1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:12,640 --> 00:00:14,360 Where are you going today? 4 00:00:14,440 --> 00:00:16,000 What? 5 00:00:16,080 --> 00:00:17,920 Where are you going today, Tom? 6 00:00:18,000 --> 00:00:19,120 Oh. 7 00:00:19,200 --> 00:00:21,040 Today is the day 8 00:00:21,120 --> 00:00:22,480 that I'm leaving for the Olympics. 9 00:00:22,560 --> 00:00:23,720 I've just got up. 10 00:00:23,800 --> 00:00:24,880 I'm just having my breakfast. 11 00:00:24,960 --> 00:00:28,080 So, it's about quarter past eight. 12 00:00:28,160 --> 00:00:32,040 So I'm going to be leaving here at quarter to nine. 13 00:00:32,120 --> 00:00:33,920 So I'm going to have my breakfast, go upstairs, 14 00:00:34,000 --> 00:00:36,360 get into my Olympic tracksuit ready to travel in 15 00:00:36,440 --> 00:00:39,480 and just pack my last few things in my bag. 16 00:00:39,560 --> 00:00:40,920 Looking forward to it? 17 00:00:41,000 --> 00:00:42,160 Yes. 18 00:01:56,800 --> 00:01:58,280 Where are you going today? 19 00:01:58,360 --> 00:02:00,320 What? 20 00:02:00,400 --> 00:02:02,080 Where are you going today, Tom? 21 00:02:02,160 --> 00:02:03,280 Oh. 22 00:02:03,360 --> 00:02:06,800 Today is the day that I'm leaving for the Olympics. 23 00:02:06,880 --> 00:02:08,000 I've just got up. 24 00:02:08,080 --> 00:02:09,360 I'm just having my breakfast. 25 00:02:09,440 --> 00:02:11,400 So it's about quarter past eight. 26 00:02:11,480 --> 00:02:15,240 So I'm going to be leaving here at quarter to nine. 27 00:02:15,320 --> 00:02:17,600 So I'm going to have my breakfast, go upstairs, 28 00:02:17,680 --> 00:02:20,120 get into my Olympic track suit, ready to travel in 29 00:02:20,200 --> 00:02:23,520 and just pack my last few things in my bag. 30 00:02:23,600 --> 00:02:25,600 I don't think I've ever seen this before. 31 00:02:28,640 --> 00:02:31,480 It's funny because, I mean, I look at myself at the beginning, 32 00:02:31,560 --> 00:02:32,840 I get asked that question, 33 00:02:32,920 --> 00:02:34,840 I see a camera's rolling and, all of a sudden, 34 00:02:34,920 --> 00:02:36,280 I'm like a different person. 35 00:02:36,360 --> 00:02:38,920 I've never had any kind of media training, 36 00:02:39,000 --> 00:02:43,400 other than the fact that I've had a camera following me around 37 00:02:43,480 --> 00:02:45,760 since I was maybe nine or 10-years-old. 38 00:02:53,840 --> 00:02:56,960 My dad carried a camcorder everywhere. 39 00:03:01,280 --> 00:03:03,880 Oh, you want to get it on flipping camera. 40 00:03:03,960 --> 00:03:07,000 As you can tell, I used to find it really annoying that he was, 41 00:03:07,080 --> 00:03:08,400 like, filming everything. 42 00:03:10,600 --> 00:03:14,840 But now, like, what a memory to have captured, 43 00:03:14,920 --> 00:03:17,560 like, leaving for my first Olympic Games. 44 00:03:18,920 --> 00:03:20,880 I look at that kid now and I think, 45 00:03:20,960 --> 00:03:24,240 "You have no idea what's about to come in your life." 46 00:03:34,760 --> 00:03:38,760 He's cocky, supremely confident and very, very cool. 47 00:03:38,840 --> 00:03:41,960 Meet Tom Daley, Olympic wunderkind. 48 00:03:42,040 --> 00:03:43,800 He's a 13-year-old prodigy 49 00:03:43,880 --> 00:03:46,760 who's mastered the complex physical and mental demands 50 00:03:46,840 --> 00:03:48,120 of the high board. 51 00:03:48,200 --> 00:03:51,640 Tom Daley was born to dive and a large part of his life 52 00:03:51,720 --> 00:03:54,680 is now spent looking down from the intimidating height 53 00:03:54,760 --> 00:03:56,240 of the 10-metre board. 54 00:03:56,320 --> 00:04:00,440 Tom, as a baby, he was very lovable, loved his cuddles. 55 00:04:00,520 --> 00:04:05,160 He's got a great sense of humour, which you could see as a baby. 56 00:04:06,080 --> 00:04:07,960 He giggles at anything. 57 00:04:11,120 --> 00:04:13,080 Water. 58 00:04:13,160 --> 00:04:17,960 He loved the water, enjoyed learning to swim. 59 00:04:24,200 --> 00:04:25,440 # If you're happy 60 00:04:25,520 --> 00:04:27,560 # And you know it clap your hands 61 00:04:27,640 --> 00:04:28,640 # If you're happy 62 00:04:28,720 --> 00:04:30,640 # And you know it clap your hands 63 00:04:30,720 --> 00:04:33,400 # If you're happy and you know it 64 00:04:33,480 --> 00:04:34,960 # And you really want to show it 65 00:04:35,040 --> 00:04:37,080 # If you're happy and you know it clap your hands. # 66 00:04:37,160 --> 00:04:40,200 When Tom was about seven, we went to a local swimming bath 67 00:04:40,280 --> 00:04:42,960 and they had a diving lesson going on. 68 00:04:43,040 --> 00:04:45,360 Tom was fascinated and he was like, 69 00:04:45,440 --> 00:04:47,120 "Mum, Mum. I really want to try that." 70 00:04:47,200 --> 00:04:49,400 Booked him in for his first lesson 71 00:04:49,480 --> 00:04:51,080 and he absolutely loved it. 72 00:04:51,160 --> 00:04:52,560 And the rest is history, I suppose. 73 00:04:53,960 --> 00:04:55,840 I got a phone call from one of the coaches 74 00:04:55,920 --> 00:04:57,200 who was working with him and said, 75 00:04:57,280 --> 00:04:58,960 "You've got to come over and watch this kid. 76 00:04:59,040 --> 00:05:00,160 "He's a bit special." 77 00:05:03,880 --> 00:05:05,760 I went over and I watched for 15 minutes. 78 00:05:05,840 --> 00:05:08,760 And I turned around to everyone there and said, "You know what? 79 00:05:08,840 --> 00:05:11,360 "I'm pretty sure this guy's never going to make a diver." 80 00:05:12,400 --> 00:05:15,200 Now, in fairness, he actually didn't get in the pool. 81 00:05:15,280 --> 00:05:17,120 He stood at the back of the one metre board, 82 00:05:17,200 --> 00:05:19,120 was in floods of tears most of the time 83 00:05:19,200 --> 00:05:21,280 and stubbornly refusing to get on the board - 84 00:05:21,360 --> 00:05:23,280 let alone dive off the end of it. 85 00:05:23,360 --> 00:05:25,160 When I saw him in the pool actually diving, 86 00:05:25,240 --> 00:05:28,120 it was obvious that there was a skill there 87 00:05:28,200 --> 00:05:29,520 that could be developed. 88 00:05:32,760 --> 00:05:34,880 A happy Tom is a great Tom. 89 00:05:34,960 --> 00:05:38,520 An unhappy Tom was not a great Tom. 90 00:05:38,600 --> 00:05:42,320 If things weren't going right, he'd be crying, he'd be upset, 91 00:05:42,400 --> 00:05:43,560 he'd be frustrated. 92 00:05:43,640 --> 00:05:45,560 And he couldn't pull himself out of that. 93 00:05:45,640 --> 00:05:50,280 He got to go away to some competitions when he was eight 94 00:05:50,360 --> 00:05:53,160 and he was winning and everyone was like, 95 00:05:53,240 --> 00:05:55,880 "Wow, that's really amazing." 96 00:05:55,960 --> 00:05:58,680 And then they decided, when he was nine, 97 00:05:58,760 --> 00:06:02,000 to send him away to a competition, 98 00:06:02,080 --> 00:06:03,840 to a senior event. 99 00:06:10,120 --> 00:06:11,920 So you needed him to understand 100 00:06:12,000 --> 00:06:14,280 that you couldn't win at everything. 101 00:06:14,360 --> 00:06:17,320 It backfired a little bit because he actually won 102 00:06:17,400 --> 00:06:19,560 at that competition as well. 103 00:06:26,320 --> 00:06:28,720 And I always remember the performance director 104 00:06:28,800 --> 00:06:30,120 saying to me 105 00:06:30,200 --> 00:06:34,880 he's the best natural talent he's seen in 20 years. 106 00:06:34,960 --> 00:06:37,720 The 2005 boy's champion, 107 00:06:37,800 --> 00:06:40,840 representing Plymouth diving, Thomas Daley. 108 00:06:42,800 --> 00:06:44,840 It was actually in 2005 109 00:06:44,920 --> 00:06:47,040 that I sat down with the management team 110 00:06:47,120 --> 00:06:48,320 at British Diving and said, 111 00:06:48,400 --> 00:06:50,120 "I think this kid is potentially able 112 00:06:50,200 --> 00:06:52,800 "to make the Olympic Games in 2008." 113 00:06:55,160 --> 00:07:00,960 I kind of felt invincible in this period of time 114 00:07:01,040 --> 00:07:04,600 and I do think that's down to my dad. 115 00:07:04,680 --> 00:07:07,040 He's been diving for about five, six years now. 116 00:07:07,120 --> 00:07:10,160 He used to swim, swimming from the age of about four. 117 00:07:10,240 --> 00:07:12,480 Now, during a public session, 118 00:07:12,560 --> 00:07:14,240 he saw the divers on the diving boards, 119 00:07:14,320 --> 00:07:16,040 decided to give it a go. 120 00:07:16,120 --> 00:07:17,800 It looked a bit more exciting for him. 121 00:07:17,880 --> 00:07:20,720 Rob was the one that would take him there, pick him up, 122 00:07:20,800 --> 00:07:23,760 watch him in the pool when he was training. 123 00:07:23,840 --> 00:07:25,400 He loved it. He loved to watch him. 124 00:07:25,480 --> 00:07:27,360 He'd follow him around to his competitions. 125 00:07:27,440 --> 00:07:30,720 Rob was the guy that was there beside him all the time. 126 00:07:32,000 --> 00:07:35,640 I used to be terrified of leaving home. 127 00:07:35,720 --> 00:07:39,520 I used to be so scared and worried about everything. 128 00:07:39,600 --> 00:07:43,320 I used to cry myself to sleep, most nights, 129 00:07:43,400 --> 00:07:45,920 when I used to go away to training camps and competitions. 130 00:07:47,120 --> 00:07:50,920 I remember one time, in Australia, I was away for a competition. 131 00:07:51,000 --> 00:07:54,640 And I was, I mean, 10-years-old on the other side of the planet, 132 00:07:54,720 --> 00:07:56,760 jet lag, not able to sleep, 133 00:07:56,840 --> 00:07:58,640 sharing a room with some other athletes. 134 00:07:58,720 --> 00:08:00,400 And I just used to cry. 135 00:08:00,480 --> 00:08:02,600 It was almost a Jekyll and Hyde scenario. 136 00:08:02,680 --> 00:08:04,360 During the day, often, he'd be fine, 137 00:08:04,440 --> 00:08:05,760 he'd be getting on with his diving, 138 00:08:05,840 --> 00:08:06,880 he was in happy mode. 139 00:08:06,960 --> 00:08:10,560 You get to the night time, it was time for bed and zoom - 140 00:08:10,640 --> 00:08:13,320 Dan would spiral and he'd be in floods of tears. 141 00:08:13,400 --> 00:08:16,600 He would ring me two o'clock in the afternoon, my time, 142 00:08:16,680 --> 00:08:20,320 crying, saying, "Mum, come and get me, I can't sleep." 143 00:08:20,400 --> 00:08:23,120 I nearly didn't get selected for teams 144 00:08:23,200 --> 00:08:25,360 and I wasn't going to be able to be taken away. 145 00:08:25,440 --> 00:08:26,840 There were competitions where I didn't go 146 00:08:26,920 --> 00:08:29,040 because my coaches and the team around me 147 00:08:29,120 --> 00:08:30,880 didn't want to have that burden. 148 00:08:30,960 --> 00:08:32,520 And he said, "I would rather be dead 149 00:08:32,600 --> 00:08:34,440 "than be on this training camp. 150 00:08:34,520 --> 00:08:36,200 "And if you leave me alone in this room 151 00:08:36,280 --> 00:08:38,120 "then I'm going to jump out of the window." 152 00:08:38,200 --> 00:08:40,880 It was, like, such a traumatic period of my existence 153 00:08:40,960 --> 00:08:43,240 at that time that I block it out. 154 00:08:43,320 --> 00:08:44,320 Because I look back 155 00:08:44,400 --> 00:08:46,600 and I remember all the amazing times that I had in competition, 156 00:08:46,680 --> 00:08:49,080 all of the friends that I made, all the places that I go. 157 00:08:49,160 --> 00:08:50,640 I used to go to the chaperones' room, 158 00:08:50,720 --> 00:08:53,000 knock on the team manager's door in the middle of the night. 159 00:08:53,080 --> 00:08:54,680 I was the nightmare kid. 160 00:08:55,800 --> 00:08:57,600 If we have to take five chaperones away - 161 00:08:57,680 --> 00:08:59,640 just to look after him - then that's what we'll do, 162 00:08:59,720 --> 00:09:01,640 because it's going to be worth it for him 163 00:09:01,720 --> 00:09:05,400 to develop these experiences as he also develops maturity. 164 00:09:05,480 --> 00:09:07,560 I still, to this day, don't know why that was. 165 00:09:07,640 --> 00:09:11,320 But I guess I just felt so safe when I was at home 166 00:09:11,400 --> 00:09:14,920 that there was nothing that was ever going to make me feel 167 00:09:15,000 --> 00:09:17,160 that safe anywhere else. 168 00:09:17,240 --> 00:09:19,880 One of the things that really struck me 169 00:09:19,960 --> 00:09:21,720 about the way that Tom dealt with things 170 00:09:21,800 --> 00:09:25,120 was what I call his compartmentalisation of his life. 171 00:09:25,200 --> 00:09:27,800 His family life, his school life, his friends life, 172 00:09:27,880 --> 00:09:31,960 his diving life, his media life were all kept separate. 173 00:09:32,040 --> 00:09:34,440 If they got mixed up, then he didn't like it very much. 174 00:09:34,520 --> 00:09:36,200 The media didn't need to knock on the door 175 00:09:36,280 --> 00:09:37,400 when it wasn't media time. 176 00:09:37,480 --> 00:09:40,880 He was very successful, I think, within each area of those. 177 00:09:40,960 --> 00:09:42,640 He really gave it his all. 178 00:09:43,880 --> 00:09:48,600 He was beginning to be quite well-known within diving. 179 00:09:48,680 --> 00:09:50,600 He'd been in the paper a couple of times, 180 00:09:50,680 --> 00:09:52,320 he'd been on the news a couple of times 181 00:09:52,400 --> 00:09:54,880 and people were starting to understand who this person was. 182 00:09:54,960 --> 00:09:56,600 I started diving when I was eight 183 00:09:56,680 --> 00:09:59,760 and I started realising that it could be serious 184 00:09:59,840 --> 00:10:01,720 and I could go to the Olympic Games 185 00:10:01,800 --> 00:10:04,800 when I won the under-18 title, when I was ten. 186 00:10:08,360 --> 00:10:10,960 Cocky little shit! 187 00:10:13,480 --> 00:10:15,920 How are you coping with the fame of being Tom Daley? 188 00:10:16,000 --> 00:10:18,000 Well, it's been really... Well, I've enjoyed it so far. 189 00:10:18,080 --> 00:10:19,360 The phone hasn't stopped ringing 190 00:10:19,440 --> 00:10:21,080 and everything's been going really well. 191 00:10:21,160 --> 00:10:22,800 At this period of time, 192 00:10:22,880 --> 00:10:28,320 I had no idea what this would do to my life. 193 00:10:28,400 --> 00:10:31,760 He was absolutely dying for someone to ask for his autograph. 