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-[laughter]
-[comedian on stage muffled]
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[comedian on stage muffled]
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-You know...
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if you don't listen
to what he's saying,
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how he says it,
is fucking tedious.
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See, do we need that
in the documentary or we don't?
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[speaking gibberish]
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[laughs] But it's his craft.
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That's what makes him great.
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[speaks gibberish]
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[laughter]
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[cheers and applause]
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[Marc] I'm just trying
to start trouble.
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That's all.
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You're gonna destroy me
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with this stupid movie
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that I let you do
that I'm resisting
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because you're annoying.
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So, like, what's gonna happen
is by the end of this,
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you're gonna hate me,
you're gonna be like, "Fuck him.
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I'm gonna post
all this nasty shit he said
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about everybody on YouTube,
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or on my personal Vimeo."
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[cheers and applause]
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[rock music playing]
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Anyone doing drugs
in the '80s anymore?
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[cheers and applause]
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Okay. I'll hang out
with you guys later.
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[man] Here we have Marc.
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[David]
I met Marc in the early '80s.
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That's, uh, that's me,
of course.
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And I was one
of a handful of people,
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there weren't many,
uh, who could tolerate him.
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Oh, God. What?
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It's not that sick. Is it?
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Marc is his own worst enemy,
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which is why we enjoy him
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because he also
acknowledges that.
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For 15 years of my life,
I used to smoke,
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I used to drink, I did drugs.
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I used to eat lard
right out of a can occasionally.
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[Conan] Please welcome
the very funny Marc Maron.
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[cheers and applause]
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[Nate] He's probably underrated,
to be honest.
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But he's not an arena act.
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[chuckles] Imagine an arena
full of people,
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you're just like, "Good night."
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[makes buzzing
and clicking sound] Oh.
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[makes gun cocking sound, blows]
Good morning.
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-[laughs]
-[laughter]
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Marc's having a bad time
all day.
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Then gets on stage
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and completely owns
the audience.
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[Marc] I'm a 51-year-old man,
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twice divorced,
I have no children,
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-and I live with two cats.
-[laughter]
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-And it's fucking amazing.
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Talk about the podcast,
it's like a thing.
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Well, it's much like this show,
only a much smaller production
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that takes place in my garage.
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It was born out of complete
desperation and failure.
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Here, I, uh, had these
fortune cookies
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left over, let's open them.
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I got "Good things
are coming to you
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-in due course of time."
-[Mindy] That's great.
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-Yeah. It's taking a while.
-[Mindy laughs]
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[Laurie] When he started WTF,
I think he was pretty broke.
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It didn't seem like any...
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it just seemed
like a waste of time.
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[Marc] Then the president
was in my garage.
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-[Tig] What did you wear?
-[Marc] Just a plaid shirt.
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-[Tig] That sounds right.
-Yeah.
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Apparently,
he's very successful.
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But when he talks about being
an actor, I'm like, "What?"
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Luckily, I've never seen
anything that he's been on.
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[Marc] Come on!
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What do you got?
What do you got?
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Lock the gates
on these fuckheads!
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[Arthur] I just thought
it'd be good for my act.
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For your act? Didn't you hear
what happened on the subway?
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-Some clown got killed.
-[woman] What is it like
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when you have someone tell you,
"I wrote a role just for you"?
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Uh, that it might be
not that challenging.
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-[laughs]
-Sounds perfect.
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[woman] Lynn Shelton
and Marc Maron, let's hear it.
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[singer] ♪ I can't take myself ♪
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♪ And you and me ♪
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♪ My love ♪
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♪ And you... ♪
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How are you? Are you guys okay?
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Do you have enough toilet paper?
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Do you have enough food?
Are you self-quarantined?
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Probably gonna be shut down
another three months.
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Nothing's ever gonna be back
to normal again.
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There's not gonna be any
live shows for probably a year.
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Lynn figured out how
to, um, freeze leafy vegetables
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for the long haul.
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[singer] ♪ I can't take myself ♪
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[keyboard typing]
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[Marc] Um...
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it's been a rough few days, man.
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The girlfriend's been ill,
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cat's not doing great.
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But we're getting it done,
taking care of it.
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[sips]
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Okay. Hey, it's Marc.
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I imagine most of you know
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that, uh,
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that Lynn Shelton died,
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um, Saturday morning.
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She was my partner,
she was my friend,
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and I loved her.
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And she loved me,
and I knew that.
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And I don't know
that I'd ever felt
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what I felt with her before.
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I do know, actually,
I did not, I have not.
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I was definitely
a better person
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when I was... engaged with her.
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I was better
in Lynn Shelton's gaze.
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Oh. I'm just like having
a hard time figuring it out.
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I forgot how to do this.
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This is the thing
I forgot how to do?
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Come on, man. Come on, dude.
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I mean, what the fuck did it?
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Like, I'm so fucking sick
of this shit.
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I mean,
how does this happen now?
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Does this happen to everybody?
Sure, sure. Okay.
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Maybe it does. Maybe it does.
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Crapos.
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Come on.
This piece of shit. [grunts]
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[car beeps]
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Boom.
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Fuck this.
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Now I'm all sweaty.
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[rock music playing]
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[Marc] What am I gonna do
out there?
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What's the plan?
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Hey, if we hit one shitty one,
what we gonna do? Who cares.
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-[Steven] It doesn't matter.
-Do you know?
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Better off, right?
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Better off to tank it?
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Please welcome
to the stage, Marc Maron!
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[cheering and applause]
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You know, within a month
of being here in the pandemic,
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I'm like, "Uh, maybe
I don't need to do stand-up
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anymore because I don't
fucking miss it."
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And that was followed
by the thought of like,
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"I think I'm all better."
So, like...
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[laughter]
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I don't know.
Like, I really don't know...
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Like, I feel, like, challenged
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to, you know, discuss,
you know, grief somehow
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because I've been dealing
with it
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and it's difficult, you know?
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I lost, uh, a person I loved
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at the beginning
of the pandemic.
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Uh, you know, three months in,
she got a, you know,
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weird blood disease
that no one knew about,
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so like at least she was,
you know, an original.
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[chuckling]
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I don't know how to talk about
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some of this stuff
that I went through.
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I don't even know
if it's appropriate to do it,
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but I'm okay.
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Mm.
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You know,
uh, the weird thing is,
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when somebody you love dies,
you know, it's horrible.
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But what's really going on
is like, "I'm gonna die."
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So, you know,
that's how it goes.
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Right?
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Um, where am I going
with all this?
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Yeah. I... you know, look.
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You know, uh,
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I know a lot of you,
uh, have been here for me
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and supported me,
and I... and I appreciate it.
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And I... and I do think
I've gotten
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a little hard around it,
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you know, as this thing evolves
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and I can find, uh,
some form of, uh, courage
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to discuss it in a thorough way.
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Um, may... maybe
it'll help people.
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But I don't know
how to do that quite yet,
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so I'm just, uh,
going for the laughs.
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[laughter]
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[cat meows]
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What?
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Did you call me?
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Whoa.
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I had a dream, man. I had...
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Lynn came to me
in a dream last night.
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It was always...
it's always good to see her.
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She's like kind of half laughing
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and I just, I grabbed her cheeks
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and I held her face
right up to mine,
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and I said, "I miss you."
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And she said, uh...
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she walked away
towards that door in the kitchen
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and she said, um...
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and she said,
"It's real. It's real."
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[sips]
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[cup hits table]
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Anyway...
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Do some music for the thing.
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[electric guitar tuning]
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[electric guitar music playing]
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All right. Let's do this. Hmm.
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How are you, What The Fuckers,
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What The Fuck Buddies,
What The Fuckniks?
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What's happening?
I'm Marc Maron,
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this is my podcast.
Again, thank you
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for all the positive feedback
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for, uh,
our canceled comedy episode.
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These anti-woke guys and gals
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are just fucking hacks.
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Now if they can't get work
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or they can't get over
on a crowd,
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it's because "it's just
too controversial," you know?
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"Hey, man, I'm not getting work
because of what I have to say."
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No, probably not.
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Maybe you're just
not fucking funny.
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You're not thinking
your own thoughts,
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you're a hack.
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With an excuse
for why you're failing.
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Anyway, how's everybody?
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Are you struggling with grief,
relationships, stress,
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or having trouble sleeping?
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WTF is sponsored
by Better Help.
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[scoffs]
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-[Steven] What's the matter?
-Huh?
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[Steven] What's the matter?
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Nothing. I'm just thinking.
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Now let's talk to the lovely,
uh, Lynn Shelton,
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film director.
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[Lynn] I shoot movies
in seven-and-a-half,
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-ten days.
-[Marc] I like your movies.
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-[Lynn] Do ya?
-[Marc] I do.
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[Lynn] I was hoping you might.
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[Marc] I met Lynn because,
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you know, I knew
she had done movies,
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I knew that my ex-wife was
working with her.
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I just booked her on WTF.
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And when we met,
it was kind of...
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you know,
we got along right away.
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[Lynn] In Seattle, there's this
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great filmmaking community.
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Seattle's where I live,
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and there are a bunch
of filmmakers.
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And all... you know, the crew
that have crewed my films
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and all the other filmmakers,
those were my buds,
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like those were
everybody that...
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I hang out with
and I loved that.
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[Marc] You never lived
down here?
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-[Lynn] No.
-[Marc] Huh.
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She was just starting
to sort of takeoff, you know.
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I mean, she did a lot
of independent movies
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and she was very capable,
and she just started
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to direct big-level television.
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[Lynn] Here's the thing
I love about television.
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It keeps me on the set, that...
like, I love being on set.
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-[Marc] Yeah.
-[Lynn] I love directing.
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-I love directing actors.
-[Marc] You do?
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[Lynn] I live for it. That...
I... it's my favorite thing.
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[Michaela] When I was
on a show called Casual,
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Lynn came on to direct episodes.
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And from that point,
the friendship hatched.
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She, you know,
was unlike any director
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at that point
in terms of her sensitivity
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towards women,
women in their 40s.
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It was so different
from any other...
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most directors I had worked with
at that point.
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[Lynn] It was late in life.
I was 39
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-when I made my first feature.
-[Marc] Uh-huh.
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[Lynn] And so,
I sort of self-actualized
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-quite late in life and...
-[Marc] Me too.
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[Lynn] Late bloomers unite.
I love it.
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-Marc?
-[Marc] Yeah?
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-[Lynn] Thank you so much.
-[Marc] Thank you.
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[Lynn] Thank you so much
for letting me do this
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and for crying.
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[Marc] Well,
I'm at a weird point in...
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I don't know
what's going on with me.
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-It's not hard to make me cry.
-[Lynn] Oh, yeah.
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-Well, I'm the same way.
-[Marc] Um, good talking to you.
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[Lynn] It was really great
talking to you, Marc.
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[Marc] You know,
I was very kind of like,
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right away,
very taken with Lynn,
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but, you know, it was not,
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you know, in the cards
for a few years.
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What are you doing, bud?
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Come on. Come here, Sam.
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And... oh, no, no, no, no.
Don't chew the mic wire, stupid.
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He just loves wires. Okay, okay.
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It's all about you.
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I did comedy last night
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for the first time
in over a year.
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And it felt fine.
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It was like,
"Oh, this part of me is back."
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"This part of me is home."
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I wouldn't say
it was a great set,
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but I think it didn't matter.
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Anybody's expectations...
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Nothing fucking matters
right now.
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[somber guitar music playing]
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-What's up, pally?
-[Rick] How's it going, Marc?
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-I'm okay. You?
-[Rick] Eh, same old shit.
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-[Marc] Yeah?
-[Rick] Good.
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-[Marc] You all right?
-Yup.
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Long fucking day.
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[Marc]
Every day is a long day now.
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The pandemic completely fucked
my sense of time up.
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I still don't know
what day it is
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or what I'm supposed
to be doing.
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[Rick] The only way I know now
is because I have sets
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-coming this week.
-Right, exactly. Exactly.
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I feel like I got
a couple of jokes
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-that are happening.
-[Rick] Whoa.
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The fucking thing
about jokes, like joke jokes,
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it's like
once you make 'em work,
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it's like
they're kind of done for me.
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-[Rick] Yeah.
-I like, you know,
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the long-form rambly bullshit.
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Look, you guys, I'm just trying
to be entertaining,
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but there's... you know,
things aren't okay.
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[laughter]
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We're all
sitting here pretending.
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We're fucked. It's so fucked.
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We're like... it's like...
it's... the plague
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wasn't back in the day.
335
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-It was like two weeks ago.
-[laughter]
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Two fucking weeks ago
and we're like,
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00:15:00,332 --> 00:15:01,867
"We're back, we're back."
338
00:15:01,901 --> 00:15:04,269
No, we're not,
this is a reprieve.
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If you live here, you know,
like, this entire state's
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gonna be on fire in two weeks.
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00:15:08,508 --> 00:15:09,675
Did you have this day
where you're like,
342
00:15:09,708 --> 00:15:11,444
"How do you make
hand sanitizer?"
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00:15:11,477 --> 00:15:14,680
-[laughter]
-"How do you make it?"
344
00:15:14,713 --> 00:15:16,882
"They're running out
of it everywhere."
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00:15:16,916 --> 00:15:20,152
"What is it?
Like lotion and alcohol?"
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00:15:20,185 --> 00:15:22,488
If you really think
about it in your heart,
347
00:15:22,522 --> 00:15:26,058
like, you know... Stop it,
drunkie, stop talking.
348
00:15:26,091 --> 00:15:28,827
-If you really think about it...
-[man] Thank you.
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[applause]
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00:15:31,830 --> 00:15:34,867
Oh, yeah, look at the asshole
talking to her is applauding.
351
00:15:34,900 --> 00:15:36,735
Yeah, we know
who you are, fucker.
352
00:15:36,769 --> 00:15:38,070
What, you think
I've been doing this, like,
353
00:15:38,103 --> 00:15:40,338
started last week?
Shut the fuck up.
354
00:15:40,372 --> 00:15:41,707
I'm serious. You see me?
355
00:15:41,740 --> 00:15:43,375
I'm serious. Shut up.
356
00:15:43,408 --> 00:15:44,743
There's a whole show
ahead of us.
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00:15:44,777 --> 00:15:47,146
You wanna stay
for the show? Okay.
358
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[all] Whoo!
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00:15:48,581 --> 00:15:50,749
[cheering and applause]
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00:15:50,783 --> 00:15:53,752
But let's not end on that.
Let's end on something upbeat.
361
00:15:54,753 --> 00:15:56,522
There's reasons
not to have children.
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[laughter]
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00:16:00,225 --> 00:16:02,394
I was happy that I still had it
in me to be like,
364
00:16:02,427 --> 00:16:04,362
"No, I'm serious.
Shut the fuck up."
365
00:16:04,396 --> 00:16:07,533
They're so used to watching
Zooms where they can talk and...
366
00:16:07,567 --> 00:16:09,635
No, they're not.
It's the same stupid shit
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00:16:09,669 --> 00:16:10,970
that's been going on
since we started.
368
00:16:11,003 --> 00:16:13,138
It doesn't...It's got nothing
to do with Zoom.
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00:16:13,172 --> 00:16:15,040
These are just the drunk,
dumb idiots.
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[laughter]
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[woman] I love you, Marc.
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I've seen you so many times.
It's great seeing you.
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[Marc] Did you like
getting yelled at by me?
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00:16:22,648 --> 00:16:24,650
[woman] I did.
I fucking love it.
375
00:16:24,684 --> 00:16:26,652
Oh, good.
Well, thanks for coming.
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00:16:26,686 --> 00:16:28,420
[woman] You're welcome.
I'm talking to my friends.
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00:16:28,453 --> 00:16:29,822
We're having a good time.
378
00:16:29,855 --> 00:16:31,490
Okay, just be careful
with the other people.
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00:16:31,524 --> 00:16:32,758
-[woman] You're right.
-Okay.
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How many times
did it happen to you
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where they're like,
"Oh, it was so good."
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00:16:36,629 --> 00:16:38,897
Now I feel like an asshole
for losing my shit,
383
00:16:38,931 --> 00:16:41,667
'cause I... she made me go...
"Fuck you."
384
00:16:41,701 --> 00:16:44,036
Right? 'Cause I wanted her
to shut up.
385
00:16:44,069 --> 00:16:46,071
And then she's all nice
and drunk. And I'm like...
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00:16:46,105 --> 00:16:47,740
-[Jeff] She loves you.
-..."I'm the asshole."
387
00:16:47,773 --> 00:16:49,441
And she's my biggest fan.
388
00:16:49,474 --> 00:16:52,511
[jazz music playing]
389
00:16:52,545 --> 00:16:55,814
[people chattering]
390
00:17:04,056 --> 00:17:05,791
I knew this guy
when I was in college.
391
00:17:05,824 --> 00:17:08,160
He used to do a bit.
Jackie Diamond.
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00:17:08,193 --> 00:17:11,063
Like this... like an old
showbiz lounge act.
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00:17:11,096 --> 00:17:13,398
I think he became
an Orthodox Jew.
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00:17:13,432 --> 00:17:15,935
This guy used
to paint the place.
395
00:17:15,968 --> 00:17:18,738
He used to do handiwork
for Mitzi.
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00:17:20,873 --> 00:17:22,241
They're just...
they're gonna leave
397
00:17:22,274 --> 00:17:23,809
the D'Elia pic up?
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00:17:25,911 --> 00:17:27,880
This is Jeff
when he was attractive.
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00:17:27,913 --> 00:17:29,648
He used to look
like a normal fucking person,
400
00:17:29,682 --> 00:17:31,717
now he looks like
a goddamn alien.
401
00:17:31,751 --> 00:17:33,351
A lot of these people
are around.
402
00:17:33,385 --> 00:17:35,187
And a lot of them are dead now.
403
00:17:36,388 --> 00:17:37,723
It's wild.
404
00:17:37,757 --> 00:17:39,892
["Can't Stand It"
by The Greenhornes playing]
405
00:17:39,925 --> 00:17:41,994
[Marc] I always wanted to be
a comic since I was a kid.
406
00:17:42,027 --> 00:17:43,996
You know,
I grew up in Albuquerque,
407
00:17:44,029 --> 00:17:48,400
raised by emotionally erratic,
panicky parents.
408
00:17:48,433 --> 00:17:49,769
Went to college in Boston.
409
00:17:49,802 --> 00:17:52,004
Did some stand-up in Boston.
410
00:17:52,037 --> 00:17:54,840
And after I graduated college,
I went to LA.
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00:17:54,873 --> 00:17:59,011
["Can't Stand It" continues]
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00:17:59,044 --> 00:18:02,648
[Marc] I got a job as a doorman
at The Comedy Store,
413
00:18:02,681 --> 00:18:04,850
and I basically lived
at the place.
414
00:18:04,883 --> 00:18:07,987
You'd see Damon Wayans,
Jan Hart,
415
00:18:08,020 --> 00:18:11,824
Cathy Ladman,
Louie Anderson was here.
416
00:18:11,857 --> 00:18:13,458
And then I met Kinison.
417
00:18:13,492 --> 00:18:15,460
He's gonna see
some action, goddammit.
418
00:18:15,494 --> 00:18:16,796
Put a helmet on him!
419
00:18:16,829 --> 00:18:18,396
[Marc]
Sam was a powerful presence.
420
00:18:18,430 --> 00:18:22,067
I wouldn't say all good,
I would say mostly bad.
421
00:18:22,101 --> 00:18:24,369
I kind of got sucked
into some sort of weird
422
00:18:24,402 --> 00:18:26,171
cocaine initiation process.
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00:18:26,204 --> 00:18:28,173
And I thought I was pretty good
at doing coke,
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00:18:28,206 --> 00:18:30,643
but I did my graduate studies
with Sam.
425
00:18:31,343 --> 00:18:34,279
It's a long story,
but Sam peed on my bed
426
00:18:34,313 --> 00:18:35,514
because he was mad.
427
00:18:35,547 --> 00:18:36,982
There was a Satanist involved.
428
00:18:37,016 --> 00:18:38,483
Now I had no friends.
429
00:18:38,517 --> 00:18:40,052
And then
the drug dealer pulled up,
430
00:18:40,085 --> 00:18:41,453
and I'm like, "I don't know
what to do, man."
431
00:18:41,486 --> 00:18:43,288
"I got kicked out
of the group." And he was like,
432
00:18:43,322 --> 00:18:45,223
"Well, yeah, you got
to get out of here, man."
433
00:18:45,257 --> 00:18:46,992
And when the drug dealer
tells you to leave,
434
00:18:47,026 --> 00:18:48,627
it's... you know,
it's time to go.
435
00:18:48,661 --> 00:18:52,331
["Can't Stand It" continues]
436
00:18:56,802 --> 00:18:58,937
[Marc] See, the way
I'm picturing this documentary
437
00:18:58,971 --> 00:19:01,106
is clearly a little different
than you.
438
00:19:01,140 --> 00:19:04,810
I... it just seems like
there's plenty of footage...
439
00:19:04,844 --> 00:19:06,712
It's just like, you know,
you start to load up
440
00:19:06,745 --> 00:19:08,246
with animation
on top of everything
441
00:19:08,280 --> 00:19:09,982
you already have
in terms of footage.
442
00:19:10,015 --> 00:19:11,750
It's just,
it's like you overpack it.
443
00:19:11,784 --> 00:19:13,251
It just looks stupid.
444
00:19:13,285 --> 00:19:15,620
Like what, you're gonna animate
the Kinison story?
445
00:19:15,654 --> 00:19:17,690
Like, what parts
are you thinking about?
446
00:19:17,723 --> 00:19:19,424
[Steven]
That would have been one, yes.
447
00:19:19,457 --> 00:19:22,527
Oh, God, just the even thought
of that being animated
448
00:19:22,561 --> 00:19:24,496
-is ridiculous.
-[Steven] I know.
449
00:19:25,731 --> 00:19:27,099
[Marc] I've noticed that somehow
450
00:19:27,132 --> 00:19:29,668
you're kind of transitioning
into something
451
00:19:29,702 --> 00:19:31,603
that isn't fundamentally,
452
00:19:31,636 --> 00:19:32,971
you know, club work.
453
00:19:33,005 --> 00:19:34,707
[Gary] Right.
A hundred percent. Yeah.
