1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:01:27,280 --> 00:01:28,920 Stop it, go away. 4 00:01:31,080 --> 00:01:34,840 - Want me to warm you up? - No, I just need sun. 5 00:01:34,920 --> 00:01:36,280 I'm the sun. 6 00:01:38,480 --> 00:01:41,240 - "I'm the sun..." - I'm the sun. 7 00:02:10,320 --> 00:02:11,760 The hunter! 8 00:02:11,840 --> 00:02:15,280 Where? There he is. I've got you. 9 00:02:46,560 --> 00:02:48,480 Do I know what I'm doing? 10 00:02:50,160 --> 00:02:51,640 Do I know what I'm doing? 11 00:02:51,720 --> 00:02:53,480 Is he the right man? 12 00:02:54,280 --> 00:02:57,720 Do you, Alicja, born in 1976 in Poland... 13 00:02:57,800 --> 00:03:01,920 take Sebastian, born in 1966 in Berlin, 14 00:03:02,000 --> 00:03:04,800 to be your lawfully wedded husband? 15 00:03:04,880 --> 00:03:06,840 If so, say "I do." 16 00:03:06,920 --> 00:03:08,560 Definitely. I do! 17 00:03:27,480 --> 00:03:29,960 They met at a tango course, didn't they? 18 00:03:33,360 --> 00:03:36,400 I guess it was 10 years ago. 19 00:03:36,480 --> 00:03:40,160 Ala went to Berlin to learn tango. 20 00:03:40,240 --> 00:03:43,240 And never came back home. 21 00:03:43,320 --> 00:03:45,760 So now this is where we're at. 22 00:04:27,840 --> 00:04:30,440 Woman of my life, 23 00:04:30,520 --> 00:04:33,760 as you delight in your consumerism, do you think everything is fine? 24 00:04:33,840 --> 00:04:34,840 Yes? 25 00:04:34,920 --> 00:04:37,600 May I ask you two questions about life? 26 00:04:37,680 --> 00:04:39,320 - About my life? - Yes. 27 00:04:39,400 --> 00:04:42,520 - You serious? - My first question is... 28 00:04:43,480 --> 00:04:45,800 What kind of person do I want to be? 29 00:04:48,800 --> 00:04:52,320 - Okay. - And my second question is... 30 00:04:52,400 --> 00:04:55,440 What do I want to get out of my life? 31 00:05:02,360 --> 00:05:04,200 If I lost 7 kilos. 32 00:05:04,280 --> 00:05:07,160 Why? It looks great. Gorgeous. 33 00:05:07,920 --> 00:05:09,880 What kind of person do I want to be? 34 00:05:14,360 --> 00:05:19,280 I'd like to be a kinky old fart with heaps of... 35 00:05:20,360 --> 00:05:23,480 Really materialistic, I'd buy all the best stuff. 36 00:05:29,280 --> 00:05:32,840 And what do I want to get out of my life? Even more money. 37 00:05:34,280 --> 00:05:37,920 What is it like to answer these questions? 38 00:05:39,000 --> 00:05:41,480 I want to be happy and... 39 00:05:43,360 --> 00:05:45,840 content, cheerful. 40 00:05:49,320 --> 00:05:51,600 - What did the others say? - Nothing yet. 41 00:05:51,680 --> 00:05:54,720 - No one has replied yet. - I'm curious myself. 42 00:05:54,800 --> 00:05:58,120 That's not important, Ala. How you answer them is. 43 00:05:58,960 --> 00:06:04,240 - How about you? - I said I want to be successful. 44 00:06:04,320 --> 00:06:07,240 With two thousand girls who all adore me. 45 00:06:07,320 --> 00:06:08,720 Two thousand? 46 00:06:10,320 --> 00:06:13,080 I'd like to be a sultan. 47 00:06:14,960 --> 00:06:16,360 A sultan? 48 00:06:17,040 --> 00:06:20,080 - These questions don't help at all. - No. 49 00:06:22,560 --> 00:06:25,800 Three, two, one. 50 00:06:25,880 --> 00:06:29,680 Our playtime is done. 51 00:06:30,200 --> 00:06:34,400 All the little girls and boys. 52 00:06:34,960 --> 00:06:39,440 Tidy up their games and toys. 53 00:06:43,160 --> 00:06:47,760 My grandmother warned my mother 54 00:06:47,840 --> 00:06:52,120 that once a woman has a baby, she can forget about her own life. 55 00:06:53,720 --> 00:06:56,560 You devote yourself to the family and children, 56 00:06:56,640 --> 00:06:58,640 and you're not important. 57 00:07:02,400 --> 00:07:04,400 You accept it automatically. 58 00:07:04,480 --> 00:07:10,040 If that's all you know, you just think that's the way it is. 59 00:07:27,080 --> 00:07:28,960 I grew up in East Germany. 60 00:07:30,640 --> 00:07:32,920 I was a communist. 61 00:07:33,000 --> 00:07:38,880 I thought socialism would save us, save the world. 62 00:07:39,520 --> 00:07:44,480 After the regime change, however, I realized that... 63 00:07:45,440 --> 00:07:49,120 freedom is a precious commodity. 64 00:08:16,880 --> 00:08:18,360 Stop it! 65 00:08:35,760 --> 00:08:36,960 No! 66 00:08:37,440 --> 00:08:39,680 Yes. I've got one of them... 67 00:08:52,680 --> 00:08:53,960 Damn it. 68 00:09:05,280 --> 00:09:06,960 Two more years... 69 00:09:07,600 --> 00:09:09,840 and I've got no chance. 70 00:09:17,720 --> 00:09:21,920 Come on, it doesn't take long. 71 00:09:22,000 --> 00:09:26,560 If your hair's not tangled, it should only take a minute or so. 72 00:09:38,960 --> 00:09:41,880 - Does your head itch? - A bit. 73 00:09:50,640 --> 00:09:52,040 Lice. 74 00:09:56,080 --> 00:09:57,640 One. 75 00:09:59,200 --> 00:10:00,200 Two. 76 00:10:02,160 --> 00:10:03,440 Three. 77 00:10:06,120 --> 00:10:07,520 Four. 78 00:10:09,080 --> 00:10:13,240 I dreamt that you and Dad split up. 79 00:10:15,520 --> 00:10:18,480 - How was that? - Bad. 80 00:10:21,560 --> 00:10:22,880 Five. 81 00:10:22,960 --> 00:10:24,360 Come give me a hug! 82 00:10:24,440 --> 00:10:26,440 - I need to go to the toilet! - No, no, no... 83 00:10:26,520 --> 00:10:29,960 - Did Dad leave me or did I leave him? - You left him. 84 00:10:32,160 --> 00:10:33,400 Six. 85 00:10:36,480 --> 00:10:38,160 Yeah, but... 86 00:10:39,400 --> 00:10:41,920 You didn't come to us, because you knew... 87 00:10:42,000 --> 00:10:45,400 - I knew it was just a dream. - Silly. 88 00:10:49,680 --> 00:10:52,240 That won't happen. 89 00:10:52,320 --> 00:10:54,440 No? Why not? 90 00:10:54,520 --> 00:10:56,520 Because you like each other! 