194 00:10:32,880 --> 00:10:37,640 So, please welcome to the stage...Tom Daley. 195 00:10:39,000 --> 00:10:41,320 When you're that young and then, all of a sudden, 196 00:10:41,400 --> 00:10:44,600 you're kind of thrust into the spotlight in that way, 197 00:10:44,680 --> 00:10:47,240 I felt like there was nothing that could go wrong. 198 00:10:47,320 --> 00:10:48,840 Leading up to the Olympics, 199 00:10:48,920 --> 00:10:51,640 he went to the European Championships 200 00:10:51,720 --> 00:10:52,920 when he was 13. 201 00:10:53,000 --> 00:10:55,600 He actually won that one, which was pretty amazing. 202 00:10:55,680 --> 00:10:57,400 And then everyone sort of said, 203 00:10:57,480 --> 00:11:00,280 "Oh, we think he's a little bit too young to go to Beijing. 204 00:11:00,360 --> 00:11:01,640 "He's only going to be 14." 205 00:11:03,840 --> 00:11:06,480 So we had to have lots of meetings. 206 00:11:06,560 --> 00:11:08,000 They made the decision, 207 00:11:08,080 --> 00:11:14,000 "Yes, you can go to the Beijing Olympics." 208 00:11:14,080 --> 00:11:16,320 I felt like I could achieve anything. 209 00:11:16,400 --> 00:11:19,720 Anything that I set my mind to I was achieving - 210 00:11:19,800 --> 00:11:23,520 whether that was winning national titles, winning European titles, 211 00:11:23,600 --> 00:11:25,840 qualifying for the Olympic Games, learning new dives. 212 00:11:25,920 --> 00:11:28,360 I look back on that period and it was probably the only time 213 00:11:28,440 --> 00:11:30,640 that I truly felt happy with everything 214 00:11:30,720 --> 00:11:32,080 that was going on in my life. 215 00:11:33,080 --> 00:11:34,400 After qualifications for the Olympics, 216 00:11:34,480 --> 00:11:36,600 everyone's just kind of swarmed. 217 00:11:36,680 --> 00:11:39,760 It's been a good experience but it's been quite hectic. 218 00:11:39,840 --> 00:11:41,120 When I walk around town, 219 00:11:41,200 --> 00:11:42,920 you get lots of the girls pointing. 220 00:11:43,000 --> 00:11:45,040 They speak extra loud, like, 221 00:11:45,120 --> 00:11:47,480 "Oh, god. That's Tom Daley." Like this. 222 00:11:47,560 --> 00:11:48,680 It makes me laugh. 223 00:11:48,760 --> 00:11:50,320 I went into Starbucks the other day 224 00:11:50,400 --> 00:11:52,720 and I got a free Starbucks because she recognised me. 225 00:11:52,800 --> 00:11:56,800 So it does have its benefits, being recognised, so it's good. 226 00:11:56,880 --> 00:11:58,360 Are you beginning to feel the pressure 227 00:11:58,440 --> 00:12:01,480 and the importance of your role in the Beijing Olympics now, 228 00:12:01,560 --> 00:12:03,440 of all this attention suddenly falling on you? 229 00:12:03,520 --> 00:12:04,680 Well, the attention's been great. 230 00:12:04,760 --> 00:12:07,040 I've loved all the media stuff and everything like that 231 00:12:07,120 --> 00:12:09,120 and I love going up for the day trips in London. 232 00:12:09,200 --> 00:12:10,400 I'm enjoying every second of it. 233 00:12:10,480 --> 00:12:11,880 Going to the BAFTAs with my dad 234 00:12:11,960 --> 00:12:13,600 and being able to go on these little trips - 235 00:12:13,680 --> 00:12:15,800 where we would stay overnight 236 00:12:15,880 --> 00:12:18,200 and we would have the most amazing time. 237 00:12:18,280 --> 00:12:19,920 And I now look back on this period - 238 00:12:20,000 --> 00:12:21,440 not only at the beginning 239 00:12:21,520 --> 00:12:23,800 of what was going to be the rest of my life 240 00:12:23,880 --> 00:12:25,920 but, also, looking back on these experiences 241 00:12:26,000 --> 00:12:27,480 that I had with my dad - 242 00:12:27,560 --> 00:12:30,640 it makes me look back on it and think, 243 00:12:30,720 --> 00:12:33,320 "Well, damn. He was proud. He was really proud of me." 244 00:12:33,400 --> 00:12:35,760 And that is really special. 245 00:12:35,840 --> 00:12:37,120 The friends you've grown up with, 246 00:12:37,200 --> 00:12:38,600 what do they think of your success? 247 00:12:38,680 --> 00:12:40,360 Well, they're very supportive of me. 248 00:12:40,440 --> 00:12:43,160 And they always say well done and good luck before I go and after. 249 00:12:43,240 --> 00:12:44,760 And they always ask me questions. 250 00:12:44,840 --> 00:12:46,160 And they've been very supportive so far. 251 00:12:46,240 --> 00:12:48,080 And they try and treat me as a normal person, 252 00:12:48,160 --> 00:12:49,320 when I get back to school. 253 00:12:49,400 --> 00:12:52,120 I think 'so far' is the key word there. 254 00:12:56,480 --> 00:13:00,480 Put all your things in its bags and then... 255 00:13:02,560 --> 00:13:04,080 Yes, OK. 256 00:13:09,760 --> 00:13:12,200 At the time, I was living with my mum, 257 00:13:12,280 --> 00:13:15,320 my dad and my two younger brothers, William and Ben. 258 00:13:15,400 --> 00:13:18,280 71. 16 kilos. 259 00:13:18,360 --> 00:13:19,360 So that's fine. 260 00:13:19,440 --> 00:13:20,680 It's funny to see, as well, 261 00:13:20,760 --> 00:13:22,400 the fact that I'm off doing the Olympics, 262 00:13:22,480 --> 00:13:24,440 competing against grown adults 263 00:13:24,520 --> 00:13:27,360 and then my mum's packing my bag for me. 264 00:13:27,440 --> 00:13:31,400 You know, that sums up me going to the Olympics at 14-years-old. 265 00:13:31,480 --> 00:13:32,760 Hurry up now. 266 00:13:32,840 --> 00:13:36,080 Right. Lunch is in your rucksack, OK? 267 00:13:59,240 --> 00:14:02,080 I remember walking out and just thinking, 268 00:14:02,160 --> 00:14:04,600 "Whoa," like, "what have I gotten myself into? 269 00:14:04,680 --> 00:14:07,400 "This is one hell of a school summer holiday." 270 00:14:11,360 --> 00:14:13,600 We built some goals for him - 271 00:14:13,680 --> 00:14:15,880 one was to be happy and proud of his performance. 272 00:14:15,960 --> 00:14:17,840 The second was to learn as much as possible. 273 00:14:17,920 --> 00:14:19,680 And the third one was to have fun. 274 00:14:24,800 --> 00:14:26,400 Blakey boy. 275 00:14:27,920 --> 00:14:32,560 I did not sleep for toffee last night. 276 00:14:34,160 --> 00:14:35,480 I'm so tired. 277 00:14:35,560 --> 00:14:39,600 In Beijing, I shared with Blake - who was twice my age. 278 00:14:39,680 --> 00:14:42,120 So we didn't really have all that much in common. 279 00:14:42,200 --> 00:14:44,960 Like, we were definitely not the same people. 280 00:14:45,040 --> 00:14:47,560 We didn't have any of the same interests. 281 00:14:47,640 --> 00:14:50,840 It was very much a...we're going to get to the diving pool 282 00:14:50,920 --> 00:14:52,760 and figure this out. 283 00:14:52,840 --> 00:14:55,320 And we're going to just do the best that we can. 284 00:14:55,400 --> 00:14:56,680 We had some successful competitions 285 00:14:56,760 --> 00:15:00,480 and we also had some not so successful competitions, 286 00:15:00,560 --> 00:15:01,640 let's say. 287 00:15:01,720 --> 00:15:03,520 Come on then, Tom. Where are we? 288 00:15:03,600 --> 00:15:05,400 We're in the Shaanxi, 289 00:15:05,480 --> 00:15:06,640 where we're having our training camp. 290 00:15:06,720 --> 00:15:08,760 It's our second training session here. 291 00:15:08,840 --> 00:15:11,800 So we're going to just go in and warm up with a bit of dry land 292 00:15:11,880 --> 00:15:13,520 and then get into the pool until four o'clock. 293 00:15:13,600 --> 00:15:14,600 Good work. 294 00:15:14,680 --> 00:15:17,080 Leon Taylor had been mentoring me since I was about, like, 295 00:15:17,160 --> 00:15:18,320 ten-years-old. 296 00:15:18,400 --> 00:15:19,920 He was a big inspiration of mine, 297 00:15:20,000 --> 00:15:22,920 watching him win an Olympic silver medal in 2004. 298 00:15:23,000 --> 00:15:25,320 We would have conversations on the phone, 299 00:15:25,400 --> 00:15:26,960 we would see each other at competitions, 300 00:15:27,040 --> 00:15:28,280 all of these kinds of things. 301 00:15:28,360 --> 00:15:30,200 He was able to come into the Olympic Village 302 00:15:30,280 --> 00:15:33,720 to help take some of that pressure off and have someone to speak to. 303 00:15:33,800 --> 00:15:36,560 He knew what it meant to go to an Olympic Games, 304 00:15:36,640 --> 00:15:38,160 how much pressure you would feel, 305 00:15:38,240 --> 00:15:40,200 what it'd be like diving in front of an audience. 306 00:15:40,280 --> 00:15:42,960 Beijing would have been my fourth Olympic Games. 307 00:15:43,040 --> 00:15:44,760 I was still competing at the time 308 00:15:44,840 --> 00:15:46,800 but I was suffering a lot with injuries. 309 00:15:46,880 --> 00:15:48,720 I retired before Beijing 310 00:15:48,800 --> 00:15:50,920 because the medical team told me that I was done. 311 00:15:51,000 --> 00:15:53,040 I was able to step into the commentary role 312 00:15:53,120 --> 00:15:56,480 but, also, I was always available to him in Beijing. 313 00:15:56,560 --> 00:15:58,080 Be gentle. Don't try and whack it. 314 00:15:58,160 --> 00:16:00,480 Listen to your partner. Be gentle with it. 315 00:16:02,880 --> 00:16:04,440 So he tries to whack it. 316 00:16:05,520 --> 00:16:07,920 I talk to him about him being homesick 317 00:16:08,000 --> 00:16:09,600 or maybe getting nervous. 318 00:16:09,680 --> 00:16:10,800 How are you finding the weight? 319 00:16:10,880 --> 00:16:12,320 Because there's been a big gap, hasn't it? 320 00:16:12,400 --> 00:16:13,680 Yeah, there's been a big...big gap. 321 00:16:13,760 --> 00:16:15,960 But then it's been good because I've been able to wind down 322 00:16:16,040 --> 00:16:18,200 and then build into a competition like I normally would. 323 00:16:18,280 --> 00:16:19,240 So it's been good. 324 00:16:19,320 --> 00:16:21,440 And so we're going to see you smiling on the diving boards? 325 00:16:21,520 --> 00:16:22,640 Yeah, definitely. Winner. 326 00:16:22,720 --> 00:16:24,120 See you on there, Tom. Well done. 327 00:16:24,200 --> 00:16:26,720 It's just so funny looking back on this stuff and just thinking, 328 00:16:26,800 --> 00:16:28,920 I just was a kid - 329 00:16:29,000 --> 00:16:31,520 just out and about, doing his thing, 330 00:16:31,600 --> 00:16:33,680 not taking anything too seriously. 331 00:16:35,040 --> 00:16:36,840 I mean, I look back...like, you know, 332 00:16:36,920 --> 00:16:38,080 having the time of my life. 333 00:16:38,160 --> 00:16:40,160 Like, it's... 334 00:16:42,200 --> 00:16:44,000 Yeah, time of my life. 335 00:16:49,800 --> 00:16:51,920 In China, diving's quite a big sport. 336 00:16:52,000 --> 00:16:53,400 So, like, walking around the streets, 337 00:16:53,480 --> 00:16:55,600 sometimes you do get people recognising you 338 00:16:55,680 --> 00:16:58,240 and in the village as well, some of the Chinese staff. 339 00:17:05,120 --> 00:17:07,040 Going from the national championships - 340 00:17:07,120 --> 00:17:10,000 where maybe we would have like 15 of the parents 341 00:17:10,080 --> 00:17:11,440 in the audience - 342 00:17:11,520 --> 00:17:14,680 to diving in front of 18,000 people was a big shift. 343 00:17:14,760 --> 00:17:16,920 And I don't think I was prepared for that 344 00:17:17,000 --> 00:17:20,240 or how that was going to feel until I was in it. 345 00:17:24,120 --> 00:17:27,240 And when I was in it, I was not ready for this. 346 00:17:35,520 --> 00:17:39,720 I had a nervous twitch as well that I just could not stop... 347 00:17:41,000 --> 00:17:42,720 ..and I was so self-conscious of that. 348 00:17:46,160 --> 00:17:47,320 You have seven judges... 349 00:17:50,080 --> 00:17:51,280 ..that all mark out 10. 350 00:17:51,360 --> 00:17:54,040 You take the two highest and the two lowest away 351 00:17:54,120 --> 00:17:57,480 and then what's remaining gets added up in times 352 00:17:57,560 --> 00:17:58,880 by the degree of difficulty. 353 00:17:58,960 --> 00:18:01,800 Sounds complicated but it kind of is. 354 00:18:21,920 --> 00:18:24,720 Tom Daley dives himself back to seventh position. 355 00:18:24,800 --> 00:18:27,280 There was an opportunity that I could have gotten on the podium 356 00:18:27,360 --> 00:18:28,560 on that competition. 357 00:18:28,640 --> 00:18:30,640 But, you know, at least I can now look back 358 00:18:30,720 --> 00:18:32,320 and say to the little Tom, 359 00:18:32,400 --> 00:18:34,760 "I've got a few more Olympics in you yet, don't worry." 360 00:18:34,840 --> 00:18:36,640 I do think he probably dived 361 00:18:36,720 --> 00:18:37,840 a little bit safely 362 00:18:37,920 --> 00:18:40,120 but I don't think that's out of order at all, 363 00:18:40,200 --> 00:18:43,440 because he was 14 in an Olympic final. 364 00:18:43,520 --> 00:18:45,000 I went into those Olympic Games 365 00:18:45,080 --> 00:18:48,080 knowing that this was going to be my first. 366 00:18:48,160 --> 00:18:49,600 Like, I probably shouldn't have been in Beijing 367 00:18:49,680 --> 00:18:51,320 because, you know, the stars aligned 368 00:18:51,400 --> 00:18:52,480 and everything worked out. 369 00:18:52,560 --> 00:18:54,000 I learned all the dives I needed to, 370 00:18:54,080 --> 00:18:55,400 I performed when I needed to perform 371 00:18:55,480 --> 00:18:56,760 and I got to the Olympic Games. 372 00:18:56,840 --> 00:18:58,400 For me, that was like a learning experience. 373 00:18:58,480 --> 00:18:59,920 I was like, "Right, I can use this, 374 00:19:00,000 --> 00:19:01,080 "soak everything in, 375 00:19:01,160 --> 00:19:03,120 "not really worry too much about the outcome 376 00:19:03,200 --> 00:19:06,640 "because I know I can use all that experience in London 2012." 377 00:19:06,720 --> 00:19:12,280 Whereas for Blake it was, "This is my last chance saloon. 378 00:19:12,360 --> 00:19:13,560 "This is it. 379 00:19:13,640 --> 00:19:15,880 "This is my one shot at winning an Olympic medal." 380 00:19:15,960 --> 00:19:19,040 So, we were in two very different places, 381 00:19:19,120 --> 00:19:20,480 going into that competition. 382 00:19:25,040 --> 00:19:28,680 They've got to get this absolutely perfect, 383 00:19:28,760 --> 00:19:31,000 if they have any hope, at all, 384 00:19:31,080 --> 00:19:33,000 getting close to that top three. 