn’t have to do that. 914 00:44:50,239 --> 00:44:52,206 That guy’s a fuckin’ dork. 915 00:44:53,276 --> 00:44:55,554 Well, at any rate... 916 00:44:58,799 --> 00:45:00,249 So... 917 00:45:01,181 --> 00:45:02,596 Your cousin. 918 00:45:02,734 --> 00:45:05,288 Yeah, I think he’s moving to Florida. 919 00:45:05,426 --> 00:45:07,290 Okay, you think you’ll go? 920 00:45:07,428 --> 00:45:09,568 What, and leave all this? 921 00:45:09,707 --> 00:45:11,191 Right. 922 00:45:11,329 --> 00:45:12,848 It’s not like you’re gonna reenlist. 923 00:45:14,021 --> 00:45:16,023 I don’t know, maybe. 924 00:45:17,231 --> 00:45:18,992 Why would you reenlist? 925 00:45:19,130 --> 00:45:20,787 I don’t know, Merit, maybe because it’s an option 926 00:45:20,925 --> 00:45:22,409 that’s actually available to me. 927 00:45:22,547 --> 00:45:24,135 [rock clatters] 928 00:45:24,273 --> 00:45:26,585 I see you talk about your grandma and your grandpa, 929 00:45:26,724 --> 00:45:29,485 and I think to myself, "Man, she’s got a home, 930 00:45:29,623 --> 00:45:31,418 "she’s got a family, she’s got a... 931 00:45:31,556 --> 00:45:34,766 a whole life with meaning to go back to," you know? 932 00:45:34,904 --> 00:45:36,457 I bet when you take those career tests, 933 00:45:36,595 --> 00:45:37,804 you don’t even think about how expensive 934 00:45:37,942 --> 00:45:39,737 the results are, how much it would cost 935 00:45:39,875 --> 00:45:42,912 to be an artist or a psychologist. 936 00:45:43,050 --> 00:45:44,983 Do you want to be an artist or a psychologist? 937 00:45:45,121 --> 00:45:47,123 -Because you could be. -No. 938 00:45:47,261 --> 00:45:48,435 No, I can’t, Merit, that’s my point. 939 00:45:48,573 --> 00:45:49,816 The world is not my fucking oyster. 940 00:45:49,954 --> 00:45:51,024 You think the world is my oyster? 941 00:45:51,162 --> 00:45:52,266 I’m a Black woman in America. 942 00:45:52,404 --> 00:45:53,578 With a lake house. 943 00:45:54,648 --> 00:45:56,132 It’s my grandparents’ lake house. 944 00:45:56,270 --> 00:45:57,755 It is not mine. 945 00:45:59,964 --> 00:46:01,966 Still a lake house. 946 00:46:03,208 --> 00:46:05,107 Don’t worry, nothing is set in stone yet. 947 00:46:05,245 --> 00:46:07,661 Your aim is definitely not set in stone. 948 00:46:07,799 --> 00:46:09,456 Oh, shut up. 949 00:46:09,594 --> 00:46:13,149 [muffled music playing] 950 00:46:13,287 --> 00:46:15,151 ♪ ♪ 951 00:46:15,289 --> 00:46:17,464 [indistinct chatter] 952 00:46:19,466 --> 00:46:23,021 ♪ Good times ♪ 953 00:46:23,159 --> 00:46:25,506 ♪ Love this scene... ♪ 954 00:46:25,644 --> 00:46:28,786 ♪ ♪ 955 00:46:28,924 --> 00:46:31,133 [arcade game chiming] 956 00:46:31,271 --> 00:46:33,756 [music continues faintly] 957 00:46:36,069 --> 00:46:37,622 Hey. 958 00:46:39,141 --> 00:46:41,350 Hi. You... 959 00:46:41,488 --> 00:46:44,008 I didn’t think, um... 960 00:46:44,146 --> 00:46:45,492 You want to sit down? 961 00:46:45,630 --> 00:46:47,805 Uh, yeah. 962 00:46:49,013 --> 00:46:50,669 Sorry, I ordered already. 963 00:46:50,808 --> 00:46:52,223 Um, I didn’t... 964 00:46:52,361 --> 00:46:54,708 I’m a natural pessimist. 965 00:46:54,846 --> 00:46:56,572 -Me, too. -Yeah. 966 00:46:56,710 --> 00:46:58,885 To be honest, I wasn’t sure 967 00:46:59,023 --> 00:47:00,576 if you were too good to be true 968 00:47:00,714 --> 00:47:02,716 ’cause in my line of work, 969 00:47:02,854 --> 00:47:04,718 the women I usually talk to are... 970 00:47:04,856 --> 00:47:06,893 You know, they remember where they were 971 00:47:07,031 --> 00:47:08,618 when we stormed Normandy. 972 00:47:08,756 --> 00:47:11,483 ♪ ♪ 973 00:47:19,733 --> 00:47:22,391 Have-have you ever played Buck Hunter? 974 00:47:22,529 --> 00:47:24,703 No. 975 00:47:24,842 --> 00:47:27,223 VIDEO GAME VOICE: That’s one, that’s two. 976 00:47:27,361 --> 00:47:28,742 That’s all three. 977 00:47:28,880 --> 00:47:30,744 You nailed it! That’s a new record! 978 00:47:30,882 --> 00:47:32,263 Well, damn. 979 00:47:32,401 --> 00:47:34,092 If I knew I was playing with a sniper, 980 00:47:34,230 --> 00:47:36,198 I’d have dressed up. 981 00:47:36,336 --> 00:47:38,027 Light-wheel mechanic, actually. 982 00:47:38,165 --> 00:47:40,685 There it is, military service. 983 00:47:40,823 --> 00:47:42,238 I’m impressed ’cause, you know, 984 00:47:42,376 --> 00:47:43,999 I actually talked to a woman today 985 00:47:44,137 --> 00:47:48,279 who drafted the Truman Doctrine. 986 00:47:48,417 --> 00:47:51,627 How could I ever compete with that? [chuckles] 987 00:47:51,765 --> 00:47:54,388 How’d you get into the military? 988 00:47:55,665 --> 00:47:58,047 My grandfather, actually. 989 00:47:58,185 --> 00:47:59,773 Oh, our prospective resident. 990 00:47:59,911 --> 00:48:01,119 That’s right. 991 00:48:01,257 --> 00:48:03,501 Retired 22 years from the Army. 992 00:48:03,639 --> 00:48:05,537 Lieutenant colonel. 993 00:48:05,675 --> 00:48:08,230 Two tours in Vietnam. 994 00:48:10,232 --> 00:48:11,854 [gunshot sound effects] 995 00:48:11,992 --> 00:48:14,857 He used to let me play with his medals 996 00:48:14,995 --> 00:48:16,721 and his patches. 997 00:48:18,102 --> 00:48:20,000 He would sit me down, tell me a story 998 00:48:20,138 --> 00:48:22,969 about each one of them. 999 00:48:23,107 --> 00:48:26,006 I was just talking about this. 1000 00:48:26,144 --> 00:48:28,629 But every Fourth of July, 1001 00:48:28,767 --> 00:48:30,942 my entire family would stay at my grandparents’ lake house 1002 00:48:31,080 --> 00:48:33,324 and we would drive into town for music in the park. 1003 00:48:33,462 --> 00:48:34,877 -Yeah, every year, of course. -The fireworks. 1004 00:48:35,015 --> 00:48:36,327 And the local chamber orchestra, 1005 00:48:36,465 --> 00:48:37,604 you know, would play the "Battle Hymn." 1006 00:48:37,742 --> 00:48:38,363 -If you served-- yeah. -Yeah. 1007 00:48:38,501 --> 00:48:39,986 You stand up. 1008 00:48:40,124 --> 00:48:41,608 I remember every year my grandpa would get up 1009 00:48:41,746 --> 00:48:44,783 out of his... his old folding chair 1010 00:48:44,922 --> 00:48:48,408 and he would tip his hat to everybody. 1011 00:48:48,546 --> 00:48:51,273 -That’s so cool. -Yeah. 1012 00:48:53,654 --> 00:48:57,658 VIDEO GAME VOICE: There’s a new sheriff in town. 1013 00:48:57,796 --> 00:48:59,833 ♪ First to fight for the right ♪ 1014 00:48:59,971 --> 00:49:02,353 ♪ And to build the Nation’s might ♪ 1015 00:49:02,491 --> 00:49:03,802 -What? -♪ And the Army ♪ 1016 00:49:03,941 --> 00:49:05,183 BOTH: ♪ Goes rolling along. ♪ 1017 00:49:05,321 --> 00:49:06,771 How-- Who-who taught you that? 1018 00:49:06,909 --> 00:49:08,014 Miss Truman Doctrine taught you that, huh? 1019 00:49:08,152 --> 00:49:09,843 No, she can’t sing. 1020 00:49:09,981 --> 00:49:11,534 Like, seriously, you should see her 1021 00:49:11,672 --> 00:49:13,364 on karaoke night, it hurts. 1022 00:49:13,502 --> 00:49:15,538 My parents, however, 1023 00:49:15,676 --> 00:49:17,540 uh, well, we just had the immigrant experience 1024 00:49:17,678 --> 00:49:20,474 where you double down on being American, you know? 1025 00:49:20,612 --> 00:49:22,752 So we celebrate every holiday, 1026 00:49:22,890 --> 00:49:25,721 and my dad loves fireworks and hot dogs. 1027 00:49:25,859 --> 00:49:27,826 So, I mean, you put a firework in a bun 1028 00:49:27,965 --> 00:49:32,245 -and that would blow his mind. -[laughing] 1029 00:49:32,383 --> 00:49:33,867 All right, let’s see what I can do. 1030 00:49:34,005 --> 00:49:35,869 -Are you ready? -I’m ready, let me see. 1031 00:49:36,007 --> 00:49:38,906 Okay, oof, oof, oof. 1032 00:49:39,045 --> 00:49:40,701 VIDEO GAME VOICE: Oh, no, he got away. 1033 00:49:40,839 --> 00:49:42,393 -ALEX: Mm-hmm. -Pick a spot. 1034 00:49:42,531 --> 00:49:44,188 You need spectacles. 1035 00:49:44,326 --> 00:49:47,225 Okay, so, so, so, you know, zero... 1036 00:49:47,363 --> 00:49:48,709 -Well... -...deer. 1037 00:49:48,847 --> 00:49:50,711 -Um... -I-I shoot around them. 1038 00:49:50,849 --> 00:49:52,368 -I’m a pacifist... -Right. 