1 00:00:01,580 --> 00:00:03,650 Previously on Buffy the Vampire Slayer: 2 00:00:03,780 --> 00:00:07,170 So, anything new about Warren and the nerd herd? 3 00:00:07,300 --> 00:00:09,814 A nerd goes into hiding, he really hides. 4 00:00:09,940 --> 00:00:13,171 Big wedding coming up, lots of date possibilities, 5 00:00:13,300 --> 00:00:16,337 you and Tara are speaking again. You wanna call her? 6 00:00:16,460 --> 00:00:19,577 No. But if I did call she wouldn't hang up on me. 7 00:00:19,700 --> 00:00:21,770 You can't even stand to be around me. 8 00:00:21,900 --> 00:00:24,892 - That is not true. - You didn't wanna come back. 9 00:00:25,020 --> 00:00:27,170 - It's over. - I've memorised this tune, love. 10 00:00:27,300 --> 00:00:30,019 I'm using you, and it's killing me. 11 00:00:30,740 --> 00:00:32,856 I'm sorry, William. 12 00:00:33,380 --> 00:00:35,336 This is it. 13 00:00:36,020 --> 00:00:38,329 Are you ready to go? 14 00:00:38,640 --> 00:00:39,411 He's gone. 15 00:00:39,540 --> 00:00:41,895 Xander's gone? Xander's missing? 16 00:00:44,060 --> 00:00:46,528 What do you mean Xander's missing? 17 00:01:27,060 --> 00:01:30,211 - Oh, man, your face was priceless. - Yeah, real funny. 18 00:01:30,340 --> 00:01:32,774 Serves you right for taking zees on lookout again. 19 00:01:32,900 --> 00:01:37,052 What do you expect? I haven't had a decent night's sleep since... 20 00:01:37,180 --> 00:01:41,571 I'm going Jack Torrance in here, you know? Stuck in this basement for weeks! 21 00:01:41,700 --> 00:01:44,214 We rented the whole house. Can't we sleep upstairs? 22 00:01:44,340 --> 00:01:47,696 We're on the lam. We have to lay low. Underground? 23 00:01:47,820 --> 00:01:51,495 It's figurative, doofus! Did you even read Legion of Doom? 24 00:01:51,620 --> 00:01:53,476 Enough! Midgetor, back to the monitors. 25 00:01:53,500 --> 00:01:55,092 The last thing we need is to be surprised... 26 00:01:55,145 --> 00:01:57,159 Holy Jeez Louise. 27 00:01:58,500 --> 00:02:01,253 - The... - The fricking Slayer. 28 00:02:01,380 --> 00:02:04,895 - She's right there! - All right, don't panic. Andrew. 29 00:02:05,020 --> 00:02:07,170 Deploy your little friend. 30 00:02:36,300 --> 00:02:38,052 Oh. Hi. 31 00:02:38,180 --> 00:02:41,013 You didn't by chance happen to eat a couple of nerds? 32 00:03:18,820 --> 00:03:21,573 - You're gonna hurt yourself! - She'll break the needle. 33 00:03:21,700 --> 00:03:24,134 We're gonna have to strap her down. 34 00:04:46,620 --> 00:04:49,054 Hi, Tara. How are you? 35 00:04:50,340 --> 00:04:54,538 Hey, I was wondering, maybe, you would wanna go out sometime? 36 00:04:54,660 --> 00:04:58,414 For coffee, food, kisses and gay love? 37 00:05:00,460 --> 00:05:06,137 Hi, Tara. Guess what? Magic-free now for - insert number - days now. 38 00:05:40,500 --> 00:05:41,694 Buffy. Buffy. 39 00:05:43,580 --> 00:05:46,014 Come on. It's time for your drugs. 40 00:05:48,140 --> 00:05:48,890 What? 41 00:05:49,020 --> 00:05:52,092 I said, if I didn't know any better, I'd think you were on drugs. 42 00:05:53,340 --> 00:05:55,615 OK. Good. 43 00:06:11,500 --> 00:06:12,939 Whatcha doin'? 44 00:06:13,001 --> 00:06:16,051 I'm online, checkin' to see if Xander emailed. 45 00:06:16,180 --> 00:06:18,774 - Any luck? - No such. 46 00:06:19,820 --> 00:06:22,937 Maybe Anya found him and they're trying to work it out. 47 00:06:23,060 --> 00:06:25,813 How come you're all home, hearth and DSL? 48 00:06:25,940 --> 00:06:30,650 - I thought you were gonna go see Tara. - Saw her. Saw her completely. 49 00:06:30,780 --> 00:06:34,773 Ouch. Just got a scratch from all that brittle. 50 00:06:34,900 --> 00:06:40,900 It's... When I was seeing her, she was seeing someone else. A girl. 51 00:06:41,860 --> 00:06:47,378 - You mean... - I mean not "seeing" seeing. Well, maybe. 52 00:06:48,020 --> 00:06:51,979 I don't know, it was inconclusive, and I didn't stick around to find out. 53 00:06:52,100 --> 00:06:56,332 I might have magicked my fist through a wall or something. 54 00:06:56,460 --> 00:06:58,496 Will, I'm sorry. 55 00:06:58,620 --> 00:07:01,134 I mean, they're probably just friends. 56 00:07:01,260 --> 00:07:04,058 I press my lips against my friends all the time. 57 00:07:04,700 --> 00:07:09,535 I'm sure they're just friends. Once you fall for Willow, you stay fallen. 