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00:19:34,740 --> 00:19:36,608
And there is sort of this point
455
00:19:36,641 --> 00:19:38,143
where either
you have more to say
456
00:19:38,177 --> 00:19:40,379
or you want to speak
to something,
457
00:19:40,412 --> 00:19:42,147
you know, personal in a way
458
00:19:42,181 --> 00:19:44,282
that you feel supported
by your audience.
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00:19:44,316 --> 00:19:46,919
The goal was always
to find your own audience
460
00:19:46,952 --> 00:19:50,756
so you could be
your most authentic self.
461
00:19:50,789 --> 00:19:53,025
Yeah. But, like,
I still force myself to go out
462
00:19:53,058 --> 00:19:55,560
-and do regular club comedy.
-[Gary] No, I know that. And...
463
00:19:55,594 --> 00:19:57,830
And I... and I don't
always know why
464
00:19:57,863 --> 00:19:59,998
but I still got
some kind of weird, dumb,
465
00:20:00,032 --> 00:20:03,102
you know, old-school
working-class comic disposition
466
00:20:03,135 --> 00:20:04,937
where it's sort of like
you gotta be able to go up
467
00:20:04,970 --> 00:20:07,305
in front of any audience
and do the fucking job.
468
00:20:07,339 --> 00:20:08,473
Yeah. Yeah, yeah.
469
00:20:08,506 --> 00:20:10,275
I think that's also part
of the challenge for me.
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00:20:10,308 --> 00:20:12,244
It's like, "Can I just do it
with these people
471
00:20:12,277 --> 00:20:14,113
that don't really know me
necessarily?"
472
00:20:14,146 --> 00:20:16,448
"And bring them
to this human place
473
00:20:16,481 --> 00:20:18,250
to have this experience of humor
474
00:20:18,283 --> 00:20:19,684
in a deeper way?"
475
00:20:19,718 --> 00:20:22,988
[upbeat music playing]
476
00:20:27,793 --> 00:20:30,362
[overlapping chatter]
477
00:20:34,967 --> 00:20:37,069
-[Marc] I didn't even know that.
-The south club's open.
478
00:20:37,102 --> 00:20:38,536
Anything goes down south.
479
00:20:38,570 --> 00:20:40,538
But, uh, yeah, this rules, man.
480
00:20:40,572 --> 00:20:42,741
Opening night back.
481
00:20:42,775 --> 00:20:44,342
-Brand-new staff.
-Fucking A.
482
00:20:44,376 --> 00:20:46,411
[Sam T] I've heard
they're mostly incompetent.
483
00:20:46,445 --> 00:20:49,982
[man]...your host on stage,
Sam Tallent.
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00:20:50,015 --> 00:20:52,284
[cheering and applause]
485
00:20:52,317 --> 00:20:53,852
It's gonna suck.
486
00:20:55,754 --> 00:20:57,456
You know,
I'm doing this to myself
487
00:20:57,489 --> 00:20:59,291
like I always do to myself.
488
00:20:59,324 --> 00:21:01,093
Some sort of stupid,
489
00:21:01,126 --> 00:21:04,296
self-flagellating
training procedure
490
00:21:04,329 --> 00:21:06,832
that I've gone through
my entire life.
491
00:21:08,500 --> 00:21:09,802
Fuck me, dude.
492
00:21:09,835 --> 00:21:11,703
What am I trying
to do to myself?
493
00:21:11,736 --> 00:21:14,206
Working this shit out
in these places.
494
00:21:20,612 --> 00:21:22,014
Wow.
495
00:21:22,047 --> 00:21:26,084
-[Sam T makes sound]
-[laughter]
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00:21:26,118 --> 00:21:29,188
-[Sam T makes sound]
-[laughter]
497
00:21:29,221 --> 00:21:31,790
[Marc] This guy's
like handing me my ass,
498
00:21:31,824 --> 00:21:33,591
relatively on purpose.
499
00:21:34,893 --> 00:21:37,762
[Sam T on stage muffled]
500
00:21:37,796 --> 00:21:41,300
[cheering and applause]
501
00:21:41,333 --> 00:21:44,903
[Sam T] You guys probably
have heard of him, right?
502
00:21:44,937 --> 00:21:47,105
This guy means so much
to so many comedians.
503
00:21:47,139 --> 00:21:48,773
He was the, uh, the inner voice
504
00:21:48,807 --> 00:21:50,408
that we heard
for so long coming up,
505
00:21:50,442 --> 00:21:52,344
and it's an honor
to work with him.
506
00:21:52,377 --> 00:21:54,479
Ladies and gentlemen,
please welcome to the stage,
507
00:21:54,513 --> 00:21:55,780
Marc Maron.
508
00:21:55,814 --> 00:21:57,516
[cheering and applause]
509
00:21:57,549 --> 00:22:00,219
[Marc] Thank you. Thank you
so much for coming out.
510
00:22:00,252 --> 00:22:03,555
I feel like, uh,
I need to un-pump you.
511
00:22:03,588 --> 00:22:06,825
[laughter]
512
00:22:06,859 --> 00:22:08,760
You know, I've been
delicately working
513
00:22:08,793 --> 00:22:13,198
-on my sad fucking act...
-[laughter]
514
00:22:13,232 --> 00:22:15,901
for a few...
couple months now,
515
00:22:15,934 --> 00:22:17,435
and then I'm walking out
516
00:22:17,469 --> 00:22:19,872
into a cloud of shit
and butt-fucking.
517
00:22:19,905 --> 00:22:21,907
[laughter]
518
00:22:21,940 --> 00:22:23,909
I work like this.
519
00:22:24,642 --> 00:22:26,011
There's an urgency to it.
520
00:22:26,045 --> 00:22:28,380
There are post... you know,
Post-its involved.
521
00:22:28,413 --> 00:22:30,249
Like, the bigger writing
is me going like,
522
00:22:30,282 --> 00:22:32,217
"Fuck, fuck,
I gotta write that down."
523
00:22:32,251 --> 00:22:35,787
Now, for some reason, I wrote
"gaslighting parenting."
524
00:22:35,820 --> 00:22:37,789
[laughter]
525
00:22:37,822 --> 00:22:40,458
We were gaslit
from the beginning.
526
00:22:45,197 --> 00:22:49,034
And let's ease up on the word...
the phrase gaslighting, okay?
527
00:22:49,068 --> 00:22:52,437
-Ladies, let's ease up.
-[laughter]
528
00:22:52,470 --> 00:22:56,308
Sometimes we're just lying
to save our ass.
529
00:22:57,342 --> 00:22:58,743
I don't think it's gaslighting.
530
00:22:58,777 --> 00:23:00,279
And look,
you can love two people.
531
00:23:00,312 --> 00:23:03,181
-So, um...
-[laughter]
532
00:23:08,220 --> 00:23:10,322
It doesn't end well.
You know, I can...
533
00:23:10,355 --> 00:23:12,224
I can only keep it going
for so long.
534
00:23:12,257 --> 00:23:14,026
So, whatever
you're trying to do,
535
00:23:14,059 --> 00:23:15,394
you know what I mean?
536
00:23:15,427 --> 00:23:17,062
One hates me
and the other's dead.
537
00:23:17,096 --> 00:23:20,132
Didn't work out.
Didn't work out. So...
538
00:23:21,766 --> 00:23:23,969
Too much?
539
00:23:24,002 --> 00:23:26,972
It was too soon for you
to hear about me
540
00:23:27,005 --> 00:23:28,773
talking about
my dead girlfriend.
541
00:23:28,807 --> 00:23:32,344
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
542
00:23:32,377 --> 00:23:34,846
I'm trying to deal with it, man.
I'll be honest with you.
543
00:23:34,879 --> 00:23:37,049
It's a fucking nightmare.
544
00:23:37,082 --> 00:23:38,917
It's horrible, grief,
545
00:23:38,951 --> 00:23:40,585
and there's no right
or wrong way to do it.
546
00:23:40,619 --> 00:23:43,221
And you know what?
Nobody can give you
547
00:23:43,255 --> 00:23:45,523
any fucking advice either.
You just fucking deal with it.
548
00:23:45,557 --> 00:23:47,092
Like, you know,
you just deal with it.
549
00:23:47,126 --> 00:23:48,560
You know, you just let
the feelings happen.
550
00:23:48,593 --> 00:23:50,362
Someone...
people try to be helpful.
551
00:23:50,395 --> 00:23:51,964
Someone said,
"Well, you know, her...
552
00:23:51,997 --> 00:23:54,032
you know, they...
the... their energy
553
00:23:54,066 --> 00:23:56,901
doesn't leave the earth.
Like they're dead,
554
00:23:56,935 --> 00:23:58,536
but they're still here
energy-wise."
555
00:23:58,570 --> 00:24:00,372
I'm like, "Not the shape
I'm used to."
556
00:24:00,405 --> 00:24:02,374
-[laughter]
-You know, like, I mean,
557
00:24:02,407 --> 00:24:04,242
I appreciate the poetry of that,
558
00:24:04,276 --> 00:24:06,478
but I... I'd rather
she'd be the whole person.
559
00:24:06,511 --> 00:24:08,813
As just random energy,
I can't bring it together.
560
00:24:08,847 --> 00:24:10,449
[laughter]
561
00:24:10,482 --> 00:24:12,417
But then you start doing
weird things like, you know,
562
00:24:12,451 --> 00:24:14,252
there's the... I don't know
if it's a common thing,
563
00:24:14,286 --> 00:24:16,288
but you do the...
like I was on my porch once
564
00:24:16,321 --> 00:24:19,091
and I'm like, "Ah, it's a bird.
It's... she's in the bird."
565
00:24:19,124 --> 00:24:21,160
"She's a bird."
And I see a hummingbird.
566
00:24:21,193 --> 00:24:22,594
I'd be like, "Lynn. Hi, Lynn."
567
00:24:22,627 --> 00:24:24,529
And then the next day
there's like four birds.
568
00:24:24,562 --> 00:24:26,731
I'm, like,
"Wait, which one is Lynn?"
569
00:24:26,764 --> 00:24:28,233
[laughter]
570
00:24:28,266 --> 00:24:30,169
"Is Lynn bringing
all her dead friends here?"
571
00:24:30,202 --> 00:24:31,736
"What's happening?"
572
00:24:31,769 --> 00:24:33,872
"I gotta... I gotta put
some more sugar water
573
00:24:33,905 --> 00:24:35,674
in the dead people feeder."
574
00:24:37,876 --> 00:24:39,244
Thanks a lot, you guys.
575
00:24:39,277 --> 00:24:42,914
[cheering and applause]
576
00:24:42,947 --> 00:24:44,616
Keep it going for Sam.
I appreciate...
577
00:24:44,649 --> 00:24:46,385
[Laurie] Figuring out a way
to make something funny
578
00:24:46,418 --> 00:24:49,221
feels like the emotion
isn't a waste,
579
00:24:49,254 --> 00:24:51,556
that you aren't just being
pummeled by this grief.
580
00:24:51,589 --> 00:24:53,992
It's a way to at least
581
00:24:54,026 --> 00:24:56,261
make this feeling feel useful
582
00:24:56,294 --> 00:24:58,163
instead of just devastating.
583
00:24:58,197 --> 00:24:59,998
I'll take off the table
584
00:25:00,032 --> 00:25:02,767
that audiences
can't deal with it.
585
00:25:02,800 --> 00:25:04,169
I think that was a subject
586
00:25:04,203 --> 00:25:05,770
and that was an event
in his life
587
00:25:05,803 --> 00:25:08,140
that I was more like...
it's rare I feel this way,
588
00:25:08,173 --> 00:25:09,974
but I thought, you know,
589
00:25:10,642 --> 00:25:14,179
uh, "We're all here.
Your audience and...
590
00:25:14,213 --> 00:25:16,848
is totally along for the ride
if you wanna go there,
591
00:25:16,881 --> 00:25:19,518
but it's just so sad."
592
00:25:19,551 --> 00:25:22,087
I... you got the...
you just got the sense, like,
593
00:25:22,120 --> 00:25:24,122
Marc really liked her.
594
00:25:24,156 --> 00:25:25,990
I mean, loved her,
but also really liked her,
595
00:25:26,024 --> 00:25:28,093
just liked being around her.
596
00:25:28,126 --> 00:25:30,095
[Marc] So let me ask you,
like, as somebody
597
00:25:30,128 --> 00:25:32,097
who has dealt
with similar stuff,
598
00:25:32,130 --> 00:25:35,900
what was the arc
of your grief around Michelle?
599
00:25:35,934 --> 00:25:38,970
[Patton] It was... it was
very odd for me to see you.
600
00:25:39,003 --> 00:25:40,672
I knew what
you were going through,
601
00:25:40,705 --> 00:25:43,208
and I knew
part of this healing process
602
00:25:43,242 --> 00:25:45,577
is to now, he's gotta be
by himself for a while.
603
00:25:45,610 --> 00:25:47,812
-[Marc] Yeah, yeah.
-[Patton] And I was like,
604
00:25:47,845 --> 00:25:50,449
"Maybe comedy isn't what
I should be doing right now."
605
00:25:50,482 --> 00:25:53,585
"Because, like, if I go
on stage, my wife has died,
606
00:25:53,618 --> 00:25:55,720
is that disgusting
that I'm still doing jokes?"
607
00:25:55,754 --> 00:25:58,223
Or, like, I didn't know if
I would ever do comedy again.
608
00:25:58,257 --> 00:25:59,857
-[Marc] Well, that's...
-[Patton] It will... really...
609
00:25:59,891 --> 00:26:01,359
did you ever go through that,
610
00:26:01,393 --> 00:26:02,627
like, "Well,
I guess I'm done doing that?"
611
00:26:02,660 --> 00:26:03,861
[Marc]
Well I... what I go through
612
00:26:03,895 --> 00:26:05,397
and I talk about on stage,
613
00:26:05,430 --> 00:26:06,765
that feeling of, you know,
you just want to...
614
00:26:06,798 --> 00:26:08,567
-you wanna be relieved.
-[Patton] Yes.
615
00:26:08,600 --> 00:26:10,302
[Marc] Because you get...
when you're in it,
616
00:26:10,335 --> 00:26:13,037
you can't really see
that it's gonna go away,
617
00:26:13,071 --> 00:26:14,606
but you can see... you know,
618
00:26:14,639 --> 00:26:16,241
the one sort of realization
you have is like,
619
00:26:16,275 --> 00:26:18,210
"There's nothing unusual
about this."
620
00:26:18,243 --> 00:26:20,479
"It's just...
it's just my fucking turn."
621
00:26:20,512 --> 00:26:23,115
But, you know, it's just
really dealing with,
622
00:26:23,148 --> 00:26:24,882
you know,
"When do I write a joke?"
623
00:26:24,916 --> 00:26:28,520
-"When does the funny happen?"
-[Patton] Yeah. Exactly.
624
00:26:28,553 --> 00:26:31,889
Check one, two, three.
Hey, hey, hey.
625
00:26:31,923 --> 00:26:37,028
All right. So this is a...
I... goddamn this thing.
626
00:26:37,061 --> 00:26:38,463
[Kamau] The thing we love
about Marc
627
00:26:38,497 --> 00:26:40,865
and the thing
that we love about the first
628
00:26:40,898 --> 00:26:42,434
15 minutes of WTF
629
00:26:42,467 --> 00:26:45,069
is that he sort of, like,
is going through his journey
630
00:26:45,103 --> 00:26:46,704
and showing you
how these are all the ways
631
00:26:46,738 --> 00:26:49,974
in which I fucked up
in the last ten days. [laughs]
632
00:26:50,008 --> 00:26:52,444
And I think
that's really helpful
633
00:26:52,477 --> 00:26:54,313
for a lot of us who feel
like we're always fucking up
634
00:26:54,346 --> 00:26:55,847
but don't...
but feel like we're alone.
635
00:26:55,880 --> 00:26:57,516
You cannot call yourself
a true fan of Maron
636
00:26:57,549 --> 00:26:59,351
unless you listen
to the first ten to 15 minutes
637
00:26:59,384 --> 00:27:02,053
of him being like... [groans]
638
00:27:02,086 --> 00:27:03,755
Now I'm not unhappy
I don't have kids.
639
00:27:03,788 --> 00:27:07,058
I'm just too selfish
and anxious and panicky.
640
00:27:07,091 --> 00:27:08,726
I just am. I never had them.
641
00:27:08,760 --> 00:27:11,796
And I couldn't make marriages
work for whatever reason.
642
00:27:11,830 --> 00:27:14,633
And I come up at the end
of it at 59 years old
643
00:27:14,666 --> 00:27:18,170
with, you know, a string
of some good relationships,
644
00:27:18,203 --> 00:27:20,004
some bad, some I screwed up,
645
00:27:20,038 --> 00:27:22,006
some we screwed up together,
some they screwed up.
646
00:27:22,040 --> 00:27:23,941
It's like... it's a mixed bag,
647
00:27:23,975 --> 00:27:27,078
but it's a life of that.
648
00:27:27,111 --> 00:27:28,680
And I'm tired.
649
00:27:29,481 --> 00:27:32,817
And I obviously do not know
how to do it...
650
00:27:32,851 --> 00:27:34,353
do it correctly.
651
00:27:35,187 --> 00:27:37,021
And now I'm old.
652
00:27:37,055 --> 00:27:38,956
So what happens now?
653
00:27:41,125 --> 00:27:42,827
All right.
654
00:27:42,861 --> 00:27:44,596
[upbeat music playing]
655
00:27:44,629 --> 00:27:46,231
[Marc] How did I lose
a pair of glasses?
656
00:27:46,264 --> 00:27:47,799
It doesn't add up.
657
00:27:50,134 --> 00:27:51,803
Did you throw them somewhere?
658
00:27:53,205 --> 00:27:55,273
Who cares?
659
00:27:55,307 --> 00:27:58,009
Cage The Elephant,
what are they?
660
00:27:58,042 --> 00:27:59,578
This is another one.
661
00:28:00,379 --> 00:28:02,013
I don't care about The Who.
662
00:28:03,114 --> 00:28:04,649
This guy sent me 20 records.
663
00:28:04,683 --> 00:28:07,319
You're like,
"What am I gonna do with that?"
664
00:28:08,220 --> 00:28:09,554
Okay.
665
00:28:10,755 --> 00:28:12,391
Head rush.
666
00:28:12,424 --> 00:28:15,293
I guess I should go
on a sugar detox.
667
00:28:15,327 --> 00:28:17,396
But some part of me
is sort of like,
668
00:28:17,429 --> 00:28:21,700
what's the point, man?
Let's just end this already.
669
00:28:21,733 --> 00:28:23,702
Like, you know,
eat what you want.
670
00:28:23,735 --> 00:28:25,803
Have a heart attack already.
And then one day you're like,
671
00:28:25,837 --> 00:28:28,072
"But I don't really want
to have a heart attack."
672
00:28:28,540 --> 00:28:30,007
"There's so much to live for."
673
00:28:30,041 --> 00:28:32,744
Is there? Make me a list.
674
00:28:35,647 --> 00:28:37,181
-How's it going?
-Good. How are you?
675
00:28:37,215 --> 00:28:38,450
-I'm all right.
-Yeah?
676
00:28:38,483 --> 00:28:40,352
-This is, uh, the crew.
-Crew.
677
00:28:40,385 --> 00:28:41,720
[Steven]
This is Jordan, I'm Steve.
678
00:28:41,753 --> 00:28:42,987
-How's it going?
-[Steven] How's it going?
679
00:28:43,020 --> 00:28:44,256
Good to see you.
680
00:28:44,289 --> 00:28:45,624
[man] What are you guys
documenting?
681
00:28:45,657 --> 00:28:46,691
-[Marc] Me.
-[man] Yeah, for what though?
682
00:28:46,725 --> 00:28:49,060
It's just an ongoing nightmare.
683
00:28:51,263 --> 00:28:53,432
Where'd you get
all the Maiden records, dude?
684
00:28:53,465 --> 00:28:55,900
-One guy?
-[man] One guy, yeah.
685
00:28:55,934 --> 00:28:57,569
He was done?
686
00:28:57,602 --> 00:28:59,070
Oh, I think I need 20...
687
00:28:59,103 --> 00:29:00,972
I think I need this Rush record.
688
00:29:01,005 --> 00:29:03,341
-[man laughs]
-Oh, yeah, that's a classic.
689
00:29:03,375 --> 00:29:04,542
Don't tell anybody.
690
00:29:04,576 --> 00:29:07,746
[electric guitar music playing]
691
00:29:09,147 --> 00:29:10,649
[Marc] In LA, you know,
692
00:29:10,682 --> 00:29:12,884
I eventually,
uh, cocaine-d myself
693
00:29:12,917 --> 00:29:14,786
into a psychotic state
694
00:29:14,819 --> 00:29:17,121
and I was living in kind of
a mystical conspiracy
695
00:29:17,155 --> 00:29:20,858
of what Hollywood
was manifesting in my mind.
696
00:29:20,892 --> 00:29:21,926
Go.
697
00:29:21,960 --> 00:29:23,060
But I was in trouble.
698
00:29:24,228 --> 00:29:27,399
So I kind of got in my car
with all the voices in my head.
699
00:29:27,432 --> 00:29:29,401
I just drove home.
700
00:29:29,434 --> 00:29:31,670
I told my parents
I'm fucked up,
701
00:29:31,703 --> 00:29:33,505
and I did check in
to a drug rehab program
702
00:29:33,538 --> 00:29:35,173
for the first time.
703
00:29:35,206 --> 00:29:37,309
Getting up,
getting the things going,
704
00:29:37,342 --> 00:29:39,277
having some coffee,
having some cigarettes,
705
00:29:39,311 --> 00:29:40,479
getting the lungs working,
706
00:29:40,512 --> 00:29:42,880
getting pulmonary system
working.
707
00:29:42,914 --> 00:29:44,649
There's a way to do this.
You see, some people think
708
00:29:44,683 --> 00:29:46,584
it's fitness,
but I know what it is.
709
00:29:46,618 --> 00:29:48,987
You drink three cups of coffee,
have a couple of cigarettes,
710
00:29:49,020 --> 00:29:51,122
then you feel good. I mean...
711
00:29:51,155 --> 00:29:52,890
I hung out for the summer.
712
00:29:52,924 --> 00:29:55,293
[man] Marc's gonna light
another cigarette here.
713
00:29:55,327 --> 00:29:56,995
[Marc] I got sober
for the first time.
