1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:02,770 TWELVE CYLON MODELS 2 00:00:04,400 --> 00:00:08,030 SEVEN ARE KNOWN 3 00:00:10,581 --> 00:00:13,931 FOUR LIVE IN SECRET 4 00:00:16,175 --> 00:00:19,245 ONE WILL BE REVEALED 5 00:00:19,641 --> 00:00:22,261 previously,on battlestar galactica. 6 00:00:23,328 --> 00:00:25,258 you'll be safe here,gaius. 7 00:00:25,514 --> 00:00:28,504 Please,god,don't let this child die. 8 00:00:28,479 --> 00:00:29,429 God answered your prayers, 9 00:00:29,403 --> 00:00:30,593 - you have to see. - What? 10 00:00:30,588 --> 00:00:31,428 look at him. 11 00:00:31,445 --> 00:00:32,545 and no trace of a fever. 12 00:00:32,610 --> 00:00:34,000 it's a miracle. 13 00:00:34,015 --> 00:00:35,455 Tory,tory,tory. 14 00:00:35,450 --> 00:00:37,580 Fancy finding you in the cafeteria. 15 00:00:38,174 --> 00:00:39,894 You have an abundance of feeling. 16 00:00:39,888 --> 00:00:42,098 I suppose I could be a cylon. 17 00:00:42,083 --> 00:00:43,753 Cylons can feel. 18 00:00:43,739 --> 00:00:44,679 You believe that? 19 00:00:44,683 --> 00:00:46,033 Yeah,I do actually. 20 00:00:46,040 --> 00:00:47,320 I want to explain. 21 00:00:47,321 --> 00:00:48,731 She sought us out. 22 00:00:48,765 --> 00:00:50,885 You know what has to be done here. 23 00:00:50,864 --> 00:00:53,424 Now,it would be better for her sake if it was you. 24 00:00:55,524 --> 00:00:57,044 Let's say cally does find out. 25 00:00:57,035 --> 00:00:57,925 What do we do then? 26 00:00:57,989 --> 00:01:00,579 The last thing we need is for your cylon-hating wife 27 00:01:00,578 --> 00:01:03,978 to find out there's a bunch of skinjobs running around this ship. 28 00:01:03,890 --> 00:01:06,060 And that her husband is one of them. 29 00:01:06,057 --> 00:01:08,617 Ll stay the frak away from me! 30 00:01:08,589 --> 00:01:09,559 I heard you. 31 00:01:09,571 --> 00:01:10,501 You're cylons. 32 00:01:10,514 --> 00:01:12,614 A bunch of frakking skinjobs. 33 00:01:27,585 --> 00:01:30,395 I couldn't keep you safe from harm,my love, 34 00:01:31,311 --> 00:01:33,621 but I kept you in my heart. 35 00:01:34,709 --> 00:01:39,429 You were the breath in my lungs, the blood in my veins, 36 00:01:39,350 --> 00:01:46,160 the light in my eye,and now that breath is gone. 37 00:01:46,792 --> 00:01:51,682 That blood and the light are gone. 38 00:01:54,514 --> 00:01:59,134 I am left,a voice. 39 00:02:06,491 --> 00:02:12,281 And the lords of kobol,as many and as varied as mortal men, 40 00:02:13,018 --> 00:02:22,268 must bend down and lean low to hear that voice and hear my lament. 41 00:02:33,661 --> 00:02:39,591 With all our thoughts and love, calandra henderson tyrol, 42 00:02:40,034 --> 00:02:43,394 we send your spirit into the universe. 43 00:02:46,350 --> 00:02:48,500 So say we all. 44 00:02:51,174 --> 00:02:53,184 so say we all. 45 00:02:55,198 --> 00:02:57,568 I liked that service. 46 00:02:59,165 --> 00:03:01,685 It's not for me,I'll tell you that. 47 00:03:01,649 --> 00:03:05,619 I know,but I want you to know what I like. 48 00:03:13,501 --> 00:03:15,071 It was lovely. 49 00:03:15,417 --> 00:03:16,607 Thank you. 50 00:03:16,610 --> 00:03:18,790 Why do they have to do these things at dawn? 51 00:03:18,777 --> 00:03:19,797 It's all right. 52 00:03:19,855 --> 00:03:21,715 They do because they have to. 53 00:03:24,322 --> 00:03:25,242 I'm sorry. 54 00:03:25,247 --> 00:03:27,347 Let me know if you need anything. 55 00:03:27,326 --> 00:03:28,566 Thank you. 56 00:03:38,610 --> 00:03:40,420 Sorry about your loss. 57 00:03:40,420 --> 00:03:41,910 Sorry,chief. 58 00:03:42,615 --> 00:03:44,075 What the frak was that? 59 00:03:44,377 --> 00:03:46,297 Get us all killed. 60 00:03:46,322 --> 00:03:47,582 Chief. 61 00:03:51,097 --> 00:03:53,197 I'm--I'm so sorry. 62 00:04:07,118 --> 00:04:08,828 What's it up to today? 63 00:04:08,870 --> 00:04:11,890 Same as-- sleeping,pacing. 64 00:04:11,836 --> 00:04:14,006 Don't know how it doesn't go nuts. 65 00:04:14,002 --> 00:04:15,522 Probably turns its brain off. 66 00:04:15,523 --> 00:04:17,133 Frakkin' toaster. 67 00:04:19,269 --> 00:04:20,849 Yeah. 68 00:04:24,718 --> 00:04:25,848 Colonel. 69 00:04:27,866 --> 00:04:32,516 Your request to see the child, hera agathon,has been denied. 70 00:04:32,401 --> 00:04:36,631 And you felt the need to come all the way down here in person to tell me that again? 71 00:04:37,773 --> 00:04:39,983 You think I want to come down here? 72 00:04:40,277 --> 00:04:41,437 We're done. 73 00:04:41,923 --> 00:04:43,773 I think we're not. 74 00:04:44,137 --> 00:04:46,487 You come every day. 75 00:04:47,440 --> 00:04:50,000 but you never ask questions anymore. 76 00:04:54,256 --> 00:04:56,946 Is there something that you want from me? 77 00:04:59,561 --> 00:05:03,171 Is there something that you need? 78 00:05:03,913 --> 00:05:05,653 Stay back. 79 00:05:09,497 --> 00:05:11,587 See you tomorrow,colonel. 80 00:05:16,641 --> 00:05:18,411 door! 81 00:05:21,850 --> 00:05:24,190 What was that at the service this morning? 82 00:05:24,160 --> 00:05:27,460 Why don't you get on the wireless and tell the fleet about us? 83 00:05:30,091 --> 00:05:32,041 Are you going to deal with that kid? 84 00:05:32,065 --> 00:05:34,375 Probably needs to be changed. 85 00:05:36,686 --> 00:05:38,466 All right. 86 00:05:38,823 --> 00:05:42,203 You think cally killed herself because of you,don't you? 87 00:05:43,002 --> 00:05:45,742 She thought we were having an affair. 