1039 00:49:52,506 --> 00:49:55,026 ...so you help them scatter so they can be free. 1040 00:49:55,164 --> 00:49:56,510 [laughing] 1041 00:49:56,648 --> 00:49:58,547 You’re way better at this than I am. 1042 00:49:58,685 --> 00:50:00,480 Well, you’re-you’re a pacifist. 1043 00:50:00,618 --> 00:50:02,758 Indeed, I am. 1044 00:50:05,209 --> 00:50:08,143 So, um, so... 1045 00:50:08,281 --> 00:50:09,868 -Drinks? -Yes. 1046 00:50:10,007 --> 00:50:11,491 -Probably? -Yeah, I’m sure they’re ready. 1047 00:50:11,629 --> 00:50:13,217 -Food, probably not. -Okay. 1048 00:50:13,355 --> 00:50:15,322 Yeah, we might have to wait till tomorrow for that. 1049 00:50:15,460 --> 00:50:17,083 [laughing] 1050 00:50:17,221 --> 00:50:19,016 [indistinct chatter] 1051 00:50:21,225 --> 00:50:22,364 Hey, you. 1052 00:50:22,502 --> 00:50:23,882 Zeke... 1053 00:50:24,021 --> 00:50:27,093 You-you seen Merit? 1054 00:50:27,231 --> 00:50:28,922 Sorry, Dr. Cole. 1055 00:50:29,060 --> 00:50:30,958 ♪ ♪ 1056 00:50:31,097 --> 00:50:32,615 Have you always lived in Molalla? 1057 00:50:32,753 --> 00:50:33,927 Molalla? 1058 00:50:34,065 --> 00:50:35,273 Yeah. 1059 00:50:35,411 --> 00:50:37,310 [laughs] I was born and raised here. 1060 00:50:37,448 --> 00:50:38,897 Um, and then my dad, of course, 1061 00:50:39,036 --> 00:50:41,348 wanted me to take over the family business 1062 00:50:41,486 --> 00:50:42,901 at Shady Acres, um, 1063 00:50:43,040 --> 00:50:44,938 but I did, I moved away for a little while 1064 00:50:45,076 --> 00:50:46,905 when I got married. 1065 00:50:47,044 --> 00:50:48,838 When you got-- what? 1066 00:50:48,976 --> 00:50:50,530 Uh, formerly married. 1067 00:50:50,668 --> 00:50:52,359 Formerly married. 1068 00:50:52,497 --> 00:50:54,223 Oh. [chuckles] 1069 00:50:54,361 --> 00:50:55,397 Six years. 1070 00:50:55,535 --> 00:50:56,950 You were married for six years, 1071 00:50:57,088 --> 00:50:58,296 or you’ve been divorced for six years? 1072 00:50:58,434 --> 00:50:59,711 Actually, both. 1073 00:50:59,849 --> 00:51:01,092 That’s a long time. 1074 00:51:01,230 --> 00:51:03,163 [chuckles weakly] 1075 00:51:03,301 --> 00:51:05,441 Sorry, d-- 1076 00:51:05,579 --> 00:51:07,271 Does that-- does that make you nervous 1077 00:51:07,409 --> 00:51:08,789 -to talk about the past? -What? No. 1078 00:51:08,927 --> 00:51:10,446 No, I’m not nervous about the past. 1079 00:51:10,584 --> 00:51:12,172 I’m-I’m... 1080 00:51:12,310 --> 00:51:14,278 I’m, uh, well, I’m nervous about you, so... 1081 00:51:14,416 --> 00:51:16,452 [laughs softly] 1082 00:51:16,590 --> 00:51:18,765 Indian people aren’t supposed to get divorced. 1083 00:51:18,903 --> 00:51:21,147 It’s definitely not in the job description, 1084 00:51:21,285 --> 00:51:25,668 so, um, I was-- I was just-- I was so ashamed. 1085 00:51:25,806 --> 00:51:29,431 I’d felt like I’d failed at marriage, 1086 00:51:29,569 --> 00:51:32,019 and it, um... 1087 00:51:32,158 --> 00:51:37,266 Mm, it, uh, it had-- it had a power over me and, um... 1088 00:51:37,404 --> 00:51:39,786 But then, you know, I just-- 1089 00:51:39,924 --> 00:51:41,891 Fuck it, I started talking about it. 1090 00:51:43,100 --> 00:51:44,411 It helped. 1091 00:51:44,549 --> 00:51:46,310 Yeah, I mean, it’s not perfect. 1092 00:51:46,448 --> 00:51:48,588 I still have PTSD from my marriage. 1093 00:51:48,726 --> 00:51:51,867 I mean, oh my God, I can hear her just... 1094 00:51:52,005 --> 00:51:53,765 I’m so sorry, that was so insensitive. 1095 00:51:53,903 --> 00:51:55,664 -Oh, no. It’s all good. -No. 1096 00:51:55,802 --> 00:51:58,253 No, there’s no reason for me to say that. 1097 00:51:58,391 --> 00:52:01,497 You can relax, the military doesn’t own PTSD. 1098 00:52:02,774 --> 00:52:04,569 We do happen to be the best at it, though. 1099 00:52:04,707 --> 00:52:06,502 [laughs]: Okay. 1100 00:52:06,640 --> 00:52:07,986 How about you? 1101 00:52:08,125 --> 00:52:11,956 Do you-- do you have any war stories? 1102 00:52:14,407 --> 00:52:15,822 Yeah. 1103 00:52:16,995 --> 00:52:18,997 Yeah, I do. 1104 00:52:20,067 --> 00:52:21,310 Um... 1105 00:52:23,140 --> 00:52:24,313 Kind of third-wheeling it tonight. 1106 00:52:24,451 --> 00:52:27,351 [indistinct chatter] 1107 00:52:27,489 --> 00:52:28,662 Yeah, actually. 1108 00:52:28,800 --> 00:52:30,595 Uh, when I was over there, 1109 00:52:30,733 --> 00:52:33,080 um, Afghanistan, um... 1110 00:52:33,219 --> 00:52:35,186 -[buzzing] -Actually, 1111 00:52:35,324 --> 00:52:37,809 when I-- when I came back... 1112 00:52:37,947 --> 00:52:39,397 [static crackling] 1113 00:52:39,535 --> 00:52:41,675 ♪ ♪ 1114 00:52:41,813 --> 00:52:43,056 [laughing] 1115 00:52:45,645 --> 00:52:47,198 Um, I... 1116 00:52:47,336 --> 00:52:49,649 [static crackling] 1117 00:52:49,787 --> 00:52:51,547 -[screaming] -[gasps] 1118 00:52:51,685 --> 00:52:53,031 ALEX: Merit, are you... 1119 00:52:53,170 --> 00:52:54,964 Hey, it’s okay. Are you all right? 1120 00:52:55,102 --> 00:52:56,725 Are you okay? 1121 00:52:56,863 --> 00:52:58,071 -Um... -I’m-I’m sorry. 1122 00:52:58,209 --> 00:53:00,522 I’m sorry, if, uh... 1123 00:53:00,660 --> 00:53:01,971 It’s okay, it’s okay. 1124 00:53:02,109 --> 00:53:03,421 -I gotta go. -It’s okay. 1125 00:53:03,559 --> 00:53:07,425 ♪ ♪ 1126 00:53:07,563 --> 00:53:11,257 [panting] 1127 00:53:15,744 --> 00:53:17,332 -What was that? -What was what? 1128 00:53:17,470 --> 00:53:19,437 [groans angrily] 1129 00:53:19,575 --> 00:53:21,543 Why would you ruin that? Why? 1130 00:53:21,681 --> 00:53:22,889 Zoe! 1131 00:53:23,027 --> 00:53:25,098 That was my first date since... 1132 00:53:25,236 --> 00:53:27,031 Since what? 1133 00:53:27,169 --> 00:53:29,689 Something traumatic happened to you? 1134 00:53:29,827 --> 00:53:31,138 [indistinct radio chatter] 1135 00:53:31,277 --> 00:53:33,520 Get the fuck out of my face, Zoe. 1136 00:53:34,452 --> 00:53:37,214 Get the fuck out of my face! 1137 00:53:37,352 --> 00:53:39,802 Damn, Merit, never could take a joke. 1138 00:53:46,050 --> 00:53:47,707 [vehicle door opens, closes] 1139 00:53:47,845 --> 00:53:50,434 [crickets chirring] 1140 00:53:50,572 --> 00:53:51,711 [TV playing indistinctly] 1141 00:53:51,849 --> 00:53:53,022 Oh, my God. 1142 00:53:53,160 --> 00:53:54,196 Grandpa? 1143 00:53:54,334 --> 00:53:55,749 -[moans] -Oh, my God. 1144 00:53:55,887 --> 00:53:57,475 Grandpa, hey, hey. 1145 00:53:57,613 --> 00:53:59,097 What? 1146 00:53:59,236 --> 00:54:00,858 What happened? 1147 00:54:00,996 --> 00:54:01,997 Um... 1148 00:54:02,135 --> 00:54:03,585 Oh, my God, you’re bleeding. 1149 00:54:03,723 --> 00:54:04,689 I’m fine. 1150 00:54:04,827 --> 00:54:06,139 Wait, are you-- are you sure? 1151 00:54:06,277 --> 00:54:07,520 -Here, can you get up? -I can get up. 1152 00:54:07,658 --> 00:54:09,970 I just didn’t feel like it. 1153 00:54:11,800 --> 00:54:13,974 -Where were ya? -I was out. 1154 00:54:14,112 --> 00:54:15,976 Well, I could’ve used you here. 1155 00:54:16,114 --> 00:54:18,945 -Here. -I’m-I’m fine. 1156 00:54:19,083 --> 00:54:20,464 I’m fine. 1157 00:54:20,602 --> 00:54:22,500 [TV chatter continues] 1158 00:54:22,638 --> 00:54:24,606 I’m fine. 1159 00:54:28,713 --> 00:54:29,852 [exhales sharply] 1160 00:54:29,990 --> 00:54:31,751 Thank goodness someone was there 1161 00:54:31,889 --> 00:54:33,994 to bring you back home. 1162 00:54:34,132 --> 00:54:36,031 ♪ ♪ 1163 00:54:40,656 --> 00:54:41,830 [P.A. beeps] 1164 00:54:41,968 --> 00:54:43,935 [indistinct P.A. announcement] 1165 00:54:44,971 --> 00:54:47,042 [phone ringing] 1166 00:54:50,908 --> 00:54:52,289 [indistinct chatter] 1167 00:54:53,497 --> 00:54:54,843 -Hey, Mom. -Hey, sweetheart. 1168 00:54:54,981 --> 00:54:56,776 What are you up to? 1169 00:54:56,914 --> 00:54:58,260 Nothing, nothing. 1170 00:54:58,398 --> 00:55:00,849 Just, um... 1171 00:55:00,987 --> 00:55:02,678 hanging out with Grandpa at the lake. 1172 00:55:02,816 --> 00:55:04,715 Just, um, watching the geese. 1173 00:55:04,853 --> 00:55:06,889 Well, that’s great, I’m glad you have time. 1174 00:55:07,027 --> 00:55:09,167 So, I-I was thinking the realtor could 1175 00:55:09,306 --> 00:55:11,963 -come by this afternoon at 2:00. -[line beeping] 1176 00:55:14,725 --> 00:55:16,520 AUTOMATED VOICE: Please leave your message... 