714
00:29:57,028 --> 00:29:58,863
[dramatic music playing]
715
00:29:58,896 --> 00:30:00,632
[Marc] I've been here
a couple days already,
716
00:30:00,665 --> 00:30:02,967
and I think I'm going out
of my fucking mind.
717
00:30:04,602 --> 00:30:06,871
My relationship with my dad
was always difficult.
718
00:30:06,904 --> 00:30:08,573
There was always sort
of a dynamic
719
00:30:08,606 --> 00:30:10,875
where I wanted,
you know, his approval
720
00:30:10,908 --> 00:30:12,410
and I wanted to make him
laugh and stuff,
721
00:30:12,444 --> 00:30:13,845
but ultimately, you know,
722
00:30:13,878 --> 00:30:17,215
he was not that present
and, you know, he was volatile.
723
00:30:18,016 --> 00:30:20,819
So after a few months
in New Mexico after rehab,
724
00:30:20,852 --> 00:30:24,422
I just went back to Boston,
got a job at a coffee shop
725
00:30:24,456 --> 00:30:26,658
and started
my comedy career over again.
726
00:30:26,691 --> 00:30:28,660
You know the murder rate
and the suicide rate
727
00:30:28,693 --> 00:30:30,495
both go up over Christmas?
728
00:30:30,529 --> 00:30:33,031
I think I figured out why.
You know, sometimes
729
00:30:33,064 --> 00:30:34,899
you just don't know
what to get everyone
730
00:30:34,932 --> 00:30:39,571
and you get a little crazy,
maybe a little frustrated.
731
00:30:39,604 --> 00:30:41,973
I guess it's just a viable
alternative for some people.
732
00:30:42,006 --> 00:30:45,544
It's like, "Mom, Dad,
I didn't know what to get you."
733
00:30:45,577 --> 00:30:48,613
[mimics gunshots]
734
00:30:48,646 --> 00:30:50,014
"But thanks for the gun."
735
00:30:50,048 --> 00:30:51,683
-[laughs]
-[laughter]
736
00:30:51,716 --> 00:30:54,419
[Marc] And then I was in
the Comedy Riot competition.
737
00:30:54,452 --> 00:30:56,421
Put your hands together
for contestant number one,
738
00:30:56,454 --> 00:30:58,823
Mike... I blew it, Marc Maron.
739
00:30:58,857 --> 00:31:00,559
Please forgive me, Marc.
Marc Maron.
740
00:31:00,592 --> 00:31:03,094
[cheering and applause]
741
00:31:03,127 --> 00:31:06,464
Just say no to drugs.
If you drink and drive,
742
00:31:06,498 --> 00:31:09,467
you get just short
of the electric chair.
743
00:31:09,501 --> 00:31:11,936
If you have sex, you can die.
744
00:31:11,969 --> 00:31:15,707
You can't smoke
in most public places anymore.
745
00:31:15,740 --> 00:31:17,809
Self-destruction is not
what it used to be, folks.
746
00:31:17,842 --> 00:31:19,711
-[laughter]
-[upbeat music playing]
747
00:31:19,744 --> 00:31:22,179
[Marc] And I came in
second in 1988
748
00:31:22,213 --> 00:31:25,650
and that's when I really
started working as a comic.
749
00:31:25,683 --> 00:31:28,953
Doing one-nighters, you know,
doing half-hour spots
750
00:31:28,986 --> 00:31:31,890
in bars and grills
and discos and bowling alleys.
751
00:31:31,923 --> 00:31:34,225
You know,
in '89 I moved to New York
752
00:31:34,258 --> 00:31:36,628
and helped start
the alternative comedy scene.
753
00:31:36,661 --> 00:31:38,530
["Look Who's Back"
by The Nude Party playing]
754
00:31:38,563 --> 00:31:40,899
♪ Back down from Mars
With an armful... ♪
755
00:31:40,932 --> 00:31:42,434
[newsman]
Something very different
756
00:31:42,467 --> 00:31:43,735
is going on these days
757
00:31:43,768 --> 00:31:45,737
in New York
on the comedy circuit.
758
00:31:45,770 --> 00:31:47,672
It's called alternative comedy.
759
00:31:47,705 --> 00:31:50,508
On Monday nights, the Luna
Lounge is the place to be.
760
00:31:50,542 --> 00:31:52,410
Luna showcases
some of the brightest
761
00:31:52,444 --> 00:31:53,878
comedic talent working today.
762
00:31:53,912 --> 00:31:55,513
You'll also find Marc Maron,
763
00:31:55,547 --> 00:31:57,482
an edgy comic
who bears his soul.
764
00:31:57,515 --> 00:31:59,183
[laughter]
765
00:31:59,216 --> 00:32:01,018
What are you laughing at?
766
00:32:01,052 --> 00:32:04,088
I don't know if he intends
for it to be this way,
767
00:32:04,122 --> 00:32:07,459
but he's really
talking at you, you know?
768
00:32:07,492 --> 00:32:10,194
Marc was one of the few people
769
00:32:10,227 --> 00:32:13,665
who had a foot in each scene.
770
00:32:13,698 --> 00:32:15,567
There was alternative comedy,
771
00:32:15,600 --> 00:32:17,569
that, you know,
had a different approach.
772
00:32:17,602 --> 00:32:20,004
And then the older school,
comedy club,
773
00:32:20,037 --> 00:32:23,040
you know, quick delivery.
Just joke, joke, joke, joke.
774
00:32:23,074 --> 00:32:26,010
Marc was one of those guys
who could ride both camps.
775
00:32:26,043 --> 00:32:28,412
[Marc] Got an agent
and a manager.
776
00:32:28,446 --> 00:32:30,081
I hosted a TV show.
777
00:32:30,114 --> 00:32:32,183
That was the beginning
of real show business.
778
00:32:32,216 --> 00:32:33,718
Hello. I am Marc Maron
779
00:32:33,751 --> 00:32:35,687
and this is Short Attention
Span Theater
780
00:32:35,720 --> 00:32:37,421
coming to you from the vault
781
00:32:37,455 --> 00:32:39,557
in the basement
of Comedy Central.
782
00:32:39,591 --> 00:32:42,694
In 1995,
I did an HBO half-hour.
783
00:32:43,127 --> 00:32:45,730
We're in the Fillmore.
This is the Fillmore.
784
00:32:45,763 --> 00:32:48,332
Can you believe that?
This is like the grand temple
785
00:32:48,366 --> 00:32:49,968
of hallucinogenic partying.
786
00:32:50,001 --> 00:32:51,268
[laughter]
787
00:32:51,302 --> 00:32:52,637
[Marc] Certainly in the mid-90s,
788
00:32:52,671 --> 00:32:55,072
I was doing coke
pretty regularly.
789
00:32:55,106 --> 00:32:56,741
And at that time,
790
00:32:56,774 --> 00:32:59,878
it was kind of a life-or-death
situation really.
791
00:33:02,881 --> 00:33:04,782
I guess this shit's taken off.
792
00:33:04,816 --> 00:33:06,283
Because when I saw them,
I'm like,
793
00:33:06,317 --> 00:33:08,786
who the fuck's gonna buy water,
794
00:33:08,820 --> 00:33:11,189
you know, called Liquid Death?
795
00:33:11,222 --> 00:33:13,692
But it shows you what I know.
796
00:33:13,725 --> 00:33:15,593
-[Steven chuckles]
-[cat meows]
797
00:33:15,627 --> 00:33:17,629
[Marc] Whoa,
what are you doing, Sam?
798
00:33:17,662 --> 00:33:19,163
What are you doing?
799
00:33:19,197 --> 00:33:21,098
-He's trying to get out?
-[Steven] There's a bug.
800
00:33:21,132 --> 00:33:22,266
[Marc] Was it a bug?
801
00:33:23,635 --> 00:33:25,169
It's good that he has cats.
802
00:33:25,203 --> 00:33:28,973
You know, I mean he's like 70
or something with cats.
803
00:33:29,007 --> 00:33:30,441
Sam, come on in.
804
00:33:30,474 --> 00:33:32,076
Sammy. What are you doing?
805
00:33:32,109 --> 00:33:33,811
[Nate] You're glad
that someone's there,
806
00:33:33,845 --> 00:33:37,582
'cause he runs
everybody else off, so...
807
00:33:37,615 --> 00:33:40,351
Come here, come here, come here.
You're all right.
808
00:33:40,384 --> 00:33:43,087
Sam. Oh, my God.
809
00:33:43,120 --> 00:33:44,989
Come on.
810
00:33:45,023 --> 00:33:47,058
[Sam L] He kind of really talks
to them like they're roommates
811
00:33:47,091 --> 00:33:49,060
that are annoying him
at the time.
812
00:33:49,093 --> 00:33:51,763
And I think
that shows more respect in a...
813
00:33:51,796 --> 00:33:54,265
in a certain way, you know,
that he's cohabitating
814
00:33:54,298 --> 00:33:56,167
with these other mammals.
815
00:33:56,200 --> 00:33:59,571
And, you know,
he expects something from them.
816
00:33:59,604 --> 00:34:01,239
And, uh, you know, there's...
817
00:34:01,272 --> 00:34:03,675
there needs to be
this mutual understanding.
818
00:34:03,708 --> 00:34:06,210
And as long as that's working,
everything's fine.
819
00:34:06,844 --> 00:34:08,880
Charlie? Charlie?
820
00:34:08,913 --> 00:34:11,683
Charlie, what are you doing?
821
00:34:11,716 --> 00:34:13,785
Do we have to play
on the stairs?
822
00:34:16,120 --> 00:34:17,589
Hey, hey.
823
00:34:17,622 --> 00:34:19,457
I've had many cats
over the years,
824
00:34:19,490 --> 00:34:21,425
and I always complain
825
00:34:21,459 --> 00:34:24,762
about how like, why do I always
get these weird, tweaky cats?
826
00:34:24,796 --> 00:34:27,198
Why are they all nervous
and fucked up?
827
00:34:27,231 --> 00:34:29,133
[laughter]
828
00:34:29,166 --> 00:34:32,136
I... it took me years
to realize it was me,
829
00:34:33,204 --> 00:34:34,873
'cause I don't talk
to cats right.
830
00:34:34,906 --> 00:34:36,273
I'm like, "What's going on?"
831
00:34:36,307 --> 00:34:38,175
[laughter]
832
00:34:38,209 --> 00:34:39,777
And the cats are like,
"What are you talking about?"
833
00:34:39,811 --> 00:34:41,613
"We're okay."
834
00:34:41,646 --> 00:34:43,447
"Where you at?
What... what's the problem?"
835
00:34:43,481 --> 00:34:44,849
"Come on, what are we doing?"
836
00:34:44,883 --> 00:34:47,485
"Why is he... why is he...
what does he want?"
837
00:34:47,518 --> 00:34:49,186
[playful music playing]
838
00:34:49,220 --> 00:34:52,223
[Marc] Who do I ask to, uh,
try to order prescription food
839
00:34:52,256 --> 00:34:53,591
of a certain kind?
840
00:34:53,625 --> 00:34:56,560
Okay. So Burbank or Pasadena.
841
00:34:56,594 --> 00:34:58,329
[phone rings]
842
00:34:58,362 --> 00:34:59,764
[man on phone] Petco in Burbank.
843
00:34:59,797 --> 00:35:01,966
Hey, buddy. Can you check
and see if you have
844
00:35:02,000 --> 00:35:04,836
a prescription food for me?
845
00:35:05,970 --> 00:35:07,805
[man] Sure,
what was the prescription?
846
00:35:07,839 --> 00:35:11,910
It's for...
I like the Royal Canin Renal,
847
00:35:11,943 --> 00:35:14,445
D as in David, for cats.
848
00:35:14,478 --> 00:35:17,749
[man] Yeah, we've got
maybe like 25, 30 of them.
849
00:35:17,782 --> 00:35:19,350
Oh, yeah, will you... will you...
850
00:35:19,383 --> 00:35:22,253
will you put them aside for me?
I'll come get them.
851
00:35:22,286 --> 00:35:25,589
[man] Unfortunately, we can't
put the prescription on hold.
852
00:35:25,623 --> 00:35:27,291
No shit.
853
00:35:27,324 --> 00:35:29,761
-All right, I'm coming, man.
-[man] It's in high demand.
854
00:35:29,794 --> 00:35:31,495
-All right. Thanks, buddy.
-[man] Okay. No worries.
855
00:35:31,529 --> 00:35:32,830
-Bye.
-[man] Yep.
856
00:35:32,864 --> 00:35:34,966
Motherfucker.
857
00:35:34,999 --> 00:35:39,537
Maybe if I drop my name...
if he knew who I was.
858
00:35:39,570 --> 00:35:41,873
This is Marc Maron.
859
00:35:42,874 --> 00:35:45,342
[chuckles] My cat is dying.
860
00:35:47,211 --> 00:35:49,714
Look at this, it's so pretty,
the palm trees
861
00:35:49,747 --> 00:35:51,482
and the garbage cans.
862
00:35:54,318 --> 00:35:57,088
Yeah, so,
Godspeed through your day
863
00:35:57,121 --> 00:35:59,157
if you believe
in that kind of stuff.
864
00:35:59,190 --> 00:36:01,793
I just feel like
I'm gonna lose my connection.
865
00:36:03,527 --> 00:36:04,996
Not just to you.
866
00:36:05,029 --> 00:36:06,931
Not just to the phone.
867
00:36:07,899 --> 00:36:09,934
To all of it.
868
00:36:09,968 --> 00:36:13,237
[instrumental music playing]
869
00:36:14,973 --> 00:36:17,942
[indistinct chatter]
870
00:36:23,948 --> 00:36:25,416
[woman] Oh, my God,
you actually did.
871
00:36:25,449 --> 00:36:26,617
[laughter]
872
00:36:26,650 --> 00:36:28,753
[woman]
I thought you were joking.
873
00:36:28,786 --> 00:36:31,022
[Marc] It's weird.
When you get old,
874
00:36:31,055 --> 00:36:34,625
even if your weight is good,
your body's a different shape
875
00:36:34,658 --> 00:36:36,227
than it used to be.
876
00:36:36,260 --> 00:36:38,763
It's all right.
Too much information? All right.
877
00:36:38,796 --> 00:36:41,432
No one's listening?
Doesn't matter.
878
00:36:41,465 --> 00:36:46,204
[upbeat music playing]
879
00:36:51,408 --> 00:36:53,845
[yelling to audience]
880
00:36:53,878 --> 00:36:57,148
[crowd cheering]
881
00:36:57,181 --> 00:36:59,851
[Shane] Good evening, Montreal.
How are you feeling?
882
00:36:59,884 --> 00:37:01,853
-[crowd cheering]
-It's Saturday night.
883
00:37:01,886 --> 00:37:03,054
We're gonna get up.
We're gonna party.
884
00:37:03,087 --> 00:37:04,856
Let's bring Marc Maron
the cheer.
885
00:37:04,889 --> 00:37:06,624
Are you ready, Montreal
Just For Laughs?
886
00:37:06,657 --> 00:37:08,559
[crowd cheering]
887
00:37:08,592 --> 00:37:11,362
Have a great show. Let's go.
888
00:37:11,395 --> 00:37:13,965
Oh, that's very nice.
889
00:37:13,998 --> 00:37:15,699
Look, I'm happy to be up here.
890
00:37:15,733 --> 00:37:17,001
I swear to you, I'm moving here.
891
00:37:17,035 --> 00:37:18,936
And I'm not
even trying to pander.
892
00:37:18,970 --> 00:37:21,438
I'm not trying to kiss your ass.
893
00:37:23,474 --> 00:37:26,343
I'm applying for a permanent
residency, you know?
894
00:37:26,377 --> 00:37:27,812
And, uh, yeah, yeah.
895
00:37:27,845 --> 00:37:30,447
[cheers and applause]
896
00:37:30,481 --> 00:37:32,784
Where's my camera?
Right here. Excuse me.
897
00:37:32,817 --> 00:37:34,485
Is there any way
we can accelerate
898
00:37:34,518 --> 00:37:36,888
the application process?
899
00:37:36,921 --> 00:37:39,490
Look at me. I'll bring
a lot to this country.
900
00:37:39,523 --> 00:37:40,724
I wore this.
901
00:37:40,758 --> 00:37:42,093
[cheers and applause]
902
00:37:42,126 --> 00:37:44,395
Let me tell you,
I come... I mean,
903
00:37:44,428 --> 00:37:48,266
if there's anybody
in the office that processes
904
00:37:48,299 --> 00:37:50,668
those applications,
I'm willing to do this.
905
00:37:50,701 --> 00:37:53,071
[laughter]
906
00:37:55,973 --> 00:37:57,308
I don't know.
907
00:37:57,341 --> 00:38:00,011
I have a lot
going on in my head.
908
00:38:00,044 --> 00:38:02,046
How long does this go on for?
909
00:38:03,681 --> 00:38:05,749
-But...
-[Steven] The documentary or...
910
00:38:05,783 --> 00:38:07,751
No, just like...
911
00:38:07,785 --> 00:38:09,587
my stand-up.
912
00:38:10,154 --> 00:38:12,356
I don't have any other big plan.
913
00:38:12,389 --> 00:38:14,625
Like, I'm just doing it
'cause, like,
914
00:38:14,658 --> 00:38:16,660
it's what I do, you know?
915
00:38:16,694 --> 00:38:18,029
That's the one thing I realized,
916
00:38:18,062 --> 00:38:21,833
like, when I was sitting
with Hader and Mulaney
917
00:38:21,866 --> 00:38:24,836
and Conan and stuff like...
918
00:38:24,869 --> 00:38:27,705
I'm not playing
in that league, dude.
919
00:38:27,738 --> 00:38:29,907
They seem savvy
to the business in a way
920
00:38:29,941 --> 00:38:32,977
that I'm still somehow not.
921
00:38:33,010 --> 00:38:34,612
But like,
what difference does it make?
922
00:38:34,645 --> 00:38:36,680
What am I gunning for?
923
00:38:36,714 --> 00:38:38,682
He said the other day,
he's like,
924
00:38:38,716 --> 00:38:39,984
"I don't know,
we don't... who said that
925
00:38:40,017 --> 00:38:41,685
we have to do this forever?"
926
00:38:41,719 --> 00:38:43,454
And I was like, "We do."
927
00:38:43,487 --> 00:38:45,957
"We all do. We all...
if you're a real comedian,
928
00:38:45,990 --> 00:38:47,491
you have to do it forever."
929
00:38:47,524 --> 00:38:48,826
There's no retiring.
930
00:38:48,860 --> 00:38:50,261
[David] He's like The Who.
931
00:38:50,294 --> 00:38:54,966
Didn't they have like
11 last tours ever?
932
00:38:54,999 --> 00:38:56,868
[John] That's what he called
his last tour?
933
00:38:56,901 --> 00:38:58,769
What an exhausting thing.
934
00:38:58,802 --> 00:39:00,171
What, is he gonna get a boat
935
00:39:00,204 --> 00:39:02,806
and sail around Corsica
or some shit?
936
00:39:02,840 --> 00:39:04,808
As if he's gonna move
to Vancouver
937
00:39:04,842 --> 00:39:06,844
and just be Marc Maron.
938
00:39:06,878 --> 00:39:08,946
This insane idea.
939
00:39:09,981 --> 00:39:12,316
I don't know
where fucking anything is.
940
00:39:14,585 --> 00:39:18,389
So you wanted pictures
of when I got back from LA?
941
00:39:19,157 --> 00:39:20,658
Me and Dave Cross.
942
00:39:21,825 --> 00:39:23,460
That's me in Queens.
943
00:39:24,362 --> 00:39:28,499
This is some weird fucking shot
from just post-LA.
944
00:39:28,532 --> 00:39:30,134
Uh, fuck.
945
00:39:31,335 --> 00:39:33,437
-[exhales sharply]
-[Steven] How you feeling?
946
00:39:33,470 --> 00:39:35,106
-Huh?
-[Steven] How you feeling?
947
00:39:35,139 --> 00:39:37,708
Like I've had enough
of this shit.
948
00:39:37,741 --> 00:39:39,510
What do you mean
how am I feeling?
949
00:39:39,543 --> 00:39:41,645
It's like never-ending.
950
00:39:42,046 --> 00:39:44,081
I'm fucking floundering
in insecurity
951
00:39:44,115 --> 00:39:45,316
and fear right now.
952
00:39:45,349 --> 00:39:49,586
"Marc, what's wrong with you?"
953
00:39:50,087 --> 00:39:52,623
I was in an unhappy marriage.
954
00:39:52,656 --> 00:39:55,326
I was kind of doing coke
a few times a week.
955
00:39:55,359 --> 00:39:57,428
Drinking, I always smoked weed.
956
00:39:58,829 --> 00:40:01,399
I did burn bridges, certainly.
957
00:40:01,799 --> 00:40:04,135
I'd sort of gotten very bitter
958
00:40:04,168 --> 00:40:07,504
and kind of surrendered
to my lot in life.
959
00:40:08,306 --> 00:40:10,174
It was starting to kill me.
960
00:40:10,975 --> 00:40:12,276
I was done.
961
00:40:12,310 --> 00:40:13,711
I was done with being married.
962
00:40:13,744 --> 00:40:15,012
I was done with drugs.
963
00:40:15,046 --> 00:40:16,314
Everyone's got demons, you know?
964
00:40:16,347 --> 00:40:18,115
I realized
that I had all of them.
965
00:40:18,149 --> 00:40:20,918
-And, uh...
-[laughter]
966
00:40:20,952 --> 00:40:23,487
And they were tired, my demons.
A little tired.
967
00:40:23,520 --> 00:40:25,522
I mean, there used to be
that one that would come out
968
00:40:25,556 --> 00:40:27,558
and be like, "Whoo! Ow."
969
00:40:27,591 --> 00:40:29,994
[makes sound]
970
00:40:30,027 --> 00:40:31,262
"Let's go get an eight ball,
971
00:40:31,295 --> 00:40:33,097
some booze, and some pussy."
972
00:40:33,130 --> 00:40:36,200
-"Come on!"
-[laughter]
973
00:40:36,234 --> 00:40:37,801
About a year ago,
that guy comes out
974
00:40:37,835 --> 00:40:40,771
and he's like, "Whoo."
975
00:40:40,804 --> 00:40:42,306
"How about some ice cream?"