91 00:10:57,640 --> 00:11:00,200 - Only like? - Love. 92 00:11:01,600 --> 00:11:03,720 Yes, you're right. 93 00:11:06,960 --> 00:11:10,120 ...seven, eight, nine... 94 00:11:13,920 --> 00:11:17,720 ...seven, eight, nine, ten... coming! 95 00:11:17,800 --> 00:11:19,280 I stopped playing. 96 00:11:38,480 --> 00:11:41,680 Woman of my life, would you like some music? 97 00:11:42,320 --> 00:11:44,880 What would you like to listen to? 98 00:11:47,480 --> 00:11:48,960 Something... 99 00:11:52,680 --> 00:11:54,080 chilled. 100 00:11:54,160 --> 00:11:55,800 Something chilled? 101 00:11:56,560 --> 00:11:58,120 Chilled... 102 00:12:16,560 --> 00:12:19,560 We decided a year ago to try an open relationship, 103 00:12:19,640 --> 00:12:22,000 but haven't told anybody. 104 00:12:24,040 --> 00:12:27,840 We've only talked to each other about it. 105 00:12:30,480 --> 00:12:34,280 I'm following him on that journey. 106 00:12:36,240 --> 00:12:38,000 For us. 107 00:12:47,320 --> 00:12:49,600 If with anyone, then with him. 108 00:12:55,200 --> 00:12:57,960 Green horses. 109 00:13:00,880 --> 00:13:04,080 Galloping by. 110 00:13:07,640 --> 00:13:10,280 From under their hooves. 111 00:13:11,040 --> 00:13:14,600 Flowers burst up. 112 00:13:18,200 --> 00:13:21,320 Frogs in the pond. 113 00:13:22,000 --> 00:13:25,400 Lit a fire. 114 00:13:29,240 --> 00:13:32,480 Up in the sky. 115 00:13:34,040 --> 00:13:37,680 The stars glow in the moonlight. 116 00:13:41,040 --> 00:13:45,760 You spoke to me. 117 00:13:48,360 --> 00:13:51,040 Distant and strange. 118 00:13:55,840 --> 00:13:59,240 You said that our summer 119 00:14:00,600 --> 00:14:04,240 is coming to an end. 120 00:14:09,280 --> 00:14:11,760 Summer... 121 00:14:13,680 --> 00:14:15,760 Who wants to have sex anyway? 122 00:14:17,160 --> 00:14:18,960 It's overrated. 123 00:14:19,040 --> 00:14:23,360 The mint-scented summer breeze. 124 00:14:28,680 --> 00:14:35,160 Raspberry-colored. 125 00:14:36,320 --> 00:14:38,480 Summer... 126 00:14:38,560 --> 00:14:43,280 of green woodland. 127 00:14:44,280 --> 00:14:46,640 Summer... 128 00:14:48,120 --> 00:14:54,400 of cuckoos and larks. 129 00:15:18,000 --> 00:15:19,560 - Come here. - No! 130 00:15:19,640 --> 00:15:21,120 - Come... - No! 131 00:15:21,200 --> 00:15:22,920 Close the door. 132 00:15:32,040 --> 00:15:35,320 Do you feel like the romance has gone? 133 00:15:36,520 --> 00:15:38,560 No, I just... 134 00:15:40,360 --> 00:15:43,280 Do you feel like the love's gone? 135 00:15:43,360 --> 00:15:45,200 Is it? 136 00:15:48,080 --> 00:15:52,120 That we do all this together without loving each other? 137 00:15:52,200 --> 00:15:53,520 No. 138 00:15:53,600 --> 00:15:59,120 I don't know how to put it... 139 00:16:00,920 --> 00:16:04,880 Living together, struggling to make it work... 140 00:16:05,560 --> 00:16:07,280 It's very intimate. 141 00:16:07,360 --> 00:16:12,280 You need to know so much about the other person. 142 00:16:12,360 --> 00:16:15,120 - You really have to lay it all bare. - Yes. 143 00:16:17,280 --> 00:16:20,880 We've been trying this out for two years now. 144 00:16:21,600 --> 00:16:25,080 Two years of asking yourself 145 00:16:25,160 --> 00:16:28,600 if you can watch or bear to see 146 00:16:28,680 --> 00:16:32,040 your husband making out with another woman. 147 00:16:33,000 --> 00:16:36,440 Kissing her, touching her, fucking her. 148 00:16:36,520 --> 00:16:39,400 What would it change? 149 00:16:39,480 --> 00:16:42,520 How would me sleeping with another woman change anything? 150 00:16:53,440 --> 00:16:57,320 We've never actually talked about it like we are doing now. 151 00:16:57,400 --> 00:17:02,360 Yeah. People don't talk about this stuff, and it's stupid. 152 00:17:02,440 --> 00:17:04,000 That's part of... 153 00:17:04,080 --> 00:17:08,000 It's easier not to. It made your life easier too. 154 00:17:08,080 --> 00:17:10,520 - Yours too. - Sure. 155 00:17:10,600 --> 00:17:12,000 Yeah. 156 00:17:20,880 --> 00:17:22,920 Monogamy or freedom. 157 00:17:24,520 --> 00:17:26,960 You have to decide. 158 00:19:58,560 --> 00:20:01,960 I fell asleep a girl and woke up a woman. 159 00:20:03,000 --> 00:20:05,800 It just happened overnight. 160 00:20:06,840 --> 00:20:09,640 I met my first boyfriend when I was 14. 161 00:20:09,720 --> 00:20:12,560 He was eight years older than me. 162 00:20:12,640 --> 00:20:18,160 So with him being older and me looking old for my age, 163 00:20:18,240 --> 00:20:20,200 we were a good fit. 164 00:20:20,280 --> 00:20:23,760 I remember our kind of "physical beginnings". 165 00:20:23,840 --> 00:20:27,480 We did erotic photo sessions, 166 00:20:27,560 --> 00:20:29,720 just discovering... 167 00:20:31,120 --> 00:20:33,400 that special interplay, 168 00:20:33,480 --> 00:20:37,360 being together, one body next to the other. 169 00:20:37,440 --> 00:20:42,280 I was very lucky to be able to experience all that. 170 00:20:42,360 --> 00:20:44,080 Freely. 171 00:20:55,840 --> 00:20:58,400 BERLIN, GERMANY NOVEMBER 1989 172 00:21:01,040 --> 00:21:04,000 You start adult life, and your views change. 173 00:21:04,080 --> 00:21:08,160 I was 21 when the Berlin Wall came down. 174 00:21:10,240 --> 00:21:12,680 Then I went to Rome, 175 00:21:12,760 --> 00:21:15,200 and I saw the Sistine Chapel. 176 00:21:16,640 --> 00:21:20,200 I marveled at Michelangelo's frescoes. 177 00:21:21,760 --> 00:21:27,000 I just thought, "You bastards would've never let me out. 178 00:21:27,080 --> 00:21:30,480 I never would've seen this in my whole fucking life." 179 00:21:36,200 --> 00:21:38,080 That's my trauma. 