1177 00:55:16,658 --> 00:55:17,866 [beeps] 1178 00:55:18,004 --> 00:55:19,281 You know, when we met, I was sure 1179 00:55:19,419 --> 00:55:21,352 you were going to do the work, Merit. 1180 00:55:21,490 --> 00:55:23,078 [distant train horn blows] 1181 00:55:23,216 --> 00:55:25,874 Guess it’s never too late to be surprised, hmm? 1182 00:55:26,012 --> 00:55:27,634 KRIS: Merit? 1183 00:55:27,772 --> 00:55:29,636 -Hello? Are you there? -Yeah, yeah, I’m here. 1184 00:55:29,774 --> 00:55:31,535 Okay, great, so 2:00 then, all right? 1185 00:55:31,673 --> 00:55:33,364 2:00, they’ll be there. 1186 00:55:33,502 --> 00:55:34,572 Thanks so much, honey. 1187 00:55:34,710 --> 00:55:36,091 They’ll see you at 2:00, bye. 1188 00:55:36,229 --> 00:55:37,851 [line beeps] 1189 00:55:48,828 --> 00:55:50,726 It’s a gorgeous day. 1190 00:55:52,176 --> 00:55:53,142 We should take the pontoon boat out 1191 00:55:53,280 --> 00:55:56,007 this afternoon, get some sun. 1192 00:55:57,215 --> 00:55:59,908 The bird feeder still needs fixing. 1193 00:56:01,150 --> 00:56:02,600 Okay, well, we can go into town 1194 00:56:02,738 --> 00:56:04,326 and shop for new bird feeders. 1195 00:56:04,464 --> 00:56:06,017 I got what I need. 1196 00:56:06,155 --> 00:56:07,398 Maybe not new ones, but... 1197 00:56:07,536 --> 00:56:08,744 No, that would be crazy. 1198 00:56:08,882 --> 00:56:11,402 ...parts. 1199 00:56:11,540 --> 00:56:12,852 What is this? 1200 00:56:12,990 --> 00:56:14,094 Uh-oh. 1201 00:56:14,232 --> 00:56:16,407 It’s an iPod, Grandpa, remember? 1202 00:56:16,545 --> 00:56:18,202 Plays music. 1203 00:56:18,340 --> 00:56:19,962 Let me see it. 1204 00:56:20,100 --> 00:56:22,379 I put some new music on it for you. 1205 00:56:24,760 --> 00:56:26,452 [rock music plays] 1206 00:56:26,590 --> 00:56:29,386 [chuckling] 1207 00:56:29,524 --> 00:56:31,215 Not bad. 1208 00:56:31,353 --> 00:56:35,046 Still, I’ve seen AN/PRC-25 field radios in the trash 1209 00:56:35,184 --> 00:56:37,532 that were capable of playing music. 1210 00:56:37,670 --> 00:56:40,776 ♪ That funny feeling I call the fever ♪ 1211 00:56:40,914 --> 00:56:44,055 ♪ Seems I’ve had it for 18 years ♪ 1212 00:56:46,506 --> 00:56:50,821 ♪ I thought I felt all right, but then it happened... ♪ 1213 00:56:50,959 --> 00:56:54,376 [muffled music continues] 1214 00:56:54,514 --> 00:56:56,413 -[engine turns off] -[music stops] 1215 00:56:58,035 --> 00:57:00,313 [birds chirping] 1216 00:57:04,593 --> 00:57:07,424 [phone chiming] 1217 00:57:12,981 --> 00:57:13,947 You sure about the pontoon boat? 1218 00:57:14,085 --> 00:57:16,985 Yeah, I’m sure. 1219 00:57:21,196 --> 00:57:23,025 [TV playing indistinctly] 1220 00:57:23,163 --> 00:57:25,821 Wow. Your grandpa is just putting shit everywhere, 1221 00:57:25,959 --> 00:57:27,789 isn’t he? 1222 00:57:28,652 --> 00:57:29,756 Hmm. 1223 00:57:29,894 --> 00:57:31,482 Ooh. 1224 00:57:31,620 --> 00:57:33,795 These expired in 2012. 1225 00:57:33,933 --> 00:57:35,452 I would still eat them, though. 1226 00:57:36,763 --> 00:57:38,282 You know, my abuelo was stubborn as hell, too. 1227 00:57:38,420 --> 00:57:41,043 -You don’t have to... -No, no, really, he was. 1228 00:57:41,181 --> 00:57:43,149 I mean, he loved us kids, 1229 00:57:43,287 --> 00:57:45,151 but anything we wanted to do was "no." 1230 00:57:45,289 --> 00:57:46,739 "Want to go to the movies?" "No." 1231 00:57:46,877 --> 00:57:48,534 "Ice cream?" "No." 1232 00:57:48,672 --> 00:57:50,846 Even shit he wanted to do he wouldn’t do. 1233 00:57:50,984 --> 00:57:52,848 One time, I stole a Reader’s Digest 1234 00:57:52,986 --> 00:57:55,195 from the library, and it had something on the cover like, 1235 00:57:55,333 --> 00:57:57,025 "A hundred fun things to do with your grandkids," 1236 00:57:57,163 --> 00:57:58,854 and I put it in our mailbox and just, like, pretended 1237 00:57:58,992 --> 00:58:00,856 it got delivered to the wrong address, 1238 00:58:00,994 --> 00:58:02,202 and that con worked like a charm. 1239 00:58:02,340 --> 00:58:04,826 We had ice cream that afternoon. 1240 00:58:05,930 --> 00:58:07,484 Zoe, you’re a genius. 1241 00:58:07,622 --> 00:58:09,555 Thank you. 1242 00:58:09,693 --> 00:58:11,246 Wait, why? 1243 00:58:14,387 --> 00:58:15,837 Listen, my abuelo was kind of dumb, 1244 00:58:15,975 --> 00:58:17,459 and that was just ice cream. 1245 00:58:17,597 --> 00:58:18,529 I don’t think this is gonna work the same way. 1246 00:58:18,667 --> 00:58:20,151 No, it’s gonna work. 1247 00:58:21,739 --> 00:58:23,430 We just... 1248 00:58:23,569 --> 00:58:26,261 just gotta make the ice cream his idea. 1249 00:58:26,399 --> 00:58:29,057 Well, can we actually get ice cream afterwards? 1250 00:58:29,195 --> 00:58:30,645 ’Cause now we’ve said it so many times, 1251 00:58:30,783 --> 00:58:32,198 I really want some. 1252 00:58:34,027 --> 00:58:35,097 [beeps] 1253 00:58:35,235 --> 00:58:37,168 [ignition sputtering] 1254 00:58:38,342 --> 00:58:41,138 -[beeps] -[ignition sputtering] 1255 00:58:42,070 --> 00:58:44,590 -[beeps] -[ignition sputtering] 1256 00:58:44,728 --> 00:58:47,109 What in God’s green hell is that? 1257 00:58:49,422 --> 00:58:51,528 -[beeps] -[ignition sputtering] 1258 00:58:51,666 --> 00:58:52,874 DALE: [sighs] Jesus. 1259 00:58:53,012 --> 00:58:54,427 Goddamn it, Emmy! 1260 00:58:54,565 --> 00:58:56,429 What... 1261 00:58:56,567 --> 00:58:58,949 -Jesus Christ. -Ooh, you did it now. 1262 00:58:59,087 --> 00:59:01,365 This is the plan. 1263 00:59:02,677 --> 00:59:05,231 -You’re gonna flood it. -[ignition sputtering] 1264 00:59:05,369 --> 00:59:06,508 -[engine starts] -There it goes. 1265 00:59:06,646 --> 00:59:07,992 [Dale sighs] 1266 00:59:14,378 --> 00:59:18,071 Be a shame to squander a beautiful day like this. 1267 00:59:21,765 --> 00:59:23,732 Get in your seat. 1268 00:59:23,870 --> 00:59:25,976 You’re on rocks lookout. 1269 00:59:26,114 --> 00:59:28,806 Charlie Mike. 1270 00:59:28,944 --> 00:59:31,257 [sighing, grunting] 1271 00:59:34,847 --> 00:59:37,401 [engine purring] 1272 00:59:44,753 --> 00:59:46,962 [engine slows] 1273 00:59:50,000 --> 00:59:52,243 [birds chirping] 1274 00:59:54,798 --> 00:59:56,627 So... 1275 00:59:56,765 --> 00:59:59,285 What’s the plan then? 1276 01:00:00,562 --> 01:00:02,806 -The plan? -Yeah, you and your mom, 1277 01:00:02,944 --> 01:00:06,223 I’m sure there’s some scheme afloat. 1278 01:00:07,983 --> 01:00:09,985 She’s just worried about you. 1279 01:00:10,123 --> 01:00:12,056 DALE: Yeah, what about you? 1280 01:00:13,989 --> 01:00:16,302 I just want you to be happy. 1281 01:00:20,099 --> 01:00:21,341 I’ve actually been meaning to talk to you 1282 01:00:21,479 --> 01:00:22,515 about the cabin. 1283 01:00:24,759 --> 01:00:27,002 You know, your grandma, 1284 01:00:27,140 --> 01:00:29,626 she loved this lake. 1285 01:00:29,764 --> 01:00:32,007 Especially in the wintertime. 1286 01:00:32,145 --> 01:00:34,216 She thought it was prettiest then. 1287 01:00:34,354 --> 01:00:36,184 Always preferred the summers myself. 1288 01:00:36,322 --> 01:00:40,395 "Too damn muggy," she’d say. 1289 01:00:40,533 --> 01:00:44,295 "Didn’t you get enough humidity in Vietnam?" 1290 01:00:44,433 --> 01:00:47,402 That was her one Vietnam joke. 1291 01:00:47,540 --> 01:00:48,852 [chuckles] 1292 01:00:48,990 --> 01:00:53,063 That’s what I think about now... 1293 01:00:53,201 --> 01:00:55,513 hot days like today. 1294 01:00:59,345 --> 01:01:01,209 That’s why your little snot-nosed ass 1295 01:01:01,347 --> 01:01:04,419 used to spend all those summers out here with me. 1296 01:01:04,557 --> 01:01:08,457 You didn’t talk much, and you... 1297 01:01:09,873 --> 01:01:12,910 ...you were a deadeye on rocks lookout. 1298 01:01:13,048 --> 01:01:15,499 Perfect fisherman’s mate. 1299 01:01:15,637 --> 01:01:18,053 I loved it. 1300 01:01:18,191 --> 01:01:21,608 I love being out here. 1301 01:01:21,747 --> 01:01:24,542 Why haven’t we seen you in so long? 1302 01:01:29,168 --> 01:01:30,687 I thought for sure you’d have shown up 1303 01:01:30,825 --> 01:01:34,069 during your grandma’s final days. 1304 01:01:36,693 --> 01:01:38,556 At her funeral. 