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[wind blowing]

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Official YIFY movies site:
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[piano music]

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[piano music]

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[piano music]

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[SHOWER RUNNING]

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[piano music]

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[piano music]

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[piano music]

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Oh, okay, I'll let them know.

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Okay, can you see there.

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Hey! Hey!

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Good to see you. Good to see you.

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Same as always.

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Please? Yes, of course.

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You're the best. So thank you.

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You having a good day so

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far? Yeah, it's all right.

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Oh! Oh!

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I got it. Fair enough.

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[piano music]

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[piano music]

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[Music]

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Here you go.

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Thanks. What do I owe you?

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Uh, $5.50.

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I think that's it.

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It's it.

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Go ahead, just keep it.

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Stop.

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Really?

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Yeah, why not?

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Thank you.

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Anytime.

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Okay.

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Well, take care.

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Okay.

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Bye.

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Have a good day.

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Bye.

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[Music]

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Don't.

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Look at your legs.

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I have no idea.

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[Laughter]

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[Inaudible]

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[Laughter]

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What, on what?

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What are we supposed to do with practice?

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Practice.

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Practice, practice, you know?

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[Inaudible]

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You guys could come with me in Hawaii.

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I wish!

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[Music]

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[MUSIC]

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[MUSIC]

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[MUSIC]

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Hey, welcome back.

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What can I get for you?

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Could I get a hazelnut

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latte with oat milk, please?

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That'll be $5.50.

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Thanks.

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[MUSIC]

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It's saying declined.

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Do you have another card?

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That can't be right.

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Can you try it again?

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Sure, no problem.

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Still saying declined.

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Shit.

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You know what?

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I actually think I overcharged you the

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other day, so it's on the house.

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Thank you.

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[INAUDIBLE] Of course.

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Hazelnut oatmilk latte.

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I'm Logan.

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What's your name?

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Riley.

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Nice to meet you, officially.

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Hey, have you ever been to

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any of the Tiki bar nights?

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It's every night at 7

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o'clock, if you're interested.

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I mean, there's no

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invitation or anything.

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It's kind of like an unofficial hangout.

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What you reading?

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All the light we cannot see.

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Hmm, sounds interesting.

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Are you liking it?

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It's not bad.

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So how long have you been surfing?

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Is this gonna be some 20 question

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examination of my life, or do you think

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I'll actually get to read in peace?

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Sorry, I just thought that

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when you sat down that you...

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I would what? Want to engage in meaningless

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pleasantries that won't amount to any

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deeper understanding of me or you.

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[LAUGHTER]

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What?

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Nothing, nothing.

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I was just wondering if you came up with

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that or if it came from your book.

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All me.

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Well, color me impressed.

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That was quick and witty.

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Happy to oblige.

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I didn't offend you, did I?

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Nope.

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Are you sure?

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Because it seems as though that...

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Like what?

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That I don't want to talk?

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Maybe that's because

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I don't want to talk.

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You offered me a chair and I took the

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chair because there were no other chairs.

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I came here to get a coffee and read in

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peace, but if you're so determined to

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have a conversation, then

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I have a question for you.

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All right, let's hear it.

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Why did you leave the gym

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so quickly earlier today?

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Um.

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Um.

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I'm sorry I bothered you.

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Table's yours.

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So, what's up with your arm?

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All right, let's grab our
boards and get in the water.

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Looks perfect in there. Let's go!

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It's every night at seven
o'clock, if you're interested.

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[Music]

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[Music]

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[Music]

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[MUSIC]

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Hey stranger, you're here.

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We're about to do

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some shots, you want one?

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I'm not gonna stay long,

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I just stopped to say hi.

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I'm gonna grab some food to go.

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Well, we're glad that you did.

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[MUSIC]

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What can I get you today?

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Can I have a gin and tonic please?

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Any particular brand?

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You know what?

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Surprise me.

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Hey.

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[MUSIC]

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Hey.

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What's up with you

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being shy all of a sudden?

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What's up with you being
chatty all the sudden?

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You know...

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Gin and tonic, let me know what you think.

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Perfect, thank you much.

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[MUSIC]

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There we go.

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Hey, there they are.

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Thanks!

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Nice.

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Do you want to do one?

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We got some extras.

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Oh, no, she can't

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She said she has to go.

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No, I will.

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Well, all right.

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Yeah.

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[LAUGHTER]

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[MUSIC]

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All right, get home safe.

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I will see you tomorrow.

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Be there.

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I don't want to hear

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anything about being hungover.

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[MUSIC]

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Hey, how you doing?

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Well, well, well, look who it is.

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The mysterious surfer.

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What exactly makes me so mysterious?

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Are you kidding?

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You are shrouded in mystery.

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Come on, you're the one who
doesn't want to talk to anyone.

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Yeah, but there's no mystery there.

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I don't want to know anyone.

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You, on the other hand,

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want to know everyone.

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You just don't want anyone to know you.

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Not really, at least.

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Yeah?

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What makes you so sure of that?

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Because I think maybe we are.

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[THROWING UP]

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Everything come out all right?

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This is why I don't drink.

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Hey, who told you you could eat my fries?

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Yeah, you know what?

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It's probably a good idea that you get

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something in your system.

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I'm sure this too

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shall come back up.

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[WHISTLE]

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Hey, it looks like he's

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trying to close up shop.

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We should probably get going.

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Do you want me to walk you home?

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I'm perfectly capable of walking myself.

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[LAUGHTER]

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Come on.

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Hey.

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Come on.

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[MUSIC]

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Hey, Jay, we're taking off.

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Have a great night.

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Walk safe, y'all.

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Hey.

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I thought I said I didn't need any help.

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No, this is for my protection.

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We're in a shady area,

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and you're just so tough.

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You do make a solid point.

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I am very tough.

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Um, remind me, which one is you?

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Wait, you're kidding.

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That's where I'm staying.

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It doesn't take

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Sherlock to figure that out.

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What does that mean?

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You're in the same gym.

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I figured you were staying

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there or lived there, too.

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Okay.

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Walk me back.

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Okay?

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Of course.

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Yeah.

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Shit.

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What?

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The fries are coming back up.

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[THROWING UP]

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[MUSIC]

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[WASHING HANDS]

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Better?

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Much better.

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I just need to get something to drink.

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I don't think that's such a good idea...

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I meant water.

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I'm done drinking for the night.

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Do you want anything?

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Uh, water sounds great, actually.

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Thanks.

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Here.

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What?

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What?

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I can tell you want to ask me

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something, so just get it out.

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Um...

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What's with the giant pile of clothes?

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You've never seen clothes before?

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No, of course I've seen clothes before,

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but I mean, yours all

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still have the tags on them.

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Well, I had to buy a bunch of stuff

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because I didn't know what would fit.

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Why?

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Why what?

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Well, you said you had to

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buy a bunch of new clothes.

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I was just wondering why.

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Here.

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Thanks.

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So what's up with your arm?

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Um, nerve damage from

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a surgery that I had.

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On your hand?

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Um, no my shoulder.

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Small world.

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What do you mean?

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I had surgery too on my

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shoulder after an accident.

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Mine's on the right.

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Left.

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Is that why you were

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00:25:38,621 --> 00:25:39,821
struggling in the gym the other day?

293
00:25:43,959 --> 00:25:45,835
Um, yeah.

294
00:25:47,170 --> 00:25:50,298
Yeah, it comes in and goes.

295
00:25:51,424 --> 00:25:52,092
The pain.

296
00:25:54,219 --> 00:25:55,971
Some days are good, some days are bad.

297
00:25:58,640 --> 00:25:59,240
How bad?

298
00:26:03,270 --> 00:26:05,605
Like I can't function, you know?

299
00:26:06,439 --> 00:26:07,857
If I sleep on it wrong or if I lift

300
00:26:07,899 --> 00:26:08,566
something a little too

301
00:26:08,608 --> 00:26:10,694
heavy, my day's over.

302
00:26:12,028 --> 00:26:14,572
The pain just kind of lives with me now.

303
00:26:15,031 --> 00:26:16,616
So that I can really do about it.

304
00:26:16,908 --> 00:26:18,785
You know, stretching, heat, ice.

305
00:26:20,578 --> 00:26:21,413
None of it helps.

306
00:26:22,622 --> 00:26:24,040
It just hurts until it

307
00:26:24,082 --> 00:26:25,250
doesn't want to hurt anymore.

308
00:26:31,840 --> 00:26:35,885
I used to be smaller, thinner.

309
00:26:37,679 --> 00:26:38,305
I was a dancer.

310
00:26:40,015 --> 00:26:41,891
That's why I have all these clothes.

311
00:26:42,726 --> 00:26:45,687
Because my body is constantly changing

312
00:26:45,729 --> 00:26:48,064
and I don't know what to do about it.

313
00:26:49,649 --> 00:26:51,067
My whole life I was the same size.

314
00:26:51,609 --> 00:26:52,777
I didn't have to worry

315
00:26:52,819 --> 00:26:53,903
about how anything would fit.

316
00:26:55,113 --> 00:26:57,240
But now, every time I

317
00:26:57,282 --> 00:26:57,983
look in the mirror...

318
00:26:59,034 --> 00:26:59,993
You don't like what you see?

319
00:27:02,287 --> 00:27:02,887
Yeah.

320
00:27:05,999 --> 00:27:07,792
As easy as it was before, it's just

321
00:27:07,834 --> 00:27:10,420
absolutely impossible to now.

322
00:27:12,047 --> 00:27:12,647
Yeah.

323
00:27:13,840 --> 00:27:16,426
And people want to say that the scars and

324
00:27:16,468 --> 00:27:18,428
the pain should be reminders that you're

325
00:27:18,470 --> 00:27:21,181
still alive, but they don't get it.

326
00:27:22,932 --> 00:27:24,142
It isn't a reminder that we're still

327
00:27:24,184 --> 00:27:27,020
alive. It's more like a reminder.

328
00:27:27,520 --> 00:27:28,980
How hard it is to keep living.

329
00:27:45,663 --> 00:27:49,167
I didn't have surgery because of an

330
00:27:49,209 --> 00:27:50,335
accident or an injury.

331
00:27:54,422 --> 00:27:55,298
I have cancer.

332
00:28:00,428 --> 00:28:03,014
I had cancer?

333
00:28:03,807 --> 00:28:04,474
Uh...

334
00:28:05,934 --> 00:28:07,602
The fun part about cancer is not really

335
00:28:07,644 --> 00:28:09,395
knowing what's going on until they do all

336
00:28:09,437 --> 00:28:10,897
of these tests on you.

337
00:28:12,273 --> 00:28:14,067
They hook you up to a thousand machines

338
00:28:14,109 --> 00:28:15,234
and just expect you to

339
00:28:15,276 --> 00:28:16,152
wait for the results.

340
00:28:17,404 --> 00:28:19,447
Just go home and wait.

341
00:28:20,615 --> 00:28:22,241
As if you can go back to living your life

342
00:28:22,283 --> 00:28:23,993
in any sort of normal way.

343
00:28:25,328 --> 00:28:26,454
Not knowing whether you're going to make

344
00:28:26,496 --> 00:28:29,749
it to the next year or month.

345
00:28:32,085 --> 00:28:32,685
Or week.

346
00:28:34,379 --> 00:28:35,755
Just go home and wait.

347
00:28:40,176 --> 00:28:41,177
You know, you'd think going to the

348
00:28:41,219 --> 00:28:41,803
appointments would help

349
00:28:41,845 --> 00:28:43,263
set your mind at ease, but...

350
00:28:46,933 --> 00:28:47,967
That's where you get the looks,

351
00:28:49,394 --> 00:28:51,438
the questions, the stares.

352
00:28:53,314 --> 00:28:54,315
You know, I guess that's what happens

353
00:28:54,357 --> 00:28:56,192
when you're a 29-year-old man who walks

354
00:28:56,234 --> 00:28:57,235
into a mammogram clinic,

355
00:28:58,278 --> 00:28:59,737
and everyone there wonders if you're

356
00:28:59,779 --> 00:29:01,156
there for your wife or your mother.

357
00:29:04,284 --> 00:29:05,284
You have to tell them that you're there

358
00:29:05,326 --> 00:29:08,163
for yourself because, yes,

359
00:29:09,164 --> 00:29:10,915
men too can get breast cancer.

