1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:02,832 --> 00:00:05,415 (somber music) 3 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 4 00:00:13,606 --> 00:00:17,023 (somber music continues) 5 00:00:25,350 --> 00:00:27,143 [Hector] I lost my innocence there. 6 00:00:29,340 --> 00:00:31,680 You're 18, 19, 20 years old. 7 00:00:31,680 --> 00:00:34,630 You don't know life yet, and here you are experiencing war. 8 00:00:37,523 --> 00:00:39,500 And I call my dad, and I say, 9 00:00:42,067 --> 00:00:45,993 "Dad, you guys are gonna see some things on the news. 10 00:00:47,310 --> 00:00:49,803 It's gonna say that a car bomb hit this camp. 11 00:00:53,070 --> 00:00:55,410 Just tell mom that. It had nothing to do with me. 12 00:00:55,410 --> 00:00:58,383 It had nothing to do with here, different unit. 13 00:01:01,740 --> 00:01:05,820 But dad, like I was there, it sucked. 14 00:01:05,820 --> 00:01:10,197 Like, I don't wanna be here anymore." 15 00:01:14,010 --> 00:01:16,830 And I could hear his voice crack. 16 00:01:16,830 --> 00:01:20,550 And I'm like, "just don't tell mom like it was here, man. 17 00:01:20,550 --> 00:01:21,383 Like, fuck." 18 00:01:23,482 --> 00:01:24,870 And then I kind of like caught myself 19 00:01:24,870 --> 00:01:27,900 like kinda shedding a tear and kind of trying to wipe it off 20 00:01:27,900 --> 00:01:30,440 so nobody else could see me in there. 21 00:01:30,440 --> 00:01:32,628 You know, trying to play tough guy. 22 00:01:32,628 --> 00:01:34,163 And then just back at it again, right, 23 00:01:34,163 --> 00:01:35,703 back at it for another round. 24 00:01:36,700 --> 00:01:40,117 (somber music continues) 25 00:01:48,037 --> 00:01:51,454 (somber music continues) 26 00:01:55,521 --> 00:01:57,540 Oh man, I've seen too much. 27 00:01:57,540 --> 00:02:00,359 I've seen too much. I gotta get help when I get back. 28 00:02:00,359 --> 00:02:01,471 (soldiers screaming) 29 00:02:03,780 --> 00:02:06,360 What does this mean, right? Am I gonna be screwed up? 30 00:02:06,360 --> 00:02:07,660 Like, what does this mean? 31 00:02:11,454 --> 00:02:12,523 (soldiers screaming) 32 00:02:13,740 --> 00:02:14,970 And I remember that shocked me, 33 00:02:14,970 --> 00:02:18,243 Like this is a Sergeant First Class, like saying that like. 34 00:02:20,060 --> 00:02:23,310 (somber music continues) 35 00:02:23,310 --> 00:02:24,690 I'm asleep. 36 00:02:24,690 --> 00:02:27,630 They wake me up, "Hey wake up, get dressed. 37 00:02:27,630 --> 00:02:30,322 Get your shit on, we just got incoming." 38 00:02:30,322 --> 00:02:32,123 (soldiers screaming) 39 00:02:32,123 --> 00:02:32,956 I found that to be weird 40 00:02:32,956 --> 00:02:35,070 'cause I didn't even hear the incoming, 41 00:02:35,070 --> 00:02:37,803 not even one round or anything like that. 42 00:02:39,360 --> 00:02:40,890 So we started getting dressed, 43 00:02:40,890 --> 00:02:45,213 putting on our Kevlar flak jacket and, 44 00:02:47,280 --> 00:02:49,223 we were gonna go to the point of origin, the POO. 45 00:02:50,952 --> 00:02:52,263 To the chow hall, sir. 46 00:02:53,434 --> 00:02:56,434 (soldiers laughing) 47 00:02:57,281 --> 00:03:01,680 (soldiers chattering and laughing) 48 00:03:01,680 --> 00:03:03,953 I wanna go to the chow hall, sir! 49 00:03:07,201 --> 00:03:09,784 [Soldier] Let's go, let's go! 50 00:03:11,309 --> 00:03:14,726 (somber music continues) 51 00:03:23,810 --> 00:03:26,490 We were out on patrol. MSR Tampa. 52 00:03:26,490 --> 00:03:28,410 MSR Tampa is a main route 53 00:03:28,410 --> 00:03:30,960 that goes from Kuwait all the way up to northern Iraq. 54 00:03:30,960 --> 00:03:31,860 Main supply route. 55 00:03:33,150 --> 00:03:34,912 [Soldier] Just over here, left. 56 00:03:34,912 --> 00:03:36,412 Left, stop. Stop. 57 00:03:38,585 --> 00:03:39,502 Keep going. 58 00:03:41,970 --> 00:03:46,970 - This was January, so as I pull up, of course I'm scared. 59 00:03:47,010 --> 00:03:48,690 they would do secondary IEDs, 60 00:03:48,690 --> 00:03:51,300 secondary VBIEDs, secondary ambushes. 61 00:03:51,300 --> 00:03:53,370 Like, these insurgents had caught on. 62 00:03:53,370 --> 00:03:55,020 Like, hey, let's hit 'em with something. 63 00:03:55,020 --> 00:03:56,850 Then when they're out there snooping around, 64 00:03:56,850 --> 00:03:57,850 let's hit 'em again. 65 00:03:58,836 --> 00:04:01,919 (children yelling) 66 00:04:02,889 --> 00:04:06,306 (somber music continues) 67 00:04:09,969 --> 00:04:13,052 (children yelling) 68 00:04:17,619 --> 00:04:21,036 (somber music continues) 69 00:04:22,148 --> 00:04:23,276 I didn't want to get out of the Humvee 70 00:04:23,276 --> 00:04:25,410 'cause all I could see was pieces of meat, 71 00:04:25,410 --> 00:04:27,990 pieces of charred meat all over the floor. 72 00:04:27,990 --> 00:04:29,310 It was like gravel. 73 00:04:29,310 --> 00:04:33,600 It was like, for like a 50 meter radius 74 00:04:33,600 --> 00:04:35,820 there was just pieces, chunks everywhere. 75 00:04:35,820 --> 00:04:38,580 Chunks, chunks, chunks of people. 76 00:04:38,580 --> 00:04:39,990 And I didn't want to get out. 77 00:04:39,990 --> 00:04:41,370 To me that felt like a nightmare. 78 00:04:41,370 --> 00:04:43,500 It felt like an actual nightmare that was true, 79 00:04:43,500 --> 00:04:46,150 that was in real life and I couldn't wake up from it. 80 00:04:48,393 --> 00:04:50,340 And I didn't want to get out of the Humvee. 81 00:04:50,340 --> 00:04:52,200 I just figured I don't wanna get my boots dirty, 82 00:04:52,200 --> 00:04:54,150 I don't want to get involved in this, but I'm a grunt. 83 00:04:54,150 --> 00:04:55,767 It's like, I gotta do this shit, like. 84 00:04:55,767 --> 00:04:58,320 And then Sergeant Dean's like, "Hey, get the fuck out 85 00:04:58,320 --> 00:04:59,787 and start picking pieces up." 86 00:05:02,387 --> 00:05:04,970 (somber music) 87 00:05:13,736 --> 00:05:17,153 (somber music continues) 88 00:05:24,805 --> 00:05:28,222 (somber music continues) 89 00:05:35,818 --> 00:05:39,235 (somber music continues) 90 00:05:46,872 --> 00:05:50,289 (somber music continues) 91 00:05:57,270 --> 00:06:01,383 But like I said, we were 18, 19, I turned 20 there. 92 00:06:02,970 --> 00:06:07,473 That's a kid, man. That's a frickin' kid faced with war. 93 00:06:09,290 --> 00:06:12,707 (somber music continues) 94 00:06:20,403 --> 00:06:23,820 (somber music continues) 95 00:06:32,070 --> 00:06:34,830 Most people's concept or grasp of war 96 00:06:34,830 --> 00:06:37,980 is from a movie, a film, Hollywood, right? 97 00:06:37,980 --> 00:06:40,230 When you're there, you smell the smells, 98 00:06:40,230 --> 00:06:42,870 you hear the sounds, you see the blood, the brains, 99 00:06:42,870 --> 00:06:46,167 the guts, the chunks of pieces of meat, you know, 100 00:06:46,167 --> 00:06:47,940 the shit becomes fucking real. 101 00:06:49,958 --> 00:06:53,375 (somber music continues) 102 00:07:01,014 --> 00:07:04,431 (somber music continues) 103 00:07:12,314 --> 00:07:15,731 (somber music continues) 104 00:07:20,173 --> 00:07:23,006 (engine rumbling) 105 00:07:28,723 --> 00:07:32,140 (somber music continues) 106 00:07:33,043 --> 00:07:36,043 (soldiers shouting) 107 00:07:42,643 --> 00:07:46,060 (somber music continues) 108 00:07:52,950 --> 00:07:56,583 You could see the crater where the SUV blew itself up. 109 00:07:58,260 --> 00:08:03,003 There was a charred upper torso, like this. 110 00:08:05,160 --> 00:08:06,460 Sticking outta the ground. 111 00:08:09,870 --> 00:08:11,310 There was no face. 112 00:08:11,310 --> 00:08:14,610 It was a hole where the face is supposed to be. 113 00:08:14,610 --> 00:08:15,910 The whole thing's charred. 114 00:08:16,918 --> 00:08:20,335 (somber music continues) 115 00:08:21,810 --> 00:08:25,500 And the other Iraqis, there was another bus load 116 00:08:25,500 --> 00:08:27,630 full of their friends, the Iraqi national guards 117 00:08:27,630 --> 00:08:29,280 that had just pulled up and they were already 118 00:08:29,280 --> 00:08:31,170 starting to pick up the pieces. 119 00:08:31,170 --> 00:08:34,800 They pick up this torso and they move it like this 120 00:08:34,800 --> 00:08:38,460 and I just saw all kinds of red slush come out 121 00:08:38,460 --> 00:08:41,157 into the ground and I'm like, "Oh shit." 122 00:08:42,540 --> 00:08:45,990 And since it was cold outside, everything is just steaming. 123 00:08:45,990 --> 00:08:47,793 All the pieces are just steaming. 124 00:08:51,750 --> 00:08:54,270 There we are picking up pieces of meat, 125 00:08:54,270 --> 00:08:57,840 Kevlars, helmets that were exploded this way. 126 00:08:57,840 --> 00:09:00,150 You had boots with feet still in it. 127 00:09:00,150 --> 00:09:05,150 You had gloves, you had parts, pieces, body, brain, 128 00:09:05,220 --> 00:09:07,920 guts, blood everywhere. 129 00:09:07,920 --> 00:09:11,340 You had Iraqis crying, screaming, 130 00:09:11,340 --> 00:09:15,450 shooting their AKs in the sky, it was pure chaos. 131 00:09:15,450 --> 00:09:18,540 Iraqi national guard pulling cars over, 132 00:09:18,540 --> 00:09:19,410 pulling civilians out 133 00:09:19,410 --> 00:09:21,033 and beating the out shit of 'em just 'cause, 134 00:09:21,033 --> 00:09:22,773 they were taking out their anger. 135 00:09:24,480 --> 00:09:26,520 And it just began just getting pieces 136 00:09:26,520 --> 00:09:29,403 and putting 'em in the back of a truck, getting pieces. 137 00:09:30,990 --> 00:09:32,760 There was not one complete person. 138 00:09:32,760 --> 00:09:35,910 There was not one full body. 139 00:09:35,910 --> 00:09:37,140 There was not that. 140 00:09:37,140 --> 00:09:40,113 It was just carnage. 141 00:09:42,788 --> 00:09:45,205 (soft music) 142 00:09:50,310 --> 00:09:53,070 There I am at my house in Brawley with all my friends, man, 143 00:09:53,070 --> 00:09:55,800 I got a frickin' lump in my throat, dude. 144 00:09:55,800 --> 00:10:00,060 Like, I don't want to cry, and I just leave walking, 145 00:10:00,060 --> 00:10:03,690 my sister's bawling, my mom is bawling, 146 00:10:03,690 --> 00:10:06,480 my friends are looking at me like, ah, look at this kid. 147 00:10:06,480 --> 00:10:07,313 Right? 148 00:10:10,140 --> 00:10:11,640 So being that I was 17, 149 00:10:11,640 --> 00:10:13,680 I had to have my parents' permission slip, right? 150 00:10:13,680 --> 00:10:16,800 I had 'em sign the waiver 'cause I was underage 151 00:10:16,800 --> 00:10:20,073 and my parents kept trying to talk me out of it. 152 00:10:20,928 --> 00:10:23,040 My dad kept telling me, "Hector, go to college. 153 00:10:23,040 --> 00:10:23,873 Well, I'll pay for your college." 154 00:10:23,873 --> 00:10:26,340 It was almost pleading, "I'll pay for your college." 155 00:10:26,340 --> 00:10:29,280 I'm like, "Hey dad, why would I go to college 156 00:10:29,280 --> 00:10:31,076 when I frickin' hate high school?" 157 00:10:31,076 --> 00:10:33,090 Like? (chuckles) 158 00:10:33,090 --> 00:10:35,550 And he is like, you know, 159 00:10:35,550 --> 00:10:39,510 maybe they saw how much I wanted it or how much I needed it. 160 00:10:39,510 --> 00:10:42,420 And yeah, ultimately they signed the waiver. 161 00:10:42,420 --> 00:10:44,340 My sister who's three years younger than me 162 00:10:44,340 --> 00:10:46,710 and has been my biggest cheerleader from the start 163 00:10:46,710 --> 00:10:49,023 was all, all on board. 164 00:10:52,320 --> 00:10:54,720 The recruiter takes me away. 165 00:10:54,720 --> 00:10:56,610 Boom. San Diego. 166 00:10:56,610 --> 00:10:57,750 Padre Trail Inn. 167 00:10:57,750 --> 00:10:59,580 That was this little hotel in Old Town 168 00:10:59,580 --> 00:11:00,510 that they would take you there 169 00:11:00,510 --> 00:11:03,840 the night before you ship out. 170 00:11:03,840 --> 00:11:06,000 And I remember, dude, like I used that. 171 00:11:06,000 --> 00:11:08,400 There was a payphone at a Mexican restaurant outside 172 00:11:08,400 --> 00:11:10,260 and I called my girlfriend at the time 173 00:11:10,260 --> 00:11:12,393 and that's when I felt it. 174 00:11:13,265 --> 00:11:15,015 (soft music) 175 00:11:15,015 --> 00:11:17,460 I had hickeys on my neck, I had a shaved head. 176 00:11:17,460 --> 00:11:19,890 I go and I have somebody buy me some cigarettes 177 00:11:19,890 --> 00:11:22,440 'cause I'm not old enough but I did smoke at that time 178 00:11:22,440 --> 00:11:24,120 and it's like, that was your boy right there. 179 00:11:24,120 --> 00:11:29,120 Like fuckin', (chuckles) young and dumb, dude. 180 00:11:29,340 --> 00:11:32,350 Just fuckin' ready to take on the world, so I thought. 181 00:11:33,952 --> 00:11:37,202 (soft music continues) 182 00:11:39,288 --> 00:11:40,245 [Soldiers] I am the Infantry. 183 00:11:40,245 --> 00:11:43,374 I am my country's strength in war, her deterrent in peace. 184 00:11:43,374 --> 00:11:46,030 I am the heart of the fight, wherever, whenever. 185 00:11:46,030 --> 00:11:48,864 I carry America's faith and honor against her enemies. 186 00:11:48,864 --> 00:11:50,245 I am the Queen of Battle. 187 00:11:50,245 --> 00:11:52,221 I am what my country expects me to be, 188 00:11:52,221 --> 00:11:54,179 the best trained Soldier in the world. 189 00:11:54,179 --> 00:11:55,391 In the race for victory, 190 00:11:55,391 --> 00:11:57,563 I am swift, determined, and courageous, 191 00:11:57,563 --> 00:11:59,181 armed with a fierce will to win. 192 00:11:59,181 --> 00:12:01,160 Never will I fail my country's trust. 193 00:12:01,160 --> 00:12:03,091 Always I fight on, through the foe, 194 00:12:03,091 --> 00:12:05,149 to the objective, to triumph overall. 195 00:12:05,149 --> 00:12:07,650 If necessary, I will fight to my death. 196 00:12:07,650 --> 00:12:09,011 By my steadfast courage, 197 00:12:09,011 --> 00:12:11,323 I have won more than 200 years of freedom. 198 00:12:11,323 --> 00:12:13,242 I yield not to weakness, to hunger, 199 00:12:13,242 --> 00:12:15,443 to cowardice, to fatigue, to superior odds, 200 00:12:15,443 --> 00:12:17,603 for I am mentally tough, physically strong, 201 00:12:17,603 --> 00:12:18,670 and morally straight. 202 00:12:18,670 --> 00:12:20,883 I forsake not, my country, my mission, 203 00:12:20,883 --> 00:12:22,899 my comrades, my sacred duty. 204 00:12:22,899 --> 00:12:23,851 I am relentless. 205 00:12:23,851 --> 00:12:26,030 I am always there, now and forever. 206 00:12:26,030 --> 00:12:28,447 I am the infantry! Follow me! 207 00:12:30,593 --> 00:12:33,600 - The bayonet is a 25-mile road march, 208 00:12:33,600 --> 00:12:35,430 that was the last test. 209 00:12:35,430 --> 00:12:37,710 So you're out in the field for a week 210 00:12:37,710 --> 00:12:40,710 doing these little tasks and trainings 211 00:12:40,710 --> 00:12:43,740 and challenges and obstacles and then you finish it off 212 00:12:43,740 --> 00:12:47,700 with a 25-mile road march in like 24 hours, 213 00:12:47,700 --> 00:12:49,300 with your rucksack, your weapon. 214 00:12:50,250 --> 00:12:52,710 Yeah, your feet are hurting afterward, your back's hurting, 215 00:12:52,710 --> 00:12:54,843 and this is what I recall. 216 00:12:55,680 --> 00:12:56,763 It was nighttime. 217 00:12:59,310 --> 00:13:03,360 There was torches on the side, there was signs, 218 00:13:03,360 --> 00:13:06,033 it said World War II, Korean War. 219 00:13:07,470 --> 00:13:11,310 Vietnam, Gulf War, at each torch. 220 00:13:11,310 --> 00:13:15,573 And then there was a blank sign at the last torch. 221 00:13:16,650 --> 00:13:18,690 And our drill sergeant said, you see that? 222 00:13:18,690 --> 00:13:22,421 That's your guys' war. You guys are gonna be there shortly. 223 00:13:22,421 --> 00:13:24,838 (soft music) 224 00:13:33,061 --> 00:13:36,311 (soft music continues) 225 00:13:39,013 --> 00:13:40,260 I fuckin' made it. 226 00:13:40,260 --> 00:13:42,060 Like, damn, all this training, 227 00:13:42,060 --> 00:13:44,280 all this like hard work, 228 00:13:44,280 --> 00:13:46,290 dedication that I put into this shit. 229 00:13:46,290 --> 00:13:49,110 Like, I'm a fuckin' foot soldier. 