1305 01:01:40,420 --> 01:01:43,423 [whispers]: Do not tell him. 1306 01:01:53,468 --> 01:01:56,574 I’ve... I’ve been dealing with some things... 1307 01:01:58,438 --> 01:02:00,889 ...from over there. 1308 01:02:01,027 --> 01:02:04,099 Yeah, let me guess... 1309 01:02:04,237 --> 01:02:06,274 PTSD? 1310 01:02:09,208 --> 01:02:10,830 You Iraq and Afghan vets, 1311 01:02:10,968 --> 01:02:14,661 you know, your whole entitled generation really, 1312 01:02:14,800 --> 01:02:18,148 blame everything on something or someone else. 1313 01:02:18,286 --> 01:02:21,151 You know, when we came back, we didn’t have any PTSD 1314 01:02:21,289 --> 01:02:22,497 to blame everything on. 1315 01:02:22,635 --> 01:02:23,947 Call it what you want. 1316 01:02:24,085 --> 01:02:25,534 Combat stress, shell shock, whatever. 1317 01:02:25,672 --> 01:02:28,468 Goddamn it, don’t "whatever" me, young lady. 1318 01:02:28,606 --> 01:02:30,988 Our wars were not the same. 1319 01:02:33,266 --> 01:02:35,372 I read in the Army Times that people line up 1320 01:02:35,510 --> 01:02:37,477 at the airports and greet each and every one of you 1321 01:02:37,615 --> 01:02:39,652 when you return home from duty. 1322 01:02:39,790 --> 01:02:41,619 Is that true? 1323 01:02:41,758 --> 01:02:43,587 Did that happen to you? 1324 01:02:44,968 --> 01:02:47,798 You know what happened to me? 1325 01:02:47,936 --> 01:02:50,318 I had to change out of my uniform at SFO 1326 01:02:50,456 --> 01:02:52,285 in a public bathroom. 1327 01:02:53,355 --> 01:02:55,806 And I still got spit on. 1328 01:02:58,153 --> 01:03:01,294 My short hair and my green duffel, 1329 01:03:01,432 --> 01:03:03,710 that’s how they knew I was a "baby killer." 1330 01:03:03,849 --> 01:03:05,782 I didn’t know that. 1331 01:03:05,920 --> 01:03:06,852 You never talked about it. 1332 01:03:06,990 --> 01:03:08,163 Well, why would I? 1333 01:03:08,301 --> 01:03:09,786 Why burden any of you with that? 1334 01:03:09,924 --> 01:03:11,477 That’s-that’s what a soldier does. 1335 01:03:11,615 --> 01:03:14,963 We go out and do things nobody else wants to do. 1336 01:03:15,101 --> 01:03:17,207 And we suck it up. 1337 01:03:17,345 --> 01:03:19,588 Well, I am sucking it up. 1338 01:03:21,280 --> 01:03:22,799 Believe me. 1339 01:03:26,181 --> 01:03:28,874 We have each other, you know. 1340 01:03:29,012 --> 01:03:30,876 Us veterans. 1341 01:03:31,014 --> 01:03:34,500 You know, maybe I didn’t talk about my war with you guys, 1342 01:03:34,638 --> 01:03:37,744 but I sure as hell talked about it down at the VFW. 1343 01:03:37,883 --> 01:03:40,402 Even brought your mom a few times on bingo night 1344 01:03:40,540 --> 01:03:43,198 when she was just knee high to a grasshopper. 1345 01:03:43,336 --> 01:03:46,305 I bet she took bingo very seriously. 1346 01:03:46,443 --> 01:03:48,169 She played four boards at a time. 1347 01:03:48,307 --> 01:03:51,620 She used to yell at us for talking too much. 1348 01:03:54,002 --> 01:03:56,936 ♪ ♪ 1349 01:03:57,074 --> 01:03:58,835 I should’ve been here. 1350 01:04:02,562 --> 01:04:06,049 Okay, Em, why don’t you come on over here 1351 01:04:06,187 --> 01:04:08,223 and steer us home? 1352 01:04:08,361 --> 01:04:09,949 Yes, sir. 1353 01:04:29,866 --> 01:04:31,281 [birds chirping] 1354 01:04:31,419 --> 01:04:33,904 [microwave beeping] 1355 01:04:39,082 --> 01:04:40,393 [grunts] 1356 01:04:42,879 --> 01:04:44,225 Thanks. 1357 01:04:45,882 --> 01:04:47,366 [sighs] 1358 01:04:51,266 --> 01:04:54,752 I thought you only ate that güten-free stuff. 1359 01:04:54,891 --> 01:04:56,582 Why, because I live in the city? 1360 01:04:56,720 --> 01:04:58,653 I’m still your granddaughter. 1361 01:04:58,791 --> 01:05:02,277 Yeah, you’re gonna have to speak up, darlin’. 1362 01:05:02,415 --> 01:05:04,590 Everybody talks so quietly these days. 1363 01:05:04,728 --> 01:05:06,833 Jesus. 1364 01:05:06,972 --> 01:05:09,422 So, the Fourth of July celebration, 1365 01:05:09,560 --> 01:05:11,148 and craft show, is tomorrow. 1366 01:05:11,286 --> 01:05:12,943 You mean the crap show? 1367 01:05:13,081 --> 01:05:16,843 I know you have everything that you need here, but... 1368 01:05:16,982 --> 01:05:19,812 I thought maybe we could go to Roy Purdy’s booth? 1369 01:05:19,950 --> 01:05:22,090 I’ll bet he has some spare parts to fix that bird feeder 1370 01:05:22,228 --> 01:05:25,404 -of yours. -Mmm, perhaps. 1371 01:05:25,542 --> 01:05:27,475 I could drive us in. 1372 01:05:27,613 --> 01:05:29,856 First thing in the morning. 1373 01:05:31,824 --> 01:05:33,515 I’m goin’ to bed. 1374 01:05:39,245 --> 01:05:41,178 [groans] 1375 01:05:41,316 --> 01:05:43,663 Not really hungry. 1376 01:05:44,457 --> 01:05:46,770 ♪ ♪ 1377 01:05:52,431 --> 01:05:54,191 Yeah, hi, I’m Richard, semper fi. 1378 01:05:54,329 --> 01:05:56,331 I was a Marine lieutenant in Vietnam. 1379 01:05:56,469 --> 01:05:57,608 Platoon commander, combat type. 1380 01:05:57,746 --> 01:05:59,541 Navy commander, trauma surgeon. 1381 01:05:59,679 --> 01:06:01,198 I work the ER over at St. John’s. 1382 01:06:01,336 --> 01:06:03,545 Army, staff sergeant, OIF1. 1383 01:06:03,683 --> 01:06:07,204 I was deployed to Iraq twice and Afghanistan once 1384 01:06:07,342 --> 01:06:09,413 and now I’m a teacher. 1385 01:06:09,551 --> 01:06:12,865 Going back to school, get my MBA. 1386 01:06:13,003 --> 01:06:14,384 You know, proving that all Marines aren’t dumb. 1387 01:06:14,522 --> 01:06:17,697 Now I work in finance, but I hate it. 1388 01:06:17,835 --> 01:06:20,907 So, um, I tried to find something that I do love now 1389 01:06:21,046 --> 01:06:23,117 and it turns out that’s stand-up comedy, 1390 01:06:23,255 --> 01:06:24,842 so I’ve been giving that a try. 1391 01:06:24,981 --> 01:06:27,328 "Being in the military’s a lot like being Asian. 1392 01:06:27,466 --> 01:06:29,123 "We all kinda look alike and everybody thinks 1393 01:06:29,261 --> 01:06:30,814 we’re the Marines." 1394 01:06:32,333 --> 01:06:33,713 The world has this impression of who we are 1395 01:06:33,851 --> 01:06:36,164 when we say that we’re veterans. 1396 01:06:36,302 --> 01:06:38,235 Trying vulnerability and talking to my friends, 1397 01:06:38,373 --> 01:06:40,237 but realizing, like... [exhales] 1398 01:06:40,375 --> 01:06:43,723 I can’t tell them about the things that I’ve done or-- 1399 01:06:43,861 --> 01:06:45,967 Eh, all this Iraq and Afghanistan stuff 1400 01:06:46,105 --> 01:06:48,866 has brought up some old tapes for me. 1401 01:06:49,005 --> 01:06:50,799 So, I wanted to come here and share with you 1402 01:06:50,937 --> 01:06:52,353 what I could and-- 1403 01:06:52,491 --> 01:06:54,079 I’ve lost more guys back home, though, 1404 01:06:54,217 --> 01:06:55,701 than I did in Iraq. 1405 01:06:56,564 --> 01:06:59,360 Thanks, James. 1406 01:07:00,602 --> 01:07:01,879 [humming] 1407 01:07:03,364 --> 01:07:06,608 [phone ringing] 1408 01:07:14,685 --> 01:07:16,756 -Hey. -ALEX: Hey. 1409 01:07:16,894 --> 01:07:19,380 Sorry, I haven’t gotten back to you about the room. 1410 01:07:19,518 --> 01:07:21,520 Yeah, no, it’s cool. You still got two days anyways. 1411 01:07:21,658 --> 01:07:23,073 I wasn’t calling about that. 1412 01:07:23,211 --> 01:07:26,111 I was just... I was just checking on you, soldier, 1413 01:07:26,249 --> 01:07:28,837 um, ’cause last night, uh... 1414 01:07:28,975 --> 01:07:31,047 Yeah, uh... 1415 01:07:33,739 --> 01:07:36,293 Yeah, I’m-I’m-I’m sorry, I don’t-- 1416 01:07:36,431 --> 01:07:39,917 Look, I’m a forgiving and noble man. 1417 01:07:40,056 --> 01:07:41,712 So, you’re good. 1418 01:07:41,850 --> 01:07:43,818 Yeah, and-and considerate. 1419 01:07:43,956 --> 01:07:46,717 And I’m also handsome and I do my taxes 1420 01:07:46,855 --> 01:07:49,134 on time, usually, so... 1421 01:07:49,272 --> 01:07:51,136 [chuckling] 1422 01:07:51,274 --> 01:07:55,416 Um, when can I see you again? 