360
00:29:15,128 --> 00:29:17,547
The doctors will tell you how rare and

361
00:29:17,589 --> 00:29:19,674
interesting your case is,

362
00:29:19,716 --> 00:29:21,259
how fascinating your file is,

363
00:29:22,260 --> 00:29:23,970
and how students will observe your

364
00:29:24,012 --> 00:29:26,097
surgery, about how you'll

365
00:29:26,139 --> 00:29:27,515
be in some medical journal.

366
00:29:32,645 --> 00:29:33,479
I thought the surgery was

367
00:29:33,521 --> 00:29:34,606
going to be the end of it.

368
00:29:36,274 --> 00:29:37,984
I thought it was going to fix me.

369
00:29:41,279 --> 00:29:43,948
I thought I had crossed the finish line.

370
00:29:46,284 --> 00:29:47,660
I had no idea that it

371
00:29:47,702 --> 00:29:48,661
was just the beginning.

372
00:29:50,288 --> 00:29:53,166
Of all the pain, the

373
00:29:53,208 --> 00:29:55,168
nerve damage in my shoulder,

374
00:29:56,252 --> 00:29:57,837
and the clothes not fitting right,

375
00:29:57,879 --> 00:29:58,713
frustration turning

376
00:29:58,755 --> 00:30:00,089
into anger, people staring.

377
00:30:00,340 --> 00:30:02,884
You know, you don't become numb to it

378
00:30:02,926 --> 00:30:04,177
like you think, or you

379
00:30:04,219 --> 00:30:05,220
would hope would happen.

380
00:30:05,803 --> 00:30:11,434
You just become more aware of

381
00:30:11,476 --> 00:30:13,269
this giant scar in your chest.

382
00:30:19,275 --> 00:30:21,319
[silence]

383
00:30:28,618 --> 00:30:30,662
Waking up in so much pain,

384
00:30:32,455 --> 00:30:33,998
and you don't know what to do,

385
00:30:37,919 --> 00:30:42,840
I'm just so angry all the time.

386
00:30:44,634 --> 00:30:45,843
I don't know what to do.

387
00:30:48,638 --> 00:30:50,640
I don't know what to do.

388
00:30:55,520 --> 00:30:58,898
So I smile, and I laugh.

389
00:31:02,860 --> 00:31:04,570
Because I'm afraid

390
00:31:04,612 --> 00:31:06,281
that if I stop, I just...

391
00:31:24,257 --> 00:31:24,882
[sniffles]

392
00:31:35,101 --> 00:31:35,727
[sighs]

393
00:31:46,154 --> 00:31:48,114
[EXHALES]

394
00:32:04,464 --> 00:32:05,590
You fell asleep.

395
00:32:08,426 --> 00:32:09,218
I fell asleep.

396
00:32:10,845 --> 00:32:12,889
Um, did anything happen?

397
00:32:14,432 --> 00:32:15,032
No.

398
00:32:15,516 --> 00:32:16,116
Okay, good.

399
00:32:16,643 --> 00:32:18,060
You pretty much passed out

400
00:32:18,102 --> 00:32:19,103
when I brought you up here.

401
00:32:21,230 --> 00:32:21,830
Nothing else?

402
00:32:23,149 --> 00:32:23,749
No.

403
00:32:25,276 --> 00:32:25,818
[laughs]

404
00:32:25,860 --> 00:32:26,694
Well...

405
00:32:27,278 --> 00:32:29,780
I mean, you did throw up, but

406
00:32:29,822 --> 00:32:31,032
that's about it.

407
00:32:34,702 --> 00:32:35,578
So, um...

408
00:32:37,205 --> 00:32:37,955
Do you want to get some

409
00:32:37,997 --> 00:32:39,123
breakfast or something?

410
00:32:39,874 --> 00:32:40,474
Shit.

411
00:32:40,875 --> 00:32:41,475
What?

412
00:32:44,962 --> 00:32:45,588
Shit.

413
00:32:47,548 --> 00:32:48,424
What is it?

414
00:32:49,342 --> 00:32:50,385
Class starts in 30 minutes.

415
00:32:52,303 --> 00:32:55,181
Um, shoot. I don't have my wetsuit.

416
00:32:55,556 --> 00:32:57,600
Um, you know what? I'm gonna go down.

417
00:32:57,642 --> 00:32:58,893
I'll see you down there, okay?

418
00:33:12,407 --> 00:33:13,741
[sad music]

419
00:33:23,167 --> 00:33:25,002
Alright! Let's get in!

420
00:33:27,130 --> 00:33:27,797
Grab your boards.

421
00:33:28,047 --> 00:33:29,423
Woo woo woo woo!

422
00:33:29,465 --> 00:33:30,633
[laughs]

423
00:33:30,675 --> 00:33:32,427
Catch my breath this morning, hold on.

424
00:33:36,347 --> 00:33:37,473
Rought night?

425
00:33:37,515 --> 00:33:39,183
Yeah. You can say that.

426
00:33:40,476 --> 00:33:41,102
You good to get in?

427
00:33:41,144 --> 00:33:42,687
Yeah, just let me, uh,

428
00:33:43,187 --> 00:33:44,063
catch my breath first.

429
00:33:44,480 --> 00:33:45,314
Yeah, take your time.

430
00:33:46,023 --> 00:33:47,858
Hey, um, did, uh, did

431
00:33:47,900 --> 00:33:48,693
Riley come down yet?

432
00:33:49,444 --> 00:33:51,154
Uh, no. She texted me.

433
00:33:51,863 --> 00:33:53,239
Said she's not coming, not feeling well.

434
00:33:54,073 --> 00:33:54,673
What?

435
00:33:55,908 --> 00:33:56,508
What?

436
00:34:01,164 --> 00:34:01,956
Come on.

437
00:34:11,924 --> 00:34:12,925
[sighs]

438
00:34:43,414 --> 00:34:44,791
[knocking on door]

439
00:34:53,132 --> 00:34:54,008
Hey.

440
00:34:54,634 --> 00:34:55,234
Hey.

441
00:35:00,848 --> 00:35:02,016
Hey, why didn't you come to class?

442
00:35:03,768 --> 00:35:06,229
Um, you left your phone here.

443
00:35:07,271 --> 00:35:07,871
Hmm?

444
00:35:08,689 --> 00:35:09,482
Oh.

445
00:35:11,234 --> 00:35:11,834
Thanks.

446
00:35:15,029 --> 00:35:16,572
So, uh, why weren't you down...

447
00:35:16,614 --> 00:35:18,240
I got a bunch of stuff I gotta get done,

448
00:35:18,282 --> 00:35:20,326
so, you don't need anything else?

449
00:35:32,922 --> 00:35:34,382
Why didn't you come to class today?

450
00:35:36,217 --> 00:35:36,843
I, um...

451
00:35:40,221 --> 00:35:41,097
[sighs]

452
00:35:43,224 --> 00:35:44,684
I didn't want to get into it again.

453
00:35:50,481 --> 00:35:51,357
In to what?

454
00:36:02,910 --> 00:36:03,828
Wait, were you awake?

455
00:36:05,955 --> 00:36:06,831
Not the whole time.

456
00:36:07,290 --> 00:36:11,627
I mean, I was in and out of it, but, uh,

457
00:36:11,669 --> 00:36:12,753
I heard enough to

458
00:36:12,795 --> 00:36:14,088
understand what's going on with you.

459
00:36:16,799 --> 00:36:17,399
Oh, you did?

460
00:36:18,759 --> 00:36:19,359
Yeah.

461
00:36:20,511 --> 00:36:21,470
So you understand me.

462
00:36:22,513 --> 00:36:23,113
What?

463
00:36:23,890 --> 00:36:24,891
Let me get this straight.

464
00:36:25,474 --> 00:36:26,308
You think because you hear

465
00:36:26,350 --> 00:36:27,518
bits and pieces of a story,

466
00:36:27,852 --> 00:36:28,895
you get what I'm going through.

467
00:36:29,520 --> 00:36:30,479
That's not what I'm...

468
00:36:30,521 --> 00:36:31,355
No, no, no, no. You

469
00:36:31,397 --> 00:36:32,481
make the executive decision

470
00:36:32,523 --> 00:36:33,107
to take everything

471
00:36:33,149 --> 00:36:34,192
that I said last night,

472
00:36:34,567 --> 00:36:36,319
throw it away, and ignore me.

473
00:36:37,028 --> 00:36:37,279
Logan.

474
00:36:37,321 --> 00:36:38,237
I don't get it.

475
00:36:39,113 --> 00:36:39,905
You ignore me, and

476
00:36:39,947 --> 00:36:40,990
then you press me to talk.

477
00:36:41,282 --> 00:36:42,658
Then you ignore me again, and you pretend

478
00:36:42,700 --> 00:36:43,993
like last night didn't even happen.

479
00:36:45,161 --> 00:36:46,078
Logan, that's not what I...

480
00:36:46,120 --> 00:36:46,871
Riley, you know what?

481
00:36:47,163 --> 00:36:48,414
Someday, you're gonna be hurting.

482
00:36:48,956 --> 00:36:49,748
Hurting in a way that

483
00:36:49,790 --> 00:36:50,583
you never have before.

484
00:36:51,125 --> 00:36:52,460
And you're gonna want someone there.

485
00:36:52,752 --> 00:36:54,712
Someone to talk to, somebody to vent to,

486
00:36:54,921 --> 00:36:55,713
somebody who isn't gonna

487
00:36:55,755 --> 00:36:57,381
try and fix you or judge you.

488
00:36:58,132 --> 00:36:59,466
Somebody who's gonna

489
00:36:59,508 --> 00:37:00,801
sit on that couch with you

490
00:37:01,552 --> 00:37:03,137
and finally allow you to open up.

491
00:37:04,639 --> 00:37:05,932
Wow. Okay.

492
00:37:06,432 --> 00:37:07,057
If you're gonna be a

493
00:37:07,099 --> 00:37:07,766
self-centered asshole,

494
00:37:07,808 --> 00:37:08,601
then you can just leave

495
00:37:08,643 --> 00:37:10,686
because you know nothing about me.

496
00:37:11,103 --> 00:37:11,937
You're right. I don't

497
00:37:11,979 --> 00:37:13,189
know anything about you.

498
00:37:13,564 --> 00:37:15,775
I thought I did, but clearly I was wrong.

499
00:37:16,859 --> 00:37:17,459
Silly me.

500
00:37:20,780 --> 00:37:21,380
Logan.

501
00:38:31,726 --> 00:38:33,936
Hey. Long time no see. How are you?

502
00:38:34,353 --> 00:38:37,147
Fine. Um, can I just get a

503
00:38:37,189 --> 00:38:38,315
hazelnut latte with oat milk?

504
00:38:40,860 --> 00:38:41,986
How'd you know?

505
00:38:42,236 --> 00:38:42,987
It's what I do.

506
00:38:45,239 --> 00:38:45,906
That'll be $5.50.

507
00:38:53,122 --> 00:38:53,956
[swipes cards]

508
00:38:55,166 --> 00:38:57,335
Um, it's saying declined.

509
00:38:58,794 --> 00:39:00,337
Come on, I just paid it.

510
00:39:02,131 --> 00:39:03,007
This is so embarrassing.

511
00:39:04,300 --> 00:39:06,093
No worries. It happens all the time.

512
00:39:06,135 --> 00:39:08,137
These cards can be so unreliable.

513
00:39:10,056 --> 00:39:10,806
[soft music]

514
00:39:25,738 --> 00:39:26,822
Good enough for me.

515
00:39:28,449 --> 00:39:29,825
This stuff is so overpriced anyway.

516
00:39:33,287 --> 00:39:33,887
Thank you.

517
00:39:34,497 --> 00:39:35,097
Again.

518
00:39:36,165 --> 00:39:36,765
You're welcome.

519
00:39:37,583 --> 00:39:38,459
Have a good day.

520
00:39:38,501 --> 00:39:39,101
Yeah.

521
00:39:39,627 --> 00:39:40,227
You too.

522
00:39:40,377 --> 00:39:40,977
Thanks.

523
00:39:46,425 --> 00:39:47,510
[soft music]

524
00:41:04,003 --> 00:41:06,672
[soft music]

525
00:41:14,138 --> 00:41:14,738
Hey again.

526
00:41:15,764 --> 00:41:16,364
Hi.

527
00:41:22,354 --> 00:41:23,856
I saw you out here and, um,

528
00:41:24,315 --> 00:41:25,316
I thought I'd give you this.