230 00:13:49,110 --> 00:13:51,060 I'm a fuckin' grunt. 231 00:13:51,060 --> 00:13:52,590 Tip of the fuckin spear. 232 00:13:52,590 --> 00:13:55,230 Like, when America goes to war, we're it, 233 00:13:55,230 --> 00:13:57,880 we're gonna keep the fuckin' wolf away from the door. 234 00:14:05,630 --> 00:14:08,130 (soft music) 235 00:14:14,820 --> 00:14:16,110 It was one thing for me to go 236 00:14:16,110 --> 00:14:18,360 from San Diego to Fort Benning. 237 00:14:18,360 --> 00:14:20,940 That was sad, right? Homesick. 238 00:14:20,940 --> 00:14:24,930 When I went to Germany, oh my goodness, man, my dad, 239 00:14:24,930 --> 00:14:26,455 the look on my dad's face, 240 00:14:26,455 --> 00:14:28,380 it was like he was devastated, bro. 241 00:14:28,380 --> 00:14:32,250 And it's like, the little son, man, is gone. 242 00:14:32,250 --> 00:14:33,933 Gone, right, overseas. 243 00:14:38,010 --> 00:14:43,010 I was 18 and Iraq was brewing, to say the least. 244 00:14:48,240 --> 00:14:51,390 That made me feel like, oh my God, what have I done? 245 00:14:51,390 --> 00:14:56,390 As a matter of fact, when I touched down in Germany, 246 00:14:56,430 --> 00:15:01,270 December 8th, 2002, you find out what unit you're going to 247 00:15:02,310 --> 00:15:04,780 and then you go, they bused us into a classroom 248 00:15:06,600 --> 00:15:10,113 on Ledward Barracks in Schweinfurt, Germany. 249 00:15:11,490 --> 00:15:12,877 And the soldier up there said, 250 00:15:12,877 --> 00:15:15,960 "If you guys are going to 1/18 infantry or 1/26 infantry, 251 00:15:15,960 --> 00:15:17,060 you're going to Iraq." 252 00:15:17,940 --> 00:15:20,400 And everybody just put their head down. 253 00:15:20,400 --> 00:15:23,610 Like, (sighs) this is real. 254 00:15:23,610 --> 00:15:26,160 Like yeah, this is what we were begging for. 255 00:15:26,160 --> 00:15:28,980 But to actually hear him say, "Hey, it's go time, 256 00:15:28,980 --> 00:15:32,763 like, you're gonna be going," was like, fuck, right. 257 00:15:37,020 --> 00:15:39,840 Again, the human emotions, you're gonna be, 258 00:15:39,840 --> 00:15:41,730 it's the fear of the unknown. 259 00:15:41,730 --> 00:15:43,800 How am I gonna react? 260 00:15:43,800 --> 00:15:46,260 Am I gonna perform as expected? 261 00:15:46,260 --> 00:15:48,510 I hope I don't let my brothers down, right? 262 00:15:48,510 --> 00:15:50,520 'cause to let your brothers down would mean 263 00:15:50,520 --> 00:15:51,783 lives are gonna get lost. 264 00:15:53,976 --> 00:15:56,393 (soft music) 265 00:16:03,915 --> 00:16:07,165 (soft music continues) 266 00:16:14,845 --> 00:16:18,095 (soft music continues) 267 00:16:27,395 --> 00:16:32,395 (train conductor speaking in foreign language) 268 00:16:40,676 --> 00:16:42,170 ♪ And I saw you again and again and again ♪ 269 00:16:42,170 --> 00:16:44,883 - [Hector] My friend Jeffrey King from Philadelphia. 270 00:16:47,430 --> 00:16:49,953 Hill's side of the room, Texas flag. 271 00:16:51,060 --> 00:16:51,933 Nonsense. 272 00:16:53,850 --> 00:16:54,783 Al Pacino. 273 00:16:57,390 --> 00:16:58,713 California, of course. 274 00:17:00,464 --> 00:17:03,313 This is my roommate Hill, Richard, from Texas. 275 00:17:05,790 --> 00:17:09,090 Oh yeah, captured Saddam Hussein today. (chuckles) 276 00:17:09,090 --> 00:17:09,923 Pretty cool. 277 00:17:10,980 --> 00:17:15,123 We got Big G, Michael Garcia from Arizona. 278 00:17:16,800 --> 00:17:19,048 Brandon Winkel from Chicago. 279 00:17:19,048 --> 00:17:19,965 Chi Town. 280 00:17:22,740 --> 00:17:25,503 - [Hector] Maldanado, Alex, from Puerto Rico. 281 00:17:28,680 --> 00:17:30,030 - What up? - Corporal Luga. 282 00:17:32,610 --> 00:17:34,173 Specialist Garcia over here. 283 00:17:35,970 --> 00:17:37,020 [Hector] Hey, Cruz. 284 00:17:37,860 --> 00:17:40,482 From Cali. 285 00:17:40,482 --> 00:17:41,687 Before you get on the plane. 286 00:17:41,687 --> 00:17:44,354 [Hector] Josh Soto from Cali. 287 00:17:45,204 --> 00:17:46,287 Clayton Weeks. 288 00:17:47,820 --> 00:17:50,250 From Texas. (chuckles) 289 00:17:50,250 --> 00:17:52,440 Make sure I got everything ready for Iraq. 290 00:17:52,440 --> 00:17:56,627 Already started but here's all my DCUs 291 00:17:56,627 --> 00:17:58,623 and it is snowing outside. 292 00:17:59,672 --> 00:18:01,255 Or started to snow. 293 00:18:06,034 --> 00:18:08,784 (shower running) 294 00:18:12,644 --> 00:18:17,211 - [Soldier] Hey! Agh! Ferrel, I'm gonna kick your ass, man. 295 00:18:17,211 --> 00:18:19,666 I'm gonna kick your ass. 296 00:18:19,666 --> 00:18:22,263 Classic. (chuckles) 297 00:18:22,263 --> 00:18:23,282 Good shit. 298 00:18:23,282 --> 00:18:25,128 Richard. Yeah. 299 00:18:25,128 --> 00:18:28,128 (soldiers laughing) 300 00:18:32,444 --> 00:18:35,444 (upbeat rock music) 301 00:18:43,261 --> 00:18:45,678 (calm music) 302 00:18:54,058 --> 00:18:57,308 (calm music continues) 303 00:18:58,492 --> 00:19:02,033 Maldo, what are we doing right now? 304 00:19:02,033 --> 00:19:04,773 I guess we are pulling guard. 305 00:19:06,196 --> 00:19:07,196 I'm not really sure. 306 00:19:08,168 --> 00:19:09,503 - On top of a roof. - On top of a roof. 307 00:19:11,910 --> 00:19:14,243 - [Hector] Here's a view of where we're pulling guard. 308 00:19:16,410 --> 00:19:17,253 Pretty weak. 309 00:19:18,780 --> 00:19:19,780 And right beside us, 310 00:19:20,700 --> 00:19:25,620 we have a Haji neighborhood. (laughs) 311 00:19:25,620 --> 00:19:29,062 Neighborhood in the middle of fuckin' FOB, we don't know. 312 00:19:29,062 --> 00:19:32,670 (radio chattering) 313 00:19:32,670 --> 00:19:35,730 But this is what we do for four hours, for 24 hours. 314 00:19:37,264 --> 00:19:39,300 Four hours on, four hours off. 315 00:19:39,300 --> 00:19:40,263 Sit and pull guard. 316 00:19:42,900 --> 00:19:44,817 Fun, fun time. 317 00:19:44,817 --> 00:19:46,443 [Maldanado] Yep, all the fun. 318 00:19:47,760 --> 00:19:50,060 - [Radio] Roger, tell 'em to get no gas today. 319 00:19:52,754 --> 00:19:56,310 So when we get to FOB Paliwoda, 320 00:19:56,310 --> 00:19:59,040 4th Infantry Division, the guys from 4th ID were there. 321 00:19:59,040 --> 00:20:02,580 These guys were salty, uniforms looking like shit, 322 00:20:02,580 --> 00:20:05,340 tattered, fuckin' sunburned. 323 00:20:05,340 --> 00:20:07,920 These guys had been in country for like 15 months, right? 324 00:20:07,920 --> 00:20:09,180 They did the invasion 325 00:20:09,180 --> 00:20:11,220 and then they hung around a little longer 326 00:20:11,220 --> 00:20:12,810 than they anticipated. 327 00:20:12,810 --> 00:20:14,160 They were ready to go home, right. 328 00:20:14,160 --> 00:20:17,250 We showed up all fresh, 1st Infantry Division, Big Red One. 329 00:20:17,250 --> 00:20:19,260 So we had to do those left seat, right seat rides 330 00:20:19,260 --> 00:20:21,930 where we would go out on patrol with 'em, 331 00:20:21,930 --> 00:20:23,930 they would show us the surrounding area. 332 00:20:26,070 --> 00:20:27,930 And the first patrol that I went out with him, 333 00:20:27,930 --> 00:20:31,440 I remember there was a, he was like a E-6, Staff Sergeant. 334 00:20:31,440 --> 00:20:34,290 He looked like the lead singer from Newfound Glory. 335 00:20:34,290 --> 00:20:37,800 And he's like, "Hey, just be aware 336 00:20:37,800 --> 00:20:39,690 that when you shoot these guys with your M-16, 337 00:20:39,690 --> 00:20:41,157 the bullets are gonna go right through 'em," right? 338 00:20:41,157 --> 00:20:43,620 The velocity's so fast, when you're inside the house. 339 00:20:43,620 --> 00:20:44,870 And I'm like, "The hell?" 340 00:20:46,380 --> 00:20:50,040 And yeah, these guys had been fucking killing people. 341 00:20:50,040 --> 00:20:51,450 And I remember like looking at this guy 342 00:20:51,450 --> 00:20:52,530 like he was a god, right, 343 00:20:52,530 --> 00:20:55,260 like a fuckin' all thing grunt God. 344 00:20:55,260 --> 00:20:58,200 Because I'm like, damn, this motherfucker's doing it. 345 00:20:58,200 --> 00:21:00,540 And he's telling us like, "Hey, 346 00:21:00,540 --> 00:21:01,800 you're gonna have to shoot these dudes 347 00:21:01,800 --> 00:21:04,200 four or five fuckin' times to put 'em down." 348 00:21:04,200 --> 00:21:05,550 And I was like, all right. 349 00:21:05,550 --> 00:21:08,250 So that was kind of the introduction 350 00:21:08,250 --> 00:21:10,350 to like what we're getting ourselves into. 351 00:21:12,090 --> 00:21:14,640 I mean I shot a dude one time, like I mentioned, 352 00:21:14,640 --> 00:21:19,640 he was like at 250, 300 meters and he still kept running. 353 00:21:20,070 --> 00:21:21,780 He still kept running. 354 00:21:21,780 --> 00:21:26,640 And you want to talk about not being like the movies, 355 00:21:26,640 --> 00:21:27,810 in the movies you shoot somebody 356 00:21:27,810 --> 00:21:29,670 and they fuckin' fall over dead, right? 357 00:21:29,670 --> 00:21:31,370 Unless you hit a dude in the head, 358 00:21:32,460 --> 00:21:34,473 which we're taught to shoot center mass, 359 00:21:38,670 --> 00:21:42,750 it's very discouraging to shoot at people or shoot people 360 00:21:42,750 --> 00:21:45,120 and have them continuously fight 361 00:21:45,120 --> 00:21:47,400 because some of them are hyped up on adrenaline, 362 00:21:47,400 --> 00:21:50,310 actual adrenaline and or meth. 363 00:21:50,310 --> 00:21:52,320 We were finding vials, we were finding syringes 364 00:21:52,320 --> 00:21:55,413 where these dudes were getting hyped up on fuckin' dope. 365 00:22:01,620 --> 00:22:04,800 And then in 2004 you had a lot of foreign fighters. 366 00:22:04,800 --> 00:22:07,650 You had Jordanians coming to Iraq to fuckin' fight. 367 00:22:07,650 --> 00:22:11,343 You had Syrians, you had like people from Africa coming. 368 00:22:12,900 --> 00:22:14,550 No doubt people from Afghan, 369 00:22:14,550 --> 00:22:17,400 like that was like a holy war to them. 370 00:22:17,400 --> 00:22:19,980 Like hey, you want to come fuck up some Americans? 371 00:22:19,980 --> 00:22:20,820 Come here. 372 00:22:20,820 --> 00:22:24,150 So yeah, we were finding Chechnyans, 373 00:22:24,150 --> 00:22:27,000 different shit, different documents, different passports. 374 00:22:30,780 --> 00:22:33,600 Living on a FOB, we were on FOB Paliwoda, 375 00:22:33,600 --> 00:22:35,550 Forward Operating Base Paliwoda. 376 00:22:35,550 --> 00:22:36,840 The reason it got named that 377 00:22:36,840 --> 00:22:41,840 was a month prior to us arriving, it was called FOB Eagle. 378 00:22:42,000 --> 00:22:44,550 But there was a captain by the name of Paliwoda, 379 00:22:44,550 --> 00:22:46,260 I believe he was in the 4th Infantry Division, 380 00:22:46,260 --> 00:22:49,860 he was killed by indirect fire, I think it was rockets. 381 00:22:49,860 --> 00:22:52,350 So therefore they named it after him. 382 00:22:52,350 --> 00:22:56,160 So I want you to think of like a small area 383 00:22:56,160 --> 00:22:57,330 where you can pretty much, 384 00:22:57,330 --> 00:22:59,490 you know everybody that's on the FOB, 385 00:22:59,490 --> 00:23:01,650 not too far of a walking distance 386 00:23:01,650 --> 00:23:03,570 and you have your living quarters. 387 00:23:03,570 --> 00:23:06,270 This happened to be a former Iraqi base 388 00:23:06,270 --> 00:23:08,312 that the Americans had taken over. 389 00:23:08,312 --> 00:23:10,102 This is our friend Zimmerman and he can sleep through anything. 390 00:23:10,102 --> 00:23:12,453 Watch this alarm go off, he won't even wake up. 391 00:23:14,015 --> 00:23:15,616 Watch this. 392 00:23:15,616 --> 00:23:16,449 - Oh! - Oh! 393 00:23:18,123 --> 00:23:22,206 (soldiers laughing and cheering) 394 00:23:23,873 --> 00:23:27,123 (upbeat hip hop music) 395 00:23:33,680 --> 00:23:37,080 So in 2004, Operation Iraqi Freedom II, 396 00:23:37,080 --> 00:23:39,130 that was the beginning of the insurgency. 397 00:23:39,990 --> 00:23:44,400 Up-armored anything was very slim to none, irrelevant. 398 00:23:44,400 --> 00:23:46,830 You know, I remember in Kuwait being on a detail 399 00:23:46,830 --> 00:23:51,830 of filling up 7,000 sandbags in 24 hours. 400 00:23:52,290 --> 00:23:53,910 And that sucked, bro. 401 00:23:53,910 --> 00:23:57,630 And they were gonna use the sandbags for the floorboards 402 00:23:57,630 --> 00:23:59,880 of the Humvees as as armor. 403 00:23:59,880 --> 00:24:04,170 And what a routine patrol would look like 404 00:24:04,170 --> 00:24:06,870 would be four vehicles going out every time. 405 00:24:06,870 --> 00:24:09,450 One would be an up-armored Humvee, 406 00:24:09,450 --> 00:24:11,340 the other one was a frickin' supply Humvee 407 00:24:11,340 --> 00:24:14,580 that I drove, Bravo 2-4, and that was an IED magnet. 408 00:24:14,580 --> 00:24:17,370 I think that thing ended up getting hit directly 409 00:24:17,370 --> 00:24:20,880 probably by like 12, 13 IEDs. 410 00:24:20,880 --> 00:24:23,550 Where we built, or my sergeant built stencils 411 00:24:23,550 --> 00:24:24,540 and we were putting stencils. 412 00:24:24,540 --> 00:24:26,040 I even got a picture of it. 413 00:24:26,040 --> 00:24:27,240 After every time it got hit, 414 00:24:27,240 --> 00:24:28,950 like we would just bring it back and. 415 00:24:28,950 --> 00:24:30,300 Yeah, the windows would be blown out, 416 00:24:30,300 --> 00:24:31,900 the tires would be fuckin' flat. 417 00:24:33,300 --> 00:24:37,863 M-113, an armored personnel carrier like Vietnam era. 418 00:24:38,820 --> 00:24:40,740 A tracked vehicle. 419 00:24:40,740 --> 00:24:41,670 And then I think the other one 420 00:24:41,670 --> 00:24:43,140 was another up-armored Humvee. 421 00:24:43,140 --> 00:24:47,460 Our biggest weapon system was a 240 Bravo 7.62. 422 00:24:47,460 --> 00:24:51,210 So we would go out into sector, patrol. 423 00:24:51,210 --> 00:24:53,913 I was in Balad, very agricultural. 424 00:24:54,840 --> 00:24:57,393 It was like living out in the country, villages. 425 00:24:58,770 --> 00:25:00,813 Dirt roads, canal roads. 426 00:25:01,950 --> 00:25:04,713 Grape vines, orchards. 427 00:25:06,726 --> 00:25:09,143 (calm music) 428 00:25:14,421 --> 00:25:17,254 (Hector chuckles) 429 00:25:18,207 --> 00:25:20,957 (birds chirping) 430 00:25:28,421 --> 00:25:31,218 I took a picture of you already, man. 431 00:25:31,218 --> 00:25:34,301 (footsteps thudding) 432 00:25:40,138 --> 00:25:43,135 [Hector] When I deployed to Iraq, they pulled our platoon, 433 00:25:43,135 --> 00:25:47,490 2nd Platoon, and attached us to a unit of tankers. 434 00:25:47,490 --> 00:25:50,130 So they kind of did some Mickey Mouse Frankenstein unit 435 00:25:50,130 --> 00:25:52,350 with one platoon of infantry, which was us, 436 00:25:52,350 --> 00:25:55,800 one platoon of combat engineers, one platoon of tankers, 437 00:25:55,800 --> 00:25:58,983 and a National Guard platoon from New York. 438 00:26:00,780 --> 00:26:03,480 It's safe to say that they used and abused us, 439 00:26:03,480 --> 00:26:07,233 us and the engineers, to do all the grunt work basically. 440 00:26:08,610 --> 00:26:13,610 Patrol, convoys, raids, guarding PoWs. 441 00:26:15,900 --> 00:26:19,383 Guarding on the FOB, the towers, the front gate. 442 00:26:20,460 --> 00:26:25,460 Man, route clearance, QRF, Quick Reaction Force, 443 00:26:25,620 --> 00:26:28,080 we were busy 24/7, 365. 444 00:26:28,080 --> 00:26:30,420 We have just discovered an IED, 445 00:26:30,420 --> 00:26:32,957 improvised explosive device, ahead of Checkpoint 10. 446 00:26:32,957 --> 00:26:35,670 We are here with Jared Hinks, take it away. 447 00:26:35,670 --> 00:26:37,980 - That's right, Ferrel, here in Balad, Iraq 448 00:26:37,980 --> 00:26:40,110 on route Linda where two Hajis, 449 00:26:40,110 --> 00:26:42,390 excuse me, indigenous personnel. 