180 00:21:38,160 --> 00:21:40,000 That feeling of... 181 00:21:41,760 --> 00:21:43,600 not being free. 182 00:21:48,280 --> 00:21:50,600 Sebastian and I have different life stories. 183 00:21:50,680 --> 00:21:53,680 He met his first girlfriend when he was 16. 184 00:21:54,200 --> 00:21:58,960 He married her when he was 20, became a father at 26, 185 00:21:59,040 --> 00:22:01,480 and spent 16 years in a marriage 186 00:22:01,560 --> 00:22:04,760 not being allowed to do what he wanted. 187 00:22:04,840 --> 00:22:06,960 Monogamy was the only option. 188 00:22:07,040 --> 00:22:10,920 He knew he'd lose his wife if he did something. 189 00:22:12,120 --> 00:22:15,400 But I had that freedom. How could I deny him that? 190 00:22:17,120 --> 00:22:19,280 "I experienced it, but you're not allowed." 191 00:22:47,160 --> 00:22:50,800 - I haven't had a date for ages. - Are you going to her place? 192 00:22:50,880 --> 00:22:54,000 - I guess so. Where else? - Okay. 193 00:22:54,080 --> 00:22:55,720 The park? 194 00:22:57,760 --> 00:23:00,160 - That worked fine too. - I think it's a sex date. 195 00:23:02,160 --> 00:23:08,480 - You sure? - I'm not sure, but it looks like it. 196 00:23:08,560 --> 00:23:11,800 You just assume that from the chat? 197 00:23:12,720 --> 00:23:14,120 Fair enough. 198 00:23:14,200 --> 00:23:16,280 She seems pretty set on it. 199 00:23:18,000 --> 00:23:19,520 Pretty set? 200 00:23:19,600 --> 00:23:22,760 - What does that mean? - You can tell that's what she wants. 201 00:23:22,840 --> 00:23:26,360 - Okay. But did she say it? - No. 202 00:23:26,440 --> 00:23:28,560 - Between the words. - Between the lines. 203 00:23:28,640 --> 00:23:30,640 You read between the lines. 204 00:23:30,720 --> 00:23:34,600 - You can tell by how she responds. - What? 205 00:23:34,680 --> 00:23:36,520 - You can tell... - Okay. 206 00:23:36,600 --> 00:23:39,680 - ...why she wants to meet. - Got it. 207 00:23:40,240 --> 00:23:41,840 This is a historic moment. 208 00:23:42,600 --> 00:23:45,480 If you fuck her, it'll be a historic moment. 209 00:23:45,560 --> 00:23:47,160 - Historic? - Yes, historic. 210 00:23:47,240 --> 00:23:49,520 Isn't that a bit over the top? 211 00:23:49,600 --> 00:23:54,520 - Historic? - No, it's definitely a big step up. 212 00:23:54,600 --> 00:23:58,600 Lighten up a bit, will you? 213 00:23:59,880 --> 00:24:01,880 Why should I lighten up? 214 00:24:02,680 --> 00:24:06,160 - You want me to celebrate it? - Exactly. Done. 215 00:24:06,240 --> 00:24:10,400 All guides for couples in open relationships advise 216 00:24:11,080 --> 00:24:15,520 that you set your boundaries, talk about them, be honest, 217 00:24:15,600 --> 00:24:20,080 and see if you're okay with pushing them or not. 218 00:24:20,160 --> 00:24:23,240 Then the boundaries will expand on their own. 219 00:24:23,320 --> 00:24:26,640 But to begin with, everyone needs a safe space. 220 00:24:26,720 --> 00:24:28,600 Pehlitz is my safe space. 221 00:24:28,680 --> 00:24:31,960 Home too. And what about the car? 222 00:24:32,040 --> 00:24:35,920 - I guess not, you already... - That was ages ago. 223 00:24:36,000 --> 00:24:37,880 Before we had any agreements. 224 00:24:37,960 --> 00:24:40,360 No, but you still did it. 225 00:24:40,440 --> 00:24:42,320 So the car was a safe space too? 226 00:24:43,080 --> 00:24:45,440 - What else, the bikes? - It was my car! 227 00:24:47,320 --> 00:24:49,520 - That's not true. - It is. 228 00:24:49,600 --> 00:24:52,520 It was our family car. 229 00:24:56,360 --> 00:24:58,640 That's all I had to show off. 230 00:25:01,080 --> 00:25:03,320 You want to show off? 231 00:25:03,400 --> 00:25:06,600 Go show off your big scary dick and not your... 232 00:25:07,600 --> 00:25:09,160 Yeah right. 233 00:25:10,040 --> 00:25:11,520 I'm going for a jog. 234 00:25:11,600 --> 00:25:12,960 - Now? - Yes. 235 00:25:14,560 --> 00:25:17,360 A run, swim, then off to bed. 236 00:25:17,440 --> 00:25:19,040 Sounds great. 237 00:25:20,480 --> 00:25:22,120 A nice evening. 238 00:25:23,040 --> 00:25:24,600 With a lot of thinking. 239 00:25:31,440 --> 00:25:32,440 Wife! 240 00:25:34,920 --> 00:25:38,960 - Which shirt should I wear? - Oh no, leave me out of it. 241 00:25:52,720 --> 00:25:55,640 - Wife, I'm leaving. - Bye. 242 00:25:56,240 --> 00:25:58,760 - Are you okay? - Yes. 243 00:25:59,560 --> 00:26:01,000 Great. 244 00:26:05,400 --> 00:26:07,640 Can I have a kiss goodbye? 245 00:26:07,720 --> 00:26:09,040 Yes. 246 00:26:10,320 --> 00:26:11,840 Like now? 247 00:26:14,120 --> 00:26:17,840 You want me to stand by the door waving my hankie? 248 00:26:17,920 --> 00:26:21,080 Yeah, sure. That's what I want. 249 00:26:52,160 --> 00:26:54,200 Give it everything you've got. 250 00:27:12,680 --> 00:27:15,720 Go for it, 30 seconds left. 251 00:27:25,560 --> 00:27:27,720 15 seconds. 252 00:27:28,480 --> 00:27:31,440 Step it up, don't give up. 253 00:27:41,200 --> 00:27:43,840 Keep it up, let's go. 254 00:27:50,880 --> 00:27:53,040 Go, go. 255 00:27:53,120 --> 00:27:55,120 Let's go, guys. 256 00:27:55,200 --> 00:27:56,960 Slow down... 257 00:28:00,280 --> 00:28:03,400 Three, two, one. 258 00:29:48,760 --> 00:29:52,480 When you start talking about it, you come across other people 259 00:29:52,560 --> 00:29:56,040 who are experimenting with their sexuality, 260 00:29:56,120 --> 00:29:58,480 who are curious about different possibilities. 261 00:30:01,840 --> 00:30:05,840 By opening up our relationship, we also opened up our house. 