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“Serious illness is a place of solitude.” A quote from Caroline Dawson
Today
I'm requesting medical aid in dying.
I want to go consciously, able to say goodbye to those I love.
Especially my big sister Éléonore, who doesn't know I'm dying.
It's been a long four years without you, Lélé.
If my request is approved, I'll give myself two more weeks.
Thanks for following me even though it's so fucking heavy.
I'll try to keep posting until the end.
WHERE SOULS GO
Several rainfall records were broken overnight Friday.
Over 150 mm of rain fell in under 24 hours.
Significant traffic disruptions remain.
Anna Myers, daughter of renowned pianist Victor Myers,
sparked a social media frenzy by posting on TikTok
that she is requesting MAID.
Today, I'm requesting medical aid in dying.
I want to go consciously, able to say goodbye to those I love.
Especially my big sister Éléonore, who doesn't know I'm dying.
It's been a long four years without you, Lélé.
Hello, you've reached Eve Myers.
Leave me a message.
It's the neighbour lady!
Get lost!
Go on!
Why have a phone if you never answer it?
Hello.
My phone must have died.
Today,
I'm requesting medical aid in dying.
I want to go consciously, able to say goodbye to those I love.
Especially my big sister Éléonore, who doesn't know I'm dying.
It's been a long four years without you, Lélé.
I'm gonna puke.
The shots were a bad idea.
Not getting too old for this, are you?
Did you know Anna was...
What do we do?
What do you mean, what do we do?
We have to respond, we have to go see her.
She mentioned you. She doesn't want to see me.
Of course she does.
She just wanted to provoke.
You should come with me.
Let me think about it.
You can have the day. I'll go do my deliveries.
Shit.
Famed pianist Victor Myers,
convicted of rape and sexual misconduct,
has requested a conditional release
to be with his youngest daughter, who suffers from lymphoma.
Women gather outside the courthouse,
demanding his request be denied out of respect for the victims.
The long and highly publicized trial hinged on the testimony
of his daughters from his first marriage,
whose testimony proved the defendant's guilt
beyond all reasonable doubt.
- Hi, Marion, how are you? - Hi Eve.
- Don't go home right away. - Why not?
Someone's taking photos.
I've never seen them before.
Shit!
I had to hear it on the news.
I thought we were close! Your sister!
Half-sister.
I found out with everybody else.
The party was a bit loud last night.
Yeah, sorry.
Wait, Marion. I said wait!
I'm coming over, Mom.
Don't jump when I knock, I don't have keys.
Mom.
Mom! It's Eve. Open up.
Mom!
What?
It's an emergency.
Anna,
I understand your request for MAID,
and I'm willing to sign it as a witness.
I won't do your assessment, because it means I'd have to administer it.
I can't do that.
Just because I'm a doctor doesn't mean I'm comfortable with death.
I'll have to transfer your case to a colleague who'll be able to do it.
Unfortunately, it can't be a family member.
So your sister Eve can't do it either.
Thanks, Monique.
When is it?
- Sorry? - When's the assessment?
My illness controls my life. I want to control the end of it.
I'll do it as fast as I can.
I promise.
Thanks.
My daughter is refusing other treatments.
I no longer know how to ease her suffering.
I understand.
Why was I born if my life had to be so short?
Hey, Josephine?
Why was I born if my life had to be so short?
Do you know why?
- Can I borrow some clothes? - Sure.
To...
Tomorrow? I'm on call tomorrow.
You're not going to work tomorrow?
Everyone's talking about us.
The whole saga is back in the headlines.
Maybe.
The teacher...
No, the...
The trail. No.
You mean the trial?
We're not going back to court, Mom.
Dad's still in jail.
The dot
in
my house.
His daughter? Anna?
Yes, she still lives in our house.
But it's not ours anymore, Mom.
You'll be so pretty.
I'm telling you, it's true.
Ant.
Little ant.
The countdown has begun.
I've never seen her posts.