1423 01:07:56,451 --> 01:07:58,867 How about the Fourth of July thing? 1424 01:07:59,005 --> 01:07:59,937 You going to that? 1425 01:08:00,076 --> 01:08:02,008 Yeah, well, I hope so. 1426 01:08:02,147 --> 01:08:05,771 Yeah, okay, uh, well, um, thanks for picking up. 1427 01:08:05,909 --> 01:08:08,567 And, um, good night, Merit. 1428 01:08:08,705 --> 01:08:10,465 Good night. 1429 01:08:12,260 --> 01:08:15,194 ♪ ♪ 1430 01:08:15,332 --> 01:08:19,336 Shit... you scared me, Zoe. 1431 01:08:19,474 --> 01:08:21,442 I’m your shadow. 1432 01:08:21,580 --> 01:08:22,926 Boo! 1433 01:08:24,479 --> 01:08:25,894 Where else would I be? 1434 01:08:26,032 --> 01:08:28,966 ♪ ♪ 1435 01:08:29,725 --> 01:08:31,107 Hey, um... 1436 01:08:32,555 --> 01:08:35,697 next time you want to tell your granddad about me, 1437 01:08:35,835 --> 01:08:38,734 why don’t you tell him about your big plans for him instead? 1438 01:08:38,872 --> 01:08:41,220 How you’re going to take him away from his home, 1439 01:08:41,358 --> 01:08:43,671 his boat and his birds, 1440 01:08:43,809 --> 01:08:46,294 and stick him in a septuagenarian purgatory 1441 01:08:46,432 --> 01:08:49,020 where he’ll die confused and alone. 1442 01:08:56,096 --> 01:08:57,202 Coward. 1443 01:09:00,205 --> 01:09:02,517 [birds chirping] 1444 01:09:05,486 --> 01:09:09,145 [thumping] 1445 01:09:37,380 --> 01:09:39,692 [sprinklers spritzing] 1446 01:09:49,599 --> 01:09:52,049 You got any other tunes on this thing? 1447 01:09:53,533 --> 01:09:55,536 Sir, yes, sir. 1448 01:09:56,709 --> 01:09:58,918 ["Dream Machine" by Daniel Edwardson playing] 1449 01:10:01,921 --> 01:10:04,372 Fine, this one is a good one. 1450 01:10:04,510 --> 01:10:06,754 ♪ ♪ 1451 01:10:09,205 --> 01:10:11,621 ♪ Once I had a dream that made me sad ♪ 1452 01:10:11,759 --> 01:10:13,001 ♪ Made me sad ♪ 1453 01:10:13,139 --> 01:10:15,141 ♪ ♪ 1454 01:10:15,280 --> 01:10:18,593 ♪ How so many people can be bad ♪ 1455 01:10:18,731 --> 01:10:20,975 ♪ ♪ 1456 01:10:21,113 --> 01:10:23,805 ♪ Everybody wants all they can grab ♪ 1457 01:10:23,943 --> 01:10:26,118 ♪ They can grab ♪ 1458 01:10:26,256 --> 01:10:31,088 ♪ No one’s ever happy with their share ♪ 1459 01:10:36,266 --> 01:10:39,442 ♪ We’re all here until we know not when ♪ 1460 01:10:39,580 --> 01:10:41,306 ♪ Not when ♪ 1461 01:10:41,444 --> 01:10:46,000 ♪ Love has gone and won’t come back again. ♪ 1462 01:10:46,138 --> 01:10:47,450 There’s Roy. 1463 01:10:47,588 --> 01:10:49,314 Well, I’ll be. 1464 01:10:49,452 --> 01:10:50,798 Is that Dale? 1465 01:10:50,936 --> 01:10:52,317 -You’re damn right it is. -[chuckles] 1466 01:10:52,455 --> 01:10:53,525 How the hell are ya, Roy? 1467 01:10:53,663 --> 01:10:55,630 Oh, you know, can’t complain. 1468 01:10:55,768 --> 01:10:57,322 Good to see you. 1469 01:10:57,460 --> 01:11:00,186 Ah, we haven’t seen you since Angela passed. 1470 01:11:01,498 --> 01:11:03,259 How you been holding up? 1471 01:11:04,398 --> 01:11:05,330 Oh, fine. 1472 01:11:05,468 --> 01:11:07,297 -Doing fine. -Uh-huh. 1473 01:11:07,435 --> 01:11:09,195 Listen, Roy, I need some material 1474 01:11:09,334 --> 01:11:10,990 for an old finch feeder I’ve got. 1475 01:11:11,128 --> 01:11:12,268 I’ve had it for years and the damn thing’s 1476 01:11:12,406 --> 01:11:14,097 falling apart on me. 1477 01:11:14,235 --> 01:11:15,823 What do you think about a new one, huh? 1478 01:11:15,961 --> 01:11:17,342 Well, what do you got? 1479 01:11:17,480 --> 01:11:19,309 -I thought you didn’t want-- -Oh, hush. 1480 01:11:19,447 --> 01:11:21,415 -ROY: You must be-- -Merit. 1481 01:11:21,553 --> 01:11:22,519 Merit! 1482 01:11:22,657 --> 01:11:23,831 That’s my granddaughter. 1483 01:11:23,969 --> 01:11:25,419 She lives in the city. 1484 01:11:25,557 --> 01:11:26,523 I don’t believe it. 1485 01:11:26,661 --> 01:11:28,111 Wow. 1486 01:11:28,249 --> 01:11:29,630 Last time I saw you, you were about this high, 1487 01:11:29,768 --> 01:11:32,184 playing with G.I. Joes. 1488 01:11:32,322 --> 01:11:34,151 What are you up to these days? 1489 01:11:34,290 --> 01:11:35,636 Not much. 1490 01:11:35,774 --> 01:11:37,983 DALE: She was in Afghanistan. 1491 01:11:38,121 --> 01:11:39,674 Lightweight vehicle mechanic. 1492 01:11:39,812 --> 01:11:41,366 And then, they stuck her on some outpost 1493 01:11:41,504 --> 01:11:43,437 near the Pakistan border 1494 01:11:43,575 --> 01:11:46,716 pulling guard duty detail for the 10th Mountain grunts. 1495 01:11:46,854 --> 01:11:49,097 Army’s run by a bunch of yahoos these days. 1496 01:11:49,235 --> 01:11:51,686 Well, thank you for your service. 1497 01:11:51,824 --> 01:11:53,343 Welcome home, young lady. 1498 01:11:53,481 --> 01:11:54,724 Thank you very much. 1499 01:11:54,862 --> 01:11:55,966 How much is this one? 1500 01:11:56,104 --> 01:11:57,036 $40. 1501 01:11:57,174 --> 01:11:59,073 For you, Dale, 50. 1502 01:11:59,211 --> 01:12:00,488 [chuckling] 1503 01:12:00,626 --> 01:12:01,834 Well, fine. 1504 01:12:01,972 --> 01:12:04,389 -We’ll take it. -Good. 1505 01:12:04,527 --> 01:12:05,735 Do you have money? 1506 01:12:05,873 --> 01:12:08,082 Yeah, yeah, yeah, I think so. 1507 01:12:08,220 --> 01:12:10,671 -Good to see ya, Roy. -Good to see you. 1508 01:12:11,568 --> 01:12:13,018 -40. -It’s 40. 1509 01:12:13,156 --> 01:12:15,296 Sticking you with the bill, huh? 1510 01:12:16,849 --> 01:12:18,506 Doesn’t he know you’re broke? 1511 01:12:18,644 --> 01:12:20,991 We will continue tonight’s program 1512 01:12:21,129 --> 01:12:23,580 with a salute to our nation’s veterans. 1513 01:12:23,718 --> 01:12:26,272 As is our tradition, if you’ve served 1514 01:12:26,411 --> 01:12:28,516 or are currently serving, when you hear 1515 01:12:28,654 --> 01:12:31,485 your branch’s song played, please stand 1516 01:12:31,623 --> 01:12:34,177 and be recognized. 1517 01:12:34,315 --> 01:12:38,008 [band playing] 1518 01:12:38,146 --> 01:12:40,701 ♪ ♪ 1519 01:12:41,633 --> 01:12:43,704 ♪ March along ♪ 1520 01:12:43,842 --> 01:12:45,533 ♪ Sing our song ♪ 1521 01:12:45,671 --> 01:12:48,881 ♪ With the army of the free ♪ 1522 01:12:49,019 --> 01:12:53,127 ♪ Count the brave, count the true ♪ 1523 01:12:53,265 --> 01:12:56,579 ♪ Who have fought to victory ♪ 1524 01:12:56,717 --> 01:13:01,135 ♪ We’re the Army and proud of our name ♪ 1525 01:13:01,273 --> 01:13:04,725 ♪ We’re the Army and proudly proclaim... ♪ 1526 01:13:08,280 --> 01:13:10,316 ♪ ♪ 1527 01:13:36,929 --> 01:13:39,207 ♪ ♪ 1528 01:13:56,155 --> 01:13:58,019 ♪ First to fight, for the right ♪ 1529 01:13:58,157 --> 01:13:59,607 ♪ And to build the Nation’s might ♪ 1530 01:13:59,745 --> 01:14:03,369 ♪ And the Army goes rolling along ♪ 1531 01:14:03,508 --> 01:14:05,958 ♪ Proud of all we have done ♪ 1532 01:14:06,096 --> 01:14:08,616 ♪ Fighting till the battle’s won ♪ 1533 01:14:08,754 --> 01:14:11,447 ♪ And the Army goes rolling along ♪ 1534 01:14:11,585 --> 01:14:14,519 ♪ Then it’s hi, hi, hey ♪ 1535 01:14:14,657 --> 01:14:16,210 ♪ The Army’s on its way ♪ 1536 01:14:16,348 --> 01:14:19,696 ♪ Count off the cadence loud and strong ♪ 1537 01:14:19,834 --> 01:14:23,355 ♪ For where’er we go, you will always know ♪ 1538 01:14:23,493 --> 01:14:27,877 ♪ That the Army goes rolling along. ♪ 1539 01:14:28,015 --> 01:14:31,259 [applause and cheering] 1540 01:14:40,268 --> 01:14:44,169 [chatter and laughter] 1541 01:14:46,758 --> 01:14:48,518 MERIT: Seems like right up here is good, yeah? 1542 01:14:48,656 --> 01:14:50,416 Yeah, fine. 1543 01:14:50,555 --> 01:14:51,797 Hey, Merit? 1544 01:14:51,935 --> 01:14:53,040 Hey! 1545 01:14:53,178 --> 01:14:54,317 What’s up, stranger? 1546 01:14:54,455 --> 01:14:55,387 Hey. 1547 01:14:55,525 --> 01:14:56,837 You look, uh, um... 1548 01:14:56,975 --> 01:14:59,874 Hi, uh... 1549 01:15:00,012 --> 01:15:01,324 You must be the colonel. 1550 01:15:01,462 --> 01:15:02,532 Lieutenant colonel. 1551 01:15:02,670 --> 01:15:04,569 Retired. Who are you? 1552 01:15:04,707 --> 01:15:07,226 Uh, hi, I’m Alex, Manager First Class, 1553 01:15:07,364 --> 01:15:10,195 Shady Acres Assisted Living Facility. 