262 00:30:16,680 --> 00:30:20,560 Nice arse. What else can I say? 263 00:31:15,040 --> 00:31:17,920 - Want some wine? - Thanks. 264 00:31:53,040 --> 00:31:55,000 Heart attack. 265 00:31:59,280 --> 00:32:01,920 How are you? You good? 266 00:32:03,160 --> 00:32:05,280 I'm going out for a bit. 267 00:32:28,280 --> 00:32:30,840 It's like mourning. 268 00:32:30,920 --> 00:32:36,080 You're hysterical to begin with, 269 00:32:36,160 --> 00:32:38,320 there's lots of crying. 270 00:32:40,240 --> 00:32:46,480 You just don't want to leave, whether it's a person or a system. 271 00:32:48,200 --> 00:32:51,560 I think one of those roots just let go. 272 00:32:51,640 --> 00:32:55,200 I didn't even have to cut it off. 273 00:33:17,440 --> 00:33:19,400 Jesus Christ. 274 00:33:41,680 --> 00:33:48,080 Finally I can be my crazy, wild self. 275 00:33:49,760 --> 00:33:55,720 This feeling of freedom and love, I can't put it into words. 276 00:33:56,480 --> 00:33:58,560 I'm so madly in love with you. 277 00:33:59,120 --> 00:34:01,320 It feels amazing. 278 00:34:01,400 --> 00:34:06,920 This is our 22nd spring. Well, we have a few each year. 279 00:34:07,000 --> 00:34:09,440 I saved our love. 280 00:34:13,040 --> 00:34:16,120 - Yes, you did. - I did. 281 00:34:16,200 --> 00:34:18,680 You won, you did it. 282 00:34:18,760 --> 00:34:23,600 I'm not a sad winner, I'm a happy winner. 283 00:34:23,680 --> 00:34:25,400 "I'm the king!" 284 00:34:25,480 --> 00:34:27,440 What film was that? 285 00:34:29,960 --> 00:34:34,240 What's the meaning of Stonehenge 286 00:34:34,920 --> 00:34:36,280 Ylvis? 287 00:34:49,640 --> 00:34:52,280 Jesus Christ. Storm on the way. 288 00:35:08,240 --> 00:35:14,960 I've never enjoyed life with anyone as much as with him. 289 00:35:28,080 --> 00:35:31,360 You keep writing clues on my palm. 290 00:35:33,400 --> 00:35:36,680 Then wipe the pen marks with a brush. 291 00:35:38,760 --> 00:35:42,480 You say you ain't afraid of no man. 292 00:35:44,160 --> 00:35:48,720 That if they get us, you'll eat them alive. 293 00:35:48,800 --> 00:35:50,960 That's you all over. 294 00:36:11,800 --> 00:36:15,160 When folly and poverty get me down. 295 00:36:16,400 --> 00:36:20,080 You monkey about and the house is alive. 296 00:36:22,640 --> 00:36:26,240 The spark is back in my eyes. 297 00:36:28,160 --> 00:36:32,680 If only for you, I want to live again. 298 00:36:32,760 --> 00:36:37,360 You're the cure for all evil. 299 00:36:38,280 --> 00:36:42,360 And my hope for the coming year. 300 00:36:42,440 --> 00:36:43,960 Need a hand? 301 00:36:44,040 --> 00:36:46,400 You're the star amid the darkness. 302 00:36:46,480 --> 00:36:49,760 A happiness world champion. 303 00:36:49,840 --> 00:36:53,960 That's you all over. 304 00:37:43,480 --> 00:37:47,080 This life is truly beautiful. I never had it better. 305 00:37:50,360 --> 00:37:55,920 It never occurred to me to end this chapter over this. 306 00:38:27,240 --> 00:38:28,440 - Be my guest. - Sorry. 307 00:38:28,520 --> 00:38:29,600 Be my guest! 308 00:38:29,680 --> 00:38:31,280 - Do you do the same with..? - I eat them. 309 00:38:31,360 --> 00:38:32,400 - Yeah... - These, you too? 310 00:38:32,480 --> 00:38:33,840 No, I don't eat them but I have to scratch it. 311 00:38:33,920 --> 00:38:39,000 Yeah, I scratch it but, I thought it was my leg, you know. It was weird. 312 00:38:39,080 --> 00:38:40,680 No, it's my leg. 313 00:38:42,120 --> 00:38:43,120 Okay. 314 00:38:43,200 --> 00:38:46,840 - Let's fuck the pillow. - Let's fuck the pillow, yeah. 315 00:38:51,360 --> 00:38:53,560 And how is the was this also. 316 00:38:55,400 --> 00:38:57,840 - I did it yesterday. - Ah, really? 317 00:39:03,800 --> 00:39:05,600 The tour party. 318 00:39:06,840 --> 00:39:09,480 Our Eastern neighbors! 319 00:39:15,680 --> 00:39:17,560 Make a wish. 320 00:39:19,200 --> 00:39:20,720 Careful. 321 00:39:22,080 --> 00:39:23,720 There you go. 322 00:39:38,000 --> 00:39:40,680 What we have here is so extraordinary 323 00:39:40,760 --> 00:39:43,640 that it's sometimes hard to believe. 324 00:39:43,720 --> 00:39:46,240 It's an adventure. Who knows what will come of it? 325 00:39:46,320 --> 00:39:48,680 It's great you found a place for it. 326 00:39:48,760 --> 00:39:52,720 It just happened, it was just a date. 327 00:39:54,240 --> 00:39:57,080 After everything that's happened during this time? 328 00:39:58,000 --> 00:40:00,760 All your demons, your fears... 329 00:40:00,840 --> 00:40:02,960 The whole process. 330 00:40:03,920 --> 00:40:08,640 You remember what it was like a year ago? 331 00:40:23,080 --> 00:40:24,800 All these flies... 332 00:40:57,400 --> 00:40:59,040 Do I know what I'm doing? 333 00:40:59,120 --> 00:41:00,960 Is he the right guy? 334 00:41:05,840 --> 00:41:07,320 Has anything changed? 335 00:41:07,400 --> 00:41:09,200 I have. 336 00:41:11,040 --> 00:41:15,240 But not my body. I'm shocked that it still fits so perfectly. 337 00:41:16,400 --> 00:41:18,080 Got it. 338 00:41:32,320 --> 00:41:34,920 - Hello! - Hello! 339 00:41:36,960 --> 00:41:38,640 - How're you feeling? - Well. 340 00:41:38,720 --> 00:41:42,960 - Good. - ...Very well. 341 00:41:43,040 --> 00:41:45,120 Great. I love you. 342 00:41:55,200 --> 00:41:57,000 Yeah. I think a little bit stronger now. 343 00:41:57,080 --> 00:41:59,640 - Little bit stronger, okay. - Because it's beautiful now. 344 00:42:00,520 --> 00:42:01,520 Okay. 345 00:42:18,480 --> 00:42:20,520 I think I will lose my hair after this thing. 346 00:42:20,600 --> 00:42:25,320 - This is... It's one more night. - It's holiday. 