58 00:07:10,700 --> 00:07:12,577 Thanks, Buffy. 59 00:07:15,460 --> 00:07:18,020 - Hi. I'm back. - Xander? 60 00:07:19,060 --> 00:07:20,812 Xander, you're here! 61 00:07:20,940 --> 00:07:24,489 - We missed you! Where were you? - I know. 62 00:07:24,620 --> 00:07:29,774 - I tried calling, but I couldn't without... - Hey. You don't need to explain to us. 63 00:07:30,820 --> 00:07:34,449 Right. Is she here? 64 00:07:34,900 --> 00:07:37,858 Oh. No. You wanna find her? 65 00:07:37,980 --> 00:07:41,495 I need to. Her suitcase is gone, and some of her stuff. 66 00:07:41,620 --> 00:07:45,818 There's a "closed" sign on the Magic Box, which, like, chills me to the bone. 67 00:07:45,940 --> 00:07:47,737 She left a couple of days ago. 68 00:07:47,860 --> 00:07:51,489 Was she looking for me? Before she left, did she say anything? 69 00:07:51,620 --> 00:07:53,611 You mean, between sobs? 70 00:07:54,220 --> 00:07:56,290 There was mostly just wheezing. 71 00:07:56,420 --> 00:07:59,935 She was a little... She was kinda broken. 72 00:08:00,060 --> 00:08:03,450 I don't know how stuff got so mixed up. 73 00:08:03,580 --> 00:08:05,571 - I blew it. - No. 74 00:08:05,700 --> 00:08:09,170 Well, maybe it wasn't the best time to break up with her, but... 75 00:08:09,300 --> 00:08:11,689 No. It wasn't about breaking up. 76 00:08:12,980 --> 00:08:15,096 I love her and, God, I miss her so much. 77 00:08:15,220 --> 00:08:18,292 So, you left her at the altar, but you still wanna... 78 00:08:18,420 --> 00:08:21,617 - You still wanna date? - I guess. 79 00:08:21,740 --> 00:08:24,413 I know that I'm a better person with her in my life. 80 00:08:24,540 --> 00:08:28,772 But things got so complicated, with the wedding, my family, her demons 81 00:08:28,900 --> 00:08:32,097 and what if it all goes to Hell, and for ever? 82 00:08:32,220 --> 00:08:34,859 But then I left. 83 00:08:34,980 --> 00:08:39,451 And ever since, I've had this painful hole inside. 84 00:08:39,580 --> 00:08:41,935 And I'm the idiot that dug it out. 85 00:08:45,140 --> 00:08:48,849 - I screwed up real bad. - Hey. We all screw up. 86 00:09:02,380 --> 00:09:04,416 You lookin' for me? 87 00:09:04,540 --> 00:09:06,212 Really not. 88 00:09:06,340 --> 00:09:08,979 Oh. Right then. Off you go. 89 00:09:10,020 --> 00:09:12,534 - Did you cry? - What? 90 00:09:14,500 --> 00:09:18,455 The wedding. Two hearts joined for eternity, 91 00:09:18,490 --> 00:09:20,939 great pelting showers of rice and so forth. 92 00:09:22,460 --> 00:09:24,416 You didn't hear. 93 00:09:26,820 --> 00:09:29,380 What? Families get out of hand? 94 00:09:30,780 --> 00:09:33,214 - Tear the place apart? - No. 95 00:09:33,340 --> 00:09:36,855 Well, yes, absolutely, but... 96 00:09:36,980 --> 00:09:40,097 Xander left. The wedding didn't happen. 97 00:09:41,900 --> 00:09:45,688 Well, gotta say I didn't see that coming. 98 00:09:46,340 --> 00:09:50,015 It was awful. Anya was devastated. 99 00:09:51,060 --> 00:09:53,210 Is that right? 100 00:09:53,340 --> 00:09:58,892 And Xander thinks maybe they can still get back together, but he hurt her a lot. 101 00:09:59,980 --> 00:10:04,735 Yeah, well, some people can't see a good thing when they've got it. 102 00:10:06,900 --> 00:10:09,972 - Spike. - I should've known you'd be tagging along. 103 00:10:10,100 --> 00:10:13,490 Hey, guys. I found Spike 104 00:10:13,620 --> 00:10:18,853 and was tryin' to figure out what kind of dangerous contraband he had. 105 00:10:18,980 --> 00:10:23,212 Tell you what, Slayer. Let me get out of your way. I'll stop bothering you. 106 00:10:23,340 --> 00:10:26,298 Yeah, maybe you should do that, Spike - just run along. 107 00:10:26,420 --> 00:10:28,456 I guess you know all about that, don't you? 108 00:10:28,580 --> 00:10:31,617 The king of the big exit. Heard it brought the house down. 109 00:10:31,740 --> 00:10:35,733 - I don't need this crap from you. - Right. Let's not listen to Spike. 110 00:10:35,860 --> 00:10:40,615 - Might get a bit of truth on you. - OK, OK. Calm now. 111 00:10:40,740 --> 00:10:45,939 Let's turn around and release this very manly thing the other way. 112 00:10:46,540 --> 00:10:52,410 I forgot. Willy Wannabite can't hurt me. Dumb to pick a fight, I guess. 