976
00:40:42,340 --> 00:40:44,108
[laughter]
977
00:40:44,141 --> 00:40:46,077
"And a porno, that'd be good."
978
00:40:46,110 --> 00:40:48,112
[laughter]
979
00:40:48,145 --> 00:40:53,317
[Marc] I got sober
in 1999 for the last time.
980
00:40:54,352 --> 00:40:55,987
I left my first wife.
981
00:40:56,754 --> 00:40:59,890
I had an affair with a woman
who helped me get sober,
982
00:40:59,923 --> 00:41:01,725
and I fell in love with her.
983
00:41:01,759 --> 00:41:04,295
And she became my second wife.
984
00:41:05,596 --> 00:41:09,967
She had got me into AA
and kept me focused.
985
00:41:10,601 --> 00:41:13,570
I was very depressed
and very broke.
986
00:41:13,604 --> 00:41:15,839
Marc, the... I wanna ask you
about your personal life.
987
00:41:15,873 --> 00:41:17,941
The first time that you
used to come on the show...
988
00:41:17,975 --> 00:41:20,044
-Yeah.
-...you had just gotten married.
989
00:41:20,077 --> 00:41:21,645
-Oh, yeah.
-[Conan] What happened?
990
00:41:21,678 --> 00:41:23,914
-Did it work out?
-Well, it... Well, no, it didn't.
991
00:41:23,947 --> 00:41:25,383
-[laughter]
-Um, getting married,
992
00:41:25,416 --> 00:41:27,785
it's sort of like seeing
a beautiful wild animal
993
00:41:27,818 --> 00:41:29,086
just right over there.
994
00:41:29,120 --> 00:41:30,988
Just like,
"Oh, my God, look at it."
995
00:41:31,022 --> 00:41:32,623
"It's perfect, it's beautiful."
996
00:41:32,656 --> 00:41:34,458
[gasps] "Give me the gun."
997
00:41:34,492 --> 00:41:36,560
[laughter]
998
00:41:39,096 --> 00:41:41,299
[Marc] My wife, uh, left me,
999
00:41:41,332 --> 00:41:44,735
it got very ugly,
and it cost me a lot of money.
1000
00:41:44,768 --> 00:41:47,171
And I wasn't getting
enough comedy work.
1001
00:41:47,204 --> 00:41:48,672
I couldn't draw,
1002
00:41:48,705 --> 00:41:51,008
no matter
how many Conans I did.
1003
00:41:51,042 --> 00:41:53,177
Professionally, I was nowhere.
1004
00:41:53,210 --> 00:41:54,745
Got ten seconds.
1005
00:41:54,778 --> 00:41:55,846
Who's coming out of the music?
1006
00:41:55,879 --> 00:41:57,548
[woman] You do.
1007
00:41:57,581 --> 00:41:59,483
[Marc] Air America was this
radio network counterpoint
1008
00:41:59,517 --> 00:42:02,619
to the right-wing talk radio
in like 2004.
1009
00:42:02,653 --> 00:42:04,955
I got brought in.
I really learned
1010
00:42:04,988 --> 00:42:06,757
how to be on this type of mic.
1011
00:42:06,790 --> 00:42:09,626
But it wasn't successful.
There were a lot of problems.
1012
00:42:09,660 --> 00:42:11,395
Welcome to Breakroom Live.
I'm Marc Maron.
1013
00:42:11,429 --> 00:42:13,597
I'm jacked on coffee
and nicotine gum.
1014
00:42:13,630 --> 00:42:16,100
And I'm Sam Seder
and I have to deal with it.
1015
00:42:16,133 --> 00:42:18,001
In those days, he was having
a tough go of it.
1016
00:42:18,035 --> 00:42:21,638
Marc was professionally jealous
1017
00:42:21,672 --> 00:42:23,441
of a lot of people.
1018
00:42:23,474 --> 00:42:25,242
We would just sit
right next to each other
1019
00:42:25,276 --> 00:42:27,311
and I would be
talking about a story
1020
00:42:27,345 --> 00:42:31,582
and you could just
hear him go... [scoffing]
1021
00:42:31,615 --> 00:42:33,884
[Marc] And I was devastated
from a divorce.
1022
00:42:33,917 --> 00:42:35,686
I was emotionally drained.
1023
00:42:35,719 --> 00:42:38,356
I didn't really have a future,
that I could see, as a comic,
1024
00:42:38,389 --> 00:42:40,157
and that was part
of the beginning
1025
00:42:40,191 --> 00:42:41,692
of the podcast.
1026
00:42:42,426 --> 00:42:43,660
[Brendan] When Marc came to me,
1027
00:42:43,694 --> 00:42:44,995
we were getting fired
from Air America.
1028
00:42:45,028 --> 00:42:48,165
He felt like comedy was a career
1029
00:42:48,199 --> 00:42:50,167
that had maybe passed him by.
1030
00:42:50,201 --> 00:42:52,269
And so he came to me and said,
1031
00:42:52,303 --> 00:42:54,705
"Uh, what do you think
about doing a podcast?"
1032
00:42:54,738 --> 00:42:56,273
He was like,
"Do you know what this is?"
1033
00:42:56,307 --> 00:42:58,442
Can we do that?"
And it was just a no-brainer.
1034
00:42:58,476 --> 00:43:01,078
Like, "Yeah, I will... let's
do it. Let's get it going."
1035
00:43:01,112 --> 00:43:02,980
We were still at Air America.
1036
00:43:03,013 --> 00:43:05,048
My producer,
Brendan McDonald, and I,
1037
00:43:05,082 --> 00:43:06,984
we used to have
to basically break in.
1038
00:43:07,017 --> 00:43:08,319
We knew the night tech.
1039
00:43:08,352 --> 00:43:11,355
Sometimes we'd bring guests
up the freight elevator.
1040
00:43:11,389 --> 00:43:16,327
Early on, WTF really
sort of served as a way
1041
00:43:16,360 --> 00:43:20,131
for me to actively make amends
with a lot of people
1042
00:43:20,164 --> 00:43:23,867
I thought I had,
you know, not wronged as much,
1043
00:43:23,901 --> 00:43:25,702
just been a dick to.
1044
00:43:25,736 --> 00:43:28,172
And that's how I developed
my style of interviewing.
1045
00:43:28,205 --> 00:43:29,873
[Marc] Lock the gates!
1046
00:43:30,841 --> 00:43:34,077
The only thing negative
I ever said about you, ever,
1047
00:43:34,111 --> 00:43:36,280
"He's an empty vessel
full of fuel."
1048
00:43:36,313 --> 00:43:37,781
And people would say,
1049
00:43:37,814 --> 00:43:39,350
"Hey, do you ever bump
into Marc?" And I'd go,
1050
00:43:39,383 --> 00:43:41,452
"That guy is like
an ominous demon."
1051
00:43:41,485 --> 00:43:45,623
Why are you taking the other
side of everything I say?
1052
00:43:45,656 --> 00:43:48,025
-I'm not. I'm just saying that...
-You are.
1053
00:43:48,058 --> 00:43:49,860
You're done?
1054
00:43:50,227 --> 00:43:53,063
We were having
a good conversation.
1055
00:43:53,096 --> 00:43:55,032
Oh, come on, Gallagher.
1056
00:43:55,433 --> 00:43:57,334
-[Keith] Yeah.
-Don't you play, Tele?
1057
00:43:57,368 --> 00:43:58,769
[Kamau] The whole metaphor
of the garage
1058
00:43:58,802 --> 00:44:00,204
is like you're coming to...
1059
00:44:00,237 --> 00:44:02,105
entering in my space,
you have to do it my way.
1060
00:44:02,139 --> 00:44:04,408
So you can't
just promote your movie,
1061
00:44:04,442 --> 00:44:06,210
you have to have
a real conversation with me.
1062
00:44:06,243 --> 00:44:08,612
[Brendan] From the start,
the show has been,
1063
00:44:08,646 --> 00:44:12,183
this is the audio diary
of one man.
1064
00:44:12,216 --> 00:44:14,185
When that pays off with a guest
1065
00:44:14,218 --> 00:44:16,620
relating to him on that level,
1066
00:44:16,654 --> 00:44:18,789
that's the kind of magic
of the show.
1067
00:44:18,822 --> 00:44:22,125
-[Conan] I was not easygoing.
-[Marc] From 4th grade
1068
00:44:22,159 --> 00:44:23,194
-till when?
-[Conan] Not an easy...
1069
00:44:23,227 --> 00:44:24,328
Till like now.
1070
00:44:24,361 --> 00:44:25,829
I mean, I'm not an easy going...
1071
00:44:25,862 --> 00:44:26,997
[Marc] Me neither.
1072
00:44:27,030 --> 00:44:28,265
When we started the podcast,
1073
00:44:28,299 --> 00:44:31,235
there was no real podcasts.
1074
00:44:31,268 --> 00:44:32,603
I mean,
there were podcasts around
1075
00:44:32,636 --> 00:44:34,438
but it was not a viable thing.
1076
00:44:34,472 --> 00:44:36,106
We were just ahead of the curve
1077
00:44:36,139 --> 00:44:38,809
and my cosmic timing was good.
1078
00:44:38,842 --> 00:44:40,578
There were a lot
of high-profile celebrities
1079
00:44:40,611 --> 00:44:43,214
who were kinda making
their way to Highland Park,
1080
00:44:43,247 --> 00:44:44,682
not even knowing
what they were doing,
1081
00:44:44,715 --> 00:44:46,383
'cause no one knew
what the podcasts were.
1082
00:44:46,417 --> 00:44:47,685
But they were coming.
1083
00:44:47,718 --> 00:44:50,254
Do you think
this is the best work
1084
00:44:50,287 --> 00:44:52,590
you're doing
of your life right now?
1085
00:44:52,623 --> 00:44:53,924
That's kinda difficult,
you know,
1086
00:44:53,957 --> 00:44:55,125
'cause I was in The Beatles.
1087
00:44:55,158 --> 00:44:56,427
I don't know
where it comes from.
1088
00:44:56,460 --> 00:44:57,928
I don't know
where the jokes come from.
1089
00:44:57,961 --> 00:44:59,730
I don't know how I stand up
there and get the laughs.
1090
00:44:59,763 --> 00:45:01,365
Yeah, but, you know... but it's
a weird thing of when it...
1091
00:45:01,398 --> 00:45:02,833
when it comes from that place
you don't know.
1092
00:45:02,866 --> 00:45:05,068
When you find a new thing,
isn't it a bit like...
1093
00:45:05,102 --> 00:45:07,505
it's like a high
and like an endorphin
1094
00:45:07,538 --> 00:45:08,905
"what the fuck" moment?
1095
00:45:09,973 --> 00:45:11,208
[Marc] Try not to freak out.
1096
00:45:11,242 --> 00:45:13,544
I feel a little hazy
in the mind
1097
00:45:13,577 --> 00:45:15,912
because the President
of the United States
1098
00:45:15,946 --> 00:45:17,114
is on the show today.
1099
00:45:17,147 --> 00:45:18,682
I was panicking all morning.
1100
00:45:18,716 --> 00:45:20,584
You know, I don't imagine
you were flying in here
1101
00:45:20,618 --> 00:45:22,319
on the chopper thinking, like,
1102
00:45:22,353 --> 00:45:24,121
"You know, I...
I'm nervous about Marc."
1103
00:45:24,154 --> 00:45:26,323
-[Obama] No, I wasn't.
-[Marc] Okay. Well, that's good.
1104
00:45:26,357 --> 00:45:27,991
-That makes...
-[Obama] 'Cause that would be
1105
00:45:28,025 --> 00:45:29,960
-a problem...
-[Marc] It would be a problem.
1106
00:45:29,993 --> 00:45:31,962
[Obama] ...if the president
was feeling stressed about...
1107
00:45:31,995 --> 00:45:33,897
-[Marc] Coming to my garage.
-...coming to your garage.
1108
00:45:33,930 --> 00:45:35,633
[Marc] Is that... are we good?
We're good?
1109
00:45:35,666 --> 00:45:36,700
-[Obama] That was fun.
-[Marc] I appreciate it,
1110
00:45:36,734 --> 00:45:37,968
Mr. President. It was great.
1111
00:45:38,001 --> 00:45:39,303
[Obama] All right, man.
1112
00:45:39,336 --> 00:45:41,171
This thing was blowing up.
1113
00:45:41,204 --> 00:45:43,641
And then, you know,
look, I'm partially
1114
00:45:43,674 --> 00:45:46,977
responsible for unleashing this
on the world.
1115
00:45:47,010 --> 00:45:49,413
Isn't it great that,
you know, we've all been able
1116
00:45:49,446 --> 00:45:51,948
to live our dreams as, you know,
1117
00:45:51,982 --> 00:45:54,718
mediocre radio personalities
on our own terms?
1118
00:45:54,752 --> 00:45:57,087
-[laughter]
-So like I've been making
1119
00:45:57,120 --> 00:45:58,622
-fun of you guys.
-Yeah.
1120
00:45:58,656 --> 00:46:00,658
It's like a human centipede
in Austin.
1121
00:46:00,691 --> 00:46:04,261
It's like Elon Musk, Joe Rogan,
and three middle acts, you know?
1122
00:46:04,295 --> 00:46:06,664
-So...
-[laughter]
1123
00:46:06,697 --> 00:46:07,964
But you seem to do
your own thing.
1124
00:46:07,998 --> 00:46:09,733
Yeah. Well, yeah,
I mean, we have our own,
1125
00:46:09,767 --> 00:46:11,402
-you know, our own...
-See, people are gonna see that
1126
00:46:11,435 --> 00:46:12,670
and go like, "Look at Maron.
He's bitter."
1127
00:46:12,703 --> 00:46:15,105
It's like,
why wouldn't I be? Why?
1128
00:46:15,138 --> 00:46:19,209
A hundred million dollars
for going, "I don't know."
1129
00:46:19,242 --> 00:46:20,578
"Really?"
1130
00:46:20,611 --> 00:46:22,313
-[laughter]
-[Marc] I don't know, man.
1131
00:46:22,346 --> 00:46:24,047
I'm feeling like insecure
and aggravated,
1132
00:46:24,081 --> 00:46:25,949
you know, for some reason.
Like two days ago,
1133
00:46:25,982 --> 00:46:28,319
I'm on fucking Tom Segura's
podcast and I'm like,
1134
00:46:28,352 --> 00:46:29,886
"I'm gonna take
a few shots at Rogan."
1135
00:46:29,920 --> 00:46:32,889
"Why not?" Right in his
fucking yard basically.
1136
00:46:32,923 --> 00:46:35,392
And... no.
You know, you're all clapping,
1137
00:46:35,426 --> 00:46:36,927
but now I gotta deal
with fucking a week
1138
00:46:36,960 --> 00:46:40,464
of trolling bullshit
of people completely destroying
1139
00:46:40,497 --> 00:46:42,299
my entire sense of self.
1140
00:46:42,333 --> 00:46:44,635
[laughter]
1141
00:46:44,668 --> 00:46:48,572
Be called a bitch man, a whiny,
1142
00:46:48,606 --> 00:46:51,975
bitter, dried up, irrelevant...
1143
00:46:52,008 --> 00:46:53,611
Their idea is like
you're just jealous.
1144
00:46:53,644 --> 00:46:55,112
I'm like,
"I wouldn't know what to do
1145
00:46:55,145 --> 00:46:56,547
with a hundred million dollars
1146
00:46:56,580 --> 00:46:59,015
or the responsibility
of having an army
1147
00:46:59,049 --> 00:47:00,718
of fucking meatheads..."
1148
00:47:00,751 --> 00:47:01,952
[laughter]
1149
00:47:01,985 --> 00:47:04,722
"...and then trying
to tell them what to do."
1150
00:47:04,755 --> 00:47:09,926
Like these fucking like weird
army of tattooed man babies.
1151
00:47:09,960 --> 00:47:13,664
Just broken men...
broken men that have mutated
1152
00:47:13,697 --> 00:47:16,734
in the human knots of muscle.
1153
00:47:16,767 --> 00:47:19,670
I am not that kind
of broken man.
1154
00:47:19,703 --> 00:47:21,071
I'm a different kind.
1155
00:47:21,104 --> 00:47:23,240
[laughter]
1156
00:47:23,273 --> 00:47:25,576
You have to be able to do more
1157
00:47:25,609 --> 00:47:27,544
than just shit on
1158
00:47:27,578 --> 00:47:30,848
whoever the most
super popular comedian is.
1159
00:47:32,349 --> 00:47:34,818
That can't be your
whole point of view.
1160
00:47:36,520 --> 00:47:39,089
But it's very fun
that it's part of his.
1161
00:47:39,122 --> 00:47:42,626
["Another Good Year for
the Roses" by Kurt Vile playing]
1162
00:47:49,933 --> 00:47:52,469
This is the first hour
in a long time
1163
00:47:53,103 --> 00:47:56,707
that I'm building just
to do the job of performing.
1164
00:47:56,740 --> 00:47:58,709
I haven't got a deal
on the table so I don't know
1165
00:47:58,742 --> 00:48:01,779
anything about the special
or if it even exists.
1166
00:48:01,812 --> 00:48:04,682
I'm not thinking in those terms.
1167
00:48:04,715 --> 00:48:07,951
[singer humming] ♪ All right ♪
1168
00:48:07,984 --> 00:48:11,288
They're telling my followers...
right now,
1169
00:48:11,321 --> 00:48:13,457
Instagram is
telling my followers
1170
00:48:13,490 --> 00:48:15,559
that I've gone live.
1171
00:48:19,996 --> 00:48:23,066
Highly caffeinated
in Salt Lake City.
1172
00:48:23,099 --> 00:48:24,435
I like performing here.
1173
00:48:24,468 --> 00:48:26,470
I like the owner
of this club, Keith.
1174
00:48:26,503 --> 00:48:28,806
I always sort of...
I always kind of dig it here.
1175
00:48:28,839 --> 00:48:30,674
Sorry. I'm looking around.
1176
00:48:32,275 --> 00:48:36,012
Feinartz is fucking recording me
for the documentary.
1177
00:48:36,847 --> 00:48:38,782
Well, yeah,
so the IG Live said, you know,
1178
00:48:38,816 --> 00:48:40,517
I was in a lot of,
you know, grief because,
1179
00:48:40,551 --> 00:48:42,886
you know, I was
'cause Lynn had died
1180
00:48:42,920 --> 00:48:45,088
and I was, you know,
pretty much alone here.
1181
00:48:45,121 --> 00:48:46,724
And I realized that people
could do those things,
1182
00:48:46,757 --> 00:48:48,492
so I just started doing them.
1183
00:48:48,525 --> 00:48:50,594
And it would kind of force me
into a mindset
1184
00:48:50,627 --> 00:48:52,496
of being engaged
with an audience,
1185
00:48:52,529 --> 00:48:54,865
which I needed to do
and thinking on my feet
1186
00:48:54,898 --> 00:48:56,600
in that way and improvising.
1187
00:48:56,633 --> 00:48:57,668
So it was exciting
and it was fun
1188
00:48:57,701 --> 00:48:59,069
and people dug it.
1189
00:48:59,102 --> 00:49:00,838
And then I started thinking
about the day before
1190
00:49:00,871 --> 00:49:03,006
and waking up early
to sort of do it.
1191
00:49:03,039 --> 00:49:04,842
You know, then I started
to resent the audience
1192
00:49:04,875 --> 00:49:06,409
'cause like they expected it.
1193
00:49:06,443 --> 00:49:08,479
I got tired
of seeing the same people.
1194
00:49:08,512 --> 00:49:09,980
I got tired of the trolls.
1195
00:49:10,013 --> 00:49:12,382
I got... you know,
I had several stalkers.
1196
00:49:12,415 --> 00:49:13,751
Christy, lay off
1197
00:49:13,784 --> 00:49:15,352
with the fucking bracelets,
all right?
1198
00:49:15,385 --> 00:49:16,820
You know, I get it.
1199
00:49:16,854 --> 00:49:18,922
You think the bracelet
would look good on me,
1200
00:49:18,956 --> 00:49:21,992
but I'm not your puppet
and I'm not...
1201
00:49:22,025 --> 00:49:25,195
I'm not in a bracelet
period of my life,
1202
00:49:25,228 --> 00:49:28,599
and I say all of that with
a certain amount of affection.
1203
00:49:30,133 --> 00:49:33,236
[man on stage muffled]
1204
00:49:33,270 --> 00:49:35,171
[Marc] There's some things
that I'm very glad are over.
1205
00:49:35,205 --> 00:49:37,541
I got very tired of crying
in front of strangers.
1206
00:49:37,574 --> 00:49:39,042
Not a great experience.
1207
00:49:39,710 --> 00:49:41,745
Like, I didn't know
my neighbors,
1208
00:49:41,779 --> 00:49:43,413
but they read about it
in the paper,
1209
00:49:43,446 --> 00:49:45,015
and they were just coming over.
1210
00:49:45,048 --> 00:49:47,684
It's nice, but, like,
you gotta stand six feet away.
1211
00:49:47,718 --> 00:49:49,720
And I'd just be outside
taking my garbage out.
1212
00:49:49,753 --> 00:49:52,188
They'd be like, "Hey, I'm Troy
from across the street."
1213
00:49:52,222 --> 00:49:53,490
"How's it going?"
1214
00:49:53,524 --> 00:49:55,926
"Not good. Not good at all."
1215
00:49:55,959 --> 00:49:58,529
And they'd just stand six feet
away and watch me cry.
1216
00:49:58,562 --> 00:49:59,830
I'm like, "Okay, thanks."
1217
00:49:59,863 --> 00:50:01,932
It was nice of them
but it was weird.
1218
00:50:01,965 --> 00:50:03,600
[laughter]
1219
00:50:03,634 --> 00:50:04,935
People I did know would come.
1220
00:50:04,968 --> 00:50:06,937
They'd visit me
and I'd sit on my porch.
1221
00:50:06,970 --> 00:50:09,006
It was... they'd come by
and it was almost like,
1222
00:50:09,039 --> 00:50:11,675
"Just look,
it's the sad guy zoo exhibit."
1223
00:50:11,708 --> 00:50:13,744
You know, I just...
they're like, "You okay?"
1224
00:50:13,777 --> 00:50:16,580
"No. All right.
Thanks for coming."
1225
00:50:18,749 --> 00:50:20,317
Look at that.
1226
00:50:20,350 --> 00:50:22,019
Someone painted that of me.