529
00:41:28,611 --> 00:41:30,237
I found journaling really helped me when

530
00:41:30,279 --> 00:41:31,822
I was going through some tough things and

531
00:41:31,864 --> 00:41:33,157
I thought it might help you too.

532
00:41:39,580 --> 00:41:41,749
Unless you already have one or hate it.

533
00:41:42,583 --> 00:41:46,003
No, I don't have one or hate it.

534
00:41:46,295 --> 00:41:48,047
Uh, how much is it?

535
00:41:48,380 --> 00:41:49,965
Um, I'll pay you when...

536
00:41:50,174 --> 00:41:52,176
Oh, no. Don't worry about that.

537
00:41:53,093 --> 00:41:54,636
I can't keep taking things for

538
00:41:54,678 --> 00:41:56,013
free or at a discounted rate.

539
00:41:56,347 --> 00:41:58,265
It isn't free or discounted.

540
00:41:59,141 --> 00:42:01,101
It's a gift from me to you.

541
00:42:02,228 --> 00:42:02,937
Why?

542
00:42:04,897 --> 00:42:06,148
Because I've seen that look before.

543
00:42:08,442 --> 00:42:09,401
That look where you

544
00:42:09,443 --> 00:42:13,030
feel lost, hurt, in pain.

545
00:42:16,951 --> 00:42:18,077
Yeah?

546
00:42:19,245 --> 00:42:20,287
Yeah.

547
00:42:23,999 --> 00:42:25,376
It sucks.

548
00:42:25,542 --> 00:42:28,921
I hate how I act and I... I just don't

549
00:42:28,963 --> 00:42:30,464
know how to filter it out anymore.

550
00:42:31,924 --> 00:42:32,524
Filter what?

551
00:42:33,801 --> 00:42:34,927
Hating myself.

552
00:42:35,844 --> 00:42:37,304
What my life has become.

553
00:42:38,931 --> 00:42:41,183
Look, I don't know much, but I have

554
00:42:41,225 --> 00:42:42,601
watched you come in and out of this

555
00:42:42,643 --> 00:42:44,228
coffee shop every day for a week.

556
00:42:45,145 --> 00:42:46,271
And never once have you

557
00:42:46,313 --> 00:42:47,856
been mean or rude to me.

558
00:42:48,607 --> 00:42:52,236
You're always kind and polite and overly

559
00:42:52,278 --> 00:42:53,487
apologetic about everything.

560
00:42:54,321 --> 00:42:56,115
The point is it isn't a constant.

561
00:42:57,533 --> 00:42:58,784
You being mean or rude.

562
00:43:01,412 --> 00:43:02,996
But you wear the pain of what you're

563
00:43:03,038 --> 00:43:04,498
going through like a suit of armor.

564
00:43:06,583 --> 00:43:09,628
And I don't know much, but I do know that

565
00:43:09,670 --> 00:43:10,921
isn't a way to live your life.

566
00:43:12,339 --> 00:43:13,716
It's just a way to run from it.

567
00:43:18,304 --> 00:43:19,596
Maybe it's time you let somebody in?

568
00:43:21,515 --> 00:43:22,115
Thank you.

569
00:43:23,434 --> 00:43:24,393
You're welcome.

570
00:43:30,733 --> 00:43:31,775
Where have you seen it?

571
00:43:32,568 --> 00:43:33,168
The what?

572
00:43:34,111 --> 00:43:34,945
The look.

573
00:43:39,158 --> 00:43:40,659
Every time I look in the mirror.

574
00:44:30,125 --> 00:44:31,627
Hey, Logan. How's it going?

575
00:44:35,672 --> 00:44:36,882
You need a hand with anything?

576
00:44:37,549 --> 00:44:38,925
No, you talking is good enough. It's

577
00:44:38,967 --> 00:44:39,843
going to get me jump

578
00:44:39,885 --> 00:44:41,428
started for today's insanity.

579
00:44:42,471 --> 00:44:43,847
Is it busy in here every day?

580
00:44:44,473 --> 00:44:46,683
During the summer bro,
yeah. Every single day.

581
00:44:47,643 --> 00:44:49,144
Yeah, I guess people love their tropical

582
00:44:49,186 --> 00:44:50,604
drinks and tasty food, huh?

583
00:44:52,022 --> 00:44:53,649
Yeah, sometimes a little too much, huh?

584
00:44:55,692 --> 00:44:56,568
Let me ask you something.

585
00:44:56,902 --> 00:44:59,446
What is your favorite and least favorite

586
00:44:59,488 --> 00:45:01,407
thing about working here?

587
00:45:01,990 --> 00:45:04,243
Hmm. It's a good one.

588
00:45:04,785 --> 00:45:05,661
It's a tough one, too.

589
00:45:08,705 --> 00:45:10,624
Well, being in all this place is great.

590
00:45:11,208 --> 00:45:12,209
It saved me, honestly.

591
00:45:13,502 --> 00:45:15,712
But the drunken out of towners

592
00:45:15,754 --> 00:45:17,589
sometimes that's just a little too much.

593
00:45:19,258 --> 00:45:21,260
Yeah, I'll bet. Us non-local suck, huh?

594
00:45:21,677 --> 00:45:23,220
I didn't mean it like that. Come on, now.

595
00:45:23,262 --> 00:45:24,888
I think that it's not universal.

596
00:45:25,180 --> 00:45:28,600
Some of y'all are pretty great, huh?

597
00:45:30,769 --> 00:45:31,562
Umm...

598
00:45:32,730 --> 00:45:35,440
Hey, Jay. What did you mean when you said

599
00:45:35,482 --> 00:45:36,400
this place saved you?

600
00:45:38,652 --> 00:45:44,699
Um... I was a complete
mess before... I mean, I

601
00:45:44,741 --> 00:45:47,619
still am a mess, but I'm now a more

602
00:45:47,661 --> 00:45:49,580
productive member of society.

603
00:45:53,125 --> 00:45:56,837
Yeah, it's okay. You can ask.

604
00:45:58,005 --> 00:45:58,605
Ask what?

605
00:46:00,632 --> 00:46:01,258
Why I was a mess.

606
00:46:02,009 --> 00:46:03,802
Oh, no. I don't mean to pry.

607
00:46:04,011 --> 00:46:05,053
Listen man, it's not prying.

608
00:46:06,805 --> 00:46:09,141
Okay. Why were you a mess?

609
00:46:11,351 --> 00:46:11,951
My son died.

610
00:46:13,353 --> 00:46:14,605
Oh, God, I'm so sorry.

611
00:46:15,272 --> 00:46:18,108
Yeah. Me, too.

612
00:46:18,817 --> 00:46:20,277
How old was he?

613
00:46:20,319 --> 00:46:20,919
Five.

614
00:46:21,153 --> 00:46:21,753
Fuck.

615
00:46:21,904 --> 00:46:24,573
Yeah. That's what I thought too.

616
00:46:26,658 --> 00:46:29,286
If you don't mind me asking. What happened?

617
00:46:37,461 --> 00:46:41,256
Jamal. Jamal loved pancakes, right?

618
00:46:41,298 --> 00:46:44,509
Like loved them. I
really like pancakes, but

619
00:46:44,551 --> 00:46:47,930
Jamal loved pancakes.

620
00:46:49,932 --> 00:46:56,313
And it was a Saturday morning, and he

621
00:46:56,355 --> 00:46:58,231
wanted pancakes, right? But we didn't

622
00:46:58,273 --> 00:46:59,399
have the ingredients.

623
00:47:02,694 --> 00:47:08,492
So my wife and I packed him into the

624
00:47:08,534 --> 00:47:12,829
car, and we drove on down to Petey's

625
00:47:12,871 --> 00:47:15,081
which is a little mom-and-pop shop.

626
00:47:15,123 --> 00:47:17,876
But they're known for the best pancakes.

627
00:47:25,133 --> 00:47:27,761
I've driven down this road a thousand

628
00:47:27,803 --> 00:47:30,931
times for work, and, you know, with the

629
00:47:30,973 --> 00:47:36,645
same signs and houses and yards.

630
00:47:42,609 --> 00:47:50,609
But for some reason, on this day, I

631
00:47:50,701 --> 00:47:52,494
didn't stop at the last

632
00:47:52,536 --> 00:47:53,829
intersection before the diner.

633
00:48:03,672 --> 00:48:05,465
The car hit us at 60 miles an hour.

634
00:48:08,552 --> 00:48:11,304
The doctors said that

635
00:48:11,346 --> 00:48:12,472
at least at the hospital.

636
00:48:14,141 --> 00:48:22,141
And when I woke, I remember just calling out
to Jamal. My wife, Cheryl. And I only saw her

637
00:48:25,193 --> 00:48:29,239
I... only saw her sitting
in the corner crying.

638
00:48:37,664 --> 00:48:39,916
I hated myself for a really long time.

639
00:48:42,961 --> 00:48:44,671
A really long time.

640
00:48:46,298 --> 00:48:51,803
I felt so ashamed at the fact that I took

641
00:48:51,845 --> 00:48:54,640
our pretty quiet little life for granted.

642
00:48:58,143 --> 00:48:58,743
I...

643
00:49:07,235 --> 00:49:08,236
I...

644
00:49:11,615 --> 00:49:13,992
I was here, and he wasn't.

645
00:49:21,541 --> 00:49:23,126
Honestly, man, I was just wanted to die.

646
00:49:25,128 --> 00:49:26,129
I just wanted to die.

647
00:49:28,256 --> 00:49:30,967
But it took a really long time of work

648
00:49:31,009 --> 00:49:35,097
and healing for me to see it differently.

649
00:49:37,683 --> 00:49:38,684
How do you see it now?

650
00:49:41,478 --> 00:49:42,078
Well...

651
00:49:45,107 --> 00:49:47,109
I'm here, and he hasn't.

652
00:49:48,819 --> 00:49:51,112
And as much as that

653
00:49:51,154 --> 00:49:54,866
sucks, that's the reality.

654
00:49:56,368 --> 00:49:57,494
I'm here, he isn't.

655
00:49:59,496 --> 00:50:01,665
And as much as I want to see him again,

656
00:50:03,667 --> 00:50:05,335
as much as I want to hear him laugh,

657
00:50:08,672 --> 00:50:11,842
talk to him, make him pancakes.

658
00:50:14,261 --> 00:50:15,387
I can't...

659
00:50:17,931 --> 00:50:18,531
I cannot.

660
00:50:20,934 --> 00:50:23,144
So when I see others are going through

661
00:50:23,186 --> 00:50:25,147
it, I just want to reach out.

662
00:50:26,440 --> 00:50:27,399
And tell them.

663
00:50:28,275 --> 00:50:28,900
Tell them what?

664
00:50:34,740 --> 00:50:36,241
It'll get better.

665
00:50:40,871 --> 00:50:41,471
Hey.

666
00:50:42,831 --> 00:50:43,582
Hey, Riley,

667
00:50:47,377 --> 00:50:47,977
Hey.

668
00:50:50,088 --> 00:50:50,964
Can we talk?

669
00:50:53,133 --> 00:50:53,733
Yeah.

670
00:50:57,137 --> 00:50:58,472
Thank you.

671
00:51:01,767 --> 00:51:02,367
Yeah.

672
00:51:16,615 --> 00:51:19,284
A journal? Is this new, or is this

673
00:51:19,326 --> 00:51:20,285
something you've been doing?

674
00:51:20,452 --> 00:51:21,912
Something that is none of your business.

675
00:51:24,581 --> 00:51:25,707
I didn't mean that.

676
00:51:27,125 --> 00:51:28,502
Why do you always fight me on everything?

677
00:51:29,127 --> 00:51:30,211
I don't. I just...

678
00:51:30,253 --> 00:51:30,853
Do?

679
00:51:32,964 --> 00:51:33,590
I'm sorry.

680
00:51:34,508 --> 00:51:37,469
I don't mean to hurt you or anyone else.

681
00:51:38,637 --> 00:51:39,763
I hate being angry all

682
00:51:39,805 --> 00:51:41,348
the time. It isn't fun.

683
00:51:43,141 --> 00:51:44,768
I take it that this is a new development

684
00:51:44,810 --> 00:51:45,685
since your accident.

685
00:51:46,645 --> 00:51:47,245
Yeah.

686
00:51:48,730 --> 00:51:50,190
Easier to push people away

687
00:51:50,232 --> 00:51:51,900
than let them in, sort of thing.