1554 01:15:13,509 --> 01:15:15,614 Come again? What? 1555 01:15:15,752 --> 01:15:17,858 That’s a retirement home, right? 1556 01:15:17,996 --> 01:15:19,238 I... 1557 01:15:19,376 --> 01:15:21,378 [stammering] 1558 01:15:22,966 --> 01:15:25,555 How do you two know each other? 1559 01:15:25,693 --> 01:15:31,250 Uh, uh, we-we, uh... we met at-at-at... 1560 01:15:31,388 --> 01:15:32,700 [slams chair] 1561 01:15:32,838 --> 01:15:34,046 Grandpa. 1562 01:15:34,184 --> 01:15:35,496 [spits] 1563 01:15:35,634 --> 01:15:36,704 Traitor! 1564 01:15:36,842 --> 01:15:39,396 ♪ ♪ 1565 01:15:39,535 --> 01:15:41,053 -Fuck. -I’m sorry, I didn’t know. 1566 01:15:41,191 --> 01:15:42,883 Of course you didn’t! 1567 01:15:43,021 --> 01:15:44,436 Hey, don’t you think you should give him some space? 1568 01:15:44,574 --> 01:15:46,024 What? 1569 01:15:46,162 --> 01:15:47,577 You used to be so good at giving him space. 1570 01:15:47,715 --> 01:15:48,923 Zoe, let me go. 1571 01:15:49,061 --> 01:15:51,892 ♪ ♪ 1572 01:15:52,755 --> 01:15:54,377 Grandpa! 1573 01:16:00,728 --> 01:16:02,454 Grandpa! 1574 01:16:02,592 --> 01:16:04,560 ♪ ♪ 1575 01:16:23,958 --> 01:16:25,891 [fireworks exploding] 1576 01:16:26,029 --> 01:16:29,032 ♪ ♪ 1577 01:16:32,898 --> 01:16:34,382 MERIT: Get back inside! 1578 01:16:34,520 --> 01:16:36,626 What is wrong with you? Stop! 1579 01:16:36,764 --> 01:16:38,455 ♪ ♪ 1580 01:16:40,147 --> 01:16:42,736 -Get back inside, now! -Why? 1581 01:16:42,874 --> 01:16:44,082 No, no! 1582 01:16:52,124 --> 01:16:53,850 [panting] 1583 01:16:53,988 --> 01:16:55,783 Mom? 1584 01:16:55,921 --> 01:16:57,682 I... 1585 01:16:57,820 --> 01:16:59,373 uh... 1586 01:16:59,511 --> 01:17:00,892 Grandpa, uh... 1587 01:17:01,030 --> 01:17:01,996 Yeah, don’t worry. He’s here. 1588 01:17:02,134 --> 01:17:03,308 He’s here? 1589 01:17:03,446 --> 01:17:05,655 He’s in bed and he is resting. 1590 01:17:05,793 --> 01:17:07,623 Oh, thank God! 1591 01:17:09,107 --> 01:17:11,074 I’m sorry, okay? 1592 01:17:11,212 --> 01:17:13,214 It’s-- Listen, listen to me, Mom. 1593 01:17:13,352 --> 01:17:14,975 He got-- he got upset. 1594 01:17:15,113 --> 01:17:16,528 It was so fast, he walked away-- 1595 01:17:16,666 --> 01:17:18,737 Merit, stop. 1596 01:17:18,875 --> 01:17:20,463 I can’t. 1597 01:17:22,016 --> 01:17:24,053 We’ll talk in the morning. 1598 01:17:28,609 --> 01:17:30,646 ♪ ♪ 1599 01:17:32,509 --> 01:17:35,202 [indistinct radio chatter] 1600 01:17:38,101 --> 01:17:40,310 ♪ ♪ 1601 01:17:42,312 --> 01:17:43,348 [snaps] 1602 01:17:50,976 --> 01:17:53,530 Hey... hey! 1603 01:17:54,462 --> 01:17:57,396 Hey, you gonna get that? 1604 01:17:57,534 --> 01:17:59,019 I’ll get it. 1605 01:18:01,677 --> 01:18:02,954 S-O-G, this is ECP1. 1606 01:18:03,092 --> 01:18:05,094 Green to green, over. 1607 01:18:06,820 --> 01:18:09,201 [indistinct radio chatter] 1608 01:18:16,588 --> 01:18:18,763 I actually get why you want to reenlist. 1609 01:18:18,901 --> 01:18:20,212 Mmm? 1610 01:18:20,350 --> 01:18:21,973 But you’re wrong. 1611 01:18:22,111 --> 01:18:23,699 Why? 1612 01:18:23,837 --> 01:18:25,045 Aren’t you the one that calls us 1613 01:18:25,183 --> 01:18:26,287 Imperial Storm Troopers 1614 01:18:26,425 --> 01:18:28,393 tricked into modern colonialism? 1615 01:18:28,531 --> 01:18:30,119 Well, it’s not not true. 1616 01:18:30,257 --> 01:18:34,261 What about you could, uh, I don’t know, die? 1617 01:18:34,399 --> 01:18:37,022 Well, then I will die in a blaze of glory, I hope. 1618 01:18:37,160 --> 01:18:38,748 Oh, fuck you. 1619 01:18:38,886 --> 01:18:40,129 Oof! 1620 01:18:40,267 --> 01:18:42,338 Small words from the college girl. 1621 01:18:44,616 --> 01:18:46,998 All right, I got a question for you then. 1622 01:18:48,171 --> 01:18:50,553 Do you think we would be... 1623 01:18:50,691 --> 01:18:52,210 friends back home? 1624 01:18:52,348 --> 01:18:53,867 Where even is home for you? 1625 01:18:54,005 --> 01:18:54,937 You don’t ever talk about it. 1626 01:18:55,075 --> 01:18:56,973 Just answer me. 1627 01:18:57,111 --> 01:18:58,803 Do you think we would be friends? 1628 01:18:58,941 --> 01:19:00,183 Of course we would. 1629 01:19:00,321 --> 01:19:02,323 Okay, then how would it work, like, 1630 01:19:02,461 --> 01:19:03,808 honestly, how would it work? 1631 01:19:03,946 --> 01:19:05,706 Like, would we see each other once a year 1632 01:19:05,844 --> 01:19:09,814 and then, like, random calls, and, I don’t know, 1633 01:19:09,952 --> 01:19:12,644 just eventually end up just liking each other’s 1634 01:19:12,782 --> 01:19:14,370 Facebook posts and shit? 1635 01:19:14,508 --> 01:19:16,510 I mean, yeah, why... why not? 1636 01:19:16,648 --> 01:19:18,339 We can-- we can do whatever we want. 1637 01:19:18,477 --> 01:19:20,514 Friendships evolve. 1638 01:19:22,309 --> 01:19:24,035 Why don’t you explain where this is coming from? 1639 01:19:24,173 --> 01:19:26,416 I’m just being realistic. 1640 01:19:27,728 --> 01:19:29,247 I don’t think you can explain yourself, 1641 01:19:29,385 --> 01:19:30,420 even if you wanted to. 1642 01:19:30,558 --> 01:19:32,595 I have been explaining myself. 1643 01:19:32,733 --> 01:19:34,355 I told you, it’s-- 1644 01:19:34,493 --> 01:19:36,081 Not everybody has a happy fuckin’ home 1645 01:19:36,219 --> 01:19:37,462 to go back to, Merit. 1646 01:19:37,600 --> 01:19:39,636 These are excuses, Zoe. 1647 01:19:40,810 --> 01:19:41,984 You need to be honest. 1648 01:19:42,122 --> 01:19:43,261 Honest about what? 1649 01:19:43,399 --> 01:19:44,676 That-that you’re scared! 1650 01:19:44,814 --> 01:19:48,231 You are scared of what comes next. 1651 01:19:49,785 --> 01:19:51,510 You wanna know where your meals are coming from, 1652 01:19:51,648 --> 01:19:54,548 you wanna be told what to do every day. 1653 01:19:55,480 --> 01:19:58,586 Okay... you think I’m scared? 1654 01:19:58,724 --> 01:20:00,485 I think you’re terrified. 1655 01:20:02,832 --> 01:20:04,144 [scoffs] 1656 01:20:07,043 --> 01:20:08,734 [gate buzzing] 1657 01:20:08,873 --> 01:20:10,426 What are you doing? 1658 01:20:10,564 --> 01:20:12,566 -Where are you going? -What do you care? 1659 01:20:12,704 --> 01:20:13,670 [dog barking] 1660 01:20:13,809 --> 01:20:16,708 [indistinct radio chatter] 1661 01:20:16,846 --> 01:20:18,572 ♪ ♪ 1662 01:20:18,710 --> 01:20:19,849 Zoe. 1663 01:20:21,230 --> 01:20:23,301 What? Stop it! 1664 01:20:24,336 --> 01:20:26,304 Zoe! 1665 01:20:27,512 --> 01:20:28,547 Zoe! 1666 01:20:34,415 --> 01:20:36,693 [birds chirping] 1667 01:20:54,504 --> 01:20:57,197 Mom was right, you do feed them too much. 1668 01:20:59,544 --> 01:21:01,442 You, your mother, Merit, 1669 01:21:01,580 --> 01:21:05,515 you all seem to know a lot about what’s best for me. 1670 01:21:09,416 --> 01:21:10,900 They are looking kind of big. 1671 01:21:11,038 --> 01:21:12,729 [laughs]: They’re huge. 1672 01:21:16,906 --> 01:21:20,289 Nice, having you and your mom around, honey. 1673 01:21:20,427 --> 01:21:22,222 Dad, Mom isn’t here. 1674 01:21:22,360 --> 01:21:23,948 Your mother and I, 1675 01:21:24,086 --> 01:21:25,639 for 22 years, 1676 01:21:25,777 --> 01:21:27,952 went wherever the Army sent me. 1677 01:21:28,090 --> 01:21:29,954 And then we bought this place. 1678 01:21:30,092 --> 01:21:32,611 Together. 1679 01:21:32,749 --> 01:21:36,132 Your mother wanted it to stay in the family. 1680 01:21:36,270 --> 01:21:37,789 I told you... 1681 01:21:37,927 --> 01:21:40,240 I’m not planning on letting her down. 1682 01:21:41,862 --> 01:21:44,554 Long as I’m breathing, I’m staying put. 1683 01:22:11,961 --> 01:22:13,480 -Mom... -You know, when the hospital 1684 01:22:13,618 --> 01:22:16,690 called me to approve new medication 1685 01:22:16,828 --> 01:22:18,347 for your grandpa, I thanked them. 1686 01:22:18,485 --> 01:22:20,107 I told them I was so happy 1687 01:22:20,245 --> 01:22:21,971 you were there as a proxy. 