1227
00:50:23,453 --> 00:50:25,188
Oh, Monkey.
1228
00:50:29,292 --> 00:50:30,460
How 'bout that?
1229
00:50:30,493 --> 00:50:33,330
I'm on top of it.
Fuck you, QAnon.
1230
00:50:33,363 --> 00:50:34,865
Oh, look.
1231
00:50:36,199 --> 00:50:37,734
This is rough, man.
1232
00:50:41,638 --> 00:50:43,273
Those are Lynn's boots
1233
00:50:44,507 --> 00:50:47,811
and her jacket and her hat.
1234
00:50:49,646 --> 00:50:51,114
Oh, man.
1235
00:50:51,147 --> 00:50:52,315
Um...
1236
00:50:52,349 --> 00:50:54,017
Okay. So...
1237
00:50:54,051 --> 00:50:55,719
[door opens]
1238
00:50:58,355 --> 00:50:59,623
enough of that.
1239
00:50:59,656 --> 00:51:01,257
[door closes]
1240
00:51:03,961 --> 00:51:06,162
What did I do
to myself just now?
1241
00:51:06,196 --> 00:51:08,832
See, it just opened
the grief portal.
1242
00:51:08,866 --> 00:51:11,334
I'll shield myself
from all emotion.
1243
00:51:11,368 --> 00:51:15,806
That's the exciting thing
about this is that, um,
1244
00:51:15,839 --> 00:51:21,344
this not only stops,
like, virus and spit,
1245
00:51:21,378 --> 00:51:24,681
but it stops emotions
from getting out or in.
1246
00:51:24,715 --> 00:51:27,851
It said that on the website
where I bought it.
1247
00:51:32,623 --> 00:51:34,892
[printer starting]
1248
00:51:37,661 --> 00:51:39,462
[Marc] I'm trying to get
a deal for a special.
1249
00:51:39,496 --> 00:51:40,764
We'll see.
1250
00:51:40,797 --> 00:51:42,565
[printer whirring]
1251
00:51:42,599 --> 00:51:44,334
If they step up...
1252
00:51:44,367 --> 00:51:45,903
[Steven] You wanna shoot it
pretty soon, huh?
1253
00:51:45,936 --> 00:51:48,204
No. It's not gonna happen, dude.
1254
00:51:48,839 --> 00:51:50,774
What is going on
with this fucking printer?
1255
00:51:50,807 --> 00:51:52,342
[printer whirring]
1256
00:51:52,375 --> 00:51:53,977
Jesus Christ.
1257
00:51:57,981 --> 00:51:59,416
Maybe I don't understand
1258
00:51:59,449 --> 00:52:01,885
the whole nature
of companionship.
1259
00:52:02,385 --> 00:52:04,554
You know what I mean?
It's, like, I don't feel
1260
00:52:04,587 --> 00:52:08,125
the need for companionship
to ride out the rest of life.
1261
00:52:08,158 --> 00:52:10,928
Hopefully, you know,
my money will hold up
1262
00:52:10,961 --> 00:52:13,630
and, you know,
when I become ill,
1263
00:52:13,664 --> 00:52:16,266
I have enough money
to be taken care of.
1264
00:52:16,299 --> 00:52:18,201
But I don't wanna watch
someone die again
1265
00:52:18,234 --> 00:52:20,270
or have somebody watch me die,
you know?
1266
00:52:20,303 --> 00:52:21,772
It's, like, fuck that.
1267
00:52:21,805 --> 00:52:23,173
[reporter]
You're doing a new movie?
1268
00:52:23,206 --> 00:52:24,908
-[Lynn] Yes.
-[reporter] And you have
1269
00:52:24,942 --> 00:52:27,610
a lot of chemistry, comedy-wise.
1270
00:52:27,644 --> 00:52:29,479
-With?
-[reporter] Each other.
1271
00:52:29,512 --> 00:52:30,948
-Do we?
-[laughs]
1272
00:52:30,981 --> 00:52:33,951
Good, 'cause we're about
to perform in a minute.
1273
00:52:33,984 --> 00:52:36,319
I'm really good
at making her laugh.
1274
00:52:36,352 --> 00:52:37,620
Oh, thanks, Marc.
1275
00:52:37,654 --> 00:52:38,889
That gives...
give me a lot of credit.
1276
00:52:38,922 --> 00:52:40,457
[reporter]
That was my next question.
1277
00:52:40,490 --> 00:52:42,292
Who made who laugh more
as you were making this movie?
1278
00:52:42,325 --> 00:52:46,596
Oh, it's definitely...
he made me laugh, yeah.
1279
00:52:46,629 --> 00:52:48,431
[Marc] We had a friendship
for a long time
1280
00:52:48,465 --> 00:52:51,835
that, you know, was...
1281
00:52:51,868 --> 00:52:53,470
always on the edge
of becoming something else.
1282
00:52:53,503 --> 00:52:57,373
But she was married and I was
involved with somebody.
1283
00:52:57,407 --> 00:52:58,942
But she was always down here
1284
00:52:58,976 --> 00:53:01,979
and, you know, we just spent
a lot of time together.
1285
00:53:02,012 --> 00:53:05,782
I had her come in and direct
a couple episodes of Maron.
1286
00:53:05,816 --> 00:53:07,884
She got hired to do GLOW.
1287
00:53:07,918 --> 00:53:09,720
Sorry. What's GLOW?
1288
00:53:09,753 --> 00:53:12,022
Gorgeous Ladies of Wrestling.
1289
00:53:12,055 --> 00:53:14,491
She did, I think,
two or three of those.
1290
00:53:14,524 --> 00:53:18,996
Then we worked together
on my stand-up special.
1291
00:53:19,029 --> 00:53:21,031
Like, if my girlfriend
wants to watch a movie
1292
00:53:21,064 --> 00:53:22,699
I don't wanna watch,
I'm like, "I don't know."
1293
00:53:22,733 --> 00:53:23,967
"I don't wanna die during that."
1294
00:53:24,001 --> 00:53:25,668
-"I don't wanna... "
-[laughter]
1295
00:53:25,702 --> 00:53:27,738
If you're ever asking me
this question,
1296
00:53:27,771 --> 00:53:29,072
"Have you seen that documentary
1297
00:53:29,106 --> 00:53:30,373
with the"... Stop right there.
1298
00:53:30,406 --> 00:53:32,509
I don't know
how much time I got left.
1299
00:53:32,542 --> 00:53:34,978
And then we did Sword of Trust.
1300
00:53:35,012 --> 00:53:36,579
[Lynn] You owe me dinner.
1301
00:53:36,613 --> 00:53:38,081
Have you ever had his guacamole?
1302
00:53:38,115 --> 00:53:39,716
-[man] Nope.
-It is amazing.
1303
00:53:39,750 --> 00:53:41,251
He still got a little
New Mexico in him.
1304
00:53:42,318 --> 00:53:44,888
I'm wondering how you two mesh
because you feel
1305
00:53:44,921 --> 00:53:46,823
like very different
personalities to me.
1306
00:53:46,857 --> 00:53:48,025
-Hmm.
-Really?
1307
00:53:48,058 --> 00:53:49,492
-You... don't...
-No.
1308
00:53:49,526 --> 00:53:51,028
[laughs] Oh, you're...
now you're mocking me.
1309
00:53:51,061 --> 00:53:52,262
I don't know what
you're talking about.
1310
00:53:52,295 --> 00:53:53,864
-I get it.
-He's so optimistic.
1311
00:53:53,897 --> 00:53:55,198
-He's Mr. Cranky.
-Can't stop smiling and...
1312
00:53:55,232 --> 00:53:56,833
I think of you as, like,
this cranky truth teller
1313
00:53:56,867 --> 00:53:58,835
and you're this genial,
welcoming presence.
1314
00:53:58,869 --> 00:54:00,336
-Like...
-I know, it's annoying, right?
1315
00:54:00,370 --> 00:54:02,338
[laughs] Exact,
drives you crazy, doesn't it?
1316
00:54:02,372 --> 00:54:03,606
Yeah.
1317
00:54:03,640 --> 00:54:08,111
Lynn found his fussiness
so endearing
1318
00:54:08,145 --> 00:54:13,583
and heartening
and he made her laugh so hard
1319
00:54:13,616 --> 00:54:15,718
when he was being so pugnacious
1320
00:54:15,752 --> 00:54:19,890
and, like, pissy
about something, you know?
1321
00:54:19,923 --> 00:54:22,392
And I was like, "Are you
trying to push her away?"
1322
00:54:22,425 --> 00:54:24,294
"Well, what are you doing?
'Cause you just...
1323
00:54:24,327 --> 00:54:28,065
you sound, like, such
a pain in the ass, you know?"
1324
00:54:28,098 --> 00:54:31,935
And the more of a pain
in the ass he was,
1325
00:54:31,968 --> 00:54:34,604
the more she thought
it was so charming
1326
00:54:34,637 --> 00:54:36,472
and so funny.
1327
00:54:37,540 --> 00:54:38,608
[Marc] She honored her feelings
1328
00:54:38,641 --> 00:54:41,578
and I fought mine
for a long time.
1329
00:54:41,611 --> 00:54:44,414
You know, it just came down
to, well, you know,
1330
00:54:44,447 --> 00:54:45,882
we can't do this
1331
00:54:45,916 --> 00:54:47,818
unless we're gonna do it
on the level,
1332
00:54:48,451 --> 00:54:51,554
and eventually
we got it on the level.
1333
00:54:51,588 --> 00:54:53,656
She's a very persistent woman.
1334
00:54:53,690 --> 00:54:55,125
I mean, you know, she...
1335
00:54:55,158 --> 00:54:56,893
if she got her mind
on something,
1336
00:54:56,927 --> 00:54:59,262
she's gonna get it,
and I was one of those things.
1337
00:55:00,396 --> 00:55:04,935
We decided to change
our lives to be together
1338
00:55:04,968 --> 00:55:08,105
and then she moved down here.
1339
00:55:10,107 --> 00:55:11,842
Something happened
when he met her.
1340
00:55:11,875 --> 00:55:13,509
There was a new kind
of expansiveness,
1341
00:55:13,543 --> 00:55:16,213
a new kind of tenderness.
1342
00:55:16,246 --> 00:55:18,448
One of my favorite
Marc Maron jokes was
1343
00:55:18,481 --> 00:55:19,816
you wake up in the morning
1344
00:55:19,850 --> 00:55:22,719
and your first thought is,
"Not again."
1345
00:55:22,752 --> 00:55:24,254
And I felt, with Lynn,
1346
00:55:24,287 --> 00:55:26,422
like that "not again"
was fading a little bit
1347
00:55:26,456 --> 00:55:29,559
and he was greeting the day
in a different...
1348
00:55:29,592 --> 00:55:31,561
in a different manner.
1349
00:55:32,195 --> 00:55:33,363
Lynn?
1350
00:55:34,597 --> 00:55:35,999
Lynn?
1351
00:55:37,267 --> 00:55:38,902
-[Lynn] What?
-Where... what happened?
1352
00:55:38,935 --> 00:55:40,070
Where'd you go?
1353
00:55:40,103 --> 00:55:41,738
Is there a problem?
1354
00:55:41,771 --> 00:55:44,374
[Lynn laughs]
1355
00:55:45,808 --> 00:55:47,110
No.
1356
00:55:47,144 --> 00:55:49,212
Do you wanna stick
your head in here?
1357
00:55:49,246 --> 00:55:51,181
Go ahead. Stick your head in.
1358
00:55:53,283 --> 00:55:57,520
Have you shown this picture yet
'cause that's a good one?
1359
00:55:57,553 --> 00:55:59,489
I did. I did. I showed that.
1360
00:55:59,522 --> 00:56:01,158
That's a really good one.
1361
00:56:01,191 --> 00:56:03,726
-See...
-What's going on there, Marc?
1362
00:56:03,760 --> 00:56:05,695
I love that Mona Lisa shirt.
1363
00:56:07,597 --> 00:56:09,732
That's when I was getting sober
for the first time.
1364
00:56:09,766 --> 00:56:11,567
Oh, it's covered
with Mona Lisas?
1365
00:56:11,601 --> 00:56:13,203
Yeah, but she's cracking up.
1366
00:56:13,236 --> 00:56:15,071
What happened to the bandana?
You... so you don't have
1367
00:56:15,105 --> 00:56:18,675
-any bandanas left anymore.
-I don't have any bandanas.
1368
00:56:18,708 --> 00:56:20,643
Okay. That was good.
1369
00:56:20,677 --> 00:56:22,612
[Lynn laughs]
1370
00:56:22,645 --> 00:56:24,480
I have intimacy problems.
1371
00:56:24,514 --> 00:56:27,517
That was an experiment...
in intimacy.
1372
00:56:27,550 --> 00:56:28,952
[Lynn laughs]
1373
00:56:28,985 --> 00:56:30,486
[announcer]
Ladies and gentlemen,
1374
00:56:30,520 --> 00:56:31,955
please welcome to the stage,
Marc Maron.
1375
00:56:31,988 --> 00:56:33,924
[cheers and applause]
1376
00:56:33,957 --> 00:56:36,259
[Marc] Lynn did
the last comedy special
1377
00:56:36,293 --> 00:56:39,862
that I did before COVID,
which was End Times Fun.
1378
00:56:40,496 --> 00:56:42,332
It's pretty clear
the world is ending.
1379
00:56:42,365 --> 00:56:44,100
I don't wanna shock anybody.
1380
00:56:44,134 --> 00:56:45,936
Like, isn't there something
that could bring
1381
00:56:45,969 --> 00:56:47,603
everyone together
and just realize, like,
1382
00:56:47,637 --> 00:56:49,039
we've gotta put a stop to, like,
1383
00:56:49,072 --> 00:56:52,943
almost everything, right?
1384
00:56:52,976 --> 00:56:55,511
Oh, my God. What would it take?
1385
00:56:55,545 --> 00:56:57,280
Something terrible.
1386
00:56:58,681 --> 00:57:01,051
Then the COVID thing happened...
1387
00:57:02,285 --> 00:57:05,455
and we were just
sort of locked in here.
1388
00:57:05,488 --> 00:57:07,357
And then that day...
the night before that
1389
00:57:07,390 --> 00:57:09,592
she was supposed to go
to the doctor,
1390
00:57:10,360 --> 00:57:13,396
she just... she collapsed,
1391
00:57:13,430 --> 00:57:16,366
and I had to call the ambulance,
and it was horrifying.
1392
00:57:16,399 --> 00:57:18,101
And that... and then that was it.
1393
00:57:18,134 --> 00:57:20,270
She was dead 18 hours later.
1394
00:57:21,171 --> 00:57:24,274
It was all very horrible.
1395
00:57:24,307 --> 00:57:25,976
Just unexpected and horrible.
1396
00:57:26,009 --> 00:57:27,477
And I... you know,
a day doesn't go by
1397
00:57:27,510 --> 00:57:29,779
where I don't
kind of deal with it.
1398
00:57:31,547 --> 00:57:34,317
I think something in me
relaxed with her finally.
1399
00:57:34,351 --> 00:57:37,087
You know, like, all right,
you know, this is... this is
1400
00:57:37,120 --> 00:57:39,256
who I love and this is good
and this makes sense.
1401
00:57:39,289 --> 00:57:41,791
You know, after all that time,
after that... all that life,
1402
00:57:41,824 --> 00:57:46,296
you know, where you finally
kinda land in something
1403
00:57:46,329 --> 00:57:52,002
that makes total sense
and seems, like, this is,
1404
00:57:52,035 --> 00:57:53,403
you know, this is okay.
1405
00:57:53,436 --> 00:57:56,306
This is gonna be
how the rest of it goes.
1406
00:57:57,507 --> 00:57:59,342
I was more comfortable
with myself, you know,
1407
00:57:59,376 --> 00:58:02,678
when I was, you know,
with her, somehow.
1408
00:58:02,712 --> 00:58:04,881
Everything was
supposed to work out, dude...
1409
00:58:04,914 --> 00:58:06,283
[sniffles]
1410
00:58:11,854 --> 00:58:13,523
and it didn't.
1411
00:58:18,594 --> 00:58:21,798
♪ I've heard
There was a secret chord ♪
1412
00:58:21,831 --> 00:58:24,834
♪ That David played
And it pleased the Lord ♪
1413
00:58:24,867 --> 00:58:29,839
♪ But you don't really care
for music, do you? ♪
1414
00:58:31,508 --> 00:58:34,444
♪ It goes like this the fourth
The fifth ♪
1415
00:58:34,477 --> 00:58:37,314
♪ The minor fall
And the major lift ♪
1416
00:58:37,347 --> 00:58:43,119
♪ The baffled king
Composing Hallelujah ♪
1417
00:58:43,153 --> 00:58:45,988
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1418
00:58:46,022 --> 00:58:51,161
♪ Hallelujah ♪
1419
00:58:52,228 --> 00:58:55,198
So this is the room
that Lynn got sick in.
1420
00:58:56,199 --> 00:58:58,234
This is the last room
she was in.
1421
00:59:02,872 --> 00:59:04,874
These were some of her books
1422
00:59:06,343 --> 00:59:08,178
that I've kept here.
1423
00:59:08,211 --> 00:59:10,180
This is her tambourine.
1424
00:59:10,213 --> 00:59:12,248
That's her ukulele.
1425
00:59:14,217 --> 00:59:17,153
And a lot of the other stuff
I put into a suitcase.
1426
00:59:17,187 --> 00:59:20,156
This was her luggage.
1427
00:59:20,190 --> 00:59:21,591
Some masks.
1428
00:59:21,624 --> 00:59:24,760
These were all the things
that were going on.
1429
00:59:24,794 --> 00:59:27,029
Doctor's names,
1430
00:59:27,063 --> 00:59:29,199
people I had to send,
1431
00:59:30,233 --> 00:59:33,136
you know, the announcement
1432
00:59:33,169 --> 00:59:35,305
that she had passed away.
1433
00:59:38,641 --> 00:59:39,909
These are...
1434
00:59:41,244 --> 00:59:42,445
it seems to be notebooks,
1435
00:59:42,479 --> 00:59:44,147
but a lot of them
are just empty.
1436
00:59:45,115 --> 00:59:46,883
Oh, this has stuff in it.
1437
00:59:51,221 --> 00:59:53,089
Yeah, I don't know
what one does with this stuff.
1438
00:59:53,123 --> 00:59:55,958
I guess I didn't really
realize I had it.
1439
00:59:55,992 --> 00:59:58,395
I just kind of, you know,
1440
00:59:58,428 --> 01:00:01,664
let her family deal
with a lot... almost all of it.
1441
01:00:01,697 --> 01:00:04,066
I don't... 'cause I didn't
feel, like, it was my place
1442
01:00:04,100 --> 01:00:06,269
to really...
1443
01:00:06,302 --> 01:00:08,738
to have... to have this stuff.
1444
01:00:08,771 --> 01:00:11,608
I didn't realize
those journals were in there.
1445
01:00:13,376 --> 01:00:14,977
She left some, you know, books,
you know,
1446
01:00:15,011 --> 01:00:16,812
some... not heavy journals
around,
1447
01:00:16,846 --> 01:00:19,616
but, you know, just doodles
and writings there.
1448
01:00:19,649 --> 01:00:21,717
And I'm just flipping through
this one like notebook
1449
01:00:21,751 --> 01:00:24,487
and it just says right there,
like the whole page,
1450
01:00:24,521 --> 01:00:27,357
"If I could just get Marc
to love himself,
1451
01:00:27,390 --> 01:00:29,225
maybe he could love me."
1452
01:00:29,259 --> 01:00:31,528
[groaning, laughing]
1453
01:00:31,561 --> 01:00:33,696
And I'm like, "You know,
you gotta get to a meeting."
1454
01:00:33,729 --> 01:00:35,064
Um, no, uh, the, uh...
1455
01:00:35,097 --> 01:00:38,234
[laughter]
1456
01:00:39,269 --> 01:00:41,638
No, it's horrible, right?
1457
01:00:41,671 --> 01:00:43,540
-Isn't that sad?
-[woman] Yeah.
1458
01:00:43,573 --> 01:00:44,740
I'm sorry.
1459
01:00:44,774 --> 01:00:47,510
[laughter]
1460
01:00:47,544 --> 01:00:49,779
But I have to be
honest with you.
1461
01:00:50,613 --> 01:00:53,049
[whispers] No one's gonna get
Marc to love himself.
1462
01:00:53,082 --> 01:00:54,651
[laughter]
1463
01:00:54,684 --> 01:00:56,653
I'm in a very difficult space
right now
1464
01:00:56,686 --> 01:00:58,354
in terms of what
I'm doing on stage.
1465
01:00:58,388 --> 01:01:01,891
It seems a little angry
and cynical and weird.
1466
01:01:01,924 --> 01:01:04,360
My brain's just on fire,
and I'm just not sure
1467
01:01:04,394 --> 01:01:06,028
what the point of anything is.
1468
01:01:06,796 --> 01:01:08,831
Like I can be funny,
but, you know,
1469
01:01:08,864 --> 01:01:12,168
it's like what satisfies me
is pushing.
1470
01:01:12,202 --> 01:01:13,736
You know, pushing.
1471
01:01:14,937 --> 01:01:16,573
So I don't know, man.
1472
01:01:16,606 --> 01:01:19,775
Like, now I'm in the process
and it's fucking...
1473
01:01:21,377 --> 01:01:23,213
You gotta be careful
not to hurt anybody.
1474
01:01:23,246 --> 01:01:25,147
Work, good.
1475
01:01:25,181 --> 01:01:26,716
Once more.
1476
01:01:27,283 --> 01:01:28,685
And done.
1477
01:01:29,952 --> 01:01:31,153
-Great.
-So I was doing this
1478
01:01:31,187 --> 01:01:32,788
all the way through
1479
01:01:33,523 --> 01:01:36,025
when the pandemic...
when the lockdown started.
1480
01:01:36,859 --> 01:01:39,962
Um, I just had to keep...
I had to keep running.
1481
01:01:39,996 --> 01:01:43,399
And then after Lynn died,
I was still working out.
1482
01:01:43,433 --> 01:01:46,669
Like, I think I went over there,
like, a day or two after.
1483
01:01:46,703 --> 01:01:48,404
I didn't know what else
to do with myself.
1484
01:01:48,438 --> 01:01:50,573
It's pretty awful,
crying and trying to work out.