688
00:51:54,319 --> 00:51:57,363
It's just safer to do that than to live

689
00:51:57,405 --> 00:51:59,199
in fear of what people might actually see

690
00:51:59,241 --> 00:52:00,909
or think once they get to know me.

691
00:52:05,664 --> 00:52:08,625
What happened, Riley? Your accident.

692
00:52:11,336 --> 00:52:12,212
Okay. We don't have to

693
00:52:12,254 --> 00:52:13,505
talk about it. It's fine.

694
00:52:13,547 --> 00:52:14,672
It's okay. We can talk

695
00:52:14,714 --> 00:52:15,632
about something else.

696
00:52:16,132 --> 00:52:17,676
Or we could just chill.

697
00:52:19,845 --> 00:52:21,221
Maybe we could have a little bit of fun.

698
00:52:21,847 --> 00:52:23,139
Think you've got time for some fun?

699
00:52:23,974 --> 00:52:25,475
What do you have in mind?

700
00:52:30,772 --> 00:52:31,439
I have an idea.

701
00:52:31,857 --> 00:52:32,482
Umm, okay.

702
00:52:32,899 --> 00:52:35,026
Yeah. Just wait right here, okay?

703
00:52:35,068 --> 00:52:36,027
Where are you going?

704
00:52:36,611 --> 00:52:37,904
Be right back. I promise.

705
00:52:48,164 --> 00:52:49,791
[sighs]

706
00:53:02,178 --> 00:53:03,179
Give me a second.

707
00:53:15,150 --> 00:53:17,903
[door opens]

708
00:53:20,280 --> 00:53:20,989
What's this?

709
00:53:21,615 --> 00:53:22,324
Lunch.

710
00:53:27,287 --> 00:53:28,914
[music]

711
00:54:16,461 --> 00:54:18,129
[music]

712
00:55:07,178 --> 00:55:07,778
How you doing?

713
00:55:09,431 --> 00:55:10,031
Okay.

714
00:55:11,558 --> 00:55:13,184
Let me guess. You couldn't wait to

715
00:55:13,226 --> 00:55:13,977
appropriately catalog

716
00:55:14,019 --> 00:55:15,937
how amazing this meal was.

717
00:55:17,063 --> 00:55:19,649
Relax, Ramsay. It was good, but...

718
00:55:21,484 --> 00:55:24,320
I've had better.

719
00:55:27,365 --> 00:55:29,576
I've had better, but not by much.

720
00:55:31,578 --> 00:55:32,203
I'll take it.

721
00:55:34,247 --> 00:55:35,081
[sighs]

722
00:55:39,836 --> 00:55:41,004
Does it hurt?

723
00:55:47,010 --> 00:55:47,969
Every day.

724
00:55:55,351 --> 00:55:56,102
So, um...

725
00:55:57,228 --> 00:55:58,396
How did you get so good at cooking?

726
00:56:02,150 --> 00:56:02,750
Um...

727
00:56:04,152 --> 00:56:04,752
Hard work.

728
00:56:05,820 --> 00:56:06,571
A lot of it.

729
00:56:07,363 --> 00:56:08,156
Because in the kitchen,

730
00:56:08,615 --> 00:56:09,949
you're either good or you're not.

731
00:56:12,160 --> 00:56:13,453
Kitchen, like, professional?

732
00:56:15,163 --> 00:56:17,749
Well, it definitely didn't feel that way

733
00:56:17,791 --> 00:56:19,125
at times, but, um...

734
00:56:19,459 --> 00:56:21,210
Yeah. I guess you could say it was a

735
00:56:21,252 --> 00:56:22,212
pretty professional kitchen.

736
00:56:23,463 --> 00:56:24,672
Any place I've ever heard of?

737
00:56:26,174 --> 00:56:26,774
Doubt it.

738
00:56:27,217 --> 00:56:28,468
Unless you've ever spent a significant

739
00:56:28,510 --> 00:56:29,928
amount of time in Cleveland.

740
00:56:31,054 --> 00:56:31,654
Cleveland?

741
00:56:32,013 --> 00:56:33,056
Yeah. That's where I

742
00:56:33,098 --> 00:56:34,682
worked. Have you ever been?

743
00:56:36,142 --> 00:56:36,851
Nope. Never been.

744
00:56:37,519 --> 00:56:39,896
Well, then I can confidently say that

745
00:56:39,938 --> 00:56:40,897
you've never been to Meryl.

746
00:56:43,149 --> 00:56:43,775
Food there is pretty

747
00:56:43,817 --> 00:56:45,568
good overall, but, um...

748
00:56:46,361 --> 00:56:47,862
GM has a final say in things.

749
00:56:48,780 --> 00:56:51,491
Which I can usually override using my

750
00:56:51,533 --> 00:56:53,368
diplomatic persuasive abilities.

751
00:56:55,078 --> 00:56:56,704
Tangling with the GM, huh?

752
00:56:58,123 --> 00:56:59,332
So, were you the head chef?

753
00:57:00,291 --> 00:57:00,891
Sous chef.

754
00:57:01,668 --> 00:57:02,710
The executive chef had one

755
00:57:02,752 --> 00:57:03,628
hell of a temper, though.

756
00:57:04,129 --> 00:57:05,088
He would always get into

757
00:57:05,130 --> 00:57:06,631
these crazy arguments with GM.

758
00:57:07,549 --> 00:57:08,674
And it was kind of the

759
00:57:08,716 --> 00:57:10,009
peacemaker there, which...

760
00:57:11,094 --> 00:57:12,804
ended up being a full-time job in itself.

761
00:57:14,139 --> 00:57:15,014
So, why'd you leave?

762
00:57:19,269 --> 00:57:20,019
Um...

763
00:57:22,730 --> 00:57:24,107
When I got sick, I, uh...

764
00:57:25,316 --> 00:57:27,360
I tried to push through it, but, um...

765
00:57:28,903 --> 00:57:29,612
The shifts went from

766
00:57:29,654 --> 00:57:30,780
being fun to being tough.

767
00:57:32,657 --> 00:57:34,492
I mean, don't get me wrong, it's always

768
00:57:34,534 --> 00:57:35,785
tough in a kitchen, but...

769
00:57:36,744 --> 00:57:38,079
It's also a blast, you know?

770
00:57:38,913 --> 00:57:40,915
I mean, it's wild, it's

771
00:57:40,957 --> 00:57:42,792
fun, it's sexy, it's crazy...

772
00:57:44,252 --> 00:57:44,852
Sexy?

773
00:57:46,671 --> 00:57:48,006
But, um...

774
00:57:48,840 --> 00:57:49,841
It stopped being fun.

775
00:57:51,134 --> 00:57:52,969
You know, I couldn't make it through

776
00:57:53,011 --> 00:57:54,596
service without having a meltdown.

777
00:57:55,763 --> 00:57:57,140
Eventually I learned I became more of a

778
00:57:57,182 --> 00:57:58,308
liability than help.

779
00:57:58,892 --> 00:57:59,893
So, uh...

780
00:58:00,894 --> 00:58:01,603
I stepped down.

781
00:58:05,773 --> 00:58:06,900
Was it hard?

782
00:58:07,317 --> 00:58:08,610
Stepping away from what you love?

783
00:58:14,908 --> 00:58:16,075
I miss it every day.

784
00:58:18,244 --> 00:58:19,537
It hurts more knowing that the kitchen

785
00:58:19,579 --> 00:58:21,873
can operate just as well without you.

786
00:58:22,957 --> 00:58:23,666
But you're going back

787
00:58:23,708 --> 00:58:24,626
to it eventually, right?

788
00:58:29,505 --> 00:58:30,105
I don't know.

789
00:58:32,425 --> 00:58:34,427
I mean, I stepped away so I could, you

790
00:58:34,469 --> 00:58:36,429
know, figure all this out, but, uh...

791
00:58:39,724 --> 00:58:40,324
I don't know.

792
00:58:43,561 --> 00:58:45,438
Well, you should think about it.

793
00:58:46,439 --> 00:58:47,565
You're really great.

794
00:58:51,778 --> 00:58:52,445
Thanks.

795
00:58:57,408 --> 00:58:58,368
So, uh...

796
00:58:59,327 --> 00:59:00,703
Now that I've blown you away with my

797
00:59:00,745 --> 00:59:02,038
amazing culinary skills,

798
00:59:03,748 --> 00:59:04,624
what would you like to do?

799
00:59:05,833 --> 00:59:06,433
Something chill.

800
00:59:07,377 --> 00:59:09,629
It's gonna take me a
while to digest all that food.

801
00:59:15,176 --> 00:59:16,177
Do you have any board games?

802
00:59:27,522 --> 00:59:28,122
Ooh!

803
00:59:29,148 --> 00:59:29,748
Easy.

804
00:59:30,233 --> 00:59:30,833
Gotcha.

805
00:59:31,401 --> 00:59:33,278
Oh my God! Are you serious?

806
00:59:33,611 --> 00:59:34,211
Yeah!

807
00:59:35,238 --> 00:59:35,696
Alright.

808
00:59:35,738 --> 00:59:36,447
Although, we probably

809
00:59:36,489 --> 00:59:37,365
need more than two people.

810
00:59:39,075 --> 00:59:40,201
Okay, you're right. You're right.

811
00:59:40,410 --> 00:59:41,202
Okay. Alright.

812
00:59:41,869 --> 00:59:42,578
Well, you know what?

813
00:59:43,162 --> 00:59:45,999
I always play something like horse.

814
00:59:47,250 --> 00:59:47,917
Horse?

815
00:59:48,710 --> 00:59:49,460
Oh my gosh.

816
00:59:49,711 --> 00:59:50,420
What's this one?

817
00:59:51,129 --> 00:59:53,715
Uh, I mean, it's okay.

818
00:59:54,757 --> 00:59:56,968
But I think we should play Scrabble.

819
00:59:59,137 --> 01:00:00,680
I don't know if you can handle my skills.

820
01:00:01,139 --> 01:00:02,598
I'm kind of a master at this.

821
01:00:02,932 --> 01:00:03,724
Do you know any words

822
01:00:03,766 --> 01:00:05,018
big enough to win Scrabble?

823
01:00:05,476 --> 01:00:06,076
Rude.

824
01:00:07,145 --> 01:00:07,895
I only tell the truth.

825
01:00:08,521 --> 01:00:09,121
Set it up.

826
01:00:09,689 --> 01:00:10,289
Okay.

827
01:00:10,398 --> 01:00:10,998
Let's go.

828
01:00:43,181 --> 01:00:43,781
[music]

829
01:01:09,874 --> 01:01:10,958
Would you just go already?

830
01:01:12,418 --> 01:01:13,018
Hang on.

831
01:01:13,503 --> 01:01:14,337
You can't rush genius.

832
01:01:15,838 --> 01:01:16,438
Genius?

833
01:01:16,881 --> 01:01:18,841
How much am I winning by again?

834
01:01:19,759 --> 01:01:20,593
Points don't matter.

835
01:01:20,760 --> 01:01:21,928
Do you know who else says that?

836
01:01:22,261 --> 01:01:22,887
Don't say it.

837
01:01:22,929 --> 01:01:23,805
The people who lose.

838
01:01:24,722 --> 01:01:25,322
Rude.

839
01:01:28,684 --> 01:01:29,560
Come on! It's been like

840
01:01:29,602 --> 01:01:30,686
five minutes since you...

841
01:01:30,728 --> 01:01:32,146
Aha! Here we go. Ready?

842
01:01:37,985 --> 01:01:38,585
Yeet?

843
01:01:39,654 --> 01:01:41,781
What? Be jealous of my amazing skills.

844
01:01:42,490 --> 01:01:43,825
Jealous of what? That isn't a word.

845
01:01:44,409 --> 01:01:45,009
Yes it is.

846
01:01:45,743 --> 01:01:46,536
No it's not.

847
01:01:47,036 --> 01:01:48,454
What do you mean that yeet isn't a word?

848
01:01:48,496 --> 01:01:49,205
It isn't a word.

849
01:01:49,789 --> 01:01:51,165
You're gonna feel really silly. I'm gonna

850
01:01:51,207 --> 01:01:53,334
put an end to this right now.

851
01:02:01,634 --> 01:02:02,234
Survey says?

852
01:02:04,804 --> 01:02:05,847
Scrabble's a dumb game anyway.

853
01:02:06,055 --> 01:02:06,515
Ahhh!