347 00:42:25,400 --> 00:42:28,640 - And it's coming through. - It's... all the hair's gone. 348 00:42:30,320 --> 00:42:31,720 I will love you anyway. 349 00:42:31,800 --> 00:42:35,200 Would you love to marry me? Would you love to marry me? 350 00:42:35,280 --> 00:42:37,040 - Sure. - Sure? 351 00:42:37,120 --> 00:42:38,760 - Of course. - And you? 352 00:42:39,640 --> 00:42:40,640 I say yes. 353 00:42:40,720 --> 00:42:43,560 Yeah, they said yes! 354 00:42:43,640 --> 00:42:48,080 So I take the ring... Let the party begin! 355 00:43:40,800 --> 00:43:42,080 Thank you. 356 00:43:43,160 --> 00:43:46,400 - Where's applause? - This is applause. 357 00:43:46,480 --> 00:43:51,080 Oh my god, a bird was here. Because it's a... 358 00:43:51,640 --> 00:43:53,800 - No, it's not like that. - Of course, kurwa. 359 00:43:53,880 --> 00:43:56,800 No, it's like... 360 00:43:58,360 --> 00:43:59,600 Wait a moment. 361 00:44:05,440 --> 00:44:06,600 Time to kiss... 362 00:44:06,680 --> 00:44:09,120 Time to kiss, time to kiss. 363 00:44:18,120 --> 00:44:19,520 That's sweet. 364 00:44:23,520 --> 00:44:24,880 - Okay, yeah. - Come on. 365 00:44:24,960 --> 00:44:26,360 Yeah, yeah, closer to this... 366 00:44:26,840 --> 00:44:29,440 That you were saying. But you're still sweet. 367 00:44:39,200 --> 00:44:44,320 I wonder which of Alicja's shirts Sebastian will wear tomorrow. 368 00:44:48,440 --> 00:44:49,920 The glittery one. 369 00:44:50,000 --> 00:44:53,680 And one of Alicja's nice hats. 370 00:44:54,560 --> 00:44:56,160 Oh my. 371 00:45:01,880 --> 00:45:05,560 My daughter found a gypsy, and she's dancing with him. 372 00:45:05,640 --> 00:45:09,120 Am I wrong? I'm not wrong. 373 00:45:09,200 --> 00:45:11,720 Where on earth did she find him? 374 00:45:11,800 --> 00:45:15,040 That's just how he evolved. My husband has changed. 375 00:45:21,200 --> 00:45:23,040 I'm so free. 376 00:45:28,320 --> 00:45:30,680 All alone. 377 00:45:32,480 --> 00:45:34,360 In your presence. 378 00:45:35,360 --> 00:45:37,600 It really doesn't hurt much. 379 00:45:40,160 --> 00:45:42,120 So free. 380 00:45:42,760 --> 00:45:45,080 Now it's almost over. 381 00:45:47,720 --> 00:45:49,040 Being free. 382 00:45:50,360 --> 00:45:52,920 Just be free 383 00:45:54,160 --> 00:45:56,240 I'll help you. 384 00:45:58,000 --> 00:46:01,040 I know it hurts a bit at first. 385 00:46:01,760 --> 00:46:03,520 But, hey, don't cry. 386 00:46:05,960 --> 00:46:07,840 Just be free. 387 00:46:10,640 --> 00:46:13,480 - How do you feel? - I feel... free like hell. 388 00:46:19,760 --> 00:46:22,280 Hi! Yeah, my name is Camila, 389 00:46:22,360 --> 00:46:25,840 I'm from Out of Context. Ehm, today I'm gonna be your host. 390 00:46:31,840 --> 00:46:34,360 And... yeah, so home. 391 00:46:34,440 --> 00:46:37,720 I'm just... encourage you to treat it as if it was yours. 392 00:47:00,560 --> 00:47:03,480 - I'll be going then. - Go for it. 393 00:48:02,280 --> 00:48:06,560 - What's up? - When are we eating? 394 00:48:08,920 --> 00:48:10,800 When I'm done here. 395 00:48:10,880 --> 00:48:14,640 - Could you fix ours too? - Yep, will do. 396 00:49:08,960 --> 00:49:11,440 - The sun's gone. - Come over here. 397 00:49:11,520 --> 00:49:15,000 - I'll lie on top of you. - Come over to us. 398 00:49:16,440 --> 00:49:18,320 On your belly. 399 00:49:20,120 --> 00:49:22,800 - There's no space. - Sure there is. 400 00:49:23,520 --> 00:49:25,880 It's really cold here already. 401 00:49:28,520 --> 00:49:31,440 Wow, it gets cold so fast. Oh, sorry. 402 00:49:34,960 --> 00:49:37,320 Cold, cold, cold, cold, cold. 403 00:49:38,840 --> 00:49:42,200 Of course. Put your... Put your... 404 00:49:42,280 --> 00:49:45,200 Put your, put your, put your... 405 00:49:46,840 --> 00:49:50,040 As part of my psychology thesis, 406 00:49:50,120 --> 00:49:53,200 I'm researching jealousy 407 00:49:53,280 --> 00:49:56,880 in polyamorous or non-monogamous relationships. 408 00:49:56,960 --> 00:49:59,680 What does jealousy mean for you? 409 00:49:59,760 --> 00:50:03,760 What's the first thing you associate with that term? 410 00:50:03,840 --> 00:50:06,560 I associate it very strongly with fear. 411 00:50:08,040 --> 00:50:10,000 Very much. 412 00:50:11,880 --> 00:50:15,720 It's the fear of loss, the fear of change, 413 00:50:17,520 --> 00:50:20,440 the fear of being replaced. 414 00:50:20,520 --> 00:50:25,240 Lots of strong fears that I call demons. 415 00:51:44,680 --> 00:51:46,600 You're like a dog. 416 00:51:47,320 --> 00:51:49,720 You're like a dog. Come here. 417 00:51:53,840 --> 00:51:58,000 They, they uh... behaved like dogs. 418 00:52:01,600 --> 00:52:02,600 Hallo, home! 419 00:52:04,880 --> 00:52:05,880 It's fine. 420 00:52:13,400 --> 00:52:14,960 Why you're not sure about? 421 00:52:15,040 --> 00:52:18,600 No, I think this is if we do it now or if we do it in two months, 422 00:52:18,680 --> 00:52:20,240 it will be the same. 423 00:52:20,320 --> 00:52:23,920 - The fears are not about timing. - Yeah. 424 00:52:27,280 --> 00:52:33,000 It has nothing to do with... time. 425 00:52:33,080 --> 00:52:38,200 You have a very cute wish- ah, it's a hair, no wish. Sorry, no wish. 426 00:52:38,280 --> 00:52:42,440 - I won't. - No wishes. No chance to wish. 427 00:52:42,520 --> 00:52:44,560 No chance to wish. 428 00:52:44,640 --> 00:52:46,640 - Yeah, no, I understand... - No wishing time. 429 00:52:46,720 --> 00:52:50,360 Yes, but you know, like, I don't want to do the things in a rush. 430 00:52:50,440 --> 00:52:52,920 Like if, if, if I move here... 431 00:52:53,000 --> 00:52:55,120 I need to feel good with this 432 00:52:55,200 --> 00:52:57,440 and I need to feel that everyone is good with this, you know? 433 00:52:57,520 --> 00:53:01,080 But now we're a little bit overwhelmed, the three of us. 434 00:53:01,160 --> 00:53:02,840 - Yeah. - And... 435 00:53:02,920 --> 00:53:04,440 - I'm not. - A little bit. 436 00:53:04,520 --> 00:53:06,720 - I'm not. - You're not? 437 00:53:06,800 --> 00:53:07,800 - Yeah. - You are also. 438 00:53:07,880 --> 00:53:10,400 You're like in between and you're like dealing with a lot of things. 