385 00:19:38,400 --> 00:19:41,080 It's probably not going to be a medal today 386 00:19:41,160 --> 00:19:42,760 for the British team. 387 00:19:42,840 --> 00:19:45,320 Tom just needs that little bit more fine-tuning, 388 00:19:45,400 --> 00:19:48,480 a little bit more experience in the big competitions. 389 00:19:48,560 --> 00:19:51,000 They really have ignited the imagination 390 00:19:51,080 --> 00:19:52,960 of children in Britain. 391 00:19:53,040 --> 00:19:56,080 Everyone knows about Tom, everyone knows about diving 392 00:19:56,160 --> 00:19:59,880 and I think they do really have a chance in 2012. 393 00:19:59,960 --> 00:20:01,480 They go from strength to strength. 394 00:20:05,400 --> 00:20:08,880 I remember the day after, 395 00:20:08,960 --> 00:20:11,760 there was something that happened in the press conference 396 00:20:11,840 --> 00:20:12,960 or in the mix zone, 397 00:20:13,040 --> 00:20:15,880 where Blake said something and he blamed it on me. 398 00:20:15,960 --> 00:20:18,560 And there was this whole situation 399 00:20:18,640 --> 00:20:20,720 that he said that I wasn't diving very well. 400 00:20:20,800 --> 00:20:22,280 I've got a lot more experience than Tom. 401 00:20:22,360 --> 00:20:24,000 I've been around the block a few times. 402 00:20:24,080 --> 00:20:25,400 So I was alright. 403 00:20:25,480 --> 00:20:27,200 I didn't dive to the best of my ability 404 00:20:27,280 --> 00:20:29,320 but I can go home happy with the way I performed. 405 00:20:29,400 --> 00:20:31,320 Unfortunately, Tom didn't dive to the best of his ability. 406 00:20:31,400 --> 00:20:34,840 And it was hard work for me trying to gear him up. 407 00:20:34,920 --> 00:20:36,600 All I remember, from my side, 408 00:20:36,680 --> 00:20:38,520 was that he was on the phone to his mum - 409 00:20:38,600 --> 00:20:39,720 apologising for her coming. 410 00:20:39,800 --> 00:20:42,160 I told him, "Get off your phone. It's not over yet." 411 00:20:42,240 --> 00:20:43,760 I think that got taken the wrong way 412 00:20:43,840 --> 00:20:46,120 because I think a 13-year-old telling a 26-year-old 413 00:20:46,200 --> 00:20:49,280 they shouldn't be doing something didn't go down very well. 414 00:20:49,360 --> 00:20:52,440 I didn't really realise that it was such a big issue 415 00:20:52,520 --> 00:20:54,680 until I read it the next day in the newspapers. 416 00:20:57,200 --> 00:20:59,160 The media got hold of this thing 417 00:20:59,240 --> 00:21:01,600 and pushed it out there as a headline. 418 00:21:02,760 --> 00:21:05,440 Today we put 100% effort into every dive. 419 00:21:05,520 --> 00:21:07,880 Now, after the third dive, it didn't go so well. 420 00:21:07,960 --> 00:21:12,200 I think what I did...I must have tried too hard 421 00:21:12,280 --> 00:21:14,880 and just went for everything as hard as I possibly could. 422 00:21:14,960 --> 00:21:18,640 And it obviously...it just wasn't my day today anyway. 423 00:21:20,760 --> 00:21:21,960 Oh, it's great to be back 424 00:21:22,040 --> 00:21:23,840 but I really do miss being in Beijing, actually. 425 00:21:23,920 --> 00:21:26,840 But it'll be good to go back home, work as hard as I possibly can 426 00:21:26,920 --> 00:21:28,640 to try and get the best results in London. 427 00:21:28,720 --> 00:21:31,640 Being an athlete, being in the public eye 428 00:21:31,720 --> 00:21:35,320 and then being at school mentally must be really difficult. 429 00:21:37,720 --> 00:21:39,240 On the return from the Olympics in Beijing 430 00:21:39,320 --> 00:21:41,760 was when everything kind of took a turn, 431 00:21:41,840 --> 00:21:43,240 when I went back to school. 432 00:21:43,320 --> 00:21:44,720 After coming back from the Olympics, 433 00:21:44,800 --> 00:21:45,960 I got the odd name call 434 00:21:46,040 --> 00:21:49,160 and then it kind of got more and more and more and more. 435 00:21:49,240 --> 00:21:51,440 I thought it would reach a peak and then just go away. 436 00:21:51,520 --> 00:21:54,560 And then when it reached the peak, it kind of just stayed there. 437 00:21:54,640 --> 00:21:57,520 And after eight months of people calling you names... 438 00:21:57,600 --> 00:22:00,480 I remember this being horrible at school. 439 00:22:00,560 --> 00:22:03,520 Me and my friends were given a key 440 00:22:03,600 --> 00:22:05,640 to be able to lock ourselves in a classroom, 441 00:22:05,720 --> 00:22:09,160 to kind of get away from people at lunchtime. 442 00:22:09,240 --> 00:22:10,600 You do something that you love doing 443 00:22:10,680 --> 00:22:13,240 and then you get taken the mick out of when you go to school. 444 00:22:13,320 --> 00:22:15,200 So I don't really quite understand what's happening there 445 00:22:15,280 --> 00:22:16,280 but you know... 446 00:22:16,360 --> 00:22:19,920 It affected my home life, it affected school life, 447 00:22:20,000 --> 00:22:21,480 it affected my diving life. 448 00:22:21,560 --> 00:22:24,040 I felt like my whole world was coming to an end 449 00:22:24,120 --> 00:22:26,440 after a summer that I was so excited about - 450 00:22:26,520 --> 00:22:28,840 a dream that I had finally accomplished 451 00:22:28,920 --> 00:22:30,400 of going to an Olympic Games - 452 00:22:30,480 --> 00:22:31,560 and then coming back to school 453 00:22:31,640 --> 00:22:35,960 and feeling like I was some kind of alien. 454 00:22:36,040 --> 00:22:38,880 You get a lot of verbal comments walking through the playground, 455 00:22:38,960 --> 00:22:40,520 people would kind of throw things. 456 00:22:40,600 --> 00:22:44,920 I don't think people realise how much it impacted me 457 00:22:45,000 --> 00:22:47,080 because I didn't really talk about it. 458 00:22:47,160 --> 00:22:49,440 I was almost embarrassed about the fact 459 00:22:49,520 --> 00:22:51,520 that people were mean to me at school. 460 00:22:51,600 --> 00:22:54,720 So I didn't really tell my parents until it got really bad, 461 00:22:54,800 --> 00:22:56,400 until they heard me crying in my room 462 00:22:56,480 --> 00:22:58,800 and heard me kind of not really interacting 463 00:22:58,880 --> 00:23:00,080 or wanting to do anything. 464 00:23:00,160 --> 00:23:02,200 I mean, I don't really understand why they did it. 465 00:23:02,280 --> 00:23:06,000 They should have been proud that he was achieving that 466 00:23:06,080 --> 00:23:08,080 and that they were going to school with him. 467 00:23:08,160 --> 00:23:11,520 I was rugby tackled in the field at lunch one time. 468 00:23:11,600 --> 00:23:14,880 I said to my parents, "I can't do this anymore. 469 00:23:14,960 --> 00:23:16,680 "I can't go to school. 470 00:23:16,760 --> 00:23:19,080 "I don't want to ever go to school ever again. 471 00:23:19,160 --> 00:23:21,000 "And I want to be homeschooled." 472 00:23:21,080 --> 00:23:24,840 The school weren't really very supportive at all. 473 00:23:24,920 --> 00:23:28,720 The kids were never told off, the teachers didn't intervene. 474 00:23:28,800 --> 00:23:30,880 What ended up happening, in the end, 475 00:23:30,960 --> 00:23:35,880 was my dad got an email or a letter through from somebody 476 00:23:35,960 --> 00:23:37,640 that knew someone at Plymouth College. 477 00:23:37,720 --> 00:23:41,000 And they were able to offer me a scholarship. 478 00:23:41,080 --> 00:23:44,160 My first day at Plymouth College has been really good, actually. 479 00:23:44,240 --> 00:23:45,880 It's been nice to meet new people 480 00:23:45,960 --> 00:23:47,440 and everyone's been really supportive 481 00:23:47,520 --> 00:23:49,040 and it's a completely different atmosphere. 482 00:23:49,120 --> 00:23:53,520 I feel so sorry for that kid that had to explain what was going on. 483 00:23:53,600 --> 00:23:57,240 I got so hard to deal with bullying... 484 00:23:58,360 --> 00:24:01,880 ..and then to have to kind of explain that on the news 485 00:24:01,960 --> 00:24:04,000 and explain it to people. 486 00:24:04,080 --> 00:24:07,520 And everybody to know that you were going through it 487 00:24:07,600 --> 00:24:09,520 is so rough. 488 00:24:10,760 --> 00:24:13,600 They have loads and loads of different elite athletes 489 00:24:13,680 --> 00:24:16,520 and it's great to go into a school with other athletes, 490 00:24:16,600 --> 00:24:17,960 that understand what you're going through 491 00:24:18,040 --> 00:24:20,560 and understand how much training that you've got to do 492 00:24:20,640 --> 00:24:21,760 and keep up with schoolwork. 493 00:24:21,840 --> 00:24:23,160 And it's great to have someone there 494 00:24:23,240 --> 00:24:24,480 that's going through the same thing. 495 00:24:24,560 --> 00:24:27,840 Probably at the time I had maybe management 496 00:24:27,920 --> 00:24:29,560 that didn't have the best judgement. 497 00:24:29,640 --> 00:24:35,320 It's kind of unsurprising that things like this were lined up 498 00:24:35,400 --> 00:24:36,800 for when I would leave school. 499 00:24:36,880 --> 00:24:40,520 There would be cameras waiting for me outside of the school. 500 00:24:43,560 --> 00:24:45,720 I was in a really bad place with my diving 501 00:24:45,800 --> 00:24:48,840 and, a few months after joining this school, 502 00:24:48,920 --> 00:24:51,600 I had a completely different frame of mind 503 00:24:51,680 --> 00:24:55,120 and that was when I got to go to my first world championships. 504 00:24:59,600 --> 00:25:00,880 Ladies and gentlemen, 505 00:25:00,960 --> 00:25:02,600 please welcome the finalists. 506 00:25:02,680 --> 00:25:05,920 It was the first chance that I was going to be able to get out 507 00:25:06,000 --> 00:25:08,360 and dive on the world stage since the Olympic Games. 508 00:25:08,440 --> 00:25:10,560 Darts Ed representing Great Britain. 509 00:25:10,640 --> 00:25:13,200 Tom Daley. 510 00:25:13,280 --> 00:25:14,840 It was in Rome. 511 00:25:14,920 --> 00:25:18,080 I remember my dad flying out to the competition 512 00:25:18,160 --> 00:25:19,120 to come and watch me. 513 00:25:19,200 --> 00:25:21,120 And I always knew exactly where he was 514 00:25:21,200 --> 00:25:23,360 because he would have this massive Union flag 515 00:25:23,440 --> 00:25:24,600 he would be waving, 516 00:25:24,680 --> 00:25:26,640 to the point where it would infuriate 517 00:25:26,720 --> 00:25:28,560 all of the spectators around him. 518 00:25:28,640 --> 00:25:30,520 Because it would be like smashing into their faces 519 00:25:30,600 --> 00:25:31,760 but he did not care. 520 00:25:31,840 --> 00:25:35,320 He wanted me to know exactly where he was and that he was there. 521 00:25:35,400 --> 00:25:37,040 And he didn't care how well I did. 522 00:25:37,120 --> 00:25:38,480 He didn't care if I came last. 523 00:25:38,560 --> 00:25:40,080 He didn't care if I bombed out. 524 00:25:40,160 --> 00:25:42,960 There was no concern about the outcome. 525 00:25:43,040 --> 00:25:44,320 He just wanted to be there. 526 00:25:44,400 --> 00:25:45,560 He just loved it. 527 00:25:45,640 --> 00:25:48,360 He just loved seeing me dive. 528 00:25:54,360 --> 00:25:56,600 I remember going from fourth place 529 00:25:56,680 --> 00:25:58,800 and then the diver after me messed up a bit. 530 00:25:58,880 --> 00:26:00,800 And so then I was like "OK, I'm guaranteed bronze, 531 00:26:00,880 --> 00:26:03,280 "like, my first world championship individual medal." 532 00:26:15,000 --> 00:26:16,800 Then the next diver, Matthew Mitchum - 533 00:26:16,880 --> 00:26:18,720 who was the Olympic champion from the year previous - 534 00:26:18,800 --> 00:26:19,760 messed up. 535 00:26:19,840 --> 00:26:21,480 And then I bumped up again so I'm like, 536 00:26:21,560 --> 00:26:23,040 "OK, I'm guaranteed at least a silver." 537 00:26:23,120 --> 00:26:25,360 There's no way that Chubot is going to mess up. 538 00:26:26,440 --> 00:26:32,000 There was this moment that just felt like an absolute eternity. 539 00:26:37,400 --> 00:26:40,840 I just remember hearing everybody go wild. 540 00:26:40,920 --> 00:26:43,080 I'm like, "What's going on?" Like, "What's happened?" 541 00:26:43,160 --> 00:26:44,440 See the scores come up. 542 00:26:46,320 --> 00:26:48,680 And I've gone into first place 543 00:26:48,760 --> 00:26:52,200 and I've become world champion at 15-years-old. 544 00:26:52,280 --> 00:26:57,080 My goodness, Tom Daley is the world champion. 545 00:26:57,160 --> 00:26:59,680 Tom Daley, congratulations. 546 00:26:59,760 --> 00:27:01,480 Magnificent. 547 00:27:07,040 --> 00:27:10,440 That gave me that hope and that fire 548 00:27:10,520 --> 00:27:13,120 that I could do that again. 549 00:27:21,120 --> 00:27:23,160 My dad got to see me do that. 550 00:27:23,240 --> 00:27:26,520 My dad got to see me stand on top of the world championship podium. 551 00:27:32,680 --> 00:27:35,280 I do sometimes think back 552 00:27:35,360 --> 00:27:39,640 on my younger life 553 00:27:39,720 --> 00:27:43,720 and did I go see Olympics in Beijing 2008? 554 00:27:46,360 --> 00:27:51,640 Did I win a European title at 13, win a world championship at 15? 555 00:27:51,720 --> 00:27:55,640 Because my dad 556 00:27:55,720 --> 00:27:58,120 wasn't gonna see me win the rest 557 00:27:58,200 --> 00:28:01,320 and be the rest of the person I am today. 558 00:28:20,320 --> 00:28:23,080 My dad took me to every single training session. 559 00:28:23,160 --> 00:28:25,040 He took me to every single competition. 560 00:28:25,120 --> 00:28:29,360 He was there for me through the good days, the bad days. 561 00:28:29,440 --> 00:28:31,840 He was there for me through everything... 562 00:28:33,400 --> 00:28:35,360 ..and he was the one person that I could go to 563 00:28:35,440 --> 00:28:37,520 to speak about anything and everything 564 00:28:37,600 --> 00:28:40,720 and feel like I had someone on my side, always. 565 00:28:43,240 --> 00:28:44,440 When I don't get the dives, 566 00:28:44,520 --> 00:28:47,920 I just feel really frustrated and I get really angry with myself. 567 00:28:48,000 --> 00:28:51,480 I deal with it by, like, sitting in the van, 568 00:28:51,560 --> 00:28:54,240 speaking to my dad and he'll make me feel better. 