450 00:26:42,390 --> 00:26:44,643 - Iraqi members. - Iraqis, 451 00:26:46,290 --> 00:26:48,180 came to the front gate while we were leaving 452 00:26:48,180 --> 00:26:50,250 and told us they knew where a bomb was. 453 00:26:50,250 --> 00:26:52,900 - Back from a raid, caught us some fucking prisoners. 454 00:26:53,754 --> 00:26:55,755 - Huh? - Going against you? 455 00:26:55,755 --> 00:26:56,690 [Hector] No, I got myself. 456 00:27:00,390 --> 00:27:03,483 That's little Nathan Maez after a raid. 457 00:27:04,770 --> 00:27:06,520 We'll start off with a cousin, Doc. 458 00:27:08,256 --> 00:27:10,590 - I saw some action today. - Edgar. 459 00:27:10,590 --> 00:27:13,230 - No shots fired. - Our medic. 460 00:27:13,230 --> 00:27:14,700 It's a goddamn shame. 461 00:27:14,700 --> 00:27:17,130 - [Hector] The newest member of the fuckin' family. 462 00:27:17,130 --> 00:27:19,315 - Who here? - Straight out of basic. 463 00:27:19,315 --> 00:27:21,090 (soldiers laughing) 464 00:27:21,090 --> 00:27:23,613 Scrolly as fuck, brand new BDUs. 465 00:27:25,148 --> 00:27:27,478 Cherry, he got his cherry popped today. 466 00:27:27,478 --> 00:27:28,311 (soldiers laughing) 467 00:27:28,311 --> 00:27:30,457 - Here we got Apa. - Look at this. 468 00:27:31,350 --> 00:27:32,310 So the movie "Platoon" 469 00:27:32,310 --> 00:27:33,720 where Charlie Sheen is writing a letter 470 00:27:33,720 --> 00:27:35,130 to I believe it's his grandma. 471 00:27:35,130 --> 00:27:37,890 He's talking about his platoon mates and where they're from 472 00:27:37,890 --> 00:27:39,000 and little small cities. 473 00:27:39,000 --> 00:27:40,950 And to me it was exactly like that, man. 474 00:27:40,950 --> 00:27:45,060 You got Garcia from Miami, Arizona, right? 475 00:27:45,060 --> 00:27:47,880 You got Hinks from Duluth, Minnesota, 476 00:27:47,880 --> 00:27:52,830 you got Hill from Amarillo, Texas, 477 00:27:52,830 --> 00:27:54,450 you know, Winkel from Chicago, 478 00:27:54,450 --> 00:27:56,940 you just got everywhere from all these places, bro. 479 00:27:56,940 --> 00:27:59,730 And it's just like fuckin' put us all together, 480 00:27:59,730 --> 00:28:01,201 become brothers. 481 00:28:01,201 --> 00:28:04,034 (engine rumbling) 482 00:28:11,991 --> 00:28:15,658 (engine continues rumbling) 483 00:28:24,161 --> 00:28:27,828 (engine continues rumbling) 484 00:28:35,899 --> 00:28:39,566 (engine continues rumbling) 485 00:28:47,424 --> 00:28:49,196 (engine continues rumbling) 486 00:28:49,196 --> 00:28:51,538 Look who's recording us right now. 487 00:28:51,538 --> 00:28:53,671 [Daclan] Yeah. 488 00:28:53,671 --> 00:28:57,338 (engine continues rumbling) 489 00:29:03,117 --> 00:29:04,365 [Daclan] It's a camera, it's recording. 490 00:29:04,365 --> 00:29:05,761 Oh, it's video, you're recording. 491 00:29:05,761 --> 00:29:07,928 - Yeah. - Well. Let me see. 492 00:29:09,041 --> 00:29:11,195 I am Sergeant Saragosa, 493 00:29:11,195 --> 00:29:14,385 Jedi Knight and protector of the Iraqi people. 494 00:29:14,385 --> 00:29:19,385 Anyone who defies me, the sons of bitches, will fuckin' pay. 495 00:29:21,815 --> 00:29:24,148 [Daclan] That's good shit. 496 00:29:26,146 --> 00:29:28,140 (soldiers laughing) 497 00:29:28,140 --> 00:29:30,187 - He's good. - Like fuckin' dogs. 498 00:29:33,909 --> 00:29:34,945 [Child] Another now. 499 00:29:34,945 --> 00:29:37,060 - [Soldier] Man, the guy in yellow's losing it. 500 00:29:37,060 --> 00:29:38,567 [Sergeant] What are you throwin', man? 501 00:29:38,567 --> 00:29:40,728 - Airheads. - Dude, gimme an Airhead! 502 00:29:40,728 --> 00:29:43,232 (soldiers laughing) 503 00:29:43,232 --> 00:29:45,717 I'm right here, your fuckin' sergeant. 504 00:29:45,717 --> 00:29:49,213 (soldiers laughing) Bastard. 505 00:29:49,213 --> 00:29:50,837 You're a bastard. 506 00:29:50,837 --> 00:29:52,980 I wanted a fuckin' airhead, you know what, I'll go over 507 00:29:52,980 --> 00:29:54,607 there and beat the shit outta those kids for it. 508 00:29:54,607 --> 00:29:56,977 (soldiers laughing) 509 00:29:56,977 --> 00:29:58,680 I'm here in Balad Iraq 510 00:29:58,680 --> 00:30:01,203 on top of what we would call a mansion. 511 00:30:02,100 --> 00:30:04,150 Probably the only one in Balad right now. 512 00:30:05,010 --> 00:30:06,260 As you can see behind me, 513 00:30:07,860 --> 00:30:10,410 this man has a beautiful view of the landscape around, 514 00:30:10,410 --> 00:30:12,993 lots of green because it is nearing winter time. 515 00:30:15,120 --> 00:30:17,790 Around this area, the insurgents, 516 00:30:17,790 --> 00:30:21,180 AKA (speaking in foreign language), like to plant IEDs, 517 00:30:21,180 --> 00:30:23,010 improvised explosive devices. 518 00:30:23,010 --> 00:30:25,830 Where at one point in time, this young man here, 519 00:30:25,830 --> 00:30:29,400 Nathan Maez, 19 years old, straight outta high school, 520 00:30:29,400 --> 00:30:32,163 got blown up right over there by a roadside bomb. 521 00:30:34,110 --> 00:30:35,960 Kind of where near that white car is. 522 00:30:36,808 --> 00:30:39,808 (soldiers laughing) 523 00:30:41,640 --> 00:30:43,690 Hold on folks, lemme take care of this. 524 00:30:45,480 --> 00:30:48,390 (Hector imitates gun firing) 525 00:30:48,390 --> 00:30:51,813 And that's pretty much it. 526 00:30:54,800 --> 00:30:57,493 This is Dan Withers saying. (laughs) 527 00:30:58,830 --> 00:31:01,130 Dan Withers saying, tschuss. 528 00:31:01,130 --> 00:31:03,960 If it was during the day it would be, 529 00:31:03,960 --> 00:31:05,430 kind of like a presence. 530 00:31:05,430 --> 00:31:07,920 Like you go, you go to a village, you go to a house, 531 00:31:07,920 --> 00:31:11,700 and then they tell you to come in, offer you chai, 532 00:31:11,700 --> 00:31:13,500 which is like hot tea. 533 00:31:13,500 --> 00:31:15,660 Meanwhile we're pulling security up on the rooftop. 534 00:31:15,660 --> 00:31:16,830 We're taking a look around. 535 00:31:16,830 --> 00:31:19,420 You know, you ask them, "you got a silah, silah?" 536 00:31:19,420 --> 00:31:22,550 Silah is Weapon in Arabic, "Silah?" 537 00:31:22,550 --> 00:31:24,990 "No silah, no silah, mister." 538 00:31:24,990 --> 00:31:26,100 That's what they would say, right? 539 00:31:26,100 --> 00:31:28,860 So we're still looking around, we fuckin' find an AK-47 540 00:31:28,860 --> 00:31:30,890 and we're like, "Silah!" 541 00:31:30,890 --> 00:31:33,433 They're like, "One silah, one silah." 542 00:31:33,433 --> 00:31:35,070 It's like, hey, these motherfuckers, right? 543 00:31:35,070 --> 00:31:37,020 It just agitates you, like, hey. 544 00:31:37,020 --> 00:31:39,330 So the rule was they were allowed to have 545 00:31:39,330 --> 00:31:43,680 one AK-47 per household for thieves or whatever. 546 00:31:43,680 --> 00:31:45,007 Alibaba is what they call them. 547 00:31:45,007 --> 00:31:46,650 "Alibaba, Alibaba. mister." 548 00:31:46,650 --> 00:31:48,300 So there's a lot of interacting 549 00:31:48,300 --> 00:31:50,370 with the the Iraqi nationals. 550 00:31:50,370 --> 00:31:51,360 You got the kids, right? 551 00:31:51,360 --> 00:31:54,723 So you learn things like jenta is trunk, 552 00:31:56,610 --> 00:31:58,560 you know, you're doing traffic control checkpoints 553 00:31:58,560 --> 00:32:00,060 where you're stopping vehicles and searching 'em 554 00:32:00,060 --> 00:32:02,816 for insurgents, contraband, weapons and stuff like that, 555 00:32:02,816 --> 00:32:04,899 and, "Jenta, open jenta." 556 00:32:05,893 --> 00:32:07,736 [Soldier] Jenta. 557 00:32:07,736 --> 00:32:09,319 - Jenta! - Okay. Okay. 558 00:32:11,804 --> 00:32:14,054 [Soldier] Open the jenta. 559 00:32:15,407 --> 00:32:20,157 (citizens speaking in foreign language) 560 00:32:23,379 --> 00:32:25,120 [Soldier] Jenta. 561 00:32:25,120 --> 00:32:26,537 - Jenta. - Yes, yes. 562 00:32:27,954 --> 00:32:32,537 (driver speaking in foreign language) 563 00:32:35,250 --> 00:32:38,027 I want to marry the women Americans 564 00:32:39,336 --> 00:32:43,169 and live in America because I'm stuck in Iraq. 565 00:32:44,638 --> 00:32:47,475 I want to go on America because there isn't the 566 00:32:47,475 --> 00:32:52,068 freaky freak in Iraq, in America there is the freak. 567 00:32:52,068 --> 00:32:52,901 Okay? 568 00:32:58,557 --> 00:33:01,410 - And half the platoon would go out on patrol, 569 00:33:01,410 --> 00:33:03,480 the other half of the platoon would stay back 570 00:33:03,480 --> 00:33:06,540 doing weapons maintenance, vehicle maintenance. 571 00:33:06,540 --> 00:33:08,040 Like I said, guard duty. 572 00:33:08,040 --> 00:33:10,320 If you had time to go to the internet cafe, 573 00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:15,320 back then in 2004 the internet cafe was a little office 574 00:33:16,350 --> 00:33:18,420 or a little building a little room. 575 00:33:18,420 --> 00:33:20,970 And there was probably about four computers 576 00:33:20,970 --> 00:33:23,460 hooked up to like old school internet. 577 00:33:23,460 --> 00:33:27,210 And then you were able to send old school emails out, 578 00:33:27,210 --> 00:33:30,243 use the telephones, made sure you had a calling card. 579 00:33:33,030 --> 00:33:34,890 It was never a dull moment considering 580 00:33:34,890 --> 00:33:37,950 that we would get indirect fire daily. 581 00:33:37,950 --> 00:33:39,513 Daily, for sure daily. 582 00:33:41,040 --> 00:33:43,590 Some of it accurate, some of it not, you know, 583 00:33:43,590 --> 00:33:48,090 the rounds would hit outside, inside the wire. 584 00:33:48,090 --> 00:33:52,230 We also had our outgoing, which was our 120 millimeters, 585 00:33:52,230 --> 00:33:56,490 11 Charlie Mortarmen, they had their mortar pit set up 586 00:33:56,490 --> 00:33:59,130 right outside of our building, barracks. 587 00:33:59,130 --> 00:34:03,900 So it was freaking loud like, boom, constant. 588 00:34:03,900 --> 00:34:06,930 So we got to distinguish between incoming 589 00:34:06,930 --> 00:34:08,070 and outgoing fires, 590 00:34:08,070 --> 00:34:10,620 like there's certain distinctive sounds to it. 591 00:34:10,620 --> 00:34:13,320 And right after we would receive incoming from the enemy, 592 00:34:13,320 --> 00:34:16,530 the insurgents, our outgoing would run out 593 00:34:16,530 --> 00:34:19,770 to the mortar pits and start fuckin' firing back. 594 00:34:19,770 --> 00:34:21,870 So there would be like battles sometimes 595 00:34:21,870 --> 00:34:25,830 of just ingoing and outgoing, just extremely fuckin' loud. 596 00:34:25,830 --> 00:34:27,579 But you get used to it after a while. 597 00:34:27,579 --> 00:34:30,746 (explosions booming) 598 00:34:36,598 --> 00:34:38,019 (explosion booms) 599 00:34:38,019 --> 00:34:38,852 Yo! 600 00:34:40,680 --> 00:34:41,780 [Hector] Zimmerman. 601 00:34:42,930 --> 00:34:43,763 Zimmerman. 602 00:34:45,930 --> 00:34:48,210 - Yell loud, yeah. - Real loud? Real loud? 603 00:34:48,210 --> 00:34:49,935 Zimmerman! 604 00:34:50,896 --> 00:34:52,923 - Bro. - What? 605 00:34:52,923 --> 00:34:55,673 (blows thudding) 606 00:34:57,095 --> 00:34:59,110 [Soldier] Quit it. 607 00:34:59,110 --> 00:35:01,260 - This is what a really good friend of mine 608 00:35:01,260 --> 00:35:03,720 shot off in here accidentally, 609 00:35:03,720 --> 00:35:07,170 almost got me killed, almost got the whole platoon killed. 610 00:35:07,170 --> 00:35:08,476 - Zimmerman! - What? 611 00:35:08,476 --> 00:35:11,588 [Hector] Hey, you alarm enough? 612 00:35:11,588 --> 00:35:12,421 Thanks. 613 00:35:12,421 --> 00:35:14,070 You feel the concussion. 614 00:35:14,070 --> 00:35:15,570 For sure you feel the concussion, 615 00:35:15,570 --> 00:35:17,520 the wave through your like chest, like. 616 00:35:18,960 --> 00:35:23,100 Depending on how close you are to it, especially incoming, 617 00:35:23,100 --> 00:35:25,863 and, dude, I remember we got caught. 618 00:35:26,730 --> 00:35:31,730 Me, Maez, Garcia, and Deano, our sergeant, 619 00:35:32,340 --> 00:35:34,920 were walking to the internet cafe 620 00:35:34,920 --> 00:35:37,293 and in between us and there, 621 00:35:38,280 --> 00:35:40,470 there was a Bradley from 1/26 Infantry 622 00:35:40,470 --> 00:35:43,140 that the grunts there were working on. 623 00:35:43,140 --> 00:35:46,350 And as we're walking, we hear like, (imitates explosion) 624 00:35:46,350 --> 00:35:49,680 so right away we look, and it's like, fuck. 625 00:35:49,680 --> 00:35:51,217 My best man, Garcia, he's like, 626 00:35:51,217 --> 00:35:54,240 "Hey, don't worry, that's outgoing." 627 00:35:54,240 --> 00:35:56,400 And we look, there was nothing outgoing about that. 628 00:35:56,400 --> 00:35:57,930 There was no Paladin there, 629 00:35:57,930 --> 00:36:00,270 which we had Paladins, 155 artillery, 630 00:36:00,270 --> 00:36:04,110 and definitely no our mortar guys there, so it was incoming. 631 00:36:04,110 --> 00:36:06,810 It's like, "Oh shit, run, motherfucker, run!" 632 00:36:06,810 --> 00:36:08,700 That's what the 1/26 guys yell to us. 633 00:36:08,700 --> 00:36:10,530 They get up, they scatter. 634 00:36:10,530 --> 00:36:12,960 And I kid you not, dude, we're running 635 00:36:12,960 --> 00:36:15,806 and it just started dropping on us like rain, dude. 636 00:36:15,806 --> 00:36:18,450 (Hector imitating explosions booming) 637 00:36:18,450 --> 00:36:21,960 - [Garcia] All right, PC Maez is about to describe 638 00:36:21,960 --> 00:36:24,520 a rocket attack we went through a while back, 639 00:36:24,520 --> 00:36:27,141 - About the rockets, I don't like to talk about 'em much 640 00:36:27,141 --> 00:36:30,360 because it's just traumatizing, but anyway. 641 00:36:30,360 --> 00:36:32,430 We were walking towards the internet, 642 00:36:32,430 --> 00:36:34,710 towards the TOC at battalion. 643 00:36:34,710 --> 00:36:37,980 And once we got to that Charlie Rock area, 644 00:36:37,980 --> 00:36:40,920 their maintenance bay, we heard an explosion to our right 645 00:36:40,920 --> 00:36:43,230 And Garcia said, "Outgoing." 646 00:36:43,230 --> 00:36:44,063 I said, "No. Rockets." 647 00:36:44,063 --> 00:36:46,500 (soldiers laughing) 648 00:36:46,500 --> 00:36:48,600 Yeah, Garcia says "Paladin". 649 00:36:48,600 --> 00:36:49,740 I was like, "There's no paladin." 650 00:36:49,740 --> 00:36:52,170 - Yeah, I was like, wait, there's not a Paladin there. 651 00:36:52,170 --> 00:36:54,277 Then I hear Charlie Rock maintenance crew, 652 00:36:54,277 --> 00:36:56,670 - "Go, motherfucker, run, run!" - "Fuckin' run!" 653 00:36:56,670 --> 00:36:57,990 So what did we do? 654 00:36:57,990 --> 00:36:59,640 - We ran. - We fuckin' ran. 655 00:36:59,640 --> 00:37:01,800 - Was there a bunker? No. - No there wasn't. 656 00:37:01,800 --> 00:37:04,470 So we had to run for about 100, 150 meters 657 00:37:04,470 --> 00:37:06,963 before we found a little overhead cover. 658 00:37:08,340 --> 00:37:10,860 Boofy ass Haji concrete barriers. 659 00:37:10,860 --> 00:37:12,947 Wouldn't have stopped anything. 660 00:37:12,947 --> 00:37:15,930 But we survived it, luckily, 661 00:37:15,930 --> 00:37:18,902 even though they were coming in on us like fuckin' rain. 662 00:37:18,902 --> 00:37:20,408 The rounds would never stop. 663 00:37:20,408 --> 00:37:23,401 And then on the run back we left Deano. 664 00:37:23,401 --> 00:37:25,448 - We sorta left our team leader in the dust 665 00:37:25,448 --> 00:37:29,319 because he's not up to par where PT's set. 666 00:37:29,319 --> 00:37:32,319 (soldiers laughing) 667 00:37:34,380 --> 00:37:36,436 If you're not ready to run, 668 00:37:36,436 --> 00:37:38,564 you shouldn't be allowed to have fun and go to the internet. 669 00:37:38,564 --> 00:37:40,260 (soldiers laughing) 670 00:37:40,260 --> 00:37:41,093 Simple facts. 