113 00:10:52,540 --> 00:10:57,091 More than happy to beat you right through the pain, you pathetic poof. 114 00:10:58,580 --> 00:11:01,811 - Guys, don't. - Buffy, can you hear me? 115 00:11:10,020 --> 00:11:13,376 - What is this? - Do you know where you are, Buffy? 116 00:11:16,180 --> 00:11:19,013 - Sunnydale. - No, none of that's real, none of it. 117 00:11:19,540 --> 00:11:24,170 You're in a mental institution. You've been with us now for six years. 118 00:11:24,300 --> 00:11:26,052 Do you remember? 119 00:11:31,540 --> 00:11:34,100 - Buffy? Are you OK? - What happened? 120 00:11:38,380 --> 00:11:40,575 It's OK, Buffy. Buffy, it's OK. 121 00:11:42,820 --> 00:11:45,380 Look. Look who's here. 122 00:11:47,460 --> 00:11:49,212 Buffy? 123 00:11:50,980 --> 00:11:53,255 Welcome home, sweetie. 124 00:12:03,980 --> 00:12:05,049 Mom? 125 00:12:05,180 --> 00:12:08,968 - Oh, baby, you're really here. - Dad? 126 00:12:09,100 --> 00:12:14,697 She's lucid. Keep talking. Maybe the sound of your voice will ground her. 127 00:12:14,820 --> 00:12:18,779 Sweetheart? We've missed you very much. 128 00:12:20,220 --> 00:12:21,858 Honey, can you hear me? 129 00:12:24,660 --> 00:12:28,016 - Buffy, stay with us, please. - Oh... No! 130 00:12:30,940 --> 00:12:34,330 - Here, let's get her back to my crypt. - Spike, just go, OK? 131 00:12:34,460 --> 00:12:37,372 She's our friend. We'll take care of her. 132 00:12:37,500 --> 00:12:39,252 No, guys, I'm OK. I'm OK. 133 00:12:39,380 --> 00:12:42,133 Come on, Xander. Help me get her home. 134 00:12:45,740 --> 00:12:48,493 Put a little ice on the back of her neck. 135 00:12:52,140 --> 00:12:54,096 She likes that. 136 00:12:56,260 --> 00:13:01,857 I've been having these flashes. Hallucinations, I guess. 137 00:13:01,980 --> 00:13:06,531 - Since when? - Night before last. 138 00:13:07,820 --> 00:13:10,874 I was checking houses on that list you gave me, 139 00:13:10,875 --> 00:13:13,929 looking for Warren and his pals, 140 00:13:14,060 --> 00:13:16,335 and then, bam! 141 00:13:16,460 --> 00:13:21,534 Some kind of gross, waxy demon thing poked me. 142 00:13:22,220 --> 00:13:25,053 - And when you say poke... - In the arm. 143 00:13:26,020 --> 00:13:29,535 It stung me or something, and then I was like... 144 00:13:30,940 --> 00:13:35,456 No. It wasn't "like". I was in an institution. 145 00:13:36,060 --> 00:13:41,737 There were doctors and nurses and other patients. 146 00:13:43,980 --> 00:13:49,452 They told me that I was sick. I guess, crazy. 147 00:13:51,340 --> 00:13:55,520 And that Sunnydale and all of this... 148 00:13:56,030 --> 00:13:57,939 None of it was real. 149 00:13:58,060 --> 00:14:00,449 Oh, come on, that's ridiculous! 150 00:14:00,580 --> 00:14:04,368 What? You think this isn't real just because of all the vampires and demons 151 00:14:04,500 --> 00:14:07,638 and ex-vengeance demons and the sister that was a big ball... 152 00:14:07,673 --> 00:14:10,291 of universe-destroying energy? 153 00:14:10,420 --> 00:14:13,492 I know how this must sound, but it felt so real. 154 00:14:15,420 --> 00:14:18,935 - Mom was there. - She was? 155 00:14:19,060 --> 00:14:21,096 Dad too. 156 00:14:21,860 --> 00:14:24,055 They were together, 157 00:14:24,180 --> 00:14:28,571 like they used to be before Sunnydale. 158 00:14:29,900 --> 00:14:31,811 OK! All in favour of research? 159 00:14:32,700 --> 00:14:34,019 Motion passed. 160 00:14:34,140 --> 00:14:38,656 All right, Xander, you hit the demon bars. Dig up any info on a new player in town. 161 00:14:38,780 --> 00:14:41,499 Dawnie, help me research. We'll hop online, check all the... 162 00:14:41,860 --> 00:14:45,614 .. possibilities for a full recovery, but we have to proceed cautiously. 163 00:14:45,740 --> 00:14:47,731 - If we're not careful... - Wait. 164 00:14:47,860 --> 00:14:52,695 Are you saying that Buffy could be like she was before any of this happened? 165 00:14:52,820 --> 00:14:55,497 Mrs Summers, you have to understand the severity... 166 00:14:55,532 --> 00:14:57,735 of what's happened to your daughter. 167 00:14:57,860 --> 00:15:02,490 For the last six years, she's been in an undifferentiated type of schizophrenia. 