569 00:28:58,080 --> 00:28:59,840 He supports me all the way 570 00:28:59,920 --> 00:29:01,480 and if I didn't have his support system, 571 00:29:01,560 --> 00:29:03,160 I wouldn't be here now, 'cause... 572 00:29:04,440 --> 00:29:07,280 ..I wouldn't want to carry on without his support. 573 00:29:07,360 --> 00:29:12,400 I was in a competition in Germany in 2006. 574 00:29:12,480 --> 00:29:16,720 I was having a really tough time with my diving. 575 00:29:16,800 --> 00:29:18,760 I was growing. I was having mental blocks. 576 00:29:18,840 --> 00:29:22,040 I was terrified of doing my dives on 10 metre, 577 00:29:22,120 --> 00:29:25,240 to the point where I had a bit of a breakdown 578 00:29:25,320 --> 00:29:26,960 throughout the middle of a competition. 579 00:29:27,040 --> 00:29:30,480 And I had to come down, 580 00:29:30,560 --> 00:29:32,280 I had to pull myself out of the competition 581 00:29:32,360 --> 00:29:34,000 and go up to the referee and just say, 582 00:29:34,080 --> 00:29:36,160 "I'm so sorry, I can't continue the competition. 583 00:29:36,240 --> 00:29:38,000 "I have to...I have to pull out." 584 00:29:38,080 --> 00:29:39,520 And I was so upset and so distraught. 585 00:29:39,600 --> 00:29:41,320 And I went and sat with my dad. 586 00:29:41,400 --> 00:29:44,920 And I didn't know until we got home 587 00:29:45,000 --> 00:29:49,680 that he had pushed his surgery back two weeks, 588 00:29:49,760 --> 00:29:52,840 to be able to come to that competition - 589 00:29:52,920 --> 00:29:54,880 to watch me dive - 590 00:29:54,960 --> 00:29:58,760 because he knew how much it would mean to me for him to be there. 591 00:30:00,640 --> 00:30:04,440 One day, he wasn't there when I got back from school. 592 00:30:04,520 --> 00:30:07,040 My mum said, "Everything's OK 593 00:30:07,120 --> 00:30:09,280 "but we are going to go to the hospital." 594 00:30:09,360 --> 00:30:11,200 And I'm like, "Well, what's he doing at the hospital? 595 00:30:11,280 --> 00:30:12,520 "Like, what's going on?" 596 00:30:12,600 --> 00:30:14,920 And I remember walking into the hospital 597 00:30:15,000 --> 00:30:17,720 and then seeing him in the hospital bed, 598 00:30:17,800 --> 00:30:19,560 with bandages wrapped around his head. 599 00:30:19,640 --> 00:30:23,600 That was when I found out that he had just had a brain tumour 600 00:30:23,680 --> 00:30:25,360 the size of a grapefruit removed. 601 00:30:25,440 --> 00:30:26,960 Within two weeks, 602 00:30:27,040 --> 00:30:29,560 I was in the hospital and it was removed - 603 00:30:29,640 --> 00:30:31,320 80% removed. 604 00:30:31,400 --> 00:30:33,880 They had to leave 20% in there 605 00:30:33,960 --> 00:30:37,120 because it was intertwined with blood vessels and nerves. 606 00:30:37,200 --> 00:30:40,280 And it was too risky to remove any more. 607 00:30:40,360 --> 00:30:43,640 At the time, I wasn't told that it was terminal. 608 00:30:43,720 --> 00:30:49,280 So just...I always assumed and had the hopeful optimism 609 00:30:49,360 --> 00:30:51,840 that he was going to recover. 610 00:30:51,920 --> 00:30:53,840 Because you think of your parents as invincible. 611 00:30:53,920 --> 00:30:56,080 You think of your parents as the people 612 00:30:56,160 --> 00:30:58,160 that are going to be there for you through everything - 613 00:30:58,240 --> 00:31:00,080 or at least until you become an adult. 614 00:31:05,160 --> 00:31:07,040 My tumour has started to grow back, 615 00:31:07,120 --> 00:31:10,960 albeit only small at the moment. 616 00:31:11,040 --> 00:31:15,840 But I've just got to prepare myself for the next scan. 617 00:31:15,920 --> 00:31:17,840 They couldn't remove them this time. 618 00:31:17,920 --> 00:31:19,280 The way they explained it was 619 00:31:19,360 --> 00:31:21,960 it would be like having a blown up balloon 620 00:31:22,040 --> 00:31:23,640 and trying to cut a hole out of it, 621 00:31:23,720 --> 00:31:24,840 without it popping. 622 00:31:24,920 --> 00:31:28,920 In 2011, I was away at a training camp in Mexico. 623 00:31:29,000 --> 00:31:31,000 I got called into a room. 624 00:31:31,080 --> 00:31:33,760 where they had my mum on the phone. 625 00:31:33,840 --> 00:31:36,280 And I was like, "What's happening?" 626 00:31:36,360 --> 00:31:38,960 And my mum was like, "Hey, Tom. 627 00:31:39,040 --> 00:31:41,120 "Just wanted to speak to you and let you know 628 00:31:41,200 --> 00:31:43,440 "that you're going to be coming home this afternoon. 629 00:31:43,520 --> 00:31:45,080 "Your dad's not very well. 630 00:31:45,160 --> 00:31:47,200 "He's currently in the living room 631 00:31:47,280 --> 00:31:50,240 "and he's been put on end-of-life care." 632 00:31:50,320 --> 00:31:52,960 When I left, he wasn't doing great but he was fine. 633 00:31:53,040 --> 00:31:54,520 My dad was going to get better. 634 00:31:54,600 --> 00:31:55,800 He had to get better. 635 00:31:55,880 --> 00:31:57,440 How could I keep going? 636 00:31:57,520 --> 00:31:59,040 How could I go to the next Olympics? 637 00:31:59,120 --> 00:32:01,360 How could I do what I do every day without him? 638 00:32:01,440 --> 00:32:05,480 Soon as Rob saw Tom, it gave him a spark again 639 00:32:05,560 --> 00:32:06,880 and he just came to life. 640 00:32:06,960 --> 00:32:10,000 Whenever I wasn't training or whenever I wasn't at school, 641 00:32:10,080 --> 00:32:14,680 I was sat right next to him, working on my driving theory test. 642 00:32:16,360 --> 00:32:18,520 That was the one thing that we could still do together. 643 00:32:19,680 --> 00:32:23,400 When I had my 17th birthday on May 21st, 644 00:32:23,480 --> 00:32:27,240 he wanted to come to the window but he couldn't really walk. 645 00:32:27,320 --> 00:32:30,520 But he tried to get to the window anyway. 646 00:32:31,720 --> 00:32:33,960 I did my first driving lesson, came back, 647 00:32:34,040 --> 00:32:39,400 and it was on May 27th 648 00:32:39,480 --> 00:32:41,360 that he passed away that year. 649 00:32:43,800 --> 00:32:48,600 I kept squeezing his hand and he would squeeze back. 650 00:32:50,440 --> 00:32:52,920 And then I remember the last time that he squeezed my hand... 651 00:33:00,840 --> 00:33:04,000 ..and he didn't squeeze back anymore. 652 00:33:20,760 --> 00:33:23,360 It's still a shock when it actually happens, 653 00:33:23,440 --> 00:33:25,200 even though you know it's coming. 654 00:33:30,640 --> 00:33:33,280 I mean, I didn't just lose my dad 655 00:33:33,360 --> 00:33:35,720 because he was so much more than that. 656 00:33:37,680 --> 00:33:41,080 He was my biggest cheerleader... 657 00:33:42,280 --> 00:33:46,920 ..my best friend...mentor. 658 00:33:48,800 --> 00:33:51,600 I mean, our whole life came to a standstill. 659 00:34:03,760 --> 00:34:04,880 There's periods of time 660 00:34:04,960 --> 00:34:08,120 where I just have no recollection of what happened. 661 00:34:08,200 --> 00:34:11,840 And I felt like I just went into some kind of autopilot - 662 00:34:11,920 --> 00:34:16,160 of just doing what I thought was right at the time 663 00:34:16,240 --> 00:34:17,960 and what other people wanted for me... 664 00:34:19,240 --> 00:34:21,440 ..or what other people expected me to be... 665 00:34:25,160 --> 00:34:27,480 ..or what other people expected me to act like. 666 00:34:28,560 --> 00:34:31,640 I don't...I don't really know how I feel. 667 00:34:31,720 --> 00:34:34,040 I kind of...it's weird. 668 00:34:34,120 --> 00:34:36,400 Some people just like sit in the corner 669 00:34:36,480 --> 00:34:37,680 and just like are crying. 670 00:34:37,760 --> 00:34:40,080 And then I'm kind of...feel bad for carrying on 671 00:34:40,160 --> 00:34:42,280 but I think that's what dad would have wanted. 672 00:34:42,360 --> 00:34:44,720 Even when he was downstairs for that whole month in bed, 673 00:34:44,800 --> 00:34:46,720 he always says to me, "Why aren't you at training?" 674 00:34:48,600 --> 00:34:50,880 I kind of shut down. 675 00:34:50,960 --> 00:34:53,160 I don't know what I was thinking 676 00:34:53,240 --> 00:34:55,720 but I went to training the next day. 677 00:34:55,800 --> 00:34:59,840 I went to the national championships 10 days later. 678 00:34:59,920 --> 00:35:05,800 I just kept going because I didn't know anything else. 679 00:35:05,880 --> 00:35:09,120 I didn't have anything or have anyone else. 680 00:35:09,200 --> 00:35:11,760 I was alone. 681 00:35:11,840 --> 00:35:15,240 I felt like I had to put on a brave face - 682 00:35:15,320 --> 00:35:16,720 like I always have to - 683 00:35:16,800 --> 00:35:18,960 because I always had to keep this front 684 00:35:19,040 --> 00:35:21,240 that everything was gonna be OK. 685 00:35:21,320 --> 00:35:22,920 And it wasn't. 686 00:35:24,000 --> 00:35:26,520 But I didn't know how to deal with that. 687 00:35:27,600 --> 00:35:31,480 He decided that coming training and acting more as normal 688 00:35:31,560 --> 00:35:36,080 was gonna be a way in which he could focus on something else. 689 00:35:36,160 --> 00:35:38,760 So I guess the compartmentalisation 690 00:35:38,840 --> 00:35:40,360 comes through again, 691 00:35:40,440 --> 00:35:43,320 where he's 100% into something else - 692 00:35:43,400 --> 00:35:45,600 therefore he's not in a position 693 00:35:45,680 --> 00:35:48,160 to be thinking about other things. 694 00:35:58,480 --> 00:36:03,520 People are like on ladders trying to get photos of me, 695 00:36:03,600 --> 00:36:06,720 seeing my dad being carried out in a coffin. 696 00:36:08,360 --> 00:36:11,320 Yeah, they've been asked not to come. 697 00:36:17,160 --> 00:36:19,720 I mean, I look back on it now 698 00:36:19,800 --> 00:36:22,800 and it just feels, like, really abusive. 699 00:36:30,800 --> 00:36:34,800 It's a very lonely experience... 700 00:36:36,520 --> 00:36:37,520 ..for sure. 701 00:37:25,440 --> 00:37:26,680 Knowing everything I know now, 702 00:37:26,760 --> 00:37:32,000 I would have 100% steer clear of doing any of that press. 703 00:37:32,080 --> 00:37:34,640 You need time to grieve 704 00:37:34,720 --> 00:37:37,240 and you need time to be able to process what happened. 705 00:37:37,320 --> 00:37:40,040 I felt like I had to put on a brave face for anyone else 706 00:37:40,120 --> 00:37:42,000 that might have been going through that situation, 707 00:37:42,080 --> 00:37:45,400 when actually the right thing to do was like, 708 00:37:45,480 --> 00:37:47,040 "You know what, I am struggling." 709 00:37:47,120 --> 00:37:50,520 I didn't really feel like I could talk to my mum about my struggles. 710 00:37:50,600 --> 00:37:53,880 I didn't feel like I could talk to my brothers about my struggles 711 00:37:53,960 --> 00:37:55,800 because I didn't want to upset them. 712 00:37:55,880 --> 00:37:58,600 So I always kept it to myself. 713 00:37:59,840 --> 00:38:01,440 And I didn't have that outlet 714 00:38:01,520 --> 00:38:04,920 to be able to offload all of those things that I was thinking. 715 00:38:05,000 --> 00:38:07,080 The only people that I have to talk to about this 716 00:38:07,160 --> 00:38:08,880 are you watching at home. 717 00:38:12,080 --> 00:38:13,960 At the end of 2011, 718 00:38:14,040 --> 00:38:15,960 I was told that I would have to lose weight 719 00:38:16,040 --> 00:38:18,400 by our performance director at British Diving 720 00:38:18,480 --> 00:38:21,360 and that I was overweight 721 00:38:21,440 --> 00:38:24,840 and that I needed to look slimmer, leaner 722 00:38:24,920 --> 00:38:27,440 and more like I did in 2008. 723 00:38:28,640 --> 00:38:30,440 It was the first time where I felt 724 00:38:30,520 --> 00:38:33,880 that I was being looked at and judged - 725 00:38:33,960 --> 00:38:36,320 not for how I did in the diving pool 726 00:38:36,400 --> 00:38:37,720 but for how I looked. 727 00:38:37,800 --> 00:38:40,080 I took then some quite drastic measures 728 00:38:40,160 --> 00:38:43,760 to make sure that the food did not stay in my stomach, 729 00:38:43,840 --> 00:38:45,480 let's put it that way. 730 00:38:46,680 --> 00:38:51,120 A rational person would know that I wasn't fat 731 00:38:51,200 --> 00:38:53,760 but that was all that I could think about 732 00:38:53,840 --> 00:38:55,520 in the build-up to the Olympic Games. 733 00:38:55,600 --> 00:38:57,680 I had a diary that I would write in 734 00:38:57,760 --> 00:39:00,680 and, at the top of it, I'd write the date and my weight. 735 00:39:00,760 --> 00:39:02,640 I was kind of left to my own devices 736 00:39:02,720 --> 00:39:05,240 and kind of left with that struggle by myself. 737 00:39:05,320 --> 00:39:07,040 Because even when I was having these meetings 738 00:39:07,120 --> 00:39:08,560 with my sports psychologist, 739 00:39:08,640 --> 00:39:10,360 I didn't know how to bring that up - 740 00:39:10,440 --> 00:39:12,280 because, every time I said it out loud, 741 00:39:12,360 --> 00:39:13,600 I knew it felt silly. 742 00:39:13,680 --> 00:39:15,680 But in my head, it was the biggest thing 743 00:39:15,760 --> 00:39:17,400 that I would always think about every day. 744 00:39:17,480 --> 00:39:19,960 Every time I made a decision about what I was going to eat, 745 00:39:20,040 --> 00:39:22,040 if I was going to eat it 746 00:39:22,120 --> 00:39:25,280 and then get myself so hungry that I would end up 747 00:39:25,360 --> 00:39:27,200 eating so much and bingeing - 748 00:39:27,280 --> 00:39:28,920 to the point where I was then so guilty 749 00:39:29,000 --> 00:39:30,880 that I then had to do something about that. 750 00:39:33,800 --> 00:39:35,600 It was more than just an eating disorder. 751 00:39:35,680 --> 00:39:39,200 That was really a reflection on how much stress and anxiety 752 00:39:39,280 --> 00:39:42,320 he was going through at the time, getting to London in 2012. 753 00:39:42,400 --> 00:39:45,680 I still feel, like, ashamed talking about it now 754 00:39:45,760 --> 00:39:47,960 because, like, once you're on the other side of it, 755 00:39:48,040 --> 00:39:50,560 it seems so easy just to stop and ask for help. 756 00:39:50,640 --> 00:39:54,720 But, when you're in it, you feel like you can't be helped. 757 00:39:55,880 --> 00:39:57,160 He was London 2012. 