671 00:37:42,660 --> 00:37:44,610 That's all I gotta say about that. 672 00:37:44,610 --> 00:37:46,350 [Garcia] Thanks. Thanks. 673 00:37:46,350 --> 00:37:49,470 Specialist Ferrel, You all right, man? 674 00:37:49,470 --> 00:37:50,429 No comment. 675 00:37:50,429 --> 00:37:54,114 (soldiers laughing) 676 00:37:54,114 --> 00:37:57,242 It was scary. 677 00:37:57,242 --> 00:37:59,990 - [Garcia] All right, I'll let you be, man. 678 00:37:59,990 --> 00:38:02,940 - Huh? - I said I'll let you be. 679 00:38:02,940 --> 00:38:04,770 Please. Let me gather my thoughts. 680 00:38:04,770 --> 00:38:06,120 [Garcia] I know it hurts. 681 00:38:07,020 --> 00:38:09,053 - [Maez] Lemme contemplate what could have happened. 682 00:38:09,975 --> 00:38:11,659 - Because you could hear the rockets, it's like, 683 00:38:11,659 --> 00:38:14,700 (imitates rockets whizzing) especially how close they are. 684 00:38:14,700 --> 00:38:19,260 And the only thing we found was those concrete walls 685 00:38:19,260 --> 00:38:21,930 that you'll see around the green zone in Baghdad 686 00:38:21,930 --> 00:38:24,480 they put around perimeters of bases. 687 00:38:24,480 --> 00:38:25,500 Those concrete walls, 688 00:38:25,500 --> 00:38:27,180 but they were stacked on top of each other. 689 00:38:27,180 --> 00:38:29,130 They were in a laying down position 690 00:38:29,130 --> 00:38:32,040 and like four of us managed to just cram into a little hole. 691 00:38:32,040 --> 00:38:35,610 And, dude, it was like. (imitates explosions booming) 692 00:38:35,610 --> 00:38:39,570 So you can smell the black smoke, the gunpowder, the dust. 693 00:38:39,570 --> 00:38:41,490 Could hear the whizzing of the rounds. 694 00:38:41,490 --> 00:38:43,410 Definitely the explosions. 695 00:38:43,410 --> 00:38:44,850 And we just started laughing, dude. 696 00:38:44,850 --> 00:38:48,000 We just started laughing because there's nothing you can do. 697 00:38:48,000 --> 00:38:51,960 You get to a point man, you get to a point where 698 00:38:51,960 --> 00:38:54,270 you know there's nothing you can do, 699 00:38:54,270 --> 00:38:56,370 you might as well have a good time with it 700 00:38:57,720 --> 00:39:00,601 because, honestly, what difference is it gonna make? 701 00:39:00,601 --> 00:39:03,917 Would you rather scare yourself to death or just go out? 702 00:39:06,120 --> 00:39:08,043 Kind of like go out happy with it? 703 00:39:09,870 --> 00:39:11,490 It stopped after a while. 704 00:39:11,490 --> 00:39:13,770 We all picked up when it seemed like a good time, 705 00:39:13,770 --> 00:39:16,230 like a lull in the fire, to go back. 706 00:39:16,230 --> 00:39:19,597 And we went back and my boy Hinks from Minnesota was like, 707 00:39:19,597 --> 00:39:22,050 "Damn, bro, did you guys get caught in that?" 708 00:39:22,050 --> 00:39:25,027 We're like, "Yeah, dude, right in the middle." 709 00:39:25,027 --> 00:39:25,927 "Was it scary?" 710 00:39:25,927 --> 00:39:28,080 "100%, absolutely." 711 00:39:28,080 --> 00:39:32,100 But my dad had given me some type of religious medallion 712 00:39:32,100 --> 00:39:36,930 prior to deploying, which was random. 713 00:39:36,930 --> 00:39:39,240 And I remember just clutching that thing 714 00:39:39,240 --> 00:39:41,523 when the rounds were landing all around us. 715 00:39:49,410 --> 00:39:53,010 We're here in Balad, Iraq again, 716 00:39:53,010 --> 00:39:56,373 where I guess the driveby happened on this fuckin' car here. 717 00:39:57,660 --> 00:39:59,426 Killed the driver definitely, 718 00:39:59,426 --> 00:40:01,726 'cause his brains are hanging on his shoulder. 719 00:40:02,640 --> 00:40:04,123 And I guess some other people were in the back 720 00:40:04,123 --> 00:40:06,228 that got shot up, taken to the hospital. 721 00:40:07,320 --> 00:40:10,830 I guess this is these people's relatives or whatever 722 00:40:10,830 --> 00:40:13,323 and they're not too happy right now. 723 00:40:14,231 --> 00:40:16,230 I guess it was a tribal war between two tribes 724 00:40:16,230 --> 00:40:17,163 or some shit like that. 725 00:40:18,150 --> 00:40:20,430 Anyways, just another day here in Balad, 726 00:40:20,430 --> 00:40:21,630 we're almost outta here. 727 00:40:23,190 --> 00:40:24,190 More brains for you. 728 00:40:25,304 --> 00:40:28,304 - Oh, I gotta go down there. - Go down there with a camera. 729 00:40:35,191 --> 00:40:37,858 (guns banging) 730 00:40:42,170 --> 00:40:44,432 [Soldier] I don't see him. 731 00:40:44,432 --> 00:40:47,515 (explosions booming) 732 00:40:50,121 --> 00:40:53,121 (soldiers laughing) 733 00:40:56,647 --> 00:40:58,276 [Soldier] All right. 734 00:40:58,276 --> 00:41:01,193 (glass shattering) 735 00:41:03,616 --> 00:41:06,199 (guns firing) 736 00:41:12,469 --> 00:41:14,802 [Soldier] I don't see him. 737 00:41:16,576 --> 00:41:19,159 (somber music) 738 00:41:23,647 --> 00:41:26,160 - [Soldier] This here is high speed Second Squad 739 00:41:28,022 --> 00:41:32,439 In the middle of what we would call a battle I guess. 740 00:41:34,207 --> 00:41:37,040 (Rocket fires) 741 00:41:40,234 --> 00:41:42,817 (somber music) 742 00:41:49,932 --> 00:41:53,349 (somber music continues) 743 00:41:55,254 --> 00:41:58,548 (soldiers shouting) 744 00:41:58,548 --> 00:42:00,924 - [Soldier] Get out of here! Get out of here! 745 00:42:00,924 --> 00:42:02,369 - Clear? - Yeah. 746 00:42:02,369 --> 00:42:04,286 [Hector] House clear. 747 00:42:05,671 --> 00:42:10,588 (interpreter speaking in foreign language) 748 00:42:11,731 --> 00:42:14,564 (engine rumbling) 749 00:42:21,152 --> 00:42:24,235 [Soldier] Let's go, bro, that easy. 750 00:42:26,540 --> 00:42:29,457 [Hector] Look at Hill on the gun. 751 00:42:34,074 --> 00:42:37,701 (citizens speaking in foreign language) 752 00:42:37,701 --> 00:42:38,534 [Soldier] What's going on? 753 00:42:38,534 --> 00:42:41,223 We are in downtown Balad on a regular patrol. 754 00:42:44,340 --> 00:42:45,817 On the gun as usual. 755 00:42:52,037 --> 00:42:54,620 (somber music) 756 00:42:58,800 --> 00:42:59,633 Moo. 757 00:43:01,643 --> 00:43:06,153 Look at that dirty fuckin' kid, and his brother. 758 00:43:07,947 --> 00:43:09,247 All right, there's mother. 759 00:43:11,250 --> 00:43:13,250 Don't mind the bullet hole in the glass. 760 00:43:17,040 --> 00:43:17,873 Yep. 761 00:43:23,070 --> 00:43:24,123 Hard at work. 762 00:43:30,220 --> 00:43:33,137 (radio chattering) 763 00:43:37,883 --> 00:43:41,543 Oh, look at the helicopter, 764 00:43:41,543 --> 00:43:43,380 [Daclan] Hey did it record? 765 00:43:43,380 --> 00:43:46,960 That's fucked up, dude. That was my best one too, man. 766 00:43:46,960 --> 00:43:48,837 [Hector] There goes another one. 767 00:43:48,837 --> 00:43:50,337 [Hinks] Say something, Dick. 768 00:43:51,270 --> 00:43:53,580 We're in Balad right now, downtown. 769 00:43:53,580 --> 00:43:55,933 We're not in downtown Balad right now. 770 00:43:55,933 --> 00:43:57,727 - Dude, you're fuckin' stupid. - Huh? 771 00:43:57,727 --> 00:43:59,927 On dangerous mission today? 772 00:43:59,927 --> 00:44:01,474 Not dangerous at all. 773 00:44:01,474 --> 00:44:04,391 - Very dangerous. - Dangerous mission today. 774 00:44:06,780 --> 00:44:08,380 [Hector] That's scroll on the gun. 775 00:44:11,760 --> 00:44:13,110 Always talkin' that shit. 776 00:44:15,300 --> 00:44:16,863 My foot hurts really bad. 777 00:44:18,360 --> 00:44:22,340 - We're gonna escort these fags to the hospital. 778 00:44:22,340 --> 00:44:26,070 - Go go, show the fags. - Show the fags, dude. 779 00:44:26,070 --> 00:44:28,503 - [Hector] Show the non-combatant motherfuckers. 780 00:44:29,970 --> 00:44:31,203 Zoom in, zoom in. 781 00:44:32,438 --> 00:44:33,638 [Wagner] I dunno how. 782 00:44:33,638 --> 00:44:34,850 (soldiers laughing) 783 00:44:34,850 --> 00:44:37,217 - I'm Luga. - Shut the fuck up, asshole. 784 00:44:37,217 --> 00:44:38,883 - Hey. - I'll fuckin' kill you. 785 00:44:43,050 --> 00:44:45,467 (soft music) 786 00:44:55,479 --> 00:44:59,436 This is how we do it in the Humvees. 787 00:44:59,436 --> 00:45:02,310 Smokin' Newports and shit, not giving a fuck. 788 00:45:02,310 --> 00:45:03,510 I ain't dismounting for nothing, 789 00:45:03,510 --> 00:45:05,640 'cause my foot's all fucked up. 790 00:45:05,640 --> 00:45:08,558 I'm here for the hell of it, for shits and fuckin' giggles. 791 00:45:08,558 --> 00:45:10,770 (soldiers laughing) 792 00:45:10,770 --> 00:45:14,520 You gonna put that on a fuckin' documentary when I make it. 793 00:45:14,520 --> 00:45:18,510 This is how we lived in Iraq. (chuckles) 794 00:45:18,510 --> 00:45:20,520 I guess, damn. 795 00:45:20,520 --> 00:45:21,840 I never really, really thought of this, 796 00:45:21,840 --> 00:45:26,260 but I guess the first time that I fired my weapon in combat 797 00:45:27,930 --> 00:45:32,753 was April 15th, 2004. 798 00:45:34,460 --> 00:45:36,900 I was taking a shit in the latrines. 799 00:45:36,900 --> 00:45:39,963 It was like a trailer, like the ones you see at a concert. 800 00:45:40,830 --> 00:45:44,523 And we started getting incoming like rockets or mortars. 801 00:45:45,990 --> 00:45:48,347 I remember thinking like, I'm gonna die on the shitter. 802 00:45:48,347 --> 00:45:51,027 Right, you never want to die on the shitter. 803 00:45:51,027 --> 00:45:52,830 And I remember thinking like, damn, 804 00:45:52,830 --> 00:45:54,660 shrapnel's about to come through 805 00:45:54,660 --> 00:45:57,030 like this aluminum fricking tin thingy. 806 00:45:57,030 --> 00:45:59,940 So I like throw on my vest real quick, my helmet. 807 00:45:59,940 --> 00:46:02,550 I don't even think I wiped my ass, and I take off running. 808 00:46:02,550 --> 00:46:04,320 Outside of the door 809 00:46:04,320 --> 00:46:05,790 and you got the maintenance bay right there. 810 00:46:05,790 --> 00:46:07,803 This is on our FOB, FOB Paliwoda. 811 00:46:09,660 --> 00:46:12,180 And we were QRF, Quick Reaction Force. 812 00:46:12,180 --> 00:46:16,800 So it was our job to go to the point of origin, the POO, 813 00:46:16,800 --> 00:46:18,360 that was tracked by a satellite 814 00:46:18,360 --> 00:46:20,010 that would give us the exact coordinates 815 00:46:20,010 --> 00:46:20,843 of where it came from, 816 00:46:20,843 --> 00:46:22,820 it would track the trajectory of the round. 817 00:46:24,210 --> 00:46:27,030 So we load up, we get in the Humvees. 818 00:46:27,030 --> 00:46:30,220 We stop and set up a traffic control checkpoint 819 00:46:32,435 --> 00:46:34,467 to try to find the mortarmen. 820 00:46:35,894 --> 00:46:37,980 Well, we see a white truck coming in our direction, 821 00:46:37,980 --> 00:46:40,290 they see us and they fuckin' haul ass and do a U-turn. 822 00:46:40,290 --> 00:46:42,180 So it's like, "Hey, jump in, jump in, get in the vehicle. 823 00:46:42,180 --> 00:46:44,010 There they are." 824 00:46:44,010 --> 00:46:46,923 Man, we're chasing this fricking truck vehicle. 825 00:46:47,790 --> 00:46:51,033 We go about 30 miles away from where we're supposed to be. 826 00:46:52,200 --> 00:46:53,760 It's like we damn near ended up in Fallujah 827 00:46:53,760 --> 00:46:54,783 from what I gather. 828 00:46:56,970 --> 00:47:00,314 I was an E-3, E-4, so I really didn't like, 829 00:47:00,314 --> 00:47:02,220 you know, I wasn't making any fuckin' decisions. 830 00:47:02,220 --> 00:47:03,970 Just driving a Humvee at this time. 831 00:47:05,910 --> 00:47:07,143 So we chase them. 832 00:47:08,640 --> 00:47:12,303 Again, to some village right in front of a house. 833 00:47:13,590 --> 00:47:16,320 They parked the truck, it was a white truck, 834 00:47:16,320 --> 00:47:19,530 three males, military-age males jump out, 835 00:47:19,530 --> 00:47:21,840 they run through a house. 836 00:47:21,840 --> 00:47:23,850 Even though I was the driver of the Humvee, 837 00:47:23,850 --> 00:47:26,700 something told me just get out and fuckin' chase 'em. 838 00:47:26,700 --> 00:47:29,550 Right, so I jump out 839 00:47:29,550 --> 00:47:30,930 and instead of us going through the house, 840 00:47:30,930 --> 00:47:32,520 we went around the side. 841 00:47:32,520 --> 00:47:36,840 And as I'm looking, Sergeant Hendrickson is over there 842 00:47:36,840 --> 00:47:39,990 and he's handling one of the dudes, 843 00:47:39,990 --> 00:47:40,823 one of the older guys, right? 844 00:47:40,823 --> 00:47:45,823 It is him and he's handling him, we'll just say that. 845 00:47:46,200 --> 00:47:51,200 So now you see two guys running, me, Hinks and Deano. 846 00:47:53,670 --> 00:47:55,890 These dudes are fuckin' gaining on us. 847 00:47:55,890 --> 00:47:57,690 Right, we didn't know if they had weapons on them, 848 00:47:57,690 --> 00:48:01,020 they just fuckin' like, it was all bad. 849 00:48:01,020 --> 00:48:02,703 Bad area, bad people. 850 00:48:03,750 --> 00:48:05,820 That was the crazy thing about fuckin' Iraq is that, 851 00:48:05,820 --> 00:48:07,970 you know, they didn't really wear uniforms. 852 00:48:09,990 --> 00:48:12,810 So I asked my sergeant, "Can we shoot warning shots? 853 00:48:12,810 --> 00:48:13,860 Can we shoot warning shots?" 854 00:48:13,860 --> 00:48:16,290 So he's like, "Yeah." So it's like boom, boom, right? 855 00:48:16,290 --> 00:48:18,990 Warning shots get fuckin' fired, dudes are still running. 856 00:48:18,990 --> 00:48:21,873 I was like, man, these guys are really up to no good. 857 00:48:22,800 --> 00:48:25,530 So I see one kind of turning, 858 00:48:25,530 --> 00:48:27,750 kind of like turning to the left. 859 00:48:27,750 --> 00:48:30,550 And then that's when I draw on him and just, boom, boom. 860 00:48:31,410 --> 00:48:33,963 The dude was like 250 meters away, 300. 861 00:48:35,250 --> 00:48:37,080 And when I seen he was running, 862 00:48:37,080 --> 00:48:38,820 he skipped the ground with his hand. 863 00:48:38,820 --> 00:48:40,623 I'm like, holy fuck. I shot him. 864 00:48:42,420 --> 00:48:43,503 So he kept running. 865 00:48:45,450 --> 00:48:46,900 I mean, they were a distance. 866 00:48:48,000 --> 00:48:50,220 And when we come up to the guy, 867 00:48:50,220 --> 00:48:54,630 there's a canal that's empty of water, but there's mud. 868 00:48:54,630 --> 00:48:56,163 It's a very muddy canal. 869 00:48:57,600 --> 00:49:01,560 And the dude is on his knees like this, soaked, 870 00:49:01,560 --> 00:49:02,733 soaked in blood. 871 00:49:05,490 --> 00:49:06,720 And I remember thinking in my head, 872 00:49:06,720 --> 00:49:08,340 God, please let that be mud. 873 00:49:08,340 --> 00:49:10,230 Please let that be mud, right? 874 00:49:10,230 --> 00:49:13,080 I was hoping it would be mud from what he had just crossed. 875 00:49:13,080 --> 00:49:15,300 And the dude was wearing sandals, which caught me off guard. 876 00:49:15,300 --> 00:49:17,130 Like, how the hell did he keep his sandals on 877 00:49:17,130 --> 00:49:17,963 through that mud? 878 00:49:17,963 --> 00:49:20,520 Right, you would think it would've got stuck. 879 00:49:20,520 --> 00:49:22,713 So we end up coming up, coming behind him. 880 00:49:24,120 --> 00:49:27,420 And my sergeant yells, "Hey, you shot him, you search him." 881 00:49:27,420 --> 00:49:29,400 So I just kicked him. Boom. 882 00:49:29,400 --> 00:49:32,130 I kicked him in the back and he fuckin' falls forward. 883 00:49:32,130 --> 00:49:34,470 And now he's in the prone position. 884 00:49:34,470 --> 00:49:35,550 And I'm standing over him, 885 00:49:35,550 --> 00:49:38,160 'cause they did teach us how to do EPW searches, 886 00:49:38,160 --> 00:49:41,910 enemy prisoner of war searches, in case they have grenades, 887 00:49:41,910 --> 00:49:44,100 which is one of the last stands 888 00:49:44,100 --> 00:49:45,810 or one last-ditch efforts that they'll do 889 00:49:45,810 --> 00:49:47,760 is they'll lay on top of a grenade 890 00:49:47,760 --> 00:49:51,060 or just fuckin' pull the pin and just take everybody out. 891 00:49:51,060 --> 00:49:53,310 So he's like, "You shot him, you search him." 892 00:49:57,171 --> 00:50:00,750 So I go to search him and I put my hands on his back 893 00:50:00,750 --> 00:50:02,763 and my fuckin' hands slipped. 