168 00:15:02,620 --> 00:15:07,011 We know what her condition is. That's not what we're asking. 169 00:15:07,140 --> 00:15:11,895 Buffy's delusion is multilayered. She believes she's some type of hero. 170 00:15:12,020 --> 00:15:13,276 The Slayer. 171 00:15:13,284 --> 00:15:15,729 The Slayer, right, but that's only one level. 172 00:15:15,860 --> 00:15:20,888 She's also created an intricate latticework to support her primary delusion. 173 00:15:21,020 --> 00:15:26,572 In her mind, she's the central figure in a fantastic world beyond imagination. 174 00:15:26,700 --> 00:15:30,739 She's surrounded herself with friends, most with their own superpowers, 175 00:15:30,860 --> 00:15:35,934 who are as real to her as you or me - more so, unfortunately. 176 00:15:36,060 --> 00:15:41,339 Together they face grand, overblown conflicts against an assortment of monsters, 177 00:15:41,460 --> 00:15:44,770 both imaginary and rooted in actual myth. 178 00:15:45,300 --> 00:15:48,849 Every time we think we're getting through to her, 179 00:15:48,980 --> 00:15:53,132 - more fanciful enemies magically appear... - How did I miss...? 180 00:15:53,260 --> 00:15:56,252 Warren and Jonathan, they did this to me! 181 00:15:56,380 --> 00:15:58,974 - Buffy! - Buffy, it's all right. 182 00:16:00,500 --> 00:16:04,015 They can't hurt you here. You're with your family. 183 00:16:05,060 --> 00:16:08,655 - Dawn? - That's the sister, right? 184 00:16:08,780 --> 00:16:11,658 The magical key. 185 00:16:11,780 --> 00:16:16,092 Buffy inserted Dawn into her delusion, actually rewriting the entire history of it 186 00:16:16,220 --> 00:16:19,929 to accommodate a need for a familial bond. 187 00:16:22,020 --> 00:16:25,217 Buffy, but that created inconsistencies, didn't it? 188 00:16:25,340 --> 00:16:29,458 Your sister, your friends, all of those people you created in Sunnydale, 189 00:16:29,580 --> 00:16:32,094 they aren't as comforting as they once were. 190 00:16:32,220 --> 00:16:35,132 Are they? They're coming apart. 191 00:16:35,260 --> 00:16:38,058 Buffy, listen to what the doctor says. It's important. 192 00:16:38,180 --> 00:16:43,067 Buffy, you used to create these grand villains to battle against, 193 00:16:43,605 --> 00:16:45,438 and now what is it? 194 00:16:45,780 --> 00:16:51,013 Just ordinary students you went to high school with. No gods or monsters. 195 00:16:52,060 --> 00:16:54,699 Just three pathetic little men 196 00:16:55,580 --> 00:16:57,935 who like playing with toys. 197 00:16:59,620 --> 00:17:01,958 Dude, that poison's got her drooling like... 198 00:17:01,959 --> 00:17:04,296 Where have you guys been? 199 00:17:05,700 --> 00:17:07,372 Pickin' up some stuff. 200 00:17:07,500 --> 00:17:11,618 And checking out Buffy on the van's remote surveillance. 201 00:17:11,740 --> 00:17:14,538 Andrew's demon pet has done some number on the Slayer. 202 00:17:14,660 --> 00:17:17,777 Got her trippin' like a Ken Russell film festival. 203 00:17:17,900 --> 00:17:20,539 - Well, what kind of stuff? - What? 204 00:17:21,180 --> 00:17:23,410 The packages. What's in them? 205 00:17:24,300 --> 00:17:28,259 - Do you think we're plotting against you? - Better not be. 206 00:17:29,500 --> 00:17:31,650 It's just stuff, big man. 207 00:17:31,780 --> 00:17:36,979 You'll be in the know just as soon as you stop being all freakazoid. 208 00:17:37,740 --> 00:17:38,968 There's the vault. 209 00:17:39,100 --> 00:17:41,819 I still say we'll need eight other guys to pull this off. 210 00:17:41,940 --> 00:17:44,374 I never should have let you see that movie. 211 00:17:44,660 --> 00:17:48,414 - Where you going? - Out. Getting stuff I need. 212 00:17:48,540 --> 00:17:50,332 I don't really think that's such a good idea. 213 00:17:50,355 --> 00:17:52,169 Why not? 214 00:17:53,220 --> 00:17:57,736 Well, It's just not safe out there alone. 215 00:17:59,100 --> 00:18:01,978 You saw how close the Slayer got. 216 00:18:02,100 --> 00:18:06,935 Look, we're a team. Something happens to you, it happens to all of us. Right? 217 00:18:07,060 --> 00:18:11,099 Look, I know you're antsy. We all are. But, you see, things are about to pick up. 218 00:18:11,220 --> 00:18:14,735 Big-time. Just gotta be careful. 219 00:18:14,860 --> 00:18:16,532 Right? All right? 