854
01:02:06,557 --> 01:02:08,683
[Laughter]

855
01:02:10,143 --> 01:02:10,743
Ahhh!

856
01:02:12,812 --> 01:02:13,412
Yea alright.

857
01:02:15,440 --> 01:02:17,859
So um, what do you do for work?

858
01:02:18,734 --> 01:02:19,652
Besides dominate the

859
01:02:19,694 --> 01:02:20,611
Scrabble boards of course.

860
01:02:21,529 --> 01:02:22,571
Wait, are you a

861
01:02:22,613 --> 01:02:23,698
professional Scrabble player?

862
01:02:23,990 --> 01:02:24,907
Is that even a thing?

863
01:02:25,950 --> 01:02:26,784
Not for real though.

864
01:02:27,160 --> 01:02:27,760
What do you do?

865
01:02:30,872 --> 01:02:32,665
I umm...

866
01:02:35,835 --> 01:02:36,544
You know what?

867
01:02:37,211 --> 01:02:38,004
I have a solution.

868
01:02:39,046 --> 01:02:39,646
To what?

869
01:02:40,798 --> 01:02:41,398
Well...

870
01:02:44,886 --> 01:02:46,887
You seem to struggle when it comes to

871
01:02:46,929 --> 01:02:47,513
answering anything

872
01:02:47,555 --> 01:02:48,598
personal about yourself.

873
01:02:50,308 --> 01:02:51,100
Okay.

874
01:02:52,643 --> 01:02:54,353
At least from my perspective, the problem

875
01:02:54,395 --> 01:02:56,689
stems from you making a decision of

876
01:02:56,731 --> 01:02:57,940
whether you want to open up or not.

877
01:03:01,068 --> 01:03:01,694
I'm listening.

878
01:03:02,361 --> 01:03:04,947
So, what if I remove

879
01:03:04,989 --> 01:03:06,574
the decision making part?

880
01:03:08,743 --> 01:03:09,952
I'll ask a question,

881
01:03:10,203 --> 01:03:11,204
and then we'll draw cards.

882
01:03:12,038 --> 01:03:13,080
If I get the higher number,

883
01:03:13,664 --> 01:03:15,082
you gotta spill the beans.

884
01:03:15,708 --> 01:03:16,459
If you get the higher

885
01:03:16,501 --> 01:03:18,503
number, well, you don't.

886
01:03:19,378 --> 01:03:20,838
That's not fair. I'm the

887
01:03:20,880 --> 01:03:21,964
only one on trial here.

888
01:03:23,007 --> 01:03:24,258
Alright, uh, we'll

889
01:03:24,300 --> 01:03:26,219
alternate. Same rules apply.

890
01:03:31,849 --> 01:03:33,226
Okay, shuffle up and deal.

891
01:03:39,941 --> 01:03:41,275
Alright, first question.

892
01:03:41,609 --> 01:03:42,902
Hold on.

893
01:03:44,445 --> 01:03:46,280
Shouldn't the overwhelming winner of the

894
01:03:46,322 --> 01:03:47,782
last game get the first choice?

895
01:03:49,325 --> 01:03:51,035
Honestly, I thought you'd show pity on me

896
01:03:51,077 --> 01:03:52,161
and let me go, but...

897
01:03:53,120 --> 01:03:53,720
Alright.

898
01:03:53,829 --> 01:03:54,455
Think again.

899
01:03:56,165 --> 01:03:56,765
Fair enough.

900
01:03:58,459 --> 01:04:00,669
Since I demoralized you so badly in the

901
01:04:00,711 --> 01:04:03,130
last game, I will, uh, I'll start you off

902
01:04:03,172 --> 01:04:04,131
with a softball question.

903
01:04:04,924 --> 01:04:05,524
Wow.

904
01:04:05,925 --> 01:04:06,676
Rude and smooth.

905
01:04:07,593 --> 01:04:08,552
That's one interesting

906
01:04:08,594 --> 01:04:09,428
skill you have there.

907
01:04:10,721 --> 01:04:11,556
I am to please.

908
01:04:13,140 --> 01:04:13,740
Alright.

909
01:04:14,809 --> 01:04:15,893
So, what got you into cooking?

910
01:04:17,436 --> 01:04:18,036
Okay.

911
01:04:18,646 --> 01:04:19,246
Ready?

912
01:04:19,313 --> 01:04:19,913
Ready.

913
01:04:20,815 --> 01:04:21,415
One.

914
01:04:21,816 --> 01:04:22,416
Two.

915
01:04:22,817 --> 01:04:23,417
Three.

916
01:04:27,530 --> 01:04:28,614
You would win the first time.

917
01:04:29,824 --> 01:04:30,783
Alright, uh...

918
01:04:31,826 --> 01:04:33,869
It was, uh...

919
01:04:34,579 --> 01:04:36,622
It was my grandma, actually.

920
01:04:37,248 --> 01:04:39,750
I spent most weekends with her, and she

921
01:04:39,792 --> 01:04:41,210
spent most of her time in the kitchen

922
01:04:41,252 --> 01:04:43,004
cooking up something amazing.

923
01:04:44,171 --> 01:04:46,423
Sausage biscuits and gravy, homemade

924
01:04:46,465 --> 01:04:48,968
chicken dumplings, beef stew.

925
01:04:49,552 --> 01:04:50,761
Her beef stew was

926
01:04:50,803 --> 01:04:52,638
amazing. That was my favorite.

927
01:04:53,889 --> 01:04:54,765
I always wanted to know

928
01:04:54,807 --> 01:04:55,891
how she made it, but, uh...

929
01:04:56,851 --> 01:04:57,810
She refused to tell me.

930
01:05:01,314 --> 01:05:01,939
I get it, though.

931
01:05:02,356 --> 01:05:04,775
I mean, she wanted me to try for myself,

932
01:05:04,817 --> 01:05:06,360
you know, develop my own

933
01:05:06,402 --> 01:05:08,821
kind of palate, but, uh...

934
01:05:12,033 --> 01:05:13,200
That's how I got into it.

935
01:05:14,035 --> 01:05:15,536
She always made these amazing meals that

936
01:05:15,578 --> 01:05:17,288
made everybody feel so happy.

937
01:05:18,331 --> 01:05:20,249
I wanted to do the same.

938
01:05:23,044 --> 01:05:24,628
Well, you certainly

939
01:05:24,670 --> 01:05:25,921
achieved that tonight.

940
01:05:26,672 --> 01:05:27,798
Whatever it was that

941
01:05:27,840 --> 01:05:28,799
you made was incredible.

942
01:05:31,594 --> 01:05:32,194
Thanks.

943
01:05:34,096 --> 01:05:36,098
So, uh, do you still cook with her?

944
01:05:38,476 --> 01:05:41,270
Uh... no, she, uh...

945
01:05:41,854 --> 01:05:43,022
She died a couple years ago.

946
01:05:47,234 --> 01:05:49,028
Did she ever teach you

947
01:05:49,070 --> 01:05:50,154
how to make the beef stew?

948
01:05:51,322 --> 01:05:52,615
Uh, yeah, actually, she

949
01:05:52,657 --> 01:05:54,450
did. The last time I saw her...

950
01:05:54,825 --> 01:05:57,036
I mean, she only told me the basic

951
01:05:57,078 --> 01:05:59,038
recipe, but, uh, she told me she made it

952
01:05:59,080 --> 01:06:01,207
through a sense of taste and texture.

953
01:06:01,707 --> 01:06:02,958
Makes sense.

954
01:06:03,834 --> 01:06:05,210
So, how close have you ever

955
01:06:05,252 --> 01:06:06,545
gotten to making it like her?

956
01:06:07,380 --> 01:06:09,173
Um, pretty close. Real

957
01:06:09,215 --> 01:06:11,217
close, actually. But, uh...

958
01:06:13,469 --> 01:06:14,970
Never as close as the way she made it.

959
01:06:16,514 --> 01:06:17,473
Well, she sounds awesome.

960
01:06:21,644 --> 01:06:22,244
She was.

961
01:06:26,607 --> 01:06:27,207
My turn.

962
01:06:28,526 --> 01:06:31,028
So, should I go for the throat, or should

963
01:06:31,070 --> 01:06:32,279
I give you an easy question?

964
01:06:33,823 --> 01:06:35,825
Alright. I'll go easy.

965
01:06:36,826 --> 01:06:39,203
Why surfing? Is this something you've

966
01:06:39,245 --> 01:06:40,496
been doing, or is this a new hobby?

967
01:06:43,332 --> 01:06:43,932
One.

968
01:06:44,792 --> 01:06:45,392
Two.

969
01:06:45,876 --> 01:06:46,476
Three.

970
01:06:52,800 --> 01:06:55,803
New hobby. (silence)

971
01:06:59,515 --> 01:07:00,224
Wait, that's it?

972
01:07:00,933 --> 01:07:01,533
I answered.

973
01:07:02,309 --> 01:07:04,561
Dude, I gave you my whole backstory! How

974
01:07:04,603 --> 01:07:06,063
can you just give me two words? Come on.

975
01:07:08,524 --> 01:07:10,735
Fine. Um...

976
01:07:12,403 --> 01:07:15,531
Well, I went to Hawaii five years ago,

977
01:07:15,573 --> 01:07:17,950
and I just sat there, and

978
01:07:17,992 --> 01:07:19,118
I watched everyone surf.

979
01:07:20,202 --> 01:07:22,788
I couldn't surf at the time, so I... I

980
01:07:22,830 --> 01:07:23,581
made it a goal to try.

981
01:07:24,832 --> 01:07:26,542
I always swam as a kid.

982
01:07:26,584 --> 01:07:27,543
I really love the water.

983
01:07:28,753 --> 01:07:30,754
And I guess I just wanted

984
01:07:30,796 --> 01:07:32,131
something where I could be active.

985
01:07:32,798 --> 01:07:35,342
I mean, I hate when everyone sits around

986
01:07:35,384 --> 01:07:36,218
on their phones and

987
01:07:36,260 --> 01:07:38,387
completely disconnects.

988
01:07:38,429 --> 01:07:39,555
I mean, social media is legit

989
01:07:39,597 --> 01:07:41,140
the worst thing ever created.

990
01:07:41,599 --> 01:07:45,060
I hate all of it. The phones, the apps,

991
01:07:45,102 --> 01:07:46,937
it's all so stupid and

992
01:07:46,979 --> 01:07:49,023
toxic and negative all the time.

993
01:07:49,899 --> 01:07:51,400
I mean, strangers asking you questions

994
01:07:51,442 --> 01:07:53,277
and wondering how you are.

995
01:07:53,778 --> 01:07:56,905
And strangers from fourth grade popping

996
01:07:56,947 --> 01:07:58,115
up all of a sudden who

997
01:07:58,157 --> 01:07:59,575
pretend like they care about you.

998
01:08:00,701 --> 01:08:01,452
But, um...

999
01:08:02,661 --> 01:08:05,122
When I'm surfing, nothing else matters.

1000
01:08:06,248 --> 01:08:08,417
I mean, when I'm out in that water, on

1001
01:08:08,459 --> 01:08:11,670
that board, it feels really good.

1002
01:08:13,088 --> 01:08:13,714
I mean, even when I

1003
01:08:13,756 --> 01:08:15,299
fail, it feels really good.

1004
01:08:15,800 --> 01:08:17,050
I definitely know what

1005
01:08:17,092 --> 01:08:17,968
you mean about failing.

1006
01:08:18,177 --> 01:08:19,303
Hey, you're not bad out there.

1007
01:08:19,512 --> 01:08:20,805
Dude, I fall constantly.

1008
01:08:21,806 --> 01:08:23,599
That's why it's a beginners class.

1009
01:08:24,308 --> 01:08:25,350
Yeah, we're really lucky to

1010
01:08:25,392 --> 01:08:27,019
have Morgan. She's so amazing.

1011
01:08:27,520 --> 01:08:28,479
Yeah, she's really great.

1012
01:08:29,688 --> 01:08:30,356
Like you would know.

1013
01:08:31,482 --> 01:08:32,608
What's that supposed to mean?

1014
01:08:32,900 --> 01:08:34,151
Well, I mean, you don't talk to her. I

1015
01:08:34,193 --> 01:08:35,110
mean, you don't talk to

1016
01:08:35,152 --> 01:08:35,986
anyone for that matter.

1017
01:08:36,028 --> 01:08:37,613
You're like this phantom who appears and

1018
01:08:37,655 --> 01:08:38,322
then disappears as

1019
01:08:38,364 --> 01:08:39,490
quickly as class is over.