894 00:50:03,960 --> 00:50:05,520 He's wearing a man-dress, 895 00:50:05,520 --> 00:50:10,520 and my hand slipped on the red, slick blood, dark ass blood. 896 00:50:10,620 --> 00:50:14,100 And I fell on top of him and I'm like, "Ah!" 897 00:50:14,100 --> 00:50:16,200 Right, I looked at my hands and I just remember thinking, 898 00:50:16,200 --> 00:50:18,210 like, damn, I have blood on my hands, right, 899 00:50:18,210 --> 00:50:21,153 like the figure of speech, I have blood on my hands. 900 00:50:23,520 --> 00:50:25,560 So by then another sergeant came, 901 00:50:25,560 --> 00:50:27,633 who he claimed to be a medic, 902 00:50:28,470 --> 00:50:30,210 but he gets here and he starts panicking 903 00:50:30,210 --> 00:50:33,870 'cause the dude's exit wound is here in his neck, right? 904 00:50:33,870 --> 00:50:36,330 Again, I'd never seen a gunshot wound. 905 00:50:36,330 --> 00:50:40,800 I had never shot anybody up until that point. 906 00:50:40,800 --> 00:50:42,743 You know, this is like really happening. 907 00:50:44,460 --> 00:50:47,490 So Sergeant Deano tells him, "Hey, patch him up. 908 00:50:47,490 --> 00:50:49,680 You're supposed to be a fuckin' medic." 909 00:50:49,680 --> 00:50:50,670 And he says, "Hey, let's go. 910 00:50:50,670 --> 00:50:52,650 We still have to go and get the other guy." 911 00:50:52,650 --> 00:50:56,326 Right, so it was me and then we were all regrouped. 912 00:50:56,326 --> 00:50:59,520 Hendo, Deano, Hinks and me and I 913 00:50:59,520 --> 00:51:02,550 and we're running, the other guy disappeared, man. 914 00:51:02,550 --> 00:51:05,220 Holy shit, he ran into a fuckin' village. 915 00:51:05,220 --> 00:51:06,720 It was a bad village, dude. 916 00:51:06,720 --> 00:51:07,890 It was a really bad village. 917 00:51:07,890 --> 00:51:09,960 I mean, you would think because you're in Iraq, 918 00:51:09,960 --> 00:51:13,320 it's a hostile area of combat operations 919 00:51:13,320 --> 00:51:16,320 like 24/7 everywhere. 920 00:51:16,320 --> 00:51:19,050 Some fuckin' places are more sketchier than others 921 00:51:19,050 --> 00:51:21,390 and just different things that give away. 922 00:51:21,390 --> 00:51:24,030 Like the way people look at you in their eyes, 923 00:51:24,030 --> 00:51:25,650 it's like the hate is radiating 924 00:51:25,650 --> 00:51:28,920 from people's like body, souls. 925 00:51:28,920 --> 00:51:31,440 And we were seeing a lot of that. 926 00:51:31,440 --> 00:51:34,860 Pictures of Saddam Hussein up on people's walls. 927 00:51:34,860 --> 00:51:37,080 That wasn't something we had necessarily encountered 928 00:51:37,080 --> 00:51:38,700 in our area of operations. 929 00:51:38,700 --> 00:51:42,450 I told you we had driven frickin' 30 minutes out of our AO. 930 00:51:42,450 --> 00:51:45,300 And I remember clearing a house clearing it, 931 00:51:45,300 --> 00:51:48,000 and there was an old lady in a wheelchair. 932 00:51:48,000 --> 00:51:51,630 And as I come across the room, she just stares at me. 933 00:51:51,630 --> 00:51:53,433 She's just in the wheelchair, like. 934 00:51:55,260 --> 00:51:58,590 Doesn't say nothing to me, I don't say nothing to her. 935 00:51:58,590 --> 00:52:00,540 It is almost like she's used to 936 00:52:00,540 --> 00:52:03,420 people coming in her house with guns 937 00:52:03,420 --> 00:52:04,980 and it's like just keep pushing, right? 938 00:52:04,980 --> 00:52:07,593 Like, she's not a threat, keep pushing. 939 00:52:11,490 --> 00:52:13,620 We start getting like the heebie-jeebies. 940 00:52:13,620 --> 00:52:14,880 Like, Hey, we gotta get outta here. 941 00:52:14,880 --> 00:52:17,670 We gotta get outta here, we've been here for too long. 942 00:52:17,670 --> 00:52:19,410 We've been here for too long, we're in a bad area. 943 00:52:19,410 --> 00:52:22,140 It's just a matter of time before they come down on us. 944 00:52:22,140 --> 00:52:26,253 And so we start making our way back to the vehicle. 945 00:52:28,890 --> 00:52:31,740 And you had the family members of that individual 946 00:52:31,740 --> 00:52:33,150 that I shot were crying. 947 00:52:33,150 --> 00:52:36,120 I mean, I assume they were their family members. 948 00:52:36,120 --> 00:52:37,890 And then you had the dad, 949 00:52:37,890 --> 00:52:39,450 which this is what I found extremely odd. 950 00:52:39,450 --> 00:52:41,517 The dad walks up to me and I shake the dad's hand 951 00:52:41,517 --> 00:52:43,113 and the dad shakes my hand. 952 00:52:46,440 --> 00:52:49,593 So if there was a major event, which there were, 953 00:52:50,670 --> 00:52:52,590 they would send the chaplain over to us 954 00:52:52,590 --> 00:52:55,410 in our little makeshift barracks. 955 00:52:55,410 --> 00:52:58,500 You know, initially it was just a big open bay, 956 00:52:58,500 --> 00:53:01,140 then we somehow got some plywood and made cubicles, 957 00:53:01,140 --> 00:53:02,580 two-man cubicles. 958 00:53:02,580 --> 00:53:05,580 But we're learning this as it's happening. 959 00:53:05,580 --> 00:53:08,070 The big army will send a chaplain over to us 960 00:53:08,070 --> 00:53:11,310 and talk to us about what's going on. 961 00:53:11,310 --> 00:53:14,310 Of course, we're not gonna openly, you know, 962 00:53:14,310 --> 00:53:16,050 pour our heart and soul into this guy. 963 00:53:16,050 --> 00:53:18,120 We don't even know him and we're not trying to look weak. 964 00:53:18,120 --> 00:53:22,383 So at that time, right, I don't have that same mindset. 965 00:53:26,310 --> 00:53:27,360 'Cause you gotta understand, bro, 966 00:53:27,360 --> 00:53:29,010 weakness will get you killed. 967 00:53:29,010 --> 00:53:31,620 You gotta be fuckin hard, stern. 968 00:53:31,620 --> 00:53:32,880 I mean, you gotta be a killer 969 00:53:32,880 --> 00:53:35,880 to survive and adapt in that environment. 970 00:53:35,880 --> 00:53:37,533 You can get got at any time. 971 00:53:38,580 --> 00:53:39,840 Like about five minutes ago, 972 00:53:39,840 --> 00:53:42,190 the Humvee that I drive just got hit by an IED. 973 00:53:43,254 --> 00:53:45,480 But the other squad was driving it. 974 00:53:45,480 --> 00:53:46,350 Pretty fuckin' scary. 975 00:53:46,350 --> 00:53:47,940 - [Soldier] Joe, why you ain't got no fuckin' grease 976 00:53:47,940 --> 00:53:49,203 on his face, Specialist? 977 00:53:51,000 --> 00:53:51,833 Dad's mad. 978 00:53:53,670 --> 00:53:57,840 - It's PFC Roberts Zimmerman reporting from Balad, Iraq. 979 00:53:57,840 --> 00:54:00,270 As you can see, the weather out there is fucking shitty. 980 00:54:00,270 --> 00:54:02,610 Fucking electric lines and transformers 981 00:54:02,610 --> 00:54:04,200 are blowing all over the place. 982 00:54:04,200 --> 00:54:05,150 [Hector] Oh fuck. 983 00:54:07,350 --> 00:54:08,820 - [Zimmerman] What is it, from the fuckin' sand? 984 00:54:08,820 --> 00:54:10,220 It's probably from the sand. 985 00:54:12,540 --> 00:54:14,880 [Weeks] A big ass piece of metal. 986 00:54:14,880 --> 00:54:17,530 - Oh man, that's what this is, a piece of a shrapnel 987 00:54:18,480 --> 00:54:21,750 from the bomb that went off right next to my vehicle today. 988 00:54:21,750 --> 00:54:23,220 - A bomb? - Yeah man, 989 00:54:23,220 --> 00:54:25,620 a roadside bomb fuckin' almost blew me up today. 990 00:54:25,620 --> 00:54:27,663 A piece of the metal. Check it out. 991 00:54:28,892 --> 00:54:32,943 Check out this little piece. 992 00:54:32,943 --> 00:54:34,193 [Weeks] Good shit, huh? 993 00:54:37,770 --> 00:54:40,192 That's a big piece of fuckin' metal. 994 00:54:40,192 --> 00:54:41,025 Yep. 995 00:54:42,003 --> 00:54:43,500 12th of May. 996 00:54:43,500 --> 00:54:44,460 [Weeks] So how do you feel? 997 00:54:44,460 --> 00:54:47,132 How do you feel about that flying past your head? 998 00:54:47,132 --> 00:54:49,953 Nah. can't really do much about it. 999 00:54:50,850 --> 00:54:53,190 We killed somebody though, that's what counts. 1000 00:54:53,190 --> 00:54:54,750 Hopefully it was the guy. 1001 00:54:54,750 --> 00:54:57,332 If it want, oh well. Really don't know. 1002 00:54:57,332 --> 00:54:59,995 - That's about it. - All right. 1003 00:54:59,995 --> 00:55:02,495 (gun banging) 1004 00:55:09,719 --> 00:55:12,219 (gun banging) 1005 00:55:19,503 --> 00:55:22,003 (gun banging) 1006 00:55:26,901 --> 00:55:29,401 [Soldier] Six in the barrel. 1007 00:55:32,190 --> 00:55:35,193 - First time I met Doc Daclan was in Hohenfels. 1008 00:55:37,230 --> 00:55:40,470 We actually had a medic prior to him 1009 00:55:40,470 --> 00:55:42,540 that refused to fire his weapon 1010 00:55:42,540 --> 00:55:45,870 on one of the live fire ranges and our platoon sergeant, 1011 00:55:45,870 --> 00:55:48,300 Sergeant First Class Goehlich, kicked him out. 1012 00:55:48,300 --> 00:55:49,860 He's like, "Hey, get outta here. I don't need you. 1013 00:55:49,860 --> 00:55:52,020 I need somebody that's gonna fuckin' fire their weapon." 1014 00:55:52,020 --> 00:55:56,643 And asked for a replacement, which was Doc Daclan, Edgar. 1015 00:55:58,249 --> 00:56:00,916 (guns banging) 1016 00:56:07,396 --> 00:56:10,563 (soldiers chattering) 1017 00:56:11,823 --> 00:56:14,406 (guns banging) 1018 00:56:17,520 --> 00:56:19,890 I ended up going to the PX at Hohenfels 1019 00:56:19,890 --> 00:56:23,043 and buying this big giant Rambo knife, like a gimmick. 1020 00:56:24,120 --> 00:56:26,790 And it came with a compass 1021 00:56:26,790 --> 00:56:29,010 and I was so excited, man, probably like a bargain, 1022 00:56:29,010 --> 00:56:30,930 probably like 10 bucks. 1023 00:56:30,930 --> 00:56:33,120 And I was so anxious to open it up 1024 00:56:33,120 --> 00:56:35,760 that I actually sliced my hand open with that knife. 1025 00:56:35,760 --> 00:56:38,460 And we were in the billets, 1026 00:56:38,460 --> 00:56:39,327 you know, the little barracks area. 1027 00:56:39,327 --> 00:56:40,920 And I go up to the medic, Doc, 1028 00:56:40,920 --> 00:56:43,320 and I'm like, Hey Doc, can you help me out here? 1029 00:56:44,490 --> 00:56:45,413 And he starts bandaging me up. 1030 00:56:45,413 --> 00:56:47,220 This is the first time I meet him. 1031 00:56:47,220 --> 00:56:49,200 And he has that like high-pitched voice 1032 00:56:49,200 --> 00:56:50,880 and he is like, "Hey, man, you gotta be careful 1033 00:56:50,880 --> 00:56:52,530 when you're messing with these knives." 1034 00:56:52,530 --> 00:56:53,607 And I'm like, "I know, man, I know." 1035 00:56:53,607 --> 00:56:56,457 And he starts like bandaging my hand. 1036 00:56:56,457 --> 00:56:58,650 And even then I just remember thinking like, 1037 00:56:58,650 --> 00:56:59,700 this dude's so caring, 1038 00:56:59,700 --> 00:57:01,950 like this dude's so passionate about his job. 1039 00:57:04,965 --> 00:57:07,548 (somber music) 1040 00:57:14,538 --> 00:57:17,371 (engine rumbling) 1041 00:57:24,560 --> 00:57:28,227 (engine continues rumbling) 1042 00:57:34,050 --> 00:57:37,560 Get in the Humvees, we start driving out the FOB front gate, 1043 00:57:37,560 --> 00:57:40,470 Specialist Maldanado, my boy from Puerto Rico's there, 1044 00:57:40,470 --> 00:57:42,510 and he's just like looking at us, right? 1045 00:57:42,510 --> 00:57:44,880 And I'm looking at him, which was weird 1046 00:57:44,880 --> 00:57:47,220 because like the whole mood was somber. 1047 00:57:47,220 --> 00:57:49,270 It was just weird right out the the gate. 1048 00:57:50,190 --> 00:57:52,680 Normally he would've been like, "Hey, what's up, fuckers." 1049 00:57:52,680 --> 00:57:54,183 But it was just like nothing. 1050 00:57:56,375 --> 00:57:58,958 (somber music) 1051 00:58:02,610 --> 00:58:06,420 We drive to the location where the point of origin is, 1052 00:58:06,420 --> 00:58:08,133 along the Tigris River. 1053 00:58:09,390 --> 00:58:11,250 Right before we get to the POO, 1054 00:58:11,250 --> 00:58:14,193 there's a T-intersection on a hard ball street. 1055 00:58:15,943 --> 00:58:17,220 And I was the third vehicle 1056 00:58:17,220 --> 00:58:19,980 out of four vehicles in the patrol. 1057 00:58:19,980 --> 00:58:21,180 And we hear over the radio 1058 00:58:21,180 --> 00:58:24,720 that the last vehicle had broken down about a mile back. 1059 00:58:24,720 --> 00:58:25,683 Like, what? 1060 00:58:26,550 --> 00:58:30,300 So the lieutenant in the first vehicle made the decision 1061 00:58:30,300 --> 00:58:33,867 to send my vehicle back and link up with them. 1062 00:58:33,867 --> 00:58:35,400 So we're like, "All right." 1063 00:58:35,400 --> 00:58:38,817 So I drive back and I link up with that other vehicle. 1064 00:58:38,817 --> 00:58:41,250 Now I didn't give it any thought 1065 00:58:41,250 --> 00:58:43,710 whether they were gonna stay put or continue mission. 1066 00:58:43,710 --> 00:58:45,630 I mean, I guess I figured they were just gonna stay put 1067 00:58:45,630 --> 00:58:47,223 till we got back and linked up. 1068 00:58:48,175 --> 00:58:50,842 (wind rustling) 1069 00:58:57,150 --> 00:59:00,100 What ended up happening is that patrol went and carried on. 1070 00:59:02,010 --> 00:59:04,890 And Doc, Edgar Daclan was like a grunt to us. 1071 00:59:04,890 --> 00:59:07,440 Even though he was a medic, combat medic, 1072 00:59:07,440 --> 00:59:09,840 he was a grunt to us, 'cause he was always leading, 1073 00:59:09,840 --> 00:59:11,220 he was always kicking in doors, 1074 00:59:11,220 --> 00:59:13,899 he was always shooting his weapon with us. 1075 00:59:13,899 --> 00:59:16,732 (engine rumbling) 1076 00:59:22,761 --> 00:59:25,344 (somber music) 1077 00:59:32,100 --> 00:59:33,540 So as we're there, 1078 00:59:33,540 --> 00:59:35,940 I'm with the last vehicle that broke down. 1079 00:59:35,940 --> 00:59:39,273 We hear. (imitates rumbling) 1080 00:59:42,630 --> 00:59:47,190 Like the loudest rumbling forever. 1081 00:59:47,190 --> 00:59:49,350 Like, I never heard anything like this before. 1082 00:59:49,350 --> 00:59:50,317 Followed by gunfire. 1083 00:59:50,317 --> 00:59:52,156 (explosion booms) 1084 00:59:52,156 --> 00:59:54,870 - Wow. - Don't get up, guys. 1085 00:59:54,870 --> 00:59:56,470 [Soldier] That rocket tracked. 1086 00:59:59,533 --> 01:00:01,087 It took like a fuckin' half a second. 1087 01:00:01,087 --> 01:00:03,450 "Hey, let's go, they're getting hit. Let's go." 1088 01:00:03,450 --> 01:00:05,367 So then my wheel starts spinning like, 1089 01:00:05,367 --> 01:00:06,810 oh, they went forward, right? 1090 01:00:06,810 --> 01:00:10,006 They continued mission, they pushed on and they got hit. 1091 01:00:10,006 --> 01:00:12,688 (wind rustling) 1092 01:00:12,688 --> 01:00:14,188 Here we go, here's part of it. 1093 01:00:17,820 --> 01:00:20,730 The Humvee parked right next to the IED. 1094 01:00:20,730 --> 01:00:23,940 It was a surface leveled IED, meaning it was surface leveled 1095 01:00:23,940 --> 01:00:25,200 and it was in a mound of dirt. 1096 01:00:25,200 --> 01:00:27,950 So there was only dirt covering those artillery rounds. 