88 00:05:46,863 --> 00:05:48,763 But we weren'T. 89 00:05:50,078 --> 00:05:52,838 I don't even know what I am anymore. 90 00:05:52,794 --> 00:05:55,794 I don't know which of my memories are real. 91 00:05:56,048 --> 00:06:00,968 I don't know that I've had one action in my life that isn't programmed. 92 00:06:01,199 --> 00:06:04,869 Galen,you're perfect. 93 00:06:04,828 --> 00:06:07,018 You don't need guilt. 94 00:06:07,370 --> 00:06:09,200 We were made to be perfect. 95 00:06:09,238 --> 00:06:10,608 what is that? 96 00:06:10,653 --> 00:06:13,613 More of baltar's crap? 97 00:06:13,609 --> 00:06:15,349 So. 98 00:06:16,642 --> 00:06:20,202 you just live without guilt? 99 00:06:20,117 --> 00:06:23,177 Just shut it down. 100 00:06:23,102 --> 00:06:26,062 No,that wasn't the deal. 101 00:06:27,531 --> 00:06:29,581 Colonel,you said it yourself. 102 00:06:29,533 --> 00:06:31,573 Be the man you want to be till the day you die. 103 00:06:31,613 --> 00:06:33,173 We're still the same people,aren't we? 104 00:06:33,211 --> 00:06:34,081 Of course,we are. 105 00:06:34,126 --> 00:06:34,796 You shut up. 106 00:06:34,781 --> 00:06:36,951 That is not the same as human. 107 00:06:36,937 --> 00:06:39,937 Like we're stronger,right? 108 00:06:39,874 --> 00:06:46,474 Chief,what you're feeling is what a man feels when this happens. 109 00:06:46,238 --> 00:06:48,838 It's normal,and it's human. 110 00:06:50,089 --> 00:06:53,709 And it's not gonna end anytime soon. 111 00:06:53,747 --> 00:06:56,197 It'll be there every day. 112 00:06:56,174 --> 00:06:58,784 You'll see her every day. 113 00:06:59,052 --> 00:07:00,972 You'll see her. 114 00:07:04,261 --> 00:07:06,591 be a man,chief. 115 00:07:06,581 --> 00:07:08,231 Feel what you gotta feel. 116 00:07:08,209 --> 00:07:10,119 But don't risk us. 117 00:07:10,124 --> 00:07:11,924 Come on,tory. 118 00:07:11,915 --> 00:07:14,045 Just think about it. 119 00:07:14,216 --> 00:07:16,376 Think about what we are. 120 00:07:16,864 --> 00:07:18,814 What we can do. 121 00:07:29,130 --> 00:07:37,010 -=www.ydy.com/bbs=- Proudly Presents 122 00:07:37,930 --> 00:07:45,180 -=www.ydy.com/bbs=- Sync: rocket 123 00:07:48,732 --> 00:07:51,432 39,675 SURVIVORS 124 00:07:52,054 --> 00:07:55,124 IN SEARCH OF A HOME 125 00:07:55,578 --> 00:07:59,008 CALLED EARTH 126 00:08:00,796 --> 00:08:10,256 Battlestar Galactica Season 4 Episode 4 127 00:08:34,407 --> 00:08:35,927 Dear gods,what. 128 00:08:35,918 --> 00:08:37,228 Gods? 129 00:08:37,218 --> 00:08:38,828 Thought there was only one. 130 00:08:38,816 --> 00:08:40,256 What are you doing? 131 00:08:40,501 --> 00:08:42,771 Pulling one hair from your head at a time. 132 00:08:45,113 --> 00:08:46,173 It's intense,isn't it? 133 00:08:46,191 --> 00:08:46,831 Yeah. 134 00:08:46,846 --> 00:08:52,786 It happens at the same time as a pleasurable touch. 135 00:08:53,374 --> 00:08:55,624 Frak! 136 00:08:55,626 --> 00:08:58,396 - Signals get crossed,don't they? - Yeah. 137 00:08:59,025 --> 00:09:01,785 It's hard to tell the pleasure from the pain. 138 00:09:02,173 --> 00:09:03,603 Yeah. 139 00:09:03,646 --> 00:09:06,086 Okay,listen,I think that... 140 00:09:07,055 --> 00:09:08,825 you're very strong,aren't you? 141 00:09:08,817 --> 00:09:09,897 You really. 142 00:09:13,698 --> 00:09:16,138 I think I preferred it when you cried. 143 00:09:16,115 --> 00:09:21,845 if you assume that god forgives you,then it's gone,right? 144 00:09:21,679 --> 00:09:23,209 Erased? 145 00:09:23,239 --> 00:09:25,039 Forgiveness. 146 00:09:25,040 --> 00:09:27,030 You must consecrate the sin. 147 00:09:27,745 --> 00:09:29,615 - Make it benign. - Oh,yeah. 148 00:09:29,555 --> 00:09:32,065 - Bad becomes good. - Oh,yes,it does. 149 00:09:31,981 --> 00:09:33,721 Pain becomes pleasure. 150 00:09:34,590 --> 00:09:36,300 and doesn't that mean, 151 00:09:36,323 --> 00:09:40,793 if you really become one with god, you can never do wrong? 152 00:09:42,341 --> 00:09:46,141 Noll,,um,not really,because that wou. 153 00:09:47,550 --> 00:09:51,620 That would more than imply that we're all perfect. 154 00:09:52,325 --> 00:09:54,775 - Perfect? - Yeah. 155 00:10:01,982 --> 00:10:06,142 - Perfect just as we are. - No,no,no!No! 156 00:10:06,131 --> 00:10:08,861 Go on,go,get out! 157 00:10:26,253 --> 00:10:27,863 Where is gaius baltar? 158 00:10:27,842 --> 00:10:29,092 He isn't here. 159 00:10:33,937 --> 00:10:35,987 You,on your feet. 160 00:10:36,719 --> 00:10:38,049 Find him. 161 00:10:44,672 --> 00:10:45,312 Where is he? 162 00:10:45,297 --> 00:10:46,547 I don't know. 163 00:10:46,953 --> 00:10:47,813 security alert. 164 00:10:47,849 --> 00:10:49,939 Deck 8,section 14. 165 00:10:49,900 --> 00:10:53,070 One minute! go!go!go! 166 00:10:57,313 --> 00:11:00,483 we're coming back r gaius baltar. 167 00:11:05,564 --> 00:11:06,454 frak! 168 00:11:06,508 --> 00:11:07,968 Finishing up,chief? 169 00:11:07,952 --> 00:11:09,932 Yeah,just give me one more relay. 170 00:11:13,892 --> 00:11:15,692 I think it's a boy. 171 00:11:15,943 --> 00:11:17,253 Here you go,chief. 172 00:11:18,639 --> 00:11:20,669 Nice to be small,huh? 173 00:11:27,246 --> 00:11:28,336 Chief,we ready to go? 174 00:11:28,305 --> 00:11:29,965 I gotta get out of here. 175 00:11:35,728 --> 00:11:36,828 Yeah. 176 00:11:36,874 --> 00:11:38,244 Go ahead. 177 00:11:54,204 --> 00:11:56,414 Raptor away.Readings nominal. 