758 00:39:57,240 --> 00:39:58,480 He was the face of it. 759 00:40:04,160 --> 00:40:06,560 Seeing his face on these massive billboards 760 00:40:06,640 --> 00:40:08,840 and just being like, "This is insane." 761 00:40:08,920 --> 00:40:13,160 In my head, guys didn't have eating disorders, 762 00:40:13,240 --> 00:40:15,680 guys didn't have any problems with their mental health. 763 00:40:15,760 --> 00:40:17,600 Guys are meant to be these macho things 764 00:40:17,680 --> 00:40:19,960 that get on with anything and you just keep going. 765 00:40:20,040 --> 00:40:21,160 I was not that. 766 00:40:21,240 --> 00:40:23,480 I didn't know who I could talk to. 767 00:40:23,560 --> 00:40:25,600 The running theme here is that I felt very alone 768 00:40:25,680 --> 00:40:28,040 in all of the things that I was dealing with. 769 00:41:19,000 --> 00:41:21,440 I've almost tortured myself through this whole experience 770 00:41:21,520 --> 00:41:23,840 because I wanted to do well so badly - 771 00:41:25,120 --> 00:41:27,920 being a world champion, European champion, 772 00:41:28,000 --> 00:41:29,160 Commonwealth champion, 773 00:41:29,240 --> 00:41:31,960 with a lot of expectations to come away with an Olympic medal. 774 00:41:32,040 --> 00:41:33,760 But we got here. 775 00:41:33,840 --> 00:41:35,160 We made it. 776 00:41:43,480 --> 00:41:48,080 I think back to this moment and it was so surreal. 777 00:41:51,320 --> 00:41:53,800 I mean, you couldn't even see the top of the stands 778 00:41:53,880 --> 00:41:56,360 with the amount of people that were there and the British flags. 779 00:42:35,880 --> 00:42:37,160 No, it's not so good. 780 00:42:37,240 --> 00:42:38,400 It's not so good. 781 00:42:38,480 --> 00:42:40,480 He's getting massive home support. 782 00:42:40,560 --> 00:42:43,440 His take-off, you can see, getting frustrated. 783 00:42:43,520 --> 00:42:45,680 Yeah, I don't know what he's saying there. 784 00:42:45,760 --> 00:42:48,520 Maybe the flashes put him off but he lost it all on the take-off, 785 00:42:48,600 --> 00:42:50,040 actually, running out of room there. 786 00:42:50,120 --> 00:42:52,520 That's a very poor start from Daley, 787 00:42:52,600 --> 00:42:54,240 more like his preliminary start. 788 00:42:54,320 --> 00:42:56,640 So, basically, what happens when you're diving 789 00:42:56,720 --> 00:42:58,320 is that you have to be extremely visual. 790 00:42:58,400 --> 00:43:00,360 You have to see exactly where you are in the air, 791 00:43:00,440 --> 00:43:02,160 when you're spinning around and when you're twisting. 792 00:43:02,240 --> 00:43:03,840 When I took off this time round, 793 00:43:03,920 --> 00:43:05,760 there were loads of flash photography, essentially, 794 00:43:05,840 --> 00:43:08,120 because home Olympics, people take photos, 795 00:43:08,200 --> 00:43:10,200 they didn't necessarily know not to do that. 796 00:43:10,280 --> 00:43:12,240 It was the first time I've ever put my hand up 797 00:43:12,320 --> 00:43:13,280 to ask for a re-dive. 798 00:43:13,360 --> 00:43:14,960 He said, "Mum, I couldn't see a thing. 799 00:43:15,040 --> 00:43:16,280 "I was blinded. 800 00:43:16,360 --> 00:43:19,720 "How I made it into the water the right way up, I don't know." 801 00:43:19,800 --> 00:43:20,960 I could have killed him, really, 802 00:43:21,040 --> 00:43:23,360 if he'd landed in not a good position. 803 00:43:23,440 --> 00:43:27,080 When something like that happens, it's called the twisties. 804 00:43:27,160 --> 00:43:29,120 I'd been struggling with my twister anyway 805 00:43:29,200 --> 00:43:32,240 and for that to happen in the competition freaked me out. 806 00:43:32,320 --> 00:43:35,080 So I leapt up and clapped my hands and yelled and shouted 807 00:43:35,160 --> 00:43:36,480 and they stopped the competition. 808 00:43:36,560 --> 00:43:40,000 The athlete has to ask for the re-dive 809 00:43:40,080 --> 00:43:43,840 so I went over to the referee, explained what had happened. 810 00:43:43,920 --> 00:43:45,400 They went and reviewed the footage 811 00:43:45,480 --> 00:43:47,440 or I think they might have already reviewed the footage 812 00:43:47,520 --> 00:43:49,040 because they knew what was coming. 813 00:43:49,120 --> 00:43:52,120 When they told me to go up and do it again, it was terrifying. 814 00:43:52,200 --> 00:43:53,480 And I was like, "Oh, my god. 815 00:43:53,560 --> 00:43:58,480 "I don't think there has ever been a re-dive in an Olympics." 816 00:43:58,560 --> 00:44:00,680 Normally what you would do is you would break everything down 817 00:44:00,760 --> 00:44:02,920 to square one and start again and build it back up 818 00:44:03,000 --> 00:44:04,280 really, really slowly 819 00:44:04,360 --> 00:44:06,400 and figure out how to get yourself feeling confident, 820 00:44:06,480 --> 00:44:07,840 going up onto the diving board. 821 00:44:07,920 --> 00:44:10,360 But I went back up onto the diving board - 822 00:44:10,440 --> 00:44:11,640 having to do it again - 823 00:44:11,720 --> 00:44:13,520 and then do it in front of 18,000 people 824 00:44:13,600 --> 00:44:15,600 and the millions of people at home. 825 00:44:20,840 --> 00:44:22,640 But I was so scared to do this again. 826 00:44:22,720 --> 00:44:24,960 I remember standing on the end of the diving board thinking, like, 827 00:44:25,040 --> 00:44:27,400 "How do I get myself back in the zone to do this again?" 828 00:44:30,000 --> 00:44:32,440 Because if you re-dive and you do the dive worse 829 00:44:32,520 --> 00:44:35,200 than the one you did before, then this is the one that counts. 830 00:44:42,080 --> 00:44:43,360 He does a better job. 831 00:44:43,440 --> 00:44:45,240 It's better than the one he got the re-dive on 832 00:44:45,320 --> 00:44:46,840 so then we're into it. 833 00:45:00,440 --> 00:45:02,680 This is what you have worked for 834 00:45:02,760 --> 00:45:04,520 for a whole decade. 835 00:45:04,600 --> 00:45:06,560 This is what you imagined it would be like 836 00:45:06,640 --> 00:45:10,120 when you said you would represent Great Britain at the Olympics. 837 00:45:17,680 --> 00:45:18,800 Good luck, Tom Daley. 838 00:45:18,880 --> 00:45:20,880 The country is behind you. 839 00:45:22,600 --> 00:45:25,320 Oh, yes. It's a good one. 840 00:45:25,400 --> 00:45:26,680 He can't do any more than that. 841 00:45:26,760 --> 00:45:28,000 It needed to be perfect 842 00:45:28,080 --> 00:45:30,400 and, apart from just a minute bit of splash, 843 00:45:30,480 --> 00:45:31,880 it was perfect. 844 00:45:37,360 --> 00:45:41,880 Those four years were so incredibly tough for our family, 845 00:45:41,960 --> 00:45:46,760 for everything I had to deal with between 2008 through to 2012. 846 00:45:48,600 --> 00:45:53,280 The amount that I had to grow up and change from that little kid... 847 00:45:56,400 --> 00:46:00,960 ..I felt like I had grown up an immense amount... 848 00:46:02,240 --> 00:46:04,800 ..even though I'm just turned 18 there. 849 00:46:36,520 --> 00:46:41,280 It felt like the first time I felt any kind of happiness 850 00:46:41,360 --> 00:46:44,160 and closeness and joy since my dad died. 851 00:46:44,240 --> 00:46:46,240 It was like the moment where I was, like, 852 00:46:46,320 --> 00:46:48,960 we both wanted an Olympic medal more than anything... 853 00:46:57,880 --> 00:47:01,080 ..but then it happened and then it was gone. 854 00:47:02,360 --> 00:47:04,720 London 2012 was over. Like, what was next? 855 00:47:04,800 --> 00:47:06,480 Am I going to do that again? 856 00:47:06,560 --> 00:47:08,200 Am I going to go through another four years 857 00:47:08,280 --> 00:47:10,720 to maybe go to another Olympic Games? 858 00:47:10,800 --> 00:47:12,920 He really wasn't in a good place, 859 00:47:13,000 --> 00:47:14,720 didn't know what to do with himself, 860 00:47:14,800 --> 00:47:16,520 didn't know where he wanted to be. 861 00:47:16,600 --> 00:47:18,760 I was on that high from winning an Olympic medal 862 00:47:18,840 --> 00:47:20,400 and then I was, like, on my own. 863 00:47:20,480 --> 00:47:22,400 There were no other Olympic medallists on the diving team. 864 00:47:22,480 --> 00:47:24,960 So, if I was talking to them about how I was feeling, 865 00:47:25,040 --> 00:47:26,680 they would be, you know, very, like, 866 00:47:26,760 --> 00:47:28,040 "Well, you won an Olympic medal, like, 867 00:47:28,120 --> 00:47:30,200 "what have you got to be sad about?" 868 00:47:30,280 --> 00:47:32,280 But as Tom Daley, the brand, 869 00:47:32,360 --> 00:47:34,640 I was in way more demand than ever. 870 00:47:34,720 --> 00:47:36,200 After my dad died, 871 00:47:36,280 --> 00:47:38,840 I was the breadwinner for my family - 872 00:47:38,920 --> 00:47:40,200 for my mum, for my brothers 873 00:47:40,280 --> 00:47:43,600 and wanted to try and provide for them, 874 00:47:43,680 --> 00:47:45,000 in the best way that I could. 875 00:47:45,080 --> 00:47:48,600 But for every sponsorship that I got 876 00:47:48,680 --> 00:47:50,480 and for every deal that I had, 877 00:47:50,560 --> 00:47:52,760 for every pound that I went over a threshold, 878 00:47:52,840 --> 00:47:54,680 I got a pound taken away from me 879 00:47:54,760 --> 00:47:56,440 from British swimming and British diving. 880 00:47:59,040 --> 00:48:01,160 I was getting constant criticism, 881 00:48:01,240 --> 00:48:02,760 saying that I wasn't training enough 882 00:48:02,840 --> 00:48:04,840 and I was taking too much time away from the sport - 883 00:48:04,920 --> 00:48:07,040 when I didn't miss a single training session. 884 00:48:07,120 --> 00:48:09,680 I was so committed to what I wanted to do 885 00:48:09,760 --> 00:48:10,800 and achieve my dream. 886 00:48:10,880 --> 00:48:14,000 And, yes, I was doing so many things outside of the sport 887 00:48:14,080 --> 00:48:17,280 but, also, that was my way of dealing with all of the crap 888 00:48:17,360 --> 00:48:19,960 that I was going through was to not think - 889 00:48:20,040 --> 00:48:21,760 to keep myself so incredibly busy 890 00:48:21,840 --> 00:48:24,600 that I did not have time to feel sorry for myself. 891 00:48:24,680 --> 00:48:27,320 I just wanted to keep going, keep going, keep doing. 892 00:48:27,400 --> 00:48:29,080 British Diving weren't happy. 893 00:48:29,160 --> 00:48:30,640 They were saying it was interfering 894 00:48:30,720 --> 00:48:31,920 with what he was doing. 895 00:48:32,000 --> 00:48:33,760 How do I win? 896 00:48:33,840 --> 00:48:35,560 I have to look after my family, 897 00:48:35,640 --> 00:48:38,880 yet you don't want to support me either 898 00:48:38,960 --> 00:48:40,680 because that was just the structure and the setup, 899 00:48:40,760 --> 00:48:43,080 of the way that funding works in British sport. 900 00:48:43,160 --> 00:48:47,560 I just saw red a little bit and responded to the press article, 901 00:48:47,640 --> 00:48:51,200 for not concentrating on his training as he should be. 902 00:48:51,280 --> 00:48:53,640 So my mum ended up writing an open letter 903 00:48:53,720 --> 00:48:57,360 to the CEO of British Swimming to just be like, 904 00:48:57,440 --> 00:49:00,480 "Back off, just let my son do his thing. 905 00:49:00,560 --> 00:49:02,200 "You know, at the end of the day, 906 00:49:02,280 --> 00:49:04,680 "he's trying to do the best that he can in the pool 907 00:49:04,760 --> 00:49:07,400 "and he's also doing what he can 908 00:49:07,480 --> 00:49:09,240 "to support his family, at 18-years-old." 909 00:49:13,800 --> 00:49:16,280 After my 2013 season, 910 00:49:16,360 --> 00:49:18,880 we were in Barcelona after the world championships. 911 00:49:18,960 --> 00:49:21,040 And I sat down with my coach and I said, 912 00:49:21,120 --> 00:49:22,400 "I really need to speak to you 913 00:49:22,480 --> 00:49:25,200 "because there's something that I want to tell you." 914 00:49:25,280 --> 00:49:28,000 He thought that I was going to tell him 915 00:49:28,080 --> 00:49:30,760 that I was quitting diving and I couldn't do it anymore, 916 00:49:30,840 --> 00:49:33,920 because he knew how much of a struggle that year was for me. 917 00:49:34,000 --> 00:49:35,240 What I ended up saying to him 918 00:49:35,320 --> 00:49:37,480 was that I really want to move to London. 919 00:49:37,560 --> 00:49:38,880 I needed something different, 920 00:49:38,960 --> 00:49:40,280 I needed something new 921 00:49:40,360 --> 00:49:45,400 and I needed a different outlook on what it meant to be an athlete. 922 00:49:45,480 --> 00:49:47,920 I said, "I would love for you to come with me 923 00:49:48,000 --> 00:49:51,200 "because you've been my coach since day one." 924 00:49:51,280 --> 00:49:55,160 I don't think that what was on offer with me and Plymouth, 925 00:49:55,240 --> 00:49:56,760 at that time, 926 00:49:56,840 --> 00:49:59,360 was a match for what was on offer with London 927 00:49:59,440 --> 00:50:01,520 and everything that went with that. 928 00:50:01,600 --> 00:50:04,360 He decided to stay in Plymouth and keep running Plymouth diving 929 00:50:04,440 --> 00:50:05,680 and I moved to London. 930 00:50:05,760 --> 00:50:09,400 But the problem with London was there was no club there. 931 00:50:09,480 --> 00:50:13,080 It actually was still being converted from the Olympics 932 00:50:13,160 --> 00:50:15,000 to have, like, the extra seating taken away 933 00:50:15,080 --> 00:50:17,160 and being converted into a proper leisure centre. 934 00:50:17,240 --> 00:50:19,640 And I got a phone call from Alexei, 935 00:50:19,720 --> 00:50:21,040 our performance director, 936 00:50:21,120 --> 00:50:23,440 and he said, "I have someone who would like to speak to you." 937 00:50:23,520 --> 00:50:26,680 He passes the phone over to a voice I hear down the phone 938 00:50:26,760 --> 00:50:28,240 and that was Jane. 939 00:50:28,320 --> 00:50:29,720 We all knew about Tom 940 00:50:29,800 --> 00:50:32,600 'cause he was the next rising star. 941 00:50:32,680 --> 00:50:34,080 I already had stars. 