1097 01:00:28,800 --> 01:00:31,920 And as soon as Doc stepped in front of the Humvee 1098 01:00:31,920 --> 01:00:34,980 and the insurgent saw him, he detonated the IED, 1099 01:00:34,980 --> 01:00:36,753 which blew Doc across the road. 1100 01:00:42,029 --> 01:00:45,517 (explosion booms) 1101 01:00:45,517 --> 01:00:48,000 So I convinced the sergeant like, "Hey, let's go, let's go." 1102 01:00:48,000 --> 01:00:50,040 So we had jumped in the Humvee, 1103 01:00:50,040 --> 01:00:52,650 and I know a shortcut to the location, 1104 01:00:52,650 --> 01:00:53,800 it was through like a dirt road. 1105 01:00:53,800 --> 01:00:58,080 And I see the Humvee that got hit and it was, 1106 01:00:58,080 --> 01:00:59,640 we would come to it like a T. 1107 01:00:59,640 --> 01:01:02,850 I jump out and as soon as I jump out, 1108 01:01:02,850 --> 01:01:05,157 Sergeant Edgar comes around and said, "They killed Doc." 1109 01:01:05,157 --> 01:01:06,930 I'm like, "What do you mean they killed Doc?" 1110 01:01:06,930 --> 01:01:08,700 And he's like, "He's right over there, look." 1111 01:01:08,700 --> 01:01:12,540 And like I look past him and I see a body on the road 1112 01:01:12,540 --> 01:01:13,740 and my vision just goes, 1113 01:01:17,040 --> 01:01:18,740 and my whole world just went dark. 1114 01:01:20,670 --> 01:01:22,980 And like at that moment, my innocence left me. 1115 01:01:22,980 --> 01:01:25,920 Like a shift in my, like my innocence, 1116 01:01:25,920 --> 01:01:27,540 anything I was ever taught, 1117 01:01:27,540 --> 01:01:29,040 that good things happen to good people, 1118 01:01:29,040 --> 01:01:31,500 bad things happen to bad people, shattered, 1119 01:01:31,500 --> 01:01:33,600 fucking shattered on the spot. 1120 01:01:33,600 --> 01:01:36,420 So I run over there, I don't know why. 1121 01:01:36,420 --> 01:01:41,220 And I look down and there's a body, and I look at his face 1122 01:01:41,220 --> 01:01:43,590 and there's droplets of blood on his face. 1123 01:01:43,590 --> 01:01:45,720 But he doesn't look like Doc, right? 1124 01:01:45,720 --> 01:01:48,690 His face is in one piece, his face isn't injured, 1125 01:01:48,690 --> 01:01:50,370 it just doesn't look like Doc. 1126 01:01:50,370 --> 01:01:53,853 And then I started going down, look, scanning his body. 1127 01:01:54,690 --> 01:01:57,750 And then I get to his right leg, his shin, 1128 01:01:57,750 --> 01:01:59,250 and his shin bone is exposed 1129 01:01:59,250 --> 01:02:01,413 so he took like shrapnel to the shin. 1130 01:02:04,560 --> 01:02:07,743 Lieutenant Torres took shrapnel on the bottom of his foot. 1131 01:02:08,940 --> 01:02:12,000 Because when I arrived, Lieutenant Torres was sitting 1132 01:02:12,000 --> 01:02:15,000 on the passenger side of the Humvee, 1133 01:02:15,000 --> 01:02:17,490 holding his foot up like this, cussing. 1134 01:02:17,490 --> 01:02:20,040 And the bottom of his boot was chewed up 1135 01:02:20,040 --> 01:02:22,563 and his foot looked like ground beef. 1136 01:02:23,400 --> 01:02:26,730 Then you had Oneal who was the gunner 1137 01:02:26,730 --> 01:02:29,160 at the time of that Humvee. 1138 01:02:29,160 --> 01:02:32,340 He had his back of his head facing that IED. 1139 01:02:32,340 --> 01:02:34,890 So when that IED blew, boom, 1140 01:02:34,890 --> 01:02:38,700 it blew some shrapnel into his Kevlar. 1141 01:02:38,700 --> 01:02:42,300 We had the old school Kevlars, the ones that came down, 1142 01:02:42,300 --> 01:02:44,340 not like the new ones. 1143 01:02:44,340 --> 01:02:45,600 And that saved his life. 1144 01:02:45,600 --> 01:02:47,430 It punctured his skull 1145 01:02:47,430 --> 01:02:50,070 and it wounded him, took him out of the fight. 1146 01:02:50,070 --> 01:02:52,560 And Hinks was bandaging up Oneal 1147 01:02:52,560 --> 01:02:56,190 and Hinks was bandaging up Lieutenant Torres, 1148 01:02:56,190 --> 01:02:57,480 which was a fucked up feeling 1149 01:02:57,480 --> 01:02:59,280 because we never in our wildest dreams 1150 01:02:59,280 --> 01:03:01,480 anticipated that our medic would get killed. 1151 01:03:02,691 --> 01:03:05,274 (somber music) 1152 01:03:07,710 --> 01:03:10,233 And I'm just like, holy fuck. 1153 01:03:11,700 --> 01:03:12,900 But then I realized like, hey, 1154 01:03:12,900 --> 01:03:16,230 this is an unsecured like scene still, 1155 01:03:16,230 --> 01:03:17,760 we still have to pull security. 1156 01:03:17,760 --> 01:03:19,800 Like the insurgents, the bad guys 1157 01:03:19,800 --> 01:03:24,720 can still be out in the bushes. 1158 01:03:24,720 --> 01:03:27,360 So we look down and they're like, "Hey, Ferrel, 1159 01:03:27,360 --> 01:03:29,760 there's a fucking vehicle coming down the road." 1160 01:03:30,660 --> 01:03:34,500 So you have the dead body, you have my Humvee, 1161 01:03:34,500 --> 01:03:36,750 that Humvee that got hit, the 113, 1162 01:03:36,750 --> 01:03:38,800 and we're set up in this little position. 1163 01:03:40,170 --> 01:03:42,960 But it's on a hard ball so you got traffic trying to come, 1164 01:03:42,960 --> 01:03:46,140 Iraqi civilians trying to come from both sides. 1165 01:03:46,140 --> 01:03:49,533 So I start shooting warning shots at this car. 1166 01:03:50,460 --> 01:03:53,700 Probably had to be an Opal. Everybody drove Opals. 1167 01:03:53,700 --> 01:03:55,503 The the car turns around and leaves. 1168 01:03:56,460 --> 01:03:58,200 Well then I see a white truck coming 1169 01:03:58,200 --> 01:04:00,800 and I do the same thing, but the truck keeps coming. 1170 01:04:03,210 --> 01:04:05,850 So then I shoot in front of the street 1171 01:04:05,850 --> 01:04:09,297 right where that truck is at with my M-16. 1172 01:04:09,297 --> 01:04:10,997 The truck is still fuckin' coming. 1173 01:04:12,600 --> 01:04:14,190 So then I shoot at the engine block. 1174 01:04:14,190 --> 01:04:16,260 And now this is only .556, but I mean, 1175 01:04:16,260 --> 01:04:18,690 I don't know what else to do so I'm like, 1176 01:04:18,690 --> 01:04:20,250 and the fuckin' truck is still coming. 1177 01:04:20,250 --> 01:04:21,990 I'm like, I'm gonna have to kill this dude. 1178 01:04:21,990 --> 01:04:25,405 I'm gonna have to fuckin' kill this dude, right? 1179 01:04:25,405 --> 01:04:27,660 'Cause at that time they had already started implementing 1180 01:04:27,660 --> 01:04:30,123 car bombs, VBIEDs, vehicle borne IEDs. 1181 01:04:31,380 --> 01:04:33,750 I see that there's a driver, but no passenger. 1182 01:04:33,750 --> 01:04:37,560 So I aim at the passenger side window, windshield, 1183 01:04:37,560 --> 01:04:39,537 and just put a couple rounds in there 1184 01:04:39,537 --> 01:04:41,550 and the fucking truck kept coming. 1185 01:04:41,550 --> 01:04:43,590 And I'm like, I'm gonna have to kill this dude. 1186 01:04:43,590 --> 01:04:46,800 I'm gonna have to fuckin' kill this dude, right? 1187 01:04:46,800 --> 01:04:49,110 And it's one of those things, 1188 01:04:49,110 --> 01:04:50,790 like, I don't know if this is a bad guy. 1189 01:04:50,790 --> 01:04:53,610 I don't know if he's a car bomber. Is this a risk? 1190 01:04:53,610 --> 01:04:56,130 By then, the dude is up on us, right? 1191 01:04:56,130 --> 01:04:59,220 So much time, like everything's happening so fast, 1192 01:04:59,220 --> 01:05:00,720 we see that it's a old man, 1193 01:05:00,720 --> 01:05:02,880 dude had to have been 80 or 90 years old. 1194 01:05:02,880 --> 01:05:05,010 Blind, deaf, dumb. 1195 01:05:05,010 --> 01:05:08,670 So we just break the, the window, we drag 'em out, 1196 01:05:08,670 --> 01:05:10,260 we rough 'em up a little bit 1197 01:05:10,260 --> 01:05:14,160 'cause we're highly upset and young 1198 01:05:14,160 --> 01:05:18,030 and our friend just got killed and we him back in the truck 1199 01:05:18,030 --> 01:05:20,077 and he turns around and I hear Hinks say, 1200 01:05:20,077 --> 01:05:21,060 "Hey, did you shoot him?" 1201 01:05:21,060 --> 01:05:23,310 And I'm like, "No," like pissed. 1202 01:05:23,310 --> 01:05:25,350 He fuckin' goes off. 1203 01:05:25,350 --> 01:05:28,020 And now Weeks shows up. 1204 01:05:28,020 --> 01:05:32,490 So it's like, hey, let's go follow the wire, right? 1205 01:05:32,490 --> 01:05:34,830 Because back then they would have two types of IEDs, 1206 01:05:34,830 --> 01:05:38,130 command detonated and remote detonated. 1207 01:05:38,130 --> 01:05:42,780 So command, they would have a copper wire strung out 1208 01:05:42,780 --> 01:05:45,840 to two 155 artillery rounds, or one or three, 1209 01:05:45,840 --> 01:05:48,150 however many they wanted, with a blasting cap 1210 01:05:48,150 --> 01:05:49,230 and then they would string it out 1211 01:05:49,230 --> 01:05:50,460 and they would be there watching you 1212 01:05:50,460 --> 01:05:51,710 with a nine volt battery. 1213 01:05:53,130 --> 01:05:57,840 So we follow the wire and we look and we look right down. 1214 01:05:57,840 --> 01:05:59,520 It was right on the edge of the Tigris. 1215 01:05:59,520 --> 01:06:01,740 The dude had a clear line of sight 1216 01:06:01,740 --> 01:06:03,720 to the Humvee down the canal. 1217 01:06:03,720 --> 01:06:06,120 So they would use different markings to hit you. 1218 01:06:07,050 --> 01:06:09,510 And then when he donated, he ran into the village, 1219 01:06:09,510 --> 01:06:10,740 which we would later drop 1220 01:06:10,740 --> 01:06:12,993 fuckin' two 500-pound bombs on that village. 1221 01:06:13,980 --> 01:06:16,260 After we've traced the wire, 1222 01:06:16,260 --> 01:06:19,410 the dude was nowhere to be found, the insurgent, we go back. 1223 01:06:19,410 --> 01:06:23,850 And it's time to load the bodies on the medevac, right? 1224 01:06:23,850 --> 01:06:27,150 So they tell me to pop smoke, I had red smoke canister. 1225 01:06:27,150 --> 01:06:29,340 I popped it and I threw it into the street, 1226 01:06:29,340 --> 01:06:31,500 but it didn't go where I wanted it to land. 1227 01:06:31,500 --> 01:06:34,890 So I go to pick it up and I burned the shit outta my hand. 1228 01:06:34,890 --> 01:06:36,930 Like, I didn't realize it was gonna be burning so hot. 1229 01:06:36,930 --> 01:06:38,760 So I just dropped it. 1230 01:06:38,760 --> 01:06:41,940 By then pretty much all the reinforcements, 1231 01:06:41,940 --> 01:06:44,670 all the big wigs, everybody came from the FOB. 1232 01:06:44,670 --> 01:06:45,710 We weren't that far from our FOB. 1233 01:06:45,710 --> 01:06:48,930 As a matter of fact, my friends on the FOB 1234 01:06:48,930 --> 01:06:52,020 that heard the explosion, which was like two miles away 1235 01:06:52,020 --> 01:06:54,210 or three miles away, it was so loud 1236 01:06:54,210 --> 01:06:56,370 that they thought it was incoming on the FOB. 1237 01:06:56,370 --> 01:06:59,370 I'm telling you, that IED was just fuckin' weird, different. 1238 01:07:01,860 --> 01:07:06,123 I'm standing in the middle of this empty field in shock. 1239 01:07:09,150 --> 01:07:12,810 Sergeant First Class Joselito gets me and pushes me down. 1240 01:07:12,810 --> 01:07:13,980 He's like, "Hey, you're doing good, Ferrel, 1241 01:07:13,980 --> 01:07:15,630 you're doing good, take a knee." 1242 01:07:15,630 --> 01:07:18,120 At the same time the medevac was landing. 1243 01:07:18,120 --> 01:07:20,970 You know, I didn't realize that I was standing straight up 1244 01:07:20,970 --> 01:07:22,200 and he's like, "Hey, you're doing good." 1245 01:07:22,200 --> 01:07:24,600 Like, I don't know if he noticed I was in shock. 1246 01:07:25,860 --> 01:07:28,050 And we get up afterwards 1247 01:07:28,050 --> 01:07:31,650 and then we start loading the bodies onto the stokes litters 1248 01:07:31,650 --> 01:07:34,080 and onto the helicopter. 1249 01:07:34,080 --> 01:07:36,447 And I remember the helicopter pilot looking at me 1250 01:07:36,447 --> 01:07:39,360 and just me looking at him kind of like, you know, 1251 01:07:39,360 --> 01:07:42,210 like thank you and like take care of them. 1252 01:07:42,210 --> 01:07:45,243 But we had one KIA, two wounded in action. 1253 01:07:47,370 --> 01:07:49,953 Yeah, those guys left and never came back. 1254 01:07:52,920 --> 01:07:56,040 Doc's death hit the platoon fuckin' hard, man. 1255 01:07:56,040 --> 01:07:59,340 It hit the platoon hard because of who he was, right? 1256 01:07:59,340 --> 01:08:00,960 I'm not saying had it been anybody else 1257 01:08:00,960 --> 01:08:05,670 who wouldn't have been dealt the same emotions, 1258 01:08:05,670 --> 01:08:08,793 but because it was him, it fuckin' sucked that much more. 1259 01:08:09,750 --> 01:08:10,583 On top of that, 1260 01:08:10,583 --> 01:08:13,740 September 10th happens to be my mom's birthday, 1261 01:08:13,740 --> 01:08:16,110 which makes it the worst day of my life. 1262 01:08:16,110 --> 01:08:19,440 'cause I had to come back to the FOB, call my mom, 1263 01:08:19,440 --> 01:08:20,790 and tell her happy birthday 1264 01:08:21,720 --> 01:08:23,850 and keep all those feelings inside 1265 01:08:23,850 --> 01:08:25,853 because I didn't want to ruin her birthday. 1266 01:08:29,160 --> 01:08:33,483 It was usually like this, two guys in a cubicle, quiet. 1267 01:08:34,950 --> 01:08:36,360 You know, when Doc got killed, 1268 01:08:36,360 --> 01:08:38,520 it was me and my best man sitting right across 1269 01:08:38,520 --> 01:08:40,080 exactly like we are right now. 1270 01:08:40,080 --> 01:08:41,940 He's crying, I'm crying. 1271 01:08:41,940 --> 01:08:43,680 And he wanted to know what happened. 1272 01:08:43,680 --> 01:08:46,080 And I told him exactly how it happened. 1273 01:08:46,080 --> 01:08:47,970 And he's just like, "Fuck, man." 1274 01:08:47,970 --> 01:08:50,820 It's almost like the facial expressions couldn't hide it. 1275 01:08:54,300 --> 01:08:57,840 It's moments of just sad, extreme sorrow. 1276 01:08:57,840 --> 01:08:59,970 Reflecting back, what could we have done? 1277 01:08:59,970 --> 01:09:01,260 Why couldn't we get killed? 1278 01:09:01,260 --> 01:09:05,520 Survivor's guilt, bouncing stories off of each other. 1279 01:09:05,520 --> 01:09:07,710 And then, hey, guess what? Suit up. Put your shit on. 1280 01:09:07,710 --> 01:09:08,810 We're going out again. 1281 01:09:09,900 --> 01:09:11,250 You know, looking around the room 1282 01:09:11,250 --> 01:09:12,540 and seeing everybody's face, 1283 01:09:12,540 --> 01:09:15,120 it's like that little kid trying to hold their lip in, 1284 01:09:15,120 --> 01:09:16,203 right, from crying. 1285 01:09:17,670 --> 01:09:20,040 I was crying. Other dudes were crying. 1286 01:09:20,040 --> 01:09:23,850 But it's the group mentality as a whole, it's like, 1287 01:09:23,850 --> 01:09:25,350 A, we don't wanna show weakness. 1288 01:09:25,350 --> 01:09:27,090 B, we can't afford to show weakness. 1289 01:09:27,090 --> 01:09:29,040 C, we gotta continue mission. 1290 01:09:29,040 --> 01:09:31,140 But like I said, those glimpses, right? 1291 01:09:31,140 --> 01:09:36,140 Those glimpses of complete sheer terror, 1292 01:09:37,920 --> 01:09:42,510 bewilderment, excitement, joy, right? 1293 01:09:42,510 --> 01:09:44,670 Blowing up a fricking house, blowing up a car, 1294 01:09:44,670 --> 01:09:46,590 and it's like a little kid with some fireworks 1295 01:09:46,590 --> 01:09:48,090 and a little GI Joe doll. 1296 01:09:48,090 --> 01:09:49,140 Boom, right? 1297 01:09:49,140 --> 01:09:51,840 It's like during those glimpses you can catch like, 1298 01:09:51,840 --> 01:09:54,330 hey, you know, we're still kids, 1299 01:09:54,330 --> 01:09:58,110 but I'll tell you what thing, man, 13 months of that, 1300 01:09:58,110 --> 01:10:01,350 18 months of that, 15 months of that, multiple deployments, 1301 01:10:01,350 --> 01:10:03,420 you do lose your innocence, fuckin' fast 1302 01:10:05,242 --> 01:10:07,992 (wind rustling) 1303 01:10:16,928 --> 01:10:20,788 (wind continues rustling) 1304 01:10:20,788 --> 01:10:23,371 (somber music) 1305 01:10:31,165 --> 01:10:34,582 (somber music continues) 1306 01:10:42,003 --> 01:10:45,420 (somber music continues) 1307 01:10:52,863 --> 01:10:56,280 (somber music continues) 1308 01:11:03,993 --> 01:11:07,410 (somber music continues) 1309 01:11:14,868 --> 01:11:18,285 (somber music continues) 1310 01:11:21,960 --> 01:11:23,583 February, 2005. 1311 01:11:25,756 --> 01:11:27,090 The lieutenant colonel pulled us 1312 01:11:27,090 --> 01:11:30,150 into an airplane hangar in Germany. 1313 01:11:30,150 --> 01:11:32,640 He said, these three things, don't drink and drive. 1314 01:11:32,640 --> 01:11:33,720 don't beat your wife, 1315 01:11:33,720 --> 01:11:35,820 and if you hear loud sounds, you may flinch. 