220 00:18:16,660 --> 00:18:19,015 Stick together. OK? 221 00:18:39,860 --> 00:18:41,930 Look, Buffy, I found the demon. 222 00:18:42,060 --> 00:18:45,291 Fits your description and symptoms perfectly. 223 00:18:45,420 --> 00:18:47,411 Look, is this it? 224 00:18:49,140 --> 00:18:55,010 See? It's gonna be OK. Its pokey stinger carries an antidote to its own poison. 225 00:18:59,180 --> 00:19:01,375 I feel so lost. 226 00:19:02,660 --> 00:19:05,174 I know. You're confused. 227 00:19:05,300 --> 00:19:09,532 - It's that crazy juice inside you. - It's more than that. 228 00:19:12,020 --> 00:19:17,378 Even before the demon, I've been so detached. 229 00:19:18,660 --> 00:19:21,413 We've all been kinda slummin'. 230 00:19:21,820 --> 00:19:27,417 Every day I try to snap out of it. Figure out why I'm like that. 231 00:19:27,540 --> 00:19:30,213 Buffy, look at me. 232 00:19:30,340 --> 00:19:35,778 You are not in an institution. You have never been in an institution. 233 00:19:37,860 --> 00:19:39,816 Yes, I have. 234 00:19:40,180 --> 00:19:41,533 What? 235 00:19:47,500 --> 00:19:50,253 Back when I saw my first vampires, 236 00:19:52,860 --> 00:19:57,376 I got so scared, I told my parents 237 00:19:58,220 --> 00:20:00,575 and they completely freaked out. 238 00:20:03,020 --> 00:20:06,979 They thought there was something seriously wrong with me. 239 00:20:10,060 --> 00:20:13,018 So they sent me to a clinic. 240 00:20:14,300 --> 00:20:17,178 You never said anything. 241 00:20:19,420 --> 00:20:22,173 I was only there a couple of weeks. 242 00:20:25,300 --> 00:20:29,259 I stopped talking about it, and they let me go. 243 00:20:31,740 --> 00:20:33,696 Eventually, 244 00:20:35,060 --> 00:20:37,733 my parents just forgot. 245 00:20:39,420 --> 00:20:42,378 God. That's horrible. 246 00:20:43,380 --> 00:20:48,534 What if I'm still there? What if I never left that clinic? 247 00:20:50,540 --> 00:20:52,292 Buffy... 248 00:20:53,260 --> 00:20:55,490 Buffy, you're not. 249 00:20:57,460 --> 00:21:01,373 I'm so sorry you had to go through that. 250 00:21:02,380 --> 00:21:05,133 But it's the past. 251 00:21:06,740 --> 00:21:08,696 You've gotta trust me. 252 00:21:08,820 --> 00:21:13,894 We're gonna get you that antidote. Xander's hunting the demon right now. 253 00:21:14,020 --> 00:21:17,456 Alone? Willow, he can't. It's too strong. 254 00:21:17,580 --> 00:21:19,810 Oh, it's OK. We got help. 255 00:21:20,180 --> 00:21:23,217 So she's havin' the wiggins, is she? 256 00:21:23,340 --> 00:21:27,458 Thinks none of us are real. Bloody self-centred, if you ask me. 257 00:21:27,580 --> 00:21:30,299 Spike, we need muscle, not colour commentary. 258 00:21:30,420 --> 00:21:33,332 On the other hand, it might explain some things - 259 00:21:33,460 --> 00:21:36,372 this all being in that twisted brain of hers. 260 00:21:36,500 --> 00:21:39,014 Yeah. Fix up some chip in my head. 261 00:21:39,140 --> 00:21:43,736 Make me soft, fall in love with her, then turn me into her sodding sex slave... 262 00:21:43,860 --> 00:21:49,218 - What?! - Nothing. Alternative realities. 263 00:21:49,340 --> 00:21:52,730 Where we're all little figments of Buffy's funny-farm delusion. 264 00:21:52,860 --> 00:21:55,932 Where you might not have left your bride at the altar 265 00:21:56,060 --> 00:22:00,417 - and gone through with it like a man. - One more syllable about Anya... 266 00:22:03,180 --> 00:22:06,172 Oh, balls. You didn't say he was a glarghk guhl kashmas'nik! 267 00:22:06,300 --> 00:22:08,336 Cos I can't say glargh... 268 00:22:35,180 --> 00:22:37,330 I altered his reality. 269 00:22:37,460 --> 00:22:41,089 Get it? I... Never mind. 270 00:22:42,700 --> 00:22:44,850 I made you some tea. 271 00:22:47,340 --> 00:22:49,092 Thanks. 272 00:22:53,540 --> 00:22:55,929 I'm OK, Dawn. 273 00:22:56,060 --> 00:22:59,496 The thousand-yard stare really helps sell that. 274 00:23:06,980 --> 00:23:09,050 You're burning up. 275 00:23:11,180 --> 00:23:16,208 - I should be taller than you. - Maybe you're not done growing. 276 00:23:17,260 --> 00:23:21,219 - Coming apart. - What's coming apart? 277 00:23:22,500 --> 00:23:26,209 - We have to try harder, make things better. - I'm trying. 278 00:23:26,340 --> 00:23:28,535 Your grades. 