1688 01:22:22,109 --> 01:22:23,697 And then when they told me you were there 1689 01:22:23,835 --> 01:22:25,354 ’cause your grandfather fell again 1690 01:22:25,492 --> 01:22:28,529 and I said, "Oh, I know, no, Merit told me." 1691 01:22:28,667 --> 01:22:29,772 Mom... 1692 01:22:29,910 --> 01:22:31,360 You lied to me. 1693 01:22:33,017 --> 01:22:35,329 Your grandfather can’t live on his own. 1694 01:22:39,402 --> 01:22:42,129 I love you, Merit, 1695 01:22:42,267 --> 01:22:44,304 but you’ve made a mess. 1696 01:22:47,479 --> 01:22:49,688 ♪ ♪ 1697 01:22:55,936 --> 01:22:57,973 ♪ ♪ 1698 01:23:16,129 --> 01:23:17,751 [buzzing] 1699 01:23:17,889 --> 01:23:19,753 [speech garbled over radio] 1700 01:23:19,891 --> 01:23:21,479 What is wrong with you? 1701 01:23:21,617 --> 01:23:23,343 Stop! 1702 01:23:23,481 --> 01:23:24,758 Now, get back inside. 1703 01:23:25,897 --> 01:23:27,657 [panting] 1704 01:23:31,075 --> 01:23:32,835 ♪ ♪ 1705 01:23:32,973 --> 01:23:35,838 [dialogue inaudible] 1706 01:23:44,053 --> 01:23:46,262 Getting us both fucking killed out here? 1707 01:23:46,400 --> 01:23:48,609 -Get back inside now. -No! 1708 01:23:48,747 --> 01:23:50,094 Stop this, why are you acting 1709 01:23:50,232 --> 01:23:51,716 like your life doesn’t mean anything? 1710 01:23:51,854 --> 01:23:52,889 It doesn’t, none of this means anything. 1711 01:23:53,028 --> 01:23:54,926 -Yes it does, stop. -Why? 1712 01:23:55,064 --> 01:23:58,723 Because I love you and I care about you. 1713 01:24:01,657 --> 01:24:06,386 Zoe, you’re so big 1714 01:24:06,524 --> 01:24:08,284 and your whole life is ahead of you 1715 01:24:08,422 --> 01:24:10,424 and you don’t even see it. 1716 01:24:10,562 --> 01:24:12,702 What life? 1717 01:24:13,738 --> 01:24:15,740 We’ll make it work. 1718 01:24:17,017 --> 01:24:19,778 We will make it work. 1719 01:24:19,916 --> 01:24:20,952 Okay? 1720 01:24:24,024 --> 01:24:25,646 After the Army. 1721 01:24:28,097 --> 01:24:29,926 We’ll figure it out. 1722 01:24:31,859 --> 01:24:32,929 I swear. 1723 01:24:40,109 --> 01:24:41,593 Zoe! 1724 01:24:46,081 --> 01:24:47,944 You swore. 1725 01:24:49,739 --> 01:24:51,500 Isn’t that what you said? 1726 01:24:51,638 --> 01:24:54,434 Me and you? You got me? 1727 01:24:57,299 --> 01:24:58,955 I didn’t reenlist because of you. 1728 01:24:59,094 --> 01:25:01,096 ♪ ♪ 1729 01:25:28,847 --> 01:25:30,987 I believed you. 1730 01:25:35,199 --> 01:25:36,959 I know. 1731 01:25:38,167 --> 01:25:40,238 I know, I’m sorry. 1732 01:25:41,515 --> 01:25:44,484 I’m sorry I convinced you not to reenlist. 1733 01:25:46,865 --> 01:25:50,006 I’m sorry I didn’t see how badly you were doing. 1734 01:25:52,595 --> 01:25:56,323 And I am so sorry, 1735 01:25:56,461 --> 01:25:58,532 I am so sorry I didn’t pick up. 1736 01:25:58,670 --> 01:26:01,156 ♪ ♪ 1737 01:26:06,816 --> 01:26:09,888 ♪ ♪ 1738 01:26:33,188 --> 01:26:35,707 ♪ ♪ 1739 01:26:53,311 --> 01:26:55,313 ♪ ♪ 1740 01:27:13,538 --> 01:27:16,092 MAN: On behalf of the President of the United States, 1741 01:27:16,231 --> 01:27:17,991 the United States Army, and a grateful nation, 1742 01:27:18,129 --> 01:27:19,820 please accept this flag as a symbol 1743 01:27:19,958 --> 01:27:21,443 of our appreciation for your loved one’s 1744 01:27:21,581 --> 01:27:23,065 honorable and faithful service. 1745 01:27:24,342 --> 01:27:27,656 [sobbing]: I hate my-- I hate myself. 1746 01:27:27,794 --> 01:27:30,831 I hate myself for it. 1747 01:27:30,969 --> 01:27:32,592 You, uh-- 1748 01:27:35,733 --> 01:27:37,113 Say it. 1749 01:27:47,331 --> 01:27:50,610 You would still be alive if it weren’t for me. 1750 01:27:59,066 --> 01:28:01,068 You can’t tell anyone. 1751 01:28:04,762 --> 01:28:08,075 I know, and it’s breaking me, Zoe. 1752 01:28:08,213 --> 01:28:11,009 [crying] 1753 01:28:11,147 --> 01:28:13,357 It’s breaking me worse than I’m already broken, 1754 01:28:13,495 --> 01:28:15,117 I have to. 1755 01:28:16,463 --> 01:28:18,327 If you tell them, 1756 01:28:18,465 --> 01:28:20,467 you will lose me forever. 1757 01:28:20,605 --> 01:28:24,160 And I will never, ever forgive you. 1758 01:28:26,715 --> 01:28:28,958 ♪ ♪ 1759 01:28:36,172 --> 01:28:38,002 No... 1760 01:28:50,704 --> 01:28:53,051 But Zoe would have. 1761 01:28:53,189 --> 01:28:56,331 ♪ ♪ 1762 01:29:25,912 --> 01:29:29,087 [Merit gasping and sobbing] 1763 01:29:31,711 --> 01:29:33,437 [laughing] 1764 01:29:33,575 --> 01:29:36,094 ♪ ♪ 1765 01:30:03,398 --> 01:30:05,745 ♪ ♪ 1766 01:30:32,841 --> 01:30:35,119 Huh. 1767 01:30:40,124 --> 01:30:41,608 Mom! 1768 01:30:41,746 --> 01:30:43,645 Wait, you can’t sign these. 1769 01:30:43,783 --> 01:30:45,163 Merit, what are you doing? 1770 01:30:45,301 --> 01:30:47,925 I’m sorry, can-- I need to stop you. 1771 01:30:48,995 --> 01:30:51,791 -Hi. -Hi. 1772 01:30:51,929 --> 01:30:54,310 Can I talk to you for a second? 1773 01:30:55,967 --> 01:30:57,659 -Um, yeah. -Just over... over here. 1774 01:30:57,797 --> 01:30:59,557 -Just... -I promise you I’ll explain. 1775 01:30:59,695 --> 01:31:01,835 I will explain, just please don’t sign them. 1776 01:31:04,976 --> 01:31:06,391 -Hey. So, sorry. It’s... -What? 1777 01:31:06,530 --> 01:31:09,256 Look, I know, I know, I’m gonna... 1778 01:31:09,394 --> 01:31:11,466 Um... 1779 01:31:11,604 --> 01:31:13,433 -I’m sorry. -What? 1780 01:31:13,571 --> 01:31:14,848 I’m sorry for everything 1781 01:31:14,986 --> 01:31:16,712 -at the bar. -At the bar? 1782 01:31:16,850 --> 01:31:18,783 I’m sorry about the park, I-I didn’t know. 1783 01:31:18,921 --> 01:31:21,130 Oh, it’s okay, I... 1784 01:31:21,268 --> 01:31:23,961 I should’ve told him. 1785 01:31:24,099 --> 01:31:27,240 But thank you and... 1786 01:31:27,378 --> 01:31:29,069 I’m working through a lot of stuff right now. 1787 01:31:29,207 --> 01:31:31,658 And, um, I’m gonna get through it. 1788 01:31:31,796 --> 01:31:34,212 -Yeah. -So... 1789 01:31:34,350 --> 01:31:35,766 Second chance? 1790 01:31:35,904 --> 01:31:38,182 You’re being a goofball. 1791 01:31:38,320 --> 01:31:40,011 Okay? 1792 01:31:42,013 --> 01:31:44,222 Y-Your mom’s looking at us. 1793 01:31:44,360 --> 01:31:46,017 -MERIT: Yes, she is. -ALEX: Yeah. 1794 01:31:46,155 --> 01:31:47,847 Okay, all right, I’m gonna... 1795 01:31:47,985 --> 01:31:51,057 -Yeah. -Yeah, okay. 1796 01:31:51,195 --> 01:31:53,922 Okay, okay, Mom, listen. Um... 1797 01:31:54,060 --> 01:31:57,235 Yeah. Don’t sign these. 1798 01:31:58,996 --> 01:32:01,205 [vehicle approaching] 1799 01:32:08,764 --> 01:32:11,905 Should’ve used the Loctite, much better glue. 1800 01:32:12,043 --> 01:32:13,251 I would, Grandpa, if you would store it 1801 01:32:13,389 --> 01:32:15,426 in a normal location. 1802 01:32:17,842 --> 01:32:19,637 Tell him the news. 1803 01:32:21,397 --> 01:32:23,434 You’re not going to Shady Acres. 1804 01:32:23,572 --> 01:32:25,263 No shit. 1805 01:32:29,751 --> 01:32:31,200 I’d like to stay here. 1806 01:32:31,338 --> 01:32:32,926 Where? 1807 01:32:33,064 --> 01:32:35,929 Here. With you. 1808 01:32:36,067 --> 01:32:39,450 I can help you around the house, 1809 01:32:39,588 --> 01:32:43,143 I could fix stuff, drive you places. 1810 01:32:43,281 --> 01:32:45,974 Build you an organizer for your glues. 1811 01:32:58,780 --> 01:33:00,402 [Dale sighs] 1812 01:33:07,098 --> 01:33:09,342 You should start with the water heater. 1813 01:33:09,480 --> 01:33:12,103 You gonna be taking those long-ass showers, 1814 01:33:12,241 --> 01:33:14,071 we’ll need it in tip-top. 1815 01:33:18,800 --> 01:33:21,665 [chuckles] 1816 01:33:21,803 --> 01:33:23,736 All right. 1817 01:33:23,874 --> 01:33:25,807 [Merit chuckles] 1818 01:33:25,945 --> 01:33:27,256 You sure about this? 1819 01:33:28,464 --> 01:33:30,087 I am sure. 1820 01:33:30,225 --> 01:33:32,020 -Okay, yeah. -Oh! 1821 01:33:32,158 --> 01:33:34,332 I gotta go, um, 1822 01:33:34,470 --> 01:33:36,058 I have so much to tell you both, 1823 01:33:36,196 --> 01:33:37,715 but I have to go now. 1824 01:33:37,853 --> 01:33:39,648 I’ll be back as soon as I can. 1825 01:33:39,786 --> 01:33:41,374 Where the hell’s she going? 