942 00:50:34,160 --> 00:50:38,280 So Tom Daley didn't really mean that much to me at that time. 943 00:50:38,360 --> 00:50:39,760 Alex, he called me. 944 00:50:39,840 --> 00:50:41,600 He said, "Well, Tom's in the United States, 945 00:50:41,680 --> 00:50:44,080 and he's going to come train with you." 946 00:50:44,160 --> 00:50:47,640 I said, "OK. Well, just let me know when he's coming", 947 00:50:47,720 --> 00:50:50,680 thinking it would be a few weeks. 948 00:50:50,760 --> 00:50:52,680 And he said, "Well, he's coming tomorrow." 949 00:50:57,080 --> 00:51:02,040 He said, "Jane, I want to win an Olympic gold medal. 950 00:51:02,120 --> 00:51:04,920 "Would you be interested in moving to London?" 951 00:51:05,000 --> 00:51:08,720 And I was like, "No." 952 00:51:08,800 --> 00:51:10,160 We got on really well. 953 00:51:10,240 --> 00:51:11,200 And we were like, 954 00:51:11,280 --> 00:51:15,040 "OK, maybe this can be the start of something new." 955 00:51:15,120 --> 00:51:17,640 And I didn't know where we were really going to go with it 956 00:51:17,720 --> 00:51:20,520 until he said, "Well, I want to come back." 957 00:51:20,600 --> 00:51:25,480 The second visit was really a lot more about him as a person 958 00:51:25,560 --> 00:51:28,880 and what was actually going on in his life at that time. 959 00:51:28,960 --> 00:51:34,600 I met Lance in the March after the Olympic Games. 960 00:51:34,680 --> 00:51:37,120 I was out in L.A. shooting some stuff. 961 00:51:37,200 --> 00:51:40,240 So he takes my phone, he puts his number in. 962 00:51:40,320 --> 00:51:42,280 And when he hands it back and I look at it, 963 00:51:42,360 --> 00:51:46,200 he's put a winky face at the end of his phone number. 964 00:51:46,280 --> 00:51:51,040 No heterosexual man has ever put a winky face 965 00:51:51,120 --> 00:51:53,840 at the end of their number when they give it to another dude. 966 00:51:53,920 --> 00:51:55,920 The first things we started sharing 967 00:51:56,000 --> 00:52:00,800 were about the fact that he had not so long ago lost his dad. 968 00:52:00,880 --> 00:52:04,320 I had not so long ago just lost my big brother, 969 00:52:04,400 --> 00:52:06,680 who was like my dad, because I never had that. 970 00:52:08,040 --> 00:52:10,640 I had recently won an Academy Award. 971 00:52:10,720 --> 00:52:13,000 He had won his first Olympic medal. 972 00:52:14,360 --> 00:52:15,960 We were able to share with each other 973 00:52:16,040 --> 00:52:20,440 the post-accomplishment blues and devastation - 974 00:52:20,520 --> 00:52:23,840 the way that when you win something 975 00:52:23,920 --> 00:52:25,440 you only ever dreamed about, 976 00:52:25,520 --> 00:52:27,480 there's something inside you that disassembles 977 00:52:27,560 --> 00:52:29,240 and has to be put back together. 978 00:52:29,320 --> 00:52:31,040 And that there's almost no one on the planet 979 00:52:31,120 --> 00:52:33,280 you can share that with because people think, 980 00:52:33,360 --> 00:52:35,520 "Well, gosh. You should be so grateful." 981 00:52:35,600 --> 00:52:37,720 I got to a really low point with my diving, 982 00:52:37,800 --> 00:52:40,280 where I thought I wasn't going to be able to keep going. 983 00:52:40,360 --> 00:52:42,120 Like, I didn't see the point in carrying on. 984 00:52:42,200 --> 00:52:46,560 Meeting Lance, he kind of inspired me to want to carry on. 985 00:52:46,640 --> 00:52:49,920 He inspired me to want to be great at what I do. 986 00:52:50,000 --> 00:52:52,720 He inspired me to want to be the best person that I could be. 987 00:52:52,800 --> 00:52:53,800 It was really special 988 00:52:53,880 --> 00:52:55,840 because I think it was the first time that I realised 989 00:52:55,920 --> 00:52:58,280 that being attracted to men wasn't just a sexual thing - 990 00:52:58,360 --> 00:53:01,400 I actually could fall in love with a man. 991 00:53:02,560 --> 00:53:03,680 I flew to London, 992 00:53:03,760 --> 00:53:06,520 I'd made some excuse that I was working on some film. 993 00:53:06,600 --> 00:53:08,880 And I think that was in some ways true 994 00:53:08,960 --> 00:53:10,240 but it wasn't a necessary trip. 995 00:53:10,320 --> 00:53:13,360 The thing I wanted to do was to see Tom. 996 00:53:15,000 --> 00:53:17,800 I remember organising a party 997 00:53:17,880 --> 00:53:21,240 and telling my management who was coming. 998 00:53:21,320 --> 00:53:22,320 They said to me, 999 00:53:22,400 --> 00:53:26,640 "Oh, be careful of being photographed with Lance 1000 00:53:26,720 --> 00:53:31,440 "because you know he is like a really big LGBT activist. 1001 00:53:31,520 --> 00:53:34,000 "You don't want people thinking that you're gay." 1002 00:53:34,080 --> 00:53:38,760 And I was like, "Oh. Would that be so bad? 1003 00:53:38,840 --> 00:53:40,160 "Like, OK." 1004 00:53:40,240 --> 00:53:43,200 And then I was like suddenly filled with shame. 1005 00:53:43,280 --> 00:53:46,440 You're mismanaging one of the most important parts 1006 00:53:46,520 --> 00:53:48,040 of who this person is... 1007 00:53:49,200 --> 00:53:50,520 ..their heart, their love, 1008 00:53:50,600 --> 00:53:53,160 their future relationships and families. 1009 00:53:53,240 --> 00:53:54,480 That's mismanagement. 1010 00:53:54,560 --> 00:53:57,360 That's a dereliction of duty and he should have been dropped. 1011 00:53:58,440 --> 00:54:00,880 We had all kinds of crisis meetings 1012 00:54:00,960 --> 00:54:03,040 about how we were going to deal with this. 1013 00:54:03,120 --> 00:54:04,760 "You're going to lose all your sponsorship. 1014 00:54:04,840 --> 00:54:06,320 "You're going to lose all your fans. 1015 00:54:06,400 --> 00:54:08,440 "Like, how are you ever going to be able to compete 1016 00:54:08,520 --> 00:54:11,480 "in the Middle East, in Russia, in all of these countries? 1017 00:54:11,560 --> 00:54:13,720 Kind of filling me with, like, 1018 00:54:13,800 --> 00:54:17,440 fear about what I should and shouldn't do. 1019 00:54:17,520 --> 00:54:22,240 It was not my place to put any pressure on him, at all, 1020 00:54:22,320 --> 00:54:23,560 to come out. 1021 00:54:24,960 --> 00:54:27,400 I remember the interview where I was asked, 1022 00:54:27,480 --> 00:54:29,760 "You have loads of gay fans, why do you think that is?" 1023 00:54:29,840 --> 00:54:31,520 And then, "What do you think of the people 1024 00:54:31,600 --> 00:54:32,800 "that think that you're gay?" 1025 00:54:32,880 --> 00:54:34,720 And I was like, "Well, so what if I am? 1026 00:54:34,800 --> 00:54:36,000 "It doesn't matter anyway." 1027 00:54:36,080 --> 00:54:37,680 And then this headline comes up. 1028 00:54:40,800 --> 00:54:42,360 It was the first time 1029 00:54:42,440 --> 00:54:47,800 where I felt misunderstood and misrepresented in the media. 1030 00:54:47,880 --> 00:54:50,040 A really scary thing to have to feel like 1031 00:54:50,120 --> 00:54:53,480 you are a slave to the culture and the media 1032 00:54:53,560 --> 00:54:56,440 that we have in the UK, which can be really quite scary. 1033 00:54:57,440 --> 00:55:00,560 Knowing that I was gay from the age of three-years-old - 1034 00:55:00,640 --> 00:55:04,760 and constantly having to live my life as somebody else 1035 00:55:04,840 --> 00:55:08,480 and putting on this person that I wasn't - 1036 00:55:08,560 --> 00:55:09,640 was exhausting. 1037 00:55:09,720 --> 00:55:13,080 And that was when I decided to come out publicly. 1038 00:55:13,160 --> 00:55:14,680 Hi, guys. 1039 00:55:14,760 --> 00:55:16,840 So most of you are probably wondering 1040 00:55:16,920 --> 00:55:19,080 why I'm doing this video. 1041 00:55:19,160 --> 00:55:20,400 I just sat in my room, 1042 00:55:20,480 --> 00:55:21,520 trying to figure out 1043 00:55:21,600 --> 00:55:24,760 what I wanted to say and how much I wanted to say. 1044 00:55:24,840 --> 00:55:27,680 One thing I've never really felt that comfortable talking about 1045 00:55:27,760 --> 00:55:29,080 are my relationships. 1046 00:55:29,160 --> 00:55:31,240 Come spring this year... 1047 00:55:33,240 --> 00:55:37,400 ..my life changed massively 1048 00:55:37,480 --> 00:55:40,280 when I met someone 1049 00:55:40,360 --> 00:55:44,880 and that someone...is a guy. 1050 00:55:44,960 --> 00:55:46,640 Although it's not that long ago, 1051 00:55:46,720 --> 00:55:51,720 it was a long time ago in terms of where we are with LGBTQ+ rights 1052 00:55:51,800 --> 00:55:53,800 and where we are with the acceptance 1053 00:55:53,880 --> 00:55:56,280 of queer people participating in sport 1054 00:55:56,360 --> 00:56:03,120 and just general queer people in the public eye. 1055 00:56:03,200 --> 00:56:05,920 It was terrifying to post the video 1056 00:56:06,000 --> 00:56:08,960 but the response was kind of overwhelmingly positive. 1057 00:56:09,040 --> 00:56:11,120 When he looks them in the eye and he says, 1058 00:56:11,200 --> 00:56:12,360 "This is who I am, 1059 00:56:12,440 --> 00:56:14,520 "this is who I've always been and I'm happy," 1060 00:56:14,600 --> 00:56:16,480 they could see that in him. 1061 00:56:16,560 --> 00:56:17,760 They could feel that in him. 1062 00:56:17,840 --> 00:56:19,640 They could feel something opening up in him. 1063 00:56:19,720 --> 00:56:20,720 I'm still Tom. 1064 00:56:20,800 --> 00:56:23,880 I still want to win an Olympic gold medal in Rio 2016 1065 00:56:23,960 --> 00:56:25,040 for Great Britain. 1066 00:56:25,120 --> 00:56:28,720 It felt liberating and it felt like I no longer had that mask up 1067 00:56:28,800 --> 00:56:32,600 and I was able to just...just live. 1068 00:56:32,680 --> 00:56:35,400 And it's all that anyone ever wants to be able to do 1069 00:56:35,480 --> 00:56:37,480 is just to be able to live as themselves. 1070 00:56:59,160 --> 00:57:00,240 We had Lance come and stay 1071 00:57:00,320 --> 00:57:02,680 and then all of it seemed to make sense. 1072 00:57:02,760 --> 00:57:05,280 And he just told me, at that point, 1073 00:57:05,360 --> 00:57:07,160 "If I'm going to win a gold medal, 1074 00:57:07,240 --> 00:57:10,160 "I want you to come and help me win a gold medal." 1075 00:57:10,240 --> 00:57:11,360 And then the rest is history. 1076 00:57:11,440 --> 00:57:13,920 I packed up and moved within three weeks. 1077 00:57:14,000 --> 00:57:17,200 We had to get over the difficulty 1078 00:57:17,280 --> 00:57:19,040 that I was having with my back twister. 1079 00:57:19,120 --> 00:57:22,040 I think, if I don't come up with something, 1080 00:57:22,120 --> 00:57:25,360 Tom probably won't be able to continue 1081 00:57:25,440 --> 00:57:27,800 'cause he just didn't even want to come to training. 1082 00:57:27,880 --> 00:57:29,280 He was so frightened. 1083 00:57:29,360 --> 00:57:32,200 She shows me a video of someone from Cirque du Soleil 1084 00:57:32,280 --> 00:57:34,840 doing a Russian swing 1085 00:57:34,920 --> 00:57:37,280 forward three and a half somersaults with one twist. 1086 00:57:37,360 --> 00:57:38,960 And she was like, "Have you seen this?" 1087 00:57:39,040 --> 00:57:42,880 And I was like, "Yes. But, like, where are you going with this?" 1088 00:57:42,960 --> 00:57:43,920 She was like, 1089 00:57:44,000 --> 00:57:48,560 "I think we can turn this circus trick into an Olympic dive." 1090 00:57:48,640 --> 00:57:52,680 And I was like, "OK." 1091 00:57:52,760 --> 00:57:56,360 Every positive bone in his body was saying, 1092 00:57:56,440 --> 00:57:59,200 "It's either this or I don't dive anymore." 1093 00:58:00,360 --> 00:58:02,960 It then became what Lance nicknamed it - 1094 00:58:03,040 --> 00:58:04,480 the firework - 1095 00:58:04,560 --> 00:58:07,440 because I'm a small ball falling through the air. 1096 00:58:07,520 --> 00:58:09,680 And then all of a sudden, just before I hit the water, 1097 00:58:09,760 --> 00:58:11,040 I come out and do a twist. 1098 00:58:11,120 --> 00:58:12,800 And so it looks a bit like a firework. 1099 00:58:12,880 --> 00:58:15,640 And then it kind of got the nickname, the firework. 1100 00:58:20,840 --> 00:58:24,080 Not only was the expectation that he could win gold, 1101 00:58:24,160 --> 00:58:26,760 it was that he's probably going to. 1102 00:58:37,480 --> 00:58:38,520 Going into Rio, 1103 00:58:38,600 --> 00:58:40,200 I felt like I was the most prepared 1104 00:58:40,280 --> 00:58:43,880 that I've ever felt going into any of the Olympics I had done. 1105 00:58:50,400 --> 00:58:53,280 We were quite lucky to qualify for the synchro 1106 00:58:53,360 --> 00:58:54,880 because we were put together as a pair 1107 00:58:54,960 --> 00:58:56,200 really quite late in the day. 1108 00:58:56,280 --> 00:58:58,280 But we knew that we could come away with a medal 1109 00:58:58,360 --> 00:59:00,080 because we had won a medal in every event, 1110 00:59:00,160 --> 00:59:01,520 that we had done that year. 1111 00:59:11,280 --> 00:59:14,240 Miraculously, we won a bronze medal. 1112 00:59:17,040 --> 00:59:19,360 I was diving my best physically. 1113 00:59:19,440 --> 00:59:20,720 I felt the best mentally. 1114 00:59:20,800 --> 00:59:22,760 I felt like I was in the best physical condition. 1115 00:59:22,840 --> 00:59:25,320 I felt like I was in the zone. 1116 00:59:26,600 --> 00:59:27,960 He was the best diver there. 1117 00:59:28,040 --> 00:59:32,520 He was the best 10-metre platform diver in Rio. 1118 00:59:34,840 --> 00:59:36,640 I went into this individual competition 1119 00:59:36,720 --> 00:59:40,720 thinking that it was going to be a gold medal. 1120 00:59:40,800 --> 00:59:43,880 The prelim, I got an Olympic record and won 1121 00:59:43,960 --> 00:59:47,120 and now I'm...semi-final. 1122 00:59:47,200 --> 00:59:49,280 I haven't even watched any of these guys back... 1123 00:59:55,600 --> 00:59:59,440 ..but it doesn't really go much better from here, I fear. 1124 00:59:59,520 --> 01:00:02,880 I smelled trouble in Rio when Tom got an ear infection. 1125 01:00:02,960 --> 01:00:07,400 He'll never say it because he says athletes can't make excuses. 1126 01:00:08,840 --> 01:00:11,200 You have to be 100% if you're going to dive safely, 1127 01:00:11,280 --> 01:00:15,320 because hitting the water at 35 miles an hour is no joke. 1128 01:00:16,360 --> 01:00:19,400 I had a girl that hit her head, fell unconscious. 