1485
01:01:50,607 --> 01:01:52,475
-[trainer] Jesus.
-It's fucking fucked up.
1486
01:01:52,509 --> 01:01:54,444
I didn't know what else to do.
1487
01:01:54,477 --> 01:01:56,479
But like, doing this stuff,
1488
01:01:56,513 --> 01:01:59,048
I guess it was a routine
to keep your sanity.
1489
01:01:59,081 --> 01:02:00,850
Good. Two more.
1490
01:02:00,883 --> 01:02:02,885
Doesn't matter anymore.
1491
01:02:02,918 --> 01:02:04,086
People are weird, man.
1492
01:02:04,120 --> 01:02:05,655
Nothing's enough right now.
1493
01:02:05,688 --> 01:02:07,490
People know they're fucked.
1494
01:02:09,526 --> 01:02:11,261
[trainer] Ten seconds.
1495
01:02:11,294 --> 01:02:13,763
The greatest indication
that it's fucking over
1496
01:02:13,796 --> 01:02:15,665
is Chappelle spending
an hour and ten minutes
1497
01:02:15,698 --> 01:02:17,833
-shitting on trans people.
-[trainer] Two, one, and relax.
1498
01:02:17,867 --> 01:02:22,104
I mean, with everything
going on, that's the choice?
1499
01:02:22,138 --> 01:02:24,173
But whatever.
1500
01:02:24,206 --> 01:02:25,441
Hey, man.
1501
01:02:25,475 --> 01:02:26,942
It's a free country.
1502
01:02:29,546 --> 01:02:31,447
-We good?
-[trainer] Yeah.
1503
01:02:31,481 --> 01:02:32,682
-We're good.
-[Marc] Thank you.
1504
01:02:32,715 --> 01:02:34,484
[trainer] We're solid. Good job.
1505
01:02:36,319 --> 01:02:38,120
I don't know.
I don't know about my head
1506
01:02:38,154 --> 01:02:41,724
in relation to other comics
right now, in general.
1507
01:02:41,758 --> 01:02:44,894
I'm old, you know,
and I never was huge.
1508
01:02:44,927 --> 01:02:47,463
I just don't... I don't think
my stand-up ever really
1509
01:02:47,497 --> 01:02:50,232
kind of, like,
breaks the ceiling, you know,
1510
01:02:50,266 --> 01:02:53,836
and becomes, you know...
1511
01:02:53,869 --> 01:02:55,905
monumental, you know?
1512
01:02:55,938 --> 01:02:59,309
I'm just a guy doing the job
on my own terms,
1513
01:02:59,342 --> 01:03:02,712
in my own way to a,
1514
01:03:02,745 --> 01:03:07,784
you know, a reasonable
amount of success, right?
1515
01:03:08,884 --> 01:03:12,555
[upbeat music playing]
1516
01:03:18,494 --> 01:03:21,731
Oh, God.
I feel disgusting. Let's go.
1517
01:03:25,635 --> 01:03:27,870
You know, they lock in with me.
1518
01:03:27,903 --> 01:03:29,038
I'm like wide open.
1519
01:03:29,071 --> 01:03:31,140
I'm just a portal for lunatics.
1520
01:03:45,555 --> 01:03:47,857
That guy is right on top of it.
What's going on?
1521
01:03:47,890 --> 01:03:49,892
Did they drag you down here?
I didn't tell them to do that.
1522
01:03:49,925 --> 01:03:51,661
I didn't...
no one dragged me anywhere.
1523
01:03:51,694 --> 01:03:53,563
-[Marc] What? Huh?
-I just...
1524
01:03:53,596 --> 01:03:55,231
I got my hair and makeup done,
1525
01:03:55,264 --> 01:03:57,767
so I was excited to be on this.
1526
01:03:59,068 --> 01:04:01,170
Look at her. Huh?
1527
01:04:01,203 --> 01:04:03,072
Can you do the... a pretty face?
1528
01:04:03,105 --> 01:04:04,974
[laughs]
1529
01:04:08,344 --> 01:04:10,112
To film? Sure.
1530
01:04:10,146 --> 01:04:11,614
I think so. That was his choice.
1531
01:04:11,648 --> 01:04:14,216
-Shut up. We're filming.
-[laughter]
1532
01:04:14,250 --> 01:04:18,020
-My stepbrother's Zach Braff.
-[Sarah] All right.
1533
01:04:19,989 --> 01:04:21,824
-[Marc] What am I?
-Tonight might be the night.
1534
01:04:21,858 --> 01:04:24,126
-[Marc] Ugh.
-[Sarah] Ugh.
1535
01:04:24,160 --> 01:04:26,529
It might be the night.
Just a cowboy hat, cowboy boots.
1536
01:04:26,562 --> 01:04:28,498
[Marc] I just wanna do
the material I'm working on.
1537
01:04:28,531 --> 01:04:31,534
I don't wanna distract people
with whatever that is.
1538
01:04:31,567 --> 01:04:33,169
-"What's going on?"
-[Marc] Yeah, exactly.
1539
01:04:33,202 --> 01:04:34,604
-A lot of that.
-[Sarah laughs]
1540
01:04:34,637 --> 01:04:35,805
-Eyes squinting.
-[Marc] "Is this part of it?"
1541
01:04:35,838 --> 01:04:37,607
-"Is this part of it?"
-[laughs]
1542
01:04:39,742 --> 01:04:41,778
[Marc] I don't know what kind
of old man I'm gonna be.
1543
01:04:41,811 --> 01:04:43,713
Like, I don't...
I think there's...
1544
01:04:43,746 --> 01:04:46,582
I've decided that there are
two kinds of old men.
1545
01:04:46,616 --> 01:04:48,384
You know, like, I'm talking
men in their 80s.
1546
01:04:48,418 --> 01:04:49,852
There's only two.
1547
01:04:49,886 --> 01:04:51,921
There's a kind of dude
who's in his 80s
1548
01:04:51,954 --> 01:04:53,589
and no matter
what kind of life he had,
1549
01:04:53,623 --> 01:04:54,824
he knows where he's at.
1550
01:04:54,857 --> 01:04:56,392
He has humility.
He has acceptance.
1551
01:04:56,426 --> 01:04:58,661
He's grateful to be alive.
1552
01:04:58,695 --> 01:05:00,463
And that... that's the kind
of guy who's just like,
1553
01:05:00,496 --> 01:05:02,465
"Yeah, you know, life was good.
It was okay."
1554
01:05:02,498 --> 01:05:04,200
"I'm just happy
I have some time left,
1555
01:05:04,233 --> 01:05:06,869
and I'm just gonna sit here
and watch the water."
1556
01:05:06,903 --> 01:05:11,607
-You know, there's that guy.
-[laughter]
1557
01:05:11,641 --> 01:05:13,576
And then there's
the other kind of guy
1558
01:05:13,609 --> 01:05:15,445
who's like, he's 80... in his 80s
1559
01:05:15,478 --> 01:05:16,913
and no matter what kind
of life he had,
1560
01:05:16,946 --> 01:05:19,181
somehow in his mind,
he got fucked. So...
1561
01:05:19,215 --> 01:05:20,783
-[laughter]
-Like, "Yo... "
1562
01:05:20,817 --> 01:05:22,418
"I've been married three times.
I have no money."
1563
01:05:22,452 --> 01:05:23,953
"I have no money."
1564
01:05:23,986 --> 01:05:25,722
"My kids don't talk to me
from the second marriage."
1565
01:05:25,755 --> 01:05:27,590
"They can go fuck themselves."
1566
01:05:27,623 --> 01:05:29,124
"I left them the business.
They fucked it."
1567
01:05:29,158 --> 01:05:32,729
"The whole thing was bullshit.
It was bullshit."
1568
01:05:32,762 --> 01:05:34,664
"I'm just gonna sit here
and watch this asshole
1569
01:05:34,697 --> 01:05:37,500
-watch the water."
-[laughter]
1570
01:05:39,134 --> 01:05:41,537
I actually had a conversation
with my dad and he goes,
1571
01:05:41,571 --> 01:05:43,339
"Well, you know,
you heard about this actor?"
1572
01:05:43,372 --> 01:05:45,808
And I'm like, "You're gonna
have to be more specific."
1573
01:05:45,842 --> 01:05:48,344
He's like,
"He had to move to Greece
1574
01:05:48,377 --> 01:05:51,547
because he was part
of the pedo ring."
1575
01:05:52,314 --> 01:05:53,716
I'm like, "I don't know."
1576
01:05:53,750 --> 01:05:55,251
"I don't know
what you're talking about,
1577
01:05:55,284 --> 01:05:57,186
and it's probably not true."
1578
01:05:58,755 --> 01:06:00,289
And he goes,
"Well, I don't know."
1579
01:06:00,322 --> 01:06:02,191
"I just need to, you know,
1580
01:06:03,058 --> 01:06:04,627
you're not part of that,
are you?"
1581
01:06:04,660 --> 01:06:06,796
And I go, "Part of what?"
1582
01:06:07,697 --> 01:06:10,266
He says, "Deep state."
1583
01:06:12,301 --> 01:06:15,037
"Deep state? No."
1584
01:06:15,070 --> 01:06:19,008
"Well, I mean,
I'm trying to get in."
1585
01:06:19,041 --> 01:06:22,545
"You know, I'm waiting...
I've applied for a card."
1586
01:06:22,578 --> 01:06:26,081
"I'm number 48
on the waiting list
1587
01:06:26,115 --> 01:06:27,984
to get into deep state."
1588
01:06:28,618 --> 01:06:31,921
[upbeat music playing]
1589
01:06:32,822 --> 01:06:34,824
[Judd] I mean, it's not, like,
your comedy career is ever
1590
01:06:34,857 --> 01:06:37,192
-gonna get off the ground.
-I'm doing fine.
1591
01:06:37,226 --> 01:06:38,728
Nobody's ever heard of you.
1592
01:06:38,761 --> 01:06:40,863
I bring you up
to my customers, nothing.
1593
01:06:40,897 --> 01:06:44,166
I got things going on.
I got a podcast.
1594
01:06:44,199 --> 01:06:45,467
A pod what?
1595
01:06:45,501 --> 01:06:47,469
It's like a radio show
on the computer.
1596
01:06:47,503 --> 01:06:48,871
So how do you listen to it?
1597
01:06:48,905 --> 01:06:50,940
You listen to it
on the computer.
1598
01:06:50,973 --> 01:06:53,409
Nobody's ever gonna do that.
1599
01:06:53,442 --> 01:06:56,211
[Marc] My dad is newly demented.
1600
01:06:56,245 --> 01:06:58,881
I like to say that
as opposed to has dementia
1601
01:06:58,915 --> 01:07:01,417
because newly demented
you're like, "Here we go."
1602
01:07:01,450 --> 01:07:04,153
You know, his wife...
he is married
1603
01:07:04,186 --> 01:07:06,856
to a born-again Christian
Latina woman
1604
01:07:06,889 --> 01:07:10,492
who was actually...
it's an interesting story.
1605
01:07:10,526 --> 01:07:12,094
She was his first secretary
1606
01:07:12,127 --> 01:07:15,097
when we moved to New Mexico
in 1971.
1607
01:07:15,130 --> 01:07:17,733
And this woman
used to cover for my dad
1608
01:07:17,767 --> 01:07:19,468
when he was fucking around
on my mom.
1609
01:07:19,501 --> 01:07:20,870
Like, she's known him forever.
1610
01:07:20,903 --> 01:07:22,404
Yeah, my dad was that guy.
1611
01:07:22,438 --> 01:07:25,541
So... and then he ends up
with her.
1612
01:07:25,575 --> 01:07:27,076
And it's crazy. It's...
1613
01:07:27,109 --> 01:07:29,879
that this woman
who found Jesus, you know,
1614
01:07:29,912 --> 01:07:33,683
later in life has decided
that her burden to bear,
1615
01:07:33,716 --> 01:07:36,418
her cross to bear
is this miserable Jewish man
1616
01:07:36,452 --> 01:07:38,487
who now has dementia.
1617
01:07:38,520 --> 01:07:40,756
And I don't believe in Jesus,
1618
01:07:40,790 --> 01:07:42,658
but I thank Jesus
every day for her.
1619
01:07:42,692 --> 01:07:44,760
[laughter]
1620
01:07:49,131 --> 01:07:51,000
[indistinct chatter]
1621
01:07:51,033 --> 01:07:54,303
["99 Luftballons"
by Nena playing]
1622
01:08:05,781 --> 01:08:07,249
-How you doing?
-I'm good.
1623
01:08:08,350 --> 01:08:09,418
Yep.
1624
01:08:09,451 --> 01:08:10,920
-Hi.
-[Marc] Hi.
1625
01:08:10,953 --> 01:08:13,288
-[Rosie] You look good.
-[Marc] Thank you.
1626
01:08:13,322 --> 01:08:16,025
He's ready, man.
He's ready for his close-up.
1627
01:08:16,926 --> 01:08:19,561
-Ready for my what?
-Your close-up.
1628
01:08:19,595 --> 01:08:21,563
-My close-up?
-Yeah. All right?
1629
01:08:21,597 --> 01:08:22,965
Yeah.
1630
01:08:23,999 --> 01:08:25,500
[Marc] We're going this way.
1631
01:08:25,534 --> 01:08:27,569
I'll do some jokes
about you tonight
1632
01:08:27,603 --> 01:08:31,607
-but you won't remember them.
-[laughs]
1633
01:08:31,641 --> 01:08:33,843
The reason I...
I'm so good at doing comedy
1634
01:08:33,876 --> 01:08:36,846
or the type of comedy I do
was that... like, he would...
1635
01:08:36,879 --> 01:08:39,048
he would be depressed
and my mother would say,
1636
01:08:39,081 --> 01:08:40,783
"Why don't you go up
and make your father laugh."
1637
01:08:40,816 --> 01:08:42,484
"You're the only one who can."
1638
01:08:42,517 --> 01:08:43,953
So that was sort
of that relationship.
1639
01:08:43,986 --> 01:08:45,320
I could always make him laugh,
1640
01:08:45,354 --> 01:08:46,956
which was... which is good.
1641
01:08:46,989 --> 01:08:49,391
You know, it was helpful,
I think, to everybody.
1642
01:08:49,425 --> 01:08:50,660
-Yeah.
-Yeah.
1643
01:08:50,693 --> 01:08:52,027
It's a good way to communicate.
1644
01:08:52,061 --> 01:08:53,730
And it allows me
to make fun of him
1645
01:08:53,763 --> 01:08:55,497
right to his face.
1646
01:08:55,530 --> 01:08:57,700
-Right?
-You did that.
1647
01:08:57,734 --> 01:08:59,268
How was that for you?
1648
01:08:59,301 --> 01:09:00,535
Did not bother me.
1649
01:09:00,569 --> 01:09:01,971
[Marc] It didn't bother him.
1650
01:09:02,004 --> 01:09:04,573
Not too bad. I remember,
like, he got mad at me
1651
01:09:04,606 --> 01:09:05,975
'cause of some stuff
I wrote in my book.
1652
01:09:06,008 --> 01:09:07,609
That was the...
that was the only time
1653
01:09:07,643 --> 01:09:09,378
I really upset him
was there was stuff
1654
01:09:09,411 --> 01:09:11,113
I wrote in my book about him.
1655
01:09:11,147 --> 01:09:14,216
And he got mad.
And I remember he called me up.
1656
01:09:14,250 --> 01:09:16,118
He's all pissed off.
And I was like,
1657
01:09:16,152 --> 01:09:18,053
"What do you want me to do?
Pay you?"
1658
01:09:18,087 --> 01:09:19,421
And you're like...
you said, "Yeah."
1659
01:09:19,455 --> 01:09:20,757
And I'm like, "How much?"
1660
01:09:20,790 --> 01:09:23,592
You said,
"A hundred thousand dollars."
1661
01:09:24,226 --> 01:09:27,764
-I said, "I'll give you five."
-[laughs]
1662
01:09:27,797 --> 01:09:29,331
And I did. I sent him five.
1663
01:09:29,364 --> 01:09:31,500
And then he... then he said,
"I didn't cash it."
1664
01:09:31,533 --> 01:09:33,703
They cashed it. They cashed it.
1665
01:09:33,736 --> 01:09:35,171
-Right?
-They did? I don't remember.
1666
01:09:35,204 --> 01:09:37,039
-Yeah, Rosie cashes the money.
-Huh.
1667
01:09:37,072 --> 01:09:39,074
I'm sending you money.
Is she not giving it to you?
1668
01:09:39,108 --> 01:09:40,442
[laughter]
1669
01:09:40,476 --> 01:09:43,713
[Marc] So my dad was recently
diagnosed with dementia.
1670
01:09:43,746 --> 01:09:45,514
We're all pretty excited.
And, um...
1671
01:09:45,547 --> 01:09:48,818
[laughter]
1672
01:09:51,586 --> 01:09:53,222
It's a terrible disease.
I get it.
1673
01:09:53,255 --> 01:09:54,791
All right?
But I gotta be honest with you.
1674
01:09:54,824 --> 01:09:56,192
He's right
at the beginning of it.
1675
01:09:56,225 --> 01:09:57,727
You know, he's got
most of his old memories,
1676
01:09:57,760 --> 01:09:58,928
the day of stuff
is a little rough.
1677
01:09:58,961 --> 01:10:00,395
But he's very nice.
1678
01:10:00,429 --> 01:10:03,199
He's kinda fun to be around.
1679
01:10:03,232 --> 01:10:05,067
He's emotionally available.
He's vulnerable.
1680
01:10:05,100 --> 01:10:07,336
I'm just saying, look,
I know it's a terrible disease
1681
01:10:07,369 --> 01:10:10,105
but don't miss
the sweet spot, okay? It's...
1682
01:10:10,139 --> 01:10:12,274
[laughter]
1683
01:10:12,308 --> 01:10:14,043
I think it's right
at the beginning.
1684
01:10:14,076 --> 01:10:17,046
It's just great right now.
It's sad.
1685
01:10:17,079 --> 01:10:19,381
And I know that, like, you know,
1686
01:10:19,414 --> 01:10:23,285
at some point, he's not
gonna know who I am anymore
1687
01:10:23,319 --> 01:10:26,522
and on that day,
1688
01:10:26,555 --> 01:10:28,390
I will be truly free.
1689
01:10:28,423 --> 01:10:30,492
[laughter]
1690
01:10:37,499 --> 01:10:41,003
I've got three boxes
in this fucking house.
1691
01:10:41,037 --> 01:10:43,138
Three litter boxes, two cats.
1692
01:10:43,172 --> 01:10:45,140
They use every fucking box.
1693
01:10:45,174 --> 01:10:49,411
Buster, he always knows
when I'm leaving and it's sad.
1694
01:10:50,512 --> 01:10:57,219
Fuck, man. I kinda feel, like,
I need to wash some underwear.
1695
01:10:57,253 --> 01:10:59,588
I'm definitely bringing the...
I'm bringing my new jacket.
1696
01:10:59,621 --> 01:11:01,156
That jacket's too fucking cool.
1697
01:11:03,225 --> 01:11:04,193
I don't know.
1698
01:11:04,226 --> 01:11:06,595
This is too many fucking shirts.
1699
01:11:07,196 --> 01:11:08,764
I don't know what I'm gonna do.
1700
01:11:08,798 --> 01:11:11,000
I really don't know
1701
01:11:11,033 --> 01:11:12,734
from one fucking day
to the next.
1702
01:11:12,768 --> 01:11:14,469
Like, it's very anxious for me.
1703
01:11:14,503 --> 01:11:16,638
I don't know
what I'm closing with, dude,
1704
01:11:16,671 --> 01:11:18,673
so... it's all relative.
1705
01:11:19,241 --> 01:11:23,412
Someone's gonna be there
from HBO, but I don't care.
1706
01:11:23,445 --> 01:11:25,414
I don't care if this...
I don't care if this
1707
01:11:25,447 --> 01:11:26,883
gets made a special.
1708
01:11:26,916 --> 01:11:29,385
I really don't.
1709
01:11:29,418 --> 01:11:31,486
You know, whatever.
1710
01:11:35,024 --> 01:11:37,726
I think I hide my anxiety
pretty well.
1711
01:11:37,759 --> 01:11:40,429
-Um...
-[laughter]
1712
01:11:40,462 --> 01:11:42,798
[Marc] A working metaphor
for my anxiety is,
1713
01:11:42,832 --> 01:11:44,867
the call's coming
from inside the house.
1714
01:11:44,901 --> 01:11:46,869
[laughter]
1715
01:11:46,903 --> 01:11:48,604
Grief is a fucked up thing
1716
01:11:48,637 --> 01:11:50,106
'cause it keeps
coming back around
1717
01:11:50,139 --> 01:11:52,241
and you don't really know
how to process it.
1718
01:11:52,274 --> 01:11:56,545
But... my parents not great,
not great with the grief.
1719
01:11:56,578 --> 01:11:58,948
[laughs] I'm sorry.
1720
01:11:58,981 --> 01:12:01,083
[laughter]
1721
01:12:01,117 --> 01:12:04,186
Literally, literally,
three days after she died,
1722
01:12:04,219 --> 01:12:06,989
before my dad got bad,
like... I was like...
1723
01:12:07,022 --> 01:12:08,424
you know, I called him up
and he goes,
1724
01:12:08,457 --> 01:12:10,592
"How you doing?
You seeing someone else?"
1725
01:12:10,626 --> 01:12:14,263
[laughter]
1726
01:12:14,296 --> 01:12:15,865
No. Not yet.
1727
01:12:15,898 --> 01:12:17,566
[laughter]
1728
01:12:17,599 --> 01:12:20,202
Thank you. Thank you for coming.
1729
01:12:20,235 --> 01:12:22,671
I appreciate it. Thank you.
1730
01:12:23,772 --> 01:12:27,042
[cheers and applause]
1731
01:12:28,243 --> 01:12:31,013
[Marc] Yeah, there's gonna be
a new special.
1732
01:12:31,046 --> 01:12:32,949
And it looks like
I'm gonna do it with HBO,
1733
01:12:32,982 --> 01:12:35,084
which is very exciting
because that was like...
1734
01:12:35,117 --> 01:12:38,753
that was the dream back before
there was nothing but HBO.
1735
01:12:38,787 --> 01:12:40,622
That was the thing.