- She has a ton of followers. - You follow her?
I just made a TikTok account.
I didn't use my real name, and I didn't add any photos.
Anyway, Anna takes beautiful photos.
Her videos are super good too.
If I hadn't listened to you, I'd have known she was sick
It's emotional blackmail. Manipulation.
You asked me to cut ties.
So I did. Even though I missed my baby sister.
How long has she even been sick?
I refuse to believe this doesn't matter to you.
I'm still her godmother.
The fatigue came first.
And a high fever.
My illness is like a spell trapping me in childhood.
I'll never have the chance to grow up, to see what it's like.
My name is Anna,
I've been dancing since I was six.
I became very ill when I was fourteen and a half.
I live with my mother,
and I have a horse named Josephine, after my grandmother.
Yeah!
I can only walk after taking powerful painkillers
and I just had to perform here before I die.
I'll be dancing to my favourite song.
Yeah!
Go to bed, Mama will be right back.
I'm just getting the laundry.
Stop yelling, Mama's coming.
Listen.
Put on your pyjamas, brush your teeth,
and I'll be back by the time you're done. Okay?
Do we know each other?
No, I don't think so.
Your face looks familiar.
Sainte-Marie High School?
No, I went to high school in the city. Sorry.
University, then.
Don't think so.
Must've been university.
I don't believe that sending a man to prison
does anything to dismantle the patriarchy.
Prisons were created for men, by men, and I don't believe in them.
We're all the toxic person in someone else's life,
and it's on us to notice and respect their boundaries.
Mom?
Mom!
- Yes, hon? - Mom.
Yes, sweetie.
It's okay. Yeah.
It's okay.
You should adopt a child.
Don't be silly.
Seriously. You're a good mom.
Another kid should benefit.
I can't give you all the milestones normal parents get to celebrate.
You can never be a grandmother.
Even if you were healthy, you might not want kids.
That's true.
But you'll never celebrate my graduation,
my degree, my driver's licence.
You'll never be proud of what I do.
But I am proud of you.
Love doesn't work like that,
where you achieve something and suddenly I feel proud.
It bowls me over, the love I have for you.
So losing you is inconceivable.
You're an exceptional person, Anna.
Mom, stop. I can't do anything, I can't even read.
I'm almost incontinent.
You can't read me stories and wipe my butt forever.
That's not a life I want.
And it's not a life for you.
I want you to have a normal child.
Mom?
I'll be back
Come back, I'll be waiting.
Fuck.
I saw your car.
People are awful. It's ridiculous.
That man was my hero.
I was melded with him. We were always together.
He carted me around to all his fancy parties.
I didn't realize I was there as bait
so he could meet girls barely older than I was.
I was also an alibi, for when Mom asked too many questions.
I knew he was a womanizer,
but I never, ever thought he was a sexual predator.
Take my car.
Don't you need it for your daughter?
I'll take yours. Here.
What are you going to do?
I need you to replace me for the next two weeks.
Has she chosen a date?
Sorry?
Your half-sister.
You can trust me.
If you want to help, cover me for two weeks.
I want to help.
- If you ever need me... - Thanks.
I'd better go see her.
But thanks, Thomas.
Shit, I don't have my keys.
Stop acting like a mom. I don't need your permission.
Permission? She put you on TikTok!
When we're trying to avoid attention!
I wouldn't be surprised if Dad was behind it all.
Could you quit making it about Dad for one minute?
Anna's going to die, Eve. For real.
I saw her sheets, I saw...
I heard her crying out.
And I ran away.
I said we'd go visit. I just need time to arrange things.
I can't find my fucking keys!
It's always about him.
Not anymore. He's in jail.
What are you scared of?
Just because I want to go doesn't mean I'm not on your side.
You asked me to testify against Dad, and I did.
You asked me not to go back to the house, and I didn't.
But you don't know what it cost me.
Anna decides to die and he requests a release.
That's not shady to you?