1129 01:00:19,480 --> 01:00:22,280 We had to go in 17 feet and go pull her out. 1130 01:00:23,480 --> 01:00:25,800 There have been a couple of people who've died. 1131 01:00:25,880 --> 01:00:27,640 Every time I get onto that diving board, 1132 01:00:27,720 --> 01:00:28,960 I'm scared for my life. 1133 01:00:29,040 --> 01:00:31,680 He would have to pat certain parts of his body, 1134 01:00:31,760 --> 01:00:34,480 his hips or his face, a certain number of times. 1135 01:00:34,560 --> 01:00:36,240 I see how he tries to disguise it 1136 01:00:36,320 --> 01:00:38,240 so he doesn't look like he's got these tics, 1137 01:00:38,320 --> 01:00:40,320 that he has absolutely adopted 1138 01:00:40,400 --> 01:00:42,080 because he thinks, if he doesn't do it, 1139 01:00:42,160 --> 01:00:43,520 it's not gonna turn out well. 1140 01:00:43,600 --> 01:00:47,440 I wasn't allowed to step on certain drains 1141 01:00:47,520 --> 01:00:50,200 walking through London 'cause that would be bad luck. 1142 01:00:50,280 --> 01:00:53,160 And then it would be my fault if he came in fourth. 1143 01:00:57,440 --> 01:01:00,360 You know as soon as you hit the water that you've messed up. 1144 01:01:01,720 --> 01:01:03,480 You can't dive like that at the Olympic Games. 1145 01:01:07,360 --> 01:01:08,800 Jane normally stays on poolside 1146 01:01:08,880 --> 01:01:12,160 but she ended up coming into the dry land where I was sitting 1147 01:01:12,240 --> 01:01:14,320 and pacing and looking at the scoreboard. 1148 01:01:16,520 --> 01:01:20,320 Jane's told me, since, that she wanted to slap me. 1149 01:01:21,320 --> 01:01:23,000 In my head, I was in complete denial 1150 01:01:23,080 --> 01:01:24,520 that there was any possibility 1151 01:01:24,600 --> 01:01:26,960 that I wouldn't have been able to make it into the final. 1152 01:01:36,160 --> 01:01:40,440 I watched him have the worst day of his diving career 1153 01:01:40,520 --> 01:01:43,400 on the biggest stage there is. 1154 01:01:44,560 --> 01:01:47,200 I remember hitting the water on this dive and thinking, 1155 01:01:47,280 --> 01:01:49,080 "It's over." 1156 01:01:50,280 --> 01:01:51,560 Like, "It's done." 1157 01:01:55,040 --> 01:01:59,680 And I didn't quite know how to even process that. 1158 01:02:00,680 --> 01:02:03,880 All time low in my diving career. 1159 01:02:05,160 --> 01:02:06,800 I probably would have retired 1160 01:02:06,880 --> 01:02:09,480 if I had won an Olympic gold medal there. 1161 01:02:09,560 --> 01:02:11,920 That was how I envisaged it. 1162 01:02:13,800 --> 01:02:15,720 It is true what they say - 1163 01:02:15,800 --> 01:02:20,520 your greatest accomplishments come from your greatest failures. 1164 01:02:20,600 --> 01:02:24,160 And although it seems harsh to use that word failures - 1165 01:02:24,240 --> 01:02:28,400 because we still won a bronze medal in the synchronised event - 1166 01:02:28,480 --> 01:02:30,840 but in Tom and my eyes, 1167 01:02:30,920 --> 01:02:33,240 the goal was the Olympic gold medal. 1168 01:02:33,320 --> 01:02:36,760 What you saw was a world record in the prelim. 1169 01:02:36,840 --> 01:02:40,520 But, in order to maintain that, 1170 01:02:40,600 --> 01:02:44,120 it was going to require two more world records 1171 01:02:44,200 --> 01:02:46,520 and we ran out of gas. 1172 01:02:46,600 --> 01:02:50,320 We ran out of emotional, mental, 1173 01:02:50,400 --> 01:02:53,000 physical sustainability. 1174 01:02:56,400 --> 01:03:01,760 I then saw Lance outside and I just broke down. 1175 01:03:03,440 --> 01:03:06,400 And he said to me, like, "Your story doesn't end here. 1176 01:03:06,480 --> 01:03:08,240 "This isn't over for you. 1177 01:03:08,320 --> 01:03:12,040 "Maybe you weren't meant to win an Olympic gold medal here in Rio 1178 01:03:12,120 --> 01:03:15,720 "because your future kid was meant to see you win 1179 01:03:15,800 --> 01:03:17,360 "an Olympic gold medal." 1180 01:03:17,440 --> 01:03:19,160 "We're going to do this for four more years 1181 01:03:19,240 --> 01:03:21,640 "because I know you're the world's best. 1182 01:03:21,720 --> 01:03:24,480 "And the reason we're going to give this 1183 01:03:24,560 --> 01:03:28,720 "is that, had you won that gold, you would be done. 1184 01:03:28,800 --> 01:03:29,920 "And, if you were done, 1185 01:03:30,000 --> 01:03:33,080 "your children that we are going to have, 1186 01:03:33,160 --> 01:03:34,880 "that we have named on our first date, 1187 01:03:34,960 --> 01:03:37,840 "would never get to see their father dive. 1188 01:03:37,920 --> 01:03:42,560 "They'd never get to see their dad do the thing that fuels him. 1189 01:03:43,720 --> 01:03:45,280 "So this has been good news 1190 01:03:45,360 --> 01:03:48,200 "'cause we need to get busy, get married, have kids. 1191 01:03:48,280 --> 01:03:52,600 "And you need to get ready for an Olympics in Tokyo, 1192 01:03:52,680 --> 01:03:55,320 "where you're going to slay for your children. 1193 01:03:55,400 --> 01:04:00,080 "And they're going to see what an inspiring human being 1194 01:04:00,160 --> 01:04:01,320 "their daddy is." 1195 01:04:02,400 --> 01:04:04,640 I finally found perspective 1196 01:04:04,720 --> 01:04:07,760 and I didn't put all of my self-worth and self-esteem 1197 01:04:07,840 --> 01:04:09,480 based on how well I did in diving. 1198 01:04:09,560 --> 01:04:11,800 I started to realise that I was more than just a diver - 1199 01:04:11,880 --> 01:04:16,200 a husband, a father, a friend, a son. 1200 01:04:16,280 --> 01:04:18,600 I knew that there was more to life 1201 01:04:18,680 --> 01:04:20,560 than how well I did in the diving pool. 1202 01:04:20,640 --> 01:04:22,840 And that really helped change the way 1203 01:04:22,920 --> 01:04:27,240 that I thought about my diving going into the Tokyo Olympics. 1204 01:04:27,320 --> 01:04:29,560 In the best stories ever - 1205 01:04:29,640 --> 01:04:31,880 the most inspiring Hollywood tales - 1206 01:04:31,960 --> 01:04:35,000 what happens before the sun rises? 1207 01:04:35,080 --> 01:04:37,480 It gets incredibly dark. 1208 01:04:39,000 --> 01:04:40,520 Your heart is broken. 1209 01:04:40,600 --> 01:04:42,760 There's no way out. 1210 01:04:42,840 --> 01:04:44,960 You're over, you're done with. 1211 01:04:45,040 --> 01:04:49,000 That is what happens before the third act, 1212 01:04:49,080 --> 01:04:53,360 where the hero rises and slays and wins gold. 1213 01:04:53,440 --> 01:04:56,520 And I think he knew he could do it 1214 01:04:56,600 --> 01:04:58,160 and it became our mission. 1215 01:04:59,240 --> 01:05:01,320 We just didn't know it would take five years. 1216 01:05:07,160 --> 01:05:09,720 Lockdown was a wild experience. 1217 01:05:09,800 --> 01:05:12,160 I learnt to knit, 1218 01:05:12,240 --> 01:05:14,520 it was where I was doing home workouts, 1219 01:05:14,600 --> 01:05:17,240 it was where I was doing somersaults onto sofa cushions 1220 01:05:17,320 --> 01:05:19,520 to be able to still keep up 1221 01:05:19,600 --> 01:05:21,880 with the practice of some kind of diving skills. 1222 01:05:21,960 --> 01:05:24,760 It was such a surreal time 1223 01:05:24,840 --> 01:05:26,720 but gave me a sense of perspective, 1224 01:05:26,800 --> 01:05:28,640 of anything can change at any moment. 1225 01:05:28,720 --> 01:05:32,840 You have to let go of thinking that you can control everything 1226 01:05:32,920 --> 01:05:36,000 and just try to be present and in the moment 1227 01:05:36,080 --> 01:05:38,240 and being able to just live for the here and now. 1228 01:05:38,320 --> 01:05:41,280 Because as soon as you start to try to control everything, 1229 01:05:41,360 --> 01:05:44,800 it becomes so overwhelming and it's so much energy wasted. 1230 01:05:44,880 --> 01:05:47,760 You don't have time to walk around 1231 01:05:47,840 --> 01:05:49,480 all the drains in London anymore. 1232 01:05:49,560 --> 01:05:52,320 You don't have time to be tapping on your head and on your shorts 1233 01:05:52,400 --> 01:05:54,840 for good luck or doing all these other good luck things - 1234 01:05:54,920 --> 01:05:56,800 that he would make me do, that we do. 1235 01:05:56,880 --> 01:05:58,480 You don't have time for that. 1236 01:05:58,560 --> 01:06:00,440 Pool, home. 1237 01:06:01,880 --> 01:06:03,360 Pool, home. 1238 01:06:03,440 --> 01:06:06,120 Pool, competition, home. 1239 01:06:06,200 --> 01:06:07,560 Things become very, very focused. 1240 01:06:07,640 --> 01:06:09,360 You become very aware of your time 1241 01:06:09,440 --> 01:06:10,720 and how you're using it 1242 01:06:10,800 --> 01:06:13,600 because what you want to be doing with it is being with your son. 1243 01:06:14,680 --> 01:06:16,080 That's brand new for Tom. 1244 01:06:17,320 --> 01:06:22,720 I think it is one of the factors that came into play 1245 01:06:22,800 --> 01:06:27,360 that started the gold, silver, bronze rush. 1246 01:06:28,600 --> 01:06:32,120 I knew he was a different person than the person I'd met. 1247 01:06:57,280 --> 01:07:02,560 Matt, he spent a lot of time in Tom's environment and circle. 1248 01:07:02,640 --> 01:07:07,600 We were just in an incredible rock solid relationship. 1249 01:07:09,280 --> 01:07:13,120 Ready? And one, two, three. Go. 1250 01:07:16,480 --> 01:07:18,680 They're like your family. 1251 01:07:18,760 --> 01:07:20,640 We're doing it for each other. 1252 01:07:20,720 --> 01:07:24,360 I'm coaching my very best for them 1253 01:07:24,440 --> 01:07:29,400 and they're diving their very best for each other and me. 1254 01:07:29,480 --> 01:07:31,520 One, two, three. Go. 1255 01:07:34,440 --> 01:07:37,960 The Chinese - who are unbeatable... 1256 01:07:42,120 --> 01:07:45,240 ..they're having a fine day, even a great day. 1257 01:07:50,080 --> 01:07:53,240 One, two, three. Go. 1258 01:07:59,360 --> 01:08:02,080 I'm thinking, "Yes, we got silver." 1259 01:08:02,160 --> 01:08:04,200 I'm not thinking about a gold medal. 1260 01:08:04,280 --> 01:08:07,760 It was only Tom who came out after the dive. 1261 01:08:07,840 --> 01:08:10,720 And I'm just sitting there like, "Oh. Well done, guys." 1262 01:08:10,800 --> 01:08:13,160 Great. We've done so good. 1263 01:08:13,240 --> 01:08:15,720 "Jane", he's whispering to me, 1264 01:08:15,800 --> 01:08:18,440 "Jane, we're going to win this." 1265 01:08:19,440 --> 01:08:22,960 And I'm like, "What? "What are you talking about?" 1266 01:08:23,040 --> 01:08:25,880 And he's like, "Look up there and look at the score." 1267 01:08:25,960 --> 01:08:29,560 We knew that we had done everything humanly possible 1268 01:08:29,640 --> 01:08:36,200 to have made it as difficult as possible for China to beat us. 1269 01:08:36,280 --> 01:08:39,240 But it was still possible for them to go ahead of us. 1270 01:08:39,320 --> 01:08:42,400 So he's like, "They need a hundred and whatever points." 1271 01:08:42,480 --> 01:08:45,840 And I was like, "A hundred and whatever points for what? 1272 01:08:45,920 --> 01:08:47,800 "They're ahead of us." 1273 01:08:47,880 --> 01:08:49,200 I had not been following. 1274 01:08:49,280 --> 01:08:52,840 He goes, "They need a hundred and something to beat us." 1275 01:08:52,920 --> 01:08:58,080 And I was like, "You mean to literally beat us?" 1276 01:08:58,160 --> 01:08:59,560 And he's like, "Yep." 1277 01:08:59,640 --> 01:09:02,760 Now it was a matter of standing on the sidelines and waiting, 1278 01:09:02,840 --> 01:09:06,280 which felt like the longest wait that you could possibly imagine. 1279 01:09:07,560 --> 01:09:10,120 But we knew that we had done at least enough for silver. 1280 01:09:10,200 --> 01:09:11,960 Realistically, in the diving world, 1281 01:09:12,040 --> 01:09:14,240 a silver medal is the gold medal 1282 01:09:14,320 --> 01:09:16,640 because China is just assumed to win everything. 1283 01:09:17,720 --> 01:09:21,040 We knew that we had put on all the pressure possible to China 1284 01:09:21,120 --> 01:09:22,680 and that's all you can do. 1285 01:09:26,080 --> 01:09:28,440 I remember watching this dive thinking, 1286 01:09:28,520 --> 01:09:30,880 "Damn, that was perfect. They're going to do it." 1287 01:09:30,960 --> 01:09:33,040 The only thing that has a slight discrepancy on there 1288 01:09:33,120 --> 01:09:34,960 is the distance away from the platform. 1289 01:09:42,440 --> 01:09:45,760 And I'm standing there like this, just looking at Tom going... 1290 01:09:45,840 --> 01:09:48,880 I'm waiting for Tom to tell me what's happening. 1291 01:09:51,360 --> 01:09:53,480 And then he just stopped screaming 1292 01:09:53,560 --> 01:09:56,880 and that's when I knew he wasn't cold anymore. 1293 01:10:11,360 --> 01:10:13,480 It just doesn't happen. 1294 01:10:16,720 --> 01:10:18,680 I'm a writer, I can make up happy endings. 1295 01:10:18,760 --> 01:10:20,400 But when I write them, they feel corny 1296 01:10:20,480 --> 01:10:22,080 because life isn't that convenient. 1297 01:10:27,280 --> 01:10:29,120 Oh, my god. 1298 01:10:30,880 --> 01:10:34,520 He had just written the most glorious third act... 1299 01:10:36,960 --> 01:10:38,720 ..and he deserved it. 1300 01:10:39,720 --> 01:10:42,160 It's the ultimate of all ultimates. 1301 01:10:42,240 --> 01:10:46,680 There is nothing more than the Olympic gold medal. 1302 01:10:46,760 --> 01:10:49,240 It validated my move to London, 1303 01:10:49,320 --> 01:10:53,120 it validated our failure in Rio 1304 01:10:53,200 --> 01:10:56,280 and it validated that dreams can come true. 1305 01:10:56,360 --> 01:10:59,200 This is the moment I had dreamt of. 1306 01:10:59,280 --> 01:11:01,600 I just imagined standing on top of the podium 1307 01:11:01,680 --> 01:11:04,040 and being able to sing the national anthem. 1308 01:11:05,840 --> 01:11:08,560 That feeling of standing on top of the Olympic podium... 1309 01:11:09,720 --> 01:11:11,960 ..there is no other feeling like that 1310 01:11:12,040 --> 01:11:15,640 and I don't think I will ever feel anything like that ever again. 1311 01:11:18,680 --> 01:11:20,920 Thomas Daley! 