279 00:23:28,660 --> 00:23:30,616 Stealing. 280 00:23:32,540 --> 00:23:35,338 Willow's been doing your chores, hasn't she? 281 00:23:35,460 --> 00:23:37,018 What? 282 00:23:37,140 --> 00:23:41,053 No, it's the fever. It's cooking your brain. 283 00:23:43,020 --> 00:23:47,332 - We have to deal with these things... - You don't have a sister, Buffy. 284 00:23:47,700 --> 00:23:49,850 - Dawn? - No, honey. 285 00:23:50,940 --> 00:23:53,374 Say it. It'll help you believe it. 286 00:23:55,820 --> 00:23:59,654 I don't have a sister. 287 00:24:00,740 --> 00:24:04,289 I know. I didn't grow up with her. 288 00:24:04,420 --> 00:24:07,776 These monks, they made her. 289 00:24:09,900 --> 00:24:13,495 It's your mind just playing tricks on you. 290 00:24:13,860 --> 00:24:17,819 You're our little girl, Buffy. Our one and only. 291 00:24:18,460 --> 00:24:21,293 We have missed you so much. 292 00:24:21,420 --> 00:24:25,857 Mom and Dad just want to take you home and take care of you. 293 00:24:39,460 --> 00:24:42,020 I'm not even there, am I? 294 00:24:42,580 --> 00:24:44,252 What? 295 00:24:44,980 --> 00:24:47,858 You said it a second ago. 296 00:24:49,540 --> 00:24:52,134 You don't have a sister. 297 00:24:54,620 --> 00:24:58,818 It's your ideal reality, and I'm not even a part of it. 298 00:25:00,020 --> 00:25:03,979 - Dawn, I didn't mean... - I have to go finish my chores. 299 00:25:09,860 --> 00:25:12,055 Hold it. 300 00:25:12,180 --> 00:25:14,330 - Hold it. - I'll need its arm. 301 00:25:15,060 --> 00:25:18,211 Yeah, I'd like both my arms, too. 302 00:25:20,100 --> 00:25:24,252 Thanks, Spike. I'll help when the blistering pain subsides. 303 00:25:27,340 --> 00:25:29,058 Ready? 304 00:25:35,500 --> 00:25:37,650 Xander, go to the magic shop. 305 00:25:37,780 --> 00:25:40,419 I'll need alkanet root and a handful of nettle leaf. 306 00:25:40,540 --> 00:25:42,735 Just for the medicinal properties. No magic. 307 00:25:42,860 --> 00:25:47,058 Then meet me at the campus lab. I'll try to brew up an antidote the old-fashioned way. 308 00:25:47,180 --> 00:25:49,375 I'll hold here, keep an eye on the wax job. 309 00:25:49,500 --> 00:25:52,173 - Make sure that's all you're ogling. - Xander! 310 00:25:53,860 --> 00:25:56,374 Buffy? Wake up. 311 00:25:56,660 --> 00:25:59,413 Got yummy antidote goodness for you. 312 00:26:02,980 --> 00:26:04,538 What happened? 313 00:26:04,660 --> 00:26:08,335 It took a little longer than I'd hoped. No magic and all. 314 00:26:08,460 --> 00:26:10,690 Went boom twice, but then I got it. 315 00:26:11,220 --> 00:26:15,771 Just, when it's cool, drink it all down, and everything should go back to normal. 316 00:26:17,820 --> 00:26:21,779 You never stop coming through. Thank you, Willow. 317 00:26:27,260 --> 00:26:31,776 - How is she? - Make sure she drinks all that. 318 00:26:31,900 --> 00:26:35,654 I'm gonna let Dawn know that everything's gonna be OK. 319 00:26:40,260 --> 00:26:42,410 You all right? 320 00:26:44,780 --> 00:26:49,376 You need to leave me alone. You're not part of my life. 321 00:26:51,660 --> 00:26:53,969 Fine, then. 322 00:26:54,100 --> 00:26:56,534 But I hope you don't think this an... 323 00:26:58,740 --> 00:27:02,528 I hope you don't think this antidote's gonna rid you of that nasty martyrdom. 324 00:27:02,660 --> 00:27:06,209 See, I figured it out, love. You can't help yourself. 325 00:27:06,340 --> 00:27:09,457 You're not drawn to the dark like I thought. 326 00:27:09,580 --> 00:27:12,014 You're addicted to the misery. 327 00:27:12,140 --> 00:27:14,496 It's why you won't tell your pals about us. 328 00:27:15,066 --> 00:27:18,613 Might actually have to be happy if you did. 329 00:27:18,740 --> 00:27:22,528 They'd either understand and help you, God forbid, 330 00:27:22,660 --> 00:27:25,811 or drive you out, where you could finally be at peace. 331 00:27:25,940 --> 00:27:28,374 In the dark. With me. 332 00:27:29,620 --> 00:27:34,375 Either way, you'd be better off for it, but you're too twisted for that. 333 00:27:36,100 --> 00:27:39,058 Let yourself live, already. 334 00:27:40,860 --> 00:27:46,218 And stop with the bloody hero trip for a sec. We'd all be the better for it. 335 00:27:48,780 --> 00:27:52,693 You either tell your friends about us, or I will. 336 00:28:38,060 --> 00:28:39,732 Buffy? 