I can't believe you just said that.
Anna is fucking sick!
Sorry.
It's fine.
Do you realize what comes next?
I might be fragile, but I'm not uncaring.
And I am?
- I didn't say that. - What, then?
Quit meddling in my life, Eve!
I'm sorry.
I'm just worried, that's all.
I don't want anyone to hurt you.
I want to always be there for you, Lélé.
That's how I feel about Anna.
I have to be there for her.
If you want to go, we'll go.
Mom?
I'm here, sweetheart.
Breathe.
What do you want to wear to go see Dad?
I don't feel good. I don't want to go anymore.
Anna honey, I wish so much I could see you.
But I don't want you to have anxiety about it.
Wait for me. I'll get out. You can't go before the ruling.
The first thing I'll do is take you out to eat somewhere nice.
The food here is inedible.
It's probably like the food at the hospital.
I remember when you were born,
I brought your mother champagne and a hamper of gourmet food.
Did you do that for Eve and Éléonore too?
No, I wasn't able to be so present.
I was a better father to you.
I think that's why they're so upset with me.
Anna, I never wanted to hurt anyone.
My release hearing is set for next week.
If you made a video asking for my release,
it would help me spend time with you.
Do you want to get back together with Mom?
I don't think she'd have me.
I cheated on your mother and pushed her to the edge.
But it takes two.
She had lovers too.
I was scared of losing her, and I got depressed.
I did some stupid things.
But I never raped anyone.
You are my whole life.
Anna?
Are you okay, Anna?
Let's talk about something else.
I'll see you soon. Promise me you'll postpone.
I want you to be there when I get out.
I don't feel good, Dad.
I'm not asking you to believe me, I just want us to be together.
We only ever talk about you.
I'm sorry.
Forgive me.
Anna?
Anna, is someone with you?
Anna.
Anna, breathe. Someone will come get you.
Stéphanie, is that you?
Answer me.
Stéphanie?
Is someone there?
Should we make you some tea before we leave?
We won't be gone long. Don't worry.
Thomas or Jacynthe will stop by.
I'll call and check in on you.
Is she dead?
No.
We're going to see her before she dies.
You don't want to wait for him?
I'm sure he'll get his conditional release.
I only ever wore it once.
At a gala.
- Isn't it beautiful? - Yes.
Are you going to wait for him?
I did wait for him.
I was young. Naive.
I was blindly in love.
When he toured, he didn't tell me everything,
and I didn't ask questions.
I think the women who seduced him fell in love with him.
Love makes you jealous.
One of them threatened to press charges because he wouldn't divorce me.
That's what he told me, anyway.
He was a Casanova, a smooth talker, and so smart.
Is he the only man you ever loved? -No.
But he was the only great love of my life.
Do you still love him?
I love him with you,
and not without you.
I'm tired.
Rub my back.
I want to die here.
Promise me I won't die in the hospital.
I promise.
Draw something.
- A boat? - No.
- A house? - No.
Do it again.
I don't know.
- Joséphine. - Okay.
I'll erase it.
More.
More please, my sweet Mommy.
More.
Did you ever cheat on him?
On your dad?
Oh, I tried.
But he'd pop back up every time I met someone.
He didn't want to let me go, but he didn't want to be with me.
He always told me you were the love of his life.
It'll pass.
I have another crush on a straight girl.
What makes you think she's straight? Maybe she's bi.
Even if she's straight, you're allowed to fall in love.
- What's her name? - Zéna.
She works at the bakery with me.
She is very, very pretty.
I don't think I've ever seen you in love.
This is the first time.
I could never play this part.
We'll never have a normal life.
What do you mean?
Work the same job your whole life?
Eight hour workdays, two hour commutes, see the same faces,
have kids, one partner forever?
Laundry on Saturdays, groceries on Sundays,
jogging three times a week?
That's not a life, it's a funeral march.
Once, a girl told me my dad made me a lesbian.
That's nuts.