178 00:11:56,341 --> 00:11:57,641 racetrack/ redwing. 179 00:11:57,631 --> 00:11:59,901 We been waiting for that school bus of yours all day. 180 00:11:59,904 --> 00:12:01,184 School bus,huh? 181 00:12:01,194 --> 00:12:03,664 What's that make those things? Bicycles? 182 00:12:04,342 --> 00:12:05,872 Racing cars,sweetheart. 183 00:12:05,902 --> 00:12:07,212 top fuel racers. 184 00:12:07,221 --> 00:12:10,231 It's not gonna look very good when they get beat by a school bus. 185 00:12:10,177 --> 00:12:12,717 Okay,let's ride. 186 00:12:16,666 --> 00:12:18,546 What the frak? 187 00:12:19,872 --> 00:12:25,662 Galactica/ racetrack,I have no control in my port rear lower rcs thruster. 188 00:12:26,804 --> 00:12:28,534 Skulls,get your ass up here. 189 00:12:28,556 --> 00:12:30,746 galactica/racetrack,coming about. 190 00:12:31,676 --> 00:12:33,026 Clear port landing deck for emergency landing. 191 00:12:33,081 --> 00:12:36,301 racetrack/galactica,emergency landing cleared. 192 00:12:36,230 --> 00:12:41,140 One,two,three,four. 193 00:12:40,995 --> 00:12:43,905 One,two,three. 194 00:12:43,855 --> 00:12:45,565 Coming in hot. 195 00:12:46,156 --> 00:12:47,806 too hot! 196 00:12:59,750 --> 00:13:00,650 Where's the admiral? 197 00:13:00,713 --> 00:13:01,353 Where is he? 198 00:13:01,406 --> 00:13:03,936 And what are you doing,taking notes, standing here,mr.Officious? 199 00:13:03,929 --> 00:13:05,289 You should be out there,right now, 200 00:13:05,315 --> 00:13:06,995 trying to find the people,whoever they are! 201 00:13:07,019 --> 00:13:08,249 Whatever you say,sir. 202 00:13:08,223 --> 00:13:11,263 You can read the old text,can't you,gaius? 203 00:13:11,737 --> 00:13:14,767 sons of ar-is? 204 00:13:14,731 --> 00:13:15,911 Ares.Sons of ares. 205 00:13:15,877 --> 00:13:17,087 they're the people who committed this attack. 206 00:13:17,071 --> 00:13:19,811 Obviously,a fundamentalist splinter group. 207 00:13:22,260 --> 00:13:27,530 Although,all they're doing is trying to protect the old gods. 208 00:13:27,421 --> 00:13:29,701 old gods die hard. 209 00:13:30,704 --> 00:13:33,084 Even among your people. 210 00:13:42,267 --> 00:13:44,187 I've seen you here before. 211 00:13:44,953 --> 00:13:46,473 Your name is. 212 00:13:47,514 --> 00:13:51,024 don't tell me,um,begins with "M. 213 00:13:50,961 --> 00:13:53,091 - Lilly. - Lilly. 214 00:13:56,978 --> 00:13:59,608 What's in your hand,lilly? 215 00:14:05,201 --> 00:14:06,961 Asklepius. 216 00:14:07,810 --> 00:14:09,520 The god of healing. 217 00:14:11,526 --> 00:14:13,916 I know you'll heal our people. 218 00:14:14,203 --> 00:14:15,513 But I thought. 219 00:14:19,536 --> 00:14:22,756 the old gods are fighting back. 220 00:14:27,845 --> 00:14:29,305 those capacitors are still hot. 221 00:14:29,347 --> 00:14:30,487 Watch yourself,chief. 222 00:14:31,976 --> 00:14:33,466 Take my glove. 223 00:14:41,392 --> 00:14:42,902 Frak me. 224 00:14:51,559 --> 00:14:53,749 My fault,didn't get swapped out. 225 00:14:53,763 --> 00:14:54,783 Yeah,we could have died. 226 00:14:54,794 --> 00:14:57,664 - Was that in your pocket? - We don't have to do this. 227 00:14:57,788 --> 00:15:01,068 You're right,we're okay. 228 00:15:01,023 --> 00:15:02,403 It's okay. 229 00:15:02,746 --> 00:15:03,806 Is it? 230 00:15:03,882 --> 00:15:05,022 Skulls,is it? 231 00:15:05,067 --> 00:15:05,677 Galen. 232 00:15:05,663 --> 00:15:06,673 I don't need to be patted on the head. 233 00:15:06,646 --> 00:15:07,916 You can tell me I frakked up. 234 00:15:07,955 --> 00:15:09,055 Nobody got hurt,ok? 235 00:15:09,110 --> 00:15:09,850 Forget it. 236 00:15:09,871 --> 00:15:11,271 - You're only human. - No! 237 00:15:11,248 --> 00:15:12,508 Don't say that! 238 00:15:12,538 --> 00:15:13,748 Tell me I frakked up! 239 00:15:13,751 --> 00:15:15,041 Say it! 240 00:15:15,089 --> 00:15:16,909 Tell me I frakked up! 241 00:15:17,660 --> 00:15:19,240 Any one of you. 242 00:15:19,210 --> 00:15:20,690 Cowards! 243 00:15:22,512 --> 00:15:24,362 Chief,uh,I can handle this. 244 00:15:24,351 --> 00:15:26,401 Why don't you take a little down time? 245 00:15:28,616 --> 00:15:30,986 Get out of the raptor,figurski. 246 00:15:49,393 --> 00:15:53,693 people have room in their hearts for one great belief, 247 00:15:53,861 --> 00:15:56,051 you or the old gods. 248 00:15:56,335 --> 00:15:58,315 Which one will it be? 249 00:16:02,988 --> 00:16:05,138 Why can't I just be a man? 250 00:16:06,290 --> 00:16:08,990 Do I really need to take on the gods single-handed? 251 00:16:08,938 --> 00:16:13,028 Oh,but imagine the kind of man you'll be when you do. 252 00:16:13,511 --> 00:16:20,631 Surely such a man must be magnificent, larger-than-life,godlike himself. 253 00:16:20,414 --> 00:16:22,644 What are you talking about? 254 00:16:23,649 --> 00:16:26,309 It's not about that at all. 255 00:16:32,122 --> 00:16:33,952 It's about this. 256 00:16:40,161 --> 00:16:41,811 Stop! 257 00:16:42,260 --> 00:16:44,010 Stop. 258 00:16:46,265 --> 00:16:48,305 This is unacceptable. 259 00:16:49,615 --> 00:16:54,585 We have been targeted because of what we believe by those 260 00:16:54,420 --> 00:16:58,930 who answer to faceless gods that bear no relevance in our world. 261 00:16:58,829 --> 00:17:00,999 They want us to be afraid. 262 00:17:02,613 --> 00:17:05,343 And I'm tired of being afraid. 263 00:17:07,379 --> 00:17:10,029 The time has come to make a stand. 