1736
01:12:40,656 --> 01:12:42,624
Got about half a year
1737
01:12:42,658 --> 01:12:46,295
to get an hour and a half
or more of material
1738
01:12:46,328 --> 01:12:49,098
down to like 73 minutes
for the special.
1739
01:12:49,131 --> 01:12:52,134
Fuck them all.
Are you kidding me?
1740
01:12:52,168 --> 01:12:54,370
"What about, you know,
QAnon makes sense."
1741
01:12:54,403 --> 01:12:58,207
Doesn't make sense.
You're stupid.
1742
01:12:58,240 --> 01:13:00,409
"Well, you know, if you believe
in God and you understand..."
1743
01:13:00,442 --> 01:13:02,777
Well, that's your first
fucking problem, isn't it?
1744
01:13:02,811 --> 01:13:05,414
[laughter]
1745
01:13:05,447 --> 01:13:07,416
And that maybe
sounds insensitive.
1746
01:13:07,449 --> 01:13:10,452
I'm not really...I don't know.
If you don't like my tone,
1747
01:13:10,486 --> 01:13:13,088
it's a... it's a character
I'm working on.
1748
01:13:13,122 --> 01:13:16,225
-It's called "Me Half the Time."
-[laughter]
1749
01:13:16,258 --> 01:13:18,327
Are you saying
you wanna see him on blow?
1750
01:13:18,360 --> 01:13:19,428
[Marc] Yeah.
1751
01:13:19,461 --> 01:13:21,063
I think he's got one
more run in him.
1752
01:13:21,096 --> 01:13:22,498
[Denis] That's your next movie.
1753
01:13:22,531 --> 01:13:24,533
An old guy decides to do
one more run on blow.
1754
01:13:24,566 --> 01:13:26,135
Yeah.
1755
01:13:26,168 --> 01:13:28,470
You're getting good shots
of my pants falling down?
1756
01:13:28,504 --> 01:13:29,804
All right. Good.
1757
01:13:29,838 --> 01:13:31,440
That's important
for the documentary.
1758
01:13:31,473 --> 01:13:33,575
-Is that an old guy thing?
-I thought that's a look.
1759
01:13:33,608 --> 01:13:36,412
[Marc] Why can't I sit on
a stool like a regular person.
1760
01:13:36,445 --> 01:13:37,879
[laughter]
1761
01:13:37,913 --> 01:13:40,815
I've been sitting on stools
like this my entire career.
1762
01:13:40,849 --> 01:13:44,853
And I have to assume that
part of my lack of success
1763
01:13:44,886 --> 01:13:48,257
in the big world of comedy
is that a lot of the audience
1764
01:13:48,290 --> 01:13:49,959
is like,
"I just couldn't stop thinking
1765
01:13:49,992 --> 01:13:51,727
about how he was sitting
on that chair."
1766
01:13:51,760 --> 01:13:53,229
[laughter]
1767
01:13:53,229 --> 01:13:54,930
♪ With nobody else ♪
1768
01:13:54,964 --> 01:13:59,268
[rock music playing]
1769
01:14:04,106 --> 01:14:05,174
-[Marc] Yeah.
-Why?
1770
01:14:05,207 --> 01:14:07,909
-It feels good.
-[laughs]
1771
01:14:07,943 --> 01:14:09,911
-Love feeling my bones.
-[laughs]
1772
01:14:09,945 --> 01:14:11,713
Like I see pictures of myself,
I'm like,
1773
01:14:11,747 --> 01:14:13,549
"Look at that old head."
1774
01:14:13,582 --> 01:14:15,717
Like no matter what I wear
underneath it,
1775
01:14:15,751 --> 01:14:18,653
it's just... there's just gonna
be an old head on top of it.
1776
01:14:18,687 --> 01:14:20,256
[laughter]
1777
01:14:20,289 --> 01:14:22,224
Hey, that's a cool Western shirt
and an old head.
1778
01:14:22,258 --> 01:14:25,694
[rock music playing]
1779
01:14:25,727 --> 01:14:28,464
[Marc] Now I gotta worry
about a whole other set of shit
1780
01:14:28,497 --> 01:14:30,066
'cause I decided
to be a rock star.
1781
01:14:30,099 --> 01:14:31,366
-I heard you're good.
-[Marc] I'm okay.
1782
01:14:31,400 --> 01:14:36,171
-Yeah, yeah.
-[rock music playing]
1783
01:14:41,676 --> 01:14:43,912
Yeah!
1784
01:14:43,945 --> 01:14:46,648
[cheers and applause]
1785
01:14:49,451 --> 01:14:51,487
-What do you got? How many?
-[man] Do you mind signing this?
1786
01:14:51,520 --> 01:14:53,622
-Okay.
-[man] Thank you so much.
1787
01:14:53,655 --> 01:14:55,124
[Marc] You're not one
of those weirdos
1788
01:14:55,157 --> 01:14:56,325
-with the Joker posters?
-No.
1789
01:14:56,358 --> 01:14:57,593
-Okay.
-[man] Awesome.
1790
01:14:57,626 --> 01:14:59,361
-Thank you so much.
-Are you a weirdo
1791
01:14:59,394 --> 01:15:00,829
-with the Joker poster?
-[man] Here come the eBay-ers.
1792
01:15:04,199 --> 01:15:05,767
-Oh, yeah?
-You don't need this, do you?
1793
01:15:05,801 --> 01:15:07,303
-Oh. You're gonna make me cry.
-I mean, she used to ask...
1794
01:15:07,336 --> 01:15:08,870
[Marc] This is us
when we were on stage?
1795
01:15:08,903 --> 01:15:10,205
[man] Correct.
1796
01:15:10,239 --> 01:15:11,640
She only laughed
like that at me.
1797
01:15:11,673 --> 01:15:12,907
[man] Okay. Then it's you.
1798
01:15:12,941 --> 01:15:14,909
Yes, you're right. You're right.
1799
01:15:14,943 --> 01:15:16,312
Laughing at me right there.
1800
01:15:16,345 --> 01:15:18,380
Look, if you would like it...
if you...
1801
01:15:18,413 --> 01:15:19,881
-Yeah.
-If you would like it,
1802
01:15:19,914 --> 01:15:21,183
-you can have it.
-I can have it?
1803
01:15:21,216 --> 01:15:22,984
-Oh, yeah.
-Oh, thanks. I love it.
1804
01:15:23,018 --> 01:15:24,186
You know, the photo.
1805
01:15:24,219 --> 01:15:25,454
[Marc] She was something.
1806
01:15:25,487 --> 01:15:27,589
A lot of you know, you know,
1807
01:15:27,623 --> 01:15:30,192
and also loved the woman
1808
01:15:30,225 --> 01:15:32,194
I was in love with
who passed away.
1809
01:15:32,227 --> 01:15:36,065
[cheers and applause]
1810
01:15:36,098 --> 01:15:38,667
Look, everybody deals
with pain and loss,
1811
01:15:38,700 --> 01:15:41,236
you know, like a divorce
or a breakup.
1812
01:15:41,270 --> 01:15:42,904
You deal with heartbreak
and loss.
1813
01:15:42,937 --> 01:15:44,473
Everybody deals with it.
1814
01:15:44,506 --> 01:15:46,941
But the difference
between a breakup
1815
01:15:46,975 --> 01:15:50,279
and someone dying is that
1816
01:15:51,080 --> 01:15:52,914
you're pretty sure
she's not fucking anybody.
1817
01:15:52,947 --> 01:15:55,784
[laughter]
1818
01:16:00,822 --> 01:16:03,592
I don't... I don't know
how the afterlife works.
1819
01:16:03,625 --> 01:16:05,727
Maybe I'm wrong and God bless.
I... you know,
1820
01:16:05,760 --> 01:16:07,062
if that's what's going on,
1821
01:16:07,096 --> 01:16:08,497
I hope she's having
a great time.
1822
01:16:08,530 --> 01:16:10,031
'Cause I know that,
at some point,
1823
01:16:10,065 --> 01:16:11,733
I'll be fucking somebody
1824
01:16:11,766 --> 01:16:14,236
and that woman will look out
the window and go like,
1825
01:16:14,269 --> 01:16:16,004
"What's that hummingbird
doing out there?"
1826
01:16:16,037 --> 01:16:18,107
[laughter]
1827
01:16:18,140 --> 01:16:20,309
[cheers and applause]
1828
01:16:22,544 --> 01:16:24,045
-[Marc] Everybody good?
-[woman] Hi.
1829
01:16:24,079 --> 01:16:25,314
[man] Well done, Marc Maron.
1830
01:16:25,347 --> 01:16:26,915
-[woman] Marc Maron.
-Thank you. Hey.
1831
01:16:26,948 --> 01:16:28,184
-Thanks.
-[woman] Long-time fan.
1832
01:16:28,217 --> 01:16:29,451
-Thank you.
-[woman] Well done, you.
1833
01:16:29,484 --> 01:16:31,153
[man] I just wanted to say hi
1834
01:16:31,187 --> 01:16:32,487
but I just wanted to tell you
I love you.
1835
01:16:32,521 --> 01:16:34,055
-Thanks, pal.
-I love how you
1836
01:16:34,089 --> 01:16:35,657
-processed everything.
-Oh, thanks.
1837
01:16:35,691 --> 01:16:36,925
I love Lynn. I miss her.
1838
01:16:36,958 --> 01:16:38,594
-And I'm proud of you.
-Yeah.
1839
01:16:38,627 --> 01:16:42,063
[Michaela]
He keeps her so alive,
1840
01:16:42,097 --> 01:16:44,366
processing out loud.
1841
01:16:45,334 --> 01:16:47,302
Marc's not exploiting grief.
1842
01:16:47,336 --> 01:16:50,339
Marc is doing
the generous lifting
1843
01:16:50,372 --> 01:16:52,674
of processing his grief.
1844
01:16:52,708 --> 01:16:56,978
He's on stage making
thousands of people laugh
1845
01:16:57,011 --> 01:16:58,580
and laughing himself.
1846
01:16:58,614 --> 01:17:00,949
Like, that's something
I need to see.
1847
01:17:00,982 --> 01:17:04,386
It sounds like I'm selling
a product of Marc Maron.
1848
01:17:04,420 --> 01:17:06,755
"You should get one too."
1849
01:17:06,788 --> 01:17:09,225
"Get a grief surrogate."
1850
01:17:09,258 --> 01:17:10,892
[Marc] You know,
it comes and goes
1851
01:17:10,926 --> 01:17:14,095
and, you know,
you feel visceral feelings
1852
01:17:14,129 --> 01:17:16,165
of missing them.
1853
01:17:16,198 --> 01:17:18,567
But then, like,
something new is happening
1854
01:17:18,600 --> 01:17:20,636
around living with the absence.
1855
01:17:20,669 --> 01:17:26,442
[Andrew] Yes. I'm curious
about your relationship
1856
01:17:26,475 --> 01:17:28,377
with the absence
and what it's giving you
1857
01:17:28,410 --> 01:17:30,446
and what...
yeah, if I can ask that.
1858
01:17:30,479 --> 01:17:32,748
[Marc] I... well...
1859
01:17:34,950 --> 01:17:37,319
[breathing shakily]
1860
01:17:40,054 --> 01:17:42,691
There's no explaining it.
1861
01:17:42,724 --> 01:17:46,428
Once you get past the trauma
and, you know,
1862
01:17:46,462 --> 01:17:49,030
through that tunnel
of the extreme grief
1863
01:17:49,063 --> 01:17:50,599
at the beginning,
you can sort of,
1864
01:17:50,632 --> 01:17:52,901
like, you have a certain
amount of control
1865
01:17:52,934 --> 01:17:56,272
over, you know, how you want
to experience those feelings.
1866
01:17:56,305 --> 01:17:57,973
Like, I just got flooded
with them, right?
1867
01:17:58,006 --> 01:18:00,242
-[Andrew] Yeah. Mm-hmm.
-[Marc] But you can't live
1868
01:18:00,276 --> 01:18:01,777
-like that every day.
-[Andrew] Right.
1869
01:18:01,810 --> 01:18:04,646
[Marc]
Like I feel that the presence
1870
01:18:04,680 --> 01:18:08,583
of-of what we had together,
1871
01:18:08,617 --> 01:18:11,753
you know,
still informing my life.
1872
01:18:14,523 --> 01:18:16,492
[silverware clanging]
1873
01:18:17,493 --> 01:18:19,428
Pie crusts are hard, dude.
1874
01:18:20,195 --> 01:18:21,530
I was feeling a little peace
1875
01:18:21,563 --> 01:18:23,232
but, you know, I don't know,
it went away,
1876
01:18:23,265 --> 01:18:25,200
because, you know, I'm an idiot.
1877
01:18:25,234 --> 01:18:27,303
And, you know, that's my life.
1878
01:18:27,336 --> 01:18:29,438
You know, it's the same
as it ever was.
1879
01:18:30,506 --> 01:18:32,374
And it's, you know...
1880
01:18:33,375 --> 01:18:35,377
I just wanna be done, dude.
1881
01:18:37,045 --> 01:18:38,714
I don't know with what.
1882
01:18:40,549 --> 01:18:41,817
[sighs]
1883
01:18:43,319 --> 01:18:45,587
I don't know. I was pretty
happy about this stuff,
1884
01:18:45,620 --> 01:18:48,490
but I think it's kind of
a sad set, you know?
1885
01:18:48,524 --> 01:18:50,191
Now, I'm like, I'm not even sure
1886
01:18:50,225 --> 01:18:52,661
what the fucking set is
anymore, you know?
1887
01:18:54,095 --> 01:18:56,130
Got a million fucking
recordings.
1888
01:18:56,164 --> 01:18:58,300
I don't listen to them.
1889
01:18:58,334 --> 01:19:00,802
I'm just waiting for something
to destroy me,
1890
01:19:00,836 --> 01:19:02,771
and I think it's me.
1891
01:19:02,804 --> 01:19:04,340
[rock music playing]
1892
01:19:04,373 --> 01:19:05,807
How do you love somebody else
1893
01:19:05,841 --> 01:19:08,277
if you really can't
love yourself?
1894
01:19:08,310 --> 01:19:11,145
I think it's a key
to understanding
1895
01:19:11,179 --> 01:19:13,648
my ability and relationships.
1896
01:19:13,682 --> 01:19:16,385
Oh, no. What happened here?
1897
01:19:16,418 --> 01:19:19,220
It's a way to protect yourself
from vulnerability,
1898
01:19:19,254 --> 01:19:22,090
and from being hurt
by other people
1899
01:19:22,123 --> 01:19:24,493
is if you're constantly
freaked out
1900
01:19:24,526 --> 01:19:27,095
about something bad happening
or beating yourself up.
1901
01:19:27,128 --> 01:19:29,464
[dramatic music continues]
1902
01:19:29,498 --> 01:19:32,768
[indistinct chatter]
1903
01:19:36,204 --> 01:19:37,672
[Marc] Not a proud moment.
1904
01:19:37,706 --> 01:19:40,709
I shouldn't be doing this
right now.
1905
01:19:40,742 --> 01:19:43,244
I gotta get off of these
things after this.
1906
01:19:43,278 --> 01:19:45,246
And I was so good about it
for years.
1907
01:19:45,280 --> 01:19:47,181
Now I'm all fucked up.
1908
01:19:47,215 --> 01:19:48,417
-[woman] It's just the lead up.
-Huh?
1909
01:19:48,450 --> 01:19:49,484
[woman]
It's the lead up to this.
1910
01:19:49,518 --> 01:19:50,552
I know. I know.
1911
01:19:50,586 --> 01:19:52,020
[dramatic music playing]
1912
01:19:52,053 --> 01:19:54,623
I have moments
where I love myself, I think.
1913
01:19:55,591 --> 01:19:58,760
Like, I love myself.
I did good work.
1914
01:19:58,794 --> 01:19:59,761
Oh, shit.
1915
01:19:59,795 --> 01:20:02,030
Something bad's gonna happen.
1916
01:20:02,063 --> 01:20:05,133
Like, it literally gets taken
away from me that quickly
1917
01:20:05,166 --> 01:20:07,001
when something good happens.
1918
01:20:07,035 --> 01:20:08,737
I'm like, wow, this is great,
1919
01:20:08,770 --> 01:20:12,408
but this other thing
could happen.
1920
01:20:12,441 --> 01:20:16,277
There's a part of my brain
that just hijacks that.
1921
01:20:16,311 --> 01:20:19,548
[indistinct chatter]
1922
01:20:19,581 --> 01:20:21,483
-What are we doing?
-When Marc first comes out,
1923
01:20:21,516 --> 01:20:23,284
where will that be?
1924
01:20:23,318 --> 01:20:25,754
When I come out, like,
generally I'll say,
1925
01:20:25,787 --> 01:20:27,122
you know,
"How's everybody doing?"
1926
01:20:27,155 --> 01:20:28,289
I'll pull this out.
1927
01:20:28,323 --> 01:20:29,625
I can leave this there.
1928
01:20:29,658 --> 01:20:31,192
I'll wave over here.
1929
01:20:31,225 --> 01:20:32,594
I can wave over there.
1930
01:20:32,628 --> 01:20:34,430
And then we'll figure out
where to set this.
1931
01:20:34,463 --> 01:20:36,097
And then when I move
to the stool,
1932
01:20:36,131 --> 01:20:39,167
like, let's just fucking
glue this thing down.
1933
01:20:39,200 --> 01:20:40,569
[man] Yeah.
We're tacking it down.
1934
01:20:40,602 --> 01:20:43,237
Tack that down.
You know, mark that.
1935
01:20:43,271 --> 01:20:45,006
[man] It's probably gonna
come back a little bit farther.
1936
01:20:45,039 --> 01:20:46,608
-All right. Wherever.
-[man] Yeah. Right around here.
1937
01:20:46,642 --> 01:20:48,510
-Yeah. We're gonna...
-Just give me one place.
1938
01:20:48,543 --> 01:20:50,579
Now, the only problem is...
1939
01:20:54,450 --> 01:20:56,585
[Lynn] ♪ Get down on it ♪
1940
01:20:56,618 --> 01:20:58,587
♪ Get down on it ♪
1941
01:20:58,620 --> 01:20:59,888
♪ Get down on it ♪
1942
01:20:59,921 --> 01:21:02,624
[Marc] I drove down 12:30,
one o'clock,
1943
01:21:02,658 --> 01:21:05,627
went into the ICU.
1944
01:21:05,661 --> 01:21:09,230
She was already gone,
but I was able to, you know,
1945
01:21:09,263 --> 01:21:12,167
spend time with her
for a minute,
1946
01:21:13,935 --> 01:21:15,236
and it was terrible.
1947
01:21:16,004 --> 01:21:18,440
I think it was the right thing
to do for closure,
1948
01:21:18,474 --> 01:21:20,141
but it was devastating.
1949
01:21:22,143 --> 01:21:23,645
Uh...
1950
01:21:23,679 --> 01:21:27,315
You know, I don't feel like
losing my shit on the...
1951
01:21:27,348 --> 01:21:29,050
on the video.
1952
01:21:29,083 --> 01:21:32,187
But like, you know, there was...
like one of the first jokes
1953
01:21:32,220 --> 01:21:35,123
I wrote to try to...
1954
01:21:35,156 --> 01:21:38,126
you know, it's amazing
how a comedian's brain works,
1955
01:21:38,159 --> 01:21:41,963
but like, you know, just...
did I tell you that joke?
1956
01:21:41,997 --> 01:21:44,666
The joke was, you know,
I went down there to the ICU.
1957
01:21:44,700 --> 01:21:48,036
And, you know, it was
in the middle of the night.
1958
01:21:48,069 --> 01:21:50,706
It was quiet.
And she was there, you know,
1959
01:21:50,739 --> 01:21:52,807
covered in, you know,
1960
01:21:52,841 --> 01:21:54,609
in a medical environment.
1961
01:21:54,643 --> 01:21:56,745
She was still intubated.
1962
01:21:56,778 --> 01:22:00,081
And it was, you know,
it was rough, man.
1963
01:22:00,114 --> 01:22:04,085
But I was able to touch
her forehead and say goodbye
1964
01:22:04,118 --> 01:22:05,454
and spend a second there.
1965
01:22:05,487 --> 01:22:07,155
And, you know,
as I was walking out,
1966
01:22:07,188 --> 01:22:11,693
you know, I was like, "Selfie?"
"No, no selfie." [laughs]
1967
01:22:11,727 --> 01:22:13,895
Obviously,
I didn't actually think that.
1968
01:22:13,929 --> 01:22:15,664
Like, I don't know what to do
with that bit,
1969
01:22:15,697 --> 01:22:17,832
like, 'cause I think
it might be fundamentally...
1970
01:22:17,866 --> 01:22:20,334
like, I've told it to people
that have lost people before
1971
01:22:20,368 --> 01:22:21,603
and they think it's funny.
1972
01:22:21,636 --> 01:22:23,071
Everyone I tell it to
think it's funny.
1973
01:22:23,104 --> 01:22:25,474
But is it...
the reason I've never done it
1974
01:22:25,507 --> 01:22:27,341
is, is it disrespectful?
1975
01:22:27,375 --> 01:22:28,677
I don't know.
1976
01:22:28,710 --> 01:22:30,411
Would Lynn like that joke?
1977
01:22:30,445 --> 01:22:33,347
[Steven] Would... do you think
Lynn would like that joke?
1978
01:22:33,381 --> 01:22:35,450
Yeah. Probably.
1979
01:22:35,484 --> 01:22:39,220
[indistinct chatter]
1980
01:22:39,254 --> 01:22:42,023
[Marc] All right. Let's do this.
How are you, folks?
1981
01:22:42,057 --> 01:22:44,125
[crowd cheering]
1982
01:22:44,158 --> 01:22:46,828
Marc will be out in a few...
like, yeah, I don't know.
1983
01:22:46,861 --> 01:22:49,898
Two minutes. It's me. It's me.
1984
01:22:49,931 --> 01:22:52,501
-[laughter]
-I'm glad you're here.
1985
01:22:52,534 --> 01:22:54,503
Uh, just hang tight
1986
01:22:54,536 --> 01:22:56,605
and you'll know when
the thing is gonna start.
1987
01:22:56,638 --> 01:22:59,107
It'll be very obvious.
Thank you for coming.
1988
01:22:59,140 --> 01:23:00,441
[crowd cheering]
1989
01:23:00,475 --> 01:23:03,745
[rock music playing]
1990
01:23:10,952 --> 01:23:12,554
[man] All right.