Kind of killed the vibe.
Next, a guy will say he's the reason my sex drive is so high.
No, he'd say that if you were frigid.
Instead he'd say you're just like your father,
incapable of controlling your urges.
Gross.
She was so happy when she got your message.
- Nobody followed you? - No.
Oh, good.
Since she posted it, we've had all sorts of visitors.
It varies from gifts to flowers to insults.
The reporters respect our...
It's been a long time.
Why didn't you tell me about Anna before?
Your father wouldn't let me because of your testimony.
You redecorated?
I started to, but then Anna got sick,
and it stopped being a priority.
I still sense him here in the house.
Hey, sweetie.
It's good to see you, Anna.
Are you alone?
Eve is waiting outside.
We'll go to the pond, it's pretty after a rain.
Okay.
I can't believe you're here.
Anna,
we agreed to come see you on one condition.
Nothing ends up on social media.
We keep this private.
To be clear,
that means no videos of us, no posts, no photos.
I have to go back to change my patch.
Okay.
Stéphanie!
Hello?
Where are the patches, Anna?
In a box on the piano.
Can you grab them?
This was on the box.
"Thank you for coming to see Anna.
"It's been her dearest wish.
"I'll leave you to your reunion.
"She's in good hands with a doctor and her dear sister."
What the fuck?
I asked her to go.
Go get a glass of water and a cloth.
Stroke my hair.
Don't be scared, Lélé.
When did you start getting sick? -When I was 14.
Why didn't you contact us then?
Mom said I wasn't allowed.
Why didn't you come see me?
Did my mom say you couldn't?
No, I'm the one who cut contact.
I needed to...
I dropped out of university.
I got a job at a bakery.
Waited for everything to blow over.
I'm glad you're here, Eve.
I thought you didn't want to see me.
I want to get to know you before I die.
- Have you talked to... - Dad?
Yeah, he understands.
I mean, does he know we're with you?
Yes.
I have something to ask you.
I want strong people around me who can support me through my decision.
Who won't cry the whole time.
I don't have the strength for that.
Mom is too fragile, though she tries to hide it.
And Dad is too emotional.
Are you able to accompany me to the end?
Yes.
Eve?
I can't deal with your mom, never mind him.
Dad? I don't want him there.
He'll be too emotional, it'll make me anxious.
I don't want that before I die.
To our reunion!
I live with my mom, which makes things more complicated.
Do you have a boyfriend, Eve?
Lots.
No, I date a lot but I'm not with anyone.
You can say it.
She's on hookup sites.
Hookup sites?
It's more practical if you don't want something serious.
And you can come with a one-night stand?
Absolutely.
Sometimes on her lunch break, she'll go over to someone's house.
No need for small talk or a meal.
Straight to the point.
Getting quite detailed, Lélé.
- Aren't you scared? - No.
I've never made love, but I wish I had.
I've never been in love.
I didn't want someone to get attached, and then be sad when I die.
Isn't this Mom's furniture?
The three brunettes.
We clearly have Dad's genes.
Coulda told us you were leaving.
We're not children, or morons. We can talk like grownups.
It was Anna's idea.
It wasn't my idea or my intent.
Whatever Anna wants, I do. I refuse her nothing right now.
It's all I can do.
Why are you still here?
Anna can't leave.
I've suggested moving closer to the hospital many times.
But she wants to stay here.
It's her last connection with her father.
With you.
Your father pays for the house.
If I leave, he'll sell it.
- You don't want to divorce him? - Excuse me?
You don't want a divorce?
No.
He'd bury me in lawyers.
He pays for the house and Anna's care,
I don't have to work, I can look after her.
I know your mother did the opposite.
I find that courageous.
My fee for services rendered.
If he gets out, will you let him come home?
Listen, I was shocked, too! And saddened, betrayed, lost, confused.
You want me to cry about it?
You know what? I don't give a shit.
I don't have family here.
Anna is my family.