264 00:17:11,105 --> 00:17:13,485 And that time is now. 265 00:17:16,054 --> 00:17:18,184 Gaius,what-- what are you doing? 266 00:17:18,191 --> 00:17:19,331 Where are you going? 267 00:17:20,896 --> 00:17:22,336 Gaius? 268 00:17:25,518 --> 00:17:28,568 We ****** These stupid old gods! 269 00:17:29,042 --> 00:17:30,532 Sir,we're having a service. 270 00:17:30,592 --> 00:17:31,442 Are you? 271 00:17:31,506 --> 00:17:32,986 But whom are you serving? 272 00:17:33,287 --> 00:17:34,777 - I have to ask you to leave. - Do you? 273 00:17:34,799 --> 00:17:36,419 Would you be serving zeus? 274 00:17:36,455 --> 00:17:38,385 Apparently,king of the gods, who also happened to be, 275 00:17:38,323 --> 00:17:40,313 let me tell you,a serial rapist. 276 00:17:40,287 --> 00:17:42,967 Prone to giving birth out of his own forehead. 277 00:17:42,944 --> 00:17:44,364 That's very likely,isn't it? 278 00:17:44,408 --> 00:17:46,068 Well,gods strike me down. 279 00:17:46,092 --> 00:17:47,482 - Oh,what are you going to do? - Damn you. 280 00:17:47,440 --> 00:17:50,670 You ignorant witch,telling the people lies and stories. 281 00:17:50,627 --> 00:17:52,907 Maybe you want me to pray to asklepius, 282 00:17:52,909 --> 00:17:54,939 who healed wounds with the blood of gorgons, 283 00:17:54,902 --> 00:17:59,302 or aphrodite or artemis or any other of this rubbish! 284 00:18:00,900 --> 00:18:01,740 How awful! 285 00:18:01,776 --> 00:18:04,176 Out of the way,you hideous old witch. 286 00:18:04,472 --> 00:18:06,872 That's the kind of rubbish that you made! 287 00:18:06,898 --> 00:18:09,178 I will not be destroyed at this level! 288 00:18:22,158 --> 00:18:23,648 Am I that late? 289 00:18:23,660 --> 00:18:24,740 No,this wasn't a treatment. 290 00:18:24,758 --> 00:18:27,068 It was just a blood test. 291 00:18:27,030 --> 00:18:28,120 You brought a new book? 292 00:18:28,128 --> 00:18:28,718 Uh,yes. 293 00:18:28,753 --> 00:18:30,163 Something different this time. 294 00:18:30,159 --> 00:18:31,249 It's a classic. 295 00:18:31,247 --> 00:18:32,147 My favorite. 296 00:18:32,181 --> 00:18:35,471 Searider falcon,I haven't read it in years. 297 00:18:35,406 --> 00:18:36,896 I don't remember how it ends. 298 00:18:36,947 --> 00:18:39,017 I don't either.I never read the ending. 299 00:18:39,007 --> 00:18:40,657 You're kidding.It's your favorite. 300 00:18:40,605 --> 00:18:44,145 I like it so much,I don't want it to be over. 301 00:18:44,379 --> 00:18:45,699 So I'm saving it. 302 00:18:45,698 --> 00:18:47,328 Maybe I should do that. 303 00:18:51,254 --> 00:18:53,344 That's a bad idea.Maybe not. 304 00:18:55,760 --> 00:18:57,510 Let me do that for you. 305 00:18:57,493 --> 00:18:59,613 Okay,thanks. 306 00:19:01,190 --> 00:19:04,690 Baltar's back at home in the brig again. 307 00:19:04,598 --> 00:19:06,508 Desecration of a temple. 308 00:19:06,514 --> 00:19:09,574 It's his revenge for what happened to him this morning. 309 00:19:09,547 --> 00:19:10,787 It was brutal. 310 00:19:11,386 --> 00:19:15,386 I have my personnel trying to track down anything on the sons of ares. 311 00:19:15,323 --> 00:19:16,553 But nobody's talking. 312 00:19:16,614 --> 00:19:20,164 The thing is that baltar knows that there are religious hardliners in dogsville, 313 00:19:20,147 --> 00:19:22,217 but he continues to provoke. 314 00:19:22,631 --> 00:19:25,411 I just can't have a religious war in this fleet. 315 00:19:25,385 --> 00:19:26,595 Oh,please,no. 316 00:19:26,598 --> 00:19:29,848 Then the whole damn thing will become our frakkin' responsibility,yours and mine. 317 00:19:29,794 --> 00:19:32,834 Seriously,bill,we have 30,000 people left and they're not happy 318 00:19:32,817 --> 00:19:34,987 unless they're kicking each other's teeth in. 319 00:19:34,964 --> 00:19:36,504 This is what we've become? 320 00:19:36,505 --> 00:19:38,685 No,it's him. 321 00:19:38,700 --> 00:19:43,450 Baltar has an uncanny way of stirring up all the crap. 322 00:19:43,706 --> 00:19:50,396 I wonder if he'd be willing to stay in lockdown, indefinitely,for his own safety. 323 00:19:50,205 --> 00:19:52,285 And make a martyr out of him?No way. 324 00:19:52,554 --> 00:19:58,004 Those girly,groupie,sex whatever-they-are, they already think he's a god. 325 00:19:57,859 --> 00:19:59,649 So we kick him off of the galactica. 326 00:19:59,679 --> 00:20:01,789 No,I want him close. 327 00:20:02,644 --> 00:20:04,634 I'm going to the brig. 328 00:20:05,003 --> 00:20:06,343 You want to see him? 329 00:20:06,977 --> 00:20:09,377 I want him to see me. 330 00:20:15,084 --> 00:20:18,184 Oh,we didn't even make it to tomorrow,did we? 331 00:20:18,155 --> 00:20:20,175 You asked what I want. 332 00:20:20,812 --> 00:20:25,032 I want to know how it feels to have killed billions of human beings, 333 00:20:24,981 --> 00:20:27,671 to have all that blood on your hands. 334 00:20:28,986 --> 00:20:30,636 Think it through. 335 00:20:30,960 --> 00:20:32,890 Because that's what I want. 336 00:20:35,350 --> 00:20:36,300 I feel it. 337 00:20:36,380 --> 00:20:38,360 Do you really think that I couldn't? 338 00:20:38,393 --> 00:20:39,923 Do you? 339 00:20:40,626 --> 00:20:42,526 Or do you turn it off? 340 00:20:42,504 --> 00:20:45,794 Is there a switch in your head that you turn off? 341 00:20:45,719 --> 00:20:49,169 You talk like we're different, but you know we're not. 342 00:20:51,987 --> 00:20:53,617 Weapons. 