1991
01:23:18,560 --> 01:23:21,830
[crowd cheering]
1992
01:23:23,197 --> 01:23:26,267
[upbeat music playing]
1993
01:23:28,036 --> 01:23:30,171
[Marc] So, look,
I don't wanna be negative
1994
01:23:30,204 --> 01:23:31,706
but I don't think
1995
01:23:31,740 --> 01:23:33,908
anything's ever gonna get
better ever again.
1996
01:23:33,942 --> 01:23:36,311
-[laughter]
-[Marc] People wanna help you.
1997
01:23:36,344 --> 01:23:38,212
You wanna be helped.
1998
01:23:38,246 --> 01:23:39,615
You wanna feel better.
1999
01:23:39,648 --> 01:23:41,249
You want it to go away,
but it doesn't
2000
01:23:41,282 --> 01:23:42,651
because it happened.
2001
01:23:42,684 --> 01:23:44,152
But she did. She passed away,
2002
01:23:44,185 --> 01:23:46,420
and it was the most horrible
thing that's ever happened to me
2003
01:23:46,454 --> 01:23:47,722
and I'm sure to her.
2004
01:23:47,756 --> 01:23:50,759
-And...
-[laughter]
2005
01:23:50,792 --> 01:23:52,661
At some point, like a bird,
2006
01:23:52,694 --> 01:23:54,228
you know,
built a nest right above
2007
01:23:54,262 --> 01:23:55,864
where I walk into my house.
2008
01:23:55,897 --> 01:23:58,166
And they just shit so much.
It's like astounding.
2009
01:23:58,199 --> 01:24:00,234
And, at some point, I said,
"Hey, baby,
2010
01:24:00,268 --> 01:24:01,670
I...I'm not gonna forget you."
2011
01:24:01,703 --> 01:24:03,639
-"Is there a different way?"
-[laughter]
2012
01:24:03,672 --> 01:24:06,007
[Marc] "The shit thing's
kinda tired, I think."
2013
01:24:06,041 --> 01:24:09,243
I say goodbye,
and I'm walking out.
2014
01:24:09,277 --> 01:24:12,648
You know, I'm thinking,
"Selfie?" "No, right?"
2015
01:24:12,681 --> 01:24:14,583
[laughter]
2016
01:24:14,616 --> 01:24:16,551
[crowd cheering]
2017
01:24:16,585 --> 01:24:19,954
[singer] ♪ The hotel above
And the street below ♪
2018
01:24:19,988 --> 01:24:22,456
♪ You've been gone a week ago ♪
2019
01:24:22,490 --> 01:24:27,228
[Marc] You know, this is me
reclaiming stand-up for myself
2020
01:24:27,261 --> 01:24:29,898
in a very aggressive,
very defined way.
2021
01:24:29,931 --> 01:24:33,001
Now, all these people
that were not dubious
2022
01:24:33,034 --> 01:24:36,237
but didn't see my stand-up
as primary,
2023
01:24:36,270 --> 01:24:38,073
it's like there you go.
2024
01:24:38,106 --> 01:24:42,210
[singer] ♪ You say your heart
Has a rhythm ♪
2025
01:24:44,613 --> 01:24:46,014
[Marc] Thank you for watching
the special.
2026
01:24:46,047 --> 01:24:47,348
Thank you
for all the nice things
2027
01:24:47,382 --> 01:24:48,783
that are being said about it.
2028
01:24:48,817 --> 01:24:51,152
Came together.
The set was tight.
2029
01:24:51,186 --> 01:24:53,121
I went as deep and dark
as I could.
2030
01:24:53,154 --> 01:24:56,892
I got every... it was all
fucking joke-heavy,
2031
01:24:56,925 --> 01:24:59,794
and worked out. Fuck it.
2032
01:25:15,644 --> 01:25:16,712
Hello.
2033
01:25:16,745 --> 01:25:18,046
[Rosie] Hi.
2034
01:25:18,079 --> 01:25:21,449
I got me and the camera crew.
2035
01:25:21,482 --> 01:25:22,817
Very exciting.
2036
01:25:22,851 --> 01:25:24,552
-How you feeling?
-Good.
2037
01:25:24,585 --> 01:25:26,054
-Good?
-Yeah.
2038
01:25:26,087 --> 01:25:27,989
What's going on? Where's the...
where's the cane?
2039
01:25:28,022 --> 01:25:30,591
-What are we doing?
-[Barry] The cane's over there.
2040
01:25:30,625 --> 01:25:32,526
-How you feeling?
-I'm fine.
2041
01:25:32,560 --> 01:25:34,395
What do you want? Chinese food?
2042
01:25:34,429 --> 01:25:36,097
Yeah, whatever you want.
2043
01:25:36,131 --> 01:25:37,999
You good? You need to go
to the bathroom, you all right?
2044
01:25:38,032 --> 01:25:40,135
-I'm all right.
-All right. Fine.
2045
01:25:40,168 --> 01:25:43,071
-Okay.
-Bye.
2046
01:25:43,104 --> 01:25:45,741
-Let's go.
-Be careful when his nose runs
2047
01:25:45,774 --> 01:25:47,608
and he doesn't... he's not aware.
2048
01:25:47,642 --> 01:25:48,910
-Yeah. Okay.
-So please...
2049
01:25:48,944 --> 01:25:50,946
-Give me some Kleenex.
-Okay.
2050
01:25:54,415 --> 01:25:56,517
I'm trying to think
if I've talked to anybody
2051
01:25:56,550 --> 01:25:59,854
-that you know.
-Probably not.
2052
01:26:00,621 --> 01:26:02,857
-[Marc] Ben Kingsley?
-No.
2053
01:26:02,891 --> 01:26:04,726
I talked to Joan Baez.
2054
01:26:04,760 --> 01:26:06,895
-Yeah, I heard that.
-That was good.
2055
01:26:06,928 --> 01:26:09,931
-Yeah.
-Arnold Schwarzenegger.
2056
01:26:09,965 --> 01:26:12,734
He's kinda cagey
about his dad being a Nazi.
2057
01:26:12,768 --> 01:26:14,302
Yeah.
2058
01:26:15,170 --> 01:26:19,540
I didn't ask him right up...
I didn't ask him straight up,
2059
01:26:19,573 --> 01:26:21,009
but he went out
of his way to talk
2060
01:26:21,042 --> 01:26:23,044
about how many
Jewish friends he had.
2061
01:26:23,077 --> 01:26:24,846
[laughs]
2062
01:26:25,680 --> 01:26:26,915
[Marc] Feeling good?
2063
01:26:26,948 --> 01:26:29,284
You still like
being here, alive?
2064
01:26:29,317 --> 01:26:32,187
-[Barry] Yeah, yeah.
-That's good.
2065
01:26:32,220 --> 01:26:33,354
Are you happy?
2066
01:26:34,289 --> 01:26:35,791
I'm okay.
2067
01:26:36,691 --> 01:26:38,960
I would say I'm pretty happy.
2068
01:26:38,994 --> 01:26:42,330
I mean,
if I really break it down,
2069
01:26:42,363 --> 01:26:44,199
you know, I did all right.
2070
01:26:44,232 --> 01:26:45,900
[phone dings]
2071
01:26:45,934 --> 01:26:50,505
Oh, someone just said that...
she's a GRAMMY voter.
2072
01:26:51,840 --> 01:26:53,908
She just said,
"Disappointed Bleak to Dark
2073
01:26:53,942 --> 01:26:55,510
didn't make it through."
2074
01:26:55,543 --> 01:26:56,812
Trevor, Wanda, Chris Rock,
2075
01:26:56,845 --> 01:26:58,479
Silverman, and Chappelle.
2076
01:26:59,714 --> 01:27:03,218
I'm not destined
to win any prizes, Dad.
2077
01:27:03,251 --> 01:27:07,722
-Does that bother you?
-[Marc] Yeah, it does.
2078
01:27:07,756 --> 01:27:09,858
The only reason I wanna win
2079
01:27:10,826 --> 01:27:12,193
is so...
2080
01:27:13,328 --> 01:27:15,063
I can say, "Fuck you."
2081
01:27:16,965 --> 01:27:21,269
"I won." But I don't even know
who I'm saying that to.
2082
01:27:21,302 --> 01:27:24,205
That assumes there's a lot
of people out there
2083
01:27:24,239 --> 01:27:28,509
that just wanna see me fail
or don't wanna acknowledge me.
2084
01:27:29,344 --> 01:27:31,179
I think I...I'm making them up.
I don't know...
2085
01:27:31,212 --> 01:27:33,815
I don't know that there's...
that exists.
2086
01:27:36,051 --> 01:27:38,920
You did great.
You did very well.
2087
01:27:41,122 --> 01:27:43,224
Here. Wipe your nose.
2088
01:27:43,258 --> 01:27:44,759
I got one.
2089
01:27:44,793 --> 01:27:47,461
["The Ticking is the Bomb"
playing]
2090
01:27:47,495 --> 01:27:50,298
[singer]
♪ The falling is the rain ♪
2091
01:27:52,067 --> 01:27:55,970
♪ And the ticking is the bomb ♪
2092
01:27:56,004 --> 01:27:57,638
[child coughs]
2093
01:27:57,671 --> 01:27:59,875
♪ The falling is the rain ♪
2094
01:28:02,110 --> 01:28:03,711
♪ And the ticking is the bomb ♪
2095
01:28:03,744 --> 01:28:05,113
[announcer]
You can see his HBO special,
2096
01:28:05,146 --> 01:28:06,981
From Bleak to Dark, on Max.
2097
01:28:07,015 --> 01:28:08,549
Please welcome Marc Maron.
2098
01:28:08,583 --> 01:28:10,385
[crowd cheering]
2099
01:28:10,418 --> 01:28:11,920
[Marc] I'm getting old.
2100
01:28:11,953 --> 01:28:13,088
-I don't think I'm...
-[woman] Whoo!
2101
01:28:13,121 --> 01:28:15,090
-Yeah. Thank you.
-[laughter]
2102
01:28:15,123 --> 01:28:17,258
[Marc] But I always wonder
about my relevance.
2103
01:28:17,292 --> 01:28:19,327
This is the arc of my relevance.
2104
01:28:19,360 --> 01:28:23,497
At best, maybe two of you
will leave here
2105
01:28:23,531 --> 01:28:25,901
and one of you, an hour later,
2106
01:28:25,934 --> 01:28:27,335
will say something
like under your breath
2107
01:28:27,368 --> 01:28:28,904
like, "It was funny
what that guy said."
2108
01:28:28,937 --> 01:28:31,306
[laughter]
2109
01:28:31,339 --> 01:28:33,942
And then maybe
a few months from now,
2110
01:28:33,975 --> 01:28:35,709
you'll be in conversation
with friends
2111
01:28:35,743 --> 01:28:37,112
and they'll be talking
about something
2112
01:28:37,145 --> 01:28:39,080
that I had talked about
and you'll say,
2113
01:28:39,114 --> 01:28:41,816
"Oh, shit. Do you know
that comic Marc Maron?"
2114
01:28:41,850 --> 01:28:43,484
And they'll be like,
"I don't think so."
2115
01:28:43,517 --> 01:28:45,820
[laughter]
2116
01:28:45,854 --> 01:28:49,357
And then you'll paraphrase
my joke badly
2117
01:28:50,558 --> 01:28:53,361
-and it won't get any laughs.
-[laughter]
2118
01:28:53,394 --> 01:28:55,130
And in your mind,
you'll be like,
2119
01:28:55,163 --> 01:28:57,265
"Is that guy even funny?
2120
01:28:57,298 --> 01:28:59,767
Fuck, I don't trust that guy
at all anymore."
2121
01:28:59,800 --> 01:29:02,703
And then eventually it'll end
with, "Fuck, Marc Maron."
2122
01:29:02,736 --> 01:29:07,808
[singer] ♪ And if we stand
And watch the waves ♪
2123
01:29:07,842 --> 01:29:09,677
Our hands are cold... ♪
2124
01:29:11,245 --> 01:29:14,182
[Marc] Pretty weird.
Mentally a little weird.
2125
01:29:14,215 --> 01:29:18,653
But then something
becomes undeniable at 60.
2126
01:29:18,686 --> 01:29:20,821
I was panicking that no one
was gonna show up.
2127
01:29:20,855 --> 01:29:23,391
-[Fred] How?
-So, yesterday, I'm like,
2128
01:29:23,424 --> 01:29:24,859
"I'll invite Slash."
2129
01:29:24,893 --> 01:29:26,361
-[laughter]
-So...
2130
01:29:29,464 --> 01:29:31,799
Yeah. Oh, thank you.
Thank you. Thank you.
2131
01:29:31,832 --> 01:29:34,302
-It's very moving.
-[person] Really.
2132
01:29:35,503 --> 01:29:38,173
[Marc] You know, I was pretty
shattered and lonely
2133
01:29:38,206 --> 01:29:40,074
and that's when Kit
came into the picture.
2134
01:29:40,108 --> 01:29:42,010
-[Kit] Oh, yes, I know.
-[Marc] You know, she was...
2135
01:29:42,043 --> 01:29:44,145
had her own sadness
and troubles and I had mine.
2136
01:29:44,179 --> 01:29:46,580
And we just kind of
started hanging out
2137
01:29:46,614 --> 01:29:49,850
without any real definition
or commitment.
2138
01:29:49,884 --> 01:29:53,721
[cheering]
2139
01:29:53,754 --> 01:29:54,990
[Marc] I am who I am.
2140
01:29:55,023 --> 01:29:56,724
I don't think, at any other age,
2141
01:29:56,757 --> 01:29:58,927
I really knew that.
2142
01:29:58,960 --> 01:30:01,529
On a good day,
with all of my insecurities,
2143
01:30:01,562 --> 01:30:04,865
I can sort of realize,
"Well, this is who you are
2144
01:30:04,899 --> 01:30:06,367
and you're not gonna be
anybody else,
2145
01:30:06,401 --> 01:30:09,204
so you better continue
accepting that."
2146
01:30:09,237 --> 01:30:12,273
-That's not a good sign.
-[laughter]
2147
01:30:12,306 --> 01:30:14,875
Thank you all for coming.
And I never do this.
2148
01:30:14,909 --> 01:30:18,612
And I'm very moved and I really
appreciate you all coming.
2149
01:30:18,646 --> 01:30:20,314
-It's beautiful. Thank you.
-[man] Whoo!
2150
01:30:20,348 --> 01:30:23,218
-[woman] Yeah.
-[applause]
2151
01:30:28,456 --> 01:30:31,492
[Marc] I actively try not
to dwell.
2152
01:30:32,961 --> 01:30:35,829
But I also try sometimes
to remember.
2153
01:30:36,630 --> 01:30:40,634
But not in a way that's,
you know, too sad.
2154
01:30:40,668 --> 01:30:44,172
I try to remember
what her spirit was like,
2155
01:30:44,205 --> 01:30:47,008
and what she was like
as a person, you know?
2156
01:30:47,042 --> 01:30:49,677
But as time goes by,
2157
01:30:51,079 --> 01:30:54,148
it doesn't go away really,
2158
01:30:54,182 --> 01:30:56,484
but, you know,
I have to choose to do it.
2159
01:30:58,987 --> 01:31:00,788
I didn't wanna do
this hike today.
2160
01:31:02,257 --> 01:31:04,559
How much of this shit
can I take?
2161
01:31:06,360 --> 01:31:08,896
[Marc] Well, I had to shave
for the end of that movie
2162
01:31:08,929 --> 01:31:13,068
that I shot, so I can't really
worry about your continuity.
2163
01:31:24,312 --> 01:31:26,147
Lynn, she tried
to do this hike once.
2164
01:31:26,180 --> 01:31:27,482
She couldn't do it.
2165
01:31:29,484 --> 01:31:32,787
She went out and bought those
little poles and everything.
2166
01:31:32,820 --> 01:31:34,422
But I think it was one and done.
2167
01:31:34,455 --> 01:31:36,791
I still got the poles though,
but I don't use them.
2168
01:31:38,126 --> 01:31:41,529
You know, like I'm a kind of
a cranky guy,
2169
01:31:41,562 --> 01:31:45,466
and I'm resistant,
and I'm guarded.
2170
01:31:45,500 --> 01:31:48,402
But she would just like
stare that down
2171
01:31:48,436 --> 01:31:52,140
and just wait
until I would kinda, you know,
2172
01:31:52,173 --> 01:31:54,475
give way emotionally.
2173
01:31:54,509 --> 01:31:56,611
I mean, that was the whole
nature of us getting...
2174
01:31:56,644 --> 01:32:00,281
ending up together.
She just would wait it out.
2175
01:32:00,315 --> 01:32:05,153
And then once I...
it became more of a habit
2176
01:32:05,186 --> 01:32:07,488
of just like giving it up,
2177
01:32:07,522 --> 01:32:10,291
you know, I felt a little
more at ease with it
2178
01:32:10,325 --> 01:32:14,095
and, you know,
and I felt that that...
2179
01:32:14,129 --> 01:32:16,531
like I could have, like,
stayed there.
2180
01:32:17,565 --> 01:32:19,200
So it was really just about,
like, you know...
2181
01:32:19,233 --> 01:32:21,302
I think she really did love me
2182
01:32:21,336 --> 01:32:24,205
and really kind of believed
in me in a way
2183
01:32:24,238 --> 01:32:27,241
that got through, you know?
2184
01:32:28,376 --> 01:32:31,212
And I was totally impressed
2185
01:32:31,245 --> 01:32:33,714
and in awe of her too, you know?
2186
01:32:34,782 --> 01:32:37,152
So, yeah, I remember that stuff.
2187
01:32:39,087 --> 01:32:41,556
["Change" by Big Thief playing]
2188
01:32:41,589 --> 01:32:44,559
We didn't have long enough time
together, you know?
2189
01:32:53,467 --> 01:32:54,902
[groans]
2190
01:33:04,912 --> 01:33:06,614
All right.
2191
01:33:06,647 --> 01:33:07,948
You got it?
2192
01:33:07,981 --> 01:33:09,584
Are we good?
2193
01:33:12,387 --> 01:33:17,658
[singer]
♪ Change like the wind ♪
2194
01:33:18,992 --> 01:33:24,265
♪ Like the water, like skin ♪
2195
01:33:27,000 --> 01:33:32,440
♪ Change like the sky ♪
2196
01:33:33,807 --> 01:33:36,344
♪ Like the leaves ♪
2197
01:33:37,345 --> 01:33:40,248
♪ Like a butterfly ♪
2198
01:33:41,716 --> 01:33:46,520
♪ Would you live forever
Never die ♪
2199
01:33:48,856 --> 01:33:53,728
♪ While everything
Around passes? ♪
2200
01:33:56,297 --> 01:34:00,801
Would you smile forever
Never cry ♪
2201
01:34:03,371 --> 01:34:08,376
♪ While everything
You know passes? ♪
2202
01:34:10,945 --> 01:34:16,984
♪ Death's like a door ♪
2203
01:34:17,017 --> 01:34:23,491
♪ To a place
We've never been before ♪
2204
01:34:25,193 --> 01:34:30,531
♪ Death, like space ♪
2205
01:34:32,132 --> 01:34:37,705
♪ The deep sea the suitcase ♪
2206
01:34:39,607 --> 01:34:44,445
Would you stare forever
At the sun ♪
2207
01:34:46,614 --> 01:34:51,319
♪ And never watch
The moon rising? ♪
2208
01:34:53,754 --> 01:34:58,526
♪ Would you walk forever
In the light ♪
2209
01:35:00,728 --> 01:35:06,600
♪ To never learn the secret
Of the quiet night? ♪
2210
01:35:17,144 --> 01:35:18,879
In homage to Marc,
2211
01:35:18,912 --> 01:35:21,782
I will answer every question
that you have about him
2212
01:35:21,816 --> 01:35:23,651
by talking about myself.
2213
01:35:23,684 --> 01:35:27,555
I think I met him
either in '89 or '90,
2214
01:35:27,588 --> 01:35:30,891
and he was repulsive,
2215
01:35:30,924 --> 01:35:32,293
repelling,
2216
01:35:32,327 --> 01:35:34,962
and so sexy.
2217
01:35:34,995 --> 01:35:36,930
And we just hated each other
2218
01:35:36,964 --> 01:35:39,867
and couldn't stop making out
in the back of a car.
2219
01:35:39,900 --> 01:35:43,338
I don't know if Marc
has the capability
2220
01:35:43,371 --> 01:35:45,172
of shutting his brain off.
2221
01:35:45,205 --> 01:35:47,074
If you like him. Is he okay?
2222
01:35:47,107 --> 01:35:48,676
Is... are we good?
2223
01:35:48,709 --> 01:35:50,545
Are We Good?
is such a great name.
2224
01:35:50,578 --> 01:35:53,814
It's a great final summation
of a conversation.
2225
01:35:53,848 --> 01:35:55,983
that I've had to, like,
resist saying out loud
2226
01:35:56,016 --> 01:35:57,285
'cause it's Maron's.
2227
01:35:57,318 --> 01:35:59,387
You know, it's just an,
"Are we good?"
2228
01:35:59,420 --> 01:36:01,455
In your head for an hour.
2229
01:36:01,489 --> 01:36:04,058
I mean, just people
at the popcorn stand just...
2230
01:36:04,091 --> 01:36:06,093
"I just need a break from..."
2231
01:36:06,126 --> 01:36:10,298
"I think he's been crying for...
there's a lot of crying."
2232
01:36:10,331 --> 01:36:12,333
Marc's cool.
2233
01:36:12,367 --> 01:36:14,569
And that matters.
2234
01:36:14,602 --> 01:36:18,238
He wears cool boots.
He listens to cool music.
2235
01:36:18,272 --> 01:36:20,575
He hates shit that's lame.
2236
01:36:20,608 --> 01:36:22,610
He doesn't like sell outs.
2237
01:36:22,643 --> 01:36:26,847
And it's really important
that some people stay cool
2238
01:36:26,881 --> 01:36:29,683
and expand their voice.
2239
01:36:29,717 --> 01:36:31,485
Grow and grow
and grow as an artist,
2240
01:36:31,519 --> 01:36:35,289
but at the end of the day,
be a cool dick
2241
01:36:35,323 --> 01:36:38,058
who knows that some stuff sucks.