1316 01:11:35,820 --> 01:11:38,160 Have a good day. Boom. 1317 01:11:38,160 --> 01:11:40,170 Coming back home, bro, to San Diego, 1318 01:11:40,170 --> 01:11:41,913 to El Centro, to Brawley. 1319 01:11:43,230 --> 01:11:45,600 I felt like a fuckin' alien, dude. 1320 01:11:45,600 --> 01:11:48,210 Like an absolute fucking alien. 1321 01:11:48,210 --> 01:11:50,640 My parents didn't understand what was happening to me. 1322 01:11:50,640 --> 01:11:53,490 My sister didn't understand what I had just went through. 1323 01:11:54,540 --> 01:11:56,520 My friends knew that I was turned up 1324 01:11:56,520 --> 01:11:59,140 and that I was drinking the most and doing the most 1325 01:12:00,750 --> 01:12:03,660 and acting bizarre, wild, and unusual. 1326 01:12:03,660 --> 01:12:05,190 But they enjoyed that shit. 1327 01:12:05,190 --> 01:12:07,710 I was a life of the fuckin' party. 1328 01:12:07,710 --> 01:12:09,960 And that's where it was a double-edged sword. 1329 01:12:12,533 --> 01:12:14,783 (no audio) 1330 01:12:23,477 --> 01:12:27,576 Hit him. 1331 01:12:27,576 --> 01:12:28,826 Daclan. Daclan. 1332 01:12:30,877 --> 01:12:31,710 Help. 1333 01:12:32,949 --> 01:12:33,782 What? 1334 01:12:35,296 --> 01:12:38,366 Back up. Back up. Get away. 1335 01:12:38,366 --> 01:12:39,203 Get away! 1336 01:12:39,203 --> 01:12:43,953 (citizens speaking in foreign language) 1337 01:12:46,232 --> 01:12:48,482 (no audio) 1338 01:12:55,178 --> 01:12:58,428 (microwave door thuds) 1339 01:13:02,060 --> 01:13:05,850 - So in April of 2004, yeah, I shot a dude, right? 1340 01:13:05,850 --> 01:13:08,730 The dude was bleeding out. We fuckin' ran up to the scene. 1341 01:13:08,730 --> 01:13:10,280 The dude was bleeding out, man. 1342 01:13:11,640 --> 01:13:13,800 The exit wound was coming out of his neck. 1343 01:13:13,800 --> 01:13:18,300 And while he didn't die then and there, you know, 1344 01:13:18,300 --> 01:13:19,890 my sergeant would later on tell me like, 1345 01:13:19,890 --> 01:13:21,840 yeah, that dude fuckin' didn't make it. 1346 01:13:25,307 --> 01:13:26,370 That happened in April. 1347 01:13:26,370 --> 01:13:31,370 I got R and R, rest in relaxation, in August. 1348 01:13:31,860 --> 01:13:34,620 I was already kind of fighting that in my mind. 1349 01:13:34,620 --> 01:13:35,610 Like, am I gonna go to hell? 1350 01:13:35,610 --> 01:13:37,500 I grew up with a religious background, Catholic. 1351 01:13:37,500 --> 01:13:39,500 So I'm like, I know the 10 Commandments. 1352 01:13:41,460 --> 01:13:43,680 Well, I surprised my parents when I came back in August 1353 01:13:43,680 --> 01:13:48,480 for R and R and they threw me on the whim block party 1354 01:13:48,480 --> 01:13:49,830 with all the neighbors. 1355 01:13:49,830 --> 01:13:51,900 Well, I remember getting drunk and crying 1356 01:13:51,900 --> 01:13:54,510 and saying, I'm a murderer, I've killed somebody. 1357 01:13:54,510 --> 01:13:56,100 And like, fuck, man. 1358 01:13:56,100 --> 01:13:57,630 You could just imagine the neighbors looking at me. 1359 01:13:57,630 --> 01:13:58,953 This was in 2004. 1360 01:14:00,210 --> 01:14:02,250 I didn't plan that. 1361 01:14:02,250 --> 01:14:05,283 You know, once the alcohol started flowing, 1362 01:14:07,650 --> 01:14:09,630 that's kind of just what came out 1363 01:14:09,630 --> 01:14:12,960 and everything always been inside of me, right? 1364 01:14:12,960 --> 01:14:16,110 In my thoughts, in my gut, and in my heart. 1365 01:14:16,110 --> 01:14:19,143 But when I drank, shit came out. 1366 01:14:20,490 --> 01:14:23,283 In a very unhealthy, very ugly way. 1367 01:14:26,310 --> 01:14:31,310 I wrestled with that, tackled with that 1368 01:14:34,380 --> 01:14:39,380 thought, memory, idea, action, for a long, long time, man. 1369 01:14:39,600 --> 01:14:42,210 And that just goes hand in hand with every other trauma 1370 01:14:42,210 --> 01:14:45,123 that I experienced throughout the duration of the war. 1371 01:14:46,440 --> 01:14:47,273 My war. 1372 01:14:50,839 --> 01:14:53,589 (birds chirping) 1373 01:14:59,897 --> 01:15:03,647 (helicopter blades whirring) 1374 01:15:10,878 --> 01:15:14,035 (helicopter blades continues whirring) 1375 01:15:14,035 --> 01:15:17,035 (soldiers laughing) 1376 01:15:19,110 --> 01:15:21,943 (explosion booms) 1377 01:15:23,097 --> 01:15:25,659 You guys are fuckin' crazy. 1378 01:15:25,659 --> 01:15:29,235 You need your little AK-47 now, dude. 1379 01:15:29,235 --> 01:15:32,104 (engine rumbling) 1380 01:15:32,104 --> 01:15:35,104 (citizens shouting) 1381 01:15:47,419 --> 01:15:49,669 (no audio) 1382 01:15:50,653 --> 01:15:53,236 (somber music) 1383 01:16:01,601 --> 01:16:05,018 (somber music continues) 1384 01:16:13,240 --> 01:16:16,657 (somber music continues) 1385 01:16:20,400 --> 01:16:24,510 - The whole year of 2005, I was definitely drunk 1386 01:16:24,510 --> 01:16:27,030 and the majority of times under the influence 1387 01:16:27,030 --> 01:16:29,130 of a controlled substance. 1388 01:16:29,130 --> 01:16:33,420 Marijuana, cocaine, meth, and those were the three. 1389 01:16:33,420 --> 01:16:36,603 And to be honest with you, this is what it looked like. 1390 01:16:38,100 --> 01:16:41,193 Wake up at nighttime, start drinking, okay? 1391 01:16:42,210 --> 01:16:44,070 Start dabbling in some coke. 1392 01:16:44,070 --> 01:16:45,630 That's the word I was looking for, dabbling, 1393 01:16:45,630 --> 01:16:46,930 'cause I wanted to get up. 1394 01:16:47,820 --> 01:16:49,183 It didn't put me up where I wanted to, 1395 01:16:49,183 --> 01:16:51,690 so I would smoke some meth or snort some meth 1396 01:16:51,690 --> 01:16:53,340 and it would put me too up. 1397 01:16:53,340 --> 01:16:54,600 So then I would kind of panic 1398 01:16:54,600 --> 01:16:55,873 and smoke some weed to bring me down. 1399 01:16:55,873 --> 01:16:58,890 And then I would just continue that rollercoaster from hell 1400 01:16:58,890 --> 01:17:00,573 for the whole 2005. 1401 01:17:04,530 --> 01:17:06,990 September 10th, the anniversary of my friend getting killed, 1402 01:17:06,990 --> 01:17:09,030 still came around all those years, 1403 01:17:09,030 --> 01:17:09,957 and that's a trigger for me. 1404 01:17:09,957 --> 01:17:12,000 And I had to learn about triggers. 1405 01:17:12,000 --> 01:17:14,400 I had post-traumatic stress disorder. 1406 01:17:14,400 --> 01:17:16,770 I mean, I still have post traumatic stress disorder, 1407 01:17:16,770 --> 01:17:18,270 but I didn't know what the hell that was. 1408 01:17:18,270 --> 01:17:21,660 I literally thought I was losing my fuckin' mind, bro. 1409 01:17:21,660 --> 01:17:24,600 The word anxiety, if I tell you the word anxiety, 1410 01:17:24,600 --> 01:17:25,950 people know the symptoms. 1411 01:17:25,950 --> 01:17:29,193 Oh, anxiety, rapid heart increase, nervousness. 1412 01:17:30,180 --> 01:17:32,400 Not only did I not know the fuckin' word anxiety, 1413 01:17:32,400 --> 01:17:33,595 I didn't know the symptoms. 1414 01:17:33,595 --> 01:17:35,010 I thought I was fuckin' losing my mind 1415 01:17:35,010 --> 01:17:37,200 and having a heart attack simultaneously. 1416 01:17:37,200 --> 01:17:39,060 Adding dope and everything else, 1417 01:17:39,060 --> 01:17:40,863 oh bro, you could just imagine. 1418 01:17:42,210 --> 01:17:45,660 And then when you go through prolonged periods 1419 01:17:45,660 --> 01:17:49,410 of fight or flight scenarios, your brain gets rewired. 1420 01:17:49,410 --> 01:17:51,300 And this is something I learned after the fact 1421 01:17:51,300 --> 01:17:53,100 in therapy and treatment. 1422 01:17:53,100 --> 01:17:55,410 So sending those neurons and everything else, 1423 01:17:55,410 --> 01:17:57,840 and your brain remembering survival things. 1424 01:17:57,840 --> 01:18:00,180 The problem is you get in an argument with your girlfriend, 1425 01:18:00,180 --> 01:18:02,880 you go straight to full combat mode, right? 1426 01:18:02,880 --> 01:18:06,030 She's thinking you're a abusive son of a bitch from hell. 1427 01:18:06,030 --> 01:18:10,320 Right, verbally abusive, physically abusive, and a drunk. 1428 01:18:10,320 --> 01:18:12,690 You look like a fuckin' piece of shit asshole, 1429 01:18:12,690 --> 01:18:13,557 is what you look like. 1430 01:18:13,557 --> 01:18:15,870 But what's really happening is you're suffering, right? 1431 01:18:15,870 --> 01:18:18,240 It's not an excuse at all, right? 1432 01:18:18,240 --> 01:18:19,530 You gotta be held accountable. 1433 01:18:19,530 --> 01:18:21,120 I gotta be accountable for my actions. 1434 01:18:21,120 --> 01:18:24,573 However, that it was an ugly mess. 1435 01:18:26,036 --> 01:18:28,619 (somber music) 1436 01:18:32,400 --> 01:18:34,050 I was the king of self-sabotage, 1437 01:18:34,050 --> 01:18:36,090 the absolute king of self-sabotage. 1438 01:18:36,090 --> 01:18:38,400 I was a manipulator, right? 1439 01:18:38,400 --> 01:18:40,350 And that comes with being an alcoholic. 1440 01:18:40,350 --> 01:18:42,063 The traits of alcoholism. 1441 01:18:44,490 --> 01:18:47,310 I knew something wasn't right, bro. I wasn't happy. 1442 01:18:47,310 --> 01:18:48,596 I wasn't happy. 1443 01:18:48,596 --> 01:18:50,250 You know, you hear people say, they look in the mirror, 1444 01:18:50,250 --> 01:18:51,930 they don't like the person that they see. 1445 01:18:51,930 --> 01:18:53,550 Well, I mean, I would look in the mirror, 1446 01:18:53,550 --> 01:18:56,430 I didn't think I was fuckin', you know, bad looking. 1447 01:18:56,430 --> 01:18:59,640 But I didn't like the person that was inside of me. 1448 01:18:59,640 --> 01:19:02,190 And that person inside of me came out when I drank. 1449 01:19:06,856 --> 01:19:08,190 There was no forethought though. 1450 01:19:08,190 --> 01:19:13,110 There was no knowledge of what scientifically 1451 01:19:13,110 --> 01:19:15,510 was happening to me or what I was enduring, 1452 01:19:15,510 --> 01:19:16,740 if that makes sense. 1453 01:19:16,740 --> 01:19:18,240 Like medical terminologies, 1454 01:19:18,240 --> 01:19:21,360 mental health terminology, symptoms. 1455 01:19:21,360 --> 01:19:22,863 It looked fuckin, you know? 1456 01:19:24,027 --> 01:19:26,077 And I remember telling my parents one time like, 1457 01:19:26,077 --> 01:19:28,350 "Hey, this looks ugly to you guys. 1458 01:19:28,350 --> 01:19:31,020 Just imagine what the fuck it looks like inside of me." 1459 01:19:31,020 --> 01:19:34,173 Because yeah, dude, the thoughts, oh my God, bro. 1460 01:19:35,160 --> 01:19:36,990 And I haven't reflected back to that, 1461 01:19:36,990 --> 01:19:39,930 how it was that bad in ages. 1462 01:19:39,930 --> 01:19:41,163 But it was bad, dude. 1463 01:19:44,139 --> 01:19:47,556 (somber music continues) 1464 01:19:50,990 --> 01:19:53,820 In 2010, I would hit my bottom, bro. I'd hit my bottom. 1465 01:19:53,820 --> 01:19:56,223 I'd had a fiance at a time. 1466 01:19:57,630 --> 01:20:00,900 I totaled my truck, I totaled my Toyota Tundra. 1467 01:20:00,900 --> 01:20:04,200 I bought that Toyota Tundra in 2005 as a gift to myself 1468 01:20:04,200 --> 01:20:06,660 coming back from Iraq as a trophy. 1469 01:20:06,660 --> 01:20:07,653 Fuckin' totaled it. 1470 01:20:09,060 --> 01:20:13,380 And I was upset that I didn't die in the accident. 1471 01:20:13,380 --> 01:20:14,553 That's how bad I was. 1472 01:20:15,450 --> 01:20:17,730 My dad said, "I'm gonna drop your fuckin' ass off 1473 01:20:17,730 --> 01:20:19,590 at the VA in La Jolla. 1474 01:20:19,590 --> 01:20:21,690 You're not gonna call us anymore. 1475 01:20:21,690 --> 01:20:24,480 You're not gonna talk to us anymore. You're not my son. 1476 01:20:24,480 --> 01:20:27,483 You're their problem. You're not our problem anymore." Boom. 1477 01:20:28,500 --> 01:20:30,990 Thank God he didn't just drop me off and leave. 1478 01:20:30,990 --> 01:20:32,880 He actually waited right there 1479 01:20:32,880 --> 01:20:35,880 as I checked myself into the emergency room of the VA 1480 01:20:35,880 --> 01:20:39,540 and I told him, "Hey, I need help". 1481 01:20:39,540 --> 01:20:41,160 There was a female working behind the counter 1482 01:20:41,160 --> 01:20:42,240 at the emergency room. 1483 01:20:42,240 --> 01:20:43,590 I said, "I need help." 1484 01:20:43,590 --> 01:20:44,910 She's like, "Well, what's wrong?" 1485 01:20:44,910 --> 01:20:45,743 I said, "I don't know. 1486 01:20:45,743 --> 01:20:47,250 Every time I drink, something bad happens." 1487 01:20:47,250 --> 01:20:48,810 She's like, "Well, what do you mean?" 1488 01:20:48,810 --> 01:20:52,530 I'm like, "I don't know. I have these thoughts. I can't." 1489 01:20:52,530 --> 01:20:55,350 She's like, "All right, have a seat." She was really nice. 1490 01:20:55,350 --> 01:20:57,660 We're gonna get you processed through the room. 1491 01:20:57,660 --> 01:21:01,650 And then that's when my journey began, bro, in 2010, 1492 01:21:01,650 --> 01:21:04,290 of inpatient rehab. 1493 01:21:04,290 --> 01:21:06,420 Started off with a trip to the psych ward 1494 01:21:06,420 --> 01:21:09,090 to south in La Jolla voluntarily. 1495 01:21:09,090 --> 01:21:11,010 They kind of duped me into going up there. 1496 01:21:11,010 --> 01:21:12,390 They said I was gonna get some help. 1497 01:21:12,390 --> 01:21:13,770 There was no help up there, bro. 1498 01:21:13,770 --> 01:21:16,380 It was a fuckin' locked psych ward. 1499 01:21:16,380 --> 01:21:18,450 I did go to my first AA meeting up there, 1500 01:21:18,450 --> 01:21:20,430 which it's been on and cracking ever since, you know, 1501 01:21:20,430 --> 01:21:23,040 and I just hit 13 years of sobriety. 1502 01:21:23,040 --> 01:21:27,000 So that's what that looked like, man. 1503 01:21:27,000 --> 01:21:32,000 It got worse before it got better. 1504 01:21:32,462 --> 01:21:35,045 (somber music) 1505 01:21:43,260 --> 01:21:46,770 Their death like hung over me 1506 01:21:46,770 --> 01:21:49,500 like a fucking black cloud from hell, dude. 1507 01:21:49,500 --> 01:21:52,950 And I blamed all my drinking, my drug usage, 1508 01:21:52,950 --> 01:21:56,010 and all this and all of that, man. 1509 01:21:56,010 --> 01:22:01,010 And the bottom line is I refused to accept their death. 1510 01:22:04,260 --> 01:22:05,410 That's the bottom line. 1511 01:22:06,360 --> 01:22:08,730 I was at the VA hospital, like I said, 1512 01:22:08,730 --> 01:22:12,390 all this fuckin' treatment came from the VA hospital. 1513 01:22:12,390 --> 01:22:17,167 And the doctor's like, "You need to accept Doc's death." 1514 01:22:19,290 --> 01:22:20,790 And I'm like, "Yeah, well that's not gonna happen. 1515 01:22:20,790 --> 01:22:21,990 I don't give a fuck what you say. 1516 01:22:21,990 --> 01:22:25,680 I'm never going to accept Doc's death." 1517 01:22:25,680 --> 01:22:28,380 And he said, "Hector, accepting something 1518 01:22:28,380 --> 01:22:30,630 doesn't mean that you agree with it. 1519 01:22:30,630 --> 01:22:33,750 It simply means that you accept that it happened. 1520 01:22:33,750 --> 01:22:36,840 And I'm like, oh, the light bulb went off. 1521 01:22:36,840 --> 01:22:40,050 And that's exactly what did it for me. 1522 01:22:40,050 --> 01:22:43,320 That's what it was, dude, that was a turning moment 1523 01:22:43,320 --> 01:22:48,320 in accepting, once I was able to accept his death, oh dude, 1524 01:22:48,570 --> 01:22:50,237 it felt like a million pounds lifted off of me. 1525 01:22:50,237 --> 01:22:53,010 Right? I wasn't holding onto that. 1526 01:22:53,010 --> 01:22:56,640 And yeah, you best believe I don't agree with it, 1527 01:22:56,640 --> 01:22:59,013 but now I can accept that it did happen. 1528 01:23:04,380 --> 01:23:08,670 They got killed doing what they enjoyed doing. 1529 01:23:08,670 --> 01:23:11,790 And I know they enjoyed it because we were, 1530 01:23:11,790 --> 01:23:16,590 you know, shoulder to shoulder, kicking in doors together, 1531 01:23:16,590 --> 01:23:20,073 laughing, joking, eating, smoking. 