439 00:53:10,480 --> 00:53:12,320 - It's a total lie. - Yeah. 440 00:53:12,400 --> 00:53:13,480 To say you're not... 441 00:53:13,560 --> 00:53:15,720 We are, the three of us, full of fears and overwhelmed. 442 00:53:15,800 --> 00:53:17,480 - I'm living. - Yeah. 443 00:53:19,320 --> 00:53:22,560 No but we mean, just bring stuff and... 444 00:53:22,640 --> 00:53:25,480 feel how it feels when the stuff is there. 445 00:53:25,560 --> 00:53:28,480 Yeah, but you could, we could do it step by step, you know, it's serious... 446 00:53:28,560 --> 00:53:31,040 - Business. - Bringing, bringing stuff. 447 00:53:31,840 --> 00:53:33,800 Define 'step by step'. 448 00:53:33,880 --> 00:53:37,200 No, just uh... You bring some stuff, you know, like... 449 00:53:37,280 --> 00:53:39,400 You bring your television for example. 450 00:53:42,680 --> 00:53:44,360 Console? 451 00:53:48,520 --> 00:53:49,960 No, I got it. 452 00:53:52,400 --> 00:53:53,600 Ja! 453 00:54:11,560 --> 00:54:13,960 I feel one day we will laugh about this fucking picture. 454 00:54:14,040 --> 00:54:16,240 It's the only way. 455 00:54:16,320 --> 00:54:18,240 When it's burned. 456 00:54:18,320 --> 00:54:20,120 Not when it's burned, we will have it... 457 00:54:20,200 --> 00:54:22,720 "You know back in the day, there was something..." 458 00:54:22,800 --> 00:54:27,440 We'll have it in our sleeping room, and we'll laugh about it. 459 00:54:27,520 --> 00:54:29,520 - Oh my God. - Yes. 460 00:54:30,840 --> 00:54:34,680 - Delete it, it doesn't mean that... - You need to delete my past? 461 00:54:34,760 --> 00:54:37,720 No, you have your past here and here. 462 00:54:37,800 --> 00:54:41,200 - So why to show it? - My past... 463 00:54:41,280 --> 00:54:42,800 So... 464 00:54:42,880 --> 00:54:44,760 you have to delete it. 465 00:56:48,480 --> 00:56:50,720 It's a bit like... 466 00:56:54,040 --> 00:56:56,120 sitting in a waiting room. 467 00:56:56,200 --> 00:57:00,800 And I don't know how long I can sit in a waiting room. 468 00:57:44,640 --> 00:57:47,160 Hello, Sebastian Rost. 469 00:57:54,720 --> 00:57:58,600 And I feel like you've betrayed me. 470 00:58:05,920 --> 00:58:09,920 I can move it towards the elbow, squeeze it, I have control. 471 00:58:10,000 --> 00:58:13,240 I don't have to see it, I can look at you 472 00:58:13,320 --> 00:58:16,480 but still feel what she's doing from my hand here. 473 00:58:16,560 --> 00:58:18,760 I can control what she does, 474 00:58:19,840 --> 00:58:21,800 without having to look at her, 475 00:58:21,880 --> 00:58:25,720 I get that information from what I feel. 476 00:58:27,920 --> 00:58:32,720 If I want to sit her down, my other hand is free for that. 477 00:58:34,160 --> 00:58:38,160 That idea of an evolving dialogue, like in tango, 478 00:58:38,240 --> 00:58:42,920 where you wait or can understand what the other person wants... 479 00:58:43,000 --> 00:58:45,200 No way, I'm still learning the knots. 480 00:59:15,120 --> 00:59:18,560 Now I understand the way she communicates, 481 00:59:18,640 --> 00:59:20,960 or a little better at least. 482 00:59:21,040 --> 00:59:23,800 This exercise teaches you that. 483 00:59:28,000 --> 00:59:30,440 You're the one inflicting pain. 484 00:59:31,360 --> 00:59:37,280 You want to do it, it's uncharted territory. 485 00:59:38,240 --> 00:59:40,680 How much pain do you want to inflict? 486 00:59:48,880 --> 00:59:50,920 How bad you can be... 487 00:59:51,600 --> 00:59:53,640 to someone you love? 488 01:00:13,840 --> 01:00:15,920 - Thank you. - You're welcome. 489 01:00:17,160 --> 01:00:19,120 So! New constellation. 490 01:00:19,200 --> 01:00:21,920 Sebastian, what do you think? You want to keep tying? 491 01:00:22,000 --> 01:00:26,240 - No. No. I can be tied. - You can be tied again? 492 01:00:26,320 --> 01:00:28,800 - You can be tied again? - Yes, please. 493 01:01:04,840 --> 01:01:07,520 Okay. Okay. 494 01:02:18,040 --> 01:02:20,960 - Mm, that's the best part. - Yes. 495 01:02:21,040 --> 01:02:22,840 I see you at home. 496 01:02:43,520 --> 01:02:45,600 We haven't danced for a while. 497 01:02:45,680 --> 01:02:47,320 We haven't danced for a while. 498 01:02:48,600 --> 01:02:50,560 - Are you okay? - Yeah. 499 01:02:50,640 --> 01:02:52,560 Okay, let's stick with tango. 500 01:02:52,640 --> 01:02:55,280 - Right. - My fly is open. 501 01:02:55,360 --> 01:02:56,800 Doesn't matter. 502 01:02:58,040 --> 01:02:59,960 So, we turn... 503 01:03:00,040 --> 01:03:03,520 the other way. 504 01:03:05,440 --> 01:03:07,320 Then we can... 505 01:03:07,400 --> 01:03:09,200 if he behaves himself... 506 01:03:09,280 --> 01:03:11,240 go for a third turn. 507 01:03:16,040 --> 01:03:20,400 Ending here. That's two wide turns, or even three. 508 01:03:21,560 --> 01:03:23,240 From the rotation. 509 01:03:34,320 --> 01:03:36,160 Now what? 510 01:03:40,200 --> 01:03:42,240 Relax. 511 01:03:52,800 --> 01:03:55,480 A little closer for the second sacada. 512 01:03:55,560 --> 01:03:59,240 You've pretty much got the general position right. 513 01:03:59,320 --> 01:04:03,920 You might accidentally not give each other enough space. 