337 00:28:39,860 --> 00:28:41,612 I don't wanna go back there. 338 00:28:44,180 --> 00:28:46,171 I wanna be healthy again. 339 00:28:51,060 --> 00:28:52,937 What do I have to do? 340 00:28:56,780 --> 00:28:59,852 Oh, please, help me. 341 00:28:59,980 --> 00:29:03,495 I wanna go home with you and Dad. 342 00:29:03,620 --> 00:29:07,135 I know, Buffy. But first you've gotta get better. 343 00:29:07,260 --> 00:29:11,856 It's not gonna be easy, Buffy. You have to take it one step at a time. 344 00:29:11,980 --> 00:29:17,532 You have to start ridding your mind of those things that support your hallucinations. 345 00:29:17,660 --> 00:29:22,051 You understand? There are things in that world you cling to. 346 00:29:22,180 --> 00:29:26,890 For your delusion, they're safe-holds, but for your mind they're traps. 347 00:29:27,020 --> 00:29:28,931 We have to break those down. 348 00:29:30,500 --> 00:29:33,060 - Slaying? - Yes. 349 00:29:34,340 --> 00:29:37,696 But I'm talking about those things you want there. 350 00:29:37,820 --> 00:29:39,856 What keeps you going back. 351 00:29:39,980 --> 00:29:42,414 - My friends. - That's right. 352 00:29:43,380 --> 00:29:45,940 Last summer, when you had a momentary awakening, 353 00:29:46,060 --> 00:29:50,019 - it was them that pulled you back in. - They're not really your friends, Buffy. 354 00:29:50,140 --> 00:29:53,177 They're just tricks keeping you from getting healthy. 355 00:29:53,300 --> 00:29:57,259 You have to do whatever it takes to convince yourself of that, Buffy. 356 00:29:57,380 --> 00:29:59,211 Whatever it takes. 357 00:30:03,220 --> 00:30:05,893 Oh, Buffy, I didn't see you. 358 00:30:06,020 --> 00:30:10,377 I was just coming to check on you. You feeling better? Did the antidote work? 359 00:30:10,500 --> 00:30:14,288 I'm still pretty dazed, but better. 360 00:30:15,740 --> 00:30:18,095 No more cuckoo's nest? 361 00:30:18,220 --> 00:30:20,939 We still have the big bad tranked out in the basement 362 00:30:21,060 --> 00:30:24,769 In case it didn't work and we need more parts. 363 00:30:26,260 --> 00:30:29,252 It'll be nice to see you all better. 364 00:30:32,140 --> 00:30:33,095 Thanks. 365 00:30:33,220 --> 00:30:38,089 I can make you some food, something big with energy, help you clear your noggin. 366 00:30:38,220 --> 00:30:39,778 Come on. 367 00:30:45,220 --> 00:30:49,577 Hello! I'm back! Clean and with the better smell now. 368 00:30:51,860 --> 00:30:54,454 Friends? Romans? 369 00:30:55,940 --> 00:30:57,692 Anyone? 370 00:31:02,980 --> 00:31:04,493 Hey. 371 00:31:04,860 --> 00:31:08,739 Hey there, sane girl. So did Willow get that antidote to you all right? 372 00:31:08,860 --> 00:31:11,055 Yeah. I'm better now. 373 00:31:11,180 --> 00:31:13,978 Great. So it's settled. We're real, right? 374 00:31:15,220 --> 00:31:18,178 Let's finish off that demon and drag it out of the basement. 375 00:31:18,300 --> 00:31:22,851 And tell me you're up for that. I so don't wanna see Spike right now. 376 00:31:22,980 --> 00:31:25,653 I mean, talk about losing touch. 377 00:31:25,780 --> 00:31:30,171 Hate to say it, but I almost feel sorry for the guy. Almost. 378 00:31:30,300 --> 00:31:32,211 The things the poor guy was saying... 379 00:31:32,340 --> 00:31:35,173 I get it, you know. Been a part of the Buffy obsess... 380 00:31:41,140 --> 00:31:43,449 Buffy... 381 00:31:58,420 --> 00:32:00,570 Willow, what...? 382 00:32:39,460 --> 00:32:41,416 Dawn? 383 00:33:03,700 --> 00:33:06,214 Don't you knock? 384 00:33:06,940 --> 00:33:09,249 I called for you. 385 00:33:09,380 --> 00:33:12,133 Buffy, are you OK? 386 00:33:14,180 --> 00:33:16,330 Where are you going? 387 00:33:17,540 --> 00:33:21,897 I'm going over to Janice's, where they actually like having me around. 388 00:33:22,020 --> 00:33:25,012 You're not going anywhere. 389 00:33:25,140 --> 00:33:28,371 Why not? You want me gone anyway. 390 00:33:28,500 --> 00:33:30,775 - What do you care? - I care. 391 00:33:32,580 --> 00:33:37,700 You're going downstairs with the others. It's the only way I can get healthy. 392 00:33:38,420 --> 00:33:40,980 What are you talking about? 