1532 01:23:23,430 --> 01:23:25,620 It's more than just losing a friend. 1533 01:23:25,620 --> 01:23:28,200 It's more than just losing a brother. 1534 01:23:28,200 --> 01:23:32,283 It's what it is, is actually the world got a valuable, 1535 01:23:33,750 --> 01:23:35,793 valuable asset taken from them. 1536 01:23:40,740 --> 01:23:42,930 Everybody went their separate ways. 1537 01:23:42,930 --> 01:23:45,840 My buddy Maez ended up going to NTC, 1538 01:23:45,840 --> 01:23:48,993 Fort Irwin in California. 1539 01:23:51,060 --> 01:23:52,920 The majority of the guys stayed in. 1540 01:23:52,920 --> 01:23:54,330 They got stop-lossed. 1541 01:23:54,330 --> 01:23:55,530 I got out. 1542 01:23:55,530 --> 01:23:57,450 I only did a three year contract. 1543 01:23:57,450 --> 01:23:59,160 I got in and I got out, right? 1544 01:23:59,160 --> 01:24:00,390 It was kind of a perfect thing. 1545 01:24:00,390 --> 01:24:02,670 Train, deploy for 13 months, 1546 01:24:02,670 --> 01:24:06,180 and then, well, I went from Iraq to home, dude, 1547 01:24:06,180 --> 01:24:07,770 that's kind of a problem. 1548 01:24:07,770 --> 01:24:10,290 And they got stop-lossed 1549 01:24:10,290 --> 01:24:13,470 and went back to Baghdad for 18 months. 1550 01:24:13,470 --> 01:24:15,390 So not only am I home, 1551 01:24:15,390 --> 01:24:19,200 I'm still losing brothers from my platoon overseas, dude. 1552 01:24:19,200 --> 01:24:23,100 So like I'm home and I'm getting calls that, 1553 01:24:23,100 --> 01:24:24,690 Hey, did you hear about so and so? 1554 01:24:24,690 --> 01:24:25,830 Did you hear about Allen? 1555 01:24:25,830 --> 01:24:27,060 I'm like, "No, don't tell me." 1556 01:24:27,060 --> 01:24:28,460 Yeah, he got fuckin' killed. 1557 01:24:29,490 --> 01:24:30,870 It was with the 10th Mountain, 1558 01:24:30,870 --> 01:24:33,330 'cause he ended up PCSing with the 10th Mountain. 1559 01:24:33,330 --> 01:24:36,660 One that hit me hard was Staff Sergeant Leija, Hector Leija. 1560 01:24:36,660 --> 01:24:39,330 Called him Big Hector, he called me Little Hector. 1561 01:24:39,330 --> 01:24:42,270 He got shot in the head by a sniper in Haifa Street. 1562 01:24:42,270 --> 01:24:44,280 That came out on the news. 1563 01:24:44,280 --> 01:24:46,260 That whole scene came out on the news. 1564 01:24:46,260 --> 01:24:48,150 This is somebody that was my mentor, 1565 01:24:48,150 --> 01:24:50,010 one of my leaders in my platoon 1566 01:24:50,010 --> 01:24:52,680 that took me under his wing when I got into Germany. 1567 01:24:52,680 --> 01:24:54,270 So I'm like hurting, bro. 1568 01:24:54,270 --> 01:24:58,590 Like extremely hurting and all this is happening. 1569 01:24:58,590 --> 01:25:01,743 So some of my friends continued war and died. 1570 01:25:02,748 --> 01:25:05,331 (somber music) 1571 01:25:07,768 --> 01:25:10,530 (sighs) King went back to Philadelphia, 1572 01:25:10,530 --> 01:25:12,423 he killed himself a couple years ago, 1573 01:25:13,953 --> 01:25:17,017 right after Memorial Day or right before Memorial Day. 1574 01:25:19,714 --> 01:25:23,131 (somber music continues) 1575 01:25:30,680 --> 01:25:34,097 (somber music continues) 1576 01:25:41,943 --> 01:25:45,360 (somber music continues) 1577 01:25:52,947 --> 01:25:56,364 (somber music continues) 1578 01:26:03,871 --> 01:26:07,288 (somber music continues) 1579 01:26:14,921 --> 01:26:18,338 (somber music continues) 1580 01:26:20,670 --> 01:26:23,553 I recently got asked to speak at my high school, 1581 01:26:24,540 --> 01:26:26,370 Brawley Union High School for Veterans Day. 1582 01:26:26,370 --> 01:26:27,810 You know, one of my buddies from my hometown, 1583 01:26:27,810 --> 01:26:29,820 he joined the Army Infantry. 1584 01:26:29,820 --> 01:26:31,920 He went to Iraq, he deployed to Afghanistan. 1585 01:26:31,920 --> 01:26:33,600 He's a teacher now. 1586 01:26:33,600 --> 01:26:36,990 So he tells me I'm gonna be the guest speaker to speak 1587 01:26:36,990 --> 01:26:37,823 and that there's gonna be 1588 01:26:37,823 --> 01:26:39,210 other veterans there in attendance. 1589 01:26:39,210 --> 01:26:44,210 So I get there and as soon as I see my buddy Jay, right? 1590 01:26:45,450 --> 01:26:50,280 Jay has a sister my age 1591 01:26:50,280 --> 01:26:53,460 and it's a small town so everybody knows each other. 1592 01:26:53,460 --> 01:26:57,333 And me and him both came back in 2005. 1593 01:26:58,560 --> 01:27:01,173 He was a Marine, he was in Fallujah, 1594 01:27:02,070 --> 01:27:04,710 I was in the Army, I was in Balad. 1595 01:27:04,710 --> 01:27:07,140 We both came back to that hometown 1596 01:27:07,140 --> 01:27:09,180 and we were both suffering 1597 01:27:09,180 --> 01:27:12,780 and hurting the exact identical same way. 1598 01:27:12,780 --> 01:27:17,430 And we remember, I remember him at his low 1599 01:27:17,430 --> 01:27:20,430 and I'm pretty damn sure he remembers me at my low. 1600 01:27:20,430 --> 01:27:24,900 And when I seen him at that like two weeks ago, 1601 01:27:24,900 --> 01:27:27,960 my eyes lit up like, "Oh shit, Jay, what's up?" 1602 01:27:27,960 --> 01:27:29,610 It's like, oh. 1603 01:27:29,610 --> 01:27:32,187 And I said, "We made it, bro. We made it." 1604 01:27:33,401 --> 01:27:35,984 (somber music) 1605 01:27:39,870 --> 01:27:42,000 Five or six of 'em ended up relocating 1606 01:27:42,000 --> 01:27:43,713 to the Phoenix, Arizona area. 1607 01:27:45,660 --> 01:27:49,680 I have made annual trips out to Arizona, 1608 01:27:49,680 --> 01:27:51,330 out to the Phoenix area 1609 01:27:51,330 --> 01:27:53,560 where we will just chop it up like brothers, bro, 1610 01:27:53,560 --> 01:27:54,727 and reminisce. 1611 01:27:57,683 --> 01:28:00,240 And I took my daughter, my daughter was four or five. 1612 01:28:00,240 --> 01:28:01,410 So I introduced her to like, 1613 01:28:01,410 --> 01:28:03,780 hey, these are your uncles, right? 1614 01:28:03,780 --> 01:28:05,530 So that's, you know, we're growing. 1615 01:28:12,150 --> 01:28:13,830 One of my brothers, Hinks, 1616 01:28:13,830 --> 01:28:16,020 he just came to San Diego and brought his daughter. 1617 01:28:16,020 --> 01:28:18,060 His daughter's the same age as mine 1618 01:28:18,060 --> 01:28:19,530 and we were, you know, we were so happy 1619 01:28:19,530 --> 01:28:21,000 that like they can play. 1620 01:28:21,000 --> 01:28:24,870 And then you talk about when we were young 1621 01:28:24,870 --> 01:28:27,450 and it's like, we both were thinking the same thing. 1622 01:28:27,450 --> 01:28:29,220 Like, damn bro, look at us. 1623 01:28:29,220 --> 01:28:31,380 Look at what we went through together young. 1624 01:28:31,380 --> 01:28:34,050 And now look, dude, we're grown men, fathers, 1625 01:28:34,050 --> 01:28:35,910 and look at our daughters together. 1626 01:28:35,910 --> 01:28:38,460 You can't put a price on that. 1627 01:28:38,460 --> 01:28:40,387 You know, it is unexplainable 1628 01:28:44,391 --> 01:28:46,808 (soft music) 1629 01:28:53,867 --> 01:28:57,117 (soft music continues) 1630 01:29:04,961 --> 01:29:08,211 (soft music continues) 1631 01:29:16,119 --> 01:29:19,369 (soft music continues) 1632 01:29:26,888 --> 01:29:30,138 (soft music continues) 1633 01:29:37,984 --> 01:29:41,234 (soft music continues) 1634 01:29:48,927 --> 01:29:52,177 (soft music continues) 1635 01:29:59,751 --> 01:30:03,001 (soft music continues) 1636 01:30:10,756 --> 01:30:14,006 (soft music continues) 1637 01:30:21,980 --> 01:30:25,230 (soft music continues) 1638 01:30:33,112 --> 01:30:36,362 (soft music continues) 1639 01:30:44,146 --> 01:30:47,396 (soft music continues) 1640 01:30:54,838 --> 01:30:58,088 (soft music continues) 1641 01:31:06,159 --> 01:31:09,409 (soft music continues) 1642 01:31:16,221 --> 01:31:19,471 (soft music continues) 1643 01:31:22,193 --> 01:31:24,610 (soft music) 1644 01:31:32,069 --> 01:31:35,319 (soft music continues) 1645 01:31:42,921 --> 01:31:46,171 (soft music continues) 1646 01:31:53,990 --> 01:31:57,240 (soft music continues) 1647 01:32:04,990 --> 01:32:08,240 (soft music continues) 1648 01:32:16,085 --> 01:32:19,335 (soft music continues) 1649 01:32:27,147 --> 01:32:30,397 (soft music continues) 1650 01:32:37,827 --> 01:32:41,077 (soft music continues) 1651 01:32:48,334 --> 01:32:51,584 (soft music continues) 1652 01:32:58,844 --> 01:33:02,094 (soft music continues) 1653 01:33:10,026 --> 01:33:13,276 (soft music continues) 1654 01:33:21,017 --> 01:33:24,267 (soft music continues) 1655 01:33:32,029 --> 01:33:35,279 (soft music continues) 1656 01:33:42,822 --> 01:33:46,072 (soft music continues) 1657 01:33:54,191 --> 01:33:57,441 (soft music continues) 1658 01:34:03,542 --> 01:34:06,542 (soldiers laughing) 1659 01:34:09,703 --> 01:34:13,020 Balad, Iraq, where we have just discovered an IED, 1660 01:34:13,020 --> 01:34:15,557 improvised explosive device ahead of checkpoint 10. 1661 01:34:15,557 --> 01:34:18,240 We are here with Jared Hinks, take it away. 1662 01:34:18,240 --> 01:34:20,550 - That's right, Ferrel, here in Balad, Iraq 1663 01:34:20,550 --> 01:34:22,710 on route Linda where two Hajis, 1664 01:34:22,710 --> 01:34:24,990 excuse me, indigenous personnel. 1665 01:34:24,990 --> 01:34:27,213 - Iraqi members. - Iraqis, 1666 01:34:28,860 --> 01:34:30,750 came to the front gate while we were leaving 1667 01:34:30,750 --> 01:34:32,880 and told us they knew where a bomb was. 1668 01:34:32,880 --> 01:34:34,620 Sergeant Coleman, being the man that he is, 1669 01:34:34,620 --> 01:34:37,533 said, he didn't care, he wanted to continue mission. 1670 01:34:38,520 --> 01:34:40,800 But being the men we are, we said, let's be heroes. 1671 01:34:40,800 --> 01:34:41,733 Let's go get 'em. 1672 01:34:43,140 --> 01:34:46,170 - So here we are now. - The bomb is down there. 1673 01:34:46,170 --> 01:34:48,780 The wait is undescribable. 1674 01:34:48,780 --> 01:34:52,920 Usually pertains to about four to eight hour wait for EOD. 1675 01:34:52,920 --> 01:34:54,870 They have to do certain things to prepare themselves 1676 01:34:54,870 --> 01:34:57,150 to blow up these roadside bombs. 1677 01:34:57,150 --> 01:34:58,068 [Ferrel] With a chance of ambush. 1678 01:34:58,068 --> 01:35:01,473 - Like, getting out of bed, shutting off the PlayStation, 1679 01:35:02,400 --> 01:35:05,673 taking a shower, lacing up their tennis shoes, 1680 01:35:06,810 --> 01:35:08,823 putting on bomb favorite underwear, 1681 01:35:10,140 --> 01:35:13,050 and then coming to blow the bomb up with a robot. 1682 01:35:13,050 --> 01:35:14,193 Strenuous job. 1683 01:35:16,380 --> 01:35:18,000 Oh, if you look to the right, 1684 01:35:18,000 --> 01:35:22,140 there's cars that we are diverting traffic off the road 1685 01:35:22,140 --> 01:35:23,970 onto the canal road. 1686 01:35:23,970 --> 01:35:27,030 - [Hector] Canal road being that road right there. 1687 01:35:27,030 --> 01:35:29,130 If I had it my way, I'd be able to send those cars 1688 01:35:29,130 --> 01:35:32,610 right to the bomb and blow it myself. 1689 01:35:32,610 --> 01:35:37,143 There you got some well hygiened and groomed Iraqi children. 1690 01:35:38,010 --> 01:35:40,893 They're not dirty, dusty, or stinky whatsoever. 1691 01:35:41,940 --> 01:35:43,590 This is a nice home that you would like to, 1692 01:35:43,590 --> 01:35:46,140 you'd most likely see in Beverly Hills, California. 1693 01:35:47,414 --> 01:35:48,450 You see you got the smoke trail. 1694 01:35:48,450 --> 01:35:49,890 [Hinks] They got chickens and cows 1695 01:35:49,890 --> 01:35:52,020 running through their living room. 1696 01:35:52,020 --> 01:35:53,940 Fires burning in the yard. 1697 01:35:53,940 --> 01:35:57,960 - I did see this kid crap in the the living room floor once. 1698 01:35:57,960 --> 01:35:59,700 - [Hector] Look at Sergeant Acosta work his magic. 1699 01:35:59,700 --> 01:36:02,350 Do it again, Sergeant Acosta, please, for the camera. 1700 01:36:03,900 --> 01:36:06,030 Look at his weapon Different than ours. Why? 1701 01:36:06,030 --> 01:36:09,450 Because that bad boy'll spit 30 rounds out in one second. 1702 01:36:09,450 --> 01:36:11,483 - Wanna see a thousand-yard stare? 1703 01:36:14,216 --> 01:36:17,386 - [Soldier] Oh come, come on, I'm nearly coming, come on. 1704 01:36:17,386 --> 01:36:19,405 Don't make me lose that feeling. 1705 01:36:19,405 --> 01:36:21,655 42, 43, one more, one more. 1706 01:36:23,539 --> 01:36:25,122 46, 47, 48, 49, 50! 1707 01:36:29,896 --> 01:36:32,890 (soldiers laughing) 1708 01:36:32,890 --> 01:36:35,193 [Hector] That there was a monkey fucker. 1709 01:36:40,372 --> 01:36:43,372 (soldiers laughing) 1710 01:36:47,995 --> 01:36:50,070 (engine rumbling) 1711 01:36:50,070 --> 01:36:52,620 - [Hector] Hear ye, we are gathered here today 1712 01:36:52,620 --> 01:36:56,100 for our little Richard Freddy Hill. 1713 01:36:56,100 --> 01:36:58,200 Who's not so little anymore. 1714 01:36:58,200 --> 01:37:00,123 It's his 23rd birthday today. 1715 01:37:01,128 --> 01:37:04,410 The 30th of June, 2004. 1716 01:37:04,410 --> 01:37:05,724 Yay. 1717 01:37:05,724 --> 01:37:08,100 - Go on! Cut it. - Cut that motherfucker. 1718 01:37:08,100 --> 01:37:11,910 - [Hector] Richard Hill, do the honors, big guy. 1719 01:37:11,910 --> 01:37:12,743 Big nuts. 1720 01:37:13,680 --> 01:37:15,120 Hold on, hold on. Not yet. 1721 01:37:15,120 --> 01:37:16,350 Hey, Sergeant Stewart, 1722 01:37:16,350 --> 01:37:20,070 welcome to Richard Hill's 23rd birthday party 1723 01:37:20,070 --> 01:37:22,609 where he cuts the watermelon. 1724 01:37:22,609 --> 01:37:25,350 - Cut that bitch. - Begin. 1725 01:37:25,350 --> 01:37:26,253 Cut it, big guy. 1726 01:37:27,143 --> 01:37:27,976 Cut it. 1727 01:37:28,860 --> 01:37:31,052 No, don't cut it long-ways man. 1728 01:37:31,052 --> 01:37:31,885 [Soldier] You ain't got a birthday cake? 1729 01:37:31,885 --> 01:37:33,060 You gonna have a birthday watermelon? 1730 01:37:33,060 --> 01:37:34,740 [Hector] It's a birthday. 1731 01:37:34,740 --> 01:37:35,850 Gave all the cakes to the Hajis. 1732 01:37:35,850 --> 01:37:38,311 Cut it, Richie like you would a man. 1733 01:37:38,311 --> 01:37:40,948 - Yeah, like you're starting right at his sternum. 1734 01:37:40,948 --> 01:37:42,535 - Yeah. - Yeah! 1735 01:37:42,535 --> 01:37:44,495 [Hector] Yeah, big guy! 1736 01:37:44,495 --> 01:37:46,830 (soldiers laughing and cheering) 1737 01:37:46,830 --> 01:37:49,563 23 years old, biggest fuckin' nuts in the platoon. 1738 01:37:51,060 --> 01:37:51,893 [Soldier] Nuts so hard 1739 01:37:51,893 --> 01:37:53,700 that he ate the boogers out of a dead man 1740 01:37:53,700 --> 01:37:54,660 and asked for seconds. 1741 01:37:54,660 --> 01:37:56,777 [Hector] Yeah, there you go. Oh! 1742 01:37:59,245 --> 01:38:01,495 (no audio) 1743 01:38:10,433 --> 01:38:15,243 This is our new room, my roommate Weeks. 1744 01:38:17,940 --> 01:38:19,530 Yeah, this is the friend I was telling you about 1745 01:38:19,530 --> 01:38:23,673 that kind of shot that off in here. 1746 01:38:24,900 --> 01:38:27,480 What do you have to say about that incident, Weeks? 1747 01:38:27,480 --> 01:38:28,400 [Weeks] Hold on. 1748 01:38:28,400 --> 01:38:31,173 [Hector] (laughs) About that day. 1749 01:38:34,020 --> 01:38:35,613 - Man. - Little reenactment. 1750 01:38:36,566 --> 01:38:39,233 (Hector laughs) 1751 01:38:43,320 --> 01:38:44,610 - [Hector] Where'd you get that flashlight? 1752 01:38:44,610 --> 01:38:46,800 Did you order it offline? 'Cause that's fuckin' high speed 1753 01:38:46,800 --> 01:38:48,300 how you got it all hooked up. 1754 01:38:48,300 --> 01:38:49,133 Isn't it? 1755 01:38:52,830 --> 01:38:57,485 Shit, should probably put the safety on. 1756 01:38:57,485 --> 01:39:00,152 (Hector laughs) 1757 01:39:03,342 --> 01:39:05,592 (no audio)