1312 01:11:21,000 --> 01:11:23,960 We weren't allowed to be close to each other 1313 01:11:24,040 --> 01:11:27,120 so we had to give each other our Olympic gold medal - 1314 01:11:27,200 --> 01:11:28,960 which is actually a really special thing 1315 01:11:29,040 --> 01:11:31,000 and I think they should continue doing that. 1316 01:11:37,040 --> 01:11:38,440 I always knew I could... 1317 01:11:40,960 --> 01:11:43,560 ..but, as I was getting older, 1318 01:11:43,640 --> 01:11:47,160 I had to come to terms with the fact that I might never do it... 1319 01:11:51,640 --> 01:11:52,840 ..but we did. 1320 01:11:57,480 --> 01:11:59,200 In the darkness of COVID, 1321 01:11:59,280 --> 01:12:01,720 there was still a place for joy in the world. 1322 01:12:03,440 --> 01:12:05,400 It's about damn time 1323 01:12:05,480 --> 01:12:09,840 that someone that dedicated to this sport 1324 01:12:09,920 --> 01:12:12,440 earns the gold they deserve. 1325 01:12:18,400 --> 01:12:20,360 I don't think you realise, until you see it all back, 1326 01:12:20,440 --> 01:12:25,920 how much you actually put into an Olympic gold medal 1327 01:12:26,000 --> 01:12:27,120 in the end... 1328 01:12:32,680 --> 01:12:35,120 ..and all the times that it didn't quite happen... 1329 01:12:40,120 --> 01:12:42,560 ..and all the times that it never was quite enough - 1330 01:12:42,640 --> 01:12:48,600 the heartbreak of competition where you don't make a final... 1331 01:12:55,560 --> 01:12:57,480 ..and it all comes together on the day. 1332 01:12:57,560 --> 01:13:00,800 It was such an incredibly special moment. 1333 01:13:04,560 --> 01:13:06,600 But it was such a crazy Olympic Games 1334 01:13:06,680 --> 01:13:09,000 to be away from everyone. 1335 01:13:28,520 --> 01:13:33,520 I achieved everything that I ever wanted to in the sport 1336 01:13:33,600 --> 01:13:37,600 and I felt so content and happy with my diving career. 1337 01:13:40,040 --> 01:13:41,800 I thought I was done. 1338 01:14:06,640 --> 01:14:08,840 There were so many things that I was able to then enjoy 1339 01:14:08,920 --> 01:14:10,920 and being back and spending time with my family 1340 01:14:11,000 --> 01:14:14,320 and being able to enjoy just the little things in life. 1341 01:14:18,160 --> 01:14:23,520 In 2023, we were in Colorado Springs, 1342 01:14:23,600 --> 01:14:25,720 which is where Phoenix was born. 1343 01:14:25,800 --> 01:14:26,960 We were there ahead of time, 1344 01:14:27,040 --> 01:14:29,600 when we went to the Olympic and Paralympic Museum. 1345 01:14:29,680 --> 01:14:32,760 Pretty quickly, people start to recognise Tom. 1346 01:14:32,840 --> 01:14:34,360 And, before you know it, 1347 01:14:34,440 --> 01:14:37,400 staff are all kind of congregating on the balconies 1348 01:14:37,480 --> 01:14:39,560 around the central area where we're stood 1349 01:14:39,640 --> 01:14:41,040 and just start to applaud him. 1350 01:14:41,120 --> 01:14:44,680 There's this video of what it means to be an Olympian 1351 01:14:44,760 --> 01:14:46,240 and what it takes to be an Olympian - 1352 01:14:46,320 --> 01:14:49,560 the hard work, the blood, sweat, tears, the dedication. 1353 01:14:49,640 --> 01:14:52,840 It's just silence to my right, where Tom sat. 1354 01:14:52,920 --> 01:14:55,480 And I look over and, probably for the second time, 1355 01:14:55,560 --> 01:14:59,440 maybe third, in our relationship, he's crying. 1356 01:14:59,520 --> 01:15:02,960 Robbie turns to me and is like, what's the matter, Papa? 1357 01:15:03,040 --> 01:15:05,560 And I was like, "I just really miss diving. 1358 01:15:05,640 --> 01:15:08,080 "And I wish I could go back and compete in the Olympics again 1359 01:15:08,160 --> 01:15:12,160 "because it was the most fun I ever had." 1360 01:15:12,240 --> 01:15:13,440 And he was like, 1361 01:15:13,520 --> 01:15:15,560 "But, Papa, I want to see you dive in the Olympics." 1362 01:15:15,640 --> 01:15:19,640 That was enough to get me to begin to consider the possibility 1363 01:15:19,720 --> 01:15:21,480 of going back to the pool one last time. 1364 01:15:42,920 --> 01:15:45,920 I don't know if this is just going to be a completely silly idea 1365 01:15:46,000 --> 01:15:47,440 of me getting back in the pool 1366 01:15:47,520 --> 01:15:50,000 or it's going to be an opportunity for me to be able 1367 01:15:50,080 --> 01:15:51,960 to have a bit of fun, do it recreationally, 1368 01:15:52,040 --> 01:15:53,360 without any of the pressure. 1369 01:15:53,440 --> 01:15:57,160 Paris 2024 is definitely a goal. 1370 01:15:57,240 --> 01:15:58,400 Around a year to go. 1371 01:15:58,480 --> 01:15:59,960 Maybe I'll be on those diving boards, 1372 01:16:00,040 --> 01:16:01,200 maybe I won't. 1373 01:16:01,280 --> 01:16:03,440 It's one thing to say, "I've got a different purpose, 1374 01:16:03,520 --> 01:16:04,920 "I've got my family, my kids. 1375 01:16:05,000 --> 01:16:08,040 "But then that competitive animal in you 1376 01:16:08,120 --> 01:16:11,080 "is really what the driver is." 1377 01:16:11,160 --> 01:16:13,680 We had decided to move to LA, by that point. 1378 01:16:13,760 --> 01:16:15,720 I made a few phone calls 1379 01:16:15,800 --> 01:16:20,000 to try and then start training with Tom Stevens at UCLA. 1380 01:16:20,080 --> 01:16:25,400 And, I don't know, I felt like I was home again. 1381 01:16:31,280 --> 01:16:32,760 So the plan is, this morning, 1382 01:16:32,840 --> 01:16:35,680 warm up, a bit of conditioning, a few flips, 1383 01:16:35,760 --> 01:16:38,400 just get the body going because I'm an old man now. 1384 01:16:49,040 --> 01:16:51,520 I think I've got another one in me. 1385 01:16:51,600 --> 01:16:52,880 I think I can do this. 1386 01:16:52,960 --> 01:16:55,240 I think I could get back to a stage 1387 01:16:55,320 --> 01:16:57,600 where I could compete and be able to compete 1388 01:16:57,680 --> 01:17:00,760 in front of my two children, 1389 01:17:00,840 --> 01:17:03,120 for the very first time at an Olympic Games. 1390 01:17:09,080 --> 01:17:11,920 He still has the ability to lift us 1391 01:17:12,000 --> 01:17:16,720 and make us appreciate what our sport is 1392 01:17:16,800 --> 01:17:19,760 and certainly what our sport is, with him in it. 1393 01:17:19,840 --> 01:17:22,160 My training felt completely different. 1394 01:17:22,240 --> 01:17:25,160 I trained for one year instead of training for four years. 1395 01:17:25,240 --> 01:17:28,080 I changed my diving routine to only training once per day 1396 01:17:28,160 --> 01:17:29,560 instead of twice per day. 1397 01:17:29,640 --> 01:17:31,880 I was only doing the synchronised event 1398 01:17:31,960 --> 01:17:34,960 so I didn't have to worry about doing the individual dives - 1399 01:17:35,040 --> 01:17:37,920 which took away the twister, took away my handstand. 1400 01:17:38,000 --> 01:17:41,240 So I was able to just focus on the four dives that I was best at. 1401 01:17:41,320 --> 01:17:43,520 I then also was able to train in UCLA, 1402 01:17:43,600 --> 01:17:47,640 which meant that I was not at home in that pressure cooker 1403 01:17:47,720 --> 01:17:48,960 of an environment - 1404 01:17:49,040 --> 01:17:52,040 with everyone trying to be the best that they could possibly be 1405 01:17:52,120 --> 01:17:53,320 and it can be quite intense. 1406 01:17:53,400 --> 01:17:56,320 Whereas I was able to go and train and be free from all of that 1407 01:17:56,400 --> 01:17:57,840 and actually really enjoy it. 1408 01:18:14,560 --> 01:18:17,080 I didn't take any second for granted 1409 01:18:17,160 --> 01:18:18,400 because I was like, "You know what? 1410 01:18:18,480 --> 01:18:21,840 "I know that this is really now going to be my last one 1411 01:18:21,920 --> 01:18:25,240 "because I can't be going back again in '28." 1412 01:18:56,800 --> 01:18:58,880 Standing on the diving board there, for my first dive, 1413 01:18:58,960 --> 01:19:00,320 felt like I'd already won. 1414 01:19:00,400 --> 01:19:04,360 Being able to see my kids and my husband in the audience, 1415 01:19:04,440 --> 01:19:08,160 I was just like...this was it, this was the moment that I wanted. 1416 01:19:09,360 --> 01:19:11,280 One, two, three. Go. 1417 01:19:45,160 --> 01:19:47,440 I'm getting excited. I think we know why. 1418 01:19:47,520 --> 01:19:51,320 It's Noah Williams and Tom Daley now in round six - 1419 01:19:51,400 --> 01:19:56,520 what we suspect may be Tom's final dive. 1420 01:20:01,080 --> 01:20:02,800 Oh! 1421 01:20:04,320 --> 01:20:07,280 Well, it won't be gold today 1422 01:20:07,360 --> 01:20:10,480 but it will be a place on the podium. 1423 01:20:13,320 --> 01:20:16,800 Tom Daley fulfilling his Olympic dream of competing - 1424 01:20:16,880 --> 01:20:21,520 the five Olympics from Beijing to London to Rio to Tokyo 1425 01:20:21,600 --> 01:20:24,000 and now, finally, in Paris. 1426 01:20:25,320 --> 01:20:26,880 Thomas Daley! 1427 01:20:38,160 --> 01:20:41,880 And that completes the set for Tom Daley... 1428 01:20:43,080 --> 01:20:46,000 ..having won more medals now from the 10-metre platform 1429 01:20:46,080 --> 01:20:47,920 than any other diver. 1430 01:21:05,280 --> 01:21:06,760 You might get 10 good years 1431 01:21:06,840 --> 01:21:08,200 before your body says, "Forget it." 1432 01:21:09,640 --> 01:21:13,200 Tom has done 20. 1433 01:21:19,200 --> 01:21:21,080 It didn't just feel like 1434 01:21:21,160 --> 01:21:25,240 I was getting to see them after one singular Olympic event. 1435 01:21:25,320 --> 01:21:27,680 It felt like it was my whole career. 1436 01:21:30,240 --> 01:21:34,800 It was putting to bed all of the hours upon hours, 1437 01:21:34,880 --> 01:21:37,000 days, weeks, months, years 1438 01:21:37,080 --> 01:21:40,800 that I have put into the sport of diving. 1439 01:21:40,880 --> 01:21:43,680 He fell in love with a sport 1440 01:21:43,760 --> 01:21:46,200 that had both beauty and athleticism... 1441 01:21:47,680 --> 01:21:51,400 ..a sport where he could practice his perfectionism... 1442 01:21:52,560 --> 01:21:55,760 ..a sport that takes place in 1.6 seconds 1443 01:21:55,840 --> 01:21:57,040 and, in that time, 1444 01:21:57,120 --> 01:21:59,680 a myriad of things have to happen right. 1445 01:22:05,880 --> 01:22:10,600 He said, "I just want you to know that I love you so much 1446 01:22:10,680 --> 01:22:15,120 "and I know I never articulate how much I love you 1447 01:22:15,200 --> 01:22:17,000 "and how much I care about you." 1448 01:22:17,080 --> 01:22:18,840 Oh. 1449 01:22:44,960 --> 01:22:49,160 It was about giving up so much 1450 01:22:49,240 --> 01:22:55,040 for Tom Daley to live the dream, his dream, my dream. 1451 01:22:57,200 --> 01:23:01,840 The validation that I was more than just a coach to him - 1452 01:23:01,920 --> 01:23:06,960 that obviously meant more than anything in the world to me. 1453 01:23:46,400 --> 01:23:49,040 My whole life has been about diving. 1454 01:23:50,280 --> 01:23:51,800 My whole life 1455 01:23:51,880 --> 01:23:56,280 has been about perfecting those 1.6 seconds. 1456 01:23:57,440 --> 01:24:01,600 I spend four years training for something 1457 01:24:01,680 --> 01:24:04,440 that goes by in less than 10 seconds in total 1458 01:24:04,520 --> 01:24:07,040 and I wouldn't change a thing. 1459 01:24:08,200 --> 01:24:12,440 It's been the best 23 years that I can imagine 1460 01:24:12,520 --> 01:24:15,320 and I've had the best time meeting the most amazing people, 1461 01:24:15,400 --> 01:24:17,720 travelling to incredible places. 1462 01:24:17,800 --> 01:24:20,400 Although, yes, sometimes it has been incredibly tough 1463 01:24:20,480 --> 01:24:21,800 and it has been challenging. 1464 01:24:21,880 --> 01:24:24,040 And there's been times where I felt like I couldn't carry on, 1465 01:24:24,120 --> 01:24:25,320 I persevered. 1466 01:24:25,400 --> 01:24:28,840 I think if there's one thing that I'm excited about 1467 01:24:28,920 --> 01:24:33,600 it's being able to share this with Robbie and Phoenix 1468 01:24:33,680 --> 01:24:37,040 and be able to have that memory, 1469 01:24:37,120 --> 01:24:39,800 that I can show them for the rest of my life 1470 01:24:39,880 --> 01:24:42,080 and be able to have shared that with them. 1471 01:24:49,560 --> 01:24:52,520 I feel very lucky to have people around me now, 1472 01:24:52,600 --> 01:24:53,720 that I feel really comfortable 1473 01:24:53,800 --> 01:24:56,720 that I can speak to about anything and everything. 1474 01:24:56,800 --> 01:24:59,960 But I think that also comes from me laying my guard down 1475 01:25:00,040 --> 01:25:03,040 'cause, for the longest time, my guard was up. 1476 01:25:08,280 --> 01:25:09,680 We've heard that you are retiring, 1477 01:25:09,760 --> 01:25:10,880 this is your last Olympics. 1478 01:25:10,960 --> 01:25:12,640 Just talk to us about that - 1479 01:25:12,720 --> 01:25:15,360 why the decision now and how do you feel? 1480 01:25:20,040 --> 01:25:22,240 Yeah, hard to talk about. 1481 01:25:24,520 --> 01:25:25,880 It does feel weird. 1482 01:25:25,960 --> 01:25:29,320 It does feel like that one thing that has always been constant 1483 01:25:29,400 --> 01:25:31,720 in my life is no longer there. 1484 01:25:53,640 --> 01:25:58,200 Only time will tell what my next journey will be 1485 01:25:58,280 --> 01:26:00,680 but I'm sure it'll be filled with just as many highs, 1486 01:26:00,760 --> 01:26:01,800 just as many lows. 1487 01:26:01,880 --> 01:26:03,560 But I know, for right now, 1488 01:26:03,640 --> 01:26:09,320 spending time with Lance, Robbie and Phoenix is my priority. 1489 01:26:36,240 --> 01:26:40,280 After my dad died, I was trying to fill that void. 1490 01:26:41,920 --> 01:26:43,480 Looking back on it all, 1491 01:26:43,560 --> 01:26:46,880 I realised that not doing it just for myself - 1492 01:26:46,960 --> 01:26:50,760 being able to do it for my friends, my family, 1493 01:26:50,840 --> 01:26:52,480 my teammates, my country - 1494 01:26:52,560 --> 01:26:54,480 gave me the determination 1495 01:26:54,560 --> 01:26:57,040 that I needed to be able to get through my career. 1496 01:26:58,120 --> 01:27:00,120 I'm excited to see what the future holds, 1497 01:27:00,200 --> 01:27:03,960 what me, my boys and Lance achieve in the future. 1498 01:27:04,040 --> 01:27:07,000 Captioned by AI-Media ai-media.tv