And Anna needs her father.
So you're staying for the money.
Not once Anna's gone, no.
I won't need him. I'll leave.
Of course I've benefitted!
He made me testify that he was a good father and loyal husband.
But he was a good dad. And I did love him.
I left everything to come here. I have nothing.
You know what? I don't give a damn about your judgments.
I just want to support my daughter. Can you let me do that?
As a doctor, I'd advise you to move her, the humidity is terrible.
I'm not going anywhere.
I'm staying here. I'm going to die here.
Why do you always have to do what Eve tells you?
Starting tomorrow, I'll sleep here. I promise.
I just have to get some clothes.
Open it.
- Why? - You'll see.
- It's me? - Yes.
You're always with me.
See you tomorrow.
I'll be back soon.
My big sisters Lélé and Eve are with me, I can die in peace.
Don't freak out. It'll be fine.
Fuck off. I'm not going back. She played us.
Does it say "idiot" on my forehead?
We can't trust her.
The worst part is, he benefits from this!
You always wanna save people. This time it's your sister.
She can't be saved. She's doomed.
We can help her, though.
You'd do it for me.
That's not the same.
Okay, we'll call you back.
Oh my god.
Anna's not at home.
She's out looking for her but can't find her.
Call her back, tell her to look in the water.
Yeah, Stéphanie, did you check the pond?
Yeah, it's Eve.
Did a patient come in last night named Anna Myers?
Yeah. Thanks.
I'm calling the hospital.
We called the hospital. We'll call you back when we have news.
- I've been waiting for hours. - I understand.
What you did is dangerous, Anna. No, come here.
I wanted to see your house.
Can I sleep over?
She won't eat because of the cramps and vomiting.
I put in a catheter, and we'll start her on morphine for the pain.
She should be able to manage food soon.
Without the assessment, I worry she'll starve herself to death.
Be prepared for anything.
She has to be supervised from now on.
Why is it taking so long to find a doctor?
It would be faster if she was in hospital.
She's going to die at home.
I'll go see her.
Maybe you know someone who can do the assessment, Dr. Myers?
I can try.
Goodbye.
I'm sorry.
I should have responded. I didn't take you seriously.
It was just after the trial, so I was pretty angry.
Cutting us off was a brutal thing to do.
It was brutal to refute us in court.
Pass us off as idiots, jealous of their father's new life.
Silence our mother by threatening her with defamation.
That was brutal.
How could you lie to Anna about her father all these years?
Do you have no pride?
A shred of dignity?
You...
You're okay that he paid the women he raped so they wouldn't talk?
I feel sorry for Anna.
I never told her I contacted you when she got sick.
And that you refused to come see her.
I protected your bond.
I'm not gonna start liking you just because your daughter is sick.
Will you promise to check in on my mom after I'm gone?
I promise.
I don't want you to go.
Not right away.
We're just starting to reconnect.
Maybe there's an alternative.
I want to see Dad before I go.
Would you come with me?
It's not possible, you know that.
Because Eve says so?
He often talks about you.
He doesn't get why you testified against him
when you never saw anything.
And you take his word for everything.
He never did anything to us.
That doesn't mean he hasn't done it to others.
We're not going to resolve Dad's fate.
Your room still looks the same.
I stopped visiting you because testifying was traumatic for me,
and I fell into depression.
That was the last time I saw Dad.
So the house had too many memories.
Do you still love him?
I don't know.
You and Eve have more memories with him.
Breathe, I'm here.
Stéphanie.
Yes, sweetie.
It'll be okay.
Eve!
Let's go inside.
I'll get the morphine. Give her water with the syrup.
Get some water, please.
It's gonna be okay.
Honey, it's okay.
Thank you.
I'm just going to the bathroom.
Yes, look!
Chocolate!
What a babe!
Chubby, though.
Just a bit of baby fat.
Mom's hair!
- Her lioness era. - Wow.
At least I was optimistic as a child.