393 00:33:43,140 --> 00:33:45,700 Buffy, you look sick. 394 00:33:45,820 --> 00:33:48,937 What are you doing? What's wrong with you? 395 00:33:49,780 --> 00:33:52,135 Stay away from me! Willow, help! 396 00:33:54,740 --> 00:33:56,332 Buffy, please! 397 00:33:57,020 --> 00:33:58,772 You can't hide, Dawn. 398 00:33:58,900 --> 00:34:02,051 Talk to me. You're hallucinating. 399 00:34:03,140 --> 00:34:06,052 I know. You're just a trap for my mind. 400 00:34:06,540 --> 00:34:11,330 Buffy, please, listen to me. That asylum and those people, they're not real! 401 00:34:22,500 --> 00:34:25,572 Buffy, look at me. 402 00:34:26,940 --> 00:34:31,570 I'm right here. You're my sister. 403 00:34:31,700 --> 00:34:34,009 I need you and love you. 404 00:34:35,060 --> 00:34:38,132 Somewhere inside you must know that's real. 405 00:34:38,660 --> 00:34:41,094 Sure it is. 406 00:34:41,220 --> 00:34:46,533 Cos what's more real? A sick girl in an institution... 407 00:34:46,660 --> 00:34:48,378 Don't. Please, listen to me. 408 00:34:48,500 --> 00:34:50,744 ...or some kind of supergirl, 409 00:34:51,053 --> 00:34:55,258 chosen to fight demons and save the world? 410 00:34:58,340 --> 00:35:00,296 That's ridiculous. 411 00:35:06,140 --> 00:35:09,132 A girl who sleeps with a vampire she hates? 412 00:35:09,940 --> 00:35:11,692 Yeah, that makes sense. 413 00:35:16,500 --> 00:35:19,856 No! Buffy, stop! I'm real! 414 00:35:21,740 --> 00:35:23,856 Buffy, stop it. I'll be good! 415 00:35:25,540 --> 00:35:28,100 I promise. You're not thinking. I'll... 416 00:35:43,740 --> 00:35:46,095 It's OK, Buffy. Don't stress yourself. 417 00:35:46,220 --> 00:35:48,370 Honey, take your time. 418 00:35:48,500 --> 00:35:53,972 Make it as easy on yourself as possible. There's nothing wrong with that. 419 00:36:07,460 --> 00:36:10,532 Buffy, what are you doin'? 420 00:36:17,500 --> 00:36:19,456 Oh, my God. 421 00:36:31,260 --> 00:36:32,898 Buffy, help me! 422 00:36:34,420 --> 00:36:36,376 I need my hands! 423 00:36:41,740 --> 00:36:43,492 Hello? 424 00:36:47,500 --> 00:36:49,058 Anybody home? 425 00:36:59,220 --> 00:37:00,653 Buffy? 426 00:37:04,940 --> 00:37:09,616 It's gonna be OK, sweetheart. Whatever it is, it's not real, remember? 427 00:37:09,740 --> 00:37:13,699 Just keep concentrating. I'm right here, sweetie. 428 00:37:14,060 --> 00:37:15,857 Buffy, help me! 429 00:37:15,980 --> 00:37:17,777 Buffy, help! 430 00:37:18,980 --> 00:37:20,936 Willow? 431 00:37:33,580 --> 00:37:35,536 No! Tara! 432 00:37:39,300 --> 00:37:42,098 - I don't know... - Buffy, look at me. 433 00:37:42,620 --> 00:37:45,578 - I don't know. I don't know. - I believe in you. 434 00:37:47,780 --> 00:37:50,214 You're a survivor. You can do this. 435 00:37:59,260 --> 00:38:01,376 Xander. No. 436 00:38:12,220 --> 00:38:14,017 - Willow! - Buffy? 437 00:38:15,060 --> 00:38:17,699 Buffy! Buffy, fight it. 438 00:38:17,820 --> 00:38:21,051 You're too good to give in. You can beat this thing. 439 00:38:21,180 --> 00:38:25,492 Be strong, baby, OK? I know you're afraid. 440 00:38:26,540 --> 00:38:30,010 I know the world feels like a hard place sometimes, 441 00:38:30,140 --> 00:38:32,176 but you've got people who love you. 442 00:38:32,300 --> 00:38:35,656 Your dad and I, we have all the faith in the world in you. 443 00:38:36,340 --> 00:38:38,695 We'll always be with you. 444 00:38:39,740 --> 00:38:42,618 You've got a world of strength in your heart. 445 00:38:42,740 --> 00:38:45,971 I know you do. You just have to find it again. 446 00:38:47,100 --> 00:38:49,136 Believe in yourself. 447 00:39:05,020 --> 00:39:06,976 You're right. 448 00:39:08,820 --> 00:39:10,731 Thank you. 449 00:39:15,940 --> 00:39:17,692 Goodbye. 450 00:39:25,060 --> 00:39:26,129 Buffy. 451 00:40:07,980 --> 00:40:09,936 I'm so sorry. 452 00:40:13,780 --> 00:40:16,340 - Buffy? - We're OK. It's all OK. 453 00:40:19,260 --> 00:40:21,455 Buffy, sit down. You'll fall over. 454 00:40:21,580 --> 00:40:23,730 No. I can't. 455 00:40:25,020 --> 00:40:27,454 - Not until I have the antidote. - OK. 456 00:40:28,060 --> 00:40:30,415 We'll make more. We'll take care of it. 457 00:40:30,580 --> 00:40:32,536 Everything's gonna be OK, Buffy. 458 00:40:38,660 --> 00:40:41,538 I'm sorry, there's no reaction at all. 459 00:40:41,660 --> 00:40:43,616 I'm afraid we lost her.