343 00:21:00,748 --> 00:21:02,908 Working late,or up early,chief? 344 00:21:27,360 --> 00:21:31,000 You act like you think I'm made of switches and relays. 345 00:21:30,941 --> 00:21:32,561 Look. 346 00:21:32,597 --> 00:21:35,207 veins,not wires. 347 00:21:35,197 --> 00:21:36,757 We're the same. 348 00:21:42,302 --> 00:21:44,882 Do you see we're the same? 349 00:21:47,954 --> 00:21:49,794 Then tell me. 350 00:21:50,447 --> 00:21:52,417 Tell you what? 351 00:21:53,846 --> 00:21:56,546 How you live with what you've done. 352 00:21:58,179 --> 00:22:04,729 Saul,are you asking for absolution? 353 00:22:05,322 --> 00:22:07,312 Forgiveness? 354 00:22:08,480 --> 00:22:10,950 I can give you that. 355 00:22:12,004 --> 00:22:14,194 Stand down. 356 00:22:14,893 --> 00:22:17,083 Step outside. 357 00:22:24,029 --> 00:22:26,669 Just tell me what the trouble is. 358 00:22:32,463 --> 00:22:34,733 No.You have nothing to offer me. 359 00:22:35,660 --> 00:22:37,790 We're not the same. 360 00:22:42,688 --> 00:22:44,578 Were you asleep? 361 00:22:44,575 --> 00:22:46,195 What is it this time? 362 00:22:47,175 --> 00:22:48,995 Here to strip-search me? 363 00:22:50,015 --> 00:22:52,435 Or could it possibly be that your presence here 364 00:22:52,355 --> 00:22:56,755 means that the president has been made aware of my situation. 365 00:22:56,649 --> 00:22:58,889 It's being looked into. 366 00:22:59,835 --> 00:23:01,325 - Is it really? - Aggressively. 367 00:23:01,578 --> 00:23:03,668 Now here's the thing. 368 00:23:06,950 --> 00:23:10,010 I want you to look at me,gaius. 369 00:23:09,993 --> 00:23:11,633 Just look at me. 370 00:23:14,383 --> 00:23:16,493 This is a wig. 371 00:23:19,293 --> 00:23:21,633 I'm dying. 372 00:23:23,116 --> 00:23:26,256 Now,if you look in my eyes. 373 00:23:26,245 --> 00:23:27,625 go ahead,look. 374 00:23:27,631 --> 00:23:29,851 You can probably see it. 375 00:23:31,059 --> 00:23:32,119 I'm very sorry. 376 00:23:33,051 --> 00:23:33,561 No,no,no,no,I don't want your pity. 377 00:23:33,552 --> 00:23:34,592 I'm still doing my job. 378 00:23:34,659 --> 00:23:39,199 In fact,I'm gonna aggressively pursue the men that attacked you. 379 00:23:39,088 --> 00:23:44,918 And I'm going to limit the size of public assemblies to protect your people,but. 380 00:23:44,759 --> 00:23:48,399 I'm going to be slipping away from this life very soon. 381 00:23:48,350 --> 00:23:51,740 And I've gotten kind of curious as to what that's going to be like, 382 00:23:51,691 --> 00:23:53,671 and so,I did some research. 383 00:23:53,655 --> 00:23:55,205 And there are some people who say that 384 00:23:55,215 --> 00:23:57,115 when people are getting closer to their death, 385 00:23:57,111 --> 00:24:02,531 they just don't care as much about rules and laws and conventional morality. 386 00:24:02,368 --> 00:24:03,598 Are you threatening me? 387 00:24:03,668 --> 00:24:07,088 No,no,I'm just saying have a quiet life. 388 00:24:07,346 --> 00:24:10,286 And I'll die a quiet little death. 389 00:24:10,282 --> 00:24:12,482 And everyone will be happy. 390 00:24:13,180 --> 00:24:17,290 It's just that I'm not in the mood any longer to indulge you. 391 00:24:17,186 --> 00:24:19,146 And that'S. 392 00:24:21,826 --> 00:24:23,666 all. 393 00:24:26,813 --> 00:24:30,523 And you are being released,so. 394 00:24:30,443 --> 00:24:32,533 stay safe. 395 00:24:48,553 --> 00:24:50,343 Hey,chief. 396 00:24:57,680 --> 00:24:59,690 We all miss her,chief. 397 00:25:00,761 --> 00:25:03,461 I understand if you need some time off. 398 00:25:03,438 --> 00:25:07,488 Or even if you might need more shifts to keep yourself busy. 399 00:25:07,443 --> 00:25:09,623 No one knows how they're going to react to loss like this, 400 00:25:09,600 --> 00:25:11,160 or what they're gonna need. 401 00:25:12,526 --> 00:25:14,736 I don't need special treatment. 402 00:25:18,785 --> 00:25:20,805 I guess she just couldn't take it,huh? 403 00:25:21,288 --> 00:25:23,038 Being married to a cylon? 404 00:25:23,050 --> 00:25:25,990 Being the mother of a half-breed abomination? 405 00:25:31,561 --> 00:25:33,121 - ***** - Thank you. 406 00:25:37,260 --> 00:25:38,800 She was a good woman. 407 00:25:45,425 --> 00:25:49,695 If you really believe that, you wouldn't have threatened 408 00:25:49,632 --> 00:25:52,722 to stick her up against a bulkhead and shoot her. 409 00:25:55,621 --> 00:25:57,351 It's okay,though. 410 00:25:58,336 --> 00:26:00,636 I thought about doing it many times myself. 411 00:26:00,656 --> 00:26:01,566 Believe me. 412 00:26:01,561 --> 00:26:02,351 Chief,it's... 413 00:26:02,331 --> 00:26:06,081 how many of us ended up with the people we really wanted to be with? 414 00:26:07,376 --> 00:26:10,496 Got stuck with the best of limited options? 415 00:26:11,247 --> 00:26:13,227 And why? 416 00:26:14,530 --> 00:26:21,670 Because the ones we really wanted, the really loved,were dead and dying, 417 00:26:21,452 --> 00:26:23,252 or turned out to be cylons and they didn't know it. 418 00:26:23,262 --> 00:26:24,492 If boomer had. 419 00:26:26,854 --> 00:26:28,004 - listen. - if I had known. 420 00:26:27,970 --> 00:26:29,240 - Listen,let'S. - no. 421 00:26:29,232 --> 00:26:31,582 - Let's go. - No,no. 422 00:26:32,081 --> 00:26:33,451 I didn't know. 423 00:26:33,410 --> 00:26:35,400 - let's go home - I didn't know. 424 00:26:35,374 --> 00:26:39,364 So I buried my head in the sand and I took it and I settled! 