1020
01:08:41,325 --> 01:08:41,925
Why is that?

1021
01:08:43,118 --> 01:08:44,495
I believe that you already asked your

1022
01:08:44,537 --> 01:08:45,454
question and it's my turn.

1023
01:08:46,038 --> 01:08:47,164
Oh, is that how it's gonna be?

1024
01:08:48,249 --> 01:08:48,849
Rules are rules.

1025
01:08:49,834 --> 01:08:50,434
Okay.

1026
01:08:56,465 --> 01:08:57,925
How did you find out you have cancer?

1027
01:08:59,760 --> 01:09:00,360
One.

1028
01:09:01,428 --> 01:09:02,028
Two.

1029
01:09:02,346 --> 01:09:02,946
Three.

1030
01:09:10,896 --> 01:09:11,730
I, uh...

1031
01:09:12,815 --> 01:09:13,524
I felt a bump.

1032
01:09:15,985 --> 01:09:16,819
I was, uh...

1033
01:09:17,945 --> 01:09:18,737
I was at home on the

1034
01:09:18,779 --> 01:09:20,239
couch watching movies and...

1035
01:09:21,407 --> 01:09:23,325
I went to go scratch under my arm and...

1036
01:09:24,618 --> 01:09:25,218
There it was.

1037
01:09:26,579 --> 01:09:28,163
It was like this little pebble.

1038
01:09:31,375 --> 01:09:31,975
That was it.

1039
01:09:33,752 --> 01:09:36,797
I had a doctor look at it and he...

1040
01:09:37,756 --> 01:09:38,924
He told me it wasn't

1041
01:09:38,966 --> 01:09:40,092
anything to worry about.

1042
01:09:41,385 --> 01:09:46,849
So I saw a specialist and he also
told me it was nothing to worry about.

1043
01:09:49,435 --> 01:09:51,770
That's all everyone said. Don't worry.

1044
01:09:55,024 --> 01:09:56,733
That is until the

1045
01:09:56,775 --> 01:09:59,028
surgeon called with my results.

1046
01:10:01,405 --> 01:10:02,531
And I was scheduled in for

1047
01:10:02,573 --> 01:10:04,283
surgery less than a month.

1048
01:10:10,247 --> 01:10:13,250
It's funny how quickly life can change.

1049
01:10:14,919 --> 01:10:16,670
So, that's what you're doing here?

1050
01:10:16,837 --> 01:10:19,256
Just a quick escape while you wait for

1051
01:10:19,298 --> 01:10:20,341
some results to come back?

1052
01:10:21,800 --> 01:10:22,400
Yeah.

1053
01:10:23,427 --> 01:10:24,053
I had to get away.

1054
01:10:25,304 --> 01:10:26,555
My friends and family just

1055
01:10:26,597 --> 01:10:28,599
kept sending me messages, but...

1056
01:10:30,392 --> 01:10:31,143
I can't bring myself

1057
01:10:31,185 --> 01:10:32,937
to open them, you know?

1058
01:10:34,188 --> 01:10:35,439
I'm... I'm not ready.

1059
01:10:36,857 --> 01:10:38,317
But, uh...

1060
01:10:39,151 --> 01:10:42,237
My agreement is, uh, almost up, so...

1061
01:10:43,030 --> 01:10:44,198
I gotta figure out something.

1062
01:10:49,203 --> 01:10:51,205
You know, I... I miss them.

1063
01:10:52,289 --> 01:10:52,889
I do.

1064
01:10:55,209 --> 01:10:55,809
I'm just...

1065
01:10:57,628 --> 01:10:59,588
I'm not ready for all the questions and

1066
01:10:59,630 --> 01:11:00,923
well wishes right now.

1067
01:11:00,965 --> 01:11:03,092
I've got far too much on my mind to...

1068
01:11:04,718 --> 01:11:05,928
even think about it.

1069
01:11:06,553 --> 01:11:07,346
It's too much.

1070
01:11:08,138 --> 01:11:08,931
Sometimes, you know?

1071
01:11:11,809 --> 01:11:12,810
What about you?

1072
01:11:15,896 --> 01:11:16,496
What?

1073
01:11:18,440 --> 01:11:19,650
When do you go back?

1074
01:11:24,196 --> 01:11:25,114
You don't know?

1075
01:11:26,782 --> 01:11:27,616
What's your agreement up?

1076
01:11:28,826 --> 01:11:30,035
I don't know. Soon, I guess.

1077
01:11:33,831 --> 01:11:34,957
Wait, you don't know?

1078
01:11:34,999 --> 01:11:35,791
How do you not know?

1079
01:11:36,250 --> 01:11:37,417
Can we just not do

1080
01:11:37,459 --> 01:11:38,335
this right now? Please?

1081
01:11:39,753 --> 01:11:40,421
[sighs]

1082
01:11:41,255 --> 01:11:42,881
Yeah, okay. Sorry.

1083
01:11:54,268 --> 01:11:55,310
My turn, huh?

1084
01:11:56,020 --> 01:11:57,437
The anticipation is...

1085
01:11:57,479 --> 01:11:58,272
What happened?

1086
01:11:59,523 --> 01:12:00,149
Your accident.

1087
01:12:05,362 --> 01:12:05,962
One.

1088
01:12:08,824 --> 01:12:09,450
Two.

1089
01:12:11,577 --> 01:12:12,202
Three.

1090
01:12:23,338 --> 01:12:24,298
Shit.

1091
01:12:25,799 --> 01:12:26,399
Well...

1092
01:12:28,844 --> 01:12:30,095
I started biking

1093
01:12:30,137 --> 01:12:31,722
because the MTA is trash.

1094
01:12:32,389 --> 01:12:34,641
And, um, the F-line just

1095
01:12:34,683 --> 01:12:36,435
stopped running on the weekends.

1096
01:12:36,935 --> 01:12:40,147
And I needed the F-line to get to work.

1097
01:12:41,148 --> 01:12:42,774
And I realized it was about half the

1098
01:12:42,816 --> 01:12:44,401
amount of time to bike to work than it

1099
01:12:44,443 --> 01:12:45,402
was to take the train.

1100
01:12:46,195 --> 01:12:48,947
So, I started biking each weekend.

1101
01:12:52,785 --> 01:12:56,204
I was leaving work, and I was about to

1102
01:12:56,246 --> 01:12:57,539
cross the bridge into Brooklyn.

1103
01:12:59,041 --> 01:12:59,875
And I remember it was

1104
01:12:59,917 --> 01:13:01,168
super windy that day.

1105
01:13:02,211 --> 01:13:02,811
And, um...

1106
01:13:04,546 --> 01:13:06,215
The last thing I remember is that...

1107
01:13:07,591 --> 01:13:09,426
I was starting to go downhill on the

1108
01:13:09,468 --> 01:13:11,219
bridge, and I was picking up so much

1109
01:13:11,261 --> 01:13:12,679
speed from the wind, and...

1110
01:13:13,639 --> 01:13:15,599
I tapped the brakes on my handlebars, and

1111
01:13:16,475 --> 01:13:17,768
I flew over my handlebars.

1112
01:13:21,814 --> 01:13:22,564
It's the last thing I

1113
01:13:22,606 --> 01:13:23,774
remember before I woke up.

1114
01:13:24,900 --> 01:13:27,152
And there was this man standing over me.

1115
01:13:28,362 --> 01:13:29,196
I couldn't really make out

1116
01:13:29,238 --> 01:13:30,405
what he was saying, because...

1117
01:13:31,490 --> 01:13:32,616
It was all so muffled.

1118
01:13:34,243 --> 01:13:35,327
But, um...

1119
01:13:38,747 --> 01:13:40,916
After a while, I could finally start to

1120
01:13:40,958 --> 01:13:42,251
make out what he was saying.

1121
01:13:42,584 --> 01:13:43,919
And all he kept saying over and over

1122
01:13:43,961 --> 01:13:45,045
again was, "I was gonna be

1123
01:13:45,087 --> 01:13:46,547
okay. I was gonna be okay."

1124
01:13:46,755 --> 01:13:49,716
And that he said he had called

1125
01:13:49,758 --> 01:13:51,552
911, and I was gonna be okay.

1126
01:13:51,718 --> 01:13:53,553
And I just... I wondered

1127
01:13:53,595 --> 01:13:54,555
why he kept saying that.

1128
01:13:55,305 --> 01:13:55,905
And, um...

1129
01:14:02,354 --> 01:14:05,732
And then it hit me. I, um...

1130
01:14:06,942 --> 01:14:09,695
This pain started to wash over me.

1131
01:14:11,155 --> 01:14:14,158
Um, it was nothing like I'd ever felt.

1132
01:14:15,993 --> 01:14:17,411
And, um...

1133
01:14:17,911 --> 01:14:21,206
I looked down at my hands, and my arms,

1134
01:14:21,248 --> 01:14:23,167
and my legs, and, um...

1135
01:14:23,417 --> 01:14:24,209
I had never seen so

1136
01:14:24,251 --> 01:14:25,252
much blood in my life.

1137
01:14:27,921 --> 01:14:28,521
And...

1138
01:14:30,215 --> 01:14:31,884
I could move my legs...

1139
01:14:32,634 --> 01:14:33,260
or my arms.

1140
01:14:39,099 --> 01:14:40,976
And I felt like I was dying.

1141
01:14:42,603 --> 01:14:43,395
And, um...

1142
01:14:44,021 --> 01:14:45,272
All I kept thinking was...

1143
01:14:47,441 --> 01:14:48,817
all the things I never did.

1144
01:14:50,527 --> 01:14:51,987
The things I would never get to say.

1145
01:14:54,656 --> 01:14:55,158
The adventures I

1146
01:14:55,200 --> 01:14:56,200
would never get to go on.

1147
01:14:58,160 --> 01:14:59,161
And...

1148
01:14:59,828 --> 01:15:00,579
[sniffles]

1149
01:15:03,707 --> 01:15:05,042
[sighs]

1150
01:15:05,834 --> 01:15:06,434
So I was...

1151
01:15:08,253 --> 01:15:08,853
cut up.

1152
01:15:10,505 --> 01:15:11,590
Went to physical therapy.

1153
01:15:12,799 --> 01:15:13,592
And, um...

1154
01:15:14,259 --> 01:15:16,511
just when I started building hope again.

1155
01:15:17,095 --> 01:15:18,013
[sniffles]

1156
01:15:22,100 --> 01:15:23,477
I found out I would never dance again.

1157
01:15:24,228 --> 01:15:24,828
Not...

1158
01:15:25,646 --> 01:15:26,246
professionally.

1159
01:15:26,688 --> 01:15:27,439
Not like I did.

1160
01:15:29,191 --> 01:15:30,525
And, um...

1161
01:15:33,528 --> 01:15:35,239
It felt like I died all over again.

1162
01:15:37,741 --> 01:15:38,575
Because I was good.

1163
01:15:39,576 --> 01:15:41,078
I was really fucking good.

1164
01:15:41,745 --> 01:15:42,996
I mean, dance was my whole life.

1165
01:15:43,038 --> 01:15:45,040
It was everything I'd ever worked for.

1166
01:15:53,048 --> 01:15:53,840
[sighs]

1167
01:15:56,635 --> 01:15:57,235
And, um...

1168
01:16:01,139 --> 01:16:02,224
I don't know what to do anymore.

1169
01:16:03,809 --> 01:16:04,726
[sniffles]

1170
01:16:05,811 --> 01:16:06,687
I don't know who I am.

1171
01:16:08,063 --> 01:16:09,356
I feel like nothing.

1172
01:16:09,398 --> 01:16:10,107
I have nothing.

1173
01:16:10,816 --> 01:16:11,416
I um...

1174
01:16:11,650 --> 01:16:12,276
[sniffles]

1175
01:16:15,195 --> 01:16:16,071
[sighs]

1176
01:16:16,530 --> 01:16:18,198
I mean, I can't even look at a bike

1177
01:16:18,240 --> 01:16:20,242
without completely breaking down.

1178
01:16:20,701 --> 01:16:21,301
And, um...

1179
01:16:24,037 --> 01:16:25,330
I can't go back into the city.

1180
01:16:25,789 --> 01:16:27,374
I mean, each job is just

1181
01:16:27,416 --> 01:16:29,126
one rejection after another.

1182
01:16:29,710 --> 01:16:30,310
I just...