514 01:04:04,920 --> 01:04:09,000 Just loosen up and practice. 515 01:04:31,640 --> 01:04:33,720 Sorry, I got lost. 516 01:04:42,520 --> 01:04:45,680 Do you have some cash for the class? 517 01:04:46,280 --> 01:04:49,440 You're not done already, are you? 518 01:05:49,120 --> 01:05:50,440 - But you are sensitive? - Yes. 519 01:05:50,520 --> 01:05:52,840 - Okay. - 'Cause I'm a beginner. 520 01:05:54,000 --> 01:05:56,200 I'm... I can hold it. 521 01:05:59,880 --> 01:06:02,320 But this is... This will be nicest, you know? 522 01:06:02,400 --> 01:06:04,040 You will open your heart, you will be... 523 01:06:04,120 --> 01:06:07,960 Yeah. I'm not afraid of it. Just, just to... to say it. 524 01:06:08,040 --> 01:06:10,160 - I will give you a low dose then. - Okay, good. 525 01:06:12,720 --> 01:06:15,520 - For you is a 150. - Okay. 526 01:06:15,600 --> 01:06:16,960 And from, from there, 527 01:06:17,040 --> 01:06:20,040 depending on how you feeling like in half an hour... 528 01:06:20,600 --> 01:06:22,480 ...You will decide if you want more or... 529 01:06:22,560 --> 01:06:24,800 - It's... It looks quite a lot. - It's okay. 530 01:06:25,600 --> 01:06:26,920 Okay. 531 01:06:27,000 --> 01:06:29,840 This is like a full dose and this is a little bit more. 532 01:06:29,920 --> 01:06:34,040 Nice. Amor. Let's enjoy. 533 01:06:35,800 --> 01:06:38,000 - Have a nice trip. - Thank you. 534 01:08:01,560 --> 01:08:03,240 Fuck's sake. 535 01:09:06,240 --> 01:09:08,920 You're mad? Okay. 536 01:09:55,280 --> 01:09:57,400 - I'm going for a swim. - Enjoy. 537 01:09:57,480 --> 01:09:58,720 Thanks. 538 01:10:16,800 --> 01:10:18,160 One... 539 01:10:23,000 --> 01:10:24,800 Two... that's it. 540 01:10:25,480 --> 01:10:27,000 Three... 541 01:10:28,080 --> 01:10:29,520 Four... 542 01:10:31,360 --> 01:10:33,160 Five... 543 01:11:56,720 --> 01:11:58,280 Six... 544 01:12:08,520 --> 01:12:10,840 Seven... 545 01:12:10,920 --> 01:12:14,000 Eight, nine, ten. 546 01:12:25,280 --> 01:12:27,440 I surrender. 547 01:12:28,880 --> 01:12:31,040 I feel completely lost. 548 01:13:50,840 --> 01:13:53,160 Out of my way, coming through! 549 01:13:58,360 --> 01:14:00,360 Or I'll run you over. 550 01:14:09,320 --> 01:14:11,520 Yes, please do. 551 01:14:19,000 --> 01:14:21,680 - Can I try it on? - Yes. 552 01:14:44,560 --> 01:14:46,120 Die! 553 01:15:15,240 --> 01:15:17,840 - I hate you at this moment. - I know. 554 01:15:18,440 --> 01:15:20,200 I feel it. 555 01:15:22,040 --> 01:15:24,280 I know you hate me as well. 556 01:15:24,360 --> 01:15:26,320 Not anymore. 557 01:15:26,400 --> 01:15:29,400 There are moments, but not now. 558 01:15:29,480 --> 01:15:31,680 I think that I hate you. 559 01:15:31,760 --> 01:15:34,760 I cannot stand you. I have anger. 560 01:15:35,840 --> 01:15:37,240 I have jealousy. 561 01:15:37,320 --> 01:15:41,800 I have... You know, like... I wish you were not here. 562 01:15:43,800 --> 01:15:44,800 And... 563 01:15:45,520 --> 01:15:47,680 I don't know how to do it. 564 01:15:47,760 --> 01:15:52,760 How to find common ground and find love for each other again 565 01:15:52,840 --> 01:15:57,120 because at the moment it's like... We cannot stand each other. 566 01:15:57,200 --> 01:16:00,280 I would appreciate if you'd speak for you. 567 01:16:00,360 --> 01:16:04,720 Not 'we can't stand', not 'we hate'. Just say what you feel. 568 01:16:04,800 --> 01:16:07,760 - Okay. I cannot stand you anymore. - Thank you. 569 01:16:07,840 --> 01:16:13,000 Right now. And I would love to find common ground that is good for me towards you. 570 01:16:13,080 --> 01:16:16,680 And I don't find a way to... do it. 571 01:16:17,720 --> 01:16:19,080 In the moment... 572 01:16:20,760 --> 01:16:24,080 I don't hate you, I'm really sorry that you're there 573 01:16:24,160 --> 01:16:28,520 and I remember I was there also. I know this feeling. 574 01:16:28,600 --> 01:16:32,400 And for me it's now just... self-love. 575 01:16:32,480 --> 01:16:36,840 For me not to spend time with you, not to have you around me. 576 01:16:36,920 --> 01:16:42,440 It's just to care about me, I have this feeling I have to protect myself from you. 577 01:16:42,520 --> 01:16:44,000 I have understanding for you. 578 01:16:44,080 --> 01:16:47,600 I'm really sorry, I don't love you as Sebastian love you. 579 01:16:52,800 --> 01:16:55,320 So if Sebastian is suffering and uh... you think 580 01:16:55,400 --> 01:16:58,920 that it's your lack of capacity, you're not able to help him because first is you? 581 01:16:59,000 --> 01:17:01,880 - I think this question is ridiculous. - Why? 582 01:17:01,960 --> 01:17:04,600 Because it's not the same relationship. 583 01:17:04,680 --> 01:17:06,280 Okay, but answer. 584 01:17:06,360 --> 01:17:08,520 - You're able to help him... - I don't know. We'll see. 585 01:17:08,600 --> 01:17:10,560 Even if you need to care about yourself? 586 01:17:10,640 --> 01:17:13,400 And Sebastian looks like an... old monk. 587 01:17:14,680 --> 01:17:18,160 - Completely... fucked. - Yeah. 588 01:18:09,320 --> 01:18:12,720 I can't handle it because what situation are we in? 589 01:18:12,800 --> 01:18:15,680 Camila and I can't talk. 590 01:18:15,760 --> 01:18:18,640 - Difficult. - I'm not what I thought I was... 591 01:18:18,720 --> 01:18:20,600 - Don't interrupt. - Okay. 592 01:18:20,680 --> 01:18:25,600 I just wanted to tell you that the way I act at home, 593 01:18:25,680 --> 01:18:31,120 my new behavior, my new definition of myself, my limits, 594 01:18:31,200 --> 01:18:37,480 I act like a child learning to walk, I'll admit that. 595 01:18:37,560 --> 01:18:40,560 Yes, I want to have a nest again 596 01:18:40,640 --> 01:18:43,280 where I can recharge. 