425 00:26:39,302 --> 00:26:43,642 I settled for that shriek, those dull vacant eyes, 426 00:26:43,558 --> 00:26:45,918 the boiled cabbage stench of her. 427 00:26:45,907 --> 00:26:48,447 And why?Because this is my life! 428 00:26:48,362 --> 00:26:50,792 This is the life I picked. 429 00:26:50,750 --> 00:26:53,100 And it's fine,but you know what?It's not. 430 00:26:53,022 --> 00:26:54,502 I didn't pick this life. 431 00:26:54,495 --> 00:26:56,455 This is not my frakkin' life. 432 00:26:56,421 --> 00:26:58,541 What the hell's gotten into you? 433 00:26:58,548 --> 00:27:00,278 Don't do this. 434 00:27:00,330 --> 00:27:02,300 Don't do this to her memory. 435 00:27:02,274 --> 00:27:03,584 You know what? 436 00:27:03,603 --> 00:27:06,363 I'm sorry if I'm not gonna do this the way you want me to, 437 00:27:06,337 --> 00:27:08,137 or the way you might. 438 00:27:08,128 --> 00:27:11,868 But I will not make an angel out of someone who wasn't an angel. 439 00:27:12,884 --> 00:27:15,294 But I can see you have. 440 00:27:15,696 --> 00:27:18,176 And now you've come down here to be in my club, 441 00:27:18,122 --> 00:27:19,982 but you're not in my club. 442 00:27:19,990 --> 00:27:21,660 You don't know what frakkin' club I'm in 443 00:27:21,636 --> 00:27:24,186 'cause you never asked the right questions. 444 00:27:24,467 --> 00:27:26,467 Chief,let's get out of here. 445 00:27:26,469 --> 00:27:27,769 No. 446 00:27:27,788 --> 00:27:29,378 Why don't you go? 447 00:27:29,358 --> 00:27:30,658 Take care of your precious ship. 448 00:27:30,667 --> 00:27:31,817 Stop it. 449 00:27:31,822 --> 00:27:33,742 Stop all of this. 450 00:27:33,729 --> 00:27:35,839 'Cause if you don't,I'm going to have to act on it. 451 00:27:35,770 --> 00:27:37,320 - Now shut up. - Great! 452 00:27:37,281 --> 00:27:38,391 Do it! 453 00:27:38,408 --> 00:27:39,038 Please! 454 00:27:39,091 --> 00:27:41,391 For the love of gods,please demote me. 455 00:27:41,402 --> 00:27:43,932 Get me off your frakkin' ship! 456 00:27:46,476 --> 00:27:53,796 Specialist tyrol,I want you off my hangar deck before you endanger another pilot. 457 00:27:53,610 --> 00:28:00,470 You're to report to petty officer bassom tomorrow morning at 0600 for reassignment. 458 00:28:00,273 --> 00:28:02,523 Do you understand? 459 00:28:47,045 --> 00:28:48,825 of course you have authority over emergency measures, 460 00:28:48,864 --> 00:28:51,344 but you bulldozed this through after the session was closed. 461 00:28:51,156 --> 00:28:52,816 Yes **** 462 00:28:52,802 --> 00:28:54,632 It's a crowd control measure. 463 00:28:54,612 --> 00:28:58,962 I also authorized the repair of a cargo elevat or do you want to talk about that too? 464 00:28:58,897 --> 00:28:59,457 Crowd control? 465 00:28:59,532 --> 00:29:01,062 Looks to me like it was pretty well designed purely 466 00:29:01,092 --> 00:29:03,272 to stop gaius baltar's organization. 467 00:29:03,229 --> 00:29:04,789 You mean his cult? 468 00:29:04,808 --> 00:29:06,908 Well his "cult" was attacked. 469 00:29:06,868 --> 00:29:09,248 And from what I'm hearing around the fleet, 470 00:29:09,237 --> 00:29:10,227 it was pretty brutal. 471 00:29:10,286 --> 00:29:11,446 It was brutal. 472 00:29:11,509 --> 00:29:12,529 Exactly. 473 00:29:12,539 --> 00:29:16,489 And this measure is designed explicitly to protect those people. 474 00:29:16,429 --> 00:29:20,579 If they aren't gathering en masse, they aren't provokreg sentment. 475 00:29:20,530 --> 00:29:23,130 But limits his group,while permitting more mainstream worship. 476 00:29:23,149 --> 00:29:25,219 wherever gaius baltar is,violence happens. 477 00:29:25,267 --> 00:29:27,297 And if he doesn't cause it,he draws it. 478 00:29:27,337 --> 00:29:35,247 My job,mr.Adama,is and always will be, to keep the people safe. 479 00:29:35,020 --> 00:29:39,100 Madame president, I have to wonder tifhis resolution 480 00:29:39,064 --> 00:29:41,964 couldn't be used against other offshoot religious groups. 481 00:29:41,904 --> 00:29:43,074 Absolutely not. 482 00:29:43,137 --> 00:29:44,527 Gaius baltar is a special case. 483 00:29:44,542 --> 00:29:45,602 You know that. 484 00:29:45,621 --> 00:29:47,691 And we're making him a special case. 485 00:29:47,671 --> 00:29:48,551 And how are we doing that? 486 00:29:48,634 --> 00:29:49,804 We're fueling his argument. 487 00:29:49,876 --> 00:29:51,186 I mean,after all,is he preaching violence? 488 00:29:51,234 --> 00:29:52,514 - Immoral acts? - I don't know. 489 00:29:52,485 --> 00:29:55,775 I haven't been to one of his... what are they called?Services? 490 00:29:55,662 --> 00:29:59,832 It's not that far from what some of our own mithras followers believe. 491 00:29:59,764 --> 00:30:01,874 We have mithrasaries among the gemenese. 492 00:30:01,921 --> 00:30:03,511 Can this order be applied to them? 493 00:30:03,500 --> 00:30:04,530 Clear your heads. 494 00:30:04,549 --> 00:30:06,559 We are talking about gaius baltar. 495 00:30:06,571 --> 00:30:11,121 Everyone in this room experienced tragedy at new caprica. 496 00:30:11,048 --> 00:30:12,648 Have we forgotten? 497 00:30:13,599 --> 00:30:16,009 Will you open this order 498 00:30:15,929 --> 00:30:18,429 - to a full quorum vote? - No. 499 00:30:18,413 --> 00:30:20,263 we can override,madam president. 500 00:30:20,252 --> 00:30:21,832 I cannot let this stand. 501 00:30:22,900 --> 00:30:25,800 You can override,and you cannot let this stand,mr.Adama? 