How do you still have these?
Your father kept everything in the basement.
The first Christmas with Anna.
How old were you, Eve?
Seventeen, I think.
- So I was nine. - Yeah.
My cars.
- Those are in the basement too. - Yeah?
You should take them.
You gave those to me, Stéphanie.
You always gave the best presents.
Thanks.
Eve, come join us.
What are you doing in my office?
I told you you're not allowed...
Sorry. I'm deeply sorry.
WHAT WILL REMAIN
Is there anyone you want to see before you go?
I don't have friends.
I'd like to introduce you to somebody.
Hi, Anna.
I've heard a lot about you.
I wish I could meet you in person.
But I've seen all your videos, all your photos.
I'm such a fan. You're a true artist.
And there's a bunch of people here who want to say hi.
Fabiola, Éléna, Leila, Fatima, Sarianne, Nadine and Marie-Reine.
We send our love. We think you're brave.
We found that dress at a bazaar. You got one too.
Oh yeah, that's right.
We looked like we just got out of a cult.
There's a bunch of letters in the underwear.
That wasn't me. Lélé melted their boobs on the radiator.
Where'd you find this?
In your room. Snooping through the stuff you left.
What is it?
A letter from Grandma Joséphine.
- You good? - Yes. Everything's good.
I want to say that a person can do something meaningful in anonymity.
Because reality goes beyond fiction,
and imagination is crueller than the truth.
I want to keep them.
Keep what?
Grandma's letters.
We'll give away the rest, or burn it.
I don't want Mom to have to deal with my stuff.
You really have to find a doctor for my assessment.
I can't wait anymore.
I'll see what I can do. I promise.
You have big hands.
Do you know why Rachmaninoff was such a skilled pianist?
Because he had massive hands.
He could play impossible chords, like thirteenths.
You should take Dad's piano.
A brochure?
That's old school.
We take care of everything.
The obituary, the funeral service or memorial,
the flowers, the donations, the catering,
even commemorative videos.
We're there for you before, during and after.
Everything under one roof.
We sell caskets and urns.
We also have a columbarium.
I'd rather you wrote my obituary.
I wish I could see how my body will burn. -Anna.
I want to understand what happens.
It's normal to want to understand. It's part of the process.
Your body will be washed.
They'll identify you with a tag around your big toe.
The funeral home will come get your body.
They'll put it in a plastic bag to go to the crematorium.
Your body can either be cremated in a casket or a cardboard box.
I want to be comfortable.
What colour of casket do you want?
I want a casket like Grandma's.
What do you want us to write on your urn?
I was loved.
Mom always goes to the bathroom when she wants to cry.
They say it takes a moment before the soul leaves the body.
Will I be able to hear you?
I don't know.
But if you want, we can keep talking to you.
You know the body is just a vehicle.
But I don't know where the soul goes.
It's time for your morphine.
You must be a good doctor, Eve.
I think the first injection is just to calm me down.
The second one puts me in an artificial coma.
And the last one paralyzes all my muscles.
I'll stop breathing and my heart will stop beating.
Is it you who declares me dead?
No.
It'll be the person who administers your final care.
I can watch her.
I'll wake you in four hours.
Okay.
Play something for me.
Yes, the trailer is coming this afternoon.
My daughter will want to say goodbye.
Okay, thanks.
Anna sweetie,
Joséphine will be leaving today.
I want to go with Eve and Éléonore.
I'd rather you didn't come.
You'll always be in my heart.
You helped me through my fears and sadness.
I'm going to be with Grandma now.
I love you, Joséphine.
Thanks.
Go on, Joséphine.
Up you go.
Joséphine, you have to go.
I want to go say bye to Dad.
I'd like you to come with me.
You can't ask that of us, Anna.
When I'm gone, he'll be alone.
His entourage will take care of him.
I'm asking this as a favour, so I can die in peace.
Whatever he did, he won't do it anymore.
And you can have a good relationship with him.