597 01:18:43,360 --> 01:18:48,600 That's your limit. But it's also my bedroom, my home, my life. 598 01:18:48,680 --> 01:18:53,000 You're used to me caving in. I always buckle... Let me finish. 599 01:18:53,080 --> 01:18:56,520 I have to be generous and always considerate. 600 01:18:56,600 --> 01:18:59,680 But I can't be considerate right now. 601 01:18:59,760 --> 01:19:03,920 Okay, let's pause there for a second. 602 01:19:04,000 --> 01:19:07,320 Because I don't think that's getting us anywhere. 603 01:19:10,360 --> 01:19:14,280 What is your definition of freedom and what do you need to feel free? 604 01:19:18,680 --> 01:19:22,480 Sebastian said he can love two people at the same time, 605 01:19:22,560 --> 01:19:25,200 that he's able to do that. 606 01:19:25,280 --> 01:19:30,400 I believe he really can, and he has proven that he can. 607 01:19:30,480 --> 01:19:34,760 But our capacity to do so is finite. 608 01:19:34,840 --> 01:19:38,920 In these two people, two great loves that are now... 609 01:19:41,080 --> 01:19:44,640 I'm the love of his life, Camila is the love of his life. 610 01:19:44,720 --> 01:19:48,360 I'm the woman of his life, Camila is the woman of his life. 611 01:19:48,440 --> 01:19:53,840 He wants to stay with her for the rest of his life. With me, too. 612 01:19:53,920 --> 01:19:57,640 He tells us that, he wants that. 613 01:19:57,720 --> 01:20:04,000 He tries insanely hard to make sure it's all really good. 614 01:20:04,080 --> 01:20:09,720 But from observation and what we've experienced so far, 615 01:20:09,800 --> 01:20:12,960 I don't think it's possible. 616 01:20:13,040 --> 01:20:16,240 I think it's almost inhumane 617 01:20:16,320 --> 01:20:20,280 to do it in a way that everyone is truly happy and content. 618 01:20:20,360 --> 01:20:25,000 Each of us has to make compromises. I do, in any case. 619 01:20:26,840 --> 01:20:29,600 And it's a very high price to pay. 620 01:20:29,680 --> 01:20:33,840 We've started the process of opening up our relationship 621 01:20:33,920 --> 01:20:37,160 and we've done some incredible work 622 01:20:37,240 --> 01:20:40,440 and we're both settled on living this way, 623 01:20:40,520 --> 01:20:43,960 it's not about going back to monogamy. 624 01:20:44,040 --> 01:20:45,320 Not at all. 625 01:20:45,400 --> 01:20:48,200 We strived for freedom and... 626 01:20:49,800 --> 01:20:53,840 but I just don't feel free right now. 627 01:21:30,040 --> 01:21:31,320 Man, Sebastian, 628 01:21:32,200 --> 01:21:34,960 how arrogant and stupid are you? 629 01:21:45,960 --> 01:21:47,800 Damn, I'm jealous. 630 01:21:47,880 --> 01:21:52,760 It's stupid not being able to admit you're jealous. 631 01:21:52,840 --> 01:21:56,080 I also used to say I wasn't afraid. What bullshit. 632 01:22:02,440 --> 01:22:06,560 We have this whole spectrum of emotions inside us 633 01:22:06,640 --> 01:22:09,720 and it's totally moronic to try to suppress them. 634 01:22:09,800 --> 01:22:12,240 The question is how we deal with it. 635 01:23:09,240 --> 01:23:11,520 Moving around in the dark 636 01:23:12,320 --> 01:23:16,120 on completely unfamiliar terrain, 637 01:23:16,200 --> 01:23:19,960 I couldn't see where to go at all, or who to talk to. 638 01:23:25,480 --> 01:23:27,640 I relied on it, 639 01:23:30,240 --> 01:23:32,440 trusted it, 640 01:23:36,520 --> 01:23:40,280 and at the same time, I subconsciously knew 641 01:23:40,760 --> 01:23:43,720 at the end of the day, this is the freedom I have, 642 01:23:46,000 --> 01:23:48,400 and not the freedom I give him. 643 01:24:13,480 --> 01:24:16,320 A cozy night by the fireplace would be nice. 644 01:24:16,400 --> 01:24:18,080 Yeah! 645 01:24:18,160 --> 01:24:21,840 Your parents could teach us how to play patience. 646 01:24:21,920 --> 01:24:23,680 Which patience? 647 01:24:23,760 --> 01:24:26,080 That game for two people. 648 01:24:26,160 --> 01:24:28,400 Sure, the game they play. 649 01:24:28,480 --> 01:24:34,880 You sit opposite each other and lay cards until you can't go. 650 01:24:38,600 --> 01:24:43,120 I feel the pull. I want to feel old. 651 01:24:43,200 --> 01:24:46,680 Forget everything. 652 01:24:46,760 --> 01:24:50,080 That got poetic. 653 01:25:05,000 --> 01:25:09,720 I'm coming to you. 654 01:25:11,840 --> 01:25:14,920 In the middle of the night. 655 01:25:16,760 --> 01:25:21,480 I was so upset. 656 01:25:24,200 --> 01:25:28,880 You're arming yourself. 657 01:25:30,600 --> 01:25:34,080 Arming yourself. 658 01:25:36,440 --> 01:25:42,200 To go into battle with me. 659 01:25:46,600 --> 01:25:52,560 Why are you 660 01:25:53,240 --> 01:25:57,200 going into battle with me? 661 01:25:57,280 --> 01:25:59,800 Maybe the sun will go back up again. 662 01:26:03,040 --> 01:26:05,000 Why are you... 663 01:26:05,080 --> 01:26:06,720 Look over there. 664 01:26:08,920 --> 01:26:12,360 ...going into battle with me? 665 01:26:12,440 --> 01:26:14,040 Beautiful. 666 01:26:19,240 --> 01:26:26,200 "Why are you so pale?" you ask. 667 01:26:28,240 --> 01:26:35,000 "Why does one get wet in the rain?" I say. 668 01:26:36,760 --> 01:26:43,520 How come you know nothing about it. 669 01:26:45,200 --> 01:26:47,600 But see everything? 670 01:26:54,080 --> 01:26:59,680 Why are you 671 01:27:00,240 --> 01:27:05,160 going into battle with me? 672 01:27:09,840 --> 01:27:16,120 Why are you 673 01:27:16,200 --> 01:27:21,960 going into battle with me? 674 01:27:48,200 --> 01:27:51,200 Subtitling: FAST TITLES MEDIA