1183
01:16:38,468 --> 01:16:39,594
[sighs]

1184
01:16:44,057 --> 01:16:44,808
What do you do when

1185
01:16:44,850 --> 01:16:45,809
your whole life changes?

1186
01:16:48,478 --> 01:16:49,104
I, um...

1187
01:16:50,981 --> 01:16:52,649
I just felt that whole morning, like,

1188
01:16:53,150 --> 01:16:54,651
I shouldn't bike to work.

1189
01:16:55,485 --> 01:16:57,362
And I just had this feeling in my gut.

1190
01:16:57,612 --> 01:16:59,281
And even on my break, I

1191
01:16:59,323 --> 01:17:00,699
went into a coffee shop.

1192
01:17:01,241 --> 01:17:03,827
And my horoscope said that something

1193
01:17:03,869 --> 01:17:05,996
tragic was gonna happen today.

1194
01:17:06,038 --> 01:17:07,247
And that I should be careful.

1195
01:17:11,543 --> 01:17:12,669
But, uh...

1196
01:17:16,173 --> 01:17:16,882
I biked anyway.

1197
01:17:19,343 --> 01:17:20,593
If I just would've fucking

1198
01:17:20,635 --> 01:17:22,054
listened to my gut, I just...

1199
01:17:23,430 --> 01:17:24,030
[sniffles]

1200
01:17:30,812 --> 01:17:31,412
[sniffles]

1201
01:17:44,326 --> 01:17:44,926
[sniffles]

1202
01:17:48,622 --> 01:17:49,748
[somber music]

1203
01:17:51,958 --> 01:17:52,558
[sniffles]

1204
01:17:55,504 --> 01:17:56,104
[sniffles]

1205
01:18:24,825 --> 01:18:26,701
[somber music]

1206
01:18:50,725 --> 01:18:51,325
Morning.

1207
01:18:52,144 --> 01:18:53,311
Hey, morning.

1208
01:18:54,646 --> 01:18:55,397
What you doing?

1209
01:18:56,022 --> 01:18:57,524
Well, I was gonna make us some coffee.

1210
01:18:57,941 --> 01:18:59,776
Oh, coffee sounds great.

1211
01:19:01,486 --> 01:19:02,279
Do you know what?

1212
01:19:02,946 --> 01:19:03,780
I have a better idea.

1213
01:19:03,947 --> 01:19:05,365
Let's go downstairs and get some coffee.

1214
01:19:05,949 --> 01:19:08,118
I could really go for a hazelnut latte.

1215
01:19:09,911 --> 01:19:11,329
That's my favorite, too.

1216
01:19:12,330 --> 01:19:14,582
And, uh, that would be a great idea if I

1217
01:19:14,624 --> 01:19:15,625
wasn't completely broke.

1218
01:19:16,751 --> 01:19:18,962
Eh, don't worry about it. I'll get it.

1219
01:19:19,421 --> 01:19:20,797
Logan, I can't.

1220
01:19:20,839 --> 01:19:22,090
Riley, please, can we

1221
01:19:22,132 --> 01:19:23,175
not do this this morning?

1222
01:19:23,675 --> 01:19:25,135
It's far too early to get into a

1223
01:19:25,177 --> 01:19:26,803
discussion about who's buying coffee

1224
01:19:26,845 --> 01:19:28,179
when I'm not even capable

1225
01:19:28,221 --> 01:19:29,931
of having said discussion

1226
01:19:30,807 --> 01:19:31,892
until I've had coffee.

1227
01:19:32,601 --> 01:19:33,201
[laughs]

1228
01:19:34,060 --> 01:19:35,562
Okay, fine.

1229
01:19:36,480 --> 01:19:37,147
I'll get dressed.

1230
01:19:38,356 --> 01:19:39,608
Thank you.

1231
01:19:53,622 --> 01:19:54,498
[sighs]

1232
01:19:56,374 --> 01:19:57,959
[laughs]

1233
01:19:58,001 --> 01:19:58,918
[indistinct chatter]

1234
01:19:58,960 --> 01:19:59,560
What?

1235
01:19:59,628 --> 01:20:00,795
Oh, check it out.

1236
01:20:00,962 --> 01:20:01,630
They have donuts.

1237
01:20:02,756 --> 01:20:03,381
Want to get some?

1238
01:20:03,423 --> 01:20:04,049
It donut day.

1239
01:20:04,716 --> 01:20:04,966
Yeah?

1240
01:20:05,008 --> 01:20:05,608
Yeah!

1241
01:20:05,800 --> 01:20:06,400
Sprinkles.

1242
01:20:07,093 --> 01:20:07,886
Uh, Penut butter.

1243
01:20:08,845 --> 01:20:09,846
Hey, we're doing well.

1244
01:20:09,888 --> 01:20:12,807
Uh, we would like two hazelnut lattes,

1245
01:20:12,849 --> 01:20:14,559
one with whole milk and one with oat.

1246
01:20:16,353 --> 01:20:16,953
Yeah.

1247
01:20:17,562 --> 01:20:19,397
And, um, I was wondering

1248
01:20:19,439 --> 01:20:20,523
when Gillian gets in today,

1249
01:20:20,565 --> 01:20:21,733
because I just wanted to

1250
01:20:21,775 --> 01:20:22,817
thank her for something.

1251
01:20:24,819 --> 01:20:25,419
Um...

1252
01:20:26,947 --> 01:20:27,547
What's wrong?

1253
01:20:28,156 --> 01:20:30,200
So, last night, Gillian

1254
01:20:30,242 --> 01:20:32,327
passed in a car accident.

1255
01:20:33,036 --> 01:20:34,204
She was on her way home.

1256
01:20:35,789 --> 01:20:36,540
You're kidding.

1257
01:20:37,290 --> 01:20:38,166
We just saw her.

1258
01:20:39,376 --> 01:20:41,461
If you guys are interested, tonight we're

1259
01:20:41,503 --> 01:20:42,879
having a memorial on the beach.

1260
01:20:43,463 --> 01:20:45,048
So everyone's gonna be here.

1261
01:20:45,840 --> 01:20:47,342
Uh, friends, family.

1262
01:20:49,803 --> 01:20:52,639
Um, yeah, of course.

1263
01:20:54,558 --> 01:20:55,308
Yeah, thank you.

1264
01:20:55,850 --> 01:20:57,185
Hope to see you guys there.

1265
01:20:57,853 --> 01:20:58,453
Yeah.

1266
01:20:59,813 --> 01:21:00,413
Thanks.

1267
01:21:13,827 --> 01:21:14,427
Hey.

1268
01:21:15,203 --> 01:21:15,871
How you doing?

1269
01:21:17,080 --> 01:21:18,081
[indistinct chatter]

1270
01:21:19,833 --> 01:21:20,433
Riley?

1271
01:21:22,877 --> 01:21:24,254
I'm gonna go home and make some coffee.

1272
01:21:26,047 --> 01:21:26,647
No, no, hey.

1273
01:21:27,173 --> 01:21:28,300
We should talk about this.

1274
01:21:30,802 --> 01:21:32,971
I said I don't want to talk about it.

1275
01:21:33,513 --> 01:21:35,098
Riley, I know you're upset, but I think

1276
01:21:35,140 --> 01:21:36,391
we should talk about it.

1277
01:21:36,558 --> 01:21:37,158
Talk about what?

1278
01:21:37,350 --> 01:21:38,393
Look, I know you were friends.

1279
01:21:38,602 --> 01:21:39,936
I saw you talk to her all the time.

1280
01:21:40,478 --> 01:21:41,396
I know you liked her.

1281
01:21:41,605 --> 01:21:42,205
Oh, do you?

1282
01:21:42,439 --> 01:21:43,565
You know what I like now.

1283
01:21:44,441 --> 01:21:45,400
Come on, don't do this.

1284
01:21:45,525 --> 01:21:46,526
Do what?

1285
01:21:46,902 --> 01:21:49,279
What am I doing now, Logan?

1286
01:21:49,529 --> 01:21:50,363
What, you're pretending

1287
01:21:50,405 --> 01:21:51,364
like this doesn't hurt.

1288
01:21:51,531 --> 01:21:52,365
Like you're not even sad.

1289
01:21:52,866 --> 01:21:53,617
Well, what do I say?

1290
01:21:54,117 --> 01:21:55,118
What do I say that makes

1291
01:21:55,160 --> 01:21:56,786
any of this better or okay?

1292
01:21:57,203 --> 01:21:57,996
She's gone.

1293
01:21:58,330 --> 01:21:59,039
It's not that simple.

1294
01:21:59,414 --> 01:22:00,081
Yes, it is.

1295
01:22:00,415 --> 01:22:01,958
We are born, we're here for a

1296
01:22:02,000 --> 01:22:03,668
while, we die, and that's it.

1297
01:22:03,918 --> 01:22:04,752
Come on, there's more to

1298
01:22:04,794 --> 01:22:06,087
life to that and you know it.

1299
01:22:06,630 --> 01:22:08,047
I mean, it's about the people that we

1300
01:22:08,089 --> 01:22:09,633
interact with, the things we get to do,

1301
01:22:09,966 --> 01:22:11,259
the emotions we get to feel.

1302
01:22:11,509 --> 01:22:12,109
Oh.

1303
01:22:12,385 --> 01:22:13,636
Look at who became an expert in living

1304
01:22:13,678 --> 01:22:14,596
life all of a sudden.

1305
01:22:14,763 --> 01:22:15,930
What the hell does that even mean?

1306
01:22:16,348 --> 01:22:17,348
You act like you have it

1307
01:22:17,390 --> 01:22:18,642
together, but you don't.

1308
01:22:18,850 --> 01:22:20,310
You want to give me advice about living

1309
01:22:20,352 --> 01:22:21,185
life when you're the one

1310
01:22:21,227 --> 01:22:22,395
running away from your family.

1311
01:22:22,896 --> 01:22:24,731
Acting all happy-go-lucky and like

1312
01:22:24,773 --> 01:22:26,274
everything's all great so you don't have

1313
01:22:26,316 --> 01:22:27,567
to talk about anything real.

1314
01:22:28,193 --> 01:22:29,027
Me? What about you?

1315
01:22:29,569 --> 01:22:30,904
At least I know I'm going home.

1316
01:22:31,279 --> 01:22:32,572
My running away is only temporary.

1317
01:22:32,781 --> 01:22:33,406
What about you?

1318
01:22:33,782 --> 01:22:34,741
When are you going home?

1319
01:22:35,325 --> 01:22:36,242
Hell, where is home?

1320
01:22:36,910 --> 01:22:38,036
You say I'm acting fake?

1321
01:22:38,286 --> 01:22:39,203
I'm at least talking to

1322
01:22:39,245 --> 01:22:40,622
people, trying to socialize.

1323
01:22:41,539 --> 01:22:42,916
You just block everyone out.

1324
01:22:43,333 --> 01:22:44,626
Like that's any sort of way to live.

1325
01:22:44,834 --> 01:22:46,586
Come on, you can't honestly tell me that

1326
01:22:46,628 --> 01:22:47,503
you don't have a single

1327
01:22:47,545 --> 01:22:48,479
person that cares about you.

1328
01:22:48,713 --> 01:22:50,173
Not one person that reaches

1329
01:22:50,215 --> 01:22:51,257
out to see if you're okay.

1330
01:22:52,550 --> 01:22:53,259
I don't buy it.

1331
01:22:54,010 --> 01:22:54,678
I'm here, Riley.

1332
01:22:55,136 --> 01:22:56,929
I'm standing right here in front of you.

1333
01:22:56,971 --> 01:22:58,390
Yet you refuse to let me in.

1334
01:22:58,973 --> 01:23:00,099
You like half open up and then you

1335
01:23:00,141 --> 01:23:01,309
immediately shut down.

1336
01:23:02,185 --> 01:23:04,103
God, do you know how much it sucks to

1337
01:23:04,145 --> 01:23:05,772
look at somebody and actually see them?

1338
01:23:06,356 --> 01:23:07,691
To see yourself in them?

1339
01:23:07,982 --> 01:23:09,150
To know that they see

1340
01:23:09,192 --> 01:23:11,152
you but refuse to admit it?

1341
01:23:11,194 --> 01:23:12,236
Do you want to know why I

1342
01:23:12,278 --> 01:23:13,279
think you block everyone out?