1826 01:33:41,512 --> 01:33:43,618 -I don’t know. -[vehicle door opens, closes] 1827 01:33:47,207 --> 01:33:49,865 ♪ And that’s when you need me there ♪ 1828 01:33:50,003 --> 01:33:53,144 ♪ With you I’ll always share ♪ 1829 01:33:53,282 --> 01:33:54,387 ♪ Because when the sun-- ♪ 1830 01:33:54,525 --> 01:33:57,010 -[music stops] -No! Fuck! 1831 01:33:57,148 --> 01:33:59,564 If this thing dies one more time I’m just gonna kill myself. 1832 01:33:59,703 --> 01:34:01,394 Don’t do that, what would I do without you? 1833 01:34:01,532 --> 01:34:03,499 Well, you know, you’ll get your own umbrella I guess. 1834 01:34:03,638 --> 01:34:05,570 [both laughing] 1835 01:34:05,709 --> 01:34:07,400 -Come on, hurry up. -I got it, I got it-- ready? 1836 01:34:07,538 --> 01:34:10,230 ♪ When the sun shines, we’ll shine together ♪ 1837 01:34:10,368 --> 01:34:12,232 ♪ Told you I’ll be here forever ♪ 1838 01:34:12,370 --> 01:34:14,062 -♪ Said I’ll al-- ♪ -[music stops] 1839 01:34:14,200 --> 01:34:16,133 Let me see it, just give it to me. 1840 01:34:16,271 --> 01:34:17,548 [Zoe sighs] 1841 01:34:17,686 --> 01:34:19,136 Come on. 1842 01:34:20,931 --> 01:34:23,485 ♪ Said I’ll always be a friend ♪ 1843 01:34:23,623 --> 01:34:26,246 ♪ Took an oath, gonna stick it out to the end ♪ 1844 01:34:26,384 --> 01:34:29,180 ♪ Now that it’s raining more than ever ♪ 1845 01:34:29,318 --> 01:34:32,494 ♪ Told you we’ll still have each other ♪ 1846 01:34:32,632 --> 01:34:35,359 ♪ You can stand under my umbrella ♪ 1847 01:34:35,497 --> 01:34:38,431 ♪ You can stand under my umbrella ♪ 1848 01:34:38,569 --> 01:34:42,400 ♪ Ella, ella, eh, eh, eh ♪ 1849 01:34:42,538 --> 01:34:44,402 ♪ Under my umbrella ♪ 1850 01:34:44,540 --> 01:34:47,612 ♪ Ella, ella, eh, eh, eh ♪ 1851 01:34:47,751 --> 01:34:50,754 Under my umbrella. 1852 01:34:53,584 --> 01:34:55,897 We’d been back home for about four years. 1853 01:34:56,035 --> 01:34:59,038 -He was like the coolest dude ever... -[door opens] 1854 01:34:59,176 --> 01:35:01,765 ...and the last person you’d ever think that... 1855 01:35:07,909 --> 01:35:09,669 Surprised to see you. 1856 01:35:09,807 --> 01:35:12,603 Never too late to be surprised. 1857 01:35:12,741 --> 01:35:14,570 We’ll see. 1858 01:35:14,709 --> 01:35:16,296 Sorry, James. 1859 01:35:16,434 --> 01:35:20,059 It’s fine. Do you want to... 1860 01:35:24,580 --> 01:35:26,341 You ready? 1861 01:35:36,696 --> 01:35:39,112 My name is Merit. 1862 01:35:40,389 --> 01:35:43,013 Served eight years in the Army. 1863 01:35:43,151 --> 01:35:46,119 63 Bravo, light-wheel mechanic. 1864 01:35:46,257 --> 01:35:48,570 Deployed to Afghanistan in 2016. 1865 01:35:53,126 --> 01:35:56,233 And why I’m here... 1866 01:35:59,443 --> 01:36:01,479 It’s not an incident. 1867 01:36:01,617 --> 01:36:03,447 ♪ ♪ 1868 01:36:11,696 --> 01:36:14,147 It’s a person. 1869 01:36:14,285 --> 01:36:17,150 ♪ ♪ 1870 01:36:23,432 --> 01:36:25,641 Her name was Zoe. 1871 01:36:27,091 --> 01:36:30,163 ♪ I’ve lived my life ♪ 1872 01:36:30,301 --> 01:36:34,478 ♪ Awaking with the dawn ♪ 1873 01:36:36,031 --> 01:36:41,899 ♪ Working on this house to make it a home ♪ 1874 01:36:42,037 --> 01:36:43,694 Some kind of wild protection, 1875 01:36:43,832 --> 01:36:45,316 although it doesn’t really do jack, 1876 01:36:45,454 --> 01:36:47,905 but it makes me feel more comforting on the inside. 1877 01:36:48,043 --> 01:36:51,219 -Did you serve your country? -Roger, I’m really proud. 1878 01:36:51,357 --> 01:36:52,979 You know... 1879 01:36:53,117 --> 01:36:55,223 ♪ Looking out ♪ 1880 01:36:55,361 --> 01:37:00,469 ♪ Feet on the sunlit ground ♪ 1881 01:37:03,714 --> 01:37:08,408 ♪ Oh, I’m a beautiful ruin ♪ 1882 01:37:08,546 --> 01:37:13,172 ♪ Memories of loss in my chest ♪ 1883 01:37:13,310 --> 01:37:17,590 ♪ I thought they’d be my undoing ♪ 1884 01:37:17,728 --> 01:37:21,628 ♪ But I’m scared to death I’ll forget ♪ 1885 01:37:27,048 --> 01:37:30,845 ♪ I’m scared to death I’ll forget ♪ 1886 01:37:40,095 --> 01:37:45,860 ♪ I felt it in my bones, the storm had broken ♪ 1887 01:37:49,415 --> 01:37:52,383 ♪ A house with shattered windows ♪ 1888 01:37:52,521 --> 01:37:55,628 ♪ Still lets the light in ♪ 1889 01:37:58,596 --> 01:38:05,569 ♪ Lately I’ve been thinking of starting a garden ♪ 1890 01:38:07,433 --> 01:38:09,953 ♪ Watching it grow ♪ 1891 01:38:10,091 --> 01:38:11,540 ♪ Breathing ♪ 1892 01:38:11,678 --> 01:38:16,580 ♪ Letting you go ♪ 1893 01:38:18,409 --> 01:38:22,758 ♪ Oh, I’m a beautiful ruin ♪ 1894 01:38:22,897 --> 01:38:27,280 ♪ Memories of loss in my chest ♪ 1895 01:38:27,418 --> 01:38:31,664 ♪ I thought they’d be my undoing ♪ 1896 01:38:31,802 --> 01:38:35,875 ♪ But I’m scared to death I’ll forget ♪ 1897 01:38:41,087 --> 01:38:45,402 ♪ I’m scared to death I’ll forget ♪ 1898 01:38:48,267 --> 01:38:52,271 ♪ Forget. ♪ 1899 01:38:52,409 --> 01:38:54,618 ♪ ♪ 1900 01:39:23,267 --> 01:39:25,476 ♪ ♪ 1901 01:39:32,828 --> 01:39:34,969 ["On a Hill" by Phinisey playing] 1902 01:39:43,356 --> 01:39:45,324 ♪ I’m out of breath ♪ 1903 01:39:45,462 --> 01:39:47,774 ♪ Gave it all, nothing left ♪ 1904 01:39:47,912 --> 01:39:50,570 ♪ Didn’t fall, I told you ♪ 1905 01:39:50,708 --> 01:39:52,503 ♪ Didn’t I? ♪ 1906 01:39:52,641 --> 01:39:55,161 ♪ Just do, you’ll be fine ♪ 1907 01:39:55,299 --> 01:39:56,818 ♪ I’m running ♪ 1908 01:39:56,956 --> 01:39:58,233 ♪ Hurting ♪ 1909 01:39:58,371 --> 01:39:59,545 ♪ Pushing ♪ 1910 01:39:59,683 --> 01:40:00,925 ♪ I got it, though ♪ 1911 01:40:01,064 --> 01:40:02,065 ♪ You breathing ♪ 1912 01:40:02,203 --> 01:40:03,756 ♪ You mean it ♪ 1913 01:40:03,894 --> 01:40:06,414 ♪ She is just how I know ♪ 1914 01:40:06,552 --> 01:40:08,519 ♪ I’m standing on a hill ♪ 1915 01:40:08,657 --> 01:40:11,350 ♪ Looking up, looking down ♪ 1916 01:40:11,488 --> 01:40:14,249 ♪ Wanna remember how it feels ♪ 1917 01:40:14,387 --> 01:40:17,218 ♪ Don’t forget to look around ♪ 1918 01:40:17,356 --> 01:40:21,981 ♪ It’s amazing ♪ 1919 01:40:22,119 --> 01:40:25,881 ♪ Oh, amazing ♪ 1920 01:40:27,676 --> 01:40:29,437 ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 1921 01:40:29,575 --> 01:40:31,508 ♪ But tomorrow ♪ 1922 01:40:31,646 --> 01:40:35,408 ♪ Tomorrow’s another day ♪ 1923 01:40:35,546 --> 01:40:37,617 ♪ So we get low ♪ 1924 01:40:37,755 --> 01:40:40,517 ♪ Go home, don’t fade away ♪ 1925 01:40:40,655 --> 01:40:42,622 ♪ I’m not done, not empty ♪ 1926 01:40:42,760 --> 01:40:45,522 ♪ Got more blood inside of me ♪ 1927 01:40:45,660 --> 01:40:48,801 ♪ Full lungs, inhale deep ♪ 1928 01:40:48,939 --> 01:40:51,459 ♪ Exhale all the chattering ♪ 1929 01:40:51,597 --> 01:40:53,254 ♪ Fighting ♪ 1930 01:40:53,392 --> 01:40:54,462 ♪ Another one ♪ 1931 01:40:54,600 --> 01:40:56,222 ♪ Keep it up ♪ 1932 01:40:56,360 --> 01:40:57,292 ♪ Until it’s done ♪ 1933 01:40:57,430 --> 01:40:58,604 ♪ Taking ground ♪ 1934 01:40:58,742 --> 01:41:00,157 ♪ From me ♪ 1935 01:41:00,295 --> 01:41:02,815 ♪ Making sounds and moving my feet ♪ 1936 01:41:02,953 --> 01:41:05,507 ♪ I’m standing on a hill ♪ 1937 01:41:05,645 --> 01:41:07,820 ♪ Looking up, looking down ♪ 1938 01:41:07,958 --> 01:41:10,788 ♪ Wanna remember how it feels ♪ 1939 01:41:10,926 --> 01:41:13,929 ♪ Don’t forget to look around ♪ 1940 01:41:14,068 --> 01:41:18,417 ♪ It’s amazing ♪ 1941 01:41:19,452 --> 01:41:23,560 ♪ Oh, amazing ♪ 1942 01:41:23,698 --> 01:41:26,080 ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 1943 01:41:26,218 --> 01:41:28,323 ♪ But tomorrow ♪ 1944 01:41:28,461 --> 01:41:31,671 ♪ Tomorrow’s another day ♪ 1945 01:41:31,809 --> 01:41:33,777 ♪ So we get low ♪ 1946 01:41:33,915 --> 01:41:37,229 ♪ Go home, don’t fade away ♪ 1947 01:41:37,367 --> 01:41:39,507 ♪ But tomorrow ♪ 1948 01:41:39,645 --> 01:41:43,097 ♪ Tomorrow’s another day ♪ 1949 01:41:43,235 --> 01:41:45,306 ♪ So we get low ♪ 1950 01:41:45,444 --> 01:41:48,964 ♪ Go home, don’t fade away ♪ 1951 01:41:59,665 --> 01:42:01,943 ♪ ♪ 1952 01:42:12,264 --> 01:42:13,644 ♪ Tomorrow ♪ 1953 01:42:13,782 --> 01:42:17,200 ♪ Tomorrow’s another day ♪ 1954 01:42:17,338 --> 01:42:18,994 ♪ So we get low ♪ 1955 01:42:19,133 --> 01:42:22,170 ♪ Go home, don’t fade away ♪ 1956 01:42:22,308 --> 01:42:24,552 ♪ But tomorrow ♪ 1957 01:42:24,690 --> 01:42:27,693 ♪ Tomorrow’s another day. ♪