He's your dad.
This isn't asking a favour, this is blackmail.
I can't forgive him.
Nobody saw anything.
The evidence is clear.
You can't ignore the women who filed complaints.
Dad didn't do it.
He was affectionate, but he never touched us.
He should get a second chance.
You think I enjoyed testifying against my own father?
That I wasn't crippled by guilt?
That I was never ashamed?
I was intimidated, my mother was humiliated.
Éléonore couldn't even see her friends because their parents were scared.
He was never there for us, never.
He didn't come to my graduation. He was never there.
I'm not going to see him.
Why do you even want to see him?
He was convicted of rape, Anna.
Your father is a rapist.
He's not capable of love, he's a monster.
I want to go home.
This was a bad idea. You should both leave.
We'll stop this here.
You went too far, Eve.
Stay if you want. I'm done with this lie.
Hello, Anna?
No, it's Eve.
Eve?
It's strange hearing your voice.
After such a long time.
I didn't expect to talk to you.
How is Anna?
I tried to call her cell but she didn't answer.
I'm worried.
I'd like to see you. Maybe we could...
It would look great for your case.
It's not about that. I miss my daughters.
I want you to see the man you wanted me to be.
The man I wanted to be, too.
We're not coming to see you.
You not only abandoned us, you dirtied us.
You were the one who dirtied me, Eve,
you were the one who abandoned me publicly.
I never abandoned you.
You always wanted to be in my arms,
you never let go of my hand.
You always wanted my attention.
Everyone said you looked like me,
you had my character.
We all make mistakes.
You've made some too.
Preventing Éléonore from seeing her sick sister is cruel.
You lie and manipulate people because you think you're in the right.
But deep down, you're just like me, Eve.
I didn't know she was sick.
Stéphanie left me a message, but it was just after the trial.
I didn't know it was serious.
I'm not like him.
You knew?
I couldn't let you come back here.
I didn't know.
I didn't mean to keep you from your sister.
I swear.
I'm not like him.
I want you to visit him when I'm gone. -Why?
He deserves for you to hear his version.
We were young when it happened.
We believed the people who were around us
and who loved us.
For you it was Eve, for me it was Dad.
You want me to perjure myself?
No, I just want you to listen to him.
As a child, it was exciting to have him as a dad.
You never knew what he'd do, where he'd be,
when he'd come see us.
Waiting for him brought disappointment, too,
thinking he was taking us on vacation,
only to have him cancel the night before.
He said he cheated on my mom because she was depressed,
but she was depressed because he kept cheating on her.
One night my best friend came for a sleepover.
I woke up in the middle of the night and she wasn't in my room.
I got up and I saw her in the living room with Dad.
I saw him lead her into his office.
The next morning she was lying next to me.
I could smell Dad's odour in her hair.
I was so ashamed that I never asked any questions.
I didn't tell her what I saw that night.
That's what I told the judge.
I'll take it with me.
- Hello. - Hello.
I'm back. I can pick up my hours. I can even work tonight.
What's going on?
I feel bad for leaving.
She's dying, but I can't be there.
I just can't, Thomas.
Family is bullshit.
Eve?
I can't hear you, Eve, the music is too loud.
Send me your location, I'll come find you.
I love you, Eve.
Don't shut me out.
Okay, I'm coming.
- Are you okay? - Mm-hmm.
Could you assess my little sister
for her medical aid in dying request?
- When? - Now.
I just got off a big night, we had some hard cases.
I understand.
You know what that involves?
I shouldn't involve you in my family stuff. I'm really sorry.
No, it's fine.
Text me the address.
I'll sleep a bit and then go.
Thank you.
Don't tell them I asked. Anna can't know.
I'll send you the doctor's number who'll do the second assessment.
- Yep. - Okay.
How long have you been thinking of dying?
For a year.
I waited until my mom agreed.
Why are you making this choice?
You could still do chemo.
I've spent my life in the hospital.
I don't want to go back.