1343
01:23:13,822 --> 01:23:16,616
Because you're afraid that someday you're

1344
01:23:16,658 --> 01:23:17,617
going to find someone or

1345
01:23:17,659 --> 01:23:18,618
something to love again.

1346
01:23:19,619 --> 01:23:20,745
And you're going to lose it.

1347
01:23:21,204 --> 01:23:22,288
Like you did with dancing.

1348
01:23:22,997 --> 01:23:23,873
Which sucks because

1349
01:23:23,915 --> 01:23:25,333
you're so much more than that.

1350
01:23:25,917 --> 01:23:27,835
It's like you've let this fear consume

1351
01:23:27,877 --> 01:23:29,420
you to the point of not even being open

1352
01:23:29,462 --> 01:23:31,339
to the possibility of living a new life.

1353
01:23:33,341 --> 01:23:34,217
You say I'm pretending?

1354
01:23:35,218 --> 01:23:36,177
You're the one who's acting

1355
01:23:36,219 --> 01:23:37,137
like they're already dead.

1356
01:23:45,937 --> 01:23:46,537
Riley.

1357
01:23:46,855 --> 01:23:47,480
Fuck you.

1358
01:24:21,473 --> 01:24:22,353
[sad music]

1359
01:27:49,055 --> 01:27:51,807
Riley, I know this doesn't fix anything

1360
01:27:51,849 --> 01:27:52,683
and you might think

1361
01:27:52,725 --> 01:27:54,727
it's lame, but writing down

1362
01:27:54,769 --> 01:27:56,145
my thoughts really helped me get through

1363
01:27:56,187 --> 01:27:57,229
some hard times and I

1364
01:27:57,271 --> 01:27:58,814
thought maybe it could help

1365
01:27:58,856 --> 01:27:59,456
you too.

1366
01:28:00,316 --> 01:28:00,942
No matter what you

1367
01:28:00,984 --> 01:28:02,777
think, you're not alone.

1368
01:28:03,569 --> 01:28:05,697
I know it and Logan knows it too.

1369
01:28:06,948 --> 01:28:08,032
Maybe give him a shot.

1370
01:28:09,075 --> 01:28:09,675
Or not.

1371
01:28:11,202 --> 01:28:11,802
What do I know?

1372
01:28:12,286 --> 01:28:13,204
I'm just a barista.

1373
01:28:15,123 --> 01:28:15,723
Gillian.

1374
01:28:54,579 --> 01:28:58,541
[ Music ]

1375
01:29:19,479 --> 01:29:20,938
I don't know how many of you know this,

1376
01:29:20,980 --> 01:29:25,485
but Gillian and I were pretty tight.

1377
01:29:26,819 --> 01:29:27,862
I've been giving her surf

1378
01:29:27,904 --> 01:29:30,740
lessons for the past two years.

1379
01:29:32,700 --> 01:29:37,663
And she was really terrible at first.

1380
01:29:39,248 --> 01:29:40,583
[ Laughs ]

1381
01:29:45,213 --> 01:29:46,005
But she didn't quit.

1382
01:29:47,632 --> 01:29:48,299
She kept going.

1383
01:29:49,342 --> 01:29:52,887
No matter how hard it was

1384
01:29:52,929 --> 01:29:55,848
or how frustrated she got,

1385
01:29:57,683 --> 01:29:59,018
in fact the more pissed off she was,

1386
01:29:59,060 --> 01:30:00,603
the harder she worked at it.

1387
01:30:00,645 --> 01:30:03,481
That's why I like Gillian.

1388
01:30:05,024 --> 01:30:05,942
She never gave up.

1389
01:30:09,070 --> 01:30:10,113
Jillian was my friend,

1390
01:30:11,280 --> 01:30:13,366
like she was to many of you.

1391
01:30:15,868 --> 01:30:16,577
She had this ability

1392
01:30:16,619 --> 01:30:18,246
to make people smile.

1393
01:30:19,205 --> 01:30:23,667
No matter how shitty your day was or what

1394
01:30:23,709 --> 01:30:25,336
else you had going on.

1395
01:30:25,378 --> 01:30:28,089
Her energy was just infectious.

1396
01:30:32,176 --> 01:30:33,594
I was proud to know her.

1397
01:30:36,514 --> 01:30:37,974
And I was proud of her.

1398
01:30:40,184 --> 01:30:41,727
Just three days ago we were sitting out

1399
01:30:41,769 --> 01:30:42,478
in the water talking

1400
01:30:43,104 --> 01:30:47,316
and told me how excited she was to

1401
01:30:47,358 --> 01:30:48,359
actually feel like she

1402
01:30:48,401 --> 01:30:49,569
was getting good at surfing.

1403
01:30:53,781 --> 01:30:55,449
Said that pretty soon she's going to be

1404
01:30:55,491 --> 01:30:57,285
shredding the waves beside me.

1405
01:31:01,372 --> 01:31:01,972
Shit.

1406
01:31:05,084 --> 01:31:06,043
To our friend that

1407
01:31:06,085 --> 01:31:08,796
never gave up, Gillian.

1408
01:32:44,642 --> 01:32:45,393
Riley, hello.

1409
01:32:45,893 --> 01:32:47,519
I know it took us a while to get back to

1410
01:32:47,561 --> 01:32:49,272
you and we appreciate your patience.

1411
01:32:49,855 --> 01:32:51,065
We had so many amazing

1412
01:32:51,107 --> 01:32:52,400
candidates to work through.

1413
01:32:52,567 --> 01:32:54,735
However, I am very excited to reach out

1414
01:32:54,777 --> 01:32:57,154
and officially offer you the position of

1415
01:32:57,196 --> 01:32:58,239
dance captain for our

1416
01:32:58,281 --> 01:32:59,740
spring show next year.

1417
01:33:00,408 --> 01:33:02,284
Please let us know as soon as possible if

1418
01:33:02,326 --> 01:33:03,619
you would like to move forward with the

1419
01:33:03,661 --> 01:33:04,828
position and we can iron

1420
01:33:04,870 --> 01:33:06,372
out all the remaining details.

1421
01:33:07,039 --> 01:33:08,416
I look forward to hearing from you.

1422
01:33:08,916 --> 01:33:09,516
Best.

1423
01:33:09,625 --> 01:33:10,225
Olivia.

1424
01:33:16,507 --> 01:33:17,758
[ Knocking]

1425
01:33:20,303 --> 01:33:21,095
Hold on.

1426
01:33:23,014 --> 01:33:24,223
I'm coming.

1427
01:33:25,933 --> 01:33:26,809
Hold on.

1428
01:33:34,108 --> 01:33:34,708
Morning.

1429
01:33:37,320 --> 01:33:38,654
Dude, it's like 6

1430
01:33:38,696 --> 01:33:39,864
a.m. What are you doing?

1431
01:33:40,114 --> 01:33:42,908
Bro, it's like 8 a.m. You're just a bum.

1432
01:33:45,953 --> 01:33:47,538
Besides, you can't be mad. I brought the

1433
01:33:47,580 --> 01:33:48,456
ultimate peacemaker.

1434
01:33:49,373 --> 01:33:49,973
Gold.

1435
01:33:50,875 --> 01:33:51,475
Cash.

1436
01:33:52,918 --> 01:33:53,544
Fleetwood Mac.

1437
01:33:54,962 --> 01:33:55,562
Close.

1438
01:33:57,340 --> 01:33:57,940
Coffee.

1439
01:34:00,092 --> 01:34:01,427
Mmm, hazelnut.

1440
01:34:02,678 --> 01:34:03,278
The best.

1441
01:34:03,971 --> 01:34:05,139
With oat milk.

1442
01:34:06,557 --> 01:34:07,266
Not bad.

1443
01:34:09,352 --> 01:34:10,102
So, listen.

1444
01:34:10,311 --> 01:34:12,355
Ah, hold on.

1445
01:34:15,524 --> 01:34:16,124
Mmm.

1446
01:34:18,778 --> 01:34:19,378
Okay.

1447
01:34:21,447 --> 01:34:25,409
Anyways, I was thinking since I'm leaving

1448
01:34:25,451 --> 01:34:27,078
soon and we don't have class today,

1449
01:34:27,411 --> 01:34:28,371
the two of us should hang.

1450
01:34:30,289 --> 01:34:33,083
But we've hung out like every other day.

1451
01:34:33,125 --> 01:34:34,251
How would that be different?

1452
01:34:35,544 --> 01:34:36,212
True.

1453
01:34:36,796 --> 01:34:37,671
I was thinking that we'd be

1454
01:34:37,713 --> 01:34:39,090
a bit more intentional today.

1455
01:34:41,550 --> 01:34:42,150
I'm listening.

1456
01:34:43,135 --> 01:34:45,054
I have a plan. Go get dressed.

1457
01:34:46,055 --> 01:34:47,223
I'm scared.

1458
01:34:49,517 --> 01:34:50,559
Come on. Go get dressed.

1459
01:35:03,614 --> 01:35:06,492
[sighs]

1460
01:35:27,012 --> 01:35:27,972
So, where are we going?

1461
01:35:29,890 --> 01:35:31,308
I thought we could go for a bike ride.

1462
01:35:31,517 --> 01:35:33,936
Look, I know it's cheesy, but it's a

1463
01:35:33,978 --> 01:35:35,646
beautiful morning and it might be a fun

1464
01:35:35,688 --> 01:35:36,856
way to explore the town more.

1465
01:35:39,316 --> 01:35:40,609
No, absolutely not.

1466
01:35:40,985 --> 01:35:43,487
Riley, I know you're afraid, and there's

1467
01:35:43,737 --> 01:35:44,738
nothing wrong with that.

1468
01:35:45,239 --> 01:35:46,657
But if there's one thing I learned while

1469
01:35:46,699 --> 01:35:49,076
being here this week, meeting you,

1470
01:35:49,660 --> 01:35:51,328
hearing your story, Gillian,

1471
01:35:54,373 --> 01:35:55,499
life's too short to be afraid.

1472
01:35:57,001 --> 01:35:58,377
We're stronger than our fears.

1473
01:35:58,419 --> 01:36:00,129
I am not as strong as you think I am.

1474
01:36:01,505 --> 01:36:03,340
See, that's where you're wrong. You're

1475
01:36:03,382 --> 01:36:04,675
the strongest and bravest

1476
01:36:04,717 --> 01:36:06,010
person that I've ever met.

1477
01:36:15,936 --> 01:36:16,536
Fine.

1478
01:36:17,938 --> 01:36:18,856
Two conditions.

1479
01:36:19,773 --> 01:36:21,400
One, you have to respond back to those

1480
01:36:21,442 --> 01:36:22,693
text messages from your family and

1481
01:36:22,735 --> 01:36:24,278
friends because they care about you.

1482
01:36:26,322 --> 01:36:26,922
And the other?

1483
01:36:28,824 --> 01:36:30,451
No bridges, okay?

1484
01:36:33,162 --> 01:36:33,996
All right.

1485
01:36:34,205 --> 01:36:35,331
I agree to these terms.

1486
01:36:37,208 --> 01:36:38,584
Also, I'm really glad that you agreed.

1487
01:36:39,084 --> 01:36:40,419
Because this morning I already came down

1488
01:36:40,461 --> 01:36:42,004
here and I got these bikes for us.

1489
01:36:43,797 --> 01:36:46,091
Wow. Look at you being so confident.

1490
01:36:46,383 --> 01:36:48,969
Not confident. More like hopeful.

1491
01:37:09,156 --> 01:37:09,823
Hey.

1492
01:37:12,159 --> 01:37:20,159
[WAVES CRASHING]

1493
01:37:31,720 --> 01:37:32,320
Hey.

1494
01:37:34,306 --> 01:37:36,809
[WAVES CRASHING]

1495
01:37:47,820 --> 01:37:49,822
Riley, it's okay.

1496
01:37:50,823 --> 01:37:51,423
I'm here.

1497
01:37:53,117 --> 01:37:53,951
I'm not going anywhere.

1498
01:38:02,501 --> 01:38:05,921
[MUSIC]

1499
01:38:58,891 --> 01:39:01,268
[PHONE VIBRATION]

1500
01:39:13,530 --> 01:39:14,740
Everything okay?

1501
01:39:17,326 --> 01:39:19,203
Yeah, spam.

1502
01:39:20,537 --> 01:39:21,137
Ready?

1503
01:39:34,176 --> 01:39:37,638
[MUSIC]

1504
01:39:59,868 --> 01:40:03,122
[MUSIC]