502 00:30:25,769 --> 00:30:27,519 Then you open it up to a vote. 503 00:30:27,502 --> 00:30:31,612 And if you strike this down, you can all go back to your constituents 504 00:30:31,565 --> 00:30:32,845 and you can tell them what you've done, 505 00:30:32,855 --> 00:30:34,965 and "we,the people," will have triumphed. 506 00:30:34,944 --> 00:30:37,434 But think about what it's gonna cost you. 507 00:30:38,468 --> 00:30:41,248 Because every single one of you remembers 508 00:30:41,568 --> 00:30:45,078 what it was like when gaius baltar had political power. 509 00:30:45,063 --> 00:30:47,743 And you should be terrified to think about 510 00:30:47,711 --> 00:30:51,681 what this man will do with blind religious devotion. 511 00:30:51,629 --> 00:30:53,529 So go ahead. 512 00:30:54,229 --> 00:30:56,189 Vote. 513 00:31:14,274 --> 00:31:17,364 Should I get used to waking up to this face? 514 00:31:20,628 --> 00:31:22,788 You're traveling light. 515 00:31:23,189 --> 00:31:25,319 An informal chat. 516 00:31:25,298 --> 00:31:27,458 Just you and me. 517 00:31:27,435 --> 00:31:30,115 and the man watching through the cameras. 518 00:31:30,160 --> 00:31:33,000 You haven't answered my question. 519 00:31:33,029 --> 00:31:35,669 You want to know how I work? 520 00:31:36,611 --> 00:31:38,911 If I can turn off pain? 521 00:31:38,873 --> 00:31:40,493 Can you? 522 00:31:41,126 --> 00:31:42,626 I want the pain. 523 00:31:42,715 --> 00:31:44,365 It's how I learn. 524 00:31:46,585 --> 00:31:51,105 I was instrumental in the destruction of humanity. 525 00:31:51,033 --> 00:31:53,793 But at the same time,I learned because. 526 00:31:54,730 --> 00:31:57,090 because I fell in love. 527 00:31:57,474 --> 00:31:59,864 With a human man. 528 00:32:00,257 --> 00:32:02,247 And he was mortal. 529 00:32:03,347 --> 00:32:05,777 And fallible. 530 00:32:06,264 --> 00:32:10,624 And he had this incredible pride in himself. 531 00:32:10,510 --> 00:32:13,030 He thought he knew everything there was to know. 532 00:32:13,456 --> 00:32:17,276 And I loved him with my whole heart. 533 00:32:18,607 --> 00:32:25,577 And then one day,I realized I wouldn't have him forever. 534 00:32:26,887 --> 00:32:29,407 I understood what I'd done. 535 00:32:30,719 --> 00:32:34,039 How I betrayed him and humanity. 536 00:32:35,475 --> 00:32:40,455 And that pain taught me to understand death. 537 00:32:42,465 --> 00:32:44,545 Baltar could die. 538 00:32:44,516 --> 00:32:46,566 - And I loved him. - No. 539 00:32:46,499 --> 00:32:49,339 - Baltar's heart was ephemeral. - No. 540 00:32:49,253 --> 00:32:52,033 Baltar's body was fragile in my hands. 541 00:32:52,026 --> 00:32:56,346 No,we are not gonna talk about the fragile body of gaius frakkin' baltar! 542 00:32:56,281 --> 00:32:57,511 Door! 543 00:32:57,533 --> 00:32:58,983 Door! 544 00:32:59,670 --> 00:33:01,060 Dismissed. 545 00:33:01,114 --> 00:33:02,654 Clear out,out! 546 00:33:03,733 --> 00:33:05,463 Frak,what's he gonna do to her? 547 00:33:11,965 --> 00:33:14,215 I can tell you how to turn it off. 548 00:33:14,160 --> 00:33:15,300 How? 549 00:33:15,315 --> 00:33:17,925 Pain is how I learn from the guilt. 550 00:33:17,867 --> 00:33:19,867 There's wisdom there. 551 00:33:19,831 --> 00:33:20,521 Clarity. 552 00:33:20,543 --> 00:33:22,383 You know yourself there. 553 00:33:22,382 --> 00:33:23,562 Pain. 554 00:33:23,595 --> 00:33:28,535 Our minds were designed based on your minds. 555 00:33:28,428 --> 00:33:32,038 We learn things about how you work that you've never known. 556 00:33:34,966 --> 00:33:40,876 When you're in pain,that's when you learn who you really are. 557 00:33:42,110 --> 00:33:47,740 That's when you focus, sharp as the point of a knife. 558 00:33:57,774 --> 00:34:00,944 I can give you that clarity again. 559 00:34:03,397 --> 00:34:06,367 I'm sorry,sir,I'm not supposed to let you enter. 560 00:34:06,362 --> 00:34:07,362 What's going on?What are you doing? 561 00:34:07,335 --> 00:34:09,345 There are 12 people inside already. 562 00:34:09,337 --> 00:34:10,347 You can count,can you? 563 00:34:10,358 --> 00:34:14,158 Yes,sir,you can't enter without breaking emergency provision 170. 564 00:34:14,064 --> 00:34:15,334 People,let me out. 565 00:34:15,297 --> 00:34:16,077 - If I leave,then he can come in. - Yes,if she leaves, 566 00:34:15,720 --> 00:34:17,040 - then I can come in. - We're asking everyone 567 00:34:17,001 --> 00:34:19,391 - to stay inside for safety reasons. - Oh,this is absurd. 568 00:34:19,312 --> 00:34:21,042 - You're just counting heads. - I have my orders. 569 00:34:20,987 --> 00:34:22,237 Yeah,but I live here,okay? 570 00:34:22,239 --> 00:34:23,999 I live here,and so do some of these women. 571 00:34:23,981 --> 00:34:25,561 Where are we supposed to go? 572 00:34:27,004 --> 00:34:28,764 this is your moment,gaius. 573 00:34:28,785 --> 00:34:31,015 Step forward.Make a stand. 574 00:34:32,714 --> 00:34:34,374 Uh,I don't want to be a hero. 575 00:34:34,427 --> 00:34:35,607 I just want to go to bed. 576 00:34:35,573 --> 00:34:37,003 - Go to sleep. - Look at me. 577 00:34:36,960 --> 00:34:38,510 I promise you. 578 00:34:38,567 --> 00:34:41,677 Step forward,and you will not be hurt. 579 00:34:42,159 --> 00:34:43,949 - Promise me? - Yes, 580 00:34:43,892 --> 00:34:46,782 you can lie down inside.Go in. 581 00:34:49,177 --> 00:34:50,687 Stop,sir. 582 00:34:52,162 --> 00:34:53,632 gaius! 