And I really don't want to die there.
Are there things you still find pleasure in?
What is important to you?
The thing I found pleasure in is gone.
My horse.
What's important
is my mother and my sister.
Is it enough to make you reconsider your decision?
So you could keep being with them?
No.
I'm ready to go.
Are you afraid of death?
No.
If you only knew how many times I've begged my grandma to come get me.
I want to stop suffering.
And I want to know my death.
It might sound bizarre,
but I want to fully live my death.
I understand.
You can invite anyone to be there with you,
but it's their choice to accept or not.
They may become uncomfortable when the moment arrives.
Can I wear my grandma's dress?
Her wedding dress?
- Can I wear it? - Yes.
You can wear whatever you want.
I just need access to both your arms.
The whole procedure takes less than five minutes.
The death itself takes a few minutes.
You must accept whatever emotions come in the moment.
You don't have to pretend or force anything.
Experience it as it is.
I'll say the same thing to your loved ones.
You can change your mind or cancel or postpone
until the very last moment.
Do you know about the steps of the process, and the risks?
When would you like to receive this care?
You okay?
It's hard.
It's what she wants.
I feel like I've given the best years of my life.
And I'm leaving with nothing.
Just bitterness and a bottomless grief.
But I had an exceptional daughter.
I wish I could have eased her pain, taken her place.
You're not alone.
I'm here. For real.
I wanted to save face,
save your father,
for Anna, because of her illness.
I know, I know.
Everything is signed.
I contacted your doctor.
She'll do the second assessment tonight.
Anna has asked for it to be tomorrow.
At two o'clock.
Why tomorrow?
You don't want to talk to Eve first?
Or wait for Dad?
I don't want to wait for the ruling.
I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.
Make me pancakes tomorrow.
Smelling them will be as good as eating them.
You want to tell them yourself?
Yes.
Tomorrow at two o'clock,
I will join my grandmother.
I'll have my mother and my sister Lélé with me.
Thank you for respecting our privacy.
I've changed my mind.
I want my ashes to be scattered here.
It's cruel to have to say goodbye over the phone.
Why so soon?
Wait.
In two days I'll know if I get my conditional release.
Your announcement has generated a lot of sympathy.
There's a good chance I'll get out.
I love you above all of that, Dad.
Be brave and be honest.
Yes.
I love you more than anything, Anna.
I love you too, Dad.
I'm going to hang up now.
Okay.
Bye, Dad.
I'm ready.
I'm doing this for myself, not for anyone else.
When I was born,
you were already big.
You were so mysterious.
I wanted to ask you many things, but you were so aloof.
You're strong.
I admire you.
I'm mad at Eve.
Love your sister, you only have one left.
I have to ask you again.
Do you still wish to receive medical aid in dying?
Yes.
Do you need time to say your goodbyes?
Thank you, Monique.
Tell Eve I'm not mad at her.
I love you, Lélé.
I love you, Mom.
Thank you for hearing me.
I'll start with a saline syringe to make sure the catheter is working.
The first injection will make you fall asleep.
Anna, you are very brave.
I know how difficult the last few months must have been.
You'll live on in the hearts of those who love you.
I want you to know that you'll be in my heart, too.
You deserve the right to rest.
I'll begin now.
I wish you a peaceful journey, Anna,
a peaceful rest.
She's gone.
My little girl.
My baby is gone.
We have to keep talking to her.
She can hear us.
I hope you feel relief.
Everything is going as planned.
They'll take you to the funeral home to wash your body.
I tried out your casket.
It's silky and soft, you'll be comfortable.
- Can I see her? - Of course.
The colour is exactly like Grandma's.
We'll wait.
I had the urn engraved like you wanted.
I didn't want to ruin the end.
I hope you can forgive me.
I promise to be there for Éléonore.
You were right, I'll take the piano.
Schumann said music allows us to communicate with the beyond.
I don't know where souls go,
but I know you can hear me.