583 00:35:00,827 --> 00:35:05,717 Get your frakkin' hands off me, you frakkin' freak machine! 584 00:35:18,388 --> 00:35:20,398 Can you feel it,saul? 585 00:35:20,362 --> 00:35:23,002 Can you feel the clarity of it? 586 00:35:32,310 --> 00:35:34,950 stay down or clear this area,sir! 587 00:35:34,948 --> 00:35:36,778 You have to do this. 588 00:35:36,768 --> 00:35:39,328 The gain will outweigh the cost. 589 00:35:50,853 --> 00:35:51,823 I want to stay down. 590 00:35:51,883 --> 00:35:52,973 I really want to stay down. 591 00:35:52,991 --> 00:35:54,431 No,you don'T. 592 00:36:04,717 --> 00:36:06,127 Stay down,please,sir! 593 00:36:06,171 --> 00:36:07,741 Wait,wait,stop! 594 00:36:07,750 --> 00:36:09,110 Lieutenant. 595 00:36:09,117 --> 00:36:10,537 Stand down. 596 00:36:11,235 --> 00:36:13,905 The quorum has just met in an emergency session. 597 00:36:13,864 --> 00:36:16,144 Full right of assembly has been restored. 598 00:36:17,927 --> 00:36:21,047 You can,uh,you can go back into your home. 599 00:36:20,969 --> 00:36:22,389 - No one will stop you. - Oh,gaies. 600 00:36:29,134 --> 00:36:30,094 thank you 601 00:36:30,905 --> 00:36:32,845 I don't do these things for you. 602 00:36:35,536 --> 00:36:38,396 You do them because your god compels you. 603 00:36:40,639 --> 00:36:42,509 Okay,okay. 604 00:36:50,806 --> 00:36:52,416 Lee has no idea. 605 00:36:52,414 --> 00:36:54,754 He really has no idea. 606 00:36:57,594 --> 00:36:59,334 Have you heard anything I said? 607 00:36:59,355 --> 00:37:04,155 There are pragmatic realities he refuses to face. 608 00:37:05,267 --> 00:37:07,867 Well,that'pra oblem,of course. 609 00:37:08,916 --> 00:37:11,346 He's doing what he thinks is right. 610 00:37:11,352 --> 00:37:13,312 Well,yeah,he's lee. 611 00:37:14,808 --> 00:37:17,908 Thing is,it probably is the right thing,but. 612 00:37:18,650 --> 00:37:22,020 sometimes the right thing is a luxury. 613 00:37:21,981 --> 00:37:24,611 And it can have profoundly dangerous consequences. 614 00:37:24,600 --> 00:37:29,270 And yet it's almost as if he doesn't want that to be true. 615 00:37:29,568 --> 00:37:30,808 Okay,I gotta stop this. 616 00:37:30,819 --> 00:37:35,309 I'm not supposed to get upset during treatment. 617 00:37:36,298 --> 00:37:38,848 Will you read the next chapter? 618 00:37:40,813 --> 00:37:44,243 I must warn you that I'm getting into the part that I haven't read yet. 619 00:37:44,164 --> 00:37:45,544 Oh dear. 620 00:37:45,627 --> 00:37:48,797 Are you going to be able to continue? 621 00:37:57,912 --> 00:37:59,442 Chapter 7: 622 00:37:59,424 --> 00:38:03,264 The raft was not as seaworthy as I had hoped. 623 00:38:03,602 --> 00:38:06,752 The waves repeatedly threatened to swamp it. 624 00:38:06,673 --> 00:38:08,923 I wasn't afraid to die. 625 00:38:11,035 --> 00:38:14,755 I was afraid of the emptiness that I felt inside. 626 00:38:18,651 --> 00:38:20,891 I couldn't feel anything. 627 00:38:22,425 --> 00:38:24,875 That's what scared me. 628 00:38:25,977 --> 00:38:28,447 It came into my thoughts. 629 00:38:29,838 --> 00:38:31,728 It filled them. 630 00:38:33,882 --> 00:38:35,892 It felt good. 631 00:38:35,894 --> 00:38:37,714 More. 632 00:38:38,898 --> 00:38:40,518 No. 633 00:38:41,757 --> 00:38:43,787 Keep going. 634 00:38:43,798 --> 00:38:46,248 No,I made a mistake. 635 00:38:47,630 --> 00:38:50,050 This isn't what you need. 636 00:38:56,372 --> 00:38:58,352 I'm not a priest. 637 00:38:59,213 --> 00:39:02,703 I've never even been a particularly good man. 638 00:39:03,603 --> 00:39:11,373 I have,in fact,been a profoundly selfish man. 639 00:39:11,142 --> 00:39:13,612 But that doesn't matter,you see. 640 00:39:14,232 --> 00:39:18,602 Something in the universe loves me. 641 00:39:22,695 --> 00:39:29,605 Something in the universe loves the entity that is me. 642 00:39:29,848 --> 00:39:33,258 I will choose to call this something "god. 643 00:39:33,199 --> 00:39:38,879 A singular spark that dwells in the soul of every living being. 644 00:39:38,735 --> 00:39:43,355 If you look inside yourself, you will find this spark too. 645 00:39:43,587 --> 00:39:45,237 You will. 646 00:39:46,649 --> 00:39:49,229 But you have to look. 647 00:39:49,971 --> 00:39:51,641 Deep. 648 00:39:52,801 --> 00:39:54,841 Love your faults. 649 00:39:56,171 --> 00:39:58,111 Embrace them. 650 00:39:58,472 --> 00:40:03,192 If god embraces them, then how can they be faults? 651 00:40:03,132 --> 00:40:05,302 Love yourself. 652 00:40:06,117 --> 00:40:08,627 You have to love yourself. 653 00:40:09,255 --> 00:40:15,245 If we don't love ourselves, how can we love others? 654 00:40:17,651 --> 00:40:19,791 and when we know what we are, 655 00:40:19,798 --> 00:40:23,688 then we can find the truth out about others. 656 00:40:23,591 --> 00:40:25,311 See what they are. 657 00:40:26,354 --> 00:40:28,074 The truth about them. 658 00:40:29,811 --> 00:40:35,731 And you know what the truth is, the truth about them. 659 00:40:36,550 --> 00:40:38,130 About you. 660 00:40:38,678 --> 00:40:40,208 About me. 661 00:40:40,671 --> 00:40:42,451 Do you? 662 00:40:47,574 --> 00:40:54,654 The truth is we are all perfect, just as we are. 663 00:40:54,776 --> 00:40:58,446 God only loves that which is perfect, and he loves you. 664 00:40:58,800 --> 00:41:01,820 He loves you because you are perfect. 665 00:41:02,170 --> 00:41:07,000 You are perfect just as you are.